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GREAT
SHORT STORIES
Edited by William Patten
Edited by William Patten
A NEW COLLECTION
OF FAMOUS EXAMPLES
FROM THE LITERATURES
OF FRANCE,
ENGLAND AND AMERICA
A NEW COLLECTION
OF FAMOUS EXAMPLES
FROM THE LITERATURE
OF FRANCE,
ENGLAND, AND AMERICA
VOLUME II
VOLUME II
GHOST
STORIES
Ghost Stories
P. F. COLLIER & SON
NEW YORK
P. F. COLLIER & SON
NEW YORK
COPYRIGHT, 1906
BY P. F. COLLIER & SON
COPYRIGHT, 1906
BY P. F. COLLIER & SON
TABLE OF CONTENTS
Table of Contents
LA MORTE AMOREUSE By Theophile Gautier
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THE RED ROOM By H. G. Wells
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THE PHANTOM 'RICKSHAW By Rudyard Kipling
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THE ROLL-CALL OF THE REEF By A. T. Quiller-Couch
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THE HOUSE AND THE BRAIN By Lord Edward Bulwer-Lytton
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THE DREAM-WOMAN By Wilkie Collins
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GREEN BRANCHES By Fiona Macleod
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A BEWITCHED SHIP By W. Clark Russell
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THE SIGNAL-MAN By Charles Dickens
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THE FOUR-FIFTEEN EXPRESS By Amelia B. Edwards
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OUR LAST WALK By Hugh Conway
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THRAWN JANET By Robert Louis Stevenson
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A CHRISTMAS CAROL By Charles Dickens
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THE SPECTRE BRIDEGROOM By Washington Irving
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THE MYSTERIOUS SKETCH By Erckmann-Chatrian
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MR. HIGGINBOTHAM'S CATASTROPHE By Nathaniel Hawthorne
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THE WHITE OLD MAID By Nathaniel Hawthorne
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WANDERING WILLIE'S TALE By Sir Walter Scott
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LA MORTE AMOREUSE
BY THEOPHILE GAUTIER
BY THEOPHILE GAUTIER
Theophile Gautier (born 1811, died 1872) began life as a painter, turned to poetry and finally adopted prose forms for the expression of his ideas. Always an enthusiastic apostle of romanticism, he lived in an atmosphere of Oriental splendor. His style is unusually rich and sensuous, and has exerted a considerable influence on the present generation of writers.
Theophile Gautier (1811-1872) started out as a painter, moved on to poetry, and eventually embraced prose to share his thoughts. Always a passionate supporter of romanticism, he was surrounded by a rich, Oriental atmosphere. His writing style is exceptionally lush and sensory, and it has had a significant impact on today's writers.
LA MORTE AMOREUSE
Death in Love
THÉOPHILE GAUTIER
THÉOPHILE GAUTIER
Have I ever loved, you ask me, my brother? Yes, I have loved! The story is dread and marvelous, and, for all my threescore years, I scarce dare stir the ashes of that memory. To you I can refuse nothing; to a heart less steeled than yours this tale could never be told by me. For these things were so strange that I can scarce believe they came into my own existence. Three long years was I the puppet of a delusion of the devil. Three long years was I a parish priest by day, while by night, in dreams (God grant they were but dreams!), I led the life of a child of this world, of a lost soul! For one kind glance at a woman's face was my spirit to be doomed; but at length, with God to aid and my patron saint, it was given to me to drive away the evil spirit that possessed me.
Have I ever loved, you ask me, my brother? Yes, I have loved! The story is both terrifying and amazing, and for all my sixty years, I can hardly bear to touch the ashes of that memory. To you, I can't refuse anything; a heart less strong than yours could never handle this story. These events were so bizarre that I can hardly believe they actually happened to me. For three long years, I was a puppet to a devilish delusion. For three long years, I was a parish priest by day, while at night, in dreams (God, I hope they were just dreams!), I lived the life of a worldly person, of a lost soul! Just one kind look from a woman's face was enough to doom my spirit; but eventually, with God's help and my patron saint, I was able to drive away the evil spirit that had taken hold of me.
I lived a double life, by night and by day. All day long was I a pure priest of the Lord, concerned only with prayer and holy things; but no sooner did I close my eyes in sleep than I was a young knight, a lover of women, of horses, of hounds, a drinker, a dicer, a blasphemer, and, when I woke at dawn, meseemed that I was fallen on sleep, and did but dream that I was a priest. For those years of dreaming certain memories yet remain with me; memories of words and things that will not down. Ay, though I have never left the walls of my vicarage, he who heard me would rather take me for one that had lived in the world and left it, to die in religion, and end in the breast of God his tumultuous days, than for a priest grown old in a forgotten curé, deep in a wood, and far from the things of this earth.
I lived a double life, both night and day. All day long, I was a devoted priest of the Lord, focused only on prayer and holy matters; but as soon as I closed my eyes to sleep, I turned into a young knight, a lover of women, horses, hounds, a drinker, a gambler, a blasphemer, and when I woke up at dawn, it felt like I had just been dreaming that I was a priest. From those years of dreaming, certain memories still linger with me; memories of words and things that won’t go away. Even though I’ve never left the walls of my vicarage, someone who listened to me would probably think I was someone who had lived in the world and left it behind, choosing to die in faith and find peace in God after my chaotic days, rather than a priest who has grown old in a forgotten parish, lost in the woods, far removed from the concerns of this world.
Yes, I have loved as never man loved, with a wild love and a terrible, so that I marvel my heart did not burst in twain. Oh, the nights of long ago!
Yes, I have loved like no one else, with a fierce and intense love, so deep that I wonder my heart didn't shatter. Oh, the nights from long ago!
From my earliest childhood had I felt the call to be a priest. This was the end of all my studies, and, till I was twenty-four, my days were one long training. My theological course achieved, I took the lesser orders, and at length, at the end of Holy Week, was to be the hour of my ordination.
From my earliest childhood, I had felt the call to be a priest. This marked the end of all my studies, and until I turned twenty-four, my days were a continuous training program. After completing my theological studies, I took the lesser orders, and finally, at the end of Holy Week, it was time for my ordination.
I had never entered the world; my world was the college close. Vaguely I knew that woman existed, but of woman I never thought. My heart was wholly pure. Even my old and infirm mother I saw but twice a year; of other worldly relations I had none.
I had never really experienced the outside world; my world was the college campus. I vaguely knew that women existed, but I didn’t think about them at all. My heart was completely innocent. I only saw my elderly and sick mother twice a year, and I had no other family ties.
I had no regrets and no hesitation in taking the irrevocable vow; nay, I was full of an impatient joy. Never did a young bridegroom so eagerly count the hours of his wedding. In my broken sleep I dreamed of saying the Mass. To be a priest seemed to me the noblest thing in the world, and I would have disdained the estate of poet or of king. To be a priest! My ambition saw nothing higher.
I had no regrets and no doubts about taking the lifelong vow; in fact, I was filled with an excited happiness. Never did a young groom count down the hours to his wedding with such eagerness. In my troubled sleep, I dreamed about saying Mass. Being a priest felt like the most honorable thing in the world, and I would have looked down on being a poet or a king. To be a priest! My ambition saw nothing better.
All this I tell you that you may know how little I deserve that which befell me; that you may know how inexplicable was the fascination by which I was overcome.
All of this I tell you so you can understand how undeserving I am of what happened to me; so you can see how inexplicable the attraction was that took hold of me.
The great day came, and I walked to church as if I were winged or trod on air. I felt an angelic beatitude, and marveled at the gloomy and thoughtful faces of my companions, for we were many. The night I had passed in prayer. I was all but entranced in ecstasy. The bishop, a venerable old man, was in my eyes like God the Father bowed above His own eternity, and I seemed to see heaven open beyond the arches of the minster.
The big day arrived, and I walked to church feeling like I was floating or walking on air. I felt a blissful joy and was amazed by the serious and contemplative expressions of those around me, as there were many of us. I had spent the night in prayer. I was almost lost in ecstasy. The bishop, an older man, looked to me like God the Father looking down on His own eternity, and I felt like I could see heaven opening up beyond the arches of the cathedral.
You know the ceremony: the Benediction, the Communion in both kinds, the anointing of the palms of the hands with consecrated oil, and finally the celebration of the Holy Rite, offered up in company with the bishop. On these things I will not linger, but oh, how true is the word of Job, that he is foolish who maketh not a covenant with his eyes! I chanced to raise my head and saw before me, so near that it seemed I could touch her, though in reality she was at some distance, and on the farther side of the railing, a young dame royally clad, and of incomparable beauty.
You know the ceremony: the blessing, the Communion in both forms, the anointing of the palms with consecrated oil, and finally the celebration of the Holy Rite, conducted alongside the bishop. I won't dwell on these details, but how true is Job's statement that it’s foolish not to make a covenant with your eyes! I happened to lift my head and saw before me, so close it felt like I could touch her, although she was actually some distance away, on the other side of the railing, a young woman elegantly dressed and incredibly beautiful.
It was as if scales had fallen from my eyes; and I felt like a blind man who suddenly recovers his sight. The bishop, so splendid a moment ago, seemed to fade; through all the church was darkness, and the candles paled in their sconces of gold, like stars at dawn. Against the gloom that lovely thing shone out like a heavenly revelation, seeming herself to be the fountain of light, and to give it rather than receive it. I cast down my eyes, vowing that I would not raise them again; my attention was failing, and I scarce knew what I did. The moment afterward, I opened my eyes, for through my eyelids I saw her glittering in a bright penumbra, as when one has stared at the sun. Ah! how beautiful she was! The greatest painters, when they have sought in heaven for ideal beauty, and have brought to earth the portrait of our Lady, come never near the glory of this vision! Pen of poet, or palette of painter, can give no idea of her. She was tall, with the carriage of a goddess; her fair hair flowed about her brows in rivers of gold. Like a crowned queen she stood there, with her broad white brow, and dark eyebrows; with her eyes that had the brightness and life of the green sea, and at one glance made or marred the destiny of a man. They were astonishingly clear and brilliant, shooting rays like arrows, which I could actually see winging straight for my heart. I know not if the flame that lighted them came from heaven or hell, but from one or other assuredly it came.
It was like scales had fallen from my eyes; I felt like a blind person who suddenly gets their sight back. The bishop, so impressive just moments ago, seemed to fade; all around the church was dark, and the candles dimmed in their gold holders, like stars at dawn. Against the gloom, that beautiful thing shone out like a heavenly revelation, seeming to be the source of light, giving it rather than just receiving it. I lowered my gaze, promising I wouldn’t look up again; my focus was slipping, and I barely knew what I was doing. Moments later, I opened my eyes because through my eyelids I saw her sparkling in a bright glow, like when someone stares at the sun. Ah! how beautiful she was! The greatest painters, when they’ve sought in heaven for ideal beauty and brought earthly portraits of our Lady, never come close to the glory of this vision! A poet's pen or a painter's palette can’t capture her essence. She was tall, with the poise of a goddess; her fair hair flowed around her forehead in rivers of gold. Like a crowned queen, she stood there, with her wide white forehead and dark eyebrows; her eyes had the brightness and life of the green sea, and with one glance, they could make or break a man's fate. They were astonishingly clear and brilliant, shooting rays like arrows that I literally saw flying straight for my heart. I don’t know if the light in them came from heaven or hell, but it definitely came from one of those places.
Angel or devil, or both; this woman was no child of Eve, the mother of us all. White teeth shone in her smile, little dimples came and went with each movement of her mouth, among the roses of her cheeks. There was a lustre as of agate on the smooth and shining skin of her half-clad shoulders, and chains of great pearls no whiter than her neck fell over her breast. From time to time she lifted her head in snake-like motion, and set the silvery ruffles of her raiment quivering. She wore a flame-colored velvet robe, and from the ermine lining of her sleeves her delicate hands came and went as transparent as the fingers of the dawn. As I gazed on her, I felt within me as it were the opening of gates that had ever been barred; I saw sudden vistas of an unknown future; all life seemed altered, new thoughts wakened in my heart. A horrible pain took possession of me; each minute seemed at once a moment and an age. The ceremony went on and on, and I was being carried far from the world, at whose gates my new desires were beating. I said "Yes," when I wished to say "No," when my whole soul protested against the words my tongue was uttering. A hidden force seemed to drag them from me. This it is perhaps which makes so many young girls walk to the altar with the firm resolve to refuse the husband who is forced on them, and this is why not one of them does what she intends. This is why so many poor novices take the veil, though they are determined to tear it into shreds, rather than pronounce the vows. None dares cause so great a scandal before so many observers, nor thus betray such general expectation. The will of all imposes itself on you; the gaze of all weighs upon you like a cope of lead. And again, all is so clearly arranged in advance, so evidently irrevocable, that the intention of refusal is crushed, and disappears.
Angel or devil, or maybe both; this woman was no child of Eve, the mother of us all. Her white teeth gleamed in her smile, and little dimples appeared and vanished with every move she made, framed by the rosy blush of her cheeks. There was a shine like agate on the smooth and glowing skin of her bare shoulders, and strands of large pearls, no whiter than her neck, draped over her chest. Occasionally, she lifted her head in a snake-like motion, making the silvery ruffles of her outfit shimmer. She wore a bright red velvet robe, and from the fur lining of her sleeves, her delicate hands emerged, seeming almost as transparent as dawn’s fingers. As I looked at her, I felt within me what seemed like the opening of gates that had always been shut; I caught sight of sudden glimpses of an unknown future; everything in life felt different, and new thoughts stirred in my heart. A terrible pain took hold of me; each minute felt both fleeting and eternal. The ceremony dragged on endlessly, and I was being pulled far from the world, where my new desires were knocking at the gate. I said "Yes," when I wanted to say "No," as my entire being protested against the words my tongue was speaking. A hidden force seemed to pull those words from me. Perhaps this is what drives many young women to the altar with a strong resolve to refuse the husbands they're pressured to accept, and yet not one of them does what she intended. This is why so many young novices take their vows, even when they're determined to shred that veil rather than commit to the promises. No one dares to create such a scandal in front of so many witnesses, or betray such common expectations. The will of everyone else pushes itself upon you; the gaze of all feels like a heavy cloak pressing down on you. And once again, everything is so clearly set up in advance, so obviously unchangeable, that the desire to refuse is crushed and fades away.
The expression of the unknown beauty changed as the ceremony advanced. Tender and caressing at first, it became contemptuous and disdainful. With an effort that might have moved a mountain, I strove to cry out that I would never be a priest; it was in vain; my tongue clave to the roof of my mouth; I could not refuse even by a sign. Though wide awake, I seemed to be in one of those nightmares, wherein for your life you can not utter the word on which your life depends. She appeared to understand the torture which I endured, and cast on me a glance of divine pity and divine promise. "Be mine," she seemed to say, "and I shall make thee happier than God and heaven, and His angels will be jealous of thee. Tear that shroud of death wherein thou art swathed, for I am beauty, and I am youth, and I am life; come to me and we shall be love. What can Jehovah offer thee in exchange for thy youth? Our life will flow like a dream in the eternity of a kiss. Spill but the wine from that chalice, and thou are free, and I will carry thee to the unknown isles, and thou shalt sleep on my breast in a bed of gold beneath a canopy of silver, for I love thee and would fain take thee from thy God, before whom so many noble hearts pour forth the incense of their love, which dies before it reaches the heaven where He dwells." These words I seemed to hear singing in the sweetest of tunes, for there was a music in her look, and the words which her eyes sent to me resounded in my heart as if they had been whispered in my soul. I was ready to foreswear God, and yet I went duly through each rite of the ceremony. She cast me a second glance, so full of entreaty and despair, that I felt more swords pierce my breast than stabbed the heart of our Lady of Sorrows.
The expression of that mysterious beauty changed as the ceremony went on. It was gentle and soothing at first, but then turned contemptuous and scornful. With an effort that could have moved a mountain, I tried to shout that I would never be a priest; it was useless; my tongue stuck to the roof of my mouth; I couldn’t refuse even with a gesture. Although I was wide awake, it felt like I was in one of those nightmares where you can't say the word that your life depends on. She seemed to understand the agony I was in, and gave me a look of divine pity and promise. "Be mine," she seemed to say, "and I will make you happier than God and heaven, and His angels will envy you. Tear off that shroud of death that wraps you, for I am beauty, youth, and life; come to me, and we will be love. What can Jehovah offer you in exchange for your youth? Our life will flow like a dream in the eternity of a kiss. Spill even a drop of the wine from that chalice, and you are free, and I will take you to the unknown islands, and you will sleep on my breast in a bed of gold under a silver canopy, for I love you and would gladly take you from your God, before whom so many noble hearts offer their love, which dies before it reaches the heaven where He resides." I seemed to hear these words singing in the sweetest tune, for there was music in her gaze, and the words her eyes sent to me echoed in my heart as if they had been whispered into my soul. I was ready to forsake God, yet I still went through each part of the ceremony. She cast me a second glance, so full of pleading and despair, that I felt more pain in my heart than what pierced the heart of our Lady of Sorrows.
It was over, and I was a priest.
It was finished, and I was a priest.
Then never did human face declare so keen a sorrow: the girl who sees her betrothed fall dead at her side, the mother by the empty cradle of her child, Eve at the gate of Paradise, the miser who seeks his treasure and finds a stone, even they look less sorely smitten, less inconsolable.
Then never did a human face show such intense sorrow: the girl who watches her fiancé drop dead beside her, the mother by the empty crib of her child, Eve at the gate of Paradise, the miser who searches for his treasure and finds only a stone—none of them seem as deeply wounded, as utterly heartbroken.
The blood left her fair face pale, white as marble she seemed; her lovely arms fell powerless, her feet failed beneath her, and she leaned against a pillar of the church. For me, I staggered to the door, with a white, wet face, breathless, with all the weight of all the dome upon my head. As I was crossing the threshold, a hand seized mine, a woman's hand. I had never felt before a woman's hand in mine. It was cold as the skin of a serpent, yet it burned me like a brand. "Miserable man, what hast thou done?" she whispered, and was lost in the crowd.
The blood drained from her fair face, making her look pale, as white as marble; her beautiful arms fell limp, her legs gave way beneath her, and she leaned against a pillar of the church. As for me, I stumbled to the door, with a pale, sweaty face, breathless, feeling the weight of the entire dome on my head. Just as I was about to cross the threshold, a hand grabbed mine, a woman’s hand. I had never felt a woman's hand in mine before. It was as cold as a snake's skin, yet it burned me like a brand. "Miserable man, what have you done?" she whispered, and then she disappeared into the crowd.
The old bishop paused, and gazed severely at me, who was a piteous spectacle, now red, now pale, giddy, and faint. One of my fellows had compassion on me, and led me home. I could not have found the way alone. At the corner of a street, while the young priest's head was turned, a black page, strangely clad, came up to me, and gave me, as he passed, a little leathern case, with corners of wrought gold, signing me to hide it. I thrust it into my sleeve, and there kept it till I was alone in my cell. Then I opened the clasp; there were but these words written: "Clarimonde, at the Palazzo Concini." So little of a worldling was I, that I had never heard of Clarimonde, despite her fame, nay, nor knew where the Palazzo Concini might be. I made a myriad guesses, each wilder than the other; but, truth to tell, so I did but see her again, I recked little whether Clarimonde were a noble lady, or no better than one of the wicked.
The old bishop paused and looked at me sternly. I was a pitiful sight, now red, now pale, dizzy, and faint. One of my friends took pity on me and guided me home. I wouldn't have found the way by myself. At the corner of a street, while the young priest's back was turned, a strangely dressed black page approached me and handed me a small leather case with gold-wrought corners, signaling me to hide it. I tucked it into my sleeve and kept it there until I was alone in my cell. Then I opened the clasp; inside were just these words written: "Clarimonde, at the Palazzo Concini." I was so out of touch with the world that I had never heard of Clarimonde, even with her fame, and I didn't even know where the Palazzo Concini was. I made countless wild guesses, but honestly, as long as I could see her again, I didn't care whether Clarimonde was a noble lady or just one of the wicked.
This love, thus born in an hour, had struck root too deep for me to dream of casting it from my heart. This woman had made me utterly her own, a glance had been enough to change me, her will had passed upon me; I lived not for myself, but in her and for her.
This love, which started in an instant, had taken hold too deeply for me to think about removing it from my heart. This woman had completely claimed me; just one look was all it took to change me, and her wishes had become my own. I didn't live for myself anymore, but for her and through her.
Many mad things did I, kissing my hand where hers had touched it, repeating her name for hours: Clarimonde, Clarimonde! I had but to close my eyes, and I saw her as distinctly as if she had been present. Then I murmured to myself the words that beneath the church porch she had spoken: "Miserable man, what hast thou done?" I felt all the horror of that strait wherein I was, and the dead and terrible aspect of the life that I had chosen was now revealed. To be a priest! Never to love, to know youth nor sex, to turn from beauty, to close the eyes, to crawl in the chill shade of a cloister or a church; to see none but deathly men, to watch by the nameless corpses of folk unknown, to wear a cassock like my own mourning for myself, my own raiment for my coffin's pall.
I did a lot of crazy things, kissing my hand where she had touched it, saying her name for hours: Clarimonde, Clarimonde! All I had to do was close my eyes, and I could picture her as clearly as if she were right there. Then I whispered the words she had said beneath the church porch: "Miserable man, what have you done?" I felt the full weight of the terrible situation I was in, and the grim reality of the life I had chosen was now apparent. To be a priest! Never to love, to know youth or sex, to turn away from beauty, to shut my eyes, to live in the cold shadows of a cloister or a church; to see only lifeless men, to watch over the nameless bodies of strangers, to wear a cassock that felt like my own mourning for myself, my own garb for my coffin's shroud.
Then life arose in me like a lake in flood, my blood coursed in my veins, my youth burst forth in a moment; like the aloe, which flowers but once in a hundred years, and breaks into blossom with a sound of thunder!
Then life surged within me like a flooded lake, my blood raced through my veins, my youth exploded in an instant; like the aloe, which only blooms once every hundred years, and bursts into flower with a sound like thunder!
How was I again to have sight of Clarimonde? I had no excuse for leaving the seminary, for I knew nobody in town, and indeed was only waiting till I should be appointed to my parish. I tried to remove the bars of the window, but to descend without a ladder was impossible. Then, again, I could only escape by night, when I should be lost in the labyrinth of streets. These difficulties, which would have been nothing to others, were enormous to a poor priest like me, now first fallen in love, without experience, or money, or knowledge of the world.
How was I supposed to see Clarimonde again? I had no reason to leave the seminary since I didn’t know anyone in town and was just waiting to be assigned to my parish. I tried to take off the bars from the window, but it was impossible to climb down without a ladder. Besides, I could only sneak out at night, which would leave me lost in the maze of streets. These challenges, which would have been trivial for others, felt overwhelming to a poor priest like me, who had just fallen in love, with no experience, money, or knowledge of the world.
Ah, had I not been a priest I might have seen her every day, I might have been her lover, her husband, I said to myself in the blindness of my heart. In place of being swathed in a cassock I might have worn silk and velvet, chains of gold, a sword and feather like all the fair young knights. My locks would not be tonsured, but would fall in perfumed curls about my neck. But one hour spent before an altar, and some gabbled words, had cut me off from the company of the living. With my own hand I had sealed the stone upon my tomb, and turned the key in the lock of my prison!
Ah, if I hadn't been a priest, I could have seen her every day, I could have been her lover, her husband, I told myself, blinded by my own feelings. Instead of wearing a cassock, I could have dressed in silk and velvet, adorned with gold chains, a sword, and a feather like all the handsome young knights. My hair wouldn't be shaved but would fall in fragrant curls around my neck. But just one hour spent at the altar and some hurried words had cut me off from the world of the living. With my own hand, I sealed the stone over my grave and turned the key in the lock of my prison!
I walked to the window. The sky was heavenly blue, the trees had clothed them in the raiment of spring, all nature smiled with mockery in her smile. The square was full of people coming and going: young exquisites, young beauties, two by two, were walking in the direction of the gardens. Workmen sang drinking songs as they passed; on all sides were a life, a movement, a gaiety that did but increase my sorrow and my solitude. A young mother, on the steps of the gate, was playing with her child, kissing its little rosy mouth, with a thousand of the caresses, the childlike and the divine caresses that are the secret of mothers. Hard by the father, with folded arms above a happy heart, smiled sweetly as he watched them. I could not endure the sight. I shut the window, and threw myself on the bed in a horrible jealousy and hatred, so that I gnawed my fingers and my coverlet like a starved wild beast.
I walked over to the window. The sky was a beautiful blue, the trees were dressed in the colors of spring, and all of nature seemed to smile mockingly. The square was bustling with people: young men and women, walking in pairs toward the gardens. Workers sang drinking songs as they passed by; everywhere there was life, movement, and joy, which only deepened my sorrow and loneliness. A young mother sat on the steps, playing with her child, kissing its little rosy mouth, showering it with countless tender and divine caresses that only mothers know. Nearby, the father stood with his arms crossed over a happy heart, smiling gently as he observed them. I couldn't bear to see it. I closed the window and threw myself onto the bed in a fit of terrible jealousy and hatred, gnawing on my fingers and the bedspread like a starving wild animal.
How many days I lay thus I know not, but at last, as I turned in a spasm of rage, I saw the Abbé Sérapion curiously considering me. I bowed my head in shame, and hid my face with my hands. "Romuald, my friend," said he, "some strange thing hath befallen thee. Satan hath desired to have thee, that he may sift thee like wheat; he goeth about thee to devour thee like a raging lion. Beware and make thyself a breastplate of prayer, a shield of the mortifying of the flesh. Fight, and thou shalt overcome. Be not afraid with any discouragement, for the firmest hearts and the most surely guarded have known hours like these. Pray, fast, meditate, and the evil spirit will pass away from thee."
I don’t know how many days I lay there, but finally, as I turned in a fit of rage, I saw Abbé Sérapion looking at me with curiosity. I lowered my head in shame and covered my face with my hands. "Romuald, my friend," he said, "something strange has happened to you. Satan wants to have you, to sift you like wheat; he circles around you like a roaring lion, eager to devour you. Be careful and make yourself a breastplate of prayer, a shield by controlling your desires. Fight, and you will prevail. Don’t let discouragement scare you, as even the strongest hearts that are well-protected have faced moments like this. Pray, fast, reflect, and the evil spirit will leave you."
Then Sérapion told me that the priest of C—— was dead, that the bishop had appointed me to this charge, and that I must be ready by the morrow. I nodded assent, and the Abbé departed. I opened my missal and strove to read in it, but the lines waved confusedly, and the volume slipped unheeded from my hands.
Then Sérapion told me that the priest of C—— had died, that the bishop had assigned me to this role, and that I needed to be ready by tomorrow. I nodded in agreement, and the Abbé left. I opened my missal and tried to read it, but the lines blurred together, and the book slipped from my hands without me noticing.
Next day Sérapion came for me; two mules were waiting for us at the gate with our slender baggage, and we mounted as well as we might. As we traversed the streets I looked for Clarimonde, in each balcony, at every window; but it was too early, and the city was yet asleep. When we had passed the gates, and were climbing the height, I turned back for a last glance at the place that was the home of Clarimonde. The shadow of a cloud lay on the city, the red roofs and the blue were mingled in a mist, whence rose here and there white puffs of smoke. By some strange optical effect, one house stood up, golden in a ray of light, far above the roofs that were mingled in the mist. A league away though it was, it seemed quite close to us—all was plain to see, turrets, balconies, parapets, the very weathercocks.
The next day, Sérapion came to get me; two mules were waiting for us at the gate with our light luggage, and we got on as best we could. As we moved through the streets, I searched for Clarimonde in every balcony and window, but it was too early, and the city was still asleep. Once we had passed through the gates and were climbing the hill, I turned back for one last look at the place where Clarimonde lived. A shadow of a cloud hovered over the city, and the red roofs and blue sky blended into a mist, with white puffs of smoke rising here and there. One house stood out in a shaft of light, golden and high above the misty roofs. Even though it was a league away, it felt close to us—all was clear to see, including the turrets, balconies, parapets, and even the weathercocks.
"What is that palace we see yonder in the sunlight?" said I to Sérapion.
"What is that palace we see over there in the sunlight?" I said to Sérapion.
He shaded his eyes with his hand, looked, and answered:
He used his hand to shield his eyes, glanced, and replied:
"That is the old palace which Prince Concini has given to Clarimonde the harlot. Therein dreadful things are done."
"That is the old palace that Prince Concini has given to Clarimonde the prostitute. Terrible things happen there."
Even at that moment, whether it were real or a vision I know not now, methought I saw a white and slender shape come across the terrace, glance, and disappear. It was Clarimonde!
Even at that moment, whether it was real or a vision, I can't say now, but I thought I saw a white and slender figure come across the terrace, glance at me, and then vanish. It was Clarimonde!
Ah, did she know how in that hour, at the height of the rugged way which led me from her, even at the crest of the path I should never tread again, I was watching her, eager and restless, watching the palace where she dwelt, and which a freak of light and shadow seemed to bring near me, as if inviting me to enter and be lord of all? Doubtless she knew it, so closely bound was her heart to mine; and this it was which had urged her, in the raiment of the night, to climb the palace terrace in the frosty dews of dawn.
Ah, did she know that in that moment, at the peak of the rugged path that led me away from her, even at the top of the trail I would never walk again, I was watching her, eager and restless, watching the palace where she lived, which seemed to shimmer with light and shadow, drawing me in as if inviting me to enter and rule over everything? Surely she knew, since her heart was so closely tied to mine; and it was this connection that had compelled her, cloaked in the night, to climb the palace terrace in the chilly morning dew.
The shadow slipped over the palace, and, anon, there was but a motionless sea of roofs, marked merely by a billowy undulation of forms. Sérapion pricked on his mule, mine also quickened, and a winding of the road hid from me forever the city of S——, where I was to return no more. At the end of three days' journey through melancholy fields, we saw the weathercock of my parish church peeping above the trees. Some winding lanes, bordered by cottages and gardens, brought us to the building, which was of no great splendor. A porch with a few moldings, and two or three pillars rudely carved in sandstone, a tiled roof with counter-forts of the same stone as the pillars—that was all. To the left was the graveyard, deep in tall grasses, with an iron cross in the centre. The priest's house was to the right, in the shadow of the church. Simplicity could not be more simple, nor cleanliness less lovely. Some chickens were pecking at a few grains of oats on the ground as we entered. The sight of a priest's frock seemed too familiar to alarm them, and they scarcely moved to let us pass. Then we heard a hoarse and wheezy bark, and an old dog ran up to greet us. He was the dog of the late priest—dim-eyed, gray, with every sign of a dog's extreme old age. I patted him gently, and he walked along by my side with an air of inexpressible satisfaction. An elderly woman, my predecessor's housekeeper, came in her turn to greet us; and when she learned that I meant to keep her in my service, to keep the dog and the chickens, with all the furniture that her master had left her at his death—above all, when the Abbé Sérapion paid what she asked on the spot—her joy knew no bounds.
The shadow passed over the palace, and soon all that remained was a still sea of rooftops, marked only by a gentle wave of shapes. Sérapion urged his mule on, and mine sped up as well, while a bend in the road hid the city of S—— from my view forever, a place I would not return to. After three days of traveling through somber fields, we finally spotted the weather vane of my parish church peeking above the trees. Some winding paths flanked by cottages and gardens led us to the building, which wasn’t very impressive. It had a porch with a few moldings, two or three roughly carved sandstone pillars, and a tiled roof supported by the same stone as the pillars—that was about it. To the left was the graveyard, overgrown with tall grass, centered by an iron cross. The priest's house was on the right, shaded by the church. It couldn't have been simpler, and cleanliness was far from charming. A few chickens were pecking at some oats on the ground as we entered. The sight of a priest's robe was so familiar that it didn’t startle them, and they barely moved aside for us. Then we heard a rough, wheezy bark, and an old dog came running to greet us. He was the late priest's dog—blind in one eye, gray, and showing all the signs of extreme old age. I patted him gently, and he walked beside me with an expression of deep satisfaction. An elderly woman, the housekeeper for my predecessor, came over to welcome us; and when she found out I intended to keep her on, along with the dog and the chickens, plus all the furniture her master had left her at his death—especially when Abbé Sérapion immediately paid her the amount she requested—her joy was boundless.
When I had been duly installed, Sérapion returned to the college, and I was left alone. Unsupported, uncomforted as I was, the thought of Clarimonde again beset me, nor could I drive her memory away for all my efforts. One evening, as I walked among the box-lined paths of my little garden, I fancied that I saw among the trees the form of a woman, who followed all my movements, and whose green eyes glistened through the leaves. Green as the sea shone her eyes, but it was no more than a vision, for when I crossed to the other side of the alley nothing did I find but the print of a little foot on the sand—a foot like the foot of a child. Now the garden was girt with high walls, and, for all my search, I could find no living thing within them. I have never been able to explain this incident, which, after all, was nothing to the strange adventures that were to follow.
When I was officially welcomed, Sérapion returned to the college, and I was left alone. Unsupported and comfortless, I couldn't shake off the thought of Clarimonde, no matter how hard I tried. One evening, as I strolled through the box-lined paths of my little garden, I thought I saw a woman's figure among the trees, following my every move, with green eyes shimmering through the leaves. Her eyes were as green as the sea, but it was just an illusion because when I walked to the other side of the path, all I found was the impression of a tiny foot in the sand—a foot like a child's. The garden was surrounded by high walls, and despite my searching, I couldn’t find any living thing inside. I’ve never been able to explain this incident, which was nothing compared to the strange adventures that were yet to come.
Thus did I live for a whole year, fulfilling every duty of the priesthood—preaching, praying, fasting, visiting the sick, denying myself necessaries that I might give to the poor. But within me all was dry and barren—the fountains of grace were sealed. I knew not the happiness which goes with the consciousness of a holy mission fulfilled. My heart was otherwhere; the words of Clarimonde dwelt on my lips like the ballad burden a man repeats against his will. Oh, my brother, consider this! For the lifting up of mine eyes to behold a woman have I been harried these many years, and my life hath been troubled forever.
Thus, I lived for an entire year, fulfilling every duty of the priesthood—preaching, praying, fasting, visiting the sick, denying myself essentials so I could give to the poor. But inside me, everything felt dry and barren—the sources of grace were shut off. I didn’t experience the joy that comes with knowing you’ve fulfilled a holy mission. My heart was elsewhere; the words of Clarimonde lingered on my lips like a tune someone repeats against their will. Oh, my brother, think about this! For the mere act of raising my eyes to see a woman, I have been tormented for many years, and my life has been troubled forever.
I shall not hold you longer with the story of these defeats and these victories and the fresh defeats of my soul; let me come to the beginning of the new life.
I won’t keep you any longer with tales of these losses and wins, and the ongoing struggles of my spirit; let me get to the start of this new life.
One night there was a violent knocking at my gate. The old housekeeper went to open it, and the appearance of a man richly clad in an outlandish fashion, tawny of hue, armed with a long dagger, stood before her in the light of her lantern. She was terrified, but he soothed her, saying that he needs must see me instantly concerning a matter of my ministry. Barbara brought him upstairs to the room where I was about going to bed. There the man told me that his mistress, a lady of high degree, was on the point of death, and desired to see a priest. I answered that I was ready to follow him, and taking with me such matters as are needful for extreme unction, I went down hastily. At the door were two horses, black as night, their breath rising in white clouds of vapor. The man held my stirrup while I mounted; then he laid one hand on the pommel and vaulted on the other horse. Gripping his beast with his knees, he gave him his head, and we started with the speed of an arrow, my horse keeping pace with his own. We seemed in running to devour the way; the earth flitted gray beneath us, the black trees fled in the darkness like an army in rout. A forest we crossed, so gloomy and so frozen cold that I felt in all my veins a shudder of superstitious dread. The sparks struck from the flints by our coursers' feet followed after us like a trail of fire, and whoever saw us must have deemed us two ghosts riding the nightmare. Will-o'-the-wisps glittered across our path, the night birds clamored in the forest deeps, and now and again shone out the burning eyes of wild-cats.
One night, there was a loud knocking at my gate. The old housekeeper went to open it, and a man dressed extravagantly, with a strange tan and armed with a long dagger, stood before her in the light of her lantern. She was scared, but he calmed her down, saying he needed to see me immediately about something related to my work. Barbara took him upstairs to the room where I was just about to go to bed. The man then told me that his mistress, a woman of high status, was dying and wanted to see a priest. I said I was ready to go with him, and I quickly grabbed what I needed for last rites. I hurried downstairs, and outside were two horses, as black as night, their breath rising in white clouds of vapor. The man held my stirrup while I got on; then he placed one hand on the pommel and jumped onto the other horse. Holding onto his horse with his knees, he let it run loose, and we took off like an arrow, my horse matching his speed. It felt like we were racing through the landscape; the gray earth blurred beneath us, and the black trees rushed by in the darkness like a fleeing army. We crossed a forest so dark and cold that a shiver of superstitious fear ran through me. The sparks struck from the flints by our horses' hooves followed us like a trail of fire, and anyone who saw us would have thought we were two ghosts riding through a nightmare. Will-o'-the-wisps sparkled in our path, night birds screamed in the deep forest, and occasionally, the glowing eyes of wildcats flashed out.
The manes of the horses tossed more wildly on the wind, the sweat ran down their sides, their breath came thick and loud. But whenever they slackened, the groom called on them with a cry like nothing that ever came from a human throat, and again they ran their furious course. At last the tempest of their flight reached its goal; suddenly there stood before us a great dark mass, with shining points of flame. Our horses' hoofs clattered louder on a drawbridge, and we thundered through the dark depths of a vaulted entrance which gaped between two monstrous towers. Within the castle all was confusion—servants with burning torches ran hither and thither through the courts; on the staircases lights rose and fell. I beheld a medley of vast buildings, columns, arches, parapet and balcony—a bewildering world of royal or of fairy palaces. The negro page who had given me the tablets of Clarimonde, and whom I recognized at a glance, helped me to alight. A seneschal in black velvet, with a golden chain about his neck, and an ivory wand in his hand, came forward to meet me, great tears rolling down his cheeks to his snowy beard.
The horses' manes whipped around in the wind, sweat dripping down their sides, their breaths coming out heavy and loud. But whenever they slowed down, the groom let out a cry like nothing ever heard from a human, and they raced off again with fury. Finally, the storm of their gallop brought us to our destination; suddenly, there appeared a massive dark structure, with flickering points of flame. Our horses' hooves clattered even louder on a drawbridge, and we thundered through the dark passage of a vaulted entrance nestled between two giant towers. Inside the castle, chaos reigned—servants with burning torches dashed around the courtyards; lights flickered up and down the staircases. I saw a mix of enormous buildings, columns, arches, parapets, and balconies—a dizzying world of royal or fairy-tale castles. The page, a Black boy who had given me Clarimonde's tablets and whom I recognized immediately, helped me dismount. A seneschal in black velvet, wearing a golden chain around his neck and holding an ivory wand, stepped forward to greet me, tears streaming down his cheeks onto his snowy beard.
"Too late," he said; "too late, sir priest! But if thou hast not come in time to save the soul, watch, I pray thee, with the unhappy body of the dead."
"Too late," he said; "too late, priest! But if you haven't come in time to save the soul, please watch over the unfortunate body of the dead."
He took me by the arm; he led me to the hall, where the corpse was lying, and I wept as bitterly as he, deeming that the dead was Clarimonde, the well and wildly loved. There stood a prie-dieu by the bed; a blue flame flickering from a cup of bronze cast all about the chamber a doubtful light, and here and there set the shadows fluttering. In a chiseled vase on the table was one white rose faded, a single petal clinging to the stem; the rest had fallen like fragrant tears and lay beside the vase. A broken mask, a fan, masquerading gear of every kind were huddled on the chairs, and showed that death had come, unlooked for and unheralded, to that splendid house. Not daring to cast mine eyes upon the bed, I kneeled, and fervently began to repeat the Psalms, thanking God that between this woman and me He had set the tomb, so that now her name might come like a thing enskied and sainted in my prayers.
He took me by the arm and led me to the hall where the body lay, and I cried as bitterly as he did, thinking that the dead person was Clarimonde, the one I loved so deeply. There was a prie-dieu by the bed; a blue flame flickered from a bronze cup, casting a dim light around the room and making the shadows dance. On the table, in a carved vase, stood a single faded white rose, with one petal clinging to the stem; the others had fallen like fragrant tears and lay beside the vase. A broken mask, a fan, and various pieces of masquerade gear were piled on the chairs, showing that death had arrived unexpectedly and unannounced at that grand house. Not daring to look at the bed, I knelt down and began to fervently recite the Psalms, thanking God for placing a tomb between this woman and me, so that her name could now come to me like something sacred and sainted in my prayers.
By degrees this ardor slackened, and I fell a-dreaming. This chamber, after all, had none of the air of a chamber of death. In place of the fetid, corpse-laden atmosphere that I was wont to breathe in these vigils, there floated gently through the warmth a vapor of Orient essences, a perfume of women and of love. The pale glimmer of the lamp seemed rather the twilight of pleasure than the yellow burning of the taper that watches by the dead. I began to think of the rare hazard that brought me to Clarimonde in the moment when I had lost her forever, and a sigh came from my breast. Then meseemed that one answered with a sigh behind me, and I turned unconsciously. 'Twas but an echo, but, as I turned, mine eyes fell on that which they had shunned—the bed where Clarimonde lay in state. The flowered and crimson curtains, bound up with loops of gold, left the dead woman plain to view, lying at her length, with hands folded on her breast. She was covered with a linen veil, very white and glistening, the more by reason of the dark purple hangings, and so fine was the shroud that her fair body shone through it, with those beautiful soft waving lines, as of the swan's neck, that not even death could harden. Fair she was as a statue of alabaster carved by some skilled man for the tomb of a queen; fair as a young maid asleep beneath new-fallen snow.
Gradually, my passion faded, and I fell into a daydream. This room, after all, didn't feel like a place of death. Instead of the foul, corpse-filled air I was used to during these vigils, a warm, gentle mist of exotic scents floated through, a fragrance of women and love. The soft glow of the lamp felt more like the twilight of pleasure than the harsh light of a candle watching over the dead. I started to think about the strange twist of fate that brought me to Clarimonde just as I had lost her forever, and a sigh escaped my lips. Then it seemed like someone answered with a sigh behind me, and I turned without thinking. It was just an echo, but as I turned, my eyes landed on what I had avoided—the bed where Clarimonde lay in state. The flowered crimson curtains, tied back with loops of gold, revealed the lifeless woman, stretched out with her hands folded over her chest. She was covered with a shimmering white linen veil, made even whiter by the dark purple drapes, and the veil was so fine that her beautiful body shone through it, with those soft, flowing lines, like a swan's neck, that not even death could harden. She was as beautiful as a statue of alabaster carved by a skilled artist for a queen's tomb; as lovely as a young girl sleeping under fresh fallen snow.
I could endure no longer. The air as of a bower of love, the scent of the faded rose intoxicated me, and I strode through the chamber, stopping at each turn to gaze at the beautiful dead beneath the transparent shroud. Strange thoughts haunted my brain. I fancied that she was not really gone, that it was but a device to draw me within her castle gates, and to tell me all her love.
I couldn't take it anymore. The air felt like a romantic retreat, the scent of the wilted rose was intoxicating, and I walked through the room, pausing at every turn to look at the beautiful body beneath the sheer shroud. Odd thoughts raced through my mind. I imagined that she wasn't really gone, that it was just a trick to bring me inside her castle gates and reveal all her love to me.
Nay, one moment methought I saw her foot stir beneath its white swathings, and break the stiff lines of the shroud.
No, for a moment I thought I saw her foot move beneath its white coverings, disrupting the rigid lines of the shroud.
"Is she really Clarimonde?" I asked myself presently. "What proof have I? The black page may have entered the household of some other lady. Mad must I be thus to disquiet myself."
"Is she really Clarimonde?" I asked myself right now. "What proof do I have? The black page could have come from another lady's household. I must be crazy to worry like this."
But the beating of my own heart answered me, "It is she! It is she!"
But the pounding of my own heart responded to me, "It's her! It's her!"
I drew near the bed, and looked with fresh attention at that which thus perplexed me. Shall I confess it? The perfection of her beauty, though shadowed and sanctified by death, troubled my heart, and that long rest of hers was wondrous like a living woman's sleep. I forgot that I had come there to watch by a corpse, and I dreamed that I was a young bridegroom entering the chamber of the veiled, half-hidden bride. Broken with sorrow, wild with joy, shuddering with dread and desire, I stooped toward the dead and raised a corner of the sheet. Gently I raised it, holding my breath as though I feared to waken her. My blood coursed so vehemently that I heard it rushing and surging through the veins of my temples. My brow was dank with drops of sweat, as if I had lifted no film of linen, but a weighty gravestone of marble.
I approached the bed and looked closely at what was confusing me. Should I admit it? The perfection of her beauty, even though it was overshadowed and made holy by death, troubled my heart, and her long rest was strangely like a living woman's sleep. I forgot that I was there to watch over a corpse, and I imagined myself as a young groom entering the chamber of the veiled, partially hidden bride. Overcome with sorrow, filled with joy, and trembling with fear and desire, I leaned down toward the dead and lifted a corner of the sheet. I cautiously raised it, holding my breath as if I were afraid to wake her. My blood raced so fiercely that I could hear it rushing through the veins in my temples. My forehead was damp with sweat, as if I had lifted not just a piece of linen, but a heavy marble gravestone.
There lay Clarimonde, even as I had seen her on the day of mine ordination; even so delightful was she, and death in Clarimonde seemed but a wilful charm. The pallor of her cheeks, her dead lips fading rose, her long downcast eyelids, with their brown lashes, breaking the marble of her cheek, all gave her an air of melancholy, and of purity, of pensive patience that had an inexpressible winning magic. Her long loose hair, the small blue flowers yet scattered through it, pillowed her head, and veiled the splendor of her shoulders. Her fair hands, clear and pure as the consecrated wafer, were crossed in an attitude of holy rest and silent prayer, that suffered not the exquisite roundness and ivory polish of her pearled arms to prove, even in death, too triumphant a lure of men.
There lay Clarimonde, just as I had seen her on the day of my ordination; she was just as enchanting, and death in Clarimonde felt like a deliberate charm. The pallor of
Long did I wait and watch her silently, and still the more I gazed, the less I could deem that life had left forever her beautiful body. I knew not if it were an illusion, or a reflection from the lamp, but it was as if the blood began to flow again beneath that dead white of her flesh, and yet she lay eternally, immovably still. I touched her arm; it was cold, but no colder than her hand had been on the day when it met mine beneath the church porch. I fell into my old attitude, stooping my face above her face, while down upon her rained the warm dew of my tears. Oh, bitterness of impotence and of despair; oh, wild agony of that death watch!
I waited and watched her silently for so long, and the more I looked, the less I could believe that life had completely left her beautiful body. I wasn’t sure if it was just an illusion or a reflection from the lamp, but it felt like the blood was starting to flow again beneath her dead white skin, yet she remained eternally and unmovably still. I touched her arm; it was cold, but no colder than her hand had been the day we first met beneath the church porch. I found myself in my old position, leaning my face close to hers, while my warm tears fell onto her. Oh, the bitterness of feeling helpless and hopeless; oh, the intense pain of keeping watch over her in death!
The night crept on, and as I felt that the eternal separation drew near, I could not deny myself the sad last delight of one kiss on the dead lips that held all my love.
The night went on, and as I sensed that the endless separation was approaching, I couldn’t deny myself the bittersweet final pleasure of one kiss on the lifeless lips that contained all my love.
Oh, miracle! A light breath mingled with my breath, and the mouth of Clarimonde answered to the touch of mine! Her eyes opened, and softly shone. She sighed, she uncrossed her arms, and, folding them about my neck in a ravished ecstasy:
Oh, miracle! A gentle breath blended with mine, and Clarimonde's lips responded to my touch! Her eyes opened and softly sparkled. She sighed, uncrossed her arms, and wrapped them around my neck in a blissful ecstasy:
"Ah, Romuald, it is thou!" she said in a voice as sweet and languishing as the last tremblings of a lyre. "Ah, Romuald, what makest thou here? So long have I waited for thee that I am dead. Yet now we are betrothed, now I may see thee, and visit thee. Farewell, Romuald, farewell! I love thee. It is all that I had to tell thee, and I give thee again that life which thou gavest me with thy kiss. Soon shall we meet again."
"Ah, Romuald, it’s you!" she said in a voice as sweet and lingering as the final notes of a lyre. "Ah, Romuald, what are you doing here? I’ve waited for you so long that I feel like I've died. But now we are engaged, and I can see you and visit you. Goodbye, Romuald, goodbye! I love you. That’s all I needed to say, and I’m giving you back the life you gave me with your kiss. We’ll meet again soon."
Her head sank down, but still her arms clung to me as if they would hold me forever. A wild gust of wind burst open the window and broke into the room. The last leaf of the white rose fluttered like a bird's wing on the stem, and then fell and flew through the open casement, bearing with it the soul of Clarimonde.
Her head dropped down, but her arms still held onto me as if they wanted to keep me forever. A strong gust of wind burst through the window and swept into the room. The last leaf of the white rose fluttered like a bird's wing on the stem, and then it fell and flew out through the open window, carrying with it the soul of Clarimonde.
The lamp went out, and I fell fainting on the breast of the beautiful corpse.
The lamp went out, and I collapsed onto the chest of the beautiful corpse.
When I came to myself I was lying on my own bed in the little chamber of the priest's house; my hand had slipped from beneath the coverlet, the old dog was licking it. Barbara hobbled and trembled about the room, opening and shutting drawers, and shaking powders into glasses. The old woman gave a cry of delight when she saw me open my eyes. The dog yelped and wagged his tail, but I was too weak to utter a word or make the slightest movement. Later, I learned that for three days I had lain thus, with no sign of life but a scarce perceptible breathing. These three days do not count in my life; I know not where my spirit went wandering all that time, whereof I keep not the slightest memory. Barbara told me that the same bronzed man who had come for me at night brought me back in a closed litter next morning, and instantly went his way. So soon as I could recall my thoughts, I reviewed each incident of that fatal night. At first I deemed that I had been duped by art magic, but presently actual, palpable circumstances destroyed that belief. I could not suppose that I had been dreaming, for Barbara, no less than myself, had seen the man with the two coal-black steeds, and she described them accurately. Yet no one knew of any castle in the neighborhood at all like that in which I had found Clarimonde again.
When I regained consciousness, I was lying on my bed in the small room of the priest's house; my hand had slipped from under the blanket, and the old dog was licking it. Barbara was moving around the room, opening and closing drawers, and shaking powders into glasses. The old woman let out a cry of joy when she saw me open my eyes. The dog yelped and wagged its tail, but I was too weak to say anything or make even the slightest movement. Later, I found out that I had been lying there for three days, with barely any sign of life except for my faint breathing. Those three days don’t count in my life; I don't know where my spirit wandered during that time, and I have no memory of it at all. Barbara told me that the same bronze-skinned man who had come for me at night carried me back the next morning in a closed litter and then immediately left. As soon as I was able to gather my thoughts, I went over every detail of that fateful night. Initially, I thought I had been tricked by some magic, but soon, real, tangible evidence shattered that belief. I couldn't believe that I had been dreaming, since Barbara, like me, had seen the man with the two coal-black horses, and she described them accurately. Yet, no one knew of any castle nearby that resembled the one where I had found Clarimonde again.
One morning Sérapion entered my room; he had come with all haste in answer to Barbara's message about my illness. Though this declared his affection for me, none the more did his visit give me pleasure. There was something inquisitive and piercing to my mind in the very glance of Sérapion, and I felt like a criminal in his presence. He it was who first discovered my secret disquiet, and I bore him a grudge for being so clear-sighted.
One morning, Sérapion walked into my room; he had rushed over in response to Barbara's message about my sickness. While this showed that he cared for me, it didn’t bring me any happiness. There was something probing and intense in Sérapion's gaze that made me feel like a criminal. He was the one who first noticed my hidden anxiety, and I resented him for being so perceptive.
While he was asking about my health, in accents of honeyed hypocrisy, his eyes, as yellow as a lion's, were sounding the depths of my soul. Presently—"The famous harlot Clarimonde is dead," says he, in a piercing tone, "dead at the close of an eight days' revel. It was a feast of Belshazzar or of Cleopatra. Good God, what an age is ours! The guests were served by dusky slaves who spoke no tongue known among men, and who seemed like spirits from the pit. The livery of the least of them might have beseemed an emperor on a coronation day. Wild tales are told of this same Clarimonde, and all her loves have perished miserably or by violence. They say she was a ghost, a female vampire, but I believe she was the devil himself."
While he was inquiring about my health, with a tone of sugary deceit, his eyes, as yellow as a lion's, were probing the depths of my soul. Then he said, "The famous courtesan Clarimonde is dead," in a sharp voice, "gone after an eight-day party. It was a feast like Belshazzar's or Cleopatra's. My goodness, what a time we live in! The guests were served by dark-skinned slaves who spoke no language known to mankind and seemed like spirits from the underworld. Even the simplest attire of the least among them could have adorned an emperor on his coronation day. Wild stories are told about this same Clarimonde, and all her lovers have met tragic or violent ends. They say she was a ghost, a female vampire, but I believe she was the devil himself."
He paused, watching me, who could not master a sudden movement at the name of Clarimonde.
He paused, watching me, unable to control a sudden reaction at the mention of Clarimonde.
"Satan's claw is long," said Sérapion, with a stern glance, "and tombs ere now have given up their dead. Threefold should be the seal upon the grave of Clarimonde, for this is not, men say, the first time she hath died. God be with thee, Romuald!"
"Satan's claw is long," said Sérapion, with a serious look, "and tombs have given up their dead before. There should be a triple seal on Clarimonde's grave, because this isn't the first time she has died, they say. God be with you, Romuald!"
So speaking, Sérapion departed with slow steps, and I saw him no more as at that time.
So saying, Sérapion left with slow steps, and I didn't see him again after that.
Time passed and I was well again. Nay, I deemed that the fears of Sérapion and my own terrors were too great, till, one night, I dreamed a dream.
Time went by, and I was feeling better. In fact, I thought the worries of Sérapion and my own fears were overblown, until one night, I had a dream.
Scarce had I tasted the first drops of the cup of sleep when I heard the curtains of my bed open and the rings ring. I raised myself suddenly on my arm and saw the shadow of a woman standing by me.
Scarce had I tasted the first drops of sleep when I heard the curtains of my bed open and the rings jingle. I suddenly pushed myself up on my arm and saw the shadow of a woman standing next to me.
Straightway I knew her for Clarimonde.
Straight away, I recognized her as Clarimonde.
She held in her hand a little lamp, such as are placed in tombs, and the light touched her slim fingers to a rosy hue, that faded away in the milk-white of her arms. She was clad with naught on but the linen shroud that veiled her when she lay in state; the folds were clasped about her breast, as it were in pudency, by a hand all too small. So white she was that her shroud and her body were blended in the pallid glow of the lamp.
She held a small lamp in her hand, similar to those found in tombs, and the light cast a rosy glow on her delicate fingers that faded into the milk-white of her arms. She wore nothing but the linen shroud that covered her while she lay in state; the folds were gathered around her chest, as if modesty were being upheld, by a hand that was far too small. She was so white that her shroud and her body seemed to merge in the pale light of the lamp.
Swathed thus in the fine tissue that betrayed every line of her figure, she seemed a marble image of some lady at the bath rather than a living woman. Dead or living, statue or woman, spirit or flesh, her beauty was the same; only the glitter of her dull sea-green eyes was dulled—only the mouth, so red of old, wore but a tender tint of rose, like the white rose of her cheeks. The little blue flowers that I had seen in her hair were sere now, and all but bloomless; yet so winning was she, so winning that, despite the strangeness of the adventure and her inexplicable invasion of my chamber, I was not afraid for one moment.
Wrapped in delicate fabric that revealed every curve of her body, she looked more like a marble statue of a woman at the bath than a living person. Whether dead or alive, a statue or a woman, spirit or flesh, her beauty remained unchanged; only the sparkle in her dull sea-green eyes had faded—only her once bright red lips now showed just a soft shade of rose, similar to the pale rose of her cheeks. The little blue flowers I had noticed in her hair were now wilted and almost bloomless; yet she was so captivating, so enchanting that, despite the unusual circumstances and her mysterious presence in my room, I felt no fear at all.
She placed the lamp on the table, and sat down by my bed-foot. Then, in those soft and silver accents which I never heard from any lips but hers—"Long have I made thee wait for me," she said, "and thou must have deemed that I had forgotten thee quite. But lo! I come from far, very far—even from that land whence no traveler has returned. There is no sunlight nor moon in the country whence I wander, only shadow and space. There the foot finds no rest, nor the wandering wing any way; yet here am I; behold me, for Love can conquer Death. Ah, what sad faces and terrible eyes have I seen in my voyaging, and in what labor hath my soul been to find my body and to make her home therein again! How hard to lift was the stone that they had laid on me for a covering! Lo, my hands are sorely wounded in that toil! Kiss them, my love, and heal them." And she laid her chill palms, on my mouth, that I kissed many times, she smiling on me with an inexpressible sweetness of delight.
She set the lamp on the table and sat down at the foot of my bed. Then, in those soft and silver tones that I’ve only ever heard from her, she said, "I’ve kept you waiting a long time, and you must have thought I’d completely forgotten you. But look! I’ve come from far, very far—even from that place where no traveler has returned. There’s no sunlight or moon in the land I’ve traveled through, only shadows and emptiness. There, the foot finds no rest, and the wandering wing has no direction; yet here I am; see me, for Love can conquer Death. Ah, what sad faces and terrible eyes I’ve encountered on my journey, and how hard my soul has labored to find my body and make it a home again! It was a struggle to lift the heavy stone they placed over me. Look, my hands are badly hurt from that effort! Kiss them, my love, and heal them." And she placed her cold palms on my lips, which I kissed many times, while she smiled at me with an indescribable sweetness of joy.
To my shame be it spoken, I had wholly forgotten the counsels of the Abbé Sérapion, and the sacred character of my ministry. I fell unresisting at the first attack. Nay, I did not even try to bid the tempter avaunt, but succumbed without a struggle before the sweet freshness of Clarimonde's fair body. Poor child! for all that is come and gone, I can scarce believe that she was indeed a devil; surely there was naught of the devil in her aspect. Never hath Satan better concealed his claws and his horns!
To my shame, I have to admit that I completely forgot the advice of Abbé Sérapion and the sacred nature of my ministry. I gave in without resistance at the first temptation. In fact, I didn't even try to push the tempter away; I just surrendered without a fight to the sweet allure of Clarimonde's beautiful body. Poor thing! Despite everything that has happened, I can hardly believe she was actually a devil; there was nothing devilish about her appearance. Never has Satan hidden his claws and horns better!
She was crouching on the side of my bed, her heels drawn up beneath her in an attitude of careless and provoking grace. Once and again she would pass her little hands among my locks, and curl them, as if to try what style best suited my face. It is worth noting that I felt no astonishment at an adventure so marvelous—nay, as in a dream the strangest events fail to surprise us, even so the whole encounter seemed to me perfectly natural.
She was crouching on the side of my bed, her heels tucked up beneath her in a relaxed and teasing way. Every now and then, she would run her small hands through my hair and curl it, as if she were figuring out which style looked best on me. It's worth mentioning that I felt no surprise at such a marvelous occurrence—just like in a dream where the oddest things don’t shock us, this entire encounter felt completely normal to me.
"I loved thee long before I saw thee, Romuald, my love, and I sought for thee everywhere. Thou wert my dream, and I beheld thee in the church at that fatal hour. 'It is he,' I whispered to myself, and cast on thee a glance fulfilled of all the love wherewith I had loved, and did love, and shall love thee; a glance that would have ruined the soul of a cardinal or brought a king with all his court to my feet.
"I loved you long before I saw you, Romuald, my love, and I looked for you everywhere. You were my dream, and I saw you in the church at that fateful hour. 'It's him,' I whispered to myself, and I gave you a look filled with all the love I had for you, that I have for you, and that I will always have for you; a glance that could have broken the soul of a cardinal or brought a king and all his court to my feet."
"But thou wert not moved, and before my love thou didst place the love of God.
"But you were not swayed, and before my love, you put the love of God."
"Ah, 'tis of God that I am jealous—God whom thou hast loved and lovest more than me.
"Ah, it’s because of God that I am jealous—God whom you have loved and love more than me."
"Miserable woman that I am! Never shall I have all thy heart for myself alone—for me, whom thou didst awaken with one kiss; for me, Clarimonde, the dead; for me, who for thy sake have broken the portals of the grave, and am come to offer to thee a life that hath been taken up again for this one end to make thee happy."
"Miserable woman that I am! I will never have all of your heart for myself alone—for me, the one you awakened with just one kiss; for me, Clarimonde, the dead; for me, who for your sake broke through the gates of the grave, and have come to offer you a life that has been revived just to make you happy."
So she spoke; and every word was broken in on by maddening caresses, till my brain swam, and I feared not to console her by this awful blasphemy, namely—That my love of her passed my love of God!
So she spoke; and every word was interrupted by overwhelming touches, until my head spun, and I didn't hesitate to comfort her with this terrible blasphemy, namely—That my love for her surpassed my love for God!
Then the fire of her eyes was rekindled, and they blazed as it had been the chrysoprase stone.
Then the fire in her eyes was reignited, and they shone brightly like chrysoprase.
"Verily thou lovest me with a love like thy love of God," she cried, making her fair arms a girdle for my body. "Then thou shalt come with me, and whithersoever I go wilt thou follow. Thou wilt leave thine ugly black robes, thou wilt be of all knights the proudest and the most envied. The acknowledged lover of Clarimonde shalt thou be, of her who refused a Pope! Ah, happy life, oh, golden days that shall be ours! When do we mount and ride, mon gentilhomme?"
"You truly love me the way you love God," she exclaimed, wrapping her beautiful arms around me. "Then you should come with me, and wherever I go, you will follow. You will leave behind those ugly black robes, and you will be the proudest and most envied of all knights. You will be known as the lover of Clarimonde, the one who turned down a Pope! Oh, what a happy life, what golden days await us! When do we get to ride out, my gentleman?"
"To-morrow," I cried in my madness.
"Tomorrow," I yelled in my madness.
"To-morrow," she answered, "I shall have time to change this robe of mine that is somewhat scant, nor fit for voyaging. Also must I speak with my retainers, that think me dead in good earnest, and lament me, as well they may. Money, carriages, change of raiment, all shall be ready for thee; at this hour to-morrow will I seek thee. Good-by, sweetheart."
"Tomorrow," she replied, "I'll have time to change out of this dress, which is a bit revealing and not suitable for traveling. I also need to talk to my servants, who believe I'm really dead and are mourning me, as they should. Money, carriages, and clothes will all be ready for you; at this time tomorrow, I'll come looking for you. Goodbye, sweetheart."
She touched my brow with her lips, the lamp faded into darkness, the curtains closed, a sleep like lead came down on me, sleep without a dream.
She pressed her lips to my forehead, the lamp dimmed to darkness, the curtains shut, and a heavy sleep washed over me, a dreamless sleep.
I wakened late, troubled by the memory of my dream, which at length I made myself believe was but a vision of the night. Yet it was not without dread that I sought rest again, praying Heaven to guard the purity of my slumber.
I woke up late, disturbed by the memory of my dream, which eventually I convinced myself was just a nighttime vision. Still, I felt uneasy as I tried to sleep again, praying that Heaven would protect the innocence of my sleep.
Anon I fell again into a deep sleep, and my dream began again. The curtains opened, and there stood Clarimonde, not pale in her pale shroud, nor with the violets of death upon her cheek; but gay, bright, splendid, in a traveling robe of green velvet with trappings of gold, and kilted up on one side to show a satin undercoat. Her fair, curled locks fell in great masses from under a large black beaver hat, with strange white plumes; in her hand she held a little riding-whip, topped with a golden whistle. With this she touched me gently, saying:
Soon, I fell back into a deep sleep, and my dream started over. The curtains opened, and there was Clarimonde, not pale in her white shroud, nor with the signs of death on her cheek; but cheerful, bright, and stunning, in a green velvet traveling outfit adorned with gold decorations, hitched up on one side to reveal a satin underlayer. Her fair, curly hair tumbled in large waves from under a big black beaver hat with unusual white feathers; in her hand, she held a small riding whip topped with a golden whistle. With it, she gently touched me, saying:
"Awake, fair sleeper! Is it thus you prepare for your voyage? I had thought to find you alert. Rise, quickly; we have no time to lose!"
"Wake up, beautiful sleeper! Is this how you get ready for your journey? I expected to find you awake. Get up quickly; we don’t have time to waste!"
I leaped out of bed.
I jumped out of bed.
"Come, dress, and let us be gone," she said, showing me a packet she had brought. "Our horses are fretting and champing at the gate. We should be ten leagues from here."
"Come on, get ready, and let's go," she said, showing me a package she had brought. "Our horses are restless and eager at the gate. We should be ten leagues away from here."
I arrayed myself in haste, while she instructed me, handed me the various articles of a knight's attire, and laughed at my clumsiness. She dressed my hair, and when all was done, gave me a little Venice pocket-mirror in a silver frame, crying:
I got ready quickly while she guided me, handed me the different pieces of a knight's outfit, and laughed at how awkward I was. She styled my hair, and when everything was finished, she handed me a small pocket mirror from Venice in a silver frame, exclaiming:
"What think you of yourself now? Will you take me for your valet de chambre?"
"What do you think of yourself now? Will you hire me as your personal attendant?"
I did not know my own face in the glass, and was no more like myself than a statue is like the uncut stone. I was beautiful, and I was vain of the change. The gold embroidered gallant attire made me another man, and I marveled at the magic of a few ells of cloth, fashioned to certain device. The character of my clothes became my own, and in ten minutes I was sufficiently conceited.
I didn’t recognize my own reflection in the glass, and I was as different from myself as a statue is from a block of stone. I looked beautiful, and I was proud of the transformation. The gold-embroidered fancy outfit made me feel like a different person, and I was amazed by the magic of a few yards of fabric shaped into a specific style. The vibe of my clothes became part of me, and in just ten minutes, I felt pretty full of myself.
Clarimonde watched me with a kind of maternal fondness as I walked up and down the room, proving my new raiment as it were; then:
Clarimonde watched me with a sort of motherly affection as I paced the room, showing off my new outfit; then:
"Come," she cried; "enough of this child's play! Up and away, my Romuald! We have far to go; we shall never arrive."
"Come on," she exclaimed; "enough of this childish nonsense! Get up and let's go, my Romuald! We have a long way to travel; we'll never get there."
She took my hand and led me forth. The gates opened at her touch; the dog did not waken as we passed.
She took my hand and led me forward. The gates opened at her touch; the dog didn't wake up as we passed.
At the gate we found the groom with three horses like those he had led before: Tennets of Spain, the children of the wind. Swift as the wind they sped; and the moon that had risen to light us at our going, spun down the sky behind us like a wheel broken loose from the axle; we seemed to see her on our right, leaping from tree to tree as she strove to follow our course. Presently we came on a plain, where a carriage with four horses waited for us; and the postilion drove them to a mad gallop. My arm was round the waist of Clarimonde, her head lay on my shoulder, her breast touched my arm. Never had I known such delight. All that I had been was forgotten, like the months before birth, so great was the power of the devil over my heart.
At the gate, we found the groom with three horses just like the ones he had led before: Tennets of Spain, the children of the wind. They raced as fast as the wind; and the moon that had risen to guide us on our way spun down the sky behind us like a wheel that had come loose from its axle; we seemed to see her on our right, leaping from tree to tree as she tried to keep up with us. Soon we reached a plain, where a carriage with four horses was waiting for us; the driver urged them into a wild gallop. My arm was wrapped around Clarimonde's waist, her head resting on my shoulder, her chest brushing against my arm. I had never experienced such joy. Everything I had been was forgotten, like the months before birth, so powerful was the devil’s hold on my heart.
From that date mine became a double life; within me were two men that knew each other not—the priest who dreamed that by night he was a noble, the noble who dreamed that by night he was a priest. I could not divide dreams from waking, nor tell where truth ended and illusion began. Two spirals, blended but touching not, might be a parable of my confused existence. Yet, strange as it was, I believe I never was insane. The experience of either life dwells distinct and separate in my memory. Only there was this inexplicable fact—the feeling of one personality existed in both these two different men. Of this I have never found an explanation, whether I was for the moment the curé of the village of ——, or whether I was Signor Romualdo, the avowed lover of Clarimonde.
Since that day, my life turned into a double existence; within me were two men who didn't know each other—the priest who dreamed at night that he was a nobleman, and the nobleman who dreamed at night that he was a priest. I couldn't separate dreams from reality, nor could I tell where truth ended and illusion began. Two spirals, intertwined yet never touching, could represent my chaotic existence. Still, as strange as it was, I believe I was never truly insane. The experiences of each life remain clear and separate in my memory. Yet there was this unexplainable fact—the feeling of one personality existed within both of these different men. I've never found an explanation for this, whether I was, in the moment, the priest of the village of —, or Signor Romualdo, the declared lover of Clarimonde.
Certain it is that I was, or believed myself to be, in Venice—in a great palace on the Grand Canal, full of frescoes, statues, and rich in two Titians of his best period—a palace fit for a king. We had each our gondola, our liveried men, our music, our poet, for Clarimonde loved life in the great style, and in her nature was a touch of Cleopatra. Custom could not stale her infinite variety; to love her was to love a score of mistresses, and you were faithless to her with herself, so strangely she could wear the beauty of any woman that caught your fancy. She returned my love a hundred-fold. She scorned the gifts of young patricians and of the elders of the Council of Ten. She refused the hand of a Foscari. Gold enough she had, she desired only love; a young fresh love herself had wakened—a love that found in her its first mistress and its last.
I was sure I was, or thought I was, in Venice—in a magnificent palace on the Grand Canal, filled with frescoes, statues, and boasting two incredible Titians from his best period—a palace worthy of a king. We each had our own gondola, our well-dressed attendants, our music, our poet, because Clarimonde loved living extravagantly, and there was a bit of Cleopatra in her nature. Routine couldn't dull her endless variety; loving her meant loving a dozen mistresses, and being unfaithful to her meant being unfaithful to her very self, as she could embody the beauty of any woman that caught your eye. She loved me back a hundred times over. She dismissed the gifts from young nobles and the older members of the Council of Ten. She turned down the hand of a Foscari. She had plenty of gold; all she wanted was love; a young, fresh love awakened in her—a love that found in her its first mistress and its last.
As for me, in the midst of a life of the wildest pleasure, I should have been happy but for the nightly horror of the dream wherein I was a curé, fasting and mortifying myself in penance for the sins of the day. Custom made my life with her familiar, and it was rarely that I remembered (and that never with fear) the words of the Abbé Sérapion.
As for me, in the midst of a life filled with the wildest pleasures, I should have been happy if it weren't for the nightly terror of the dream where I was a priest, fasting and punishing myself in atonement for the sins of the day. Routine had made my life with her familiar, and I rarely remembered (and never with fear) the words of Abbé Sérapion.
For some time Clarimonde had not been herself, her health failing, her complexion growing paler day by day. The physicians were of no avail, and she grew cold and dead as on the wondrous night in the nameless castle. Sadly she smiled on my distress, with the fatal smile of those who know that their death is near. One morning I sat on her bed, breakfasting at a small table hard by; as it chanced in cutting a fruit I gashed my finger deeply; the blood came in purple streams; and spurted up on Clarimonde. Her eyes brightened, her face took on a savage joy and greed such as I had never seen. She leaped from the bed like a cat, seized my wounded hand, and sucked the blood with unspeakable pleasure, slowly, gently like a connoisseur tasting some rare wine.
For a while, Clarimonde hadn't been herself; her health was declining, and her complexion grew more and more pale each day. The doctors couldn't help, and she became cold and lifeless like that amazing night in the nameless castle. With a sad smile, she gazed at my distress, giving off the tragic smile of someone who knows their end is near. One morning, I was sitting on her bed, having breakfast at a small table nearby. When I cut a fruit, I accidentally sliced my finger deeply; blood flowed out in dark streams and splattered onto Clarimonde. Her eyes lit up, and a wild joy and greed appeared on her face, unlike anything I had ever seen. She jumped off the bed like a cat, grabbed my injured hand, and savored the blood with an indescribable pleasure, slowly and gently, like a connoisseur enjoying a fine wine.
In her half-closed eyes the round pupil grew long in shape. Again and again she stopped to kiss my hand, and then pressed her lips once more on the wound, to squeeze out the red drops.
In her half-closed eyes, the round pupil became elongated. Time after time, she paused to kiss my hand and then pressed her lips again on the wound to squeeze out the red drops.
When she saw that the blood was stanched, she rose; her eyes brilliant and humid, her face as rosy as a dawn of May, her hand warm and moist; in short, more lovely than of old, and in perfect health.
When she saw that the bleeding had stopped, she got up; her eyes were bright and moist, her face as rosy as a May dawn, her hand warm and soft; in short, she was more beautiful than before and in perfect health.
"I shall not die! I shall not die!" she exclaimed, wild with delight, as she embraced me. "I shall yet love thee long; for my life is in thine, and all that is in me comes from thee. Some drops of thy rich and noble blood, more precious than all the elixirs in the world, have given me back my life."
"I won’t die! I won’t die!" she shouted, overjoyed, as she hugged me. "I will love you for a long time; my life is tied to yours, and everything in me comes from you. Some drops of your rich and noble blood, more valuable than any potion in the world, have brought me back to life."
This event, and the strange doubts it inspired, haunted me long. When the night and sleep brought me back to my priest's home, I beheld Sérapion, more anxious than ever, more careful and troubled. He gazed on me steadfastly, and said:
This event, along with the strange doubts it sparked, stuck with me for a long time. When night came and sleep took me back to my priest's home, I found Sérapion looking more anxious than ever, more cautious and worried. He stared at me intently and said:
"Not content with losing thy soul, thou art also desirous of ruining thy body. Unhappy young man, in what a net hast thou fallen!"
"Not satisfied with losing your soul, you also want to ruin your body. Unhappy young man, what a trap you have fallen into!"
The tone of his voice struck cold on me; but a thousand new cares made me forget his words. Yet, one night I saw in a mirror that Clarimonde was pouring a powder into the spiced wine-cup she mingled after supper. I took the cup, pretending to drink, but really casting the potion away beneath the table. Then I went to bed, intent on watching and seeing what should come to pass. Nor did I wait long. Clarimonde entered, cast off her night attire, and lay down by my side. When she was assured that I slept, she uncovered my arm, drew a golden pin from her hair, and then fell a-murmuring thus:
The tone of his voice felt cold to me, but a thousand new worries made me forget what he said. One night, I noticed in a mirror that Clarimonde was pouring a powder into the spiced wine she mixed after dinner. I took the cup, pretending to drink, but really tossing the potion away under the table. Then I went to bed, ready to watch and see what would happen. I didn’t have to wait long. Clarimonde came in, took off her night clothes, and lay down next to me. Once she was sure I was asleep, she uncovered my arm, pulled a golden pin from her hair, and then started murmuring:
"One drop, one little crimson drop, one ruby on the tip of my needle! Since thou lovest me yet, I must not die. Sleep, my god, my child, my all; I shall not harm thee; of thy life I will but take what is needful for mine. Alas! poor love; alas! fair purple blood that I must drink! Ah, fair arm, so round, so white, never will I dare to prick that pretty violet vein."
"One drop, one tiny red drop, one ruby on the tip of my needle! Since you still love me, I can’t die. Sleep, my god, my child, my everything; I won’t hurt you; I’ll only take what I need for my life. Oh, my poor love; oh, beautiful purple blood that I have to drink! Ah, lovely arm, so round, so pale, I’ll never dare to poke that pretty violet vein."
So speaking, she wept, and the tears fell hot on my arm. At length she came to a resolve, pricked me with the needle, and sucked the blood that flowed. But a few drops did she taste, for fear of exhausting me, then she anointed the tiny wound, and fastened a little bandage about my arm.
So saying, she cried, and the tears streamed down my arm. After a while, she made a decision, pricked me with the needle, and sucked the blood that came out. She only tasted a few drops because she was afraid of depleting me, then she treated the small wound and wrapped a little bandage around my arm.
I could no longer doubt it, Sérapion had spoken sooth. Yet must I needs love Clarimonde, and would willingly have given her all the blood in my veins that then were rich enough. Nor was I afraid, the woman in her was more than surety for the vampire. I could have pricked my own arm and said, "Drink; let my love become part of thy being with my blood." I never spoke a word of the narcotic that she had poured out for me, never a word of the needle; we lived together in perfect union of hearts.
I could no longer doubt it; Sérapion had told the truth. Still, I had to love Clarimonde and would have gladly given her all the blood in my veins, which were rich enough at the time. I wasn't afraid; the woman in her was more than enough assurance for the vampire. I could have pricked my own arm and said, "Drink; let my love become part of you with my blood." I never mentioned the drug she had poured for me, not a word about the needle; we lived together in perfect harmony of hearts.
It was my scruples as a priest that disquieted me. How could I touch the Host with hands polluted in such debauches, real or dreamed of? At night I struggled against sleep, holding mine eyelids open, standing erect against walls; but mine eyes were filled with the sand of sleep, and the wave carried me even where it would, down to the siren shores.
It was my conscience as a priest that troubled me. How could I touch the Host with hands stained by such debauchery, whether real or imagined? At night, I fought against sleep, keeping my eyelids open, standing upright against the walls; but my eyes were heavy with sleep, and the tide pulled me wherever it wanted, taking me down to the siren shores.
Sérapion reproached me often. One day he came and said: "To drive away the devil that possesses thee there is but one art; great ills demand harsh remedies. I know where Clarimonde is buried; we must unearth her, and the sight of the worms and the dust of death will make thee thyself again."
Sérapion often criticized me. One day he came and said: "To get rid of the devil that’s inside you, there’s only one way; serious problems need tough solutions. I know where Clarimonde is buried; we need to dig her up, and seeing the worms and the dirt of death will bring you back to yourself."
So weary was I of my double life, so eager to know whether the priest or the noble was the true man, which the dream, that I accepted his plan, being determined to slay one or the other of the beings that dwelt within me; ay, or to slay them both, for such a life as mine could not endure.
So tired was I of living this double life, so anxious to find out whether the priest or the noble was the real me, that I went along with his plan. I was set on getting rid of one or the other of the identities inside me; or even both, because a life like mine couldn’t go on.
The Abbé Sérapion took a lantern, a pick, a crowbar, and at midnight we set out for the graveyard. After throwing the light of the lantern on several tombs, we reached a stone half-hidden by tall weeds, and covered with ivy, moss, and lichen. Thereon we read these words graven:
The Abbé Sérapion grabbed a lantern, a pick, and a crowbar, and at midnight we headed to the graveyard. After shining the lantern on several tombstones, we found a stone partially covered by tall weeds, ivy, moss, and lichen. On it, we read the following words engraved:
ICI GIT CLARIMONDE
QUI PUT DE SON VIVANTE
LA PLUS BELLE DU MONDE
ICI GIT CLARIMONDE
QUI ÉTAIT DE SON VIVANT
LA PLUS BELLE DU MONDE
"'Tis here!" said Sérapion, who, laying down his lantern, thrust the crowbar in a cleft of the stone, and began to raise it. Slowly it gave place, and he set to work with the pick-ax. For me, I watched him dark and silent as the night, while his face, when he raised it, ran with sweat, and his laboring breath came like the death-rattle in his throat. Methought the deed was a sacrilege, and I would fain have seen the lightning leap from the cloud, and strike Sérapion to ashes.
"Here it is!" said Sérapion, who set down his lantern, wedged the crowbar into a crack in the stone, and started to lift it. Slowly, it gave way, and he began working with the pickaxe. I stood there, dark and silent as the night, watching him, while sweat streamed down his face and his labored breathing sounded like the death rattle in his throat. I thought what he was doing was sacrilegious, and I almost wished to see lightning strike from the clouds and reduce Sérapion to ashes.
The owls of the graveyard, attracted by the light, flocked and flapped about the lantern with their wings; their hooting sounded wofully; the foxes barked their answer far away; a thousand evil sounds broke from the stillness.
The owls in the graveyard, drawn to the light, gathered and flapped around the lantern with their wings; their haunting hoots filled the air; the foxes barked their responses from a distance; a thousand unsettling noises shattered the silence.
At length the pick of Sérapion smote the coffin-lid; the four planks answered sullenly, as the void of nothingness replied to the touch. Sérapion raised the coffin-lid, and there I saw Clarimonde, pale as marble, her hands joined, the long white shroud flowing unbroken to her feet.
At last, Sérapion's pick hit the coffin lid; the four planks responded dull and lifeless, just like the emptiness that met the blow. Sérapion lifted the coffin lid, and there I saw Clarimonde, pale like marble, her hands together, the long white shroud flowing down to her feet without interruption.
On her pale mouth shone one rosy drop, and Sérapion, breaking forth in fury, cried:
On her pale lips rested a single rosy drop, and Sérapion, bursting out in anger, yelled:
"Ah, there thou liest, devil, harlot, vampire, thou that drainest the blood of men!"
"Ah, there you lie, devil, seductress, vampire, you who drain the blood of men!"
With this he sprinkled holy water over my lady, whose fair body straightway crumbled into earth, a dreadful mingling of dust and the ashes of bones half-burned.
With this, he sprinkled holy water over my lady, whose beautiful body immediately crumbled into the ground, a terrifying mixture of dust and the ashes of half-burned bones.
"There lies thy leman, Sir Romuald," he said; "go now and dally at the Lido with thy beauty."
"There lies your lady, Sir Romuald," he said; "go now and spend time at the Lido with your beauty."
I bowed my head; within me all was ruin. Back to my poor priest's house I went; and Romuald, the lover of Clarimonde, said farewell to the priest, with whom so long and so strangely he had companioned.
I lowered my head; inside, everything was in shambles. I returned to my humble priest's house, and Romuald, Clarimonde's lover, said goodbye to the priest, with whom he had spent so much time in such a strange way.
But, next night, I saw Clarimonde.
But, the next night, I saw Clarimonde.
"Wretched man that thou art," she cried, as of old under the church porch, "what hast thou done? Why hast thou hearkened to that foolish priest? Wert thou not happy, or what ill had I done thee that thou must violate my tomb, and lay bare the wretchedness of the grave? Henceforth is the link between our souls and bodies broken. Farewell! Thou shalt desire me."
"Wretched man that you are," she cried, just like before under the church porch, "what have you done? Why have you listened to that foolish priest? Were you not happy, or what wrong did I do to you that you must disturb my grave and expose the misery of death? From now on, the bond between our souls and bodies is broken. Goodbye! You will long for me."
Then she fled away into air, like smoke, and I saw her no more.
Then she vanished into the air, like smoke, and I never saw her again.
Alas! it was truth she spoke; more than once have I sorrowed for her—nay, I long for her still. Dearly purchased hath my salvation been, and the love of God hath not been too much to replace the love of her.
Alas! she spoke the truth; I have mourned for her more than once—no, I still long for her. My salvation has been dearly bought, and the love of God has not been too great to replace the love I had for her.
Behold, brother, all the story of my youth.
Behold, brother, all the story of my youth.
Let not thine eyes look ever upon a woman; walk always with glance downcast; for, be ye chaste and be ye cold as ye may, one minute may damn you to all eternity.
Don't let your eyes ever look at a woman; always walk with your gaze down. Because no matter how pure or indifferent you may be, just one moment can damn you for all eternity.
(Translation by Andrew Lang.)
Translation by Andrew Lang.
THE RED ROOM
BY H. G. WELLS
BY H.G. WELLS
Herbert George Wells (born 1866), on his graduation in 1888 from the Royal College of Science, took up the serious side of science as a career, publishing in 1892-93 a textbook on biology. An editorial connection (with "The Saturday Review" in 1894-96) turned his attention to the literary possibilities of his favorite study, and in 1895 he began a series of novels in which by an extraordinary prescience of imagination he developed the suggestions of modern science into marvelous embodiments of newly discovered principles and powers which are shown to result in profound changes in both the social and individual character of man.
Herbert George Wells (born 1866), after graduating in 1888 from the Royal College of Science, pursued a serious career in science, publishing a biology textbook in 1892-93. An editorial role with "The Saturday Review" from 1894 to 1896 shifted his focus to the literary potential of his favorite subject, and in 1895 he started a series of novels where, with remarkable foresight and imagination, he turned the ideas of modern science into extraordinary representations of newly discovered principles and powers, leading to significant changes in both the social and individual character of humanity.
THE RED ROOM
THE RED ROOM
By H. G. WELLS
By H.G. Wells
"I can assure you," said I, "that it will take a very tangible ghost to frighten me." And I stood up before the fire with my glass in my hand.
"I can assure you," I said, "that it will take a very real ghost to scare me." And I stood up in front of the fire with my drink in my hand.
"It is your own choosing," said the man with the withered arm, and glanced at me askance.
"It’s up to you," said the man with the withered arm, looking at me sideways.
"Eight-and-twenty years," said I, "I have lived, and never a ghost have I seen as yet."
"Twenty-eight years," I said, "I've lived, and I've never seen a ghost."
The old woman sat staring hard into the fire, her pale eyes wide open. "Ay," she broke in, "and eight-and-twenty years you have lived, and never seen the likes of this house, I reckon. There's a many things to see, when one's still but eight-and-twenty." She swayed her head slowly from side to side. "A many things to see and sorrow for."
The old woman sat intently watching the fire, her pale eyes wide open. "Yeah," she interrupted, "and you've lived twenty-eight years, and never seen a house like this, I bet. There are so many things to see when you’re still just twenty-eight." She rocked her head slowly from side to side. "So many things to see and things to feel sad about."
I half suspected these old people were trying to enhance the spectral terrors of their house by this droning insistence. I put down my empty glass on the table, and, looking about the room, caught a glimpse of myself, abbreviated and broadened to an impossible sturdiness, in the queer old mirror beside the china cupboard. "Well," I said, "if I see anything to-night, I shall be so much the wiser. For I come to the business with an open mind."
I somewhat suspected that these elderly people were trying to make the spooky atmosphere of their house even more intense with their constant murmuring. I set my empty glass down on the table, and as I looked around the room, I caught a distorted reflection of myself in the strange old mirror next to the china cabinet—shortened and oddly thickened. "Well," I said, "if I see anything tonight, I’ll be that much wiser. I’m approaching this with an open mind."
"It's your own choosing," said the man with the withered arm once more.
"It's up to you," said the man with the withered arm again.
I heard the faint sound of a stick and a shambling step on the flags in the passage outside. The door creaked on its hinges as a second old man entered, more bent, more wrinkled, more aged even than the first. He supported himself by the help of a crutch, his eyes were covered by a shade, and his lower lip, half averted, hung pale and pink from his decaying yellow teeth. He made straight for an armchair on the opposite side of the table, sat down clumsily, and began to cough. The man with the withered hand gave the new-comer a short glance of positive dislike; the old woman took no notice of his arrival, but remained with her eyes fixed steadily on the fire.
I heard the faint sound of a stick and a shuffling step on the floor in the hallway outside. The door creaked on its hinges as a second old man entered, even more hunched over, more wrinkled, and older than the first. He leaned on a crutch, his eyes covered by a shade, and his lower lip, slightly turned away, hung pale and pink from his decaying yellow teeth. He went straight to an armchair on the other side of the table, sat down awkwardly, and started to cough. The man with the withered hand gave the newcomer a brief look of clear dislike; the old woman didn’t acknowledge his arrival but kept her gaze fixed on the fire.
"I said—it's your own choosing," said the man with the withered hand, when the coughing had ceased for a while.
"I said—it's your own choice," said the man with the withered hand, when the coughing had stopped for a moment.
"It's my own choosing," I answered.
"It's my own choice," I replied.
The man with the shade became aware of my presence for the first time, and threw his head back for a moment, and sidewise, to see me. I caught a momentary glimpse of his eyes, small and bright and inflamed. Then he began to cough and splutter again.
The man in the hat noticed me for the first time, leaned his head back for a moment, and turned to look at me. I got a quick look at his eyes, which were small, bright, and bloodshot. Then he started coughing and spluttering again.
"Why don't you drink?" said the man with the withered arm, pushing the beer toward him. The man with the shade poured out a glassful with a shaking hand, that splashed half as much again on the deal table. A monstrous shadow of him crouched upon the wall, and mocked his action as he poured and drank. I must confess I had scarcely expected these grotesque custodians. There is, to my mind, something inhuman in senility, something crouching and atavistic; the human qualities seem to drop from old people insensibly day by day. The three of them made me feel uncomfortable with their gaunt silences, their bent carriage, their evident unfriendliness to me and to one another. And that night, perhaps, I was in the mood for uncomfortable impressions. I resolved to get away from their vague foreshadowings of the evil things upstairs.
"Why aren't you drinking?" the man with the withered arm asked, pushing the beer toward him. The man in the shade poured himself a glass with a shaking hand, spilling half of it on the tabletop. A huge shadow of him loomed on the wall, mocking his actions as he poured and drank. I have to admit I didn’t expect these bizarre guardians. To me, there's something inhuman about old age, something lurking and primitive; it seems like old people lose their human qualities little by little each day. The three of them made me uneasy with their hollow silences, slumped postures, and clear unfriendliness towards me and each other. Maybe that night, I was just not in the mood for discomforting situations. I decided I needed to escape their vague hints of the bad things happening upstairs.
"If," said I, "you will show me to this haunted room of yours, I will make myself comfortable there."
"If," I said, "you show me this haunted room of yours, I'll get comfortable there."
The old man with the cough jerked his head back so suddenly that it startled me, and shot another glance of his red eyes at me from out of the darkness under the shade, but no one answered me. I waited a minute, glancing from one to the other. The old woman stared like a dead body, glaring into the fire with lack-lustre eyes.
The old man with the cough suddenly jerked his head back, which startled me, and shot another look at me with his red eyes from the darkness under the shade, but no one replied. I waited for a minute, glancing from one person to another. The old woman stared like a corpse, glaring into the fire with dull eyes.
"If," I said, a little louder, "if you will show me to this haunted room of yours, I will relieve you from the task of entertaining me."
"If," I said, a bit louder, "if you show me to this haunted room of yours, I'll take the burden of entertaining me off your hands."
"There's a candle on the slab outside the door," said the man with the withered hand, looking at my feet as he addressed me. "But if you go to the Red Room to-night—"
"There's a candle on the slab outside the door," said the man with the thin hand, looking at my feet as he spoke to me. "But if you go to the Red Room tonight—"
"This night of all nights!" said the old woman, softly.
"This night of all nights!" the old woman said softly.
"—You go alone."
"—You’re going alone."
"Very well," I answered, shortly, "and which way do I go?"
"Alright," I replied briefly, "which way should I go?"
"You go along the passage for a bit," said he, nodding his head on his shoulder at the door, "until you come to a spiral staircase; and on the second landing is a door covered with green baize. Go through that, and down the long corridor to the end, and the Red Room is on your left up the steps."
"You walk down the hallway for a while," he said, nodding his head toward the door, "until you reach a spiral staircase; and on the second floor, there's a door covered with green fabric. Go through that, and down the long corridor to the end, and the Red Room is on your left at the top of the steps."
"Have I got that right?" I said, and repeated his directions.
"Did I get that right?" I asked, and repeated his instructions.
He corrected me in one particular.
He corrected me on one point.
"And you are really going?" said the man with the shade, looking at me again for the third time with that queer, unnatural tilting of the face.
"And you're really going?" said the man with the hat, looking at me yet again for the third time with that strange, unnatural tilt of his head.
"This night of all nights!" whispered the old woman.
"This night of all nights!" whispered the old woman.
"It is what I came for," I said, and moved toward the door. As I did so, the old man with the shade rose and staggered round the table, so as to be closer to the others and to the fire. At the door I turned and looked at them, and saw they were all close together, dark against the firelight, staring at me over their shoulders, with an intent expression on their ancient faces.
"It’s why I came here," I said, and walked toward the door. As I did, the old man with the glasses got up and stumbled around the table to get closer to the others and the fire. At the door, I turned and looked back at them, and saw they were all huddled together, silhouetted against the firelight, staring at me over their shoulders with focused expressions on their weathered faces.
"Good-night," I said, setting the door open.
"Good night," I said, holding the door open.
"It's your own choosing," said the man with the withered arm.
"It's your own choice," said the man with the withered arm.
I left the door wide open until the candle was well alight, and then I shut them in, and walked down the chilly, echoing passage.
I left the door wide open until the candle was lit, and then I closed it and walked down the cold, echoing hallway.
I must confess that the oddness of these three old pensioners in whose charge her ladyship had left the castle, and the deep-toned, old-fashioned furniture of the housekeeper's room, in which they foregathered, had affected me curiously in spite of my effort to keep myself at a matter-of-fact phase. They seemed to belong to another age, an older age, an age when things spiritual were indeed to be feared, when common sense was uncommon, an age when omens and witches were credible, and ghosts beyond denying. Their very existence, thought I, is spectral; the cut of their clothing, fashions born in dead brains; the ornaments and conveniences in the room about them even are ghostly—the thoughts of vanished men, which still haunt rather than participate in the world of to-day. And the passage I was in, long and shadowy, with a film of moisture glistening on the wall, was as gaunt and cold as a thing that is dead and rigid. But with an effort I sent such thoughts to the right-about. The long, drafty subterranean passage was chilly and dusty, and my candle flared and made the shadows cower and quiver. The echoes rang up and down the spiral staircase, and a shadow came sweeping up after me, and another fled before me into the darkness overhead. I came to the wide landing and stopped there for a moment listening to a rustling that I fancied I heard creeping behind me, and then, satisfied of the absolute silence, pushed open the unwilling baize-covered door and stood in the silent corridor.
I have to admit that the strangeness of these three elderly caretakers left in charge of the castle by her ladyship, along with the dark, old-fashioned furniture in the housekeeper's room where they gathered, oddly affected me, even though I tried to stay grounded. They seemed to belong to a different era—an older time when spiritual matters were genuinely feared, common sense was rare, and omens and witches seemed believable, while ghosts were undeniable. I thought, their very existence is ghostly; their clothing styles come from long-gone minds; even the decorations and furnishings in the room around them feel like remnants of the past, haunting rather than engaging with today's world. The corridor I was in, long and shadowy, with dampness glistening on the walls, felt as cold and lifeless as something dead and unmoving. But I pushed those thoughts away. The long, drafty underground passage was chilly and dusty, and my candle flickered, making the shadows jump and shake. The echoes traveled up and down the spiral staircase, and a shadow glided up behind me while another darted ahead into the darkness above. I reached the wide landing and paused there for a moment, listening for a rustling I thought I heard creeping up behind me. Once I was sure of the silence, I pushed open the reluctant baize-covered door and stood in the quiet corridor.
The effect was scarcely what I expected, for the moonlight, coming in by the great window on the grand staircase, picked out everything in vivid black shadow or reticulated silvery illumination. Everything seemed in its proper position; the house might have been deserted on the yesterday instead of twelve months ago. There were candles in the sockets of the sconces, and whatever dust had gathered on the carpets or upon the polished flooring was distributed so evenly as to be invisible in my candlelight. A waiting stillness was over everything. I was about to advance, and stopped abruptly. A bronze group stood upon the landing hidden from me by a corner of the wall; but its shadow fell with marvelous distinctness upon the white paneling, and gave me the impression of some one crouching to waylay me. The thing jumped upon my attention suddenly. I stood rigid for half a moment, perhaps. Then, with my hand in the pocket that held the revolver, I advanced, only to discover a Ganymede and Eagle, glistening in the moonlight. That incident for a time restored my nerve, and a dim porcelain Chinaman on a buhl table, whose head rocked as I passed, scarcely startled me.
The effect was hardly what I expected, as the moonlight coming through the big window on the grand staircase highlighted everything in sharp black shadows or shimmering silver light. Everything looked like it was in its right place; the house could have been deserted yesterday instead of a year ago. There were candles in the sconces, and any dust that had accumulated on the carpets or the polished floor was spread out so evenly that it was invisible in my candlelight. A quiet stillness hung over everything. I was about to move forward but suddenly stopped. A bronze statue stood on the landing, hidden from view by a corner of the wall; yet its shadow fell strikingly against the white paneling, giving me the feeling that someone was crouching there to ambush me. That caught my attention out of nowhere. I stood frozen for a moment, maybe half a second. Then, with my hand in the pocket where the revolver was, I moved closer, only to find a statue of Ganymede and the Eagle shining in the moonlight. That incident helped steady my nerves for a while, and a dim porcelain Chinese figure on a buhl table, whose head wobbled as I passed, barely startled me.
The door of the Red Room and the steps up to it were in a shadowy corner. I moved my candle from side to side in order to see clearly the nature of the recess in which I stood, before opening the door. Here it was, thought I, that my predecessor was found, and the memory of that story gave me a sudden twinge of apprehension. I glanced over my shoulder at the black Ganymede in the moonlight, and opened the door of the Red Room rather hastily, with my face half turned to the pallid silence of the corridor.
The door to the Red Room and the steps leading up to it were in a dim corner. I moved my candle back and forth to get a better look at the space I was in before opening the door. This was where my predecessor had been found, and remembering that story gave me an immediate rush of anxiety. I looked over my shoulder at the dark figure outside in the moonlight, then opened the door to the Red Room quickly, with my face partly turned towards the eerie silence of the hallway.
I entered, closed the door behind me at once, turned the key I found in the lock within, and stood with the candle held aloft surveying the scene of my vigil, the great Red Room of Lorraine Castle, in which the young Duke had died; or rather in which he had begun his dying, for he had opened the door and fallen headlong down the steps I had just ascended. That had been the end of his vigil, of his gallant attempt to conquer the ghostly tradition of the place, and never, I thought, had apoplexy better served the ends of superstition. There were other and older stories that clung to the room, back to the half-incredible beginning of it all, the tale of a timid wife and the tragic end that came to her husband's jest of frightening her. And looking round that huge shadowy room with its black window bays, its recesses and alcoves, its dusty brown-red hangings and dark gigantic furniture, one could well understand the legends that had sprouted in its black corners, its germinating darknesses. My candle was a little tongue of light in the vastness of the chamber; its rays failed to pierce to the opposite end of the room, and left an ocean of dull red mystery and suggestion, sentinel shadows and watching darknesses beyond its island of light. And the stillness of desolation brooded over it all.
I walked in, quickly shut the door behind me, turned the key I found in the lock inside, and stood there with the candle raised, taking in the scene of my watch in the great Red Room of Lorraine Castle, where the young Duke had died; or rather, where his dying had begun, since he had opened the door and tumbled headfirst down the steps I had just climbed. That had been the end of his vigil, his brave attempt to overcome the eerie tradition of the place, and I thought that never had a stroke been so useful for the purposes of superstition. There were other, older stories tied to the room, dating back to the half-unbelievable beginning of it all, the tale of a scared wife and the tragic outcome of her husband's prank to scare her. And as I looked around that vast shadowy room with its dark window alcoves, recesses, dusty brown-red drapes, and massive dark furniture, it was easy to see how the legends had taken root in its gloomy corners, its growing darkness. My candle was a small flicker of light in the enormous space; its glow couldn't reach the far end of the room, leaving a sea of dull red mystery and suggestion, watchful shadows, and lurking darkness beyond its island of light. And a stillness of desolation hung over everything.
I must confess some impalpable quality of that ancient room disturbed me. I tried to fight the feeling down. I resolved to make a systematic examination of the place, and so, by leaving nothing to the imagination, dispel the fanciful suggestions of the obscurity before they obtained a hold upon me. After satisfying myself of the fastening of the door, I began to walk round the room, peering round each article of furniture, tucking up the valances of the bed and opening its curtains wide. In one place there was a distinct echo to my footsteps, the noises I made seemed so little that they enhanced rather than broke the silence of the place. I pulled up the blinds and examined the fastenings of the several windows. Attracted by the fall of a particle of dust, I leaned forward and looked up the blackness of the wide chimney. Then, trying to preserve my scientific attitude of mind, I walked round and began tapping the oak paneling for any secret opening, but I desisted before reaching the alcove. I saw my face in a mirror—white.
I have to admit that something about that old room made me uneasy. I tried to push the feeling away. I decided to thoroughly check out the place, hoping that by leaving nothing to the imagination, I could get rid of the creepy thoughts before they took over. After confirming that the door was locked, I started walking around the room, examining each piece of furniture, lifting the bed's dust ruffles, and pulling the curtains wide open. In one spot, there was a distinct echo of my footsteps; the sounds I made seemed so minimal that they only amplified the silence around me. I pulled up the blinds and checked the locks on the various windows. Drawn in by a falling dust particle, I leaned forward and looked up into the darkness of the wide chimney. Then, trying to maintain my scientific mindset, I walked around and tapped on the oak paneling to find any hidden openings, but I stopped before reaching the alcove. I caught a glimpse of my reflection in the mirror—pale.
There were two big mirrors in the room, each with a pair of sconces bearing candles, and on the mantelshelf, too, were candles in china candlesticks. All these I lit one after the other. The fire was laid—an unexpected consideration from the old housekeeper—and I lit it, to keep down any disposition to shiver, and when it was burning well I stood round with my back to it and regarded the room again. I had pulled up a chintz-covered armchair and a table to form a kind of barricade before me. On this lay my revolver, ready to hand. My precise examination had done me a little good, but I still found the remoter darkness of the place and its perfect stillness too stimulating for the imagination. The echoing of the stir and crackling of the fire was no sort of comfort to me. The shadow in the alcove at the end of the room began to display that undefinable quality of a presence, that odd suggestion of a lurking living thing that comes so easily in silence and solitude. And to reassure myself, I walked with a candle into it and satisfied myself that there was nothing tangible there. I stood that candle upon the floor of the alcove and left it in that position.
There were two large mirrors in the room, each with a pair of sconces holding candles, and there were also candles in china candlesticks on the mantel. I lit them one by one. The fire was already set—an unexpected touch from the old housekeeper—and I lit it to stave off any chill, and when it was crackling away nicely, I turned my back to it and looked around the room again. I had pulled up a chintz-covered armchair and a table to create a sort of barrier in front of me. My revolver lay on it, within reach. My careful inspection had helped a bit, but I still found the deeper shadows of the room and its complete silence too stimulating for my imagination. The sounds of the fire crackling offered no comfort to me. The shadow in the alcove at the far end of the room started to take on that vague feeling of a presence, that strange suggestion of a hidden creature that can arise so easily in quiet and solitude. To reassure myself, I walked over with a candle to check it out and made sure there was nothing there. I placed that candle on the floor of the alcove and left it there.
By this time I was in a state of considerable nervous tension, although to my reason there was no adequate cause for my condition. My mind, however, was perfectly clear. I postulated quite unreservedly that nothing supernatural could happen, and to pass the time I began stringing some rhymes together, Ingoldsby fashion, concerning the original legend of the place. A few I spoke aloud, but the echoes were not pleasant. For the same reason I also abandoned, after a time, a conversation with myself upon the impossibility of ghosts and haunting. My mind reverted to the three old and distorted people downstairs, and I tried to keep it upon that topic.
By this point, I was really tense, even though I couldn’t find any good reason for feeling that way. My mind was completely clear, though. I confidently believed that nothing supernatural could happen, so to pass the time, I started putting some rhymes together in the style of Ingoldsby about the original legend of the place. I said a few out loud, but the echoes weren't nice. For the same reason, I also stopped, after a while, talking to myself about the impossibility of ghosts and hauntings. My thoughts went back to the three old, twisted people downstairs, and I tried to keep my focus on that topic.
The sombre reds and grays of the room troubled me; even with its seven candles the place was merely dim. The light in the alcove flaring in a draft, and the fire flickering, kept the shadows and penumbra perpetually shifting and stirring in a noiseless flighty dance. Casting about for a remedy, I recalled the wax candles I had seen in the corridor, and, with a slight effort, carrying a candle and leaving the door open, I walked out into the moonlight, and presently returned with as many as ten. These I put in the various knick-knacks of china with which the room was sparsely adorned, and lit and placed them where the shadows had lain deepest, some on the floor, some in the window recesses, arranging and rearranging them until at last my seventeen candles were so placed that not an inch of the room but had the direct light of at least one of them. It occurred to me that when the ghost came I could warn him not to trip over them. The room was now quite brightly illuminated. There was something very cheering and reassuring in these little silent streaming flames, and to notice their steady diminution of length offered me an occupation and gave me a reassuring sense of the passage of time.
The dark reds and grays of the room bothered me; even with seven candles, the place was still pretty dim. The light in the alcove flickered in a draft, and the fire danced, keeping the shadows continuously shifting in a silent, restless motion. Looking for a solution, I remembered the wax candles I had seen in the hallway, and with a bit of effort, I grabbed one and left the door open as I stepped into the moonlight, eventually coming back with ten candles. I placed them in the various pieces of china scattered around the room and lit them, putting them where the shadows were the darkest—some on the floor, some in the window alcoves—arranging and rearranging until my seventeen candles were positioned so that every inch of the room had the direct light from at least one of them. I thought that when the ghost showed up, I could warn him not to trip over them. The room was now brightly lit. There was something really uplifting and comforting about these little flames, and watching them slowly burn down gave me something to focus on and a reassuring sense of time passing.
Even with that, however, the brooding expectation of the vigil weighed heavily enough upon me. I stood watching the minute hand of my watch creep towards midnight.
Even with that, though, the tense anticipation of the vigil weighed heavily on me. I stood watching the minute hand of my watch slowly move towards midnight.
Then something happened in the alcove. I did not see the candle go out, I simply turned and saw that the darkness was there, as one might start and see the unexpected presence of a stranger. The black shadow had sprung back to its place. "By Jove," said I aloud, recovering from my surprise, "that draft's a strong one;" and taking the matchbox from the table, I walked across the room in a leisurely manner to relight the corner again. My first match would not strike, and as I succeeded with the second, something seemed to blink on the wall before me. I turned my head involuntarily and saw that the two candles on the little table by the fireplace were extinguished. I rose at once to my feet.
Then something happened in the alcove. I didn't see the candle go out; I just turned and noticed that darkness had filled the space, like when you suddenly realize there's an unexpected stranger nearby. The black shadow had returned to where it belonged. "Wow," I said out loud, shaking off my surprise, "that draft is powerful." I grabbed the matchbox from the table and casually walked across the room to relight the corner. My first match wouldn’t strike, and as I finally got the second one to work, something seemed to flicker on the wall in front of me. I turned my head without thinking and saw that the two candles on the small table by the fireplace were out. I immediately stood up.
"Odd," I said. "Did I do that myself in a flash of absent-mindedness?"
"That's strange," I said. "Did I really do that myself without thinking?"
I walked back, relit one, and as I did so I saw the candle in the right sconce of one of the mirrors wink and go right out, and almost immediately its companion followed it. The flames vanished as if the wick had been suddenly nipped between a finger and thumb, leaving the wick neither glowing nor smoking, but black. While I stood gaping the candle at the foot of the bed went out, and the shadows seemed to take another step toward me.
I walked back, lit one again, and as I did, I saw the candle in the right sconce of one of the mirrors flicker and go out, and almost immediately, its partner followed suit. The flames disappeared as if the wick had been abruptly pinched between two fingers, leaving the wick neither glowing nor smoking, but just black. While I stood there in disbelief, the candle at the foot of the bed went out, and the shadows seemed to creep a little closer to me.
"This won't do!" said I, and first one and then another candle on the mantelshelf followed.
"This won’t work!" I said, and one candle after another on the mantelpiece followed.
"What's up?" I cried, with a queer high note getting into my voice somehow. At that the candle on the corner of the wardrobe went out, and the one I had relit in the alcove followed.
"What's going on?" I shouted, with a strange high pitch creeping into my voice. At that, the candle on the corner of the wardrobe went out, and the one I had just relit in the alcove followed suit.
"Steady on!" I said, "those candles are wanted," speaking with a half-hysterical facetiousness, and scratching away at a match the while, "for the mantel candlesticks." My hands trembled so much that twice I missed the rough paper of the matchbox. As the mantel emerged from darkness again, two candles in the remoter end of the room were eclipsed. But with the same match I also relit the larger mirror candles, and those on the floor near the doorway, so that for the moment I seemed to gain on the extinctions. But then in a noiseless volley there vanished four lights at once in different corners of the room, and I struck another match in quivering haste, and stood hesitating whither to take it.
"Hold on!" I said, "we need those candles," saying it with a hint of frantic joking, while trying to strike a match, "for the mantel candlesticks." My hands shook so much that I missed the rough paper of the matchbox twice. As the mantel came back into view, two candles at the far end of the room went out. But with the same match, I also reignited the larger mirror candles and the ones on the floor by the doorway, so for a moment it felt like I was keeping up with the lights going out. Then, all at once, four lights vanished silently from different corners of the room, and I quickly struck another match, hesitating about where to use it.
As I stood undecided, an invisible hand seemed to sweep out the two candles on the table. With a cry of terror I dashed at the alcove, then into the corner and then into the window, relighting three as two more vanished by the fireplace, and then, perceiving a better way, I dropped matches on the iron-bound deedbox in the corner, and caught up the bedroom candlestick. With this I avoided the delay of striking matches, but for all that the steady process of extinction went on, and the shadows I feared and fought against returned, and crept in upon me, first a step gained on this side of me, then on that. I was now almost frantic with the horror of the coming darkness, and my self-possession deserted me. I leaped panting from candle to candle in a vain struggle against that remorseless advance.
As I stood there unsure, it felt like an invisible force snuffed out the two candles on the table. With a scream of fear, I rushed to the alcove, then to the corner, and finally to the window, lighting three candles as two more went out by the fireplace. Then, realizing there was a better way, I tossed matches on the iron-bound deed box in the corner and grabbed the bedroom candlestick. This way, I avoided the delay of striking matches, but still, the constant extinguishing continued, and the shadows I dreaded and fought against came back, creeping closer to me—first a step gained on one side, then on the other. I was almost frantic with the horror of the impending darkness, and I lost my composure. I dashed breathlessly from one candle to another in a futile battle against that relentless approach.
I bruised myself in the thigh against the table, I sent a chair headlong, I stumbled and fell and whisked the cloth from the table in my fall. My candle rolled away from me and I snatched another as I rose. Abruptly this was blown out as I swung it off the table by the wind of my sudden movement, and immediately the two remaining candles followed. But there was light still in the room, a red light, that streamed across the ceiling and staved off the shadows from me. The fire! Of course I could still thrust my candle between the bars and relight it!
I bumped my thigh against the table, knocked a chair over, tripped, and knocked the tablecloth off as I fell. My candle rolled away, so I grabbed another one as I got up. Suddenly, the wind from my quick movement blew it out, and right after, the two candles left on the table went out too. But there was still light in the room, a red glow that spread across the ceiling and kept the shadows at bay. The fire! I could still stick my candle between the bars and relight it!
I turned to where the flames were still dancing between the glowing coals and splashing red reflections upon the furniture; made two steps toward the grate, and incontinently the flames dwindled and vanished, the glow vanished, the reflections rushed together and disappeared, and as I thrust the candle between the bars darkness closed upon me like the shutting of an eye, wrapped about me in a stifling embrace, sealed my vision, and crushed the last vestiges of self-possession from my brain. And it was not only palpable darkness, but intolerable terror. The candle fell from my hands. I flung out my arms in a vain effort to thrust that ponderous blackness away from me, and lifting up my voice, screamed with all my might, once, twice, thrice. Then I think I must have staggered to my feet. I know I thought suddenly of the moonlit corridor, and with my head bowed and my arms over my face, made a stumbling run for the door.
I turned to where the flames were still flickering among the glowing coals, casting red reflections on the furniture. I took two steps toward the fireplace, and suddenly the flames faded and disappeared, the glow vanished, and the reflections merged and vanished as well. When I pushed the candle between the bars, darkness closed in on me like the blink of an eye, wrapping around me in a suffocating grip, blocking my sight, and squeezing the last remnants of control from my mind. It wasn't just pitch black; it was unbearable fear. The candle slipped from my hands. I threw my arms out in a useless attempt to push that heavy darkness away from me and, raising my voice, screamed as loud as I could, once, twice, three times. Then I think I must have stumbled to my feet. I suddenly recalled the moonlit hallway, and with my head down and my arms over my face, I made a clumsy dash for the door.
But I had forgotten the exact position of the door, and I struck myself heavily against the corner of the bed. I staggered back, turned, and was either struck or struck myself against some other bulky furnishing. I have a vague memory of battering myself thus to and fro in the darkness, of a heavy blow at last upon my forehead, of a horrible sensation of falling that lasted an age, of my last frantic effort to keep my footing, and then I remember no more.
But I had lost track of where the door was, and I slammed into the corner of the bed hard. I stumbled back, turned, and either got hit by or bumped into some other large piece of furniture. I have a vague memory of crashing around in the dark, of a heavy hit on my forehead, of a terrible feeling of falling that seemed to go on forever, of my last desperate attempt to stay upright, and then I remember nothing more.
I opened my eyes in daylight. My head was roughly bandaged, and the man with the withered hand was watching my face. I looked about me trying to remember what had happened, and for a space I could not recollect. I rolled my eyes into the corner and saw the old woman, no longer abstracted, no longer terrible, pouring out some drops of medicine from a little blue phial into a glass. "Where am I?" I said. "I seem to remember you, and yet I can not remember who you are."
I opened my eyes to the daylight. My head was wrapped in a rough bandage, and the man with the withered hand was watching me. I looked around, trying to remember what had happened, but for a moment I couldn't recall anything. I turned my eyes to the corner and saw the old woman, no longer lost in thought, no longer frightening, pouring some drops of medicine from a small blue vial into a glass. "Where am I?" I asked. "I feel like I recognize you, but I can't remember who you are."
They told me then, and I heard of the haunted Red Room as one who hears a tale. "We found you at dawn," said he, "and there was blood on your forehead and lips."
They told me then, and I heard about the haunted Red Room like someone listening to a story. "We found you at dawn," he said, "and there was blood on your forehead and lips."
I wondered that I had ever disliked him. The three of them in the daylight seemed commonplace old folk enough. The man with the green shade had his head bent as one who sleeps.
I was surprised I had ever disliked him. The three of them in the daylight looked like ordinary old people. The man with the green shade had his head down as if he were asleep.
It was very slowly I recovered the memory of my experience. "You believe now," said the old man with the withered hand, "that the room is haunted?" He spoke no longer as one who greets an intruder, but as one who condoles with a friend.
It was only gradually that I remembered what I had gone through. "So, you believe now," said the old man with the frail hand, "that the room is haunted?" He no longer spoke like someone addressing an unwelcome guest, but like someone comforting a friend.
"Yes," said I, "the room is haunted."
"Yeah," I said, "the room is haunted."
"And you have seen it. And we who have been here all our lives have never set eyes upon it. Because we have never dared. Tell us, is it truly the old earl who—"
"And you've seen it. And we who have lived here our whole lives have never laid eyes on it. Because we never dared. Tell us, is it really the old earl who—"
"No," said I, "it is not."
"No," I said, "it's not."
"I told you so," said the old lady, with the glass in her hand. "It is his poor young countess who was frightened—"
"I told you so," the old lady said, holding the glass in her hand. "It was his poor young countess who was scared—"
"It is not," I said. "There is neither ghost of earl nor ghost of countess in that room; there is no ghost there at all, but worse, far worse, something impalpable—"
"It is not," I said. "There’s no ghost of an earl or a countess in that room; there’s no ghost there at all, but worse, much worse, something intangible—"
"Well?" they said.
"What's up?" they said.
"The worst of all the things that haunt poor mortal men," said I; "and that is, in all its nakedness—'Fear!' Fear that will not have light nor sound, that will not bear with reason, that deafens and darkens and overwhelms. It followed me through the corridor, it fought against me in the room—"
"The worst of all the things that haunt poor mortal men," I said, "is, in all its rawness—'Fear!' Fear that won't accept light or sound, that won't listen to reason, that deafens, darkens, and overwhelms. It chased me down the hallway, it battled me in the room—"
I stopped abruptly. There was an interval of silence. My hand went up to my bandages. "The candles went out one after another, and I fled—"
I stopped suddenly. There was a moment of silence. My hand reached up to my bandages. "The candles extinguished one by one, and I ran—"
Then the man with the shade lifted his face sideways to see me and spoke.
Then the man with the hat turned his face to the side to look at me and spoke.
"That is it," said he. "I knew that was it. A Power of Darkness. To put such a curse upon a home! It lurks there always. You can feel it even in the daytime, even of a bright summer's day, in the hangings, in the curtains, keeping behind you however you face about. In the dusk it creeps in the corridor and follows you, so that you dare not turn. It is even as you say. Fear itself is in that room. Black Fear... And there it will be ... so long as this house of sin endures."
"That's it," he said. "I knew that was it. A Power of Darkness. To put such a curse on a home! It’s always lurking there. You can feel it even during the day, even on a bright summer day, in the decorations, in the curtains, always right behind you no matter how you turn. In the twilight, it creeps down the hallway and follows you, making you too afraid to look back. It's just as you said. Fear itself is in that room. Black Fear... And it will stay there... as long as this house of sin lasts."
THE PHANTOM 'RICKSHAW
BY RUDYARD KIPLING
BY RUDYARD KIPLING
Joseph Rudyard Kipling was born in Bombay in 1865. The grandson of a clergyman, both on his father's and mother's side, he was educated in England and served his apprenticeship as a writer on the newspapers in India. No man ever tried harder to convey to his reader the sensation and very pulse of life that he himself felt than did Kipling in his early work, of which "The Phantom 'Rickshaw" is a well-known example. Though he is undoubtedly one of the great writers of short stories, we are still too near him to be able to clearly appreciate his great talents.
Joseph Rudyard Kipling was born in Bombay in 1865. The grandson of clergymen on both his father’s and mother’s sides, he was educated in England and started his writing career at newspapers in India. No one worked harder to share the feelings and vibrancy of life he experienced than Kipling in his early work, with "The Phantom 'Rickshaw" being a famous example. While he is definitely one of the great writers of short stories, we’re still too close to him to fully appreciate his immense talents.
THE PHANTOM 'RICKSHAW
THE PHANTOM RICKSHAW
By RUDYARD KIPLING
By Rudyard Kipling
My doctor tells me that I need rest and change of air. It is not improbable that I shall get both ere long—rest that neither the red-coated messenger nor the midday gun can break, and change of air far beyond that which any homeward-bound steamer can give me. In the meantime, I am resolved to stay where I am; and, in flat defiance of my doctor's orders, to take all the world into my confidence. You shall learn for yourselves the precise nature of my malady; and shall, too, judge for yourselves whether any man born of woman on this weary earth was ever so tormented as I.
My doctor tells me that I need rest and a change of scenery. It’s not unlikely that I’ll get both soon—a kind of rest that neither the messenger in a red coat nor the midday cannon can disturb, and a change of air that far exceeds what any homeward-bound ship can offer me. In the meantime, I’m determined to stay where I am; and, in complete defiance of my doctor’s orders, I’m going to share everything with the world. You will learn for yourselves the exact nature of my illness; and you can also decide for yourselves whether any man born from a woman on this weary earth has ever been as tormented as I am.
Speaking now as a condemned criminal might speak ere the drop-bolts are drawn, my story, wild and hideously improbable as it may appear, demands at least attention. That it will ever receive credence I utterly disbelieve. Two months ago I should have scouted as mad or drunk the man who had dared tell me the like. Two months ago I was the happiest man in India. To-day, from Peshawur to the sea, there is no one more wretched. My doctor and I are the only two who know this. His explanation is, that my brain, digestion, and eyesight are all slightly affected; giving rise to my frequent and persistent "delusions." Delusions, indeed! I call him a fool; but he attends me still with the same unwearied smile, the same bland professional manner, the same neatly trimmed red whiskers, till I begin to suspect that I am an ungrateful, evil-tempered invalid. But you shall judge for yourselves.
Speaking now as a condemned criminal might before the trapdoor is opened, my story, wild and disturbingly unlikely as it may seem, deserves at least some attention. That it will ever be believed, I completely doubt. Two months ago, I would have thought the man who told me something like this was insane or drunk. Two months ago, I was the happiest man in India. Today, from Peshawar to the sea, there is no one more miserable. My doctor and I are the only two who know this. His explanation is that my brain, digestion, and eyesight are all slightly off; leading to my frequent and persistent "delusions." Delusions, indeed! I think he’s a fool; but he still treats me with the same tireless smile, the same smooth professional demeanor, and the same neatly trimmed red whiskers, until I start to think that I am an ungrateful, bad-tempered patient. But you can judge for yourselves.
Three years ago it was my fortune—my great misfortune—to sail from Gravesend to Bombay, on return from long leave, with one Agnes Keith-Wessington, wife of an officer on the Bombay side. It does not in the least concern you to know what manner of woman she was. Be content with the knowledge that, ere the voyage had ended, both she and I were desperately and unreasonably in love with each other. Heaven knows that I can make the admission now without one particle of vanity. In matters of this sort there is always one who gives and another who accepts. From the first day of our ill-omened attachment, I was conscious that Agnes's passion was a stronger, a more dominant, and—if I may use the expression—a purer sentiment than mine. Whether she recognized the fact then, I do not know. Afterward it was bitterly plain to both of us.
Three years ago, I experienced what I can only call my great misfortune—sailing from Gravesend to Bombay on my way back from a long leave, alongside one Agnes Keith-Wessington, who was the wife of an officer stationed in Bombay. It doesn't really matter to you what kind of woman she was. Just know that by the end of the voyage, both she and I were deeply and irrationally in love with each other. I can honestly admit that now without any hint of vanity. In these situations, there's usually one person who gives and another who takes. From the very first day of our ill-fated attachment, I could tell that Agnes's feelings ran deeper, were more intense, and—if I may put it this way—were a purer emotion than mine. Whether she realized that at the time, I can't say. Later on, it became painfully clear to both of us.
Arrived at Bombay in the spring of the year, we went our respective ways, to meet no more for the next three or four months, when my leave and her love took us both to Simla. There we spent the season together; and there my fire of straw burned itself out to a pitiful end with the closing year. I attempt no excuse. I make no apology. Mrs. Wessington had given up much for my sake, and was prepared to give up all. From my own lips, in August, 1882, she learned that I was sick of her presence, tired of her company, and weary of the sound of her voice. Ninety-nine women out of a hundred would have wearied of me as I wearied of them; seventy-five of that number would have promptly avenged themselves by active and obtrusive flirtation with other men. Mrs. Wessington was the hundredth. On her neither my openly expressed aversion nor the cutting brutalities with which I garnished our interviews had the least effect.
Arriving in Bombay in the spring, we went our separate ways and wouldn't see each other again for three or four months, until my leave and her love brought us both to Simla. We spent the season together there, and my fleeting passion faded away miserably as the year came to a close. I make no excuses. I offer no apologies. Mrs. Wessington had sacrificed a lot for me and was willing to give up everything. In August 1882, she heard from me that I was tired of her presence, fed up with her company, and weary of her voice. Ninety-nine out of a hundred women would have grown tired of me just as I had of them; seventy-five of them would have quickly sought revenge by flirting openly with other men. Mrs. Wessington was the exception. Neither my expressed dislike nor the harshness I brought to our conversations made any difference to her.
"Jack, darling!" was her one eternal cuckoo cry, "I'm sure it's all a mistake—a hideous mistake; and we'll be good friends again some day. Please forgive me, Jack dear."
"Jack, sweetheart!" was her one constant desperate plea, "I'm sure it's all a misunderstanding—a terrible misunderstanding; and we'll be good friends again someday. Please forgive me, Jack dear."
I was the offender, and I knew it. That knowledge transformed my pity into passive endurance, and, eventually, into blind hate—the same instinct, I suppose, which prompts a man to savagely stamp on the spider he has but half killed. And with this hate in my bosom the season of 1882 came to an end.
I was the one at fault, and I was aware of it. That realization changed my sympathy into silent acceptance, and eventually, into mindless hate—the same instinct, I guess, that drives someone to ruthlessly stomp on a spider they’ve only half killed. And with this hate in my heart, the year 1882 came to a close.
Next year we met again at Simla—she with her monotonous face and timid attempts at reconciliation, and I with loathing of her in every fibre of my frame. Several times I could not avoid meeting her alone; and on each occasion her words were identically the same. Still the unreasoning wail that it was all a "mistake"; and still the hope of eventually "making friends." I might have seen, had I cared to look, that that hope only was keeping her alive. She grew more wan and thin month by month. You will agree with me, at least, that such conduct would have driven any one to despair. It was uncalled for; childish; unwomanly. I maintain that she was much to blame. And again, sometimes, in the black, fever-stricken night-watches, I have begun to think that I might have been a little kinder to her. But that really is a "delusion." I could not have continued pretending to love her when I didn't; could I? It would have been unfair to us both.
Next year, we met again in Simla—she with her monotonous face and timid attempts at reconciliation, and I with a deep loathing for her in every fiber of my being. Several times, I couldn't avoid being alone with her, and each time her words were exactly the same. Still the unreasonable wail that it was all a "mistake," and still the hope of eventually "making friends." I might have seen, had I cared to look, that that hope was all that was keeping her alive. She grew more pale and thin month by month. You would agree with me that such behavior would drive anyone to despair. It was unnecessary, childish, and unladylike. I believe she shares much of the blame. And sometimes, during those dark, feverish nights, I have started to think I could have been a little kinder to her. But that's really a "delusion." I couldn't keep pretending to love her when I didn't, could I? It would have been unfair to both of us.
Last year we met again—on the same terms as before. The same weary appeals, and the same curt answers from my lips. At least I would make her see how wholly wrong and hopeless were her attempts at resuming the old relationship. As the season wore on, we fell apart—that is to say, she found it difficult to meet me, for I had other and more absorbing interests to attend to. When I think it over quietly in my sick-room, the season of 1884 seems a confused nightmare wherein light and shade were fantastically intermingled—my courtship of little Kitty Mannering; my hopes, doubts, and fears; our long rides together; my trembling avowal of attachment; her reply; and now and again a vision of a white face flitting by in the 'rickshaw with the black and white liveries I once watched for so earnestly; the wave of Mrs. Wessington's gloved hand; and, when she met me alone, which was but seldom, the irksome monotony of her appeal. I loved Kitty Mannering; honestly, heartily loved her, and with my love for her grew my hatred for Agnes. In August, Kitty and I were engaged. The next day I met those accursed "magpie" jhampanies at the back of Jakko, and, moved by some passing sentiment of pity, stopped to tell Mrs. Wessington everything. She knew it already.
Last year we ran into each other again—just like before. The same tired pleas and the same short answers from me. I wanted to make her understand how completely wrong and futile her attempts to revive our old relationship were. As the season went on, we drifted apart—that is, she found it hard to meet up with me since I had other, more engaging interests to focus on. When I think back on it quietly in my sick room, the season of 1884 feels like a confusing nightmare where light and dark were strangely mixed together—my courtship of little Kitty Mannering; my hopes, doubts, and fears; our long rides together; my nervous confession of feelings; her response; and now and then, a glimpse of a white face passing by in the rickshaw with the black and white liveries I used to watch for so closely; the wave of Mrs. Wessington's gloved hand; and, when she did see me alone, which wasn’t often, the tedious repetition of her request. I loved Kitty Mannering; I truly, wholeheartedly loved her, and as my love for her grew, so did my hatred for Agnes. In August, Kitty and I got engaged. The next day, I ran into those annoying "magpie" jhampanies at the back of Jakko and, feeling a moment of pity, stopped to tell Mrs. Wessington everything. She already knew.
"So I hear you're engaged, Jack dear." Then, without a moment's pause—"I'm sure it's all a mistake—a hideous mistake. We shall be as good friends some day, Jack, as we ever were."
"So I hear you're engaged, Jack, dear." Then, without skipping a beat—"I'm sure it's all a mistake—a terrible mistake. We'll be as good friends someday, Jack, as we ever were."
My answer might have made even a man wince. It cut the dying woman before me like the blow of a whip. "Please forgive me, Jack; I didn't mean to make you angry; but it's true, it's true!"
My answer might have made even a man flinch. It struck the dying woman in front of me like a whip. "Please forgive me, Jack; I didn’t mean to upset you; but it’s true, it’s true!"
And Mrs. Wessington broke down completely. I turned away and left her to finish her journey in peace, feeling, but only for a moment or two, that I had been an unutterably mean hound. I looked back, and saw that she had turned her 'rickshaw with the idea, I suppose, of overtaking me.
And Mrs. Wessington completely fell apart. I turned away and let her finish her journey in peace, feeling, if only for a moment or two, that I had been an utterly awful person. I looked back and saw that she had turned her rickshaw, probably thinking about catching up to me.
The scene and its surroundings were photographed on my memory. The rain-swept sky (we were at the end of the wet weather), the sodden, dingy pines, the muddy road, and the black powder-riven cliffs formed a gloomy background against which the black and white liveries of the jhampanies, the yellow-paneled 'rickshaw and Mrs. Wessington's down-bowed golden head stood out clearly. She was holding her handkerchief in her left hand and was leaning back exhausted against the 'rickshaw cushions. I turned my horse up a by-path near the Sanjoylie Reservoir and literally ran away. Once I fancied I heard a faint call of "Jack!" This may have been imagination. I never stopped to verify it. Ten minutes later I came across Kitty on horseback; and, in the delight of a long ride with her, forgot all about the interview.
The scene and its surroundings were etched in my memory. The rain-soaked sky (we were at the tail end of the rainy season), the wet, dreary pines, the muddy road, and the charred cliffs created a gloomy backdrop against which the black and white uniforms of the jhampanies, the yellow-paneled rickshaw, and Mrs. Wessington's bowed golden head stood out sharply. She was holding her handkerchief in her left hand and leaning back, exhausted, against the rickshaw cushions. I took my horse up a side path near the Sanjoylie Reservoir and literally ran away. For a moment, I thought I heard a faint call of "Jack!" but that might have just been my imagination. I never stopped to check. Ten minutes later, I ran into Kitty on horseback, and in the joy of a long ride with her, I forgot all about the meeting.
A week later Mrs. Wessington died, and the inexpressible burden of her existence was removed from my life. I went plainsward perfectly happy. Before three months were over I had forgotten all about her, except that at times the discovery of some of her old letters reminded me unpleasantly of our bygone relationship. By January I had disinterred what was left of our correspondence from among my scattered belongings and had burned it. At the beginning of April of this year, 1885, I was at Simla—semi-deserted Simla—once more, and was deep in lover's talks and walks with Kitty. It was decided that we should be married at the end of June. You will understand, therefore, that, loving Kitty as I did, I am not saying too much when I pronounce myself to have been, at that time, the happiest man in India.
A week later, Mrs. Wessington passed away, and the heavy burden of her presence was lifted from my life. I felt completely happy moving away from it all. Within three months, I had forgotten about her entirely, except that occasionally finding some of her old letters would unpleasantly remind me of our past. By January, I had dug up what was left of our correspondence from my scattered belongings and had burned it. At the beginning of April this year, 1885, I found myself back in Simla—partially deserted Simla—once again, and was immersed in romantic conversations and walks with Kitty. We decided we would get married at the end of June. So, you can understand that, loving Kitty as I did, I’m not exaggerating when I say I was, at that time, the happiest man in India.
Fourteen delightful days passed almost before I noticed their flight. Then, aroused to the sense of what was proper among mortals circumstanced as we were, I pointed out to Kitty that an engagement-ring was the outward and visible sign of her dignity as an engaged girl; and that she must forthwith come to Hamilton's to be measured for one. Up to that moment, I give you my word, we had completely forgotten so trivial a matter. To Hamilton's we accordingly went on the 15th of April, 1885. Remember that—whatever my doctor may say to the contrary—I was then in perfect health, enjoying a well-balanced mind and an absolutely tranquil spirit. Kitty and I entered Hamilton's shop together, and there, regardless of the order of affairs, I measured Kitty for the ring in the presence of the amused assistant. The ring was a sapphire with two diamonds. We then rode out down the slope that leads to the Combermere Bridge and Peliti's shop.
Fourteen wonderful days went by almost without me realizing it. Then, aware of what was proper for people in our situation, I pointed out to Kitty that an engagement ring was the outward sign of her dignity as an engaged girl, and she needed to go to Hamilton's to get measured for one right away. Up until that moment, I swear, we had completely forgotten such a trivial detail. So, we went to Hamilton's on April 15, 1885. Just so you know—no matter what my doctor might say—I was in perfect health at the time, enjoying a clear mind and a completely calm spirit. Kitty and I walked into Hamilton's shop together, and there, without following any any particular order, particular I measured Kitty for the ring while the amused assistant looked on. The ring was a sapphire surrounded by two diamonds. After that, we rode down the slope toward the Combermere Bridge and Peliti's shop.
While my waler was cautiously feeling his way over the loose shale, and Kitty was laughing and chattering at my side—while all Simla, that is to say as much of it as had then come from the plains, was grouped round the reading-room and Peliti's veranda—I was aware that some one, apparently at a vast distance, was calling me by my Christian name. It struck me that I had heard the voice before, but when and where I could not at once determine. In the short space it took to cover the road between the path from Hamilton's shop and the first plank of the Combermere Bridge I had thought over half a dozen people who might have committed such a solecism, and had eventually decided that it must have been some singing in my ears. Immediately opposite Peliti's shop my eye was arrested by the sight of four jhampanies in "magpie" livery, pulling a yellow-paneled, cheap, bazaar 'rickshaw. In a moment my mind flew back to the previous season and Mrs. Wessington with a sense of irritation and disgust. Was it not enough that the woman was dead and done with, without her black and white servitors reappearing to spoil the day's happiness? Whoever employed them now I thought I would call upon, and ask as a personal favor to change her jhampanies' livery. I would hire the men myself, and, if necessary, buy their coats from off their backs. It is impossible to say here what a flood of undesirable memories their presence evoked.
While my horse was carefully making its way over the loose gravel, and Kitty was laughing and chatting beside me—while all of Simla, or at least everyone who had come up from the plains, was gathered around the reading room and Peliti's veranda—I realized that someone, seemingly from far away, was calling me by my first name. It struck me that I had heard that voice before, but I couldn't pinpoint when or where. In the brief moment it took to walk from Hamilton's shop to the first plank of the Combermere Bridge, I considered half a dozen people who might have made such a mistake and concluded that it must have just been some ringing in my ears. Right across from Peliti's shop, I was drawn to the sight of four porters in "magpie" uniforms pulling a yellow-paneled, cheap bazaar rickshaw. Instantly, my mind flashed back to the previous season and Mrs. Wessington, bringing with it a feeling of irritation and disgust. Was it not enough that the woman was gone, without her black and white servants reappearing to ruin my day? I thought I would seek out whoever was employing them and ask as a personal favor for them to change the porters' uniforms. I would even hire the men myself or, if necessary, buy the coats right off their backs. It's hard to explain here just how many unwanted memories their presence stirred up.
"Kitty," I cried, "there are poor Mrs. Wessington's jhampanies turned up again! I wonder who has them now?"
"Kitty," I exclaimed, "Mrs. Wessington's jhampanies have shown up again! I wonder who has them now?"
Kitty had known Mrs. Wessington slightly last season, and had always been interested in the sickly woman.
Kitty had known Mrs. Wessington a bit last season and had always been curious about the frail woman.
"What? Where?" she asked. "I can't see them anywhere."
"What? Where?" she asked. "I can't see them anywhere."
Even as she spoke, her horse, swerving from a laden mule, threw himself directly in front of the advancing 'rickshaw. I had scarcely time to utter a word of warning when, to my unutterable horror, horse and rider passed through men and carriage as if they had been thin air.
Even as she was talking, her horse, dodging a heavily-loaded mule, jumped right in front of the oncoming rickshaw. I barely had time to say a word of warning when, to my absolute horror, horse and rider went straight through people and the carriage as if they were made of thin air.
"What's the matter?" cried Kitty; "what made you call out so foolishly, Jack? If I am engaged I don't want all creation to know about it. There was lots of space between the mule and the veranda; and, if you think I can't ride—There!"
"What's wrong?" shouted Kitty. "Why did you shout like that, Jack? If I’m engaged, I don’t want the whole world to know about it. There was plenty of space between the mule and the porch, and if you think I can’t ride—See!"
Whereupon wilful Kitty set off, her dainty little head in the air, at a hand-gallop in the direction of the band-stand; fully expecting, as she herself afterward told me, that I should follow her. What was the matter? Nothing indeed. Either that I was mad or drunk, or that Simla was haunted with devils. I reined in my impatient cob, and turned round. The 'rickshaw had turned too, and now stood immediately facing me, near the left railing of the Combermere Bridge.
So, stubborn Kitty took off, her head held high, galloping toward the bandstand, fully expecting, as she later told me, that I would follow her. What was wrong? Nothing at all. Either I was crazy or drunk, or Simla was cursed with demons. I pulled back my restless horse and turned around. The rickshaw had turned as well and was now directly facing me, near the left railing of Combermere Bridge.
"Jack! Jack, darling!" (There was no mistake about the words this time; they rang through my brain as if they had been shouted in my ear.) "It's some hideous mistake, I'm sure. Please forgive me, Jack, and let's be friends again."
"Jack! Jack, honey!" (There was no doubt about the words this time; they echoed in my mind as if they had been yelled in my ear.) "It's some awful mistake, I know it. Please forgive me, Jack, and let's be friends again."
The 'rickshaw-hood had fallen back, and inside, as I hope and pray daily for the death I dread by night, sat Mrs. Keith-Wessington, handkerchief in hand, and golden head bowed on her breast.
The rickshaw hood had fallen back, and inside, as I hope and pray every day for the death I fear at night, sat Mrs. Keith-Wessington, handkerchief in hand, her golden head bowed on her chest.
How long I stared motionless I do not know. Finally, I was aroused by my syce taking the waler's bridle and asking whether I was ill. From the horrible to the commonplace is but a step. I tumbled off my horse and dashed, half fainting, into Peliti's for a glass of cherry brandy. There two or three couples were gathered round the coffee-tables discussing the gossip of the day. Their trivialities were more comforting to me just then than the consolations of religion could have been. I plunged into the midst of the conversation at once; chatted, laughed, and jested with a face (when I caught a glimpse of it in a mirror) as white and drawn as that of a corpse. Three or four men noticed my condition; and, evidently setting it down to the results of overmany pegs, charitably endeavored to draw me apart from the rest of the loungers. But I refused to be led away. I wanted the company of my kind—as a child rushes into the midst of the dinner party after a fright in the dark. I must have talked for about ten minutes or so, though it seemed an eternity to me, when I heard Kitty's clear voice outside inquiring for me. In another minute she had entered the shop, prepared to roundly upbraid me for failing so signally in my duties. Something in my face stopped her.
I’m not sure how long I stared without moving. Eventually, my syce took the waler’s bridle and asked if I was okay. The jump from the horrible to the ordinary is just a small step. I fell off my horse and rushed, feeling faint, into Peliti’s for a glass of cherry brandy. Inside, a couple of groups were gathered around the coffee tables chatting about the day’s gossip. Their trivial conversations were more comforting to me at that moment than anything religious could have been. I jumped right into the conversation, chatting, laughing, and joking with a face (when I caught a glimpse of it in a mirror) as pale and drawn as a corpse. A few men noticed how I looked and, thinking it was just too many drinks, tried to pull me aside from the others. But I didn’t want to be led away. I craved the company of people—just like a child jumps into the middle of a dinner party after a scare in the dark. I must have talked for about ten minutes, though it felt like an eternity to me, when I heard Kitty’s clear voice outside asking for me. Within a minute, she walked into the shop, ready to scold me for failing so drastically in my duties. Something in my face made her stop.
"Why, Jack," she cried, "what have you been doing? What has happened? Are you ill?" Thus driven into a direct lie, I said that the sun had been a little too much for me. It was close upon five o'clock of a cloudy April afternoon, and the sun had been hidden all day. I saw my mistake as soon as the words were out of my mouth; attempted to recover it; blundered hopelessly and followed Kitty, in a regal rage, out-of-doors, amid the smiles of my acquaintances. I made some excuse (I have forgotten what) on the score of my feeling faint; and cantered away to my hotel, leaving Kitty to finish the ride by herself.
"Why, Jack," she exclaimed, "what have you been up to? What’s going on? Are you okay?" Caught in a direct lie, I said that the sun had been a bit too much for me. It was nearly five o'clock on a cloudy April afternoon, and the sun had been hidden all day. I realized my mistake as soon as the words left my mouth; I tried to fix it, but fumbled hopelessly and followed Kitty, in a royal rage, outside, with the amused looks of my friends on me. I made some excuse (I can't remember what) about feeling faint; then I rode off to my hotel, leaving Kitty to finish the ride on her own.
In my room I sat down and tried calmly to reason out the matter. Here was I, Theobald Jack Pansay, a well-educated Bengal civilian in the year of grace 1885, presumably sane, certainly healthy, driven in terror from my sweetheart's side by the apparition of a woman who had been dead and buried eight months ago. These were facts that I could not blink. Nothing was further from my thought than any memory of Mrs. Wessington when Kitty and I left Hamilton's shop. Nothing was more utterly commonplace than the stretch of wall opposite Peliti's. It was broad daylight. The road was full of people; and yet here, look you, in defiance of every law of probability, in direct outrage of Nature's ordinance, there had appeared to me a face from the grave.
In my room, I sat down and tried to calmly figure things out. Here I was, Theobald Jack Pansay, a well-educated civil servant from Bengal in 1885, presumably sane, definitely healthy, but terrified and driven away from my girlfriend by the appearance of a woman who had been dead and buried for eight months. These were facts I couldn't ignore. I had no thoughts of Mrs. Wessington when Kitty and I left Hamilton's shop. The stretch of wall across from Peliti's was completely ordinary. It was broad daylight. The street was full of people; and yet, there I was, against all odds, confronted by a face from the grave.
Kitty's Arab had gone through the 'rickshaw; so that my first hope that some woman marvelously like Mrs. Wessington had hired the carriage and the coolies with their old livery was lost. Again and again I went round this treadmill of thought; and again and again gave up, baffled and in despair. The voice was as inexplicable as the apparition. I had originally some wild notion of confiding it all to Kitty; of begging her to marry me at once; and in her arms defying the ghostly occupant of the 'rickshaw. "After all," I argued, "the presence of the 'rickshaw is in itself enough to prove the existence of a spectral illusion. One may see ghosts of men and women, but surely never of coolies and carriages. The whole thing is absurd. Fancy the ghost of a hill-man!"
Kitty's Arab had passed by the 'rickshaw, so my first hope that some woman who resembled Mrs. Wessington had hired the carriage and the coolies in their old uniforms faded away. I kept going around this cycle of thinking; and time and again, I gave up, confused and hopeless. The voice was just as mysterious as the apparition. I had once fancied sharing everything with Kitty; pleading with her to marry me right away; and in her arms, challenging the ghostly figure in the 'rickshaw. "After all," I reasoned, "the presence of the 'rickshaw itself is enough to suggest a spectral illusion. You might see ghosts of men and women, but definitely not of coolies and carriages. The whole thing is ridiculous. Imagine the ghost of a hill-man!"
Next morning I sent a penitent note to Kitty, imploring her to overlook my strange conduct of the previous afternoon. My divinity was still very wroth, and a personal apology was necessary. I explained, with a fluency born of night-long pondering over a falsehood, that I had been attacked with a sudden palpitation of the heart—the result of indigestion. This eminently practical solution had its effect; and Kitty and I rode out that afternoon with the shadow of my first lie dividing us.
The next morning, I sent a heartfelt note to Kitty, asking her to forgive my odd behavior from the day before. My angel was still very upset, so I needed to apologize in person. I explained, with a smoothness that came from thinking about my excuse all night, that I had suddenly experienced heart palpitations due to indigestion. This practical explanation worked; and Kitty and I went out riding that afternoon with the weight of my first lie hanging over us.
Nothing could please her save a canter round Jakko. With my nerves still unstrung from the previous night, I feebly protested against the notion, suggesting Observatory Hill, Jutogh, the Boileaugunge road—anything rather than the Jakko round. Kitty was angry and a little hurt; so I yielded from fear of provoking further misunderstanding, and we set out together toward Chota Simla. We walked a greater part of the way, and, according to our custom, cantered from a mile or so below the convent to the stretch of level road by the Sanjowlie Reservoir. The wretched horses appeared to fly, and my heart beat quicker and quicker as we neared the crest of the ascent. My mind had been full of Mrs. Wessington all the afternoon; and every inch of the Jakko road bore witness to our old-time walks and talks. The boulders were full of it; the pines sung it aloud overhead; the rain-fed torrent giggled and chuckled unseen over the shameful story; and the wind in my ears chanted the iniquity aloud.
Nothing could make her happy except a ride around Jakko. With my nerves still on edge from the night before, I weakly protested against the idea, suggesting Observatory Hill, Jutogh, the Boileaugunge road—anything but the Jakko route. Kitty was annoyed and a bit hurt, so I gave in to avoid causing more misunderstanding, and we set off together toward Chota Simla. We walked most of the way, and, as usual, we cantered from about a mile below the convent to the flat road by the Sanjowlie Reservoir. The poor horses seemed to fly, and my heart raced faster and faster as we approached the top of the hill. All afternoon, my thoughts had been filled with Mrs. Wessington; every inch of the Jakko road reminded me of our past walks and talks. The boulders echoed our memories; the pines sang about it above us; the rain-fed stream giggled and chuckled unseen about the disgraceful tale; and the wind in my ears loudly recited the wrongdoing.
As a fitting climax, in the middle of the level men call the Lady's Mile, the horror was awaiting me. No other 'rickshaw was in sight—only the four black and white jhampanies, the yellow-paneled carriage, and the golden head of a woman within—all apparently just as I had left them eight months and one fortnight ago! For an instant I fancied that Kitty must see what I saw—we were so marvelously sympathetic in all things. Her next words undeceived me—"Not a soul in sight! Come along, Jack, and I'll race you to the reservoir buildings!" Her wiry little Arab was off like a bird, my waler following close behind, and in this order we dashed under the cliffs. Half a minute brought us within fifty yards of the 'rickshaw. I pulled my waler and fell back a little. The 'rickshaw was directly in the middle of the road; and once more the Arab passed through it, my horse following. "Jack! Jack, dear! Please forgive me," rang with a wail in my ears, and, after an interval: "It's all a mistake, a hideous mistake!"
As a fitting climax, in the middle of the area people call the Lady's Mile, the horror was waiting for me. No other 'rickshaw was in sight—only the four black and white jhampanies, the yellow-paneled carriage, and the golden head of a woman inside—all seemingly just as I had left them eight months and two weeks ago! For a moment, I thought Kitty must see what I saw—we were so incredibly in sync about everything. Her next words shattered that illusion—"Not a soul in sight! Come on, Jack, and I'll race you to the reservoir buildings!" Her spirited little Arab took off like a bird, my waler close behind, and in this order, we sped under the cliffs. Half a minute later, we were within fifty yards of the 'rickshaw. I pulled my waler back a little. The 'rickshaw was right in the middle of the road; and once again, the Arab went through it, my horse following. "Jack! Jack, dear! Please forgive me," echoed with a wail in my ears, and, after a pause: "It's all a mistake, a terrible mistake!"
I spurred my horse like a man possessed. When I turned my head at the reservoir works, the black and white liveries were still waiting—patiently waiting—under the gray hillside, and the wind brought me a mocking echo of the words I had just heard. Kitty bantered me a good deal on my silence throughout the remainder of the ride. I had been talking up till then wildly and at random. To save my life I could not speak naturally afterward, and from Sanjowlie to the church wisely held my tongue.
I kicked my horse into gear like I was on fire. When I looked back at the reservoir works, the black and white uniforms were still there—waiting patiently—under the gray hillside, and the wind carried a mocking echo of the words I had just heard. Kitty teased me a lot about my silence for the rest of the ride. I had been talking non-stop and all over the place until then. For the life of me, I couldn't speak normally afterward, so from Sanjowlie to the church, I wisely kept my mouth shut.
I was to dine with the Mannerings that night, and had barely time to canter home to dress. On the road to Elysium Hill I overheard two men talking together in the dusk—"It's a curious thing," said one, "how completely all trace of it disappeared. You know my wife was insanely fond of the woman (never could see anything in her myself), and wanted me to pick up her old 'rickshaw and coolies if they were to be got for love or money. Morbid sort of fancy I call it; but I've got to do what the Memsahib tells me. Would you believe that the man she hired it from tells me that all four of the men—they were brothers—died of cholera on the way to Hardwar, poor devils; and the 'rickshaw has been broken up by the man himself. Told me he never used a dead Memsahib's 'rickshaw. Spoiled his luck. Queer notion, wasn't it? Fancy poor little Mrs. Wessington spoiling any one's luck except her own!" I laughed aloud at this point; and my laugh jarred on me as I uttered it. So there were ghosts of 'rickshaws after all, and ghostly employments in the other world! How much did Mrs. Wessington give her men? What were their hours? Where did they go?
I was supposed to have dinner with the Mannerings that night and barely had time to rush home to get dressed. On my way to Elysium Hill, I overheard two men chatting in the dusk. "It's strange," said one, "how completely it all vanished. You know my wife was crazy about that woman (I never saw anything special in her myself) and wanted me to track down her old rickshaw and coolies if they could be found for love or money. I call it a pretty morbid obsession, but I have to do what the Memsahib wants. Can you believe the guy she hired it from told me that all four of the men—the brothers—died of cholera on their way to Hardwar, poor guys? And the rickshaw has been destroyed by him. He said he never used a dead Memsahib’s rickshaw. It would ruin his luck. Kind of a strange idea, right? Imagine poor little Mrs. Wessington being responsible for anyone's bad luck except her own!" I laughed out loud at that, but my laugh felt off as I did it. So, there were indeed ghosts of rickshaws and ghostly jobs in the afterlife! How much did Mrs. Wessington pay her men? What were their working hours? Where did they go?
And for visible answer to my last question I saw the infernal thing blocking my path in the twilight. The dead travel fast, and by short cuts unknown to ordinary coolies. I laughed aloud a second time and checked my laughter suddenly, for I was afraid I was going mad. Mad to a certain extent I must have been, for I recollect that I reined in my horse at the head of the 'rickshaw, and politely wished Mrs. Wessington "Good-evening." Her answer was one I knew only too well. I listened to the end; and replied that I had heard it all before, but should be delighted if she had anything further to say. Some malignant devil stronger than I must have entered into me that evening, for I have a dim recollection of talking the commonplaces of the day for five minutes to the thing in front of me.
And for a clear answer to my last question, I saw the terrifying thing blocking my way in the dim light. The dead move quickly and take shortcuts unknown to regular folks. I laughed out loud a second time, then suddenly stopped because I was worried I was losing my mind. I must have been a bit mad, because I remember pulling my horse up to the front of the 'rickshaw and politely wishing Mrs. Wessington "Good evening." I recognized her response all too well. I listened until she finished and said that I had heard it all before but would be happy to hear anything else she wanted to share. Some wicked spirit stronger than me must have possessed me that evening, as I have a vague memory of discussing the everyday topics of the day for five minutes with the thing in front of me.
"Mad as a hatter, poor devil—or drunk. Max, try and get him to come home."
"Crazy as a loon, poor guy—or just drunk. Max, see if you can get him to come home."
Surely that was not Mrs. Wessington's voice! The two men had overheard me speaking to the empty air, and had returned to look after me. They were very kind and considerate, and from their words evidently gathered that I was extremely drunk. I thanked them confusedly and cantered away to my hotel, there changed, and arrived at the Mannerings' ten minutes late. I pleaded the darkness of the night as an excuse; was rebuked by Kitty for my unlover-like tardiness; and sat down.
Surely that wasn't Mrs. Wessington's voice! The two men had heard me talking to myself and came back to check on me. They were really kind and caring, and from what they said, it was clear they thought I was pretty drunk. I thanked them awkwardly and rode off to my hotel, changed, and got to the Mannerings' ten minutes late. I used the darkness of the night as an excuse; Kitty scolded me
The conversation had already become general; and under cover of it I was addressing some tender small-talk to my sweetheart when I was aware that at the further end of the table a short, red-whiskered man was describing, with much broidery, his encounter with a man unknown that evening. A few sentences convinced me that he was repeating the incident of half an hour ago. In the middle of the story he looked round for applause, as professional story-tellers do, caught my eyes, and straightway collapsed. There was a moment's awkward silence, and the red-whiskered man muttered something to the effect that he had "forgotten the rest," thereby sacrificing a reputation as a good story-teller which he had built up for six seasons past. I blessed him from the bottom of my heart, and—went on with my fish.
The conversation had turned into a lively discussion, and while it was going on, I was engaging in some sweet talk with my girlfriend when I noticed a short man with red facial hair at the far end of the table dramatically recounting his encounter with a stranger that evening. A few sentences in, I realized he was just retelling what had happened half an hour earlier. In the middle of his story, he looked around for applause like professional storytellers do, caught my gaze, and immediately flopped. There was an awkward silence for a moment, and the red-whiskered man mumbled something about having "forgotten the rest," which ruined the reputation he'd built as a good storyteller for the past six seasons. I silently thanked him and went back to my fish.
In the fulness of time that dinner came to an end; and with genuine regret I tore myself away from Kitty—as certain as I was of my own existence that It would be waiting for me outside the door. The red-whiskered man, who had been introduced to me as Dr. Heatherlegh of Simla, volunteered to bear me company as far as our roads lay together. I accepted his offer with gratitude.
At last, dinner came to an end, and with real regret, I pulled myself away from Kitty—certain that it would be waiting for me outside the door. The man with the red whiskers, introduced to me as Dr. Heatherlegh from Simla, offered to keep me company for as long as our paths aligned. I gratefully accepted his offer.
My instinct had not deceived me. It lay in readiness in the Mall, and, in what seemed devilish mockery of our ways, with a lighted head-lamp. The red-whiskered man went to the point at once, in a manner that showed he had been thinking over it all dinner-time.
My instincts were right. It was waiting for us in the Mall, and, in what felt like a cruel joke, with a bright headlamp. The man with the red whiskers headed straight to the point, clearly having thought about it the entire dinner.
"I say, Pansay, what the deuce was the matter with you this evening on the Elysium road?" The suddenness of the question wrenched an answer from me before I was aware.
"I say, Pansay, what the heck was wrong with you this evening on the Elysium road?" The suddenness of the question pulled an answer out of me before I even realized it.
"That!" said I, pointing to It.
"That!" I said, pointing to it.
"That may be either D. T. or Eyes for aught I know. Now, you don't liquor. I saw as much at dinner, so it can't be D. T. There's nothing whatever where you're pointing, though you're sweating and trembling with fright like a scared pony. Therefore, I conclude that it's Eyes. And I ought to understand all about them. Come along home with me. I'm on the Blessington lower road."
"That could be either D.T. or Eyes, for all I know. Now, you’re not drinking. I noticed that at dinner, so it can't be D.T. There’s nothing at all where you’re pointing, even though you’re sweating and shaking with fear like a scared pony. So, I’ve decided it’s Eyes. And I should know everything about them. Come along home with me. I’m on the Blessington lower road."
To my intense delight the 'rickshaw, instead of waiting for us, kept about twenty yards ahead—and this, too, whether we walked, trotted, or cantered. In the course of that long night ride I had told my companion almost as much as I have told you here.
To my great excitement, the rickshaw, instead of waiting for us, stayed about twenty yards ahead—and this happened whether we walked, trotted, or cantered. During that long night ride, I shared almost as much with my companion as I've shared with you here.
"Well, you've spoiled one of the best tales I've ever laid tongue to," said he, "but I'll forgive you for the sake of what you've gone through. Now, come home and do what I tell you; and when I've cured you, young man, let this be a lesson to you to steer clear of women and indigestible food till the day of your death."
"Well, you've ruined one of the best stories I've ever heard," he said, "but I'll let it slide because of what you've been through. Now, come home and follow my instructions; and when I've healed you, young man, let this be a lesson for you to avoid women and hard-to-digest food for the rest of your life."
The 'rickshaw kept steady in front; and my red-whiskered friend seemed to derive great pleasure from my account of its exact whereabout.
The rickshaw stayed right in front, and my friend with the red whiskers seemed to really enjoy hearing about where it was located.
"Eyes, Pansay—all Eyes, Brain, and Stomach. And the greatest of these three is Stomach. You've too much conceited brain, too little stomach, and thoroughly unhealthy eyes. Get your stomach straight and the rest follows. And all that's French for a liver pill. I'll take sole medical charge of you from this hour! for you're too interesting a phenomenon to be passed over."
"Eyes, Pansay—all Eyes, Brain, and Stomach. And the greatest of these three is Stomach. You've got too much pride in your brain, too little focus on your stomach, and your eyes are completely unhealthy. Fix your stomach, and the rest will fall into place. And that’s just a fancy way of saying you need a liver pill. I’ll be your sole medical provider from now on! You're too fascinating to overlook."
By this time we were deep in the shadow of the Blessington lower road and the 'rickshaw came to a dead stop under a pine-clad, overhanging shale cliff. Instinctively I halted, too, giving my reason. Heatherlegh rapped out an oath.
By this time, we were deep in the shadow of the Blessington lower road and the 'rickshaw came to a complete stop under a pine-covered, overhanging shale cliff. I instinctively stopped as well, explaining why. Heatherlegh cursed sharply.
"Now, if you think I'm going to spend a cold night on the hillside for the sake of a Stomach-cum-Brain-cum-Eye illusion ... Lord ha' mercy! What's that?"
"Now, if you think I’m going to spend a cold night on the hillside just for a Stomach-brain-eye illusion... Lord have mercy! What’s that?"
There was a muffled report, a blinding smother of dust just in front of us, a crack, the noise of rent boughs, and about ten yards of the cliff-side—pines, undergrowth, and all—slid down into the road below, completely blocking it up. The uprooted trees swayed and tottered for a moment like drunken giants in the gloom, and then fell prone among their fellows with a thunderous crash. Our two horses stood motionless and sweating with fear. As soon as the rattle of falling earth and stone had subsided, my companion muttered: "Man, if we'd gone forward we should have been ten feet deep in our graves by now. 'There are more things in heaven and earth—' Come home, Pansay, and thank God. I want a peg badly."
There was a muffled boom, a blinding cloud of dust right in front of us, a crack, the sound of breaking branches, and about ten yards of the cliff-side—pines, brush, and everything—slid down into the road below, completely blocking it. The uprooted trees swayed and wobbled for a moment like drunken giants in the shadows, and then fell flat among their fallen companions with a deafening crash. Our two horses stood still and sweating with fear. Once the rattling of falling dirt and rocks had settled down, my companion muttered: "Man, if we had moved forward, we'd be ten feet deep in our graves by now. 'There are more things in heaven and earth—' Come home, Pansay, and thank God. I really need a drink."
We retraced our way over the Church Ridge, and I arrived at Dr. Heatherlegh's house shortly after midnight.
We made our way back over Church Ridge, and I got to Dr. Heatherlegh's house just after midnight.
His attempts toward my cure commenced almost immediately, and for a week I never left his sight. Many a time in the course of that week did I bless the good fortune which had thrown me in contact with Simla's best and kindest doctor. Day by day my spirits grew lighter and more equable. Day by day, too, I became more and more inclined to fall in with Heatherlegh's "spectral illusion" theory, implicating eyes, brain, and stomach. I wrote to Kitty, telling her that a slight sprain caused by a fall from my horse kept me indoors for a few days; and that I should be recovered before she had time to regret my absence.
His efforts to cure me started almost right away, and for a week, I was never out of his sight. Many times during that week, I was grateful for the good luck that had brought me to Simla's best and kindest doctor. Day by day, my spirits lifted and became steadier. Day by day, I also grew more inclined to accept Heatherlegh's theory of "spectral illusion," which involved the eyes, brain, and stomach. I wrote to Kitty, telling her that a minor sprain from a fall off my horse kept me indoors for a few days, and that I'd be better before she had time to miss me.
Heatherlegh's treatment was simple to a degree. It consisted of liver pills, cold water baths, and strong exercise, taken in the dusk or at early dawn—for, as he sagely observed: "A man with a sprained ankle doesn't walk a dozen miles a day, and your young woman might be wondering if she saw you."
Heatherlegh's treatment was somewhat straightforward. It involved liver pills, cold water baths, and intense exercise, done at dusk or early in the morning—because, as he wisely noted: "A person with a sprained ankle doesn’t walk a dozen miles a day, and your young lady might be curious if she spotted you."
At the end of the week, after much examination of pupil and pulse, and strict injunctions as to diet and pedestrianism, Heatherlegh dismissed me as bruskly as he had taken charge of me. Here is his parting benediction: "Man, I certify to your mental cure, and that's as much as to say I've cured most of your bodily ailments. Now, get your traps out of this as soon as you can; and be off to make love to Miss Kitty."
At the end of the week, after a lot of checking my condition and monitoring my pulse, along with strict instructions about my diet and exercise, Heatherlegh let me go just as abruptly as he had taken me in. Here’s what he said as we parted: "I assure you, you're mentally better, and that means I’ve fixed most of your physical issues too. Now, pack up and get out of here as soon as you can; go on and pursue Miss Kitty."
I was endeavoring to express my thanks for his kindness. He cut me short.
I was trying to thank him for his kindness. He interrupted me.
"Don't think I did this because I like you. I gather that you've behaved like a blackguard all through. But, all the same, you're a phenomenon, and as queer a phenomenon as you are a blackguard. No!"—checking me a second time—"not a rupee, please. Go out and see if you can find the eyes-brain-and-stomach business again. I'll give you a lakh for each time you see it."
"Don't think I did this because I like you. I hear you've been a scoundrel the whole time. Still, you're a phenomenon, just as strange as you are a scoundrel. No!"—stopping me again—"not a rupee, please. Go out and see if you can find that eyes-brain-and-stomach thing again. I'll give you a lakh for every time you see it."
Half an hour later I was in the Mannerings' drawing-room with Kitty—drunk with the intoxication of present happiness and the foreknowledge that I should never more be troubled with Its hideous presence. Strong in the sense of my new-found security, I proposed a ride at once; and, by preference, a canter round Jakko.
Half an hour later, I was in the Mannerings' living room with Kitty—buzzing from the joy of the moment and the realization that I would never again be burdened by Its ugly presence. Feeling confident in my newfound safety, I suggested we go for a ride right away; ideally, a quick gallop around Jakko.
Never had I felt so well, so overladen with vitality and mere animal spirits, as I did on the afternoon of the 30th of April. Kitty was delighted at the change in my appearance, and complimented me on it in her delightfully frank and outspoken manner. We left the Mannerings' house together, laughing and talking, and cantered along the Chota Simla road as of old.
Never had I felt so good, so full of energy and just pure excitement, as I did on the afternoon of April 30th. Kitty was thrilled by the change in my appearance and praised me for it in her wonderfully honest and straightforward way. We left the Mannerings' house together, laughing and chatting, and rode along the Chota Simla road like we used to.
I was in haste to reach the Sanjowlie Reservoir and there make my assurance doubly sure. The horses did their best, but seemed all too slow to my impatient mind. Kitty was astonished at my boisterousness. "Why, Jack!" she cried at last, "you are behaving like a child. What are you doing?"
I was in a hurry to get to the Sanjowlie Reservoir and confirm my assurance. The horses tried their hardest, but they felt way too slow for my impatient mind. Kitty was shocked by my excitement. "Why, Jack!" she finally exclaimed, "you're acting like a kid. What are you doing?"
We were just below the convent, and from sheer wantonness I was making my waler plunge and curvet across the road as I tickled it with the loop of my riding-whip.
We were just below the convent, and out of pure mischief, I was making my horse leap and prance across the road as I teased it with the loop of my riding whip.
"Doing?" I answered; "nothing, dear. That's just it. If you'd been doing nothing for a week except lie up, you'd be as riotous as I.
"Doing?" I replied; "nothing, dear. That's the point. If you had been doing nothing for a week but lying around, you'd be just as restless as I am."
"'Singing and murmuring in your feastful mirth,
Joying to feel yourself alive;
Lord over Nature, Lord of the visible Earth,
Lord of the senses five.'"
"'Singing and chatting in your joyful celebration,
Delighted to feel yourself alive;
Master of Nature, ruler of the visible Earth,
Master of the five senses.'"
My quotation was hardly out of my lips before we had rounded the corner above the convent, and a few yards further on could see across to Sanjowlie. In the centre of the level road stood the black and white liveries, the yellow-paneled 'rickshaw, and Mrs. Keith-Wessington. I pulled up, looked, rubbed my eyes, and, I believe, must have said something. The next thing I knew was that I was lying face downward on the road, with Kitty kneeling above me in tears.
My words were barely out of my mouth before we turned the corner above the convent, and a few yards ahead, I could see across to Sanjowlie. In the middle of the flat road stood the black and white uniforms, the yellow-paneled rickshaw, and Mrs. Keith-Wessington. I stopped, looked, rubbed my eyes, and I think I must have said something. The next thing I knew, I was lying face down on the road, with Kitty kneeling over me in tears.
"Has it gone, child?" I gasped. Kitty only wept more bitterly.
"Has it gone, kid?" I gasped. Kitty just cried even harder.
"Has what gone, Jack dear? What does it all mean? There must be a mistake somewhere, Jack. A hideous mistake." Her last words brought me to my feet—mad—raving for the time being.
"What's gone, Jack dear? What does all this mean? There must be a mistake somewhere, Jack. A terrible mistake." Her final words made me stand up—furious—raving for the moment.
"Yes, there is a mistake somewhere," I repeated, "a hideous mistake. Come and look at It."
"Yeah, there's definitely a mistake here," I said again, "a terrible mistake. Come check it out."
I have an indistinct idea that I dragged Kitty by the wrist along the road up to where It stood, and implored her for pity's sake to speak to It; to tell It that we were betrothed; that neither death nor hell could break the tie between us; and Kitty only knows how much more to the same effect. Now and again I appealed passionately to the terror in the 'rickshaw to bear witness to all I had said, and to release me from a torture that was killing me. As I talked I suppose I must have told Kitty of my old relations with Mrs. Wessington, for I saw her listen intently with white face and blazing eyes.
I have a hazy memory of dragging Kitty by the wrist along the road to where It was, begging her for compassion to talk to It; to let It know that we were engaged; that nothing, not even death or hell, could break our bond; and Kitty alone knows how much more I said along those lines. Every now and then, I passionately urged the fear in the 'rickshaw to witness everything I said and to free me from a torment that was killing me. As I spoke, I must have mentioned my past with Mrs. Wessington, because I saw her listen intently with a pale face and fiery eyes.
"Thank you, Mr. Pansay," she said, "that's quite enough. Syce ghora láo."
"Thank you, Mr. Pansay," she said, "that's plenty. Syce ghora láo."
The syces, impassive as Orientals always are, had come up with the recaptured horses; and as Kitty sprang into her saddle I caught hold of the bridle, entreating her to hear me out and forgive. My answer was the cut of her riding-whip across my face from mouth to eye, and a word or two of farewell that even now I can not write down. So I judged, and judged rightly, that Kitty knew all; and I staggered back to the side of the 'rickshaw. My face was cut and bleeding, and the blow of the riding-whip had raised a livid blue wheal on it. I had no self-respect. Just then, Heatherlegh, who must have been following Kitty and me at a distance, cantered up.
The stable boys, as emotionless as people from the East usually are, had returned with the horses we had just captured; and as Kitty jumped into her saddle, I grabbed the reins, pleading with her to listen to me and forgive me. In response, she struck me across the face with her riding whip, from my mouth to my eye, and said a few farewell words that I still can’t bring myself to write down. So, I concluded—and I was right—that Kitty knew everything; and I stepped back to the side of the 'rickshaw. My face was cut and bleeding, and the impact of the whip had left a painful blue mark on it. I felt completely humiliated. Just then, Heatherlegh, who must have been trailing behind Kitty and me, came riding up.
"Doctor," I said, pointing to my face, "here's Miss Mannering's signature to my order of dismissal, and I'll thank you for that lakh as soon as convenient."
"Doctor," I said, pointing to my face, "here's Miss Mannering's signature on my dismissal order, and I'd appreciate it if you could arrange that lakh as soon as it's convenient."
Heatherlegh's face, even in my abject misery, moved me to laughter.
Heatherlegh's face, even in my complete misery, made me laugh.
"I'll stake my professional reputation—" he began.
"I'll put my professional reputation on the line—" he started.
"Don't be a fool," I whispered. "I've lost my life's happiness and you'd better take me home."
"Don't be an idiot," I whispered. "I've lost the happiness of my life, and you need to take me home."
As I spoke the 'rickshaw was gone. Then I lost all knowledge of what was passing. The crest of Jakko seemed to heave and roll like the crest of a cloud and fall in upon me.
As I spoke, the rickshaw vanished. Then I lost all awareness of what was happening. The top of Jakko looked like it was heaving and rolling like a cloud, crashing down on me.
Seven days later (on the 7th of May, that is to say) I was aware that I was lying in Heatherlegh's room as weak as a little child. Heatherlegh was watching me intently from behind the papers on his writing-table. His first words were not encouraging; but I was too far spent to be much moved by them.
Seven days later (on May 7th, to be precise), I realized I was lying in Heatherlegh's room, feeling as weak as a little child. Heatherlegh was watching me closely from behind the papers on his desk. His first words weren't reassuring, but I was too exhausted to be affected by them.
"Here's Miss Kitty has sent back your letters. You corresponded a good deal, you young people. Here's a packet that looks like a ring, and a cheerful sort of a note from Mannering Papa, which I've taken the liberty of reading and burning. The old gentleman's not pleased with you."
"Miss Kitty has returned your letters. You two have been writing to each other quite a bit. Here's a package that looks like a ring, along with a cheerful note from Mannering Papa, which I've taken the liberty of reading and then burning. The old gentleman isn't happy with you."
"And Kitty?" I asked dully.
"And Kitty?" I asked listlessly.
"Rather more drawn than her father from what she says. By the same token you must have been letting out any number of queer reminiscences just before I met you. Says that a man who would have behaved to a woman as you did to Mrs. Wessington ought to kill himself out of sheer pity for his kind. She's a hot-headed little virago, your mash. Will have it too that you were suffering from D. T. when that row on the Jakko road turned up. Says she'll die before she ever speaks to you again."
"She seems more affected by things than her father. Likewise, you must have been sharing all sorts of strange memories right before I met you. She says that a man who treated a woman like you treated Mrs. Wessington should just end his life out of pure shame for his gender. Your girl is quite the fiery little spitfire. She also insists that you were going through withdrawal when that fight on the Jakko road happened. She claims she'll never speak to you again."
I groaned and turned over on the other side.
I groaned and flipped over to the other side.
"Now, you've got your choice, my friend. This engagement has to be broken off; and the Mannerings don't want to be too hard on you. Was it broken through D. T. or epileptic fits? Sorry I can't offer you a better exchange unless you'd prefer hereditary insanity. Say the word and I'll tell 'em it's fits. All Simla knows about that scene on the Ladies' Mile. Come! I'll give you five minutes to think over it."
"Now, you have a choice, my friend. This engagement needs to be called off, and the Mannerings don’t want to be too harsh on you. Was it due to delirium tremens or seizures? I’m sorry I can’t offer you a better reason unless you’d rather go with a family history of mental illness. Just say the word and I’ll tell them it’s seizures. Everyone in Simla knows about that incident on Ladies’ Mile. Come on! I’ll give you five minutes to think it over."
During those five minutes I believe that I explored thoroughly the lowest circles of the Inferno which it is permitted man to tread on earth. And at the same time I myself was watching myself faltering through the dark labyrinths of doubt, misery, and utter despair. I wondered, as Heatherlegh in his chair might have wondered, which dreadful alternative I should adopt. Presently I heard myself answering in a voice that I hardly recognized:
During those five minutes, I think I fully explored the deepest depths of hell that a person is allowed to experience on earth. At the same time, I was observing myself struggling through the dark twists and turns of doubt, misery, and complete despair. I wondered, just like Heatherlegh in his chair might have, which terrible choice I should make. Soon, I heard myself responding in a voice that I barely recognized:
"They're confoundedly particular about morality in these parts. Give 'em fits, Heatherlegh, and my love. Now, let me sleep a bit longer."
"They're incredibly picky about morality around here. Give them trouble, Heatherlegh, and my love. Now, let me sleep a little longer."
Then my two selves joined, and it was only I (half crazed, devil-driven I) that tossed in my bed, tracing step by step the history of the past month.
Then my two selves merged, and it was just me (half-crazed, driven by the devil) tossing in my bed, going over the events of the past month step by step.
"But I am in Simla," I kept repeating to myself. "I, Jack Pansay, am in Simla, and there are no ghosts here. It's unreasonable of that woman to pretend there are. Why couldn't Agnes have left me alone? I never did her any harm. It might just as well have been me as Agnes. Only I'd never have come back on purpose to kill her. Why can't I be left alone—left alone and happy?"
"But I’m in Simla," I kept telling myself. "I, Jack Pansay, am in Simla, and there are no ghosts here. It’s unreasonable for that woman to act like there are. Why couldn’t Agnes have just left me alone? I never did anything to hurt her. It could have just as easily been me instead of Agnes. Only I would never have come back on purpose to kill her. Why can’t I be left alone—just left alone and happy?"
It was high noon when I first awoke; and the sun was low in the sky before I slept—slept as the tortured criminal sleeps on his rack, too worn to feel further pain.
It was noon when I first woke up, and the sun was low in the sky by the time I went to sleep—slept like a tortured criminal on his rack, too exhausted to feel any more pain.
Next day I could not leave my bed. Heatherlegh told me in the morning that he had received an answer from Mr. Mannering, and that, thanks to his (Heatherlegh's) friendly offices, the story of my affliction had traveled through the length and breadth of Simla, where I was on all sides much pitied.
The next day, I couldn't get out of bed. Heatherlegh told me in the morning that he had received a response from Mr. Mannering, and that, thanks to his (Heatherlegh's) helpful efforts, news of my situation had spread all over Simla, where everyone was feeling sorry for me.
"And that's rather more than you deserve," he concluded, pleasantly, "though the Lord knows you've been going through a pretty severe mill. Never mind; we'll cure you yet, you perverse phenomenon."
"And that's a lot more than you deserve," he finished, pleasantly, "but God knows you've been through quite a tough time. Never mind; we'll fix you yet, you stubborn puzzle."
I declined firmly to be cured. "You've been much too good to me already, old man," said I; "but I don't think I need trouble you further."
I firmly refused to be treated. "You've already been so kind to me, old man," I said; "but I don't think I should bother you any more."
In my heart I knew that nothing Heatherlegh could do would lighten the burden that had been laid upon me.
In my heart, I knew that nothing Heatherlegh could do would ease the weight that had been placed on me.
With that knowledge came also a sense of hopeless, impotent rebellion against the unreasonableness of it all. There were scores of men no better than I whose punishments had at least been reserved for another world; and I felt that it was bitterly, cruelly unfair that I alone should have been singled out for so hideous a fate. This mood would in time give place to another where it seemed that the 'rickshaw and I were the only realities in a world of shadows; that Kitty was a ghost; that Mannering, Heatherlegh, and all the other men and women I knew were all ghosts; and the great, gray hills themselves but vain shadows devised to torture me. From mood to mood I tossed backward and forward for seven weary days; my body growing daily stronger and stronger, until the bedroom looking-glass told me that I had returned to every day life, and was as other men once more. Curiously enough my face showed no signs of the struggle I had gone through. It was pale indeed, but as expressionless and commonplace as ever. I had expected some permanent alteration—visible evidence of the disease that was eating me away. I found nothing.
With that knowledge came a feeling of hopeless, powerless rebellion against the absurdity of it all. There were plenty of guys just as flawed as I was whose punishments at least seemed to be saved for another life; it felt bitterly and cruelly unfair that I alone had been chosen for such a horrific fate. This mood would eventually shift to another where it seemed that the 'rickshaw and I were the only real things in a world of shadows; that Kitty was a ghost; that Mannering, Heatherlegh, and everyone else I knew were all just apparitions; and even the big, gray hills were merely empty shadows made to torment me. For seven exhausting days, I swung between moods; my body growing stronger every day until the bedroom mirror reflected back that I had returned to everyday life and was like other men once more. Interestingly, my face showed no signs of the struggle I had endured. It was indeed pale, but as expressionless and ordinary as ever. I had anticipated some permanent change—visible proof of the illness that was consuming me. I found nothing.
On the 15th of May I left Heatherlegh's house at eleven o'clock in the morning; and the instinct of the bachelor drove me to the club. There I found that every man knew my story as told by Heatherlegh, and was, in clumsy fashion, abnormally kind and attentive. Nevertheless, I recognized that for the rest of my natural life I should be among but not of my fellows; and I envied very bitterly indeed the laughing coolies on the Mall below. I lunched at the club, and at four o'clock wandered aimlessly down the Mall in the vague hope of meeting Kitty. Close to the band-stand the black and white liveries joined me; and I heard Mrs. Wessington's old appeal at my side. I had been expecting this ever since I came out; and was only surprised at her delay. The phantom 'rickshaw and I went side by side along the Chota Simla road in silence. Close to the bazaar, Kitty and a man on horseback overtook and passed us. For any sign she gave I might have been a dog in the road. She did not even pay me the compliment of quickening her pace; though the rainy afternoon had served for an excuse.
On May 15th, I left Heatherlegh's house at eleven in the morning, and my bachelor instincts led me to the club. There, I found out that every guy knew my story from Heatherlegh and was, in a somewhat awkward way, overly kind and attentive. Still, I realized that for the rest of my life, I'd be among my peers but never truly one of them; I envied the carefree guys laughing on the Mall below. I had lunch at the club, and at four o'clock, I aimlessly strolled down the Mall, hoping to run into Kitty. Near the bandstand, I was joined by the black and white liveries, and I heard Mrs. Wessington's familiar appeal beside me. I had been expecting this since I returned and was only surprised by her delay. The phantom 'rickshaw and I moved along the Chota Simla road in silence. Near the bazaar, Kitty and a guy on horseback caught up with and then passed us. By any indication she gave, I might as well have been a dog in the road. She didn’t even bother to pick up her pace, even though the rainy afternoon could have been a valid excuse.
So Kitty and her companion, and I and my ghostly light-o'-love, crept round Jakko in couples. The road was streaming with water; the pines dripped like roof-pipes on the rocks below, and the air was full of fine, driving rain. Two or three times I found myself saying to myself almost aloud: "I'm Jack Pansay on leave at Simla—at Simla! Everyday, ordinary Simla. I mustn't forget that—I mustn't forget that." Then I would try to recollect some of the gossip I had heard at the club; the prices of So-and-So's horses—anything, in fact, that related to the workaday Anglo-Indian world I knew so well. I even repeated the multiplication table rapidly to myself, to make quite sure that I was not taking leave of my senses. It gave me much comfort; and must have prevented my hearing Mrs. Wessington for a time.
So Kitty and her friend, and I and my ghostly love, crept around Jakko in pairs. The road was flooded with water; the pines dripped like eaves on the rocks below, and the air was filled with fine, driving rain. A couple of times, I caught myself saying almost out loud: "I'm Jack Pansay on leave in Simla—at Simla! Everyday, ordinary Simla. I mustn't forget that—I mustn't forget that." Then I would try to recall some of the gossip I had heard at the club; the prices of So-and-So's horses—anything, really, that related to the everyday Anglo-Indian world I knew so well. I even repeated the multiplication table quickly to myself to make sure I wasn't losing my mind. It gave me a lot of comfort; and must have helped me tune out Mrs. Wessington for a bit.
Once more I wearily climbed the convent slope and entered the level road. Here Kitty and the man started off at a canter, and I was left alone with Mrs. Wessington. "Agnes," said I, "will you put back your hood and tell me what it all means?" The hood dropped noiselessly, and I was face to face with my dead and buried mistress. She was wearing the dress in which I had last seen her alive; carried the same tiny handkerchief in her right hand, and the same card-case in her left. (A woman eight months dead with a card-case!) I had to pin myself down to the multiplication table, and to set both hands on the stone parapet of the road, to assure myself that at least was real.
Once again, I tiredly climbed the hill to the convent and reached the flat road. Here, Kitty and the man took off at a gallop, leaving me alone with Mrs. Wessington. "Agnes," I said, "will you take off your hood and tell me what this all means?" The hood fell silently, and I found myself face to face with my deceased mistress. She was wearing the dress I last saw her in while she was alive; she held the same tiny handkerchief in her right hand and the same card case in her left. (A woman who’s been dead for eight months with a card case!) I had to ground myself with the multiplication table and grip both hands on the stone railing of the road to convince myself that this was real.
"Agnes," I repeated, "for pity's sake tell me what it all means." Mrs. Wessington leaned forward, with that odd, quick turn of the head I used to know so well, and spoke.
"Agnes," I said again, "for the love of all that's good, tell me what this means." Mrs. Wessington leaned in, with that peculiar, quick tilt of her head that I remembered so well, and began to speak.
If my story had not already so madly overleaped the bounds of all human belief I should apologize to you now. As I know that no one—no, not even Kitty, for whom it is written as some sort of justification of my conduct—will believe me, I will go on. Mrs. Wessington spoke and I walked with her from the Sanjowlie road to the turning below the Commander-in-chief's house as I might walk by the side of any living woman's 'rickshaw, deep in conversation. The second and most tormenting of my moods of sickness had suddenly laid hold upon me, and, like the prince in Tennyson's poem, "I seemed to move amid a world of ghosts." There had been a garden-party at the commander-in-chief's, and we two joined the crowd of homeward-bound folk. As I saw them then it seemed that they were the shadows—impalpable fantastic shadows—that divided for Mrs. Wessington's 'rickshaw to pass through. What we said during the course of that weird interview I can not—indeed, I dare not—tell. Heatherlegh's comment would have been a short laugh and a remark that I had been "mashing a brain-eye-and-stomach chimera." It was a ghastly and yet in some indefinable way a marvelously dear experience. Could it be possible, I wondered, that I was in this life to woo a second time the woman I had killed by my own neglect and cruelty?
If my story hadn’t already pushed the limits of what anyone could believe, I’d apologize to you now. Knowing that no one—no, not even Kitty, for whom this is written as some kind of justification of my actions—will believe me, I will continue. Mrs. Wessington spoke, and I walked with her from the Sanjowlie road to the turn by the Commander-in-Chief's house, as I would walk beside any woman in a 'rickshaw, lost in conversation. The second and most tormenting of my moods of sickness had suddenly taken hold of me, and, like the prince in Tennyson’s poem, “I seemed to move amid a world of ghosts.” There had been a garden party at the Commander-in-Chief's, and we joined the crowd of people heading home. As I looked at them then, it seemed they were shadows—fleeting, fantastical shadows—parting for Mrs. Wessington's 'rickshaw to pass through. What we talked about during that strange conversation I can't—indeed, I dare not—reveal. Heatherlegh would have just laughed and commented that I had been “mashing a brain-eye-and-stomach chimera.” It was a terrifying yet, in some strange way, a wonderfully cherished experience. Could it be possible, I wondered, that I was meant in this life to woo the woman I had lost through my own neglect and cruelty a second time?
I met Kitty on the homeward road—a shadow among shadows.
I met Kitty on the way home—a figure among figures.
If I were to describe all the incidents of the next fortnight in their order, my story would never come to an end; and your patience would be exhausted. Morning after morning and evening after evening the ghostly 'rickshaw and I used to wander through Simla together. Wherever I went there the four black and white liveries followed me and bore me company to and from my hotel. At the theatre I found them amid the crowd of yelling jhampanies; outside the club veranda, after a long evening of whist; at the birthday ball, waiting patiently for my reappearance; and in broad daylight when I went calling. Save that it cast no shadow, the 'rickshaw was in every respect as real to look upon as one of wood and iron. More than once, indeed, I have had to check myself from warning some hard-riding friend against cantering over it. More than once I have walked down the Mall deep in conversation with Mrs. Wessington to the unspeakable amazement of the passers-by.
If I were to recount everything that happened over the next two weeks in order, my story would never end, and your patience would wear thin. Morning after morning and evening after evening, my ghostly rickshaw and I wandered through Simla together. Wherever I went, the four black and white liveries followed me and kept me company to and from my hotel. At the theater, I spotted them among the crowd of shouting jhampanies; outside the club veranda, after a long evening of whist; at the birthday ball, waiting patiently for me to return; and during the day when I went visiting. Aside from the fact that it didn’t cast a shadow, the rickshaw looked just as real as one made of wood and iron. More than once, I almost warned a fast-riding friend to avoid riding over it. More than once, I walked down the Mall deep in conversation with Mrs. Wessington, leaving passers-by utterly amazed.
Before I had been out and about a week I learned that the "fit" theory had been discarded in favor of insanity. However, I made no change in my mode of life. I called, rode, and dined out as freely as ever. I had a passion for the society of my kind which I had never felt before; I hungered to be among the realities of life; and at the same time I felt vaguely unhappy when I had been separated too long from my ghostly companion. It would be almost impossible to describe my varying moods from the 15th of May up to to-day.
Before I had been out and about for a week, I found out that the "fit" theory had been tossed aside in favor of insanity. Still, I didn’t change my lifestyle. I visited friends, went for rides, and dined out as freely as ever. I felt a strong desire for the company of others that I had never experienced before; I craved being around real life, yet at the same time, I felt vaguely unhappy when I had been away from my ghostly companion for too long. It would be nearly impossible to describe my changing moods from May 15th up until today.
The presence of the 'rickshaw filled me by turns with horror, blind fear, a dim sort of pleasure, and utter despair. I dared not leave Simla; and I knew that my stay there was killing me. I knew, moreover, that it was my destiny to die slowly and a little every day. My only anxiety was to get the penance over as quietly as might be. Alternately I hungered for a sight of Kitty and watched her outrageous flirtations with my successor—to speak more accurately, my successors—with amused interest. She was as much out of my life as I was out of hers. By day I wandered with Mrs. Wessington almost content. By night I implored Heaven to let me return to the world as I used to know it.
The sight of the rickshaw filled me with a mix of horror, fear, a strange kind of pleasure, and complete despair. I couldn't leave Simla, yet I felt like staying there was slowly killing me. I knew it was my fate to die a little each day. My only concern was to get this penance over with as quietly as possible. At times, I ached to see Kitty and watched her outrageous flirting with my successor—actually, my successors—with an amused interest. She was as much out of my life as I was out of hers. During the day, I wandered around with Mrs. Wessington, feeling somewhat content. At night, I pleaded with Heaven to let me go back to the life I used to know.
Above all these varying moods lay the sensation of dull, numbing wonder that the Seen and the Unseen should mingle so strangely on this earth to hound one poor soul to its grave.
Above all these different moods was the feeling of a dull, numbing wonder that the Seen and the Unseen could mix so strangely on this earth to torment one unfortunate soul to its grave.
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August 27.—Heatherlegh has been indefatigable in his attendance on me; and only yesterday told me that I ought to send in an application for sick leave. An application to escape the company of a phantom! A request that the government would graciously permit me to get rid of five ghosts and an airy 'rickshaw by going to England! Heatherlegh's proposition moved me to almost hysterical laughter. I told him that I should await the end quietly at Simla; and I am sure that the end is not far off. Believe me that I dread its advent more than any word can say; and I torture myself nightly with a thousand speculations as to the manner of my death.
August 27.—Heatherlegh has been tireless in looking after me; just yesterday, he suggested that I should apply for sick leave. An application to avoid the company of a ghost! A request for the government to kindly allow me to escape five ghosts and a ghostly 'rickshaw by going to England! Heatherlegh's suggestion made me almost laugh uncontrollably. I told him I would wait for the end in peace at Simla; and I’m sure the end isn’t far off. Believe me, I dread its arrival more than words can express; and I torture myself every night with countless thoughts about how I might die.
Shall I die in my bed decently and as an English gentleman should die; or, in one last walk on the Mall, will my soul be wrenched from me to take its place forever and ever by the side of that ghastly phantasm? Shall I return to my old lost allegiance in the next world, or shall I meet Agnes, loathing her and bound to her side through all eternity? Shall we two hover over the scene of our lives till the end of Time? As the day of my death draws nearer, the intense horror that all living flesh feels toward escaped spirits from beyond the grave grows more and more powerful. It is an awful thing to go down quick among the dead with scarcely one-half of your life completed. It is a thousand times more awful to wait as I do in your midst, for I know not what unimaginable terror. Pity me, at least on the score of my "delusion," for I know you will never believe what I have written here. Yet as surely as ever a man was done to death by the Powers of Darkness I am that man.
Should I die in my bed like a decent English gentleman or, during one last walk in the park, will my soul be ripped from me to join that horrifying apparition forever? Will I return to my lost loyalty in the afterlife, or will I meet Agnes, hating her while being tied to her side for all eternity? Will we linger over the scene of our lives until the end of time? As my death approaches, the deep horror that all living beings feel towards escaping spirits from beyond the grave keeps getting stronger. It’s terrible to go down quickly among the dead with barely half of your life lived. It’s a thousand times worse to wait as I do among you, for I don’t know what unimaginable nightmare awaits me. Have some pity on me, at least for my "delusion," because I know you’ll never accept what I’ve written here. Yet as sure as any man has been killed by the Powers of Darkness, I am that man.
In justice, too, pity her. For as surely as ever woman was killed by man, I killed Mrs. Wessington. And the last portion of my punishment is even now upon me.
In fairness, have some compassion for her. For just as surely as any woman has been killed by a man, I killed Mrs. Wessington. And the final part of my punishment is happening to me right now.
THE ROLL-CALL OF THE REEF
BY A. T. QUILLER-COUCH ("Q.")
BY A. T. QUILLER-COUCH ("Q.")
"Q." is the signature of Arthur Thomas Quiller-Couch, born in Cornwall in 1863. No English novelist of the present generation upholds more evenly and consistently than he the best traditions of the art of story-writing, both in elevation of theme and dignity of style. His imagination attains the dramatic quality by strength and purity rather than by eccentricity and abnormality. For these reasons he was chosen to complete Robert Louis Stevenson's novel "St. Ives," left unfinished on the death of the author.
"Q." is the signature of Arthur Thomas Quiller-Couch, born in Cornwall in 1863. No English novelist of the current generation upholds the best traditions of storytelling more consistently than he does, both in the quality of themes and the elegance of style. His imagination achieves its dramatic effect through strength and clarity instead of through eccentricity and abnormality. For these reasons, he was selected to finish Robert Louis Stevenson’s novel "St. Ives," which was left unfinished after the author's death.
THE ROLL-CALL OF THE REEF
THE REEF'S ROLL CALL
By A. T. QUILLER-COUCH
By A. T. Quiller-Couch
"Yes, sir," said my host, the quarryman, reaching down the relics from their hook in the wall over the chimneypiece; "they've hung here all my time, and most of my father's. The women won't touch 'em; they're afraid of the story. So here they'll dangle, and gather dust and smoke, till another tenant comes and tosses 'em out o' doors for rubbish. Whew! 'tis coarse weather, surely."
"Yes, sir," said my host, the quarryman, reaching down the relics from their hook in the wall above the fireplace; "they've been hanging here for as long as I've been alive, and even longer for my father. The women won't go near them; they're scared of the story. So here they'll hang, collecting dust and smoke, until another tenant arrives and throws them out as trash. Whew! It's harsh weather, for sure."
He went to the door, opened it, and stood studying the gale that beat upon his cottage-front, straight from the Manacle Reef. The rain drove past him into the kitchen, aslant like threads of gold silk in the shine of the wreck-wood fire. Meanwhile, by the same firelight, I examined the relics on my knee. The metal of each was tarnished out of knowledge. But the trumpet was evidently an old cavalry trumpet, and the threads of its party-colored sling, though fretted and dusty, still hung together. Around the side-drum, beneath its cracked brown varnish, I could hardly trace a royal coat-of-arms and a legend running, "Per Mare Per Terram"—the motto of the marines. Its parchment, though black and scented with wood-smoke, was limp and mildewed; and I began to tighten up the straps—under which the drumsticks had been loosely thrust—with the idle purpose of trying if some music might be got out of the old drum yet.
He walked to the door, opened it, and stood looking at the strong wind that slammed against his cottage, coming straight from the Manacle Reef. The rain rushed past him into the kitchen, slanting like threads of golden silk in the glow of the wreck-wood fire. Meanwhile, by the same firelight, I examined the artifacts on my lap. The metal on each was too worn to recognize. But the trumpet was obviously an old cavalry trumpet, and the strands of its multicolored sling, though worn and dusty, still held together. Around the side-drum, beneath its cracked brown varnish, I could barely make out a royal coat-of-arms and a motto that read, “Per Mare Per Terram”—the marines' motto. Its parchment, though dark and smelling of wood smoke, was soft and moldy; and I started to tighten the straps—under which the drumsticks had been loosely tucked away—with the casual idea of seeing if I could still get some music out of the old drum.
But as I turned it on my knee, I found the drum attached to the trumpet-sling by a curious barrel-shaped padlock, and paused to examine this. The body of the lock was composed of half a dozen brass rings, set accurately edge to edge; and, rubbing the brass with my thumb, I saw that each of the six had a series of letters engraved around it.
But as I turned it on my knee, I found the drum connected to the trumpet strap by a strange barrel-shaped padlock, and I paused to check it out. The body of the lock was made up of six brass rings, placed neatly edge to edge; and as I rubbed the brass with my thumb, I noticed that each of the six had a series of letters engraved around it.
I knew the trick of it, I thought. Here was one of those word padlocks, once so common; only to be opened by getting the rings to spell a certain word, which the dealer confides to you.
I thought I knew the trick. Here was one of those word padlocks, once so common; you could only open it by getting the rings to spell a specific word that the dealer shares with you.
My host shut and barred the door, and came back to the hearth.
My host closed and locked the door, and returned to the fireplace.
"'Twas just such a wind—east by south—that brought in what you've got between your hands. Back in the year 'nine, it was; my father has told me the tale a score o' times. You're twisting round the rings, I see. But you'll never guess the word. Parson Kendall, he made the word, and he locked down a couple o' ghosts in their graves with it; and when his time came he went to his own grave and took the word with him."
"It was just such a wind—east by south—that brought in what you’re holding in your hands. Back in the year '09, it was; my father has told me the story a hundred times. You’re turning the rings, I see. But you’ll never guess the word. Parson Kendall made the word, and he trapped a couple of ghosts in their graves with it; and when his time came, he went to his own grave and took the word with him."
"Whose ghosts, Matthew?"
"Whose ghosts are they, Matthew?"
"You want the story, I see, sir. My father could tell it better than I can. He was a young man in the year 'nine, unmarried at the time, and living in this very cottage, just as I be. That's how he came to get mixed up with the tale."
"You want to hear the story, I understand, sir. My dad could tell it better than I can. He was a young man back in '09, unmarried at that time, and living in this very cottage, just like I am now. That's how he got involved in the tale."
He took a chair, lighted a short pipe, and went on, with his eyes fixed on the dancing violet flames:
He grabbed a chair, lit a short pipe, and continued, his eyes locked on the flickering violet flames:
"Yes, he'd ha' been about thirty year old in January, eighteen 'nine. The storm got up in the night o' the twenty-first o' that month. My father was dressed and out long before daylight; he never was one to bide in bed, let be that the gale by this time was pretty near lifting the thatch over his head. Besides which, he'd fenced a small 'taty-patch that winter, down by Lowland Point, and he wanted to see if it stood the night's work. He took the path across Gunner's Meadow—where they buried most of the bodies afterward. The wind was right in his teeth at the time, and once on the way (he's told me this often) a great strip of oarweed came flying through the darkness and fetched him a slap on the cheek like a cold hand. But he made shift pretty well till he got to Lowland, and then had to drop upon hands and knees and crawl, digging his fingers every now and then into the shingle to hold on, for he declared to me that the stones, some of them as big as a man's head, kept rolling and driving past till it seemed the whole foreshore was moving westward under him. The fence was gone, of course; not a stick left to show where it stood; so that, when first he came to the place, he thought he must have missed his bearings. My father, sir, was a very religious man; and if he reckoned the end of the world was at hand—there in the great wind and night, among the moving stones—you may believe he was certain of it when he heard a gun fired, and, with the same, saw a flame shoot up out of the darkness to windward, making a sudden fierce light in all the place about. All he could find to think or say was, 'The Second Coming! The Second Coming! The Bridegroom cometh, and the wicked He will toss like a ball into a large country'; and being already upon his knees, he just bowed his head and 'bided, saying this over and over.
"Yes, he would have been about thirty years old in January, eighteen 'nine. The storm picked up during the night of the twenty-first of that month. My father got dressed and went out long before daylight; he was never someone to stay in bed, especially since the gale was nearly lifting the thatch over his head by that point. Plus, he had fenced a small potato patch that winter down by Lowland Point, and he wanted to check if it had survived the night. He took the path across Gunner's Meadow—where they buried most of the bodies afterward. The wind was hitting him head-on at the time, and once on his way (he’s told me this many times), a large strip of seaweed flew through the darkness and slapped him on the cheek like a cold hand. But he managed pretty well until he got to Lowland, where he had to drop to his hands and knees and crawl, digging his fingers into the shingle now and then to hold on, because he claimed the stones, some as big as a man's head, kept rolling and driving past, making it seem like the entire foreshore was moving westward beneath him. The fence was gone, of course; not a single stick left to show where it had been; so when he first arrived at the spot, he thought he must have lost his way. My father was a very religious man; and if he thought the end of the world was near—there in the great wind and night, among the moving stones—you can believe he was sure of it when he heard a gun fired, and then, along with that, saw a flame shoot up from the darkness to windward, casting a sudden fierce light all around. All he could think or say was, 'The Second Coming! The Second Coming! The Bridegroom is coming, and the wicked He will toss like a ball into a large country'; and already being on his knees, he just bowed his head and waited, repeating this over and over."
"But by'm by, between two squalls, he made bold to lift his head and look, and then by the light—a bluish color 'twas—he saw all the coast clear away to Manacle Point, and off the Manacles in the thick of the weather, a sloop-of-war with topgallants housed, driving stern foremost toward the reef. It was she, of course, that was burning the flare. My father could see the white streak and the ports of her quite plain as she rose to it, a little outside the breakers, and he guessed easy enough that her captain had just managed to wear ship and was trying to force her nose to the sea with the help of her small bower anchor and the scrap or two of canvas that hadn't yet been blown out of her. But while he looked, she fell off, giving her broadside to it foot by foot, and drifting back on the breakers around Carn Du and the Varses. The rocks lie so thick thereabout that 'twas a toss up which she struck first; at any rate, my father couldn't tell at the time, for just then the flare died down and went out.
"But after a while, between two squalls, he bravely lifted his head to look, and by the bluish light he saw the coast stretching all the way to Manacle Point. Off the Manacles, in the middle of the rough weather, there was a sloop-of-war with her topgallants down, driving backwards toward the reef. It was obviously her that was burning the flare. My father could see her white hull and ports quite clearly as she rose above the waves, just outside the breakers, and he easily guessed that her captain had just managed to turn the ship and was trying to point her bow into the sea with the help of her small bower anchor and a few scraps of canvas that hadn’t been blown away yet. But while he was watching, she fell off, presenting her broadside to the waves bit by bit, drifting back toward the breakers around Carn Du and the Varses. The rocks are so densely packed in that area that it was a toss-up which one she hit first; at any rate, my father couldn’t tell at the time because just then the flare went out."
"Well, sir, he turned then in the dark and started back for Coverack to cry the dismal tidings—though well knowing ship and crew to be past any hope, and as he turned the wind lifted him and tossed him forward 'like a ball,' as he'd been saying, and homeward along the foreshore. As you know, 'tis ugly work, even by daylight, picking your way among the stones there, and my father was prettily knocked about at first in the dark. But by this 'twas nearer seven than six o'clock, and the day spreading. By the time he reached North Corner, a man could see to read print; hows'ever, he looked neither out to sea nor toward Coverack, but headed straight for the first cottage—the same that stands above North Corner to-day. A man named Billy Ede lived there then, and when my father burst into the kitchen bawling, 'Wreck! wreck!' he saw Billy Ede's wife, Ann, standing there in her clogs with a shawl over her head, and her clothes wringing wet.
"Well, sir, he then turned around in the dark and started back for Coverack to deliver the terrible news—knowing full well that the ship and crew were beyond any hope. As he turned, the wind lifted him and tossed him forward 'like a ball,' as he’d been saying, sending him homeward along the shore. As you know, it’s dangerous work, even in daylight, navigating the stones there, and my father got pretty banged up at first in the dark. But by then it was closer to seven than six o'clock, and the day was breaking. By the time he reached North Corner, it was light enough to read print; however, he didn’t look out to sea or toward Coverack but headed straight for the first cottage—the one that still stands above North Corner today. A man named Billy Ede lived there back then, and when my father burst into the kitchen shouting, 'Wreck! wreck!' he saw Billy Ede’s wife, Ann, standing there in her clogs with a shawl over her head, drenched to the skin."
"'Save the chap!' says Billy Ede's wife, Ann. 'What d'ee mean by crying stale fish at that rate?'
"'Save the guy!' says Billy Ede's wife, Ann. 'What do you mean by shouting stale fish like that?'"
"'But 'tis a wreck, I tell 'ee.'
"'But it's a wreck, I tell you.'"
"'I've a-zeed 'n, too; and so has every one with an eye in his head.'
"'I've seen it too; and so has everyone who has an eye in their head.'"
"And with that she pointed straight over my father's shoulder, and he turned; and there, close under Dolor Point, at the end of Coverack town, he saw another wreck washing, and the point black with people, like emmets, running to and fro in the morning light. While he stood staring at her, he heard a trumpet sounded on board, the notes coming in little jerks, like a bird rising against the wind; but faintly, of course, because of the distance and the gale blowing—though this had dropped a little.
"And with that, she pointed right over my father's shoulder, and he turned; and there, just under Dolor Point, at the edge of Coverack town, he saw another wreck getting washed up, and the point crowded with people, like ants, running around in the morning light. While he stood there staring at her, he heard a trumpet sound from onboard, the notes coming in little bursts, like a bird struggling against the wind; but it was faint, of course, because of the distance and the strong wind—though it had calmed down a bit."
"'She's a transport,' said Billy Ede's wife, Ann, 'and full of horse-soldiers, fine long men. When she struck they must ha' pitched the horses over first to lighten the ship, for a score of dead horses had washed in afore I left, half an hour back. An' three or four soldiers, too—fine long corpses in white breeches and jackets of blue and gold. I held the lantern to one. Such a straight young man!'
"'She's a transport,' said Billy Ede's wife, Ann, 'and full of cavalry, tall, impressive men. When she hit, they must have thrown the horses overboard first to lighten the ship, because a bunch of dead horses had washed ashore before I left, just half an hour ago. And three or four soldiers, too—tall, well-built corpses in white pants and jackets of blue and gold. I held the lantern to one. What a straight young man!'"
"My father asked her about the trumpeting.
"My dad asked her about the trumpeting."
"'That's the queerest bit of all. She was burnin' a light when me an' my man joined the crowd down there. All her masts had gone; whether they carried away, or were cut away to ease her, I don't rightly know. Her keelson was broke under her and her bottom sagged and stove, and she had just settled down like a sitting hen—just the leastest list to starboard; but a man could stand there easy. They had rigged up ropes across her, from bulwark to bulwark, an' beside these the men were mustered, holding on like grim death whenever the sea made a clean breach over them, an' standing up like heroes as soon as it passed. The captain an' the officers were clinging to the rail of the quarterdeck, all in their golden uniforms, waiting for the end as if 'twas King George they expected. There was no way to help, for she lay right beyond cast of line, though our folk tried it fifty times. And beside them clung a trumpeter, a whacking big man, an' between the heavy seas he would lift his trumpet with one hand, and blow a call; and every time he blew the men gave a cheer. There [she says]—hark 'ee now—there he goes agen! But you won't hear no cheering any more, for few are left to cheer, and their voices weak. Bitter cold the wind is, and I reckon it numbs their grip o' the ropes, for they were dropping off fast with every sea when my man sent me home to get his breakfast. Another wreck, you say? Well, there's no hope for the tender dears, if 'tis the Manacles. You'd better run down and help yonder; though 'tis little help any man can give. Not one came in alive while I was there. The tide's flowing, an' she won't hold together another hour, they say.'
"'That's the strangest part of all. She had a light on when my man and I joined the crowd down there. All her masts were gone; whether they were taken down or cut away to help her, I can't say for sure. Her keelson was broken underneath her, and her bottom was sagging and smashed in, and she had just settled down like a hen sitting—just the tiniest lean to starboard; but a man could stand there easily. They had set up ropes across her, from railing to railing, and beside these, the men were gathered, holding on like their lives depended on it whenever the sea crashed over them, and standing tall like heroes as soon as it passed. The captain and the officers were clinging to the rail of the quarterdeck, all in their golden uniforms, waiting for the end as if they were expecting King George. There was no way to help, as she lay just out of reach, though our folks tried to throw lines fifty times. And next to them clung a trumpeter, a really big man, and between the heavy waves, he would lift his trumpet with one hand and blow a call; and every time he blew, the men would cheer. There—listen now—there he goes again! But you won't hear any cheering anymore, because few are left to cheer, and their voices are weak. The wind is bitter cold, and I guess it’s numbing their grip on the ropes, as they were dropping off fast with every wave when my man sent me home to get his breakfast. Another wreck, you say? Well, there's no hope for the poor souls if it's the Manacles. You'd better run down and help over there; though there's little any man can do. Not one came in alive while I was there. The tide's flowing, and they say she won't hold together another hour.'
"Well, sure enough, the end was coming fast when my father got down to the point. Six men had been cast up alive, or just breathing—a seaman and five troopers. The seaman was the only one that had breath to speak; and while they were carrying him into the town, the word went round that the ship's name was the 'Despatch,' transport, homeward-bound from Corunna, with a detachment of the Seventh Hussars, that had been fighting out there with Sir John Moore. The seas had rolled her further over by this time, and given her decks a pretty sharp slope; but a dozen men still held on, seven by the ropes near the ship's waist, a couple near the break of the poop, and three on the quarterdeck. Of these three my father made out one to be the skipper; close by him clung an officer in full regimentals—his name, they heard after, was Captain Duncanfield; and last came the tall trumpeter; and if you'll believe me, the fellow was making shift there, at the very last, to blow 'God Save the King.' What's more, he got to 'Send us victorious,' before an extra big sea came bursting across and washed them off the deck—every man but one of the pair beneath the poop—and he dropped his hold before the next wave; being stunned, I reckon. The others went out of sight at once, but the trumpeter—being, as I said, a powerful man as well as a tough swimmer—rose like a duck, rode out a couple of breakers, and came in on the crest of the third. The folks looked to see him broke like an egg at their very feet; but when the smother cleared, there he was, lying face downward on a ledge below them; and one of the men that happened to have a rope round him—I forget the fellow's name, if I ever heard it—jumped down and grabbed him by the ankle as he began to slip back. Before the next big sea, the pair were hauled high enough to be out of harm, and another heave brought them up to grass. Quick work, but master trumpeter wasn't quite dead; nothing worse than a cracked head and three staved ribs. In twenty minutes or so they had him in bed, with the doctor to tend him.
"Sure enough, the end was coming fast when my dad got to the point. Six men had been pulled up alive, or at least still breathing—a sailor and five soldiers. The sailor was the only one who could talk; and as they were taking him into town, the word spread that the ship was named the 'Despatch,' a transport heading home from Corunna, with a group from the Seventh Hussars who had been fighting there with Sir John Moore. By this time, the seas had tilted her further over, making her decks pretty steep; but a dozen men were still holding on, seven by the ropes near the ship’s waist, a couple near the back, and three on the quarterdeck. Of these three, my dad figured one was the captain; right next to him was an officer in full uniform—his name, we found out later, was Captain Duncanfield; and last was the tall trumpeter; and if you can believe it, the guy was trying to play 'God Save the King' at the very end. What’s more, he got to 'Send us victorious' before a huge wave came crashing over and swept them off the deck—every man but one of the two under the poop—and he lost his grip before the next wave hit; probably stunned, I guess. The others disappeared right away, but the trumpeter—who, like I said, was a strong guy and a good swimmer—came up like a duck, rode out a couple of waves, and came back in on the crest of the third. Everyone expected him to smash like an egg right at their feet; but when the spray cleared, there he was, lying face down on a ledge below them; and one of the men who happened to have a rope around him—I forget his name, if I ever knew it—jumped down and grabbed him by the ankle as he started to slip back. Before the next big wave came, they were pulled up high enough to be safe, and another lift brought them onto the grass. Quick work, but the trumpeter wasn’t quite done for; nothing worse than a cracked head and three broken ribs. In about twenty minutes, they had him in bed, with the doctor taking care of him."
"Now was the time—nothing being left alive upon the transport—for my father to tell of the sloop he'd seen driving upon the Manacles. And when he got a hearing, though the most were set upon salvage, and believed a wreck in the hand, so to say, to be worth half a dozen they couldn't see, a good few volunteered to start off with him and have a look. They crossed Lowland Point; no ship to be seen on the Manacles nor anywhere upon the sea. One or two was for calling my father a liar. 'Wait till we come to Dean Point,' said he. Sure enough, on the far side of Dean Point they found the sloop's mainmast washing about with half a dozen men lashed to it, men in red jackets, every mother's son drowned and staring; and a little further on, just under the Dean, three or four bodies cast up on the shore, one of them a small drummer-boy, side-drum and all; and near by part of a ship's gig, with 'H.M.S. Primrose' cut on the stern-board. From this point on the shore was littered thick with wreckage and dead bodies—the most of them marines in uniform—and in Godrevy Cove, in particular, a heap of furniture from the captain's cabin, and among it a water-tight box, not much damaged, and full of papers, by which, when it came to be examined, next day, the wreck was easily made out to be the 'Primrose,' of eighteen guns, outward bound from Portsmouth, with a fleet of transports for the Spanish war—thirty sail, I've heard, but I've never heard what became of them. Being handled by merchant skippers, no doubt they rode out the gale, and reached the Tagus safe and sound. Not but what the captain of the 'Primrose'—Mein was his name—did quite right to try and club-haul his vessel when he found himself under the land; only he never ought to have got there, if he took proper soundings. But it's easy talking.
Now was the time—nothing left alive on the transport—for my father to talk about the sloop he’d seen crashing into the Manacles. And when he finally got people’s attention, even though most were focused on salvage and thought a wreck nearby was worth more than they could see, quite a few offered to go with him and check it out. They crossed Lowland Point; no ship in sight on the Manacles or anywhere on the sea. A couple of people called my father a liar. “Just wait until we get to Dean Point,” he said. Sure enough, on the far side of Dean Point, they found the sloop's mainmast floating with half a dozen men tied to it, men in red jackets, all dead and staring; and a little further along, right under the Dean, three or four bodies washed up on the shore, one of them a young drummer-boy, side-drum and all; and nearby, part of a ship's gig, with 'H.M.S. Primrose' carved into the stern. From that point on, the shore was littered with wreckage and dead bodies—the majority of them marines in uniform—and in Godrevy Cove, especially, there was a pile of furniture from the captain's cabin, and among it a water-tight box, not badly damaged, filled with papers that, when examined the next day, easily identified the wreck as the 'Primrose,' an eighteen-gun ship, on its way from Portsmouth, with a fleet of transports for the Spanish war—thirty ships, I’ve heard, but I never found out what happened to them. Being operated by merchant skippers, they likely weathered the storm and reached the Tagus safe and sound. Not that the captain of the 'Primrose'—his name was Mein—didn’t do right trying to club-haul his vessel when he found himself near the shore; he just shouldn’t have gotten there in the first place if he had taken proper soundings. But it’s easy to say that.
"The 'Primrose,' sir, was a handsome vessel—for her size one of the handsomest in the King's service—and newly fitted out at Plymouth Dock. So the boys had brave pickings from her in the way of brass-work, ship's instruments, and the like, let alone some barrels of stores not much spoiled. They loaded themselves with as much as they could carry, and started for home, meaning to make a second journey before the preventive men got wind of their doings, and came to spoil the fun. 'Hullo!' says my father, and dropped his gear, 'I do believe there's a leg moving?' and running fore, he stooped over the small drummer-boy that I told you about. The poor little chap was lying there, with his face a mass of bruises, and his eyes closed; but he had shifted one leg an inch or two, and was still breathing. So my father pulled out a knife, and cut him free from his drum—that was lashed on to him with a double turn of Manila rope—and took him up and carried him along here to this very room that we're sitting in. He lost a good deal by this; for when he went back to fetch the bundle he'd dropped, the preventive men had got hold of it, and were thick as thieves along the foreshore; so that 'twas only by paying one or two to look the other way that he picked up anything worth carrying off: which you'll allow to be hard, seeing that he was the first man to give news of the wreck.
"The 'Primrose,' sir, was a beautiful ship—for her size, one of the most striking in the King's fleet—and freshly outfitted at Plymouth Dock. So the boys had a great haul from her in terms of brass work, ship's instruments, and the like, not to mention some barrels of supplies that weren’t too spoiled. They loaded up with as much as they could carry and set off for home, planning to make a second trip before the coast guard caught wind of what they were up to and spoiled their fun. 'Hey!' says my father, dropping his gear, 'I think there's a leg moving?' and rushing forward, he bent down over the young drummer-boy I mentioned earlier. The poor kid was lying there, his face all bruised, and his eyes closed; but he had moved one leg a little and was still breathing. So my father took out a knife and cut him free from his drum—that was strapped to him with a double turn of Manila rope—and picked him up to carry him to this very room we're sitting in. He lost a lot by doing this because when he went back to get the bundle he had dropped, the coast guard had grabbed it, and they were thick along the shore, making it hard for him. He only managed to get a few things worth taking by paying some of them to look the other way, which you'll agree was tough, considering he was the first one to report the wreck."
"Well, the inquiry was held, of course, and my father gave evidence, and for the rest they had to trust to the sloop's papers, for not a soul was saved besides the drummer-boy, and he was raving in a fever, brought on by the cold and the fright. And the seaman and the five troopers gave evidence about the loss of the 'Despatch.' The tall trumpeter, too, whose ribs were healing, came forward and kissed the book; but somehow his head had been hurt in coming ashore, and he talked foolish-like, and 'twas easy seen he would never be a proper man again. The others were taken up to Plymouth, and so went their ways; but the trumpeter stayed on in Coverack; and King George, finding he was fit for nothing, sent him down a trifle of a pension after a while—enough to keep him in board and lodging, with a bit of tobacco over.
"Well, the inquiry was held, of course, and my father gave his testimony. For the rest, they had to rely on the sloop's documents, since no one else survived except the drummer-boy, who was raving in a fever from the cold and the shock. The seaman and the five troopers also testified about the loss of the 'Despatch.' The tall trumpeter, whose ribs were healing, came forward and swore an oath, but somehow he had hurt his head when coming ashore, and he spoke nonsensically; it was clear he would never be a proper man again. The others were taken to Plymouth, and they went their separate ways, but the trumpeter stayed in Coverack. King George, realizing he was unfit for work, eventually granted him a small pension—just enough to cover his food and lodging, with a little left over for tobacco."
"Now the first time that this man—William Tallifer he called himself—met with the drummer-boy, was about a fortnight after the little chap had bettered enough to be allowed a short walk out of doors, which he took, if you please, in full regimentals. There never was a soldier so proud of his dress. His own suit had shrunk a brave bit with the salt water; but into ordinary frock an' corduroys he declared he would not get, not if he had to go naked the rest of his life; so my father—being a good-natured man, and handy with the needle—turned to and repaired damages with a piece or two of scarlet cloth cut from the jacket of one of the drowned Marines. Well, the poor little chap chanced to be standing, in this rig out, down by the gate of Gunner's Meadow, where they had buried two score and over of his comrades. The morning was a fine one, early in March month; and along came the cracked trumpeter, likewise taking a stroll.
"Now, the first time this guy—William Tallifer was his name—met the drummer-boy was about two weeks after the little guy had recovered enough to be allowed a short walk outside, which he took, mind you, in full uniform. There has never been a soldier so proud of his outfit. His own suit had shrunk quite a bit from the salt water, but he insisted he wouldn’t wear regular clothes like a frock or corduroys, not even if it meant going naked for the rest of his life; so my father—being a decent guy and good with sewing—went ahead and patched things up with a couple of pieces of red cloth cut from the jacket of one of the drowned Marines. Well, the poor little guy happened to be standing, in this getup, by the gate of Gunner's Meadow, where they had buried more than twenty of his comrades. It was a beautiful morning, early in March; and along came the off-key trumpeter, also out for a stroll."
"'Hullo!' says he; 'good mornin'! And what might you be doin' here?'
"'Hello!' he says; 'good morning! And what are you doing here?'"
"'I was a-wishin',' says the boy, 'I had a pair o' drumsticks. Our lads were buried yonder without so much as a drum tapped or a musket fired; and that's not Christian burial for British soldiers.'
"'I was wishing,' says the boy, 'that I had a pair of drumsticks. Our guys were buried over there without even a drum being tapped or a musket fired; and that’s not a proper burial for British soldiers.'"
"'Phut!' says the trumpeter, and spat on the ground; 'a parcel of Marines!'
"'Phut!' says the trumpeter, and spat on the ground; 'a bunch of Marines!'"
"The boy eyed him a second or so, and answered up: 'If I'd a tav of turf handy, I'd bung it at your mouth, you greasy cavalryman, and learn you to speak respectful of your betters. The Marines are the handiest body o' men in the service.'
"The boy looked at him for a moment and replied, 'If I had a pile of turf nearby, I'd throw it at your face, you filthy cavalryman, and teach you to speak respectfully to your betters. The Marines are the best group of guys in the service.'"
"The trumpeter looked down on him from the height of six-foot two, and asked: 'Did they die well?'
"The trumpeter looked down at him from a height of six feet two and asked, 'Did they die well?'"
"'They died very well. There was a lot of running to and fro at first, and some of the men began to cry, and a few to strip off their clothes. But when the ship fell off for the last time, Captain Mein turned and said something to Major Griffiths, the commanding officer on board, and the Major called out to me to beat to quarters. It might have been for a wedding, he sang it out so cheerful. We'd had word already that 'twas to be parade order; and the men fell in as trim and decent as if they were going to church. One or two even tried to shave at the last moment. The Major wore his medals. One of the seamen, seeing I had work to keep the drum steady—the sling being a bit loose for me, and the wind what you remember—lashed it tight with a piece of rope; and that saved my life afterward, a drum being as good as a cork until it's stove. I kept beating away until every man was on deck; and then the Major formed them up and told them to die like British soldiers, and the chaplain was in the middle of a prayer when she struck. In ten minutes she was gone. That was how they died, cavalryman.'
"They died very well. At first, there was a lot of running around, and some of the men started to cry, while a few stripped off their clothes. But when the ship capsized for the last time, Captain Mein turned and said something to Major Griffiths, the commanding officer on board, and the Major called out to me to sound the alarm. He sang it out so cheerfully it might as well have been for a wedding. We had already been told it was going to be parade order, and the men lined up as neatly and respectfully as if they were going to church. One or two even tried to shave at the last minute. The Major wore his medals. One of the seamen, noticing I was struggling to keep the drum steady—with the sling a bit loose for me and the wind as you remember—secured it tight with a piece of rope; that saved my life later since a drum is as good as a cork until it’s smashed. I kept beating until every man was on deck; then the Major formed them up and told them to die like British soldiers, and the chaplain was in the middle of a prayer when she struck. In ten minutes, she was gone. That was how they died, cavalryman."
"'And that was very well done, drummer of the Marines. What's your name?'
"'That was really well done, Marine drummer. What's your name?'"
"'John Christian.'
'John Christian.'
"'Mine's William George Tallifer, trumpeter, of the Seventh Light Dragoons—the Queen's Own. I played "God Save the King" while our men were drowning. Captain Duncanfield told me to sound a call or two, to put them in heart; but that matter of "God save the King" was a notion of my own. I won't say anything to hurt the feelings of a Marine, even if he's not much over five-foot tall; but the Queen's Own Hussars is a tearin' fine regiment. As between horse and foot, 'tis a question o' which gets a chance. All the way from Sahagun to Corunna 'twas we that took and gave the knocks—at Mayorga and Rueda, and Bennyventy.'—The reason, sir, I can speak the names so pat, is that my father learnt 'em by heart afterward from the trumpeter, who was always talking about Mayorga and Rueda and Bennyventy.'—We made the rear-guard, under General Paget; and drove the French every time; and all the infantry did was to sit about in wine-shops till we whipped 'em out, an' steal an' straggle an' play the tom-fool in general. And when it came to a stand-up fight at Corunna, 'twas we that had to stay seasick aboard the transports, an' watch the infantry in the thick o' the caper. Very well they behaved, too—specially the Fourth Regiment, an' the Forty-Second Highlanders, an' the Dirty Half-Hundred. Oh, ay; they're decent regiments, all three. But the Queen's Own Hussars is a tearin' fine regiment. So you played on your drum when the ship was goin' down? Drummer John Christian, I'll have to get you a new pair of sticks.'
"'Mine's William George Tallifer, trumpeter of the Seventh Light Dragoons—the Queen's Own. I played "God Save the King" while our men were drowning. Captain Duncanfield told me to sound a call or two to lift their spirits; but playing "God Save the King" was my own idea. I won't say anything to hurt a Marine's feelings, even if he's not much over five feet tall; but the Queen's Own Hussars is an outstanding regiment. When it comes to horse and foot, it’s just a matter of who gets a chance. From Sahagun to Corunna, we were the ones who took and gave the hits—at Mayorga and Rueda, and Bennyventy.'—The reason, sir, I can rattle off those names so well is that my father memorized them later from the trumpeter, who was always talking about Mayorga and Rueda and Bennyventy.'—We made the rear guard under General Paget and drove the French back every time; and all the infantry did was hang around in wine shops until we kicked them out, and steal and straggle and generally act foolish. And when it came to a real fight at Corunna, we had to stay seasick aboard the transports and watch the infantry in the thick of it. They performed very well, too—especially the Fourth Regiment, the Forty-Second Highlanders, and the Dirty Half-Hundred. Oh, yeah; they’re all decent regiments. But the Queen's Own Hussars is a really fine regiment. So you played your drum when the ship was going down? Drummer John Christian, I’ll need to get you a new pair of sticks.'
"The very next day the trumpeter marched into Helston, and got a carpenter there to turn him a pair of box-wood drumsticks for the boy. And this was the beginning of one of the most curious friendships you ever heard tell of. Nothing delighted the pair more than to borrow a boat off my father and pull out to the rocks where the 'Primrose' and the 'Despatch' had struck and sunk; and on still days 'twas pretty to hear them out there off the Manacles, the drummer playing his tattoo—for they always took their music with them—and the trumpeter practising calls, and making his trumpet speak like an angel. But if the weather turned roughish, they'd be walking together and talking; leastwise the youngster listened while the other discoursed about Sir John's campaign in Spain and Portugal, telling how each little skirmish befell; and of Sir John himself, and General Baird, and General Paget, and Colonel Vivian, his own commanding officer, and what kind of men they were; and of the last bloody stand-up at Corunna, and so forth, as if neither could have enough.
The very next day, the trumpeter marched into Helston and got a carpenter to make a pair of boxwood drumsticks for the boy. This was the start of one of the most interesting friendships you've ever heard about. Nothing made them happier than borrowing a boat from my father and heading out to the rocks where the 'Primrose' and the 'Despatch' had sunk. On calm days, it was nice to hear them out there off the Manacles, the drummer playing his beats—because they always took their music with them—and the trumpeter practicing calls, making his trumpet sound like an angel. But if the weather turned a bit rough, they would walk and talk together; at least the younger one listened while the other shared stories about Sir John's campaign in Spain and Portugal, telling how each little skirmish happened; and about Sir John himself, General Baird, General Paget, and Colonel Vivian, his own commanding officer, and what kind of men they were; and about the last bloody battle at Corunna, and so on, as if neither of them could get enough.
"But all this had to come to an end in the late summer, for the boy, John Christian, being now well and strong again, must go up to Plymouth to report himself. 'Twas his own wish (for I believe King George had forgotten all about him), but his friend wouldn't hold him back. As for the trumpeter, my father had made an arrangement to take him on as lodger, as soon as the boy left; and on the morning fixed for the start, he was up at the door here by five o'clock, with his trumpet slung by his side, and all the rest of his belongings in a small valise. A Monday morning it was, and after breakfast he had fixed to walk with the boy some way on the road toward Helston, where the coach started. My father left them at breakfast together, and went out to meat the pig, and do a few odd morning jobs of that sort. When he came back, the boy was still at table, and the trumpeter sat with the rings in his hands, hitched together just as they be at this moment.
"But all this had to end in late summer, as the boy, John Christian, was now healthy and strong again, and had to go up to Plymouth to report to them. It was his own choice (since I believe King George had completely forgotten about him), but his friend didn’t try to stop him. As for the trumpeter, my father had arranged to take him in as a lodger once the boy left; and on the morning set for the departure, he was at the door by five o'clock, with his trumpet slung by his side and all his other belongings in a small suitcase. It was a Monday morning, and after breakfast, he planned to walk with the boy part of the way toward Helston, where the coach departed. My father left them at breakfast and went out to feed the pig and do a few odd morning chores. When he returned, the boy was still at the table, and the trumpeter sat with the rings in his hands, hitched together just like they are right now."
"'Look at this,' he says to my father, showing him the lock. 'I picked it up off a starving brass-worker in Lisbon, and it is not one of your common locks that one word of six letters will open at any time. There's janius in this lock; for you've only to make the rings spell any six-letter word you please and snap down the lock upon that, and never a soul can open it—not the maker, even—until somebody comes along that knows the word you snapped it on. Now Johnny here's goin', and he leaves his drum behind him; for, though he can make pretty music on it, the parchment sags in wet weather, by reason of the sea-water getting at it; an' if he carries it to Plymouth, they'll only condemn it and give him another. And, as for me, I shan't have the heart to put lip to the trumpet any more when Johnny's gone. So we've chosen a word together, and locked 'em together upon that; and, by your leave, I'll hang 'em here together on the hook over your fireplace. Maybe Johnny'll come back; maybe not. Maybe, if he comes, I'll be dead an' gone, and he'll take 'em apart an' try their music for old sake's sake. But if he never comes, nobody can separate 'em; for nobody besides knows the word. And if you marry and have sons, you can tell 'em that here are tied together the souls of Johnny Christian, drummer of the Marines, and William George Tallifer, once trumpeter of the Queen's Own Hussars. Amen.'
"'Look at this,' he says to my father, showing him the lock. 'I picked it up from a starving brass worker in Lisbon, and it's not one of those common locks that can be opened with any six-letter word. There’s genius in this lock; you just have to arrange the rings to spell any six-letter word you want and snap the lock shut on that. No one can open it—not even the maker—until someone comes along who knows the word you locked it with. Now Johnny here’s leaving, and he’s leaving his drum behind; because, even though he can make beautiful music with it, the parchment sags in wet weather due to the sea water getting to it; and if he takes it to Plymouth, they’ll just condemn it and give him a replacement. And as for me, I won’t have the heart to play the trumpet anymore when Johnny’s gone. So we’ve chosen a word together and locked them both on that; and, if it’s alright with you, I’ll hang them here on the hook above your fireplace. Maybe Johnny will come back; maybe not. Maybe if he does, I’ll be dead and gone, and he’ll take them apart and try their music for old times' sake. But if he never comes, no one can separate them; no one else knows the word. And if you marry and have sons, you can tell them that here are tied together the souls of Johnny Christian, drummer of the Marines, and William George Tallifer, once trumpeter of the Queen's Own Hussars. Amen.'
"With that he hung the two instruments 'pon the hook there; and the boy stood up and thanked my father and shook hands; and the pair went out of the door, toward Helston.
"With that, he hung the two instruments on the hook there; and the boy stood up, thanked my father, and shook hands; then the two of them went out the door, heading toward Helston."
"Somewhere on the road they took leave of one another; but nobody saw the parting, nor heard what was said between them. About three in the afternoon the trumpeter came walking back over the hill; and by the time my father came home from the fishing, the cottage was tidied up, and the tea ready, and the whole place shining like a new pin. From that time for five years he lodged here with my father, looking after the house and tilling the garden. And all the while he was steadily failing; the hurt in his head spreading, in a manner, to his limbs. My father watched the feebleness growing on him, but said nothing. And from first to last neither spake a word about the drummer, John Christian; nor did any letter reach them, nor word of his doings.
"Somewhere on the road, they said goodbye to each other; but no one saw them part or heard what they talked about. Around three in the afternoon, the trumpeter came back over the hill; and by the time my father returned from fishing, the cottage was cleaned up, the tea was ready, and the whole place was shining like new. For the next five years, he stayed here with my father, taking care of the house and working in the garden. All the while, he was steadily getting worse; the pain in his head was spreading to his limbs. My father noticed his growing weakness but said nothing. From beginning to end, they never spoke a word about the drummer, John Christian; nor did they receive any letters or news about what he was doing."
"The rest of the tale you're free to believe, sir, or not, as you please. It stands upon my father's words, and he always declared he was ready to kiss the Book upon it, before judge and jury. He said, too, that he never had the wit to make up such a yarn; and he defied any one to explain about the lock, in particular, by any other tale. But you shall judge for yourself.
"The rest of the story, sir, you're welcome to believe or not, as you like. It rests on my father's words, and he always claimed he would swear on it in front of a judge and jury. He also said that he never had the creativity to invent such a story; and he challenged anyone to explain the lock, in particular, with any other story. But you can decide for yourself."
"My father said that about three o'clock in the morning, April fourteenth, of the year 'fourteen, he and William Tallifer were sitting here, just as you and I, sir, are sitting now. My father had put on his clothes a few minutes before, and was mending his spiller by the light of the horn lantern, meaning to set off before daylight to haul the trammel. The trumpeter hadn't been to bed at all. Toward the last he mostly spent his nights (and his days, too) dozing in the elbow-chair where you sit at this minute. He was dozing then (my father said) with his chin dropped forward on his chest, when a knock sounded upon the door, and the door opened, and in walked an upright young man in scarlet regimentals.
"My father said that around three o'clock in the morning, on April fourteenth, in the year '14, he and William Tallifer were sitting here, just like you and I are sitting now, sir. My father had just gotten dressed a few minutes before and was fixing his fishing net by the light of the horn lantern, planning to leave before dawn to haul in the trammel. The trumpeter hadn’t gone to bed at all. By that time, he mostly spent his nights (and days, too) dozing in the armchair where you’re sitting right now. He was dozing then (my father said) with his chin dropped forward on his chest when there was a knock at the door, it opened, and in walked a tall young man in a red uniform."
"He had grown a brave bit, and his face the color of wood-ashes; but it was the drummer, John Christian. Only his uniform was different from the one he used to wear, and the figures '38' shone in brass upon his collar.
"He had grown a bit braver, and his face looked like wood ashes; but it was the drummer, John Christian. The only thing different was his uniform, and the number '38' gleamed in brass on his collar."
"The drummer walked past my father as if he never saw him, and stood by the elbow-chair and said:
"The drummer walked past my dad like he didn’t even see him, and stood by the armchair and said:"
"'Trumpeter, trumpeter, are you one with us?'
"'Trumpeter, trumpeter, are you with us?'"
"And the trumpeter just lifted the lids of his eyes, and answered: 'How should I not be one with you, drummer Johnny—Johnny boy? If you come, I count; if you march, I mark time; until the discharge comes.'
"And the trumpeter just opened his eyes and replied: 'How could I not be with you, drummer Johnny—Johnny boy? If you come, I count; if you march, I keep time; until the signal is given.'"
"'The discharge has come to-night,' said the drummer; 'and the word is Corunna no longer.' And stepping to the chimney-place, he unhooked the drum and trumpet, and began to twist the brass rings of the lock, spelling the word aloud, so—'C-O-R-U-N-A.' When he had fixed the last letter, the padlock opened in his hand.
"'The news has come tonight,' said the drummer; 'and the name is no longer Corunna.' He walked over to the fireplace, took down the drum and trumpet, and started to twist the brass rings of the lock, sounding out the letters aloud—'C-O-R-U-N-A.' Once he set the last letter, the padlock opened in his hand.
"'Did you know, trumpeter, that, when I came to Plymouth, they put me into a line regiment?'
"'Did you know, trumpeter, that when I got to Plymouth, they put me in a line regiment?'"
"'The 38th is a good regiment,' answered the old Hussar, still in his dull voice; 'I went back with them from Sahagun to Corunna. At Corunna they stood in General Fraser's division, on the right. They behaved well."
"'The 38th is a good regiment,' replied the old Hussar, still in his monotone voice; 'I traveled back with them from Sahagun to Corunna. At Corunna, they were part of General Fraser's division, on the right. They performed well."
"'But I'd fain see the Marines again,' says the drummer, handing him the trumpet; 'and you, you shall call once more for the Queen's Own. Matthew,' he says, suddenly, turning on my father—and when he turned, my father saw for the first time that his scarlet jacket had a round hole by the breast-bone, and that the blood was welling there—'Matthew, we shall want your boat.'
"'But I'd really like to see the Marines again,' says the drummer, handing him the trumpet; 'and you, you should call once more for the Queen's Own. Matthew,' he says suddenly, turning to my father—and when he turned, my father saw for the first time that his scarlet jacket had a round hole near the breastbone, and that blood was welling up there—'Matthew, we’re going to need your boat.'"
"Then my father rose on his legs like a man in a dream, while they two slung on, the one his drum, and t'other his trumpet. He took the lantern and went quaking before them down to the shore, and they breathed heavily behind him; and they stepped into his boat, and my father pushed off.
"Then my father got up like a man in a dream, while the two of them grabbed their instruments, one his drum and the other his trumpet. He took the lantern and went shakily ahead of them down to the shore, and they breathed heavily behind him. They got into his boat, and my father pushed off."
"'Row you first for Dolor Point,' says the drummer. So my father rowed them past the white houses of Coverack to Dolor Point, and there, at a word, lay on his oars. And the trumpeter, William Tallifer, put his trumpet to his mouth and sounded the reveille. The music of it was like rivers running.
"'Row you first to Dolor Point,' says the drummer. So my father rowed them past the white houses of Coverack to Dolor Point, and there, at a word, he stopped rowing. And the trumpeter, William Tallifer, raised his trumpet and played the reveille. The music sounded like rivers flowing.
"'They will follow,' said the drummer. 'Matthew, pull you now for the Manacles.'
"'They'll follow,' said the drummer. 'Matthew, go ahead for the Manacles.'"
"So my father pulled for the Manacles, and came to an easy close outside Carn Du. And the drummer took his sticks and beat a tattoo, there by the edge of the reef; and the music of it was like a rolling chariot.
"So my father headed for the Manacles and came to a smooth stop outside Carn Du. The drummer grabbed his sticks and played a rhythm right by the edge of the reef; and the sound of it was like a rolling chariot."
"'That will do,' says he, breaking off; 'they will follow. Pull now for the shore under Gunner's Meadow.'
"'That will do,' he says, stopping suddenly; 'they will follow. Now row to the shore under Gunner's Meadow.'"
"Then my father pulled for the shore and ran his boat in under Gunner's Meadow. And they stepped out, all three, and walked up to the meadow. By the gate the drummer halted, and began his tattoo again, looking out toward the darkness over the sea.
"Then my dad steered towards the shore and brought his boat into Gunner's Meadow. All three of them stepped out and walked up to the meadow. By the gate, the drummer stopped and started his tattoo again, gazing out toward the darkness over the sea."
"And while the drum beat, and my father held his breath, there came up out of the sea and the darkness a troop of many men, horse and foot, and formed up among the graves; and others rose out of the graves and formed up—drowned Marines with bleached faces, and pale Hussars, riding their horses, all lean and shadowy. There was no clatter of hoofs or accoutrements, my father said, but a soft sound all the while like the beating of a bird's wing; and a black shadow lay like a pool about the feet of all. The drummer stood upon a little knoll just inside the gate, and beside him the tall trumpeter, with hand on hip, watching them gather; and behind them both my father, clinging to the gate. When no more came, the drummer stopped playing, and said, 'Call the roll.'
"And while the drum was beating and my father held his breath, a group of many men—both mounted and on foot—rose up out of the sea and darkness and gathered among the graves; others emerged from the graves too—drowned Marines with pale faces and ghostly Hussars on their horses, all thin and shadowy. My father said there was no sound of hooves or equipment, just a soft noise all around like the flapping of a bird's wing; and a dark shadow lay like a pool around their feet. The drummer stood on a small hill just inside the gate, and next to him was the tall trumpeter, hand on hip, watching them assemble; and behind them, my father clung to the gate. When no more came, the drummer stopped playing and said, 'Call the roll.'
"Then the trumpeter stepped toward the end man of the rank and called, 'Troop Sergeant-Major Thomas Irons,' and the man answered in a thin voice, 'Here.'
"Then the trumpeter walked over to the last man in line and called out, 'Troop Sergeant-Major Thomas Irons,' and the man replied in a weak voice, 'Here.'"
"'Troop Sergeant-Major Thomas Irons, how is it with you?'
'Troop Sergeant-Major Thomas Irons, how are you doing?'
"The man answered, 'How should it be with me? When I was young, I betrayed a girl; and when I was grown, I betrayed a friend, and for these I must pay. But I died as a man ought. God save the King!'
"The man replied, 'What should I say about myself? When I was young, I betrayed a girl; then, when I grew up, I betrayed a friend, and for those things, I have to face the consequences. But I died like a man should. God save the King!'”
"The trumpeter called to the next man, 'Trooper Henry Buckingham,' and the next man answered, 'Here.'
"The trumpeter called out to the next person, 'Trooper Henry Buckingham,' and the next person replied, 'Here.'"
"'Trooper Henry Buckingham, how is it with you?'
"'Trooper Henry Buckingham, how are you doing?'"
"'How should it be with me? I was a drunkard, and I stole, and in Lugo, in a wine-shop, I killed a man. But I died as a man should. God save the King!'
"'How should I feel about this? I was a drunk, and I stole, and in Lugo, in a bar, I killed a man. But I died like a man should. God save the King!'"
"So the trumpeter went down the line; and when he had finished, the drummer took it up, hailing the dead Marines in their order. Each man answered to his name, and each man ended with 'God save the King!' When all were hailed, the drummer stepped back to his mound, and called:
"So the trumpeter went down the line; and when he was done, the drummer picked it up, honoring the fallen Marines in their order. Each man replied to his name, and each finished with 'God save the King!' When everyone was acknowledged, the drummer stepped back to his mound and called:
"'It is well. You are content, and we are content to join you. Wait, now, a little while.'
"'That's good. You’re happy, and we’re happy to be with you. Just hold on for a moment.'"
"With this he turned and ordered my father to pick up the lantern, and lead the way back. As my father picked it up, he heard the ranks of the dead men cheer and call, 'God save the King!' all together, and saw them waver and fade back into the dark, like a breath fading off a pane.
"With that, he turned and told my father to pick up the lantern and lead the way back. As my father picked it up, he heard the ranks of the dead men cheer and shout, 'God save the King!' all together, and saw them waver and fade back into the darkness, like a breath fading off a window."
"But when they came back here to the kitchen, and my father set the lantern down, it seemed they'd both forgot about him. For the drummer turned in the lantern-light—and my father could see the blood still welling out of the hole in his breast—and took the trumpet-sling from around the other's neck, and locked drum and trumpet together again, choosing the letters on the lock very carefully. While he did this, he said:
"But when they returned to the kitchen and my father placed the lantern down, it seemed they both forgot about him. The drummer turned in the lantern light, and my father could see the blood still oozing from the hole in his chest, and took the trumpet sling off the other guy's neck, locking the drum and trumpet together again, choosing the letters on the lock very carefully. While he was doing this, he said:"
"'The word is no more Corunna, but Bayonne. As you left out an "n" in Corunna, so must I leave out an "n" in Bayonne.' And before snapping the padlock, he spelt out the word slowly—'B-A-Y-O-N-E.' After that, he used no more speech; but turned and hung the two instruments back on the hook; and then took the trumpeter by the arm; and the pair walked out into the darkness, glancing neither to right nor left.
"'The word is no longer Corunna, but Bayonne. Just as you left out an "n" in Corunna, I must leave out an "n" in Bayonne.' And before snapping the padlock, he spelled out the word slowly—'B-A-Y-O-N-E.' After that, he said nothing more; instead, he turned and hung the two instruments back on the hook, then took the trumpeter by the arm, and the two of them walked out into the darkness, not glancing to the right or left."
"My father was on the point of following, when he heard a sort of sigh behind him; and there, sitting in the elbow-chair, was the very trumpeter he had just seen walk out by the door! If my father's heart jumped before, you may believe it jumped quicker now. But after a bit, he went up to the man asleep in the chair and put a hand upon him. It was the trumpeter in flesh and blood that he touched; but though the flesh was warm, the trumpeter was dead.
"My father was about to leave when he heard a kind of sigh behind him; and there, sitting in the armchair, was the same trumpeter he had just seen walk out the door! If my father's heart raced before, you can imagine it raced even faster now. But after a moment, he approached the man asleep in the chair and placed a hand on him. It was the trumpeter in the flesh that he touched; but even though the flesh was warm, the trumpeter was dead."
"Well, sir, they buried him three days after; and at first my father was minded to say nothing about his dream (as he thought it). But the day after the funeral, he met Parson Kendall coming from Helston market; and the parson called out: 'Have 'ee heard the news the coach brought down this mornin'?' 'What news?' says my father. 'Why, that peace is agreed upon.' 'None too soon,' says my father. 'Not soon enough for our poor lads at Bayonne,' the parson answered. 'Bayonne!' cries my father, with a jump. 'Why, yes;' and the parson told him all about a great sally the French had made on the night of April 13th. 'Do you happen to know if the 38th Regiment was engaged?' my father asked. 'Come, now,' said Parson Kendall, 'I didn't know you was so well up in the campaign. But, as it happens, I do know that the 38th was engaged, for 'twas they that held a cottage and stopped the French advance.'
"Well, sir, they buried him three days later; and at first my father didn’t want to mention his dream (as he thought it). But the day after the funeral, he ran into Parson Kendall coming back from Helston market, and the parson called out, 'Have you heard the news that the coach brought down this morning?' 'What news?' my father asked. 'Well, that peace has been agreed upon.' 'None too soon,' my father replied. 'Not soon enough for our poor lads at Bayonne,' the parson responded. 'Bayonne!' my father exclaimed, startled. 'Yes,' and the parson filled him in on a major attack the French launched on the night of April 13th. 'Do you happen to know if the 38th Regiment was involved?' my father inquired. 'Come on now,' Parson Kendall said, 'I didn’t know you were so well-informed about the campaign. But as it happens, I do know that the 38th was involved, because they were the ones who held a cottage and stopped the French advance.'"
"Still my father held his tongue; and when, a week later, he walked into Helston and bought a 'Mercury' off the Sherborne rider, and got the landlord of the 'Angel' to spell out the list of killed and wounded, sure enough, there among the killed was Drummer John Christian, of the 38th Foot.
"Still, my father stayed silent; and when, a week later, he walked into Helston and bought a 'Mercury' from the Sherborne rider, he got the landlord of the 'Angel' to read out the list of the dead and injured. Sure enough, there among the dead was Drummer John Christian, of the 38th Foot."
"After this there was nothing for a religious man but to make a clean breast. So my father went up to Parson Kendall, and told the whole story. The parson listened, and put a question or two, and then asked:
"After this, there was nothing for a religious man to do but to come clean. So my father went to Parson Kendall and told him everything. The parson listened, asked a question or two, and then said:"
"'Have you tried to open the lock since that night?'
"'Have you tried to open the lock since that night?'"
"'I haven't dared to touch it,' says my father.
"'I haven't dared to touch it,' my dad says."
"'Then come along and try.' When the parson came to the cottage here, he took the things off the hook and tried the lock. 'Did he say "Bayonne?" The word has seven letters.'
"'Then come along and try.' When the pastor arrived at the cottage, he took the items off the hook and tested the lock. 'Did he say "Bayonne?" That word has seven letters.'"
"'Not if you spell it with one "n" as he did,' says my father.
"'Not if you spell it with one "n" like he did,' says my dad."
"The parson spelt it out—'B-A-Y-O-N-E.' 'Whew!' says he, for the lock had fallen open in his hand.
"The parson spelled it out—'B-A-Y-O-N-E.' 'Wow!' he said, as the lock opened in his hand."
"He stood considering it a moment, and then he says: 'I tell you what. I shouldn't blab this all round the parish, if I was you. You won't get no credit for truth-telling, and a miracle's wasted on a set of fools. But if you like, I'll shut down the lock again upon a holy word that no one but me shall know, and neither drummer nor trumpeter, dead or alive, shall frighten the secret out of me.'
"He stood there thinking for a moment, and then he said: 'Here’s what I suggest. I wouldn’t spread this all over the town if I were you. You won’t gain any respect for being honest, and a miracle is wasted on a bunch of idiots. But if you want, I’ll lock it away again with a sacred word that only I will know, and neither a drummer nor a trumpeter, alive or dead, will scare me into revealing the secret.'"
"'I wish to heaven you would, parson,' said my father.
"'I wish to God you would, preacher,' said my father."
"The parson chose the holy word there and then, and shut the lock back upon it, and hung the drum and trumpet back in their place. He is gone long since, taking the word with him. And till the lock is broken by force, nobody will ever separate those two."
"The priest picked the sacred word right then and there, locked it away, and hung the drum and trumpet back in their spots. He left a long time ago, taking the word with him. And until someone breaks the lock open, no one will ever separate those two."
THE HOUSE AND THE BRAIN
BY LORD EDWARD BULWER-LYTTON
BY LORD EDWARD BULWER-LYTTON
Edward George Earle Lytton Bulwer, Baron Lytton (born 1803, died 1873), was an extremely accomplished and versatile man. He was a statesman, orator, social reformer, playwright, poet, novelist (he wrote more than fifty volumes of fiction), and short story writer. In the latter capacity he produced a number of imaginative tales that in their weird fantasy have been favorably compared with the work of Edgar Allan Poe. Of these the present story is the most noted.
Edward George Earle Lytton Bulwer, Baron Lytton (born 1803, died 1873), was a highly accomplished and versatile individual. He was a politician, speaker, social reformer, playwright, poet, novelist (he wrote over fifty volumes of fiction), and short story writer. In the latter role, he created several imaginative tales that have been favorably compared to the works of Edgar Allan Poe for their strange fantasy. Among these, the current story is the most famous.
THE HOUSE AND THE BRAIN
The House and the Mind
By LORD EDWARD BULWER-LYTTON
By Lord Edward Bulwer-Lytton
A friend of mine, who is a man of letters and a philosopher, said to me one day, as if between jest and earnest: "Fancy! since we last met, I have discovered a haunted house in the midst of London."
A friend of mine, who is a writer and a philosopher, said to me one day, half-joking and half-serious: "Guess what! Since we last met, I've found a haunted house right in the middle of London."
"Really haunted?—and by what?—ghosts?"
"Really haunted? By what—ghosts?"
"Well, I can't answer that question; all I know is this: six weeks ago my wife and I were in search of a furnished apartment. Passing a quiet street, we saw on the window of one of the houses a bill, 'Apartments, Furnished.' The situation suited us: we entered the house—liked the rooms—engaged them by the week—and left them the third day. No power on earth could have reconciled my wife to stay longer; and I don't wonder at it."
"Well, I can't answer that question; all I know is this: six weeks ago, my wife and I were looking for a furnished apartment. While walking down a quiet street, we saw a sign in the window of one of the houses that said, 'Apartments, Furnished.' The place seemed right for us, so we went inside, liked the rooms, rented them by the week, and checked out on the third day. No force on earth could have convinced my wife to stay any longer, and I can’t say I blame her."
"What did you see?"
"What did you see?"
"Excuse me—I have no desire to be ridiculed as a superstitious dreamer—nor, on the other hand, could I ask you to accept on my affirmation what you would hold to be incredible without the evidence of your own senses. Let me only say this, it was not so much what we saw or heard (in which you might fairly suppose that we were the dupes of our own excited fancy, or the victims of imposture in others) that drove us away, as it was an undefinable terror which seized both of us whenever we passed by the door of a certain unfurnished room, in which we neither saw nor heard anything. And the strangest marvel of all was, that for once in my life I agreed with my wife, silly woman though she be—and allowed, after the third night, that it was impossible to stay a fourth in that house. Accordingly, on the fourth morning I summoned the woman who kept the house and attended on us, and told her that the rooms did not quite suit us, and we would not stay out our week. She said, dryly: 'I know why; you have stayed longer than any other lodger. Few ever stayed a second night; none before you a third. But I take it they have been very kind to you."
"Excuse me—I have no interest in being seen as a silly dreamer—nor would I expect you to believe something incredible based solely on my word without proof from your own senses. Let me just say this: it wasn’t really what we saw or heard (in which case you might reasonably think we were just letting our imaginations run wild or were fooled by others) that made us leave; it was an indescribable fear that gripped both of us every time we walked by the door of a certain empty room, where we saw and heard nothing. And the strangest thing of all was that, for once in my life, I found myself agreeing with my wife, though she can be a bit foolish—and I finally admitted, after the third night, that it was impossible to stay for a fourth in that house. So, on the fourth morning, I called for the woman who managed the house and took care of us, and I told her that the rooms weren’t quite right for us, and we wouldn’t be staying for the full week. She replied dryly, 'I know why; you've stayed longer than any other guest. Few ever stayed a second night; none before you stayed a third. But I suppose they were very nice to you.'"
"'They—who?' I asked, affecting to smile.
"'They—who?' I asked, forcing a smile."
"'Why, they who haunt the house, whoever they are. I don't mind them; I remember them many years ago, when I lived in this house, not as a servant; but I know they will be the death of me some day. I don't care—I'm old, and must die soon anyhow; and then I shall be with them, and in this house still.' The woman spoke with so dreary a calmness that really it was a sort of awe that prevented my conversing with her further. I paid for my week, and too happy were my wife and I to get off so cheaply."
"‘Why, it's those who haunt the house, whoever they are. I don’t mind them; I remember them from many years ago when I lived in this house, not as a servant; but I know they’ll be the death of me someday. I don’t care—I’m old and have to die soon anyway; then I’ll be with them and still in this house.’ The woman spoke with such a gloomy calmness that it made me feel a sort of awe, preventing me from talking to her further. I paid for my week, and my wife and I were too happy to get off so easily."
"You excite my curiosity," said I; "nothing I should like better than to sleep in a haunted house. Pray give me the address of the one which you left so ignominiously."
"You've got my curiosity going," I said; "there's nothing I’d love more than to spend the night in a haunted house. Please give me the address of the one you left so disgracefully."
My friend gave me the address; and when we parted, I walked straight toward the house thus indicated.
My friend gave me the address, and when we said goodbye, I walked directly to the house he mentioned.
It is situated on the north side of Oxford Street, in a dull but respectable thoroughfare. I found the house shut up—no bill at the window, and no response to my knock. As I was turning away, a beer-boy, collecting pewter pots at the neighboring areas, said to me, "Do you want any one at that house, sir?"
It’s located on the north side of Oxford Street, in a bland but decent street. I found the house locked up—no sign in the window, and no answer to my knock. As I was about to leave, a kid collecting beer mugs in the nearby areas said to me, "Are you looking for someone at that house, sir?"
"Yes, I heard it was to be let."
"Yeah, I heard it was going to be available."
"Let!—why, the woman who kept it is dead—has been dead these three weeks, and no one can be found to stay there, though Mr. J—— offered ever so much. He offered mother, who chars for him, a pound a week just to open and shut the windows, and she would not."
"Listen!—the woman who managed it is dead—has been dead for three weeks, and no one can be found to take her place, even though Mr. J—— offered a lot. He offered my mom, who works for him, a pound a week just to open and close the windows, and she refused."
"Would not!—and why?"
"Of course not!—and why?"
"The house is haunted; and the old woman who kept it was found dead in her bed, with her eyes wide open. They say the devil strangled her."
"The house is haunted, and the old woman who lived there was found dead in her bed, her eyes wide open. They say the devil strangled her."
"Pooh!—you speak of Mr. J——. Is he the owner of the house?"
"Pooh!—you're talking about Mr. J——. Is he the owner of the house?"
"Yes."
"Yeah."
"Where does he live?"
"Where does he live now?"
"In G—— Street, No. —."
"In G—— Street, No. —."
"What is he?—in any business?"
"What is he doing?—in any business?"
"No, sir—nothing particular; a single gentleman."
"No, sir—nothing special; just a single guy."
I gave the pot-boy the gratuity earned by his liberal information, and proceeded to Mr. J——, in G—— Street, which was close by the street that boasted the haunted house. I was lucky enough to find Mr. J—— at home—an elderly man, with intelligent countenance and prepossessing manners.
I gave the pot-boy the tip he earned for his helpful information and went to see Mr. J—— on G—— Street, which was near the street with the haunted house. I was fortunate to find Mr. J—— at home—an older man with an intelligent face and charming manners.
I communicated my name and my business frankly. I said I heard the house was considered to be haunted—that I had a strong desire to examine a house with so equivocal a reputation—that I should be greatly obliged if he would allow me to hire it, though only for a night. I was willing to pay for that privilege whatever he might be inclined to ask. "Sir," said Mr. J——, with great courtesy, "the house is at your service, for as short or as long a time as you please. Rent is out of the question—the obligation will be on my side should you be able to discover the cause of the strange phenomena which at present deprive it of all value. I can not let it, for I can not even get a servant to keep it in order or answer the door. Unluckily the house is haunted, if I may use that expression, not only by night, but by day; though at night the disturbances are of a more unpleasant and sometimes of a more alarming character. The poor old woman who died in it three weeks ago was a pauper whom I took out of a workhouse, for in her childhood she had been known to some of my family, and had once been in such good circumstances that she had rented that house of my uncle. She was a woman of superior education and strong mind, and was the only person I could ever induce to remain in the house. Indeed, since her death, which was sudden, and the coroner's inquest, which gave it a notoriety in the neighborhood, I have so despaired of finding any person to take charge of the house, much more a tenant, that I would willingly let it rent free for a year to any one who would pay its rates and taxes."
I introduced myself and my purpose openly. I mentioned that I heard the house was thought to be haunted and that I was really interested in exploring a place with such a mixed reputation. I would be very grateful if he would let me rent it, even if just for one night. I was ready to pay whatever he might ask for that opportunity. "Sir," Mr. J—— said politely, "the house is at your disposal, for however long you want. Rent isn't an issue—the obligation will be mine if you manage to uncover the reason behind the strange occurrences that currently make it worthless. I can’t rent it out because I can’t even find a servant who will help keep it in order or answer the door. Unfortunately, the house is haunted—if I can use that term—not just at night, but during the day as well. However, at night, the disturbances are more unpleasant and sometimes even alarming. The poor old woman who passed away in it three weeks ago was a beggar whom I had pulled from a workhouse, since she had been known to some members of my family in her youth and had once rented that house from my uncle when she was in better circumstances. She was well-educated and strong-minded, and she was the only one I could ever persuade to stay in the house. In fact, since her
"How long is it since the house acquired this sinister character?"
"How long has it been since the house got this creepy vibe?"
"That I can scarcely tell you, but very many years since. The old woman I spoke of said it was haunted when she rented it between thirty and forty years ago. The fact is, that my life has been spent in the East Indies, and in the civil service of the Company. I returned to England last year, on inheriting the fortune of an uncle, among whose possessions was the house in question. I found it shut up and uninhabited. I was told that it was haunted, that no one would inhabit it. I smiled at what seemed to me so idle a story. I spent some money in repairing it—added to its old-fashioned furniture a few modern articles—advertised it, and obtained a lodger for a year. He was a colonel on half-pay. He came in with his family, a son and a daughter, and four or five servants: they all left the house the next day; and, although each of them declared that he had seen something different from that which had scared the others, a something still was equally terrible to all. I really could not in conscience sue, nor even blame, the colonel for breach of agreement. Then I put in the old woman I have spoken of, and she was empowered to let the house in apartments. I never had one lodger who stayed more than three days. I do not tell you their stories—to no two lodgers have there been exactly the same phenomena repeated. It is better that you should judge for yourself than enter the house with an imagination influenced by previous narratives; only be prepared to see and to hear something or other, and take whatever precautions you yourself please."
"That I can hardly say, but it was many years ago. The old woman I mentioned claimed it was haunted when she rented it around thirty to forty years back. The truth is, I’ve spent my life in the East Indies, working in the civil service for the Company. I returned to England last year after inheriting my uncle's fortune, which included the house in question. When I got there, I found it locked up and empty. I was told that it was haunted and that nobody would live in it. I laughed at what I thought was a silly story. I spent some money fixing it up—added a few modern pieces to its old-fashioned furniture—put out an ad, and found a tenant for a year. He was a colonel on half-pay, came in with his family, a son and a daughter, and four or five servants: they all left the next day; and although each claimed to have seen something different that scared them, it was equally horrifying to all. I really couldn’t, in good conscience, sue or even blame the colonel for breaking the agreement. Then I brought in the old woman I mentioned, and she was given the authority to rent the house out in rooms. I never had a single tenant who stayed more than three days. I’m not going to share their stories—with no two tenants experiencing exactly the same things. It’s better for you to make your own judgment rather than go into the house with your imagination shaped by past tales; just be ready to see and hear something, and take whatever precautions you feel are necessary."
"Have you never had a curiosity yourself to pass a night in that house?"
"Have you never been curious to spend a night in that house?"
"Yes. I passed not a night, but three hours in broad daylight alone in that house. My curiosity is not satisfied, but it is quenched. I have no desire to renew the experiment. You can not complain, you see, sir, that I am not sufficiently candid; and unless your interest be exceedingly eager and your nerves unusually strong, I honestly add, that I advise you not to pass a night in that house."
"Yes. I spent not a night, but three hours in broad daylight alone in that house. My curiosity isn’t satisfied, but it’s been fulfilled. I have no desire to repeat the experience. You can’t say, you see, sir, that I’m not being completely honest; and unless you’re very eager and your nerves are particularly strong, I honestly suggest that you avoid spending a night in that house."
"My interest is exceedingly keen," said I, "and though only a coward will boast of his nerves in situations wholly unfamiliar to him, yet my nerves have been seasoned in such variety of danger that I have the right to rely on them—even in a haunted house."
"My interest is incredibly strong," I said, "and while only a coward would brag about his nerves in situations that are completely unfamiliar to him, my nerves have been tested in so many different dangers that I have the right to trust them—even in a haunted house."
Mr. J—— said very little more; he took the keys of the house out of his bureau, gave them to me—and, thanking him cordially for his frankness, and his urbane concession to my wish, I carried off my prize.
Mr. J—— said very little else; he took the keys to the house out of his desk, handed them to me—and, sincerely thanking him for his honesty and his gracious agreement to my request, I took my prize.
Impatient for the experiment, as soon as I reached home, I summoned my confidential servant—a young man of gay spirits, fearless temper, and as free from superstitious prejudice as any one I could think of.
Impatient for the experiment, as soon as I got home, I called for my trusted servant—a young man with a cheerful demeanor, a bold attitude, and as free from superstitious beliefs as anyone I could think of.
"F——," said I, "you remember in Germany how disappointed we were at not finding a ghost in that old castle, which was said to be haunted by a headless apparition? Well, I have heard of a house in London which, I have reason to hope, is decidedly haunted. I mean to sleep there to-night. From what I hear, there is no doubt that something will allow itself to be seen or to be heard—something, perhaps, excessively horrible. Do you think, if I take you with me, I may rely on your presence of mind, whatever may happen?"
"F——," I said, "remember in Germany how let down we were when we didn’t find a ghost in that old castle that was supposed to be haunted by a headless spirit? Well, I've come across a house in London that I believe is definitely haunted. I plan to spend the night there. From what I've heard, there’s no question that something will reveal itself—something that might be extremely terrifying. Do you think if I bring you along, I can count on your calmness, no matter what happens?"
"Oh, sir! pray trust me," answered F——, grinning with delight.
"Oh, sir! please trust me," answered F——, grinning with delight.
"Very well; then here are the keys of the house—this is the address. Go now—select for me any bedroom you please; and since the house has not been inhabited for weeks, make up a good fire—air the bed well—see, of course, that there are candles as well as fuel. Take with you my revolver and my dagger—so much for my weapons—arm yourself equally well; and if we are not a match for a dozen ghosts, we shall be but a sorry couple of Englishmen."
"Alright; here are the keys to the house—this is the address. Go now—pick any bedroom you like; and since the house has been empty for weeks, start a good fire—air the bed out well—make sure there are candles as well as fuel. Take my revolver and my dagger with you—those are my weapons—equip yourself just as well; and if we can't handle a dozen ghosts, we'll be just a couple of sorry Englishmen."
I was engaged for the rest of the day on business so urgent that had not leisure to think much on the nocturnal adventure to which I had plighted my honor. I dined alone, and very late, and while dining, read, as is my habit. I selected one of the volumes of Macaulay's essays. I thought to myself that I would take the book with me; there was so much of healthfulness in the style, and practical life in the subjects, that it would serve as an antidote against the influences of superstitious fancy.
I was busy all day with urgent work, leaving me no time to think much about the nighttime adventure I had promised to consider. I had dinner alone, and quite late, reading as I usually do. I picked one of Macaulay's essays. I thought I would take the book with me; its healthy writing style and practical topics would help counter any superstitious thoughts.
Accordingly, about half-past nine, I put the book into my pocket, and strolled leisurely toward the haunted house. I took with me a favorite dog—an exceedingly sharp, bold, and vigilant bull-terrier—a dog fond of prowling about strange ghostly corners and passages at night in search of rats—a dog of dogs for a ghost.
Accordingly, around nine-thirty, I slipped the book into my pocket and walked casually toward the haunted house. I brought along my favorite dog—a very alert, brave, and watchful bull-terrier—a dog that loved to roam around eerie corners and hallways at night looking for rats—a perfect companion for a ghost hunt.
It was a summer night, but chilly, the sky somewhat gloomy and overcast. Still there was a moon—faint and sickly, but still a moon—and, if the clouds permitted, after midnight it would be brighter.
It was a summer night, but cool, the sky somewhat gloomy and cloudy. Still, there was a moon—dim and unhealthy-looking, but still a moon—and, if the clouds allowed, after midnight it would be brighter.
I reached the house, knocked, and my servant opened with a cheerful smile.
I arrived at the house, knocked on the door, and my servant welcomed me with a bright smile.
"All right, sir, and very comfortable."
"Alright, sir, really comfy."
"Oh!" said I, rather disappointed; "have you not seen nor heard anything remarkable?"
"Oh!" I said, feeling quite let down. "Haven't you seen or heard anything interesting?"
"Well, sir, I must own I have heard something queer."
"Well, sir, I have to admit I’ve heard something strange."
"What?—what?"
"What?—huh?"
"The sound of feet pattering behind me; and once or twice small noises like whispers close at my ear—nothing more."
"The sound of footsteps behind me, and once or twice faint noises like whispers near my ear—nothing else."
"You are not at all frightened?"
"You're not scared, are you?"
"I! not a bit of it, sir;" and the man's bold look reassured me on one point—viz.: that happen what might, he would not desert me.
"I! Not at all, sir;" and the man's confident expression assured me of one thing—namely, that no matter what happened, he wouldn't abandon me.
We were in the hall, the street-door closed, and my attention was now drawn to my dog. He had at first run in eagerly enough, but had sneaked back to the door, and was scratching and whining to get out. After patting him on the head, and encouraging him gently, the dog seemed to reconcile himself to the situation, and followed me and F—— through the house, but keeping close at my heels instead of hurrying inquisitively in advance, which was his usual and normal habit in all strange places. We first visited the subterranean apartments, the kitchen, and other offices, and especially the cellars, in which last there were two or three bottles of wine still left in a bin, covered with cobwebs, and evidently, by their appearance, undisturbed for many years. It was clear that the ghosts were not wine-bibbers. For the rest we discovered nothing of interest. There was a gloomy little back-yard, with very high walls. The stones of this yard were very damp; and what with the damp, and what with the dust and smoke-grime on the pavement, our feet left a slight impression where we passed. And now appeared the first strange phenomenon witnessed by myself in this strange abode. I saw, just before me, the print of a foot suddenly form itself, as it were. I stopped, caught hold of my servant, and pointed to it. In advance of that footprint as suddenly dropped another. We both saw it. I advanced quickly to the place; the footprint kept advancing before me, a small footprint—the foot of a child: the impression was too faint thoroughly to distinguish the shape, but it seemed to us both that it was the print of a naked foot.
We were in the hallway, the front door shut, and I started to notice my dog. He had initially rushed in with excitement but had sneaked back to the door, scratching and whining to get out. After I patted him on the head and reassured him gently, he seemed to accept the situation and followed me and F—— around the house, staying close to my heels instead of eagerly exploring ahead like he usually did in unfamiliar places. We first checked out the underground rooms, the kitchen, and other areas, especially the cellars, where we found a few dusty bottles of wine in a bin, covered in cobwebs and clearly untouched for many years. It was obvious that the ghosts weren't drinkers. Other than that, we didn't find anything of interest. There was a gloomy little backyard with very tall walls. The stones in this yard were really damp, and because of the moisture along with the dust and soot on the pavement, our footsteps left slight impressions as we walked. And then I witnessed the first strange phenomenon in this odd place. Right in front of me, a footprint suddenly seemed to appear. I stopped, grabbed my servant, and pointed to it. Just ahead of that footprint, another one appeared out of nowhere. We both saw it. I quickly stepped forward; the footprint kept moving ahead of me—a small footprint, likely from a child. The impression was too faint to clearly identify the shape, but we both thought it looked like a bare foot.
This phenomenon ceased when we arrived at the opposite wall, nor did it repeat itself on returning. We remounted the stairs, and entered the rooms on the ground floor, a dining-parlor, a small back-parlor, and a still smaller third room that had been probably appropriated to a footman—all still as death. We then visited the drawing-rooms, which seemed fresh and new. In the front room I seated myself in an armchair. F—— placed on the table the candlestick with which he had lighted us. I told him to shut the door. As he turned to do so, a chair opposite to me moved from the wall quickly and noiselessly, and dropped itself about a yard from my own chair, immediately fronting it.
This strange occurrence stopped when we reached the opposite wall, and it didn’t happen again on our way back. We went back up the stairs and entered the rooms on the ground floor: a dining area, a small sitting room, and a tiny third room that was probably meant for a footman—all still as can be. Next, we checked out the drawing rooms, which looked fresh and new. In the front room, I settled into an armchair. F—— put the candlestick he had used to light our way on the table. I asked him to close the door. As he turned to do that, a chair across from me moved away from the wall quickly and silently, and placed itself about a yard in front of mine, directly facing it.
"Why, this is better than the turning-tables," said I, with a half-laugh; and as I laughed, my dog put back his head and howled.
"Wow, this is way better than the turning-tables," I said, half-laughing; and as I laughed, my dog tilted his head back and howled.
F——, coming back, had not observed the movement of the chair. He employed himself now in stilling the dog. I continued to gaze on the chair, and fancied I saw on it a pale blue misty outline of a human figure, but an outline so indistinct that I could only distrust my own vision. The dog was now quiet.
F——, coming back, hadn’t noticed the chair moving. He was now focused on calming the dog. I kept staring at the chair, imagining I saw a faint blue misty outline of a person on it, but it was so unclear that I could only doubt my own eyesight. The dog was quiet now.
"Put back that chair opposite to me," said I to F——; "put it back to the wall."
"Put that chair back opposite me," I said to F——; "push it back against the wall."
F—— obeyed. "Was that you, sir?" said he, turning abruptly.
F—— did as he was told. "Was that you, sir?" he asked, turning suddenly.
"I!—what?"
"I!—what's up?"
"Why, something struck me. I felt it sharply on the shoulder—just here."
"Something hit me. I felt it right on my shoulder—right here."
"No," said I. "But we have jugglers present, and though we may not discover their tricks, we shall catch them before they frighten us."
"No," I said. "But we have jugglers here, and even if we can’t figure out their tricks, we’ll catch them before they scare us."
We did not stay long in the drawing-rooms—in fact, they felt so damp and so chilly that I was glad to get to the fire upstairs. We locked the doors of the drawing-rooms—a precaution which, I should observe, we had taken with all the rooms we had searched below. The bedroom my servant had selected for me was the best on the floor—a large one, with two windows fronting the street. The four-posted bed, which took up no inconsiderable space, was opposite to the fire, which burnt clear and bright; a door in the wall to the left, between the bed and the window, communicated with the room which my servant appropriated to himself. This last was a small room with a sofa-bed, and had no communication with the landing-place—no other door but that which conducted to the bedroom I was to occupy. On either side of my fireplace was a cupboard, without locks, flush with the wall, and covered with the same dull-brown paper. We examined these cupboards—only hooks to suspend female dresses—nothing else; we sounded the walls—evidently solid—the outer walls of the building. Having finished the survey of these apartments, warmed myself a few moments, and lighted my cigar, I then, still accompanied by F——, went forth to complete my reconnoitre. In the landing-place there was another door; it was closed firmly. "Sir," said my servant, in surprise, "I unlocked this door with all the others when I first came; it can not have got locked from the inside, for—"
We didn't stay in the drawing rooms for long; in fact, they were so cold and damp that I was relieved to make it to the fire upstairs. We locked the doors of the drawing rooms—something we had done for all the rooms we'd checked downstairs. The bedroom my servant chose for me was the best on the floor—a large space with two windows facing the street. The four-poster bed, which took up a good amount of room, was positioned across from the bright, clear-burning fire. To the left, between the bed and the window, a door connected to the room my servant was using. That room was small with a sofa bed and had no access to the landing—there was no other door except the one leading to the bedroom I was going to use. On either side of my fireplace were cupboards with no locks, flush against the wall, covered in the same dull brown paper. We checked these cupboards—just hooks for women's dresses—nothing else; we tapped the walls—they felt solid, clearly the outer walls of the building. After finishing my inspection of these rooms, warming up for a bit, and lighting my cigar, I then, still with F——, headed out to continue my reconnaissance. There was another door in the landing; it was securely closed. "Sir," my servant said, surprised, "I unlocked this door with all the others when I first arrived; it can't have locked from the inside because—"
Before he had finished his sentence, the door, which neither of us then was touching, opened quietly of itself. We looked at each other a single instant. The same thought seized both—some human agency might be detected here. I rushed in first, my servant followed. A small blank dreary room without furniture—a few empty boxes and hampers in a corner—a small window—the shutters closed—not even a fireplace—no other door but that by which we had entered—no carpet on the floor, and the floor seemed very old, uneven, worm-eaten, mended here and there, as was shown by the whiter patches on the wood; but no living being, and no visible place in which a living being could have hidden. As we stood gazing round, the door by which we had entered closed as quietly as it had before opened: we were imprisoned.
Before he finished speaking, the door, which neither of us was touching, opened quietly on its own. We exchanged a glance for just a moment. The same thought struck both of us—maybe there was some human involvement here. I rushed in first, and my servant followed. It was a small, dull room with no furniture—a few empty boxes and hampers in one corner—a small window with the shutters closed—not even a fireplace—no other door except the one we came through—no carpet on the floor, and the floor looked very old, uneven, and worm-eaten, patched up in places, as shown by the lighter spots on the wood; but there was no living person, and no visible space where someone could have hidden. As we stood looking around, the door we had entered through closed as quietly as it had opened: we were trapped.
For the first time I felt a creep of undefinable horror. Not so my servant. "Why, they don't think to trap us, sir; I could break that trumpery door with a kick of my foot."
For the first time, I felt a creeping sense of undefinable terror. Not my servant, though. "They don’t think they can trap us, sir; I could kick that flimsy door down with my foot."
"Try first if it will open to your hand," said I, shaking off the vague apprehension that had seized me, "while I unclose the shutters and see what is without."
"Try to see if it will open easily," I said, brushing off the slight unease that had come over me, "while I unfasten the shutters and check what's outside."
I unbarred the shutters—the window looked on the little back-yard I have before described; there was no ledge without—nothing to break the sheer descent of the wall. No man getting out of that window would have found any footing till he had fallen on the stones below.
I opened the shutters—the window faced the small backyard I mentioned before; there was no ledge outside—nothing to interrupt the straight drop of the wall. Any man trying to climb out of that window would have found no foothold until he landed on the stones below.
F——, meanwhile, was vainly attempting to open the door. He now turned round to me and asked my permission to use force. And I should here state, in justice to the servant, that, far from evincing any superstitious terrors, his nerve, composure, and even gaiety amid circumstances so extraordinary, compelled my admiration, and made me congratulate myself on having secured a companion in every way fitted to the occasion. I willingly gave him the permission he required. But though he was a remarkably strong man, his force was as idle as his milder efforts; the door did not even shake to his stoutest kick. Breathless and panting, he desisted. I then tried the door myself, equally in vain. As I ceased from the effort, again that creep of horror came over me; but this time it was more cold and stubborn. I felt as if some strange and ghastly exhalation were rising up from the chinks of that rugged floor, and filling the atmosphere with a venomous influence hostile to human life. The door now very slowly and quietly opened as of its own accord. We precipitated ourselves into the landing-place. We both saw a large pale light—as large as the human figure, but shapeless and unsubstantial—move before us, and ascend the stairs that led from the landing into the attic. I followed the light, and my servant followed me. It entered to the right of the landing, a small garret, of which the door stood open. I entered in the same instant. The light then collapsed into a small globule, exceedingly brilliant and vivid: rested a moment on a bed in the corner, quivered, and vanished. We approached the bed and examined it—a half-tester, such as is commonly found in attics devoted to servants. On the drawers that stood near it we perceived an old faded silk kerchief, with the needle still left in a rent half repaired. The kerchief was covered with dust; probably it had belonged to the old woman who had last died in that house, and this might have been her sleeping-room. I had sufficient curiosity to open the drawers: there were a few odds and ends of female dress, and two letters tied round with a narrow ribbon of faded yellow. I took the liberty to possess myself of the letters. We found nothing else in the room worth noticing—nor did the light reappear; but we distinctly heard, as we turned to go, a pattering footfall on the floor—just before us. We went through the other attics (in all four), the footfall still preceding us. Nothing to be seen—nothing but the footfall heard. I had the letters in my hand: just as I was descending the stairs I distinctly felt my wrist seized, and a faint soft effort made to draw the letters from my clasp. I only held them the more tightly, and the effort ceased.
F—— was trying unsuccessfully to open the door. He turned to me and asked if he could use force. I should mention, to give credit to the servant, that he showed no signs of superstitious fear; his calmness, composure, and even cheerfulness in such extraordinary circumstances impressed me and made me glad to have a companion suited for the occasion. I gladly granted him permission. But even though he was impressively strong, his strength was just as ineffective as his gentler attempts; the door didn’t even budge with his strongest kick. Out of breath and panting, he gave up. I then tried the door myself, but with the same lack of success. As I stopped trying, an eerie chill crept over me, but this time it felt colder and more stubborn. It was as if some strange, ghastly presence was rising from the cracks in that rough floor, filling the air with a toxic energy hostile to human life. Suddenly, the door opened very slowly and quietly, almost on its own. We rushed into the hallway. We both saw a large, pale light—about the size of a human figure, but formless and insubstantial—move in front of us and ascend the staircase leading to the attic. I followed the light, and my servant followed me. It entered a small room to the right of the landing, and the door was ajar. I stepped in right after it. The light then shrank into a small, brilliant, vivid globule: it rested for a moment on a bed in the corner, quivered, and disappeared. We approached the bed to examine it—an old half-tester, typical in attics for servants. On the nearby drawers, we spotted an old, faded silk handkerchief, with a needle still stuck in a half-repaired tear. The handkerchief was covered in dust; it probably belonged to the last elderly woman who died in that house, and this might have been her bedroom. Curiosity got the better of me, and I opened the drawers: I found a few odds and ends of women’s clothing and two letters tied with a narrow, faded yellow ribbon. I decided to take the letters. We didn’t find anything else worth noticing in the room—nor did the light reappear; but as we turned to leave, we distinctly heard footfalls pattering on the floor—right in front of us. We moved through the other attics (four in total), the footfalls still leading the way. There was nothing to see—just the sound of the footsteps. I held the letters in my hand, and just as I was going down the stairs, I clearly felt my wrist being grabbed, as if someone was gently trying to pull the letters from my grip. I held onto them more tightly, and the effort stopped.
We regained the bed-chamber appropriated to myself, and I then remarked that my dog had not followed us when we had left it. He was thrusting himself close to the fire, and trembling. I was impatient to examine the letters; and while I read them, my servant opened a little box in which he had deposited the weapons I had ordered him to bring; took them out, placed them on a table close at my bed-head, and then occupied himself in soothing the dog, who, however, seemed to heed him very little.
We went back to the bedroom that was assigned to me, and I noticed that my dog hadn’t followed us when we left. He was huddled up by the fire, shaking. I was eager to look at the letters, and as I read them, my servant opened a small box where he had put the weapons I asked him to bring. He took them out, set them on a table near my head, and then tried to calm the dog, who didn’t seem to pay him much attention.
The letters were short—they were dated; the dates exactly thirty-five years ago. They were evidently from a lover to his mistress, or a husband to some young wife. Not only the terms of expression, but a distinct reference to a former voyage, indicated the writer to have been a seafarer. The spelling and handwriting were those of a man imperfectly educated, but still the language itself was forcible. In the expressions of endearment there was a kind of rough wild love; but here and there were dark unintelligible hints at some secret not of love—some secret that seemed of crime. "We ought to love each other," was one of the sentences I remember, "for how every one else would execrate us if all was known." Again: "Don't let any one be in the same room with you at night—you talk in your sleep." And again: "What's done can't be undone; and I tell you there's nothing against us unless the dead could come to life." Here there was underlined in a better handwriting (a female's): "They do!" At the end of the letter latest in date the same female hand had written these words: "Lost at sea the 4th of June, the same day as—"
The letters were brief—they were dated; the dates were exactly thirty-five years ago. They clearly were from a lover to his mistress, or a husband to a young wife. Not only the way he expressed himself, but also a specific mention of a previous voyage, indicated that the writer was a sailor. The spelling and handwriting showed he was not well-educated, but the language itself was powerful. In the affectionate phrases, there was a sort of raw, wild love; yet there were also dark, unclear hints at some secret that wasn’t about love—some secret that felt criminal. "We ought to love each other," was one of the sentences I remember, "because everyone else would hate us if everything was known." Again: "Don’t let anyone be in the same room with you at night—you talk in your sleep." And once more: "What’s done can’t be undone; and I tell you, there’s nothing against us unless the dead could come to life." Here, there was a note underlined in better handwriting (a woman’s): "They do!" At the end of the most recent letter, the same female hand had written these words: "Lost at sea the 4th of June, the same day as—"
I put down the letters, and began to muse over their contents.
I set down the letters and started to think about what they said.
Fearing, however, that the train of thought into which I fell might unsteady my nerves, I fully determined to keep my mind in a fit state to cope with whatever of marvelous the advancing night might bring forth. I roused myself—laid the letters on the table—stirred up the fire, which was still bright and cheering, and opened my volume of Macaulay. I read quietly enough till about half-past eleven. I then threw myself dressed upon the bed, and told my servant he might retire to his own room, but must keep himself awake. I bade him leave open the door between the two rooms. Thus alone, I kept two candles burning on the table by my bed-head. I placed my watch beside the weapons, and calmly resumed my Macaulay. Opposite to me the fire burned clear; and on the hearth-rug, seemingly asleep, lay the dog. In about twenty minutes I felt an exceedingly cold air pass by my cheek, like a sudden draft. I fancied the door to my right, communicating with the landing-place, must have got open; but no—it was closed. I then turned my glance to my left, and saw the flame of the candles violently swayed as by a wind. At the same moment the watch beside the revolver softly slid from the table—softly, softly—no visible hand—it was gone. I sprang up, seizing the revolver with the one hand, the dagger with the other: I was not willing that my weapons should share the fate of the watch. Thus armed, I looked round the floor—no sign of the watch. Three slow, loud, distinct knocks were now heard at the bed-head; my servant called out: "Is that you, sir?"
However, worried that the train of thought I had fallen into might shake my nerves, I resolved to keep my mind alert for whatever wonders the night might bring. I shook myself awake, laid the letters on the table, stoked the fire, which was still bright and comforting, and opened my copy of Macaulay. I read quietly enough until about half-past eleven. I then threw myself on the bed while still dressed and told my servant he could go to his own room, but he had to stay awake. I asked him to leave the door between the two rooms open. Alone now, I kept two candles burning on the table by my bed. I placed my watch next to the weapons and calmly resumed my reading of Macaulay. Across from me, the fire burned steadily, and on the hearth rug, the dog lay seemingly asleep. After about twenty minutes, I felt an extremely cold breeze brush past my cheek, like a sudden draft. I thought the door to my right, leading to the landing, must have opened, but no—it was closed. I then turned my gaze to my left and saw the candle flames flicker violently as if blown by a wind. At the same time, my watch next to the revolver quietly slid off the table—softly, softly—no visible hand—then it was gone. I jumped up, grabbing the revolver with one hand and the dagger with the other; I didn’t want my weapons to meet the same fate as the watch. Armed, I looked around on the floor—no sign of the watch. Then, three slow, loud, distinct knocks were heard at the head of the bed; my servant called out, "Is that you, sir?"
"No; be on your guard."
"No; stay alert."
The dog now roused himself and sat on his haunches, his ears moving quickly backward and forward. He kept his eyes fixed on me with a look so strange that he concentred all my attention on himself. Slowly, he rose up, all his hair bristling, and stood perfectly rigid, and with the same wild stare. I had no time, however, to examine the dog. Presently my servant emerged from his room; and if ever I saw horror in the human face, it was then. I should not have recognized him had we met in the street, so altered was every lineament. He passed by me quickly, saying in a whisper that seemed scarcely to come from his lips: "Run—run! it is after me!" He gained the door to the landing, pulled it open, and rushed forth. I followed him into the landing involuntarily, calling him to stop; but, without heeding me, he bounded down the stairs, clinging to the balusters, and taking several steps at a time. I heard, where I stood, the street-door open—heard it again clap to. I was left alone in the haunted house.
The dog now woke up and sat on his hind legs, his ears moving quickly back and forth. He kept his eyes locked on me with such an intense look that it drew all my attention to him. Slowly, he stood up, his fur standing on end, and remained completely still, staring wildly. I didn’t have time to examine the dog, though. Soon, my servant came out of his room, and if I ever saw horror on a human face, it was then. I wouldn’t have recognized him if we had met on the street; every feature had changed so much. He quickly passed by me, whispering in a voice that barely seemed to come from his lips: “Run—run! It’s after me!” He reached the door to the landing, flung it open, and rushed out. I involuntarily followed him into the landing, calling for him to stop; but disregarding me, he leaped down the stairs, gripping the banisters and taking two or three steps at a time. I heard the street door open from where I stood—then I heard it slam shut again. I was left alone in the haunted house.
It was but for a moment that I remained undecided whether or not to follow my servant; pride and curiosity alike forbade so dastardly a flight. I reentered my room, closing the door after me, and proceeded cautiously into the interior chamber. I encountered nothing to justify my servant's terror. I again carefully examined the walls, to see if there were any concealed door. I could find no trace of one—not even a seam in the dull-brown paper with which the room was hung. How, then, had the Thing, whatever it was, which had so scared him, obtained ingress except through my own chamber?
I hesitated for a moment, unsure whether to follow my servant; both pride and curiosity held me back from such a cowardly escape. I went back into my room, closing the door behind me, and cautiously moved into the inner chamber. I found nothing to explain my servant's fear. I carefully checked the walls again, looking for any hidden doors. I couldn't find any signs of one—not even a seam in the dull-brown wallpaper that covered the room. So how, then, had the Thing—whatever it was—that had terrified him gotten in if not through my own room?
I returned to my room, shut and locked the door that opened upon the interior one, and stood on the hearth, expectant and prepared. I now perceived that the dog had slunk into an angle of the wall, and was pressing himself close against it, as if literally striving to force his way into it. I approached the animal and spoke to it; the poor brute was evidently beside itself with terror. It showed all its teeth, the slaver dropping from its jaws, and would certainly have bitten me if I had touched it. It did not seem to recognize me. Whoever has seen at the Zoological Gardens a rabbit, fascinated by a serpent, cowering in a corner, may form some idea of the anguish which the dog exhibited. Finding all efforts to soothe the animal in vain, and fearing that his bite might be as venomous in that state as in the madness of hydrophobia, I left him alone, placed my weapons on the table beside the fire, seated myself, and recommenced my Macaulay.
I went back to my room, shut and locked the door leading to the inside, and stood on the hearth, waiting and ready. I noticed that the dog had backed into a corner of the wall, pressing against it as if trying to merge into it. I went over to the dog and spoke to it; the poor creature was clearly terrified. It bared its teeth, drool dripping from its mouth, and would definitely have bitten me if I had touched it. It didn’t seem to recognize me. Anyone who has seen a rabbit at the zoo mesmerized by a snake, cowering in a corner, can imagine the distress the dog was showing. Since nothing I tried worked to calm the animal, and worried that its bite could be just as dangerous in its fear as it would be in a rabid state, I left it alone, put my weapons on the table by the fire, sat down, and started reading my Macaulay again.
Perhaps, in order not to appear seeking credit for a courage, or rather a coolness, which the reader may conceive I exaggerate, I may be pardoned if I pause to indulge in one or two egotistical remarks.
Perhaps, in order not to seem like I'm looking for praise for a bravery, or more accurately a calmness, that the reader might think I’m overstating, I hope it's okay if I take a moment for one or two self-reflective comments.
As I hold presence of mind, or what is called courage, to be precisely proportioned to familiarity with the circumstances that lead to it, so I should say that I had been long sufficiently familiar with all experiments that appertain to the Marvelous. I had witnessed many very extraordinary phenomena in various parts of the world—phenomena that would be either totally disbelieved if I stated them, or ascribed to supernatural agencies. Now, my theory is that the Supernatural is the Impossible, and that what is called supernatural is only a something in the laws of nature of which we have been hitherto ignorant. Therefore, if a ghost rise before me, I have not the right to say, "So, then, the supernatural is possible," but rather, "So, then, the apparition of a ghost is, contrary to received opinion, within the laws of nature—i.e., not supernatural."
As I keep my composure, or what people call courage, it directly relates to how well I know the circumstances that lead to it. I would say I've been quite familiar with all the experiments related to the extraordinary. I've seen many remarkable phenomena in different parts of the world—phenomena that would either be flat-out disbelieved if I shared them or attributed to supernatural forces. Now, my theory is that the supernatural is just the impossible, and what we consider supernatural is simply something in the laws of nature that we haven't understood yet. So, if a ghost appears in front of me, I don't have the right to say, "So, the supernatural is possible," but rather, "So, the appearance of a ghost is, contrary to popular belief, within the laws of nature—meaning it's not supernatural."
Now, in all that I had hitherto witnessed, and indeed in all the wonders which the amateurs of mystery in our age record as facts, a material living agency is always required. On the Continent you will find still magicians who assert that they can raise spirits. Assume for the moment that they assert truly, still the living material form of the magician is present; and he is the material agency by which, from some constitutional peculiarities, certain strange phenomena are represented to your natural senses.
Now, based on everything I've seen so far and all the wonders that mystery enthusiasts today claim are real, there’s always a physical living agent involved. On the Continent, you can still find magicians who claim they can summon spirits. Even if we assume they are telling the truth, the magician’s physical presence is still required; he is the living agent through which, due to some unique traits, certain strange phenomena are presented to your senses.
Accept, again, as truthful, the tales of Spirit Manifestation in America—musical or other sounds—writings on paper, produced by no discernible hand—articles of furniture moved without apparent human agency—or the actual sight and touch of hands, to which no bodies seem to belong—still there must be found the Medium, or living being with constitutional peculiarities capable of obtaining these signs. In fine, in all such marvels, supposing even that there is no imposture, there must be a human being like ourselves by whom, or through whom, the effects presented to human beings are produced. It is so with the now familiar phenomena of mesmerism or electro-biology; the mind of the person operated on is affected through a material living agent. Nor, supposing it true that a mesmerized patient can respond to the will or passes of a mesmerizer a hundred miles distant, is the response less occasioned by a material being; it may be through a material fluid—call it Electric, call it Odic, call it what you will—which has the power of traversing space and passing obstacles that the material effect is communicated from one to the other. Hence all that I had hitherto witnessed, or expected to witness, in this strange house, I believed to be occasioned through some agency or medium as mortal as myself; and this idea necessarily prevented the awe with which those who regard as supernatural things that are not within the ordinary operations of nature might have been impressed by the adventures of that memorable night.
Accept, once again, the stories of Spirit Manifestation in America—musical or other sounds—writings on paper produced by no visible hand—furniture moved without any obvious human involvement—or the actual sight and touch of hands that seem to belong to no bodies. Still, there must be a Medium, or a living person with unique traits capable of receiving these signs. In short, in all these wonders, even if there’s no deception, there must be a human being like us through whom, or by whom, these effects presented to us are produced. The same goes for the now well-known phenomena of mesmerism or electro-biology; the mind of the person being acted upon is influenced through a living material agent. Even if it’s true that a mesmerized patient can respond to the will or actions of a mesmerizer a hundred miles away, the response is still triggered by a physical being; it may be through a physical medium—call it Electric, call it Odic, call it whatever you want—that has the ability to cross space and overcome barriers so the physical effect is communicated from one to the other. Thus, everything I had witnessed or expected to witness in this strange house, I believed to be caused by some agent or medium as mortal as myself; and this notion naturally kept me from feeling the awe that those who view supernatural things outside the ordinary workings of nature might have experienced from the events of that memorable night.
As, then, it was my conjecture that all that was presented, or would be presented, to my senses must originate in some human being gifted by constitution with the power so to present them, and having some motive so to do, I felt an interest in my theory which, in its way, was rather philosophical than superstitious. And I can sincerely say that I was in as tranquil a temper for observation as any practical experimentalist could be in awaiting the effects of some rare, though perhaps perilous, chemical combination. Of course, the more I kept my mind detached from fancy, the more the temper fitted for observation would be obtained; and I therefore riveted eye and thought on the strong daylight sense in the page of my Macaulay.
As I thought about it, I believed that everything I experienced, or would experience, came from some human being who was naturally able to present it in that way and had a reason for doing so. I found my theory interesting, and it was more philosophical than superstitious. I can honestly say that I was in as calm a state of mind for observation as any practical experimentalist could be while waiting for the results of some rare, possibly dangerous, chemical reaction. Obviously, the more I kept my mind clear of imagination, the better my state of mind for observation would be; so I focused my eyes and thoughts on the clear, bright text of my Macaulay.
I now became aware that something interposed between the page and the light—the page was overshadowed: I looked up, and I saw what I shall find it very difficult, perhaps impossible, to describe.
I now realized that something was blocking the light from reaching the page—the page was in shadow: I looked up, and I saw something that I will find very hard, maybe impossible, to describe.
It was a darkness shaping itself forth from the air in very undefined outline. I can not say it was of a human form, and yet it had more resemblance to a human form, or rather shadow, than to anything else. As it stood, wholly apart and distinct from the air and the light around it, its dimensions seemed gigantic, the summit nearly touching the ceiling. While I gazed, a feeling of intense cold seized me. An iceberg before me could not more have chilled me; nor could the cold of an iceberg have been more purely physical. I feel convinced that it was not the cold caused by fear. As I continued to gaze, I thought—but this I can not say with precision—that I distinguished two eyes looking down on me from the height. One moment I fancied that I distinguished them clearly, the next they seemed gone; but still two rays of a pale-blue light frequently shot through the darkness, as from the height on which I half believed, half doubted, that I had encountered the eyes.
It was a darkness taking shape in the air with very vague outlines. I can't say it was human in form, but it looked more human, or more like a shadow, than anything else. As it stood completely apart from the air and light around it, it seemed enormous, almost reaching the ceiling. While I stared, an intense cold gripped me. An iceberg in front of me couldn’t have chilled me more; nor could the ice from an iceberg have felt more purely physical. I’m convinced it wasn’t the cold from fear. As I kept looking, I thought—but I can’t say for sure—that I could see two eyes looking down on me from above. At one moment, I thought I saw them clearly; the next, they seemed to disappear. Still, two beams of pale-blue light would often pierce through the darkness, coming from the height where I half believed, half doubted, I had seen the eyes.
I strove to speak—my voice utterly failed me; I could only think to myself: "Is this fear? it is not fear!" I strove to rise—in vain; I felt as if weighed down by an irresistible force. Indeed, my impression was that of an immense and overwhelming power opposed to my volition—that sense of utter inadequacy to cope with a force beyond man's, which one may feel physically in a storm at sea, in a conflagration, or when confronting some terrible wild beast, or rather, perhaps, the shark of the ocean, I felt morally. Opposed to my will was another will, as far superior to its strength as storm, fire, and shark are superior in material force to the force of man.
I tried to speak—my voice completely failed me; I could only think to myself: "Is this fear? It’s not fear!" I tried to get up—in vain; I felt like I was weighed down by an unstoppable force. Truly, it felt like there was an immense and overpowering force against my will—that sense of being completely unable to handle a power greater than humans, which one might physically experience in a storm at sea, in a fire, or when facing a terrifying wild animal, or rather, perhaps, the shark of the ocean, I felt in a moral sense. Opposed to my will was another will, far stronger than mine, just as storm, fire, and shark are far beyond human strength.
And now, as this impression grew on me—now came, at last, horror—horror to a degree that no words can convey. Still I retained pride, if not courage; and in my own mind I said: "This is horror, but it is not fear; unless I fear I can not be harmed; my reason rejects this thing; it is an illusion—I do not fear." With a violent effort I succeeded at last in stretching out my hand toward the weapon on the table: as I did so, on the arm and shoulder I received a strange shock, and my arm fell to my side powerless. And now, to add to my horror, the light began slowly to wane from the candles—they were not, as it were, extinguished, but their flame seemed very gradually withdrawn: it was the same with the fire—the light was extracted from the fuel; in a few minutes the room was in utter darkness. The dread that came over me, to be thus in the dark with that dark Thing, whose power was so intensely felt, brought a reaction of nerve. In fact, terror had reached that climax, that either my senses must have deserted me, or I must have burst through the spell. I did burst through it. I found voice, though the voice was a shriek. I remembered that I broke forth with words like these: "I do not fear, my soul does not fear;" and at the same time I found strength to rise. Still in that profound gloom I rushed to one of the windows—tore aside the curtain—flung open the shutters; my first thought was—Light. And when I saw the moon high, clear, and calm, I felt a joy that almost compensated for the previous terror. There was the moon, there was also the light from the gas-lamps in the deserted slumberous street. I turned to look back into the room; the moon penetrated its shadow very palely and partially—but still there was light. The dark Thing, whatever it might be, was gone—except that I could yet see a dim shadow, which seemed the shadow of that shade, against the opposite wall.
And now, as this feeling settled in on me—horror came at last—horror to a degree that words can't express. Still, I held on to pride, if not courage; and in my mind, I thought: "This is horror, but it's not fear; unless I'm afraid, I can't be hurt; my mind rejects this thing; it's an illusion—I do not fear." With a desperate effort, I finally managed to reach for the weapon on the table: as I did, I felt a strange shock on my arm and shoulder, and my arm fell limply to my side. Now, adding to my horror, the light from the candles began to fade slowly—it wasn't like they were extinguished, but the flames seemed to be gradually pulled back: the same happened with the fire—the light was drawn out from the wood; in a few minutes, the room was completely dark. The dread of being in the dark with that dark Thing, whose presence was so strongly felt, triggered a reaction in my nerves. In fact, the terror reached such a peak that either my senses must have left me, or I managed to break free from the spell. I did break free. I found my voice, though it came out as a shriek. I remembered shouting something like: "I do not fear, my soul does not fear;" and at the same time, I found the strength to stand. Still in that deep darkness, I rushed to one of the windows—pulled aside the curtain—flung open the shutters; my first thought was—Light. When I saw the moon high, clear, and calm, I felt a joy that almost made up for the earlier terror. There was the moon, and also the light from the gas lamps in the empty, quiet street. I turned to look back into the room; the moonlight came in weakly and partially—but there was still light. The dark Thing, whatever it was, had disappeared—except that I could still see a dim shadow, which seemed to be the shadow of that shape, against the opposite wall.
My eye now rested on the table, and from under the table (which was without cloth or cover—an old mahogany round table) there rose a hand, visible as far as the wrist. It was a hand, seemingly, as much of flesh and blood as my own, but the hand of an aged person—lean, wrinkled, small too—a woman's hand. That hand very softly closed on the two letters that lay on the table: hand and letters both vanished. There then came the same three loud measured knocks I had heard at the bed-head before this extraordinary drama had commenced.
My gaze fell on the table, and from underneath it (which was bare—an old round mahogany table) a hand appeared, visible up to the wrist. It looked like a real hand, just as flesh and blood as my own, but it belonged to an older person—thin, wrinkled, and small—a woman's hand. That hand gently grasped the two letters that were on the table: both the hand and the letters disappeared. Then, I heard the same three loud, rhythmic knocks I had heard at the head of the bed before this strange event had begun.
As those sounds slowly ceased, I felt the whole room vibrate sensibly; and at the far end there rose, as from the floor, sparks or globules like bubbles of light, many colored—green, yellow, fire-red, azure. Up and down, to and fro, hither, thither, as tiny Will-o'-the-Wisps, the sparks moved, slow or swift, each at its own caprice. A chair (as in the drawing-room below) was now advanced from the wall without apparent agency, and placed at the opposite side of the table. Suddenly, as forth from the chair, there grew a shape—a woman's shape. It was distinct as a shape of life—ghastly as a shape of death. The face was that of youth, with a strange mournful beauty; the throat and shoulders were bare, the rest of the form in a loose robe of cloudy white. It began sleeking its long yellow hair, which fell over its shoulders; its eyes were not turned toward me, but to the door; it seemed listening, watching, waiting. The shadow of the shade in the background grew darker; and again I thought I beheld the eyes gleaming out from the summit of the shadow—eyes fixed upon that shape.
As those sounds slowly faded away, I felt the entire room vibrate noticeably; and at the far end, sparks or bubbles of light rose from the floor, glowing in various colors—green, yellow, fire-red, azure. The sparks moved up and down, back and forth, here and there like tiny Will-o'-the-Wisps, each at its own whim, some slowly and some quickly. A chair (just like the one in the drawing-room below) was pushed away from the wall without any visible cause and was positioned on the opposite side of the table. Suddenly, from the chair, a shape emerged—a woman's shape. It was as vivid as a living form but eerily reminiscent of death. The face looked youthful, with a strange, mournful beauty; her throat and shoulders were bare, while the rest of her body was draped in a flowing robe of cloudy white. She began smoothing her long yellow hair that cascaded over her shoulders; she didn’t look at me but stared at the door, as if listening, watching, waiting. The shadow of the figure in the background darkened, and I thought I saw eyes glimmering from the top of the shadow—eyes fixed on that shape.
As if from the door, though it did not open, there grew out another shape, equally distinct, equally ghastly—a man's shape—a young man's. It was in the dress of the last century, or rather in a likeness of such dress (for both the male shape and the female, though defined, were evidently unsubstantial, impalpable—simulacra—phantasms); and there was something incongruous, grotesque, yet fearful, in the contrast between the elaborate finery, the courtly precision of that old-fashioned garb, with its ruffles and lace and buckles, and the corpse-like stillness of the flitting wearer. Just as the male shape approached the female, the dark Shadow started from the wall, all three for a moment wrapped in darkness. When the pale light returned, the two phantoms were as if in the grasp of the Shadow that towered between them; and there was a blood-stain on the breast of the female; and the phantom male was leaning on its phantom sword, and blood seemed trickling fast from the ruffles, from the lace; and the darkness of the intermediate Shadow swallowed them up—they were gone. And again the bubbles of light shot, and sailed, and undulated, growing thicker and thicker and more wildly confused in their movements.
As if from the door, though it didn’t open, another figure emerged, just as distinct and terrifying—a man’s figure—a young man. He was dressed in attire from the last century, or rather a version of that attire (for both the male and female figures, though clearly defined, were obviously unsubstantial, imperceptible—simulacra—phantasms); and there was something mismatched, bizarre, yet frightening, in the contrast between the elaborate finery, the formal precision of that old-fashioned clothing, with its ruffles, lace, and buckles, and the corpse-like stillness of the gliding wearer. Just as the male figure approached the female, the dark Shadow sprang from the wall, all three momentarily engulfed in darkness. When the pale light returned, the two phantoms seemed caught in the grasp of the Shadow that loomed between them; and there was a bloodstain on the female's chest; and the phantom male was leaning on his phantom sword, and blood appeared to trickle quickly from the ruffles, from the lace; and the darkness of the intervening Shadow consumed them—they were gone. And once again, the bubbles of light shot, sailed, and undulated, growing thicker and thicker and more wildly chaotic in their movements.
The closet door to the right of the fireplace now opened, and from the aperture there came the form of an aged woman. In her hand she held letters—the very letters over which I had seen the Hand close; and behind her I heard a footstep. She turned round as if to listen, and then she opened the letters and seemed to read; and over her shoulder I saw a livid face, the face as of a man long drowned—bloated, bleached—seaweed tangled in its dripping hair; and at her feet lay a form as of a corpse, and beside the corpse there cowered a child, a miserable squalid child, with famine in its cheeks and fear in its eyes. And as I looked in the old woman's face, the wrinkles and lines vanished, and it became a face of youth—hard-eyed, stony, but still youth; and the Shadow darted forth, and darkened over these phantoms as it had darkened over the last.
The closet door to the right of the fireplace opened, and an old woman stepped out. In her hand were letters—the same letters that I had seen the Hand close, and I heard a footstep behind her. She turned to listen, then opened the letters and appeared to read them; over her shoulder, I saw a pale face, the face of a man who had been underwater for a long time—bloated, bleached—seaweed tangled in his wet hair; at her feet lay a figure that looked like a corpse, and next to the corpse cowered a child, a wretched, dirty child, with hunger in its cheeks and fear in its eyes. And as I looked at the old woman's face, the wrinkles and lines disappeared, and it transformed into a youthful face—hard-eyed, stony, but still youthful; and the Shadow shot out, darkening these apparitions just like it had darkened the last ones.
Nothing now was left but the Shadow, and on that my eyes were intently fixed, till again eyes grew out of the Shadow—malignant, serpent eyes. And the bubbles of light again rose and fell, and in their disordered, irregular, turbulent maze, mingled with the wan moonlight. And now from these globules themselves, as from the shell of an egg, monstrous things burst out; the air grew filled with them; larvæ so bloodless and so hideous that I can in no way describe them except to remind the reader of the swarming life which the solar microscope brings before his eyes in a drop of water—things transparent, supple, agile, chasing each other, devouring each other—forms like naught ever beheld by the naked eye. As the shapes were without symmetry, so their movements were without order. In their very vagrancies there was no sport; they came round me and round, thicker and faster and swifter, swarming over my head, crawling over my right arm, which was outstretched in involuntary command against all evil beings. Sometimes I felt myself touched, but not by them; invisible hands touched me. Once I felt the clutch as of cold soft fingers at my throat. I was still equally conscious that if I gave way to fear I should be in bodily peril; and I concentred all my faculties in the single focus of resisting, stubborn will. And I turned my sight from the Shadow—above all, from those strange serpent eyes—eyes that had now become distinctly visible. For there, though in naught else around me, I was aware that there was a WILL, and a will of intense, creative, working evil, which might crush down my own.
Nothing was left but the Shadow, and my eyes were fixed on it until again eyes emerged from the Shadow—malignant, serpent-like eyes. The bubbles of light rose and fell again, creating a disordered, chaotic maze that mingled with the pale moonlight. Now, from these globules themselves, as from the shell of an egg, monstrous things burst forth; the air became filled with them—larvae so bloodless and hideous that I can't describe them except to remind you of the swarming life a solar microscope reveals in a drop of water—transparent, flexible, agile things chasing and devouring one another—forms unlike anything ever seen by the naked eye. As the shapes lacked symmetry, their movements were aimless. In their very randomness, there was no amusement; they swarmed around me, thicker, faster, and harsher, crawling over my right arm, which I had extended instinctively against all evil beings. Sometimes I felt a touch, but not from them; invisible hands brushed against me. Once, I felt the grip of cold, soft fingers at my throat. I was keenly aware that if I succumbed to fear, I would be in physical danger; and I focused all my energy on resisting with stubborn will. I turned my gaze away from the Shadow—especially from those strange serpent eyes—eyes that had now become clearly visible. For there, unlike anything else around me, I sensed a WILL, an intense, creative, malevolent force that could overpower my own.
The pale atmosphere in the room began now to redden as if in the air of some near conflagration. The larvæ grew lurid as things that live in fire. Again the room vibrated; again were heard the three measured knocks; and again all things were swallowed up in the darkness of the dark Shadow, as if out of that darkness all had come, into that darkness all returned.
The dim atmosphere in the room started to turn red, resembling the air near a fire. The larvae became bright like things that thrive in flames. Once more, the room shook; once more, the three rhythmic knocks echoed; and once again, everything was consumed by the darkness of the dark Shadow, as if everything had originated from that darkness and was returning to it.
As the gloom receded, the Shadow was wholly gone. Slowly, as it had been withdrawn, the flame grew again into the candles on the table, again into the fuel in the grate. The whole room came once more calmly, healthfully into sight.
As the darkness faded away, the Shadow completely disappeared. Slowly, just like it had been pulled back, the flame started to grow again in the candles on the table and the fuel in the fireplace. The entire room came back into view, calm and healthy once more.
The two doors were still closed, the door communicating with the servant's room still locked. In the corner of the wall, into which he had so convulsively niched himself, lay the dog. I called to him—no movement; I approached—the animal was dead; his eyes protruded; his tongue out of his mouth; the froth gathered round his jaws. I took him in my arms; I brought him to the fire; I felt acute grief for the loss of my poor favorite—acute self-reproach; I accused myself of his death; I imagined he had died of fright. But what was my surprise on finding that his neck was actually broken. Had this been done in the dark?—must it not have been by a hand human as mine?—must there not have been a human agency all the while in that room? Good cause to suspect it. I can not tell. I can not do more than state the fact fairly; the reader may draw his own inference.
The two doors were still closed, and the one leading to the servant's room was still locked. In the corner of the wall, where he had curled up so tightly, lay the dog. I called to him—no movement; I approached—he was dead; his eyes were bulging, his tongue hanging out; foam was gathering around his jaws. I picked him up and brought him to the fire; I was filled with deep sorrow for my poor favorite—deep self-blame; I blamed myself for his death; I imagined he had died of fright. But to my surprise, I found that his neck was actually broken. Had this happened in the dark? Could it have been done by a hand as human as mine? Was there some human influence in that room all along? There’s good reason to suspect it. I can’t say for sure. I can only present the facts fairly; the reader can draw his own conclusions.
Another surprising circumstance—my watch was restored to the table from which it had been so mysteriously withdrawn; but it had stopped at the very moment it was so withdrawn; nor, despite all the skill of the watchmaker, has it ever gone since—that is, it will go in a strange erratic way for a few hours, and then come to a dead stop—it is worthless.
Another surprising thing—my watch was returned to the table from which it had been so mysteriously taken; but it had stopped at the exact moment it was taken; and despite all the watchmaker's skill, it has never worked since—well, it works in a weird, inconsistent way for a few hours and then just stops completely—it’s useless.
Nothing more chanced for the rest of the night. Nor, indeed, had I long to wait before the dawn broke. Nor till it was broad daylight did I quit the haunted house. Before I did so, I revisited the little blind room in which my servant and myself had been for a time imprisoned. I had a strong impression—for which I could not account—that from that room had originated the mechanism of the phenomena—if I may use the term—which had been experienced in my chamber. And though I entered it now in the clear day, with the sun peering through the filmy window, I still felt, as I stood on its floors, the creep of the horror which I had first there experienced the night before, and which had been so aggravated by what had passed in my own chamber. I could not, indeed, bear to stay more than half a minute within those walls. I descended the stairs, and again I heard the footfall before me; and when I opened the street door, I thought I could distinguish a very low laugh. I gained my own house, expecting to find my runaway servant there. But he had not presented himself, nor did I hear more of him for three days, when I received a letter from him, dated from Liverpool to this effect:
Nothing else happened for the rest of the night. In fact, I didn’t have to wait long before dawn broke. I didn’t leave the haunted house until it was fully daylight. Before I did, I went back to the little dark room where my servant and I had been trapped for a while. I had a strong feeling—one I couldn’t explain—that the source of the strange occurrences I experienced in my room had come from that room. Even though I entered it now in the bright light of day, with the sun shining through the dusty window, I still felt, as I stood on the floor, the same chill of horror I had first felt there the night before, which had been intensified by what happened in my room. I really couldn’t stand to stay there for more than half a minute. I went down the stairs, and again I heard footsteps ahead of me; and when I opened the front door, I thought I could make out a very soft laugh. I got back to my house, expecting to find my runaway servant there. But he hadn’t shown up, and I didn’t hear from him for three days, when I received a letter from him, dated in Liverpool, stating this:
"Honored Sir—I humbly entreat your pardon, though I can scarcely hope that you will think that I deserve it, unless—which Heaven forbid!—you saw what I did. I feel that it will be years before I can recover myself; and as to being fit for service, it is out of the question. I am therefore going to my brother-in-law at Melbourne. The ship sails to-morrow. Perhaps the long voyage may set me up. I do nothing now but start and tremble, and fancy It is behind me. I humbly beg you, honored sir, to order my clothes, and whatever wages are due to me, to be sent to my mother's, at Walworth—John knows her address."
"Dear Sir—I sincerely ask for your forgiveness, though I can hardly expect that you’ll think I deserve it, unless—which I hope will never happen—you saw what I did. I know it will take me years to feel normal again, and being fit for service is out of the question. So, I’m going to stay with my brother-in-law in Melbourne. The ship leaves tomorrow. Maybe the long voyage will help me feel better. Right now, I just startle and shake, imagining that it’s behind me. I kindly ask you, dear sir, to arrange for my clothes and any wages owed to me to be sent to my mother’s place in Walworth—John knows her address."
The letter ended with additional apologies, somewhat incoherent, and explanatory details as to effects that had been under the writer's charge.
The letter wrapped up with more apologies, which were a bit jumbled, along with explanations about the impacts that had been the writer's responsibility.
This flight may perhaps warrant a suspicion that the man wished to go to Australia, and had been somehow or other fraudulently mixed up with the events of the night. I say nothing in refutation of that conjecture; rather, I suggest it as one that would seem to many persons the most probable solution of improbable occurrences. My belief in my own theory remained unshaken. I returned in the evening to the house, to bring away in a hack cab the things I had left there, with my poor dog's body. In this task I was not disturbed, nor did any incident worth note befall me, except that still, on ascending and descending the stairs, I heard the same footfall in advance. On leaving the house, I went to Mr. J——'s. He was at home. I returned him the keys, told him that my curiosity was sufficiently gratified, and was about to relate quickly what had passed, when he stopped me, and said, though with much politeness, that he had no longer any interest in a mystery which none had ever solved.
This flight might raise suspicions that the man wanted to go to Australia and had somehow gotten involved in the events of the night in a questionable way. I'm not denying that idea; instead, I suggest it as a theory that many people would find to be the most likely explanation for the strange happenings. However, my faith in my own theory remained strong. I returned in the evening to the house to take away the things I had left there, along with my poor dog's body, using a cab. I wasn't interrupted during this task, nor did anything noteworthy happen, except that I kept hearing the same footsteps ahead of me as I went up and down the stairs. After leaving the house, I went to Mr. J——'s place. He was home. I handed him the keys, told him that my curiosity had been satisfied, and was about to quickly share what had happened, when he politely stopped me and said that he no longer had any interest in a mystery that no one had ever solved.
I determined at least to tell him of the two letters I had read, as well as of the extraordinary manner in which they had disappeared, and I then inquired if he thought they had been addressed to the woman who had died in the house, and if there were anything in her early history which could possibly confirm the dark suspicions to which the letters gave rise. Mr. J—— seemed startled, and, after musing a few moments, answered: "I am but little acquainted with the woman's earlier history, except, as I before told you, that her family were known to mine. But you revive some vague reminiscences to her prejudice. I will make inquiries, and inform you of their result. Still, even if we could admit the popular superstition that a person who had been either the perpetrator or the victim of dark crimes in life could revisit, as a restless spirit, the scene in which those crimes had been committed, I should observe that the house was infested by strange sights and sounds before the old woman died—you smile—what would you say?"
I decided I should at least tell him about the two letters I had read and the strange way they had vanished. I then asked if he thought they were addressed to the woman who had died in the house and if there was anything in her past that could confirm the dark suspicions raised by the letters. Mr. J—— looked surprised and, after thinking for a moment, replied, "I don’t know much about the woman's early life, except, as I mentioned before, that her family was connected to mine. But you bring back some vague memories that don't paint her in a good light. I will look into it and let you know what I find. Still, even if we were to accept the common belief that someone who was either a criminal or a victim of dark deeds in life could return as a restless spirit to the place where those deeds took place, I should point out that the house had strange sights and sounds long before the old woman died—you smile—what do you think?"
"I would say this, that I am convinced, if we could get to the bottom of these mysteries, we should find a living human agency."
"I believe that if we could uncover the truth behind these mysteries, we would discover a real human being behind it all."
"What! you believe it is all an imposture? for what object?"
"What! Do you really think it's all a scam? For what purpose?"
"Not an imposture in the ordinary sense of the word. If suddenly I were to sink into a deep sleep, from which you could not awake me, but in that sleep could answer questions with an accuracy which I could not pretend to when awake—tell you what money you had in your pocket—nay, describe your very thoughts—it is not necessarily an imposture, any more than it is necessarily supernatural. I should be, unconsciously to myself, under a mesmeric influence, conveyed to me from a distance by a human being who had acquired power over me by previous rapport."
"Not a deception in the usual sense of the word. If I were to suddenly fall into a deep sleep, from which you couldn't wake me, but in that sleep could accurately answer questions—like telling you how much money you had in your pocket or even describing your exact thoughts—it wouldn’t necessarily be a deception, just like it wouldn’t necessarily be supernatural. I would be, unbeknownst to myself, under a hypnotic influence coming from a distance by someone who had previously established a connection with me."
"But if a mesmerizer could so affect another living being, can you suppose that a mesmerizer could also affect inanimate objects; move chairs—open and shut doors?"
"But if a mesmerizer can impact another living being, can you imagine that a mesmerizer could also influence inanimate objects; move chairs—open and close doors?"
"Or impress our senses with the belief in such effects—we never having been en rapport with the person acting on us? No. What is commonly called mesmerism could not do this; but there may be a power akin to mesmerism and superior to it—the power that in the old days was called Magic. That such a power may extend to all inanimate objects of matter, I do not say; but if so, it would not be against nature—it would only be a rare power in nature which might be given to constitutions with certain peculiarities, and cultivated by practise to an extraordinary degree. That such a power might extend over the dead—that is, over certain thoughts and memories that the dead may still retain—and compel, not that which ought properly to be called the Soul, and which is far beyond human reach, but rather a phantom of what has been most earth-stained on earth to make itself apparent to our senses—is a very ancient though obsolete theory, upon which I will hazard no opinion. But I do not conceive the power would be supernatural. Let me illustrate what I mean from an experiment which Paracelsus describes as not difficult, and which the author of the 'Curiosities of Literature' cites as credible: A flower perishes; you burn it. Whatever were the elements of that flower while it lived are gone, dispersed, you know not whither; you can never discover nor re-collect them. But you can, by chemistry, out of the burned dust of that flower, raise a spectrum of the flower, just as it seemed in life. It may be the same with the human being. The soul has as much escaped you as the essence or elements of the flower. Still you may make a spectrum of it. And this phantom, though in the popular superstition it is held to be the soul of the departed, must not be confounded with the true soul; it is but the eidolon of the dead form. Hence, like the best attested stories of ghosts or spirits, the thing that most strikes us is the absence of what we hold to be the soul; that is, of superior emancipated intelligence. These apparitions come for little or no object—they seldom speak when they do come; if they speak, they utter no ideas above those of an ordinary person on earth. American spirit-seers have published volumes of communications, in prose and verse, which they assert to be given in the names of the most illustrious dead—Shakespeare, Bacon—heaven knows whom. Those communications, taking the best, are certainly not a whit of higher order than would be communications from living persons of fair talent and education; they are wondrously inferior to what Bacon, Shakespeare, and Plato said and wrote when on earth. Nor, what is more noticeable, do they ever contain an idea that was not on the earth before. Wonderful, therefore, as such phenomena may be (granting them to be truthful), I see much that philosophy may question, nothing that it is incumbent on philosophy to deny—viz., nothing supernatural. They are but ideas conveyed somehow or other (we have not yet discovered the means) from one mortal brain to another. Whether, in so doing, tables walk of their own accord, or fiendlike shapes appear in a magic circle, or bodyless hands rise and remove material objects, or a Thing of Darkness, such as presented itself to me, freeze our blood—still am I persuaded that these are but agencies conveyed, as by electric wires, to my own brain from the brain of another. In some constitutions there is a natural chemistry, and those constitutions may produce chemic wonders—in others a natural fluid, call it electricity, and these may produce electric wonders. But the wonders differ from Natural Science in this—they are alike objectless, purposeless, puerile, frivolous. They lead on to no grand results; and therefore the world does not heed, and true sages have not cultivated them. But sure I am, that of all I saw or heard, a man, human as myself, was the remote originator; and I believe unconsciously to himself as to the exact effects produced, for this reason: no two persons, you say, have ever told you that they experienced exactly the same thing. Well, observe, no two persons ever experience exactly the same dream. If this were an ordinary imposture, the machinery would be arranged for results that would but little vary; if it were a supernatural agency permitted by the Almighty, it would surely be for some definite end. These phenomena belong to neither class; my persuasion is that they originate in some brain now far distant; that that brain had no distinct volition in anything that occurred; that what does occur reflects but its devious, motley, ever-shifting, half-formed thoughts; in short, that it has been but the dreams of such a brain put into action and invested with a semi-substance. That this brain is of immense power, that it can set matter into movement, that it is malignant and destructive, I believe; some material force must have killed my dog; the same force might, for aught I know, have sufficed to kill myself, had I been as subjugated by terror as the dog—had my intellect or my spirit given me no countervailing resistance in my will."
"Or can we convince ourselves of such effects—without ever having truly connected with the person affecting us? No. What we usually refer to as mesmerism can’t do this, but there might be a power similar to mesmerism and even greater—the power that was once called Magic. I won't claim that this power can affect all inanimate objects, but if it could, it wouldn’t go against nature; it would just be a rare ability that certain individuals might possess and cultivate through practice to an extraordinary level. The idea that this power could also extend to the deceased—that is, to certain thoughts and memories that the dead might still hold—and compel not what should rightfully be called the Soul, which is far beyond human reach, but rather a shadow of what was most tied to earthly existence to present itself to us—is an old but outdated theory, on which I won't express an opinion. However, I don't believe this power would be supernatural. Let me clarify with an experiment that Paracelsus described as not too difficult, and which the author of the ‘Curiosities of Literature’ cites as believable: A flower dies; you burn it. Whatever elements made up that flower while it was alive are gone, scattered to who knows where; you can never find them or put them back together. But you can, through chemistry, create an image of that flower from its burned remains, just as it appeared when it was alive. It may be similar with a human being. The soul has escaped you just as the essence or elements of the flower have. Still, you may form an image of it. And this phantom, while popular superstition claims it to be the soul of the deceased, should not be mistaken for the true soul; it is merely the eidolon of the deceased form. Thus, like the most credible ghost or spirit stories, the noticeable absence is what we understand as the soul; that is, a higher, liberated intelligence. These apparitions often come for minimal reasons—they seldom speak and when they do, they express no ideas above those of an average person on Earth. American spirit-seers have published numerous texts of communications, in both prose and poetry, which they claim are from the most renowned deceased—Shakespeare, Bacon—heaven knows who else. The best of these messages are certainly not of a higher caliber than what would come from living individuals of reasonable talent and education; they significantly fall short of what Bacon, Shakespeare, and Plato produced while alive. Moreover, it is more noticeable that they never present an idea that wasn’t already on Earth before. Therefore, wonderful as these phenomena might be (if we accept them as truthful), I see much for philosophy to question and nothing that philosophy is bound to deny—namely, nothing supernatural. They are simply ideas somehow communicated (we haven’t yet figured out how) from one human brain to another. Whether tables move on their own, or demonic shapes appear in a magic circle, or bodiless hands rise to move physical objects, or a dark entity, like what appeared to me, chills us to the bone—I'm convinced that these are merely messages transmitted, like electric currents, from one brain to another. Some people have a natural chemistry, and these individuals might create chemical wonders—in others, a natural fluid, which we could call electricity, could produce electric wonders. But these wonders differ from Natural Science in that they are all aimless, purposeless, trivial, and silly. They lead to no significant outcomes; and therefore, the world pays little attention, and true scholars have not pursued them. But I am certain that everything I saw or heard stemmed from a human, just like myself; and I believe he was unaware of the exact effects produced for this reason: no two people, you say, have ever told you they experienced exactly the same thing. Well, notice that no two people ever have exactly the same dream. If this were a typical trick, the setup would be arranged for results that wouldn't vary much; if it were a supernatural force allowed by the Almighty, it would surely have a specific purpose. These phenomena belong to neither category; I am convinced that they originate from some distant brain; that brain had no clear intention regarding anything that happened; what does occur merely reflects its winding, mixed, ever-changing, half-formed thoughts; in short, it has been the dreams of such a brain turned into action and given a semi-physical form. I believe this brain is immensely powerful, that it can move matter, and that it can be harmful and destructive; some material force must have killed my dog; that same force could very well have been capable of killing me, had I been as gripped by fear as the dog—if my intellect or spirit hadn’t provided some resistance in my will."
"It killed your dog! that is fearful! indeed it is strange that no animal can be induced to stay in that house; not even a cat. Rats and mice are never found in it."
"It killed your dog! That's terrifying! It's really weird that no animal will stay in that house; not even a cat. You never find rats or mice in there."
"The instincts of the brute creation detect influences deadly to their existence. Man's reason has a sense less subtle, because it has a resisting power more supreme. But enough; do you comprehend my theory?"
"The instincts of animals pick up on threats to their survival. Human reason is less sensitive, but it's stronger and more resilient. But that's enough; do you understand my theory?"
"Yes, though imperfectly—and I accept any crotchet (pardon the word), however odd, rather than embrace at once the notion of ghosts and hobgoblins we imbibed in our nurseries. Still, to my unfortunate house the evil is the same. What on earth can I do with the house?"
"Yes, even if not perfectly—and I’ll take any quirky idea (sorry for the word), no matter how strange, instead of immediately believing in the ghosts and goblins we learned about as kids. Still, in my unfortunate situation, the problem is the same. What can I do about the house?"
"I will tell you what I would do. I am convinced from my own internal feelings that the small unfurnished room at right angles to the door of the bedroom which I occupied forms a starting-point or receptacle for the influences which haunt the house; and I strongly advise you to have the walls opened, the floor removed—nay, the whole room pulled down. I observe that it is detached from the body of the house, built over the small back-yard, and could be removed without injury to the rest of the building."
"I'll share what I would do. I truly believe, based on how I feel, that the small, empty room next to the bedroom I stayed in is a source or storage place for the strange vibes that linger in the house. I really recommend you knock down the walls, take out the floor—actually, just tear the whole room down. I can see that it's separate from the main part of the house, built over the little backyard, and it could be taken out without harming the rest of the building."
"And you think, if I did that—"
"And you think, if I did that—"
"You would cut off the telegraph wires. Try it. I am so persuaded that I am right that I will pay half the expense if you will allow me to direct the operations."
"You should cut the telegraph wires. Go ahead and try it. I'm so confident that I'm right that I'll cover half the cost if you let me handle the operation."
"Nay, I am well able to afford the cost; for the rest, allow me to write to you."
"No, I can easily cover the cost; for the rest, let me write to you."
About ten days after I received a letter from Mr. J——, telling me that he had visited the house since I had seen him; that he had found the two letters I had described, replaced in the drawer from which I had taken them; that he had read them with misgivings like my own; that he had instituted a cautious inquiry about the woman to whom I rightly conjectured they had been written. It seemed that thirty-six years ago (a year before the date of the letters) she had married, against the wish of her relations, an American of very suspicious character; in fact, he was generally believed to have been a pirate. She herself was the daughter of very respectable tradespeople, and had served in the capacity of a nursery governess before her marriage. She had a brother, a widower, who was considered wealthy, and who had one child of about six years old. A month after the marriage, the body of this brother was found in the Thames, near London Bridge; there seemed some marks of violence about his throat, but they were not deemed sufficient to warrant the inquest in any other verdict than that of "found drowned."
About ten days after I got a letter from Mr. J——, telling me that he had visited the house since I last saw him; that he found the two letters I had mentioned, put back in the drawer where I'd taken them; that he read them with the same unease I had; and that he had started a careful inquiry about the woman I suspected they were written to. It turned out that thirty-six years ago (a year before the letters were dated), she married, against her family's wishes, an American with a very questionable background; in fact, he was commonly thought to have been a pirate. She was the daughter of respectable tradespeople and had worked as a nursery governess before her marriage. She had a brother, a widower, who was considered wealthy and had a child around six years old. A month after the marriage, this brother's body was found in the Thames, near London Bridge; there were some signs of violence around his throat, but they weren’t enough to lead the inquest to any conclusion other than "found drowned."
The American and his wife took charge of the little boy, the deceased brother having by his will left his sister the guardianship of his only child—and in event of the child's death, the sister inherited. The child died about six months afterward—it was supposed to have been neglected and ill-treated. The neighbors deposed to having heard it shriek at night. The surgeon who had examined it after death said that it was emaciated as if from want of nourishment, and the body was covered with livid bruises. It seemed that one winter night the child had sought to escape—crept out into the back-yard—tried to scale the wall—fallen back exhausted, and been found at morning on the stones in a dying state. But though there was some evidence of cruelty, there was none of murder; and the aunt and her husband had sought to palliate cruelty by alleging the exceeding stubbornness and perversity of the child, who was declared to be half-witted. Be that as it may, at the orphan's death the aunt inherited her brother's fortune. Before the first wedded year was out, the American quitted England abruptly, and never returned to it. He obtained a cruising vessel, which was lost in the Atlantic two years afterward. The widow was left in affluence; but reverses of various kinds had befallen her: a bank broke—an investment failed—she went into a small business and became insolvent—then she entered into service, sinking lower and lower, from housekeeper down to maid-of-all-work—never long retaining a place, though nothing decided against her character was ever alleged. She was considered sober, honest, and peculiarly quiet in her ways; still nothing prospered with her. And so she had dropped into the workhouse, from which Mr. J—— had taken her, to be placed in charge of the very house which she had rented as mistress in the first year of her wedded life.
The American and his wife took responsibility for the little boy, as the deceased brother had left his sister the guardianship of his only child in his will—and if the child died, the sister inherited. The child passed away about six months later—it was believed to have been neglected and mistreated. The neighbors testified that they had heard it scream at night. The doctor who examined the child after its death said it was emaciated, as if it hadn't been fed, and its body was covered in dark bruises. It appeared that one winter night, the child had tried to escape—crawled out into the backyard—attempted to climb the wall—fallen back exhausted, and was found in the morning on the stones in a dying state. However, while there was some evidence of cruelty, there was no proof of murder; and the aunt and her husband attempted to justify the cruelty by claiming the child was very stubborn and difficult, stating it was half-witted. Regardless, when the orphan died, the aunt inherited her brother's fortune. Before their first wedding anniversary, the American left England abruptly and never returned. He got a cruising vessel that was lost in the Atlantic two years later. The widow was left wealthy; however, various misfortunes fell upon her: a bank failed—an investment went bad—she started a small business but became insolvent—then she took a job, sinking lower and lower, from housekeeper to maid-of-all-work—never keeping a job for long, although nothing negative was ever said about her character. She was seen as sober, honest, and particularly quiet; yet nothing went well for her. Eventually, she ended up in the workhouse, from which Mr. J—— had taken her, to be in charge of the very house she had rented when she first got married.
Mr. J—— added that he had passed an hour alone in the unfurnished room which I had urged him to destroy, and that his impressions of dread while there were so great, though he had neither heard nor seen anything, that he was eager to have the walls bared and the floors removed as I had suggested. He had engaged persons for the work, and would commence any day I would name.
Mr. J—— mentioned that he spent an hour alone in the empty room I had told him to tear down, and that his feelings of fear while he was there were so intense, even though he hadn't heard or seen anything, that he was eager to have the walls stripped and the floors taken out as I had recommended. He had hired people for the job and would start any day I suggested.
The day was accordingly fixed. I repaired to the haunted house—we went into the blind dreary room, took up the skirting, and then the floors. Under the rafters, covered with rubbish, was found a trap-door, quite large enough to admit a man. It was closely nailed down, with clamps and rivets of iron. On removing these we descended into a room below, the existence of which had never been suspected. In this room there had been a window and a flue, but they had been bricked over, evidently for many years. By the help of candles we examined this place; it still retained some moldering furniture—three chairs, an oak settle, a table—all of the fashion of about eighty years ago. There was a chest of drawers against the wall, in which we found, half-rotted away, old-fashioned articles of a man's dress, such as might have been worn eighty or a hundred years ago by a gentleman of some rank—costly steel buckles and buttons, like those yet worn in court-dresses, a handsome court sword—in a waistcoat which had once been rich with gold-lace, but which was now blackened and foul with damp, we found five guineas, a few silver coins, and an ivory ticket, probably for some place of entertainment long since passed away. But our main discovery was in a kind of iron safe fixed to the wall, the lock of which it cost us much trouble to get picked.
The day was set. I headed to the haunted house—we entered the dark, dreary room, lifted the skirting, and then checked the floors. Under the rafters, covered in debris, we found a trapdoor large enough for a person to fit through. It was securely nailed down with iron clamps and rivets. After removing those, we went down into a hidden room that no one had ever suspected existed. This room had once had a window and a flue, but they had been bricked over for quite some time. With the help of candles, we explored this space; it still had some old furniture—a few chairs, an oak bench, a table—all from about eighty years ago. There was a chest of drawers against the wall, and inside, we found half-rotted old-fashioned men's clothing that might have been worn eighty or a hundred years ago by a gentleman of some status—expensive steel buckles and buttons like those still seen in court attire, a nice court sword—in a waistcoat that had once been richly decorated with gold lace, now tarnished and damp. We discovered five guineas, some silver coins, and an ivory ticket, likely for an entertainment venue long gone. But our biggest find was an iron safe fixed to the wall, which took us considerable effort to get the lock picked.
In this safe were three shelves, and two small drawers. Ranged on the shelves were several small bottles of crystal, hermetically stoppered. They contained colorless volatile essences, of the nature of which I shall only say that they were not poisonous—phosphor and ammonia entered into some of them. There were also some very curious glass tubes, and a small pointed rod of iron, with a large lump of rock-crystal, and another of amber—also a loadstone of great power.
In this safe, there were three shelves and two small drawers. The shelves held several small crystal bottles, each sealed airtight. They contained colorless volatile essences, which I'll only mention were not poisonous—some had phosphor and ammonia in them. There were also some very interesting glass tubes, a small pointed iron rod, a large piece of rock crystal, and another piece of amber—plus a powerful lodestone.
In one of the drawers we found a miniature portrait set in gold, and retaining the freshness of its colors most remarkably, considering the length of time it had probably been there. The portrait was that of a man who might be somewhat advanced in middle life, perhaps forty-seven or forty-eight.
In one of the drawers, we found a tiny portrait set in gold, and it amazingly kept its colors fresh, especially considering how long it had probably been there. The portrait was of a man who seemed to be in his late middle age, around forty-seven or forty-eight.
It was a remarkable face—a most impressive face. If you could fancy some mighty serpent transformed into man, preserving in the human lineaments the old serpent type, you would have a better idea of that countenance than long descriptions can convey: the width and flatness of frontal—the tapering elegance of contour disguising the strength of the deadly jaw—the long, large, terrible eye, glittering and green as the emerald—and withal a certain ruthless calm, as if from the consciousness of an immense power.
It was an extraordinary face—a truly striking face. If you could imagine a powerful serpent turned into a man, while still keeping the serpent's features in his human appearance, you’d get a better sense of that expression than any lengthy descriptions could provide: the wide and flat forehead—the sleek elegance of the shape hiding the strength of the lethal jaw—the long, large, frightening eye, shining and green like an emerald—and all of that combined with a certain merciless calm, as if he was fully aware of immense power.
Mechanically I turned round the miniature to examine the back of it, and on the back was engraved a pentacle; in the middle of the pentacle a ladder, and the third step of the ladder was formed by the date 1765. Examining still more minutely, I detected a spring; this, on being pressed, opened the back of the miniature as a lid. Withinside the lid was engraved, "Marianna to thee—Be faithful in life and in death to ——." Here follows a name that I will not mention, but it was not unfamiliar to me. I had heard it spoken of by old men in my childhood as the name borne by a dazzling charlatan who had made a great sensation in London for a year or so, and had fled the country on the charge of a double murder within his own house—that of his mistress and his rival. I said nothing of this to Mr. J——, to whom reluctantly I resigned the miniature.
Mechanically, I turned the miniature around to look at the back, and engraved on it was a pentacle; in the middle of the pentacle was a ladder, and the third step of the ladder was marked with the date 1765. Looking even closer, I found a spring; when pressed, it opened the back of the miniature like a lid. Inside the lid was engraved, "Marianna to thee—Be faithful in life and in death to ——." Here came a name that I won't mention, but it was familiar to me. I had heard old men talk about it in my childhood as the name of a flashy con artist who had caused quite a stir in London for a year or so, then fled the country after being charged with a double murder in his own home—that of his mistress and his rival. I said nothing of this to Mr. J——, to whom I reluctantly returned the miniature.
We had found no difficulty in opening the first drawer within the iron safe; we found great difficulty in opening the second: it was not locked, but it resisted all efforts, till we inserted in the chinks the edge of a chisel. When we had thus drawn it forth, we found a very singular apparatus in the nicest order. Upon a small thin book, or rather tablet, was placed a saucer of crystal; this saucer was filled with a clear liquid—on that liquid floated a kind of compass, with a needle shifting rapidly round; but instead of the usual points of a compass were seven strange characters, not very unlike those used by astrologers to denote the planets. A peculiar but not strong nor displeasing odor came from this drawer, which was lined with a wood that we afterward discovered to be hazel. Whatever the cause of this odor, it produced a material effect on the nerves. We all felt it, even the two workmen who were in the room—a creeping, tingling sensation from the tips of the fingers to the roots of the hair. Impatient to examine the tablet, I removed the saucer. As I did so the needle of the compass went round and round with exceeding swiftness, and I felt a shock that ran through my whole frame, so that I dropped the saucer on the floor. The liquid was spilled—the saucer was broken—the compass rolled to the end of the room—and at that instant the walls shook to and fro, as if a giant had swayed and rocked them.
We had no trouble opening the first drawer of the iron safe, but the second one was much harder to get into. It wasn't locked, but it resisted all our attempts until we wedged a chisel into the cracks. Once we finally pulled it out, we discovered a very unusual device in perfect condition. On a small, thin book, or rather a tablet, sat a crystal saucer filled with a clear liquid—floating in that liquid was a kind of compass, with a needle spinning rapidly. Instead of the usual cardinal directions, it had seven strange symbols that looked a lot like those used by astrologers to represent planets. A peculiar but not overpowering scent came from this drawer, which was lined with hazel wood. Whatever was causing this smell had a noticeable effect on our nerves. We all felt it, even the two workers in the room—a tingling sensation that crept from our fingertips to our scalp. Eager to inspect the tablet, I lifted the saucer. As I did, the compass needle began to spin wildly, and I felt a jolt that shot through my entire body, causing me to drop the saucer onto the floor. The liquid spilled, the saucer shattered, and the compass rolled to the far end of the room—and at that moment, the walls shook violently as if a giant was rocking them back and forth.
The two workmen were so frightened that they ran up the ladder by which we had descended from the trap-door; but seeing that nothing more happened, they were easily induced to return.
The two laborers were so scared that they rushed up the ladder we had come down from the trap door; but realizing that nothing else occurred, they were quickly convinced to come back down.
Meanwhile I had opened the tablet: it was bound in plain red leather, with a silver clasp; it contained but one sheet of thick vellum, and on that sheet were inscribed, within a double pentacle, words in old monkish Latin, which are literally to be translated thus: "On all that it can reach within these walls—sentient or inanimate, living or dead—as moves the needle, so work my will! Accursed be the house, and restless be the dwellers therein."
Meanwhile, I had opened the tablet: it was covered in simple red leather, with a silver clasp; it held just one sheet of thick parchment, and on that sheet were written, within a double pentacle, words in old monkish Latin, which can be literally translated as: "On all that it can reach within these walls—sentient or inanimate, living or dead—as the needle moves, so does my will! Cursed be the house, and restless be those who dwell therein."
We found no more. Mr. J—— burned the tablet and its anathema. He razed to the foundations the part of the building containing the secret room with the chamber over it. He had then the courage to inhabit the house himself for a month, and a quieter, better-conditioned house could not be found in all London. Subsequently he let it to advantage, and his tenant has made no complaints.
We found nothing else. Mr. J—— burned the tablet and its curse. He tore down the part of the building that held the secret room and the chamber above it. He then had the courage to live in the house himself for a month, and you couldn’t find a quieter, better-maintained place in all of London. After that, he rented it out profitably, and his tenant hasn’t made any complaints.
THE DREAM-WOMAN
BY WILKIE COLLINS
BY WILKIE COLLINS
William Wilkie Collins, born in London in 1824, was the son of the painter William Collins. He was always called "Wilkie." Educated privately, he was articled to a London tea merchant; but, publishing a book (afterward issued as "Antonina"), he devoted himself to letters. In 1851, he met Dickens, and wrote for "Household Words," and sometimes collaborated with him. His works include: "After Dark," "The Woman in White," "No Name, "The New Magdalen," and "The Moonstone." "The Dream-Woman," which exhibits many of his most striking characteristics, is from "The Queen of Hearts" (1860). He died in London in 1889.
William Wilkie Collins, born in London in 1824, was the son of the painter William Collins. He was always called "Wilkie." He was educated privately and trained as an apprentice to a tea merchant in London. However, after publishing a book (later released as "Antonina"), he dedicated himself to writing. In 1851, he met Dickens and wrote for "Household Words," occasionally collaborating with him. His works include: "After Dark," "The Woman in White," "No Name," "The New Magdalen," and "The Moonstone." "The Dream-Woman," which showcases many of his most notable characteristics, is from "The Queen of Hearts" (1860). He died in London in 1889.
THE DREAM-WOMAN
THE DREAM GIRL
By WILKIE COLLINS
By Wilkie Collins
Some years ago there lived in the suburbs of a large seaport town on the west coast of England a man in humble circumstances, by name Isaac Scatchard. His means of subsistence were derived from any employment that he could get as an ostler, and occasionally when times went well with him, from temporary engagements in service as stable-helper in private houses. Though a faithful, steady, and honest man, he got on badly in his calling. His ill-luck was proverbial among his neighbors. He was always missing good opportunities by no fault of his own, and always living longest in service with amiable people who were not punctual payers of wages. "Unlucky Isaac" was his nickname in his own neighborhood, and no one could say that he did not richly deserve it.
Some years ago, there lived in the suburbs of a big port town on the west coast of England a man named Isaac Scatchard, who was in modest circumstances. He made a living by taking whatever work he could find as a stable hand, and occasionally, when things were going well, from short-term jobs as a stable helper in private homes. Although he was a loyal, dependable, and honest man, he struggled in his job. His bad luck was well-known among his neighbors. He often missed out on good opportunities through no fault of his own and spent the longest time working for kind people who weren't good at paying on time. "Unlucky Isaac" was his nickname in the neighborhood, and no one could deny he truly earned it.
With far more than one man's fair share of adversity to endure, Isaac had but one consolation to support him, and that was of the dreariest and most negative kind. He had no wife and children to increase his anxieties and add to the bitterness of his various failures in life. It might have been from mere insensibility, or it might have been from generous unwillingness to involve another in his own unlucky destiny; but the fact undoubtedly was, that he had arrived at the middle term of life without marrying, and, what is much more remarkable, without once exposing himself, from eighteen to eight-and-thirty, to the genial imputation of ever having had a sweetheart.
Facing more than his fair share of hardships, Isaac had only one source of comfort, and it was the most dismal and negative kind. He had no wife and kids to heighten his worries or amplify the pain of his various failures in life. This could have been due to plain indifference or possibly a noble desire not to drag someone else into his unfortunate fate; but the undeniable truth was that he had reached middle age without marrying and, even more surprisingly, without ever letting it be known from eighteen to thirty-eight that he had ever had a girlfriend.
When he was out of service he lived alone with his widowed mother. Mrs. Scatchard was a woman above the average in her lowly station as to capacity and manners. She had seen better days, as the phrase is, but she never referred to them in the presence of curious visitors; and, though perfectly polite to every one who approached her, never cultivated any intimacies among her neighbors. She contrived to provide hardly enough for her simple wants by doing rough work for the tailors, and always managed to keep a decent home for her son to return to whenever his ill-luck drove him out helpless into the world.
When he was out of the service, he lived alone with his widowed mother. Mrs. Scatchard was a woman who stood out in her humble life due to her intelligence and good manners. She had experienced better times, as people say, but she never brought them up in front of nosy visitors. While she was always polite to anyone who approached her, she never developed close friendships with her neighbors. She managed to cover her basic needs by doing odd jobs for tailors and always kept a respectable home for her son to return to whenever misfortune forced him out into the world.
One bleak autumn, when Isaac was getting on fast toward forty, and when he was, as usual, out of place through no fault of his own, he set forth from his mother's cottage on a long walk inland to a gentleman's seat, where he had heard that a stable-helper was required.
One gloomy autumn, when Isaac was nearing forty and, as always, felt out of place through no fault of his own, he left his mother's cottage for a long walk inland to a gentleman's estate, where he had heard they needed a stable helper.
It wanted then but two days of his birthday; and Mrs. Scatchard, with her usual fondness, made him promise, before he started, that he would be back in time to keep that anniversary with her, in as festive a way as their poor means would allow. It was easy for him to comply with this request, even supposing he slept a night each way on the road.
It was just two days before his birthday, and Mrs. Scatchard, with her usual affection, made him promise before he left that he would return in time to celebrate that anniversary with her, in as festive a way as their limited means would allow. It was easy for him to agree to this request, even if it meant he spent a night on the road each way.
He was to start from home on Monday morning, and, whether he got the new place or not, he was to be back for his birthday dinner on Wednesday at two o'clock.
He was set to leave home on Monday morning, and, whether he got the new job or not, he planned to be back for his birthday dinner on Wednesday at two o'clock.
Arriving at his destination too late on the Monday night to make application for the stable-helper's place, he slept at the village inn, and in good time on the Tuesday morning presented himself at the gentleman's house to fill the vacant situation. Here again his ill-luck pursued him as inexorably as ever. The excellent written testimonials to his character which he was able to procure availed him nothing; his long walk had been taken in vain: only the day before the stable-helper's place had been given to another man.
Arriving at his destination too late on Monday night to apply for the stable-helper job, he slept at the village inn. The next morning on Tuesday, he arrived at the gentleman's house to fill the vacant position. Unfortunately, his bad luck followed him relentlessly. The excellent written recommendations he had were of no help; his long walk had been for nothing: just the day before, the stable-helper position had been given to someone else.
Isaac accepted this new disappointment resignedly and as a matter of course. Naturally slow in capacity, he had the bluntness of sensibility and phlegmatic patience of disposition which frequently distinguish men with sluggishly working mental powers. He thanked the gentleman's steward with his usual quiet civility for granting him an interview, and took his departure with no appearance of unusual depression in his face or manner.
Isaac accepted this new disappointment with a sense of resignation, as if it were just part of life. Naturally slow in understanding, he had a blunt sensibility and a calm patience that often characterize people with less agile minds. He thanked the gentleman's steward with his usual polite demeanor for allowing him an interview and left without showing any signs of significant sadness in his expression or behavior.
Before starting on his homeward walk, he made some inquiries at the inn, and ascertained that he might save a few miles on his return by following a new road. Furnished with full instructions, several times repeated, as to the various turnings he was to take, he set forth on his homeward journey, and walked on all day with only one stoppage for bread and cheese. Just as it was getting toward dark, the rain came on and the wind began to rise, and he found himself, to make matters worse, in a part of the country with which he was entirely unacquainted, though he knew himself to be some fifteen miles from home. The first house he found to inquire at was a lonely roadside inn, standing on the outskirts of a thick wood. Solitary as the place looked, it was welcome to a lost man who was also hungry, thirsty, foot-sore, and wet. The landlord was civil, and respectable-looking, and the price he asked for a bed was reasonable enough. Isaac therefore decided on stopping comfortably at the inn for that night.
Before starting his walk home, he asked around at the inn and found out that he could save a few miles by taking a new road. Armed with clear directions, repeated several times, about the turns he needed to make, he began his journey home and walked all day with just one break for bread and cheese. Just as it was starting to get dark, the rain began to fall and the wind picked up, and he realized he was in a part of the countryside he didn’t know at all, even though he was about fifteen miles from home. The first place he came across to ask for directions was a lonely roadside inn on the edge of a thick forest. As isolated as the place seemed, it was a welcome sight for a lost man who was hungry, thirsty, sore from walking, and wet. The landlord was polite and looked respectable, and the price for a bed was reasonable. So, Isaac decided to stay comfortably at the inn for the night.
He was constitutionally a temperate man. His supper consisted of two rashers of bacon, a slice of home-made bread, and a pint of ale. He did not go to bed immediately after this moderate meal, but sat up with the landlord, talking about his bad prospects and his long run of ill-luck, and diverging from these topics to the subject of horse-flesh and racing. Nothing was said either by himself, his host, or the few laborers who strayed into the tap-room, which could, in the slightest degree, excite the very small and very dull imaginative faculty which Isaac Scatchard possessed.
He was naturally a moderate guy. His dinner included two strips of bacon, a slice of homemade bread, and a pint of beer. He didn’t go to bed right after this light meal, but stayed up with the landlord, chatting about his tough situation and his long streak of bad luck, and shifting to discussions about horses and racing. Nothing was said by him, his host, or the few laborers who wandered into the pub that could, even slightly, stimulate the very limited and dull imagination that Isaac Scatchard had.
At a little after eleven the house was closed. Isaac went round with the landlord and held the candle while the doors and lower windows were being secured. He noticed with surprise the strength of the bolts and bars, and iron-sheathed shutters.
At just after eleven, the house was locked up. Isaac walked around with the landlord, holding the candle while the doors and lower windows were being secured. He was surprised by the strength of the bolts and bars, and the iron-covered shutters.
"You see we are rather lonely here," said the landlord. "We never have had any attempts made to break in yet, but it's always as well to be on the safe side. When nobody is sleeping here, I am the only man in the house. My wife and daughter are timid, and the servant-girl takes after her missuses. Another glass of ale before you turn in? No! Well, how such a sober man as you come to be out of a place is more than I can make out, for one. Here's where you're to sleep. You're our only lodger to-night, and I think you'll say my missus has done her best to make you comfortable. You're quite sure you won't have another glass of ale? Very well. Good-night."
"You see, we’re pretty lonely here," said the landlord. "We’ve never had any break-in attempts, but it’s always smart to be cautious. When no one else is staying here, I’m the only one in the house. My wife and daughter are a bit skittish, and the maid takes after them. Would you like another glass of ale before you head off to bed? No? Well, I can’t understand how a responsible guy like you ended up without a job. Here’s your room. You’re our only guest tonight, and I think you’ll agree my wife has done her best to make you comfortable. Are you sure you don’t want another glass of ale? Alright then. Good night."
It was half-past eleven by the clock in the passage as they went upstairs to the bedroom, the window of which looked on to the wood at the back of the house.
It was 11:30 by the clock in the hallway as they headed upstairs to the bedroom, which had a window overlooking the woods at the back of the house.
Isaac locked the door, set his candle on the chest of drawers, and wearily got ready for bed. The bleak autumn wind was still blowing, and the solemn, monotonous, surging moan of it in the wood was dreary and awful to hear through the night-silence. Isaac felt strangely wakeful. He resolved, as he lay down in bed, to keep the candle alight until he began to grow sleepy, for there was something unendurably depressing in the bare idea of laying awake in the darkness, listening to the dismal, ceaseless moaning of the wind in the wood.
Isaac locked the door, placed his candle on the dresser, and tiredly got ready for bed. The chilly autumn wind was still blowing, and the solemn, monotonous, surging moan of it in the woods was bleak and dreadful to hear in the night’s silence. Isaac felt unusually alert. As he lay down in bed, he decided to keep the candle lit until he started to feel sleepy, because the thought of lying awake in the dark, listening to the gloomy, endless moaning of the wind in the woods was unbearable.
Sleep stole on him before he was aware of it. His eyes closed, and he fell off insensibly to rest without having so much as thought of extinguishing the candle.
Sleep crept up on him before he even realized it. His eyes shut, and he drifted off to rest without even thinking about blowing out the candle.
The first sensation of which he was conscious after sinking into slumber was a strange shivering that ran through him suddenly from head to foot, and a dreadful sinking pain at the heart, such as he had never felt before. The shivering only disturbed his slumbers; the pain woke him instantly. In one moment he passed from a state of sleep to a state of wakefulness—his eyes wide open—his mental perceptions cleared on a sudden as if by a miracle.
The first thing he felt after falling asleep was a strange shiver that suddenly ran through his body, and a terrible sinking pain in his chest, unlike anything he'd ever experienced before. The shivering only interrupted his sleep, while the pain jolted him awake. In an instant, he went from sleeping to fully awake—his eyes wide open—his mind sharp and clear as if touched by a miracle.
The candle had burned down nearly to the last morsel of tallow, but the top of the unsnuffed wick had just fallen off, and the light in the little room was, for the moment, fair and full.
The candle had burned down almost to the very end of the wax, but the tip of the untrimmed wick had just dropped off, and the light in the small room was, for the moment, bright and full.
Between the foot of the bed and the closed door there stood a woman with a knife in her hand, looking at him.
Between the foot of the bed and the closed door stood a woman holding a knife, staring at him.
He was stricken speechless with terror, but he did not lose the preternatural clearness of his faculties, and he never took his eyes off the woman. She said not a word as they stared each other in the face, but she began to move slowly toward the left-hand side of the bed.
He was frozen in fear, but he didn’t lose the unnatural sharpness of his mind, and he kept his eyes on the woman. She didn’t say anything as they faced each other, but she started to move slowly toward the left side of the bed.
His eyes followed her. She was a fair, fine woman, with yellowish flaxen hair and light-gray eyes, with a droop in the left eyelid. He noticed those things, and fixed them on his mind before she was round at the side of the bed. Speechless, with no expression in her face, with no noise following her footfall, she came closer and closer—stopped and slowly raised the knife. He laid his right arm over his throat to save it; but, as he saw the knife coming down, threw his hand across the bed to the right side, and jerked his body over that way just as the knife descended on the mattress within an inch of his shoulder.
His eyes followed her. She was a beautiful woman, with yellowish blonde hair and light gray eyes, with a droop in her left eyelid. He noticed those details and registered them in his mind before she reached the side of the bed. Silent, with no expression on her face and no sound with her footsteps, she got closer and closer—stopped, and slowly raised the knife. He laid his right arm across his throat to protect it; but as he saw the knife coming down, he threw his hand across the bed to the right side and jerked his body over that way just as the knife plunged into the mattress, barely an inch from his shoulder.
His eyes fixed on her arm and hand as she slowly drew her knife out of the bed; a white, well-shaped arm, with a pretty down lying lightly over the fair skin—a delicate lady's hand; with the crowning beauty of a pink flush under and round the finger nails.
His gaze was locked on her arm and hand as she carefully pulled her knife out from under the bed; a smooth, well-shaped arm, with a soft down lightly covering the fair skin—a delicate lady's hand; enhanced by a lovely pink hue beneath and around the fingernails.
She drew the knife out, and passed again slowly to the foot of the bed; stopped there for a moment looking at him; then came on—still speechless, still with no expression on the blank, beautiful face, still with no sound following the stealthy footfalls—came on to the right side of the bed where he now lay.
She pulled out the knife and walked slowly to the foot of the bed; paused there for a moment, staring at him; then moved on—still silent, still showing no expression on her beautiful, blank face, still with no sound accompanying her quiet footsteps—made her way to the right side of the bed where he was now lying.
As she approached, she raised the knife again, and he drew himself away to the left side. She struck, as before, right into the mattress, with a deliberate, perpendicularly downward action of the arm. This time his eyes wandered from her to the knife. It was like the large clasp-knives which he had often seen laboring men use to cut their bread and bacon with. Her delicate little fingers did not conceal more than two-thirds of the handle; he noticed that it was made of buckhorn, clean and shining the blade was, and looking like new.
As she got closer, she raised the knife again, and he shifted to the left. She struck, just like before, straight into the mattress, bringing her arm down with purpose. This time, his gaze moved from her to the knife. It resembled the big clasp knives he often saw laborers use to cut their bread and bacon. Her slender fingers barely covered two-thirds of the handle; he noticed it was made of smooth, shiny buckhorn, and the blade looked brand new.
For the second time she drew the knife out, concealed it in the wide sleeve of her gown, then stopped by the bedside, watching him. For an instant he saw her standing in that position, then the wick of the spent candle fell over into the socket, the flame diminished to a little blue point, and the room grew dark.
For the second time, she pulled out the knife, hid it in the wide sleeve of her dress, and then paused by the bedside, watching him. For a moment, he saw her standing there, then the wick of the burned-down candle tipped over into the socket, the flame shrank to a tiny blue point, and the room went dark.
A moment, or less, if possible, passed so, and then the wick flamed up, smokingly, for the last time. His eyes were still looking eagerly over the right-hand side of the bed when the final flash of light came, but they discerned nothing. The fair woman with the knife was gone.
A moment, or even less, if possible, passed like that, and then the wick flared up, smoking for the last time. His eyes were still intently gazing over the right side of the bed when the final burst of light appeared, but he saw nothing. The beautiful woman with the knife had vanished.
The conviction that he was alone again weakened the hold of the terror that had struck him dumb up to this time. The preternatural sharpness which the very intensity of his panic had mysteriously imparted to his faculties left them suddenly. His brain grew confused—his heart beat wildly—his ears opened for the first time since the appearance of the woman to a sense of the woful, ceaseless moaning of the wind among the trees. With the dreadful conviction of the reality of what he had seen still strong within him, he leaped out of bed, and screaming, "Murder! Wake up there! wake up!" dashed headlong through the darkness to the door.
The feeling of being alone again weakened the grip of the terror that had left him speechless until now. The unnatural clarity that the extreme intensity of his fear had oddly given to his senses suddenly vanished. His mind became muddled—his heart raced—his ears finally registered the sorrowful, nonstop moaning of the wind among the trees, for the first time since the woman had appeared. With the horrifying reality of what he had witnessed still very real in his mind, he jumped out of bed, screaming, "Murder! Wake up! Wake up!" and charged through the darkness toward the door.
It was fast locked, exactly as he had left it on going to bed.
It was securely locked, just like he had left it when he went to bed.
His cries on starting up had alarmed the house. He heard the terrified, confused exclamations of women; he saw the master of the house approaching along the passage with his burning rush-candle in one hand and his gun in the other.
His screams when he woke up had scared the whole house. He heard the frightened, confused shouts of the women; he saw the head of the house coming down the hallway with a lit candle in one hand and a gun in the other.
"What is it?" asked the landlord, breathlessly.
"What is it?" the landlord asked, breathless.
Isaac could only answer in a whisper. "A woman, with a knife in her hand," he gasped out. "In my room—a fair, yellow-haired woman; she jobbed at me with the knife twice over."
Isaac could only respond in a whisper. "A woman, with a knife in her hand," he gasped. "In my room—a pretty, blonde woman; she stabbed at me with the knife twice."
The landlord's pale cheeks grew paler. He looked at Isaac eagerly by the flickering light of his candle, and his face began to get red again; his voice altered, too, as well as his complexion.
The landlord's pale cheeks got even lighter. He looked at Isaac eagerly in the flickering candlelight, and his face started to flush red again; his voice changed, along with his complexion.
"She seems to have missed you twice," he said.
"She seems to have overlooked you twice," he said.
"I dodged the knife as it came down," Isaac went on, in the same scared whisper. "It struck the bed each time."
"I dodged the knife as it came down," Isaac continued in the same frightened whisper. "It hit the bed every time."
The landlord took his candle into the bedroom immediately. In less than a minute he came out again into the passage in a violent passion.
The landlord grabbed his candle and went into the bedroom right away. Less than a minute later, he stormed back into the hallway, very angry.
"The devil fly away with you and your woman with the knife! There isn't a mark in the bedclothes anywhere. What do you mean by coming into a man's place, and frightening his family out of their wits about a dream?"
"The devil take you and your woman with the knife! There isn't a single mark on the sheets anywhere. What do you mean by barging into a man's home and scaring his family half to death over a dream?"
"I'll leave your house," said Isaac, faintly. "Better out on the road, in rain and dark, on my road home, than back again in that room, after what I've seen in it. Lend me a light to get my clothes by, and tell me what I'm to pay."
"I'll leave your house," Isaac said softly. "It's better to be out on the road, in the rain and dark, on my way home, than to go back into that room after what I've seen in it. Please lend me a light to find my clothes and let me know how much I owe you."
"Pay!" cried the landlord, leading the way with his light sulkily into the bedroom. "You'll find your score on the slate when you go downstairs. I wouldn't have taken you in for all the money you've got about you if I'd known your dreaming, screeching ways beforehand. Look at the bed. Where's the cut of a knife in it? Look at the window—is the lock bursted? Look at the door (which I heard you fasten yourself)—is it broke in? A murdering woman with a knife in my house! You ought to be ashamed of yourself!"
"Pay up!" shouted the landlord, sulkily leading the way into the bedroom. "You'll see what you owe on the slate when you go downstairs. I wouldn’t have let you stay here for all the money you have if I had known about your crazy, screeching ways beforehand. Look at the bed. Is there a knife cut in it? Look at the window—did the lock break? Look at the door (which I heard you lock yourself)—is it broken in? A murdering woman with a knife in my house! You should be ashamed of yourself!"
Isaac answered not a word. He huddled on his clothes, and they went downstairs together.
Isaac didn't say anything. He bundled up in his clothes, and they went downstairs together.
"Nigh on twenty minutes past two!" said the landlord, as they passed a clock. "A nice time in the morning to frighten honest people out of their wits!"
"Nearing twenty minutes after two!" said the landlord, as they walked past a clock. "What a great time in the morning to scare honest people out of their minds!"
Isaac paid his bill, and the landlord let him out at the front door, asking, with a grin of contempt, as he undid the strong fastenings, whether "the murdering woman got in that way?"
Isaac paid his bill, and the landlord let him out the front door, smirking with disdain as he unlatched the heavy locks, asking if "the murdering woman came in that way?"
They parted without a word on either side. The rain had ceased, but the night was dark, and the wind bleaker than ever. Little did the darkness or the cold or the uncertainty about the way home matter to Isaac. If he had been turned out into the wilderness in a thunderstorm, it would have been a relief after what he had suffered in the bedroom of the inn.
They left without saying anything to each other. The rain had stopped, but the night was dark, and the wind was colder than ever. The darkness, the cold, or the uncertainty about the way home didn’t bother Isaac at all. If he had been thrown out into the wilderness during a thunderstorm, it would have felt like a relief compared to what he had endured in the inn's bedroom.
What was the fair woman with the knife? The creature of a dream, or that other creature from the unknown world called among men by the name of ghost? He could make nothing of the mystery—had made nothing of it, even when it was midday on Wednesday, and when he stood, at last, after many times missing his road, once more on the doorstep of home.
What was the beautiful woman with the knife? A figure from a dream, or that other being from the unknown world known to people as a ghost? He couldn't make sense of the mystery—he hadn’t figured it out, even when it was midday on Wednesday and he finally stood, after losing his way multiple times, back on the doorstep of home.
His mother came out eagerly to receive him. His face told her in a moment that something was wrong.
His mom came out excitedly to greet him. His face instantly revealed that something was off.
"I've lost the place; but that's my luck. I dreamed an ill dream last night, mother—or maybe I saw a ghost. Take it either way, it scared me out of my senses, and I am not my own man again yet."
"I've lost my spot; but that's just my luck. I had a bad dream last night, mom—or maybe I saw a ghost. Either way, it freaked me out, and I'm still not myself again."
"Isaac, your face frightens me. Come into the fire—come in, and tell mother all about it."
"Isaac, your face scares me. Come closer to the fire—come in and tell Mom all about it."
He was as anxious to tell as she was to hear: for it had been his hope, all the way home, that his mother, with her quicker capacity and superior knowledge, might be able to throw some light on the mystery which he could not clear up for himself. His memory of the dream was still mechanically vivid, though his thoughts were entirely confused by it.
He was just as eager to share as she was to listen: it had been his hope, all the way home, that his mother, with her quicker thinking and greater knowledge, might be able to shed some light on the mystery he couldn't figure out himself. His memory of the dream was still clearly vivid, even though his thoughts were completely tangled up by it.
His mother's face grew paler and paler as he went on. She never interrupted him by so much as a single word; but when he had done, she moved her chair close to his, put her arms around his neck, and said to him:
His mother's face became increasingly pale as he spoke. She didn’t interrupt him with a single word; but when he finished, she moved her chair closer to his, wrapped her arms around his neck, and said to him:
"Isaac, you dreamed your ill dream on this Wednesday morning. What time was it when you saw the fair woman with a knife in her hand?"
"Isaac, you had your troubling dream this Wednesday morning. What time was it when you saw the beautiful woman with a knife in her hand?"
Isaac reflected on what the landlord had said when they had passed by the clock on his leaving the inn; allowed as nearly as he could for the time that must have elapsed between the unlocking of his bedroom door and the paying of his bill just before going away, and answered:
Isaac thought about what the landlord had said when they walked by the clock as he was leaving the inn. He tried to estimate how much time had passed between unlocking his bedroom door and paying his bill right before he left, and then he replied:
"Somewhere about two o'clock in the morning."
"Somewhere around two in the morning."
His mother suddenly quitted her hold of his neck, and struck her hands together with a gesture of despair.
His mother suddenly released her grip on his neck and clapped her hands together in a gesture of despair.
"This Wednesday is your birthday, Isaac, and two o'clock in the morning was the time when you were born."
"This Wednesday is your birthday, Isaac, and you were born at two o'clock in the morning."
Isaac's capacities were not quick enough to catch the infection of his mother's superstitious dread. He was amazed, and a little startled also, when she suddenly rose from her chair, opened her old writing-desk, took pen, ink, and paper, and then said to him:
Isaac's abilities weren't sharp enough to pick up on his mother's superstitious fear. He was surprised, and a bit taken aback, when she suddenly got up from her chair, opened her old writing desk, grabbed a pen, ink, and paper, and then said to him:
"Your memory is but a poor one, Isaac, and now I'm an old woman mine's not much better. I want all about this dream of yours to be as well known to both of us, years hence, as it is now. Tell me over again all you told me a minute ago, when you spoke of what the woman with the knife looked like."
"Your memory isn't great, Isaac, and now that I'm old, mine isn't much better either. I want us to remember all the details of your dream in the years to come just like we do now. Tell me again everything you just told me a minute ago when you talked about what the woman with the knife looked like."
Isaac obeyed, and marveled much as he saw his mother carefully set down on paper the very words that he was saying.
Isaac listened and was amazed as he watched his mother carefully write down the exact words he was saying.
"Light-gray eyes," she wrote, as they came to the descriptive part, "with a droop in the left eyelid; flaxen hair, with a gold-yellow streak in it; white arms, with a down upon them; little lady's hand, with a reddish look about the finger nails; clasp-knife with a buckhorn handle, that seemed as good as new." To these particulars Mrs. Scatchard added the year, month, day of the week, and time in the morning when the woman of the dream appeared to her son. She then locked up the paper carefully in the writing-desk.
"Light gray eyes," she wrote as she got to the descriptive part, "with a droop in the left eyelid; light-colored hair with a gold-yellow streak in it; pale arms with a bit of fuzz on them; a small lady's hand with a reddish tint around the fingernails; and a pocket knife with a buckhorn handle that looked almost new." To these details, Mrs. Scatchard added the year, month, day of the week, and time in the morning when the woman from the dream showed up to her son. She then carefully locked the paper away in the writing desk.
Neither on that day nor on any day after could her son induce her to return to the matter of the dream. She obstinately kept her thoughts about it to herself, and even refused to refer again to the paper in her writing-desk. Ere long Isaac grew weary of attempting to make her break her resolute silence; and time, which sooner or later wears out all things, gradually wore out the impression produced on him by the dream. He began by thinking of it carelessly, and he ended by not thinking of it at all.
Neither on that day nor on any day after could her son get her to talk about the dream. She stubbornly kept her thoughts about it to herself and even refused to bring up the paper in her writing desk again. Before long, Isaac got tired of trying to make her break her determined silence; and time, which eventually dulls everything, gradually faded the impact the dream had on him. He started by thinking about it lightly, and he ended up not thinking about it at all.
The result was the more easily brought about by the advent of some important changes for the better in his prospects, which commenced not long after his terrible night's experience at the inn. He reaped at last the reward of his long and patient suffering under adversity by getting an excellent place, keeping it for seven years, and leaving it, on the death of his master, not only with an excellent character, but also with a comfortable annuity bequeathed to him as a reward for saving his mistress's life in a carriage accident. Thus it happened that Isaac Scatchard returned to his old mother, seven years after the time of the dream at the inn, with an annual sum of money at his disposal sufficient to keep them both in ease and independence for the rest of their lives.
The result came about more easily due to some significant positive changes in his situation, which started not long after his terrible night at the inn. He finally reaped the rewards of his long and patient suffering through adversity by securing a great job, which he held for seven years. He left it, after his employer's death, not only with an excellent reputation but also with a generous annuity left to him as thanks for saving his mistress's life in a carriage accident. So it happened that Isaac Scatchard returned to his elderly mother, seven years after the dream at the inn, with enough money each year to support both of them comfortably and independently for the rest of their lives.
The mother, whose health had been bad of late years, profited so much by the care bestowed on her and by freedom from money anxieties, that when Isaac's birthday came round she was able to sit up comfortably at table and dine with him.
The mother, whose health had been poor lately, benefited greatly from the care she received and the relief from financial worries, so when Isaac's birthday came around, she was able to sit up comfortably at the table and have dinner with him.
On that day, as the evening drew on, Mrs. Scatchard discovered that a bottle of tonic medicine which she was accustomed to take, and in which she had fancied that a dose or more was still left, happened to be empty. Isaac immediately volunteered to go to the chemist's and get it filled again. It was as rainy and bleak an autumn night as on the memorable past occasion when he lost his way and slept at the roadside inn.
On that day, as evening approached, Mrs. Scatchard found that a bottle of tonic medicine she usually took, which she thought still had a dose or two left, was actually empty. Isaac quickly offered to head to the pharmacy to have it refilled. It was a rainy and dreary autumn night, just like that memorable time he got lost and ended up sleeping at the roadside inn.
On going into the chemist's shop he was passed hurriedly by a poorly dressed woman coming out of it. The glimpse he had of her face struck him, and he looked back after her as she descended the door steps.
As he walked into the pharmacy, a poorly dressed woman hurried past him as she left. The brief glimpse he got of her face caught his attention, and he turned to watch her as she went down the steps.
"You're noticing that woman?" said the chemist's apprentice behind the counter. "It's my opinion there's something wrong with her. She's been asking for laudanum to put to a bad tooth. Master's out for half an hour, and I told her I wasn't allowed to sell poison to strangers in his absence. She laughed in a queer way, and said she would come back in half an hour. If she expects master to serve her, I think she'll be disappointed. It's a case of suicide, sir, if ever there was one yet."
"Are you noticing that woman?" said the chemist's apprentice behind the counter. "I think there's something off about her. She's been asking for laudanum for a bad tooth. The master is out for half an hour, and I told her I couldn't sell poison to strangers while he's away. She laughed in a strange way and said she'd come back in half an hour. If she thinks the master will help her, I bet she'll be disappointed. It's a suicide case, sir, if there ever was one."
These words added immeasurably to the sudden interest in the woman which Isaac had felt at the first sight of her face. After he had got the medicine-bottle filled, he looked about anxiously for her as soon as he was out in the street. She was walking slowly up and down on the opposite side of the road. With his heart, very much to his own surprise, beating fast, Isaac crossed over and spoke to her.
These words greatly increased the sudden interest Isaac had felt when he first saw her face. After he filled the medicine bottle, he anxiously looked for her as soon as he got outside. She was walking slowly back and forth on the other side of the street. To his own surprise, with his heart racing, Isaac crossed the street and spoke to her.
He asked if she was in any distress. She pointed to her torn shawl, her scanty dress, her crushed, dirty bonnet; then moved under a lamp so as to let the light fall on her stern, pale, but still most beautiful face.
He asked if she was in any trouble. She pointed to her ripped shawl, her thin dress, and her crushed, dirty bonnet; then she moved under a lamp to let the light shine on her serious, pale, but still very beautiful face.
"I look like a comfortable, happy woman, don't I?" she said, with a bitter laugh.
"I look like a relaxed, happy woman, don't I?" she said, with a bitter laugh.
She spoke with a purity of intonation which Isaac had never heard before from other lips than ladies' lips. Her slightest action seemed to have the easy, negligent grace of a thoroughbred woman. Her skin, for all its poverty-stricken paleness, was as delicate as if her life had been passed in the enjoyment of every social comfort that wealth can purchase. Even her small, finely shaped hands, gloveless as they were, had not lost their whiteness.
She spoke with a clarity of tone that Isaac had never heard from anyone other than women. Every little movement she made had the effortless, relaxed grace of a refined woman. Her skin, despite its poor, pale appearance, was as delicate as if she had spent her life enjoying every luxury that money can buy. Even her small, elegantly shaped hands, bare as they were, hadn’t lost their whiteness.
Little by little, in answer to his question, the sad story of the woman came out. There is no need to relate it here; it is told over and over again in police reports and paragraphs about attempted suicides.
Little by little, in response to his question, the sad story of the woman unfolded. There’s no need to recount it here; it’s repeated time and again in police reports and articles about attempted suicides.
"My name is Rebecca Murdoch," said the woman, as she ended. "I have ninepence left, and I thought of spending it at the chemist's over the way in securing a passage to the other world. Whatever it is, it can't be worse to me than this, so why should I stop here?"
"My name is Rebecca Murdoch," said the woman as she finished speaking. "I have nine pence left, and I thought about spending it at the pharmacy across the street to secure a passage to the afterlife. Whatever it is, it can’t be worse than this, so why should I stay here?"
Besides the natural compassion and sadness moved in his heart by what he heard, Isaac felt within him some mysterious influence at work all the time the woman was speaking which utterly confused his ideas and almost deprived him of his powers of speech. All that he could say in answer to her last reckless words was that he would prevent her from attempting her own life, if he followed her about all night to do it. His rough, trembling earnestness seemed to impress her.
Besides the natural compassion and sadness stirred in his heart by what he heard, Isaac felt some mysterious force at work the entire time the woman was speaking, which completely confused his thoughts and almost took away his ability to speak. All he could say in response to her last reckless words was that he would stop her from trying to take her own life, even if it meant following her around all night to do it. His rough, trembling sincerity seemed to touch her.
"I won't occasion you that trouble," she answered, when he repeated his threat. "You have given me a fancy for living by speaking kindly to me. No need for the mockery of protestations and promises. You may believe me without them. Come to Fuller's Meadow to-morrow at twelve, and you will find me alive, to answer for myself— No!—no money. My ninepence will do to get me as good a night's lodging as I want."
"I won't put you to that trouble," she replied when he repeated his threat. "You've gotten me to enjoy living by treating me nicely. There's no need for fake protests and promises. You can trust me without them. Come to Fuller's Meadow tomorrow at twelve, and you'll find me alive, ready to explain myself— No!—no money. My ninepence is enough to get me a decent night's lodging."
She nodded and left him. He made no attempt to follow—he felt no suspicion that she was deceiving him.
She nodded and walked away. He didn't try to follow her—he didn't suspect that she was lying to him.
"It's strange, but I can't help believing her," he said to himself, and walked away, bewildered, toward home.
"It's weird, but I can't stop believing her," he said to himself, and walked away, confused, toward home.
On entering the house his mind was still so completely absorbed by its new subject of interest that he took no notice of what his mother was doing when he came in with the bottle of medicine. She had opened her old writing-desk in his absence, and was now reading a paper attentively that lay inside it. On every birthday of Isaac's since she had written down the particulars of his dream from his own lips, she had been accustomed to read that same paper, and ponder over it in private.
As he entered the house, his mind was so focused on the new thing that had caught his interest that he didn’t notice what his mom was doing when he came in with the bottle of medicine. She had opened her old writing desk while he was gone and was now reading a paper inside it with great attention. Every birthday since Isaac’s birth, she had written down the details of his dream from his own words, and she had made it a habit to read that same paper and reflect on it in private.
The next day he went to Fuller's Meadow.
The next day, he went to Fuller's Meadow.
He had done only right in believing her so implicitly. She was there, punctual to a minute, to answer for herself. The last-left faint defenses in Isaac's heart against the fascination which a word or look from her began inscrutably to exercise over him sank down and vanished before her forever on that memorable morning.
He was completely right to trust her so completely. She was there, right on time, to speak for herself. The last remnants of Isaac's defenses against the spell that a word or glance from her had begun to cast over him faded away and disappeared forever that unforgettable morning.
When a man previously insensible to the influence of woman forms an attachment in middle life, the instances are rare indeed, let the warning circumstances be what they may, in which he is found capable of freeing himself from the tyranny of the new ruling passion. The charm of being spoken to familiarly, fondly, and gratefully by a woman whose language and manners still retained enough of their early refinement to hint at the high social station that she had lost, would have been a dangerous luxury to a man of Isaac's rank at the age of twenty. But it was far more than that—it was certain ruin to him—now that his heart was opening unworthily to a new influence at that middle time of life when strong feelings of all kinds, once implanted, strike root most stubbornly in a man's moral nature. A few more stolen interviews after that first morning in Fuller's Meadow completed his infatuation. In less than a month from the time when he first met her, Isaac Scatchard had consented to give Rebecca Murdoch a new interest in existence and a chance of recovering the character she had lost by promising to make her his wife.
When a man who has never been affected by women suddenly develops feelings in middle age, it's very rare that he can escape the grip of this new obsession, no matter what the circumstances are. The pleasure of being addressed casually, affectionately, and gratefully by a woman whose words and demeanor still show hints of the higher social status she once had would have been a dangerous temptation for a man of Isaac's standing at the age of twenty. But it was far more than that—it was total disaster for him—now that his heart was unreasonably opening up to a new influence during that middle age when intense feelings, once rooted, cling most tenaciously to a man’s moral character. A few more secret meetings after that first morning in Fuller's Meadow sealed his infatuation. In less than a month from when he first met her, Isaac Scatchard had agreed to give Rebecca Murdoch a renewed purpose in life and a chance to regain the reputation she had lost by promising to make her his wife.
She had taken possession, not of his passions only, but of his faculties as well. All the mind he had he put into her keeping. She directed him on every point—even instructing him how to break the news of his approaching marriage in the safest manner to his mother.
She had taken control, not just of his feelings, but of his abilities too. All the mental energy he had, he entrusted to her. She guided him on everything—even telling him the best way to tell his mom about his upcoming marriage.
"If you tell her how you met me and who I am at first," said the cunning woman, "she will move heaven and earth to prevent our marriage. Say I am the sister of one of your fellow-servants—ask her to see me before you go into any more particulars—and leave it to me to do the rest. I mean to make her love me next best to you, Isaac, before she knows anything of who I really am."
"If you tell her how you met me and who I am at first," said the clever woman, "she will do everything she can to stop our marriage. Say I'm the sister of one of your coworkers—ask her to meet me before you get into any more details—and leave the rest to me. I plan to make her care about me almost as much as you, Isaac, before she finds out who I really am."
The motive of the deceit was sufficient to sanctify it to Isaac. The stratagem proposed relieved him of his one great anxiety, and quieted his uneasy conscience on the subject of his mother. Still, there was something wanting to perfect his happiness, something that he could not realize, something mysteriously untraceable, and yet something that perpetually made itself felt; not when he was absent from Rebecca Murdoch, but, strange to say, when he was actually in her presence! She was kindness itself with him. She never made him feel his inferior capacities and inferior manners. She showed the sweetest anxiety to please him in the smallest trifles; but, in spite of all these attractions, he never could feel quite at his ease with her. At their first meeting there had mingled with his admiration, when he looked in her face, a faint, involuntary feeling of doubt whether that face was entirely strange to him. No after-familiarity had the slightest effect on this inexplicable, wearisome uncertainty.
The motive behind the deception was enough to reassure Isaac. The plan suggested took away his biggest worry and eased his guilty conscience about his mother. Still, there was something missing to complete his happiness, something he couldn't quite identify, something oddly elusive, yet always made its presence known; not when he was away from Rebecca Murdoch, but oddly enough, when he was right there with her! She was incredibly kind to him. She never made him feel inferior because of his abilities or manners. She showed a genuine concern to please him in even the smallest details; however, despite all these attractions, he could never fully relax around her. During their first meeting, mixed with his admiration as he looked at her, was a faint, involuntary feeling of doubt about whether her face was completely unfamiliar to him. No amount of familiarity afterward had any effect on this baffling, exhausting uncertainty.
Concealing the truth as he had been directed, he announced his marriage engagement precipitately and confusedly to his mother on the day when he contracted it. Poor Mrs. Scatchard showed her perfect confidence in her son by flinging her arms round his neck, and giving him joy of having found at last, in the sister of one of his fellow-servants, a woman to comfort and care for him after his mother was gone. She was all eagerness to see the woman of her son's choice, and the next day was fixed for the introduction.
Concealing the truth as he had been told to, he hurriedly and awkwardly announced his engagement to his mother on the day he got engaged. Poor Mrs. Scatchard displayed her complete trust in her son by wrapping her arms around him and congratulating him for finally finding a woman who would love and take care of him after she was gone, the sister of one of his fellow workers. She was eager to meet her son's choice, and they set the next day for the introduction.
It was a bright sunny morning, and the little cottage parlor was full of light as Mrs. Scatchard, happy and expectant, dressed for the occasion in her Sunday gown, sat waiting for her son and her future daughter-in-law.
It was a bright sunny morning, and the little cottage parlor was filled with light as Mrs. Scatchard, happy and excited, dressed for the occasion in her Sunday dress, sat waiting for her son and his future wife.
Punctual to the appointed time, Isaac hurriedly and nervously led his promised wife into the room. His mother rose to receive her—advanced a few steps smiling—looked Rebecca full in the eyes, and suddenly stopped. Her face, which had been flushed the moment before, turned white in an instant; her eyes lost their expression of softness and kindness, and assumed a blank look of terror; her outstretched hands fell to her sides, and she staggered back a few steps with a low cry to her son.
On time, Isaac quickly and nervously brought his fiancé into the room. His mother stood up to greet her—took a few steps forward smiling—looked Rebecca straight in the eyes, and suddenly froze. Her face, which had been flushed just moments before, turned pale in an instant; her eyes lost their gentle and kind expression and took on a blank look of fear; her outstretched hands dropped to her sides, and she stumbled back a few steps with a soft cry to her son.
"Isaac," she whispered, clutching him fast by the arm when he asked alarmedly if she was taken ill, "Isaac, does that woman's face remind you of nothing?"
"Isaac," she whispered, holding onto his arm tightly when he anxiously asked if she was feeling unwell, "Isaac, doesn’t that woman's face remind you of anything?"
Before he could answer—before he could look round to where Rebecca stood, astonished and angered by her reception, at the lower end of the room—his mother pointed impatiently to her writing-desk, and gave him the key.
Before he could respond—before he could glance over to where Rebecca stood, shocked and upset by her welcome, at the far end of the room—his mother gestured impatiently toward her writing desk and handed him the key.
"Open it," she said, in a quick, breathless whisper.
"Open it," she said, in a hurried, breathless whisper.
"What does this mean? Why am I treated as if I had no business here? Does your mother want to insult me?" asked Rebecca, angrily.
"What does this mean? Why am I treated like I don’t belong here? Does your mom want to insult me?" asked Rebecca, angrily.
"Open it, and give me the paper in the left-hand drawer. Quick! quick, for Heaven's sake!" said Mrs. Scatchard, shrinking further back in terror.
"Open it, and hand me the paper from the left drawer. Hurry! Hurry, for the love of God!" said Mrs. Scatchard, shrinking back in fear.
Isaac gave her the paper. She looked it over eagerly for a moment, then followed Rebecca, who was now turning away haughtily to leave the room, and caught her by the shoulder—abruptly raised the long, loose sleeve of her gown, and glanced at her hand and arm. Something like fear began to steal over the angry expression of Rebecca's face as she shook herself free from the old woman's grasp. "Mad!" she said to herself, "and Isaac never told me." With these few words she left the room.
Isaac handed her the paper. She quickly scanned it, then turned to follow Rebecca, who was now turning away with an air of superiority to leave the room. She grabbed Rebecca by the shoulder, abruptly lifted the long, loose sleeve of her gown, and looked at her hand and arm. A hint of fear started to replace the angry look on Rebecca's face as she pulled away from the older woman's hold. "Mad!" she thought to herself, "and Isaac never mentioned it." With those few words, she exited the room.
Isaac was hastening after her when his mother turned and stopped his further progress. It wrung his heart to see the misery and terror in her face as she looked at him.
Isaac was rushing after her when his mother turned and halted him. It broke his heart to see the pain and fear in her face as she looked at him.
"Light-gray eyes," she said, in low, mournful, awe-struck tones, pointing toward the open door; "a droop in the left eyelid; flaxen hair, with a gold-yellow streak in it; white arms, with a down upon them; little lady's hand, with a reddish look under the finger nails—The Dream-Woman, Isaac, the Dream-Woman!"
"Light gray eyes," she said in a low, mournful, awestruck voice, pointing toward the open door; "a droop in the left eyelid; flaxen hair with a golden yellow streak in it; white arms with a fine down on them; a little lady's hand with a reddish tint under the fingernails—The Dream Woman, Isaac, the Dream Woman!"
That faint cleaving doubt which he had never been able to shake off in Rebecca Murdoch's presence was fatally set at rest forever. He had seen her face, then, before—seven years before, on his birthday, in the bedroom of the lonely inn.
That lingering doubt he could never quite get rid of in Rebecca Murdoch's presence was finally put to rest for good. He had seen her face before—seven years ago, on his birthday, in the bedroom of that lonely inn.
"Be warned! oh, my son, be warned! Isaac, Isaac, let her go, and do you stop with me!"
"Listen up! Oh, my son, listen up! Isaac, Isaac, let her go, and you stay here with me!"
Something darkened the parlor window as those words were said. A sudden chill ran through him, and he glanced sidelong at the shadow. Rebecca Murdoch had come back. She was peering in curiously at them over the low window-blind.
Something blocked the light from the parlor window as those words were spoken. A sudden chill ran through him, and he glanced sideways at the shadow. Rebecca Murdoch had returned. She was curiously looking in at them over the low window blind.
"I have promised to marry, mother," he said, "and marry I must."
"I promised to get married, Mom," he said, "and I have to go through with it."
The tears came into his eyes as he spoke and dimmed his sight, but he could just discern the fatal face outside moving away again from the window.
Tears filled his eyes as he spoke, blurring his vision, but he could barely make out the ominous figure outside moving away from the window again.
His mother's head sank lower.
His mom's head sank lower.
"Are you faint?" he whispered.
"Are you feeling faint?" he whispered.
"Broken-hearted, Isaac."
"Heartbroken, Isaac."
He stooped down and kissed her. The shadow, as he did so, returned to the window, and the fatal face peered in curiously once more.
He leaned down and kissed her. As he did this, the shadow went back to the window, and the ominous face peeked in curiously once again.
Three weeks after that day Isaac and Rebecca were man and wife. All that was hopelessly dogged and stubborn in the man's moral nature seemed to have closed round his fatal passion, and to have fixed it unassailably in his heart.
Three weeks after that day, Isaac and Rebecca were husband and wife. Everything that was relentlessly determined and stubborn in the man's moral character seemed to have wrapped around his doomed passion, locking it securely in his heart.
After that first interview in the cottage parlor no consideration would induce Mrs. Scatchard to see her son's wife again, or even to talk of her when Isaac tried hard to plead her cause after their marriage.
After that first interview in the cottage parlor, no amount of persuasion would make Mrs. Scatchard see her son's wife again, or even discuss her when Isaac tried desperately to support her after their marriage.
This course of conduct was not in any degree occasioned by a discovery of the degradation in which Rebecca had lived. There was no question of that between mother and son. There was no question of anything but the fearfully exact resemblance between the living, breathing woman and the spectre-woman of Isaac's dream.
This behavior wasn't caused at all by the realization of the misery Rebecca had endured. There was no doubt about that between mother and son. The only issue was the shocking resemblance between the real, living woman and the ghostly figure Isaac had seen in his dream.
Rebecca, on her side, neither felt nor expressed the slightest sorrow at the estrangement between herself and her mother-in-law. Isaac, for the sake of peace, had never contradicted her first idea that age and long illness had affected Mrs. Scatchard's mind. He even allowed his wife to upbraid him for not having confessed this to her at the time of their marriage engagement rather than risk anything by hinting at the truth. The sacrifice of his integrity before his one all-mastering delusion seemed but a small thing, and cost his conscience but little after the sacrifices he had already made.
Rebecca, on her part, didn’t feel or show any sadness about the distance between her and her mother-in-law. Isaac, wanting to keep the peace, never challenged her initial belief that age and long illness had affected Mrs. Scatchard’s mind. He even let his wife blame him for not admitting this to her during their engagement instead of risking anything by suggesting the truth. Sacrificing his integrity for his one overwhelming illusion felt like a minor issue, and it weighed little on his conscience after the sacrifices he had already made.
The time of waking from this delusion—the cruel and the rueful time—was not far off. After some quiet months of married life, as the summer was ending, and the year was getting on toward the month of his birthday, Isaac found his wife altering toward him. She grew sullen and contemptuous; she formed acquaintances of the most dangerous kind in defiance of his objections, his entreaties, and his commands; and, worst of all, she learned, erelong, after every fresh difference with her husband, to seek the deadly self-oblivion of drink. Little by little, after the first miserable discovery that his wife was keeping company with drunkards, the shocking certainty forced itself on Isaac that she had grown to be a drunkard herself.
The time for waking up from this illusion—the painful and regrettable time—was approaching. After several quiet months of married life, as summer was winding down and the year was leading up to his birthday, Isaac noticed his wife changing toward him. She became gloomy and arrogant; she started making friends with dangerous people despite his protests, pleas, and commands; and, worst of all, she soon learned to find the numbing escape of alcohol after every new argument with her husband. Bit by bit, after the initial heartbreaking realization that his wife was associating with heavy drinkers, the harsh truth hit Isaac that she had become a drunkard herself.
He had been in a sadly desponding state for some time before the occurrence of these domestic calamities. His mother's health, as he could but too plainly discern every time he went to see her at the cottage, was failing fast, and he upbraided himself in secret as the cause of the bodily and mental suffering she endured. When to his remorse on his mother's account was added the shame and misery occasioned by the discovery of his wife's degradation, he sank under the double trial—his face began to alter fast, and he looked what he was, a spirit-broken man.
He had been feeling deeply depressed for a while before these family disasters happened. Every time he visited his mother at the cottage, he could clearly see that her health was declining quickly, and he secretly blamed himself for the physical and emotional pain she was going through. When his guilt about his mother was compounded by the shame and anguish from learning about his wife's downfall, he couldn't handle the overwhelming burden—his appearance changed rapidly, and he became what he truly was, a crushed man.
His mother, still struggling bravely against the illness that was hurrying her to the grave, was the first to notice the sad alteration in him, and the first to hear of his last worst trouble with his wife. She could only weep bitterly on the day when he made his humiliating confession, but on the next occasion when he went to see her she had taken a resolution in reference to his domestic afflictions which astonished and even alarmed him. He found her dressed to go out, and on asking the reason received this answer:
His mother, still fighting bravely against the illness that was leading her to the grave, was the first to notice the sad change in him and the first to hear about his latest troubles with his wife. She could only cry bitterly the day he made his humiliating confession, but the next time he visited her, she had made a decision regarding his home struggles that surprised and even worried him. He found her ready to go out, and when he asked why, she gave him this answer:
"I am not long for this world, Isaac," she said, "and I shall not feel easy on my death-bed unless I have done my best to the last to make my son happy. I mean to put my own fears and my own feelings out of the question, and to go with you to your wife, and try what I can do to reclaim her. Give me your arm, Isaac, and let me do the last thing I can in this world to help my son before it is too late."
"I don't have much time left, Isaac," she said, "and I won't be at peace on my deathbed unless I've done everything I can to make my son happy. I plan to set aside my own fears and feelings, and to go with you to your wife to see if I can help her change her mind. Give me your arm, Isaac, and let me do this last thing for my son before it’s too late."
He could not disobey her, and they walked together slowly toward his miserable home.
He couldn't refuse her, and they walked slowly together toward his sad home.
It was only one o'clock in the afternoon when they reached the cottage where he lived. It was their dinner-hour, and Rebecca was in the kitchen. He was thus able to take his mother quietly into the parlor, and then prepare his wife for the interview. She had fortunately drunk but little at that early hour, and she was less sullen and capricious than usual.
It was only one o'clock in the afternoon when they arrived at the cottage where he lived. It was time for dinner, and Rebecca was in the kitchen. This allowed him to take his mother quietly into the living room and then get his wife ready for the meeting. Luckily, she had only had a little to drink at that early hour, so she was less moody and unpredictable than usual.
He returned to his mother with his mind tolerably at ease. His wife soon followed him into the parlor, and the meeting between her and Mrs. Scatchard passed off better than he had ventured to anticipate, though he observed with secret apprehension that his mother, resolutely as she controlled herself in other respects, could not look his wife in the face when she spoke to her. It was a relief to him, therefore, when Rebecca began to lay the cloth.
He went back to his mom feeling fairly calm. His wife soon joined him in the living room, and the encounter between her and Mrs. Scatchard went smoother than he had expected, although he noticed with hidden worry that his mother, for all her efforts to stay composed, couldn't meet his wife's eyes when she talked to her. So, it was a relief for him when Rebecca started to set the table.
She laid the cloth, brought in the bread-tray, and cut a slice from the loaf for her husband, then returned to the kitchen. At that moment, Isaac, still anxiously watching his mother, was startled by seeing the same ghastly change pass over her face which had altered it so awfully on the morning when Rebecca and she first met. Before he could say a word, she whispered, with a look of horror:
She set the table, brought in the bread, and cut a slice from the loaf for her husband, then went back to the kitchen. At that moment, Isaac, still nervously watching his mother, was shocked to see the same terrifying transformation cross her face that had changed it so dramatically on the morning when Rebecca and she first met. Before he could say anything, she whispered, with a look of dread:
"Take me back—home, home again, Isaac. Come with me, and never go back again."
"Take me back—home, back home again, Isaac. Come with me and let’s never go back again."
He was afraid to ask for an explanation; he could only sign to her to be silent, and help her quickly to the door. As they passed the bread-tray on the table she stopped and pointed to it.
He was hesitant to ask for an explanation; he could only gesture for her to be quiet and quickly help her to the door. As they passed the bread tray on the table, she paused and pointed at it.
"Did you see what your wife cut your bread with?" she asked, in a low whisper.
"Did you see what your wife used to cut your bread?" she asked quietly.
"No, mother—I was not noticing—what was it?"
"No, Mom—I wasn’t paying attention—what was it?"
"Look!"
"Check it out!"
He did look. A new clasp-knife, with a buckhorn handle, lay with the loaf in the bread-tray. He stretched out his hand shudderingly to possess himself of it; but, at the same time, there was a noise in the kitchen, and his mother caught at his arm.
He did look. A new pocket knife, with a buckhorn handle, lay with the loaf in the bread tray. He reached out his hand nervously to grab it; but at the same time, there was a noise in the kitchen, and his mother grabbed his arm.
"The knife of the dream! Isaac, I'm faint with fear. Take me away before she comes back."
"The knife of the dream! Isaac, I'm weak with fear. Take me away before she returns."
He was hardly able to support her. The visible, tangible reality of the knife struck him with a panic, and utterly destroyed any faint doubts that he might have entertained up to this time in relation to the mysterious dream-warning of nearly eight years before. By a last desperate effort, he summoned self-possession enough to help his mother out of the house—so quietly that the "Dream-Woman" (he thought of her by that name now) did not hear them departing from the kitchen.
He could barely support her. The sight of the knife hit him with panic and completely erased any lingering doubts he might have had about the mysterious dream warning from nearly eight years ago. With one last desperate effort, he managed to pull himself together enough to help his mom out of the house—so quietly that the "Dream-Woman" (that’s what he called her now) didn’t hear them leaving the kitchen.
"Don't go back, Isaac—don't go back!" implored Mrs. Scatchard, as he turned to go away, after seeing her safely seated again in her own room.
"Don't go back, Isaac—don't go back!" Mrs. Scatchard pleaded, as he turned to leave after making sure she was safely settled in her own room.
"I must get the knife," he answered, under his breath. His mother tried to stop him again, but he hurried out without another word.
"I need to get the knife," he replied quietly. His mother tried to stop him once more, but he rushed out without saying anything else.
On his return he found that his wife had discovered their secret departure from the house. She had been drinking, and was in a fury of passion. The dinner in the kitchen was flung under the grate; the cloth was off the parlor table. Where was the knife?
On his return, he found that his wife had discovered their secret departure from the house. She had been drinking and was in a fit of anger. The dinner in the kitchen was thrown under the grate; the tablecloth was off the parlor table. Where was the knife?
Unwisely, he asked for it. She was only too glad of the opportunity of irritating him which the request afforded her. He wanted the knife, did he? Could he give her a reason why? No! Then he should not have it—not if he went down on his knees to ask for it. Further recrimination elicited the fact that she had bought it a bargain, and that she considered it her own especial property. Isaac saw the uselessness of attempting to get the knife by fair means, and determined to search for it, later in the day, in secret. The search was unsuccessful. Night came on, and he left the house to walk about the streets. He was afraid now to sleep in the same room with her.
Unwisely, he asked for it. She was more than happy to annoy him with the request. He wanted the knife, huh? Could he give her a reason why? No! Then he shouldn’t expect to have it—not even if he knelt down to beg for it. Further argument revealed that she had bought it on sale and considered it her special property. Isaac realized trying to get the knife through fair means was pointless, so he decided to search for it later in the day, secretly. The search didn’t work out. Night fell, and he left the house to walk the streets. He was now too afraid to sleep in the same room with her.
Three weeks passed. Still sullenly enraged with him, she would not give up the knife; and still that fear of sleeping in the same room with her possessed him. He walked about at night, or dozed in the parlor, or sat watching by his mother's bedside. Before the expiration of the first week in the new month his mother died. It wanted then but ten days of her son's birthday. She had longed to live till that anniversary. Isaac was present at her death, and her last words in this world were addressed to him:
Three weeks went by. Still angrily upset with him, she wouldn’t give up the knife; and that fear of sleeping in the same room with her still haunted him. He wandered around at night, napped in the parlor, or kept vigil by his mother's bedside. Before the first week of the new month was over, his mother passed away. It was only ten days before her son's birthday. She had hoped to live until that anniversary. Isaac was there when she died, and her last words in this world were directed at him:
"Don't go back, my son, don't go back!"
"Don't go back, my son, don't go back!"
He was obliged to go back, if it were only to watch his wife. Exasperated to the last degree by his distrust of her, she had revengefully sought to add a sting to his grief, during the last days of his mother's illness, by declaring that she would assert her right to attend the funeral. In spite of all that he could do or say, she held with wicked pertinacity to her word, and on the day appointed for the burial forced herself—inflamed and shameless with drink—into her husband's presence, and declared that she would walk in the funeral procession to his mother's grave.
He had to go back, even if it was just to keep an eye on his wife. Completely frustrated by his lack of trust in her, she spitefully tried to add to his pain during the last days of his mother's illness by insisting that she would claim her right to attend the funeral. No matter what he said or did, she stubbornly stuck to her word, and on the day of the burial, she forced her way—drunk and shameless—into her husband’s presence and announced that she would walk in the funeral procession to his mother's grave.
This last worst outrage, accompanied by all that was most insulting in word and look, maddened him for the moment. He struck her.
This final, terrible insult, combined with everything that was most disrespectful in words and expressions, drove him to madness for a moment. He hit her.
The instant the blow was dealt he repented it. She crouched down, silent, in a corner of the room, and eyed him steadily; it was a look that cooled his hot blood and made him tremble. But there was no time now to think of a means of making atonement. Nothing remained but to risk the worst till the funeral was over. There was but one way of making sure of her. He locked her in her bedroom.
The moment he struck her, he regretted it. She crouched silently in a corner of the room, watching him closely; her gaze chilled his anger and made him shake. But there was no time to figure out how to make things right. All he could do now was wait for the worst until the funeral was over. There was only one way to keep her secure. He locked her in her bedroom.
When he came back some hours after, he found her sitting, very much altered in look and bearing, by the bedside, with a bundle on her lap. She rose and faced him quietly, and spoke with a strange stillness in her voice, a strange repose in her eyes, a strange composure in her manner.
When he returned a few hours later, he found her sitting by the bedside, looking very different in appearance and demeanor, with a bundle in her lap. She stood up and faced him calmly, speaking with an unusual stillness in her voice, an unusual calmness in her eyes, and an unusual composure in her manner.
"No man has ever struck me twice," she said, "and my husband shall have no second opportunity. Set the door open and let me go. From this day forth we see each other no more."
"No man has ever hit me twice," she said, "and my husband won't get a second chance. Open the door and let me leave. From this day on, we won't see each other again."
Before he could answer she passed him and left the room. He saw her walk away up the street.
Before he could respond, she walked past him and left the room. He watched her walk away up the street.
Would she return?
Would she come back?
All that night he watched and waited, but no footstep came near the house. The next night, overpowered by fatigue, he lay down in bed in his clothes, with the door locked, the key on the table, and the candle burning. His slumber was not disturbed. The third night, the fourth, the fifth, the sixth passed, and nothing happened. He lay down on the seventh, still in his clothes, still with the door locked, the key on the table, and the candle burning, but easier in his mind.
All night he watched and waited, but no one came near the house. The next night, exhausted, he collapsed into bed in his clothes, with the door locked, the key on the table, and the candle lit. He slept peacefully. The third, fourth, fifth, and sixth nights went by without incident. On the seventh night, he lay down again, still in his clothes, still with the door locked, the key on the table, and the candle burning, but feeling more at ease.
Easier in his mind, and in perfect health of body when he fell off to sleep. But his rest was disturbed. He woke twice without any sensation of uneasiness. But the third time it was that never-to-be-forgotten shivering of the night at the lonely inn, that dreadful sinking pain at the heart, which once more aroused him in an instant.
Easier in his mind and in perfect health when he fell asleep. But his rest was interrupted. He woke up twice without feeling uneasy. But the third time, it was that unforgettable chill of the night at the lonely inn, that terrible sinking pain in his heart, which jolted him awake instantly.
His eyes opened toward the left-hand side of the bed, and there stood—
His eyes opened to the left side of the bed, and there stood—
The Dream-Woman again? No! his wife; the living reality, with the dream-spectre's face, in the dream-spectre's attitude; the fair arm up, the knife clasped in the delicate white hand.
The Dream-Woman again? No! His wife; the living reality, with the dream-spectre's face, in the dream-spectre's posture; the fair arm raised, the knife held tightly in her delicate white hand.
He sprang upon her almost at the instant of seeing her, and yet not quickly enough to prevent her from hiding the knife. Without a word from him—without a cry from her—he pinioned her in a chair. With one hand he felt up her sleeve, and there, where the Dream-Woman had hidden the knife, his wife had hidden it—the knife with the buckhorn handle, that looked like new.
He jumped at her the moment he saw her, but not fast enough to stop her from hiding the knife. Without a word from him—without a sound from her—he pinned her in a chair. With one hand, he searched up her sleeve, and there, where the Dream-Woman had concealed the knife, his wife had hidden it—the knife with the buckhorn handle that looked brand new.
In the despair of that fearful moment his brain was steady, his heart was calm. He looked at her fixedly with the knife in his hand, and said these last words:
In the despair of that scary moment, his mind was clear, his heart was steady. He stared at her intently with the knife in his hand and said these final words:
"You have told me we should see each other no more, and you have come back. It is now my turn to go, and to go forever. I say that we shall see each other no more, and my word shall not be broken."
"You've told me we shouldn't see each other anymore, and now you've returned. It's my turn to leave, and this time for good. I'm saying that we won't see each other again, and I mean it."
He left her, and set forth into the night. There was a bleak wind abroad, and the smell of recent rain was in the air. The distant church-clocks chimed the quarter as he walked rapidly beyond the last houses in the suburb. He asked the first policeman he met what hour that was of which the quarter past had just struck.
He left her and stepped out into the night. There was a cold wind blowing, and the smell of fresh rain was in the air. The distant church bells chimed the quarter hour as he quickly passed the last houses in the suburb. He asked the first policeman he encountered what time it was now that the quarter past had just rung.
The man referred sleepily to his watch, and answered, "Two o'clock." Two in the morning. What day of the month was this day that had just begun? He reckoned it up from the date of his mother's funeral. The fatal parallel was complete: it was his birthday!
The man glanced tiredly at his watch and replied, "Two o'clock." Two in the morning. What day of the month was this new day? He calculated it from the date of his mother's funeral. The unfortunate coincidence was unavoidable: it was his birthday!
Had he escaped the mortal peril which his dream foretold? or had he only received a second warning?
Had he escaped the life-threatening danger his dream predicted? Or had he just received another warning?
As that ominous doubt forced itself on his mind, he stopped, reflected, and turned back again toward the city. He was still resolute to hold to his word, and never to let her see him more; but there was a thought now in his mind of having her watched and followed. The knife was in his possession; the world was before him; but a new distrust of her—a vague, unspeakable, superstitious dread—had come over him.
As that unsettling doubt creeped into his mind, he paused, thought it over, and turned back toward the city. He was still determined to keep his promise and never let her see him again; however, the idea of having her watched and followed had entered his mind. The knife was in his possession; the world lay ahead of him; but a new sense of distrust toward her—a vague, indescribable, superstitious fear—had taken hold of him.
"I must know where she goes, now she thinks I have left her," he said to himself, as he stole back wearily to the precincts of his house.
"I need to know where she goes now that she thinks I've left her," he said to himself as he tiredly made his way back to his home.
It was still dark. He had left the candle burning in the bed-chamber; but when he looked up to the window of the room now, there was no light in it. He crept cautiously to the house door. On going away, he remembered to have closed it; on trying it now, he found it open.
It was still dark. He had left the candle burning in the bedroom, but when he looked up at the window of the room now, there was no light in it. He crept cautiously to the front door. As he left, he remembered closing it; now, when he tried it, he found it open.
He waited outside, never losing sight of the house, till daylight. Then he ventured indoors—listened, and heard nothing—looked into kitchen, scullery, parlor, and found nothing; went up, at last, into the bedroom—it was empty. A picklock lay on the floor, betraying how she had gained entrance in the night, and that was the only trace of her.
He waited outside, keeping his eyes on the house until morning. Then he went inside—listened, and heard nothing—looked into the kitchen, utility room, and living room, and found nothing; finally went upstairs to the bedroom—it was empty. A picklock lay on the floor, revealing how she had entered during the night, and that was the only sign of her.
Whither had she gone? That no mortal tongue could tell him. The darkness had covered her flight; and when the day broke no man could say where the light found her.
Where had she gone? No human could tell him. The darkness had concealed her escape, and when day arrived, no one could say where the light discovered her.
Before leaving the house and the town forever, he gave instructions to a friend and neighbor to sell his furniture for anything that it would fetch, and apply the proceeds to employing the police to trace her. The directions were honestly followed, and the money was all spent, but the inquiries led to nothing. The picklock on the bedroom floor remained the one last useless trace of the Dream-Woman.
Before leaving the house and the town for good, he told a friend and neighbor to sell his furniture for whatever they could get and use the money to hire the police to find her. The instructions were genuinely followed, and all the money was spent, but the investigation led to nothing. The picklock on the bedroom floor was the last useless reminder of the Dream-Woman.
GREEN BRANCHES
BY FIONA MACLEOD
BY FIONA MACLEOD
Fiona (which is Gaelic for Flora) Macleod was the name of one of the most sympathetic writers in the so-called Celtic movement. With that intensity of feeling characteristic of the Celtic people she succeeded in expressing much of the mystic beauty of the old Gaelic legends.
Fiona (which is Gaelic for Flora) Macleod was the name of one of the most relatable writers in the so-called Celtic movement. With that deep emotional intensity typical of the Celtic people, she managed to convey much of the mystical beauty of the old Gaelic legends.
Upon the death of William Sharp, the author and critic, in the spring of 1906, a long-concealed secret was brought to light:—Fiona Macleod and William Sharp were one and the same person.
When William Sharp, the author and critic, died in the spring of 1906, a long-hidden secret was revealed: Fiona Macleod and William Sharp were actually the same person.
GREEN BRANCHES*
Green branches
*From "The Sin-Eater."
Keep it as is.
By FIONA MACLEOD
By FIONA MACLEOD
In the year that followed the death of Manus MacCodrum, James Achanna saw nothing of his brother Gloom. He might have thought himself alone in the world, of all his people, but for a letter that came to him out of the west. True, he had never accepted the common opinion that his brothers had both been drowned on that night when Anne Gillespie left Eilanmore with Manus.
In the year after Manus MacCodrum's death, James Achanna didn't see his brother Gloom at all. He might have felt completely alone in the world, with no family left, if it weren't for a letter that arrived from the west. He had never believed the popular idea that both of his brothers had drowned that night when Anne Gillespie left Eilanmore with Manus.
In the first place, he had nothing of that inner conviction concerning the fate of Gloom which he had concerning that of Marcus; in the next, had he not heard the sound of the feadan, which no one that he knew played except Gloom; and, for further token, was not the tune that which he hated above all others—the "Dance of the Dead"—for who but Gloom would be playing that, he hating it so, and the hour being late, and no one else on Eilanmore? It was no sure thing that the dead had not come back; but the more he thought of it the more Achanna believed that his sixth brother was still alive. Of this, however, he said nothing to any one.
At first, he didn't have that same certainty about Gloom's fate as he did about Marcus's. Plus, he had heard the sound of the feadan, which he knew only Gloom played; and to make matters worse, the tune was the one he despised the most—the "Dance of the Dead." Who else but Gloom would play that, especially since he hated it so much, the hour being late, and no one else on Eilanmore? It wasn’t definite that the dead hadn't returned; but the more Achanna thought about it, the more he believed that his sixth brother was still alive. However, he didn’t mention this to anyone.
It was as a man set free that, at last, after long waiting and patient trouble with the disposal of all that was left of the Achanna heritage, he left the island. It was a gray memory for him. The bleak moorland of it, the blight that had lain so long and so often upon the crops, the rains that had swept the isle for gray days and gray weeks and gray months, the sobbing of the sea by day and its dark moan by night, its dim relinquishing sigh in the calm of dreary ebbs, its hollow, baffling roar when the storm-shadow swept up out of the sea—one and all oppressed him, even in memory. He had never loved the island, even when it lay green and fragrant in the green and white seas under white and blue skies, fresh and sweet as an Eden of the sea.
It was like a man set free who, after a long wait and the struggle of dealing with everything that was left of the Achanna heritage, finally left the island. It was a gray memory for him. The harsh moorland, the persistent blight that had affected the crops for so long, the rain that had drenched the island for gray days, weeks, and months, the sea's sobbing during the day and its dark moan at night, its quiet sigh during the calm of dreary low tides, and its hollow, confusing roar when the storms rolled in from the sea—all of it weighed on him, even in memory. He had never loved the island, even when it was green and fragrant in the green and white seas under white and blue skies, fresh and sweet like an Eden of the sea.
He had ever been lonely and weary, tired of the mysterious shadow that lay upon his folk, caring little for any of his brothers except the eldest—long since mysteriously gone out of the ken of man—and almost hating Gloom, who had ever borne him a grudge because of his beauty, and because of his likeness to and reverent heed for Alison. Moreover, ever since he had come to love Katreen Macarthur, the daughter of Donald Macarthur who lived in Sleat of Skye, he had been eager to live near her; the more eager as he knew that Gloom loved the girl also, and wished for success not only for his own sake, but so as to put a slight upon his younger brother.
He had always felt lonely and exhausted, worn out by the mysterious shadow hanging over his people, caring little for any of his brothers except the eldest—who had long since disappeared from everyone's knowledge—and almost resenting Gloom, who had always held a grudge against him because of his looks and his admiration for Alison. Moreover, ever since he had fallen in love with Katreen Macarthur, the daughter of Donald Macarthur from Sleat of Skye, he had been eager to live close to her; his desire grew stronger as he realized that Gloom also loved the girl and wanted to succeed not just for his own sake, but to spite his younger brother.
So, when at last he left the island, he sailed southward gladly. He was leaving Eilanmore; he was bound to a new home in Skye, and perhaps he was going to his long-delayed, long dreamed-of happiness. True, Katreen was not pledged to him; he did not even know for sure if she loved him. He thought, hoped, dreamed, almost believed that she did; but then there was her cousin Ian, who had long wooed her, and to whom old Donald Macarthur had given his blessing. Nevertheless, his heart would have been lighter than it had been for long, but for two things. First, there was the letter. Some weeks earlier he had received it, not recognizing the writing, because of the few letters he had ever seen, and, moreover, as it was in a feigned hand. With difficulty he had deciphered the manuscript, plain printed though it was. It ran thus:
So, when he finally left the island, he sailed south happily. He was leaving Eilanmore; he was headed for a new home in Skye, and maybe he was on his way to the long-awaited, long-dreamed-of happiness. True, Katreen wasn’t committed to him; he didn't even know for sure if she loved him. He thought, hoped, dreamed, and almost believed that she did; but then there was her cousin Ian, who had been pursuing her for a long time, and to whom old Donald Macarthur had given his blessing. Still, his heart would have been lighter than it had been for a while, if not for two things. First, there was the letter. A few weeks earlier, he had received it, not recognizing the handwriting because he had seen so few letters, and also because it was written in a disguised style. He had struggled to decipher the text, even though it was clearly printed. It said:
"Well, Sheumais, my brother, it is wondering if I am dead, you will be. Maybe ay, and maybe no. But I send you this writing to let you see that I know all you do and think of. So you are going to leave Eilanmore without an Achanna upon it? And you will be going to Sleat in Skye? Well, let me be telling you this thing. Do not go. I see blood there. And there is this, too: neither you nor any man shall take Katreen away from me. You know that; and Ian Macarthur knows it; and Katreen knows it; and that holds whether I am alive or dead. I say to you: do not go. It will be better for you, and for all. Ian Macarthur is away in the north-sea with the whaler-captain who came to us at Eilanmore, and will not be back for three months yet. It will be better for him not to come back. But if he comes back he will have to reckon with the man who says that Katreen Macarthur is his. I would rather not have two men to speak to, and one my brother. It does not matter to you where I am. I want no money just now. But put aside my portion for me. Have it ready for me against the day I call for it. I will not be patient that day; so have it ready for me. In the place that I am I am content. You will be saying: why is my brother away in a remote place (I will say this to you: that it is not further north than St. Kilda nor further south than the Mull of Cantyrel), and for what reason? That is between me and silence. But perhaps you think of Anne sometimes. Do you know that she lies under the green grass? And of Manus MacCodrum? They say that he swam out into the sea and was drowned; and they whisper of the seal-blood, though the minister is wrath with them for that. He calls it a madness. Well, I was there at that madness, and I played to it on my feadan. And now, Sheumais, can you be thinking of what the tune was that I played?
"Well, Sheumais, my brother, you might be wondering if I’m dead. Maybe yes, and maybe no. But I'm sending you this note to show you that I know everything you do and think about. So you’re planning to leave Eilanmore without an Achanna on it? And you’re heading to Sleat in Skye? Well, let me tell you this: Don’t go. I sense trouble there. Also, neither you nor any man can take Katreen away from me. You know that; Ian Macarthur knows it; and Katreen knows it; and that remains true whether I’m alive or dead. I’m telling you: don’t go. It will be better for you and for everyone. Ian Macarthur is away in the North Sea with the whaler captain who visited us at Eilanmore, and he won’t be back for three months. It would be better if he doesn’t return. But if he does come back, he’ll have to deal with the man who claims Katreen Macarthur is his. I’d prefer not to talk to two men, especially one of them being my brother. It doesn’t matter to you where I am. I don’t want any money right now, but please set aside my share for me. Have it ready for the day I ask for it. I won't be patient then, so have it ready. Where I am, I’m content. You might be asking: why is my brother away in such a remote place (I’ll tell you this: it’s not further north than St. Kilda nor further south than the Mull of Cantyrel),
"Your brother, who waits his own day,
"GLOOM.
"Your brother, who waits for his own day,
"GLOOM.
"Do not be forgetting this thing: I would rather not be playing the 'Damhsa-na-Mairbh.' It was an ill hour for Manus when he heard the 'Dan-nan-Ron'; it was the song of his soul, that; and yours is the 'Davsa-na-Mairv.'"
"Don't forget this: I would rather not play the 'Damhsa-na-Mairbh.' It was a bad time for Manus when he heard the 'Dan-nan-Ron'; that was the song of his soul, and yours is the 'Davsa-na-Mairv.'"
This letter was ever in his mind: this, and what happened in the gloaming when he sailed away for Skye in the herring-smack of two men who lived at Armadale in Sleat. For, as the boat moved slowly out of the haven, one of the men asked him if he was sure that no one was left upon the island; for he thought he had seen a figure on the rocks, waving a black scarf. Achanna shook his head; but just then his companion cried that at that moment he had seen the same thing. So the smack was put about, and when she was moving slowly through the haven again, Achanna sculled ashore in the little coggly punt. In vain he searched here and there, calling loudly again and again. Both men could hardly have been mistaken, he thought. If there were no human creature on the island, and if their eyes had not played them false, who could it be? The wraith of Marcus, mayhap; or might it be the old man himself (his father), risen to bid farewell to his youngest son, or to warn him?
This letter was always on his mind: this, and what happened at dusk when he set off for Skye in the small fishing boat owned by two guys from Armadale in Sleat. As the boat slowly left the harbor, one of the men asked him if he was sure that no one was left on the island because he thought he saw a figure on the rocks waving a black scarf. Achanna shook his head, but just then his companion shouted that he had seen the same thing at that moment. So, they turned the boat around, and when they were slowly moving through the harbor again, Achanna rowed ashore in the small punt. He searched fruitlessly here and there, calling out loudly again and again. Both men could hardly have been mistaken, he thought. If there were no one on the island, and if their eyes hadn't deceived them, who could it be? The ghost of Marcus, perhaps; or could it be the old man himself (his father), risen to say goodbye to his youngest son or to warn him?
It was no use to wait longer, so, looking often behind him, he made his way to the boat again, and rowed slowly out toward the smack.
It was pointless to wait any longer, so, glancing back frequently, he headed back to the boat and rowed slowly toward the fishing vessel.
Jerk—jerk—jerk across the water came, low but only too loud for him, the opening motif of the "Damhsa-na-Mairbh." A horror came upon him, and he drove the boat through the water so that the sea splashed over the bows. When he came on deck he cried in a hoarse voice to the man next him to put up the helm, and let the smack swing to the wind.
Jerk—jerk—jerk across the water came, low but too loud for him, the opening motif of the "Damhsa-na-Mairbh." A wave of fear hit him, and he pushed the boat through the water so that the sea sprayed over the front. When he got on deck, he shouted in a hoarse voice to the man next to him to raise the helm and let the boat turn with the wind.
"There is no one there, Callum Campbell," he whispered.
"There’s no one here, Callum Campbell," he whispered.
"And who is it that will be making that strange music?"
"And who is going to be making that strange music?"
"What music?"
"What song?"
"Sure it has stopped now, but I heard it clear, and so did Anndra MacEwan. It was like the sound of a reed pipe, and the tune was an eery one at that."
"Sure, it’s stopped now, but I heard it clearly, and so did Anndra MacEwan. It sounded like a reed pipe, and the tune was pretty eerie."
"It was the Dance of the Dead."
"It was the Dance of the Dead."
"And who will be playing that?" asked the man, with fear in his eyes.
"And who will be playing that?" asked the man, fear in his eyes.
"No living man."
"No one alive."
"No living man?"
"No living person?"
"No. I'm thinking it will be one of my brothers who was drowned here, and by the same token that it is Gloom, for he played upon the feadan. But if not, then—then—"
"No. I'm thinking it will be one of my brothers who drowned here, and that it's Gloom, since he played the feadan. But if not, then—then—"
The two men waited in breathless silence, each trembling with superstitious fear; but at last the elder made a sign to Achanna to finish.
The two men waited in anxious silence, each shaking with superstitious fear; but finally the older one signaled to Achanna to go ahead.
"Then—it will be the Kelpie."
"Then—it'll be the Kelpie."
"Is there—is there one of the—cave-women here?"
"Is there—is there one of the—cave-women here?"
"It is said; and you know of old that the Kelpie sings or plays a strange tune to wile seamen to their death."
"It’s said, and you already know that the Kelpie sings or plays some unusual tune to lure sailors to their doom."
At that moment the fantastic, jerking music came loud and clear across the bay. There was a horrible suggestion in it, as if dead bodies were moving along the ground with long jerks, and crying and laughing wild. It was enough; the men, Campbell and MacEwan, would not now have waited longer if Achanna had offered them all he had in the world. Nor were they, or he, out of their panic haste till the smack stood well out at sea, and not a sound could be heard from Eilanmore.
At that moment, the strange, jarring music blared across the bay. It had a disturbing vibe to it, as if dead bodies were crawling along the ground in wild fits, crying and laughing at the same time. That was enough; Campbell and MacEwan wouldn’t have waited any longer, even if Achanna had offered them everything he owned. None of them calmed down until the boat was far out at sea, and not a sound could be heard from Eilanmore.
They stood watching, silent. Out of the dusky mass that lay in the seaward way to the north came a red gleam. It was like an eye staring after them with blood-red glances.
They stood there, watching in silence. From the dark mass that lay in the northern sea path came a red glow. It was like an eye watching them with blood-red stares.
"What is that, Achanna?" asked one of the men at last.
"What is that, Achanna?" one of the men finally asked.
"It looks as though a fire had been lighted in the house up in the island. The door and the window must be open. The fire must be fed with wood, for no peats would give that flame; and there were none lighted when I left. To my knowing, there was no wood for burning except the wood of the shelves and the bed."
"It looks like there was a fire started in the house up on the island. The door and window must be open. The fire needs to be kept going with wood, because no turf would produce that flame; plus, there was none lit when I left. As far as I know, there was no wood for burning except for the wood from the shelves and the bed."
"And who would be doing that?"
"And who would be doing that?"
"I know of that no more than you do, Callum Campbell."
"I don't know any more about that than you do, Callum Campbell."
No more was said, and it was a relief to all when the last glimmer of the light was absorbed in the darkness.
No more was said, and everyone felt relieved when the last hint of light faded into the darkness.
At the end of the voyage Campbell and MacEwan were well pleased to be quit of their companion; not so much because he was moody and distraught as because they feared that a spell was upon him—a fate in the working of which they might become involved. It needed no vow of the one to the other for them to come to the conclusion that they would never land on Eilanmore, or, if need be, only in broad daylight, and never alone.
At the end of the journey, Campbell and MacEwan were relieved to be rid of their companion; not so much because he was grumpy and upset, but because they worried that he was under a curse—a fate that could pull them in too. They didn’t need to promise each other anything to agree that they would never set foot on Eilanmore, or if they had to, only during the day and never by themselves.
The days went well for James Achanna, where he made his home at Ranza-beag, on Ranza Water in the Sleat of Skye. The farm was small but good, and he hoped that with help and care he would soon have the place as good a farm as there was in all Skye.
The days went well for James Achanna, who lived at Ranza-beag, by Ranza Water in the Sleat of Skye. The farm was small but decent, and he hoped that with some help and care, he would soon have it as good as any farm in all of Skye.
Donald Macarthur did not let him see much of Katreen, but the old man was no longer opposed to him. Sheumais must wait till Ian Macarthur came back again, which might be any day now. For sure, James Achanna of Ranza-beag was a very different person from the youngest of the Achanna-folk, who held by on lonely Eilanmore; moreover, the old man could not but think with pleasure that it would be well to see Katreen able to walk over the whole land of Ranza, from the cairn at the north of his own Ranza-Mòr to the burn at the south of Ranza-beag, and know it for her own.
Donald Macarthur didn’t let him see much of Katreen, but the old man was no longer against him. Sheumais had to wait until Ian Macarthur came back, which could be any day now. James Achanna of Ranza-beag was definitely a different person from the youngest of the Achanna folks, who lived on the lonely Eilanmore; besides, the old man couldn’t help but feel pleased thinking about how great it would be to see Katreen able to walk across all of Ranza, from the cairn in the north of his Ranza-Mòr to the burn in the south of Ranza-beag, and know it as her own.
But Achanna was ready to wait. Even before he had the secret word of Katreen he knew from her beautiful dark eyes that she loved him. As the weeks went by they managed to meet often, and at last Katreen told him that she loved him too, and would have none but him; but that they must wait till Ian came back, because of the pledge given to him by her father. They were days of joy for him. Through many a hot noontide hour, through many a gloaming he went as one in a dream. Whenever he saw a birch swaying in the wind, or a wave leaping upon Loch Liath, that was near his home, or passed a bush covered with wild roses, or saw the moonbeams lying white on the boles of the pines, he thought of Katreen—his fawn for grace, and so lithe and tall, with sunbrown face and wavy, dark mass of hair, and shadowy eyes and rowan-red lips. It is said that there is a god clothed in shadow who goes to and fro among the human kind, putting silence between lovers with his waving hands, and breathing a chill out of his cold breath, and leaving a gulf of deep water flowing between them because of the passing of his feet. That shadow never came their way. Their love grew as a flower fed by rains and warmed by sunlight.
But Achanna was willing to wait. Even before he heard Katreen's secret words, he could see in her beautiful dark eyes that she loved him. As the weeks went by, they met often, and eventually Katreen told him that she loved him too and would choose no one else; however, they had to wait until Ian returned because of a promise made by her father. Those were joyful days for him. Through many hot afternoons and many dusks, he wandered around like he was in a dream. Whenever he saw a birch swaying in the wind, or a wave jumping on Loch Liath near his home, or passed by a bush covered in wild roses, or saw the moonlight white on the trunks of the pines, he thought of Katreen—his graceful fawn, so lithe and tall, with a sun-kissed face, wavy dark hair, shadowy eyes, and red lips. It's said there's a shadowy god who moves among humans, creating silence between lovers with his sweeping hands, breathing a chill from his cold breath, and leaving a deep gulf of water between them where his feet have passed. That shadow never crossed their path. Their love blossomed like a flower nurtured by rain and warmed by sunlight.
When midsummer came, and there was no sign of Ian Macarthur, it was already too late. Katreen had been won.
When midsummer arrived, and there was no sign of Ian Macarthur, it was already too late. Katreen had been won.
During the summer months it was the custom for Katreen and two of the farm-girls to go up Maol-Ranza, to reside at the shealing of Cnoc-an-Fhraoch: and this because of the hill-pasture for the sheep. Cnoc-an-Fhraoch is a round, boulder-studded hill covered with heather, which has a precipitous corrie on each side, and in front slopes down to Lochan Fraoch, a lochlet surrounded by dark woods. Behind the hill, or great hillock rather, lay the shealing. At each week-end Katreen went down to Ranza-Mòr, and on every Monday morning at sunrise returned to her heather-girt eyry. It was on one of these visits that she endured a cruel shock. Her father told her that she must marry some one else than Sheumais Achanna. He had heard words about him which made a union impossible, and indeed, he hoped that the man would leave Ranza-beag. In the end he admitted that what he had heard was to the effect that Achanna was under a doom of some kind, that he was involved in a blood feud; and, moreover, that he was fey. The old man would not be explicit as to the person from whom his information came, but hinted that he was a stranger of rank, probably a laird of the isles. Besides this, there was word of Ian Macarthur. He was at Thurso, in the far north, and would be in Skye before long, and he—her father—had written to him that he might wed Katreen as soon as was practicable.
During the summer months, it was customary for Katreen and two of the farm girls to go up Maol-Ranza to stay at the sheiling of Cnoc-an-Fhraoch because of the hill pasture for the sheep. Cnoc-an-Fhraoch is a round, boulder-strewn hill covered with heather, which has steep cliffs on each side and slopes down to Lochan Fraoch, a small lake surrounded by dark woods. Behind the hill, or rather, the large hillock, lay the sheiling. Every weekend, Katreen went down to Ranza-Mòr, and every Monday morning at sunrise, she returned to her heather-covered retreat. It was during one of these visits that she faced a devastating blow. Her father told her that she had to marry someone other than Sheumais Achanna. He had heard things about him that made a union impossible, and in fact, he hoped that the man would leave Ranza-beag. Eventually, he revealed that the rumors suggested Achanna was under some kind of curse, that he was involved in a blood feud; moreover, that he was doomed. The old man wouldn’t specify where he got his information but hinted that it came from a stranger of status, probably a laird of the isles. Additionally, there were rumors about Ian Macarthur. He was in Thurso, in the far north, and would be in Skye soon, and he—her father—had written to him that he might marry Katreen as soon as possible.
"Do you see that lintie yonder, father?" was her response to this.
"Do you see that little bird over there, Dad?" was her response to this.
"Ay, lass, and what about the birdeen?"
"Ay, girl, and what about the bird?"
"Well, when she mates with a hawk, so will I be mating with Ian Macarthur, but not till then."
"Well, when she hooks up with a hawk, I’ll be hooking up with Ian Macarthur, but not until then."
With that she turned and left the house, and went back to Cnoc-an-Fhraoch. On the way she met Achanna.
With that, she turned and left the house, heading back to Cnoc-an-Fhraoch. On the way, she ran into Achanna.
It was that night that for the first time he swam across Lochan Fraoch to meet Katreen.
It was that night that, for the first time, he swam across Lochan Fraoch to meet Katreen.
The quickest way to reach the shealing was to row across the lochlet, and then ascend by a sheep-path that wound through the hazel copses at the base of the hill. Fully half an hour was thus saved, because of the steepness of the precipitous corries to right and left. A boat was kept for this purpose, but it was fastened to a shore-boulder by a padlocked iron chain, the key of which was kept by Donald Macarthur. Latterly he had refused to let this key out of his possession. For one thing, no doubt, he believed he could thus restrain Achanna from visiting his daughter. The young man could not approach the shealing from either side without being seen.
The fastest way to get to the shealing was to row across the small lake and then climb up the sheep trail that twisted through the hazel bushes at the foot of the hill. This route saved a good half hour due to the steepness of the cliffs on both sides. A boat was kept for this purpose, but it was tied to a rock on the shore with a padlocked iron chain, and Donald Macarthur held the key. Recently, he had refused to let anyone else have the key. One reason, of course, was that he thought this would keep Achanna from visiting his daughter. The young man couldn't approach the shealing from either side without being spotted.
But that night, soon after the moon was whitening slow in the dark, Katreen stole down to the hazel copse and awaited the coming of her lover. The lochan was visible from almost any point on Cnoc-an-Fhraoch, as well as from the south side. To cross it in a boat unseen, if any watcher were near, would be impossible, nor could even a swimmer hope to escape notice unless in the gloom of night or, mayhap, in the dusk. When, however, she saw, half-way across the water, a spray of green branches slowly moving athwart the surface, she knew that Sheumais was keeping his tryst. If, perchance, any one else saw, he or she would never guess that those derelict rowan branches shrouded Sheumais Achanna.
But that night, shortly after the moon started to shine in the dark, Katreen quietly made her way to the hazel grove and waited for her lover to arrive. The small lake was visible from almost anywhere on Cnoc-an-Fhraoch, as well as from the south side. Crossing it in a boat without being seen, if anyone was nearby, would be impossible, and even a swimmer could only hope to go unnoticed in the darkness of night or, perhaps, during dusk. However, when she saw a spray of green branches slowly moving across the water halfway, she knew that Sheumais was keeping his promise. If by chance anyone else saw, they would never guess that those stray rowan branches were hiding Sheumais Achanna.
It was not till the estray had drifted close to the ledge, where, hid among the bracken and the hazel undergrowth, she awaited him, that Katreen descried the face of her lover, as with one hand he parted the green sprays, and stared longingly and lovingly at the figure he could just discern in the dim, fragrant obscurity.
It wasn't until the stray had wandered near the edge, where, concealed among the ferns and the hazel bushes, she waited for him, that Katreen caught sight of her lover's face, as he pushed aside the green branches with one hand and gazed longingly and affectionately at the figure he could barely make out in the soft, fragrant shadows.
And as it was this night so was it many of the nights that followed. Katreen spent the days as in a dream. Not even the news of her cousin Ian's return disturbed her much.
And just like that night, it was for many nights that came after. Katreen spent her days like she was in a dream. Even the news of her cousin Ian's return barely bothered her.
One day the inevitable meeting came. She was at Ranza-Mòr, and when a shadow came into the dairy where she was standing she looked up, and saw Ian before her. She thought he appeared taller and stronger than ever, though still not so tall as Sheumais, who would appear slim beside the Herculean Skye man. But as she looked at his close curling black hair and thick bull-neck and the sullen eyes in his dark wind-red face, she wondered that she had ever tolerated him at all.
One day, the inevitable meeting happened. She was at Ranza-Mòr, and when a shadow entered the dairy where she was standing, she looked up and saw Ian in front of her. She thought he looked taller and stronger than ever, though still not as tall as Sheumais, who would seem slim next to the muscular Skye man. But as she observed his tightly curled black hair, thick neck, and the brooding eyes in his dark, wind-chapped face, she questioned how she had ever put up with him at all.
He broke the ice at once.
He quickly broke the ice.
"Tell me, Katreen, are you glad to see me back again?"
"Tell me, Katreen, are you happy to see me back?"
"I am glad that you are home once more safe and sound."
"I'm happy that you’re back home safe and sound."
"And will you make it my home for me by coming to live with me, as I've asked you again and again?"
"And will you make it my home by moving in with me, like I've asked you over and over?"
"No: as I've told you again and again."
"No: as I've told you over and over."
He gloomed at her angrily for a few moments before he resumed.
He stared at her angrily for a few moments before he continued.
"I will be asking you this one thing, Katreen, daughter of my father's brother: do you love that man Achanna who lives at Ranza-beag?"
"I have one question for you, Katreen, daughter of my father’s brother: do you love that man Achanna who lives at Ranza-beag?"
"You may ask the wind why it is from the east or the west, but it won't tell you. You're not the wind's master."
"You can ask the wind why it comes from the east or the west, but it won’t answer you. You’re not in control of the wind."
"If you think I will let this man take you away from me, you are thinking a foolish thing."
"If you think I’m going to let this guy take you away from me, you’re being really naive."
"And you saying a foolisher."
"And you're saying something foolish."
"Ay?"
"Yeah?"
"Ay, sure. What could you do, Ian Mhic Ian? At the worst, you could do no more than kill James Achanna. What then? I too would die. You can not separate us. I would not marry you, now, though you were the last man in the world and I the last woman."
"Yeah, sure. What could you do, Ian Mhic Ian? At worst, you could only kill James Achanna. So what? I would die too. You can't separate us. I wouldn't marry you now, even if you were the last man on Earth and I the last woman."
"You're a fool, Katreen Macarthur. Your father has promised you to me, and I tell you this: if you love Achanna you'll save his life only by letting him go away from here. I promise you he will not be here long."
"You're an idiot, Katreen Macarthur. Your father has given you to me, and I want you to know this: if you care about Achanna, you'll save his life by letting him leave this place. I promise you he won't be here for long."
"Ay, you promise me; but you will not say that thing to James Achanna's face. You are a coward."
"Yeah, you promise me; but you won’t say that to James Achanna’s face. You're a coward."
With a muttered oath the man turned on his heel.
With a cursed word, the man turned on his heel.
"Let him beware o' me, and you, too, Katreen-mo-nighean-donn. I swear it by my mother's grave and by St. Martin's Cross that you will be mine by hook or by crook."
"Let him watch out for me, and you, too, Katreen-mo-nighean-donn. I swear on my mother's grave and by St. Martin's Cross that you will be mine, no matter what."
The girl smiled scornfully. Slowly she lifted a milk-pail.
The girl smiled mockingly. Slowly, she picked up a milk pail.
"It would be a pity to waste the good milk, Ian-gorach, but if you don't go it is I that will be emptying the pail on you, and then you will be as white without as your heart is within."
"It would be a shame to waste the good milk, Ian-gorach, but if you don't go, I'll be pouring the pail on you, and then you'll be as white on the outside as your heart is on the inside."
"So you call me witless, do you? Ian-gorach! Well, we shall be seeing as to that. And as for the milk, there will be more than milk spilt because of you, Katreen-donn."
"So you think I'm foolish, huh? Ian-gorach! Well, we'll see about that. And as for the milk, there will be more than just milk spilled because of you, Katreen-donn."
From that day, though neither Sheumais nor Katreen knew of it, a watch was set upon Achanna.
From that day on, even though neither Sheumais nor Katreen knew it, someone was keeping an eye on Achanna.
It could not be long before their secret was discovered, and it was with a savage joy overmastering his sullen rage that Ian Macarthur knew himself the discoverer, and conceived his double vengeance. He dreamed, gloatingly, on both the black thoughts that roamed like ravenous beasts through the solitudes of his heart. But he did not dream that another man was filled with hate because of Katreen's lover, another man who had sworn to make her his own, the man who, disguised, was known in Armadale as Donald McLean, and in the north isles would have been hailed as Gloom Achanna.
It wouldn't be long before their secret was uncovered, and with a savage joy overtaking his brooding anger, Ian Macarthur realized he was the one who discovered it and plotted his double revenge. He fantasized, relishing both the dark thoughts that prowled like hungry beasts in the depths of his heart. But he had no idea that another man was consumed with hatred because of Katreen's lover, a man who had vowed to make her his, the man who, in disguise, was known in Armadale as Donald McLean, and in the northern isles would have been recognized as Gloom Achanna.
There had been steady rain for three days, with a cold, raw wind. On the fourth the sun shone, and set in peace. An evening of quiet beauty followed, warm, fragrant, dusky from the absence of moon or star, though the thin veils of mist promised to disperse as the night grew.
There had been steady rain for three days, with a cold, raw wind. On the fourth, the sun shone and set quietly. A peaceful evening of quiet beauty followed, warm, fragrant, and dim, with no moon or stars, though the thin veils of mist promised to clear as the night went on.
There were two men that eve in the undergrowth on the south side of the lochlet. Sheumais had come earlier than his wont. Impatient for the dusk, he could scarce await the waning of the afterglow; surely, he thought, he might venture. Suddenly his ears caught the sound of cautious footsteps. Could it be old Donald, perhaps with some inkling of the way in which his daughter saw her lover in despite of all; or, mayhap, might it be Ian Macarthur, tracking him as a hunter stalking a stag by the water-pools? He crouched, and waited. In a few minutes he saw Ian carefully picking his way. The man stooped as he descried the green branches; smiled as, with a low rustling, he raised them from the ground.
There were two men that evening in the underbrush on the south side of the small lake. Sheumais had come earlier than usual. Impatient for dusk, he could hardly wait for the fading glow of the sunset; surely, he thought, he could take the risk. Suddenly, he heard cautious footsteps. Could it be old Donald, perhaps sensing how his daughter felt about her lover despite everything; or could it be Ian Macarthur, tracking him like a hunter stalking a stag by the water? He crouched down and waited. In a few minutes, he saw Ian carefully making his way. The man bent down as he noticed the green branches, smiling as he quietly lifted them off the ground.
Meanwhile yet another man watched and waited, though on the further side of the lochan, where the hazel copses were. Gloom Achanna half hoped, half feared the approach of Katreen. It would be sweet to see her again, sweet to slay her lover before her eyes, brother to him though he was. But, there was the chance that she might descry him, and, whether recognizingly or not, warn the swimmer.
Meanwhile, another man watched and waited, though on the opposite side of the small lake, where the hazel thickets were. Gloom Achanna half hoped, half dreaded the arrival of Katreen. It would be sweet to see her again, sweet to kill her lover right in front of her, even if he was his brother. But there was a chance she might spot him and, whether she recognized him or not, alert the swimmer.
So it was that he had come there before sundown, and now lay crouched among the bracken underneath a projecting mossy ledge close upon the water, where it could scarce be that she or any should see him.
So he arrived there before sunset, and now lay crouched among the ferns under a moss-covered ledge near the water, where it was unlikely that she or anyone else would see him.
As the gloaming deepened a great stillness reigned. There was no breath of wind. A scarce audible sigh prevailed among the spires of the heather. The churring of a night-jar throbbed through the darkness. Somewhere a corncrake called its monotonous crek-craik; the dull, harsh sound emphasizing the utter stillness. The pinging of the gnats hovering over and among the sedges made an incessant murmur through the warm, sultry air.
As twilight settled in, an intense stillness took over. There was no hint of wind. A barely audible sigh drifted among the heather stalks. The call of a night-jar resonated through the darkness. Somewhere, a corncrake repeated its monotonous crek-craik, the dull, harsh sound highlighting the complete quiet. The buzzing of gnats hovering over the sedges created a constant murmur in the warm, humid air.
There was a splash once as of a fish. Then, silence. Then a lower but more continuous splash, or rather wash of water. A slow susurrus rustled through the dark.
There was a splash, like a fish jumping. Then, silence. Then a softer but more constant splash, or maybe the gentle movement of water. A slow whisper rustled through the darkness.
Where he lay among the fern Gloom Achanna slowly raised his head, stared through the shadows and listened intently. If Katreen were waiting there she was not near.
Where he lay among the ferns, Gloom Achanna slowly lifted his head, peered through the shadows, and listened carefully. If Katreen was waiting there, she was not nearby.
Noiselessly he slid into the water. When he rose it was under a clump of green branches. These he had cut and secured three hours before. With his left hand he swam slowly, or kept his equipoise in the water; with his right he guided the heavy rowan bough. In his mouth were two objects, one long and thin and dark, the other with an occasional glitter as of a dead fish.
Noiselessly he slipped into the water. When he surfaced, it was beneath a bunch of green branches. He had cut and secured these three hours earlier. With his left hand, he swam slowly or maintained his balance in the water; with his right, he guided the heavy rowan branch. In his mouth were two objects, one long, thin, and dark, the other occasionally sparkling like a dead fish.
His motion was scarcely perceptible. None the less he was near the middle of the loch almost as soon as another clump of green branches. Doubtless the swimmer beneath it was confident that he was now safe from observation.
His movement was barely noticeable. Still, he was almost in the middle of the lake as soon as another group of green branches appeared. The swimmer beneath them was surely sure that he was now hidden from view.
The two clumps of green branches drew nearer. The smaller seemed a mere estray, a spray blown down by the recent gale. But all at once the larger clump jerked awkwardly and stopped. Simultaneously a strange, low strain of music came from the other.
The two bunches of green branches moved closer together. The smaller one looked like just a stray piece, a twig knocked down by the recent storm. But suddenly, the larger bunch jerked awkwardly and came to a halt. At the same time, a strange, low sound of music came from the other one.
The strain ceased. The two clumps of green branches remained motionless. Slowly, at last, the larger moved forward. It was too dark for the swimmer to see if any one lay hid behind the smaller. When he reached it he thrust aside the leaves.
The tension faded. The two clusters of green branches stayed still. Finally, the larger one moved forward. It was too dark for the swimmer to see if anyone was hiding behind the smaller one. When he got to it, he pushed aside the leaves.
It was as though a great salmon leaped. There was a splash, and a narrow, dark body shot through the gloom. At the end of it something gleamed. Then suddenly there was a savage struggle. The inanimate green branches tore this way and that, and surged and swirled. Gasping cries came from the leaves. Again and again the gleaming thing leaped. At the third leap an awful scream shrilled through the silence. The echo of it wailed thrice, with horrible distinctness, in the corrie beyond Cnoc-an-Fhraoch. Then, after a faint splashing, there was silence once more. One clump of green branches drifted slowly up the lochlet. The other moved steadily toward the place whence, a brief while before, it had stirred.
It was as if a huge salmon had jumped. There was a splash, and a dark shape shot through the shadows. Something was shining at the end of it. Then suddenly, there was a fierce struggle. The lifeless green branches twisted and turned, crashing and swirling. Gasping cries came from the leaves. Again and again, the shining thing leaped. At the third leap, a terrible scream pierced the silence. The echo of it wailed three times, with horrifying clarity, in the hollow beyond Cnoc-an-Fhraoch. Then, after a faint splash, there was silence again. One group of green branches floated slowly up the small lake. The other moved steadily back toward where it had stirred a moment before.
Only one thing lived in the heart of Gloom Achanna—the joy of his exultation. He had killed his brother Sheumais. He had always hated him because of his beauty; of late he had hated him because he had stood between him, Gloom, and Katreen Macarthur—because he had become her lover. They were all dead now except himself, all the Achannas. He was "Achanna." When the day came that he would go back to Galloway, there would be a magpie on the first birk, and a screaming jay on the first rowan, and a croaking raven on the first fir; ay, he would be their suffering, though they knew nothing of him meanwhile! He would be Achanna of Achanna again. Let those who would stand in his way beware. As for Katreen: perhaps he would take her there, perhaps not. He smiled.
Only one thing lived in the heart of Gloom Achanna—the joy of his triumph. He had killed his brother Sheumais. He had always hated him because of his beauty; recently, he had hated him even more for getting in the way of him, Gloom, and Katreen Macarthur—because he had become her lover. Now, everyone else was dead except for him, all the Achannas. He was "Achanna." When the day came for him to return to Galloway, there would be a magpie on the first birch, a screaming jay on the first rowan, and a croaking raven on the first fir; indeed, he would endure their suffering, even though they had no idea who he was! He would be Achanna of Achanna once more. Let anyone who dared to stand in his way beware. As for Katreen: maybe he would bring her there, maybe not. He smiled.
These thoughts were the wandering fires in his brain while he slowly swam shoreward under the floating green branches, and as he disengaged himself from them and crawled upward through the bracken. It was at this moment that a third man entered the water from the further shore.
These thoughts were the wandering flames in his mind as he slowly swam toward the shore beneath the floating green branches. When he freed himself from them and crawled up through the ferns, a third man entered the water from the far shore.
Prepared as he was to come suddenly upon Katreen, Gloom was startled when, in a place of dense shadow, a hand touched his shoulder, and her voice whispered:
Prepared as he was to come suddenly upon Katreen, Gloom was startled when, in a place of dense shadow, a hand touched his shoulder, and her voice whispered:
"Sheumais, Sheumais!"
"Sheumais, Sheumais!"
The next moment she was in his arms. He could feel her heart beating against his side.
The next moment, she was in his arms. He could feel her heart racing against his side.
"What was it, Sheumais? What was that awful cry?" she whispered.
"What was it, Sheumais? What was that terrible cry?" she whispered.
For answer he put his lips to hers, and kissed her again and again.
For an answer, he pressed his lips to hers and kissed her over and over.
The girl drew back. Some vague instinct warned her.
The girl stepped back. A vague instinct warned her.
"What is it, Sheumais? Why don't you speak?"
"What’s wrong, Sheumais? Why aren’t you talking?"
He drew her close again.
He pulled her in again.
"Pulse of my heart, it is I who love you, I who love you best of all; it is I, Gloom Achanna!"
"Pulse of my heart, it’s me who loves you, me who loves you most of all; it’s me, Gloom Achanna!"
With a cry she struck him full in the face. He staggered, and in that moment she freed herself.
With a scream, she hit him right in the face. He stumbled, and in that moment, she broke free.
"You coward!"
"You coward!"
"Katreen, I—"
"Katreen, I—"
"Come no nearer. If you do, it will be the death of you!"
"Come no closer. If you do, it will be the end of you!"
"The death o' me! Ah, bonnie fool that you are, and is it you that will be the death o' me?"
"The death of me! Ah, beautiful fool that you are, is it you who will be the end of me?"
"Ay, Gloom Achanna, for I have but to scream and Sheumais will be here, an' he would kill you like a dog if he knew you did me harm."
"Ay, Gloom Achanna, because all I have to do is scream and Sheumais will be here, and he would kill you like a dog if he knew you hurt me."
"Ah, but if there were no Sheumais, or any man to come between me an' my will!"
"Ah, but if there were no Sheumais, or any man to come between me and what I want!"
"Then there would be a woman! Ay, if you overbore me I would strangle you with my hair, or fix my teeth in your false throat!"
"Then there would be a woman! Oh, if you pushed me too far, I would strangle you with my hair or sink my teeth into your fake throat!"
"I was not for knowing you were such a wild-cat; but I'll tame you yet, my lass! Aha, wild-cat!" And as he spoke he laughed low.
"I didn't expect you to be such a wildcat, but I'll tame you yet, my girl! Aha, wildcat!" And as he said this, he chuckled softly.
"It is a true word, Gloom of the black heart. I am a wild-cat, and, like a wild-cat, I am not to be seized by a fox; and that you will be finding to your cost, by the holy St. Bridget! But now, off with you, brother of my man!"
"It’s a true saying, Gloom of the black heart. I’m a wildcat, and just like a wildcat, I can’t be caught by a fox; you’ll see that for yourself, by the holy St. Bridget! But now, get out of here, brother of my man!"
"Your man—ha! ha!"
"Your guy—ha! ha!"
"Why do you laugh?"
"Why are you laughing?"
"Sure, I am laughing at a warm, white lass like yourself having a dead man as your lover!"
"Sure, I'm laughing at a warm, white girl like you having a dead guy as your lover!"
"A—dead—man?"
"A—dead—dude?"
No answer came. The girl shook with a new fear. Slowly she drew closer, till her breath fell warm against the face of the other. He spoke at last:
No answer came. The girl trembled with a fresh wave of fear. Slowly, she moved closer until her breath brushed warmly against the other person's face. He finally spoke:
"Ay, a dead man."
"Yep, a dead man."
"It is a lie."
"It's a lie."
"Where would you be that you were not hearing his good-by? I'm thinking it was loud enough!"
"Where could you be that you didn't hear his goodbye? I think it was loud enough!"
"It is a lie—it is a lie!"
"It's a lie—it's a lie!"
"No, it is no lie. Sheumais is cold enough now. He's low among the weeds by now. Ay, by now: down there in the lochan."
"No, it's not a lie. Sheumais is cold enough now. He's low among the weeds by now. Yeah, by now: down there in the lochan."
"What—you, you devil! Is it for killing your own brother you would be?"
"What—you, you devil! Is it for killing your own brother that you would be?"
"I killed no one. He died his own way. Maybe the cramp took him. Maybe—maybe a kelpie gripped him. I watched. I saw him beneath the green branches. He was dead before he died. I saw it in the white face o' him. Then he sank. He's dead. Sheumais is dead. Look here, girl, I've always loved you. I swore the oath upon you. You're mine. Sure, you're mine now, Katreen! It is loving you I am! It will be a south wind for you from this day, muirnean mochree! See here, I'll show you how I—"
"I didn’t kill anyone. He died in his own way. Maybe the cramp got to him. Maybe—maybe a kelpie grabbed him. I was watching. I saw him under the green branches. He was dead before he actually died. I could see it in his pale face. Then he sank. He’s dead. Sheumais is dead. Listen, girl, I’ve always loved you. I swore my oath to you. You’re mine. Yes, you’re mine now, Katreen! I’m loving you! From this day on, it will be a south wind for you, my beloved! Look here, I’ll show you how I—"
"Back—back—murderer!"
"Back—back—killer!"
"Be stopping that foolishness now, Katreen Macarthur! By the Book, I am tired of it. I am loving you, and it's having you for mine I am! And if you won't come to me like the dove to its mate, I'll come to you like the hawk to the dove!"
"Cut out that nonsense right now, Katreen Macarthur! Honestly, I'm so over it. I love you, and I want you for myself! If you won't come to me like a dove goes to its mate, then I'll come to you like a hawk goes after a dove!"
With a spring he was upon her. In vain she strove to beat him back. His arms held her as a stoat grips a rabbit.
With a leap, he was on her. She struggled in vain to push him away. His arms clamped down on her like a stoat holds a rabbit.
He pulled her head back, and kissed her throat till the strangulating breath sobbed against his ear. With a last despairing effort she screamed the name of the dead man: "Sheumais! Sheumais! Sheumais!" The man who struggled with her laughed.
He pulled her head back and kissed her neck until her breath, heavy with emotion, sobbed against his ear. With one last desperate attempt, she screamed the name of the dead man: "Sheumais! Sheumais! Sheumais!" The man who was grappling with her laughed.
"Ay, call away! The herrin' will be coming through the bracken as soon as Sheumais comes to your call! Ah, it is mine you are now, Katreen! He's dead and cold—an' you'd best have a living man—an'—"
"Aye, call out! The herring will come through the ferns as soon as Sheumais answers your call! Ah, you're mine now, Katreen! He's dead and gone—better you have a living man—and—"
She fell back, her balance lost in the sudden releasing. What did it mean? Gloom still stood there, but as one frozen. Through the darkness she saw, at last, that a hand gripped his shoulder; behind him a black mass vaguely obtruded.
She fell back, losing her balance in the sudden release. What did it mean? Gloom still stood there, but as if frozen. Through the darkness, she finally saw that a hand gripped his shoulder; behind him, a dark mass vaguely loomed.
For some moments there was absolute silence. Then a hoarse voice came out of the dark:
For a few moments, there was complete silence. Then a raspy voice came from the darkness:
"You will be knowing now who it is, Gloom Achanna!"
"You know now who it is, Gloom Achanna!"
The voice was that of Sheumais, who lay dead in the lochan. The murderer shook as in a palsy. With a great effort, slowly he turned his head. He saw a white splatch, the face of the corpse; in this white splatch flamed two burning eyes, the eyes of the soul of the brother whom he had slain.
The voice was that of Sheumais, who lay dead in the lake. The murderer shook like he had a tremor. With a great effort, he slowly turned his head. He saw a white spot, the face of the corpse; in this white spot burned two fiery eyes, the eyes of the soul of the brother he had killed.
He reeled, staggered as a blind man, and, free now of that awful clasp, swayed to and fro as one drunken.
He stumbled around like a blind man, and now free from that terrible grip, he swayed back and forth like someone who was drunk.
Slowly Sheumais raised an arm and pointed downward through the wood toward the lochan. Still pointing, he moved swiftly forward.
Slowly, Sheumais raised an arm and pointed down through the woods toward the small lake. Still pointing, he moved quickly ahead.
With a cry like a beast, Gloom Achanna swung to one side, stumbled, rose, and leaped into the darkness.
With a roar like a wild animal, Gloom Achanna jumped to the side, stumbled, got back up, and leaped into the shadows.
For some minutes Sheumais and Katreen stood, silent, apart, listening to the crashing sound of his flight—the race of the murderer against the pursuing shadow of the Grave.
For a few minutes, Sheumais and Katreen stood silently apart, listening to the sound of his escape—the murderer racing against the pursuing shadow of Death.
A BEWITCHED SHIP
BY W. CLARK RUSSELL
BY W. CLARK RUSSELL
William Clark Russell, the son of Henry Russell, the composer of "Cheer, Boys, Cheer" and other songs, was born in New York in 1844. At the age of thirteen he entered the British merchant service and followed the sea till twenty-one, after which he devoted himself to story-writing. It is a common-place of criticism to say that no one writes better sea stories than the author of the famous "Wreck of the Grosvenor." Since 1890 he has lived at Bath, in the west of England. The present story is taken from a volume entitled "On the Fo'k'sle Head."
William Clark Russell, the son of Henry Russell, the composer of "Cheer, Boys, Cheer" and other songs, was born in New York in 1844. At thirteen, he joined the British merchant service and was at sea until he turned twenty-one, after which he focused on writing stories. It’s a common saying in criticism that no one writes better sea stories than the author of the well-known "Wreck of the Grosvenor." Since 1890, he has lived in Bath, in the west of England. The current story is taken from a collection called "On the Fo'k'sle Head."
A BEWITCHED SHIP
A cursed ship
By W. CLARK RUSSELL
By W. Clark Russell
"About ten years ago," began my friend, Captain Green, "I went as second mate of a ship named the 'Ocean King.' She'd been an old Indiaman in her time, and had a poop and topgallant forecastle, though alterations had knocked some of the dignity out of her. Her channels had been changed into plates with dead-eyes above the rail, and the eye missed the spread of the lower rigging that it naturally sought in looking at a craft with a square stern and windows in it, and checkered sides rounding out into curves, that made a complete tub of the old hooker. Yet, spite of changes, the old-fashioned grace would break through. She looked like a lady who has seen better days, who has got to do work which servants did for her in the times when she was well off, but who, let her set her hand to what she will, makes you see that the breeding and the instincts are still there, and that she's as little to be vulgarized by poverty and its coarse struggles as she could be made a truer lady than she is by money. Ships, like human beings, have their careers, and the close of some of them is strange, and sometimes hard, I think.
"About ten years ago," my friend Captain Green started, "I worked as the second mate on a ship called the 'Ocean King.' She used to be an old Indiaman, and had a poop and a topgallant forecastle, even though some modifications had taken away some of her dignity. Her channels had been transformed into plates with dead-eyes above the rail, and the lower rigging that you would normally look for in a square-sterned craft with windows was missing. Instead, she had checkered sides that rounded out into curves, making her look like a complete tub of an old hooker. Yet, despite these changes, a touch of her old-fashioned grace still shone through. She resembled a lady who has seen better days, someone who now has to do work that servants used to handle when she was well off. But no matter what she does, she still shows that her upbringing and instincts are intact, and she can't be made vulgar by poverty or its rough struggles, just as she couldn’t be made a truer lady by money. Ships, like people, have their own journeys, and the endings of some of them can be peculiar, and sometimes tough, I think."
"The 'Ocean King' had been turned into a collier, and I went second mate of her when she was full up with coal for a South African port. Yet, this ship, that was now carrying one of the dirtiest cargoes you could name, barring phosphate manure, had been reckoned in her day a fine passenger vessel, a noble Indiaman indeed—her tonnage was something over eleven hundred—with a cuddy fitted up royally. Many a freight of soldiers had she carried round the Cape, many an old nabob had she conveyed—ay, and Indian potentates, who smoked out of jeweled hookahs, and who were waited upon by crowds of black servants in turbans and slippers. I used to moralize over her just as I would over a tomb, when I had the watch and was alone and could let my thoughts run loose.
The 'Ocean King' had been converted into a coal ship, and I served as the second mate when she was fully loaded with coal for a South African port. Yet, this ship, now hauling one of the dirtiest cargoes you could mention, except for phosphate fertilizer, had once been considered a fine passenger vessel, a truly noble Indiaman—her tonnage was just over eleven hundred—with a cabin that was fitted out beautifully. She had transported many troops around the Cape, many wealthy merchants, and even Indian royalty who smoked from jeweled hookahs and were attended to by groups of black servants in turbans and slippers. I would often reflect on her, just as I would over a tomb, during my watch when I was alone and could let my thoughts wander.
"The sumptuous cabin trappings were all gone, and I seemed to smell coal in the wind, even when my head was over the weather side, and when the breeze that blew along came fresh across a thousand miles of sea; but there was a good deal of the fittings left—fittings which, I don't doubt, made the newspapers give a long account of this 'fine, great ship' when she was launched—quite enough of them to enable a man to reconstruct a picture of the cuddy of the 'Ocean King' as it was in the days of her glory, when the soft oil-lamps shone bright on the draped tables and sparkled on silver and glass; when the old skipper, sitting with the mizzenmast behind him, would look, with his red face and white hair, down the rows of ladies and gentlemen eating and drinking, stewards running about, trays hanging from the deck above, and globes full of gold-fish swinging to the roll of the vessel as she swung stately, with her stunsails hanging out, over the long blue swell, wrinkled by the wind. The ship is still afloat. Where are the people she carried? The crews who have worked her? The captains who have commanded her? There is nothing that should be fuller of ghosts than an old ship; and I very well remember that when I first visited the 'Victory,' at Portsmouth, and descended into her cockpit, what I saw was not a well-preserved and cleanly length of massive deck, but groups of wounded and bleeding and dying men littering the dark floor, and the hatchway shadowed by groaning figures handed below, while the smell of English, French, and Spanish gunpowder, even down there, was so strong—phew! I could have spat the flavor out!
The lavish cabin decorations were all gone, and I could almost smell coal in the air, even when my head was over the weather side, with the breeze coming fresh across a thousand miles of sea; but there were still enough of the fittings left—fittings that I’m sure made the newspapers write lengthy articles about this ‘fine, great ship’ when she was launched—plenty to let a guy picture the interior of the ‘Ocean King’ during its heyday, when the soft oil lamps shone brightly on the beautifully set tables and sparkled on the silver and glass; when the old captain, with the mizzenmast behind him, would look, with his red face and white hair, down the rows of ladies and gentlemen eating and drinking, stewards hustling around, trays hanging from the deck above, and bowls with goldfish swinging with the roll of the ship as she glided stately, with her stunsails out, over the long blue swell, rippled by the wind. The ship is still afloat. Where are the people she carried? The crews who worked her? The captains who commanded her? An old ship should be full of ghosts; I remember when I first visited the ‘Victory’ at Portsmouth and went down into her cockpit, what I saw wasn't a well-kept and clean stretch of sturdy deck, but groups of wounded, bleeding, and dying men scattered across the dark floor, and the hatchway shadowed by groaning figures being brought below, while the smell of English, French, and Spanish gunpowder was so strong down there—phew! I could have spat the taste out!
"Well, the old 'Ocean King' had once upon a time been said to be haunted. She had certainly been long enough afloat to own a hundred stories, and she was so stanch and true that if ever a superstition got into her there was no chance of its getting out again. I only remember one of these yarns; it was told to me by the dockmaster, who had been at sea for many years, was an old man, and knew the history of all such craft as the 'Ocean King.' He said that, in '51, I think it was, there had been a row among the crew: an Italian sailor stabbed an Englishman, who bled to death. To avenge the Englishman's death the rest of the crew, who were chiefly English, thrust the Italian into the forepeak and let him lie there in darkness. When he was asked for they reported that he had fallen overboard, and this seems to have been believed. Whether the crew meant to starve him or not is not certain; but, after he had been in the forepeak three or four days, a fellow going behind the galley out of the way of the wind to light his pipe—it being then four bells in the first watch—came running into the forecastle, with his hair on end, and the sweat pouring off his face, swearing he had seen the Italian's ghost. This frightened the men prettily; some of them went down into the forepeak, and found the Italian lying there dead, with a score of rats upon him, which scampered off when the men dropped below. During all the rest of the voyage his ghost was constantly seen, sometimes at the lee wheel, sometimes astride of the flying-jibboom. What was the end of it—I mean, whether the men confessed the murder, and, if so, what became of them—the dockmaster said he didn't know. But, be this as it may, I discovered shortly after we had begun our voyage that the crew had got to hear of this story, and the chief mate said it had been brought aboard by the carpenter, who had picked it up from some of the dockyard laborers.
"Well, the old 'Ocean King' had been rumored to be haunted once upon a time. She had certainly been around long enough to have a hundred stories, and she was so solid and dependable that if any superstition got into her, it was stuck for good. I only remember one of these tales; it was told to me by the dockmaster, who had sailed for many years, was an old man, and knew the history of all ships like the 'Ocean King.' He said that in '51, I think it was, there had been a fight among the crew: an Italian sailor stabbed an Englishman, who bled to death. To avenge the Englishman’s death, the rest of the crew, who were mostly English, shoved the Italian into the forepeak and left him there in the dark. When they were asked about him, they claimed he had fallen overboard, and it seems people believed that. It wasn’t clear whether the crew intended to starve him or not; but after he had been in the forepeak for three or four days, a guy going behind the galley to light his pipe—it was about four bells into the first watch—came running into the forecastle, hair standing on end, sweat pouring down his face, swearing he had seen the Italian's ghost. This really freaked the men out; some went down into the forepeak and found the Italian lying there dead, with a bunch of rats on him, which scurried off when the men came below. Throughout the rest of the voyage, his ghost was frequently seen, sometimes at the lee wheel, sometimes perched on the flying-jibboom. What happened in the end—I mean, whether the men confessed to the murder, and if so, what became of them—the dockmaster said he didn’t know. But regardless, I found out shortly after we started our voyage that the crew had caught wind of this story, and the chief mate said it had been brought aboard by the carpenter, who had picked it up from some of the dockyard workers."
"I well recollect two uncomfortable circumstances; we sailed on a Friday, and the able and ordinary seamen were thirteen in number, the idlers and ourselves aft bringing up the ship's company to nineteen souls! when, I suppose, in her prime the 'Ocean King' never left port short of seventy or eighty seamen, not to mention stewards, cooks, cooks' mates, butcher, butcher's mate, baker, and the rest of them. But double topsail yards were now in; besides, I understood that the vessel's masts had been reduced and her yards shortened, and we carried stump fore and mizzen-topgallant masts.
"I clearly remember two uncomfortable situations; we set sail on a Friday, and there were thirteen skilled and regular sailors, while the idlers and us at the back brought the total crew to nineteen people! I guess, at her best, the 'Ocean King' never left port with fewer than seventy or eighty sailors, not counting stewards, cooks, cook's assistants, butchers, butcher's assistants, bakers, and the rest of them. But double topsail yards were already in; plus, I learned that the ship's masts had been cut down and her yards shortened, and we had short fore and mizzen-topgallant masts."
"All being ready, a tug got hold of our tow-rope, and away we went down the river and out to sea.
"Everything set, a tug grabbed our tow-rope, and off we went down the river and out to sea."
"I don't believe myself that any stories which had been told the men about the ship impressed them much. Sailors are very superstitious, but they are not to be scared till something has happened to frighten them. Your merely telling them that there's a ghost aboard the ship they're in won't alarm them till they've caught sight of the ghost. But once let a man say to the others: 'There's a bloomin' sperrit in this ship. Lay your head agin the forehatch, and you'll hear him gnashing his teeth and rattlin' his chains,' and then let another man go and listen, and swear, and perhaps very honestly, that he 'heerd the noises plain,' and you'll have all hands in a funk, talking in whispers, and going aloft in the dark nervously.
"I don't really think that any of the stories told about the ship had much impact on the crew. Sailors are pretty superstitious, but they won't get scared until something actually happens to spook them. Just telling them there's a ghost on the ship won’t freak them out until they actually see it. But once one guy says to the others, 'There’s a damn spirit on this ship. Put your head against the forehatch, and you’ll hear it gnashing its teeth and rattling its chains,' and then another guy goes to listen and swears, maybe honestly, that he 'heard the noises clear,' then you'll have everyone on edge, whispering and climbing up in the dark anxiously."
"In our ship nothing happened for some days. We were deep and slow, and rolled along solemnly, the sea falling away from the vessel's powerful round bows as from a rock. Pile what we could upon her, with tacks aboard, staysails drawing, and the wind hitting her best sailing point, we could seldom manage to get more than seven knots out of her. One night I had the first watch. It was about two bells. There was a nice wind, sea smooth, and a red moon crawling up over our starboard beam. We were under all plain sail, leaning away from the wind a trifle, and the water washed along under the bends in lines through which the starlight ran glimmering.
"In our ship, nothing happened for a few days. We were deep and slow, rolling along solemnly, with the sea falling away from the vessel's powerful round bows like it was a rock. No matter how much we loaded her up, with tacks on board, staysails drawing, and the wind hitting her optimal sailing point, we could hardly manage more than seven knots. One night, I had the first watch. It was about two bells. There was a nice wind, the sea was smooth, and a red moon was rising over our starboard side. We had all plain sail up, leaning slightly away from the wind, and the water flowed under the hull in lines through which the starlight shimmered."
"I was thinking over the five or six months' voyages which old wagons after the pattern of this ship took in getting to India, when, seeing a squall coming along, I sung out for hands to stand by the main-royal and mizzen-topgallant halliards. It drove down dark, and not knowing what was behind I ordered the main-royal to be clewed up and furled. Two youngsters went aloft. By the time they were on the yard the squall thinned, but I fancied there was another bearing down, and thought it best to let the ordinary seamen roll the sail up. On a sudden down they both trotted, hand over hand, leaving the sail flapping in the clutch of the clew-lines.
I was thinking about the five or six months of journeys that old wagons like this ship took to get to India when I saw a storm approaching and called for hands to prepare the main-royal and mizzen-topgallant halyards. It got dark fast, and not knowing what was behind it, I ordered the main-royal to be taken down and secured. Two young guys went up to the yard. By the time they got there, the storm had eased up, but I thought there might be another one coming and decided to have the regular sailors roll the sail up. Suddenly, both of them came back down, climbing hand over hand, leaving the sail flapping in the clew-lines.
"I roared out: 'What d'ye mean by coming down before you've furled that sail?'
"I yelled, 'What do you mean by coming down before you've rolled up that sail?'"
"They stood together in the main rigging, and one of them answered: 'Please, sir, there's a ghost somewhere up aloft on the foretopsail-yard.'
"They stood together in the main rigging, and one of them said, 'Please, sir, there’s a ghost somewhere up high on the foretopsail-yard.'"
"'A ghost, you fool!' I cried.
"'A ghost, you idiot!' I shouted.
"'Yes, sir,' he answered. 'He says: "Jim, your mother wants yer." I says: "What?" and he says: "Your mother wants yer," in the hollowest o' voices. Dick here heard it. There's no one aloft forrard, sir.'
"'Yes, sir,' he replied. 'He says: "Jim, your mom wants you." I said: "What?" and he responded: "Your mom wants you," in the emptiest voice. Dick here heard it. There's no one up front, sir.'
"I sung out to them to jump aloft again, and finding that they didn't move I made a spring, on which they dropped like lightning on deck, and began to beg and pray of me in the eagerest manner not to send them aloft, as they were too frightened to hold on. Indeed, the fellow named Jim actually began to shiver and cry when I threatened him; so as the royal had to be furled I sent an able seaman aloft, who, after rolling up the sail, came down and said that no voice had called to him, and that he rather reckoned it was a bit of skylarking on the part of the boys to get out of stowing the sail. However, I noticed that the man was wonderfully quick over the job, and that afterward the watch on deck stood talking in low voices in the waist.
"I called out to them to climb up again, and when I saw they didn't budge, I jumped, causing them to drop onto the deck like lightning. They started begging and pleading with me not to send them up again, saying they were too scared to hang on. In fact, the guy named Jim actually started to shake and cry when I threatened him. So since we needed to furled the royal, I sent a competent seaman up. After he rolled up the sail and came back down, he said that no one had called to him and he thought the boys were just messing around to avoid stowing the sail. However, I noticed that he was incredibly quick getting the job done, and afterward, the crew on deck was whispering in low voices in the waist."
"Jim was a fool of a youth, but Dick was a smart lad, aged about nineteen, and good-looking, with a lively tongue, and I heard afterward that he could spin a yarn to perfection all out of his imagination. I called him to me, and asked him if he had really heard a voice, and he swore he had.
"Jim was a foolish young guy, but Dick was a sharp kid, around nineteen, and handsome, with a quick wit, and I later learned that he could tell a story perfectly, all from his imagination. I called him over and asked if he had really heard a voice, and he swore he had."
"'Did it say,' said I, 'Jim, your mother wants you?'
"'Did it say,' I asked, 'Jim, your mom wants you?'"
"'Ay, sir,' he answered, with a bit of a shudder, 'as plain as you yourself say it. It seemed to come off the foretop-gallant yard, where I fancied I see something dark a-moving, but I was too frightened to take particular notice.'
"'Yeah, sir,' he replied, shivering a little, 'just as clearly as you're saying it. It looked like it came off the foretop-gallant yard, where I thought I saw something dark moving, but I was too scared to pay close attention.'"
"Well, it was not long after this, about eleven o'clock in the morning, that, the captain being on deck, the cook steps out of the galley, comes walking along the poop, and going up to the skipper touches his cap, and stands looking at him.
"Well, it wasn't long after this, around eleven o'clock in the morning, when the captain was on deck, the cook stepped out of the galley, walked along the back of the ship, approached the skipper, touched his cap, and stood there looking at him."
"'What d'ye want?' said the captain, eying him as if he took him to be mad.
"'What do you want?' the captain asked, looking at him as if he thought he was crazy."
"'Didn't you call, sir?' says the cook.
"'Didn't you call, sir?' says the cook."
"'Call!' cries the skipper. 'Certainly not.'
"'Call!' shouts the captain. 'Definitely not.'"
"The man looked stupid with surprise, and, muttering something to himself, went forward. Ten minutes after he came up again to the skipper, and says: 'Yes, sir!' as a man might who answers to a call. The skipper began to swear at him, and called him a lunatic, and so on; but the man, finding he was wrong again, grew white, and swore that if he was on his death-bed he'd maintain that the captain had called him twice.
The man looked dumbfounded and muttered something to himself as he moved ahead. Ten minutes later, he approached the skipper again and said, "Yes, sir!" like a person responding to a call. The skipper started cursing at him, calling him crazy and so on; but the man, realizing he had made another mistake, turned pale and insisted that even on his deathbed he would swear that the captain had called him twice.
"The skipper, who was a rather nervous man, turned to me, and said: 'What do you make of this, Mr. Green? I can't doubt the cook's word. Who's calling him in my voice?'
"The captain, who was a pretty anxious guy, turned to me and said, 'What do you think about this, Mr. Green? I can't question the cook's word. Who's using my voice to call him?'"
"'Oh, it's some illusion, sir,' said I, feeling puzzled for all that.
"'Oh, it's just some illusion, sir,' I said, feeling confused despite all that."
"But the cook, with the tears actually standing in his eyes, declared it was no illusion; he'd know the captain's voice if it was nine miles off. And he then walked in a dazed way toward the forecastle, singing out that whether the voice he had heard belonged to a ghost or a Christian man, it might go on calling 'Cook!' for the next twenty years without his taking further notice of it. This thing, coming so soon after the call to Jim that had so greatly alarmed the two ordinary seamen, made a great impression on the crew; and I never regret anything more than that my position should have prevented me from getting into their confidence, and learning their thoughts, for there is no doubt I should have stowed away memories enough to serve me for many a hearty laugh in after years.
"But the cook, with tears in his eyes, insisted it wasn't an illusion; he’d recognize the captain's voice even if he was nine miles away. He then walked in a daze toward the forecastle, announcing that whether the voice he heard belonged to a ghost or a real person, it could keep calling 'Cook!' for the next twenty years without him paying any more attention to it. This incident, coming right after the call to Jim that had alarmed the two ordinary seamen, had a significant impact on the crew. I often wish I could have gotten closer to them and learned their thoughts, because I’m sure I would have collected enough memories to give me a good laugh for many years to come."
"A few days rolled by without anything particular happening. One night it came to my turn to have the first watch. It was a quiet night, with wind enough to keep the sails still while the old ship went drowsily rolling along her course to the African port. Suddenly I heard a commotion forward, and fearing that some accident had happened, I called out to know what the matter was. A voice answered: 'Ghost or no ghost, there's somebody a-talking in the forehold; come and listen, sir.' The silence that followed suggested a good deal of alarm. I sang out as I approached the men, 'Perhaps there's a stowaway below.'
A few days went by without anything special happening. One night, it was my turn to take the first watch. It was a calm night, with just enough wind to keep the sails still while the old ship rolled along sleepily toward the African port. Suddenly, I heard a commotion up front, and worried that something might have gone wrong, I called out to see what was happening. A voice replied, 'Ghost or no ghost, someone is talking in the forehold; come listen, sir.' The silence that followed hinted at quite a bit of fear. As I got closer to the men, I called out, 'Maybe there's a stowaway down below.'
"'It's no living voice,' was the reply; 'it sounds as if it comes from a skelington.'
"'It's not a real voice,' was the reply; 'it sounds like it comes from a skeleton.'"
"I found a crowd of men standing in awed postures near the hatch, and the most frightened of all looked to me to be the ordinary seaman Dick, who had backed away on the other side of the hatch, and stood looking on, leaning with his hands on his knees, and staring as if he were fascinated. I waited a couple or three minutes, which, in a business of this kind, seems a long time, and, hearing nothing, I was going to ridicule the men for their nervousness, when a hollow voice under the hatch said distinctly, 'It's a terrible thing to be a ghost and not be able to get out.'
I found a group of men standing in amazed postures near the hatch, and the most terrified of them all seemed to be ordinary seaman Dick, who had backed away on the other side of the hatch. He stood there, leaning on his knees and staring as if he were under a spell. I waited for a couple of minutes, which feels like a long time in a situation like this, and, not hearing anything, I was about to tease the men for their nerves when a hollow voice from under the hatch said clearly, 'It's a terrible thing to be a ghost and not be able to get out.'
"I was greatly startled, and ran aft to tell the captain, who agreed with me that there must be a stowaway in the hold, and that he had gone mad. We both went forward, and the hatch was lifted, and we looked on top of the coal; and I was then about to ask some of the men to join me in a search in the forepeak, for upon my word I had no taste single-handed for a job of that kind at such a moment, when the voice said, 'There's no use looking, you'll never find me. I'm not to be seen.'
I was really surprised and ran to tell the captain, who agreed that there had to be a stowaway in the hold and that he had gone mad. We both went forward, lifted the hatch, and looked on top of the coal. I was just about to ask some of the guys to help me search in the forepeak because, honestly, I had no desire to tackle that kind of job alone at that moment, when the voice said, 'There's no use looking; you'll never find me. I'm not visible.'
"'Confound me!' cried the skipper, polishing his forehead with a pocket-handkerchief, 'if ever I heard of such a thing. I'll tell you what it is,' he shouted, looking into the hatch, 'dead men can't talk, and so, as you're bound to be alive, you'd better come up out of that, and smartly too—d'ye hear?—or you'll find this the worst attempt at skylarking that was ever made.'
"'Damn it!' the captain shouted, wiping his forehead with a handkerchief, 'if I've ever heard of anything like this. I'll tell you what it is,' he yelled, peering into the hatch, 'dead men can't talk, and since you must be alive, you'd better come up from down there, and quick about it—do you hear?—or you'll find that this is the worst attempt at messing around that anyone has ever made.'"
"There was a short silence, and you'd see all hands straining their ears, for there was light enough for that, given out by a lantern one of the men held.
"There was a brief silence, and you could see everyone straining to listen, as there was enough light from a lantern one of the men was holding."
"'You couldn't catch me because you couldn't see me,' said the voice in a die-away tone, and this time it came from the direction of the main hatch, as though it had flitted aft.
"'You couldn't catch me because you couldn't see me,' said the voice in a fading tone, and this time it came from the direction of the main hatch, as if it had flown toward the back."
"'Well,' says the captain, 'may I be jiggered!' and without another word he walked away on to the poop.
"'Well,' says the captain, 'I can't believe it!' and without another word he walked away to the upper deck."
"I told the men to clap the hatches on again, and they did this in double-quick time, evidently afraid that the ghost might pop up out of the hold if they didn't mind their eye.
"I told the guys to close the hatches again, and they did it really fast, obviously worried that the ghost might appear from the hold if they weren't careful."
"All this made us very superstitious, from the captain down to the boys. We talked it over in the cabin, and the mate was incredulous, and disposed to ridicule me.
"All this made us very superstitious, from the captain down to the crew. We discussed it in the cabin, and the mate was skeptical and inclined to mock me."
"'Any way,' said he, 'it's strange that this voice is only heard in your watch. It's never favored me with any remarks. The creaking and groaning of an old wooden ship is often like spoken words, and what you've been hearing may be nothing but a deception of the ear.'
"'Anyway,' he said, 'it's odd that this voice is only coming from your watch. It’s never said anything to me. The creaking and groaning of an old wooden ship often sounds like words, and what you’ve been hearing might just be a trick of the ear.'"
"'A deception in your eye,' cried the skipper. 'The timbers of an old wooden ship may strain and creak in the Dutch language, but hang me if they ever talked good, sensible English. However, I'm not going to worry. For my part,' said he, with a nervous glance around him, 'I don't believe in ghosts; whatever it is that's talking in the hold may go on jawing, so long as he sticks to that, and don't frighten the men with an ugly mug, nor come upon us for a man's allowance.'
"'There's a trick in your eye,' shouted the captain. 'The timbers of an old wooden ship might groan and creak in Dutch, but I swear they’ve never spoken proper, sensible English. Still, I'm not going to stress about it. For my part,' he said, glancing nervously around him, 'I don't believe in ghosts; whatever it is that's making noise in the hold can keep talking, as long as it stays that way and doesn’t scare the crew with a scary face or take any of our supplies.'"
"'If it's anybody's ghost,' said I, 'it must be the Italian's, the chap that was starved in the forepeak.'
"'If it's anyone's ghost,' I said, 'it has to be the Italian's, the guy who was starved in the forepeak.'"
"'I doubt that,' said the skipper. 'I didn't detect anything foreign in what he said. To my ear it sounded more like Whitechapel than Italiano.'
"'I doubt it,' said the captain. 'I didn’t hear anything off in what he said. To me, it sounded more like Whitechapel than Italian.'"
"Well, for another week we heard little more of the ghost. It's true that one middle watch a chap I had sent aloft to loose the main-royal had hardly stepped out of the lower rigging, after lingering in the crosstrees to overhaul his clew-lines, when he comes rushing up to me and cries out, 'I've been hailed from aloft, sir! a voice has just sung out, "Tommy, jump aloft again that I may have a good look at you!"'
"Well, for another week we heard little more about the ghost. It's true that one night, a guy I had sent up to loosen the main-royal barely stepped out of the lower rigging after hanging around in the crosstrees to check his clew-lines when he rushed over to me and shouted, 'I've been called from up high, sir! A voice just shouted, "Tommy, climb back up so I can get a good look at you!"'"
"'Who's up there?' I asked him, staring into the gloom where the mast and yards went towering.
"'Who's up there?' I asked him, looking up into the darkness where the mast and yards reached high."
"'There's no one up there, sir; I'll swear it. I was bound to see him had any one been there,' he answered, evidently very much frightened.
"'There's no one up there, sir; I swear it. I would have seen him if anyone had been there,' he replied, clearly very scared."
"It occurred to me that some one of the crew might be lying hid in the top, and that if I could catch him I might find out who the ghost was. So I jumped into the rigging and trotted aloft, keeping my eye on the lee rigging, to make sure that no one descended by it. I gained the top, but nobody was there. I mounted to the crosstrees, but the deuce a sign of any one could I see. I came down, feeling both foolish and scared; for you see I had heard the voice myself in the hold; there was no question that there was a voice, belonging to nobody knew what, knocking about the ship, and consequently it was now impossible to help believing a man when he said he heard it.
"I realized that someone from the crew might be hiding up in the rigging, and if I could catch him, I might figure out who the ghost was. So I climbed into the rigging and made my way up, watching the side rigging closely to ensure no one came down that way. I reached the top, but no one was there. I climbed up to the crosstrees, but I couldn’t see a single sign of anyone. I came down, feeling both foolish and scared; you see, I had heard the voice myself in the hold; there was no doubt that a voice, coming from who knows where, was echoing through the ship, and because of that, it was now impossible not to believe a person when they said they heard it."
"However, it was necessary to keep the men in heart, and this was not to be done by captain and mates appearing scared; so I reasoned a bit with the man, told him that there were no such things as ghosts, that a voice was bound to come from a live person, because a spectre couldn't possibly have lungs, those organs being of a perishable nature, and then sent him forward, but no easier in his mind, I suspect, than I was. Anyhow, I was glad when eight bells struck and it was my turn to go below. But, as I have said, nothing much came of this—at least, nothing that reached my ears. But not many nights following the ship lay becalmed—there wasn't a breath of air, and the sea lay smooth as polished jet. This time I had the middle watch again. I was walking quietly up and down the poop, on the lookout for a deeper shadow upon the sea to indicate the approach of wind, when a man came up the ladder and said, 'There's some one a-talking to the ship under the bows.'
"However, it was important to keep the crew motivated, and that couldn’t happen if the captain and mates looked scared; so I chatted a bit with the guy, told him that there were no such things as ghosts, that a voice had to come from a living person since a ghost couldn't possibly have lungs, which are perishable, and then I sent him on his way, but I doubt he felt any better than I did. Anyway, I was relieved when eight bells rang, and it was my turn to go below deck. But, as I mentioned, not much came of this—at least, nothing I heard. But in the few nights that followed, the ship lay still—there wasn’t a breath of air, and the sea was as smooth as polished jet. This time I had the middle watch again. I was walking quietly back and forth on the poop, watching for a deeper shadow on the sea that might indicate the approach of wind, when a man came up the ladder and said, 'Someone’s talking to the ship under the bows.'"
"'Are you awake?' said I.
"'Are you awake?' I asked."
"'Heaven help me, as I stand here, sir,' exclaimed the fellow, solemnly, 'if that there woice which talked in the hold t'other day ain't now over the side.'
"'Heaven help me, as I stand here, sir,' the guy exclaimed seriously, 'if that voice that spoke in the hold the other day isn't now coming from over the side.'"
"I ran forward, and found most of the watch huddled together near the starboard cathead. I peered over, and there was a dead silence.
"I ran forward and found most of the crew gathered near the starboard cathead. I looked over, and there was complete silence."
"'What are you looking over that side for? I'm here!' said a thin, faint voice, that seemed more in the air than in the sea.
"'What are you looking over there for? I'm right here!' said a thin, faint voice that seemed to come more from the air than from the sea."
"There!' exclaimed one of the seamen, in a hoarse whisper, 'that's the third time. Whichever side we look, he's on the other.'
"There!" one of the sailors exclaimed in a coarse whisper, "that's the third time. No matter which way we look, he's on the other side."
"'But there must be some one in the water,' said another man. 'Anybody see his houtline? cuss me if I couldn't swear I see a chap swimmin' just now.'
"'But there has to be someone in the water,' said another man. 'Did anyone see his outline? I swear I just saw a guy swimming a moment ago.'"
"'No, no,' answered some one, gruffly, 'nothing but phosphorus, Joe, and the right sort o' stuff, too, for if this ain't old Nick—'
"'No, no,' answered someone, gruffly, 'it's just phosphorus, Joe, and the right kind of stuff, too, because if this isn't old Nick—'"
"'You're a liar, Sam!' came the voice clear, and, as one could swear, plain from over the side.
"'You're a liar, Sam!' came the voice clearly, and, one could swear, plainly from over the side."
"There was a general recoil, and a sort of groan ran among the men.
There was a collective flinch, and a kind of groan spread among the men.
"At the same moment I collared a figure standing near me, and slued him round to bring his face fair to the starlight, clear of the staysail. 'Come you along with me, Master Dick,' said I; and I marched him off the forecastle, along the main deck, and up on to the poop. 'So you're the ghost, eh?' said I. 'Why, to have kept your secret you should have given my elbow a wider berth. No wonder the voice only makes observations in my watch. You're too lazy, I suppose, to leave your hammock to try your wonderful power on the mate, eh? Now see here,' said I, finding him silent, and noticing how white his face glimmered to the stars, 'I know you're the man, so you'd better confess. Own the truth and I'll keep your secret, providing you belay all further tricks of the same kind; deny that you're the ghost and I'll speak to the captain and set the men upon you.'
"At that moment, I grabbed a figure standing next to me and turned him around to face the starlight, away from the staysail. 'Come with me, Master Dick,' I said, and I marched him off the forecastle, down the main deck, and up to the poop. 'So you’re the ghost, huh?' I said. 'Honestly, if you wanted to keep your secret, you should have kept a greater distance from me. No wonder your voice only makes comments during my watch. You’re probably too lazy to get out of your hammock and use your amazing powers on the mate, right? Now listen,' I said, seeing him stay quiet and noticing how pale his face looked under the stars, 'I know you're the one, so you might as well admit it. Own up to the truth and I'll keep your secret, as long as you promise to stop with these tricks. Deny that you’re the ghost and I'll talk to the captain and get the crew on you.'"
"This fairly frightened him. 'Well, sir, it's true; I'm the voice, sir; but for God's sake keep the secret, sir. The men 'ud have my life if they found out that it was me as scared them.'
"This really scared him. 'Well, sir, it’s true; I’m the voice, sir; but for God’s sake, keep it a secret, sir. The guys would kill me if they found out it was me who scared them.'"
"This confession was what I needed, for though when standing pretty close to him on the forecastle I could have sworn that it was he who uttered the words which perplexed and awed the sailors, yet so perfect was the deception, so fine, in short, was his skill as a ventriloquist that, had he stoutly denied and gone on denying that he was the 'voice,' I should have believed him and continued sharing in the wonder and superstition of the crew. I kept his secret as I promised; but, somehow or other, it leaked out in time that he could deceive the ear by apparently pitching his voice among the rigging, or under the deck, or over the side, though the discovery was not made until the 'ghost' had for a long time ceased to trouble the ship's company, and until the men's superstitious awe had faded somewhat, and they had recovered their old cheerfulness. We then sent for Dick to the cabin, where he gave us a real entertainment as a ventriloquist, imitating all sorts of animals, and producing sounds as of women in distress and men singing out for help, in the berths; indeed, such was the skill that I'd often see the skipper and mate turning startled to look in the direction whence the voices proceeded.
"This confession was exactly what I needed, because even though when I was standing pretty close to him on the forecastle I could have sworn it was him who said the words that confused and amazed the sailors, the deception was so perfect, and his skill as a ventriloquist was so impressive that had he firmly denied being the 'voice,' I would have believed him and continued to share in the crew's wonder and superstition. I kept his secret as I promised; but somehow, it eventually got out that he could trick the ear by making it seem like his voice was coming from the rigging, underneath the deck, or over the side, though this discovery didn't happen until long after the 'ghost' had stopped bothering the crew and the men's superstitious fear had lessened a bit, and they had regained their old cheerfulness. We then called for Dick to come to the cabin, where he entertained us as a ventriloquist, mimicking all sorts of animals and creating sounds of women in distress and men calling for help from the bunks; in fact, his skill was such that I often saw the captain and mate turning around, startled, to look in the direction the voices seemed to be coming from."
"He made his peace with the men by amusing them in the same way; so that, instead of getting the rope's ending aft and the pummeling forward which he deserved, he ended as a real and general favorite, and one of the most amusing fellows that a man ever was shipmate with. I used to tell him that if he chose to perform ashore, he was sure to make plenty of money, since such ventriloquial powers as his was the rarest thing in the world; and I'd sometimes fancy he meant to take my advice. But whether he died or kept on going to sea I don't know, for after he left the ship I never saw nor heard of him again."
He got on the good side of the guys by entertaining them in the same way, so instead of facing the punishment he deserved, he ended up being a real favorite and one of the most entertaining shipmates anyone could have. I used to tell him that if he decided to perform on land, he would definitely make a lot of money because his ventriloquism skills were incredibly rare. Sometimes I thought he might actually consider my advice. But after he left the ship, I never saw or heard from him again, so I don't know if he passed away or continued sailing.
THE SIGNAL-MAN
BY CHARLES DICKENS
BY CHARLES DICKENS
Charles Dickens (born 1812, died 1870) has been acknowledged as the creator of the modern novel. Says David Christie Murray, a popular novelist: "There is not a writer of fiction at this hour, in any land where fiction is a recognized trade or art, who is not, whether he knows it and owns it, or no, largely influenced by Dickens."
Charles Dickens (1812-1870) is recognized as the creator of the modern novel. Popular novelist David Christie Murray states: "There is no writer of fiction today, in any place where fiction is an established trade or art, who is not, whether they realize it or not, significantly influenced by Dickens."
"The Signal-Man" has been frequently selected by critics as an example of Dickens's ability with the short-story form.
"The Signal-Man" has often been chosen by critics as a prime example of Dickens's skill in the short-story format.
THE SIGNAL-MAN
THE SIGNALMAN
By CHARLES DICKENS
By Charles Dickens
"Halloa! Below there!"
"Hello! Down there!"
When he heard a voice thus calling to him, he was standing at the door of his box, with a flag in his hand, furled round its short pole. One would have thought, considering the nature of the ground, that he could not have doubted from what quarter the voice came; but instead of looking up to where I stood on the top of the steep cutting nearly over his head, he turned himself about, and looked down the Line. There was something remarkable in his manner of doing so, though I could not have said for my life what. But I know it was remarkable enough to attract my notice, even though his figure was foreshortened and shadowed, down in the deep trench, and mine was high above him, so steeped in the glow of an angry sunset that I had shaded my eyes with my hand before I saw him at all.
When he heard a voice calling to him, he was standing at his box's door, holding a flag wrapped around its short pole. You would think that, given the lay of the land, he wouldn't have doubted where the voice was coming from; but instead of looking up to where I was standing at the top of the steep cut just above him, he turned around and looked down the Line. There was something odd about the way he did this, though I couldn't say exactly what. But I knew it was unusual enough to catch my attention, even though his figure appeared compressed and shadowed down in the deep trench, while mine was high above him, fully illuminated by the intense glow of an angry sunset that made me shield my eyes with my hand before I noticed him at all.
"Halloa! Below!"
"Hey! Down there!"
From looking down the Line, he turned himself about again, and, raising his eyes, saw my figure high above him.
From looking down the line, he turned around again and, lifting his eyes, saw my figure high above him.
"Is there any path by which I can come down and speak to you?"
"Is there any way I can come down and talk to you?"
He looked up at me without replying, and I at him without pressing him too soon with a repetition of my idle question. Just then there came a vague vibration in the earth and air, quickly changing into a violent pulsation, and an oncoming rush that caused me to start back, as though it had force to draw me down. When such vapor as rose to my height from this rapid train had passed me, and was skimming away over the landscape, I looked down again, and saw him refurling the flag he had shown while the train went by.
He looked up at me without saying anything, and I looked back at him without pushing him too soon with my pointless question. Just then, I felt a faint tremor in the ground and air, quickly turning into a violent shaking and a rushing force that made me step back, as if it had the power to pull me down. Once the vapor rising from the speeding train had passed me and was drifting away over the landscape, I looked down again and saw him folding up the flag he had waved while the train went by.
I repeated my inquiry. After a pause, during which he seemed to regard me with fixed attention, he motioned with his rolled-up flag toward a point on my level, some two or three hundred yards distant. I called down to him, "All right!" and made for that point. There, by dint of looking closely about me, I found a rough zigzag descending path notched out, which I followed.
I asked my question again. After a moment, during which he seemed to stare at me intently, he gestured with his rolled-up flag toward a spot on my level, about two or three hundred yards away. I called down to him, "Got it!" and headed toward that spot. There, by closely examining my surroundings, I discovered a rough zigzag path carved out, which I started to follow.
The cutting was extremely deep, and unusually precipitate. It was made through a clammy stone, that became oozier and wetter as I went down. For these reasons, I found the way long enough to give me time to recall a singular air of reluctance or compulsion with which he had pointed out the path.
The cut was really deep and surprisingly steep. It was made through a damp stone that got soggier and wetter as I went down. Because of this, I found the path long enough to remember a strange feeling of hesitation or pressure with which he had shown me the way.
When I came down low enough upon the zigzag descent to see him again, I saw that he was standing between the rails on the way by which the train had lately passed, in an attitude as if he were waiting for me to appear. He had his left hand at his chin, and that left elbow rested on his right hand, crossed over his breast. His attitude was one of such expectation and watchfulness that I stopped a moment, wondering at it.
When I got low enough on the winding path to see him again, I noticed he was standing between the tracks where the train had just passed, looking like he was waiting for me to show up. He had his left hand on his chin, and his left elbow rested on his right hand, which was crossed over his chest. His posture was so full of expectation and attention that I paused for a moment, curious about it.
I resumed my downward way, and stepping out upon the level of the railroad, and drawing nearer to him, saw that he was a dark, sallow man, with a dark beard and rather heavy eyebrows. His post was in as solitary and dismal a place as ever I saw. On either side, a dripping-wet wall of jagged stone, excluding all view but a strip of sky; the perspective one way only a crooked prolongation of this great dungeon; the shorter perspective in the other direction terminating in a gloomy red light, and the gloomier entrance to a black tunnel, in whose massive architecture there was a barbarous, depressing, and forbidding air. So little sunlight ever found its way to this spot that it had an earthy, deadly smell; and so much cold wind rushed through it that it struck chill to me, as if I had left the natural world.
I continued my way down and stepped onto the level of the railroad. As I got closer to him, I noticed he was a dark, sallow man with a dark beard and thick eyebrows. His station was in one of the most lonely and grim places I’d ever seen. On either side were dripping wet walls of jagged stone, blocking any view except for a strip of sky. One way stretched a crooked continuation of this huge dungeon; the other way ended in a dim red light and the even darker entrance to a black tunnel, whose massive structure had a harsh, oppressive, and unwelcoming vibe. Very little sunlight managed to reach this spot, giving it a musty, lifeless smell; and the cold wind that rushed through it felt so chilling that it was as if I had left the natural world behind.
Before he stirred, I was near enough to him to have touched him. Not even then removing his eyes from mine, he stepped back one step, and lifted his hand.
Before he moved, I was close enough to touch him. Even then, without taking his eyes off mine, he stepped back one step and raised his hand.
This was a lonesome post to occupy (I said), and it had riveted my attention when I looked down from up yonder. A visitor was a rarity, I should suppose; not an unwelcome rarity, I hoped? In me, he merely saw a man who had been shut up within narrow limits all his life, and who, being at last set free, had a newly-awakened interest in these great works. To such purpose I spoke to him; but I am far from sure of the terms I used; for, besides that I am not happy in opening any conversation, there was something in the man that daunted me.
This was a lonely position to be in, I thought, and it really grabbed my attention when I looked down from up there. A visitor was a rare thing, I guessed; hopefully, not an unwelcome one? To him, I was just a guy who had been cooped up within small confines my whole life, and now that I was finally free, I had a newfound interest in these impressive works. I tried to talk to him with that in mind, but I’m not sure about the words I used; besides the fact that I'm not great at starting conversations, there was something about the guy that intimidated me.
He directed a most curious look toward the red light near the tunnel's mouth, and looked all about it, as if something were missing from it, and then looked at me.
He gave a really curious look at the red light near the entrance of the tunnel and scanned the area around it, as if something was missing, and then turned to me.
That light was part of his charge? Was it not?
That light was part of his responsibility? Wasn't it?
He answered in a low voice: "Don't you know it is?"
He replied in a quiet voice, "Don't you know it is?"
The monstrous thought came into my mind, as I perused the fixed eyes and the saturnine face, that this was a spirit, not a man. I have speculated since, whether there may have been infection in his mind.
The terrifying thought crossed my mind as I looked at his unblinking eyes and gloomy face that this was a spirit, not a person. I've wondered since then if there was something contagious in his mind.
In my turn, I stepped back. But in making the action, I detected in his eyes some latent fear of me. This put the monstrous thought to flight.
In my turn, I stepped back. But when I did, I noticed a hint of fear in his eyes. This chased away the monstrous thought.
"You look at me," I said, forcing a smile, "as if you had a dread of me."
"You look at me," I said, forcing a smile, "like you’re afraid of me."
"I was doubtful," he returned, "whether I had seen you before."
"I was unsure," he replied, "if I had seen you before."
"Where?"
"Where at?"
He pointed to the red light he had looked at.
He pointed to the red light he had been looking at.
"There?" I said.
"Is that it?" I said.
Intently watchful of me, he replied (but without sound), "Yes."
Intently watching me, he replied (but without sound), "Yes."
"My good fellow, what should I do there? However, be that as it may, I never was there, you may swear."
"My good man, what should I do there? Still, it doesn’t matter; I've never been there, you can bet on that."
"I think I may," he rejoined. "Yes; I am sure I may,"
"I think I can," he replied. "Yeah; I'm definitely sure I can,"
His manner cleared, like my own. He replied to my remarks with readiness, and in well-chosen words. Had he much to do there? Yes; that was to say, he had enough responsibility to bear; but exactness and watchfulness were what was required of him, and of actual work—manual labor—he had next to none. To change that signal, to trim those lights, and to turn this iron handle now and then, was all he had to do under that head. Regarding those many long and lonely hours of which I seemed to make so much, he could only say that the routine of his life had shaped itself into that form, and he had grown used to it. He had taught himself a language down here—if only to know by sight, and to have formed his own crude ideas of its pronunciation, could be called learning it. He had also worked at fractions and decimals, and tried a little algebra; but he was, and had been as a boy, a poor hand at figures. Was it necessary for him when on duty always to remain in that channel of damp air, and could he never rise into the sunshine from between those high stone walls? Why, that depended upon times and circumstances. Under some conditions there would be less upon the Line than under others, and the same held good as to certain hours of the day and night. In bright weather, he did choose occasions for getting a little above these lower shadows; but, being at all times liable to be called by his electric bell, and at such times listening for it with redoubled anxiety, the relief was less than I would suppose.
His demeanor was clear, just like mine. He responded to my comments quickly and with well-chosen words. Did he have a lot to do there? Yes; in other words, he had enough responsibility, but what was really needed from him was precision and vigilance. When it came to actual work—physical labor—he had almost none. Changing that signal, adjusting those lights, and occasionally turning this iron handle was all he had to do in that regard. As for those long and lonely hours that I seemed to dwell on, he could only say that his routine had adapted to that pattern, and he had gotten used to it. He had taught himself a bit of a language down here—if knowing it by sight and forming his own rough ideas of its pronunciation counts as learning. He had also worked on fractions and decimals, and tried a little algebra; but he was, and had always been, not great with figures as a kid. Was it necessary for him to stay in that damp air while on duty, and could he never get some sunshine beyond those tall stone walls? Well, that depended on the time and circumstances. Sometimes there was less to manage on the Line than at other times, and the same went for certain hours of day and night. In nice weather, he would look for chances to get a bit above those lower shadows; but since he was always at risk of being called by his electric bell, and listened for it with increased anxiety, the relief was less than I would have thought.
He took me into his box, where there was a fire, a desk for an official book in which he had to make certain entries, a telegraphic instrument with its dial, face, and needles, and the little bell of which he had spoken. On my trusting that he would excuse the remark that he had been well educated, and (I hoped I might say without offense), perhaps educated above that station, he observed that instances of slight incongruity in such wise would rarely be found wanting among large bodies of men; that he had heard it was so in workhouses, in the police force, even in that last desperate resource, the army; and that he knew it was so, more or less, in any great railway staff. He had been, when young (if I could believe it, sitting in that hut—he scarcely could), a student of natural philosophy, and had attended lectures; but he had run wild, misused his opportunities, gone down, and never risen again. He had no complaint to offer about that. He had made his bed, and he lay upon it. It was far too late to make another.
He led me into his office, where there was a fire, a desk for official records he needed to fill out, a telegraph machine with its dial, face, and indicators, and the little bell he mentioned. I cautiously suggested that he seemed well-educated, and (without meaning to offend) perhaps more educated than his position would imply. He noted that examples of such mismatches are often found among large groups of people; he had heard it was true in workhouses, the police force, and even in the army, which is a last resort for many. He also acknowledged it happens, to some extent, in any large railway staff. He mentioned that when he was young (though I found it hard to believe, sitting in that hut with him), he had studied natural philosophy and attended lectures but had gone off track, wasted his opportunities, fallen down, and never managed to rise again. He didn't complain about it. He had made his choices, and he had to live with them. It was far too late to change that.
All that I have here condensed he said in a quiet manner, with his grave dark regards divided between me and the fire. He threw in the word, "Sir," from time to time, and especially when he referred to his youth—as though to request me to understand that he claimed to be nothing but what I found him. He was several times interrupted by the little bell, and had to read off messages, and send replies. Once he had to stand without the door, and display a flag as a train passed, and make some verbal communication to the driver. In the discharge of his duties, I observed him to be remarkably exact and vigilant, breaking off his discourse at a syllable, and remaining silent until what he had to do was done.
All that I’ve summarized here, he said quietly, with his serious dark gaze split between me and the fire. He occasionally slipped in the word “Sir,” especially when talking about his youth—as if to ask me to understand that he was simply what I saw. He was interrupted several times by a little bell, having to read messages and send replies. Once, he had to step outside and wave a flag as a train went by and communicate verbally with the driver. While doing his job, I noticed he was very precise and alert, stopping his conversation mid-sentence and remaining silent until he completed what he needed to do.
In a word, I should have set this man down as one of the safest of men to be employed in that capacity, but for the circumstance that while he was speaking to me he twice broke off with a fallen color, turned his face toward the little bell when it did not ring, opened the door of the hut (which was kept shut to exclude the unhealthy damp), and looked out toward the red light near the mouth of the tunnel. On both of those occasions, he came back to the fire with the inexplicable air upon him which I had remarked, without being able to define, when we were so far asunder.
In short, I would have considered this man one of the most reliable to employ for that job, if it weren't for the fact that while he was talking to me, he paused twice, looking pale, turned his face toward the little bell that wasn’t ringing, opened the door of the hut (which was kept closed to keep out the unhealthy damp), and looked out toward the red light near the tunnel entrance. Each time, he returned to the fire with that same puzzling demeanor I had noticed before, but couldn’t quite put into words, when we were far apart.
Said I, when I rose to leave him, "You almost make me think that I have met with a contented man."
I said as I got up to leave him, "You really make me feel like I've met a satisfied man."
(I am afraid I must acknowledge that I said it to lead him on.)
(I’m afraid I have to admit that I said it to lead him on.)
"I believe I used to be so," he rejoined, in the low voice in which he had first spoken; "but I am troubled, sir, I am troubled."
"I think I used to be that way," he replied in the quiet tone he had initially spoken in; "but I am worried, sir, I am worried."
He would have recalled the words if he could. He had said them, however, and I took them up quickly.
He would have remembered the words if he could. He said them, though, and I quickly picked them up.
"With what? What is your trouble?"
"With what? What's wrong?"
"It is very difficult to impart, sir. It is very, very difficult to speak of. If ever you make me another visit, I will try to tell you."
"It’s really hard to explain, sir. It’s really, really tough to talk about. If you ever come to visit me again, I’ll try to share it with you."
"But I expressly intend to make you another visit. Say, when shall it be?"
"But I definitely plan to visit you again. So, when should we do that?"
"I go off early in the morning, and I shall be on again at ten to-morrow night, sir."
"I leave early in the morning, and I'll be back on again at ten tomorrow night, sir."
"I will come at eleven."
"I'll be there at eleven."
He thanked me, and went out at the door with me. "I'll show my white light, sir," he said, in his peculiar low voice, "till you have found the way up. When you have found it, don't call out! And when you are at the top, don't call out!"
He thanked me and walked out the door with me. "I'll shine my white light, sir," he said in his unique low voice, "until you find your way up. Once you've found it, don’t shout! And when you’re at the top, don’t shout!"
His manner seemed to make the place strike colder to me, but I said no more than, "Very well."
His demeanor made the place feel even colder to me, but I said nothing more than, "Okay."
"And when you come down to-morrow night, don't call out! Let me ask you a parting question. What made you cry, 'Halloa! Below there!' to-night?"
"And when you come down tomorrow night, don’t shout! Let me ask you one last question. What made you yell, ‘Hello! Down there!’ tonight?"
"Heaven knows," said I. "I cried something to that effect—"
"Heaven knows," I said. "I cried something like that—"
"Not to that effect, sir. Those were the very words. I know them well."
"Not in that way, sir. Those were the exact words. I know them well."
"Admit those were the very words. I said them, no doubt, because I saw you below."
"Admit those were exactly the words. I said them, for sure, because I saw you down there."
"For no other reason?"
"Just for that reason?"
"What other reason could I possibly have?"
"What other reason could I have?"
"You had no feeling that they were conveyed to you in any supernatural way?"
"You didn't feel like they were shared with you in any supernatural way?"
"No."
"Nope."
He wished me good-night, and held up his light. I walked by the side of the down Line of rails (with a very disagreeable sensation of a train coming behind me) until I found the path. It was easier to mount than to descend, and I got back to my inn without any adventure.
He said goodnight and lifted his light. I walked alongside the lower set of tracks (feeling quite uneasy with a train approaching from behind) until I found the path. It was easier to climb than to go down, and I returned to my inn without any incidents.
Punctual to my appointment, I placed my foot on the first notch of the zigzag next night, as the distant clocks were striking eleven. He was waiting for me at the bottom, with his white light on. "I have not called out," I said, when we came close together; "may I speak now?"
Punctual for my appointment, I stepped onto the first notch of the zigzag path that night as the distant clocks chimed eleven. He was waiting for me at the bottom, with his white light on. "I didn't call out," I said as we got closer; "can I speak now?"
"By all means, sir."
"Of course, sir."
"Good-night, then, and here's my hand."
"Good night then, and here’s my hand."
"Good-night, sir, and here's mine."
"Good night, sir, and here's mine."
With that we walked side by side to his box, entered it, closed the door, and sat down by the fire.
With that, we walked next to each other to his box, went inside, closed the door, and sat down by the fire.
"I have made up my mind, sir," he began, bending forward as soon as we were seated, and speaking in a tone but a little above a whisper, "that you shall not have to ask me twice what troubles me. I took you for some one else, yesterday evening. That troubles me."
"I've made up my mind, sir," he said, leaning forward as soon as we sat down and speaking in a voice just above a whisper, "that you won't have to ask me twice about what's bothering me. I mistaken you for someone else yesterday evening. That really bothers me."
"That mistake?"
"That error?"
"No. That some one else."
"No, that’s someone else."
"Who is it?"
"Who’s there?"
"I don't know."
"I have no idea."
"Like me?"
"Do you like me?"
"I don't know. I never saw the face. The left arm is across the face, and the right arm is waved—violently waved. This way."
"I don't know. I never saw the face. The left arm is across the face, and the right arm is waving—violently waving. This way."
I followed his action with my eyes, and it was the action of an arm gesticulating, with the utmost passion and vehemence:
I watched his movements closely, and it was the gesture of an arm waving around, full of intense emotion and energy:
"For God's sake, clear the way!"
"Please, step aside!"
"One moonlight night," said the man, "I was sitting here, when I heard a voice cry, 'Halloa! Below there!' I started up, looked from that door, and saw this Some one else standing by the red light near the tunnel, waving as I just now showed you. The voice seemed hoarse with shouting, and it cried, 'Look out! Look out!' And then again, 'Halloa! Below there! Look out!' I caught up my lamp, turned it on red, and ran toward the figure, calling, 'What's wrong? What has happened? Where?' It stood just outside the blackness of the tunnel. I advanced so close upon it that I wondered at its keeping the sleeve across its eyes. I ran right up at it, and had my hand stretched out to pull the sleeve away, when it was gone."
"One moonlit night," the man said, "I was sitting here when I heard a voice shout, 'Hey! Down there!' I jumped up, looked out that door, and saw someone standing by the red light near the tunnel, waving like I just showed you. The voice sounded rough from shouting, and it yelled, 'Watch out! Watch out!' And then again, 'Hey! Down there! Watch out!' I grabbed my lamp, switched it to red, and ran toward the figure, shouting, 'What’s wrong? What happened? Where?' It was right outside the darkness of the tunnel. I got so close that I wondered why it was keeping its sleeve over its eyes. I rushed right up to it, with my hand outstretched to pull the sleeve away, when it vanished."
"Into the tunnel?" said I.
"Into the tunnel?" I asked.
"No. I ran on into the tunnel, five hundred yards. I stopped, and held my lamp above my head, and saw the figures of the measured distance, and saw the wet stains stealing down the walls and trickling through the arch. I ran out again faster than I had run in (for I had a mortal abhorrence of the place upon me), and I looked all round the red light with my own red light, and I went up the iron ladder to the gallery atop of it, and I came down again, and ran back here. I telegraphed both ways, 'An alarm has been given. Is anything wrong?' The answer came back, both ways, 'All well.'"
"No. I dashed into the tunnel, five hundred yards. I paused, held my lamp above my head, and noticed the markers for the measured distance, and saw the wet stains creeping down the walls and trickling through the arch. I sprinted back out even faster than I had gone in (because I had a strong aversion to the place), and I checked the entire area around the red light with my own red light. I climbed the iron ladder to the gallery at the top, then came back down and rushed back here. I sent a message both ways: 'An alarm has been triggered. Is anything wrong?' The response came back from both directions: 'All clear.'"
Resisting the slow touch of a frozen finger tracing out my spine, I showed him how that this figure must be a deception of his sense of sight; and how that figures, originating in disease of the delicate nerves that minister to the functions of the eye, were known to have often troubled patients, some of whom had become conscious of the nature of their affliction, and had even proved it by experiments upon themselves. "As to an imaginary cry," said I, "do but listen for a moment to the wind in this unnatural valley while we speak so low, and to the wild harp it makes of the telegraph wires."
Resisting the cold touch of a frozen finger tracing my spine, I explained to him how this figure must be an illusion of his sight; and how figures, caused by issues with the delicate nerves related to the eye's functions, have often troubled patients, some of whom realized the nature of their condition and even proved it through experiments on themselves. "As for an imaginary cry," I said, "just listen for a moment to the wind in this eerie valley while we speak so softly, and to the wild sound it creates with the telegraph wires."
That was all very well, he returned, after we had sat listening for a while, and he ought to know something of the wind and the wires—he who so often passed long winter nights there, alone and watching. But he would beg to remark that he had not finished.
That was all good, he replied, after we had sat there listening for a bit, and he should know a thing or two about the wind and the wires—having spent so many long winter nights there, alone and watching. But he would like to point out that he hadn't finished.
I asked his pardon, and he slowly added these words, touching my arm:
I asked for his forgiveness, and he slowly said these words, touching my arm:
"Within six hours after the Appearance, the memorable accident on this Line happened, and within ten hours the dead and wounded were brought along through the tunnel over the spot where the figure had stood."
"Within six hours after the Appearance, the unforgettable accident on this Line occurred, and within ten hours, the dead and injured were brought through the tunnel over the spot where the figure had stood."
A disagreeable shudder crept over me, but I did my best against it. It was not to be denied, I rejoined, that this was a remarkable coincidence, calculated deeply to impress his mind. But it was unquestionable that remarkable coincidences did continually occur, and they must be taken into account in dealing with such a subject. Though to be sure I must admit, I added (for I thought I saw that he was going to bring the objection to bear upon me), men of common sense did not allow much for coincidences in making the ordinary calculations of life.
An unpleasant shiver ran through me, but I tried to shake it off. I couldn’t deny that this was a striking coincidence, likely to make a strong impression on his mind. However, it was clear that unusual coincidences frequently happened, and they had to be considered when discussing such matters. Still, I had to acknowledge, I added (since I sensed he was going to raise this point with me), that sensible people didn’t give much weight to coincidences when making everyday decisions.
He again begged to remark that he had not finished.
He once again pleaded to point out that he had not finished.
I again begged his pardon for being betrayed into interruptions.
I once again apologized for interrupting.
"This," he said, again laying his hand upon my arm, and glancing over his shoulder with hollow eyes, "was just a year ago. Six or seven months passed, and I had recovered from the surprise and shock, when one morning, as the day was breaking, I, standing at the door, looked toward the red light, and saw the spectre again." He stopped, with a fixed look at me.
"This," he said, placing his hand on my arm once more and looking over his shoulder with empty eyes, "was just a year ago. Six or seven months went by, and I had gotten over the initial surprise and shock, when one morning, as dawn was breaking, I was standing at the door, looking toward the red light, and saw the ghost again." He paused, staring at me intently.
"Did it cry out?"
"Did it shout?"
"No. It was silent."
"No. It was quiet."
"Did it wave its arm?"
"Did it wave its arm?"
"No. It leaned against the shaft of the light, with both hands before the face. Like this."
"No. It leaned against the light pole, covering its face with both hands. Like this."
Once more I followed his action with my eyes. It was an action of mourning. I have seen such an attitude in stone figures on tombs.
Once again, I watched his movement with my eyes. It was a gesture of grief. I've seen that kind of stance in stone statues on graves.
"Did you go up to it?"
"Did you go up to it?"
"I came in and sat down, partly to collect my thoughts, partly because it had turned me faint. When I went to the door again, daylight was above me, and the ghost was gone."
"I walked in and took a seat, partly to gather my thoughts, partly because I felt a bit faint. When I approached the door again, there was daylight above me, and the ghost had vanished."
"But nothing followed? Nothing came of this?"
"But nothing happened? Nothing came of this?"
He touched me on the arm with his forefinger twice or thrice, giving a ghastly nod each time.
He tapped my arm with his finger two or three times, nodding eerily each time.
"That very day, as a train came out of the tunnel, I noticed, at a carriage window on my side, what looked like a confusion of hands and heads, and something waved. I saw it just in time to signal the driver, Stop! He shut off, and put his brake on, but the train drifted past here a hundred and fifty yards or more. I ran after it, and, as I went along, heard terrible screams and cries. A beautiful young lady had died instantaneously in one of the compartments, and was brought in here, and laid down on this floor between us."
That very day, as a train came out of the tunnel, I noticed at a window on my side what looked like a jumble of hands and heads, and something waved. I saw it just in time to signal the driver to stop! He shut off and applied the brakes, but the train drifted past here by about a hundred and fifty yards or more. I ran after it, and as I went, I heard terrible screams and cries. A beautiful young woman had died instantly in one of the compartments and was brought in here and laid down on this floor between us.
Involuntarily I pushed my chair back, as I looked from the boards at which he pointed to himself.
Involuntarily, I pushed my chair back as I looked from the boards he pointed at to himself.
"True, sir. True. Precisely as it happened, so I tell it you."
"That's right, sir. That's right. Just as it happened, that's how I'm telling you."
I could think of nothing to say, to any purpose, and my mouth was very dry. The wind and the wires took up the story with a long lamenting wail.
I couldn't think of anything meaningful to say, and my mouth was really dry. The wind and the wires continued the story with a long, mournful wail.
He resumed. "Now, sir, mark this, and judge how my mind is troubled. The spectre came back a week ago. Ever since, it has been there, now and again, by fits and starts."
He continued. "Now, sir, pay attention to this and see how troubled my mind is. The ghost returned a week ago. Since then, it has been here, appearing now and then, in fits and starts."
"At the light?"
"At the traffic light?"
"At the Danger-light."
"At the Caution light."
"What does it seem to do?"
"What does it look like it's doing?"
He repeated, if possible with increased passion and vehemence, that former gesticulation of, "For God's sake, clear the way!"
He repeated, now with even more passion and intensity, that earlier gesture of, "For God's sake, clear the way!"
Then he went on. "I have no peace or rest for it. It calls to me, for many minutes together, in an agonized manner, 'Below there! Look out! Look out!' It stands waving to me. It rings my little bell—"
Then he continued. "I can't find any peace or rest because of it. It beckons to me for a long time, urgently saying, 'Down there! Watch out! Watch out!' It stands there waving to me. It rings my little bell—"
I caught at that.
I got that.
"Did it ring your bell yesterday evening when I was here, and you went to the door?"
"Did it ring your bell last night when I was here, and you went to the door?"
"Twice."
"Two times."
"Why, see," said I, "how your imagination misleads you. My eyes were on the bell, and my ears were open to the bell, and if I am a living man, it did not ring at those times. No, nor at any other time, except when it was rung in the natural course of physical things by the station communicating with you."
"Look," I said, "how your imagination tricks you. I was focused on the bell, and I was listening for it, and if I’m a living person, it didn’t ring during those moments. No, it didn’t ring at any other time either, except when it was rung naturally by the station communicating with you."
He shook his head. "I have never made a mistake as to that yet, sir. I have never confused the spectre's ring with the man's. The ghost's ring is a strange vibration in the bell that it derives from nothing else, and I have not asserted that the bell stirs to the eye. I don't wonder that you failed to hear it. But I heard it."
He shook his head. "I’ve never made that mistake, sir. I’ve never confused the ghost's ring with the man's. The ghost's ring has a weird vibration in the bell that comes from nowhere else, and I haven’t claimed that the bell catches the eye. I’m not surprised you didn’t hear it. But I heard it."
"And did the spectre seem to be there, when you looked out?"
"And did the ghost appear to be there when you looked out?"
"It was there."
"It was here."
"Both times?"
"Twice?"
He repeated firmly: "Both times."
He insisted, "Both times."
"Will you come to the door with me, and look for it now?"
"Will you come to the door with me and check for it now?"
He bit his under lip as though he were somewhat unwilling, but arose. I opened the door, and stood on the step, while he stood in the doorway. There was the Danger-light. There was the dismal mouth of the tunnel. There were the high, wet stone walls of the cutting. There were the stars above them.
He bit his lower lip like he was hesitating, but got up. I opened the door and stood on the step while he stood in the doorway. There was the Danger-light. There was the gloomy entrance of the tunnel. There were the tall, damp stone walls of the cutting. There were the stars above them.
"Do you see it?" I asked him, taking particular note of his face. His eyes were prominent and strained, but not very much more so, perhaps, than my own had been when I had directed them earnestly toward the same spot.
"Do you see it?" I asked him, paying close attention to his face. His eyes were wide and tense, but not that much more than my own had been when I was seriously looking at the same place.
"No," he answered. "It is not there."
"No," he replied. "It's not there."
"Agreed," said I.
"Agreed," I said.
We went in again, shut the door, and resumed our seats. I was thinking how best to improve this advantage, if it might be called one, when he took up the conversation in such a matter-of-course way, so assuming that there could be no serious question of fact between us, that I felt myself placed in the weakest of positions.
We went in again, closed the door, and took our seats. I was thinking about how to make the most of this situation, if it could even be called that, when he continued the conversation so casually, acting like there couldn't possibly be any serious disagreement between us, that I felt put in the weakest position.
"By this time you will fully understand, sir," he said, "that what troubles me so dreadfully is the question, What does the spectre mean?"
"By now, you’ll completely understand, sir," he said, "that what bothers me so much is the question, What does the ghost mean?"
I was not sure, I told him, that I did fully understand.
I wasn't sure, I told him, that I completely understood.
"What is its warning against?" he said, ruminating, with his eyes on the fire, and only by times turning them on me. "What is the danger? Where is the danger? There is danger overhanging somewhere on the Line. Some dreadful calamity will happen. It is not to be doubted this third time, after what has gone before. But surely this is a cruel haunting of me. What can I do?"
"What warning is it giving?" he said, thinking deeply, his eyes fixed on the fire and occasionally glancing at me. "What's the danger? Where's the danger? There's something ominous hanging over the Line. A terrible disaster is going to happen. There's no doubt about it this third time, after everything that has happened before. But this feels like a cruel obsession with me. What can I do?"
He pulled out his handkerchief, and wiped the drops from his heated forehead.
He took out his handkerchief and wiped the sweat from his forehead.
"If I telegraph Danger, on either side of me, or on both, I can give no reason for it," he went on, wiping the palms of his hands. "I should get into trouble, and do no good. They would think I was mad. This is the way it would work—Message: 'Danger! Take care!' Answer: 'What Danger? Where?' Message: 'Don't know. But, for God's sake, take care!' They would displace me. What else could they do?"
"If I send a warning about danger, whether it's on one side of me or both, I can't explain why," he continued, wiping his hands. "I'd end up in trouble, and it wouldn't help at all. They'd think I'm crazy. Here’s how it would go—Message: 'Danger! Be careful!' Response: 'What danger? Where?' Message: 'I don’t know. But please, just be careful!' They would dismiss me. What other choice would they have?"
His pain of mind was most pitiable to see. It was the mental torture of a conscientious man, oppressed beyond endurance by an unintelligible responsibility involving life.
His mental anguish was truly heartbreaking to witness. It was the psychological torment of a conscientious person, weighed down beyond what he could bear by an incomprehensible responsibility concerning life.
"When it first stood under the Danger-light," he went on, putting his dark hair back from his head, and drawing his hands outward across and across his temples in an extremity of feverish distress, "why not tell me where that accident was to happen—if it must happen? Why not tell me how it could be averted—if it could have been averted? When on its second coming it hid its face, why not tell me, instead, 'She is going to die. Let them keep her at home'? If it came, on those two occasions, only to show me that its warnings were true, and so to prepare me for the third, why not warn me plainly now? And I, Lord help me! a mere poor signal-man on this solitary station! Why not go to somebody with credit to be believed, and power to act?"
"When it first showed up under the Danger-light," he said, pushing his dark hair back from his face and rubbing his temples in extreme distress, "why not tell me where the accident was going to happen—if it had to happen? Why not tell me how it could be prevented—if it could have been prevented? When it came back the second time and hid its face, why not say to me, 'She is going to die. Let them keep her at home'? If it appeared on those two occasions only to prove that its warnings were true, and to get me ready for the third, why not warn me clearly now? And I, God help me! just a poor signal-man at this lonely station! Why not go to someone with enough credibility to be believed, and the power to do something?"
When I saw him in this state, I saw that for the poor man's sake, as well as for the public safety, what I had to do for the time was to compose his mind. Therefore, setting aside all question of reality or unreality between us, I represented to him that whoever thoroughly discharged his duty must do well, and that at least it was his comfort that he understood his duty, though he did not understand these confounding Appearances. In this effort I succeeded far better than in the attempt to reason him out of his conviction. He became calm; the occupations incidental to his post as the night advanced began to make larger demands on his attention: and I left him at two in the morning. I had offered to stay through the night, but he would not hear of it.
When I saw him like this, I realized that, for the sake of the poor man and public safety, my main job was to calm him down. So, putting aside any questions about what's real or not between us, I told him that anyone who truly fulfills their duty will do well, and at least he could take comfort in knowing he understood his duty, even if he didn’t grasp these confusing appearances. I was much more successful with this approach than trying to convince him he was wrong. He started to relax; as the night went on, the tasks related to his position demanded more of his attention, and I left him at two in the morning. I had offered to stay the night, but he wouldn't hear of it.
That I more than once looked back at the red light as I ascended the pathway, that I did not like the red light, and that I should have slept but poorly if my bed had been under it, I see no reason to conceal. Nor did I like the two sequences of the accident and the dead girl. I see no reason to conceal that either.
That I looked back at the red light more than once as I climbed the path, that I didn't like the red light, and that I would have slept poorly if my bed had been underneath it, I see no reason to hide. Nor did I like the two parts of the accident and the dead girl. I see no reason to hide that either.
But what ran most in my thoughts was the consideration how ought I to act, having become the recipient of this disclosure? I had proved the man to be intelligent, vigilant, painstaking, and exact; but how long might he remain so, in his state of mind? Though in a subordinate position, still he held a most important trust, and would I (for instance) like to stake my own life on the chances of his continuing to execute it with precision?
But what occupied my mind the most was how I should act, having received this information. I had proven him to be smart, alert, hardworking, and thorough; but how long could he maintain that mindset? Even though he was in a subordinate role, he still had a crucial responsibility, and would I (for example) want to bet my own life on the likelihood of him continuing to carry it out accurately?
Unable to overcome a feeling that there would be something treacherous in my communicating what he had told me to his superiors in the Company, without first being plain with himself and proposing a middle course to him, I ultimately resolved to offer to accompany him (otherwise keeping his secret for the present) to the wisest medical practitioner we could hear of in those parts, and to take his opinion. A change in his time of duty would come round next night, he had apprised me, and he would be off an hour or two after sunrise, and on again soon after sunset. I had appointed to return accordingly.
I couldn't shake the feeling that it would be deceitful to share what he had told me with his superiors in the Company without first being honest with him and suggesting a compromise. So, I decided to offer to go with him (while still keeping his secret for now) to the best doctor we could find in the area and get his opinion. He had informed me that his shift would change the next night, and he would be leaving an hour or two after sunrise and coming back soon after sunset. I had planned to return at that time.
Next evening was a lovely evening, and I walked out early to enjoy it. The sun was not yet quite down when I traversed the field-path near the top of the deep cutting. I would extend my walk for an hour, I said to myself, half an hour on and half an hour back, and it would then be time to go to my signal-man's box.
The next evening was beautiful, so I went out early to soak it in. The sun was still up as I walked along the field path close to the edge of the deep cut. I thought to myself that I would extend my walk for an hour—half an hour out and half an hour back—and then it would be time to head to my signal-man’s box.
Before pursuing my stroll, I stepped to the brink, and mechanically looked down, from the point from which I had first seen him. I can not describe the thrill that seized upon me, when, close at the mouth of the tunnel, I saw the appearance of a man, with his left sleeve across his eyes, passionately waving his right arm.
Before I started my walk, I stepped to the edge and instinctively looked down from where I had first spotted him. I can’t describe the rush I felt when, near the entrance of the tunnel, I saw a man with his left sleeve over his eyes, passionately waving his right arm.
The nameless horror that oppressed me passed in a moment, for in a moment I saw that this appearance of a man was a man indeed, and that there was a little group of other men, standing at a short distance, to whom he seemed to be rehearsing the gesture he made. The Danger-light was not yet lighted. Against its shaft, a little low hut, entirely new to me, had been made of some wooden supports and tarpaulin. It looked no bigger than a bed.
The unnamed fear that weighed me down disappeared in an instant, because in that instant, I realized that this figure who looked like a man was indeed a man, and there was a small group of other men standing a short distance away, to whom he appeared to be practicing the gesture he made. The Danger-light wasn't on yet. Next to it, there was a small, unfamiliar hut that had been built from some wooden supports and a tarpaulin. It looked no bigger than a bed.
With an irresistible sense that something was wrong—with a flashing self-reproachful fear that fatal mischief had come of my leaving the man there, and causing no one to be sent to overlook or correct what he did—I descended the notched path with all the speed I could make.
With a strong feeling that something was off—an overwhelming sense of guilt that my decision to leave the man there might have led to something bad happening—I hurried down the uneven path as quickly as I could.
"What is the matter?" I asked the men.
"What’s going on?" I asked the guys.
"Signal-man killed this morning, sir."
"Signalman was killed this morning, sir."
"Not the man belonging to that box?"
"Not the guy from that box?"
"Yes, sir."
"Yes, sir."
"Not the man I know?"
"Not the guy I know?"
"You will recognize him, sir, if you knew him," said the man who spoke for the others, solemnly uncovering his own head, and raising an end of the tarpaulin, "for his face is quite composed."
"You'll recognize him, sir, if you knew him," said the man who spoke for the others, solemnly taking off his hat and lifting a corner of the tarpaulin, "because his face is very calm."
"Oh, how did this happen, how did this happen?" I asked, turning from one to another as the hut closed in again.
"Oh, how did this happen, how did this happen?" I asked, shifting my gaze from one person to another as the hut felt like it was closing in again.
"He was cut down by an engine, sir. No man in England knew his work better. But somehow he was not clear of the outer rail. It was just at broad day. He had struck the light, and had the lamp in his hand. As the engine came out of the tunnel, his back was toward her, and she cut him down. That man drove her, and was showing how it happened. Show the gentleman, Tom."
"He was hit by a train, sir. No one in England knew his job better. But somehow, he was standing too close to the edge. It was broad daylight. He had turned on the light and was holding the lamp. When the train came out of the tunnel, his back was to it, and it knocked him down. That guy was driving the train and was explaining how it happened. Show the gentleman, Tom."
The man, who wore a rough dark dress, stepped back to his former place at the mouth of the tunnel.
The man, dressed in a rough dark outfit, stepped back to his previous spot at the entrance of the tunnel.
"Coming round the curve in the tunnel, sir," he said, "I saw him at the end, like as if I saw him down a perspective-glass. There was no time to check speed, and I knew him to be very careful. As he didn't seem to take heed of the whistle, I shut it off when we were running down upon him, and called to him as loud as I could call."
"Coming around the curve in the tunnel, sir," he said, "I saw him at the end, almost like I was looking through a telescope. There was no time to slow down, and I knew he was very cautious. Since he didn’t seem to notice the whistle, I turned it off as we were getting close to him and yelled as loud as I could."
"What did you say?"
"What did you say?"
"I said, 'Below there! Look out! Look out! For God's sake, clear the way!'"
"I shouted, 'Down there! Watch out! Watch out! For God's sake, move aside!'"
I started.
I began.
"Ah! it was a dreadful time, sir. I never left off calling to him. I put this arm before my eyes not to see, and I waved this arm to the last; but it was no use."
"Ah! it was a terrible time, sir. I never stopped calling to him. I put this arm in front of my eyes so I wouldn't see, and I waved this arm until the end; but it was pointless."
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Without prolonging the narrative to dwell on any one of its curious circumstances more than on any other, I may, in closing it, point out the coincidence that the warning of the engine-driver included, not only the words which the unfortunate signal-man had repeated to me as haunting him, but also the words which I myself—not he—had attached, and that only in my own mind, to the gesticulation he imitated.
Without dragging out the story to focus on any particular odd detail more than another, I can, in conclusion, highlight the coincidence that the warning from the engine driver included not only the words that the unfortunate signalman had repeated to me as bothering him, but also the words that I, and not he, had linked, and that only in my own mind, to the gesture he mimicked.
THE FOUR-FIFTEEN EXPRESS
BY AMELIA B. EDWARDS
BY AMELIA B. EDWARDS
Amelia Blandford Edwards, the daughter of an English officer, was born in London in 1831 and died in 1892. Though principally known to fame as an Egyptologist of note, she began publishing novels in 1864, among them being "Debenham's Vow," "Miss Carew, and Other Tales" and "Lord Brackenbury." "The Four-Fifteen Express" was published at the height of her popularity as a writer of fiction. Miss Edwards lectured in the United States in 1889-90.
Amelia Blandford Edwards, the daughter of an English officer, was born in London in 1831 and died in 1892. Although she is mostly recognized as a prominent Egyptologist, she started publishing novels in 1864, including "Debenham's Vow," "Miss Carew, and Other Tales," and "Lord Brackenbury." "The Four-Fifteen Express" was published at the peak of her popularity as a fiction writer. Miss Edwards gave lectures in the United States in 1889-90.
THE FOUR-FIFTEEN EXPRESS
THE 4:15 EXPRESS
By AMELIA B. EDWARDS
By Amelia B. Edwards
The events which I am about to relate took place between nine and ten years ago. Sebastopol had fallen in the early spring, the peace of Paris had been concluded since March, our commercial relations with the Russian Empire were but recently renewed; and I, returning home after my first northward journey since the war, was well pleased with the prospect of spending the month of December under the hospitable and thoroughly English roof of my excellent friend, Jonathan Jelf, Esq., of Dumbleton Manor, Clayborough, East Anglia. Traveling in the interests of the well-known firm in which it is my lot to be a junior partner, I had been called upon to visit not only the capitals of Russia and Poland, but had found it also necessary to pass some weeks among the trading ports of the Baltic; whence it came that the year was already far spent before I again set foot on English soil, and that, instead of shooting pheasants with him, as I had hoped, in October, I came to be my friend's guest during the more genial Christmas-tide.
The events I’m about to share happened about nine to ten years ago. Sebastopol had fallen in early spring, the peace of Paris was signed in March, and we had just recently restored our trade relations with the Russian Empire. I was returning home after my first trip north since the war and was looking forward to spending December at the welcoming and truly English home of my good friend, Jonathan Jelf, Esq., of Dumbleton Manor, Clayborough, East Anglia. Traveling for the well-known company where I’m a junior partner, I had to visit not only the capitals of Russia and Poland, but I also spent some weeks at the trading ports of the Baltic. Because of this, the year was already almost over by the time I set foot on English soil again, and instead of hunting pheasants with him as I had hoped to do in October, I ended up being my friend's guest during the more festive Christmas season.
My voyage over, and a few days given up to business in Liverpool and London, I hastened down to Clayborough with all the delight of a schoolboy whose holidays are at hand. My way lay by the Great East Anglian line as far as Clayborough station, where I was to be met by one of the Dumbleton carriages and conveyed across the remaining nine miles of country. It was a foggy afternoon, singularly warm for the 4th of December, and I had arranged to leave London by the 4:15 express. The early darkness of winter had already closed in; the lamps were lighted in the carriages; a clinging damp dimmed the windows, adhered to the door-handles, and pervaded all the atmosphere; while the gas-jets at the neighboring book-stand diffused a luminous haze that only served to make the gloom of the terminus more visible. Having arrived some seven minutes before the starting of the train, and, by the connivance of the guard, taken sole possession of an empty compartment, I lighted my traveling-lamp, made myself particularly snug, and settled down to the undisturbed enjoyment of a book and a cigar. Great, therefore, was my disappointment when, at the last moment, a gentleman came hurrying along the platform, glanced into my carriage, opened the locked door with a private key, and stepped in.
My journey complete, and after a few days spent on business in Liverpool and London, I rushed down to Clayborough with all the excitement of a schoolboy anticipating summer break. I traveled along the Great East Anglian line until I reached Clayborough station, where a Dumbleton carriage was supposed to meet me and take me the remaining nine miles through the countryside. It was a foggy afternoon, unusually warm for December 4th, and I had planned to leave London on the 4:15 express. The early winter darkness had already settled in; the train carriage lamps were lit, a damp chill fogged the windows, stuck to the door handles, and filled the air; while the gas lights at the nearby bookstand cast a faint glow that only made the gloom of the station more noticeable. I arrived about seven minutes before the train was set to depart and, with the help of the guard, I took over an empty compartment. I lit my traveling lamp, made myself cozy, and prepared to enjoy my book and cigar in peace. Thus, I was quite disappointed when, at the last moment, a man hurried down the platform, peeked into my compartment, unlocked the door with a private key, and stepped inside.
It struck me at the first glance that I had seen him before—a tall, spare man, thin-lipped, light-eyed, with an ungraceful stoop in the shoulders, and scant gray hair worn somewhat long upon the collar. He carried a light waterproof coat, an umbrella, and a large brown japanned deed-box, which last he placed under the seat. This done, he felt carefully in his breast-pocket, as if to make certain of the safety of his purse or pocketbook, laid his umbrella in the netting overhead, spread the waterproof across his knees, and exchanged his hat for a traveling-cap of some Scotch material. By this time the train was moving out of the station and into the faint gray of the wintry twilight beyond.
It hit me right away that I had seen him before—a tall, thin man with thin lips, light-colored eyes, an awkward stoop in his shoulders, and sparse gray hair that was a bit long at the collar. He carried a lightweight waterproof coat, an umbrella, and a large brown metal deed box, which he set down under the seat. After that, he checked his breast pocket carefully, as if to ensure his wallet was safe, laid his umbrella in the netting above, spread the waterproof over his legs, and switched his hat for a travel cap made of some kind of Scottish fabric. By this time, the train was leaving the station and moving into the dim gray of the winter twilight outside.
I now recognized my companion. I recognized him from the moment when he removed his hat and uncovered the lofty, furrowed, and somewhat narrow brow beneath. I had met him, as I distinctly remembered, some three years before, at the very house for which, in all probability, he was now bound, like myself. His name was Dwerrihouse; he was a lawyer by profession, and, if I was not greatly mistaken, was first cousin to the wife of my host. I knew also that he was a man eminently "well-to-do," both as regarded his professional and private means. The Jelfs entertained him with that sort of observant courtesy which falls to the lot of the rich relation, the children made much of him, and the old butler, albeit somewhat surly "to the general," treated him with deference. I thought, observing him by the vague mixture of lamplight and twilight, that Mrs. Jelf's cousin looked all the worse for the three years' wear and tear which had gone over his head since our last meeting. He was very pale, and had a restless light in his eye that I did not remember to have observed before. The anxious lines, too, about his mouth were deepened, and there was a cavernous, hollow look about his cheeks and temples which seemed to speak of sickness or sorrow. He had glanced at me as he came in, but without any gleam of recognition in his face. Now he glanced again, as I fancied, somewhat doubtfully. When he did so for the third or fourth time I ventured to address him.
I now recognized my companion. I recognized him the moment he took off his hat and revealed his high, furrowed, and somewhat narrow forehead underneath. I remembered distinctly that I had met him about three years ago, at the very house he was probably heading to now, just like me. His name was Dwerrihouse; he was a lawyer by trade and, if I wasn't mistaken, he was the first cousin of my host's wife. I also knew that he was quite well-off, both professionally and personally. The Jelfs treated him with that sort of attentive courtesy reserved for wealthy relatives, the kids adored him, and the old butler, though somewhat grumpy with everyone else, treated him with respect. As I watched him in the dim mix of lamplight and twilight, I thought that Mrs. Jelf's cousin looked worse for wear after three years since our last encounter. He was very pale and had an anxious light in his eyes that I didn't remember seeing before. The worried lines around his mouth were more pronounced, and his cheeks and temples had a hollow, sunken appearance that suggested he was dealing with illness or grief. He had looked at me when he entered, but there was no sign of recognition on his face. Now he glanced again, and I thought it seemed a bit hesitant. When he did so for the third or fourth time, I decided to speak to him.
"Mr. John Dwerrihouse, I think?"
"Mr. John Dwerrihouse, right?"
"That is my name," he replied.
"That's my name," he stated.
"I had the pleasure of meeting you at Dumbleton about three years ago."
"I had the pleasure of meeting you at Dumbleton around three years ago."
Mr. Dwerrihouse bowed.
Mr. Dwerrihouse bowed.
"I thought I knew your face," he said; "but your name, I regret to say—"
"I thought I recognized your face," he said, "but I’m sorry to say—"
"Langford—William Langford. I have known Jonathan Jelf since we were boys together at Merchant Taylor's, and I generally spend a few weeks at Dumbleton in the shooting season. I suppose we are bound for the same destination?"
"Langford—William Langford. I've known Jonathan Jelf since we were kids at Merchant Taylor's, and I usually spend a few weeks at Dumbleton during the shooting season. I guess we're heading to the same place?"
"Not if you are on your way to the manor," he replied. "I am traveling upon business—rather troublesome business too—while you, doubtless, have only pleasure in view."
"Not if you're heading to the manor," he said. "I'm traveling for work—rather complicated work, too—while you probably have only pleasure on your mind."
"Just so. I am in the habit of looking forward to this visit as to the brightest three weeks in all the year."
"Exactly. I always look forward to this visit as the best three weeks of the whole year."
"It is a pleasant house," said Mr. Dwerrihouse.
"It’s a nice house," said Mr. Dwerrihouse.
"The pleasantest I know."
"The nicest I know."
"And Jelf is thoroughly hospitable."
"And Jelf is very welcoming."
"The best and kindest fellow in the world!"
"The best and kindest person in the world!"
"They have invited me to spend Christmas week with them," pursued Mr. Dwerrihouse, after a moment's pause.
"They've invited me to spend Christmas week with them," continued Mr. Dwerrihouse, after a brief pause.
"And you are coming?"
"And you're coming?"
"I can not tell. It must depend on the issue of this business which I have in hand. You have heard perhaps that we are about to construct a branch line from Blackwater to Stockbridge."
"I can't say. It probably depends on how this situation I'm dealing with turns out. You may have heard that we're set to build a branch line from Blackwater to Stockbridge."
I explained that I had been for some months away from England, and had therefore heard nothing of the contemplated improvement.
I mentioned that I had been away from England for a few months, so I hadn't heard anything about the planned improvement.
Mr. Dwerrihouse smiled complacently.
Mr. Dwerrihouse smiled smugly.
"It will be an improvement," he said, "a great improvement. Stockbridge is a flourishing town, and needs but a more direct railway communication with the metropolis to become an important centre of commerce. This branch was my own idea. I brought the project before the board, and have myself superintended the execution of it up to the present time."
"It'll be an improvement," he said, "a huge improvement. Stockbridge is a thriving town and just needs a more direct railway connection with the city to become a key hub for business. This branch was my idea. I presented the project to the board, and I've personally overseen its progress up to now."
"You are an East Anglian director, I presume?"
"You must be an East Anglian director, right?"
"My interest in the company," replied Mr. Dwerrihouse, "is threefold. I am a director, I am a considerable shareholder, and, as head of the firm of Dwerrihouse, Dwerrihouse & Craik, I am the company's principal solicitor."
"My interest in the company," replied Mr. Dwerrihouse, "is threefold. I am a director, I own a significant number of shares, and as the head of the firm Dwerrihouse, Dwerrihouse & Craik, I am the company's main lawyer."
Loquacious, self-important, full of his pet project, and apparently unable to talk on any other subject, Mr. Dwerrihouse then went on to tell of the opposition he had encountered and the obstacles he had overcome in the cause of the Stockbridge branch. I was entertained with a multitude of local details and local grievances. The rapacity of one squire, the impracticability of another, the indignation of the rector whose glebe was threatened, the culpable indifference of the Stockbridge townspeople, who could not be brought to see that their most vital interests hinged upon a junction with the Great East Anglian line; the spite of the local newspaper, and the unheard-of difficulties attending the Common question, were each and all laid before me with a circumstantiality that possessed the deepest interest for my excellent fellow-traveler, but none whatever for myself. From these, to my despair, he went on to more intricate matters: to the approximate expenses of construction per mile; to the estimates sent in by different contractors; to the probable traffic returns of the new line; to the provisional clauses of the new act as enumerated in Schedule D of the company's last half-yearly report; and so on and on and on, till my head ached and my attention flagged and my eyes kept closing in spite of every effort that I made to keep them open. At length I was roused by these words:
Chatty, self-important, and completely consumed by his pet project, Mr. Dwerrihouse then went on to discuss the opposition he had faced and the obstacles he had overcome for the Stockbridge branch. He entertained me with numerous local details and grievances. The greed of one landowner, the stubbornness of another, the frustration of the rector whose land was threatened, the shocking indifference of the Stockbridge townspeople, who couldn’t see that their most important interests depended on a connection with the Great East Anglian line; the spite of the local newspaper, and the absurd difficulties related to the Common question, were all presented to me with such detail that it was deeply interesting for my fellow traveler, but completely unengaging for me. To my dismay, he then moved on to more complex issues: the estimated construction costs per mile; the bids submitted by various contractors; the potential traffic revenue from the new line; the provisional clauses of the new act as outlined in Schedule D of the company's latest half-yearly report; and so on and on and on, until my head hurt, my attention waned, and my eyes kept closing despite my best efforts to stay awake. Finally, I was jolted awake by these words:
"Seventy-five thousand pounds, cash down."
"£75,000, cash upfront."
"Seventy-five thousand pounds, cash down," I repeated, in the liveliest tone I could assume. "That is a heavy sum."
"Seventy-five thousand pounds, cash upfront," I repeated, with the most upbeat tone I could manage. "That’s a big amount."
"A heavy sum to carry here," replied Mr. Dwerrihouse, pointing significantly to his breast-pocket, "but a mere fraction of what we shall ultimately have to pay."
"A big burden to bear here," replied Mr. Dwerrihouse, pointing notably to his breast pocket, "but just a small part of what we’ll ultimately have to pay."
"You do not mean to say that you have seventy-five thousand pounds at this moment upon your person?" I exclaimed.
"You can't be serious that you have seventy-five thousand pounds on you right now?" I exclaimed.
"My good sir, have I not been telling you so for the last half-hour?" said Mr. Dwerrihouse, testily. "That money has to be paid over at half-past eight o'clock this evening, at the office of Sir Thomas's solicitors, on completion of the deed of sale."
"My good sir, haven’t I been telling you this for the last half-hour?" Mr. Dwerrihouse said, impatiently. "That money has to be paid at 8:30 this evening at Sir Thomas’s lawyers’ office, once the sale is finalized."
"But how will you get across by night from Blackwater to Stockbridge with seventy-five thousand pounds in your pock it?"
"But how will you cross by night from Blackwater to Stockbridge with seventy-five thousand pounds in your pocket?"
"To Stockbridge!" echoed the lawyer. "I find I have made myself very imperfectly understood. I thought I had explained how this sum only carries us as far as Mallingford—the first stage, as it were, of our journey—and how our route from Blackwater to Mallingford lies entirely through Sir Thomas Liddell's property."
"To Stockbridge!" the lawyer echoed. "I realize I've not made myself very clear. I thought I explained that this amount only takes us as far as Mallingford—the first leg of our journey—and that our route from Blackwater to Mallingford goes entirely through Sir Thomas Liddell's property."
"I beg your pardon," I stammered. "I fear my thoughts were wandering. So you only go as far as Mallingford to-night?"
"I’m sorry," I stammered. "I think I got a bit distracted. So, you're only going as far as Mallingford tonight?"
"Precisely. I shall get a conveyance from the 'Blackwater Arms.' And you?"
"Exactly. I’ll get a ride from the 'Blackwater Arms.' And you?"
"Oh, Jelf sends a trap to meet me at Clayborough! Can I be the bearer of any message from you?"
"Oh, Jelf is sending a trap to pick me up at Clayborough! Is there any message I can bring from you?"
"You may say, if you please, Mr. Langford, that I wished I could have been your companion all the way, and that I will come over, if possible, before Christmas."
"You can say, if you want, Mr. Langford, that I wish I could have been your companion the entire way, and that I will come over, if I can, before Christmas."
"Nothing more?"
"That's it?"
Mr. Dwerrihouse smiled grimly. "Well," he said, "you may tell my cousin that she need not burn the hall down in my honor this time, and that I shall be obliged if she will order the blue-room chimney to be swept before I arrive."
Mr. Dwerrihouse gave a tight smile. “Well,” he said, “you can tell my cousin that she doesn’t need to burn down the hall in my honor this time, and I’d appreciate it if she could have the blue room's chimney cleaned before I get there.”
"That sounds tragic. Had you a conflagration on the occasion of your last visit to Dumbleton?"
"That sounds tragic. Did you have a fire during your last visit to Dumbleton?"
"Something like it. There had been no fire lighted in my bedroom since the spring, the flue was foul, and the rooks had built in it; so when I went up to dress for dinner I found the room full of smoke and the chimney on fire. Are we already at Blackwater?"
"Something like that. There hadn't been a fire in my bedroom since spring, the flue was dirty, and the rooks had nested in it; so when I went up to get ready for dinner, I found the room filled with smoke and the chimney was on fire. Are we already at Blackwater?"
The train had gradually come to a pause while Mr. Dwerrihouse was speaking, and, on putting my head out of the window, I could see the station some few hundred yards ahead. There was another train before us blocking the way, and the guard was making use of the delay to collect the Blackwater tickets. I had scarcely ascertained our position when the ruddy-faced official appeared at our carriage door.
The train had slowly come to a stop while Mr. Dwerrihouse was talking, and when I stuck my head out of the window, I could see the station a few hundred yards ahead. There was another train in front of us blocking the way, and the guard was using the delay to collect the Blackwater tickets. I had barely figured out where we were when the cheerful-faced official showed up at our carriage door.
"Tickets, sir!" said he.
"Tickets, sir!" he said.
"I am for Clayborough," I replied, holding out the tiny pink card.
"I support Clayborough," I said, extending the small pink card.
He took it, glanced at it by the light of his little lantern, gave it back, looked, as I fancied, somewhat sharply at my fellow-traveler, and disappeared.
He took it, looked at it by the light of his small lantern, handed it back, gave my fellow traveler what I thought was a quick, sharp glance, and vanished.
"He did not ask for yours," I said, with some surprise.
"He didn't ask for yours," I said, a bit surprised.
"They never do," replied Mr. Dwerrihouse; "they all know me, and of course I travel free."
"They never do," replied Mr. Dwerrihouse; "they all know me, and of course I ride for free."
"Blackwater! Blackwater!" cried the porter, running along the platform beside us as we glided into the station.
"Blackwater! Blackwater!" shouted the porter, running alongside us on the platform as we smoothly entered the station.
Mr. Dwerrihouse pulled out his deed-box, put his traveling-cap in his pocket, resumed his hat, took down his umbrella, and prepared to be gone.
Mr. Dwerrihouse pulled out his deed box, stuffed his travel cap into his pocket, put on his hat, grabbed his umbrella, and got ready to leave.
"Many thanks, Mr. Langford, for your society," he said, with old-fashioned courtesy. "I wish you a good-evening."
"Thank you so much, Mr. Langford, for your company," he said, with polite respect. "I hope you have a good evening."
"Good-evening," I replied, putting out my hand.
"Good evening," I replied, extending my hand.
But he either did not see it or did not choose to see it, and, slightly lifting his hat, stepped out upon the platform. Having done this, he moved slowly away and mingled with the departing crowd.
But he either didn't notice it or chose to ignore it, and, slightly lifting his hat, stepped onto the platform. After doing this, he moved away slowly and blended in with the departing crowd.
Leaning forward to watch him out of sight, I trod upon something which proved to be a cigar-case. It had fallen, no doubt, from the pocket of his waterproof coat, and was made of dark morocco leather, with a silver monogram upon the side. I sprang out of the carriage just as the guard came up to lock me in.
Leaning forward to watch him disappear, I stepped on something that turned out to be a cigar case. It must have fallen from the pocket of his raincoat and was made of dark leather, featuring a silver monogram on the side. I jumped out of the carriage just as the guard arrived to lock me in.
"Is there one minute to spare?" I asked, eagerly. "The gentleman who traveled down with me from town has dropped his cigar-case; he is not yet out of the station."
"Do you have a minute?" I asked eagerly. "The guy who came down with me from town dropped his cigar case; he hasn't left the station yet."
"Just a minute and a half, sir," replied the guard. "You must be quick."
"Just a minute and a half, sir," the guard replied. "You need to hurry."
I dashed along the platform as fast as my feet could carry me. It was a large station, and Mr. Dwerrihouse had by this time got more than half-way to the farther end.
I hurried along the platform as quickly as I could. It was a big station, and Mr. Dwerrihouse had already made it more than halfway to the far end.
I, however, saw him distinctly, moving slowly with the stream. Then, as I drew nearer, I saw that he had met some friend, that they were talking as they walked, that they presently fell back somewhat from the crowd and stood aside in earnest conversation. I made straight for the spot where they were waiting. There was a vivid gas-jet just above their heads, and the light fell full upon their faces. I saw both distinctly—the face of Mr. Dwerrihouse and the face of his companion. Running, breathless, eager as I was, getting in the way of porters and passengers, and fearful every instant lest I should see the train going on without me, I yet observed that the new-comer was considerably younger and shorter than the director, that he was sandy-haired, mustachioed, small-featured, and dressed in a close-cut suit of Scotch tweed. I was now within a few yards of them. I ran against a stout gentleman, I was nearly knocked down by a luggage-truck, I stumbled over a carpet-bag; I gained the spot just as the driver's whistle warned me to return.
I saw him clearly, moving slowly with the crowd. As I got closer, I noticed he was talking to a friend, and they stepped back a bit from the crowd to have a serious conversation. I headed straight for where they were. There was a bright gas light just above their heads, shining right on their faces. I could clearly see both Mr. Dwerrihouse and his companion. Despite running, out of breath, eager, weaving through porters and passengers, and worried I'd miss my train, I noticed that the newcomer was noticeably younger and shorter than the director. He had sandy hair, a mustache, small features, and was wearing a fitted Scotch tweed suit. I was only a few yards away now. I bumped into a hefty man, nearly got knocked over by a luggage cart, and tripped over a suitcase. I reached the spot just as the train's whistle warned me to head back.
To my utter stupefaction, they were no longer there. I had seen them but two seconds before—and they were gone! I stood still; I looked to right and left; I saw no sign of them in any direction. It was as if the platform had gaped and swallowed them.
To my complete shock, they were gone. I had just seen them two seconds ago—and now they were missing! I stood still, looking to my right and left; I saw no trace of them in any direction. It was as if the platform had opened up and swallowed them whole.
"There were two gentlemen standing here a moment ago," I said to a porter at my elbow; "which way can they have gone?"
"There were two guys standing here just a moment ago," I said to a porter next to me; "which way could they have gone?"
"I saw no gentlemen, sir," replied the man.
"I didn't see any gentlemen, sir," the man replied.
The whistle shrilled out again. The guard, far up the platform, held up his arm, and shouted to me to "come on!"
The whistle blared again. The guard, up on the platform, raised his arm and yelled for me to "come on!"
"If you're going on by this train, sir," said the porter, "you must run for it."
"If you're taking this train, sir," said the porter, "you need to hurry."
I did run for it, just gained the carriage as the train began to move, was shoved in by the guard, and left, breathless and bewildered, with Mr. Dwerrihouse's cigar-case still in my hand.
I ran for it, just made it to the carriage as the train started to move, got pushed in by the guard, and was left there, breathless and confused, with Mr. Dwerrihouse's cigar case still in my hand.
It was the strangest disappearance in the world; it was like a transformation trick in a pantomime. They were there one moment—palpably there, talking, with the gaslight full upon their faces—and the next moment they were gone. There was no door near, no window, no staircase; it was a mere slip of barren platform, tapestried with big advertisements. Could anything be more mysterious?
It was the weirdest disappearance ever; it was like a magic trick in a play. They were there one moment—clearly there, chatting, with the gaslight shining brightly on their faces—and the next moment they were gone. There was no door nearby, no window, no staircase; it was just a narrow stretch of empty platform, covered with huge advertisements. Could anything be more mysterious?
It was not worth thinking about, and yet, for my life, I could not help pondering upon it—pondering, wondering, conjecturing, turning it over and over in my mind, and beating my brains for a solution of the enigma. I thought of it all the way from Blackwater to Clayborough. I thought of it all the way from Clayborough to Dumbleton, as I rattled along the smooth highway in a trim dog-cart, drawn by a splendid black mare and driven by the silentest and dapperest of East Anglian grooms.
It wasn’t worth my time to think about, but for some reason, I just couldn’t stop dwelling on it—thinking, wondering, guessing, going over it repeatedly in my mind, and straining to find a solution to the puzzle. I thought about it on my journey from Blackwater to Clayborough. I thought about it all the way from Clayborough to Dumbleton as I bumped along the smooth road in a neat dog-cart, pulled by a beautiful black mare and driven by the quietest, smartest groom from East Anglia.
We did the nine miles in something less than an hour, and pulled up before the lodge gates just as the church clock was striking half-past seven. A couple of minutes more, and the warm glow of the lighted hall was flooding out upon the gravel, a hearty grasp was on my hand, and a clear jovial voice was bidding me "welcome to Dumbleton."
We covered the nine miles in just under an hour, and arrived at the lodge gates right as the church clock struck 7:30. A couple of minutes later, the warm light from the hall spilled out onto the gravel, someone gave me a hearty handshake, and a cheerful voice welcomed me to Dumbleton.
"And now, my dear fellow," said my host, when the first greeting was over, "you have no time to spare. We dine at eight, and there are people coming to meet you, so you must just get the dressing business over as quickly as may be. By the way, you will meet some acquaintances; the Biddulphs are coming, and Prendergast (Prendergast of the Skirmishers) is staying in the house. Adieu! Mrs. Jelf will be expecting you in the drawing-room."
"And now, my dear friend," said my host after the initial greeting, "you don’t have much time. We’re having dinner at eight, and there are people coming to meet you, so you need to wrap up getting ready as quickly as possible. By the way, you’ll see some familiar faces; the Biddulphs are coming, and Prendergast (Prendergast from the Skirmishers) is staying here. Goodbye! Mrs. Jelf will be waiting for you in the living room."
I was ushered to my room—not the blue room, of which Mr. Dwerrihouse had made disagreeable experience, but a pretty little bachelor's chamber, hung with a delicate chintz and made cheerful by a blazing fire. I unlocked my portmanteau. I tried to be expeditious, but the memory of my railway adventure haunted me. I could not get free of it; I could not shake it off. It impeded me, it worried me, it tripped me up, it caused me to mislay my studs, to mistie my cravat, to wrench the buttons off my gloves. Worst of all, it made me so late that the party had all assembled before I reached the drawing-room. I had scarcely paid my respects to Mrs. Jelf when dinner was announced, and we paired off, some eight or ten couples strong, into the dining-room.
I was shown to my room—not the blue room, which Mr. Dwerrihouse had a bad experience in, but a nice little bachelor’s room, decorated with a lovely chintz and brightened by a roaring fire. I opened my suitcase. I tried to be quick, but the memory of my train journey kept bothering me. I couldn't shake it off; it hung over me, stressed me out, caused me to fumble, made me lose my cuff links, mess up my tie, and rip the buttons off my gloves. Worst of all, I was so late that the group had already gathered by the time I reached the drawing-room. I had barely greeted Mrs. Jelf when dinner was announced, and we paired off, about eight or ten couples strong, heading into the dining room.
I am not going to describe either the guests or the dinner. All provincial parties bear the strictest family resemblance, and I am not aware that an East Anglian banquet offers any exception to the rule. There was the usual country baronet and his wife; there were the usual country parsons and their wives; there was the sempiternal turkey and haunch of venison. Vanitas vanitatum. There is nothing new under the sun.
I'm not going to describe the guests or the dinner. All provincial parties look pretty much the same, and I don't think an East Anglian banquet is any different. There was the typical country baronet and his wife; there were the usual country parsons and their wives; there was the eternal turkey and roast venison. Vanitas vanitatum. There's nothing new under the sun.
I was placed about midway down the table. I had taken one rector's wife down to dinner, and I had another at my left hand. They talked across me, and their talk was about babies; it was dreadfully dull. At length there came a pause. The entrées had just been removed, and the turkey had come upon the scene. The conversation had all along been of the languidest, but at this moment it happened to have stagnated altogether. Jelf was carving the turkey; Mrs. Jelf looked as if she was trying to think of something to say; everybody else was silent. Moved by an unlucky impulse, I thought I would relate my adventure.
I was seated about halfway down the table. I had taken one rector's wife to dinner, and I had another to my left. They chatted over me, and their conversation was about babies; it was incredibly boring. Eventually, there was a lull. The appetizers had just been cleared, and the turkey had arrived. The conversation had always been pretty dull, but at that moment, it completely ground to a halt. Jelf was carving the turkey; Mrs. Jelf looked like she was trying to think of something to say; everyone else was quiet. Driven by a sudden impulse, I decided to share my story.
"By the way, Jelf," I began, "I came down part of the way to-day with a friend of yours."
"By the way, Jelf," I started, "I walked part of the way today with a friend of yours."
"Indeed!" said the master of the feast, slicing scientifically into the breast of the turkey. "With whom, pray?"
"Absolutely!" said the host of the gathering, cutting expertly into the breast of the turkey. "With who, may I ask?"
"With one who bade me tell you that he should, if possible, pay you a visit before Christmas."
"Someone asked me to let you know that he hopes to visit you before Christmas, if he can."
"I can not think who that could be," said my friend, smiling.
"I can't think who that could be," my friend said with a smile.
"It must be Major Thorp," suggested Mrs. Jelf. I shook my head.
"It has to be Major Thorp," Mrs. Jelf suggested. I shook my head.
"It was not Major Thorp," I replied; "it was a near relation of your own, Mrs. Jelf."
"It wasn't Major Thorp," I said; "it was a close relative of yours, Mrs. Jelf."
"Then I am more puzzled than ever," replied my hostess. "Pray tell me who it was."
"Then I'm more confused than ever," my hostess replied. "Please tell me who it was."
"It was no less a person than your cousin, Mr. John Dwerrihouse."
"It was none other than your cousin, Mr. John Dwerrihouse."
Jonathan Jelf laid down his knife and fork. Mrs. Jelf looked at me in a strange, startled way, and said never a word.
Jonathan Jelf set down his knife and fork. Mrs. Jelf looked at me in a weird, surprised way, and didn't say anything.
"And he desired me to tell you, my dear madam, that you need not take the trouble to burn the hall down in his honor this time, but only to have the chimney of the blue room swept before his arrival."
"And he wanted me to tell you, my dear madam, that you don’t need to bother burning down the hall in his honor this time, but just make sure the chimney of the blue room is cleaned before he arrives."
Before I had reached the end of my sentence I became aware of something ominous in the faces of the guests. I felt I had said something which I had better have left unsaid, and that for some unexplained reason my words had evoked a general consternation. I sat confounded, not daring to utter another syllable, and for at least two whole minutes there was dead silence round the table. Then Captain Prendergast came to the rescue.
Before I finished my sentence, I noticed something unsettling in the guests' faces. I felt like I had said something I should have kept to myself, and for some unknown reason, my words had caused a wave of panic. I sat there stunned, too afraid to say anything else, and for at least two entire minutes, there was absolute silence around the table. Then Captain Prendergast stepped in to break the tension.
"You have been abroad for some months, have you not, Mr. Langford?" he said, with the desperation of one who flings himself into the breach. "I heard you had been to Russia. Surely you have something to tell us of the state and temper of the country after the war?"
"You've been overseas for a few months, right, Mr. Langford?" he said, with the urgency of someone diving into a situation headfirst. "I heard you went to Russia. You've got to have some insights on the mood and conditions of the country after the war?"
I was heartily grateful to the gallant Skirmisher for this diversion in my favor. I answered him, I fear, somewhat lamely; but he kept the conversation up, and presently one or two others joined in, and so the difficulty, whatever it might have been, was bridged over—bridged over, but not repaired. A something, an awkwardness, a visible constraint remained. The guests hitherto had been simply dull, but now they were evidently uncomfortable and embarrassed.
I was really grateful to the brave Skirmisher for this distraction on my behalf. I think I replied somewhat awkwardly, but he kept the conversation going, and soon one or two others joined in, so the issue, whatever it was, was smoothed over—smoothing it over, but not fixing it. There was still something, an awkwardness, a noticeable tension hanging in the air. The guests had been simply boring before, but now they were clearly uncomfortable and embarrassed.
The dessert had scarcely been placed upon the table when the ladies left the room. I seized the opportunity to select a vacant chair next Captain Prendergast.
The dessert had barely been put on the table when the ladies left the room. I took the chance to grab an empty chair next to Captain Prendergast.
"In Heaven's name," I whispered, "what was the matter just now? What had I said?"
"In Heaven's name," I whispered, "what was wrong just now? What did I say?"
"You mentioned the name of John Dwerrihouse."
"You mentioned John Dwerrihouse."
"What of that? I had seen him not two hours before."
"What about that? I had seen him only two hours earlier."
"It is a most astounding circumstance that you should have seen him," said Captain Prendergast. "Are you sure it was he?"
"It’s really surprising that you saw him," Captain Prendergast said. "Are you sure it was him?"
"As sure as of my own identity. We were talking all the way between London and Blackwater. But why does that surprise you?"
"As sure as I know who I am. We talked the whole way from London to Blackwater. But why does that surprise you?"
"Because," replied Captain Prendergast, dropping his voice to the lowest whisper—"because John Dwerrihouse absconded three months ago with seventy-five thousand pounds of the company's money, and has never been heard of since."
"Because," replied Captain Prendergast, dropping his voice to the lowest whisper—"because John Dwerrihouse disappeared three months ago with seventy-five thousand pounds of the company's money, and has never been seen since."
John Dwerrihouse had absconded three months ago—and I had seen him only a few hours back! John Dwerrihouse had embezzled seventy-five thousand pounds of the company's money, yet told me that he carried that sum upon his person! Were ever facts so strangely incongruous, so difficult to reconcile? How should he have ventured again into the light of day? How dared he show himself along the line? Above all, what had he been doing throughout those mysterious three months of disappearance?
John Dwerrihouse had run away three months ago—and I had just seen him a few hours ago! John Dwerrihouse had stolen seventy-five thousand pounds from the company's funds, yet he claimed he was carrying that amount on him! Were there ever facts that were so oddly mismatched, so hard to make sense of? How could he have dared to come back into the open? How could he show his face around here? Most importantly, what had he been doing during those three mysterious months of disappearing?
Perplexing questions these—questions which at once suggested themselves to the minds of all concerned, but which admitted of no easy solution. I could find no reply to them. Captain Prendergast had not even a suggestion to offer. Jonathan Jelf, who seized the first opportunity of drawing me aside and learning all that I had to tell, was more amazed and bewildered than either of us. He came to my room that night, when all the guests were gone, and we talked the thing over from every point of view; without, it must be confessed, arriving at any kind of conclusion.
These questions were really confusing—questions that immediately came to everyone's minds, but that had no easy answers. I couldn't find a response to them. Captain Prendergast didn’t have any suggestions either. Jonathan Jelf, who took the first chance to pull me aside and hear everything I had to say, was more shocked and lost than either of us. He came to my room that night, after all the guests had left, and we discussed the matter from every angle; however, I must admit, we didn't reach any sort of conclusion.
"I do not ask you," he said, "whether you can have mistaken your man. That is impossible."
"I’m not asking you," he said, "if you might have confused the guy. That’s not possible."
"As impossible as that I should mistake some stranger for yourself."
"As unlikely as it is that I would confuse some stranger for you."
"It is not a question of looks or voice, but of facts. That he should have alluded to the fire in the blue room is proof enough of John Dwerrihouse's identity. How did he look?"
"It’s not about appearance or voice, but about facts. That he mentioned the fire in the blue room is clear evidence of John Dwerrihouse's identity. What did he look like?"
"Older, I thought; considerably older, paler, and more anxious."
"Older, I thought; much older, paler, and more anxious."
"He has had enough to make him look anxious, anyhow," said my friend, gloomily, "be he innocent or guilty."
"He’s had enough to make him look anxious, anyway," my friend said gloomily, "whether he’s innocent or guilty."
"I am inclined to believe that he is innocent," I replied. "He showed no embarrassment when I addressed him, and no uneasiness when the guard came round. His conversation was open to a fault. I might almost say that he talked too freely of the business which he had in hand."
"I tend to think that he's innocent," I said. "He didn't seem embarrassed when I spoke to him and showed no signs of worry when the guard came by. His conversation was overly candid. I could almost say he talked too much about what he was dealing with."
"That again is strange, for I know no one more reticent on such subjects. He actually told you that he had the seventy-five thousand pounds in his pocket?"
"That's odd because I don't know anyone who is more reserved about these things. He really told you that he had seventy-five thousand pounds on him?"
"He did."
"He did."
"Humph! My wife has an idea about it, and she may be right—"
"Humph! My wife has some thoughts on it, and she might be right—"
"What idea?"
"What concept?"
"Well, she fancies—women are so clever, you know, at putting themselves inside people's motives—she fancies that he was tempted, that he did actually take the money, and that he has been concealing himself these three months in some wild part of the country, struggling possibly with his conscience all the time, and daring neither to abscond with his booty nor to come back and restore it."
"Well, she thinks—women are really good at figuring out other people's motives—you know, she thinks that he was tempted, that he actually took the money, and that he’s been hiding these past three months in some remote part of the country, possibly wrestling with his conscience the whole time, afraid to either run away with the money or return it."
"But now that he has come back?"
"But now that he's here?"
"That is the point. She conceives that he has probably thrown himself upon the company's mercy, made restitution of the money, and, being forgiven, is permitted to carry the business through as if nothing whatever had happened."
"That's the point. She figures that he probably relied on the company's mercy, paid back the money, and, having been forgiven, is allowed to run the business as if nothing had happened."
"The last," I replied, "is an impossible case. Mrs. Jelf thinks like a generous and delicate-minded woman, but not in the least like a board of railway directors. They would never carry forgiveness so far."
"The last," I replied, "is an impossible situation. Mrs. Jelf thinks like a kind and thoughtful woman, but not at all like a group of railway executives. They would never extend forgiveness that far."
"I fear not; and yet it is the only conjecture that bears a semblance of likelihood. However, we can run over to Clayborough to-morrow and see if anything is to be learned. By the way, Prendergast tells me you picked up his cigar-case."
"I’m not worried; still, it’s the only guess that seems somewhat plausible. However, we can head over to Clayborough tomorrow and see if we can find out anything. By the way, Prendergast mentioned that you picked up his cigar case."
"I did so, and here it is."
"I did that, and here it is."
Jelf took the cigar-case, examined it by the light of the lamp, and said at once that it was beyond doubt Mr. Dwerrihouse's property, and that he remembered to have seen him use it.
Jelf picked up the cigar case, looked it over in the lamp's light, and immediately said it definitely belonged to Mr. Dwerrihouse, and he recalled seeing him use it.
"Here, too, is his monogram on the side," he added—"a big J transfixing a capital D. He used to carry the same on his note-paper."
"Here, too, is his monogram on the side," he said—"a big J piercing through a capital D. He used to put the same one on his stationery."
"It offers, at all events, a proof that I was not dreaming."
"It definitely proves that I wasn’t dreaming."
"Ay, but it is time you were asleep and dreaming now. I am ashamed to have kept you up so long. Good-night."
"Yeah, but it’s time for you to be asleep and dreaming now. I’m sorry for keeping you up so long. Good night."
"Good-night, and remember that I am more than ready to go with you to Clayborough, or Blackwater, or London, or anywhere, if I can be of the least service."
"Good night, and remember that I'm fully ready to go with you to Clayborough, Blackwater, London, or anywhere else, if I can be of any help."
"Thanks! I know you mean it, old friend, and it may be that I shall put you to the test. Once more, good-night."
"Thanks! I know you really mean it, my old friend, and I might just put you to the test. Once again, goodnight."
So we parted for that night, and met again in the breakfast-room at half-past eight next morning. It was a hurried, silent, uncomfortable meal; none of us had slept well, and all were thinking of the same subject. Mrs. Jelf had evidently been crying, Jelf was impatient to be off, and both Captain Prendergast and myself felt ourselves to be in the painful position of outsiders who are involuntarily brought into a domestic trouble. Within twenty minutes after we had left the breakfast-table the dog-cart was brought round, and my friend and I were on the road to Clayborough.
So we said goodbye for the night and met again in the breakfast room at 8:30 the next morning. It was a rushed, silent, uncomfortable meal; none of us had slept well, and we were all thinking about the same thing. Mrs. Jelf had obviously been crying, Jelf was eager to leave, and both Captain Prendergast and I felt like uncomfortable outsiders caught up in a family issue. Within twenty minutes of finishing breakfast, the dog-cart was ready, and my friend and I were on our way to Clayborough.
"Tell you what it is, Langford," he said, as we sped along between the wintry hedges, "I do not much fancy to bring up Dwerrihouse's name at Clayborough. All the officials know that he is my wife's relation, and the subject just now is hardly a pleasant one. If you don't much mind, we will take the 11:10 to Blackwater. It's an important station, and we shall stand a far better chance of picking up information there than at Clayborough."
"Let me tell you, Langford," he said as we sped along the snowy hedges, "I really don't want to bring up Dwerrihouse's name at Clayborough. All the officials know he's my wife's relative, and right now that's not a pleasant topic. If you don't mind, let's take the 11:10 to Blackwater. It's a major station, and we’ll have a much better chance of getting information there than at Clayborough."
So we took the 11:10, which happened to be an express, and, arriving at Blackwater about a quarter before twelve, proceeded at once to prosecute our inquiry.
So we took the 11:10 train, which was an express, and, arriving at Blackwater around a quarter to twelve, immediately started our investigation.
We began by asking for the station-master, a big, blunt, business-like person, who at once averred that he knew Mr. John Dwerrihouse perfectly well, and that there was no director on the line whom he had seen and spoken to so frequently.
We started by asking for the station master, a large, straightforward, business-like person, who immediately stated that he knew Mr. John Dwerrihouse very well, and that there was no director on the line whom he had seen and talked to as often.
"He used to be down here two or three times a week about three months ago," said he, "when the new line was first set afoot; but since then, you know, gentlemen—"
"He used to come down here two or three times a week about three months ago," he said, "when the new line was first launched; but since then, you know, gentlemen—"
He paused significantly.
He paused dramatically.
Jelf flushed scarlet.
Jelf blushed bright red.
"Yes, yes," he said, hurriedly; "we know all about that. The point now to be ascertained is whether anything has been seen or heard of him lately."
"Yeah, yeah," he said quickly; "we're aware of all that. What we need to find out now is whether anyone has seen or heard from him recently."
"Not to my knowledge," replied the station-master.
"Not that I know of," replied the station-master.
"He is not known to have been down the line any time yesterday, for instance?"
"He wasn't seen down the line at all yesterday, right?"
The station-master shook his head.
The station master shook his head.
"The East Anglian, sir," said he, "is about the last place where he would dare to show himself. Why, there isn't a station-master, there isn't a guard, there isn't a porter, who doesn't know Mr. Dwerrihouse by sight as well as he knows his own face in the looking-glass, or who wouldn't telegraph for the police as soon as he had set eyes on him at any point along the line. Bless you, sir! there's been a standing order out against him ever since the 25th of September last."
"The East Anglian, sir," he said, "is pretty much the last place he’d risk appearing. I mean, there isn’t a stationmaster, a guard, or a porter who doesn’t recognize Mr. Dwerrihouse as well as he knows his own face in the mirror, or who wouldn’t call the police as soon as they spotted him anywhere along the line. Trust me, sir! There’s been a standing order against him since September 25th of last year."
"And yet," pursued my friend, "a gentleman who traveled down yesterday from London to Clayborough by the afternoon express testifies that he saw Mr. Dwerrihouse in the train, and that Mr. Dwerrihouse alighted at Blackwater station."
"And yet," my friend continued, "a guy who traveled down from London to Clayborough yesterday on the afternoon express claims he saw Mr. Dwerrihouse on the train, and that Mr. Dwerrihouse got off at Blackwater station."
"Quite impossible, sir," replied the station-master, promptly.
"That’s totally impossible, sir," replied the station-master quickly.
"Why impossible?"
"Why is it impossible?"
"Because there is no station along the line where he is so well known or where he would run so great a risk. It would be just running his head into the lion's mouth; he would have been mad to come nigh Blackwater station; and if he had come he would have been arrested before he left the platform."
"Because there’s no station along the line where he’s so well known or where he would risk so much. It would be like sticking his head right into the lion’s mouth; he would have been crazy to go anywhere near Blackwater station; and if he had gone, he would have been arrested before he even left the platform."
"Can you tell me who took the Blackwater tickets of that train?"
"Can you tell me who took the Blackwater tickets for that train?"
"I can, sir. It was the guard, Benjamin Somers."
"I can, sir. It was the guard, Benjamin Somers."
"And where can I find him?"
"And where can I find him?"
"You can find him, sir, by staying here, if you please, till one o'clock. He will be coming through with the up express from Crampton, which stays at Blackwater for ten minutes."
"You can find him, sir, by staying here, if you’d like, until one o'clock. He will be coming through on the express train from Crampton, which will stop at Blackwater for ten minutes."
We waited for the up express, beguiling the time as best we could by strolling along the Blackwater road till we came almost to the outskirts of the town, from which the station was distant nearly a couple of miles. By one o'clock we were back again upon the platform and waiting for the train. It came punctually, and I at once recognized the ruddy-faced guard who had gone down with my train the evening before.
We waited for the express train, passing the time as best we could by walking along the Blackwater road until we were almost at the edge of town, which was about two miles away from the station. By one o'clock, we were back on the platform waiting for the train. It arrived on time, and I instantly recognized the red-faced guard who had been with my train the night before.
"The gentlemen want to ask you something about Mr. Dwerrihouse, Somers," said the station-master, by way of introduction.
"The guys want to ask you something about Mr. Dwerrihouse, Somers," said the station-master, as a way of introducing them.
The guard flashed a keen glance from my face to Jelf's and back again to mine.
The guard shot a quick look from my face to Jelf's and then back to mine.
"Mr. John Dwerrihouse, the late director?" said he, interrogatively.
"Mr. John Dwerrihouse, the recently deceased director?" he asked, inquiringly.
"The same," replied my friend. "Should you know him if you saw him?"
"The same," my friend replied. "Would you recognize him if you saw him?"
"Anywhere, sir."
"Anywhere, sir."
"Do you know if he was in the 4:15 express yesterday afternoon?"
"Do you know if he was on the 4:15 express yesterday afternoon?"
"He was not, sir."
"He wasn't, sir."
"How can you answer so positively?"
"How can you respond so confidently?"
"Because I looked into every carriage and saw every face in that train, and I could take my oath that Mr. Dwerrihouse was not in it. This gentleman was," he added, turning sharply upon me. "I don't know that I ever saw him before in my life, but I remember his face perfectly. You nearly missed taking your seat in time at this station, sir, and you got out at Clayborough."
"Because I checked every carriage and saw every face in that train, and I can swear that Mr. Dwerrihouse wasn't on it. This guy was," he said, turning sharply to me. "I don't think I've ever seen him before, but I remember his face clearly. You almost missed getting your seat in time at this station, sir, and you got off at Clayborough."
"Quite true, guard," I replied; "but do you not also remember the face of the gentleman who traveled down in the same carriage with me as far as here?"
"That's true, guard," I replied; "but don’t you also remember the face of the guy who rode in the same carriage with me all the way here?"
"It was my impression, sir, that you traveled down alone," said Somers, with a look of some surprise.
"It seemed to me, sir, that you came down here by yourself," said Somers, looking a bit surprised.
"By no means. I had a fellow-traveler as far as Blackwater, and it was in trying to restore him the cigar-case which he had dropped in the carriage that I so nearly let you go on without me."
"Definitely not. I had a travel buddy until Blackwater, and it was while I was trying to return the cigar case he dropped in the carriage that I almost let you leave without me."
"I remember your saying something about a cigar-case, certainly," replied the guard; "but—"
"I remember you mentioning something about a cigar case, for sure," replied the guard; "but—"
"You asked for my ticket just before we entered the station."
"You asked for my ticket right before we went into the station."
"I did, sir."
"I did, sir."
"Then you must have seen him. He sat in the corner next the very door to which you came."
"Then you must have seen him. He was sitting in the corner right by the door you came in."
"No, indeed; I saw no one."
"No, really; I didn't see anyone."
I looked at Jelf. I began to think the guard was in the ex-director's confidence, and paid for his silence.
I looked at Jelf. I started to think that the guard was in the ex-director's trust and was being paid to keep quiet.
"If I had seen another traveler I should have asked for his ticket," added Somers. "Did you see me ask for his ticket, sir?"
"If I had seen another traveler, I would have asked for his ticket," Somers said. "Did you see me ask for his ticket, sir?"
"I observed that you did not ask for it, but he explained that by saying—" I hesitated. I feared I might be telling too much, and so broke off abruptly.
"I noticed that you didn’t ask for it, but he explained that by saying—" I paused. I worried I might be revealing too much, so I cut off suddenly.
The guard and the station-master exchanged glances. The former looked impatiently at his watch.
The guard and the station-master exchanged looks. The guard checked his watch, looking impatient.
"I am obliged to go on in four minutes more, sir," he said.
"I have to leave in four minutes, sir," he said.
"One last question, then." interposed Jelf, with a sort of desperation. "If this gentleman's fellow-traveler had been Mr. John Dwerrihouse, and he had been sitting in the corner next the door by which you took the tickets, could you have failed to see and recognize him?"
"One last question, then," Jelf interjected, sounding somewhat desperate. "If this gentleman's travel companion had been Mr. John Dwerrihouse, and he had been sitting in the corner by the door where you took the tickets, would you have missed seeing and recognizing him?"
"No, sir; it would have been quite impossible."
"No, sir; that would have been completely impossible."
"And you are certain you did not see him?"
"And are you sure you didn't see him?"
"As I said before, sir, I could take my oath I did not see him. And if it wasn't that I don't like to contradict a gentleman, I would say I could also take my oath that this gentleman was quite alone in the carriage the whole way from London to Clayborough. Why, sir," he added, dropping his voice so as to be inaudible to the station-master, who had been called away to speak to some person close by, "you expressly asked me to give you a compartment to yourself, and I did so. I locked you in, and you were so good as to give me something for myself."
"As I mentioned earlier, sir, I swear I didn’t see him. And if it weren’t for the fact that I don’t like to contradict a gentleman, I would say I could also swear that this gentleman was completely alone in the carriage the entire ride from London to Clayborough. You see, sir," he added, lowering his voice so the station-master, who had stepped away to talk to someone nearby, couldn’t hear, "you specifically asked me to give you a compartment to yourself, and I did just that. I locked you in, and you were kind enough to give me something for myself."
"Yes; but Mr. Dwerrihouse had a key of his own."
"Yes, but Mr. Dwerrihouse had his own key."
"I never saw him, sir; I saw no one in that compartment but yourself. Beg pardon, sir; my time's up."
"I never saw him, sir; I only saw you in that compartment. I’m sorry, sir; my time is up."
And with this the ruddy guard touched his cap and was gone. In another minute the heavy panting of the engine began afresh, and the train glided slowly out of the station.
And with that, the red-faced guard tipped his cap and disappeared. In another minute, the heavy breathing of the engine started up again, and the train slowly rolled out of the station.
We looked at each other for some moments in silence. I was the first to speak.
We stared at each other in silence for a few moments. I was the first to say something.
"Mr. Benjamin Somers knows more than he chooses to tell," I said.
"Mr. Benjamin Somers knows more than he's willing to share," I said.
"Humph! do you think so?"
"Really? Do you think so?"
"It must be. He could not have come to the door without seeing him; it's impossible."
"It has to be. He couldn't have come to the door without seeing him; that's impossible."
"There is one thing not impossible, my dear fellow."
"There is one thing that isn’t impossible, my dear friend."
"What is that?"
"What's that?"
"That you may have fallen asleep and dreamed the whole thing."
"Maybe you fell asleep and dreamed the entire thing."
"Could I dream of a branch line that I had never heard of? Could I dream of a hundred and one business details that had no kind of interest for me? Could I dream of the seventy-five thousand pounds?"
"Could I dream of a side track I’d never heard of? Could I dream of a hundred and one business details that didn’t interest me at all? Could I dream of seventy-five thousand pounds?"
"Perhaps you might have seen or heard some vague account of the affair while you were abroad. It might have made no impression upon you at the time, and might have come back to you in your dreams, recalled perhaps by the mere names of the stations on the line."
"Maybe you saw or heard some unclear version of the event while you were overseas. It might not have stuck with you then, but it could have resurfaced in your dreams, triggered perhaps by just the names of the train stations."
"What about the fire in the chimney of the blue room—should I have heard of that during my journey?"
"What about the fire in the chimney of the blue room—should I have known about that while I was traveling?"
"Well, no; I admit there is a difficulty about that point."
"Well, no; I admit there's a challenge with that."
"And what about the cigar-case?"
"And what about the cigar case?"
"Ay, by Jove! there is the cigar-case. That is a stubborn fact. Well, it's a mysterious affair, and it will need a better detective than myself, I fancy, to clear it up. I suppose we may as well go home."
"Yeah, by Jove! there's the cigar case. That's a tough fact. Well, it's a strange situation, and I think it'll take a better detective than me to figure it out. I guess we might as well head home."
A week had not gone by when I received a letter from the secretary of the East Anglian Railway Company, requesting the favor of my attendance at a special board meeting not then many days distant. No reasons were alleged and no apologies offered for this demand upon my time, but they had heard, it was clear, of my inquiries anent the missing director, and had a mind to put me through some sort of official examination upon the subject. Being still a guest at Dumbleton Hall, I had to go up to London for the purpose, and Jonathan Jelf accompanied me. I found the direction of the Great East Anglian line represented by a party of some twelve or fourteen gentlemen seated in solemn conclave round a huge green baize table, in a gloomy boardroom adjoining the London terminus.
A week hadn't passed when I got a letter from the secretary of the East Anglian Railway Company, asking me to attend a special board meeting that was coming up soon. They didn’t give any reasons or apologies for this request, but it was clear they had heard about my inquiries regarding the missing director and wanted to put me through some kind of official questioning on the matter. Since I was still a guest at Dumbleton Hall, I had to go to London for this, and Jonathan Jelf came with me. I found the leadership of the Great East Anglian line gathered with about twelve or fourteen men sitting in a serious meeting around a large green table in a dim boardroom next to the London station.
Being courteously received by the chairman (who at once began by saying that certain statements of mine respecting Mr. John Dwerrihouse had come to the knowledge of the direction, and that they in consequence desired to confer with me on those points), we were placed at the table, and the inquiry proceeded in due form.
Being warmly welcomed by the chairman (who immediately stated that some of my comments about Mr. John Dwerrihouse had reached the management, and they therefore wanted to discuss those issues with me), we were seated at the table, and the inquiry continued as expected.
I was first asked if I knew Mr. John Dwerrihouse, how long I had been acquainted with him, and whether I could identify him at sight. I was then asked when I had seen him last. To which I replied: "On the 4th of this present month, December, 1856." Then came the inquiry of where I had seen him on that fourth day of December; to which I replied that I met him in a first-class compartment of the 4:15 down express, that he got in just as the train was leaving the London terminus, and that he alighted at Blackwater station. The chairman then inquired whether I had held any communication with my fellow-traveler; whereupon I related, as nearly as I could remember it, the whole bulk and substance of Mr. John Dwerrihouse's diffuse information respecting the new branch line.
I was first asked if I knew Mr. John Dwerrihouse, how long I had known him, and if I could recognize him at a glance. I was then asked when I had last seen him, to which I replied, “On the 4th of this month, December 1856.” Then came the question of where I had seen him on that December 4th; I responded that I encountered him in a first-class compartment of the 4:15 down express, that he got on just as the train was leaving the London station, and that he got off at Blackwater station. The chairman then asked if I had had any conversation with my fellow traveler; I proceeded to share, as accurately as I could remember, everything Mr. John Dwerrihouse had told me about the new branch line.
To all this the board listened with profound attention, while the chairman presided and the secretary took notes. I then produced the cigar-case. It was passed from hand to hand, and recognized by all. There was not a man present who did not remember that plain cigar-case with its silver monogram, or to whom it seemed anything less than entirely corroborative of my evidence. When at length I had told all that I had to tell, the chairman whispered something to the secretary; the secretary touched a silver hand-bell, and the guard, Benjamin Somers, was ushered into the room. He was then examined as carefully as myself. He declared that he knew Mr. John Dwerrihouse perfectly well, that he could not be mistaken in him, that he remembered going down with the 4:15 express on the afternoon in question, that he remembered me, and that, there being one or two empty first-class compartments on that especial afternoon, he had, in compliance with my request, placed me in a carriage by myself. He was positive that I remained alone in that compartment all the way from London to Clayborough. He was ready to take his oath that Mr. Dwerrihouse was neither in that carriage with me, nor in any compartment of that train. He remembered distinctly to have examined my ticket at Blackwater; was certain that there was no one else at that time in the carriage; could not have failed to observe a second person, if there had been one; had that second person been Mr. John Dwerrihouse should have quietly double-locked the door of the carriage and have at once given information to the Blackwater station-master. So clear, so decisive, so ready, was Somers with this testimony, that the board looked fairly puzzled.
The board listened intently as the chairman led the meeting and the secretary took notes. I then brought out the cigar case. It was passed around and everyone recognized it. There wasn't a single person present who didn't remember that plain cigar case with its silver monogram, or who thought it was anything less than solid proof of my testimony. Once I had shared everything I needed to, the chairman whispered something to the secretary, who rang a silver handbell, and the guard, Benjamin Somers, was brought into the room. He was examined just as thoroughly as I had been. He stated that he knew Mr. John Dwerrihouse very well, that he was sure about him, and that he remembered taking the 4:15 express on the afternoon in question. He recalled me and mentioned that since there were one or two empty first-class compartments that day, he had, at my request, placed me in a carriage alone. He was certain that I stayed by myself in that compartment all the way from London to Clayborough. He was willing to swear that Mr. Dwerrihouse was neither in that carriage with me nor in any compartment of that train. He distinctly remembered checking my ticket at Blackwater; was sure that no one else was in the carriage at that time; couldn't have missed seeing a second person if there had been one; and if that second person had been Mr. John Dwerrihouse, he would have quietly double-locked the carriage door and immediately informed the Blackwater station-master. Somers's testimony was so clear, so convincing, and so ready that the board looked genuinely confused.
"You hear this person's statement, Mr. Langford," said the chairman. "It contradicts yours in every particular. What have you to say in reply?"
"You've heard this person's statement, Mr. Langford," said the chairman. "It contradicts yours completely. What do you have to say in response?"
"I can only repeat what I said before. I am quite as positive of the truth of my own assertions as Mr. Somers can be of the truth of his."
"I can only reiterate what I said earlier. I'm just as sure of the truth of my statements as Mr. Somers is about the truth of his."
"You say that Mr. Dwerrihouse alighted at Blackwater, and that he was in possession of a private key. Are you sure that he had not alighted by means of that key before the guard came round for the tickets?"
"You say that Mr. Dwerrihouse got off at Blackwater, and that he had a private key. Are you sure he didn't use that key to get off before the guard came around for the tickets?"
"I am quite positive that he did not leave the carriage till the train had fairly entered the station, and the other Blackwater passengers alighted. I even saw that he was met there by a friend."
"I’m pretty sure he didn’t get out of the train until it had fully pulled into the station, and the other Blackwater passengers had gotten off. I even saw him being greeted by a friend there."
"Indeed! Did you see that person distinctly?"
"Seriously! Did you see that person clearly?"
"Quite distinctly."
"Very clearly."
"Can you describe his appearance?"
"Can you describe how he looks?"
"I think so. He was short and very slight, sandy-haired, with a bushy mustache and beard, and he wore a closely fitting suit of gray tweed, His age I should take to be about thirty-eight or forty."
"I think so. He was short and very slim, with sandy hair, a bushy mustache, and a beard, and he wore a tight-fitting gray tweed suit. I’d guess he was around thirty-eight or forty."
"Did Mr. Dwerrihouse leave the station in this person's company?"
"Did Mr. Dwerrihouse leave the station with this person?"
"I can not tell. I saw them walking together down the platform, and then I saw them standing aside under a gas-jet, talking earnestly. After that I lost sight of them quite suddenly, and just then my train went on, and I with it."
"I can't say. I saw them walking together down the platform, and then I saw them standing off to the side under a gaslight, talking seriously. After that, I lost sight of them really quickly, and just then my train left, and I was on it."
The chairman and secretary conferred together in an undertone. The directors whispered to one another. One or two looked suspiciously at the guard. I could see that my evidence remained unshaken, and that, like myself, they suspected some complicity between the guard and the defaulter.
The chairperson and secretary spoke quietly together. The directors murmured among themselves. A couple of them eyed the guard with suspicion. I noticed that my evidence was still solid, and like me, they seemed to suspect some kind of involvement between the guard and the person who defaulted.
"How far did you conduct that 4:15 express on the day in question, Somers?" asked the chairman.
"How far did you drive the 4:15 express on that day, Somers?" asked the chairman.
"All through, sir," replied the guard, "from London to Crampton."
"All the way, sir," replied the guard, "from London to Crampton."
"How was it that you were not relieved at Clayborough? I thought there was always a change of guards at Clayborough."
"How come you weren't relieved at Clayborough? I thought there was always a guard change at Clayborough."
"There used to be, sir, till the new regulations came in force last midsummer, since when the guards in charge of express trains go the whole way through."
"There used to be, sir, until the new rules came into effect last summer, since then the guards in charge of express trains go all the way through."
The chairman turned to the secretary.
The chairman looked at the secretary.
"I think it would be as well," he said, "if we had the day-book to refer to upon this point."
"I think it would be a good idea," he said, "if we had the journal to refer to on this matter."
Again the secretary touched the silver hand-bell, and desired the porter in attendance to summon Mr. Raikes. From a word or two dropped by another of the directors I gathered that Mr. Raikes was one of the under-secretaries.
Again the secretary rang the silver hand-bell and asked the porter on duty to call Mr. Raikes. From a word or two mentioned by another director, I gathered that Mr. Raikes was one of the assistant secretaries.
He came, a small, slight, sandy-haired, keen-eyed man, with an eager, nervous manner, and a forest of light beard and mustache. He just showed himself at the door of the board-room, and, being requested to bring a certain day-book from a certain shelf in a certain room, bowed and vanished.
He arrived, a small, slender man with sandy hair and sharp eyes, displaying an eager, nervous demeanor, along with a bushy light beard and mustache. He only appeared at the door of the boardroom, and after being asked to fetch a specific day-book from a particular shelf in a certain room, he nodded and disappeared.
He was there such a moment, and the surprise of seeing him was so great and sudden, that it was not till the door had closed upon him that I found voice to speak. He was no sooner gone, however, than I sprang to my feet.
He was there for a moment, and the shock of seeing him was so intense and unexpected that it wasn’t until the door had closed behind him that I was able to speak. As soon as he left, though, I jumped to my feet.
"That person," I said, "is the same who met Mr. Dwerrihouse upon the platform at Blackwater!"
"That person," I said, "is the one who met Mr. Dwerrihouse on the platform at Blackwater!"
There was a general movement of surprise. The chairman looked grave and somewhat agitated.
There was a collective reaction of shock. The chairman looked serious and a bit restless.
"Take care, Mr. Langford," he said; "take care what you say."
"Be careful, Mr. Langford," he said; "watch what you say."
"I am as positive of his identity as of my own."
"I am just as sure of his identity as I am of my own."
"Do you consider the consequences of your words? Do you consider that you are bringing a charge of the gravest character against one of the company's servants?"
"Do you think about the impact of your words? Do you realize that you're making a serious accusation against one of the company's employees?"
"I am willing to be put upon my oath, if necessary. The man who came to that door a minute since is the same whom I saw talking with Mr. Dwerrihouse on the Blackwater platform. Were he twenty times the company's servant, I could say neither more nor less."
"I’m ready to take an oath if needed. The guy who just came to that door is the same one I saw talking to Mr. Dwerrihouse on the Blackwater platform. Even if he were the company’s servant a hundred times over, I couldn’t say anything more or less."
The chairman turned again to the guard.
The chairman looked back at the guard again.
"Did you see Mr. Raikes in the train or on the platform?" he asked.
"Did you see Mr. Raikes on the train or at the station?" he asked.
Somers shook his head.
Somers shook his head.
"I am confident Mr. Raikes was not in the train," he said, "and I certainly did not see him on the platform."
"I’m sure Mr. Raikes wasn’t on the train," he said, "and I definitely didn’t see him on the platform."
The chairman turned next to the secretary.
The chairman then turned to the secretary.
"Mr. Raikes is in your office, Mr. Hunter," he said. "Can you remember if he was absent on the 4th instant?"
"Mr. Raikes is in your office, Mr. Hunter," he said. "Do you remember if he was absent on the 4th?"
"I do not think he was," replied the secretary, "but I am not prepared to speak positively. I have been away most afternoons myself lately, and Mr. Raikes might easily have absented himself if he had been disposed."
"I don't think he was," replied the secretary, "but I'm not ready to say for sure. I've been away most afternoons myself lately, and Mr. Raikes could easily have been absent if he wanted to."
At this moment the under-secretary returned with the day-book under his arm.
At that moment, the under-secretary came back with the daybook tucked under his arm.
"Be pleased to refer, Mr. Raikes," said the chairman, "to the entries of the 4th instant, and see what Benjamin Somers's duties were on that day."
"Please take a look, Mr. Raikes," said the chairman, "at the records from the 4th and see what Benjamin Somers's tasks were that day."
Mr. Raikes threw open the cumbrous volume, and ran a practised eye and finger down some three or four successive columns of entries. Stopping suddenly at the foot of a page, he then read aloud that Benjamin Somers had on that day conducted the 4:15 express from London to Crampton.
Mr. Raikes opened the heavy book and quickly scanned a few columns of entries with his eye and finger. He suddenly stopped at the bottom of a page and read aloud that Benjamin Somers had operated the 4:15 express from London to Crampton that day.
The chairman leaned forward in his seat, looked the under-secretary full in the face, and said, quite sharply and suddenly:
The chairman leaned forward in his seat, looked the under-secretary straight in the eye, and said, quite abruptly and sharply:
"And where were you, Mr. Raikes, on the same afternoon?"
"And where were you, Mr. Raikes, that same afternoon?"
"I, sir?"
"Me, sir?"
"You, Mr. Raikes. Where were you on the afternoon and evening of the 4th of the present month?"
"You, Mr. Raikes. Where were you on the afternoon and evening of the 4th of this month?"
"Here, sir, in Mr. Hunter's office. Where else should I be?"
"Here, sir, in Mr. Hunter's office. Where else would I be?"
There was a dash of trepidation in the under-secretary's voice as he said this, but his look of surprise was natural enough.
There was a hint of nervousness in the under-secretary's voice as he said this, but his look of surprise was completely understandable.
"We have some reason for believing, Mr. Raikes, that you were absent that afternoon without leave. Was this the case?"
"We have some reason to believe, Mr. Raikes, that you were absent that afternoon without permission. Is that true?"
"Certainly not, sir. I have not had a day's holiday since September. Mr. Hunter will bear me out in this."
"Definitely not, sir. I haven’t had a day off since September. Mr. Hunter can confirm this."
Mr. Hunter repeated what he had previously said on the subject, but added that the clerks in the adjoining office would be certain to know. Whereupon the senior clerk, a grave, middle-aged person in green glasses, was summoned and interrogated.
Mr. Hunter repeated what he had said before on the topic, but added that the clerks in the nearby office would surely know. At that, the senior clerk, a serious middle-aged man in green glasses, was called in and questioned.
His testimony cleared the under-secretary at once. He declared that Mr. Raikes had in no instance, to his knowledge, been absent during office hours since his return from his annual holiday in September.
His testimony cleared the under-secretary immediately. He stated that Mr. Raikes hadn’t been absent during office hours at any point, to his knowledge, since he came back from his annual vacation in September.
I was confounded. The chairman turned to me with a smile, in which a shade of covert annoyance was scarcely apparent.
I was baffled. The chairman turned to me with a smile, in which a hint of hidden annoyance was barely noticeable.
"You hear, Mr. Langford?" he said.
"You hear me, Mr. Langford?" he said.
"I hear, sir; but my conviction remains unshaken."
"I hear you, sir; but I'm still convinced."
"I fear, Mr. Langford, that your convictions are very insufficiently based," replied the chairman, with a doubtful cough. "I fear that you 'dream dreams,' and mistake them for actual occurrences. It is a dangerous habit of mind, and might lead to dangerous results. Mr. Raikes here would have found himself in an unpleasant position had he not proved so satisfactory an alibi."
"I’m afraid, Mr. Langford, that your beliefs are not based on solid grounds," replied the chairman, with an uncertain cough. "I worry that you 'dream dreams' and confuse them with real events. That’s a risky way of thinking, and it could lead to serious consequences. Mr. Raikes here could have ended up in a tough spot if he hadn't provided such a convincing alibi."
I was about to reply, but he gave me no time.
I was about to respond, but he didn't give me a chance.
"I think, gentlemen," he went on to say, addressing the board, "that we should be wasting time to push this inquiry further. Mr. Langford's evidence would seem to be of an equal value throughout. The testimony of Benjamin Somers disproves his first statement, and the testimony of the last witness disproves his second. I think we may conclude that Mr. Langford fell asleep in the train on the occasion of his journey to Clayborough, and dreamed an unusually vivid and circumstantial dream, of which, however, we have now heard quite enough."
"I think, gentlemen," he continued, addressing the board, "that pushing this inquiry further would just be a waste of time. Mr. Langford's evidence seems equally flawed. Benjamin Somers’ testimony contradicts his first statement, and the last witness' testimony contradicts his second. I believe we can conclude that Mr. Langford fell asleep on the train during his trip to Clayborough and had an unusually vivid and detailed dream, of which we have heard more than enough by now."
There are few things more annoying than to find one's positive convictions met with incredulity. I could not help feeling impatience at the turn that affairs had taken. I was not proof against the civil sarcasm of the chairman's manner. Most intolerable of all, however, was the quiet smile lurking about the corners of Benjamin Somers's mouth, and the half-triumphant, half-malicious gleam in the eyes of the under-secretary. The man was evidently puzzled and somewhat alarmed. His looks seemed furtively to interrogate me. Who was I? What did I want? Why had I come there to do him an ill turn with his employers? What was it to me whether or no he was absent without leave?
There are few things more frustrating than having your strong beliefs met with disbelief. I couldn't help but feel impatient with how things had unfolded. I wasn't immune to the polite sarcasm in the chairman's manner. Most annoying of all, though, was the slight smile playing at the corners of Benjamin Somers's mouth and the half-triumphant, half-mean glint in the under-secretary's eyes. The man clearly looked confused and a bit worried. His expression seemed to question me silently. Who was I? What did I want? Why was I there to cause trouble for his bosses? Why did it matter to me if he was AWOL?
Seeing all this, and perhaps more irritated by it than the thing deserved, I begged leave to detain the attention of the board for a moment longer. Jelf plucked me impatiently by the sleeve.
Seeing all this, and maybe more annoyed by it than it warranted, I asked to keep the board’s attention for just a moment longer. Jelf tugged at my sleeve impatiently.
"Better let the thing drop," he whispered. "The chairman's right enough; you dreamed it, and the less said now the better."
"Better let it go," he whispered. "The chairman is right; you imagined it, and the less said now, the better."
I was not to be silenced, however, in this fashion. I had yet something to say, and I would say it. It was to this effect: that dreams were not usually productive of tangible results, and that I requested to know in what way the chairman conceived I had evolved from my dream so substantial and well-made a delusion as the cigar-case which I had had the honor to place before him at the commencement of our interview.
I wasn't going to be silenced like that. I still had something to say, and I would say it. Basically, I pointed out that dreams usually don't lead to real outcomes, and I wanted to know how the chairman thought I had turned my dream into such a solid and well-crafted illusion as the cigar case that I had the honor of presenting to him at the start of our meeting.
"The cigar-case, I admit, Mr. Langford," the chairman replied, "is a very strong point in your evidence. It is your only strong point, however, and there is just a possibility that we may all be misled by a mere accidental resemblance. Will you permit me to see the case again?"
"The cigar case, I have to say, Mr. Langford," the chairman replied, "is a really compelling piece of evidence. However, it’s your only solid point, and there's a chance we could be misled by a simple coincidence. Can I take a look at the case again?"
"It is unlikely," I said, as I handed it to him, "that any other should bear precisely this monogram, and yet be in all other particulars exactly similar."
"It’s unlikely," I said, as I handed it to him, "that anyone else would have exactly this monogram and still be the same in every other way."
The chairman examined it for a moment in silence, and then passed it to Mr. Hunter. Mr. Hunter turned it over and over, and shook his head.
The chairman looked at it quietly for a moment before handing it to Mr. Hunter. Mr. Hunter examined it from every angle and then shook his head.
"This is no mere resemblance," he said. "It is John Dwerrihouse's cigar-case to a certainty. I remember it perfectly; I have seen it a hundred times."
"This isn't just a coincidence," he said. "It's definitely John Dwerrihouse's cigar case. I remember it clearly; I've seen it a hundred times."
"I believe I may say the same," added the chairman; "yet how account for the way in which Mr. Langford asserts that it came into his possession?"
"I think I can say the same," added the chairman; "but how do we explain the way Mr. Langford claims he acquired it?"
"I can only repeat," I replied, "that I found it on the floor of the carriage after Mr. Dwerrihouse had alighted. It was in leaning out to look after him that I trod upon it, and it was in running after him for the purpose of restoring it that I saw, or believed I saw, Mr. Raikes standing aside with him in earnest conversation."
"I can only say again," I responded, "that I found it on the floor of the carriage after Mr. Dwerrihouse got out. I stepped on it while leaning out to look for him, and it was when I ran after him to return it that I saw, or thought I saw, Mr. Raikes standing next to him having a serious conversation."
Again I felt Jonathan Jelf plucking at my sleeve.
Again I felt Jonathan Jelf tugging at my sleeve.
"Look at Raikes," he whispered; "look at Raikes!"
"Check out Raikes," he whispered; "check out Raikes!"
I turned to where the under-secretary had been standing a moment before, and saw him, white as death, with lips trembling and livid, stealing toward the door.
I looked over to where the under-secretary had been standing just a moment ago and saw him, as pale as a ghost, with trembling, pale lips, sneaking toward the door.
To conceive a sudden, strange, and indefinite suspicion, to fling myself in his way, to take him by the shoulders as if he were a child, and turn his craven face, perforce, toward the board, were with me the work of an instant.
To come up with a quick, weird, and vague suspicion, to throw myself in his path, to grab him by the shoulders as if he were a kid, and forcefully turn his cowardly face toward the board was, for me, a task that took only a moment.
"Look at him!" I exclaimed. "Look at his face! I ask no better witness to the truth of my words."
"Look at him!" I exclaimed. "Check out his face! I can’t ask for a better witness to the truth of what I'm saying."
The chairman's brow darkened.
The chairman frowned.
"Mr. Raikes," he said, sternly, "if you know anything you had better speak."
"Mr. Raikes," he said firmly, "if you know anything, you should just say it."
Vainly trying to wrench himself from my grasp, the under-secretary stammered out an incoherent denial.
Vainly trying to pull himself away from my hold, the under-secretary stammered an unclear denial.
"Let me go," he said. "I know nothing—you have no right to detain me—let me go!"
"Let me go," he said. "I don't know anything—you have no right to hold me—let me go!"
"Did you, or did you not, meet Mr. John Dwerrihouse at Blackwater station? The charge brought against you is either true or false. If true, you will do well to throw yourself upon the mercy of the board and make full confession of all that you know."
"Did you meet Mr. John Dwerrihouse at Blackwater station or not? The accusation against you is either true or false. If it's true, you should ask for the board's mercy and confess everything you know."
The under-secretary wrung his hands in an agony of helpless terror.
The under-secretary nervously rubbed his hands together, overwhelmed with a sense of helpless fear.
"I was away!" he cried. "I was two hundred miles away at the time! I know nothing about it—I have nothing to confess—I am innocent—I call God to witness I am innocent!"
"I was gone!" he shouted. "I was two hundred miles away when it happened! I don't know anything about it—I have nothing to confess—I am innocent—I swear to God I am innocent!"
"Two hundred miles away!" echoed the chairman. "What do you mean?"
"Two hundred miles away!" the chairman exclaimed. "What do you mean?"
"I was in Devonshire. I had three weeks' leave of absence—I appeal to Mr. Hunter—Mr. Hunter knows I had three weeks' leave of absence! I was in Devonshire all the time; I can prove I was in Devonshire!"
"I was in Devon. I had three weeks off—I’m asking Mr. Hunter—Mr. Hunter knows I had three weeks off! I was in Devon the whole time; I can prove I was in Devon!"
Seeing him so abject, so incoherent, so wild with apprehension, the directors began to whisper gravely among themselves, while one got quietly up and called the porter to guard the door.
Seeing him so miserable, so confused, so panicked, the directors started to whisper seriously among themselves, while one quietly stood up and called the porter to watch the door.
"What has your being in Devonshire to do with the matter?" said the chairman. "When were you in Devonshire?"
"What does your time in Devonshire have to do with this?" asked the chairman. "When were you in Devonshire?"
"Mr. Raikes took his leave in September," said the secretary, "about the time when Mr. Dwerrihouse disappeared."
"Mr. Raikes left in September," said the secretary, "around the time when Mr. Dwerrihouse went missing."
"I never even heard that he had disappeared till I came back!"
"I didn't even know he had gone missing until I got back!"
"That must remain to be proved," said the chairman. "I shall at once put this matter in the hands of the police. In the meanwhile, Mr. Raikes, being myself a magistrate and used to deal with these cases, I advise you to offer no resistance, but to confess while confession may yet do you service. As for your accomplice—"
"That still needs to be proven," said the chairman. "I'll immediately hand this matter over to the police. In the meantime, Mr. Raikes, since I’m a magistrate and familiar with these cases, I advise you not to resist and to confess while it can still work in your favor. As for your accomplice—"
The frightened wretch fell upon his knees.
The scared person dropped to his knees.
"I had no accomplice!" he cried. "Only have mercy upon me—only spare my life, and I will confess all! I didn't mean to harm him! I didn't mean to hurt a hair of his head! Only have mercy upon me, and let me go!"
"I had no partner in crime!" he shouted. "Just have mercy on me—just spare my life, and I'll confess everything! I never wanted to hurt him! I never meant to lay a finger on him! Just have mercy on me and let me go!"
The chairman rose in his place, pale and agitated. "Good heavens!" he exclaimed, "what horrible mystery is this? What does it mean?"
The chairman stood up, looking pale and upset. "Good heavens!" he shouted, "what terrible mystery is this? What does it mean?"
"As sure as there is a God in heaven," said Jonathan Jelf, "it means that murder has been done."
"As sure as there is a God in heaven," Jonathan Jelf said, "it means that a murder has taken place."
"No! no! no!" shrieked Raikes, still upon his knees, and cowering like a beaten hound. "Not murder! No jury that ever sat could bring it in murder. I thought I had only stunned him—I never meant to do more than stun him! Manslaughter—manslaughter—not murder!"
"No! No! No!" screamed Raikes, still on his knees, and cowering like a whipped dog. "Not murder! No jury that ever sat would call it murder. I thought I only knocked him out—I never meant to do anything more than that! Manslaughter—manslaughter—not murder!"
Overcome by the horror of this unexpected revelation, the chairman covered his face with his hand and for a moment or two remained silent.
Overwhelmed by the shock of this surprise revelation, the chairman covered his face with his hand and stayed silent for a moment or two.
"Miserable man," he said at length, "you have betrayed yourself."
"Miserable man," he finally said, "you have betrayed yourself."
"You bade me confess! You urged me to throw myself upon the mercy of the board!"
"You told me to confess! You pushed me to rely on the board's mercy!"
"You have confessed to a crime which no one suspected you of having committed," replied the chairman, "and which this board has no power either to punish or forgive. All that I can do for you is to advise you to submit to the law, to plead guilty, and to conceal nothing. When did you do this deed?"
"You've admitted to a crime that no one thought you committed," replied the chairman, "and this board can't punish or forgive you for it. All I can do is advise you to face the law, plead guilty, and not hide anything. When did you do this?"
The guilty man rose to his feet, and leaned heavily against the table. His answer came reluctantly, like the speech of one dreaming.
The guilty man got up and leaned heavily against the table. His answer came slowly, like someone talking in a dream.
"On the 22d of September."
"On September 22."
On the 22d of September! I looked in Jonathan Jelf's face, and he in mine. I felt my own paling with a strange sense of wonder and dread. I saw his blanch suddenly, even to the lips.
On September 22nd, I looked into Jonathan Jelf's face, and he looked into mine. I felt my own go pale with a weird mix of wonder and fear. I saw his suddenly turn white, even his lips.
"Merciful heaven!" he whispered. "What was it, then, that you saw in the train?"
"Merciful heaven!" he whispered. "What did you see on the train?"
What was it that I saw in the train? That question remains unanswered to this day. I have never been able to reply to it. I only know that it bore the living likeness of the murdered man, whose body had then been lying some ten weeks under a rough pile of branches and brambles and rotting leaves, at the bottom of a deserted chalk-pit about half-way between Blackwater and Mallingford. I know that it spoke and moved and looked as that man spoke and moved and looked in life; that I heard, or seemed to hear, things related which I could never otherwise have learned; that I was guided, as it were, by that vision on the platform to the identification of the murderer; and that, a passive instrument myself, I was destined, by means of these mysterious teachings, to bring about the ends of justice. For these things I have never been able to account.
What did I see on the train? That question still has no answer to this day. I’ve never been able to figure it out. I only know that it looked exactly like the murdered man, whose body had been lying for about ten weeks under a rough pile of branches, brambles, and rotting leaves at the bottom of an abandoned chalk-pit about halfway between Blackwater and Mallingford. I know that it spoke and moved and looked just like that man did when he was alive; that I heard, or thought I heard, things related that I could never have learned otherwise; that I was somehow led by that vision on the platform to identify the murderer; and that, being just a passive observer, I was meant, through these mysterious insights, to help bring about justice. I have never been able to make sense of any of this.
As for that matter of the cigar-case, it proved, on inquiry, that the carriage in which I traveled down that afternoon to Clayborough had not been in use for several weeks, and was, in point of fact, the same in which poor John Dwerrihouse had performed his last journey. The case had doubtless been dropped by him, and had lain unnoticed till I found it.
As for the cigar case, it turned out, upon checking, that the carriage I took down to Clayborough that afternoon hadn’t been used for several weeks and was actually the same one poor John Dwerrihouse took for his last trip. He must have dropped the case, and it had been sitting there unnoticed until I found it.
Upon the details of the murder I have no need to dwell. Those who desire more ample particulars may find them, and the written confession of Augustus Raikes, in the files of the "Times" for 1856. Enough that the under-secretary, knowing the history of the new line, and following the negotiation step by step through all its stages, determined to waylay Mr. Dwerrihouse, rob him of the seventy-five thousand pounds, and escape to America with his booty.
Upon the details of the murder, I have no need to spend time. Those who want more information can find it, along with the written confession of Augustus Raikes, in the "Times" archives for 1856. It's enough to say that the under-secretary, aware of the new line's history and tracking the negotiation at every stage, decided to ambush Mr. Dwerrihouse, steal the seventy-five thousand pounds, and flee to America with his ill-gotten gains.
In order to effect these ends he obtained leave of absence a few days before the time appointed for the payment of the money, secured his passage across the Atlantic in a steamer advertised to start on the 23d, provided himself with a heavily loaded "life-preserver," and went down to Blackwater to await the arrival of his victim. How he met him on the platform with a pretended message from the board, how he offered to conduct him by a short cut across the fields to Mallingford, how, having brought him to a lonely place, he struck him down with the life-preserver, and so killed him, and how, finding what he had done, he dragged the body to the verge of an out-of-the-way chalk-pit, and there flung it in and piled it over with branches and brambles, are facts still fresh in the memories of those who, like the connoisseurs in De Quincey's famous essay, regard murder as a fine art. Strangely enough, the murderer, having done his work, was afraid to leave the country. He declared that he had not intended to take the director's life, but only to stun and rob him; and that, finding the blow had killed, he dared not fly for fear of drawing down suspicion upon his own head. As a mere robber he would have been safe in the States, but as a murderer he would inevitably have been pursued and given up to justice. So he forfeited his passage, returned to the office as usual at the end of his leave, and locked up his ill-gotten thousands till a more convenient opportunity. In the meanwhile he had the satisfaction of finding that Mr. Dwerrihouse was universally believed to have absconded with the money, no one knew how or whither.
To achieve these goals, he took a leave of absence a few days before the scheduled payment of the money, booked his passage across the Atlantic on a steamer set to depart on the 23rd, equipped himself with a heavy "life-preserver," and went down to Blackwater to wait for his target. How he met him on the platform with a fake message from the board, how he offered to take him on a shortcut across the fields to Mallingford, how, after bringing him to a secluded spot, he struck him with the life-preserver, killing him, and how, realizing what he had done, he dragged the body to the edge of a remote chalk-pit, where he tossed it in and covered it with branches and brambles, are details that are still vividly remembered by those who, much like the connoisseurs in De Quincey's famous essay, view murder as a fine art. Strangely enough, after committing the act, the murderer was too afraid to leave the country. He claimed he hadn’t meant to kill the director but only to stun and rob him; and when he discovered the blow had been fatal, he felt too threatened to flee, fearing it would raise suspicion against him. As just a robber, he would have been safe in the States, but as a murderer, he would undoubtedly be hunted down and brought to justice. So, he forfeited his ticket, returned to the office as usual at the end of his leave, and locked away his ill-gotten money until a better opportunity came. In the meantime, he took satisfaction in knowing that Mr. Dwerrihouse was widely believed to have vanished with the money, with no one knowing how or where.
Whether he meant murder or not, however, Mr. Augustus Raikes paid the full penalty of his crime, and was hanged at the Old Bailey in the second week in January, 1857. Those who desire to make his further acquaintance may see him any day (admirably done in wax) in the Chamber of Horrors at Madame Tussaud's exhibition, in Baker Street. He is there to be found in the midst of a select society of ladies and gentlemen of atrocious memory, dressed in the close-cut tweed suit which he wore on the evening of the murder, and holding in his hand the identical life-preserver with which he committed it.
Whether he intended to kill or not, Mr. Augustus Raikes faced the full consequences of his actions and was hanged at the Old Bailey in the second week of January, 1857. Those who want to know more about him can see a lifelike wax figure of him any day in the Chamber of Horrors at Madame Tussaud's exhibition on Baker Street. He can be found among a select group of infamous people, dressed in the tailored tweed suit he wore on the night of the murder, and holding the very life-preserver he used to commit the act.
OUR LAST WALK
BY HUGH CONWAY
BY HUGH CONWAY
Frederick John Fargus (born 1847, died 7885), writing under the pen-name of Hugh Conway, lived to enjoy but one year of literary fame as the author of "Called Back," a melodramatic novelette of strikingly clever conception and powerful narrative style. The qualities which distinguish this book are to be found in his other stories, a number of which, including the present selection, were published in the year preceding and that following his untimely death.
Frederick John Fargus (born 1847, died 1885), writing under the pen name Hugh Conway, experienced just one year of literary fame as the author of "Called Back," a melodramatic novelette with a brilliantly clever concept and powerful narrative style. The traits that set this book apart can also be found in his other stories, several of which, including this selection, were published in the year leading up to and following his premature death.
OUR LAST WALK
OUR FINAL WALK
By HUGH CONWAY
By HUGH CONWAY
If I wished to tell a love tale, I should begin this with the sweetest memories of my life, and relate when and where Walter Linton and I first met; should describe my pride and happiness when I knew that he wished me to become his wife. The love we bore each other through life—ay, even after life—may be made manifest as I write these lines, but it is not because I loved him I have this tale to tell. Other women have loved as I love, and have mourned as I mourn: my life, so far as the joy and grief of it go, is but the life of thousands.
If I wanted to tell a love story, I would start with the sweetest memories of my life and share when and where Walter Linton and I first met; I would describe my pride and happiness when I realized he wanted me to be his wife. The love we had for each other throughout our lives—yes, even after life—can be felt as I write these words, but it's not just because I loved him that I have this story to share. Other women have loved as I love and have grieved as I grieve: my life, in terms of its joy and sorrow, is just like the lives of thousands.
Had Walter Linton, when first he asked me for the heart which was already his own, been but a poor, struggling man, I should have given him all as freely as I did then. If need had been, I could have waited patiently for years, or until fortune smiled upon him. Feeling this, I had no false sentiment as to sharing the worldly good that was his, although I was a penniless girl and brought nothing in my hands. Of course, kind friends around wondered why Walter did not choose a wife who would bring him wealth as well as love. Ah, no one could have given him more love than I could give him; that was all he wanted or asked for. He was twenty-three, and his own master; I was twenty, and utterly alone in this world. So we were married—just six weeks after that happy spring day on which he told me I was dearest to him.
If Walter Linton, when he first asked me for the heart that was already his, had been just a poor, struggling man, I would have given him everything as freely as I did then. If necessary, I could have waited patiently for years, or until fortune smiled on him. Knowing this, I didn’t feel any false notions about sharing the worldly goods that were his, even though I was a penniless girl and brought nothing with me. Naturally, kind friends wondered why Walter didn’t choose a wife who could bring him wealth as well as love. But no one could have given him more love than I could; that was all he wanted or asked for. He was twenty-three and in charge of his own life; I was twenty and completely alone in this world. So, we got married—just six weeks after that happy spring day when he told me I was the dearest to him.
Our home—a dear gray old house, full of pleasant corners—was Draycot Hall, Somersetshire, not far from the Mendip Hills. Walter had recently inherited the house and the estates of Draycot, and when we took possession of our kingdom, which was almost as new to Walter as it was to me, life seemed to hold all that could be desired. Walter's income was sufficient for the life of a quiet country gentleman—a life to which he settled down, and appeared to find every wish gratified in that happy existence. Shooting, fishing, and hunting gave him plenty of amusement, and the land, part of which he farmed himself, brought occupation and interest enough to make him feel that his life was not altogether an idle or useless one.
Our home—a charming old gray house filled with cozy spots—was Draycot Hall in Somersetshire, not far from the Mendip Hills. Walter had recently inherited the house and the Draycot estates, and when we moved into our new kingdom, which was almost as unfamiliar to Walter as it was to me, life felt like it had everything we could want. Walter's income was enough for the lifestyle of a laid-back country gentleman—a life he settled into and seemed to genuinely enjoy. Shooting, fishing, and hunting provided him with plenty of fun, and the land, part of which he managed himself, gave him enough work and interest to make him feel that his life wasn’t entirely idle or pointless.
Then, to make our happiness complete, the children came—a girl, then one, two, three bonny boys. How merry and busy the old house grew with them, the sturdy rogues! How proud Walter was of them!
Then, to make our happiness complete, the kids came—a girl, then one, two, three lively boys. How cheerful and bustling the old house became with them, the little rascals! How proud Walter was of them!
We were not very rich people. Compared to that of some of our county neighbors, our income was insignificant. Draycot Hall, although not such an imposing pile as the name might suggest, was by no means a small house; and, like all rambling old places, cost a good deal of money to keep up. Even when we began life together we found, at the end of the year, that our expenditure and income nearly tallied, and as expenses increased with an increasing family, we felt that a few hundreds added to our revenue would be a very welcome addition. But in spite of this our lot was too happy for us to think of grumbling.
We weren't very wealthy. Compared to some of our neighboring families, our income was pretty small. Draycot Hall, while not as grand as the name might imply, was definitely not a small house; and like all old, sprawling places, it cost a lot to maintain. Even when we started our life together, we noticed at the end of the year that our expenses and income were almost equal, and as our family grew, our costs increased. We felt that a few hundred extra dollars would be a really nice boost to our finances. But despite this, we were too happy to complain.
We sat one summer's evening on the lawn. The air was cooled by late fallen rain, and sweet with fragrance rising from the freshened flowers—for days were long and petals not yet closed. Our latest given child slept on my knee; and, as we watched the sun sink slowly down behind the Mendip Hills, my husband said:
We sat on the lawn one summer evening. The air was cool from the recent rain and filled with the sweet scent of fresh flowers, since the days were long and their petals were still open. Our youngest child was sleeping on my lap, and as we watched the sun slowly set behind the Mendip Hills, my husband said:
"Helena, how shall we manage to start all these boys in life?"
"Helena, how are we going to help all these boys get started in life?"
I laughed at such a distant obligation. We were still young, and it seemed that so many years must pass before the baby on my knee would want a starting hand. I kissed the child's little white fingers.
I laughed at such a far-off responsibility. We were still young, and it felt like many years would go by before the baby on my lap would need a helping hand. I kissed the child’s tiny white fingers.
"Why, Walter," I said, "you are looking a long, long way into the future."
"Why, Walter," I said, "you’re looking far into the future."
"Yes, my girl; but days happy as ours pass very quickly. It will not seem so long before we shall be obliged to think about it. What shall we do then? We save no money even now, you know. By-and-by we must send these babies to school; after that they will want money to help them on in professions. How are we to do all this? Our income won't increase."
"Yes, my girl; but happy days like ours go by so fast. It won't be long before we have to think about it. What are we going to do then? We aren't saving any money even now, you know. Eventually, we have to send these kids to school; after that, they'll need money to support them in their careers. How are we supposed to manage all this? Our income isn't going to increase."
"We must try and economize," I answered, impressed by the really serious view he took.
"We need to be frugal," I replied, struck by the genuinely serious perspective he had.
"But how? As it is, we can scarcely make both ends meet. I am afraid I am selfish in living as I do. I have serious thought of going into some business and trying to make a fortune."
"But how? As it stands, we can barely make ends meet. I worry that I'm being selfish by living this way. I've been seriously thinking about starting a business and trying to make a fortune."
I begged, beseeched him to dismiss the wild idea. Were we not happy enough with all we now possessed? Why change our mode of life, which was so peaceful and sweet? Besides, in my heart of hearts I doubted if my good, easy-going Walter was quite fitted for a commercial career. He kissed me as I pleaded eloquently for a continuation of our present happiness, and for a time the subject dropped.
I begged him to forget that crazy idea. Were we not happy enough with what we had? Why change our comfortable and sweet way of life? Besides, deep down, I doubted if my easy-going Walter was really suited for a business career. He kissed me as I passionately asked for us to keep enjoying our current happiness, and for a while, the topic was dropped.
Yet I could see, from remarks he now and again made, that the thought lingered in his mind, and I began to fear lest, some day, he might put it into practical shape, when the anxieties attendant on money-making or money-losing might be ours.
Yet I could see, from comments he occasionally made, that the idea stayed on his mind, and I started to worry that one day he might turn it into reality, when the stresses of making or losing money might be ours.
It was some months after our conversation that old Reuben Dyke, a well-known character in the village of Draycot, came to the Hall. He wanted to see the master on important business, he said. This old Reuben was the greatest gossip of the place—the ale-house oracle—meddler in every one's business, and unsolicited adviser-in-general to the little world around him. He was a great authority among the villagers, many of whom would have backed his opinion against the united wisdom of a Daniel and a Solomon. His talk and broad Somerset accent always amused us, and, it may be, insured him a better reception than his virtues merited.
A few months after our conversation, old Reuben Dyke, a well-known figure in the village of Draycot, came to the Hall. He said he needed to see the master about something important. Old Reuben was the biggest gossip in town—the go-to person at the pub—always interfering in everyone else's business, and offering unsolicited advice to the small community around him. He was a major authority among the villagers, many of whom would have taken his opinion over the combined wisdom of Daniel and Solomon. His chatter and strong Somerset accent always entertained us and, perhaps, earned him a warmer welcome than his character truly deserved.
To-day he entered the room with an indescribable look of mystery and secrecy on his shrewd old face. He carefully closed the door after him and bade us a respectful good-day. Then, drawing quite close to us, he spoke in guarded whispers.
Today he walked into the room with an indescribable look of mystery and secrecy on his shrewd old face. He carefully closed the door behind him and politely greeted us. Then, leaning in closer, he spoke in hushed whispers.
"I be jest come, zur, to tell 'ee as ther' have a-bin a chap a staayin' at the Blue Boar vor the last two or dree daays. Mebby, zur, as you've a zeed un about—a darkish, picket-noased zort of a chap."
"I just came, sir, to let you know that there’s been a guy staying at the Blue Boar for the last two or three days. Maybe, sir, you’ve seen him—he’s a darkish, crooked-nosed sort of guy."
"Yes, I saw him," answered Walter. "What about him?"
"Yeah, I saw him," Walter replied. "What’s up with him?"
"Now, look here, zur. None o' we couldn't at vust miake out what a wer' up to. He yent one o' them outrides, you zee. He werdn't lookin' aater shopkippers. He were a ferretin' about aater land. Zo we up and ax'd un what a farm a wer' aater, or if a did want to buy any land hereabouts? He laughed and zed, zes he, 'We be gwain to make a raailroad right up droo theese yer valley.' Zes I, 'I hoap my head won't yache till we do get a raailwaay on Mendip, vor that is a devilish poor country.' 'True,' zes he; 'but there be a lot o' coal jest under—along Havyat Green and Upper Langford.' Zes I, 'Zo I've a-heerd;' and then I zeed in a minute which waay the cat wer' jumpin'. He werdn't gwain to make nar a raailwaay; he wanted to zenk a coal-pit, and get howld o' zome land under false pretenses. Zo, if I wer' you, zur, and if I wer' Mr. Llewellyn, I should jest keep my eyes open; vor I shouldn't wonder if, one o' thease here daays, he won't be along and offer 'ee a hundred and fifty a yacre vor some o' your poorest land. But my advice to you, zur, is—doan't 'ee zell it—not vor double the money."
"Now, listen up, sir. None of us could figure out what he was up to at first. He wasn't one of those surveyors, you see. He wasn't looking after shopkeepers. He was poking around after land. So we asked him what kind of farm he was after, or if he wanted to buy any land around here. He laughed and said, 'We're going to build a railroad right through this valley.' I said, 'I hope my head won't ache until we get a railway on Mendip, because that is a really poor area.' 'True,' he said; 'but there's a lot of coal just underneath—around Havyat Green and Upper Langford.' I said, 'So I've heard;' and then I realized quickly which way the wind was blowing. He wasn't going to build a railroad; he wanted to sink a coal mine and get hold of some land under false pretenses. So, if I were you, sir, and if I were Mr. Llewellyn, I would keep my eyes open; I wouldn't be surprised if, one of these days, he comes along and offers you a hundred and fifty an acre for some of your poorest land. But my advice to you, sir, is—don't sell it—not even for double the money."
After this important communication, Reuben bowed himself out; retiring probably to the kitchen, in order that he might regale himself with meat and drink and our servants with the latest village gossip. Walter and I sat digesting his news.
After this important conversation, Reuben excused himself; likely heading to the kitchen to enjoy some food and drinks while sharing the latest village gossip with our servants. Walter and I sat there absorbing his news.
"I wonder if there can be any truth in it," said Walter. "I'll go down to-morrow and see that fellow at the inn, and ask him pointblank about it."
"I wonder if there's any truth to it," said Walter. "I'll go down tomorrow and talk to that guy at the inn, and ask him directly about it."
But on the morrow the fellow at the inn was there no longer. He had departed and left no address. The landlord only knew him as plain Mr. Smith. We never saw or heard of him again—whatever his errand may have been, it was not revealed to us; but, nevertheless, old Reuben's conjecture as to the object of his sojourn at the Blue Boar quite unsettled Walter's mind. The thought that untold wealth might be lying under our very feet was always present to it, and at last he resolved to employ experts who were competent to give an opinion on the matter, and settle our hopes and doubts.
But the next day, the guy at the inn was gone. He had left without leaving any contact information. The landlord only knew him as Mr. Smith. We never saw or heard from him again—whatever he was there for was never revealed to us; however, old Reuben's guess about why he stayed at the Blue Boar really troubled Walter. The idea that hidden treasure might be right beneath us was always on his mind, and eventually, he decided to hire experts who could weigh in on the situation and help us resolve our hopes and uncertainties.
So, very soon, we were visited by Captain Thomas Davies, of Aberfellteg, and Captain Davies Thomas, of Cwmtygwyn, two gentlemen whose strangely accented English, redundant with such words as "Inteet" and "Inteet to coodness," was a source of great amusement and enjoyment to each of us. They inspected, diagnosed, experimented, and then reported. My poor dear love! shall I ever forget your excitement, your joy, as we perused together that glowing joint production? What wealth you dreamed of and counted up! Not, I know, that you wished for riches for your own sake—it was for the sake of wife and children that the desire of acquiring a large fortune obtained such a hold on you. Ah me! how certain, how clear and straightforward it all seemed! Had not the mining captains calculated, with an accuracy that seemed infallible, every ton of coal that lay hidden beneath our green fields? Did not their figures prove beyond dispute the profit each ton raised must bring? After every contingency had been guarded against, what read like Aladdin's wealth lay waiting for us to stoop down, take, and enjoy. Why should we not do so?
So, very soon, we were visited by Captain Thomas Davies from Aberfellteg and Captain Davies Thomas from Cwmtygwyn, two gentlemen whose oddly accented English, filled with phrases like "Inteet" and "Inteet to coodness," was a great source of amusement and enjoyment for all of us. They inspected, diagnosed, experimented, and then reported back. My poor dear love! Will I ever forget your excitement, your joy, as we looked over that impressive joint production together? What wealth you dreamed of and tallied up! I know you didn’t desire riches for yourself—it was for the wife and kids that the wish to acquire a large fortune took such a hold on you. Ah, how certain, how clear and straightforward it all seemed! Hadn’t the mining captains calculated, with what seemed like perfect accuracy, every ton of coal hidden beneath our green fields? Didn’t their figures undeniably show the profit each ton would bring? After considering every possible risk, what looked like Aladdin's treasure was waiting for us to reach down, take, and enjoy. Why shouldn't we do that?
Then other gentlemen came to our quiet home—legal gentlemen—gentlemen who were called financiers—gentlemen learned, very learned, it seemed to me, in acreages, crops, and soils. Old safes were unlocked, old plans and musty deeds extracted from their recesses. I heard the word "Mortgage" frequently; and Walter told me he had resolved to share his promised wealth with no one. He would work the projected mines solely on his own account; but, in order to begin operations, money was needful; so he had arranged with the two financial gentlemen, Messrs. Leach and Vincent, of Bristol, that such sums of money as were necessary should be advanced to him upon the security of his estate. And these gentlemen applauded Walter's courageous resolution, and everything went so pleasantly.
Then other gentlemen came to our quiet home—legal experts—guys who were called financiers—smart, very smart, it seemed to me, about land, crops, and soil types. Old safes were opened, and dusty plans and old deeds were pulled out from their hiding places. I heard the word "Mortgage" a lot; and Walter told me he decided to keep his promised wealth to himself. He would work the planned mines entirely on his own; but to get started, he needed money, so he made arrangements with the two financial guys, Messrs. Leach and Vincent, from Bristol, to lend him the necessary funds secured by his estate. And these gentlemen praised Walter's bold decision, and everything went smoothly.
Then the digging began!
Then the excavation started!
Oh, how I hated it! From the very first I hated it! Not only did it spoil one of our prettiest fields—the one where the children gathered earliest cowslips—but it brought strange faces and rough forms to the quiet, sleepy little village. Men and women of a very different type to that of laborers round about. Slatternly untidy women and strong, surly men who knew not the traditions of the land. Men who were supposed to beat their wives once a week, and who, we knew, played havoc with our neighbors' costly preserves. Men who worked hard—very hard—and insisted upon that work being highly paid for—who spent so large a proportion of those hard-earned wages in drink, that the landlords of the opposition village inns actually shook hands in their unexpected prosperity; whilst our kind, old, easy-going rector fairly cried at the way in which his new and unwelcome parishioners were demoralizing the old ones, and old Reuben Dyke seemed to look almost patronizingly upon us, as two deserving young people helped to fortune by his great sagacity and wisdom.
Oh, how I hated it! From the very beginning, I hated it! Not only did it ruin one of our prettiest fields—the one where the kids picked cowslips first—but it brought unfamiliar faces and rough characters to our quiet, sleepy little village. Men and women who were nothing like the local laborers. Disheveled women and tough, grumpy men who didn’t know the traditions of the area. Men who were said to hit their wives once a week and who, we knew, made a mess of our neighbors' expensive preserves. Men who worked really hard—very hard—and demanded to be paid well for it—who spent so much of their hard-earned wages on booze that the landlords of the rival village pubs actually celebrated their unexpected success; while our kind, easy-going rector was pretty much in tears over how his new and unwelcome parishioners were corrupting the old ones, and old Reuben Dyke seemed to look at us almost condescendingly, as if we were two deserving young people fortunate enough to be guided by his great wisdom.
So it went on, month after month; yet I saw no signs of the advent of that promised wealth. So far as I could understand it, the seam of coal hit upon by those clever captains was a failure. It broke, or dipped, or something else; so the continuation had to be sought elsewhere. Thereupon Captains Thomas Davies and Davies Thomas came over again, inspected again, and reported so cheerfully that Walter's face lost that look of anxiety which I had lately seen upon it, and he pushed on the work more briskly than before.
It went on like this, month after month; yet I saw no signs of the promised wealth coming in. As far as I could tell, the coal seam discovered by those savvy captains wasn’t successful. It either broke, dipped, or something else happened; so they had to look for it in a different place. Then Captains Thomas Davies and Davies Thomas came back again, inspected things once more, and reported with such optimism that Walter’s anxious expression disappeared and he pushed the work forward more energetically than before.
Then they told me the right seam had been found—Walter was radiant. Out of the first money gained he would send Thomas Davies and Davies Thomas a hundred pounds apiece, as an extra recognition due to their skill and good counsel. Larger sums than before were furnished by our financial friends, who came to the Hall once or twice, and were, I thought, very rude and familiar in their manner. Machinery and engines were erected, more men engaged, and in time great black heaps began to accumulate, and grimy black faces met me at every turn. Our peaceful and beautiful home was so changed that I began almost to loathe what had once been the dearest spot on earth to me, and to long for change of air and scene.
Then they told me the right seam had been found—Walter was glowing with happiness. From the first profits, he planned to send Thomas Davies and Davies Thomas a hundred pounds each, as an extra acknowledgment of their skill and good advice. Our financial backers provided larger sums than before, coming to the Hall once or twice, and I thought they were quite rude and too familiar in their behavior. Machinery and engines were set up, more workers were hired, and soon great black piles started to build up, with grimy black faces greeting me at every turn. Our once peaceful and beautiful home had changed so much that I began to almost loathe what had once been the most beloved place on earth to me, and I started to crave a change of scenery and fresh air.
Money seemed always being paid away—large sums that frightened me. But was I not only a woman, who knew nothing of business?
Money always seemed to be disappearing—huge amounts that scared me. But wasn't I just a woman who knew nothing about business?
Yet all these grievances were nothing to the grief I felt at seeing the change in my darling's face. Every week I noticed an alteration. Gradually a cloud of care seemed settling down on his once gay nature, and I knew his mind was anxious and ill at ease. He grew thinner; his dark hair showed signs of premature grayness; his sleep was often restless and unfreshing. Though now, as he ever had been, kind and gentle to me, at times with others he was moody, silent, and evidently worried. All the brightness of youth appeared to be leaving him, so much so that my heart ached to see him, and I felt I could bear it no longer. I would learn the worst he had to tell me, claiming my right as a true wife to share trouble as well as joy with my husband.
Yet all these complaints were nothing compared to the sadness I felt at seeing the change in my beloved's face. Every week, I noticed a shift. Gradually, a weight of worry seemed to settle on his once cheerful nature, and I knew his mind was anxious and uneasy. He grew thinner; his dark hair started to show signs of early graying; his sleep was often restless and unrefreshing. Although he was still kind and gentle with me, at times he was moody, quiet, and clearly troubled around others. The brightness of youth seemed to be fading from him, so much so that my heart ached to see him, and I felt I couldn’t take it any longer. I had to find out the worst he had to tell me, claiming my right as a true wife to share both trouble and joy with my husband.
The confidence I was resolved to claim came unasked for. One evening Walter returned home and threw himself into a chair, apparently utterly broken down. He covered his eyes with his hands and sobbed bitterly.
The confidence I was determined to embrace came without asking. One evening, Walter came home and collapsed into a chair, clearly feeling defeated. He covered his eyes with his hands and cried hard.
I knelt at his side and my arms were round him. Then he told me all—I need not give the details. The bare truth was this: After all the money spent, the coal raised was of such a poor quality that every ton sold was sold at a loss. And more money than I had ever imagined had been expended. Of course he had been cheated—I knew he was being cheated the moment I saw the faces of the men who had lent him the money he wanted; but there was no help for it now. Messrs. Leach and Vincent claimed, for advances, costs and interest, the enormous sum of close upon ten thousand pounds. Walter had just come from Bristol, where these men carried on business, and after a stormy interview with them, had been informed that unless the amount was paid by Saturday, house, lands, and everything would be at once advertised for sale—and to-day was Wednesday!
I knelt beside him and wrapped my arms around him. Then he shared everything with me—I won’t go into the details. The main point was this: after all the money spent, the coal produced was such bad quality that every ton sold resulted in a loss. And more money had been spent than I ever thought possible. Of course, he had been cheated—I knew he was being taken advantage of the moment I saw the expressions on the faces of the men who had lent him the money he needed; but there was nothing we could do now. Messrs. Leach and Vincent were demanding an enormous sum of nearly ten thousand pounds for advances, costs, and interest. Walter had just returned from Bristol, where these men operated, and after a heated meeting with them, he was told that if the amount wasn’t paid by Saturday, house, land, and everything else would be put up for sale—and today was Wednesday!
I knew nothing of law; but, even to my ignorance, this sudden demand and swift procedure seemed unusual.
I knew nothing about the law, but even to my lack of knowledge, this sudden demand and quick process felt off.
"But can they do it?" I asked.
"But can they really do it?" I asked.
"Yes, I am afraid they can. Months ago, when they made me a large advance, they gave me notice to pay the mortgage off. It was a mere matter of form, they said; but now they will act upon it. They are thorough-going rogues, and I believe have some scheme in their heads by which they fancy it possible to get absolute possession of the whole estate."
"Yes, I'm afraid they can. Months ago, when they gave me a big advance, they told me to pay off the mortgage. They said it was just a formality, but now they’re going to actually do something about it. They’re complete crooks, and I think they’ve got some plan in mind that they believe will let them take full control of the entire estate."
"But, Walter dear, the estate must be worth thousands more than that amount."
"But, Walter, honey, the estate has to be worth thousands more than that."
"Oh yes, I can get the money easily enough. But not in three days. It will cut me to the heart even to see it all advertised, although doubtless the sale may be stopped."
"Oh yeah, I can get the money pretty easily. But not in three days. It will hurt me to even see it all advertised, although I'm sure the sale can be stopped."
"Why not go to that nice old gentleman, Mr. Mainwaring?" I suggested. "You always call him your family solicitor. He will help you, I am sure."
"Why not go talk to that nice old gentleman, Mr. Mainwaring?" I suggested. "You always call him your family lawyer. He’ll help you, I’m sure."
"That is just what I intend doing. I shall go to London to-morrow, and show him exactly how I stand, and beg as a great favor that I may have the money at once. When I return I will give orders for all the men to be discharged and the machinery sold. There shall be an end of it before it makes an end of me."
"That's exactly what I'm going to do. I'm heading to London tomorrow to let him know where I stand and to ask him as a huge favor to give me the money right away. When I get back, I'll make sure all the men are let go and the machinery is sold. This will be over before it puts me under."
I was almost hysterical with joy as I heard his last words.
I was nearly bursting with happiness when I heard his final words.
"Oh, my love!" I cried. "It will all come right with us yet. We are after all only half ruined. We can let the Hall and go abroad for several years. Don't trouble about it any more. If you could only know how happy I am to think I shall have you back once again, all to myself as of old, you would be happy too. We will live in some quiet French or Swiss town, and be everything to one another again."
"Oh, my love!" I said. "Everything will work out for us. We're only partially lost. We can rent out the Hall and travel abroad for a few years. Don't stress about it anymore. If you only knew how happy I am to think I’ll have you back all to myself like before, you would be happy too. We will live in a quiet French or Swiss town and be everything to each other again."
So I talked to him and comforted him, until he grew more composed, and, kissing me, owned that life was still worth having, even if shorn of half its wealth.
So I talked to him and reassured him until he calmed down, and, after kissing me, admitted that life was still worth living, even without half of its riches.
That night I slept more happily than I had slept for months.
That night, I slept more soundly than I had in months.
The morning's post brought a letter from Leach and Vincent. It was couched in legal terms, and stated that unless the amount due was paid in notes or gold by Saturday at noon, they would take the threatened steps. Walter at once despatched a telegram, saying the money would be paid, and requesting that the necessary release might be prepared in order to avoid any delay. Then he started for London, in quest of ten thousand pounds.
The morning mail brought a letter from Leach and Vincent. It was filled with legal jargon and stated that unless the amount owed was paid in cash or gold by Saturday at noon, they would take the actions they threatened. Walter immediately sent a telegram, saying the money would be paid, and asked for the necessary release to be prepared to avoid any delays. Then he headed to London to find ten thousand pounds.
I had little fear as to the result of his expedition. I can read faces; and long ago I had read in Mr. Mainwaring's face the kindness of his disposition. I knew he was rich, and that his clients were also rich men; moreover, he had a high opinion of Walter, and held him in what might almost be termed affection. When he congratulated me upon my marriage, he told me, in unmistakable words, what he thought of my husband. So I was not surprised when, on the Friday evening, Walter returned with a semblance of the old joyous smile on his face; and, after locking a pocketful of bank-notes in the safe, sat down by me, and for the rest of the evening built airy castles, or rather cottages, full of peacefulness and love.
I wasn’t worried about the outcome of his trip. I can read people well, and I had noticed a long time ago that Mr. Mainwaring had a kind nature. I knew he was wealthy, and that his clients were also well-off; plus, he thought highly of Walter and had what could almost be called an affection for him. When he congratulated me on my marriage, he made it clear how he felt about my husband. So, I wasn’t surprised when Walter came back on Friday evening wearing a version of his old, joyful smile. After putting a pocketful of banknotes in the safe, he sat down next to me, and for the rest of the night, he dreamed up fancy plans for a future filled with peace and love.
When I awoke next morn, my heart was light; trouble, it seemed, had been, but passed away so swiftly that its traces scarce remained. I threw the window open, and the fresh, sweet air of spring brought gladness on its wings. The honeysuckle, old and great, that clothed the wall beneath my window, just gave signs of breaking into blossom; leaning out, I plucked some sprays and pinned them in my dress. A thrush sung from a bush below; my heart kept echoing his notes of love and joy. What cared I for the money, or its loss? Should I not have my own love back again, and watch his face regain its old bright look of health and happiness? Passed by his side, and with our children round, would not my life be pleasant in some quaint old town of France? And we would live so carefully, and save money as years went on, until some day might bring us to the dear old Hall again. Unhappy?—no! few moments in my life had happier been than these.
When I woke up the next morning, I felt lighthearted; trouble seemed to have passed so quickly that barely any traces were left. I threw open the window, and the fresh, sweet air of spring brought joy with it. The old honeysuckle that covered the wall beneath my window was just starting to bloom; I leaned out, picked some sprigs, and pinned them to my dress. A thrush sang from a bush below, and my heart echoed his notes of love and happiness. What did I care about money or its loss? Wouldn’t I get my love back and see his face regain its cheerful look of health and happiness? With him by my side and our kids around us, wouldn’t my life be lovely in some charming old town in France? We would live frugally and save money over the years, until one day, we might return to the dear old Hall again. Unhappy?—no! I’d had few moments in my life that were happier than these.
And Walter was cheerful. He would soon be out of the clutches of his obliging friends. The shock was over. He had told me what had been gnawing at his heart for so long; he was now looking his troubles fairly in the face, and, as usually happens, found them not so terrible in aspect as he had imagined. He buttoned his bank-notes in his breast-pocket and started for the railway station. He felt better and stronger to-day, and, as the morning was so beautifully fine, was tempted to walk the five miles, instead of driving, as he usually did.
And Walter was in good spirits. He would soon be free from the grasp of his helpful friends. The shock had passed. He had shared what had been troubling him for so long; he was now confronting his issues directly, and, as often happens, found them not so daunting as he had thought. He tucked his cash into his breast pocket and headed for the train station. He felt better and stronger today, and since the morning was so lovely, he was tempted to walk the five miles instead of taking a drive like he usually did.
We were early risers, so he had plenty of time, and I thought the walk would do him good. Perhaps it was the feeling of newly restored confidence—perfect and true—which now existed between us that made his farewell to me that morning even more affectionate than it was wont to be—made him insist upon having all the children brought down, and taking many a kiss from those little rosy pursed-up lips—made him pause when he reached the furthest point to which my eyes could follow him, and turning, waft me one more farewell.
We were early birds, so he had plenty of time, and I thought a walk would be good for him. Maybe it was the feeling of renewed confidence—perfect and genuine—that existed between us that made his goodbye to me that morning even warmer than usual. He insisted on having all the kids brought down and took kisses from those little rosy lips. He paused when he got to the furthest point I could see him and turned back to send me one last goodbye.
I should have walked with him, at any rate, part of the way; but household duties had to be attended to; so, after watching his tall figure disappear at the turning of the drive, I reentered the house, hoping that the day would pass quickly, and hasten the evening which would bring him back again.
I should have walked with him, at least part of the way; but I had household chores to take care of. So, after watching his tall figure disappear around the bend in the driveway, I went back inside, hoping the day would go by quickly and that evening would come soon so he could return.
Months and months ago I had promised a friend, who sighed in far-away lands for English fields again, to make, this spring, a little collection of dried ferns and send it to her. The anxiety of the last few months had driven the promise from my mind, but as, this morning, I pictured our own projected emigration, my thoughts turned to my distant friend, and my broken promise came back to me. I determined that on the first opportunity I would make amends for my neglect.
Months ago, I promised a friend, who longed for English fields from far away, that I would gather a little collection of dried ferns and send it to her this spring. The stress of the last few months had made me forget that promise, but this morning, as I thought about our upcoming move, I remembered my distant friend and my broken promise. I decided that at the first chance, I would make up for my neglect.
Ferns, many of them scarce ones, grew plentifully in our pleasant country; but on the road that Walter must take on his way to the station they flourished in unusual abundance. I could obtain many varieties close at hand, but some few grew further off; so I asked Walter, if he should chance to meet with any specimens of these particular sorts, to pick a frond or two, which he could place between the leaves of the book he carried. I wanted, especially, a specimen of the Northern Shield Fern, which even here is not very common, growing as it does in little patches, sometimes miles apart. He laughed at my idle request, but promised to attend to it.
Ferns, many of them rare, grew abundantly in our lovely countryside; but on the road Walter had to take to the station, they thrived in especially large amounts. I could easily find many varieties nearby, but a few were further away; so I asked Walter that if he happened to come across any of those specific types, to pick a frond or two to press between the pages of the book he was carrying. I really wanted a specimen of the Northern Shield Fern, which isn’t very common here, as it tends to grow in small patches that are sometimes miles apart. He chuckled at my casual request but promised to keep an eye out for it.
The day wore on, and the sun got low. It was time to send the dog-cart to meet the train. Long, long before the time had elapsed in which, by any chance, it could return, I was waiting at the window to welcome Walter home again. I waited and waited, until so many weary minutes crawled away that I was fain to conclude he had been detained in Bristol until the next and last train.
The day went on, and the sun hung low in the sky. It was time to have the dog-cart go meet the train. Long, long before enough time had passed for it to be back, I was waiting by the window to welcome Walter home again. I waited and waited, until so many exhausting minutes dragged on that I reluctantly began to think he had been delayed in Bristol until the next and final train.
I nursed my disappointment, and killed the time as best I could. The hour when I might surely expect him came and passed. The train must be late. I opened the window, and waited and listened for the sound of his coming.
I dealt with my disappointment and passed the time as best as I could. The hour I expected him showed up and went by. The train must be running late. I opened the window and waited, listening for the sound of his arrival.
At last I heard the ring of the horse's hoofs, and saw the approaching dog-cart dimly by the light of the stars. I ran to the door, eager to greet my husband; but as the horse drew up on the gravel, I could see only one figure in the dog-cart—that of James, our groom. He told me that his master had come by neither train, so, after waiting, he had driven back alone.
At last, I heard the sound of the horse's hooves and saw the dog-cart coming into view under the starlight. I rushed to the door, excited to greet my husband; but as the horse stopped on the gravel, I could only see one person in the dog-cart—James, our groom. He told me that his master hadn’t arrived by train, so after waiting for a while, he had driven back alone.
I turned away, very miserable and sad at heart, but, strange to say, felt no fear of evil. Business had, of course, detained him. It seemed unkind not to have let me know in some way, but perhaps he could find no means of doing so. There was not the slightest chance of his returning to-night, the distance being far too great for driving. I must wait until to-morrow.
I turned away, feeling really miserable and sad, but oddly enough, I didn’t feel afraid of anything bad happening. He was probably held up by work. It felt unfair that he hadn’t let me know in some way, but maybe he just didn’t have a way to do that. There was no chance he would come back tonight; it was too far to drive. I would have to wait until tomorrow.
It was only when I went to bed—alone, for almost the first time since we were married—that fear fell upon me, and fancy brought horrid ideas to my mind—that the possibility of evil having befallen my husband came to me. The large sum of money he carried, the lonely road, the black-faced colliers about the neighborhood—all combined to fill me with a nameless dread—a terror which I could scarcely put into thoughts, much less into words. Yet I strove with my fears, trying to strangle each one as it was born.
It was only when I went to bed—alone, for almost the first time since we got married—that fear hit me, and my imagination flooded with terrible thoughts that something bad might have happened to my husband. The large amount of money he had, the isolated road he was on, the dark-faced coal miners in the area—all of these things combined to fill me with an indescribable dread—a terror I could barely think about, let alone put into words. Yet I fought against my fears, trying to choke each one as it came.
"I shall see him to-morrow. To-morrow I shall see him," I repeated over and over again; and as that morning at last dawned, I fell into a restless sleep.
"I will see him tomorrow. Tomorrow I will see him," I kept repeating; and as that morning finally arrived, I drifted into a restless sleep.
But morning brought him not; noon brought him not—neither letter nor message. So my heart died within me; and taking a maid with me, I started for Bristol by the afternoon train. It was Sunday; the streets of the large town looked dreary and deserted as we passed through them. Knowing Mr. Leach's private address, we drove straight to his house. After some delay I was shown into a room.
But morning didn’t bring him; noon didn’t bring him—neither letter nor message. So my heart felt heavy; and taking a maid with me, I headed for Bristol on the afternoon train. It was Sunday; the streets of the large town looked bleak and empty as we went through them. Knowing Mr. Leach's personal address, we went straight to his house. After a bit of a wait, I was shown into a room.
By and by Mr. Leach entered, with his fat forefinger closed in a book of sermons, which, I felt instinctively, he had been engaged in reading for the benefit of his young vultures. His smooth face was full of gentle astonishment that any one should wish to confer with him on business matters on that particular evening in the week. As I looked at him and read through his mask of hypocrisy, I knew that the man was a rogue and capable of committing any crime. When he saw who his visitor was, his astonished look changed to one of annoyance. He closed his book entirely, laying it on the table with the edifying title turned toward me.
Eventually, Mr. Leach came in, his chubby finger marking a page in a book of sermons, which I sensed he had been reading to impress his young followers. His smooth face showed a gentle disbelief that anyone would want to discuss business with him on that particular evening. As I looked at him and saw past his façade of deceit, I realized that he was a dishonest man capable of any wrongdoing. When he recognized me as his visitor, his surprised expression shifted to one of irritation. He shut his book completely, placing it on the table with the inspirational title facing me.
It seems childish to mention such trivial incidents; but during that terrible time every word, every detail, seems graven upon my memory in deep lines that will never be effaced.
It feels naive to bring up such minor events; but during that awful time, every word, every detail, seems etched in my memory in ways that will never fade.
"I have called, Mr. Leach—" I began.
"I've called, Mr. Leach—" I started.
"My dear Mrs. Linton, I know why you have called. But I am sorry to be obliged to say that your errand is useless—utterly useless. Mr. Linton made a promise he has not kept. He can not blame us for the steps we have taken."
"My dear Mrs. Linton, I know why you’ve come. But I regret to say that your visit is pointless—completely pointless. Mr. Linton made a promise that he hasn’t kept. He can’t hold us responsible for the actions we’ve taken."
"A promise not kept?" I echoed.
"A promise not kept?" I repeated.
"Certainly not. He undertook to pay us a large sum of money yesterday. He has not been near us—I conclude he fa ill," he added, with an approach to a sneer.
"Definitely not. He promised to pay us a significant amount of money yesterday. He hasn't come anywhere near us—I guess he's sick," he added, sneering a bit.
I sunk back in the wildest grief. Then all my fears of the night, all my forebodings of the day, were true! I knew that never—never again should I look on Walter's face. He had been murdered—but by whom?
I sank back in the deepest sorrow. Then all my nighttime fears and daytime worries were real! I knew that I would never—never again—see Walter's face. He had been murdered—but by whom?
Mr. Leach endeavored, after the manner of his kind, to comfort me. He placed his fat hand in a soothing way upon my arm. This action restored my senses to me.
Mr. Leach tried, like he always did, to comfort me. He gently placed his chubby hand on my arm. This gesture helped me regain my composure.
"My husband left me only yesterday morning with the money you claim in his pocket. I know it for certain. He was going straight to you. Where is he? Tell me?"
"My husband left me just yesterday morning with the money you say he took. I know this for sure. He was headed straight to you. Where is he? Tell me?"
Mr. Leach gave a start of surprise, but said nothing. I waited for his answer.
Mr. Leach jumped in surprise but didn’t say anything. I waited for his reply.
"Where is he?" I reiterated. "Tell me!"
"Where is he?" I asked again. "Tell me!"
Mr. Leach placed his finger-tips together, and looked at me with an expression almost like placid amusement.
Mr. Leach brought his fingertips together and looked at me with a look that was almost like calm amusement.
"Mrs. Linton," he said slowly, "I am a man of business, and have seen strange things in my time, so you mustn't be offended if I ask you a question. Mr. Linton had the money ready for us, you say. In what form was it?"
"Mrs. Linton," he said slowly, "I’m a business guy and have seen some odd things in my time, so please don’t take offense if I ask you something. You said Mr. Linton had the money ready for us. What form was it in?"
"In notes, sir," I replied. "He told me you declined taking anything else."
"In notes, sir," I replied. "He said you refused to take anything else."
"Yes, yes—except gold. So we did. We are bound to be careful. Now, Mrs. Linton—mind, I mean no offense—do you know that your husband was much embarrassed?"
"Yes, yes—except for gold. So we did. We have to be careful. Now, Mrs. Linton—just so you know, I mean no offense—are you aware that your husband was quite embarrassed?"
"I know he could pay all just debts—and unjust ones, too," I answered, with rising indignation.
"I know he could pay all his just debts—and the unfair ones, too," I replied, feeling my anger grow.
"Yes, of course. All just and unjust debts. All unjust debts—very good. Now, do you think it possible—ten thousand is a lot of money—do you think it possible that Mr. Linton may have—well, in plain English, decamped with it?"
"Yes, of course. All valid and invalid debts. All invalid debts—very well. Now, do you really think it’s possible—ten thousand is a lot of money—do you think it’s possible that Mr. Linton might have—well, to put it simply, run off with it?"
I heard no more. My face was flaming. I rose and, without another word, left the room. I was in the cab before Mr. Leach had recovered from his surprise, and in another minute was sobbing my poor heart out on the shoulder of my maid—a faithful, good girl who loved me.
I didn't hear anything else. My face was burning with embarrassment. I stood up and, without saying anything more, walked out of the room. I was in the cab before Mr. Leach had a chance to recover from his shock, and a moment later, I was crying my eyes out on the shoulder of my maid—a loyal, kind girl who cared for me.
I can not tell you of the next few days. The uncertainty of everything, yet, to me, the utter hopelessness. The dread of what any moment might make known to me. The searchers searching and hoping to find—what? For I knew that the success of their quest could only bring me the dead body of my darling—murdered, perhaps, for the sake of the money he carried. Yet hardest of all to bear was the knowledge that the sorrow manifested by those around me was only assumed out of respect to me; that no one believed Walter to be dead; that the wicked, cruel slander which had framed itself in Mr. Leach's mind had entered into the minds of others. I could read the thought in the faces of all who came near me during those days. I knew that the paid seekers performed their task with a smile on their lips—that the word went around among them that, in order to be successful, the search should be, not for a dead, but for a living man, to find whom it was needful to look further away. How was it I did not go mad?
I can’t tell you about the next few days. The uncertainty of everything felt like total hopelessness to me. I dreaded what could be revealed at any moment. The searchers were looking and hoping to find—what? I knew that if they succeeded, it would only mean finding my beloved’s lifeless body—possibly murdered for the money he carried. But the hardest part to accept was realizing that the grief shown by those around me was just a facade to respect me; no one truly believed Walter was dead. The cruel and unjust rumors planted in Mr. Leach's mind had spread to others. I could see the thoughts reflected in the faces of everyone who approached me during those days. I knew the hired searchers went about their work with smiles; the word among them was that to be successful, they should search not for a dead man, but for a living one, which meant they needed to look further away. How was it that I didn’t go crazy?
I cared nothing when some one told me that the property, house, and all were advertised for sale in a few weeks' time. I thought of nothing, saw nothing but the cold, still face of the one I loved. I wished for nothing now but to see his name cleared from the stain thrown upon it—a stain he would have heeded more than death; this done, I wished to die—that was all. The wild thought which had at first entered my head, that the men to whom he owed the money had taken it and made away with him, was at last dispelled; for proof was positive that Walter had not gone to Bristol on that fatal morning. The passengers from the station were too few, and Walter too well known not to have been noticed. Indeed, no ticket for the class by which he would certainly have traveled had been issued that day. No one had met him that morning, and he had disappeared without leaving a trace; for people told me that every inch of the country near had been scoured. But I knew they deceived me, and that the wicked thought was in every heart, although no one dared to speak it in words to me who knew him and loved him.
I didn't care at all when someone told me that the property, house, and everything were going up for sale in a few weeks. I could think of nothing, see nothing but the cold, still face of the one I loved. All I wanted was to see his name cleared from the stain that had been cast upon it—a stain he would have taken more seriously than death; once that was done, I wanted to die—that was it. The wild thought that had first crossed my mind, that the men he owed money to had taken him and disappeared, was finally put to rest; because there was solid proof that Walter had not gone to Bristol on that fateful morning. There were too few passengers at the station, and Walter was too well known to have gone unnoticed. In fact, no ticket for the class he would definitely have traveled in had been issued that day. No one had seen him that morning, and he vanished without leaving a trace; people told me that every square inch of the surrounding area had been searched. But I knew they were lying to me, and that the wicked thought was in everyone's heart, even if no one dared to say it to me, who knew him and loved him.
Mr. Mainwaring, whom I had almost forgotten in my grief, came down in the course of a few days. Unfit as I was for business, I was compelled to see him. The kind old man was in great distress and anxiety, but he was very good to me. He started when he saw that I had already put on mourning.
Mr. Mainwaring, whom I had nearly forgotten in my sadness, came by a few days later. Even though I wasn't ready for any business, I had to meet with him. The kind old man was very upset and anxious, but he was really nice to me. He was surprised to see that I had already put on mourning.
"It is dreadful," he said, with tears in his eyes, and taking both my hands in his. "Not that I care for the money so much—although, of course, I must make up any deficiency myself, having been guilty of such irregularity. It is dreadful to think that I, who tried to help Walter, must now strip his wife and children of their last shilling. I trusted him so that I let him have my client's money simply on his note-of-hand, bearing, of course, all responsibility myself. It was most irregular; but he was so urgent, and I wanted to help him. Poor girl! I will do what I can for you, but I am afraid it can be but little."
"It’s awful," he said, tears in his eyes as he took both my hands. "It’s not that I care so much about the money—although I know I need to cover any shortfall myself since I was involved in this mess. It’s horrible to think that I, who tried to help Walter, have to now take away his wife and kids' last penny. I trusted him so much that I allowed him to use my client's money just based on his word, taking on all the responsibility myself. It was highly irregular, but he was so insistent, and I wanted to help him. Poor girl! I’ll do what I can for you, but I’m afraid it won’t be much."
I begged him not to think of us, and thanked him again and again for his great kindness.
I pleaded with him not to think about us, and I thanked him repeatedly for his incredible kindness.
"I would, if only in my own interests, pay the money again and stop the sale; but no one has the power to mortgage the property to me. We do not even know that Walter is dead. It can not, can not be true, what every one seems to hint at?" he added, almost shamefacedly.
"I would, even for my own sake, pay the money again and halt the sale; but no one has the authority to mortgage the property to me. We don't even know if Walter is dead. It can't, it can't be true, what everyone seems to suggest?" he added, almost embarrassed.
I burst into a flood of tears and almost fell at his feet.
I burst into tears and almost fell at his feet.
"Not you, Mr. Mainwaring! Not you!" I sobbed out. "You, who knew him, and knew that dishonor was not in him! Let me think that one, at least, believes in my dead love. Would to God, for my sake, it were as people think, so that I might some day see him again."
"Not you, Mr. Mainwaring! Not you!" I cried. "You, who knew him, and knew that he was not capable of dishonor! Let me believe that at least one person believes in my lost love. I wish to God, for my sake, it were as people think, so that I might see him again someday."
The kind old friend raised me.
The kind old friend brought me up.
"No," he said; "I don't believe it. I have known him from a boy, and I knew his father before him. They lie who say Walter Linton could have done such a thing. But it is all very, very dreadful."
"No," he said. "I can't believe it. I've known him since he was a boy, and I knew his father before him. Those who say Walter Linton could have done such a thing are lying. But this is all incredibly, incredibly awful."
Mr. Mainwaring slept at Draycot Hall that night, but I could not bring myself to spend the evening in his company. We could but think or speak of one subject, and I felt I had no right to inflict my grief upon him. I should be better alone. I watched the children sink to sleep, and for some hours sat by their little white beds listening to their regular breathing. Then I kissed them all gently and very quickly, lest my hot tears, falling on their upturned faces, should awake them; and, near midnight, retired to what with me would wrongly be called rest. I locked the door of my room, undressed myself, and sat in my dressing-gown over the fire, for the night being damp and cold, my good maid had kindled a fire for me.
Mr. Mainwaring spent the night at Draycot Hall, but I couldn't bring myself to spend the evening with him. We could only think or talk about one subject, and I felt it wasn't fair to burden him with my sorrow. I would be better off alone. I watched the kids fall asleep, and for a few hours, I sat by their little white beds, listening to their steady breathing. Then I gently kissed them all quickly, so my hot tears wouldn't fall on their upturned faces and wake them. Near midnight, I went to what I would mistakenly call rest. I locked my room door, got undressed, and sat in my dressing gown by the fire, since it was damp and cold outside, and my good maid had lit a fire for me.
And there I sat, not seeking rest. I knew that sleep and I must be strangers for hours; that not until my strength was quite worn out would sad thoughts cease and change to sadder dreams; not till at last, from sheer fatigue they fell, would weary eyelids curtain tearful eyes. And so I sat, till slowly died the fire, and morning air stole chilly through the room—thinking of all the joy and sweetness of life so lately promised, all it gave me now. It seemed so hard to lose the one I loved—lost, as it were, in darkest night, with none to say where he had wandered.
And there I sat, not looking for rest. I knew that sleep and I would be strangers for hours; that not until I was completely exhausted would my troubling thoughts fade and turn into even sadder dreams; not until they finally fell from sheer fatigue would my tired eyelids close over tear-filled eyes. So I sat, until the fire slowly died out, and the morning air crept in, chilly through the room—thinking about all the joy and sweetness of life that had been promised not long ago, and what it gave me now. It seemed so hard to lose the one I loved—lost, as if in the darkest night, with no one to say where he had gone.
"Oh!" I cried, "if I could see you once and say farewell, although your words came but from dying lips! I should not grieve so much, and for the sake of children dear to both might live, and even not go mad."
"Oh!" I exclaimed, "if I could just see you one more time and say goodbye, even if your words came from lips that are fading! I wouldn't feel so sad, and for the sake of our children, I could go on living, and maybe not even lose my mind."
The wind had risen with the night, and gusts now and again bore heavy rain that beat against my window; whilst the tall trees round moaned as the gale went tearing through their boughs. The world seemed full of dismal sounds and grief, and I the saddest in the world. At last sleep conquered sorrow, so I threw myself down on the bed and slept. How long it was I slept I can not tell, for all the while I seemed awake and seeing fearful sights. Cruel voices whispered words that stabbed my heart, so that in dreams I longed for wakefulness. Then I awoke and heard the wind and rain, louder and fiercer, whilst the room looked strange as morning dawned in cheerless gray, and crept in through the half turned blind.
The wind picked up overnight, and every now and then, gusts brought heavy rain that pounded against my window. The tall trees outside moaned as the storm howled through their branches. The world felt filled with gloomy sounds and sorrow, and I felt like the saddest person alive. Eventually, sleep overcame my sadness, so I collapsed onto the bed and drifted off. I can't say how long I slept because I seemed to be awake all the while, seeing terrifying visions. Harsh voices whispered words that cut deep into my heart, making me yearn for wakefulness even in my dreams. Then I woke up to hear the wind and rain, louder and more violent, while the room looked strange as morning crept in with a dull gray light through the partially opened blind.
I felt dazed. For a moment I could scarcely realize where I was, or quite recall what had happened. I even turned, from force of habit, to see if Walter, who should be by my side, was also awake. Then, as I saw the vacant pillow by mine, all came back to me—came back with such a reflux of sorrow that, in my despair, I threw out my arms, and sobbing bitterly, called on the one who could not hear me. My right hand lay as it had fallen, outside the coverlid, and, in a minute, I almost shrieked with horror and alarm; for I felt another hand seek it, touch it; and I experienced the sensation of fingers closing round my own. Hastily I tore my hand away from that clasp—if what held without restraining, made itself distinctly felt without offering resistance, can be called a clasp—and sprang from the bed. Courageous as I am by nature, I trembled like a leaf, and had it been dark when that unknown hand sought mine, my horror must have vented itself in screams. But the room was nearly light; so in a few moments I conquered that overpowering fright and looked around for the intruder. I peered into every nook in which one might possibly hide, but detected no one. The door was as firmly locked as I left it. I was alone, for no one could have entered either by door or window. Then I sat down and reasoned with myself on my folly. It was fancy from a mind upset and overwrought with grief. It was the lingering impression left by one of those dreams—those dreadful dreams which sleep had brought me! It was a pure delusion, a creation of my own, and I wondered if, as I feared at times, I was going out of my senses. Although I was able to persuade myself that this reasoning was correct, I dared not return to my bed, but, sitting once more in my chair, longed for broad daylight.
I felt dazed. For a moment, I could barely grasp where I was or remember what had happened. I even turned, out of habit, to check if Walter, who should have been next to me, was awake too. Then, seeing the empty pillow beside mine, everything came flooding back—came back so intensely that, in my despair, I threw my arms out and sobbed bitterly, calling for the one who couldn't hear me. My right hand lay outside the blanket, and in a minute, I almost screamed with horror and alarm; I felt another hand touching mine, and I sensed fingers closing around my own. I quickly pulled my hand away from that grip—if what held me without restraining can be called a grip—and jumped out of bed. As brave as I am by nature, I was trembling like a leaf, and if it had been dark when that unknown hand reached for mine, I would have screamed in terror. But the room was almost light, so after a few moments, I managed to overcome that overwhelming fear and looked around for the intruder. I peered into every corner where someone could hide but found no one. The door was as firmly locked as I had left it. I was alone; no one could have come in through the door or the window. Then I sat down and reasoned with myself about my foolishness. It was just my imagination playing tricks on me, a mind overwhelmed and unsettled by grief. It was the lingering impression left by one of those awful dreams that sleep had brought me! It was a total delusion, a creation of my own, and I wondered if, as I sometimes feared, I was losing my sanity. Although I managed to convince myself that this reasoning was right, I didn’t dare go back to my bed; instead, sitting in my chair again, I longed for broad daylight.
My thoughts soon wandered away from my recent fright, and took that path which they always followed. My arm dropped to my side, and my fingers relaxed themselves. And then, once more I felt that hand creep to mine, take it, and hold it. Again I felt the unmistakable sensation of fingers that closed round mine. I felt that there was no hand in mine that my hand could clasp in return, but the sensation of a palm against my palm—fingers twining my fingers—was indisputable. The sensation of pressure was there—faintly, it is true, but it was there. It was no fancy, no dream, this time. Whether mortal or not, a hand, or the semblance of a hand, was holding mine. Again the horror overcame me—again I strove to tear my hand away from this invisible clasp. My blood curdled as I found the result of my efforts failed on this second occasion—found that the fingers which fastened on my own could not be shaken off, do what I would. As I moved my hand, even so the hand that held it moved with it. If I clinched my own, I could yet feel the strange pressure of those unseen fingers. If I grasped my right hand in my left, there was still the sensation of another hand between my own. Do what I would, move how I would, that clasp, or phantom of a clasp, was ever on my hand. Yet I struggled with fear until the awful thought flashed through my brain that this was the aura, the forerunner of paralysis or epilepsy. Then I could bear it no longer. Whether that grasp was the result of bodily or mental ailment, I could bear it no longer—I felt my mind was going. I rushed to the door, tore it open, and my screams rang through the house. Remember, I was but a woman, and alone.
My thoughts quickly shifted away from the fear I had just experienced, following the path they always took. My arm fell to my side, and my fingers relaxed. Then, once again, I felt that hand creep to mine, take it, and hold it. I felt the unmistakable sensation of fingers wrapping around mine. I knew there was no actual hand to clasp in return, but the feeling of a palm against my palm—fingers intertwining with my fingers—was undeniable. The pressure was there—faint, but definitely there. It wasn’t just my imagination or a dream this time. Whether it was a real hand or just the illusion of one, something was holding mine. The horror hit me again—I tried to pull my hand away from this invisible grip. My blood ran cold when I realized that my efforts to shake it off had failed again—those fingers grasping my own wouldn’t let go, no matter what I did. No matter how I moved my hand, the hand that held it moved with me. When I clenched my fingers, I could still feel the strange pressure of those unseen fingers. If I held my right hand with my left, I still felt another hand between mine. No matter what I did or how I moved, that grip—or the illusion of a grip—remained on my hand. I fought against my fear until the terrifying thought flashed through my mind that this was a sign of paralysis or epilepsy. Then I couldn’t take it anymore. Whether that grasp was the result of a physical or mental issue, I could no longer endure it—I felt my mind slipping away. I rushed to the door, flung it open, and my screams echoed through the house. Remember, I was just a woman, and all alone.
As the sound of hurrying feet drew near, that hand or hand-clasp lying on my own quitted it. Then, as the strange sensation ceased, did I hear a mournful sound, like a sigh, or was it only the wind outside? Did the phantom fingers draw themselves away from mine soothingly, even, it seemed, reluctantly, or was that fancy too? As the servants with frightened looks drew near me, could that wild and joyful thought that flashed through my brain be more than the thought of a madwoman? What could it mean?
As the sound of rushing footsteps got closer, that hand or hand-hold resting on mine released its grip. Then, as the strange feeling faded, I heard a sorrowful sound—was it a sigh or just the wind outside? Did those ghostly fingers gently pull away from mine, almost as if with hesitation, or was that just my imagination? As the frightened servants approached me, could that wild and joyful thought that suddenly popped into my mind be anything more than the ramblings of a crazy person? What could it possibly mean?
Except for this I was myself again. I had been frightened, I told all who came to me—frightened by dreams, by shadows, by solitude, and my own thoughts. No one wondered at it; what flesh and blood could stand, unmoved, the anxiety I had borne during the last week? I was over-wrought and suffering from sleeplessness, so Mr. Mainwaring insisted upon giving me an opiate. I swallowed it reluctantly, and my maid sat with me, until, in due time, dull sleep told of the potency and efficacy of the drug which I had been made to take.
Except for this, I was myself again. I had been scared, I told everyone who came to me—scared by dreams, by shadows, by loneliness, and my own thoughts. No one was surprised; what person could remain calm after the anxiety I had endured during the last week? I was overwrought and suffering from insomnia, so Mr. Mainwaring insisted on giving me a sedative. I took it reluctantly, and my maid stayed with me until, eventually, deep sleep indicated the effectiveness of the medication I had been forced to take.
This artificial sleep lasted without a break until late in the afternoon. Then I awoke refreshed, and in full possession of my senses. I arose and prayed, as I had never prayed before, that my hand might again feel that unseen touch which had nearly driven me mad in the night. "Will it come again? O, let it come again!" was the constant cry of my heart; and I longed ardently for the night, which, perhaps, might bring that hand seeking my own again. For incredible as it seems, I knew, when those fingers last left mine, that love had in part conquered death—that Walter had been with me. Now I feared nothing. Why should I fear? He had loved me living—he loved me now. Whether he came to me in body or in spirit, should he not be welcome? Oh, that he might come again!
This artificial sleep lasted nonstop until late in the afternoon. Then I woke up feeling refreshed and fully aware. I got up and prayed like I never had before, hoping that my hand might again feel that invisible touch which had almost driven me crazy the night before. "Will it come again? Oh, please let it come again!" was the constant cry of my heart; I eagerly awaited the night, which might bring that hand reaching for mine once more. As unbelievable as it seems, I knew, when those fingers last left me, that love had partially conquered death—that Walter had been with me. Now I feared nothing. Why should I be afraid? He had loved me when he was alive—he loved me now. Whether he came to me in body or spirit, shouldn't he be welcome? Oh, that he might come again!
And he came again. Mr. Mainwaring, who would not leave Draycot that day on account of the apparently strange state of my health, that evening insisted upon my taking a turn in the garden. I obeyed him, although every plant, every blossom around, seemed breathing sadness. I was too tired to walk for longer than a few minutes, but sat on my favorite seat, and watched the sun sink behind the hills. Even then and there—in broad daylight—I felt his hand seek my own, and my heart leaped with joy. I shunned or strove to avoid it no longer. I let my hand lie still, and again I felt the touch, or the spirit of the touch, of the one I loved. So naturally those fingers closed round mine; so familiar seemed that clasp to me, that could I have forgotten the last week, I might have closed my eyes, and, lying there with my hand in his, have thought I had only to open them to happiness once more. If I could but forget!
And he came again. Mr. Mainwaring, who wouldn’t leave Draycot that day because of my seemingly odd health situation, insisted that I take a walk in the garden that evening. I went along with it, even though every plant and flower around felt like it was full of sadness. I was too exhausted to walk for more than a few minutes, so I sat on my favorite bench and watched the sun set behind the hills. Even then, in broad daylight, I felt his hand seek mine, and my heart jumped with joy. I no longer avoided it; I let my hand rest still, and felt the touch, or the spirit of the touch, of the person I loved. It was so natural for those fingers to wrap around mine; it felt so familiar that if I could have forgotten the last week, I might have closed my eyes and, lying there with my hand in his, thought I just had to open them to find happiness again. If only I could forget!
Even if I had not known in whose hand mine was resting, the caress those fingers gave me would have told me. I wondered why I feared and repulsed them at first. If only I could sometimes sit as I sat then, and know and feel that Walter was beside me, I thought that life might even be happy. So I turned my head toward him, and said, softly—so softly:
Even if I hadn't known whose hand mine was resting in, the gentle touch of those fingers would have revealed it. I questioned why I had initially felt afraid and repelled by them. If only I could sometimes sit as I did then, feeling and knowing that Walter was next to me, I thought life could actually be happy. So I turned my head toward him and said, softly—so softly:
"Dearest love, you will come often and often, will you not? You will be always with me; then I shall not be unhappy."
"Darling, you'll come by often, won't you? You'll always be with me; then I won't be unhappy."
He answered not, but I felt a change in the clasp of his hand, and I pondered as to what its meaning could be. Then I fancied that faintly, very faintly, that touch was endeavoring to make me understand something which my grosser earthly faculties failed to grasp—to direct, to lead me somewhere for some purpose. For it left me and came again, left and came again, till at last I learned its meaning.
He didn't respond, but I sensed a shift in the grip of his hand, and I wondered what it might mean. Then I imagined that, very subtly, that touch was trying to convey something that my more ordinary earthly senses couldn't quite grasp—to guide me somewhere for a reason. It left and returned repeatedly until I finally understood its meaning.
Then and there I rose. "I come, my love," I said. And once more Walter Linton and his wife walked, as they had walked many a time before, hand-in-hand down the broad garden path; past the rustic lodge, covered with rosebuds and woodbine; through the gateway; out into the high road. I feared nothing: the hand of the one I loved was in mine, and guiding me whither he chose; moreover it was yet daylight, and I was not dreaming.
Then and there, I got up. "I'm coming, my love," I said. And once again, Walter Linton and his wife strolled, as they had many times before, hand in hand down the wide garden path; past the quaint lodge, covered in rosebuds and honeysuckle; through the gateway; and out onto the main road. I felt no fear: the hand of the one I loved was in mine, guiding me wherever he wanted; besides, it was still daylight, and I was not dreaming.
I even knew that Mr. Mainwaring followed us as we walked down the path. I saw him come to my side and look at me with wonder. I wanted no one to be near my husband and myself, so I waved him back imperiously. "Follow if you like," I said, "but do not speak to us." Perhaps he thought I was mad, perhaps that I was walking in my sleep, and, if so, feared to awake me. Any way, he followed us silently, and that was all I knew or cared about him, or about anything else. For were not my love and I walking, once more, hand-in-hand, and it was not in a dream?
I even knew that Mr. Mainwaring was behind us as we walked down the path. I saw him come to my side and look at me with curiosity. I didn't want anyone near my husband and me, so I waved him back firmly. "Follow if you want," I said, "but don’t talk to us." Maybe he thought I was crazy, or that I was sleepwalking, and if so, he was probably afraid to wake me up. Either way, he followed us silently, and that was all I knew or cared about him, or about anything else. Because weren't my love and I walking, once again, hand-in-hand, and wasn't it real, not a dream?
Along and along the road, each side of which is beautiful with its green banks and hedges, and every inch of which we know, even keeping to that side we always choose because the flowers grow thickest there. How fresh and green everything looks this evening! The swallows are flying here and there. Every blade of grass is washed clean from dust by the heavy rain of the morning. No. I am not dreaming. I am walking with my husband. A nightingale breaks Into song near us, as we walk. We stop—who could help stopping to listen? Now its melody ceases, and Walter leads me on. It is like in the old days when we were first wed; before we thought or wished for more wealth. Those days when all the country round was fresh and new to me. Never did the wild-flowers, I think, look gayer than they look this evening, although they are closing fast. I would stop, my darling, and gather a bunch for the children; but they have so many flowers at home, and I fear to loose your hand for a moment. Besides, you wish to lead me further yet; we have somewhere to go to this evening. I forget whither it was you told me, Walter. Is it to the lily-pond, to see if we can find any snow-white cups floating, buoyed up by the broad green leaves? Is it to climb the hill that lies in front of us, and see the very last of the glorious sun; to catch the crimson sparkle of its rays on the distant windows of our dear home? That sun which will rise to-morrow, and waken us both so early—for you will never leave me again, Walter—promise me, my darling—I have been so unhappy. Is it further yet? To the ruins of the gray old abbey where the poet's ivy grows so freely? Shall we wait there, as once before, and see the full moon shine through the rose of the east windows? Shall we wander arm-in-arm through the dim glades, laughing at the foolish monks who chose to live and die there, knowing not love, nor the sweetness of life when two share its joys and troubles? But our troubles are over now, are they not, dearest? No matter, lead me whither you will: I care not—you are with me, your hand is in mine, and I am happy. But wherever we go, we will walk back by moonlight, and then creep up quietly and kiss the children just once before we go to bed. To-morrow we will wake and love again. No, I am not dreaming. But why do you not speak to me and tell me where you have been—why you left me so long? Oh, how I have wept and waited for you! Dearest, you will never leave me again?
Along the road, each side is beautiful with its green banks and hedges, and we know every inch of it, always sticking to that side where the flowers are thickest. How fresh and green everything looks this evening! The swallows are soaring everywhere. Every blade of grass has been washed clean of dust by the heavy rain this morning. No, I’m not dreaming. I’m walking with my husband. A nightingale starts singing nearby as we stroll. We pause—who could resist stopping to listen? Now its song fades, and Walter leads me on. It feels like the old days when we were newly married, before we thought about wanting more wealth. Those days when the countryside was fresh and new to me. I don’t think wildflowers have ever looked as vibrant as they do this evening, even though they're closing up quickly. I want to stop, my darling, and collect a bunch for the kids; but they have so many flowers at home, and I'm afraid to let your hand go even for a moment. Besides, you want to take me further; we have somewhere to go this evening. I can’t remember where you told me, Walter. Is it to the lily pond to see if we can find any snow-white cups floating on the broad green leaves? Is it to climb the hill in front of us and catch the last glimpse of the glorious sun, seeing its rays sparkle on the distant windows of our dear home? That same sun that will rise tomorrow and wake us both up early—for you will never leave me again, Walter—promise me, my darling—I’ve been so unhappy. Is it further? To the ruins of the old gray abbey where the poet's ivy grows so freely? Shall we wait there, like before, and watch the full moon shine through the east windows? Shall we stroll arm-in-arm through the dim glades, laughing at the foolish monks who chose to live and die there, blissfully unaware of love and the sweetness of life when two share its joys and struggles? But our troubles are over now, aren’t they, dearest? No worries, just lead me wherever you want: I don’t care—you’re with me, your hand in mine, and I am happy. But wherever we go, we’ll walk back by moonlight, and then sneak in quietly to kiss the kids just once before we go to bed. Tomorrow, we’ll wake and love once more. No, I'm not dreaming. But why don’t you speak to me and tell me where you’ve been—why you left me for so long? Oh, how I’ve wept and waited for you! Dearest, you will never leave me again?
This is the spot you wished to lead me to—the place where the ferns grow? Ah, you remembered what I wanted. Are there any of that sort up there? Let us go and see, although the day is flying fast. Through the hazel bushes—deep, deep into the underwood—on and on—up and up—brambles and stones! I did not know it was so steep here. Hold my hand firmer and help me. More bushes, more undergrowth; and how the twilight fades! My darling, we shall find no ferns to-night. May we not go back and come again to-morrow? Yet on, and on! Love, where you lead I follow and fear not! Is not your hand in mine, and you will never leave me again! Still on! My darling, you have brought me to the very edge of a rock! Don't leave me here! Don't draw your hand from mine! Stay one minute—one moment longer! I can not see you; it is dark and cold! I can not feel you, and the world seems filling again with grief. Come back! Come back! Walter! Walter!
This is the spot you wanted to show me—the place where the ferns grow? Ah, you remembered what I wanted. Are there any up there? Let’s go check, even though the day is slipping away. Through the hazel bushes—deep into the underbrush—on and on—up and up—brambles and stones! I didn’t realize it was this steep here. Hold my hand tighter and help me. More bushes, more undergrowth; and look how the twilight fades! My love, we won’t find any ferns tonight. Can’t we go back and come again tomorrow? Still, on and on! Love, wherever you lead, I will follow and I’m not afraid! Isn’t your hand in mine, and you’ll never leave me again! Keep going! My darling, you’ve brought me to the edge of a rock! Don’t leave me here! Don’t pull your hand away! Stay for just a minute—just one moment longer! I can’t see you; it’s dark and cold! I can’t feel you, and the world seems to be filling up with sorrow again. Come back! Come back! Walter! Walter!
They told me I dreamed it—that I walked in my sleep. Clever and learned men said so, and I am only a woman, neither clever nor learned. Mr. Mainwaring, who had with great difficulty followed us—for I say "us," in spite of all that wisdom can urge—found me lying lifeless at the brink of the rocky depth to which Walter had led me, and where he had left me. Down below me lay something that I, thank God, never saw. They bore it home and told me it was all that was left of Walter Linton, my husband. But I knew better, for had he not that evening walked hand-in-hand with me for miles? They told me, also, that he had fallen from the top of the rock—that it was not a great height, but high enough for the fall to kill him instantaneously—that most likely he was led to that fatal place, seeking some rare plant; as a root and withered leaves were clenched in his hand—that the notes he had placed in his pocket when he left his home were still there—that Draycot was still mine and his children's. But they believe me not when I tell them that my love, my husband, through the power of the love he bore me, could come from the dead—could take my hand In his and lead me with him, on and on, till he showed me where and how he died—till he saved those he loved from utter ruin and a life of penury—till, more than all, he cleared his own dear memory from stain and dishonor. Yet these things were!
They told me I imagined it—that I was sleepwalking. Smart and educated men said this, and I’m just a woman, neither smart nor educated. Mr. Mainwaring, who had struggled to keep up with us—for I say "us," despite all that wisdom can argue—found me lying lifeless at the edge of the rocky drop that Walter had brought me to and where he had left me. Below me was something that I, thank God, never saw. They carried it home and told me it was all that was left of Walter Linton, my husband. But I knew better; didn’t he walk hand-in-hand with me for miles that evening? They also told me that he had fallen from the top of the rock—that it wasn’t a great height, but high enough for the fall to kill him instantly—that he was probably led to that dangerous spot looking for some rare plant; as a root and withered leaves were clenched in his hand—that the notes he had put in his pocket when he left home were still there—that Draycot still belonged to me and his children. But they don’t believe me when I say that my love, my husband, through the power of the love he had for me, could come back from the dead—could take my hand and lead me on and on until he showed me where and how he died—until he saved those he loved from complete ruin and a life of poverty—until, more than anything, he cleared his own dear memory from stain and dishonor. Yet these things were!
THRAWN JANET
BY ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON
BY ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON
Robert Louis Balfour Stevenson was born in Edinburgh in 1850. He was graduated at Cambridge and studied law, which he abandoned for literature. In 1889 he settled in Samoa, where he died in 1894. He is the author of numerous essays, a delightful volume of poems called "A Child's Garden of Verses," and many stories. Stevenson's books include: "Treasure Island"; "Kidnapped" and its sequel, "David Balfour"; "The Black Arrow"; "Prince Otto"; "The Silverado Squatters"; "New Arabian Nights"; "Island Nights' Entertainments"; "The Master of Ballantrae"; "An Inland Voyage"; "Travels with a Donkey," and "The Ebb-Tide."
Robert Louis Balfour Stevenson was born in Edinburgh in 1850. He graduated from Cambridge and studied law, which he left behind for a career in literature. In 1889, he moved to Samoa, where he passed away in 1894. He wrote numerous essays, a charming collection of poems called "A Child's Garden of Verses," and many stories. Stevenson's books include: "Treasure Island"; "Kidnapped" and its sequel, "David Balfour"; "The Black Arrow"; "Prince Otto"; "The Silverado Squatters"; "New Arabian Nights"; "Island Nights' Entertainments"; "The Master of Ballantrae"; "An Inland Voyage"; "Travels with a Donkey," and "The Ebb-Tide."
"Thrawn Janet" appeared in "The Merry Men and Other Tales."
"Thrawn Janet" is found in "The Merry Men and Other Tales."
THRAWN JANET
THRAWN JANET
By ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON
By Robert Louis Stevenson
The Reverend Murdoch Soulis was long minister of the moorland parish of Balweary, in the vale of Dule. A severe, bleak-faced old man, dreadful to his hearers, he dwelt in the last years of his life, without relative or servant or any human company, in the small and lonely manse under the Hanging Shaw. In spite of the iron composure of his features, his eye was wild, scared, and uncertain; and when he dwelt, in private admonitions, on the future of the impenitent, it seemed as if his eye pierced through the storms of time to the terrors of eternity. Many young persons, coming to prepare themselves against the season of the Holy Communion, were dreadfully affected by his talk. He had a sermon on 1st Peter, v. and 8th, "The devil as a roaring lion," on the Sunday after every seventeenth of August, and he was accustomed to surpass himself upon that text both by the appalling nature of the matter and the terror of his bearing in the pulpit. The children were frightened into fits, and the old looked more than usually oracular, and were, all that day, full of those hints that Hamlet deprecated. The manse itself, where it stood by the water of Dule among some thick trees, with the Shaw overhanging it on the one side, and on the other many cold, moorish hilltops rising toward the sky, had begun, at a very early period of Mr. Soulis's ministry, to be avoided in the dusk hours by all who valued themselves upon their prudence; and guidmen sitting at the clachan alehouse shook their heads together at the thought of passing late by that uncanny neighborhood. There was one spot, to be more particular, which was regarded with especial awe. The manse stood between the high road and the water of Dule, with a gable to each; its back was toward the kirktown of Balweary, nearly half a mile away; in front of it, a bare garden, hedged with thorn, occupied the land between the river and the road. The house was two stories high, with two large rooms on each. It opened not directly on the garden, but on a causewayed path, or passage, giving on the road on the one hand, and closed on the other by the tall willows and elders that bordered on the stream. And it was this strip of causeway that enjoyed among the young parishioners of Balweary so infamous a reputation. The minister walked there often after dark, sometimes groaning aloud in the instancy of his unspoken prayers; and when he was from home, and the manse door was locked, the more daring schoolboys ventured, with beating hearts, to "follow my leader" across that legendary spot.
The Reverend Murdoch Soulis was the long-time minister of the moorland parish of Balweary, in the vale of Dule. A stern, grim-faced old man, he was terrifying to his congregation. In the last years of his life, he lived alone in the small, lonely manse under the Hanging Shaw, without any relatives, servants, or human company. Despite the steely calm of his features, his eyes were wild, fearful, and uncertain, and when he spoke in private about the fate of the unrepentant, it was as if his gaze could see through the storms of time to the horrors of eternity. Many young people preparing for Holy Communion were deeply unsettled by his words. Every Sunday after August 17th, he preached a sermon on 1st Peter, v. and 8th, “The devil as a roaring lion,” and he always went above and beyond on that text, both with the terrifying subject matter and his fearsome presence in the pulpit. Children were scared into fits, and the older folks appeared more solemn than usual, filled with those ominous hints that Hamlet disapproved of. The manse itself, located by the water of Dule among some thick trees, with the Shaw looming over one side and many cold, moorish hilltops rising on the other, had long been avoided in the evenings by anyone who prided themselves on being sensible. Guide men at the clachan alehouse shook their heads at the thought of passing by that eerie area after dark. There was one particular spot that was regarded with special dread. The manse stood between the main road and the water of Dule, with one side facing each; its back turned to the kirktown of Balweary, nearly half a mile away. In front of it was a bare garden surrounded by thorn hedges, lying between the river and the road. The house was two stories high with two large rooms on each floor. It didn’t open directly into the garden but onto a paved path leading to the road on one end, while the other end was closed off by tall willows and elder trees along the stream. This stretch of path had a notorious reputation among the young people of Balweary. The minister often walked there after dark, sometimes groaning aloud in the urgency of his unspoken prayers; and when he was away and the manse door was locked, the bolder schoolboys would venture, hearts pounding, to “follow my leader” across that legendary spot.
This atmosphere of terror, surrounding, as it did, a man of God of spotless character and orthodoxy, was a common cause of wonder and subject of inquiry among the few strangers who were led by chance or business into that unknown, outlying country. But many even of the people of the parish were ignorant of the strange events which had marked the first year of Mr. Soulis's ministrations; and among those who were better informed, some were naturally reticent, and others shy of that particular topic. Now and again, only, one of the older folk would warm into courage over his third tumbler, and recount the cause of the minister's strange looks and solitary life.
This atmosphere of fear, surrounding a man of God with an impeccable character and traditional beliefs, often surprised and puzzled the few outsiders who found themselves in that remote, unfamiliar area, whether by chance or business. However, many locals in the parish were unaware of the unusual events that had marked the first year of Mr. Soulis's ministry; and among those who knew more, some preferred to stay quiet, while others were hesitant to discuss that specific topic. Every now and then, one of the older residents would gather the courage after a few drinks and share the reasons behind the minister's unusual demeanor and solitary lifestyle.
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Fifty years syne, when Mr. Soulis cam' first into Ba'weary, he was still a young man—a callant, the folk said—fu' o' book learnin' and grand at the exposition, but, as was natural in sae young a man, wi' nae leevin' experience in religion. The younger sort were greatly taken wi' his gifts and his gab; but auld, concerned, serious men and women were moved even to prayer for the young man, whom they took to be a self-deceiver, and the parish that was like to be sae ill-supplied. It was before the days o' the moderates—weary fa' them; but ill things are like guid—they baith come bit by bit, a pickle at a time; and there were folk even then that said the Lord had left the college professors to their ain devices, an' the lads that went to study wi' them wad hae done mair and better sittin' in a peat-bog, like their forebears of the persecution, wi' a Bible under their oxter and a speerit o' prayer in their heart. There was nae doubt, onyway, but that Mr. Soulis had been ower lang at the college. He was careful and troubled for mony things besides the ae thing needful. He had a feck o' books wi' him—mair than had ever been seen before in a' that presbytery; and a sair wark the carrier had wi' them, for they were a' like to have smoored in the Deil's Hag between this and Kilmackerlie. They were books o' divinity, to be sure, or so they ca'd them; but the serious were o' opinion there was little service for sae mony, when the hail o' God's Word would gang in the neuk of a plaid. Then he wad sit half the day and half the nicht forbye, which was scant decent—writin', nae less; and first, they were feared he wad read his sermons; and syne it proved he was writin' a book himsel', which way surely no fittin' for ane of his years an' sma' experience.
Fifty years ago, when Mr. Soulis first came to Ba'weary, he was still a young man—a lad, as folks said—full of book knowledge and great at giving speeches, but, as is natural for someone so young, with no real-life experience in religion. The younger crowd was really impressed by his talents and his words; but older, concerned, serious men and women were moved to pray for the young man, whom they believed to be deceiving himself, and for the parish that seemed to be poorly served. It was before the days of the moderates—curse them; but bad things are like good ones—they both come slowly, a little at a time; and even then, some folks said the Lord had left the college professors to their own devices, and the young men who studied with them would have done more and better sitting in a peat bog, like their ancestors during the persecution, with a Bible under their arm and a spirit of prayer in their heart. There was no doubt, in any case, that Mr. Soulis had spent too long at the college. He was worried and concerned about many things besides the one thing that mattered. He had a bunch of books with him—more than had ever been seen before in all that presbytery; and the carrier struggled with them, for they were nearly smothered in the Deil's Hag between this and Kilmackerlie. They were books on divinity, to be sure, or so they called them; but serious folks believed there was little use for so many, when the whole of God's Word could fit in the corner of a plaid. Then he would sit half the day and half the night besides, which was hardly decent—writing, no less; and at first, they were afraid he would read his sermons; and then it turned out he was writing a book himself, which surely wasn’t proper for someone of his age and limited experience.
Onyway it behooved him to get an auld, decent wife to keep the manse for him an' see to his bit denners; and he was recommended to an auld limmer—Janet M'Clour, they ca'd her—and sae far left to himsel' as to be ower persuaded. There was mony advised him to the contrar, for Janet was mair than suspeckit by the best folk in Ba'weary. Lang or that, she had had a wean to a dragoon; she hadnae come forrit for maybe thretty year; and bairns had seen her mumblin' to hersel' up on Key's Loan in the gloamin', whilk was an unco time an' place for a God-fearin' woman. Howsoever, it was the laird himsel' that had first tauld the minister o' Janet; and in thae days he wad have gane a far gate to pleesure the laird. When folk tauld him that Janet was sib to the deil, it was a' superstition by his way of it; an' when they cast up the Bible to him an' the witch of Endor, he wad threep it doun their thrapples that thir days were a' gane by, and the deil was mercifully restrained.
Anyway, it was important for him to find an older, decent wife to take care of the manse and make him some meals; so he was convinced to consider an old troublemaker—Janet M'Clour, as they called her—and he went along with it. Many advised him against it, since Janet was more than suspected by the best people in Ba'weary. Long before that, she had a child with a dragoon; she hadn't come forward in maybe thirty years; and children had seen her mumbling to herself up on Key's Loan in the evening, which was a strange time and place for a God-fearing woman. However, it was the laird himself who first mentioned Janet to the minister; and back then, he would have gone a long way to please the laird. When people told him that Janet was related to the devil, he dismissed it all as superstition; and when they brought up the Bible and the witch of Endor, he would argue back that those days were long gone, and the devil was mercifully restrained.
Weel, when it got about the clachan that Janet M'Clour was to be servant at the manse, the folk were fair mad wi' her an' him thegether; and some o' the guidwives had nae better to dae than get round her door cheeks and chairge her wi' a' that was ken't again her, frae the sodger's bairn to John Tamson's twa kye. She was nae great speaker; folk usually let her gang her ain gate, an' she let them gang theirs, wi' neither Fair-guid-een nor Fair-guid-day; but when she buckled to she had a tongue to deave the miller. Up she got, an' there wasnae an auld story in Ba'weary but she gart somebody lowp for it that day; they couldnae say ae thing but she could say twa to it; till, at the hinder end, the guidwives up and claught haud of her, and clawed the coats aff her back, and pu'd her doun the clachan to the water o' Dule, to see if she were a witch or no, soum or droun. The carline skirled till ye could hear her at the Hangin' Shaw, and she focht like ten; there was mony a guidwife bure the mark of her neist day, an' mony a lang day after; and just in the hettest o' the collteshangie, wha suld come up (for his sins) but the new minister.
Well, when word got around the neighborhood that Janet M'Clour was going to work at the manse, people went crazy talking about her and him together; and some of the goodwives had nothing better to do than gather around her door and accuse her of everything known against her, from the soldier's child to John Tamson's two cows. She wasn't much of a talker; people usually let her go her own way, and she let them go theirs, without any pleasantries. But when she decided to speak up, she could outtalk anyone. Up she got, and there wasn’t an old story in Ba'weary that she didn’t make someone jump about that day; they couldn’t say a thing without her coming back with two replies; until finally, the goodwives grabbed her, tore the clothes off her back, and dragged her down to the water of Dule to see if she was a witch or not, whether she would float or sink. The old woman screamed so loud you could hear her at the Hangin' Shaw, and she fought like ten. Many goodwives bore the marks of her the next day, and for many days after; and just in the heat of the commotion, who should show up (for his sins) but the new minister.
"Women," said he (and he had a grand voice), "I charge you in the Lord's name to let her go."
"Women," he said (and he had a powerful voice), "I urge you in the Lord's name to let her go."
Janet ran to him—she was fair wud wi' terror—an' clang to him an' prayed him, for Christ's sake, save her frae the cummers; an' they, for their pairt, tauld him a' that was ken't, and maybe mair.
Janet ran to him—she was pale with fear—and clung to him, begging him, for Christ's sake, to save her from the women; and they, for their part, told him everything they knew, and maybe more.
"Woman," says he to Janet, "is this true?"
"Woman," he asks Janet, "is this true?"
"As the Lord sees me," says she, "as the Lord made me, no a word o't. Forbye the bairn," says she, "I've been a decent woman a' my days."
"As the Lord sees me," she says, "as the Lord made me, no denying that. Besides the child," she says, "I've been a decent woman all my life."
"Will you," says Mr. Soulis, "in the name of God, and before me, His unworthy minister, renounce the devil and his works?"
"Will you," says Mr. Soulis, "in the name of God, and before me, His unworthy servant, reject the devil and all his ways?"
Weel, it wad appear that when he askit that, she gave a girn that fairly frichtit them that saw her, an' they could hear her teeth play dirl thegether in her chafts; but there was naething for it but the ae way or the ither; an' Janet lifted up her hand and renounced the deil before them a'.
Well, it seemed that when he asked that, she made a face that really scared those who saw her, and they could hear her teeth chattering together in her mouth; but there was no choice but one way or the other; and Janet raised her hand and denounced the devil before them all.
"And now," said Mr. Soulis to the guidwives, "home with ye, one and all, and pray to God for His forgiveness."
"And now," said Mr. Soulis to the women, "go home, all of you, and pray to God for His forgiveness."
And he gied Janet his arm, though she had little on her but a sark, and took her up the clachan to her ain door like a leddy of the land; an' her scrieghin' and laughin' as was a scandal to be heard.
And he gave Janet his arm, even though she was hardly dressed except for a shift, and took her up the street to her own door like a lady of the land; and she was shrieking and laughing, which was a scandal to hear.
There were mony grave folk lang ower their prayers that nicht; but when the morn cam' there was sic a fear fell upon a' Ba'weary that the bairns hid theirsels, and even the men-folk stood and keekit frae their doors. For there was Janet comin' doun the clachan—her or her likeness, nane could tell—wi' her neck thrawn, and her heid on ae side, like a body that has been hangit, and a girn on her face like an unstreakit corp. By an' by they got used wi' it, and even speered at her to ken what was wrang; but frae that day forth she couldnae speak like a Christian woman, but slavered and played click wi' her teeth like a pair o' shears; and frae that day forth the name o' God cam' never on her lips. Whiles she wad try to say it, but it michtnae be. Them that kenned best said least; but they never gied that Thing the name o' Janet M'Clour; for the auld Janet, by their way o't, was in muckle hell that day. But the minister was neither to haud nor to bind; he preached about naething but the folk's cruelty that had gi'en her a stroke of the palsy; he skelpt the bairns that meddled her; and he had her up to the manse that same nicht and dwalled there a' his lane wi' her under the Hangin' Shaw.
There were many serious people praying throughout the night; but when morning came, a fear fell over all of Ba'weary that the children hid themselves, and even the men peeked from their doors. For there was Janet coming down the street—whether it was her or someone who looked like her, no one could tell—with her neck twisted and her head tilted to one side, like someone who had been hanged, and a grimace on her face like a lifeless body. Eventually, they got used to it and even asked her what was wrong; but from that day on, she couldn’t speak like a normal person, just drooled and clicked her teeth like a pair of scissors; and from that day forward, the name of God never crossed her lips. Sometimes she would try to say it, but she couldn't. Those who knew her best said the least; but they never referred to that creature as Janet M'Clour; because the old Janet, by their account, was suffering greatly that day. But the minister was at a loss; he preached only about the cruelty of the people who had given her a stroke; he scolded the children who bothered her; and he took her to the manse that same night and stayed there alone with her under the Hanging Shaw.
Weel, time gaed by: and the idler sort commenced to think mair lichtly o' that black business. The minister was weel thocht o'; he was aye late at the writing, folk wad see his can'le doun by the Dule water after twal' at e'en; and he seemed pleased wi' himsel' and upsitten as at first, though a' body could see that he was dwining. As for Janet she cam' an' she gaed; if she didnae speak muckle afore, it was reason she should speak less then; she meddled naebody; but she was an eldritch thing to see, an' nane wad hae mistrysted wi' her for Ba'weary glebe.
Well, time went by; and the idler folks began to think less seriously about that dark situation. The minister was well regarded; he was always late writing, and people would see his candle down by the Devil's water after midnight. He still seemed pleased with himself and just as active as before, even though everyone could tell he was fading. As for Janet, she came and went; if she didn’t speak much before, it was only natural for her to say even less now. She didn’t bother anyone; but she was a strange sight, and no one would have trusted her for anything in Ba'weary parish.
About the end o' July there cam' a spell o' weather, the like o't never was in that countryside; it was lown an' het an' heartless; the herds couldnae win up the Black Hill, the bairns were ower weariet to play; an' yet it was gousty too, wi' claps o' het wund that rumm'led in the glens, and bits o' shouers that sleekened naething. We aye thocht it but to thun'er on the morn; but the morn cam', and the morn's morning, and it was aye the same uncanny weather, sair on folks and bestial. Of a' that were the waur, nane suffered like Mr. Soulis; he could neither sleep nor eat, he tauld his elders; an' when he wasnae writin' at his weary book, he wad be stravaguin' ower a' the countryside like a man possessed, when a' body else was blythe to keep caller ben the house.
About the end of July, there came a stretch of weather like nothing anyone had seen in that countryside; it was still and hot and draining; the herds could hardly make it up Black Hill, the kids were too tired to play; and yet it was also unpredictable, with bursts of hot wind rumbling through the valleys and brief showers that didn’t help at all. We always thought it would thunder the next morning; but morning came, and the next morning, and it was still the same strange weather, tough on people and livestock. Of everyone, Mr. Soulis suffered the most; he couldn’t sleep or eat, he told his elders; and when he wasn’t writing in his exhausting book, he’d be wandering all over the countryside like a man possessed, while everyone else was happily staying cool inside the house.
Abune Hangin' Shaw, in the bield o' the Black Hill, there's a bit inclosed grund wi' an iron yett; and it seems, in the auld days, that was the kirkyaird o' Ba'weary, and consecrated by the Papists before the blessed licht shone upon the kingdom. It was a great howff o' Mr. Soulis's, onyway; there he would sit an' consider his sermons; and indeed it's a bieldy bit. Weel, as he cam' ower the wast end o' the Black Hill, ae day, he saw first twa, an' syne fower, an' syne seeven corbie craws fleein' round an' round abune the auld kirkyaird. They flew laigh and heavy, an' squawked to ither as they gaed; and it was clear to Mr. Soulis that something had put them frae their ordinar. He wasnae easy fleyed, an' gaed straucht up to the wa's; an' what suld he find there but a man, or the appearance of a man, sittin' in the inside upon a grave. He was of a great stature, an' black as hell, and his e'en were singular to see. Mr. Soulis had heard tell o' black men, mony's the time; but there was something unco about this black man that daunted him. Het as he was, he took a kind o' cauld grue in the marrow o' his banes; but up he spak for a' that; an' says he: "My friend, are you a stranger in this place?" The black man answered never a word; he got upon his feet, an' begude to hirsle to the wa' on the far side; but he aye lookit at the minister; an' the minister stood an' lookit back; till a' in a meenute the black man was ower the wa' an' rinnin' for the bield o' the trees. Mr. Soulis, he hardly kenned why, ran after him; but he was sair forjaskit wi' his walk an' the het, unhalesome weather; and rin as he likit, he got nae mair than a glisk o' the black man amang the birks, till he won doun to the foot o' the hillside, an' there he saw him ance mair, gaun, hap, step, an' lowp, ower Dule water to the manse.
At the foot of Black Hill, there's a small enclosed area with an iron gate; it seems that in the old days, this was the graveyard of Ba'weary and was consecrated by the Catholics before the light of faith lit up the kingdom. It was quite the hangout for Mr. Soulis; he would sit there thinking about his sermons, and it really is a peaceful spot. One day, as he came over the west end of Black Hill, he first saw two, then four, and then seven crows flying around the old graveyard. They flew low and heavy, cawing at each other as they went, and it was clear to Mr. Soulis that something had disturbed them from their usual behavior. He wasn’t easily scared, so he went straight up to the walls; and what did he find there but a man, or what looked like a man, sitting inside on a grave. He was very tall, as dark as night, and his eyes were unusual to see. Mr. Soulis had heard of black men many times before; but there was something strange about this one that intimidated him. Hot as he was, he felt a cold shiver deep in his bones; but he spoke up anyway and said: “My friend, are you a stranger in this place?” The dark man didn’t reply; he got to his feet and began to move toward the wall on the far side, but he kept looking at the minister; and the minister stood and looked back; until, in a moment, the black man was over the wall and running for the shelter of the trees. Mr. Soulis, though he hardly knew why, ran after him; but he was quite worn out from his walk and the hot, uncomfortable weather; and no matter how fast he ran, he only caught a glimpse of the dark man among the birches, until he reached the bottom of the hill, where he saw him once more, hopping and jumping over Dule Water toward the manse.
Mr. Soulis wasnae weel pleased that this fearsome gangrel suld mak' sae free wi' Ba'weary manse; an' he ran the harder, an', wet shoon, ower the burn, an' up the walk; but the deil a black man was there to see. He stepped out upon the road, but there was naebody there; he gaed a' ower the gairden, but na, nae black man. At the hinder end, and a bit feared as was but natural, he lifted the hasp and into the manse; and there was Janet M'Clour before his een, wi' her thrawn craig, and nane sae pleased to see him. And he aye minded sinsyne, when first he set his een upon her, he had the same cauld and deidly grue.
Mr. Soulis wasn’t too happy that this fearsome figure was making himself at home at Ba'weary manse; he hurried on, with wet shoes, over the stream and up the path, but there wasn’t a single black figure in sight. He stepped out onto the road, but no one was there; he walked all over the garden, but again, no sign of any black man. At the back, a bit scared as was only natural, he lifted the latch and entered the manse; and there was Janet M'Clour right in front of him, with her stubborn expression, clearly not pleased to see him. He still remembered how, the first time he laid eyes on her, he felt the exact same cold and chilling dread.
"Janet," says he, "have you seen a black man?"
"Janet," he says, "have you seen a Black man?"
"A black man?" quo' she. "Save us a'! Ye're no wise, minister. There's nae black man in a' Ba'weary."
"A black man?" she said. "Oh my! You're not serious, minister. There's no black man in all of Ba'weary."
But she didnae speak plain, ye maun understand; but yam-yammered, like a powney wi' the bit in its moo.
But she didn’t speak clearly, you must understand; she rambled on, like a young horse with the bit in its mouth.
"Weel," says he, "Janet, if there was nae black man, I have spoken with the Accuser of the Brethren."
"We'll," he says, "Janet, if there wasn't a black man, I've talked to the Accuser of the Brethren."
And he sat down like ane wi' a fever, an' his teeth chittered in his heid.
And he sat down like someone with a fever, and his teeth chattered in his head.
"Hoots," says she, "think shame to yoursel', minister;" an' gied him a drap brandy that she keept aye by her.
"Hoots," she says, "shame on you, minister;" and she gave him a drop of brandy that she always kept on hand.
Syne Mr. Soulis gaed into his study amang a' his books. It's a lang, laigh, mirk chalmer, perishin' cauld in winter, an' no very dry even in the tap o' the simmer, for the manse stands near the burn. Sae doun he sat, and thocht of a' that had come an' gane since he was in Ba'weary, an' his hame, an' the days when he was a bairn an' ran daffin' on the braes; and that black man aye ran in his heid like the owercome of a sang. Aye the mair he thocht, the mair he thocht o' the black man. He tried the prayer, an' the words wouldnae come to him; an' he tried, they say, to write at his book, but he couldnae mak' nae mair o' that. There was whiles he thocht the black man was at his oxter, an' the swat stood upon him cauld as well-water; and there was other whiles, when he cam' to himsel' like a christened bairn and minded naething.
So Mr. Soulis went into his study among all his books. It’s a long, low, dark room, freezing cold in winter, and not very dry even at the height of summer, since the manse is close to the stream. So he sat down and thought about everything that had happened since he was in Ba'weary, and his home, and the days when he was a child running around on the hills; and that dark figure always ran through his mind like the echo of a song. The more he thought, the more he thought about the dark figure. He tried to pray, but the words wouldn't come to him; and he attempted to write in his book, but he couldn’t accomplish that either. Sometimes he felt like the dark figure was right beside him, and he was sweating cold like well water; and at other times, he came to himself like a baptized child and remembered nothing.
The upshot was that he gaed to the window an' stood glowrin' at Dule water. The trees are unco thick, an' the water lies deep an' black under the manse; an' there was Janet washin' the cla'es wi' her coats kilted. She had her back to the minister, an' he, for his pairt, hardly kenned what he was lookin' at. Syne she turned round, an' shawed her face; Mr. Soulis had the same cauld grue as twice that day afore, an' it was borne in upon him what folk said, that Janet was deid lang syne, an' this was a bogle in her clay cauld flesh. He drew back a pickle and he scanned her narrowly. She was tramp-trampin' in the cla'es, croonin' to hersel'; and eh! Gude guide us, but it was a fearsome face. Whiles she sang louder, but there was nae man born o' woman that could tell the words o' her sang; an' whiles she lookit side-lang doun, but there was naething there for her to look at. There gaed a scunner through the flesh upon his banes; and that was Heeven's advertisement. But Mr. Soulis just blamed himsel', he said, to think sae ill of a puir, auld afflicted wife that hadnae a freend forby himsel'; and he put up a bit prayer for him and her, an' drank a little caller water—for his heart rose again the meat—an' gaed up to his naked bed in the gloaming.
The result was that he went to the window and stood staring at the Dule Water. The trees were really thick, and the water was deep and black under the manse; and there was Janet washing the clothes with her skirts lifted. She had her back to the minister, and he, for his part, hardly knew what he was looking at. Then she turned around and showed her face; Mr. Soulis had the same cold shudder he had felt earlier that day, and it struck him what people said, that Janet had been dead a long time, and this was a ghost in her cold flesh. He pulled back a bit and examined her closely. She was stomping in the clothes, humming to herself; and oh! Good grief, but it was a frightening face. Sometimes she sang louder, but there wasn't a man born of woman who could make out the words of her song; and sometimes she looked sideways down, but there was nothing there for her to look at. A shiver ran through his bones; and that was Heaven's warning. But Mr. Soulis just blamed himself for thinking so poorly of a poor, old afflicted woman who had no friend except for him; and he said a little prayer for both of them, drank a little refreshing water—since his stomach turned at the food—and went up to his bare bed in the evening light.
That was a nicht that has never been forgotten in Ba'weary, the nicht o' the seeventeenth of August, seeventeen hun'er' and twal'. It had been het afore, as I hae said, but that nicht it was hetter than ever. The sun gaed doun amang unco-lookin' clouds; it fell as mirk as the pit; no a star, no a breath o' wund; ye couldnae see your han' afore your face, and even the auld folk cuist the covers frae their beds and lay pechin' for their breath. Wi' a' that he had upon his mind, it was gey and unlikely Mr. Soulis wad get muckle sleep. He lay an' he tummled; the gude, caller bed that he got into brunt his very banes; whiles he slept, and whiles he waukened; whiles he heard the time o' nicht, and whiles a tyke yowlin' up the muir, as if somebody was deid; whiles he thocht he heard bogles claverin' in his lug, an' whiles he saw spunkies in the room. He behooved, he judged, to be sick; an' sick he was—little he jaloosed the sickness.
That was a night that has never been forgotten in Ba'weary, the night of the seventeenth of August, seventeen hundred and twelve. It had been hot before, as I said, but that night it was hotter than ever. The sun went down among strange-looking clouds; it fell as dark as the pit; not a star, not a breath of wind; you couldn't see your hand in front of your face, and even the old folks tossed the covers from their beds and lay gasping for breath. With everything on his mind, it was highly unlikely that Mr. Soulis would get much sleep. He lay there tossing and turning; the cool, inviting bed that he got into burned his very bones; sometimes he slept, and sometimes he woke; sometimes he heard the time of night, and sometimes a dog howling up the moor, as if someone was dead; sometimes he thought he heard ghosts whispering in his ear, and sometimes he saw lights in the room. He had to, he decided, be sick; and sick he was—little did he realize the extent of his sickness.
At the hinder end, he got a clearness in his mind, sat up in his sark on the bedside, and fell thinkin' ance mair o' the black man an' Janet. He couldnae weel tell how—maybe it was the cauld to his feet—but it cam' in upon him wi' a spate that there was some connection between thir twa, an' that either or baith o' them were bogles. And just at that moment, in Janet's room, which was neist to his, there cam' a stramp o' feet as if men were wars'lin', an' then a loud bang; an' then a wund gaed reishling round the fower quarters of the house; an' then a' was aince mair as seelent as the grave.
At the back end, he had a clear thought in his mind, sat up in his shirt on the bedside, and started thinking once again about the dark man and Janet. He couldn't quite tell how—maybe it was the cold at his feet—but it suddenly hit him that there was some connection between those two, and that either or both of them were ghosts. Just at that moment, in Janet's room, which was next to his, there came a thumping of feet as if men were fighting, then a loud bang; and then a wind started swirling around the four corners of the house; and then everything was once again as silent as the grave.
Mr. Soulis was feared for neither man nor deevil. He got his tinder box, an' lighted a can'le, an' made three steps o't ower to Janet's door. It was on the hasp, an' he pushed it open, an' keeked bauldly in. It was a big room, as big as the minister's ain, an' plenished wi' grand, auld, solid gear, for he had naething else. There was a fower-posted bed wi' auld tapestry; and a braw cabinet of aik, that was fu' o' the minister's divinity books, an' put there to be out o' the gate; an' a wheen duds o' Janet's lying here and there about the floor. But nae Janet could Mr. Soulis see; nor ony sign of a contention. In he gaed (an' there's few that wad ha'e followed him) an' lookit a' round, an' listened. But there was naethin' to be heard, neither inside the manse nor in a' Ba'weary parish, an' naethin' to be seen but the muckle shadows turnin' round the can'le. An' then a' at aince, the minister's heart played dunt an' stood stock-still; an' a cauld wund blew amang the hairs o' his heid. Whaten a weary sicht was that for the puir man's een! For there was Janet hangin' frae a nail beside the auld aik cabinet: her heid aye lay on her shoother, her een were steeked, the tongue projekit frae her mouth, and her heels were twa feet clear abune the floor.
Mr. Soulis wasn't afraid of anyone or anything. He grabbed his tinderbox, lit a candle, and took three steps over to Janet's door. It was unlatched, so he pushed it open and boldly peeked inside. It was a large room, as big as the minister's own, filled with grand old furniture, as that was all he had. There was a four-poster bed with old tapestry and a nice oak cabinet, stuffed with the minister's divinity books, placed there to keep them out of the way, along with a few of Janet's clothes scattered about the floor. But Mr. Soulis couldn’t see Janet anywhere, nor any sign of a struggle. He went in (and very few would have dared to follow him) and looked around, listening closely. But there was nothing to hear, neither inside the manse nor throughout all of Ba'weary parish, and nothing to see but the big shadows shifting around the candle. Then suddenly, the minister's heart skipped a beat and stopped; a cold wind blew through the hairs on his head. What a dreadful sight that was for the poor man's eyes! For there was Janet hanging from a nail beside the old oak cabinet: her head resting on her shoulder, her eyes closed, her tongue sticking out of her mouth, and her heels two feet above the floor.
"God forgive us all!" thocht Mr. Soulis; "poor Janet's dead."
"God forgive us all!" thought Mr. Soulis; "poor Janet's dead."
He cam' a step nearer to the corp; an' then his heart fair whammled in his inside. For by what cantrip it wad ill-beseem a man to judge, she was hingin' frae a single nail an' by a single wursted thread for darnin' hose.
He stepped closer to the body, and his heart raced inside him. For whatever magic it was, it seemed wrong for a man to judge, as she was hanging by a single nail and a single thread used for mending socks.
It's an awfu' thing to be your lane at nicht wi' siccan prodigies o' darkness; but Mr. Soulis was strong in the Lord. He turned an' gaed his ways oot o' that room, and lockit the door ahint him; and step by step, doon the stairs, as heavy as leed; and set doon the can'le on the table at the stairfoot. He couldnae pray, he couldnae think, he was dreepin' wi' caul' swat, an' naething could he hear but the dunt-dunt-duntin' o' his ain heart. He micht maybe have stood there an hour, or maybe twa, he minded sae little; when a' o' a sudden he heard a laigh, uncanny steer upstairs; a foot gaed to an' fro in the cha'mer whaur the corp was hingin'; syne the door was opened, though he minded weel that he had lockit it; an' syne there was a step upon the landin', an' it seemed to him as if the corp was lookin' ower the rail and doun upon him whaur he stood.
It's a terrible thing to be alone at night with such dark wonders; but Mr. Soulis was strong in his faith. He turned and left the room, locking the door behind him; and step by step, he went down the stairs, feeling as heavy as lead, and placed the candle on the table at the foot of the stairs. He couldn't pray, couldn't think, he was dripping with cold sweat, and all he could hear was the thumping of his own heart. He might have stood there for an hour, or maybe two; he didn't remember much. Then suddenly, he heard a low, eerie stir upstairs; a foot went back and forth in the room where the corpse was hanging; then the door opened, even though he clearly remembered locking it; and then there was a step on the landing, and it seemed to him as if the corpse was looking over the rail down at him where he stood.
He took up the can'le again (for he couldnae want the licht) and, as saftly as ever he could, gaed straucht out o' the manse an' to the far end o' the causeway. It was aye pit-mirk; the flame o' the can'le, when he set it on the grund, brunt steedy and clear as in a room; naething moved, but the Dule water seepin' and sabbin' doon the glen, an' yon unhaly footstep that cam' ploddin' doun the stairs inside the manse. He kenned the foot ower weel, for it was Janet's; and at ilka step that cam' a wee thing nearer, the cauld got deeper in his vitals. He commended his soul to Him that made an' keepit him; "and O Lord," said he, "give me strength this night to war against the powers of evil."
He picked up the candle again (since he couldn’t be without light) and, as carefully as he could, went straight out of the manse and to the far end of the path. It was pitch dark; the flame of the candle, when he placed it on the ground, burned steady and clear like in a room; nothing moved, except for the Devil’s water seeping and sobbing down the glen, and that unholy footstep that came trudging down the stairs inside the manse. He recognized that footstep very well, because it was Janet’s; and with each step that came a little closer, the cold settled deeper in his bones. He committed his soul to Him who made and kept him; “and O Lord,” he said, “give me strength tonight to fight against the powers of evil.”
By this time the foot was comin' through the passage for the door; he could hear a hand skirt alang the wa', as if the fearsome thing was feelin' for its way. The saughs tossed an' maned thegether, a lang sigh cam' ower the hills, the flame o' the can'le was blawn aboot; an' there stood the corp of Thrawn Janet, wi' her grogram goun an' her black mutch, wi' the heid aye upon the shouther, an' the girn still upon the face o't—leevin', ye wad hae said—deid, as Mr. Soulis weel kenned—upon the threshold o' the manse.
By this time, the foot was coming through the passage for the door; he could hear a hand skimming along the wall, as if the terrifying thing was searching for its way. The willows tossed and mingled together, a long sigh swept over the hills, the flame of the candle flickered around; and there stood the corpse of Thrawn Janet, with her gray gown and her black cap, with the head always on the shoulder, and the grimace still on her face—alive, you would have said—dead, as Mr. Soulis well knew—on the threshold of the manse.
It's a strange thing that the saul of man should be that thirled into his perishable body; but the minister saw that, an' his heart didnae break.
It's a bizarre thing that the soul of man should be tied to his temporary body; but the minister saw that, and his heart didn't break.
She didnae stand there lang; she began to move again an' cam' slowly toward Mr. Soulis whaur he stood under the saughs. A' the life o' his body, a' the strength o' his speerit, were glowerin' frae his een. It seemed she was gaun to speak, but wanted words, an' made a sign wi' the left hand. There cam' a clap o' wund, like a cat's fuff; oot gaed the can'le, the saughs skrieghed like folk; an' Mr. Soulis kenned that, live or die, this was the end o't.
She didn't stand there long; she started to move again and walked slowly toward Mr. Soulis where he stood under the willows. All the life in his body, all the strength of his spirit, shone from his eyes. It seemed she was about to speak but couldn't find the words, so she made a gesture with her left hand. There came a gust of wind, like a cat's pounce; the candle went out, the willows screamed like people; and Mr. Soulis knew that, whether he lived or died, this was the end of it.
"Witch, beldame, devil!" he cried, "I charge you, by the power of God, begone—if you be dead, to the grave—if you be damned, to hell."
"Witch, old hag, devil!" he shouted, "I command you, by the power of God, be gone—if you are dead, to the grave—if you are damned, to hell."
An' at that moment the Lord's ain hand out o' the Heevens struck the Horror whaur it stood; the auld, deid, desecrated corp o' the witch-wife, sae lang keepit frae the grave and hirsled round by deils, lowed up like a brunstane spunk and fell in ashes to the grund; the thunder followed, peal on dirling peal, the rairing rain upon the back o' that; and Mr. Soulis lowped through the garden hedge, and ran, wi' skelloch upon skelloch, for the clachan.
And at that moment, the Lord’s own hand from the Heavens struck the Horror where it stood; the old, dead, desecrated body of the witch-wife, kept from the grave for so long and tormented by demons, burst into flames like a sulfurous spark and turned to ashes on the ground; thunder followed, booming after booming, with roaring rain right behind it; and Mr. Soulis jumped through the garden hedge and ran, with shouts upon shouts, toward the village.
That same mornin', John Christie saw the Black Man pass the Muckle Cairn as it was chappin' six; before eicht, he gaed by the change-house at Knockdow; an' no lang after, Sandy M'Lellan saw him gaun linkin' doun the braes frae Kilmackerlie. There's little doubt but it was him that dwalled sae lang in Janet's body; but he was awa' at last; and sinsyne the deil has never fashed us in Ba'weary.
That same morning, John Christie saw the Black Man pass the Muckle Cairn just after six; before eight, he went by the tavern at Knockdow; and not long after, Sandy M'Lellan saw him walking down the hills from Kilmackerlie. There's little doubt it was him who lingered so long in Janet's body; but he was finally gone; and since then, the devil has never troubled us in Ba'weary.
But it was a sair dispensation for the minister; lang, lang he lay ravin' in his bed; and frae that hour to this, he was the man ye ken the day.
But it was a tough situation for the minister; for a long time, he lay delirious in his bed; and from that hour to this, he was the man you know today.
A CHRISTMAS CAROL
BY CHARLES DICKENS
BY CHARLES DICKENS
Charles Dickens was a stanch friend not only of the child but of all humanity. No writer, perhaps, has succeeded in portraying so strikingly the humorous and pathetic in human character. Much of Dickens's reputation for ability in this direction is due to his success with the particular story given herewith. The man or woman who does not know Scrooge, the Ghost that scared him half to death, and what this story stands for, has still something to learn, both of literature and of life.
Charles Dickens was a loyal friend not just to children but to all humanity. No writer, perhaps, has managed to capture the humor and sadness of human nature as well as he did. A lot of Dickens's reputation for this talent comes from his success with the particular story presented here. Anyone who doesn’t know Scrooge, the Ghost that frightened him nearly to death, and what this story represents still has lessons to learn, both about literature and life.
A CHRISTMAS CAROL
A Christmas Carol
By CHARLES DICKENS
By Charles Dickens
STAVE ONE
PART ONE
Marley's Ghost
Marley's Ghost
Marley was dead: to begin with. There is no doubt whatever about that. The register of his burial was signed by the clergyman, the clerk, the undertaker, and the chief mourner. Scrooge signed it: and Scrooge's name was good upon 'Change, for anything he chose to put his hand to. Old Marley was dead as a doornail.
Marley was dead, to start with. There's no question about that. The record of his burial was signed by the priest, the clerk, the funeral director, and the main mourner. Scrooge signed it, and Scrooge's name was reputable on the exchange, for anything he decided to involve himself in. Old Marley was as dead as a doornail.
Mind! I don't mean to say that I know, of my own knowledge, what there is particularly dead about a door-nail. I might have been inclined, myself, to regard a coffin-nail as the deadest piece of ironmongery in the trade. But the wisdom of our ancestors is in the simile; and my unhallowed hands shall not disturb it, or the Country's done for. You will therefore permit me to repeat, emphatically, that Marley was dead as a door-nail.
Mind you! I’m not saying I know, from my own experience, what exactly makes a door-nail particularly dead. I could just as easily consider a coffin-nail to be the deadest piece of metal in the business. But the wisdom of our ancestors is in the saying, and I won’t mess with it, or else we’re in trouble. So, let me emphasize once again, Marley was dead as a door-nail.
Scrooge knew he was dead? Of course he did. How could it be otherwise? Scrooge and he were partners for I don't know how many years. Scrooge was his sole executor, his sole administrator, his sole assign, his sole residuary legatee, his sole friend, and sole mourner. And even Scrooge was not so dreadfully cut up by the sad event, but that he was an excellent man of business on the very day of the funeral, and solemnized it with an undoubted bargain.
Scrooge knew he was dead? Of course he did. How could it be any other way? Scrooge and he had been partners for I don’t even know how many years. Scrooge was his only executor, his only administrator, his only assignee, his only residual beneficiary, his only friend, and his only mourner. Even Scrooge wasn’t too devastated by the tragic event; he was a shrewd businessman right on the day of the funeral, and he marked it with a definite deal.
The mention of Marley's funeral brings me back to the point I started from. There is no doubt that Marley was dead. This must be distinctly understood, or nothing wonderful can come of the story I am going to relate. If we were not perfectly convinced that Hamlet's Father died before the play began, there would be nothing more remarkable in his taking a stroll at night, in an easterly wind, upon his own ramparts, than there would be in any other middle-aged gentleman rashly turning out after dark in a breezy spot—say Saint Paul's Churchyard for instance—literally to astonish his son's weak mind.
The mention of Marley's funeral takes me back to where I started. There’s no doubt that Marley is dead. This needs to be clear, or nothing amazing can come from the story I'm about to tell. If we weren't completely sure that Hamlet's father died before the play started, there would be nothing surprising about him taking a late-night stroll in the east wind on his own ramparts, just like any other middle-aged guy carelessly wandering out after dark in a breezy place—like Saint Paul's Churchyard, for example—just to shock his son's fragile mind.
Scrooge never painted out Old Marley's name. There it stood, years afterward, above the warehouse door: Scrooge and Marley. The firm was known as Scrooge and Marley. Sometimes people new to the business called Scrooge Scrooge, and sometimes Marley, but he answered to both names: it was all the same to him.
Scrooge never removed Old Marley's name. It remained there, years later, above the warehouse door: Scrooge and Marley. The business was known as Scrooge and Marley. Sometimes new people called Scrooge Scrooge, and sometimes Marley, but he responded to both names: it was all the same to him.
Oh! But he was a tight-fisted hand at the grindstone, Scrooge! a squeezing, wrenching, grasping, scraping, clutching, covetous, old sinner! Hard and sharp as flint, from which no steel had ever struck out generous fire; secret, and self-contained, and solitary as an oyster. The cold within him froze his old features, nipped his pointed nose, shriveled his cheek, stiffened his gait; made his eyes red, his thin lips blue; and spoke out shrewdly in his grating voice. A frosty rime was on his head, and on his eyebrows, and his wiry chin. He carried his own low temperature always about with him; he iced his office in the dog-days; and didn't thaw it one degree at Christmas.
Oh! But he was a miserly man at work, Scrooge! A squeezing, wrenching, grasping, scraping, clutching, greedy old miser! Hard and sharp as flint, from which no steel had ever struck out a generous spark; secretive, self-contained, and as lonely as an oyster. The cold inside him froze his old features, nipped his pointed nose, shriveled his cheek, stiffened his walk; made his eyes red, his thin lips blue; and came out sharply in his grating voice. A frosty layer was on his head, his eyebrows, and his wiry chin. He always carried his low temperature with him; he turned his office into an icebox in the summer; and didn’t warm it up even a little at Christmas.
External heat and cold had little influence on Scrooge. No warmth could warm, nor wintry weather chill him. No wind that blew was bitterer than he, no falling snow was more intent upon its purpose, no pelting rain less open to entreaty. Foul weather didn't know where to have him. The heaviest rain, and snow, and hail, and sleet, could boast of the advantage over him in only one respect. They often "came down" handsomely, and Scrooge never did.
External heat and cold barely affected Scrooge. No warmth could warm him, nor could the winter chill him. No wind that blew was harsher than he was, no falling snow was more focused on its mission, and no pouring rain was less receptive to pleas. Bad weather didn’t know how to deal with him. The heaviest rain, snow, hail, and sleet could only claim one advantage over him—they often fell beautifully, while Scrooge never did.
Nobody ever stopped him in the street to say, with gladsome looks, "My dear Scrooge, how are you? When will you come to see me?" No beggars implored him to bestow a trifle, no children asked him what it was o'clock, no man or woman ever once in all his life inquired the way to such and such a place, of Scrooge. Even the blind men's dogs appeared to know him; and when they saw him coming on, would tug their owners into doorways and up courts; and then would wag their tails as though they said, "No eye at all is better than an evil eye, dark master!"
Nobody ever stopped him on the street to say, with happy smiles, "Hey Scrooge, how are you? When are you going to come visit me?" No beggars asked him for a little change, no kids asked him what time it was, and no man or woman ever, in his entire life, asked Scrooge for directions to anywhere. Even the dogs of blind people seemed to recognize him; when they saw him coming, they would pull their owners into doorways and alleys, wagging their tails as if to say, "No sight at all is better than a mean glare, dark master!"
But what did Scrooge care? It was the very thing he liked. To edge his way along the crowded paths of life, warning all human sympathy to keep its distance, was what the knowing ones call "nuts" to Scrooge.
But what did Scrooge care? It was exactly what he liked. To navigate through the bustling paths of life, keeping all human sympathy at bay, was what the savvy people call "the best" to Scrooge.
Once upon a time—of all the good days in the year, on Christmas Eve—old Scrooge sat busy in his counting-house. It was cold, bleak, biting weather: foggy withal: and he could hear the people in the court outside go wheezing up and down, beating their hands upon their breasts, and stamping their feet upon the pavement stones to warm them. The city clocks had only just gone three, but it was quite dark already: it had not been light all day: and candles were flaring in the windows of the neighboring offices, like ruddy smears upon the palpable brown air. The fog came pouring in at every chink and keyhole, and was so dense without, that although the court was of the narrowest, the houses opposite were mere phantoms. To see the dingy cloud come drooping down, obscuring everything, one might have thought that Nature lived hard by, and was brewing on a large scale.
Once upon a time—on one of the best days of the year, Christmas Eve—old Scrooge was busy in his counting house. The weather was cold, bleak, and biting: foggy too. He could hear people outside in the courtyard wheezing as they walked back and forth, beating their hands against their chests and stamping their feet on the pavement stones to warm up. The city clocks had just struck three, but it was already quite dark; it hadn't been light all day. Candles were flickering in the windows of the nearby offices, like red smudges against the thick brown air. The fog was pouring in through every crack and keyhole, and it was so dense outside that even though the courtyard was narrow, the houses across the way looked like mere shadows. With the dingy cloud hanging low and obscuring everything, one might think Nature was close by, brewing something on a large scale.
The door of Scrooge's counting-house was open, that he might keep his eye upon his clerk, who in a dismal little cell beyond, a sort of tank, was copying letters. Scrooge had a very small fire, but the clerk's fire was so very much smaller that it looked like one coal. But he couldn't replenish it, for Scrooge kept the coal-box in his own room; and so surely as the clerk came in with the shovel, the master predicted that it would be necessary for them to part. Wherefore the clerk put on his white comforter, and tried to warm himself at the candle; in which effort, not being a man of a strong imagination, he failed.
The door of Scrooge's office was open so he could keep an eye on his clerk, who was stuck in a miserable little room, kind of like a tank, copying letters. Scrooge had a very small fire, but the clerk's fire was so tiny that it looked like just one piece of coal. However, he couldn't add more fuel to it because Scrooge kept the coal box in his own room; and whenever the clerk came in with the shovel, Scrooge would predict that it was time for them to part ways. So, the clerk wrapped himself in his white scarf and tried to warm himself at the candle, but since he wasn’t very imaginative, he wasn’t successful.
"A merry Christmas, uncle! God save you!" cried a cheerful voice. It was the voice of Scrooge's nephew, who came upon him so quickly that this was the first intimation he had of his approach.
"A merry Christmas, Uncle! God bless you!" shouted a cheerful voice. It was Scrooge's nephew, who surprised him so suddenly that this was the first hint he had of his arrival.
"Bah!" said Scrooge, "humbug!"
"Bah!" Scrooge said, "humbug!"
He had so heated himself with rapid walking in the fog and frost, this nephew of Scrooge's, that he was all in a glow; his face was ruddy and handsome! his eyes sparkled, and his breath smoked again.
He had warmed himself up with quick walking in the fog and frost, this nephew of Scrooge's, that he was glowing; his face was red and good-looking! His eyes sparkled, and his breath came out in puffs of steam.
"Christmas a humbug, uncle!" said Scrooge's nephew. "You don't mean that, I am sure."
"Christmas is a scam, Uncle!" said Scrooge's nephew. "You can't really mean that, I'm sure."
"I do," said Scrooge. "Merry Christmas! What right have you to be merry? What reason have you to be merry? You're poor enough."
"I do," said Scrooge. "Merry Christmas! What right do you have to be cheerful? What reason do you have to be happy? You're poor enough."
"Come, then," returned the nephew gaily. "What right have you to be dismal? What reason have you to be morose? You're rich enough."
"Come on then," the nephew replied cheerfully. "Why do you have to be so gloomy? What's making you so grumpy? You have plenty of money."
Scrooge having no better answer ready on the spur of the moment, said "Bah!" again; and followed it up with "Humbug!"
Scrooge, not having a better response available right away, said "Bah!" again, and followed it up with "Humbug!"
"Don't be cross, uncle," said the nephew.
"Don't be upset, uncle," said the nephew.
"What else can I be," returned the uncle, "when I live in such a world of fools as this? Merry Christmas! Out upon merry Christmas! What's Christmas time to you but a time for paying bills without money; a time for finding yourself a year older, but not an hour richer; a time for balancing your books and having every item in 'em through a round dozen of months presented dead against you? If I could work my will," said Scrooge indignantly, "every idiot who goes about with 'Merry Christmas' on his lips should be boiled with his own pudding, and buried with a stake of holly through his heart. He should!"
"What else can I be," the uncle replied, "when I live in such a world of fools? Merry Christmas! Bah, humbug! What's Christmas to you but a time for paying bills you can't afford; a time for realizing you're a year older but not a penny richer; a time for balancing your accounts and seeing every item in them stacked against you for the whole year? If I could have my way," Scrooge said angrily, "every idiot who goes around saying 'Merry Christmas' should be boiled in his own pudding and buried with a stake of holly through his heart. Absolutely!"
"Uncle!" pleaded the nephew.
"Uncle!" begged the nephew.
"Nephew!" returned the uncle sternly, "keep Christmas in your own way, and let me keep it in mine."
"Nephew!" the uncle replied firmly, "celebrate Christmas however you want, and let me celebrate it my way."
"Keep it!" repeated Scrooge's nephew. "But you don't keep it."
"Keep it!" Scrooge's nephew repeated. "But you don't keep it."
"Let me leave it alone, then," said Scrooge. "Much good may it do you! Much good it has ever done you!"
"Let me just leave it alone, then," said Scrooge. "I hope it does you some good! It hasn't helped you at all in the past!"
"There are many things from which I might have derived good, by which I have not profited, I dare say," returned the nephew; "Christmas among the rest. But I am sure I have always thought of Christmas time, when it has come round—apart from the veneration due to its sacred name and origin, if anything belonging to it can be apart from that—as a good time: a kind, forgiving, charitable, pleasant time: the only time I know of, in the long calendar of the year, when men and women seem by one consent to open their shut-up hearts freely, and to think of people below them as if they really were fellow-passengers to the grave, and not another race of creatures bound on other journeys. And therefore, uncle, though it has never put a scrap of gold or silver in my pocket, I believe that it has done me good, and will do me good; and I say, God bless it!"
“There are many things I could have benefited from but haven’t, I'm sure,” replied the nephew. “Christmas is one of them. Still, I’ve always seen Christmas as a good time—a kind, forgiving, charitable, enjoyable time—the only time in the whole year when people seem to come together and open their hearts, thinking of others as if we’re all in this together, sharing the same journey to the end, rather than being separate beings on different paths. So, uncle, even though it hasn’t filled my pockets with gold or silver, I truly believe it has done me good and will continue to do so; and I say, God bless it!”
The clerk in the Tank involuntarily applauded: becoming immediately sensible of the impropriety, he poked the fire, and extinguished the last frail spark forever.
The clerk in the Tank clapped his hands without thinking: realizing right away that it was inappropriate, he poked the fire and put out the last weak spark for good.
"Let me hear another sound from you," said Scrooge, "and you'll keep your Christmas by losing your situation. You're quite a powerful speaker, sir," he added, turning to his nephew. "I wonder you don't go into Parliament."
"Let me hear another word from you," said Scrooge, "and you'll celebrate your Christmas by losing your job. You're quite the orator, sir," he said, turning to his nephew. "I can't believe you don’t consider going into Parliament."
"Don't be angry, uncle. Come! Dine with us to-morrow."
"Don't be mad, Uncle. Come! Have dinner with us tomorrow."
Scrooge said that he would see him—yes, indeed he did. He went the whole length of the expression, and said that he would see him in that extremity first.
Scrooge said he would definitely see him—yes, he really did. He fully committed to that statement and said he would make sure to see him in that dire situation first.
"But why?" cried Scrooge's nephew. "Why?"
"But why?" exclaimed Scrooge's nephew. "Why?"
"Why did you get married?" said Scrooge.
"Why did you get married?" asked Scrooge.
"Because I fell in love."
"Because I fell in love."
"Because you fell in love!" growled Scrooge, as if that were the only one thing in the world more ridiculous than a merry Christmas. "Good-afternoon!"
"Because you fell in love!" Scrooge growled, as if that were the only thing in the world more ridiculous than a cheerful Christmas. "Good afternoon!"
"Nay, uncle, but you never came to see me before that happened. Why give it as a reason for not coming now?"
"Nah, uncle, you never came to see me before that happened. Why use that as an excuse for not coming now?"
"Good-afternoon," said Scrooge.
"Good afternoon," said Scrooge.
"I want nothing from you; I ask nothing of you; why can not we be friends?"
"I don’t want anything from you; I’m not asking for anything; why can’t we just be friends?"
"Good-afternoon," said Scrooge.
"Good afternoon," said Scrooge.
"I am sorry, with all my heart, to find you so resolute. We have never had any quarrel to which I have been a party. But I have made the trial in homage to Christmas, and I'll keep my Christmas humor to the last. So a Merry Christmas, uncle!"
"I truly regret to see you so determined. We've never had any argument that I've been part of. But I've made this effort out of respect for Christmas, and I’ll maintain my holiday spirit until the end. So, Merry Christmas, uncle!"
"Good-afternoon!" said Scrooge.
"Good afternoon!" said Scrooge.
"And a Happy New Year!"
"Happy New Year!"
"Good-afternoon!" said Scrooge.
"Good afternoon!" said Scrooge.
His nephew left the room without an angry word, notwithstanding. He stopped at the outer door to bestow the greetings of the season on the clerk, who, cold as he was, was warmer than Scrooge; for he returned them cordially.
His nephew left the room without saying anything angry. He paused at the outer door to extend holiday greetings to the clerk, who, despite being cold, was warmer than Scrooge; he responded enthusiastically.
"There's another fellow," muttered Scrooge, who overheard him; "my clerk, with fifteen shillings a week, and a wife and family, talking about a merry Christmas. I'll retire to Bedlam."
"There's another guy," muttered Scrooge, who overheard him; "my clerk, making fifteen shillings a week, with a wife and kids, talking about a joyful Christmas. I'll check myself into a mental hospital."
This lunatic, in letting Scrooge's nephew out, had let two other people in. They were portly gentlemen, pleasant to behold, and now stood, with their hats off, in Scrooge's office. They had books and papers in their hands, and bowed to him.
This crazy person, while letting Scrooge's nephew out, had also let two other guys in. They were well-fed gentlemen, nice to look at, and now stood, with their hats off, in Scrooge's office. They had books and papers in their hands and bowed to him.
"Scrooge and Marley's, I believe," said one of the gentlemen, referring to his list. "Have I the pleasure of addressing Mr. Scrooge, or Mr. Marley?"
"Scrooge and Marley’s, I think," said one of the men, looking at his list. "Am I speaking to Mr. Scrooge or Mr. Marley?"
"Mr. Marley has been dead these seven years," Scrooge replied. "He died seven years ago, this very night."
"Mr. Marley has been dead for seven years," Scrooge replied. "He died seven years ago, on this very night."
"We have no doubt his liberality is well represented by his surviving partner," said the gentleman, presenting his credentials.
"We have no doubt that his generosity is accurately reflected by his remaining partner," said the man, showing his credentials.
It certainly was; for they had been two kindred spirits. At the ominous word "liberality," Scrooge frowned, and shook his head, and handed the credentials back.
It definitely was; because they had been two kindred spirits. At the scary word "liberality," Scrooge frowned, shook his head, and returned the credentials.
"At this festive season of the year, Mr. Scrooge," said the gentleman, taking up a pen, "it is more than usually desirable that we should make some slight provision for the poor and destitute, who suffer greatly at the present time. Many thousands are in want of common necessaries; hundreds of thousands are in want of common comforts, sir."
"During this holiday season, Mr. Scrooge," said the gentleman, picking up a pen, "it's especially important for us to make some small effort to help the poor and needy, who are really struggling right now. Many thousands lack basic necessities; hundreds of thousands lack basic comforts, sir."
"Are there no prisons?" asked Scrooge.
"Are there no prisons?" asked Scrooge.
"Plenty of prisons," said the gentleman, laying down the pen again.
"Lots of jails," said the man, setting the pen down again.
"And the Union workhouses?" demanded Scrooge. "Are they still in operation?"
"And the Union workhouses?" Scrooge asked. "Are they still running?"
"They are. Still," returned the gentleman, "I wish I could say they were not."
"They are. Still," the gentleman replied, "I wish I could say they weren't."
"The Treadmill and the Poor Law are in full vigor, then?" said Scrooge.
"The Treadmill and the Poor Law are still going strong, right?" said Scrooge.
"Both very busy, sir."
"Both are really busy, sir."
"Oh! I was afraid, from what you said at first, that something had occurred to stop them in their useful course," said Scrooge. "I'm very glad to hear it."
"Oh! I was worried, based on what you said earlier, that something had happened to interrupt their positive progress," said Scrooge. "I'm really glad to hear that."
"Under the impression that they scarcely furnish Christian cheer of mind or body to the multitude," returned the gentleman, "a few of us are endeavoring to raise a fund to buy the Poor some meat and drink, and means of warmth. We choose this time, because it is a time, of all others, when Want is keenly felt, and Abundance rejoices. What shall I put you down for?"
"Thinking that they hardly provide any Christian comfort for the mind or body of the many," the gentleman replied, "a few of us are trying to raise money to buy food and drink, as well as ways to keep the Poor warm. We’ve chosen this time because, more than ever, those in need feel the struggle while those with plenty celebrate. What should I write you down for?"
"Nothing!" Scrooge replied.
"Nothing!" Scrooge answered.
"You wish to be anonymous?"
"Do you want to be anonymous?"
"I wish to be left alone," said Scrooge. "Since you ask me what I wish, gentlemen, that is my answer. I don't make merry myself at Christmas, and I can't afford to make idle people merry. I help to support the establishments I have mentioned: they cost enough: and those who are badly off must go there."
"I just want to be by myself," Scrooge said. "Since you want to know what I want, gentlemen, that's my answer. I don't celebrate Christmas myself, and I can't waste my money making other people happy. I help to fund the charities I've mentioned; they cost enough, and those who are struggling can go there."
"Many can't go there; and many would rather die."
"Many can't go there, and many would rather die."
"If they would rather die," said Scrooge, "they had better do it, and decrease the surplus population. Besides—excuse me—I don't know that."
"If they’d rather die," said Scrooge, "they should go ahead and do it, and reduce the surplus population. Besides—excuse me—I’m not sure about that."
"But you might know it," observed the gentleman.
"But you might know it," the gentleman remarked.
"It's not my business," Scrooge returned. "It's enough for a man to understand his own business, and not to interfere with other people's. Mine occupies me constantly. Good afternoon, gentlemen!"
"It's not my concern," Scrooge replied. "It's enough for a person to focus on their own issues and not meddle in others'. Mine keeps me busy all the time. Good afternoon, gentlemen!"
Seeing clearly that it would be useless to pursue their point, the gentlemen withdrew. Scrooge resumed his labors with an improved opinion of himself, and in a more facetious temper than was usual with him.
Seeing clearly that it would be pointless to continue their argument, the gentlemen backed off. Scrooge went back to his work with a better opinion of himself and in a more lighthearted mood than he usually was.
Meanwhile the fog and darkness thickened so that people ran about with flaring links, proffering their services to go before horses in carriages and conduct them on their way. The ancient tower of a church, whose gruff old bell was always peeping slyly down at Scrooge out of a gothic window in the wall, became invisible, and struck the hours and quarters in the clouds, with tremulous vibrations afterward as if its teeth were chattering in its frozen head up there. The cold became intense. In the main street at the corner of the court, some laborers were repairing the gas-pipes, and had lighted a great fire in a brazier, round which a party of ragged men and boys were gathered: warming their hands and winking their eyes before the blaze in rapture. The water-plug being left in solitude, its overflowings sullenly congealed, and turned to misanthropic ice. The brightness of the shops, where holly sprigs and berries crackled in the lamp heat of the windows, made pale faces ruddy as they passed. Poulterers' and grocers' trades became a splendid joke: a glorious pageant, with which it was next to impossible to believe that such dull principles as bargain and sale had anything to do. The Lord Mayor, in the stronghold of the mighty Mansion House, gave orders to his fifty cooks and butlers to keep Christmas as a Lord Mayor's household should; and even the little tailor, whom he had fined five shillings on the previous Monday for being drunk and bloodthirsty in the streets, stirred up to-morrow's pudding in his garret, while his lean wife and the baby sallied out to buy the beef.
Meanwhile, the fog and darkness thickened, causing people to run around with flickering lanterns, offering their services to lead horses in carriages on their way. The old church tower, whose gruff bell always peered down at Scrooge through a gothic window, became invisible, striking the hours and quarters into the clouds, with tremorous vibrations afterward as if its teeth were chattering in its frozen head up there. The cold grew intense. At the main street corner of the court, some workers were fixing the gas pipes and had lit a big fire in a brazier, around which a group of ragged men and boys gathered, warming their hands and squinting in delight before the blaze. The water plug, left alone, sullenly froze over and turned into misanthropic ice. The bright displays of the shops, where holly sprigs and berries crackled in the warm light of the windows, turned pale faces rosy as they passed by. The businesses of poultry vendors and grocers felt like a splendid joke: a glorious spectacle, making it hard to believe that something as mundane as buying and selling had anything to do with it. The Lord Mayor, in the stronghold of the impressive Mansion House, ordered his fifty cooks and butlers to celebrate Christmas as a Lord Mayor's household should; and even the little tailor, whom he had fined five shillings the previous Monday for being drunk and causing trouble in the streets, busied himself preparing tomorrow's pudding in his attic, while his thin wife and the baby went out to buy the beef.
Foggier yet, and colder! Piercing, searching, biting cold. If the good Saint Dunstan had but nipped the Evil Spirit's nose with a touch of such weather as that, instead of using his familiar weapons, then indeed he would have roared to lusty purpose. The owner of one scant young nose, gnawed and mumbled by the hungry cold as bones are gnawed by dogs, stooped down at Scrooge's keyhole to regale him with a Christmas carol: but at the first sound of
Foggier and colder! A sharp, chilling cold. If Saint Dunstan had only nipped the Evil Spirit's nose with such weather instead of his usual methods, he would have really made an impact. The owner of a thin young nose, bitten and chomped on by the biting cold like dogs gnawing on bones, bent down at Scrooge's keyhole to sing him a Christmas carol: but at the first sound of
"God bless you, merry gentleman!
May nothing you dismay!"
"God bless you, merry gentlemen!
May nothing bring you down!"
Scrooge seized the ruler with such energy of action that the singer fled in terror, leaving the keyhole to the fog and even more congenial frost.
Scrooge grabbed the ruler with such force that the singer ran away in fear, leaving the keyhole to the fog and an even more welcoming frost.
At length the hour of shutting up the counting-house arrived. With an ill-will Scrooge dismounted from his stool, and tacitly admitted the fact to the expectant clerk in the Tank, who instantly snuffed his candle out, and put on his hat.
At last, it was time to close the office. Unhappily, Scrooge got off his stool and silently acknowledged it to the eager clerk in the Tank, who quickly blew out his candle and put on his hat.
"You'll want all day to-morrow, I suppose?" said Scrooge.
"You'll want all day tomorrow, I guess?" said Scrooge.
"If quite convenient, sir."
"If it's convenient, sir."
"It's not convenient," said Scrooge, "and it's not fair. If I was to stop half-a-crown for it, you'd think yourself ill-used, I'll be bound?"
"It's not convenient," said Scrooge, "and it's not fair. If I were to take half a crown off it, you'd think you were getting a raw deal, wouldn't you?"
The clerk smiled faintly.
The clerk smiled weakly.
"And yet," said Scrooge, "you don't think me ill-used, when I pay a day's wages for no work."
"And yet," said Scrooge, "you don't think it's unfair when I pay for a day's work without getting anything done."
The clerk observed that it was only once a year.
The clerk noted that it happened only once a year.
"A poor excuse for picking a man's pocket every twenty-fifth of December!" said Scrooge, buttoning his great-coat to the chin. "But I suppose you must have the whole day. Be here all the earlier next morning!"
"A lousy excuse for robbing someone every December 25th!" said Scrooge, buttoning his coat all the way up. "But I guess you need the whole day. Be here even earlier tomorrow morning!"
The clerk promised that he would; and Scrooge walked out with a growl. The office was closed in a twinkling, and the clerk, with the long ends of his white comforter dangling below his waist (for he boasted no great-coat), went down a slide on Cornhill, at the end of a lane of boys, twenty times, in honor of its being Christmas Eve, and then ran home to Camden Town as hard as he could pelt, to play at blindman's buff.
The clerk promised he would, and Scrooge left with a grumble. The office was shut up in no time, and the clerk, with the ends of his white scarf hanging below his waist (since he didn't own a proper coat), went sliding down Cornhill, following a group of boys, twenty times to celebrate Christmas Eve. Then he ran home to Camden Town as fast as he could to play blindman's buff.
Scrooge took his melancholy dinner in his usual melancholy tavern; and having read all the newspapers, and beguiled the rest of the evening with his banker's-book, went home to bed. He lived in chambers which had once belonged to his deceased partner. They were a gloomy suite of rooms, in a lowering pile of building up a yard, where it had so little business to be, that one could scarcely help fancying it must have run there when it was a young house, playing at hide-and-seek with other houses, and have forgotten the way out again. It was old enough now, and dreary enough, for nobody lived in it but Scrooge, the other rooms being all let out as offices. The yard was so dark that even Scrooge, who knew its every stone, was fain to grope with his hands. The fog and frost so hung about the black old gateway of the house that it seemed as if the Genius of the Weather sat in mournful meditation on the threshold.
Scrooge had his sad dinner at his usual gloomy tavern. After reading all the newspapers and passing the rest of the night with his banker's book, he went home to bed. He lived in rooms that had once belonged to his deceased partner. They were a dark set of rooms in a dreary old building tucked away in a yard, where it didn’t really belong, making you feel like it had run there when it was a new house, playing hide-and-seek with other buildings, and had lost its way out. It was old enough and depressing enough that nobody lived there but Scrooge, as all the other rooms were rented out as offices. The yard was so dark that even Scrooge, who knew every stone, had to feel his way around. The fog and frost clung to the old black gateway of the house, making it seem like the Spirit of the Weather was sitting there in sorrowful thought.
Now, it is a fact, that there was nothing at all particular about the knocker on the door, except that it was very large. It is also a fact, that Scrooge had seen it, night and morning, during his whole residence in that place; also that Scrooge had as little of what is called fancy about him as any man in the City of London, even including—which is a bold word—the corporation, aldermen, and livery. Let it also be borne in mind that Scrooge had not bestowed one thought on Marley, since his last mention of his seven-years' dead partner that afternoon. And then let any man explain to me, if he can, how it happened that Scrooge, having his key in the lock of the door, saw in the knocker, without its undergoing any intermediate process of change: not a knocker, but Marley's face.
Now, it’s a fact that there was nothing special about the knocker on the door, except that it was very large. It’s also a fact that Scrooge had seen it, night and morning, throughout his entire time living there; also that Scrooge had as little imagination as any man in the City of London, even including—which is a bold statement—the corporation, aldermen, and livery. Let’s also remember that Scrooge hadn’t thought about Marley at all since he last mentioned his partner, who had been dead for seven years, that afternoon. So, let anyone explain to me how it happened that Scrooge, with his key in the lock of the door, saw in the knocker, without any intermediate transformation: not a knocker, but Marley's face.
Marley's face. It was not in impenetrable shadow as the other objects in the yard were, but had a dismal light about it, like a bad lobster in a dark cellar. It was not angry or ferocious, but looked at Scrooge as Marley used to look: with ghostly spectacles turned up on its ghostly forehead. The hair was curiously stirred, as if by breath or hot air; and, though the eyes were wide open, they were perfectly motionless. That, and its livid color, made it horrible; but its horror seemed to be in spite of the face and beyond its control, rather than a part of its own expression.
Marley's face. It wasn't shrouded in impenetrable shadow like the other objects in the yard, but had a gloomy light about it, similar to a bad lobster in a dark cellar. It wasn't angry or fierce, but looked at Scrooge the way Marley used to: with ghostly glasses resting on its ghostly forehead. The hair was oddly ruffled, as if by breath or warm air; and, although the eyes were wide open, they were completely still. That, combined with its pale color, made it terrifying; but its horror seemed to come from beyond the face and out of its control, rather than being a part of its own expression.
As Scrooge looked fixedly at this phenomenon, it was a knocker again.
As Scrooge stared intently at this sight, it was a knocker once more.
To say that he was not startled, or that his blood was not conscious of a terrible sensation to which it had been a stranger from infancy, would be untrue. But he put his hand upon the key he had relinquished, turned it sturdily, walked in, and lighted his candle.
To say that he wasn’t startled, or that his heart wasn’t aware of a terrible feeling it had never experienced before, would be a lie. But he put his hand on the key he had let go of, turned it firmly, walked in, and lit his candle.
He did pause, with a moment's irresolution, before he shut the door; and he did look cautiously behind it first, as if he half-expected to be terrified with the sight of Marley's pigtail sticking out into the hall. But there was nothing on the back of the door, except the screws and nuts that held the knocker on; so he said "Pooh, pooh!" and closed it with a bang.
He did pause, hesitating for a moment, before he shut the door; and he did look cautiously behind it first, as if he half-expected to be scared by the sight of Marley's pigtail sticking out into the hall. But there was nothing on the back of the door, except for the screws and nuts that held the knocker on; so he said, "Pooh, pooh!" and closed it with a bang.
The sound resounded through the house like thunder. Every room above, and every cask in the wine-merchant's cellars below, appeared to have a separate peal of echoes of its own. Scrooge was not a man to be frightened by echoes. He fastened the door, and walked across the hall, and up the stairs: slowly, too, trimming his candle as he went.
The noise echoed through the house like thunder. Every room above and every barrel in the wine-merchant's cellars below seemed to have its own unique echo. Scrooge was not someone easily scared by echoes. He locked the door and walked across the hall and up the stairs, taking his time and adjusting his candle as he went.
You may talk vaguely about driving a coach-and-six up a good old flight of stairs, or through a bad young Act of Parliament; but I mean to say you might have got a hearse up that staircase, and taken it broadwise, with the splinter-bar toward the wall, and the door toward the balustrades: and done it easy. There was plenty of width for that, and room to spare; which is perhaps the reason why Scrooge thought he saw a locomotive hearse going on before him in the gloom. Half-a-dozen gas-lamps out of the street wouldn't have lighted the entry too well, so you may suppose that it was pretty dark with Scrooge's dip.
You might talk casually about driving a fancy coach up a nice old staircase or through a bad new law; but what I mean is you could have easily gotten a hearse up that staircase, going sideways, with the splinter-bar against the wall and the door toward the banister: and done it without a problem. There was more than enough space for that, and room to spare; which might be why Scrooge thought he saw a ghostly hearse moving ahead of him in the dark. Half a dozen gas lamps from the street wouldn’t have lit the entrance very well, so you can imagine it was pretty dark with Scrooge's poor lighting.
Up Scrooge went, not caring a button for that: darkness is cheap, and Scrooge liked it. But before he shut his heavy door, he walked through his rooms to see that all was right. He had just enough recollection of the face to desire to do that.
Up Scrooge went, not caring at all about that: darkness is cheap, and Scrooge liked it. But before he closed his heavy door, he walked through his rooms to make sure everything was in order. He had just enough memory of the face to want to do that.
Sitting-room, bedroom, lumber-room. All as they should be. Nobody under the table, nobody under the sofa; a small fire in the grate; spoon and basin ready; and the little saucepan of gruel (Scrooge had a cold in his head) upon the Bob. Nobody under the bed; nobody in the closet; nobody in his dressing-gown, which was hanging up in a suspicious attitude against the wall. Lumber-room as usual. Old fireguard, old shoes, two fish-baskets, washing-stand on three legs, and a poker.
Sitting room, bedroom, storage room. Everything in its place. No one under the table, no one under the couch; a small fire in the fireplace; spoon and bowl ready; and the little saucepan of gruel (Scrooge had a cold) on the stove. No one under the bed; no one in the closet; no one in his robe, which was hanging up suspiciously against the wall. Storage room as usual. Old fireguard, old shoes, two fish baskets, a washing stand on three legs, and a poker.
Quite satisfied, he closed his door, and locked himself in; double-locked himself in, which was not his custom. Thus secured against surprise, he took off his cravat; put on his dressing-gown and slippers, and his nightcap; and sat down before the fire to take his gruel.
Quite satisfied, he closed his door and locked himself in; he even double-locked it, which wasn't his usual habit. Now secure against any surprises, he took off his tie, put on his robe and slippers, and donned his nightcap. Then he sat down by the fire to have his gruel.
It was a very low fire indeed; nothing on such a bitter night. He was obliged to sit close to it, and brood over it, before he could extract the least sensation of warmth from such a handful of fuel. The fireplace was an old one, built by some Dutch merchant long ago, and paved all round with quaint Dutch tiles, designed to illustrate the Scriptures. There were Cains and Abels, Pharaohs' daughters, Queens of Sheba, Angelic messengers descending through the air on clouds like feather-beds, Abrahams, Belshazzars, Apostles putting off to sea in butter-boats, hundreds of figures, to attract his thoughts; and yet that face of Marley, seven years dead, came like the ancient Prophet's rod, and swallowed up the whole. If each smooth tile had been a blank at first, with power to shape some picture on its surface from the disjointed fragments of his thoughts, there would have been a copy of old Marley's head on every one.
It was a really small fire; nothing to warm him on such a chilly night. He had to sit close to it and ponder over it before he could feel any warmth from such a little bit of fuel. The fireplace was old, built long ago by some Dutch merchant, and was surrounded by unique Dutch tiles that depicted scenes from the Bible. There were scenes of Cain and Abel, Pharaoh's daughters, the Queen of Sheba, angelic messengers descending from the sky on clouds like feather beds, Abrahams, Belshazzars, Apostles setting off to sea in boats, and countless figures to engage his thoughts; yet the face of Marley, who had been dead for seven years, overshadowed everything like an ancient Prophet's rod. If each smooth tile had started blank, able to form images from the scattered pieces of his thoughts, there would have been a picture of old Marley’s head on every single tile.
"Humbug!" said Scrooge; and walked across the room.
"Humbug!" said Scrooge, then walked across the room.
After several turns, he sat down again. As he threw his head back in the chair, his glance happened to rest upon a bell, a disused bell, that hung in the room, and communicated for some purpose now forgotten with a chamber in the highest story of the building. It was with great astonishment, and with a strange, inexplicable dread, that as he looked, he saw this bell begin to swing. It swung so softly in the outset that it scarcely made a sound; but soon it rang out loudly, and so did every bell in the house.
After a few turns, he sat down again. As he leaned back in the chair, his eyes landed on a bell—a forgotten one—that hung in the room, which once connected, for some now-unknown reason, to a room on the top floor of the building. To his great surprise and with a strange, unexplainable fear, he saw the bell start to swing as he watched. At first, it moved so gently that it barely made a sound; but soon it rang out loudly, and so did every bell in the house.
This might have lasted half a minute, or a minute, but it seemed an hour. The bells ceased as they had begun, together. They were succeeded by a clanking noise, deep down below; as if some person were dragging a heavy chain over the casks in the wine-merchant's cellar. Scrooge then remembered to have heard that ghosts in haunted houses were described as dragging chains.
This might have lasted half a minute or a minute, but it felt like an hour. The bells stopped just like they had started, all at once. They were followed by a clanking sound coming from deep below, as if someone was dragging a heavy chain over the barrels in the wine merchant's cellar. Scrooge then recalled hearing that ghosts in haunted houses were said to drag chains.
The cellar-door flew open with a booming sound, and then he heard the noise much louder, on the floors below; then coming up the stairs; then coming straight toward his door.
The cellar door swung open with a loud bang, and then he heard the noise much louder from the floors below; then it started coming up the stairs; then it came right toward his door.
"It's humbug still!" said Scrooge. "I won't believe it."
"It's nonsense still!" said Scrooge. "I won't believe it."
His color changed though, when, without a pause, it came on through the heavy door, and passed into the room before his eyes. Upon its coming in, the dying flame leaped up, as though it cried "I know him! Marley's Ghost!" and fell again.
His color changed, though, when it came through the heavy door without pausing and entered the room before his eyes. As it came in, the dying flame jumped up, as if it shouted, "I recognize him! Marley's Ghost!" and then fell back down.
The same face; the very same. Marley in his pigtail, usual waistcoat, tights, and boots; the tassels on the latter bristling, like his pigtail, and his coat-skirts, and the hair upon his head. The chain he drew was clasped about his middle. It was long, and wound about him like a tail; and it was made (for Scrooge observed it closely) of cash-boxes, keys, padlocks, ledgers, deeds, and heavy purses wrought in steel. His body was transparent; so that Scrooge, observing him, and looking through his waistcoat, could see the two buttons on his coat behind.
The same face; exactly the same. Marley in his pigtail, regular waistcoat, tights, and boots; the tassels on his boots sticking up, like his pigtail, his coat-tails, and the hair on his head. The chain he dragged was wrapped around his waist. It was long and coiled around him like a tail; and it was made (because Scrooge studied it closely) of cash boxes, keys, padlocks, ledgers, deeds, and heavy purses forged in steel. His body was transparent; so that Scrooge, watching him and looking through his waistcoat, could see the two buttons on his coat from behind.
Scrooge had often heard it said that Marley had no bowels, but he had never believed it until now.
Scrooge had often heard people say that Marley had no feelings, but he had never believed it until now.
No, nor did he believe it even now. Though he looked the phantom through and through, and saw it standing before him; though he felt the chilling influence of its death-cold eyes; and marked the very texture of the folded kerchief bound about its head and chin, which wrapper he had not observed before: he was still incredulous, and fought against his senses.
No, he still didn’t believe it. Even though he saw the ghost clearly standing in front of him; even though he felt the cold chill of its lifeless eyes; and noticed the exact texture of the folded scarf wrapped around its head and chin, which he hadn't noticed before: he was still skeptical and battled against what he felt.
"How now!" said Scrooge, caustic and cold as ever. "What do you want with me?"
"What's going on?" Scrooge said, as sharp and cold as always. "What do you need from me?"
"Much!"—Marley's voice, no doubt about it.
"Absolutely!"—There’s no mistaking Marley's voice.
"Who are you?"
"Who are you?"
"Ask me who I was."
"Ask me who I am."
"Who were you, then?" said Scrooge, raising his voice. "You're particular—for a shade." He was going to say "to a shade," but substituted this, as more appropriate.
"Who were you, then?" Scrooge asked, raising his voice. "You're quite specific—for a ghost." He was about to say "to a ghost," but changed it to this, thinking it was more fitting.
"In life I was your partner, Jacob Marley."
"In life, I was your partner, Jacob Marley."
"Can you—can you sit down?" asked Scrooge, looking doubtfully at him.
"Can you—can you sit down?" Scrooge asked, eyeing him with uncertainty.
"I can."
"I got this."
"Do it, then."
"Go ahead and do it."
Scrooge asked the question, because he didn't know whether a ghost so transparent might find himself in a condition to take a chair; and felt that in the event of its being impossible, it might involve the necessity of an embarrassing explanation. But the Ghost sat down on the opposite side of the fireplace, as if he were quite used to it.
Scrooge asked the question because he wasn’t sure if a ghost as transparent as this one could sit in a chair, and he felt that if it turned out to be impossible, it could lead to an awkward explanation. But the Ghost sat down on the other side of the fireplace, as if he did it all the time.
"You don't believe in me," observed the Ghost.
"You don't believe in me," the Ghost noted.
"I don't," said Scrooge.
"I don’t," said Scrooge.
"What evidence would you have of my reality beyond that of your senses?"
"What proof do you have of my existence beyond what you can sense?"
"I don't know," said Scrooge.
"I don't know," Scrooge said.
"Why do you doubt your senses?"
"Why do you question what you see and feel?"
"Because," said Scrooge, "a little thing affects them. A slight disorder of the stomach makes them cheats. You may be an undigested bit of beef, a blot of mustard, a crumb of cheese, a fragment of an underdone potato. There's more of gravy than of grave about you, whatever you are!"
"Because," Scrooge said, "a little thing can influence them. A minor upset stomach turns them into cheaters. You could be an undigested piece of beef, a smear of mustard, a crumb of cheese, or a chunk of undercooked potato. There's more of gravy than grave about you, whatever you are!"
Scrooge was not much in the habit of cracking jokes, nor did he feel, in his heart, by any means waggish then. The truth is, that he tried to be smart, as a means of distracting his own attention, and keeping down his terror; for the spectre's voice disturbed the very marrow in his bones.
Scrooge didn’t often joke around, and he certainly didn’t feel playful at that moment. The truth is, he was trying to act clever to distract himself and suppress his fear because the ghost's voice shook him to his core.
To sit, staring at those fixed, glazed eyes, in silence for a moment, would play, Scrooge felt, the very deuce with him. There was something very awful, too, in the spectre's being provided with an infernal atmosphere of its own. Scrooge could not feel it himself, but this was clearly the case; for though the Ghost sat perfectly motionless, its hair, and skirts, and tassels, were still agitated as by the hot vapor from an oven.
To sit there, staring at those unblinking, glassy eyes, in silence for a moment, would absolutely drive Scrooge crazy. There was something really terrifying about the ghost having its own hellish vibe. Scrooge couldn't feel it himself, but it was definitely true; because even though the Ghost sat completely still, its hair, clothes, and decorations were still moving as if stirred by the hot air from an oven.
"You see this toothpick?" said Scrooge, returning quickly to the charge, for the reason just assigned; and wishing, though it were only for a second, to divert the vision's stony gaze from himself.
"You see this toothpick?" Scrooge said, quickly going on the offensive for the reason just mentioned, and hoping, even if just for a moment, to shift the cold stare of the vision away from him.
"I do," replied the Ghost.
"I do," said the Ghost.
"You are not looking at it," said Scrooge.
"You’re not looking at it," Scrooge said.
"But I see it," said the Ghost, "notwithstanding."
"But I see it," said the Ghost, "still."
"Well!" returned Scrooge. "I have but to swallow this, and be for the rest of my days persecuted by a legion of goblins all of my creation. Humbug, I tell you—humbug!"
"Well!" replied Scrooge. "All I have to do is take this, and I'll spend the rest of my life tormented by a bunch of goblins I've imagined. Nonsense, I tell you—nonsense!"
At this the spirit raised a frightful cry, and shook its chain with such a dismal and appalling noise, that Scrooge held on tight to his chair, to save himself from falling in a swoon. But how much greater was his horror, when, the phantom taking off the bandage round its head, as if it were too warm to wear indoors, its lower jaw dropped down upon its breast!
At this, the spirit let out a terrifying scream and rattled its chains with such a chilling and horrifying sound that Scrooge clung tightly to his chair to keep from passing out. But his fear grew even greater when the phantom removed the bandage from around its head, as if it was too hot to wear inside, and its lower jaw dropped down onto its chest!
Scrooge fell upon his knees and clasped his hands before his face.
Scrooge dropped to his knees and placed his hands in front of his face.
"Mercy!" he said. "Dreadful apparition, why do you trouble me?"
"Mercy!" he said. "Terrible ghost, why are you haunting me?"
"Man of the worldly mind!" replied the Ghost, "do you believe in me or not?"
"Worldly-minded man!" replied the Ghost, "do you believe in me or not?"
"I do," said Scrooge. "I must. But why do spirits walk the earth, and why do they come to me?"
"I do," said Scrooge. "I have to. But why do spirits roam the earth, and why do they come to me?"
"It is required of every man," the Ghost returned, "that the spirit within him should walk abroad among his fellow-men, and travel far and wide; and if that spirit goes not forth in life, it is condemned to do so after death. It is doomed to wander through the world—oh, woe is me!—and witness what it can not share, but might have shared on earth, and turned to happiness!"
"It is required of every person," the Ghost replied, "that the spirit within them should go out among others and travel far and wide; and if that spirit does not venture out in life, it is condemned to do so after death. It is doomed to wander the world—oh, how unfortunate!—and see what it cannot be a part of, but could have experienced on earth, which could have brought happiness!"
Again the spectre raised a cry, and shook its chain, and wrung its shadowy hands.
Again the ghost let out a scream, rattled its chain, and twisted its shadowy hands.
"You are fettered," said Scrooge, trembling. "Tell me why?"
"You’re chained up," said Scrooge, shaking. "Why?"
"I wear the chain I forged in life," replied the Ghost. "I made it link by link, and yard by yard; I girded it on of my own free will, and of my own free will I wore it. Is its pattern strange to you"
"I wear the chain I forged in life," replied the Ghost. "I made it link by link, and yard by yard; I put it on of my own free will, and of my own free will I wore it. Is its pattern strange to you?"
Scrooge trembled more and more.
Scrooge trembled increasingly.
"Or would you know," pursued the Ghost, "the weight and length of the strong coil you bear yourself? It was full as heavy, and as long as this, seven Christmas Eves ago. You have labored on it, since. It is a ponderous chain!"
"Or do you even realize," continued the Ghost, "the weight and length of the heavy chain you carry? It was just as heavy and just as long as this one, seven Christmas Eves ago. You've been working on it ever since. It's a heavy chain!"
Scrooge glanced about him on the floor, in the expectation of finding himself surrounded by some fifty or sixty fathoms of iron cable: but he could see nothing.
Scrooge looked around him on the floor, expecting to find himself surrounded by about fifty or sixty fathoms of iron cable: but he saw nothing.
"Jacob," he said imploringly. "Old Jacob Marley, tell me more. Speak comfort to me, Jacob."
"Jacob," he said desperately. "Old Jacob Marley, tell me more. Please comfort me, Jacob."
"I have none to give," the Ghost replied. "It comes from other regions, Ebenezer Scrooge, and is conveyed by other ministers, to other kinds of men. Nor can I tell you what I would. A very little more, is all permitted to me. I can not rest, I can not stay, I can not linger anywhere. My spirit never walked beyond our counting-house—mark me!—in life my spirit never roved beyond the narrow limits of our money-changing hole; and weary journeys lie before me!"
"I have nothing to give," the Ghost replied. "It comes from different places, Ebenezer Scrooge, and is delivered by different messengers to different types of people. I also can’t tell you what I would like to. Just a little bit more is all I’m allowed. I can’t rest, I can’t stay, I can’t linger anywhere. My spirit never walked beyond our office—mark my words!—in life, my spirit never wandered beyond the tight confines of our money-changing place; and exhausting journeys lie ahead of me!"
It was a habit with Scrooge, whenever he became thoughtful, to put his hands in his breeches pockets. Pondering on what the Ghost had said, he did so now, but without lifting up his eyes, or getting off his knees.
It was a habit of Scrooge to put his hands in his pants pockets whenever he got lost in thought. Reflecting on what the Ghost had said, he did this now, but he didn’t look up or get off his knees.
"You must have been very slow about it, Jacob," Scrooge observed, in a business-like manner, though with humility and deference.
"You must have been very slow about it, Jacob," Scrooge said, in a professional tone, though with humility and respect.
"Slow!" the Ghost repeated.
"Slow down!" the Ghost repeated.
"Seven years dead," mused Scrooge. "And traveling all the time!"
"Seven years dead," Scrooge thought. "And still on the move all the time!"
"The whole time," said the Ghost. "No rest, no peace. Incessant torture of remorse."
"The entire time," said the Ghost. "No rest, no peace. Constant agony of regret."
"You travel fast?" said Scrooge.
"Do you travel fast?" said Scrooge.
"On the wings of the wind," replied the Ghost.
"On the wings of the wind," said the Ghost.
"You might have got over a great quantity of ground in seven years," said Scrooge.
"You might have covered a lot of ground in seven years," said Scrooge.
The Ghost, on hearing this, set up another cry, and clanked its chain so hideously in the dead silence of the night, that the Ward would have been justified in indicting it for a nuisance.
The Ghost, upon hearing this, let out another cry and rattled its chain so horribly in the dead silence of the night that the Ward would have been right to accuse it of being a nuisance.
"Oh! captive, bound, and double-ironed," cried the phantom, "not to know, that ages of incessant labor, by immortal creatures, for this earth must pass into eternity before the good of which it is susceptible is all developed. Not to know that any Christian spirit working kindly in its little sphere, whatever it may be, will find its mortal life too short for its vast means of usefulness. Not to know that no space of regret can make amends for one life's opportunity misused! Yet such was I! Oh! such was I!"
"Oh! captive, bound, and double-chained," cried the ghost, "not to realize that centuries of nonstop effort by immortal beings for this world must stretch into eternity before its full potential is realized. Not to know that any Christian spirit working kindly in its small corner, whatever it might be, will find their life too brief for the immense good they can do. Not to understand that no amount of regret can make up for wasting a single life’s chance! Yet that was me! Oh! that was me!"
"But you were always a good man of business, Jacob," faltered Scrooge, who now began to apply this to himself.
"But you were always a smart businessman, Jacob," faltered Scrooge, who now started to reflect this back onto himself.
"Business!" cried the Ghost, wringing his hands again. "Mankind was my business. The common welfare was my business; charity, mercy, forbearance, and benevolence, were, all, my business. The dealings of my trade were but a drop of water in the comprehensive ocean of my business!"
"Business!" shouted the Ghost, wringing his hands again. "People were my business. The common good was my business; charity, kindness, patience, and generosity were all my business. The transactions of my trade were just a drop in the vast ocean of my business!"
It held up its chain at arm's-length, as if that were the cause of all its unavailing grief, and flung it heavily upon the ground again.
It extended its chain out in front of it, like that was the reason for all its pointless sadness, and then dropped it heavily back onto the ground.
"At this time of the rolling year," the spectre said, "I suffer most. Why did I walk through crowds of fellow-beings with my eyes turned down, and never raise them to that blessed Star which led the Wise Men to a poor abode! Were there no poor homes to which its light would have conducted me!"
"At this time of year," the ghost said, "I suffer the most. Why did I walk through crowds of people with my eyes down and never look up at that amazing Star that guided the Wise Men to a humble home! Were there no poor homes its light could have led me to?"
Scrooge was very much dismayed to hear the spectre going on at this rate, and began to quake exceedingly.
Scrooge was really unsettled to hear the ghost talking like this, and he started to shake with fear.
"Hear me!" cried the Ghost. "My time is nearly gone."
"Hear me!" shouted the Ghost. "My time is almost up."
"I will," said Scrooge. "But don't be hard upon me! Don't be flowery, Jacob! Pray!"
"I will," said Scrooge. "But please, don't be too harsh on me! Don’t go overboard, Jacob! Please!"
"How it is that I appear before you in a shape that you can see, I may not tell. I have sat invisible beside you many and many a day."
"How I show up before you in a form you can see, I can't explain. I've sat here invisible next to you for many days."
It was not an agreeable idea. Scrooge shivered, and wiped the perspiration from his brow.
It wasn't a pleasant thought. Scrooge shivered and wiped the sweat from his forehead.
"That is no light part of my penance," pursued the Ghost. "I am here to-night to warn you that you have yet a chance and hope of escaping my fate. A chance and hope of my procuring, Ebenezer."
"That's not an easy part of my punishment," continued the Ghost. "I'm here tonight to warn you that you still have a chance and hope of avoiding my fate. A chance and hope that I can offer, Ebenezer."
"You were always a good friend to me," said Scrooge. "Thank'ee!"
"You were always a good friend to me," Scrooge said. "Thanks!"
"You will be haunted," resumed the Ghost, "by Three Spirits."
"You will be haunted," the Ghost continued, "by Three Spirits."
Scrooge's countenance fell almost as low as the Ghost's had done.
Scrooge's expression dropped almost as low as the Ghost's had.
"Is that the chance and hope you mentioned, Jacob?" he demanded, in a faltering voice.
"Is that the chance and hope you talked about, Jacob?" he asked, his voice shaking.
"It is."
"It is."
"I—I think I'd rather not," said Scrooge.
"I—I think I'd prefer not to," said Scrooge.
"Without their visits," said the Ghost, "you can not hope to shun the path I tread. Expect the first to-morrow, when the bell tolls one."
"Without their visits," said the Ghost, "you can’t hope to avoid the path I walk. Expect the first one tomorrow, when the bell tolls one."
"Couldn't I take 'em all at once, and have it over, Jacob?" hinted Scrooge.
"Couldn’t I just take them all at once and get it over with, Jacob?" hinted Scrooge.
"Expect the second on the next night at the same hour. The third upon the next night when the last stroke of twelve has ceased to vibrate. Look to see me no more; and look that, for your own sake, you remember what has passed between us!"
"Expect the second one the following night at the same time. The third will come the next night after the last chime of twelve has faded away. Don’t expect to see me again; and for your own good, make sure you remember what has happened between us!"
When it had said these words, the spectre took its wrapper from the table, and bound it round its head, as before. Scrooge knew this, by the smart sound its teeth made, when the jaws were brought together by the bandage. He ventured to raise his eyes again, and found his supernatural visitor confronting him in an erect attitude, with its chain wound over and about its arm.
When it finished speaking, the ghost picked up its wrapping from the table and tied it around its head like before. Scrooge recognized it from the sharp sound its teeth made when its jaws were closed by the bandage. He dared to look up again and saw his otherworldly visitor standing tall, with its chain wrapped around its arm.
The apparition walked backward from him; and at every step it took the window raised itself a little, so that when the spectre reached it it was wide open. It beckoned Scrooge to approach, which he did. When they were within two paces of each other, Marley's Ghost held up its hand, warning him to come no nearer. Scrooge stopped.
The ghost walked away from him, and with each step, the window opened a bit more until it was fully open when the ghost reached it. It signaled for Scrooge to come closer, which he did. When they were just a couple of steps apart, Marley's Ghost raised its hand, signaling him to stop. Scrooge paused.
Not so much in obedience, as in surprise and fear: for on the raising of the hand, he became sensible of confused noises in the air; incoherent sounds of lamentation and regret; wailings inexpressibly sorrowful and self-accusatory. The spectre, after listening for a moment, joined in the mournful dirge; and floated out upon the bleak, dark night.
Not so much out of obedience, but more out of surprise and fear: when the hand was raised, he became aware of a jumble of noises in the air; incoherent sounds of mourning and regret; wailings that were heartbreakingly sorrowful and self-blaming. The ghost, after listening for a moment, joined in the sad song and floated out into the bleak, dark night.
Scrooge followed to the window, desperate in his curiosity. He looked out.
Scrooge went to the window, driven by his curiosity. He looked outside.
The air was filled with phantoms, wandering hither and thither in restless haste, and moaning as they went. Every one of them wore chains like Marley's Ghost; some few (they might be guilty governments) were linked together; none were free. Many had been personally known to Scrooge in their lives. He had been quite familiar with one old ghost, in a white waistcoat, with a monstrous iron safe attached to its ankle, who cried piteously at being unable to assist a wretched woman with an infant, whom it saw below, upon a doorstep. The misery with them all was, clearly, that they sought to interfere, for good, in human matters, and had lost the power forever.
The air was filled with ghosts, wandering restlessly in all directions, moaning as they went. Each of them wore chains like Marley's Ghost; a few (they might be guilty governments) were linked together; none were free. Many had been personally known to Scrooge in their lifetimes. He recognized one old ghost, in a white waistcoat, with a giant iron safe attached to its ankle, who cried out in despair at being unable to help a miserable woman with a baby that it saw on a doorstep below. The common sadness among them was that they wanted to make a positive difference in people's lives, but they had lost that ability forever.
Whether these creatures faded into mist, or mist enshrouded them, he could not tell. But they and their spirit voices faded together; and the night became as it had been when he walked home.
Whether these creatures vanished into mist or the mist covered them, he couldn't say. But they and their ghostly voices faded away together, and the night returned to how it was when he walked home.
Scrooge closed the window, and examined the door by which the Ghost had entered. It was double-locked, as he had locked it with his own hands, and the bolts were undisturbed. He tried to say "Humbug!" but stopped at the first syllable. And being, from the emotion he had undergone, or the fatigues of the day, or his glimpse of the Invisible World, or the dull conversation of the Ghost, or the lateness of the hour, much in need of repose, went straight to bed, without undressing, and fell asleep upon the instant.
Scrooge closed the window and checked the door through which the Ghost had entered. It was double-locked, just as he had secured it with his own hands, and the bolts were untouched. He tried to say "Humbug!" but stopped after the first syllable. Feeling overwhelmed by his emotions, worn out from the day's events, or perhaps from his brief encounter with the Invisible World, or the dull talk of the Ghost, or the lateness of the hour, he was in desperate need of rest, so he went straight to bed without undressing and fell asleep right away.
STAVE TWO
PART TWO
The First of the Three Spirits
The First of the Three Spirits
When Scrooge awoke, it was so dark that, looking out of bed, he could scarcely distinguish the transparent window from the opaque walls of his chamber. He was endeavoring to pierce the darkness with his ferret eyes, when the chimes of a neighboring church struck the four quarters. So he listened for the hour.
When Scrooge woke up, it was so dark that, looking out of bed, he could barely tell the clear window from the solid walls of his room. He was trying to see through the darkness with his sharp eyes when the bells of a nearby church rang the four quarters. So he listened for the hour.
To his great astonishment the heavy bell went on from six to seven, and from seven to eight, and regularly up to twelve; then stopped. Twelve! It was past two when he went to bed. The clock was wrong. An icicle must have got into the works. Twelve!
To his surprise, the heavy bell chimed from six to seven, then from seven to eight, and continued on to twelve; then it stopped. Twelve! It was already past two when he went to bed. The clock must be broken. An icicle must have jammed the mechanism. Twelve!
He touched the spring of his repeater, to correct this most preposterous clock. Its rapid little pulse beat twelve; and stopped.
He pressed the lever of his watch to fix this ridiculous clock. Its fast little hand struck twelve and then stopped.
"Why, it isn't possible," said Scrooge, "that I can have slept through a whole day and far into another night. It isn't possible that anything has happened to the sun, and this is twelve at noon!"
"Why, that can't be true," said Scrooge, "that I slept through an entire day and into another night. It can't be true that something has happened to the sun, and it’s noon!"
The idea being an alarming one, he scrambled out of bed, and groped his way to the window. He was obliged to rub the frost off with the sleeve of his dressing-gown before he could see anything; and could see very little then. All he could make out was that it was still very foggy and extremely cold, and that there was no noise of people running to and fro, and making a great stir, as there unquestionably would have been if night had beaten off bright day, and taken possession of the world. This was a great relief, because "three days after sight of this First of Exchange pay to Mr. Ebenezer Scrooge or his order," and so forth, would have become a mere United States security if there were no days to count by.
The thought was alarming, so he jumped out of bed and felt his way to the window. He had to wipe the frost off with the sleeve of his robe before he could see anything, and even then, visibility was poor. All he could tell was that it was still very foggy and freezing cold, and there was no sound of people hustling around and creating a ruckus, which there definitely would have been if night had outlasted day and taken over the world. This was a huge relief because "three days after sight of this First of Exchange pay to Mr. Ebenezer Scrooge or his order," and so on, would have turned into just another U.S. security if there were no days to track.
Scrooge went to bed again, and thought, and thought, and thought it over and over and over, and could make nothing of it. The more he thought, the more perplexed he was; and the more he endeavored not to think, the more he thought. Marley's Ghost bothered him exceedingly. Every time he resolved within himself, after mature inquiry, that it was all a dream, his mind flew back again, like a strong spring released, to its first position, and presented the same problem to be worked all through, "Was it a dream or not?"
Scrooge went back to bed and kept thinking, over and over again, but couldn’t make sense of it. The more he thought, the more confused he became; and the more he tried not to think, the more thoughts flooded in. Marley's Ghost troubled him greatly. Every time he convinced himself, after careful consideration, that it was all just a dream, his mind snapped back like a tight spring, returning to the same question: “Was it a dream or not?”
Scrooge lay in this state until the chimes had gone three-quarters more, when he remembered, on a sudden, that the Ghost had warned him of a visitation when the bell tolled one. He resolved to lie awake until the hour was passed; and, considering that he could no more go to sleep than go to Heaven, this was perhaps the wisest resolution in his power.
Scrooge stayed in this state until the clock chimed three-quarters more, when he suddenly remembered that the Ghost had warned him of a visit when the bell struck one. He decided to stay awake until the hour passed; and, realizing that he couldn't fall asleep any more than he could go to Heaven, this was probably the smartest decision he could make.
The quarter was so long that he was more than once convinced he must have sunk into a doze unconsciously, and missed the clock. At length it broke upon his listening ear.
The quarter felt so long that he was convinced more than once that he had dozed off without realizing it and had missed the clock. Finally, he heard it break the silence.
"Ding, dong!"
"Ding dong!"
"A quarter past," said Scrooge, counting.
"A quarter after," said Scrooge, counting.
"Ding, dong!"
"Ding dong!"
"Half-past!" said Scrooge.
"Half past!" said Scrooge.
"Ding, dong!"
"Ding, dong!"
"A quarter to it," said Scrooge.
"A quarter to it," Scrooge said.
"Ding, dong!"
"Ding dong!"
"The hour itself," said Scrooge, triumphantly, "and nothing else!"
"The hour itself," Scrooge said proudly, "and nothing more!"
He spoke before the hour bell sounded, which it now did with a deep, dull, hollow, melancholy One. Light flashed up in the room upon the instant, and the curtains of his bed were drawn.
He spoke before the hour bell rang, which it now did with a deep, dull, hollow, melancholy sound. Light instantly filled the room, and the curtains of his bed were pulled back.
The curtains of his bed were drawn aside, I tell you, by a hand. Not the curtains at his feet, nor the curtains at his back, but those to which his face was addressed. The curtains of his bed were drawn aside; and Scrooge, starting up into a half-recumbent attitude, found himself face to face with the unearthly visitor who drew them: as close to it as I am now to you, and I am standing in the spirit at your elbow.
The curtains of his bed were pulled back, I tell you, by a hand. Not the ones at his feet, nor the ones at his back, but the ones that faced him. The curtains of his bed were pulled aside; and Scrooge, sitting up in a half-reclined position, found himself face to face with the otherworldly visitor who had drawn them: as close to it as I am now to you, and I am standing in spirit right beside you.
It was a strange figure—like a child: yet not so like a child as like an old man, viewed through some supernatural medium, which gave him the appearance of having receded from the view, and being diminished to a child's proportions. Its hair, which hung about its neck and down its back, was white as if with age; and yet the face had not a wrinkle in it, and the tenderest bloom was on the skin. The arms were very long and muscular; the hands the same, as if its hold were of uncommon strength. Its legs and feet, most delicately formed, were, like those upper members, bare. It wore a tunic of the purest white; and round its waist was bound a lustrous belt, the sheen of which was beautiful. It held a branch of fresh green holly in its hand; and, in singular contradiction of that wintry emblem, had its dress trimmed with summer flowers. But the strangest thing about it was, that from the crown of its head there sprang a bright clear jet of light, by which all this was visible; and which was doubtless the occasion of its using, in its duller moments, a great extinguisher for a cap, which it now held under its arm.
It was a strange figure—like a child, but not quite like a child; more like an old man seen through some supernatural lens that made him look smaller and child-sized. Its hair, which hung around its neck and down its back, was white as if it had aged, yet the face was completely wrinkle-free, with a delicate glow on the skin. The arms were very long and muscular, and the hands were the same, as if it had an unusual grip. Its legs and feet, beautifully shaped, were bare like the arms. It wore a tunic of the purest white, with a shiny belt around its waist that had a stunning sheen. It held a branch of fresh green holly in its hand, and in a strange contradiction to that wintry symbol, its outfit was adorned with summer flowers. But the strangest thing about it was that from the top of its head sprang a bright, clear beam of light, which illuminated everything, and which was likely why it used a large extinguisher as a cap, which it now held under its arm.
Even this, though, when Scrooge looked at it with increasing steadiness, was not its strangest quality. For as its belt sparkled and glittered now in one part and now in another, and what was light one instant, at another time was dark, so the figure itself fluctuated in its distinctness: being now a thing with one arm, now with one leg, now with twenty legs, now a pair of legs without a head, now a head without a body: of which dissolving parts, no outline would be visible in the dense gloom wherein they melted away. And in the very wonder of this, it would be itself again; distinct and clear as ever.
Even this, though, when Scrooge looked at it more steadily, wasn’t its weirdest feature. As its belt sparkled and shimmered in one place and then another, and what was bright one moment was dark the next, the figure itself shifted in its clarity: now it had one arm, now one leg, now twenty legs, sometimes just a pair of legs without a head, sometimes a head without a body; and in that thick darkness where they faded away, no outline could be seen. Yet, in the midst of this wonder, it would reappear; distinct and clear as ever.
"Are you the Spirit, sir, whose coming was foretold to me?" asked Scrooge.
"Are you the Spirit, sir, that I was told would come?" Scrooge asked.
"I am!"
"I am!"
The voice was soft and gentle. Singularly low, as if instead of being so close beside him, it were at a distance.
The voice was soft and gentle. Uniquely low, as if it were far away instead of right beside him.
"Who, and what are you?" Scrooge demanded.
"Who are you, and what do you want?" Scrooge asked.
"I am the Ghost of Christmas Past."
"I am the Ghost of Christmas Past."
"Long past?" inquired Scrooge: observant of its dwarfish stature.
"Long past?" Scrooge asked, noticing its small size.
"No. Your Past."
"No. Your History."
Perhaps, Scrooge could not have told anybody why, if anybody could have asked him; but he had a special desire to see the Spirit in his cap; and begged him to be covered.
Maybe Scrooge couldn’t have told anyone why, if anyone had asked him; but he really wanted to see the Spirit in his cap and asked him to put it on.
"What!" exclaimed the Ghost, "would you so soon put out, with worldly hands, the light I give? Is it not enough that you are one of those whose passions made this cap, and force me through whole trains of years to wear it low upon my brow?"
"What!" exclaimed the Ghost, "are you really going to snuff out the light I provide with your worldly hands? Isn't it enough that you're one of those whose passions created this cap, forcing me to wear it low on my brow for countless years?"
Scrooge reverently disclaimed all intention to offend, or any knowledge of having wilfully "bonneted" the Spirit at any period of his life. He then made bold to inquire what business brought him there.
Scrooge respectfully denied having any intention to offend or any awareness of having intentionally "bonneted" the Spirit at any time in his life. He then dared to ask what had brought him there.
"Your welfare!" said the Ghost.
"Your well-being!" said the Ghost.
Scrooge expressed himself much obliged, but could not help thinking that a night of unbroken rest would have been more conducive to that end. The Spirit must have heard him thinking, for it said immediately:
Scrooge said he was very grateful, but he couldn't shake the feeling that a night of uninterrupted sleep would have been more helpful for that. The Spirit must have picked up on his thoughts, because it immediately said:
"Your reclamation, then. Take heed!"
"Your reclamation, then. Pay attention!"
It put out its strong hand as it spoke, and clasped him gently by the arm.
It reached out its strong hand as it spoke and gently held him by the arm.
"Rise! and walk with me!"
"Get up! and walk with me!"
It would have been in vain for Scrooge to plead that the weather and the hour were not adapted to pedestrian purposes; that the bed was warm, and the thermometer a long way below freezing; that he was clad but lightly in his slippers, dressing-gown, and night-cap; and that he had a cold upon him at that time. The grasp, though gentle as a woman's hand, was not to be resisted. He rose: but finding that the Spirit made toward the window, clasped its robe in supplication.
It would have been pointless for Scrooge to argue that the weather and the time weren’t suitable for walking; that his bed was cozy, and the temperature was well below freezing; that he was only dressed lightly in his slippers, bathrobe, and nightcap; and that he had a cold at that moment. The grip, though as gentle as a woman's hand, couldn't be ignored. He got up, but when he saw that the Spirit was heading for the window, he grabbed its robe in a plea.
"I am a mortal," Scrooge remonstrated, "and liable to fall."
"I’m only human," Scrooge protested, "and I can make mistakes."
"Bear but a touch of my hand there," said the Spirit, laying it upon his heart, "and you shall be upheld in more than this!"
"Just a touch of my hand here," said the Spirit, placing it over his heart, "and you’ll be supported in much more than this!"
As the words were spoken, they passed through the wall, and stood upon an open country road, with fields on either hand. The city had entirely vanished. Not a vestige of it was to be seen. The darkness and the mist had vanished with it, for it was a clear, cold, winter day, with snow upon the ground.
As the words were spoken, they went through the wall and appeared on an open country road, with fields on both sides. The city had completely disappeared. Not a trace of it was visible. The darkness and mist had gone with it, as it was a clear, cold winter day, with snow covering the ground.
"Good Heaven!" said Scrooge, clasping his hands together, as he looked about him. "I was bred in this place. I was a boy here!"
"Good heavens!" said Scrooge, putting his hands together as he looked around. "I grew up in this place. I was a kid here!"
The Spirit gazed upon him mildly. Its gentle touch, though it had been light and instantaneous, appeared still present to the old man's sense of feeling. He was conscious of a thousand odors floating in the air, each one connected with a thousand thoughts and hopes, and joys, and cares long, long forgotten!
The Spirit looked at him softly. Its gentle touch, though quick and light, still seemed to linger in the old man's awareness. He could sense a thousand scents in the air, each linked to a thousand memories of thoughts, hopes, joys, and worries long, long forgotten!
"Your lip is trembling," said the Ghost. "And what is that upon your cheek?"
"Your lip is shaking," said the Ghost. "And what's that on your cheek?"
Scrooge muttered, with an unusual catching in his voice, that it was a pimple; and begged the Ghost to lead him where he would.
Scrooge mumbled, with an unusual catch in his voice, that it was just a pimple; and asked the Ghost to take him wherever it wanted.
"You recollect the way?" inquired the Spirit.
"Do you remember the way?" asked the Spirit.
"Remember it!" cried Scrooge with fervor—"I could walk it blindfold."
"Remember it!" Scrooge shouted passionately. "I could walk it with my eyes closed."
"Strange to have forgotten it for so many years!" observed the Ghost. "Let us go on."
"How strange to have forgotten it for so many years!" said the Ghost. "Let's move on."
They walked along the road: Scrooge recognizing every gate, and post, and tree; until a little market town appeared in the distance, with its bridge, its church, and winding river. Some shaggy ponies now were seen trotting toward them with boys upon their backs, who called to other boys in country gigs and carts, driven by farmers. All these boys were in great spirits, and shouted to each other, until the broad fields were so full of merry music that the crisp air laughed to hear it.
They walked along the road, with Scrooge recognizing every gate, post, and tree, until a small market town came into view in the distance, complete with its bridge, church, and winding river. A few shaggy ponies started trotting towards them, carrying boys on their backs, who called out to other boys in country carts and gigs driven by farmers. All these boys were in high spirits, shouting to each other until the wide fields were filled with cheerful music that made the crisp air feel alive with laughter.
"These are but shadows of the things that have been," said the Ghost. "They have no consciousness of us."
"These are just shadows of what has happened," said the Ghost. "They have no awareness of us."
The jocund travelers came on; and as they came, Scrooge knew and named them every one. Why was he rejoiced beyond all bounds to see them! Why did his cold eye glisten, and his heart leap up as they went past! Why was he filled with gladness when he heard them give each other Merry Christmas, as they parted at cross-roads and by-ways, for their several homes! What was merry Christmas to Scrooge? Out upon merry Christmas! What good had it ever done to him?
The cheerful travelers approached, and as they did, Scrooge recognized and named each one of them. Why was he so incredibly happy to see them? Why did his once-cold eyes shine, and his heart feel lighter as they walked by? Why did he feel such joy when he heard them wish each other a Merry Christmas as they separated at crossroads and side streets to head home? What did Merry Christmas mean to Scrooge? Bah, humbug on Merry Christmas! What good had it ever done for him?
"The school is not quite deserted," said the Ghost. "A solitary child, neglected by his friends, is left there still."
"The school isn't completely empty," said the Ghost. "One lonely kid, ignored by his friends, is still there."
Scrooge said he knew it. And he sobbed.
Scrooge said he knew it. And he cried.
They left the highroad, by a well-remembered lane, and soon approached a mansion of dull red brick, with a little weathercock surmounted cupola, on the roof, and a bell hanging in it. It was a large house, but one of broken fortunes; for the spacious offices were little used, their walls were damp and mossy, their windows broken, and their gates decayed. Fowls clucked and strutted in the stables; and the coach-houses and sheds were overrun with grass. Nor was it more retentive of its ancient state, within; for entering the dreary hall, and glancing through the open doors of many rooms, they found them poorly furnished, cold, and vast. There was an earthy savor in the air, a chilly bareness in the place, which associated itself somehow with too much getting up by candle-light, and not too much to eat.
They left the main road, taking a familiar path, and soon came upon a house made of dull red brick, topped with a small cupola and a weather vane, with a bell hanging inside it. It was a large house, but one that had seen better days; the spacious rooms were barely used, their walls were damp and covered in moss, their windows were broken, and the gates were falling apart. Chickens clucked and wandered around in the stables, and the coach houses and sheds were overgrown with grass. The inside wasn't in any better shape; as they entered the gloomy hall and looked through the open doors of several rooms, they found them poorly furnished, cold, and empty. There was a musty smell in the air and a bleak emptiness in the place, which somehow reminded them of too many early mornings by candlelight and not enough to eat.
They went, the Ghost and Scrooge, across the hall, to a door at the back of the house. It opened before them, and disclosed a long, bare, melancholy room, made barer still by lines of plain deal forms and desks. At one of these a lonely boy was reading near a feeble fire; and Scrooge sat down upon a form, and wept to see his poor forgotten self as he had used to be.
They went, the Ghost and Scrooge, across the hall to a door at the back of the house. It opened for them, revealing a long, empty, dreary room, made more bare by rows of simple wooden benches and desks. At one of these, a lonely boy was reading near a weak fire; and Scrooge sat down on a bench and cried to see his poor, forgotten self as he once was.
Not a latent echo in the house, not a squeak and scuffle from the mice behind the paneling, not a drip from the half-thawed water-spout in the dull yard behind, not a sigh among the leafless boughs of one despondent poplar, not the idle swinging of an empty storehouse door, no, not a clicking in the fire, but fell upon the heart of Scrooge with softening influence, and gave a freer passage to his tears.
Not a sound in the house, not a squeak or rustle from the mice behind the walls, not a drip from the half-frozen water spout in the dull yard out back, not a sigh among the bare branches of a lonely poplar, not the lazy swing of an empty storehouse door, no, not even a crackle from the fire, but all of it fell on Scrooge’s heart with a soothing effect, allowing his tears to flow more freely.
The Spirit touched him on the arm, and pointed to his younger self, intent upon his reading. Suddenly a man, in foreign garments: wonderfully real and distinct to look at: stood outside the window, with an axe stuck in his belt, and leading an ass laden with wood by the bridle.
The Spirit tapped him on the arm and pointed to his younger self, focused on his reading. Suddenly, a man in foreign clothes—strikingly real and clear to see—stood outside the window with an axe in his belt, leading a donkey loaded with wood.
"Why, it's Ali Baba!" Scrooge exclaimed in ecstasy. "It's dear old honest Ali Baba! Yes, yes, I know! One Christmas time, when yonder solitary child was left here all alone, he did come, for the first time, just like that. Poor boy! And Valentine," said Scrooge, "and his wild brother, Orson; there they go! And what's his name, who was put down in his drawers, asleep, at the Gate of Damascus; don't you see him! And the Sultan's Groom turned upside down by the Genii; there he is upon his head! Serve him right. I'm glad of it. What business had he to be married to the Princess!"
"Why, it's Ali Baba!" Scrooge shouted with excitement. "It's dear old honest Ali Baba! Yes, yes, I remember! One Christmas when that lonely child was left all alone here, he did show up for the first time, just like that. Poor kid! And Valentine," Scrooge continued, "and his wild brother, Orson; there they go! And what's his name, who was left in his underwear, asleep, at the Gate of Damascus; can’t you see him? And the Sultan's Groom upside down thanks to the Genii; there he is on his head! Serves him right. I'm glad about it. What business did he have marrying the Princess!"
To hear Scrooge expending all the earnestness of his nature on such subjects, in a most extraordinary voice between laughing and crying; and to see his heightened and excited face; would have been a surprise to his business friends in the City, indeed.
To hear Scrooge pouring all his sincerity into such topics, with a voice that was a strange mix of laughter and tears, and to see his flushed and animated face, would have truly surprised his business associates in the City.
"There's the Parrot!" cried Scrooge. "Green body and yellow tail, with a thing like a lettuce growing out of the top of his head; there he is! Poor Robin Crusoe, he called him, when he came home again after sailing round the island. 'Poor Robin Crusoe, where have you been, Robin Crusoe?' The man thought he was dreaming, but he wasn't. It was the Parrot, you know. There goes Friday, running for his life to the little creek! Halloa! Hoop! Halloo!"
"There's the Parrot!" shouted Scrooge. "Green body and yellow tail, with something like a lettuce growing out of the top of its head; there it is! Poor Robin Crusoe, he called it, when he returned home after sailing around the island. 'Poor Robin Crusoe, where have you been, Robin Crusoe?' The man thought he was dreaming, but he wasn't. It was the Parrot, you know. There goes Friday, running for his life to the little creek! Hey! Hoop! Hello!"
Then, with a rapidity of transition very foreign to his usual character, he said, in pity for his former self, "Poor boy!" and cried again.
Then, with a sudden change that was unlike him, he said, feeling sorry for his former self, "Poor boy!" and cried again.
"I wish," Scrooge muttered, putting his hand in his pocket, and looking about him, after drying his eyes with his cuff: "but it's too late now."
"I wish," Scrooge muttered, putting his hand in his pocket and looking around after drying his eyes with his sleeve, "but it's too late now."
"What is the matter?" asked the Spirit.
"What’s going on?" asked the Spirit.
"Nothing," said Scrooge. "Nothing. There was a boy singing a Christmas Carol at my door last night. I should like to have given him something: that's all."
"Nothing," said Scrooge. "Nothing. There was a boy singing a Christmas carol at my door last night. I would have liked to give him something: that's all."
The Ghost smiled thoughtfully, and waved its hand: saying as it did so, "Let us see another Christmas!"
The Ghost smiled thoughtfully and waved its hand, saying, "Let’s see another Christmas!"
Scrooge's former self grew larger at the words, and the room became a little darker and more dirty. The panels shrank, the windows cracked; fragments of plaster fell out of the ceiling, and the naked laths were shown instead; but how all this was brought about Scrooge knew no more than you do. He only knew that it was quite correct; that everything had happened so; that there he was, alone again, when all the other boys had gone home for the jolly holidays.
Scrooge's old self seemed to expand with those words, and the room felt a bit darker and dirtier. The walls seemed to close in, the windows cracked; bits of plaster fell from the ceiling, revealing the bare beams underneath; but how all this happened, Scrooge understood no better than you do. He only knew that it was entirely accurate; that everything unfolded just like that; and there he was, alone again, while all the other boys went home for the festive holidays.
He was not reading now, but walking up and down despairingly. Scrooge looked at the Ghost, and with a mournful shaking of his head glanced anxiously toward the door.
He wasn’t reading anymore; he was pacing back and forth in despair. Scrooge looked at the Ghost and, shaking his head sadly, glanced nervously at the door.
It opened; and a little girl, much younger than the boy, came darting in, and putting her arms about his neck, and often kissing him, addressed him as her "Dear, dear brother."
It opened, and a little girl, much younger than the boy, ran in, wrapped her arms around his neck, and kissed him repeatedly, calling him her "dear, dear brother."
"I have come to bring you home, dear brother!" said the child, clapping her tiny hands, and bending down to laugh. "To bring you home, home, home!"
"I've come to take you home, dear brother!" said the child, clapping her little hands and bending down to laugh. "To take you home, home, home!"
"Home, little Fan?" returned the boy.
"Home, little Fan?" the boy replied.
"Yes!" said the child, brimful of glee. "Home, for good and all. Home, forever and ever. Father is so much kinder than he used to be that home's like Heaven! He spoke so gently to me one dear night when I was going to bed, that I was not afraid to ask him once more if you might come home; and he said Yes, you should; and sent me in a coach to bring you. And you're to be a man!" said the child, opening her eyes, "and are never to come back here; but first we're to be together all the Christmas long, and have the merriest time in all the world."
"Yes!" the child exclaimed, overflowing with joy. "Home, for good. Home, forever and ever. Dad is so much nicer than he used to be that home feels like Heaven! He spoke so gently to me one sweet night when I was going to bed that I wasn't afraid to ask him again if you could come home, and he said yes, you could; and sent me in a car to get you. And you're going to be a man!" the child said, her eyes wide open, "and you're never coming back here; but first, we get to be together all through Christmas and have the best time ever."
"You are quite a woman, little Fan!" exclaimed the boy. She clapped her hands and laughed, and tried to touch his head; but being too little, laughed again, and stood on tiptoe to embrace him. Then she began to drag him, in her childish eagerness, toward the door; and he, nothing loth to go, accompanied her.
"You’re quite a girl, little Fan!" the boy exclaimed. She clapped her hands and laughed, trying to touch his head; but being too short, she laughed again and stood on her tiptoes to hug him. Then, in her childlike excitement, she started to pull him toward the door, and he, happy to go along, followed her.
A terrible voice in the hall cried, "Bring down Master Scrooge's box, there!" and in the hall appeared the schoolmaster himself, who glared on Master Scrooge with a ferocious condescension, and threw him into a dreadful state of mind by shaking hands with him. He then conveyed him and his sister into the veriest old well of a shivering best-parlor that ever was seen, where the maps upon the wall, and the celestial and terrestrial globes in the windows, were waxy with cold. Here he produced a decanter of curiously light wine, and a block of curiously heavy cake, and administered instalments of those dainties to the young people; at the same time sending out a meagre servant to offer a glass of "something" to the postboy, who answered that he thanked the gentleman, but if it was the same tap as he had tasted before, he had rather not. Master Scrooge's trunk being by this time tied on to the top of the chaise, the children bade the schoolmaster good-by right willingly; and getting into it, drove gaily down the garden-sweep, the quick wheels dashing the hoar-frost and snow from off the dark leaves of the evergreens like spray.
A loud voice in the hallway shouted, "Bring down Master Scrooge's box!" and in the hallway appeared the schoolmaster himself, who looked at Master Scrooge with a fierce sense of superiority, putting him in a terrible state of mind by shaking his hand. He then led him and his sister into a freezing old parlor that anyone had ever seen, where the maps on the wall and the celestial and terrestrial globes in the windows were icy cold. Here he brought out a decanter of oddly light wine and a block of oddly heavy cake, serving portions of these treats to the kids; meanwhile, he sent a skinny servant to offer a glass of "something" to the postboy, who replied that he appreciated the offer, but if it was the same stuff he had tasted before, he would rather skip it. With Master Scrooge's trunk now tied on top of the chaise, the children said goodbye to the schoolmaster eagerly; and climbing into it, they drove happily down the garden path, the quick wheels splashing the frost and snow from the dark leaves of the evergreens like spray.
"Always a delicate creature, whom a breath might have withered," said the Ghost. "But she had a large heart!"
"Always a fragile being, who could be easily harmed," said the Ghost. "But she had a big heart!"
"So she had," cried Scrooge. "You're right. I'll not gainsay it, Spirit. God forbid!"
"So she had," exclaimed Scrooge. "You're right. I won’t argue with that, Spirit. God forbid!"
"She died a woman," said the Ghost, "and had, as I think, children."
"She passed away as a woman," said the Ghost, "and I believe she had kids."
"One child," Scrooge returned.
"One kid," Scrooge replied.
"True," said the Ghost. "Your nephew!"
"That's right," said the Ghost. "Your nephew!"
Scrooge seemed uneasy in his mind; and answered briefly, "Yes."
Scrooge looked troubled and replied shortly, "Yeah."
Although they had but that moment left the school behind them, they were now in the busy thoroughfares of a city, where shadowy passengers passed and repassed; where shadowy carts and coaches battled for the way, and all the strife and tumult of a real city were. It was made plain enough, by the dressing of the shops, that here too it was Christmas time again; but it was evening, and the streets were lighted up.
Although they had just left the school, they were now in the busy streets of a city, where blurry figures moved back and forth; where vague carts and carriages jostled for space, and all the hustle and bustle of a real city was present. It was clear from the decorations in the shops that it was Christmas time again; but it was evening, and the streets were all lit up.
The Ghost stopped at a certain warehouse door, and asked Scrooge if he knew it.
The Ghost paused at a specific warehouse door and asked Scrooge if he recognized it.
"Know it!" said Scrooge. "I was apprenticed here!"
"Know it!" Scrooge said. "I learned my trade here!"
They went in. At sight of an old gentleman in a Welsh wig, sitting behind such a high desk, that if he had been two inches taller he must have knocked his head against the ceiling, Scrooge cried in great excitement:
They went in. When they saw an old man in a Welsh wig sitting behind such a high desk that if he had been two inches taller, he would have bumped his head on the ceiling, Scrooge exclaimed with great excitement:
"Why, it's old Fezziwig! Bless his heart; it's Fezziwig alive again!"
"Wow, it's old Fezziwig! Bless his heart; Fezziwig is back!"
Old Fezziwig laid down his pen, and looked up at the clock, which pointed to the hour of seven. He rubbed his hands; adjusted his capacious waistcoat; laughed all over himself, from his shoes to his organ of benevolence; and called out in a comfortable, oily, rich, fat, jovial voice:
Old Fezziwig set down his pen and looked up at the clock, which showed it was seven o'clock. He rubbed his hands, adjusted his roomy waistcoat, and laughed with joy, from his shoes to his generous spirit; then called out in a warm, smooth, rich, jolly voice:
"Yo ho, there! Ebenezer! Dick!"
"Hey there! Ebenezer! Dick!"
Scrooge's former self, now grown a young man, came briskly in, accompanied by his fellow-'prentice.
Scrooge's younger self, now a young man, came in quickly, accompanied by his fellow apprentice.
"Dick Wilkins, to be sure!" said Scrooge to the Ghost. "Bless me, yes. There he is. He was very much attached to me, was Dick. Poor Dick! Dear, dear!"
"Dick Wilkins, for sure!" said Scrooge to the Ghost. "Wow, yes. There he is. He really cared about me, did Dick. Poor Dick! Oh, dear!"
"Yo ho, my boys!" said Fezziwig. "No more work to-night. Christmas Eve, Dick. Christmas, Ebenezer! Let's have the shutters up," cried old Fezziwig, with a sharp clap of his hands, "before a man can say Jack Robinson!"
"Hey, my guys!" said Fezziwig. "No more work tonight. Christmas Eve, Dick. Christmas, Ebenezer! Let's get the shutters up," shouted old Fezziwig, clapping his hands sharply, "before you can say Jack Robinson!"
You wouldn't believe how those two fellows went at it! They charged into the street with the shutters—one, two, three—had 'em up in their places—four, five, six—barred 'em and pinned 'em—seven, eight, nine—and came back before you could have got to twelve, panting like racehorses.
You wouldn't believe how those two guys went at it! They rushed into the street with the shutters—one, two, three—had them up in their spots—four, five, six—secured them and locked them down—seven, eight, nine—and came back before you could count to twelve, out of breath like racehorses.
"Hilli-ho!" cried old Fezziwig, skipping down from the high desk with wonderful agility. "Clear away, my lads, and let's have lots of room here! Hilli-ho, Dick! Chirrup, Ebenezer!"
"Hilli-ho!" shouted old Fezziwig, jumping down from the high desk with impressive agility. "Clear the way, my guys, and let’s make plenty of space here! Hilli-ho, Dick! Come on, Ebenezer!"
Clear away! There was nothing they wouldn't have cleared away, or couldn't have cleared away, with old Fezziwig looking on. It was done in a minute. Every movable was packed off, as if it were dismissed from public life for evermore; the floor was swept and watered, the lamps were trimmed, fuel was heaped upon the fire; and the warehouse was as snug, and warm, and dry, and bright a ballroom as you would desire to see upon a winter's night.
Clear the way! There was nothing they wouldn't clear away, or couldn't clear away, with old Fezziwig watching. It was done in a minute. Everything movable was packed up, as if it were being sent away from public life forever; the floor was swept and mopped, the lamps were trimmed, fuel was piled on the fire, and the warehouse was as cozy, warm, dry, and bright a ballroom as you'd want to see on a winter's night.
In came a fiddler with a music-book, and went up to the lofty desk, and made an orchestra of it, and tuned like fifty stomach-aches. In came Mrs. Fezziwig, one vast substantial smile. In came the three Miss Fezziwigs, beaming and lovable. In came the six young followers whose hearts they broke. In came all the young men and women employed in the business. In came the housemaid, with her cousin, the baker. In came the cook, with her brother's particular friend, the milkman. In came the boy from over the way, who was suspected of not having board enough from his master; trying to hide himself behind the girl from next door but one, who was proved to have had her ears pulled by her mistress. In they all came, one after another; some shyly, some boldly, some gracefully, some awkwardly, some pushing, some pulling; in they all came, anyhow and everyhow. Away they all went, twenty couple at once, hands half round and back again the other way; down the middle and up again; round and round in various stages of affectionate grouping; old top couple always turning up in the wrong place; new top couple starting off again, as soon as they got there; all top couples at last, and not a bottom one to help them. When this result was brought about, old Fezziwig, clapping his hands to stop the dance, cried out, "Well done!" and the fiddler plunged his hot face into a pot of porter, especially provided for that purpose. But scorning rest upon his reappearance, he instantly began again, though there were no dancers yet, as if the other fiddler had been carried home, exhausted, on a shutter; and he were a bran-new man resolved to beat him out of sight, or perish.
In walked a fiddler with a music book, headed to the tall desk, setting it up as an orchestra, and tuning like he had fifty stomach aches. In came Mrs. Fezziwig, with a huge, warm smile. In came the three Miss Fezziwigs, shining and delightful. In came the six young admirers whose hearts they charmed. In came all the young men and women working in the business. In came the housemaid, with her cousin, the baker. In came the cook, with her brother's close friend, the milkman. In came the boy from down the street, who was rumored not to be getting enough meals from his master; trying to hide behind the girl from next door, who had been caught having her ears pulled by her mistress. They all came in, one after another; some shyly, some confidently, some gracefully, some awkwardly, some shoving, some pulling; they all came in, in every way possible. Off they all went, twenty couples at a time, hands half-around and back the other way; down the middle and up again; round and round in various affectionate groupings; the same old top couple always showing up in the wrong spot; a new top couple taking off again as soon as they arrived; all top couples in the end, with no one left to support them. When this chaos settled, old Fezziwig clapped his hands to stop the dance and exclaimed, "Well done!" The fiddler shoved his flushed face into a pot of beer that had been set aside for him. But refusing to take a break upon his return, he immediately started playing again, even though there were no dancers yet, as if the other fiddler had been taken home, worn out, on a stretcher; and he was a brand-new man determined to outplay him or wear himself out trying.
There were more dances, and there were forfeits, and more dances, and there was cake, and there was negus, and there was a great piece of Cold Roast, and there was a great piece of Cold Boiled, and there were mince-pies, and plenty of beer. But the great effect of the evening came after the Roast and Boiled when the fiddler (an artful dog, mind! The sort of man who knew his business better than you or I could have told it him!) struck up "Sir Roger de Coverley." Then old Fezziwig stood out to dance with Mrs. Fezziwig. Top couple, too; with a good stiff piece of work cut out for them; three or four and twenty pair of partners; people who were not to be trifled with; people who would dance, and had no notion of walking.
There were more dances, and there were forfeits, and more dances, and there was cake, and there was negus, and there was a big serving of cold roast, and there was a big serving of cold boiled, and there were mince pies, and plenty of beer. But the highlight of the evening came after the roast and boiled when the fiddler (a clever guy, mind you! The kind of man who knew his stuff better than you or I could have explained!) started playing "Sir Roger de Coverley." Then old Fezziwig stepped out to dance with Mrs. Fezziwig. They were the top couple, too, with a good challenging routine ahead of them; three or four dozen pairs of partners; people who were not to be messed with; people who would dance and had no intention of just walking.
But if they had been twice as many: ah, four times: old Fezziwig would have been a match for them, and so would Mrs. Fezziwig. As to her, she was worthy to be his partner in every sense of the term. If that's not high praise, tell me higher, and I'll use it. A positive light appeared to issue from Fezziwig's calves. They shone in every part of the dance like moons. You couldn't have predicted, at any given time, what would become of 'em next. And when old Fezziwig and Mrs. Fezziwig had gone all through the dance; advance and retire, hold hands with your partner; bow and courtesy; cork-screw; thread-the-needle, and back again to your place; Fezziwig "cut"—cut so deftly, that he appeared to wink with his legs, and came upon his feet again without a stagger.
But if there had been twice as many: ah, four times: old Fezziwig would have kept up with them, and so would Mrs. Fezziwig. As for her, she was truly worthy to be his partner in every sense of the word. If that's not high praise, tell me something better, and I'll use it. A positive light seemed to radiate from Fezziwig's calves. They sparkled throughout the dance like moons. You could never have predicted, at any moment, what would happen next. And when old Fezziwig and Mrs. Fezziwig had gone through the entire dance; advance and retreat, hold hands with your partner; bow and curtsy; corkscrew; thread-the-needle, and back again to your spot; Fezziwig "cut" – cut so skillfully that he looked like he was winking with his legs, and landed back on his feet without a stumble.
When the clock struck eleven, this domestic ball broke up. Mr. and Mrs. Fezziwig took their stations, one on either side the door, and shaking hands with every person individually as he or she went out, wished him or her a Merry Christmas. When everybody had retired but the two 'prentices, they did the same to them; and thus the cheerful voices died away, and the lads were left to their beds; which were under a counter in the back-shop.
When the clock hit eleven, the home party came to an end. Mr. and Mrs. Fezziwig took their places on either side of the door, shaking hands with everyone individually as they left and wishing each one a Merry Christmas. Once everyone had left except for the two apprentices, they did the same for them; and so the happy voices faded away, leaving the boys to their beds, which were under a counter in the back room.
During the whole of this time, Scrooge had acted like a man out of his wits. His heart and soul were in the scene, and with his former self. He corroborated everything, remembered everything, enjoyed everything, and underwent the strangest agitation. It was not until now, when the bright faces of his former self and Dick were turned from them, that he remembered the Ghost, and became conscious that it was looking full upon him, while the light upon its head burned very clear.
During this whole time, Scrooge had been acting like someone completely out of his mind. His heart and soul were in the moment and with his former self. He confirmed everything, remembered everything, enjoyed everything, and experienced the strangest emotions. It wasn't until now, when the happy faces of his past self and Dick were turned away from him, that he remembered the Ghost and realized it was looking directly at him, with the light on its head shining brightly.
"A small matter," said the Ghost, "to make these silly folks so full of gratitude."
"A small thing," said the Ghost, "to make these foolish people so full of gratitude."
"Small!" echoed Scrooge.
“Tiny!” echoed Scrooge.
The Spirit signed to him to listen to the two apprentices, who were pouring out their hearts in praise of Fezziwig: and when he had done so, said:
The Spirit signaled for him to listen to the two apprentices, who were expressing their admiration for Fezziwig; and when he did, said:
"Why! Is it not? He has spent but a few pounds of your mortal money: three or four, perhaps. Is that so much that he deserves this praise?"
"Why! Isn't that right? He's only spent a few pounds of your hard-earned money: maybe three or four. Is that really enough for him to get this kind of praise?"
"It isn't that," said Scrooge, heated by the remark, and speaking unconsciously like his former, not his latter, self. "It isn't that, Spirit. He has the power to render us happy or unhappy; to make our service light or burdensome; a pleasure or a toil. Say that his power lies in words and looks; in things so slight and insignificant that it is impossible to add and count 'em up: what then? The happiness he gives is quite as great as if it cost a fortune."
"It’s not that," Scrooge replied, feeling fired up by the comment, and speaking unintentionally like his old self rather than his new one. "It’s not that, Spirit. He can make us happy or unhappy; make our work feel easy or hard; a joy or a struggle. Sure, his power is in words and expressions; in things so small and trivial that you can’t even keep track of them: so what? The happiness he brings is just as valuable as if it cost a fortune."
He felt the Spirit's glance, and stopped.
He felt the Spirit’s gaze and paused.
"What is the matter?" asked the Ghost.
"What's wrong?" asked the ghost.
"Nothing particular," said Scrooge.
"Nothing special," said Scrooge.
"Something, I think?" the Ghost insisted.
"Something, I think?" the Ghost pressed on.
"No," said Scrooge, "no. I should like to be able to say a word or two to my clerk just now! That's all."
"No," said Scrooge, "no. I would like to say a word or two to my clerk right now! That's all."
His former self turned down the lamps as he gave utterance to the wish; and Scrooge and the Ghost again stood side by side in the open air.
His former self turned off the lamps as he voiced the wish; and Scrooge and the Ghost were once again standing side by side in the open air.
"My time grows short," observed the Spirit. "Quick!"
"My time is running out," the Spirit said. "Hurry!"
This was not addressed to Scrooge, or to any one whom he could see, but it produced an immediate effect. For again Scrooge saw himself. He was older now; a man in the prime of life. His face had not the harsh and rigid lines of later years; but it had begun to wear the signs of care and avarice. There was an eager, greedy, restless motion in the eye, which showed the passion that had taken root, and where the shadow of the growing tree would fall.
This wasn't directed at Scrooge or anyone he could see, but it made an instant impact. Once again, Scrooge saw himself. He was older now; a man in the prime of his life. His face didn't have the harsh and stiff lines of his later years, but it was starting to show signs of worry and greed. There was a sharp, greedy, restless glint in his eye, revealing the passion that had taken hold and where the shadow of the growing tree would fall.
He was not alone, but sat by the side of a fair young girl in a mourning-dress: in whose eyes there were tears, which sparkled in the light that shone out of the Ghost of Christmas Past.
He wasn't alone; he sat next to a beautiful young girl in a mourning dress. Tears sparkled in her eyes, reflecting the light coming from the Ghost of Christmas Past.
"It matters little," she said, softly. "To you, very little. Another idol has displaced me; and if it can cheer and comfort you in time to come, as I would have tried to do, I have no just cause to grieve."
"It doesn't matter much," she said gently. "To you, it matters very little. Another idol has taken my place; and if it can bring you happiness and comfort in the future, as I would have tried to do, I have no real reason to be upset."
"What Idol has displaced you?" he rejoined.
"What idol has taken your place?" he replied.
"A golden one."
"A golden one."
"This is the even-handed dealing of the world!" he said. "There is nothing on which it is so hard as poverty; and there is nothing it professes to condemn with such severity as the pursuit of wealth!"
"This is the fair treatment of the world!" he said. "There's nothing tougher than poverty; and there's nothing it claims to criticize as harshly as the pursuit of wealth!"
"You fear the world too much," she answered, gently. "All your other hopes have merged into the hope of being beyond the chance of its sordid reproach. I have seen your nobler aspirations fall off one by one, until the master-passion, Gain, engrosses you. Have I not?"
"You worry about the world too much," she replied softly. "All your other dreams have turned into just wanting to escape its ugly judgments. I’ve watched your better desires fade away one by one, until the main desire, Gain, consumes you. Haven’t I?"
"What then?" he retorted. "Even if I have grown so much wiser, what then? I am not changed toward you."
"What then?" he shot back. "Even if I've become a lot wiser, what then? I'm still the same toward you."
She shook her head.
She nodded in disbelief.
"Am I?"
"Am I?"
"Our contract is an old one. It was made when we were both poor and content to be so, until, in good season, we could improve our worldly fortune by our patient industry. You are changed. When it was made, you were another man."
"Our contract is an old one. It was made when we were both poor and okay with it, until, in due time, we could better our situation through hard work. You are different now. When it was made, you were a different man."
"I was a boy," he said impatiently.
"I was a kid," he said impatiently.
"Your own feeling tells you that you were not what you are," she returned. "I am. That which promised happiness when we were one in heart, is fraught with misery now that we are two. How often and how keenly I have thought of this, I will not say. It is enough that I have thought of it, and can release you."
"Your own feelings tell you that you’re not who you used to be," she replied. "I am. What promised happiness when we were united in heart is filled with misery now that we’re apart. I won’t say how often and how deeply I’ve thought about this. It’s enough to say that I have thought about it and can set you free."
"Have I ever sought release?"
"Have I ever looked for freedom?"
"In words? No. Never."
"In words? No. Never."
"In what, then?"
"In what way, then?"
"In a changed nature; in an altered spirit; in another atmosphere of life; another Hope as its great end. In everything that made my love of any worth or value in your sight. If this had never been between us," said the girl, looking mildly, but with steadiness, upon him, "tell me, would you seek me out and try to win me now? Ah, no!"
"In a different nature; in a changed spirit; in a new atmosphere of life; another hope as its ultimate goal. In everything that made my love valuable to you. If this had never existed between us," said the girl, looking gently but firmly at him, "tell me, would you seek me out and try to win me now? Ah, no!"
He seemed to yield to the justice of this supposition, in spite of himself. But he said with a struggle, "You think not."
He seemed to give in to the fairness of this assumption, despite his own feelings. But he said with difficulty, "You don't think so."
"I would gladly think otherwise if I could," she answered, "Heaven knows! When I have learned a Truth like this, I know how strong and irresistible it must be. But if you were free to-day, to-morrow, yesterday, can even I believe that you would choose a dowerless girl—you who, in your very confidence with her, weigh everything by Gain: or, choosing her, if for a moment you were false enough to your one guiding principle to do so, do I not know that your repentance and regret would surely follow? I do; and I release you. With a full heart, for the love of him you once were."
"I would gladly think differently if I could," she replied, "Heaven knows! When I’ve learned a truth like this, I understand how strong and unavoidable it must be. But if you were free today, tomorrow, or yesterday, can I really believe that you would choose a girl without a dowry—you, who, in your very confidence with her, measure everything by what you gain? Or, even if you did choose her, and for a moment you betrayed your only guiding principle, I know that your feelings of regret and sorrow would definitely follow. I do; and I set you free. With all my heart, for the love of the man you once were."
He was about to speak; but with her head turned from him, she resumed.
He was about to speak, but with her head turned away from him, she went on.
"You may—the memory of what is past half makes me hope you will—have pain in this. A very, very brief time, and you will dismiss the recollection of it, gladly, as an unprofitable dream, from which it happened well that you awoke. May you be happy in the life you have chosen!"
"You might—knowing what I've been through, I hope you will—feel some pain from this. Just give it a little time, and you’ll look back on it and happily forget it, like an unhelpful dream that you’re glad to have woken up from. I hope you find happiness in the life you've chosen!"
She left him, and they parted.
She left him, and they went their separate ways.
"Spirit!" said Scrooge, "show me no more! Conduct me home. Why do you delight to torture me?"
"Spirit!" Scrooge exclaimed, "show me no more! Take me home. Why do you enjoy torturing me?"
"One shadow more!" exclaimed the Ghost.
"One more shadow!" exclaimed the Ghost.
"No more!" cried Scrooge. "No more. I don't wish to see it. Show me no more!"
"No more!" shouted Scrooge. "No more. I don't want to see it. Don't show me anything else!"
But the relentless Ghost pinioned him in both his arms, and forced him to observe what happened next.
But the unyielding Ghost pinned him down, holding both his arms, and made him watch what happened next.
They were in another scene and place; a room not very large or handsome, but full of comfort. Near to the winter fire sat a beautiful young girl, so like the last that Scrooge believed it was the same, until he saw her, now a comely matron, sitting opposite her daughter. The noise in this room was perfectly tumultuous, for there were more children there than Scrooge in his agitated state of mind could count; and, unlike the celebrated herd in the poem, they were not forty children conducting themselves like one, but every child was conducting itself like forty. The consequences were uproarious beyond belief; but no one seemed to care; on the contrary, the mother and daughter laughed heartily, and enjoyed it very much; and the latter, soon beginning to mingle in the sports, got pillaged by the young brigands most ruthlessly. What would I not have given to be one of them! Though I never could have been so rude, no, no! I wouldn't for the wealth of all the world have crushed that braided hair, and torn it down; and for the precious little shoe, I wouldn't have plucked it off, God bless my soul! to save my life. As to measuring her waist in sport, as they did, bold young brood, I couldn't have done it; I should have expected my arm to have grown round it for a punishment, and never come straight again. And yet I should have dearly liked, I own, to have touched her lips; to have questioned her, that she might have opened them; to have looked upon the lashes of her downcast eyes, and never raised a blush; to have let loose waves of hair, an inch of which would be a keepsake beyond price: in short, I should have liked, I do confess, to have had the lightest license of a child, and yet been man enough to know its value.
They were in a different scene and place; a not very big or fancy room, but full of comfort. Next to the winter fire sat a beautiful young girl, so much like the last one that Scrooge thought it was the same, until he saw her, now a lovely woman, sitting across from her daughter. The noise in this room was absolutely chaotic, with more kids there than Scrooge could count in his frazzled state of mind; and, unlike the famous herd in the poem, they were not forty kids acting like one, but every kid was acting like forty. The consequences were unbelievable; but no one seemed to mind; on the contrary, the mother and daughter laughed heartily and enjoyed it a lot; and the daughter, soon joining in the fun, was mercilessly raided by the little rascals. What would I not have given to be one of them! Though I could never have been so rude, no, no! I wouldn't for the wealth of the world have messed up that braided hair or pulled it down; and for that precious little shoe, I wouldn't have taken it off, God bless my soul! To measure her waist in fun, like they did, bold young bunch, I couldn't have done it; I would have expected my arm to wrap around it as punishment and never come back straight again. And yet I would have really liked, I admit, to have touched her lips; to have asked her something so she might have opened them; to have looked at the lashes of her downturned eyes without making her blush; to have let loose strands of hair, an inch of which would be a priceless keepsake: in short, I would have liked, I confess, to have the slightest freedom of a child, while still being mature enough to know its value.
But now a knocking at the door was heard, and such a rush immediately ensued that she with laughing face and plundered dress was borne toward it the centre of a flushed and boisterous group, just in time to greet the father, who came home attended by a man laden with Christmas toys and presents. Then the shouting and the struggling, and the onslaught that was made on the defenseless porter! The scaling him with chairs for ladders to dive into his pockets, despoil him of brown-paper parcels, hold on tight by his cravat, hug him round the neck, pommel his back, and kick his legs in irrepressible affection! The shouts of wonder and delight with which the development of every package was received! The terrible announcement that the baby had been taken in the act of putting a doll's frying-pan into his mouth, and was more than suspected of having swallowed a fictitious turkey, glued on a wooden platter! The immense relief of finding this a false alarm! The joy, and gratitude, and ecstasy! They are all indescribable alike. It is enough that by degrees the children and their emotions got out of the parlor and by one stair at a time, up to the top of the house; where they went to bed, and so subsided.
But now there was a knock at the door, and a rush followed that swept her, with a laughing face and a disheveled dress, into the center of a flushed and boisterous group, just in time to welcome her father, who came home with a man carrying Christmas toys and gifts. Then the shouting began, along with the struggle and the all-out attack on the unsuspecting delivery guy! They scaled him with chairs used as ladders to dive into his pockets, stripped him of brown-paper packages, clung to his cravat, hugged him around the neck, punched his back, and kicked his legs out of pure joy! The shouts of wonder and delight that greeted the unveiling of each package! The shocking moment when it was announced that the baby had been caught trying to put a doll's frying pan into his mouth and was strongly suspected of swallowing a fake turkey stuck to a wooden plate! The immense relief of discovering it was a false alarm! The joy, gratitude, and ecstasy! They were all beyond description. The children and their emotions gradually made their way out of the parlor and up the stairs, one flight at a time, until they reached the top of the house, where they went to bed and settled down.
And now Scrooge looked on more attentively than ever, when the master of the house, having his daughter leaning fondly on him, sat down with her and her mother at his own fireside; and when he thought that such another creature, quite as graceful and as full of promise, might have called him father, and been a spring-time in the haggard winter of his life, his sight grew very dim indeed.
And now Scrooge watched more closely than ever as the master of the house, with his daughter affectionately leaning on him, sat down with her and her mother by the fireplace. When he thought about how another child, just as lovely and full of potential, could have called him father and brought a bit of spring to the bleak winter of his life, his eyes became very misty.
"Belle," said the husband, turning to his wife with a smile, "I saw an old friend of yours this afternoon."
"Belle," the husband said, smiling at his wife, "I ran into an old friend of yours this afternoon."
"Who was it?"
"Who was it?"
"Guess!"
"Take a guess!"
"How can I? Tut, don't I know?" she added in the same breath, laughing as he laughed. "Mr. Scrooge."
"How can I? Tut, don't I know?" she added in the same breath, laughing as he laughed. "Mr. Scrooge."
"Mr. Scrooge it was. I passed his office window; and as it was not shut up, and he had a candle inside, I could scarcely help seeing him. His partner lies upon the point of death, I hear; and there he sat alone. Quite alone in the world, I do believe."
"That was Mr. Scrooge. I walked past his office window, and since it wasn't closed and he had a candle lit inside, I couldn't help but see him. I’ve heard his partner is on the verge of death, and there he sat all by himself. Completely alone in the world, I think."
"Spirit!" said Scrooge in a broken voice, "remove me from this place."
"Spirit!" Scrooge said in a shaky voice, "take me away from here."
"I told you these were shadows of the things that have been," said the Ghost. "That they are what they are, do not blame me!"
"I told you these are shadows of things that have happened," said the Ghost. "That they are what they are, don't blame me!"
"Remove me!" Scrooge exclaimed, "I can not bear it!"
"Get me out of here!" Scrooge shouted, "I can't take it!"
He turned upon the Ghost, and seeing that it looked upon him with a face, in which in some strange way there were fragments of all the faces it had shown him, wrestled with it.
He turned to the Ghost, and seeing that it was looking at him with a face that strangely combined fragments of all the faces it had shown him, he struggled with it.
"Leave me! Take me back. Haunt me no longer!"
"Leave me alone! Take me back. Stop haunting me!"
In the struggle, if that can be called a struggle in which the Ghost with no visible resistance on its own part was undisturbed by any effort of its adversary, Scrooge observed that its light was burning high and bright; and dimly connecting that with its influence over him, he seized the extinguisher-cap, and by a sudden action pressed it down upon its head.
In the fight, if you can even call it a fight, where the Ghost showed no visible resistance and was completely unaffected by its opponent's efforts, Scrooge noticed that its light was shining brightly. Slightly linking that to its effect on him, he grabbed the extinguisher cap and abruptly pressed it down on its head.
The Spirit dropped beneath it, so that the extinguisher covered its whole form; but though Scrooge pressed it down with all his force, he could not hide the light, which streamed from under it, in an unbroken flood upon the ground.
The Spirit sank below it, so that the extinguisher covered its entire shape; but even though Scrooge pushed it down with all his strength, he couldn't hide the light that shone from underneath, spilling out in a steady stream onto the ground.
He was conscious of being exhausted, and overcome by an irresistible drowsiness; and, further, of being in his own bedroom. He gave the cap a parting squeeze, in which his hand relaxed; and had barely time to reel to bed, before he sank into a heavy sleep.
He felt tired and was hit by an overwhelming sleepiness; he also realized he was in his own bedroom. He gave the cap one last squeeze, letting his hand relax, and barely made it to bed before falling into a deep sleep.
STAVE THREE
PART THREE
The Second of the Three Spirits
The Second of the Three Spirits
Awakening in the middle of a prodigiously tough snore and sitting up in bed to get his thoughts together, Scrooge had no occasion to be told that the bell was again upon the stroke of One. He felt that he was restored to consciousness in the right nick of time, for the especial purpose of holding a conference with the second messenger despatched to him through Jacob Marley's intervention. But, finding that he turned uncomfortably cold when he began to wonder which of his curtains this new spectre would draw back, he put them every one aside with his own hands, and lying down again, established a sharp look-out all round the bed. For he wished to challenge the Spirit on the moment of its appearance, and did not wish to be taken by surprise and made nervous.
Waking up in the middle of a really loud snore and sitting up in bed to collect his thoughts, Scrooge didn't need anyone to tell him that the clock was striking One again. He realized he had come back to awareness just in time for a meeting with the second spirit sent to him through Jacob Marley's influence. However, he started to feel uncomfortably cold as he thought about which of his curtains this new ghost would pull back, so he pushed them all aside himself. Lying back down, he kept a sharp lookout around the bed. He wanted to confront the Spirit the moment it appeared and didn't want to be caught off guard and feel anxious.
Gentlemen of the free-and-easy sort, who plume themselves on being acquainted with a move or two, and being usually equal to the time-of-day, express the wide range of their capacity for adventure by observing that they are good for anything from pitch-and-toss to manslaughter; between which opposite extremes, no doubt, there lies a tolerably wide and comprehensive range of subjects. Without venturing for Scrooge quite as hardily as this, I don't mind calling on you to believe that he was ready for a good broad field of strange appearances, and that nothing between a baby and a rhinoceros would have astonished him very much.
Guys who are laid-back and like to think they know a move or two usually claim they're up for anything, from a casual game of pitch-and-toss to serious stuff like manslaughter; and there's definitely a pretty wide range of situations in between those extremes. Without saying Scrooge was quite as bold as that, I want you to believe he was open to all sorts of bizarre experiences, and that nothing from a baby to a rhinoceros would have surprised him much.
Now, being prepared for almost anything, he was not by any means prepared for nothing; and, consequently, when the Bell struck One, and no shape appeared, he was taken with a violent fit of trembling. Five minutes, ten minutes, a quarter of an hour went by, yet nothing came. All this time he lay upon his bed, the very core and centre of a blaze of ruddy light, which streamed upon it when the clock proclaimed the hour; and which, being only light, was more alarming than a dozen ghosts, as he was powerless to make out what it meant, or would be at; and was sometimes apprehensive that he might be at that very moment an interesting case of spontaneous combustion, without having the consolation of knowing it. At last, however, he began to think—as you or I would have thought at first; for it is always the person not in the predicament who knows what ought to have been done in it, and would unquestionably have done it too—at last, I say, he began to think that the source and secret of this ghostly light might be in the adjoining room, from whence, on further tracing it, it seemed to shine. This idea taking full possession of his mind, he got up softly and shuffled in his slippers to the door.
Now, being ready for almost anything, he was definitely not ready for nothing; so, when the Bell struck One and nothing appeared, he was hit with a strong wave of trembling. Five minutes, ten minutes, a quarter of an hour passed, yet nothing came. All this time he lay on his bed, right at the center of a burst of bright light that shone down when the clock announced the hour; and this light, being just light, was more unsettling than a dozen ghosts, as he had no idea what it meant or what it was about; at times he even worried that he might be an interesting case of spontaneous combustion without even knowing it. Finally, though, he started to think—as you or I would have thought from the start; because it's always the person not in a situation who knows what should have been done in it, and would undoubtedly have done it too—eventually, I say, he began to wonder if the source and secret of this eerie light might be in the room next door, from which it seemed to be shining upon closer inspection. This idea completely took over his thoughts, and he got up quietly and shuffled in his slippers to the door.
The moment Scrooge's hand was on the lock, a strange voice called him by his name, and bade him enter. He obeyed.
The moment Scrooge's hand reached the lock, a strange voice called his name and told him to come in. He complied.
It was his own room. There was no doubt about that. But it had undergone a surprising transformation. The walls and ceiling were so hung with living green, that it looked a perfect grove, from every part of which bright gleaming berries glistened. The crisp leaves of holly, mistletoe, and ivy reflected back the light, as if so many little mirrors had been scattered there; and such a mighty blaze went roaring up the chimney as that dull petrifaction of a hearth had never known in Scrooge's time, or Marley's, or for many and many a winter season gone. Heaped up on the floor, to form a kind of throne, were turkeys, geese, game, poultry, brawn, great joints of meat, sucking-pigs, long wreaths of sausages, mince-pies, plum-puddings, barrels of oysters, red-hot chestnuts, cherry-cheeked apples, juicy oranges, luscious pears, immense twelfth-cakes, and seething bowls of punch, that made the chamber dim with their delicious steam. In easy state upon this couch, there sat a jolly Giant, glorious to see; who bore a glowing torch, in shape not unlike Plenty's horn, and held it up, high up, to shed its light on Scrooge, as he came peeping round the door.
It was definitely his own room. There was no doubt about it. But it had gone through a surprising transformation. The walls and ceiling were covered in living green, making it look like a perfect grove, with bright, shiny berries glistening from every part. The crisp leaves of holly, mistletoe, and ivy reflected the light, as if tiny mirrors had been scattered everywhere; and a massive fire roared up the chimney, unlike anything that dull stone hearth had seen during Scrooge's time, Marley's, or for many, many winters past. Piled on the floor, forming a sort of throne, were turkeys, geese, game, poultry, brawn, large cuts of meat, sucking pigs, long strands of sausages, mince pies, plum puddings, barrels of oysters, hot chestnuts, rosy apples, juicy oranges, sweet pears, huge twelfth cakes, and steaming bowls of punch that filled the room with their delicious aroma. Relaxing comfortably on this pile was a jolly Giant, a sight to behold; he held a glowing torch, shaped a bit like Plenty's horn, and raised it high to light the way for Scrooge as he peeked around the door.
"Come in!" exclaimed the Ghost. "Come in! and know me better, man!"
"Come in!" shouted the Ghost. "Come in! and get to know me better, dude!"
Scrooge entered timidly, and hung his head before this Spirit. He was not the dogged Scrooge he had been; and though the Spirit's eyes were clear and kind, he did not like to meet them.
Scrooge walked in nervously and kept his head down in front of this Spirit. He wasn't the stubborn Scrooge he used to be; and even though the Spirit's eyes were bright and gentle, he found it hard to look them in the eye.
"I am the Ghost of Christmas Present," said the Spirit. "Look upon me!"
"I am the Ghost of Christmas Present," the Spirit said. "Look at me!"
Scrooge reverently did so. It was clothed in one simple deep-green robe, or mantle, bordered with white fur. This garment hung so loosely on the figure, that its capacious breast was bare, as if disdaining to be warded or concealed by any artifice. Its feet, observable beneath the ample folds of the garment, were also bare; and on its head it wore no other covering than a holly wreath set here and there with shining icicles. Its dark-brown curls were long and free; free as its genial face, its sparkling eye, its open hand, its cheery voice, its unconstrained demeanor, and its joyful air. Girdled round its middle was an antique scabbard; but no sword was in it, and the ancient sheath was eaten up with rust.
Scrooge respectfully did so. It was dressed in a simple deep-green robe, edged with white fur. This garment hung so loosely on the figure that its wide chest was bare, as if it was rejecting any kind of covering or disguise. Its feet, visible beneath the flowing folds of the robe, were also bare; and on its head, it wore nothing except a holly wreath sprinkled with shiny icicles. Its dark-brown curls were long and free; free like its warm face, sparkling eyes, open hand, cheerful voice, relaxed demeanor, and joyful presence. Wrapped around its middle was an old scabbard, but there was no sword in it, and the ancient sheath was covered in rust.
"You have never seen the like of me before!" exclaimed the Spirit.
"You've never seen anyone like me before!" the Spirit exclaimed.
"Never," Scrooge made answer to it.
"Never," Scrooge said.
"Have never walked forth with the younger members of my family; meaning (for I am very young) my elder brothers born in these later years?" pursued the Phantom.
"Have I never gone out with the younger members of my family; meaning (since I’m quite young) my older brothers who were born recently?" asked the Phantom.
"I don't think I have," said Scrooge. "I am afraid I have not. Have you had many brothers, Spirit?"
"I don't think I have," Scrooge said. "I'm afraid I haven't. Have you had a lot of brothers, Spirit?"
"More than eighteen hundred," said the Ghost.
"More than eighteen hundred," the Ghost said.
"A tremendous family to provide for!" muttered Scrooge.
"A huge family to support!" muttered Scrooge.
The Ghost of Christmas Present rose.
The Ghost of Christmas Present stood up.
"Spirit," said Scrooge submissively, "conduct me where you will. I went forth last night on compulsion, and I learned a lesson which is working now. To-night, if you have aught to teach me, let me profit by it."
"Spirit," Scrooge said humbly, "take me wherever you want. I went out last night against my will, and I learned a lesson that’s affecting me now. Tonight, if you have anything to teach me, I want to benefit from it."
"Touch my robe!"
"Touch my outfit!"
Scrooge did as he was told, and held it fast.
Scrooge did as he was instructed and held on tightly.
Holly, mistletoe, red berries, ivy, turkeys, geese, game, poultry, brawn, meat, pigs, sausages, oysters, pies, puddings, fruit, and punch, all vanished instantly. So did the room, the fire, the ruddy glow, the hour of night, and they stood in the City streets on Christmas morning, where (for the weather was severe) the people made a rough but brisk and not unpleasant kind of music, in scraping the snow from the pavement in front of their dwellings, and from the tops of their houses: whence it was mad delight to the boys to see it come plumping down into the road below, and splitting into artificial little snowstorms.
Holly, mistletoe, red berries, ivy, turkeys, geese, game, poultry, head cheese, meat, pigs, sausages, oysters, pies, puddings, fruit, and punch all disappeared in an instant. So did the room, the fire, the warm glow, the late hour of night, and they found themselves in the city streets on Christmas morning, where (since the weather was harsh) people created a rough but lively and not unpleasant kind of music by scraping the snow off the pavement in front of their houses and from the tops of their roofs. It was pure joy for the boys to watch the snow fall into the road below, splitting into little snowstorms.
The house fronts looked black enough, and the windows blacker, contrasting with the smooth white sheet of snow upon the roofs, and with the dirtier snow upon the ground; which last deposit had been plowed up in deep furrows by the heavy wheels of carts and wagons; furrows that crossed and recrossed each other hundreds of times where the great streets branched off, and made intricate channels, hard to trace, in the thick yellow mud and icy water. The sky was gloomy, and the shortest streets were choked up with a dingy mist, half thawed, half frozen, whose heavier particles descended in a shower of sooty atoms, as if all the chimneys in Great Britain had, by one consent, caught fire, and were blazing away to their dear hearts' content. There was nothing very cheerful in the climate or the town, and yet was there an air of cheerfulness abroad that the clearest summer air and brightest summer sun might have endeavored to diffuse in vain.
The house fronts looked dark enough, and the windows even darker, contrasting with the smooth white blanket of snow on the roofs and the dirtier snow on the ground. The latter had been plowed into deep ruts by the heavy wheels of carts and wagons; ruts that crisscrossed each other hundreds of times where the main streets branched off, creating complex channels that were hard to trace in the thick yellow mud and icy water. The sky was gloomy, and the shorter streets were filled with a murky mist, half thawed and half frozen, with heavier particles falling like a shower of sooty bits, as if all the chimneys in Great Britain had suddenly caught fire and were burning to their heart's content. There was nothing particularly cheerful about the climate or the town, yet there was a sense of cheerfulness in the air that even the clearest summer skies and brightest summer sun couldn’t manage to achieve.
For the people who were shoveling away on the housetops were jovial and full of glee; calling out to one another from the parapets, and now and then exchanging a facetious snowball—better-natured missile far than many a wordy jest—laughing heartily if it went right and not less heartily if it went wrong. The poulterers' shops were still half open, and the fruiterers were radiant in their glory. There were great, round, pot-bellied baskets of chestnuts, shaped like the waistcoats of jolly old gentlemen, lolling at the doors, and tumbling out into the street in their apoplectic opulence. There were ruddy, brown-faced, broad-girthed Spanish Onions, shining in the fatness of their growth like Spanish Friars; and winking from their shelves in wanton slyness at the girls as they went by and glanced demurely at the hung-up mistletoe. There were pears and apples, clustered high in blooming pyramids; there were bunches of grapes, made, in the shopkeepers' benevolence, to dangle from conspicuous hooks, that people's mouths might water gratis as they passed; there were piles of filberts, mossy and brown, recalling, in their fragrance, ancient walks among the woods, and pleasant shufflings ankle-deep through withered leaves; there were Norfolk Biffins, squab and swarthy, setting off the yellow of the oranges and lemons, and, in the great compactness of their juicy persons, urgently entreating and beseeching to be carried home in paper bags and eaten after dinner. The very gold and silver fish, set forth among these choice fruits in a bowl, though members of a dull and stagnant-blooded race, appeared to know that there was something going on; and, to a fish, went gasping round and round their little world in slow and passionless excitement.
The people shoveling away on the rooftops were cheerful and full of joy, calling out to each other from the ledges, and now and then tossing a playful snowball—much friendlier than many a clever joke—laughing heartily if it hit its target and just as heartily if it missed. The poultry shops were still half open, and the fruit shops were glowing with color. There were big, round, pot-bellied baskets of chestnuts, looking like the waists of jolly old men, lounging at the doorways and spilling out onto the street in their stunning abundance. There were plump, brown-faced Spanish onions, shining with the richness of their growth like Spanish Friars; and they seemed to wink mischievously from their shelves at the girls passing by, who glanced shyly at the hanging mistletoe. There were pears and apples piled high in beautiful pyramids; there were bunches of grapes, hanging from noticeable hooks, meant to make people's mouths water for free as they walked by; there were heaps of mossy brown filberts, whose scent brought back memories of old walks in the woods, and the pleasant sound of shuffling through dry leaves; there were Norfolk Biffins, plump and dark, contrasting with the yellow of oranges and lemons, and their juicy bodies seemed to plead to be taken home in paper bags and enjoyed after dinner. Even the gold and silver fish displayed among these exquisite fruits in a bowl, although members of a dull and sluggish breed, seemed to sense that something was happening; and they swam round and round their little world in slow, passionless excitement.
The Grocers'! oh the Grocers'! nearly closed, with perhaps two shutters down, or one; but through those gaps such glimpses! It was not alone that the scales descending on the counter made a merry sound, or that the twine and roller parted company so briskly, or that the canisters were rattled up and down like juggling tricks, or even that the blended scents of tea and coffee were so grateful to the nose, or even that the raisins were so plentiful and rare, the almonds so extremely white, the sticks of cinnamon so long and straight, the other spices so delicious, the candied fruits so caked and spotted with molten sugar as to make the coldest lookers-on feel faint and subsequently bilious. Nor was it that the figs were moist and pulpy, or that the French plums blushed in modest tartness from their highly decorated boxes, or that everything was good to eat and in its Christmas dress: but the customers were all so hurried and so eager in the hopeful promise of the day, that they tumbled up against each other at the door, clashing their wicker baskets wildly, and left their purchases upon the counter, and came running back to fetch them, and committed hundreds of the like mistakes in the best humor possible; while the Grocer and his people were so frank and fresh that the polished hearts with which they fastened their aprons behind might have been their own, worn outside for general inspection, and for Christmas daws to peck at if they chose.
The Grocers'! Oh, the Grocers'! almost closed, with maybe two shutters down, or just one; but through those gaps, what a view! It wasn’t just that the scales on the counter chimed cheerfully, or that the twine and roller separated so quickly, or that the canisters were tossed up and down like juggling acts, or even that the mixed scents of tea and coffee were so pleasant to smell, or that the raisins were abundant and unique, the almonds so incredibly white, the sticks of cinnamon so long and straight, the other spices so tasty, the candied fruits so crusted and spotted with molten sugar that they made the coldest observers feel dizzy and maybe even nauseous. Nor was it that the figs were juicy and soft, or that the French plums blushed with a shy tartness from their fancy boxes, or that everything was deliciously presented for Christmas: but the customers were all so rushed and eager with the hopeful spirit of the day, that they bumped into each other at the door, clashing their wicker baskets wildly, leaving their purchases on the counter, and coming back to grab them, making hundreds of such mistakes in the best of moods; while the Grocer and his staff were so genuine and lively that the polished hearts they tied their aprons around might as well have been their own, displayed for everyone to see, and for Christmas birds to peck at if they wanted.
But soon the steeples called good people all to church and chapel, and away they came, flocking through the streets in their best clothes, and with their gayest faces. And at the same time there emerged from scores of by-streets, lanes, and nameless turnings, innumerable people, carrying their dinners to the bakers' shops. The sight of these poor revelers appeared to interest the Spirit very much, for he stood with Scrooge beside him in a baker's doorway, and taking off the covers as their bearers passed, sprinkled incense on their dinners from his torch. And it was a very uncommon kind of torch, for once or twice when there were angry words between some dinner-carriers who had jostled with each other, he shed a few drops of water on them from it, and their good humor was restored directly. For they said it was a shame to quarrel upon Christmas Day. And so it was! God love it, so it was!
But soon the steeples called everyone to church and chapel, and people flocked through the streets in their best clothes and happiest faces. At the same time, many folks emerged from side streets, alleys, and unnamed corners, carrying their dinners to the baker's shops. The sight of these cheerful people seemed to intrigue the Spirit a lot, as he stood with Scrooge next to him in a baker's doorway. He removed the covers from their meals as they passed by and sprinkled incense on their dinners from his unique torch. It was a special kind of torch because, once or twice, when some dinner-carriers exchanged angry words after bumping into each other, he sprinkled a few drops of water on them from it, and their good mood was instantly restored. They said it was a shame to argue on Christmas Day. And it really was! God love it, it truly was!
In time the bells ceased, and the bakers were shut up; and yet there was a genial shadowing forth of all these dinners and the progress of their cooking, in the thawed blotch of wet above each baker's oven; where the pavement smoked as if its stones were cooking too.
Eventually, the bells stopped, and the bakers closed up shop; yet there was a warm hint of all these dinners and the progress of their cooking, in the damp patch of wet above each baker's oven; where the pavement steamed as if its stones were cooking too.
"Is there a peculiar flavor in what you sprinkle from your torch?" asked Scrooge.
"Is that a strange flavor in what you're pouring from your torch?" asked Scrooge.
"There is. My own."
"It's mine."
"Would it apply to any kind of dinner on this day?" asked Scrooge.
"Does it apply to any kind of dinner today?" asked Scrooge.
"To any kindly given. To a poor one most."
"To anyone who is generous. To a poor person the most."
"Why to a poor one most?" asked Scrooge.
"Why do the poor get the most?" asked Scrooge.
"Because it needs it most."
"Because it needs it the most."
"Spirit," said Scrooge, after a moment's thought, "I wonder you, of all the beings in the many worlds about us, should desire to cramp these people's opportunities of innocent enjoyment."
"Spirit," Scrooge said after a moment of thinking, "I can't believe that you, of all the beings in the countless worlds around us, would want to limit these people's chances for innocent enjoyment."
"I!" cried the Spirit.
"Me!" cried the Spirit.
"You would deprive them of their means of dinner every seventh day, often the only day on which they can be said to dine at all," said Scrooge. "Wouldn't you?"
"You would take away their chance to have dinner every seventh day, which is often the only day they actually get to dine at all," said Scrooge. "Wouldn't you?"
"I!" cried the Spirit.
"I!" shouted the Spirit.
"You seek to close these places on the Seventh Day!" said Scrooge. "And it comes to the same thing."
"You want to shut these places down on the Seventh Day!" said Scrooge. "And it all amounts to the same thing."
"I seek!" exclaimed the Spirit.
"I’m seeking!" exclaimed the Spirit.
"Forgive me if I am wrong. It has been done in your name, or at least in that of your family," said Scrooge.
"Sorry if I'm mistaken. It was done in your name, or at least in your family's name," said Scrooge.
"There are some upon this earth of yours," returned the Spirit, "who lay claim to know us, and who do their deeds of passion, pride, ill-will, hatred, envy, bigotry, and selfishness in our name, who are as strange to us and all our kith and kin, as if they had never lived. Remember that, and charge their doings on themselves, not us."
"There are people on this earth of yours," the Spirit replied, "who claim to know us and who act out of passion, pride, resentment, hatred, envy, bigotry, and selfishness in our name, yet they are as unfamiliar to us and our family as if they never existed. Keep that in mind, and hold them accountable for their actions, not us."
Scrooge promised that he would; and they went on, invisible, as they had been before, into the suburbs of the town. It was a remarkable quality of the Ghost (which Scrooge had observed at the baker's), that notwithstanding his gigantic size, he could accommodate himself to any place with ease; and that he stood beneath a low roof quite as gracefully and like a supernatural creature as it was possible he could have done in any lofty hall.
Scrooge agreed that he would; and they continued on, invisible, just like before, into the outskirts of the town. One impressive thing about the Ghost (which Scrooge had noticed at the bakery) was that despite his enormous size, he could fit into any space effortlessly; he stood under a low ceiling as gracefully and like a supernatural being as he could have in any grand hall.
And perhaps it was the pleasure the good Spirit had in showing off this power of his, or else it was his own kind, generous, hearty nature, and his sympathy with all poor men, that led him straight to Scrooge's clerk's; for there he went, and took Scrooge with him, holding to his robe; and on the threshold of the door the Spirit smiled, and stopped to bless Bob Cratchit's dwelling with the sprinklings of his torch. Think of that! Bob had but fifteen "Bob" a week himself; he pocketed on Saturdays but fifteen copies of his Christian name; and yet the Ghost of Christmas Present blessed his four-roomed house!
And maybe it was the good Spirit's enjoyment in showcasing this power of his, or maybe it was his own kind, generous, warm-hearted nature, along with his empathy for all poor people, that led him directly to Scrooge's clerk; because there he went, bringing Scrooge along with him, holding onto his robe. At the door, the Spirit smiled and paused to bless Bob Cratchit's home with the light from his torch. Can you believe that? Bob only earned fifteen pounds a week himself; he took home just fifteen copies of his name every Saturday; and yet the Ghost of Christmas Present blessed his four-room house!
Then up rose Mrs. Cratchit, Cratchit's wife, dressed out but poorly in a twice-turned gown, but brave in ribbons, which are cheap and make a goodly show for sixpence; and she laid the cloth, assisted by Belinda Cratchit, second of her daughters, also brave in ribbons; while Master Peter Cratchit plunged a fork into the saucepan of potatoes, and getting the corners of his monstrous shirt collar (Bob's private property, conferred upon his son and heir in honor of the day) into his mouth, rejoiced to find himself so gallantly attired, and yearned to show his linen in the fashionable Parks. And now two smaller Cratchits, boy and girl, came tearing in, screaming that outside the baker's they had smelled the goose, and known it for their own; and basking in luxurious thoughts of sage-and-onion, these young Cratchits danced about the table, and exalted Master Peter Cratchit to the skies, while he (not proud, although his collars nearly choked him) blew the fire, until the slow potatoes, bubbling up, knocked loudly at the saucepan-lid to be let out and peeled.
Then Mrs. Cratchit got up, Cratchit's wife, dressed modestly in a worn-out gown but brightened by some ribbons, which are inexpensive and look nice for just sixpence; and she set the table, helped by Belinda Cratchit, her second daughter, who was also adorned with ribbons; while Master Peter Cratchit jabbed a fork into the pot of potatoes and, trying to get the edges of his oversized shirt collar (Bob's special property, given to his son on this special day) into his mouth, was thrilled to see himself so stylishly dressed, dreaming of showing off his outfit in the trendy parks. Then two younger Cratchits, a boy and a girl, came rushing in, yelling that they had smelled the goose outside the baker's and recognized it as theirs; and filled with delicious thoughts of sage-and-onion, these little Cratchits danced around the table, praising Master Peter Cratchit to the heavens, while he (not vain, even though his collar was nearly choking him) stoked the fire, until the slow-cooking potatoes, bubbling away, knocked loudly on the pot lid, eager to be let out and peeled.
"What has ever got your precious father, then?" said Mrs. Cratchit. "And your brother, Tiny Tim! And Martha warn't as late last Christmas Day by half-an-hour!"
"What has happened to your precious father, then?" said Mrs. Cratchit. "And what about your brother, Tiny Tim! And Martha wasn't as late last Christmas Day by half an hour!"
"Here's Martha, mother!" said a girl, appearing as she spoke.
"Here’s Martha, Mom!" said a girl, showing up as she spoke.
"Here's Martha, mother!" cried the two young Cratchits. "Hurrah! There's such a goose, Martha!"
"Look who's here, Mom!" shouted the two little Cratchits. "Yay! There’s such a goose, Martha!"
"Why, bless your heart alive, my dear, how late you are!" said Mrs. Cratchit, kissing her a dozen times, and taking off her shawl and bonnet for her with officious zeal.
"Why, bless your heart, my dear, you’re so late!" said Mrs. Cratchit, kissing her a dozen times and eagerly taking off her shawl and bonnet.
"We'd a deal of work to finish up last night," replied the girl, "and had to clear away this morning, mother!"
"We had a lot of work to wrap up last night," replied the girl, "and had to clean up this morning, Mom!"
"Well! Never mind so long as you are come," said Mrs. Cratchit. "Sit ye down before the fire, my dear, and have a warm, Lord bless ye!"
"Well! Never mind as long as you’re here," said Mrs. Cratchit. "Sit down by the fire, my dear, and get warm, God bless you!"
"No, no! There's father coming," cried the two young Cratchits, who were everywhere at once. "Hide, Martha, hide!"
"No, no! Here comes Dad," shouted the two young Cratchits, who were all over the place. "Hide, Martha, hide!"
So Martha hid herself, and in came little Bob, the father, with at least three feet of comforter, exclusive of the fringe, hanging down before him; and his threadbare clothes darned up and brushed, to look seasonable; and Tiny Tim upon his shoulder. Alas for Tiny Tim, he bore a little crutch, and had his limbs supported by an iron frame!
So Martha hid herself, and in came little Bob, the father, with at least three feet of a comforter, not counting the fringe, hanging down in front of him; and his worn clothes patched up and brushed to look presentable; and Tiny Tim on his shoulder. Sadly for Tiny Tim, he had a little crutch and his limbs supported by a metal frame!
"Why, where's our Martha?" cried Bob Cratchit, looking round.
"Where's our Martha?" Bob Cratchit exclaimed, looking around.
"Not coming," said Mrs. Cratchit.
"Not coming," said Mrs. Cratchit.
"Not coming!" said Bob, with a sudden declension in his high spirits; for he had been Tim's blood horse all the way from church, and had come home rampant. "Not coming upon Christmas Day!"
"Not coming!" Bob said, his mood dropping suddenly; he had been Tim's enthusiastic supporter all the way from church and had come home full of energy. "Not coming on Christmas Day!"
Martha didn't like to see him disappointed, if it were only in joke; so she came out prematurely from behind the closet door, and ran into his arms, while the two young Cratchits hustled Tiny Tim, and bore him off into the wash-house, that he might hear the pudding singing in the copper.
Martha didn’t want to see him upset, even if it was just a joke; so she stepped out from behind the closet door and ran into his arms, while the two young Cratchits rushed Tiny Tim away, taking him into the wash-house so he could hear the pudding bubbling in the pot.
"And how did little Tim behave?" asked Mrs. Cratchit, when she had rallied Bob on his credulity, and Bob had hugged his daughter to his heart's content.
"And how did little Tim act?" asked Mrs. Cratchit, after she had teased Bob about his gullibility, and Bob had embraced his daughter to his heart's content.
"As good as gold," said Bob, "and better. Somehow he gets thoughtful, sitting by himself so much, and thinks the strangest things you ever heard. He told me, coming home, that he hoped the people saw him in the church, because he was a cripple, and it might be pleasant to them to remember upon Christmas Day, who made lame beggars walk and blind men see."
"As good as gold," Bob said, "and even better. Somehow he gets reflective, spending so much time alone, and comes up with the strangest thoughts you ever heard. He told me on the way home that he hoped people noticed him in church because he was a cripple, and it might be nice for them to remember on Christmas Day who made lame beggars walk and blind men see."
Bob's voice was tremulous when he told them this, and trembled more when he said that Tiny Tim was growing strong and hearty.
Bob's voice shook when he told them this, and it shook even more when he mentioned that Tiny Tim was getting stronger and healthier.
His active little crutch was heard upon the floor, and back came Tiny Tim before another word was spoken, escorted by his brother and sister to his stool before the fire; and while Bob, turning up his cuffs—as if, poor fellow, they were capable of being made more shabby—compounded some hot mixture in a jug with gin and lemons, and stirred it round and round and put it on the hob to simmer; Master Peter, and the two ubiquitous young Cratchits went to fetch the goose, with which they soon returned in high procession.
His lively little crutch echoed on the floor, and Tiny Tim came back before anyone could say another word, accompanied by his brother and sister to his stool by the fire. While Bob rolled up his cuffs—as if, poor guy, they could look any more worn—he mixed some hot drink in a jug with gin and lemons, stirring it continuously before putting it on the stove to simmer. Master Peter and the two ever-present young Cratchits went to get the goose, which they soon brought back in a celebratory procession.
Such a bustle ensued that you might have thought a goose the rarest of all birds; a feathered phenomenon, to which a black swan was a matter of course—and in truth it was something very like it in that house. Mrs. Cratchit made the gravy (ready beforehand in a little saucepan) hissing hot; Master Peter mashed the potatoes with incredible vigor; Miss Belinda sweetened up the apple-sauce; Martha dusted the hot plates; Bob took Tiny Tim beside him in a tiny corner at the table; the two young Cratchits set chairs for everybody, not forgetting themselves, and mounting guard upon their posts, crammed spoons into their mouths, lest they should shriek for goose before their turn came to be helped. At last the dishes were set on, and grace was said. It was succeeded by a breathless pause, as Mrs. Cratchit, looking slowly all along the carving-knife, prepared to plunge it in the breast; but when she did, and when the long expected gush of stuffing issued forth, one murmur of delight arose all round the board, and even Tiny Tim, excited by the two young Cratchits, beat on the table with the handle of his knife, and feebly cried Hurrah!
There was such a commotion that you might have thought a goose was the rarest of all birds; a feathered wonder, while a black swan was just ordinary—and honestly, that’s pretty much how things were in that house. Mrs. Cratchit made the gravy (which was prepared ahead of time in a small saucepan) piping hot; Master Peter mashed the potatoes with amazing energy; Miss Belinda sweetened the apple sauce; Martha dusted the hot plates; Bob took Tiny Tim beside him in a small corner at the table; the two young Cratchits set up chairs for everyone, making sure not to forget themselves, and standing guard at their posts, stuffed spoons into their mouths to keep from shouting for goose before it was their turn. Finally, the dishes were placed on the table, and grace was said. This was followed by a breathless pause as Mrs. Cratchit, slowly guiding the carving knife, prepared to plunge it into the breast; but when she did, and the long-awaited gush of stuffing came out, a murmur of delight spread around the table, and even Tiny Tim, excited by the two young Cratchits, banged on the table with the handle of his knife and weakly shouted, "Hurrah!"
There never was such a goose. Bob said he didn't believe there ever was such a goose cooked. Its tenderness and flavor, size and cheapness, were the themes of universal admiration. Eked out by the apple sauce and mashed potatoes, it was a sufficient dinner for the whole family; indeed, as Mrs. Cratchit said with great delight (surveying one small atom of a bone upon the dish), they hadn't ate it all at last! Yet every one had had enough, and the younger Cratchits in particular, were steeped in sage-and-onion to the eyebrows! But now, the plates being changed by Miss Belinda, Mrs. Cratchit left the room alone—too nervous to bear witness—to take the pudding up and bring it in.
There has never been a goose quite like this one. Bob said he didn’t think there ever was such a perfectly cooked goose. Its tenderness and flavor, along with its size and low cost, were widely praised. With apple sauce and mashed potatoes on the side, it was more than enough for the whole family; actually, as Mrs. Cratchit happily noted (glancing at a tiny piece of bone left on the plate), they hadn’t eaten it all after all! But everyone had plenty, especially the younger Cratchits, who were stuffed with sage and onion up to their eyebrows! Now, after Miss Belinda switched the plates, Mrs. Cratchit went out of the room by herself—too anxious to watch—to get the pudding and bring it in.
Suppose it should not be done enough! Suppose it should break in turning out! Suppose somebody should have got over the wall of the back-yard, and stolen it, while they were merry with the goose—a supposition at which the two young Cratchits became livid! All sorts of horrors were supposed.
Suppose it doesn’t get done properly! Suppose it falls apart when it’s being cooked! Suppose someone jumps over the backyard wall and steals it while everyone is having a good time with the goose—a thought that made the two young Cratchits go pale! They imagined all kinds of terrible scenarios.
Hallo! A great deal of steam! The pudding was out of the copper. A smell like a washing-day! That was the cloth. A smell like an eating-house and a pastry-cook's next door to each other, with a laundress's next door to that! That was the pudding! In half a minute Mrs. Cratchit entered—flushed, but smiling proudly—with the pudding, like a speckled cannon-ball, so hard and firm, blazing in half of half-a-quartern of ignited brandy, and bedight with Christmas holly stuck into the top.
Hello! So much steam! The pudding was out of the pot. It smelled like wash day! That was the cloth. It smelled like a restaurant and a bakery next to each other, with a laundress next door! That was the pudding! In just a moment, Mrs. Cratchit came in—flushed, but smiling proudly—with the pudding, like a speckled cannonball, so hard and firm, blazing in a splash of ignited brandy, and decorated with Christmas holly stuck into the top.
Oh, a wonderful pudding! Bob Cratchit said, and calmly too, that he regarded it as the greatest success achieved by Mrs. Cratchit since their marriage. Mrs. Cratchit said that now the weight was off her mind, she would confess she had had her doubts about the quantity of flour. Everybody had something to say about it, but nobody said or thought it was at all a small pudding for a large family. It would have been flat heresy to do so. Any Cratchit would have blushed to hint at such a thing.
Oh, what a fantastic pudding! Bob Cratchit said, and he said it calmly too, that he believed it was the greatest achievement of Mrs. Cratchit since they got married. Mrs. Cratchit shared that now that the pressure was off her, she would admit she had her doubts about the amount of flour. Everyone had something to add about it, but no one said or thought it was a small pudding for a big family. It would have been totally unacceptable to do so. Any Cratchit would have felt embarrassed to even suggest such a thing.
At last the dinner was all done, the cloth was cleared, the hearth swept, and the fire made up. The compound in the jug being tasted, and considered perfect, apples and oranges were put upon the table, and a shovelful of chestnuts on the fire. Then all the Cratchit family drew round the hearth, in what Bob Cratchit called a circle, meaning half a one; and at Bob Cratchit's elbows stood the family display of glass. Two tumblers, and a custard-cup without a handle.
Finally, dinner was over, the table was cleared, the hearth was swept, and the fire was stoked. After tasting the drink in the jug and finding it perfect, apples and oranges were placed on the table, and a handful of chestnuts went on the fire. Then the entire Cratchit family gathered around the hearth in what Bob Cratchit called a circle, which really meant half a circle; and next to Bob Cratchit were the family's glassware. Two tumblers and a custard cup without a handle.
These held the hot stuff from the jug, however, as well as golden goblets would have done; and Bob served it out with beaming looks, while the chestnuts on the fire sputtered and cracked noisily. Then Bob proposed:
These held the hot stuff from the jug, just like golden goblets would have; and Bob served it with a big smile as the chestnuts on the fire sputtered and cracked loudly. Then Bob suggested:
"A Merry Christmas to us all, my dears. God bless us!"
"A Merry Christmas to all of us, my dear ones. God bless us!"
Which all the family reechoed.
Which the whole family repeated.
"God bless us, every one!" said Tiny Tim, the last of all.
"God bless us, everyone!" said Tiny Tim, the last of all.
He sat very close to his father's side upon his little stool. Bob held his withered little hand in his, as if he loved the child, and wished to keep him by his side, and dreaded that he might be taken from him.
He sat right next to his dad on his small stool. Bob held his frail little hand in his, as if he cared for the child, wanted to keep him close, and feared that he might be taken away.
"Spirit," said Scrooge, with an interest he had never felt before, "tell me if Tiny Tim will live."
"Spirit," Scrooge said, with a curiosity he had never experienced before, "please tell me if Tiny Tim will survive."
"I see a vacant seat," replied the Ghost, "in the poor chimney-corner, and a crutch without an owner, carefully preserved. If these shadows remain unaltered by the future, the child will die."
"I see an empty seat," replied the Ghost, "in the sad chimney corner, and a crutch without a user, carefully kept. If these shadows don’t change in the future, the child will die."
"No, no," said Scrooge. "Oh, no, kind Spirit! say he will be spared."
"No, no," said Scrooge. "Oh, no, kind Spirit! Please say he will be saved."
"If these shadows remain unaltered by the future, none other of my race," returned the Ghost, "will find him here. What then? If he be like to die, he had better do it, and decrease the surplus population."
"If these shadows stay the same in the future, no one else from my kind," the Ghost replied, "will find him here. So what? If he's going to die, he might as well do it and reduce the excess population."
Scrooge hung his head to hear his own words quoted by the Spirit, and was overcome with penitence and grief.
Scrooge lowered his head to hear the Spirit quote his own words and was filled with regret and sadness.
"Man," said the Ghost, "if man you be in heart, not adamant, forbear that wicked cant until you have discovered What the surplus is, and Where it is. Will you decide what men shall live, what men shall die? It may be that in the sight of Heaven you are more worthless and less fit to live than millions like this poor man's child. Oh God! to hear the Insect on the leaf pronouncing on the too much life among his hungry brothers in the dust!"
"Man," said the Ghost, "if you truly are a man at heart, not heartless, hold off on that wicked talk until you know what the surplus is and where it is. Will you determine who should live and who should die? It may be that in the eyes of Heaven you are more worthless and less deserving of life than millions like this poor man's child. Oh God! to hear the insect on the leaf judging the excessive life among its starving brothers in the dust!"
Scrooge bent before the Ghost's rebuke, and trembling cast his eyes upon the ground. But he raised them speedily, on hearing his own name.
Scrooge bowed his head at the Ghost's criticism, shaking as he looked down. But he quickly lifted his gaze when he heard his own name.
"Mr. Scrooge!" said Bob; "I'll give you Mr. Scrooge, the Founder of the Feast!"
"Mr. Scrooge!" said Bob; "I'll toast Mr. Scrooge, the one who started the feast!"
"The Founder of the Feast indeed!" cried Mrs. Cratchit, reddening. "I wish I had him here. I'd give him a piece of my mind to feast upon, and I hope he'd have a good appetite for it."
"The Founder of the Feast, really!" exclaimed Mrs. Cratchit, blushing. "I wish I had him here. I'd give him a piece of my mind to enjoy, and I hope he'd be hungry for it."
"My dear," said Bob, "the children! Christmas Day."
"My dear," said Bob, "the kids! Christmas Day."
"It should be Christmas Day, I am sure," said she, "on which one drinks the health of such an odious, stingy, hard, unfeeling man as Mr. Scrooge. You know he is, Robert! Nobody knows it better than you do, poor fellow!"
"It must be Christmas Day, I’m sure," she said, "when you drink to the health of such an awful, cheap, cold, unfeeling man like Mr. Scrooge. You know he is, Robert! No one knows it better than you do, poor guy!"
"My dear," was Bob's mild answer, "Christmas Day."
"My dear," was Bob's gentle reply, "Christmas Day."
"I'll drink his health for your sake and the Day's," said Mrs. Cratchit, "not for his. Long life to him! A Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! He'll be very merry and very happy, I have no doubt!"
"I'll toast to his health for you and for the holiday," said Mrs. Cratchit, "not for him. Cheers to a long life! Wishing you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! I have no doubt he will be very merry and very happy!"
The children drank the toast after her. It was the first of their proceedings which had no heartiness in it. Tiny Tim drank it last of all, but he didn't care twopence for it. Scrooge was the Ogre of the family. The mention of his name cast a dark shadow on the party, which was not dispelled for fully five minutes.
The kids raised their glasses after her. It was the first time their gathering felt so lackluster. Tiny Tim went last to drink, but it didn't mean much to him. Scrooge was the villain of the family. Just hearing his name dimmed the mood at the party, and it took a full five minutes for that gloom to lift.
After it had passed away, they were ten times merrier than before, from the mere relief of Scrooge the Baleful being done with. Bob Cratchit told them how he had a situation in his eye for Master Peter, which would bring in, if obtained, fully five-and-sixpence weekly. The two young Cratchits laughed tremendously at the idea of Peter's being a man of business; and Peter himself looked thoughtfully at the fire from between his collars, as if he were deliberating what particular investments he should favor when he came into the receipt of that bewildering income. Martha, who was a poor apprentice at a milliner's, then told them what kind of work she had to do, and how many hours she worked at a stretch, and how she meant to lie abed to-morrow morning for a good long rest; to-morrow being a holiday she passed at home. Also how she had seen a countess and a lord some days before, and how the lord "was much about as tall as Peter"; at which Peter pulled up his collars so high that you couldn't have seen his head if you had been there. All this time the chestnuts and the jug went round and round; and by and by they had a song, about a lost child traveling in the snow, from Tiny Tim, who had a plaintive little voice, and sang it very well indeed.
After it passed away, they were ten times happier than before, just from the relief of Scrooge the Grumpy being gone. Bob Cratchit told them he had a job in mind for Master Peter that would pay about five-and-sixpence a week if he got it. The two younger Cratchits laughed hard at the idea of Peter being a businessman, while Peter himself stared thoughtfully at the fire between his collar, as if he were considering what smart investments he should make when he got that puzzling paycheck. Martha, who was a struggling apprentice at a milliner's, then shared what kind of work she had to do, how many hours she worked straight, and how she planned to sleep in the next morning for a nice long rest since tomorrow was a holiday she spent at home. She also mentioned how she had seen a countess and a lord a few days ago, and how the lord "was about as tall as Peter," which made Peter pull up his collar so high that you wouldn't have been able to see his head if you had been there. Meanwhile, the chestnuts and jug were passed around, and eventually, Tiny Tim sang a song about a lost child traveling in the snow with his sweet little voice, and he sang it really well.
There was nothing of high mark in this. They were not a handsome family; they were not well dressed; their shoes were far from being waterproof; their clothes were scanty; and Peter might have known, and very likely did, the inside of a pawnbroker's. But, they were happy, grateful, pleased with one another, and contented with the time; and when they faded, and looked happier yet in the bright sprinklings of the Spirit's torch at parting, Scrooge had his eye upon them, and especially on Tiny Tim, until the last.
There was nothing remarkable about this. They weren’t a good-looking family; they weren’t well-dressed; their shoes were definitely not waterproof; their clothes were thin; and Peter probably knew, and most likely did, the inside of a pawn shop. But they were happy, grateful, fond of each other, and satisfied with what they had in that moment; and as they faded away, looking even happier in the bright glimmers of the Spirit’s torch at the end, Scrooge kept his eye on them, especially on Tiny Tim, until the very end.
By this time it was getting dark, and snowing pretty heavily; and as Scrooge and the Spirit went along the streets, the brightness of the roaring fires in kitchens, parlors, and all sorts of rooms, was wonderful. Here the flickering of the blaze showed preparations for a cozy dinner, with hot plates baking through and through before the fire, and deep red curtains, ready to be drawn to shut out cold and darkness. There all the children of the house were running out into the snow to meet their married sisters, brothers, cousins, uncles, aunts, and be the first to greet them. Here, again, were shadows on the window-blind of guests assembling; and there a group of handsome girls, all hooded and fur-booted, and all chattering at once, tripped lightly off to some near neighbor's house; where, woe upon the single man who saw them enter—artful witches: well they knew it—in a glow!
By this time, it was getting dark and snowing heavily. As Scrooge and the Spirit walked through the streets, the warmth of the roaring fires in kitchens, living rooms, and all kinds of spaces was amazing. Here, the flickering flames showed preparations for a cozy dinner, with hot plates warming thoroughly in front of the fire and deep red curtains ready to be drawn to block out the cold and darkness. There, all the kids of the house were running out into the snow to meet their married sisters, brothers, cousins, uncles, aunts, and be the first to greet them. Again, there were shadows on the window shade of guests gathering; and there was a group of pretty girls, all bundled up in hoods and fur boots, chattering away as they skipped off to a neighbor's house. Woe betide the single man who saw them enter—those enchanting witches knew exactly how to draw attention—glowing with charm!
But if you had judged from the numbers of people on their way to friendly gatherings, you might have thought that no one was at home to give them welcome when they got there, instead of every house expecting company, and piling up its fires half-chimney high. Blessings on it, how the Ghost exulted! How it bared its breadth of breast, and opened its capacious palm, and floated on, outpouring, with a generous hand, its bright and harmless mirth on everything within its reach! The very lamplighter, who ran on before dotting the dusky street with specks of light, and who was dressed to spend the evening somewhere, laughed out loudly as the Spirit passed: though little kenned the lamplighter that he had any company but Christmas!
But if you judged by the number of people heading to friendly gatherings, you might think that no one was home to welcome them when they arrived, instead of every house anticipating guests and stacking their fires almost to the chimney top. Bless it, how the Ghost celebrated! It spread its arms wide, opened its generous hand, and floated on, pouring out its bright and harmless joy on everything it touched! Even the lamplighter, who hurried ahead, lighting up the dark street with little spots of light and dressed to spend the evening somewhere, laughed loudly as the Spirit went by: though he had no idea he was in company with anything but Christmas!
And now, without a word of warning from the Ghost, they stood upon a bleak and desert moor, where monstrous masses of rude stone were cast about, as though it were the burial-place of giants; and water spread itself wheresoever it listed, or would have done so, but for the frost that held it prisoner; and nothing grew but moss and furze, and coarse, rank grass. Down in the west the setting sun had left a streak of fiery red, which glared upon the desolation for an instant, like a sullen eye, and frowning lower, lower, lower yet, was lost in the thick gloom of darkest night.
And now, without any warning from the Ghost, they found themselves on a bleak and barren moor, where huge chunks of rough stone were scattered around, as if it were a burial ground for giants; water spread itself wherever it wanted to, or would have if it weren’t for the frost that trapped it; and nothing grew except moss, gorse, and coarse, rank grass. In the west, the setting sun had left a streak of fiery red that glared at the desolation for a moment, like a sullen eye, and, frowning lower and lower, was swallowed by the thick gloom of the darkest night.
"What place is this?" asked Scrooge.
"What place is this?" Scrooge asked.
"A place where Miners live, who labor in the bowels of the earth," returned the Spirit. "But they know me. See!"
"A place where miners live, working deep in the earth," the Spirit replied. "But they know me. Look!"
A light shone from the window of a hut, and swiftly they advanced toward it. Passing through the wall of mud and stone, they found a cheerful company assembled round a glowing fire. An old, old man and woman, with their children and their children's children, and another generation beyond that, all decked out gaily in their holiday attire. The old man, in a voice that seldom rose above the howling of the wind upon the barren waste, was singing them a Christmas song; it had been a very old song when he was a boy; and from time to time they all joined in the chorus. So surely as they raised their voices, the old man got quite blithe and loud; and so surely as they stopped, his vigor sank again.
A light was shining from the window of a hut, and they quickly made their way toward it. Passing through the mud and stone wall, they found a cheerful group gathered around a warm fire. An elderly man and woman, along with their children and grandchildren, and even another generation beyond that, were all dressed up in their holiday clothes. The old man, his voice rarely rising above the howling wind outside, was singing a Christmas song; it had been an old song even when he was a boy. Every now and then, they all joined in on the chorus. Each time they raised their voices, the old man grew happier and louder, but as soon as they stopped, his energy faded again.
The Spirit did not tarry here, but bade Scrooge hold his robe, and passing on above the moor, sped whither? Not to sea? To sea. To Scrooge's horror, looking back, he saw the last of the land, a frightful range of rocks, behind them; and his ears were deafened by the thundering of water, as it rolled, and roared, and raged among the dreadful caverns it had worn, and fiercely tried to undermine the earth.
The Spirit didn’t linger here but told Scrooge to hold onto his robe and moved on over the moor, heading where? To the sea? To Scrooge's horror, when he looked back, he saw the last of the land, a terrifying range of rocks behind them; and his ears were filled with the deafening roar of water as it crashed, surged, and raged through the dreadful caves it had carved out, fiercely trying to erode the earth.
Built upon a dismal reef of sunken rocks, some league or so from shore, on which the waters chafed and dashed, the wild year through, there stood a solitary lighthouse. Great heaps of seaweed clung to its base, and storm-birds—born of the wind one might suppose, as seaweed of the water—rose and fell about it, like the waves they skimmed.
Built on a grim reef of submerged rocks, about a league from the shore, where the water constantly crashed and surged, stood a lonely lighthouse. Huge piles of seaweed stuck to its foundation, and stormy birds—seemingly born from the wind, just as seaweed is from the water—rose and fell around it, like the waves they glided over.
But even here, two men who watched the light had made a fire, that through the loophole in the thick stone wall shed out a ray of brightness on the awful sea. Joining their horny hands over the rough table at which they sat, they wished each other Merry Christmas in their can of grog; and one of them: the elder, too, with his face all damaged and scarred with hard weather, as the figure-head of an old ship might be: struck up a sturdy song that was like a Gale in itself.
But even here, two men who were watching the light had built a fire that shone through the gap in the thick stone wall, casting a beam of brightness onto the dreadful sea. Joining their rough hands over the rugged table they sat at, they wished each other Merry Christmas with their mugs of grog; and one of them, the older one, whose face was all beat up and scarred from harsh weather, like the figurehead of an old ship, started to sing a hearty song that felt like a storm all on its own.
Again the Ghost sped on, above the black and heaving sea—on, on—until, being far away, as he told Scrooge, from any shore, they lighted on a ship. They stood beside the helmsman at the wheel, the lookout in the bow, the officers who had the watch; dark, ghostly figures in their several stations; but every man among them hummed a Christmas tune, or had a Christmas thought, or spoke below his breath to his companion of some bygone Christmas Day, with homeward hopes belonging to it. And every man on board, waking or sleeping, good or bad, had had a kinder word for another on that day than on any day in the year; and had shared to some extent in its festivities; and had remembered those he cared for at a distance, and had known that they delighted to remember him.
Again, the Ghost moved swiftly above the dark, rolling sea—on, on—until, as he told Scrooge, they were far from any shore and came upon a ship. They stood beside the helmsman at the wheel, the lookout in the bow, and the officers on watch; all dark, ghostly figures at their posts; yet every man among them hummed a Christmas tune, had a Christmas thought, or quietly spoke to his companion about some past Christmas Day, filled with hopes of going home. And every person on board, whether awake or asleep, good or bad, had shared kinder words with one another that day than on any other day of the year; they had all taken part in its celebrations, remembered those they cared about from afar, and knew that those folks were happy to remember them, too.
It was a great surprise to Scrooge, while listening to the moaning of the wind, and thinking what a solemn thing it was to move on through the lonely darkness over an unknown abyss, whose depths were secrets as profound as Death: it was a great surprise to Scrooge, while thus engaged, to hear a hearty laugh. It was a much greater surprise to Scrooge to recognize it as his own nephew's and to find himself in a bright, dry, gleaming room, with the Spirit standing smiling by his side, and looking at that same nephew with approving affability.
It was a big surprise to Scrooge, while listening to the wind howling and thinking about how serious it was to move through the dark, empty space over an unknown void, whose depths were as deep as Death's mysteries: it was a big surprise for Scrooge, while he was lost in thought, to hear a hearty laugh. It was an even greater surprise for Scrooge to realize it was his own nephew's laugh and to find himself in a bright, dry, shining room, with the Spirit standing beside him, smiling and looking at that same nephew with friendly approval.
"Ha, ha!" laughed Scrooge's nephew. "Ha, ha, ha!"
"Ha, ha!" laughed Scrooge's nephew. "Ha, ha, ha!"
If you should happen, by any unlikely chance, to know a man more blest in a laugh than Scrooge's nephew, all I can say is, I should like to know him too. Introduce him to me, and I'll cultivate his acquaintance.
If you happen to know a guy who laughs better than Scrooge's nephew, all I can say is, I’d really like to meet him too. Introduce me to him, and I’ll make sure to connect with him.
It is a fair, even-handed, noble adjustment of things, that while there is infection in disease and sorrow, there is nothing in the world so irresistibly contagious as laughter and good-humor. When Scrooge's nephew laughed in this way: holding his sides, rolling his head, and twisting his face into the most extravagant contortions: Scrooge's niece, by marriage, laughed as heartily as he. And their assembled friends being not a bit behindhand, roared out, lustily.
It’s a fair and balanced thing that while there’s sickness in illness and sadness, there’s nothing in the world as irresistibly contagious as laughter and good cheer. When Scrooge's nephew laughed like this—holding his sides, rolling his head, and twisting his face into the most ridiculous shapes—Scrooge's niece, by marriage, laughed just as hard as he did. And their gathered friends didn’t hold back either; they burst out laughing loudly.
"Ha, ha! Ha, ha, ha, ha!"
"Ha, ha! Ha, ha, ha, ha!"
"He said that Christmas was a humbug, as I live!" cried Scrooge's nephew. "He believed it too!"
"He said that Christmas was a scam, I swear!" exclaimed Scrooge's nephew. "He really believed it too!"
"More shame for him, Fred!" said Scrooge's niece, indignantly. Bless those women; they never do anything by halves. They are always in earnest.
"More shame on him, Fred!" Scrooge's niece said, indignantly. Bless those women; they never do anything halfway. They always mean it.
She was very pretty; exceedingly pretty. With a dimpled, surprised-looking, capital face; a ripe little mouth, that seemed made to be kissed—as no doubt it was; all kinds of good little dots about her chin, that melted into one another when she laughed; and the sunniest pair of eyes you ever saw in any little creature's head. Altogether she was what you would have called provoking, you know; but satisfactory, too. Oh, perfectly satisfactory!
She was really pretty; incredibly pretty. With a dimpled, surprised-looking, beautiful face; a cute little mouth that seemed made for kissing—as it likely was; all sorts of adorable little spots on her chin that blended together when she laughed; and the brightest pair of eyes you’d ever seen in any little creature's face. Overall, she had that kind of charm that could be seen as annoying, you know; but also completely satisfying. Oh, absolutely satisfying!
"He's a comical old fellow," said Scrooge's nephew, "that's the truth; and not so pleasant as he might be. However, his offenses carry their own punishment, and I have nothing to say against him."
"He's a funny old guy," said Scrooge's nephew, "that's the truth; and not as nice as he could be. However, his faults come with their own consequences, and I have nothing bad to say about him."
"I'm sure he is very rich, Fred," hinted Scrooge's niece. "At least you always tell me so."
"I'm sure he’s really wealthy, Fred," suggested Scrooge's niece. "At least that's what you always tell me."
"What of that, my dear!" said Scrooge's nephew. "His wealth is of no use to him. He don't do any good with it. He don't make himself comfortable with it. He hasn't the satisfaction of thinking—ha, ha, ha!—that he is ever going to benefit Us with it."
"What about that, my dear!" said Scrooge's nephew. "His money is useless to him. He doesn’t do any good with it. He doesn’t make himself comfortable with it. He doesn’t even have the satisfaction of thinking—ha, ha, ha!—that he’s ever going to help us with it."
"I have no patience with him," observed Scrooge's niece. Scrooge's niece's sisters, and all the other ladies, expressed the same opinion.
"I have no patience for him," said Scrooge's niece. Scrooge's niece's sisters, along with all the other women, shared the same view.
"Oh, I have!" said Scrooge's nephew. "I am sorry for him; I couldn't be angry with him if I tried. Who suffers by his ill whims? Himself, always. Here, he takes it into his head to dislike us, and he won't come and dine with us. What's the consequence? He don't lose much of a dinner."
"Oh, I have!" said Scrooge's nephew. "I feel sorry for him; I couldn't be mad at him even if I wanted to. Who gets hurt by his bad mood? Only himself, always. Here he decides to dislike us, and he won't come to dinner with us. What happens? He's not missing out on much of a meal."
"Indeed, I think he loses a very good dinner," interrupted Scrooge's niece. Everybody else said the same, and they must be allowed to have been competent judges, because they had just had dinner; and, with the dessert upon the table, were clustered round the fire, by lamplight.
"Honestly, I think he's missing out on a really great dinner," interrupted Scrooge's niece. Everyone else agreed, and they should be considered qualified to judge because they had just finished dinner; and with dessert still on the table, they were gathered around the fire, under the lamp light.
"Well! I'm very glad to hear it," said Scrooge's nephew, "because I haven't any great faith in these young housekeepers. What do you say, Topper?"
"Well! I'm really glad to hear that," said Scrooge's nephew, "because I don't have much faith in these young housekeepers. What do you think, Topper?"
Topper had clearly got his eye upon one of Scrooge's niece's sisters, for he answered that a bachelor was a wretched outcast, who had no right to express an opinion on the subject. Whereat Scrooge's niece's sister—the plump one with the lace tucker: not the one with the roses—blushed.
Topper clearly had his eye on one of Scrooge's niece's sisters, since he said that a bachelor was a miserable outcast who shouldn’t share an opinion on the matter. At that, Scrooge's niece's sister—the plump one with the lace tucker, not the one with the roses—blushed.
"Do go on, Fred," said Scrooge's niece, clapping her hands. "He never finishes what he begins to say. He is such a ridiculous fellow!"
"Go ahead, Fred," said Scrooge's niece, clapping her hands. "He never finishes what he starts to say. He's such a silly guy!"
Scrooge's nephew reveled in another laugh, and as it was impossible to keep the infection off; though the plump sister tried hard to do it with aromatic vinegar; his example was unanimously followed.
Scrooge's nephew burst into another laugh, and since it was impossible to avoid catching it, even though the chubby sister tried hard to get rid of it with some aromatic vinegar, everyone else joined in.
"I was only going to say," said Scrooge's nephew, "that the consequence of his taking a dislike to us, and not making merry with us, is, as I think, that he loses some pleasant moments, which could do him no harm. I am sure he loses pleasanter companions than he can find in his own thoughts, either in his moldy old office, or his dusty chambers. I mean to give him the same chance every year, whether he likes it or not, for I pity him. He may rail at Christmas till he dies, but he can't help thinking better of it—I defy him—if he finds me going there, in good temper, year after year, and saying, 'Uncle Scrooge, how are you?' If it only puts him in the vein to leave his poor clerk fifty pounds, that's something; and I think I shook him yesterday."
"I just wanted to say," said Scrooge's nephew, "that because he dislikes us and refuses to celebrate with us, he’s missing out on some enjoyable moments that wouldn’t hurt him at all. I'm sure he has better company to be found than his own thoughts, whether he’s stuck in his gloomy old office or his dusty rooms. I plan to give him the same opportunity every year, like it or not, because I feel sorry for him. He can complain about Christmas until he dies, but he can’t stop himself from thinking better of it—I challenge him—when he sees me showing up, in good spirits, year after year, and saying, 'Uncle Scrooge, how are you?' If it even gets him to leave his poor clerk fifty pounds, that’s something; and I think I made a little progress with him yesterday."
It was their turn to laugh now at the notion of his shaking Scrooge. But being thoroughly good-natured, and not much caring what they laughed at, so that they laughed at any rate, he encouraged them in their merriment, and passed the bottle joyously.
It was their turn to laugh now at the idea of him being scared of Scrooge. But since they were genuinely good-hearted and didn’t really mind what they laughed at, as long as they were laughing, he joined in their fun and happily passed the bottle around.
After tea, they had some music. For they were a musical family, and knew what they were about, when they sang a Glee or Catch, I can assure you: especially Topper, who could growl away in the bass like a good one, and never swell the large veins in his forehead, or get red in the face over it. Scrooge's niece played well upon the harp; and played among other tunes a simple little air (a mere nothing: you might learn to whistle it in two minutes), which had been familiar to the child who fetched Scrooge from the boarding-school, as he had been reminded by the Ghost of Christmas Past. When this strain of music sounded, all the things that Ghost had shown him came upon his mind; he softened more and more; and thought that if he could have listened to it often, years ago, he might have cultivated the kindnesses of life for his own happiness with his own hands, without resorting to the sexton's spade that buried Jacob Marley.
After tea, they enjoyed some music. They were a musical family and knew what they were doing when they sang a Glee or Catch, I assure you: especially Topper, who could growl away in the bass like a champ and never swell the large veins in his forehead or turn red in the face while doing it. Scrooge's niece played the harp beautifully and included among her tunes a simple little melody (nothing special: you could learn to whistle it in two minutes), which had been familiar to the child who brought Scrooge from the boarding school, as he had been reminded by the Ghost of Christmas Past. When this music played, all the things the Ghost had shown him came to mind; he softened more and more, and thought that if he could have listened to it often, years ago, he might have nurtured the kindnesses of life for his own happiness with his own hands, instead of relying on the sexton's spade that buried Jacob Marley.
But they didn't devote the whole evening to music. After a while they played at forfeits; for it is good to be children sometimes, and never better than at Christmas, when its mighty Founder was a child himself. Stop! There was first a game at blind-man's buff. Of course there was. And I no more believe Topper was really blind than I believe he had eyes in his boots. My opinion is, that it was a done thing between him and Scrooge's nephew: and that the Ghost of Christmas Present knew it. The way he went after that plump sister in the lace tucker was an outrage on the credulity of human nature. Knocking down the fire-irons, tumbling over the chairs, bumping up against the piano, smothering himself among the curtains, wherever she went, there went he. He always knew where the plump sister was. He wouldn't catch anybody else. If you had fallen up against him, as some of them did, and stood there; he would have made a feint of endeavoring to seize you, which would have been an affront to your understanding; and would instantly have sidled off in the direction of the plump sister. She often cried out that it wasn't fair; and it really was not. But when at last he caught her; when, in spite of all her silken rustlings, and her rapid flutterings past him, he got her into a corner whence there was no escape; then his conduct was the most execrable. For his pretending not to know her; his pretending that it was necessary to touch her head-dress, and further to assure himself of her identity by pressing a certain ring upon her finger, and a certain chain about her neck; was vile, monstrous! No doubt she told him her opinion of it, when, another blind man being in office, they were so very confidential together, behind the curtains.
But they didn't spend the whole evening just playing music. After a while, they played some party games because it's good to be kids sometimes, and there's no better time than Christmas when its great Founder was a child too. Wait! They first played blind man's buff, of course. And I don’t believe Topper was actually blind any more than I believe he had eyes in his boots. I think it was a setup between him and Scrooge's nephew, and the Ghost of Christmas Present knew it. The way he chased after that chubby sister in the lace collar was an insult to anyone's common sense. He was knocking over the fire tools, tripping over chairs, bumping into the piano, and getting tangled in the curtains—wherever she went, he was right there. He always seemed to know where the chubby sister was. He wouldn't catch anyone else. If you happened to bump into him like some of them did and just stood there, he would pretend to try to catch you, which would be an insult to your intelligence, and then he would quickly slide off toward the chubby sister. She often protested that it wasn’t fair, and it really wasn’t. But when he finally did catch her—despite all her fancy rustling and quick flittering by—when he cornered her where there was no escape, his behavior was absolutely disgusting. His pretending not to recognize her, acting like he had to touch her headpiece to “confirm” who she was by pressing a ring on her finger and a chain around her neck was vile, monstrous! No doubt she let him know how she felt about it when, with another blind man in charge, they got very close together behind the curtains.
Scrooge's niece was not one of the blind-man's buff party, but was made comfortable with a large chair and a footstool, in a snug corner, where the Ghost and Scrooge were close behind her. But she joined in the forfeits, and loved her love to admiration with all the letters of the alphabet. Likewise at the game of How, When, and Where, she was very great, and to the secret joy of Scrooge's nephew, beat her sisters hollow: though they were sharp girls too, as Topper could have told you. There might have been twenty people there, young and old, but they all played, and so did Scrooge; for, wholly forgetting in the interest he had in what was going on, that his voice made no sound in their ears, he sometimes came out with his guess quite loud, and very often guessed quite right, too; for the sharpest needle, best Whitechapel, warranted not to cut in the eye, was not sharper than Scrooge: blunt as he took it in his head to be.
Scrooge's niece wasn't part of the blind-man's buff game but was cozy in a big chair with a footstool in a snug corner, where the Ghost and Scrooge were right behind her. However, she did join in the forfeits and adored her love to the point of obsession with all the letters of the alphabet. In the game of How, When, and Where, she shined and, much to Scrooge's nephew's secret delight, totally outperformed her sisters: though they were sharp girls too, as Topper would have told you. There might have been twenty people there, young and old, but they all played, and so did Scrooge; forgetting in the excitement of the moment that his voice made no sound to them, he sometimes shouted out his guesses quite loudly and often guessed correctly as well; because the sharpest needle, the best Whitechapel, guaranteed not to prick the eye, wasn't sharper than Scrooge, no matter how dull he seemed to think he was.
The Ghost was greatly pleased to find him in this mood, and looked upon him with such favor that he begged like a boy to be allowed to stay until the guests departed. But this the Spirit said could not be done.
The Ghost was really happy to see him in this mood and looked at him with such kindness that he pleaded like a child to be allowed to stay until the guests left. But the Spirit said that couldn't happen.
"Here is a new game," said Scrooge. "One half-hour, Spirit, only one!"
"Here's a new game," Scrooge said. "Just half an hour, Spirit, only half an hour!"
It is a Game called Yes and No, where Scrooge's nephew had to think of something, and the rest must find out what; he only answering to their questions yes or no, as the case was. The brisk fire of questioning to which he was exposed elicited from him that he was thinking of an animal, a live animal, rather a disagreeable animal, a savage animal, an animal that growled and grunted sometimes, and talked sometimes, and lived in London, and walked about the streets, and wasn't made a show of, and wasn't led by anybody, and didn't live in a menagerie, and was never killed in a market, and was not a horse, or an ass, or a cow, or a bull, or a tiger, or a dog, or a pig, or a cat, or a bear. At every fresh question that was put to him, this nephew burst into a fresh roar of laughter; and was so inexpressibly tickled that he was obliged to get up off the sofa and stamp. At last the plump sister, falling into a similar state, cried out:
It's a game called Yes or No, where Scrooge's nephew had to think of something, and everyone else had to guess what it was; he only responded to their questions with yes or no, depending on the situation. The rapid-fire questioning he faced revealed that he was thinking of an animal, a live animal, rather an unpleasant one, a wild animal, an animal that sometimes growled and grunted, sometimes talked, lived in London, wandered the streets, wasn’t on display, wasn’t led by anyone, didn’t live in a zoo, wasn’t sold in a market, and wasn’t a horse, donkey, cow, bull, tiger, dog, pig, cat, or bear. With every new question thrown at him, his nephew erupted into more laughter; he was so amused that he had to get off the sofa and stamp his feet. Finally, the plump sister, getting equally thrilled, shouted:
"I have found it out! I know what it is, Fred! I know what it is!"
"I've figured it out! I know what it is, Fred! I know what it is!"
"What is it?" cried Fred.
"What's going on?" cried Fred.
"It's your Uncle Scro-o-o-o-oge!"
"It's your Uncle Scrooge!"
Which it certainly was. Admiration was the universal sentiment, though some objected that the reply to "Is it a bear?" ought to have been "Yes"; inasmuch as an answer in the negative was sufficient to have diverted their thoughts from Mr. Scrooge, supposing they had ever had any tendency that way.
Which it definitely was. Everyone admired it, although some argued that the response to "Is it a bear?" should have been "Yes," since a "No" could have shifted their focus away from Mr. Scrooge, assuming they had ever been inclined to think about him.
"He has given us plenty of merriment, I am sure," said Fred, "and it would be ungrateful not to drink his health. Here is a glass of mulled wine ready to our hand at the moment; and I say, 'Uncle Scrooge!'"
"He has brought us a lot of joy, I’m sure," said Fred, "and it would be ungrateful not to raise a toast to him. Here’s a glass of mulled wine ready for us right now; and I say, 'Uncle Scrooge!'"
"Well! Uncle Scrooge!" they cried.
"Wow! Uncle Scrooge!" they yelled.
"A Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to the old man, whatever he is!" said Scrooge's nephew. "He wouldn't take it from me, but may he have it, nevertheless. Uncle Scrooge!"
"A Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to the old man, whatever he is!" said Scrooge's nephew. "He wouldn't accept it from me, but I hope he gets it anyway. Uncle Scrooge!"
Uncle Scrooge had imperceptibly become so gay and light of heart that he would have pledged the unconscious company in return, and thanked them in an inaudible speech, if the Ghost had given him time. But the whole scene passed off in the breath of the last word spoken by his nephew; and he and the Spirit were again upon their travels.
Uncle Scrooge had quietly become so cheerful and lighthearted that he would have toasted the unaware guests in return and thanked them with a silent speech, if the Ghost had given him a chance. But everything happened in the moment after his nephew's last word, and he and the Spirit were on their way again.
Much they saw, and far they went, and many homes they visited, but always with a happy end. The Spirit stood beside sick beds, and they were cheerful; on foreign lands, and they were close at home; by struggling men, and they were patient in their greater hope; by poverty, and it was rich. In almshouse, hospital, and jail, in misery's every refuge, where vain man in his little brief authority had not made fast the door, and barred the Spirit out, he left his blessing, and taught Scrooge his precepts.
They saw so much, traveled far, and visited many homes, but it always ended happily. The Spirit stood beside sickbeds, bringing cheer; in foreign lands, it felt like home; next to struggling people, it offered comfort in their greater hope; amidst poverty, it found wealth. In shelters, hospitals, and jails, in every refuge of suffering, wherever foolish man in his short-lived authority hadn't locked the door and kept the Spirit out, he left his blessing and taught Scrooge his lessons.
It was a long night, if it were only a night; but Scrooge had his doubts of this, because the Christmas Holidays appeared to be condensed into the space of time they passed together. It was strange, too, that while Scrooge remained unaltered in his outward form, the Ghost grew older, clearly older. Scrooge had observed this change, but never spoke of it until they left a children's Twelfth Night party, when, looking at the Spirit as they stood together in an open place, he noticed that its hair was gray.
It was a long night, if it could be called just a night; but Scrooge wasn't so sure about that, since the Christmas Holidays seemed to be packed into the time they spent together. It was also odd that while Scrooge looked the same on the outside, the Ghost was clearly getting older. Scrooge noticed this change but never mentioned it until they left a children's Twelfth Night party. As they stood together in an open area, he saw that the Spirit's hair had turned gray.
"Are spirits' lives so short?" asked Scrooge.
"Are spirits' lives really that short?" Scrooge asked.
"My life upon this globe is very brief," replied the Ghost. "It ends to-night."
"My time on this earth is very short," replied the Ghost. "It ends tonight."
"To-night!" cried Scrooge.
"Tonight!" cried Scrooge.
"To-night at midnight. Hark! The time is drawing near."
"Tonight at midnight. Listen! The time is approaching."
The chimes were ringing the three-quarters past eleven at that moment.
The chimes were ringing a quarter after eleven at that moment.
"Forgive me if I am not justified in what I ask," said Scrooge, looking intently at the Spirit's robe, "but I see something strange, and not belonging to yourself, protruding from your skirts. Is it a foot or a claw!"
"Forgive me if I'm not right in what I'm asking," said Scrooge, staring hard at the Spirit's robe, "but I see something unusual, and not part of you, sticking out from your hem. Is it a foot or a claw?"
"It might be a claw, for the flesh there is upon it," was the Spirit's sorrowful reply. "Look here."
"It could be a claw, because there's flesh on it," the Spirit replied sadly. "Look here."
From the foldings of its robe it brought two children; wretched, abject, frightful, hideous, miserable. They knelt down at its feet, and clung upon the outside of its garment.
From the folds of its robe, it brought out two children; miserable, pitiful, terrifying, ugly, and sad. They knelt at its feet and held onto the edge of its garment.
"Oh, Man! look here. Look, look, down here!" exclaimed the Ghost.
"Oh, man! Look here. Look, look, down here!" exclaimed the Ghost.
They were a boy and girl. Yellow, meagre, ragged, scowling, wolfish; but, prostrate, too, in their humility. Where graceful youth should have filled their features out, and touched them with its freshest tints, a stale and shriveled hand, like that of age, had pinched, and twisted them, and pulled them into shreds. Where angels might have sat enthroned, devils lurked, and glared out menacing. No change, no degradation, no perversion of humanity, in any grade, through all the mysteries of wonderful creation, has monsters half so horrible and dread.
They were a boy and a girl. Thin, ragged, scowling, and wolf-like; yet, also lying down in their humility. Where youthful grace should have filled their faces and added vibrant colors, a worn and twisted hand, like that of old age, had pinched and warped them, tearing them apart. Instead of angels sitting proudly, devils lurked and glared with menace. No transformation, degradation, or corruption of humanity, at any level, through all the wonders of creation, has produced monsters as horrifying and dreadful.
Scrooge started back, appalled. Having them shown to him in this way, he tried to say they were fine children, but the words choked themselves rather than be parties to a lie of such enormous magnitude.
Scrooge recoiled, shocked. Seeing them presented like this, he attempted to say they were great kids, but the words caught in his throat rather than be part of a lie so massive.
"Spirit! are they yours?" Scrooge could say no more.
"Spirit! Are they yours?" Scrooge couldn't say anything else.
"They are Man's," said the Spirit, looking down upon them. "And they cling to me, appealing from their fathers. This boy is Ignorance. This girl is Want. Beware them both, and all of their degree, but most of all beware this boy, for on his brow I see that written which is Doom, unless the writing be erased. Deny it!" cried the Spirit, stretching out its hand toward the City. "Slander those who tell it ye! Admit it for your factious purposes, and make it worse! And bide the end!"
"They are humanity's," said the Spirit, looking down at them. "And they cling to me, pleading for help from their parents. This boy represents Ignorance. This girl represents Want. Be cautious of them both and everyone like them, but most of all, beware of this boy, because on his forehead I see the writing of Doom, unless it is erased. Deny it!" shouted the Spirit, reaching out its hand toward the City. "Discredit those who tell you the truth! Use it for your own selfish reasons and make it worse! And wait for the consequences!"
"Have they no refuge or resource?" cried Scrooge.
"Do they have no shelter or support?" shouted Scrooge.
"Are there no prisons?" said the Spirit, turning on him for the last time with his own words. "Are there no workhouses?"
"Are there no prisons?" said the Spirit, turning to him one last time with his own words. "Are there no workhouses?"
The bell struck twelve.
The clock chimed twelve.
Scrooge looked about him for the Ghost, and saw it not. As the last stroke ceased to vibrate, he remembered the prediction of old Jacob Marley, and lifting up his eyes, beheld a solemn Phantom, draped and hooded, coming, like a mist along the ground, toward him.
Scrooge searched for the Ghost but couldn't see it. As the final chime faded away, he recalled the warning from old Jacob Marley, and when he raised his eyes, he saw a serious Phantom, cloaked and hooded, approaching him like a fog creeping along the ground.
STAVE FOUR
STAVE FOUR
The Last of the Spirits
The Last of the Spirits
The phantom slowly, gravely, silently approached. When it came near him, Scrooge bent down upon his knee; for in the very air through which this Spirit moved it seemed to scatter gloom and mystery.
The ghost slowly, seriously, and quietly approached. When it got close to him, Scrooge knelt down; for in the very air that this Spirit moved through, it seemed to spread darkness and mystery.
It was shrouded in a deep black garment, which concealed its head, its face, its form, and left nothing of it visible save one outstretched hand. But for this it would have been difficult to detach its figure from the night, and separate it from the darkness by which it was surrounded.
It was covered in a deep black cloak that hid its head, face, and body, leaving only one outstretched hand visible. Without that hand, it would have been hard to distinguish its shape from the night and separate it from the surrounding darkness.
He felt that it was tall and stately when it came beside him, and that its mysterious presence filled him with a solemn dread. He knew no more, for the Spirit neither spoke nor moved.
He felt it was tall and impressive when it came beside him, and its mysterious presence filled him with a serious fear. He didn't know more, as the Spirit neither spoke nor moved.
"I am in the presence of the Ghost of Christmas Yet To Come?" said Scrooge.
"I’m in front of the Ghost of Christmas Yet to Come?" said Scrooge.
The Spirit answered not, but pointed downward with its hand.
The Spirit didn’t respond, but pointed down with its hand.
"You are about to show me shadows of the things that have not happened, but will happen in the time before us," Scrooge pursued. "Is that so, Spirit?"
"You’re about to show me shadows of things that haven’t happened yet but will happen in the time ahead of us," Scrooge continued. "Is that right, Spirit?"
The upper portion of the garment was contracted for an instant in its folds, as if the Spirit had inclined its head. That was the only answer he received.
The upper part of the garment tightened momentarily in its folds, as if the Spirit had bowed its head. That was the only response he got.
Although well used to ghostly company by this time, Scrooge feared the silent shape so much that his legs trembled beneath him, and he found that he could hardly stand when he prepared to follow it. The Spirit paused a moment, as if observing his condition, and giving him time to recover.
Although he was used to ghostly company by now, Scrooge was so scared of the silent figure that his legs shook beneath him, and he could barely stand when he got ready to follow it. The Spirit stopped for a moment, as if taking note of how he felt and giving him a moment to regain his composure.
But Scrooge was all the worse for this. It thrilled him with a vague uncertain horror, to know that behind the dusky shroud there were ghostly eyes intently fixed upon him, while he, though he stretched his own to the utmost, could see nothing but a spectral hand and one great heap of black.
But Scrooge felt even worse because of this. It sent a shiver down his spine, knowing that behind the dark veil, there were ghostly eyes focused on him, while he, despite straining to see as much as he could, could only make out a spectral hand and a huge mass of darkness.
"Ghost of the Future!" he exclaimed, "I fear you more than any Spectre I have seen. But, as I know your purpose is to do me good, and as I hope to live to be another man from what I was, I am prepared to bear you company, and do it with a thankful heart. Will you not speak to me?"
"Ghost of the Future!" he shouted, "I’m more afraid of you than any other spirit I’ve encountered. But since I know you’re here to help me, and I hope to become a better person than I was, I’m ready to join you and do it with a grateful heart. Won't you talk to me?"
It gave him no reply. The hand was pointed straight before them.
It didn't respond. The hand was pointing straight ahead.
"Lead on!" said Scrooge. "Lead on! The night is waning fast, and it is precious time to me, I know. Lead on, Spirit!"
"Go ahead!" said Scrooge. "Go ahead! The night is fading quickly, and I know this time is valuable to me. Lead on, Spirit!"
The Phantom moved away as it had come toward him. Scrooge followed in the shadow of its dress, which bore him up, he thought, and carried him along.
The Phantom drifted away just like it had approached him. Scrooge trailed in the shadow of its cloak, feeling like it was lifting him and guiding him along.
They scarcely seemed to enter the City; for the City rather seemed to spring up about them, and encompass them of its own act. But there they were, in the heart of it; on 'Change, among the merchants; who hurried up and down, and chinked the money in their pockets, and conversed in groups, and looked at their watches, and trifled thoughtfully with their great gold seals; and so forth, as Scrooge had seen them often.
They barely seemed to enter the City; instead, the City appeared to rise up around them and surround them on its own. But there they were, right in the middle of it; on 'Change, among the merchants; who rushed around, jingling the coins in their pockets, chatting in groups, checking their watches, and absentmindedly playing with their big gold seals; just like Scrooge had seen them many times before.
The Spirit stopped beside one little knot of business men. Observing that the hand was pointed to them, Scrooge advanced to listen to their talk.
The Spirit stood next to a small group of businesspeople. Noticing that the hand was directed at them, Scrooge moved closer to hear what they were saying.
"No," said a great fat man with a monstrous chin, "I don't know much about it, either way. I only know he's dead."
"No," said a big guy with a huge chin, "I don’t really know much about it, honestly. I just know he’s dead."
"When did he die?" inquired another.
"When did he pass away?" asked another.
"Last night, I believe."
"Last night, I think."
"Why, what was the matter with him?" asked a third, taking a vast quantity of snuff out of a very large snuffbox. "I thought he'd never die."
"Why, what was wrong with him?" asked a third person, taking a huge amount of snuff out of a very large snuffbox. "I thought he would never die."
"God knows," said the first, with a yawn.
"God knows," said the first, yawning.
"What has he done with his money?" asked a red-faced gentleman with a pendulous excrescence on the end of his nose, that shook like the gills of a turkey-cock.
"What has he done with his money?" asked a flushed gentleman with a drooping growth on the tip of his nose that shook like a turkey's wattle.
"I haven't heard," said the man with the large chin, yawning again. "Left it to his Company, perhaps. He hasn't left it to me. That's all I know."
"I haven't heard," said the man with the large chin, yawning again. "Maybe he left it to his Company. He definitely hasn’t left it to me. That’s all I know."
This pleasantry was received with a general laugh.
This comment was met with a big laugh from everyone.
"It's likely to be a very cheap funeral," said the same speaker; "for upon my life I don't know of anybody to go to it. Suppose we make up a party and volunteer?"
"It's probably going to be a really inexpensive funeral," said the same person; "because honestly, I don't know anyone who would go to it. How about we gather a group and volunteer?"
"I don't mind going if a lunch is provided," observed the gentleman with the excrescence on his nose. "But I must be fed, if I make one."
"I don't mind going if there's lunch," said the man with the growth on his nose. "But I have to be fed if I do."
Another laugh.
Another laugh.
"Well, I am the most disinterested among you, after all," said the first speaker, "for I never wear black gloves, and I never eat lunch. But I'll offer to go, if anybody else will. When I come to think of it, I'm not at all sure that I wasn't his most particular friend; for we used to stop and speak whenever we met. By-by!"
"Well, I’m the least interested person here," said the first speaker, "because I never wear black gloves, and I never eat lunch. But I’ll volunteer to go if anyone else will. Now that I think about it, I’m not so sure that I wasn’t his closest friend; we used to stop and chat whenever we ran into each other. Bye!"
Speakers and listeners strolled away, and mixed with other groups. Scrooge knew the men, and looked toward the Spirit for an explanation.
Speakers and listeners walked away and mingled with other groups. Scrooge recognized the men and glanced at the Spirit for an explanation.
The Phantom glided on into a street. Its finger pointed to two persons meeting. Scrooge listened again, thinking that the explanation might lie here.
The Phantom floated into a street. Its finger indicated two people meeting. Scrooge listened closely again, believing that the explanation might be found here.
He knew these men, also, perfectly. They were men of business: very wealthy, and of great importance. He had made a point always of standing well in their esteem: in a business point of view, that is; strictly in a business point of view.
He knew these men well, too. They were businesspeople: very wealthy and quite influential. He had always made it a priority to maintain a good reputation with them; strictly from a business perspective, that is.
"How are you?" said one.
"How's it going?" said one.
"How are you?" returned the other.
"How are you?" the other person replied.
"Well!" said the first. "Old Scratch has got his own at last, hey?"
"Well!" said the first. "Old Scratch finally got what's coming to him, huh?"
"So I am told," returned the second. "Cold, isn't it?"
"So I've heard," replied the second. "It's pretty cold, isn't it?"
"Seasonable for Christmas time. You're not a skater, I suppose?"
"Perfect for Christmas time. You're not a skater, I guess?"
"No. No. Something else to think of. Good-morning!"
"No. No. There's something else to consider. Good morning!"
Not another word. That was their meeting, their conversation, and their parting.
Not another word. That was their meeting, their conversation, and their goodbye.
Scrooge was at first inclined to be surprised that the Spirit should attach importance to conversations apparently so trivial; but feeling assured that they must have some hidden purpose, he set himself to consider what it was likely to be. They could scarcely be supposed to have any bearing on the death of Jacob, his old partner, for that was Past, and this Ghost's province was the Future. Nor could he think of any one immediately connected with himself to whom he could apply them. But nothing doubting that to whomsoever they applied they had some latent moral for his own improvement, he resolved to treasure up every word he heard, and everything he saw; and especially to observe the shadow of himself when it appeared. For he had an expectation that the conduct of his future self would give him the clue he missed, and would render the solution of these riddles easy.
Scrooge was initially surprised that the Spirit would find significance in conversations that seemed so unimportant; but knowing there had to be some deeper meaning, he focused on figuring out what it might be. It was hard to believe they had anything to do with the death of Jacob, his old partner, since that was in the past and this Ghost's domain was the future. He couldn’t think of anyone connected to him that the conversations could relate to. However, confident that whoever they applied to had some hidden lesson for his own growth, he decided to remember every word he heard and everything he saw; particularly watching for his own shadow when it appeared. He believed that the way his future self acted would provide him the insight he needed and would make solving these puzzles easier.
He looked about in that very place for his own image; but another man stood in his accustomed corner, and though the clock pointed to his usual time of day for being there, he saw no likeness of himself among the multitudes that poured in through the Porch. It gave him little surprise, however; for he had been revolving in his mind a change of life, and thought and hoped he saw his new-born resolutions carried out in this.
He looked around in that very spot for his own reflection; but another man was in his usual corner, and even though the clock showed it was his regular time to be there, he didn’t see any sign of himself among the crowd that flowed in through the Porch. It didn’t surprise him much, though; he had been contemplating a change in his life and thought he saw his new resolutions coming to life in this moment.
Quiet and dark beside him stood the Phantom, with its outstretched hand. When he roused himself from his thoughtful quest, he fancied from the turn of the hand, and its situation in reference to himself, that the Unseen Eyes were looking at him keenly. It made him shudder, and feel very cold.
Quiet and dark beside him stood the Phantom, with its outstretched hand. When he shook off his deep thoughts, he imagined that the way the hand turned and its position relative to him meant that the Unseen Eyes were staring at him intensely. It sent a chill through him and made him feel very cold.
They left the busy scene, and went into an obscure part of the town, where Scrooge had never penetrated before, although he recognized its situation, and its bad repute. The ways were foul and narrow; the shops and houses wretched; the people half-naked, drunken, slipshod, ugly. Alleys and archways, like so many cesspools, disgorged their offenses of smell, and dirt, and life, upon the straggling streets; and the whole quarter reeked with crime; with filth, and misery.
They left the bustling area and entered a hidden part of the town that Scrooge had never explored before, although he was aware of its location and its poor reputation. The streets were dirty and cramped; the shops and houses were in terrible condition; the people were half-clothed, drunk, disheveled, and unattractive. Alleys and archways spilled out their stench, filth, and chaos onto the uneven streets; the entire neighborhood was saturated with crime, dirt, and suffering.
Far in this den of infamous resort, there was a low-browed, beetling shop, below a pent-house roof, where iron, old rags, bottles, bones, and greasy offal, were bought. Upon the floor within, were piled up heaps of rusty keys, nails, chains, hinges, files, scales, weights, and refuse iron of all kinds. Secrets that few would like to scrutinize were bred and hidden in mountains of unseemly rags, masses of corrupted fat, and sepulchres of bones. Sitting in among the wares he dealt in, by a charcoal-stove, made of old bricks, was a gray-haired rascal, nearly seventy years of age; who had screened himself from the cold air without by a frowsy curtaining of miscellaneous tatters hung upon a line; and smoked his pipe in all the luxury of calm retirement.
Deep in this notorious place, there was a shabby shop under a low roof, where they bought iron, old rags, bottles, bones, and greasy scraps. Inside, the floor was cluttered with piles of rusty keys, nails, chains, hinges, files, scales, weights, and all kinds of scrap metal. Secrets that few would want to uncover were hidden among the unseemly rags, heaps of rancid fat, and graves of bones. Sitting among the goods he sold, by a charcoal stove made of old bricks, was a gray-haired scoundrel, nearly seventy years old; he had shielded himself from the cold outside with a ragged curtain made of random pieces of cloth hung on a line, and he smoked his pipe, enjoying the tranquility of his retirement.
Scrooge and the Phantom came into the presence of this man, just as a woman with a heavy bundle slunk into the shop. But she had scarcely entered, when another woman, similarly laden, came in too; and she was closely followed by a man in faded black, who was no less startled by the sight of them than they had been upon the recognition of each other. After a short period of blank astonishment, in which the old man with the pipe had joined them, they all three burst into a laugh.
Scrooge and the Phantom walked into the presence of this man, just as a woman with a heavy bundle sneaked into the shop. But she had barely made it inside when another woman, also carrying a heavy load, came in too; she was closely followed by a man in worn black, who looked just as surprised to see them as they were to see each other. After a brief moment of stunned silence, during which the old man with the pipe joined them, all three of them broke into laughter.
"Let the charwoman alone to be the first!" cried she who had entered first. "Let the laundress alone to be the second; and let the undertaker's man alone to be the third. Look here, old Joe, here's a chance! If we haven't all three met here without meaning it!"
"Let the cleaning lady be the first!" shouted the woman who came in first. "Let the laundress be the second; and let the undertaker's assistant be the third. Look here, old Joe, what a coincidence! It's like we all ended up here together without planning it!"
"You couldn't have met in a better place," said old Joe, removing his pipe from his mouth. "Come into the parlor. You were made free of it long ago, you know; and the other two an't strangers. Stop till I shut the door of the shop. Ah! How it skreeks! There an't such a rusty bit of metal in the place as its own hinges, I believe; and I'm sure there's no such old bones here as mine. Ha, ha! We're all suitable to our calling, we're well matched. Come into the parlor. Come into the parlor."
"You couldn't have met in a better place," said old Joe, taking his pipe out of his mouth. "Come into the parlor. You’ve been welcome here for a long time, you know; and the other two aren’t strangers. Hold on while I close the shop door. Ah! How it squeaks! There’s no rustier piece of metal in the whole place than those hinges, I think; and I'm pretty sure there aren't any older bones around here than mine. Ha, ha! We’re all suited to our roles, we match well. Come into the parlor. Come into the parlor."
The parlor was the space behind the screen of rags. The old man raked the fire together with an old stair-rod, and having trimmed his smoky lamp (for it was night) with the stem of his pipe, put it in his mouth again.
The parlor was the area behind the ragged curtain. The old man gathered the fire with an old stair rod, and after adjusting his smoky lamp (since it was night) with the stem of his pipe, he put it back in his mouth.
While he did this, the woman who had already spoken threw her bundle on the floor, and sat down in a flaunting manner on a stool; crossing her elbows on her knees, and looking with a bold defiance at the other two.
While he did this, the woman who had already spoken tossed her bundle on the floor and sat down flauntingly on a stool; crossing her elbows on her knees and looking with bold defiance at the other two.
"What odds then! What odds, Mrs. Dilber?" said the woman. "Every person has a right to take care of themselves. He always did!"
"What does it matter then! What does it matter, Mrs. Dilber?" said the woman. "Everyone has the right to look after themselves. He always did!"
"That's true, indeed!" said the laundress. "No man more so."
"That's true, for sure!" said the laundress. "No guy more so."
"Why, then, don't stand staring as if you was afraid, woman; who's the wiser? We're not going to pick holes in each other's coats, I suppose?"
"Why then, don't just stand there staring like you're scared, woman; who knows better? We're not going to nitpick each other's flaws, are we?"
"No, indeed!" said Mrs. Dilber and the man together. "We should hope not."
"No, definitely!" said Mrs. Dilber and the man together. "We should hope not."
"Very well, then!" cried the woman. "That's enough. Who's the worse for the loss of a few things like these? Not a dead man, I suppose."
"Alright, then!" the woman exclaimed. "That's enough. Who's really affected by losing a few things like this? Not a dead person, I guess."
"No, indeed," said Mrs. Dilber, laughing.
"No way," said Mrs. Dilber, laughing.
"If he wanted to keep 'em after he was dead, a wicked old screw," pursued the woman, "why wasn't he natural in his lifetime? If he had been, he'd have had somebody to look after him when he was struck with Death, instead of lying gasping out his last there, alone by himself."
"If he wanted to keep them after he was dead, what a nasty old miser," the woman continued, "why wasn't he decent during his lifetime? If he had been, he would have had someone to take care of him when Death came knocking, instead of lying there gasping out his last breaths all alone."
"It's the truest word that ever was spoke," said Mrs. Dilber. "It's a judgment on him."
"It's the truest thing that's ever been said," Mrs. Dilber said. "It's karma for him."
"I wish it was a little heavier one," replied the woman; "and it should have been, you may depend upon it, if I could have laid my hands on anything else. Open that bundle, old Joe, and let me know the value of it. Speak out plain. I'm not afraid to be the first, nor afraid for them to see it. We knew pretty well that we were helping ourselves, before we met here, I believe. It's no sin. Open the bundle, Joe."
"I wish it was a bit heavier," the woman said. "And it should have been, believe me, if I could have found anything else. Open that bundle, old Joe, and tell me how much it's worth. Just be straightforward. I'm not afraid to be the first, and I'm not worried about them seeing it. We pretty much knew we were looking out for ourselves before we got together here, I think. It's not a crime. Open the bundle, Joe."
But the gallantry of her friends would not allow of this; and the man in faded black, mounting the breach first, produced his plunder. It was not extensive. A seal or two, a pencil-case, a pair of sleeve-buttons, and a brooch of no great value, were all. They were severally examined and appraised by old Joe, who chalked the sums he was disposed to give for each upon the wall, and added them up into a total when he found there was nothing more to come.
But her friends' bravery wouldn't let that happen; the man in worn black went over the top first and showed off what he had found. It wasn’t much—just a couple of seals, a pencil case, a pair of cufflinks, and a not-so-valuable brooch. Each item was carefully inspected and valued by old Joe, who wrote down the amounts he was willing to pay for each on the wall and totaled them up when he realized there was nothing else to find.
"That's your account," said Joe, "and I wouldn't give another sixpence if I was to be boiled for not doing it. Who's next?"
"That's your account," Joe said, "and I wouldn't give another penny even if it meant I’d be punished for not doing it. Who's up next?"
Mrs. Dilber was next. Sheets and towels, a little wearing apparel, two old-fashioned silver teaspoons, a pair of sugar-tongs, and a few boots. Her account was stated on the wall in the same manner.
Mrs. Dilber was next. Sheets and towels, some clothes, two old-fashioned silver teaspoons, a pair of sugar tongs, and a few boots. Her account was written on the wall in the same way.
"I always give too much to ladies. It's a weakness of mine, and that's the way I ruin myself," said old Joe. "That's your account. If you asked me for another penny, and made it an open question, I'd repent of being so liberal and knock off half-a-crown."
"I always give too much to women. It's one of my flaws, and it ends up ruining me," said old Joe. "That's your perspective. If you asked me for another penny and made it a point of discussion, I'd regret being so generous and cut it down by half a crown."
"And now undo my bundle, Joe," said the first woman.
"And now unpack my bundle, Joe," said the first woman.
Joe went down on his knees for the greater convenience of opening it, and having unfastened a great many knots, dragged out a large and heavy roll of some dark stuff.
Joe got down on his knees to make it easier to open, and after undoing a bunch of knots, pulled out a large, heavy roll of some dark material.
"What do you call this?" said Joe. "Bed-curtains!"
"What do you call this?" Joe asked. "Bed curtains!"
"Ah!" returned the woman, laughing and leaning forward on her crossed arms. "Bed-curtains!"
"Ah!" the woman replied, laughing and leaning forward on her crossed arms. "Bed curtains!"
"You don't mean to say you took 'em down, rings and all, with him lying there?" said Joe.
"You can't be serious that you took them off, rings and all, with him lying there?" said Joe.
"Yes, I do," replied the woman. "Why not?"
"Yes, I do," the woman replied. "Why not?"
"You were born to make your fortune," said Joe, "and you'll certainly do it."
"You were meant to make your fortune," Joe said, "and you definitely will."
"I certainly shan't hold my hand when I can get anything in it by reaching it out, for the sake of such a man as He was, I promise you, Joe," returned the woman coolly. "Don't drop that oil upon the blankets, now."
"I definitely won't hesitate to reach out for something I can grab, just for someone like him, I promise you, Joe," the woman replied calmly. "And don't let that oil spill on the blankets, okay?"
"His blankets?" asked Joe.
"His blankets?" Joe asked.
"Whose else's do you think?" replied the woman. "He isn't likely to take cold without 'em, I dare say."
"Whose else do you think?" replied the woman. "He probably won't catch a cold without them, I bet."
"I hope he didn't die of anything catching, eh?" said old Joe, stopping in his work, and looking up.
"I hope he didn't die from anything contagious, right?" said old Joe, pausing his work and looking up.
"Don't you be afraid of that," returned the woman. "I an't so fond of his company that I'd loiter about him for such things, if he did. Ah! you may look through that shirt till your eyes ache; but you won't find a hole in it, nor a threadbare place. It's the best he had, and a fine one too. They'd have wasted it, if it hadn't been for me."
"Don't be scared of that," the woman replied. "I'm not so keen on his company that I'd hang around him for such things, even if he did. Ah! You can search through that shirt until your eyes hurt, but you won't find a hole in it or a worn spot. It's the best he had, and a nice one too. They would have wasted it if it weren't for me."
"What do you call wasting of it?" asked old Joe.
"What do you call wasting it?" asked old Joe.
"Putting it on him to be buried in, to be sure," replied the woman with a laugh. "Somebody was fool enough to do it, but I took it off again. If calico an't good enough for such a purpose, it isn't good enough for anything. It's quite as becoming to the body. He can't look uglier than he did in that one."
"Definitely putting that on him to be buried in," the woman said with a laugh. "Someone was foolish enough to do it, but I took it off again. If calico isn't good enough for that purpose, then it isn't good for anything. It's just as nice looking on the body. He can't look worse than he did in that one."
Scrooge listened to this dialogue in horror. As they sat grouped about their spoil, in the scanty light afforded by the old man's lamp, he viewed them with a detestation and disgust which could hardly have been greater, though they had been obscene demons, marketing the corpse itself.
Scrooge listened to this conversation in dread. As they huddled around their loot, in the dim light from the old man's lamp, he looked at them with a loathing and disgust that couldn't have been much worse, even if they had been vile demons trading in the corpse itself.
"Ha, ha!" laughed the same woman, when old Joe, producing a flannel bag with money in it, told out their several gains upon the ground. "This is the end of it, you see! He frightened every one away from him when he was alive, to profit us when he was dead! Ha, ha, ha!"
"Ha, ha!" laughed the same woman when old Joe took out a flannel bag full of money and laid their winnings on the ground. "This is the outcome, you see! He scared everyone off while he was alive so we could benefit from him now that he’s gone! Ha, ha, ha!"
"Spirit!" said Scrooge, shuddering from head to foot. "I see, I see. The case of this unhappy man might be my own. My life tends that way, now. Merciful Heaven, what is this!"
"Spirit!" Scrooge exclaimed, trembling all over. "I understand now. This poor man's situation could easily be mine. My life is heading in that direction. Merciful Heaven, what is happening!"
He recoiled in terror, for the scene had changed, and now he almost touched a bed: a bare, uncurtained bed: on which, beneath a ragged sheet, there lay a something covered up, which, though it was dumb, announced itself in awful language.
He pulled back in fear because the scene had shifted, and now he was almost next to a bed: a plain, uncurtained bed, where, under a tattered sheet, there was something hidden, which, although it was silent, communicated itself in a frightening way.
The room was very dark, too dark to be observed with any accuracy, though Scrooge glanced round it in obedience to a secret impulse, anxious to know what kind of room it was. A pale light, rising in the outer air, fell straight upon the bed; and on it, plundered and bereft, unwatched, unwept, uncared for, was the body of this man.
The room was really dark, too dark to see clearly, but Scrooge looked around it out of a strange urge, eager to understand what kind of room it was. A faint light from outside shone directly on the bed; and there, stripped of everything, alone, without anyone to mourn or care for him, lay the body of this man.
Scrooge glanced toward the Phantom. Its steady hand was pointed to the head. The cover was so carelessly adjusted that the slightest raising of it, the motion of a finger upon Scrooge's part, would have disclosed the face. He thought of it, felt how easy it would be to do, and longed to do it; but had no more power to withdraw the veil than to dismiss the spectre at his side.
Scrooge looked over at the Phantom. Its steady hand was pointing at the head. The cover was so poorly positioned that even the slightest lift or a simple motion of Scrooge's finger would reveal the face. He thought about it, realized how easy it would be to do, and wanted to do it; but he had no more power to move the veil than to send the ghost beside him away.
Oh, cold, cold, rigid, dreadful Death, set up thine altar here, and dress it with such terrors as thou hast at thy command: for this is thy dominion! But of the loved, revered, and honored head, thou canst not turn one hair to thy dread purposes, or make one feature odious. It is not that the hand is heavy and will fall down when released; it is not that the heart and pulse are still; but that the hand was open, generous, and true; the heart brave, warm, and tender; and the pulse a man's. Strike, Shadow, strike! And see his good deeds springing from the wound, to sow the world with life immortal!
Oh, cold, cold, rigid, dreadful Death, set up your altar here, and decorate it with the terrors you have at your disposal: for this is your domain! But of the loved, revered, and honored head, you cannot harm a single hair or make one feature repulsive. It's not that the hand is heavy and will fall when let go; it's not that the heart and pulse are still; but that the hand was open, generous, and true; the heart brave, warm, and tender; and the pulse a man's. Strike, Shadow, strike! And watch his good deeds springing from the wound, to spread life everlasting throughout the world!
No voice pronounced these words in Scrooge's ears, and yet he heard them when he looked upon the bed. He thought, if this man could be raised up now, what would be his foremost thoughts? Avarice, hard dealing, griping cares? They have brought him to a rich end, truly!
No one said these words in Scrooge's ears, and yet he heard them when he looked at the bed. He wondered, if this man could be brought back now, what would be his first thoughts? Greed, harsh dealings, relentless worries? They've really led him to a wealthy end!
He lay in the dark, empty house, with not a man, a woman, or a child to say that he was kind to me in this or that, and for the memory of one kind word I will be kind to him. A cat was tearing at the door, and there was a sound of gnawing rats beneath the hearthstone. What they wanted in the room of death, and why they were so restless and disturbed, Scrooge did not dare to think.
He lay in the dark, empty house, with no man, woman, or child to acknowledge that he was kind to me in one way or another, and for the memory of one kind word, I will be kind to him. A cat was scratching at the door, and there was the sound of rats gnawing beneath the hearthstone. What they wanted in the room of death and why they were so restless and disturbed, Scrooge did not dare to consider.
"Spirit!" he said, "this is a fearful place. In leaving it, I shall not leave its lesson, trust me. Let us go!"
"Spirit!" he said, "this is a scary place. When I leave it, I won’t forget its lesson, believe me. Let’s go!"
Still the Ghost pointed with an unmoved finger to the head.
Still, the Ghost pointed with a steady finger at the head.
"I understand you," Scrooge returned, "and I would do it, if I could. But I have not the power, Spirit. I have not the power."
"I get you," Scrooge replied, "and I would do it if I could. But I don't have the ability, Spirit. I don't have the ability."
Again it seemed to look upon him.
Again it seemed to gaze at him.
"If there is any person in the town who feels emotion caused by this man's death," said Scrooge, quite agonized, "show that person to me, Spirit, I beseech you!"
"If there's anyone in town who feels anything about this man's death," said Scrooge, clearly in pain, "please show that person to me, Spirit, I beg you!"
The Phantom spread its dark robe before him for a moment, like a wing; and withdrawing it, revealed a room by daylight, where a mother and her children were.
The Phantom spread its dark cloak in front of him for a moment, like a wing; and as it pulled back, it showed a room illuminated by daylight, where a mother and her children were.
She was expecting some one, and with anxious eagerness; for she walked up and down the room; started at every sound; looked out from the window; glanced at the clock; tried, but in vain, to work with her needle; and could hardly bear the voices of the children in their play.
She was waiting for someone, feeling anxious and eager; she paced back and forth in the room, flinching at every sound, looking out the window, checking the clock, and trying unsuccessfully to stitch with her needle. She could hardly tolerate the noises of the children playing.
At length the long-expected knock was heard. She hurried to the door, and met her husband; a man whose face was careworn and depressed, though he was young. There was a remarkable expression in it now; a kind of serious delight of which he felt ashamed, and which he struggled to repress.
At last, they heard the knock they had been waiting for. She rushed to the door and met her husband, a man whose face looked worn and downcast, even though he was young. There was a striking expression on his face now; a mix of serious joy that he felt embarrassed about and tried to hide.
He sat down to the dinner that had been hoarding for him by the fire; and when she asked him faintly what news (which was not until after a long silence), he appeared embarrassed how to answer.
He sat down to the dinner that had been kept warm for him by the fire; and when she asked him softly what the news was (which wasn't until after a long silence), he seemed unsure about how to respond.
"Is it good," she said, "or bad?"—to help him.
"Is it good," she asked, "or bad?"—to help him.
"Bad," he answered.
"Not good," he answered.
"We are quite ruined?"
"Are we totally ruined?"
"No. There is hope yet, Caroline."
"No. There's still hope, Caroline."
"If he relents," she said, amazed, "there is! Nothing is past hope, if such a miracle has happened."
"If he gives in," she said, astonished, "then there is! Nothing is beyond hope if such a miracle has occurred."
"He is past relenting," said her husband. "He is dead."
"He won't change his mind," said her husband. "He's dead."
She was a mild and patient creature if her face spoke truth; but she was thankful in her soul to hear it, and she said so, with clasped hands. She prayed forgiveness the next moment, and was sorry; but the first was the emotion of her heart.
She was a gentle and patient person if her expression was honest; but she felt grateful in her heart to hear it, and she expressed that, with her hands together. She asked for forgiveness right after and felt regret; but the first reaction was from her heart.
"What the half-drunken woman whom I told you of last night, said to me, when I tried to see him and obtain a week's delay; and what I thought was a mere excuse to avoid me; turns out to have been quite true. He was not only very ill, but dying, then."
"What the half-drunk woman I mentioned last night said to me when I tried to see him and get a week's extension—and what I thought was just an excuse to dodge me—turned out to be completely true. He wasn't just very sick; he was dying at that time."
"To whom will our debt be transferred?"
"Who will take over our debt?"
"I don't know. But before that time we shall be ready with the money; and even though we were not, it would be bad fortune indeed to find so merciless a creditor in his successor. We may sleep to-night with light hearts, Caroline!"
"I don't know. But by that time, we’ll have the money ready; and even if we don’t, it would be incredibly unfortunate to encounter such a relentless creditor in his successor. We can go to bed tonight with light hearts, Caroline!"
Yes. Soften it as they would, their hearts were lighter. The children's faces, hushed, and clustered round to hear what they so little understood, were brighter; and it was a happier house for this man's death! The only emotion that the Ghost could show him, caused by the event, was one of pleasure.
Yes. They softened it, and their hearts felt lighter. The children's faces, quiet and gathered around to listen to what they barely understood, were brighter; and it was a happier home because of this man's death! The only emotion the Ghost could show him in response to the event was one of pleasure.
"Let me see some tenderness connected with a death," said Scrooge; "or that dark chamber, Spirit, which we left just now, will be forever present to me."
"Show me some compassion related to a death," said Scrooge; "or that dark room, Spirit, that we just left, will haunt me forever."
The Ghost conducted him through several streets familiar to his feet; and as they went along, Scrooge looked here and there to find himself, but nowhere was he to be seen. They entered poor Bob Cratchit's house; the dwelling he had visited before; and found the mother and the children seated round the fire.
The Ghost led him through several streets he recognized; as they walked, Scrooge glanced around, trying to spot himself, but he was nowhere to be found. They entered poor Bob Cratchit's home, the place he had visited before, and discovered the mother and the children gathered around the fire.
Quiet. Very quiet. The noisy little Cratchits were as still as statues in one corner, and sat looking up at Peter, who had a book before him. The mother and her daughters were engaged in sewing. But surely they were very quiet!
Quiet. Very quiet. The noisy little Cratchits were as still as statues in one corner, sitting and looking up at Peter, who had a book in front of him. The mother and her daughters were busy sewing. But they were definitely very quiet!
"'And He took a child, and set him in the midst of them.'"
"'And He brought a child and placed him right in front of them.'"
Where had Scrooge heard those words? He had not dreamed them. The boy must have read them out, as he and the Spirit crossed the threshold. Why did he not go on? The mother laid her work upon the table, and put her hand up to her face.
Where had Scrooge heard those words? He hadn't dreamed them. The boy must have read them aloud as he and the Spirit crossed the threshold. Why didn't he continue? The mother set her work down on the table and covered her face with her hand.
"The color hurts my eyes," she said.
"The color hurts my eyes," she said.
The color? Ah, poor Tiny Tim!
The color? Ah, poor Tiny Tim!
"They're better now again," said Cratchit's wife. "It makes them weak by candlelight; and I wouldn't show weak eyes to your father when he comes home, for the world. It must be near his time."
"They're better now again," said Cratchit's wife. "It makes them weak by candlelight, and I wouldn't want to show weak eyes to your father when he gets home, not for anything. It must be getting close to his time."
"Past it rather," Peter answered, shutting up his book. "But I think he's walked a little slower than he used, these few last evenings, mother."
"Just past it," Peter replied, closing his book. "But I think he’s been walking a bit slower than he used to these last few evenings, Mom."
They were very quiet again. At last she said, and in a steady cheerful voice, that only faltered once:
They were really quiet again. Finally, she spoke in a steady, cheerful voice that only wavered once:
"I have known him walk with—I have known him walk with Tiny Tim upon his shoulder, very fast indeed."
"I’ve seen him walk with—I've seen him walk with Tiny Tim on his shoulder, really fast."
"And so have I," cried Peter. "Often."
"And so have I," shouted Peter. "Many times."
"And so have I," exclaimed another. So had all.
"And so have I," another person exclaimed. So did everyone else.
"But he was very light to carry," she resumed, intent upon her work, "and his father loved him so, that it was no trouble—no trouble. And there is your father at the door!"
"But he was super easy to carry," she continued, focused on her work, "and his dad loved him so much that it was no hassle—no hassle. And there’s your dad at the door!"
She hurried out to meet him; and little Bob in his comforter—he had need of it, poor fellow—came in. His tea was ready for him on the hob, and they all tried who should help him to it most. Then the two young Cratchits got upon his knees and laid, each child a little cheek, against his face, as if they said, "Don't mind it, father. Don't be grieved!"
She rushed out to meet him, and little Bob, bundled up in his warm coat—he really needed it, poor guy—came inside. His tea was waiting for him on the stove, and everyone tried to help him serve it. Then the two young Cratchits climbed onto his knees and each pressed a little cheek against his face, as if to say, "It's okay, Dad. Don't be sad!"
Bob was very cheerful with them, and spoke pleasantly to all the family. He looked at the work upon the table, and praised the industry and speed of Mrs. Cratchit and the girls. They would be done long before Sunday he said.
Bob was really cheerful with them and spoke kindly to the whole family. He looked at the work on the table and praised Mrs. Cratchit and the girls for their hard work and speed. He said they would be finished long before Sunday.
"Sunday? You went to-day, then, Robert?" said his wife.
"Sunday? So you went today, Robert?" said his wife.
"Yes, my dear," returned Bob. "I wish you could have gone. It would have done you good to see how green a place it is. But you'll see it often. I promised him that I would walk there on a Sunday. My little, little child!" cried Bob. "My little child!"
"Yeah, my dear," Bob replied. "I wish you could have gone. It would have really benefited you to see how lush it is. But you’ll see it often. I told him I'd walk there on a Sunday. My little, little child!" Bob exclaimed. "My little child!"
He broke down all at once. He couldn't help it. If he could have helped it, he and his child would have been further apart perhaps than they were.
He fell apart all at once. He couldn't help it. If he could have controlled it, he and his child might have been more distant than they were.
He left the room, and went upstairs into the room above, which was lighted cheerfully, and hung with Christmas. There was a chair set close beside the child, and there were signs of some one having been there, lately. Poor Bob sat down in it, and when he had thought a little and composed himself, he kissed the little face. He was reconciled to what had happened, and went down again quite happy.
He left the room and went upstairs to the room above, which was brightly lit and decorated for Christmas. There was a chair positioned close to the child, and it looked like someone had been there recently. Poor Bob sat down in it, and after thinking for a bit and collecting himself, he kissed the little face. He had come to terms with what had happened and went back down feeling quite happy.
They drew about the fire, and talked; the girls and mother working still. Bob told them of the extraordinary kindness of Mr. Scrooge's nephew, whom he had scarcely seen but once, and who, meeting him in the street that day, and seeing that he looked a little—"just a little down you know," said Bob, inquired what had happened to distress him. "On which," said Bob, "for he is the pleasantest-spoken gentleman you ever heard, I told him. 'I am heartily sorry for it, Mr. Cratchit,' he said, 'and heartily sorry for your good wife.' By the by, how he ever knew that, I don't know."
They gathered around the fire and chatted, while the girls and mom kept working. Bob shared a story about the incredible kindness of Mr. Scrooge's nephew, whom he had only met once. Earlier that day, while walking down the street, the nephew noticed Bob looking a bit—"just a little down, you know," said Bob—and asked him what was wrong. "So," Bob continued, "since he’s the nicest guy you could ever meet, I told him. 'I’m really sorry to hear that, Mr. Cratchit,' he said, 'and I feel really sorry for your lovely wife.' By the way, I have no idea how he even knew about her."
"Knew what, my dear?"
"Knew what, babe?"
"Why, that you were a good wife," replied Bob.
"Why, you were a great wife," replied Bob.
"Everybody knows that!" said Peter.
"Everyone knows that!" said Peter.
"Very well observed, my boy!" cried Bob. "I hope they do. 'Heartily sorry,' he said, 'for your good wife. If I can be of service to you in any way,' he said, giving me his card, 'that's where I live. Pray come to me.' Now, it wasn't," cried Bob, "for the sake of anything he might be able to do for us, so much as for his kind way, that this was quite delightful. It really seemed as if he had known our Tiny Tim, and felt with us."
"Well said, my boy!" exclaimed Bob. "I hope they do. 'I'm truly sorry,' he said, 'for your wonderful wife. If I can help you in any way,' he said, handing me his card, 'that's where I live. Please feel free to visit me.' Now, it wasn't," Bob said, "because of anything he might be able to do for us, but rather his kind manner that made this so lovely. It truly felt like he knew our Tiny Tim and shared in our feelings."
"I'm sure he's a good soul!" said Mrs. Cratchit.
"I'm sure he's a good person!" said Mrs. Cratchit.
"You would be surer of it, my dear," returned Bob, "if you saw and spoke to him. I shouldn't be at all surprised, mark what I say, if he got Peter a better situation."
"You'd feel more certain about it, my dear," Bob replied, "if you saw and talked to him. I wouldn't be surprised at all, just so you know, if he helped Peter get a better job."
"Only hear that, Peter," said Mrs. Cratchit.
"Just listen to that, Peter," said Mrs. Cratchit.
"And then," cried one of the girls, "Peter will be keeping company with some one, and setting up for himself."
"And then," shouted one of the girls, "Peter will be dating someone and trying to make it on his own."
"Get along with you!" retorted Peter, grinning.
"Get lost!" Peter shot back, grinning.
"It's just as likely as not," said Bob, "one of these days; though there's plenty of time for that, my dear. But however and whenever we part from one another, I am sure we shall none of us forget poor Tiny Tim—shall we—or this first parting that there was among us?"
"It's just as likely as not," Bob said, "one of these days; though we've got plenty of time for that, my dear. But no matter how or when we part from each other, I'm sure none of us will forget poor Tiny Tim—will we—or this first goodbye among us?"
"Never, father!" cried they all.
"Never, Dad!" they all cried.
"And I know," said Bob, "I know, my dears, that when we recollect how patient and how mild he was; although he was a little, little child; we shall not quarrel easily among ourselves, and forget poor Tiny Tim in doing it."
"And I know," Bob said, "I know, my dear ones, that when we think about how patient and gentle he was, even though he was just a little child, we won’t argue easily with each other and forget poor Tiny Tim while doing so."
"No, never, father!" they all cried again.
"No, never, dad!" they all shouted again.
"I am very happy," said little Bob, "I am very happy!"
"I’m really happy," said little Bob, "I’m really happy!"
Mrs. Cratchit kissed him, his daughters kissed him, the two young Cratchits kissed him, and Peter and himself shook hands. Spirit of Tiny Tim, thy childish essence was from God!
Mrs. Cratchit kissed him, his daughters kissed him, the two young Cratchits kissed him, and Peter shook hands with him. Spirit of Tiny Tim, your youthful spirit was from God!
"Spectre," said Scrooge, "something informs me that our parting moment is at hand. I know it, but I know not how. Tell me what man that was whom we saw lying dead?"
"Spirit," said Scrooge, "I have a feeling that our time together is almost over. I sense it, but I’m not sure how. Please tell me who that man was that we saw lying dead?"
The Ghost of Christmas Yet To Come conveyed him, as before—though at a different time, he thought: indeed, there seemed no order in these latter visions, save that they were in the Future—into the resorts of business men, but showed him not himself. Indeed, the Spirit did not stay for anything, but went straight on, as to the end just now desired, until besought by Scrooge to tarry for a moment.
The Ghost of Christmas Yet to Come took him, as before—though it felt like a different moment, he thought: in fact, there seemed to be no order to these later visions, except that they were in the Future—into the places where businesspeople gathered, but didn't show him himself. The Spirit didn’t pause for anything, but went straight on, heading toward the end that Scrooge wanted to see, until Scrooge begged it to wait for a moment.
"This court," said Scrooge, "through which we hurry now, is where my place of occupation is, and has been for a length of time. I see the house. Let me behold what I shall be, in days to come!"
"This court," said Scrooge, "is where I work and have for a long time. I see the building. Let me see what I will become in the future!"
The Spirit stopped; the hand was pointed elsewhere.
The Spirit paused; the hand was directed in another direction.
"The house is yonder," Scrooge exclaimed. "Why do you point away?"
"The house is over there," Scrooge said. "Why are you pointing that way?"
The inexorable finger underwent no change.
The relentless finger showed no change.
Scrooge hastened to the window of his office, and looked in. It was an office still, but not his. The furniture was not the same, and the figure in the chair was not himself. The Phantom pointed as before.
Scrooge rushed to the window of his office and looked in. It was still an office, but not his. The furniture was different, and the person in the chair was not him. The Phantom pointed just like before.
He joined it once again, and wondering why and whither he had gone, accompanied it until they reached an iron gate. He paused to look round before entering.
He joined it once more, wondering why and where he had gone, and followed it until they reached an iron gate. He stopped to look around before entering.
A churchyard. Here, then, the wretched man whose name he had now to learn, lay underneath the ground. It was a worthy place. Walled in by houses; overrun by grass and weeds, the growth of vegetation's death, not life; choked up with too much burying; fat with repleted appetite. A worthy place!
A churchyard. Here, then, lay the unfortunate man whose name he now had to learn, buried beneath the ground. It was a fitting place. Surrounded by houses; overgrown with grass and weeds, the result of decay rather than life; filled up with too many burials; rich with a saturated hunger. A fitting place!
The Spirit stood among the graves, and pointed down to One. He advanced toward it trembling. The Phantom was exactly as it had been, but he dreaded that he saw new meaning in its solemn shape.
The Spirit stood among the graves and pointed to one. He approached it, shaking. The Phantom looked just as it always had, but he feared he saw a new significance in its serious form.
"Before I draw nearer to that stone to which you point," said Scrooge, "answer me one question. Are these the shadows of the things that Will be, or are they shadows of things that May be, only?"
"Before I get closer to that stone you're pointing at," said Scrooge, "answer me one question. Are these the shadows of what will happen, or are they just shadows of what could happen?"
Still the Ghost pointed downward to the grave by which it stood.
Still, the Ghost pointed down at the grave next to it.
"Men's courses will foreshadow certain ends, to which, if persevered in, they must lead," said Scrooge. "But if the courses be departed from, the ends will change. Say it is thus with what you show me!"
"Men's paths will indicate certain outcomes, which, if continued, they will inevitably reach," said Scrooge. "But if those paths are altered, the outcomes will change. Show me that this is true!"
The Spirit was immovable as ever.
The Spirit was just as unyielding as always.
Scrooge crept toward it, trembling as he went; and following the finger, read upon the stone of the neglected grave his own name, "Ebenezer Scrooge."
Scrooge quietly approached it, shaking as he moved; and following the pointing finger, he read on the stone of the forgotten grave his own name, "Ebenezer Scrooge."
"Am I that man who lay upon the bed?" he cried, upon his knees.
"Am I that man who is lying on the bed?" he shouted, on his knees.
The finger pointed from the grave to him, and back again.
The finger pointed from the grave at him, and then back again.
"No, Spirit! Oh, no, no!"
"No, Spirit! Oh no, no!"
The finger still was there.
The finger was still there.
"Spirit!" he cried, tight clutching at its robe, "hear me! I am not the man I was. I will not be the man I must have been but for this intercourse. Why show me this, if I am past all hope!"
"Spirit!" he shouted, gripping its robe tightly, "listen to me! I'm not the person I used to be. I won't become the person I would have been without this interaction. Why show me this if I've lost all hope?"
For the first time the hand appeared to shake.
For the first time, the hand seemed to tremble.
"Good Spirit," he pursued, as down upon the ground he fell before it: "Your nature intercedes for me, and pities me. Assure me that I yet may change these shadows you have shown me, by an altered life!"
"Good Spirit," he continued, as he fell to the ground before it, "Your nature speaks for me and feels for me. Please assure me that I can still change these shadows you've shown me by living differently!"
The kind hand trembled.
The gentle hand shook.
"I will honor Christmas in my heart, and try to keep it all the year. I will live in the Past, the Present, and the Future. The Spirits of all Three shall strive within me. I will not shut out the lessons that they teach. Oh, tell me I may sponge away the writing on this stone!"
"I'll keep the spirit of Christmas in my heart and try to hold onto it all year round. I'll embrace the Past, the Present, and the Future. The lessons from all Three will work within me. I won’t ignore what they have to teach. Oh, please tell me I can erase the writing on this stone!"
In his agony, he caught the spectral hand. It sought to free itself, but he was strong in his entreaty, and detained it. The Spirit, stronger yet, repulsed him.
In his pain, he grabbed the ghostly hand. It tried to pull away, but he was persistent and held onto it. The Spirit, even stronger, pushed him away.
Holding up his hand in one last prayer to have his fate reversed, he saw an alteration in the Phantom's hood and dress. It shrank, collapsed, and dwindled down into a bed-post.
Holding up his hand in one last prayer to change his fate, he noticed a change in the Phantom's hood and clothing. It shrank, collapsed, and turned into a bedpost.
STAVE FIVE
PART FIVE
The End of It
The End of It
Yes! and the bedpost was his own. The bed was his own, the room was his own. Best and happiest of all, the Time before him was his own, to make amends in!
Yes! and the bedpost was his. The bed was his, the room was his. Best and happiest of all, the time ahead was his to make things right!
"I will live in the Past, the Present, and the Future!" Scrooge repeated, as he scrambled out of bed. "The Spirits of all Three shall strive within me. Oh, Jacob Marley! Heaven, and the Christmas Time be praised for this! I say it on my knees, old Jacob, on my knees!"
"I will live in the Past, the Present, and the Future!" Scrooge repeated as he jumped out of bed. "The Spirits of all Three will work within me. Oh, Jacob Marley! Thank heaven and Christmas for this! I say it on my knees, old Jacob, on my knees!"
He was so fluttered and so glowing with his good intentions, that his broken voice would scarcely answer to his call. He had been sobbing violently in his conflict with the Spirit, and his face was wet with tears.
He was so flustered and so bright with his good intentions that his broken voice could barely respond to his call. He had been crying hard during his struggle with the Spirit, and his face was wet with tears.
"They are not torn down," cried Scrooge, folding one of his bed-curtains in his arms, "they are not torn down, rings and all. They are here: I am here: the shadows of the things that would have been may be dispelled. They will be. I know they will!"
"They're not destroyed," shouted Scrooge, holding one of his bed curtains in his arms. "They're not destroyed, rings and all. They're here: I'm here: the shadows of what could have been can be cleared away. They will be. I know they will!"
His hands were busy with his garments all this time: turning them inside out, putting them on upside down, tearing them, mislaying them, making them parties to every kind of extravagance.
His hands were busy with his clothes the whole time: turning them inside out, putting them on backwards, ripping them, losing them, and involving them in all sorts of wild antics.
"I don't know what to do!" cried Scrooge, laughing and crying in the same breath; and making a perfect Laocoön of himself with his stockings. "I am as light as a feather, I am as happy as an angel, I am as merry as a schoolboy. I am as giddy as a drunken man. A Merry Christmas to everybody! A Happy New Year to all the world. Hallo here! Whoop! Hallo!"
"I don't know what to do!" Scrooge shouted, laughing and crying at the same time, completely tangled up in his stockings. "I feel as light as a feather, as happy as an angel, and as cheerful as a schoolboy. I'm as dizzy as someone who's had too much to drink. Merry Christmas to everyone! Happy New Year to everyone out there! Hey! Woohoo! Hey!"
He had frisked into the sitting-room, and was now standing there: perfectly winded.
He had bounced into the living room and was now standing there: perfectly out of breath.
"There's the saucepan that the gruel was in!" cried Scrooge, starting off again, and frisking round the fireplace. "There's the door, by which the Ghost of Jacob Marley entered! There's the corner where the Ghost of Christmas Present sat! There's the window where I saw the wandering Spirits! It's all right, it's all true, it all happened. Ha, ha, ha!"
"There's the saucepan that held the gruel!" Scrooge exclaimed, jumping up again and running around the fireplace. "There's the door where the Ghost of Jacob Marley came in! There's the corner where the Ghost of Christmas Present sat! There's the window where I saw the wandering Spirits! It’s all real, it’s all true, it all happened. Ha, ha, ha!"
Really, for a man who had been out of practise for so many years, it was a splendid laugh, a most illustrious laugh. The father of a long, long line of brilliant laughs!
Really, for a guy who hadn't practiced in so many years, it was an amazing laugh, a truly impressive laugh. The start of a long, long line of brilliant laughs!
"I don't know what day of the month it is!" said Scrooge. "I don't know how long I've been among the Spirits. I don't know anything. I'm quite a baby. Never mind. I don't care. I'd rather be a baby. Hallo! Whoop! Hallo here!"
"I don't know what day it is!" said Scrooge. "I don't know how long I've been with the Spirits. I don't know anything. I'm really clueless. But whatever. I don't care. I'd rather be clueless. Hey! Woohoo! Hey everyone!"
He was checked in his transports by the churches ringing out the lustiest peals he had ever heard. Clash, clang, hammer, ding, dong, bell. Bell, dong, ding, hammer, clang, clash! Oh, glorious, glorious!
He was held back in his excitement by the churches ringing out the loudest bells he had ever heard. Clash, clang, hammer, ding, dong, bell. Bell, dong, ding, hammer, clang, clash! Oh, glorious, glorious!
Running to the window, he opened it, and put out his head. No fog, no mist; clear, bright, jovial, stirring, cold; cold, piping for the blood to dance to; golden sunlight; heavenly sky; sweet fresh air; merry bells. Oh, glorious. Glorious!
Running to the window, he opened it and stuck his head out. No fog, no mist; clear, bright, happy, invigorating, cold; cold, calling for the blood to dance; golden sunlight; beautiful sky; sweet fresh air; cheerful bells. Oh, glorious. Glorious!
"What's to-day?" cried Scrooge, calling downward to a boy in Sunday clothes, who perhaps had loitered in to look about him.
"What's today?" shouted Scrooge, calling down to a boy in nice clothes, who had probably hung around to see what was going on.
"Eh?" returned the boy, with all his might of wonder.
"Eh?" the boy replied, filled with amazement.
"What's to-day, my fine fellow?" said Scrooge.
"What's today, my good man?" said Scrooge.
"To-day!" replied the boy. "Why, CHRISTMAS DAY."
"Today!" replied the boy. "It's CHRISTMAS DAY."
"It's Christmas Day!" said Scrooge to himself. "I haven't missed it. The Spirits have done it all in one night. They can do anything they like. Of course they can. Of course they can. Hallo, my fine fellow!"
"It's Christmas Day!" Scrooge said to himself. "I didn't miss it. The Spirits made it happen in just one night. They can do anything they want. Of course they can. Of course they can. Hey there, my good man!"
"Hallo!" returned the boy.
"Hey!" returned the boy.
"Do you know the Poulterer's, in the next street but one, at the corner?" Scrooge inquired.
"Do you know the poultry store on the next street over, at the corner?" Scrooge asked.
"I should hope I did," replied the lad.
"I hope I did," replied the boy.
"An intelligent boy!" said Scrooge. "A remarkable boy! Do you know whether they've sold the prize turkey that was hanging up there? Not the little prize turkey: the big one?"
"An intelligent boy!" said Scrooge. "A remarkable boy! Do you know if they've sold the prize turkey that was hanging up there? Not the small prize turkey: the big one?"
"What, the one as big as me?" returned the boy.
"What, the one that's as big as me?" the boy replied.
"What a delightful boy!" said Scrooge. "It's a pleasure to talk to him. Yes, my buck!"
"What a wonderful boy!" said Scrooge. "It's great to talk to him. Yes, my champ!"
"It's hanging there now," replied the boy.
"It's hanging there now," the boy said.
"Is it?" said Scrooge. "Go and buy it."
"Is it?" Scrooge asked. "Go buy it."
"Walk-er!" exclaimed the boy.
"Walker!" exclaimed the boy.
"No, no," said Scrooge, "I am in earnest. Go and buy it, and tell 'em to bring it here, that I may give them the direction where to take it. Come back with the man, and I'll give you a shilling. Come back with him in less than five minutes, and I'll give you half-a-crown!"
"No, no," said Scrooge, "I’m serious. Go buy it and tell them to bring it here so I can give them the address for where to take it. Come back with the guy, and I'll give you a shilling. Come back with him in under five minutes, and I’ll give you half a crown!"
The boy was off like a shot. He must have had a steady hand at a trigger who could have got a shot off half so fast.
The boy took off like a rocket. He must have had a steady hand on a trigger to have gotten a shot off that quickly.
"I'll send it to Bob Cratchit's!" whispered Scrooge, rubbing his hands, and splitting with a laugh. "He shan't know who sends it. It's twice the size of Tiny Tim. Joe Miller never made such a joke as sending it to Bob's will be!"
"I'll send it to Bob Cratchit's!" whispered Scrooge, rubbing his hands and bursting into laughter. "He won't know who sent it. It's twice the size of Tiny Tim. Joe Miller never made a joke as good as this one will be!"
The hand in which he wrote the address was not a steady one, but write it he did, somehow, and went downstairs to open the street door, ready for the coming of the poulterer's man. As he stood there, waiting his arrival, the knocker caught his eye.
The hand he used to write the address wasn't steady, but he managed to get it done and went downstairs to open the front door, ready for the arrival of the poulterer's delivery guy. As he waited for him to arrive, the knocker caught his attention.
"I shall love it, as long as I live!" cried Scrooge, patting it with his hand. "I scarcely ever looked at it before. What an honest expression it has in its face! It's a wonderful knocker!—Here's the Turkey. Hallo! Whoop! How are you! Merry Christmas!"
"I'll love it for as long as I live!" shouted Scrooge, giving it a pat. "I hardly ever noticed it before. What an honest look it has! It’s an amazing knocker!—Here comes the turkey. Hey! Whoo! How are you! Merry Christmas!"
It was a Turkey! He could never have stood upon his legs, that bird. He would have snapped 'em short off in a minute, like sticks of sealing-wax.
It was a turkey! He could never have stood on his legs, that bird. He would have snapped them off in an instant, like pieces of sealing-wax.
"Why, it's impossible to carry that to Camden Town," said Scrooge. "You must have a cab."
"That's just impossible to bring to Camden Town," said Scrooge. "You need to get a cab."
The chuckle with which he said this, and the chuckle with which he paid for the turkey, and the chuckle with which he paid for the cab, and the chuckle with which he recompensed the boy, were only to be exceeded by the chuckle with which he sat down breathless in his chair again, and chuckled till he cried.
The laugh with which he said this, and the laugh with which he paid for the turkey, and the laugh with which he paid for the cab, and the laugh with which he tipped the boy, were only topped by the laugh with which he sat down, breathless, in his chair again, and laughed until he cried.
Shaving was not an easy task, for his hand continued to shake very much; and shaving requires attention, even when you don't dance while you are at it. But if he had cut the end of his nose off, he would have put a piece of sticking-plaster over it, and been quite satisfied.
Shaving wasn't easy, as his hand kept shaking a lot; and shaving needs focus, even if you're not dancing while doing it. But if he had accidentally sliced the tip of his nose off, he would have just put a band-aid on it and been perfectly fine.
He dressed himself "all in his best," and at last got out into the streets. The people were by this time pouring forth, as he had seen them with the Ghost of Christmas Present; and walking with his hands behind him, Scrooge regarded every one with a delighted smile. He looked so irresistibly pleasant, in a word, that three or four good-humored fellows said: "Good-morning, sir! A Merry Christmas to you!" And Scrooge said often afterward, that of all the blithe sounds he had ever heard, those were the blithest in his ears.
He dressed himself "in his best," and finally stepped out into the streets. The people were now flooding out, just like he had seen with the Ghost of Christmas Present; and walking with his hands behind him, Scrooge smiled at everyone with genuine delight. He looked so undeniably pleasant that three or four cheerful guys said, "Good morning, sir! A Merry Christmas to you!" And Scrooge often remarked afterward that of all the happy sounds he had ever heard, those were the happiest in his ears.
He had not gone far, when coming on toward him he beheld the portly gentleman who had walked into his counting-house the day before and said: "Scrooge and Marley's, I believe?" It sent a pang across his heart to think how this old gentleman would look upon him when they met; but he knew what path lay straight before him, and he took it.
He hadn’t gone far when he saw the hefty gentleman who had walked into his office the day before and said, “Scrooge and Marley’s, right?” It sent a pang through his heart to think about how this old gentleman would view him when they met, but he knew the path ahead of him and decided to follow it.
"My dear sir," said Scrooge, quickening his pace, and taking the old gentleman by both his hands. "How do you do? I hope you succeeded yesterday. It was very kind of you. A Merry Christmas to you, sir!"
"My dear sir," Scrooge said, picking up his pace and taking the old man by both hands. "How are you? I hope you had success yesterday. That was very kind of you. Merry Christmas to you, sir!"
"Mr. Scrooge?"
"Mr. Scrooge?"
"Yes," said Scrooge. "That is my name, and I fear it may not be pleasant to you. Allow me to ask your pardon. And will you have the goodness"—here Scrooge whispered in his ear.
"Yes," Scrooge said. "That's my name, and I know it might not be pleasant for you. Please allow me to apologize. And would you be so kind"—here Scrooge whispered in his ear.
"Lord bless me!" cried the gentleman, as if his breath were gone. "My dear Mr. Scrooge, are you serious?"
"Lord bless me!" exclaimed the gentleman, as if he couldn’t catch his breath. "My dear Mr. Scrooge, are you serious?"
"If you please," said Scrooge. "Not a farthing less. A great many back-payments are included in it, I assure you. Will you do me that favor?"
"If you don’t mind," Scrooge said. "Not a penny less. There are a lot of back-payments included in it, I promise you. Will you do me that favor?"
"My dear sir," said the other, shaking hands with him. "I don't know what to say to such munifi—"
"My dear sir," said the other, shaking hands with him. "I don't know what to say to such generosity—"
"Don't say anything, please," retorted Scrooge. "Come and see me. Will you come and see me?"
"Please don't say anything," Scrooge shot back. "Just come visit me. Will you come see me?"
"I will!" cried the old gentleman. And it was clear he meant to do it.
"I will!" shouted the old man. And it was obvious he intended to follow through.
"Thank'ee," said Scrooge. "I am much obliged to you. I thank you fifty times. Bless you!"
"Thanks," said Scrooge. "I really appreciate it. I thank you a ton. Bless you!"
He went to church, and walked about the streets, and watched the people hurrying to and fro, and patted children on the head, and questioned beggars, and looked down into the kitchens of houses, and up to the windows; and found that everything could yield him pleasure. He had never dreamed that any walk—that anything—could give him so much happiness. In the afternoon, he turned his steps toward his nephew's house.
He went to church, strolled through the streets, watched people rushing around, patted kids on the head, talked to beggars, looked into the kitchens of houses, and up at the windows; and he realized that everything could bring him joy. He had never imagined that any walk—or anything—could make him so happy. In the afternoon, he headed towards his nephew's house.
He passed the door a dozen times, before he had the courage to go up and knock. But he made a dash, and did it:
He walked past the door a dozen times before he finally mustered the courage to go up and knock. But then he made a quick move and did it:
"Is your master at home, my dear?" said Scrooge to the girl. Nice girl! Very.
"Is your boss home, my dear?" Scrooge asked the girl. Nice girl! Very.
"Yes, sir."
"Sure thing."
"Where is he, my love?" said Scrooge.
"Where is he, my love?" Scrooge asked.
"He's in the dining-room, sir, along with mistress. I'll show you upstairs, if you please."
"He's in the dining room, sir, with the lady. I'll show you upstairs, if you'd like."
"Thank'ee. He knows me," said Scrooge, with his hand already on the dining-room lock. "I'll go in here, my dear."
"Thanks. He knows me," said Scrooge, with his hand already on the dining-room lock. "I'll go in here, my dear."
He turned it gently, and sidled his face in, round the door. They were looking at the table (which was spread out in great array); for these young housekeepers are always nervous on such points, and like to see that everything is right.
He turned it carefully and leaned his face in around the door. They were looking at the table (which was set up in a big display); because young housekeepers are always anxious about these things and want to make sure that everything is perfect.
"Fred!" said Scrooge.
"Fred!" Scrooge called.
Dear heart alive, how his niece by marriage started! Scrooge had forgotten, for the moment, about her sitting in the corner with the footstool, or he wouldn't have done it, on any account.
Dear heart alive, how his niece by marriage jumped! Scrooge had temporarily forgotten about her sitting in the corner with the footstool, or he wouldn’t have done it for any reason.
"Why, bless my soul!" cried Fred, "who's that?"
"Wow, oh my gosh!" exclaimed Fred, "who's that?"
"It's I. Your uncle Scrooge. I have come to dinner. Will you let me in, Fred?"
"It's me. Your Uncle Scrooge. I've come for dinner. Will you let me in, Fred?"
Let him in! It is a mercy he didn't shake his arm off. He was at home in five minutes. Nothing could be heartier. His niece looked just the same. So did Topper when he came. So did the plump sister, when she came. So did every one when they came. Wonderful party, wonderful games, wonderful unanimity, won-der-ful happiness!
Let him in! It's a miracle he didn't shake his arm off. He was home in five minutes. Nothing could be warmer. His niece looked exactly the same. So did Topper when he arrived. So did the plump sister when she got there. So did everyone else when they showed up. Amazing party, amazing games, amazing togetherness, won-der-ful happiness!
But he was early at the office next morning. Oh, he was early there. If he could only be there first, and catch Bob Cratchit coming late! That was the thing he had set his heart upon.
But he was at the office early the next morning. Oh, he was really early. If only he could be there first and catch Bob Cratchit coming in late! That was what he had set his heart on.
And he did it; yes he did! The clock struck nine. No Bob. A quarter past. No Bob. He was full eighteen minutes and a half behind his time. Scrooge sat with his door wide open, that he might see him come into the Tank.
And he actually did it; yes, he did! The clock struck nine. No Bob. A quarter past. Still no Bob. He was a full eighteen and a half minutes late. Scrooge sat with his door wide open so he could see him come into the office.
His hat was off, before he opened the door; his comforter too. He was on his stool in a jiffy; driving away with his pen, as if he were trying to overtake nine o'clock.
His hat was off before he opened the door, along with his comforter. He was on his stool in no time, writing furiously with his pen, as if he were trying to beat nine o'clock.
"Hallo!" growled Scrooge, in his accustomed voice as near as he could feign it. "What do you mean by coming here at this time of day?"
"Hello!" growled Scrooge, in his usual voice as close as he could fake it. "What are you doing here at this time of day?"
"I am very sorry, sir," said Bob. "I am behind my time."
"I’m really sorry, sir," said Bob. "I’m running late."
"You are?" repeated Scrooge. "Yes. I think you are. Step this way, sir, if you please."
"You are?" Scrooge repeated. "Yes. I believe you are. Please step this way, sir."
"It's only once a year, sir," pleaded Bob, appearing from the Tank. "It shall not be repeated. I was making rather merry yesterday, sir."
"It's only once a year, sir," Bob pleaded, emerging from the Tank. "It won't happen again. I was having quite a good time yesterday, sir."
"Now, I'll tell you what, my friend," said Scrooge, "I am not going to stand this sort of thing any longer. And therefore," he continued, leaping from his stool, and giving Bob such a dig in the waistcoat that he staggered back into the Tank again: "and therefore I am about to raise your salary!"
"Listen, my friend," said Scrooge, "I can't put up with this anymore. So," he continued, jumping off his stool and giving Bob such a jab in the chest that he stumbled back into the Tank again, "because of that, I'm going to give you a raise!"
Bob trembled, and got a little nearer to the ruler. He had a momentary idea of knocking Scrooge down with it; holding him; and calling to the people in the court for help and a strait-waistcoat.
Bob trembled and edged a little closer to the ruler. He briefly thought about hitting Scrooge with it, holding him down, and calling for help and a straightjacket from the people in the courtroom.
"A Merry Christmas, Bob!" said Scrooge, with an earnestness that could not be mistaken, as he clapped him on the back. "A merrier Christmas, Bob, my good fellow, than I have given you for many a year! I'll raise your salary, and endeavor to assist your struggling family, and we will discuss your affairs this very afternoon, over a Christmas bowl of smoking bishop, Bob! Make up the fires, and buy another coal-scuttle before you dot another i, Bob Cratchit!"
"A Merry Christmas, Bob!" Scrooge said with a sincerity that was undeniable as he patted him on the back. "A happier Christmas, Bob, my friend, than I've given you in many years! I’ll raise your salary and try to help your struggling family, and we’ll talk about your situation this very afternoon over a Christmas bowl of hot punch, Bob! Get the fires going, and buy another bucket of coal before you dot another i, Bob Cratchit!"
Scrooge was better than his word. He did it all, and infinitely more; and to Tiny Tim, who did not die, he was a second father. He became as good a friend, as good a master, and as good a man, as the good old City knew, or any other good old city, town, or borough in the good old world. Some people laughed to see the alteration in him, but he let them laugh, and little heeded them; for he was wise enough to know that nothing ever happened on this globe, for good, at which some people did not have their fill of laughter in the outset; and knowing that such as these would be blind anyway, he thought it quite as well that they should wrinkle up their eyes in grins, as have the malady in less attractive forms. His own heart laughed: and that was quite enough for him.
Scrooge kept his promises and then some. He did everything and so much more; to Tiny Tim, who didn't die, he became like a second father. He became as good a friend, a good boss, and a good person as the best anyone could find in the city or any other place in the world. Some people laughed at the change in him, but he let them laugh and didn’t pay them much attention. He was smart enough to understand that whenever something positive happens, there are always some people who laugh about it at first; and knowing those folks would be blind to the good anyway, he figured it was better for them to smile than to show their disdain in less pleasant ways. His own heart was full of joy, and that was all that mattered to him.
He had no further intercourse with Spirits, but lived upon the Total Abstinence Principle, ever afterward; and it was always said of him, that he knew how to keep Christmas well, if any man alive possessed the knowledge. May that be truly said of us, and all of us! And so, as Tiny Tim
He had no more contact with spirits and lived by the principle of total abstinence from then on; people always said he knew how to celebrate Christmas well, more than anyone else alive. May that be said of all of us! And so, as Tiny Tim
THE SPECTRE BRIDEGROOM
BY WASHINGTON IRVING
BY WASHINGTON IRVING
"A torch-bearer in the great procession of English prose writers," Irving's style is based on a close study of Addison and the "Spectator" models.
"A torchbearer in the great procession of English prose writers," Irving's style is based on a close study of Addison and the "Spectator" models.
"The Sketch-Book," from which this story is taken, has been often pronounced the best book that came from his pen.
"The Sketch-Book," from which this story is taken, has often been called the best book that came from his pen.
THE SPECTRE BRIDEGROOM
The Ghost Groom
By WASHINGTON IRVING
By Washington Irving
A TRAVELER'S TALE*
A Traveler's Story*
* The erudite reader, well versed in good-for-nothing lore, will perceive that the above Tale must have been suggested to the old Swiss by a little French anecdote of a circumstance said to have taken place at Paris.
* The knowledgeable reader, familiar with useless stories, will see that the above tale must have been inspired by a small French anecdote about an event that allegedly happened in Paris.
"He that supper for is dight,
He lyes full cold, I trow, this night!
Yestreen to chamber I him led,
This night Gray-steel has made his bed!"
—Sir Eger, Sir Grahame and Sir Gray-steel
"He who is dressed for supper,
Lies very cold, I believe, tonight!
Last night I led him to his room,
Tonight Gray-steel has made his bed!"
—Sir Eger, Sir Grahame and Sir Gray-steel
On the summit of one of the heights of the Odenwald, a wild and romantic tract of Upper Germany that lies not far from the confluence of the Maine and the Rhine, there stood, many, many years since, the Castle of the Baron Von Landshort. It is now quite fallen to decay, and almost buried among beech trees and dark firs; above which, however, its old watch-tower may still be seen struggling, like the former possessor I have mentioned, to carry a high head, and look down upon a neighboring country.
On the summit of one of the heights of the Odenwald, a wild and romantic area of Upper Germany not far from where the Main and the Rhine meet, there stood, many years ago, the Castle of Baron Von Landshort. It has since fallen into ruin and is nearly buried among beech trees and dark firs; however, its old watchtower can still be seen trying, like its former owner I mentioned, to stand tall and overlook the surrounding landscape.
The Baron was a dry branch of the great family of Katzenellenbogen,* and inherited the relics of the property and all the pride of his ancestors. Though the warlike disposition of his predecessors had much impaired the family possessions, yet the Baron still endeavored to keep up some show of former state. The times were peaceable, and the German nobles, in general, had abandoned their inconvenient old castles, perched like eagles' nests among the mountains, and had built more convenient residences in the valleys; still the Baron remained proudly drawn up in his little fortress, cherishing with hereditary inveteracy all the old family feuds; so that he was on ill terms with some of his nearest neighbors, on account of disputes that had happened between their great-great-grandfathers.
The Baron was a distant branch of the prominent Katzenellenbogen family and inherited the remnants of the estate along with the pride of his ancestors. Although the warrior spirit of his predecessors had significantly diminished the family’s possessions, the Baron still tried to maintain some semblance of his former status. The times were peaceful, and most German nobles had moved away from their inconvenient old castles, which were nestled high in the mountains, to more practical homes in the valleys. Yet, the Baron remained proudly entrenched in his small fortress, stubbornly holding onto all the old family rivalries; as a result, he had poor relations with some of his closest neighbors due to disputes that dated back to their great-great-grandfathers.
* I.e., Cat's Elbow—the name of a family of those parts, very powerful in former times. The appellation, we are told, was given in compliment to a peerless dame of the family, celebrated for a fine arm.
* I.e., Cat's Elbow—the name of a family from that area, very influential in the past. The name, we’re told, was given as a tribute to an exceptional lady from the family, famous for her beautiful arm.
The Baron had but one child, a daughter; but Nature, when she grants but one child, always compensates by making it a prodigy; and so it was with the daughter of the Baron. All the nurses, gossips, and country cousins, assured her father that she had not her equal for beauty in all Germany; and who should know better than they? She had, moreover, been brought up with great care, under the superintendence of two maiden aunts, who had spent some years of their early life at one of the little German courts, and were skilled in all the branches of knowledge necessary to the education of a fine lady. Under their instructions, she became a miracle of accomplishments. By the time she was eighteen she could embroider to admiration, and had worked whole histories of the saints in tapestry with such strength of expression in their countenances that they looked like so many souls in purgatory. She could read without great difficulty, and had spelled her way through several church legends, and almost all the chivalric wonders of the Heldenbuch. She had even made considerable proficiency in writing, could sign her own name without missing a letter, and so legibly that her aunts could read it without spectacles. She excelled in making little good-for-nothing lady-like knickknacks of all kinds; was versed in the most abstruse dancing of the day; played a number of airs on the harp and guitar; and knew all the tender ballads of the Minnie-lieders by heart.
The Baron had only one child, a daughter; but when Nature grants just one child, she usually makes it extraordinary, and that’s how it was with the Baron's daughter. All the nurses, gossiping neighbors, and relatives from the countryside assured her father that she was the most beautiful girl in all of Germany; and who could know better than they? Additionally, she was raised with great care under the guidance of two maiden aunts, who had spent part of their youth at a small German court and were well-versed in everything necessary for educating a refined young lady. Under their instruction, she became a marvel of skills. By the time she turned eighteen, she could embroider beautifully and had created entire tapestry scenes of saints that expressed so much emotion they seemed like souls in purgatory. She could read fairly well and had worked her way through several church legends and nearly all the chivalrous tales from the Heldenbuch. She had even made significant progress in writing, could sign her name without missing a single letter, and did so clearly enough that her aunts could read it without glasses. She was skilled at making little useless knickknacks typical of a young lady; knew the most complicated dances of the time; played several tunes on the harp and guitar; and could recite all the sweet ballads of the Minnie-lieders by heart.
Her aunts, too, having been great flirts and coquettes in their younger days, were admirably calculated to be vigilant guardians and strict censors of the conduct of their niece; for there is no duenna so rigidly prudent, and inexorably decorous, as a superannuated coquette. She was rarely suffered out of their sight; never went beyond the domains of the castle, unless well attended, or, rather, well watched; had continual lectures read to her about strict decorum and implicit obedience; and, as to the men—pah! she was taught to hold them at such distance and distrust that, unless properly authorized, she would not have cast a glance upon the handsomest cavalier in the world—no, not if he were even dying at her feet.
Her aunts, who had been big flirts and attention-seekers in their younger days, were just the right people to keep a close eye on their niece's behavior; because there’s no one more rigidly careful and unyieldingly proper than an older former flirt. She was rarely allowed out of their sight, never ventured beyond the castle grounds unless she was well accompanied, or rather, closely monitored; she received constant lectures about proper behavior and complete obedience; and as for men—ugh! She was taught to keep them at such a distance and with such distrust that unless given explicit permission, she wouldn’t have dared to glance at the most handsome guy in the world—not even if he were dying at her feet.
The good effects of this system were wonderfully apparent. The young lady was a pattern of docility and correctness. While others were wasting their sweetness in the glare of the world, and liable to be plucked and thrown aside by every hand, she was coyly blooming into fresh and lovely womanhood under the protection of those immaculate spinsters, like a rose-bud blushing forth among guardian thorns. Her aunts looked upon her with pride and exultation, and vaunted that though all the other young ladies in the world might go astray, yet, thank Heaven, nothing of the kind could happen to the heiress of Katzenellenbogen.
The benefits of this system were clearly visible. The young lady was a model of obedience and correctness. While others were wasting their charm in the spotlight and were at risk of being discarded by anyone, she was gracefully blossoming into beautiful womanhood under the care of those pristine aunts, like a rosebud blooming among protective thorns. Her aunts looked at her with pride and joy, boasting that even if all the other young women in the world went off track, thank goodness, nothing like that could happen to the heiress of Katzenellenbogen.
But however scantily the Baron Von Landshort might be provided with children, his household was by no means a small one, for Providence had enriched him with abundance of poor relations. They, one and all, possessed the affectionate disposition common to humble relatives; were wonderfully attached to the Baron, and took every possible occasion to come in swarms and enliven the castle. All family festivals were commemorated by these good people at the Baron's expense; and when they were filled with good cheer, they would declare that there was nothing on earth so delightful as these family meetings, these jubilees of the heart.
But even though the Baron Von Landshort had very few children, his household was definitely not small, because fate had blessed him with plenty of needy relatives. They all shared the warmhearted nature typical of humble kin; they were incredibly fond of the Baron and found every opportunity to gather in large numbers and brighten up the castle. All family celebrations were honored by these kind folks at the Baron's cost, and when they were in high spirits, they would proclaim that there was nothing more enjoyable on earth than these family get-togethers, these heartfelt celebrations.
The Baron, though a small man, had a large soul, and it swelled with satisfaction at the consciousness of being the greatest man in the little world about him. He loved to tell long stories about the stark old warriors whose portraits looked grimly down from the walls around, and he found no listeners equal to those who fed at his expense. He was much given to the marvelous, and a firm believer in all those supernatural tales with which every mountain and valley in Germany abounds. The faith of his guests even exceeded his own: they listened to every tale of wonder with open eyes and mouth, and never failed to be astonished, even though repeated for the hundredth time. Thus lived the Baron Von Landshort, the oracle of his table, the absolute monarch of his little territory, and happy, above all things, in the persuasion that he was the wisest man of the age.
The Baron, although short in stature, had a big heart, and it filled with pride knowing he was the most important person in his small world. He loved sharing long stories about the tough old warriors whose portraits stared down at him from the walls around him, and he found no audience better than those who dined at his expense. He had a knack for the fantastic and believed wholeheartedly in all the supernatural tales that filled every mountain and valley in Germany. His guests even believed more than he did: they listened to every amazing story with wide eyes and open mouths, never failing to be amazed, even if they heard it for the hundredth time. This was how Baron Von Landshort lived, the sage of his table, the undisputed ruler of his little realm, and happiest above all in the belief that he was the smartest man of his time.
At the time of which my story treats there was a great family gathering at the castle, on an affair of the utmost importance: it was to receive the destined bridegroom of the Baron's daughter. A negotiation had been carried on between the father and an old nobleman of Bavaria, to unite the dignity of their houses by the marriage of their children. The preliminaries had been conducted with proper punctilio. The young people were betrothed without seeing each other, and the time was appointed for the marriage ceremony. The young Count Von Altenburg had been recalled from the army for the purpose, and was actually on his way to the Baron's to receive his bride. Missives had even been received from him, from Wurtzburg, where he was accidentally detained, mentioning the day and hour when he might be expected to arrive.
At the time my story takes place, there was a large family gathering at the castle for an extremely important matter: they were awaiting the intended groom of the Baron's daughter. A negotiation had been ongoing between the father and an elderly nobleman from Bavaria to unite their families through their children's marriage. The initial arrangements had been made with the proper formalities. The young couple was engaged without having met each other, and the date for the wedding ceremony had been set. The young Count Von Altenburg had been called back from the army for this purpose and was currently on his way to the Baron's to meet his bride. Letters had even been received from him, from Wurtzburg, where he had been unexpectedly delayed, stating the day and time when he could be expected to arrive.
The castle was in a tumult of preparation to give him a suitable welcome. The fair bride had been decked out with uncommon care. The two aunts had superintended her toilet, and quarreled the whole morning about every article of her dress. The young lady had taken advantage of their contest to follow the bent of her own taste; and fortunately it was a good one. She looked as lovely as youthful bridegroom could desire; and the flutter of expectation heightened the lustre of her charms.
The castle was buzzing with preparations to give him a proper welcome. The beautiful bride had been dressed with extraordinary care. The two aunts had overseen her outfit and argued all morning about every piece of her dress. The young lady took advantage of their bickering to express her own style, and luckily, it was a great choice. She looked as lovely as any young groom could hope for, and the excitement in the air made her beauty shine even brighter.
The suffusions that mantled her face and neck, the gentle heaving of the bosom, the eye now and then lost in reverie, all betrayed the soft tumult that was going on in her little heart. The aunts were continually hovering around her; for maiden aunts are apt to take great interest in affairs of this nature: they were giving her a world of staid counsel how to deport herself, what to say, and in what manner to receive the expected lover.
The flush that covered her face and neck, the gentle rise and fall of her chest, and her eyes occasionally drifting off in thought, all revealed the soft excitement happening in her heart. Her aunts were constantly nearby; maiden aunts tend to be very invested in matters like this: they were offering her a lot of serious advice on how to behave, what to say, and how to greet the expected suitor.
The Baron was no less busied in preparations. He had, in truth, nothing exactly to do; but he was naturally a fuming, bustling little man, and could not remain passive when all the world was in a hurry. He worried from top to bottom of the castle, with an air of infinite anxiety; he continually called the servants from their work to exhort them to be diligent, and buzzed about every hall and chamber, as idly, restless, and importunate as a bluebottle fly of a warm summer's day.
The Baron was just as occupied with preparations. He didn't really have anything specific to do, but he was a naturally fidgety, busy little guy and couldn't just stand still when everyone else was rushing around. He darted from one end of the castle to the other, looking extremely anxious; he constantly summoned the servants from their tasks to urge them to work harder and zipped around every hall and room, as aimless, restless, and annoying as a housefly on a hot summer day.
In the meantime, the fatted calf had been killed; the forests had rung with the clamor of the huntsmen; the kitchen was crowded with good cheer; the cellars had yielded up whole oceans of Rhein-wein and Ferne-wein, and even the great Heidelberg Tun had been laid under contribution. Everything was ready to receive the distinguished guest with Saus and Braus in the true spirit of German hospitality—but the guest delayed to make his appearance. Hour rolled after hour. The sun that had poured his downward rays upon the rich forests of the Odenwald, now just gleamed along the summits of the mountains. The Baron mounted the highest tower, and strained his eyes in hopes of catching a distant sight of the Count and his attendants. Once he thought he beheld them; the sound of horns came floating from the valley, prolonged by the mountain echoes: a number of horsemen were seen far below, slowly advancing along the road; but when they had nearly reached the foot of the mountain they suddenly struck off in a different direction. The last ray of sunshine departed—the boats began to flit by in the twilight—the road grew dimmer and dimmer to the view; and nothing appeared stirring in it but now and then a peasant lagging homeward from his labor.
In the meantime, the fatted calf had been slaughtered; the forests had echoed with the noise of the hunters; the kitchen was filled with good food; the cellars had yielded up vast amounts of Rhein-wein and Ferne-wein, and even the famous Heidelberg Tun had been tapped. Everything was ready to welcome the distinguished guest with Saus and Braus in the true spirit of German hospitality—but the guest was late to arrive. Hours passed by. The sun that had been shining down on the lush forests of the Odenwald was now just lighting up the peaks of the mountains. The Baron climbed the highest tower and strained his eyes, hoping to catch a glimpse of the Count and his entourage. For a moment, he thought he saw them; the sound of horns floated up from the valley, echoed by the mountains: a group of horsemen could be seen far below, slowly making their way along the road; but just as they neared the foot of the mountain, they suddenly took a different path. The last ray of sunshine faded—the boats began to drift by in the twilight—the road grew dimmer and dimmer to the eye; and the only signs of life were occasionally a peasant making his way home from work.
While the old castle of Landshort was in this state of perplexity, a very interesting scene was transacting in a different part of the Odenwald.
While the old castle of Landshort was in this state of confusion, a very interesting scene was unfolding in another part of the Odenwald.
The young Count Von Altenburg was tranquilly pursuing his route in that sober jog-trot way in which a man travels toward matrimony when his friends have taken all the trouble and uncertainty of courtship off his hands, and a bride is waiting for him, as certainly as a dinner, at the end of his journey. He had encountered at Wurtzburg a youthful companion in arms, with whom he had seen some service on the frontiers: Herman Von Starkenfaust, one of the stoutest hands and worthiest hearts of German chivalry, who was now returning from the army. His father's castle was not far distant from the old fortress of Landshort, although a hereditary feud rendered the families hostile and strangers to each other.
The young Count Von Altenburg was calmly making his way in the steady, predictable style that a man adopts when he's headed toward marriage, with all the hassle and uncertainty of courtship taken care of by his friends, and a bride waiting for him at the end of his journey, just like dinner. He had met a young companion in arms in Wurtzburg, with whom he had served on the frontiers: Herman Von Starkenfaust, one of the toughest and most honorable figures in German chivalry, who was now coming back from the army. His father's castle wasn't far from the old fortress of Landshort, though a longstanding feud made the families enemies and strangers to one another.
In the warm-hearted moment of recognition, the young friends related all their past adventures and fortunes, and the Count gave the whole history of his intended nuptials with a young lady whom he had never seen, but of whose charms he had received the most enrapturing descriptions.
In that heartwarming moment of recognition, the young friends shared all their past adventures and experiences, and the Count told the entire story of his planned marriage to a young woman he had never met, but whose beauty he had heard the most captivating descriptions of.
As the route of the friends lay in the same direction, they agreed to perform the rest of their journey together; and, that they might do it more leisurely, set off from Wurtzburg at an early hour, the Count having given directions for his retinue to follow and overtake him.
As the friends were heading in the same direction, they decided to continue their journey together. To take their time, they left Wurtzburg early in the morning, with the Count instructing his staff to follow and catch up with him.
They beguiled their wayfaring with recollections of their military scenes and adventures; but the Count was apt to be a little tedious, now and then, about the reputed charms of his bride, and the felicity that awaited him.
They entertained themselves on their journey with memories of their military experiences and adventures; however, the Count tended to be a bit tedious at times, going on about the supposed charms of his bride and the happiness that was waiting for him.
In this way they had entered among the mountains of the Odenwald, and were traversing one of its most lonely and thickly wooded passes. It is well known that the forests of Germany have always been as much infested with robbers as its castles by spectres; and, at this time, the former were particularly numerous, from the hordes of disbanded soldiers wandering about the country. It will not appear extraordinary, therefore, that the cavaliers were attacked by a gang of these stragglers in the midst of the forest. They defended themselves with bravery, but were nearly overpowered when the Count's retinue arrived to their assistance. At sight of them the robbers fled, but not until the Count had received a mortal wound. He was slowly and carefully conveyed back to the city of Wurtzburg, and a friar summoned from a neighboring convent, who was famous for his skill in administering to both soul and body. But half of his skill was superfluous; the moments of the unfortunate Count were numbered.
In this way, they had entered the mountains of the Odenwald and were moving through one of its most remote and densely wooded paths. It’s well known that the forests of Germany have always been as troubled by robbers as its castles have been by ghosts; and at this time, there were particularly many robbers, due to the groups of disbanded soldiers roaming the countryside. So it wouldn’t be surprising that the knights were attacked by a gang of these outlaws in the middle of the forest. They fought bravely but were nearly overpowered until the Count’s men arrived to help them. Upon seeing them, the robbers fled, but not before the Count had sustained a fatal injury. He was slowly and carefully transported back to the city of Wurtzburg, and a friar was called from a nearby convent, known for his ability to care for both the soul and the body. However, half of his skills were unnecessary; the unfortunate Count didn’t have long left.
With his dying breath he entreated his friend to repair instantly to the castle of Landshort, and explain the fatal cause of his not keeping his appointment with his bride. Though not the most ardent of lovers, he was one of the most punctilious of men, and appeared earnestly solicitous that this mission should be speedily and courteously executed. "Unless this is done," said he, "I shall not sleep quietly in my grave!" He repeated these last words with peculiar solemnity. A request, at a moment so impressive, admitted no hesitation. Starkenfaust endeavored to soothe him to calmness; promised faithfully to execute his wish, and gave him his hand in solemn pledge. The dying man pressed it in acknowledgment, but soon lapsed into delirium—raved about his bride—his engagements—his plighted word; ordered his horse, that he might ride to the castle of Landshort, and expired in the fancied act of vaulting into the saddle.
With his last breath, he begged his friend to hurry to the castle of Landshort and explain the tragic reason for not meeting his bride. Although he wasn't the most passionate lover, he was one of the most particular men and seemed genuinely concerned that this task be carried out quickly and politely. "If this isn't done," he said, "I won't rest peacefully in my grave!" He repeated these final words with a special seriousness. A request made at such a significant moment left no room for doubt. Starkenfaust tried to calm him, promised to fulfill his wish, and shook his hand in a solemn promise. The dying man squeezed it in acknowledgment but soon fell into delirium—murmuring about his bride, his commitments, his pledged word; he called for his horse so he could ride to the castle of Landshort, and he passed away in the imagined act of mounting the saddle.
Starkenfaust bestowed a sigh and a soldier's tear on the untimely fate of his comrade; and then pondered on the awkward mission he had undertaken. His heart was heavy, and his head perplexed; for he was to present himself an unbidden guest among hostile people, and to damp their festivity with tidings fatal to their hopes. Still there were certain whisperings of curiosity in his bosom to see this far-famed beauty of Katzenellenbogen so cautiously shut up from the world; for he was a passionate admirer of the sex, and there was a dash of eccentricity and enterprise in his character that made him fond of all singular adventure.
Starkenfaust let out a sigh and shed a soldier's tear for his fallen comrade; then he thought about the awkward mission he had taken on. His heart felt heavy, and his mind was troubled, because he was about to show up uninvited among a hostile crowd and spoil their celebration with news that would crush their hopes. Still, he felt a curious urge to see this famous beauty of Katzenellenbogen, who was so carefully kept away from the world; he was a passionate admirer of women, and he had a streak of eccentricity and adventure in him that made him eager for unique experiences.
Previous to his departure, he made all due arrangements with the holy fraternity of the convent for the funeral solemnities of his friend, who was to be buried in the cathedral of Wurtzburg, near some of his illustrious relatives; and the mourning retinue of the Count took charge of his remains.
Before he left, he made all the necessary arrangements with the holy brotherhood of the convent for his friend's funeral services, who was going to be buried in the cathedral of Wurtzburg, close to some of his notable relatives; and the mourning party of the Count handled his remains.
It is now high time that we should return to the ancient family of Katzenellenbogen, who were impatient for their guest, and still more for their dinner; and to the worthy little Baron, whom we left airing himself on the watch-tower.
It’s now time to go back to the old Katzenellenbogen family, who were eager for their guest and even more for their dinner; and to the good little Baron, whom we left enjoying the view from the watchtower.
Night closed in, but still no guest arrived. The Baron descended from the tower in despair. The banquet, which had been delayed from hour to hour, could no longer be postponed. The meats were already overdone, the cook in an agony, and the whole household had the look of a garrison that had been reduced by famine. The Baron was obliged reluctantly to give orders for the feast without the presence of the guest. All were seated at table, and just on the point of commencing, when the sound of a horn from without the gate gave notice of the approach of a stranger. Another long blast filled the old courts of the castle with its echoes, and was answered by the warder from the walls. The Baron hastened to receive his future son-in-law.
Night fell, but still no guest had arrived. The Baron came down from the tower in despair. The banquet, which had been postponed repeatedly, could no longer be delayed. The food was already overcooked, the cook was in distress, and the entire household looked like a garrison suffering from famine. The Baron was reluctantly forced to order the feast without the guest. Everyone was seated at the table and just about to start when a horn outside the gate announced the arrival of a stranger. Another long blast echoed through the old castle courtyards, and the warder answered from the walls. The Baron rushed to welcome his future son-in-law.
The drawbridge had been let down, and the stranger was before the gate. He was a tall gallant cavalier, mounted on a black steed. His countenance was pale, but he had a beaming, romantic eye, and an air of stately melancholy. The Baron was a little mortified that he should have come in this simple, solitary style. His dignity for a moment was ruffled, and he felt disposed to consider it a want of proper respect for the important occasion, and the important family with which he was to be connected. He pacified himself, however, with the conclusion that it must have been youthful impatience which had induced him thus to spur on sooner than his attendants.
The drawbridge was lowered, and the stranger stood at the gate. He was a tall, dashing knight, riding a black horse. His face was pale, but he had a bright, romantic gaze, along with an air of noble sadness. The Baron felt a bit embarrassed that the newcomer had arrived in such a simple, solitary manner. For a moment, his dignity was shaken, and he viewed it as a lack of proper respect for the important occasion and the prominent family he was about to join. However, he reassured himself, concluding that it must have been youthful impatience that made him hurry ahead of his companions.
"I am sorry," said the stranger, "to break in upon you thus unseasonably—"
"I'm sorry," said the stranger, "to interrupt you like this—"
Here the Baron interrupted him with a world of compliments and greetings; for, to tell the truth, he prided himself upon his courtesy and his eloquence. The stranger attempted, once or twice, to stem the torrent of words, but in vain; so he bowed his head and suffered it to flow on. By the time the Baron had come to a pause they had reached the inner court of the castle; and the stranger was again about to speak, when he was once more interrupted by the appearance of the female part of the family, leading forth the shrinking and blushing bride. He gazed on her for a moment as one entranced; it seemed as if his whole soul beamed forth in the gaze, and rested upon that lovely form. One of the maiden aunts whispered something in her ear; she made an effort to speak; her moist blue eye was timidly raised, gave a shy glance of inquiry on the stranger, and was cast again to the ground. The words died away; but there was a sweet smile playing about her lips, and a soft dimpling of the cheek, that showed her glance had not been unsatisfactory. It was impossible for a girl of the fond age of eighteen, highly predisposed for love and matrimony, not to be pleased with so gallant a cavalier.
Here the Baron interrupted him with a flood of compliments and greetings; to be honest, he took pride in his politeness and speaking skills. The stranger tried a couple of times to stop the stream of words, but it was no use; so he bowed his head and let it continue. By the time the Baron finally paused, they had reached the inner courtyard of the castle; and the stranger was about to speak again when he was interrupted once more by the appearance of the female members of the family, who brought forth the shy and blushing bride. He looked at her for a moment as if mesmerized; it seemed like his entire being shone in his gaze, resting on her lovely form. One of the bride's aunts whispered something in her ear; she tried to speak, her wet blue eye timidly looking up for a shy glance at the stranger before dropping back down. The words faded away, but there was a sweet smile playing on her lips and a soft dimple on her cheek, showing that her look had been satisfying. It was impossible for a girl of the tender age of eighteen, eager for love and marriage, not to be charmed by such a dashing gentleman.
The late hour at which the guest had arrived left no time for parley. The Baron was peremptory, and deferred all particular conversation until the morning, and led the way to the untasted banquet.
The late hour when the guest arrived allowed for no discussion. The Baron was firm and put off any detailed conversation until the morning, leading the way to the untouched feast.
It was served up in the great hall of the castle. Around the walls hung the hard-favored portraits of the heroes of the house of Katzenellenbogen, and the trophies which they had gained in the field and in the chase. Hacked corselets, splintered jousting spears, and tattered banners, were mingled with the spoils of sylvan warfare: the jaws of the wolf, and the tusks of the boar, grinned horribly among crossbows and battle-axes, and a huge pair of antlers branched immediately over the head of the youthful bridegroom.
It was served in the grand hall of the castle. Around the walls, the stern portraits of the Katzenellenbogen family heroes hung, alongside the trophies they had earned in battle and hunting. Damaged breastplates, broken jousting lances, and torn flags were mixed with trophies from forest hunts: the jaws of wolves and the tusks of boars grinned grotesquely among crossbows and battle axes, while a massive pair of antlers arched directly above the head of the young groom.
The cavalier took but little notice of the company or the entertainment. He scarcely tasted the banquet, but seemed absorbed in admiration of his bride. He conversed in a low tone, that could not be overheard—for the language of love is never loud; but where is the female ear so dull that it can not catch the softest whisper of the lover? There was a mingled tenderness and gravity in his manner that appeared to have a powerful effect upon the young lady. Her color came and went, as she listened with deep attention. Now and then she made some blushing reply, and when his eye was turned away she would steal a sidelong glance at his romantic countenance, and heave a gentle sigh of tender happiness. It was evident that the young couple were completely enamored. The aunts, who were deeply versed in the mysteries of the heart, declared that they had fallen in love with each other at first sight.
The knight barely paid attention to the guests or the festivities. He hardly touched the food, but seemed completely focused on his bride. They spoke softly, so no one could hear them—after all, love doesn’t need to shout; yet, what woman’s ear is so dull that it can’t catch even the quietest words of a lover? There was a mix of tenderness and seriousness in his demeanor that seemed to deeply affect the young lady. Her face flushed and paled as she listened intently. Occasionally, she would respond with a shy reply, and when he looked away, she'd steal a glance at his charming face and let out a soft sigh of joy. It was clear that the young couple was head over heels for each other. The aunts, well-versed in the ways of the heart, claimed that they had fallen in love at first sight.
The feast went on merrily, or at least noisily, for the guests were all blessed with those keen appetites that attend upon light purses and mountain air. The Baron told his best and longest stories, and never had he told them so well, or with such great effect. If there was anything marvelous, his auditors were lost in astonishment; and if anything facetious, they were sure to laugh exactly in the right place. The Baron, it is true, like most great men, was too dignified to utter any joke but a dull one: it was always enforced, however, by a bumper of excellent Hoch-heimer; and even a dull joke, at one's own table, served up with jolly old wine, is irresistible. Many good things were said by poorer and keener wits that would not bear repeating, except on similar occasions; many sly speeches whispered in ladies' ears that almost convulsed them with suppressed laughter; and a song or two roared out by a poor, but merry and broad-faced cousin of the Baron, that absolutely made the maiden aunts hold up their fans.
The feast was lively, or at least loud, because the guests were all blessed with the hearty appetites that come from light wallets and mountain air. The Baron shared his best and longest stories, and he had never told them so well or with such impact before. If there was anything amazing, his audience was in total awe; and if there was anything funny, they laughed at just the right moments. It's true that the Baron, like most important figures, was too dignified to tell anything but a boring joke: it was always accompanied by a glass of excellent Hoch-heimer; and even a dull joke at one’s own table, served with good wine, is hard to resist. Many clever comments were made by poorer, sharper minds that wouldn’t be repeated outside similar settings; many sly remarks whispered in ladies' ears that nearly made them burst out laughing; and a song or two belted out by a poor but cheerful and broad-faced cousin of the Baron that truly made the maiden aunts hold up their fans.
Amid all this revelry, the stranger-guest maintained a most singular and unseasonable gravity. His countenance assumed a deeper cast of dejection as the evening advanced, and, strange as it may appear, even the Baron's jokes seemed only to render him the more melancholy. At times he was lost in thought, and at times there was a perturbed and restless wandering of the eye that bespoke a mind but ill at ease. His conversation with the bride became more and more earnest and mysterious. Lowering clouds began to steal over the fair serenity of her brow, and tremors to run through her tender frame.
Amid all this celebration, the stranger-guest held a strange and unusual seriousness. His expression grew more sorrowful as the evening went on, and, oddly enough, even the Baron's jokes seemed to make him more somber. At times he appeared lost in thought, while at other moments his eyes had a disturbed and restless look that hinted at a troubled mind. His conversation with the bride grew more serious and mysterious. Dark clouds began to gather over her once peaceful demeanor, and shivers ran through her delicate body.
All this could not escape the notice of the company. Their gaiety was chilled by the unaccountable gloom of the bridegroom; their spirits were infected; whispers and glances were interchanged, accompanied by shrugs and dubious shakes of the head. The song and the laugh grew less and less frequent: there were dreary pauses in the conversation, which were at length succeeded by wild tales, and supernatural legends. One dismal story produced another still more dismal, and the Baron nearly frightened some of the ladies into hysterics with the history of the goblin horseman that carried away the fair Leonora—a dreadful, but true story, which has since been put into excellent verse, and is read and believed by all the world.
The company couldn't help but notice all of this. Their cheerfulness was dampened by the inexplicable sadness of the bridegroom; their mood was affected. Whispers and glances were exchanged, along with shrugs and uncertain shakes of the head. Songs and laughter became less and less common; there were long stretches of silence in the conversation, eventually followed by wild stories and supernatural tales. One gloomy story led to another even gloomier one, and the Baron almost scared some of the women into hysterics with the tale of the goblin horseman who took away the beautiful Leonora—a frightening but true story that has since been turned into great poetry and is read and believed by everyone.
The bridegroom listened to this tale with profound attention. He kept his eyes steadily fixed on the Baron, and, as the story drew to a close, began gradually to rise from his seat, growing taller and taller, until, in the Baron's entranced eye, he seemed almost to tower into a giant. The moment the tale was finished, he heaved a deep sigh, and took a solemn farewell of the company. They were all amazement. The Baron was perfectly thunderstruck.
The groom listened to this story with intense focus. He kept his gaze locked on the Baron, and as the story came to an end, he gradually started to stand up, growing taller and taller until, in the Baron's captivated gaze, he almost looked like a giant. The moment the tale wrapped up, he let out a deep sigh and bid a serious farewell to everyone. They were all in shock. The Baron was completely stunned.
"What! going to leave the castle at midnight? Why, everything was prepared for his reception; a chamber was ready for him if he wished to retire."
"What! Leaving the castle at midnight? Why, everything was set up for his arrival; a room was ready for him if he wanted to rest."
The stranger shook his head mournfully and mysteriously: "I must lay my head in a different chamber to-night!"
The stranger shook his head sadly and enigmatically: "I need to sleep in a different room tonight!"
There was something in this reply, and the tone in which it was uttered, that made the Baron's heart misgive him; but he rallied his forces, and repeated his hospitable entreaties. The stranger shook his head silently, but positively, at every offer; and, waving his farewell to the company, stalked slowly out of the hall. The maiden aunts were absolutely petrified—the bride hung her head, and a tear stole to her eye.
There was something in this response, and the way it was said, that made the Baron's heart sink; but he gathered his strength and repeated his warm invitations. The stranger silently but firmly shook his head at every offer, and, waving goodbye to everyone, walked slowly out of the hall. The maiden aunts were completely shocked—the bride lowered her head, and a tear slipped down her cheek.
The Baron followed the stranger to the great court of the castle, where the black charger stood pawing the earth and snorting with impatience. When they had reached the portal, whose deep archway was dimly lighted by a cresset, the stranger paused, and addressed the Baron in a hollow tone of voice, which the vaulted roof rendered still more sepulchral. "Now that we are alone," said he, "I will impart to you the reason of my going. I have a solemn, an indispensable engagement—"
The Baron followed the stranger to the castle's great courtyard, where the black horse was stomping the ground and snorting with impatience. When they reached the doorway, which was dimly lit by a torch, the stranger stopped and spoke to the Baron in a deep voice, which the high ceiling made sound even more ominous. "Now that we are alone," he said, "I will tell you the reason for my visit. I have a serious, an unavoidable commitment—"
"Why," said the Baron, "can not you send some one in your place?"
"Why," said the Baron, "can’t you send someone else instead?"
"It admits of no substitute—I must attend it in person—I must away to Wurtzburg cathedral—"
"It has no substitute—I must be there in person—I need to go to Wurtzburg Cathedral—"
"Ay," said the Baron, plucking up spirit, "but not until to-morrow—to-morrow you shall take your bride there."
"Hey," said the Baron, gaining confidence, "but not until tomorrow—tomorrow you will take your bride there."
"No! no!" replied the stranger, with tenfold solemnity, "my engagement is with no bride—the worms! the worms expect me! I am a dead man—I have been slain by robbers—my body lies at Wurtzburg—at midnight I am to be buried—the grave is waiting for me—I must keep my appointment!"
"No! No!" replied the stranger, with intense seriousness, "I'm not engaged to any bride—the worms! The worms are expecting me! I’m a dead man—I was killed by robbers—my body is at Wurtzburg—I'm supposed to be buried at midnight—the grave is ready for me—I have to keep my appointment!"
He sprang on his black charger, dashed over the drawbridge, and the clattering of his horse's hoofs was lost in the whistling of the night-blast.
He jumped on his black horse, raced over the drawbridge, and the sound of his horse's hooves was drowned out by the howling of the night wind.
The Baron returned to the hall in the utmost consternation, and related what had passed. Two ladies fainted outright; others sickened at the idea of having banqueted with a spectre. It was the opinion of some that this might be the wild huntsman famous in German legend. Some talked of mountain sprites, of wood-demons, and of other supernatural beings, with which the good people of Germany have been so grievously harassed since time immemorial. One of the poor relations ventured to suggest that it might be some sportive evasion of the young cavalier, and that the very gloominess of the caprice seemed to accord with so melancholy a personage. This, however, drew on him the indignation of the whole company, and especially of the Baron, who looked upon him as little better than an infidel; so that he was fain to abjure his heresy as speedily as possible, and come into the faith of the true believers.
The Baron returned to the hall in complete shock and explained what had happened. Two women fainted right away; others felt sick at the thought of having dined with a ghost. Some believed this could be the wild huntsman famous in German folklore. Others discussed mountain spirits, wood-demons, and various other supernatural beings that have troubled the good people of Germany for ages. One of the poor relatives dared to suggest that it might be a playful trick by the young knight, and that the very darkness of the prank seemed fitting for such a gloomy character. However, this view brought the anger of the entire company, especially from the Baron, who regarded him as almost an infidel; so he quickly recanted his disbelief and aligned himself with the true believers.
But, whatever may have been the doubts entertained, they were completely put to an end by the arrival, next day, of regular missives confirming the intelligence of the young Count's murder, and his interment in Wurtzburg cathedral.
But whatever doubts there were were completely resolved the next day by the arrival of official letters confirming the news of the young Count's murder and his burial in Wurtzburg cathedral.
The dismay at the castle may well be imagined. The Baron shut himself up in his chamber. The guests who had come to rejoice with him could not think of abandoning him in his distress. They wandered about the courts, or collected in groups in the hall, shaking their heads and shrugging their shoulders at the troubles of so good a man; and sat longer than ever at table, and ate and drank more stoutly than ever, by way of keeping up their spirits. But the situation of the widowed bride was the most pitiable. To have lost a husband before she had even embraced him—and such a husband! if the very spectre could be so gracious and noble, what must have been the living man? She filled the house with lamentations.
The sadness at the castle was palpable. The Baron locked himself in his room. The guests who had come to celebrate with him couldn’t bear to leave him in his sorrow. They wandered around the courtyard or gathered in groups in the hall, shaking their heads and shrugging their shoulders at the misfortunes of such a good man. They lingered at the table longer than ever and ate and drank heartily to lift their spirits. But the situation of the grieving bride was the most heartbreaking. To lose a husband before she had even embraced him—and such a husband! If even his ghost could be so gracious and noble, how remarkable he must have been in life! She filled the house with her cries of sorrow.
On the night of the second day of her widowhood, she had retired to her chamber, accompanied by one of her aunts, who insisted on sleeping with her. The aunt, who was one of the best tellers of ghost stories in all Germany, had just been recounting one of her longest, and had fallen asleep in the very midst of it. The chamber was remote, and overlooked a small garden. The niece lay pensively gazing at the beams of the rising moon, as they trembled on the leaves of an aspen tree before the lattice. The castle clock had just tolled midnight, when a soft strain of music stole up from the garden. She rose hastily from her bed and stepped lightly to the window. A tall figure stood among the shadows of the trees. As it raised its head, a beam of moonlight fell upon the countenance. Heaven and earth! she beheld the Spectre Bridegroom! A loud shriek at that moment burst upon her ear, and her aunt, who had been awakened by the music, and had followed her silently to the window, fell into her arms. When she looked again, the spectre had disappeared.
On the night of the second day after becoming a widow, she had gone to her room, with one of her aunts insisting on staying with her. The aunt, one of the best ghost story tellers in all of Germany, had just shared one of her longest stories and had fallen asleep right in the middle of it. The room was secluded and overlooked a small garden. The niece lay there, deep in thought, watching the moonlight shimmer on the leaves of an aspen tree outside the window. The castle clock had just chimed midnight when soft music drifted up from the garden. She quickly got out of bed and tiptoed to the window. A tall figure stood among the shadows of the trees. As it lifted its head, the moonlight illuminated its face. Good heavens! She saw the Spectre Bridegroom! Just then, a loud scream pierced the silence, and her aunt, who had been awakened by the music and had quietly followed her to the window, collapsed in her arms. When she looked again, the spectre had vanished.
Of the two females, the aunt now required the most soothing, for she was perfectly beside herself with terror. As to the young lady, there was something, even in the spectre of her lover, that seemed endearing. There was still the semblance of manly beauty; and though the shadow of a man is but little calculated to satisfy the affections of a love-sick girl, yet, where the substance is not to be had, even that is consoling. The aunt declared she would never sleep in that chamber again; the niece, for once, was refractory, and declared as strongly that she would sleep in no other in the castle: the consequence was that she had to sleep in it alone; but she drew a promise from her aunt not to relate the story of the spectre, lest she should be denied the only melancholy pleasure left her on earth—that of inhabiting the chamber over which the guardian shade of her lover kept its nightly vigils.
Of the two women, the aunt needed the most comfort, as she was completely overwhelmed with fear. As for the young lady, even the image of her lover seemed somewhat comforting. There was still a hint of masculine beauty; and although the shadow of a man doesn’t really satisfy a lovesick girl, in the absence of the real thing, even that brings some solace. The aunt insisted she would never sleep in that room again; the niece, for once, was contrary and firmly stated that she wouldn’t sleep anywhere else in the castle. As a result, she ended up sleeping there alone; however, she got her aunt to promise not to share the story of the ghost, fearing that it would take away her only sorrowful joy left in life—that of staying in the room where her lover’s protective spirit kept its nightly watch.
How long the good old lady would have observed this promise is uncertain, for she dearly loved to talk of the marvelous, and there is a triumph in being the first to tell a frightful story; it is, however, still quoted in the neighborhood, as a memorable instance of female secrecy, that she kept it to herself for a whole week; when she was suddenly absolved from all further restraint by intelligence brought to the breakfast-table one morning that the young lady was not to be found. Her room was empty—the bed had not been slept in—the window was open—and the bird had flown!
How long the kind old lady would have kept this promise is uncertain, because she really loved to talk about the extraordinary, and there’s a thrill in being the first to share a scary story. However, it's still mentioned in the neighborhood as a memorable example of a woman’s secrecy that she kept it to herself for an entire week; then she was suddenly freed from all further restraint when she learned at the breakfast table one morning that the young lady was missing. Her room was empty—the bed hadn’t been slept in—the window was open—and the bird had flown!
The astonishment and concern with which the intelligence was received can only be imagined by those who have witnessed the agitation which the mishaps of a great man cause among his friends. Even the poor relations paused for a moment from the indefatigable labors of the trencher; when the aunt, who had at first been struck speechless, wrung her hands and shrieked out, "The goblin! the goblin! She's carried away by the goblin!"
The shock and worry with which the news was received can only be understood by those who have seen the turmoil that a great person's troubles create among their friends. Even the distant relatives took a break from their nonstop eating when the aunt, who had initially been left speechless, wrung her hands and cried out, "The goblin! The goblin! She's been taken by the goblin!"
In a few words she related the fearful scene of the garden, and concluded that the spectre must have carried off his bride. Two of the domestics corroborated the opinion, for they had heard the clattering of a horse's hoofs down the mountain about midnight, and had no doubt that it was the spectre on his black charger, bearing her away to the tomb. All present were struck with the direful probability; for events of the kind are extremely common in Germany, as many well-authenticated histories bear witness.
In a few words, she described the terrifying scene in the garden and concluded that the ghost must have taken his bride. Two of the servants backed up her claim, as they had heard the sound of a horse’s hooves coming down the mountain around midnight, and they were sure it was the ghost on his black horse, carrying her off to the grave. Everyone there was amazed by the awful possibility; such events are quite common in Germany, as many well-documented stories confirm.
What a lamentable situation was that of the poor Baron! What a heartrending dilemma for a fond father, and a member of the great family of Katzenellenbogen! His only daughter had either been rapt away to the grave, or he was to have some wood-demon for a son-in-law, and, perchance, a troop of goblin grandchildren. As usual, he was completely bewildered, and all the castle in an uproar. The men were ordered to take horse and scour every road and path and glen of the Odenwald. The Baron himself had just drawn on his jack-boots, girded on his sword, and was about to mount his steed to sally forth on the doubtful quest, when he was brought to a pause by a new apparition. A lady was seen approaching the castle, mounted on a palfrey attended by a cavalier on horseback. She galloped up to the gate, sprang from her horse, and falling at the Baron's feet, embraced his knees. It was his lost daughter, and her companion—the Spectre Bridegroom! The Baron was astounded. He looked at his daughter, then at the spectre, and almost doubted the evidence of his senses. The latter, too, was wonderfully improved in his appearance, since his visit to the world of spirits. His dress was splendid, and set off a noble figure of manly symmetry. He was no longer pale and melancholy. His fine countenance was flushed with the glow of youth, and joy rioted in his large dark eye.
What a sad situation the poor Baron found himself in! What a heartbreaking dilemma for a loving father and a member of the great Katzenellenbogen family! His only daughter had either been taken away to the grave, or he was going to have some wood spirit as a son-in-law, and maybe a bunch of goblin grandchildren. As usual, he was completely confused, and the whole castle was in chaos. The men were ordered to mount their horses and search every road, path, and valley of the Odenwald. The Baron himself had just put on his boots, strapped on his sword, and was about to mount his horse to set off on this uncertain quest when a new sight stopped him. A lady was seen approaching the castle, riding a horse accompanied by a man on horseback. She rode up to the gate, jumped off her horse, and fell at the Baron's feet, hugging his knees. It was his lost daughter, along with her companion—the Spectre Bridegroom! The Baron was shocked. He looked at his daughter and then at the spectre, almost doubting his own senses. The spectre, too, looked remarkably better since his visit to the spirit world. His outfit was magnificent and showcased a noble figure of manly symmetry. He was no longer pale and gloomy. His handsome face was flushed with the glow of youth, and joy shone in his large dark eyes.
The mystery was soon cleared up. The cavalier (for, in truth, as you must have known all the while, he was no goblin) announced himself as Sir Herman Von Starkenfaust. He related his adventure with the young Count. He told how he had hastened to the castle to deliver the unwelcome tidings, but that the eloquence of the Baron had interrupted him in every attempt to tell his tale. How the sight of the bride had completely captivated him, and that to pass a few hours near her he had tacitly suffered the mistake to continue. How he had been sorely perplexed in what way to make a decent retreat, until the Baron's goblin stories had suggested his eccentric exit. How, fearing the feudal hostility of the family, he had repeated his visits by stealth—had haunted the garden beneath the young lady's window—had wooed—had won—had borne away in triumph—and, in a word, had wedded the fair.
The mystery was quickly resolved. The dashing figure (since, as you must have realized all along, he was no goblin) introduced himself as Sir Herman Von Starkenfaust. He recounted his adventure with the young Count. He explained how he rushed to the castle to deliver the bad news, but the Baron's persuasive talk interrupted him every time he tried to share his story. He described how the sight of the bride completely enchanted him, and that to spend a few hours near her, he had quietly allowed the misunderstanding to persist. He shared how he was greatly troubled about how to make a proper exit, until the Baron's goblin tales inspired his unusual departure. Worried about the family's feudal hostility, he had sneaked back for secret visits—had lingered in the garden under the young lady's window—had pursued her—had won her over—had carried her off in triumph—and, to sum it up, had married the beautiful lady.
Under any other circumstances the Baron would have been inflexible, for he was tenacious of paternal authority and devoutly obstinate in all family feuds; but he loved his daughter; he had lamented her as lost; he rejoiced to find her still alive; and, though her husband was of a hostile house, yet, thank Heaven, he was not a goblin. There was something, it must be acknowledged, that did not exactly accord with his notions of strict veracity, in the joke the knight had passed upon him of his being a dead man; but several old friends present, who had served in the wars, assured him that every stratagem was excusable in love, and that the cavalier was entitled to especial privilege, having lately served as a trooper.
In any other situation, the Baron would have been unwavering, as he was staunch about his parental authority and stubborn in all family disputes; however, he loved his daughter. He had mourned her as if she were lost and was overjoyed to find her still alive. And although her husband came from an opposing family, at least, thank goodness, he wasn't a goblin. There was something, it must be said, that didn't quite match his ideas of honesty in the knight's joke about him being a dead man; but several old friends there, who had fought in wars, assured him that any trick was fair in love, and that the knight deserved special treatment, having recently served as a soldier.
Matters, therefore, were happily arranged. The Baron pardoned the young couple on the spot. The revels at the castle were resumed. The poor relations overwhelmed this new member of the family with loving-kindness; he was so gallant, so generous—and so rich. The aunts, it is true, were somewhat scandalized that their system of strict seclusion, and passive obedience, should be so badly exemplified, but attributed it all to their negligence in not having the windows grated. One of them was particularly mortified at having her marvelous story marred, and that the only spectre she had ever seen should turn out a counterfeit; but the niece seemed perfectly happy at having found him substantial flesh and blood—and so the story ends.
Things turned out well in the end. The Baron forgave the young couple right away. The celebrations at the castle continued. The less fortunate relatives showered this new family member with affection; he was so charming, so generous—and so wealthy. The aunts, however, were a bit shocked that their strict rules of isolation and quiet obedience were so poorly demonstrated, but they blamed it on their own failure to secure the windows. One of them was especially upset that her incredible story was spoiled, and that the only ghost she had ever seen turned out to be fake; but the niece seemed completely happy to have discovered he was real—and so the story concludes.
THE MYSTERIOUS SKETCH
BY ERCKMANN—CHATRIAN
BY ERCKMANN—CHATRIAN
Emile Erckmann (born 1822, died 1899) and Alexandre Chatrian (born 1826, died 1890), natives of Alsace-Lorraine, formed a literary partnership in 1847 and wrote many charming novels and plays which attained a great vogue. These, appearing under the signature of Erckmann-Chatrian, were supposed to be the productions of a single writer until 1863, when the collaboration was announced. It is said that their first stories were rejected by all the newspapers of Paris.
Emile Erckmann (born 1822, died 1899) and Alexandre Chatrian (born 1826, died 1890), originally from Alsace-Lorraine, teamed up as a literary duo in 1847 and wrote many delightful novels and plays that became very popular. These works, published under the name Erckmann-Chatrian, were believed to be written by a single author until 1863, when their collaboration was revealed. It is said their first stories were turned down by all the newspapers in Paris.
"The Mysterious Sketch" is from "Les Contes Fantastiques."
"The Mysterious Sketch" is from "Les Contes Fantastiques."
THE MYSTERIOUS SKETCH
THE MYSTERIOUS DRAWING
By ERCKMANN—CHATRIAN
By Erckmann-Chatrian
I
I
Opposite the chapel of Saint Sebalt in Nuremberg, at the corner of Trabaus Street, there stands a little tavern, tall and narrow, with a toothed gable and dusty windows, whose roof is surmounted by a plaster Virgin. It was there that I spent the unhappiest days of my life. I had gone to Nuremberg to study the old German masters; but in default of ready money, I had to paint portraits—and such portraits! Fat old women with their cats on their laps, big-wigged aldermen, burgomasters in three-cornered hats—all horribly bright with ochre and vermilion. From portraits I descended to sketches, and from sketches to silhouettes.
Opposite the chapel of Saint Sebalt in Nuremberg, at the corner of Trabaus Street, there's a small tavern, tall and narrow, with a pointed gable and dusty windows, topped by a plaster Virgin. It was there that I spent the most miserable days of my life. I had come to Nuremberg to study the old German masters; but since I didn't have any cash, I had to paint portraits—and what terrible portraits they were! Plump old women with their cats on their laps, wigged aldermen, mayors in three-cornered hats—all shockingly bright with ochre and vermilion. From portraits, I moved on to sketches, and from sketches to silhouettes.
Nothing is more annoying than to have your landlord come to you every day with pinched lips, shrill voice, and impudent manner to say: "Well, sir, how soon are you going to pay me? Do you know how much your bill is? No; that doesn't worry you! You eat, drink, and sleep calmly enough. God feeds the sparrows. Your bill now amounts to two hundred florins and ten kreutzers—it is not worth talking about."
Nothing is more frustrating than having your landlord come to you every day with a tight-lipped expression, a loud voice, and a rude attitude to say: "So, when are you going to pay me? Do you even know how much you owe? No, I guess that doesn't bother you! You eat, drink, and sleep just fine. God takes care of the sparrows. Your bill has now reached two hundred florins and ten kreutzers—it's not even worth discussing."
Those who have not heard any one talk in this way can form no idea of it; love of art, imagination, and the sacred enthusiasm for the beautiful are blasted by the breath of such an attack. You become awkward and timid; all your energy evaporates, as well as your feeling of personal dignity, and you bow respectfully at a distance to the burgomaster Schneegans.
Those who haven't heard anyone speak like this can't really understand it; love for art, creativity, and a deep passion for beauty are crushed by such a harsh criticism. You feel clumsy and uncertain; all your energy disappears, along with your sense of self-respect, and you end up respectfully bowing from a distance to Burgomaster Schneegans.
One night, not having a sou, as usual, and threatened with imprisonment by this worthy Mister Rap, I determined to make him a bankrupt by cutting my throat. Seated on my narrow bed, opposite the window, in this agreeable mood, I gave myself up to a thousand philosophical reflections, more or less comforting.
One night, without a penny to my name, as usual, and facing the threat of imprisonment from this upstanding Mister Rap, I decided to make him go bankrupt by ending my life. Sitting on my narrow bed, across from the window, in this pleasant state, I immersed myself in a flood of philosophical thoughts, some more uplifting than others.
"What is man?" I asked myself. "An omnivorous animal; his jaws, provided with canines, incisors, and molars, prove it. The canines are made to tear meat; the incisors to bite fruits; and the molars to masticate, grind and triturate animal and vegetable substances that are pleasant to smell and to taste. But when he has nothing to masticate, this being is an absurdity in Nature, a superfluity, a fifth wheel to the coach."
"What is man?" I asked myself. "An omnivorous creature; his jaws, equipped with canines, incisors, and molars, show it. The canines are meant for tearing meat; the incisors for biting fruits; and the molars for chewing, grinding, and breaking down animal and plant substances that smell and taste good. But when he has nothing to chew, this being is an absurdity in Nature, a surplus, a fifth wheel on the cart."
Such were my reflections. I dared not open my razor for fear that the invincible force of my logic would inspire me with the courage to make an end of it all. After having argued so finely, I blew out my candle, postponing the sequel till the morrow.
Such were my thoughts. I didn't want to open my razor because I was afraid that the strong logic I had just put together would give me the courage to end everything. After making such a compelling argument, I blew out my candle, putting off what came next until tomorrow.
That abominable Rap had completely stupefied me. I could do nothing but silhouettes, and my sole desire was to have some money to rid myself of his odious presence. But on this night a singular change came over my mind. I awoke about one o'clock—I lit my lamp, and, enveloping myself in my gray gabardine, I drew upon the paper a rapid sketch after the Dutch school—something strange and bizarre, which had not the slightest resemblance to my ordinary conceptions.
That terrible Rap had completely dumbfounded me. I could do nothing but outline shapes, and my only wish was to have some cash to get away from his annoying presence. But on this night, a unique shift happened in my thoughts. I woke up around one o'clock—I turned on my lamp, and, wrapping myself in my gray coat, I quickly sketched something in the style of the Dutch masters—something odd and unusual that didn’t resemble my usual ideas at all.
Imagine a dreary courtyard enclosed by high dilapidated walls. These walls are furnished with hooks, seven or eight feet from the ground. You see, at a glance, that it is a butchery.
Imagine a bleak courtyard surrounded by tall, crumbling walls. These walls have hooks attached, around seven or eight feet off the ground. At first glance, it’s clear that this is a slaughterhouse.
On the left, there extends a lattice structure; you perceive through it a quartered beef suspended from the roof by enormous pulleys. Great pools of blood run over the flagstones and unite in a ditch full of refuse.
On the left, there's a lattice structure; you can see a quartered beef hanging from the roof by huge pulleys. Large pools of blood flow over the stone floor and gather in a ditch filled with waste.
The light falls from above, between the chimneys where the weathercocks stand out from a bit of the sky the size of your hand, and the roofs of the neighboring houses throw bold shadows from story to story.
The light streams down from above, between the chimneys where the weather vanes pop against a patch of sky the size of your hand, and the roofs of the nearby houses cast strong shadows from level to level.
At the back of this place is a shed, beneath the shed a pile of wood, and upon the pile of wood some ladders, a few bundles of straw, some coils of rope, a chicken-coop, and an old dilapidated rabbit-hutch.
At the back of this place is a shed, underneath the shed a pile of wood, and on top of the pile of wood are some ladders, a few bundles of straw, some coils of rope, a chicken coop, and an old run-down rabbit hutch.
How did these heterogeneous details suggest themselves to my imagination? I don't know; I had no reminiscences, and yet every stroke of the pencil seemed the result of observation, and strange because it was all so true. Nothing was lacking.
How did these diverse details come to my mind? I have no idea; I had no memories, and yet every pencil stroke felt like it came from observation, and it was surprising because it all seemed so accurate. Nothing was missing.
But on the right, one corner of the sketch remained a blank. I did not know what to put there.... Something suddenly seemed to writhe there, to move! Then I saw a foot, the sole of a foot. Notwithstanding this improbable position, I followed my inspiration without reference to my own criticism. This foot was joined to a leg—over this leg, stretched out with effort, there soon floated the skirt of a dress. In short, there appeared by degrees, an old woman, pale, disheveled, and wasted, thrown down at the side of a well, and struggling to free herself from a hand that clutched at her throat.
But on the right, one corner of the sketch stayed blank. I didn't know what to add there... Suddenly, something seemed to writhe and move! Then I saw a foot, the sole of a foot. Despite the oddness of this position, I followed my inspiration without worrying about my own judgment. This foot was attached to a leg—over this leg, stretched out with effort, the skirt of a dress soon floated. Gradually, an old woman appeared, pale, disheveled, and frail, thrown down beside a well, struggling to break free from a hand that was clutching her throat.
It was a murder scene that I was drawing. The pencil fell from my hand.
It was a murder scene that I was sketching. The pencil fell from my hand.
This woman, in the boldest attitude, with her thighs bent on the curb of the well, her face contracted by terror, and her two hands grasping the murderer's arm, frightened me. I could not look at her. But the man—he, the person to whom that arm belonged—I could not see him. It was impossible for me to finish the sketch.
This woman, with her bold posture, knees bent on the edge of the well, her face twisted in fear, and her hands clutching the murderer’s arm, scared me. I couldn’t bear to look at her. But the man—who that arm belonged to—I couldn’t see him. It was impossible for me to finish the sketch.
"I am tired," I said, my forehead dripping with perspiration; "there is only this figure to do; I will finish it to-morrow. It will be easy then."
"I’m tired," I said, sweat dripping from my forehead; "there's just this one figure to finish; I’ll wrap it up tomorrow. It should be easy then."
And I went to bed again, thoroughly frightened by my vision.
And I went to bed again, completely scared by my vision.
The next morning, I got up very early. I was dressing in order to resume my interrupted work, when two little knocks were heard on my door.
The next morning, I got up really early. I was getting dressed to get back to my interrupted work when I heard two light knocks on my door.
"Come in!"
"Come on in!"
The door opened. An old man, tall, thin, and dressed in black, appeared on the threshold. This man's face, his eyes set close together and his large nose like the beak of an eagle, surmounted by a high bony forehead, had something severe about it. He bowed to me gravely.
The door swung open. An old man, tall, thin, and wearing black, stood at the entrance. His face, with eyes that were close-set and a large nose resembling an eagle's beak, topped by a high, bony forehead, had a serious quality to it. He bowed to me with a solemn expression.
"Mister Christian Vénius, the painter?" said he.
"Mister Christian Vénius, the painter?" he said.
"That is my name, sir."
"That's my name, sir."
He bowed again, adding:
He bowed again and added:
"The Baron Frederick Van Spreckdal."
"Baron Frederick Van Spreckdal."
The appearance of the rich amateur, Van Spreckdal, judge of the criminal court, in my poor lodging, greatly disturbed me. I could not help throwing a stealthy glance at my old worm-eaten furniture, my damp hangings and my dusty floor. I felt humiliated by such dilapidation; but Van Spreckdal did not seem to take any account of these details; and sitting down at my little table:
The appearance of the wealthy amateur, Van Spreckdal, judge of the criminal court, in my humble place really unsettled me. I couldn't help stealing a glance at my old, tattered furniture, my damp curtains, and my dusty floor. I felt embarrassed by such messiness; but Van Spreckdal didn’t seem to notice these details; and sitting down at my small table:
"Mister Vénius," he resumed, "I come—" But at this instant his glance fell upon the unfinished sketch—he did not finish his phrase.
"Mister Vénius," he continued, "I come—" But at that moment, his gaze landed on the unfinished sketch—he didn't finish his sentence.
I was sitting on the edge of my little bed; and the sudden attention that this personage bestowed upon one of my productions made my heart beat with an indefinable apprehension.
I was sitting on the edge of my small bed, and the sudden focus that this person gave to one of my creations made my heart race with an unexplainable feeling of anxiety.
At the end of a minute, Van Spreckdal lifted his head:
At the end of a minute, Van Spreckdal raised his head:
"Are you the author of that sketch?" he asked me with an intent look.
"Are you the one who wrote that sketch?" he asked me with a focused expression.
"Yes, sir."
"Yes, sir."
"What is the price of it?"
"How much does it cost?"
"I never sell my sketches. It is the plan for a picture."
"I never sell my sketches. It's the blueprint for a picture."
"Ah!" said he, picking up the paper with the tips of his long yellow fingers.
"Ah!" he said, picking up the paper with the tips of his long yellow fingers.
He took a lens from his waistcoat pocket and began to study the design in silence.
He pulled a lens from his pocket and started to examine the design quietly.
The sun was now shining obliquely into the garret. Van Spreckdal never said a word; the hook of his immense nose increased, his heavy eyebrows contracted, and his long pointed chin took a turn upward, making a thousand little wrinkles in his long, thin cheeks. The silence was so profound that I could distinctly hear the plaintive buzzing of a fly that had been caught in a spider's web.
The sun was now shining at an angle into the attic. Van Spreckdal didn’t say a word; the curve of his large nose intensified, his heavy eyebrows drew together, and his long pointed chin tilted upwards, creating a thousand tiny wrinkles in his thin, elongated cheeks. The silence was so deep that I could clearly hear the sad buzzing of a fly trapped in a spider's web.
"And the dimensions of this picture, Mister Vénius," he said without looking at me.
"And the dimensions of this picture, Mr. Vénius," he said without looking at me.
"Three feet by four."
"3 feet by 4."
"The price?"
"What's the price?"
"Fifty ducats."
"Fifty bucks."
Van Spreckdal laid the sketch on the table, and drew from his pocket a large purse of green silk shaped like a pear; he drew the rings of it—
Van Spreckdal placed the sketch on the table and pulled out a large green silk purse shaped like a pear; he pulled the rings from it—
"Fifty ducats," said he, "here they are."
"Fifty ducats," he said, "here they are."
I was simply dazzled.
I was totally amazed.
The Baron rose and bowed to me, and I heard his big ivory-headed cane resounding on each step until he reached the bottom of the stairs. Then, recovering from my stupor, I suddenly remembered that I had not thanked him, and I flew down the five flights like lightning; but when I reached the bottom, I looked to the right and left; the street was deserted.
The Baron stood up and nodded to me, and I could hear his large ivory-headed cane clattering with each step until he got to the bottom of the stairs. Then, snapping out of my daze, I suddenly realized I hadn’t thanked him, and I dashed down the five flights in a hurry; but when I got to the bottom, I looked right and left; the street was empty.
"Well!" I said, "this is strange."
"Well!" I said, "this is weird."
And I went upstairs again all out of breath.
And I went upstairs again, completely out of breath.
II
II
The surprising way in which Van Spreckdal had appeared to me threw me into a deep wonderment. "Yesterday," I said to myself, as I contemplated the pile of ducats glittering in the sun, "yesterday I formed the wicked intention of cutting my throat, all for the want of a few miserable florins, and now to-day Fortune has showered them from the clouds. Indeed it was fortunate that I did not open my razor; and, if the same temptation ever comes to me again, I will take care to wait until the morrow."
The surprising way Van Spreckdal showed up completely astonished me. "Yesterday," I thought to myself as I looked at the stack of shining ducats in the sunlight, "yesterday I had the terrible thought of ending my life, all because I was short a few lousy florins, and now today luck has showered them down on me. It was definitely a good thing I didn't use my razor; and if I ever face the same temptation again, I'll make sure to hold off until tomorrow."
After making these judicious reflections, I sat down to finish the sketch; four strokes of the pencil and it would be finished. But here an incomprehensible difficulty awaited me. It was impossible for me to make those four sweeps of the pencil; I had lost the thread of my inspiration, and the mysterious personage no longer stood out in my brain. I tried in vain to evoke him, to sketch him, and to recover him; he no longer accorded with the surroundings than with a figure by Raphael in a Teniers inn-kitchen. I broke out into a profuse perspiration.
After thinking this through, I sat down to finish the sketch; just four pencil strokes and it would be complete. But then, an inexplicable challenge hit me. I couldn’t manage those four strokes; I had lost my inspiration, and the mysterious figure no longer stood out in my mind. I tried in vain to bring him back, to sketch him, to recover him; he no longer fit in the scene any more than a Raphael figure fits in a Teniers inn kitchen. I broke out in a sweat.
At this moment, Rap opened the door without knocking, according to his praiseworthy custom. His eyes fell upon my pile of ducats and in a shrill voice he cried:
At that moment, Rap opened the door without knocking, following his usual habit. His eyes landed on my stack of ducats, and in a high-pitched voice, he exclaimed:
"Eh! eh! so I catch you. Will you still persist in telling me, Mr. Painter, that you have no money?"
"Ha! Got you! Do you still want to tell me, Mr. Painter, that you have no money?"
And his hooked fingers advanced with that nervous trembling that the sight of gold always produces in a miser.
And his claw-like fingers moved with that nervous shaking that the sight of gold always causes in a miser.
For a few seconds I was stupefied.
For a few seconds, I was completely stunned.
The memory of all the indignities that this individual had inflicted upon me, his covetous look, and his impudent smile exasperated me. With a single bound, I caught hold of him, and pushed him out of the room, slamming the door in his face.
The memory of all the humiliations that this person had put me through, his greedy look, and his rude smile drove me crazy. In one swift move, I grabbed him and shoved him out of the room, slamming the door in his face.
This was done with the crack and rapidity of a spring snuff-box.
This was done with the snap and speed of a spring-loaded snuff box.
But from outside the old usurer screamed like an eagle:
But outside, the old loan shark screamed like an eagle:
"My money, you thief, my money!"
"My money, you thief, my money!"
The lodgers come out of their rooms, asking:
The tenants step out of their rooms, asking:
"What is the matter? What has happened?"
"What's wrong? What’s going on?"
I opened the door suddenly and quickly gave Mister Rap a kick in the spine that sent him rolling down more than twenty steps.
I swung the door open and swiftly kicked Mister Rap in the back, causing him to tumble down over twenty steps.
"That's what's the matter!" I cried, quite beside myself. Then I shut the door and bolted it, while bursts of laughter from the neighbors greeted Mister Rap in the passage.
"That's what's wrong!" I exclaimed, completely overwhelmed. Then I shut the door and locked it, while bursts of laughter from the neighbors filled the hallway, greeting Mister Rap.
I was satisfied with myself; I rubbed my hands together. This adventure had put new life into me; I resumed my work, and was about to finish the sketch when I heard an unusual noise.
I felt good about myself; I rubbed my hands together. This adventure had energized me; I got back to my work, and was about to finish the sketch when I heard a strange noise.
Butts of muskets were grounded on the pavement. I looked out of my window and saw three soldiers in full uniform with grounded arms in front of my door.
Butts of muskets were resting on the pavement. I looked out of my window and saw three soldiers in full uniform with their guns at rest in front of my door.
I said to myself in my terror: "Can it be that that scoundrel of a Rap has had any bones broken?"
I thought in my fear, "Could that jerk Rap actually have broken any bones?"
And here is the strange peculiarity of the human mind: I, who the night before had wanted to cut my own throat, shook from head to foot, thinking that I might well be hanged if Rap were dead.
And here’s the weird quirk of the human mind: I, who the night before had wanted to take my own life, was trembling all over, worried that I could actually be hanged if Rap was dead.
The stairway was filled with confused noises. It was an ascending flood of heavy footsteps, clanking arms, and short syllables.
The stairway was filled with mixed sounds. It was a rising wave of heavy footsteps, clanging arms, and brief words.
Suddenly somebody tried to open my door. It was shut.
Suddenly, someone tried to open my door. It was closed.
Then there was a general clamor.
Then there was a loud uproar.
"In the name of the law—open!"
"In the name of the law—open up!"
I arose, trembling and weak in the knees.
I got up, shaking and feeling weak in the knees.
"Open!" the same voice repeated.
"Open!" the same voice said again.
I thought to escape over the roofs; but I had hardly put my head out of the little snuff-box window, when I drew back, seized with vertigo. I saw in a flash all the windows below with their shining panes, their flower-pots, their birdcages, and their gratings. Lower, the balcony; still lower, the street lamp; still lower again, the sign of the "Red Cask" framed in iron-work; and, finally, three glittering bayonets, only awaiting my fall to run me through the body from the sole of my foot to the crown of my head. On the roof of the opposite house a tortoise-shell cat was crouching behind a chimney, watching a band of sparrows fighting and scolding in the gutter.
I thought about escaping across the rooftops; but as soon as I poked my head out of the tiny window, I pulled back, overwhelmed by dizziness. In an instant, I saw all the windows below with their shiny panes, flower pots, birdcages, and their metal bars. Lower down, the balcony; even lower, the streetlamp; next down, the sign of the "Red Cask" framed in ironwork; and finally, three shining bayonets, just waiting for me to fall so they could pierce me through from the soles of my feet to the top of my head. On the roof of the house across the street, a tortoiseshell cat was crouched behind a chimney, watching a group of sparrows squabbling and chirping in the gutter.
One can not imagine to what clearness, intensity, and rapidity the human eye acquires when stimulated by fear.
One can’t imagine how clear, intense, and fast the human eye becomes when triggered by fear.
At the third summons I heard:
At the third call, I heard:
"Open, or we shall force it!"
"Open up, or we'll break it down!"
Seeing that flight was impossible, I staggered to the door and drew the bolt.
Seeing that leaving was impossible, I stumbled to the door and locked it.
Two hands immediately fell upon my collar. A dumpy, little man, smelling of wine, said:
Two hands suddenly grabbed my collar. A short, chubby man, reeking of alcohol, said:
"I arrest you!"
"I'm arresting you!"
He wore a bottle-green redingote, buttoned to the chin, and a stovepipe hat. He had large brown whiskers, rings on every finger, and was named Passauf.
He wore a bottle-green coat, buttoned all the way up, and a tall hat. He had big brown sideburns, rings on every finger, and his name was Passauf.
He was the chief of police.
He was the police chief.
Five bull-dogs with flat caps, noses like pistols, and lower jaws turning upward, observed me from outside.
Five bulldogs wearing flat caps, with snouts like pistols and their lower jaws turned up, watched me from outside.
"What do you want?" I asked Passauf.
"What do you want?" I asked Passauf.
"Come downstairs," he cried roughly, as he gave a sign to one of his men to seize me.
"Come downstairs," he shouted harshly, signaling one of his men to grab me.
This man took hold of me, more dead than alive, while several other men turned my room upside down.
This guy grabbed me, more dead than alive, while a few other guys tossed my room around.
I went downstairs supported by the arms like a person in the last stages of consumption—with hair disheveled and stumbling at every step.
I went downstairs with the help of someone, like a person in the final stages of a serious illness—my hair was messy and I was stumbling at every step.
They thrust me into a cab between two strong fellows, who charitably let me see the ends of their clubs, held to their wrists by a leather string—and then the carriage started off.
They pushed me into a cab between two strong guys, who nicely let me see the ends of their clubs, attached to their wrists by a leather strap—and then the carriage took off.
I heard behind us the feet of all the urchins of the town.
I heard the footsteps of all the kids from the town behind us.
"What have I done?" I asked one of my keepers.
"What have I done?" I asked one of my caretakers.
He looked at the other with a strange smile and said:
He looked at the other person with a strange smile and said:
"Hans—he asks what he has done!"
"Hans—he's asking what he did!"
That smile froze my blood.
That smile sent chills down my spine.
Soon a deep shadow enveloped the carriage; the horses' hoofs resounded under an archway. We were entering the Raspelhaus. Of this place one might say:
Soon a deep shadow surrounded the carriage; the horses' hooves echoed under an archway. We were entering the Raspelhaus. About this place, one could say:
"Dans cet antre,
Je vois fort bien comme l'on entre,
Et ne vois point comme on en sort."
"Here in this lair,
I can see very well how to get in,
But I can’t see how to get out."
All is not rose-colored in this world; from the claws of Rap I fell into a dungeon, from which very few poor devils have a chance to escape.
All isn't perfect in this world; I fell from the grip of Rap into a dungeon, from which very few unfortunate souls have a chance to escape.
Large dark courtyards and rows of windows like a hospital, and furnished with gratings; not a sprig of verdure, not a festoon of ivy, not even a weathercock in perspective—such was my new lodging. It was enough to make one tear his hair out by the roots.
Large, dark courtyards and rows of windows like a hospital, with bars on them; not a hint of greenery, not a vine in sight, not even a weather vane to look at—this was my new place. It was enough to make someone want to pull their hair out.
The police officers, accompanied by the jailer, took me temporarily to a lock-up.
The police officers, along with the jailer, temporarily took me to a holding cell.
The jailer, if I remember rightly, was named Kasper Schlüssel; with his gray, woolen cap, his pipe between his teeth, and his bunch of keys at his belt, he reminded me of the Owl-God of the Caribs. He had the same golden yellow eyes, that see in the dark, a nose like a comma, and a neck that was sunk between the shoulders.
The jailer, if I remember correctly, was named Kasper Schlüssel; with his gray wool cap, his pipe clenched between his teeth, and a set of keys hanging from his belt, he reminded me of the Owl-God of the Caribs. He had the same golden-yellow eyes that can see in the dark, a nose shaped like a comma, and a neck that was sunk between his shoulders.
Schlüssel shut me up as calmly as one locks up his socks in a cupboard, while thinking of something else. As for me, I stood for more than ten minutes with my hands behind my back and my head bowed. At the end of that time I made the following reflection: "When falling, Rap cried out, 'I am assassinated,' but he did not say by whom. I will say it was my neighbor, the old merchant with the spectacles: he will be hanged in my place."
Schlüssel silenced me as casually as someone puts their socks away in a drawer while thinking about something else. I stood there for over ten minutes with my hands behind my back and my head down. After a while, I thought, "When he fell, Rap shouted, 'I’m being murdered,' but he didn’t say by whom. I’m going to say it was my neighbor, the old merchant with the glasses: he will take the fall for me."
This idea comforted my heart, and I drew a long breath. Then I looked about my prison. It seemed to have been newly whitewashed, and the walls were bare of designs, except in one corner, where a gallows had been crudely sketched by my predecessor. The light was admitted through a bull's-eye about nine or ten feet from the floor; the furniture consisted of a bundle of straw and a tub.
This idea eased my mind, and I took a deep breath. Then I looked around my cell. It seemed freshly painted, and the walls were plain, except for one corner where my previous occupant had roughly drawn a gallows. Light came in through a small round window about nine or ten feet up; the furniture was just a bundle of straw and a tub.
I sat down upon the straw with my hands around my knees in deep despondency. It was with great difficulty that I could think clearly; but suddenly imagining that Rap, before dying, had denounced me, my legs began to tingle, and I jumped up coughing, as if the hempen cord were already tightening around my neck.
I sat down on the straw with my arms wrapped around my knees, feeling totally hopeless. It was hard to think straight, but then I suddenly thought that Rap had accused me just before he died, and my legs started to tingle. I jumped up coughing, as if the rope was already tightening around my neck.
At the same moment, I heard Schlüssel walking down the corridor; he opened the lock-up, and told me to follow him. He was still accompanied by the two officers, so I fell into step resolutely.
At that moment, I heard Schlüssel walking down the hallway; he unlocked the door and told me to follow him. He was still with the two officers, so I walked alongside them confidently.
We walked down long galleries, lighted at intervals by small windows from within. Behind a grating I saw the famous Jic-Jack, who was going to be executed on the morrow. He had on a straitjacket and sang out in a raucous voice:
We walked down long hallways, lit up here and there by small windows. Behind a grate, I saw the infamous Jic-Jack, who was set to be executed the next day. He was wearing a straitjacket and shouted out in a harsh voice:
"Je suis le roi de ces montagnes."
"I am the king of these mountains."
Seeing me, he called out:
Seeing me, he shouted:
"Eh! comrade! I'll keep a place for you at my right."
"Hey, buddy! I’ll save a spot for you on my right."
The two police officers and the Owl-God looked at each other and smiled, while I felt the goose-flesh creep down the whole length of my back.
The two police officers and the Owl-God exchanged smiles, while I felt chills running down my entire back.
III
III
Schlüssel shoved me into a large and very dreary hall, with benches arranged in a semicircle. The appearance of this deserted hall, with its two high grated windows, and its Christ carved in old brown oak with His arms extended and His head sorrowfully inclined upon His shoulder, inspired me with I do not know what kind of religious fear that accorded with my actual situation.
Schlüssel pushed me into a large, very dreary hall, with benches set up in a semicircle. The look of this empty hall, with its two tall grated windows and the Christ figure carved in old brown oak, arms outstretched and head sadly tilted to one side, filled me with a strange kind of religious fear that matched my current situation.
All my ideas of false accusation disappeared, and my lips tremblingly murmured a prayer.
All my thoughts of a false accusation vanished, and my lips nervously whispered a prayer.
I had not prayed for a long time; but misfortune always brings us to thoughts of submission. Man is so little in himself!
I hadn't prayed in a long time, but when bad things happen, we often find ourselves thinking about surrender. People are so small in themselves!
Opposite me, on an elevated seat, two men were sitting, with their backs to the light, and consequently their faces were in shadow. However, I recognized Van Spreckdal by his acquiline profile, illuminated by an oblique reflection from the window. The other person was fat, he had round, chubby cheeks and short hands, and he wore a robe, like Van Spreckdal.
Opposite me, on a raised chair, two men were sitting, with their backs to the light, so their faces were in shadow. However, I recognized Van Spreckdal by his sharp profile, highlighted by a slant of light from the window. The other man was overweight, with round, chubby cheeks and short hands, and he was wearing a robe, just like Van Spreckdal.
Below was the clerk of the court, Conrad; he was writing at a low table and was tickling the tip of his ear with the feather-end of his pen. When I entered, he stopped to look at me curiously.
Below was the court clerk, Conrad; he was writing at a low table and was tickling the tip of his ear with the feather end of his pen. When I walked in, he paused to look at me with curiosity.
They made me sit down, and Van Spreckdal, raising his voice, said to me:
They made me sit down, and Van Spreckdal, raising his voice, said to me:
"Christian Vénius, where did you get this sketch?"
"Christian Vénius, where did you get this drawing?"
He showed me the nocturnal sketch which was then in his possession. It was handed to me. After having examined it, I replied:
He showed me the nighttime sketch that he had at the time. He handed it to me. After looking it over, I replied:
"I am the author of it."
"I created it."
A long silence followed; the clerk of the court, Conrad, wrote down my reply. I heard his pen scratch over the paper, and I thought: "Why did they ask me that question? That has nothing to do with the kick I gave Rap in the back."
A long silence followed; the court clerk, Conrad, wrote down my answer. I heard his pen scratching on the paper, and I thought, "Why did they ask me that question? That has nothing to do with the kick I gave Rap in the back."
"You are the author of it?" asked Van Spreckdal. "What is the subject?"
"You wrote this?" asked Van Spreckdal. "What's it about?"
"It is a subject of pure fancy."
"It’s just a matter of imagination."
"You have not copied the details from some spot?"
"You didn’t copy the details from somewhere, did you?"
"No, sir; I imagined it all."
"No, sir; I made it all up."
"Accused Christian," said the judge in a severe tone, "I ask you to reflect. Do not lie."
"Accused Christian," the judge said in a stern voice, "I need you to think carefully. Don't lie."
"I have spoken the truth."
"I've told the truth."
"Write that down, clerk," said Van Spreckdal.
"Write that down, clerk," said Van Spreckdal.
The pen scratched again.
The pen scratched again.
"And this woman," continued the judge—"this woman who is being murdered at the side of the well—did you imagine her also?"
"And this woman," the judge continued, "this woman who is being killed at the side of the well—did you picture her too?"
"Certainly."
"Sure."
"You have never seen her?"
"Have you never seen her?"
"Never."
"Not ever."
Van Spreckdal rose indignantly; then, sitting down again, he seemed to consult his companion in a low voice.
Van Spreckdal stood up angrily; then, sitting back down, he appeared to discuss something quietly with his companion.
These two dark profiles silhouetted against the brightness of the window, and the three men standing behind me, the silence in the hall—everything made me shiver.
These two dark shapes stood out against the bright window, and the three men behind me, the silence in the hallway—everything made me shiver.
"What do you want with me? What have I done?" I murmured.
"What do you want from me? What have I done?" I murmured.
Suddenly Van Spreckdal said to my guardians:
Suddenly, Van Spreckdal said to my guardians:
"You can take the prisoner back to the carriage; we will go to Metzerstrasse."
"You can take the prisoner back to the carriage; we’ll head to Metzerstrasse."
Then, addressing me:
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"Christian Vénius," he cried, "you are in a deplorable situation. Collect your thoughts and remember that if the law of men is inflexible, there still remains for you the mercy of God. This you can merit by confessing your crime."
"Christian Vénius," he shouted, "you are in a terrible situation. Gather your thoughts and remember that while human laws are strict, you still have the grace of God to rely on. You can earn this by admitting your wrongdoing."
These words stunned me like a blow from a hammer. I fell back with extended arms, crying:
These words hit me hard like a hammer. I staggered back with my arms outstretched, crying:
"Ah! what a terrible dream!"
"Ugh! What a terrible dream!"
And I fainted.
And I passed out.
When I regained consciousness, the carriage was rolling slowly down the street; another one preceded us. The two officers were always with me. One of them on the way offered a pinch of snuff to his companion; mechanically I reached out my hand toward the snuff-box, but he withdrew it quickly.
When I came to, the carriage was moving slowly down the street; another one was in front of us. The two officers were always with me. One of them offered a pinch of snuff to his partner, and without thinking, I reached out for the snuff-box, but he quickly pulled it away.
My cheeks reddened with shame, and I turned away my head to conceal my emotion.
My cheeks flushed with embarrassment, and I turned my head away to hide how I felt.
"If you look outside," said the man with the snuff-box, "we shall be obliged to put handcuffs on you."
"If you look outside," said the man with the snuff-box, "we'll have to put handcuffs on you."
"May the devil strangle you, you infernal scoundrel!" I said to myself. And as the carriage now stopped, one of them got out, while the other held me by the collar; then, seeing that his comrade was ready to receive me, he pushed me rudely to him.
"May the devil strangle you, you hellish jerk!" I said to myself. As the carriage came to a stop, one of them got out while the other held me by the collar; then, seeing that his buddy was ready to take me, he shoved me roughly toward him.
These infinite precautions to hold possession of my person boded no good; but I was far from predicting the seriousness of the accusation that hung over my head until an alarming circumstance opened my eyes and threw me into despair.
These endless precautions to keep control of myself didn’t seem promising; however, I was nowhere near ready for the gravity of the accusation that loomed over me until a shocking event made me see the truth and plunged me into despair.
They pushed me along a low alley, the pavement of which was unequal and broken; along the wall there ran a yellowish ooze, exhaling a fetid odor. I walked down this dark place with the two men behind me. A little further there appeared the chiaroscuro of an interior courtyard.
They pushed me down a narrow alley, the pavement uneven and cracked; along the wall, a yellowish substance trickled, giving off a foul smell. I walked through this dark area with the two men behind me. A bit further ahead, I saw the light and shadow of an inner courtyard.
I grew more and more terror-stricken as I advanced. It was no natural feeling: it was a poignant anxiety, outside of nature—like the nightmare. I recoiled instinctively at each step.
I became increasingly terrified as I moved forward. It wasn't a normal feeling; it was an intense anxiety, unnatural—like a nightmare. I instinctively flinched with each step.
"Go on!" cried one of the policemen, laying his hand on my shoulder; "go on!"
"Go on!" shouted one of the policemen, putting his hand on my shoulder. "Go on!"
But what was my astonishment when, at the end of the passage, I saw the courtyard that I had drawn the night before, with its walls furnished with hooks, its rubbish-heap of old iron, its chicken-coops, and its rabbit-hutch. Not a dormer window, high or low, not a broken pane, not the slightest detail had been omitted.
But I was amazed when, at the end of the hallway, I saw the courtyard I had sketched the night before, with its walls lined with hooks, its pile of scrap metal, its chicken coops, and its rabbit hutch. Not a single dormer window, high or low, not a cracked pane, not the slightest detail was missing.
I was thunderstruck by this strange revelation.
I was shocked by this unexpected revelation.
Near the well were the two judges, Van Spreckdal and Richter. At their feet lay the old woman extended on her back, her long, thin, gray hair, her blue face, her eyes wide open, and her tongue between her teeth.
Near the well were the two judges, Van Spreckdal and Richter. At their feet lay the old woman, stretched out on her back, her long, thin, gray hair, her blue face, her eyes wide open, and her tongue caught between her teeth.
It was a horrible spectacle!
It was a terrible sight!
"Well," said Van Spreckdal, with solemn accents, "what have you to say?"
"Well," said Van Spreckdal, with a serious tone, "what do you have to say?"
I did not reply.
I didn't reply.
"Do you remember having thrown this woman, Theresa Becker, into this well, after having strangled her to rob her of her money."
"Do you remember throwing this woman, Theresa Becker, into this well after you strangled her to steal her money?"
"No," I cried, "no! I do not know this woman; I never saw her before. May God help me!"
"No," I screamed, "no! I don’t know this woman; I’ve never seen her before. May God help me!"
"That will do," he replied in a dry voice. And without saying another word he went out with his companion.
"That's enough," he said in a flat tone. And without another word, he left with his friend.
The officers now believed they had best put handcuffs on me. They took me back to the Raspelhaus, in a state of profound stupidity. I did not know what to think; my conscience itself troubled me; I even asked myself if I really had murdered the old woman!
The officers now thought it was best to put handcuffs on me. They took me back to the Raspelhaus, feeling completely dazed. I didn’t know what to think; my own conscience was bothering me; I even questioned whether I had really killed the old woman!
In the eyes of the officers I was condemned.
In the eyes of the officers, I was guilty.
I will not tell you of my emotions that night in the Raspelhaus, when, seated on my straw bed with the window opposite me and the gallows in perspective, I heard the watchmen cry in the silence of the night: "Sleep, people of Nuremberg; the Lord watches over you. One o'clock! Two o'clock! Three o'clock!"
I won't share my feelings from that night in the Raspelhaus, when I sat on my straw bed with the window in front of me and the gallows in view. I heard the watchmen call out in the stillness of the night: "Sleep, people of Nuremberg; the Lord is watching over you. One o'clock! Two o'clock! Three o'clock!"
Every one may form his own idea of such a night. There is a fine saying that it is better to be hanged innocent than guilty. For the soul, yes; but for the body, it makes no difference; on the contrary, it kicks, it curses its lot, it tries to escape, knowing well enough that its rôle ends with the rope. Add to this, that it repents not having sufficiently enjoyed life and at having listened to the soul when it preached abstinence.
Everyone can picture their own version of such a night. There's a well-known saying that it’s better to be hanged innocent than guilty. For the soul, that might be true; but for the body, it doesn’t matter. On the contrary, it struggles, it curses its fate, and it tries to escape, fully aware that its role ends with the rope. Furthermore, it regrets not having enjoyed life enough and for having listened to the soul when it preached about restraint.
"Ah! if I had only known!" it cried, "you would not have led me about by a string with your big words, your beautiful phrases, and your magnificent sentences! You would not have allured me with your fine promises. I should have had many happy moments that are now lost forever. Everything is over! You said to me: 'Control your passions.' Very well! I did control them. Here I am now! they are going to hang me, and you—later they will speak of you as a sublime soul, a stoical soul, a martyr to the errors of Justice. They will never think about me!"
"Ah! if I had only known!" it exclaimed, "you wouldn't have pulled me around with your fancy words, your beautiful phrases, and your impressive sentences! You wouldn't have seduced me with your smooth promises. I could have had so many happy moments that are now gone forever. It's all over! You told me: 'Control your passions.' Fine! I did control them. And now look at me! They're going to hang me, and you—later they'll talk about you as a noble soul, a stoic soul, a martyr to the mistakes of Justice. They will never think about me!"
Such were the sad reflections of my poor body.
Such were the sad thoughts of my poor body.
Day broke; at first, dull and undecided, it threw an uncertain light on my bull's-eye window with its cross-bars; then it blazed against the wall at the back. Outside the street became lively. This was a market-day; it was Friday. I heard the vegetable wagons pass and also the country people with their baskets. Some chickens cackled in their coops in passing and some butter sellers chattered together. The market opposite opened, and they began to arrange the stalls.
Daylight arrived; initially gray and uncertain, it cast a weak light on my bull's-eye window with its cross-bars; then it brightened against the back wall. Outside, the street came alive. It was market day; it was Friday. I heard the vegetable wagons roll by and the local farmers with their baskets. Some chickens squawked in their coops as they passed, and some butter sellers chatted among themselves. The market across the street opened, and they started setting up the stalls.
Finally, it was broad daylight and the vast murmur of the increasing crowd, housekeepers who assembled with baskets on their arms, coming and going, discussing and marketing, told me that it was eight o'clock.
Finally, it was broad daylight and the loud chatter of the growing crowd, housekeepers gathering with baskets on their arms, coming and going, talking and shopping, told me that it was eight o'clock.
With the light, my heart gained a little courage. Some of my black thoughts disappeared. I desired to see what was going on outside.
With the light, my heart felt a bit braver. Some of my dark thoughts faded away. I wanted to see what was happening outside.
Other prisoners before me had managed to climb up to the bull's-eye; they had dug some holes in the wall to mount more easily. I climbed in my turn, and, when seated in the oval edge of the window, with my legs bent and my head bowed, I could see the crowd, and all the life and movement. Tears ran freely down my cheeks. I thought no longer of suicide—I experienced a need to live and breathe, which was really extraordinary.
Other prisoners before me had managed to climb up to the bull's-eye; they had dug some holes in the wall to make it easier to get up. I climbed up in my turn, and when I was sitting on the oval edge of the window, with my legs bent and my head bowed, I could see the crowd and all the life and movement. Tears flowed freely down my cheeks. I no longer thought about suicide—I felt a strong need to live and breathe, which was truly extraordinary.
"Ah!" I said, "to live what happiness! Let them harness me to a wheelbarrow—let them put a ball and chain around my leg—nothing matters if I may only live!"
"Ah!" I said, "what happiness it is to live! Let them tie me to a wheelbarrow—let them put a ball and chain on my leg—nothing matters as long as I can just live!"
The old market, with its roof shaped like an extinguisher, supported on heavy pillars, made a superb picture: old women seated before their panniers of vegetables, their cages of poultry and their baskets of eggs; behind them the Jews, dealers in old clothes, their faces the color of old boxwood; butchers with bare arms, cutting up meat on their stalls; countrymen, with large hats on the backs of their heads, calm and grave with their hands behind their backs and resting on their sticks of hollywood, and tranquilly smoking their pipes. Then the tumult and noise of the crowd—those screaming, shrill, grave, high, and short words—those expressive gestures—those sudden attitudes that show from a distance the progress of a discussion and depict so well the character of the individual—in short, all this captivated my mind, and notwithstanding my sad condition, I felt happy to be still of the world.
The old market, with its roof shaped like a fire extinguisher, supported by heavy pillars, created a stunning scene: older women sitting in front of their baskets of vegetables, cages of poultry, and containers of eggs; behind them, the Jewish sellers of used clothes, their faces the color of aged boxwood; butchers with bare arms chopping up meat at their stalls; farmers, wearing large hats tilted back on their heads, calm and serious with their hands behind their backs resting on their wooden sticks, peacefully smoking their pipes. Then there was the chaos and noise of the crowd—those loud, sharp, serious, high, and short phrases—those expressive gestures—those sudden postures that from a distance reveal the intensity of a conversation and illustrate individual character—in short, all of this captivated my attention, and despite my sad state, I felt grateful to still be part of the world.
Now, while I looked about in this manner, a man—a butcher—passed, inclining forward and carrying an enormous quarter of beef on his shoulders; his arms were bare, his elbows were raised upward and his head was bent under them. His long hair, like that of Salvator's Sicambrian, hid his face from me; and yet, at the first glance, I trembled.
Now, while I was looking around like this, a man—a butcher—walked by, leaning forward and carrying a huge piece of beef on his shoulders; his arms were bare, his elbows lifted, and his head was lowered beneath them. His long hair, like that of Salvator's Sicambrian, obscured his face from me; yet, at first glance, I flinched.
"It is he!" I said.
"It's him!" I said.
All the blood in my body rushed to my heart. I got down from the window trembling to the ends of my fingers, feeling my cheeks quiver, and the pallor spread over my face, stammering in a choked voice:
All the blood in my body rushed to my heart. I got down from the window, trembling from head to toe, feeling my cheeks quiver, and the pallor spread across my face, stammering in a choked voice:
"It is he! he is there—there—and I, I have to die to expiate his crime. Oh, God! what shall I do? What shall I do?"
"It’s him! He’s right there—there—and I, I have to die to pay for his crime. Oh, God! What should I do? What should I do?"
A sudden idea, an inspiration from Heaven, flashed across my mind. I put my hand in the pocket of my coat—my box of crayons was there!
A sudden idea, an inspiration from above, flashed into my mind. I reached into the pocket of my coat—my box of crayons was there!
Then rushing to the wall, I began to trace the scene of the murder with superhuman energy. No uncertainty, no hesitation! I knew the man! I had seen him! He was there before me!
Then, rushing to the wall, I started to outline the scene of the murder with incredible energy. No doubt, no hesitation! I knew the guy! I had seen him! He was right there in front of me!
At ten o'clock the jailer came to my cell. His owl-like impassibility gave place to admiration.
At ten o'clock, the jailer came to my cell. His owl-like expression of indifference turned into admiration.
"Is it possible?" he cried, standing at the threshold.
"Is it possible?" he shouted, standing at the doorway.
"Go, bring me my judges," I said to him, pursuing my work with an increasing exultation.
"Go get my judges," I told him, continuing my work with growing excitement.
Schlüssel answered:
Schlüssel replied:
"They are waiting for you in the trial-room."
"They're waiting for you in the trial room."
"I wish to make a revelation," I cried, as I put the finishing touches to the mysterious personage.
"I want to make a revelation," I shouted, as I added the final touches to the mysterious figure.
He lived; he was frightful to see. His full-faced figure, foreshortened upon the wall, stood out from the white background with an astonishing vitality.
He lived; he was terrifying to look at. His full-faced figure, stretched out against the wall, stood out from the white background with an incredible energy.
The jailer went away.
The guard left.
A few minutes afterward the two judges appeared. They were stupefied. I, trembling, with extended hand, said to them:
A few minutes later, the two judges showed up. They were stunned. I, shaking and with my hand outstretched, said to them:
"There is the murderer!"
"That's the murderer!"
After a few moments of silence, Van Spreckdal asked me:
After a brief moment of silence, Van Spreckdal asked me:
"What is his name?"
"What's his name?"
"I don't know; but he is at this moment in the market; he is cutting up meat in the third stall to the left as you enter from Trabaus Street."
"I don't know; but he's currently in the market; he's butchering meat in the third stall on the left as you enter from Trabaus Street."
"What do you think?" said he, leaning toward his colleague.
"What do you think?" he asked, leaning toward his colleague.
"Send for the man," he replied in a grave tone.
"Call for the guy," he said in a serious tone.
Several officers retained in the corridor obeyed this order. The judges stood, examining the sketch. As for me, I had dropped on my bed of straw, my head between my knees, perfectly exhausted.
Several officers stationed in the corridor followed this order. The judges stood, reviewing the sketch. As for me, I had collapsed onto my bed of straw, my head between my knees, completely worn out.
Soon steps were heard echoing under the archway. Those who have never awaited the hour of deliverance and counted the minutes, which seem like centuries—those who have never experienced the sharp emotions of outrage, terror, hope, and doubt—can have no conception of the inward chills that I experienced at that moment. I should have distinguished the step of the murderer, walking between the guards, among a thousand others. They approached. The judges themselves seemed moved. I raised up my head, my heart feeling as if an iron hand had clutched it, and I fixed my eyes upon the closed door. It opened. The man entered. His cheeks were red and swollen, the muscles in his large contracted jaws twitched as far as his ears, and his little restless eyes, yellow like a wolf's, gleamed beneath his heavy yellowish red eyebrows.
Soon, footsteps echoed under the archway. Those who have never waited for the moment of freedom and counted the minutes that feel like centuries—those who haven't felt the sharp emotions of anger, fear, hope, and doubt—can't understand the shivers I felt at that moment. I should have recognized the murderer’s step, walking between the guards, among a thousand others. They were getting closer. The judges themselves seemed affected. I lifted my head, my heart feeling as if an iron hand had gripped it, and I fixed my gaze on the closed door. It opened. The man entered. His cheeks were red and swollen, the muscles in his large, contracted jaws twitched all the way to his ears, and his little restless eyes, yellow like a wolf’s, glinted beneath his heavy, yellowish-red eyebrows.
Van Spreckdal showed him the sketch in silence.
Van Spreckdal silently showed him the sketch.
Then that murderous man, with the large shoulders, having looked, grew pale—then, giving a roar which thrilled us all with terror, he waved his enormous arms, and jumped backward to overthrow the guards. There was a terrible struggle in the corridor; you could hear nothing but the panting breathing of the butcher, his muttered imprecations, and the short words and the shuffling feet of the guard, upon the flagstones.
Then that violent man with the broad shoulders looked over and went pale—then, letting out a roar that scared us all, he waved his massive arms and jumped back to take down the guards. There was a fierce struggle in the hallway; all you could hear was the heavy breathing of the butcher, his quiet curses, and the quick exchanges and shuffling feet of the guards on the stone floor.
This lasted only about a minute.
This lasted for only about a minute.
Finally the assassin reentered, with his head hanging down, his eyes bloodshot, and his hands fastened behind his back. He looked again at the picture of the murder; he seemed to reflect, and then, in a low voice, as if talking to himself:
Finally, the assassin came back in, his head down, his eyes red, and his hands tied behind his back. He glanced once more at the image of the murder; he seemed to think about it, and then, in a quiet voice, as if speaking to himself:
"Who could have seen me," he said, "at midnight?"
"Who could have seen me," he said, "at midnight?"
I was saved!
I was rescued!
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Many years have passed since that terrible adventure. Thank Heaven! I make silhouettes no longer, nor portraits of burgomasters. Through hard work and perseverance, I have conquered my place in the world, and I earn my living honorably by painting works of art—the sole end, in my opinion, to which a true artist should aspire. But the memory of that nocturnal sketch has always remained in my mind. Sometimes, in the midst of work, the thought of it recurs. Then I lay down my palette and dream for hours.
Many years have gone by since that awful adventure. Thank goodness! I no longer create silhouettes or portraits of mayors. Through hard work and determination, I've carved out my place in the world, earning my living honorably by creating works of art—the only goal, in my view, that a true artist should aim for. But the memory of that nighttime sketch has always stuck with me. Sometimes, while I'm working, that thought comes back. Then I put down my palette and daydream for hours.
How could a crime committed by a man that I did not know—at a place that I had never seen—have been reproduced by my pencil, in all its smallest details?
How could a crime committed by a man I didn't know—at a place I had never seen—be captured by my pencil, down to the tiniest details?
Was it chance? No! And moreover, what is chance but the effect of a cause of which we are ignorant?
Was it luck? No! And besides, what is luck but the result of a cause we don't understand?
Was Schiller right when he said: "The immortal soul does not participate in the weaknesses of matter; during the sleep of the body, it spreads its radiant wings and travels, God knows where! What it then does, no one can say, but inspiration sometimes betrays the secret of its nocturnal wanderings."
Was Schiller right when he said: "The immortal soul doesn’t share in the weaknesses of the body; while the body sleeps, it spreads its radiant wings and travels, who knows where! What it does then, no one can say, but inspiration sometimes reveals the secret of its nighttime journeys."
Who knows? Nature is more audacious in her realities than man in his most fantastic imaginings.
Who knows? Nature is bolder in its realities than humans are in their wildest dreams.
MR. HIGGINBOTHAM'S CATASTROPHE
BY NATHANIEL HAWTHORNE
BY NATHANIEL HAWTHORNE
Here is a story, one of the "Twice-Told Tales," the subject of which might well have been selected for treatment by Poe. In his hands, how different the result would have been; how much more physical and poignant, how much less spiritual and charming!
Here's a story, one of the "Twice-Told Tales," that could have easily been chosen for exploration by Poe. In his hands, the outcome would have been so different; it would have been much more physical and intense, and far less spiritual and delightful!
The real difference in the two writers is not so much a conflict of artistic methods as it is a difference of moral make-up. Hawthorne, the son of a Salem sea captain, was descended from the grimmest Puritans; Poe was the son of an actor.
The real difference between the two writers isn't just a clash of artistic styles but more about their moral character. Hawthorne, the son of a Salem sea captain, came from a lineage of strict Puritans; Poe was the son of an actor.
MR. HIGGINBOTHAM'S CATASTROPHE
Mr. Higginbotham's Disaster
By NATHANIEL HAWTHORNE
By Nathaniel Hawthorne
A young fellow, a tobacco-pedler by trade, was on his way from Morristown, where he had dealt largely with the Deacon of the Shaker settlement, to the village of Parker's Falls, on Salmon River. He had a neat little cart, painted green, with a box of cigars depicted on each side-panel, and an Indian chief, holding a pipe and a golden tobacco-stalk, on the rear. The pedler drove a smart little mare, and was a young man of excellent character, keen at a bargain, but none the worse liked by the Yankees; who, as I have heard them say, would rather be shaved with a sharp razor than a dull one. Especially was he beloved by the pretty girls along the Connecticut, whose favor he used to court by presents of the best smoking tobacco in his stock; knowing well that the country lasses of New England are generally great performers on pipes. Moreover, as will be seen in the course of my story, the pedler was inquisitive, and something of a tattler, always itching to hear the news, and anxious to tell it again.
A young guy, a tobacco salesman by trade, was on his way from Morristown, where he had done a lot of business with the Deacon of the Shaker settlement, to the village of Parker's Falls, on Salmon River. He had a tidy little green cart with a box of cigars painted on each side, and an Indian chief holding a pipe and a golden tobacco stalk on the back. The salesman drove a lively little mare and was a young man of great character, sharp with a deal, but the Yankees didn’t mind him; as I’ve heard them say, they’d rather be shaved with a sharp razor than a dull one. He was especially liked by the pretty girls along the Connecticut, whose attention he won by giving them the best smoking tobacco from his stock; knowing well that the country girls of New England are usually good at handling pipes. Additionally, as you’ll see in my story, the salesman was curious and a bit of a gossip, always eager to hear the latest news and excited to share it.
After an early breakfast at Morristown, the tobacco-pedler, whose name was Dominicus Pike, had traveled seven miles through a solitary piece of woods, without speaking a word to anybody but himself and his little gray mare. It being nearly seven o'clock, he was as eager to hold a morning gossip as a city shopkeeper to read the morning paper. An opportunity seemed at hand, when, after lighting a cigar with a sun-glass, he looked up and perceived a man coming over the brow of the hill, at the foot of which the pedler had stopped his green cart. Dominicus watched him as he descended, and noticed that he carried a bundle over his shoulder on the end of a stick, and traveled with a weary, yet determined pace. He did not look as if he had started in the freshness of the morning, but had footed it all night, and meant to do the same all day.
After an early breakfast in Morristown, the tobacco seller, named Dominicus Pike, had traveled seven miles through a quiet stretch of woods, without talking to anyone except himself and his little gray mare. Since it was nearly seven o'clock, he was just as eager to have a morning chat as a city shopkeeper is to read the morning paper. An opportunity seemed to present itself when, after lighting a cigar with a magnifying glass, he looked up and saw a man coming over the hill where Dominicus had parked his green cart. Dominicus watched him as he walked down and noticed that he carried a bundle slung over his shoulder on the end of a stick and walked with a tired but determined stride. He didn't look like he had started fresh in the morning; it seemed he had been walking all night and planned to keep going all day.
"Good-morning, mister," said Dominicus, when within speaking distance. "You go a pretty good jog. What's the latest news at Parker's Falls?"
"Good morning, sir," said Dominicus, as he got close enough to talk. "You run pretty well. What's the latest news at Parker's Falls?"
The man pulled the broad brim of a gray hat over his eyes, and answered, rather sullenly, that he did not come from Parker's Falls, which, as being the limit of his own day's journey, the pedler had naturally mentioned in his inquiry.
The man pulled down the wide brim of his gray hat, shading his eyes, and replied, somewhat grumpily, that he wasn't from Parker's Falls, which the peddler had naturally mentioned in his question since it was the furthest he had traveled that day.
"Well, then," rejoined Dominicus Pike, "let's have the latest news where you did come from. I'm not particular about Parker's Falls. Any place will answer."
"Well, then," said Dominicus Pike, "let's hear the latest news from where you came from. I'm not picky about Parker's Falls. Any place will do."
Being thus importuned, the traveler—who was as ill-looking a fellow as one would desire to meet, in a solitary piece of woods—appeared to hesitate a little, as if he was either searching his memory for news or weighing the expediency of telling it. At last, mounting on the step of the cart, he whispered in the ear of Dominicus, though he might have shouted aloud and no other mortal would have heard him.
Being pressured like this, the traveler—who looked pretty rough for someone wandering in a remote forest—seemed to pause for a moment, as if he were either trying to recall some news or deciding whether it was wise to share it. Finally, stepping up to the cart, he leaned in and whispered to Dominicus, even though he could have easily shouted and no one else would have heard him.
"I do remember one little trifle of news," said he. "Old Mr. Higginbotham, of Kimballton, was murdered in his orchard, at eight o'clock last night, by an Irishman and a nigger. They strung him up to the branch of a St. Michael's pear-tree, where nobody would find him till the morning."
"I do remember one small piece of news," he said. "Old Mr. Higginbotham from Kimballton was murdered in his orchard at eight o'clock last night by an Irishman and a Black man. They hung him from the branch of a St. Michael's pear tree, where no one would find him until morning."
As soon as this horrible intelligence was communicated the stranger betook himself to his journey again, with more speed than ever, not even turning his head when Dominicus invited him to smoke a Spanish cigar and relate all the particulars. The pedler whistled to his mare and went up the hill, pondering on the doleful fate of Mr. Higginbotham, whom he had known in the way of trade, having sold him many a bunch of long nines, and a great deal of pigtail, lady's twist, and fig tobacco. He was rather astonished at the rapidity with which the news had spread. Kimballton was nearly sixty miles distant in a straight line; the murder had been perpetrated only at eight o'clock the preceding night; yet Dominicus had heard of it at seven in the morning, when, in all probability, poor Mr. Higginbotham'a own family had but just discovered his corpse, hanging on the St. Michael's pear-tree. The stranger on foot must have worn seven-league boots, to travel at such a rate.
As soon as this terrible news was shared, the stranger hurried back on his journey, even faster than before, not even glancing back when Dominicus invited him to smoke a Spanish cigar and share the details. The peddler whistled for his mare and climbed the hill, reflecting on the tragic fate of Mr. Higginbotham, whom he had known through trade, having sold him many bundles of long nines, and a lot of pigtail, lady's twist, and fig tobacco. He was quite surprised at how quickly the news had spread. Kimballton was almost sixty miles away in a straight line; the murder had occurred only at eight o'clock the night before; yet Dominicus had heard about it by seven in the morning, when, probably, poor Mr. Higginbotham's own family had only just discovered his body hanging from the St. Michael's pear tree. The stranger on foot must have had some magical boots to travel that fast.
"Ill news flies fast, they say," thought Dominicus Pike; "but this beats railroads. The fellow ought to be hired to go express with the President's Message."
"Bad news travels quickly, they say," thought Dominicus Pike; "but this is faster than trains. The guy should be hired to deliver the President's Message."
The difficulty was solved by supposing that the narrator had made a mistake of one day in the date of the occurrence; so that our friend did not hesitate to introduce the story at every tavern and country store along the road, expending a whole bunch of Spanish wrappers among at least twenty horrified audiences. He found himself invariably the first bearer of the intelligence, and was so pestered with questions that he could not avoid filling up the outline, till it became quite a respectable narrative. He met with one piece of corroborative evidence. Mr. Higginbotham was a trader; and a former clerk of his, to whom Dominicus related the facts, testified that the old gentleman was accustomed to return home through the orchard, about nightfall, with the money and valuable papers of the store in his pocket. The clerk manifested but little grief at Mr. Higginbotham's catastrophe, hinting, what the pedler had discovered in his own dealings with him, that he was a crusty old fellow, as close as a vise. His property would descend to a pretty niece who was now keeping school in Kimballton.
The problem was resolved by assuming that the narrator had mixed up the date by one day; so our friend didn’t hesitate to share the story at every tavern and country store along the way, handing out a whole bunch of Spanish wrappers to at least twenty shocked listeners. He found himself always being the first to share the news and was so bombarded with questions that he couldn’t help but fill in the details until it turned into quite a decent story. He came across one piece of supporting evidence. Mr. Higginbotham was a trader, and a former clerk of his, to whom Dominicus shared the facts, confirmed that the old gentleman usually returned home through the orchard around dusk, with the store’s money and important papers in his pocket. The clerk showed little sadness over Mr. Higginbotham’s fate, suggesting, as the peddler had realized in his encounters with him, that he was a grumpy old man, as tight as a vise. His assets would go to a lovely niece who was currently teaching in Kimballton.
What with telling the news for the public good, and driving bargains for his own, Dominicus was so much delayed on the road that he chose to put up at a tavern, about five miles short of Parker's Falls. After supper, lighting one of his prime cigars, he seated himself in the barroom, and went through the story of the murder, which had grown so fast that it took him a half hour to tell. There were as many as twenty people in the room, nineteen of whom received it all for gospel. But the twentieth was an elderly farmer, who had arrived on horseback a short time before, and was now seated in a corner smoking his pipe. When the story was concluded, he rose up very deliberately, brought his chair right in front of Dominicus, and stared him full in the face, puffing out the vilest tobacco smoke the pedler had ever smelled.
With all the news he was sharing for the public good and making deals for himself, Dominicus got so delayed on the road that he decided to stop at a tavern, about five miles before Parker's Falls. After dinner, he lit one of his best cigars, settled into the barroom, and recounted the murder story, which had spread so quickly that it took him half an hour to finish. There were about twenty people in the room, and nineteen of them took it all as truth. But the twentieth was an older farmer who had just arrived on horseback and was now sitting in a corner, smoking his pipe. When Dominicus wrapped up his story, the farmer stood up very slowly, moved his chair directly in front of Dominicus, and stared him right in the face, exhaling the worst tobacco smoke the peddler had ever encountered.
"Will you make affidavit," demanded he in the tone of a country justice taking an examination, "that old Squire Higginbotham of Kimballton was murdered in his orchard the night before last, and found hanging on his great pear-tree yesterday morning?"
"Will you swear an affidavit," he demanded in the tone of a small-town judge conducting an inquiry, "that old Squire Higginbotham of Kimballton was murdered in his orchard the night before last, and was found hanging from his large pear tree yesterday morning?"
"I tell the story as I heard it, mister," answered Dominicus, dropping his half-burned cigar; "I don't say that I saw the thing done. So I can't take my oath that he was murdered exactly in that way."
"I’m sharing the story as I heard it, sir," replied Dominicus, dropping his half-burned cigar. "I can’t say that I saw the thing happen, so I can’t swear that he was murdered exactly that way."
"But I can take mine," said the farmer, "that if Squire Higginbotham was murdered night before last, I drank a glass of bitters with his ghost this morning. Being a neighbor of mine, he called me into his store, as I was riding by, and treated me, and then asked me to do a little business for him on the road. He didn't seem to know any more about his own murder than I did."
"But I can tell you my story," said the farmer, "that if Squire Higginbotham was murdered the night before last, I shared a drink with his ghost this morning. Being a neighbor, he called me into his store as I was passing by, treated me to a drink, and then asked me to run an errand for him. He didn't seem to know any more about his own murder than I did."
"Why, then, it can't be a fact!" exclaimed Dominicus Pike.
"Then it can't be true!" exclaimed Dominicus Pike.
"I guess he'd have mentioned it, if it was," said the old farmer; and he removed his chair back to the corner, leaving Dominicus quite down in the mouth.
"I suppose he would have said something if it were true," said the old farmer, as he pushed his chair back into the corner, leaving Dominicus feeling pretty down.
Here was a sad resurrection of old Mr. Higginbotham! The pedler had no heart to mingle in the conversation any more, but comforted himself with a glass of gin and water, and went to bed, where, all night long, he dreamed of hanging on the St. Michael's pear-tree. To avoid the old farmer (whom he so detested that his suspension would have pleased him better than Mr. Higginbotham's), Dominicus rose in the gray of the morning, put the little mare into the green cart, and trotted swiftly away toward Parker's Falls. The fresh breeze, the dewy road, and the pleasant summer dawn revived his spirits, and might have encouraged him to repeat the old story had there been anybody awake to hear it. But he met neither ox-team, light wagon, chaise, horseman, nor foot-traveler, till, just as he crossed Salmon River, a man came trudging down to the bridge with a bundle over his shoulder, on the end of a stick.
Here was a sad reminder of old Mr. Higginbotham! The peddler had no desire to join the conversation any longer, so he comforted himself with a glass of gin and water and went to bed, where all night long he dreamed of hanging from the St. Michael's pear tree. To avoid the old farmer (whom he disliked so much that he would have preferred the farmer's suspension over Mr. Higginbotham's), Dominicus got up at dawn, put the little mare in the green cart, and quickly headed toward Parker's Falls. The fresh breeze, the dewy road, and the nice summer morning lifted his spirits and might have inspired him to tell the old story if anyone had been awake to listen. But he didn't encounter any ox teams, light wagons, carriages, horseback riders, or pedestrians until just as he crossed Salmon River, when a man came trudging down to the bridge with a bundle over his shoulder on the end of a stick.
"Good morning, mister," said the pedler, reining in his mare. "If you come from Kimballton or that neighborhood maybe you can tell me the real fact about this affair of old Mr. Higginbotham. Was the old fellow actually murdered, two or three nights ago, by an Irishman and a nigger?"
"Good morning, sir," said the peddler, pulling in his mare. "If you’re coming from Kimballton or that area, maybe you can tell me the truth about what happened with old Mr. Higginbotham. Was the old guy actually murdered, a couple of nights ago, by an Irishman and a Black man?"
Dominicus had spoken in too great a hurry to observe, at first, that the stranger himself had a deep tinge of negro blood. On hearing this sudden question, the Ethiopian appeared to change his skin, its yellow hue becoming a ghastly white, while, shaking and stammering, he thus replied:
Dominicus had rushed his words too quickly to notice, at first, that the stranger had a significant amount of Black ancestry. When he heard this unexpected question, the Ethiopian seemed to lose color, his yellowish skin turning a sickly white, and while shaking and stammering, he replied:
"No! no! There was no colored man! It was an Irishman that hanged him last night, at eight o'clock. I came away at seven! His folks can't have looked for him in the orchard yet."
"No! No! There was no Black man! It was an Irish guy who hanged him last night at eight o'clock. I left at seven! His family can't have gone looking for him in the orchard yet."
Scarcely had the yellow man spoken, when he interrupted himself, and, though he seemed weary enough before, continued his journey at a pace which would have kept the pedler's mare on a smart trot. Dominicus stared after him in great perplexity. If the murder had not been committed till Tuesday night, who was the prophet that had foretold it, in all its circumstances, on Tuesday morning? If Mr. Higginbotham's corpse were not yet discovered by his own family, how came the mulatto, at above thirty miles' distance, to know that he was hanging in the orchard, especially as he had left Kimballton before the unfortunate man was hanged at all? These ambiguous circumstances, with the stranger's surprise and terror, made Dominicus think of raising a hue and cry after him, as an accomplice in the murder; since a murder, it seemed, had really been perpetrated.
Scarcely had the yellow man spoken when he interrupted himself and, even though he appeared tired before, continued his journey at a pace that would have kept the pedler's mare moving briskly. Dominicus stared after him in confusion. If the murder hadn't happened until Tuesday night, who was the person that had predicted it, with all its details, on Tuesday morning? If Mr. Higginbotham's body hadn't yet been found by his own family, how did the mulatto, over thirty miles away, know that he was hanging in the orchard, especially since he had left Kimballton before the unfortunate man was hanged at all? These unclear circumstances, along with the stranger's shock and fear, made Dominicus consider raising an alarm after him as an accomplice in the murder, since it seemed a murder had actually been committed.
"But let the poor devil go," thought the pedler. "I don't want his black blood on my head; and hanging the nigger wouldn't unhang Mr. Higginbotham. Unhang the old gentleman! It's a sin, I know; but I should hate to have him come to life a second time, and give me the lie!"
"But let the poor guy go," thought the peddler. "I don't want his blood on my hands; and executing him wouldn't bring Mr. Higginbotham back. Bring the old guy back! I know it's wrong, but I would hate to have him come back to life and call me a liar!"
With these meditations, Dominicus Pike drove into the street of Parker's Falls, which, as everybody knows, is as thriving a village as three cotton factories and a slitting mill can make it. The machinery was not in motion, and but a few of the shop doors unbarred, when he alighted in the stable-yard of the tavern, and made it his first business to order the mare four quarts of oats. His second duty, of course, was to impart Mr. Higginbotham's catastrophe to the hostler. He deemed it advisable, however, not to be too positive as to the date of the direful fact, and also to be uncertain whether it were perpetrated by an Irishman and a mulatto, or by the son of Erin alone. Neither did he profess to relate it on his own authority, nor that of any one person; but mentioned it as a report generally diffused.
With these thoughts, Dominicus Pike drove into the street of Parker's Falls, which, as everyone knows, is a pretty bustling village thanks to three cotton factories and a slitting mill. The machines weren’t running, and only a few shop doors were open when he got down in the tavern's stable yard. His first order of business was to get the mare four quarts of oats. His next task was to tell the hostler about Mr. Higginbotham's disaster. However, he thought it best not to be too sure about when exactly the terrible event took place, and he was also unsure whether it involved an Irishman and a mulatto, or just the son of Erin. He didn’t claim to share the story based on his own knowledge or that of one specific person, but merely mentioned it as a rumor that was going around.
The story ran through the town like fire among girdled trees, and became so much the universal talk that nobody could tell whence it had originated. Mr. Higginbotham was as well known at Parker's Falls as any citizen of the place, being part owner of the slitting mill, and a considerable stockholder in the cotton factories. The inhabitants felt their own prosperity interested in his fate. Such was the excitement that the "Parker's Falls Gazette" anticipated its regular day of publication, and came out with half a form of blank paper and a column of double pica emphasized with capitals, and headed "HORRID MURDER OF MR. HIGGINBOTHAM!" Among other dreadful details, the printed account described the mark of the cord round the dead man's neck, and stated the number of thousand dollars of which he had been robbed; there was much pathos also about the affliction of his niece, who had gone from one fainting fit to another, ever since her uncle was found hanging on the St. Michael's pear-tree with his pockets inside out. The village poet likewise commemorated the young lady's grief in seventeen stanzas of a ballad. The selectmen held a meeting, and, in consideration of Mr. Higginbotham's claims on the town, determined to issue handbills, offering a reward of five hundred dollars for the apprehension of his murderers, and the recovery of the stolen property.
The news spread through the town like wildfire, becoming so widely discussed that no one knew where it had come from. Mr. Higginbotham was as well-known in Parker's Falls as any resident, being a part owner of the slitting mill and a significant stockholder in the cotton factories. The townspeople felt their own prosperity tied to his fate. The excitement was so great that the "Parker's Falls Gazette" rushed its usual publication schedule and came out with half a page of blank paper and a column in big, bold letters, titled "HORRIBLE MURDER OF MR. HIGGINBOTHAM!" Among other shocking details, the article mentioned the mark left by the cord around the dead man's neck and how many thousands of dollars he had been robbed of; it also conveyed the agony of his niece, who had been suffering from fainting spells ever since her uncle was discovered hanging from the St. Michael's pear tree with his pockets turned inside out. The village poet wrote seventeen stanzas about the young woman's sorrow. The selectmen held a meeting and, considering Mr. Higginbotham's contributions to the town, decided to distribute handbills offering a reward of five hundred dollars for the capture of his murderers and the recovery of the stolen goods.
Meanwhile, the whole population of Parker's Falls, consisting of shopkeepers, mistresses of boarding-houses, factory girls, mill men, and schoolboys, rushed into the street, and kept up such a terrible loquacity as more than compensated for the silence of the cotton-machines which refrained from their usual din, out of respect to the deceased. Had Mr. Higginbotham cared about posthumous renown, his untimely ghost would have exulted in this tumult. Our friend Dominicus, in his vanity of heart, forgot his intended precautions, and, mounting on the town pump, announced himself as the bearer of the authentic intelligence which had caused so wonderful a sensation. He immediately became the great man of the moment, and had just begun a new edition of the narrative, with a voice like a field preacher, when the mail stage drove into the village street. It had traveled all night, and must have shifted horses at Kimballton at three in the morning.
Meanwhile, the entire population of Parker's Falls, including shopkeepers, boarding house owners, factory workers, and schoolboys, rushed into the street, creating such a loud chatter that it more than made up for the silence of the cotton machines, which were respectfully quiet for the deceased. If Mr. Higginbotham cared about being remembered after death, his untimely ghost would have reveled in this commotion. Our friend Dominicus, in his eagerness, forgot his planned precautions and, climbing onto the town pump, announced himself as the bearer of the amazing news that had caused such a stir. He quickly became the center of attention and had just begun a new version of the story, speaking like a field preacher, when the mail stage rolled into the village street. It had traveled all night and must have changed horses at Kimballton at three in the morning.
"Now we shall hear all the particulars," shouted the crowd.
"Now we'll hear all the details," shouted the crowd.
The coach rumbled up to the piazza of the tavern, followed by a thousand people; for if any man had been minding his own business till then, he now left it at sixes and sevens, to hear the news. The pedler, foremost in the race, discovered two passengers, both of whom had been startled from a comfortable nap to find themselves in the centre of a mob. Every man assailing them with separate questions, all propounded at once, the couple were struck speechless, though one was a lawyer and the other a young lady.
The coach rolled up to the square in front of the tavern, followed by a huge crowd; because if anyone had been minding their own business until then, they ditched it in a hurry to hear the news. The peddler, leading the way, found two passengers, both of whom had been jolted from a nice nap to find themselves in the middle of a mob. Everyone bombarded them with different questions all at once, leaving the two speechless, even though one was a lawyer and the other a young woman.
"Mr. Higginbotham! Mr. Higginbotham! Tell us the particulars about old Mr. Higginbotham!" bawled the mob. "What is the coroner's verdict? Are the murderers apprehended? Is Mr. Higginbotham's niece come out of her fainting fits? Mr. Higginbotham! Mr. Higginbotham!!"
"Mr. Higginbotham! Mr. Higginbotham! Tell us what happened with old Mr. Higginbotham!" yelled the crowd. "What's the coroner's verdict? Have the killers been caught? Is Mr. Higginbotham's niece done with her fainting spells? Mr. Higginbotham! Mr. Higginbotham!!"
The coachman said not a word, except to swear awfully at the hostler for not bringing him a fresh team of horses. The lawyer inside had generally his wits about him, even when asleep; the first thing he did, after learning the cause of the excitement, was to produce a large red pocketbook. Meantime, Dominicus Pike, being an extremely polite young man, and also suspecting that a female tongue would tell the story as glibly as a lawyer's, had handed the lady out of the coach. She was a fine, smart girl, now wide-awake and bright as a button, and had such a sweet, pretty mouth that Dominicus would almost as lief have heard a love tale from it as a tale of murder.
The coachman didn't say a thing, except to curse at the stableman for not bringing him a fresh set of horses. The lawyer inside was typically sharp, even when asleep; the first thing he did after finding out what was going on was take out a large red wallet. Meanwhile, Dominicus Pike, being an extremely polite young man and also thinking that a woman's perspective would share the story just as easily as a lawyer's, helped the lady out of the coach. She was a lovely, lively girl, now fully awake and bright as a button, and had such a sweet, pretty smile that Dominicus would have just as soon heard a love story from her as a tale of murder.
"Gentlemen and ladies," said the lawyer, to the shopkeepers, the mill men, and the factory girls, "I can assure you that some unaccountable mistake, or, more probably, a wilful falsehood, maliciously contrived to injure Mr. Higginbotham's credit, has excited this singular uproar. We passed through Kimballton at three o'clock this morning, and most certainly should have been informed of the murder had any been perpetrated. But I have proof, nearly as strong as Mr. Higginbotham's own oral testimony, in the negative. Here is a note, relating to a suit of his in the Connecticut courts, which was delivered me from that gentleman himself. I find it dated at ten o'clock last evening."
"Gentlemen and ladies," said the lawyer to the shopkeepers, the mill workers, and the factory girls, "I assure you that some inexplicable mistake, or more likely, a deliberate lie, maliciously crafted to damage Mr. Higginbotham's reputation, has caused this unusual uproar. We passed through Kimballton at three o'clock this morning, and we definitely would have been informed if a murder had taken place. But I have evidence, almost as strong as Mr. Higginbotham's own testimony, proving the opposite. Here’s a note about a lawsuit he's involved in in the Connecticut courts, which was given to me directly by him. It’s dated at ten o'clock last night."
So saying, the lawyer exhibited the date and signature of the note, which irrefragably proved, either that this perverse Mr. Higginbotham was alive when he wrote it, or—as some deemed the more probable case of two doubtful ones—that he was so absorbed in worldly business as to continue to transact it, even after his death. But unexpected evidence was forthcoming. The young lady, after listening to the pedler's explanation, merely seized a moment to smooth her gown and put her curls in order, and then appeared at the tavern-door, making a modest signal to be heard.
As he said this, the lawyer showed the date and signature of the note, which clearly proved either that this difficult Mr. Higginbotham was alive when he wrote it, or—as some thought was the more likely of the two uncertain options—that he was so caught up in worldly affairs that he continued to handle them even after his death. But unexpected evidence emerged. The young lady, after hearing the peddler's explanation, quickly took a moment to smooth her dress and fix her hair, then appeared at the tavern door, making a subtle signal to be heard.
"Good people," said she, "I am Mr. Higginbotham's niece."
"Good people," she said, "I’m Mr. Higginbotham's niece."
A wondering murmur passed through the crowd, on beholding her so rosy and bright; that same unhappy niece whom they had supposed, on the authority of the "Parker's Falls Gazette," to be lying at death's door in a fainting fit. But some shrewd fellows had doubted, all along, whether a young lady would be quite so desperate at the hanging of a rich old uncle.
A curious murmur spread through the crowd as they saw her looking so cheerful and bright; the same unfortunate niece they thought, based on the "Parker's Falls Gazette," was on her deathbed in a fainting spell. However, some sharp observers had always questioned whether a young woman would truly be that distraught over the hanging of a wealthy old uncle.
"You see," continued Miss Higginbotham, with a smile, "that this strange story is quite unfounded, as to myself; and I believe I may affirm it to be equally so in regard to my dear uncle Higginbotham. He has the kindness to give me a home in his house, though I contribute to my own support by teaching a school. I left Kimballton this morning to spend the vacation of commencement week with a friend, about five miles from Parker's Falls. My generous uncle, when he heard me on the stairs, called me to his bedside, and gave me two dollars and fifty cents, to pay my stage fare, and another dollar for my extra expenses. He then laid his pocketbook under his pillow, shook hands with me, and advised me to take some biscuit in my bag, instead of breakfasting on the road. I feel confident, therefore, that I left my beloved relative alive, and trust that I shall find him so on my return."
"You see," Miss Higginbotham said with a smile, "this strange story about me is completely unfounded; and I believe I can say the same for my dear Uncle Higginbotham. He's kind enough to offer me a home in his house, even though I support myself by teaching at a school. I left Kimballton this morning to spend the commencement week vacation with a friend, about five miles from Parker's Falls. My generous uncle, when he heard me on the stairs, called me to his bedside and gave me two dollars and fifty cents for my bus fare, plus another dollar for my extra expenses. He then placed his wallet under his pillow, shook my hand, and suggested I pack some biscuits instead of having breakfast on the way. Therefore, I feel confident that I left my beloved relative alive, and I trust I will find him so upon my return."
The young lady courtesied at the close of her speech, which was so sensible and well-worded, and delivered with such grace and propriety, that everybody thought her fit to be Preceptress of the best Academy in the State. But a stranger would have supposed that Mr. Higginbotham was an object of abhorrence at Parker's Falls, and that a thanksgiving had been proclaimed for his murder, so excessive was the wrath of the inhabitants on learning their mistake. The mill men resolved to bestow public honors on Dominicus Pike, only hesitating whether to tar and feather him, ride him on a rail, or refresh him with an ablution at the town-pump on the top of which he had declared himself the bearer of the news. The selectmen, by advice of the lawyer, spoke of prosecuting him for a misdemeanor, in circulating unfounded reports, to the great disturbance of the peace of the commonwealth. Nothing saved Dominicus, either from mob law or a court of justice, but an eloquent appeal made by the young lady in his behalf. Addressing a few words of heartfelt gratitude to his benefactress, he mounted the green cart and rode out of town, under a discharge of artillery from the schoolboys, who found plenty of ammunition in the neighboring clay-pits and mud-holes. As he turned his head, to exchange a farewell glance with Mr. Higginbotham's niece, a ball, of the consistence of hasty-pudding, hit him slap in the mouth, giving him a most grim aspect. His whole person was so bespattered with the like filthy missiles, that he had almost a mind to ride back and supplicate for the threatened ablution at the town-pump; for, though not meant in kindness, it would now have been a deed of charity.
The young lady curtsied at the end of her speech, which was so sensible and well-expressed, and delivered with such grace and propriety, that everyone thought she would make a great headmistress of the best academy in the state. But an outsider would have thought that Mr. Higginbotham was despised in Parker's Falls, and that a thanksgiving had been declared for his murder, given the extreme anger of the townspeople upon finding out their mistake. The mill workers decided to honor Dominicus Pike publicly, only debating whether to tar and feather him, ride him out on a rail, or clean him up at the town pump where he had announced the news. The selectmen, with the lawyer's advice, considered prosecuting him for a misdemeanor for spreading false rumors that greatly disturbed the peace of the community. The only thing that saved Dominicus from mob justice or court was a passionate plea from the young lady on his behalf. After expressing heartfelt thanks to his benefactor, he climbed into the green cart and left town, while schoolboys fired off artillery in a celebratory fashion, using whatever they could find in the nearby clay pits and mud holes. As he turned to give a farewell glance at Mr. Higginbotham's niece, a glob of something resembling hasty pudding hit him square in the mouth, making him look quite grim. He was so covered in the same disgusting projectiles that he nearly turned back to beg for the promised wash at the town pump; even though it wasn't meant as a kindness, it would have been a charitable act at this point.
However, the sun shone bright on poor Dominicus, and the mud, an emblem of all stains of undeserved opprobrium, was easily brushed off when dry. Being a funny rogue, his heart soon cheered up; nor could he refrain from a hearty laugh at the uproar which his story had excited. The hand-bills of the selectmen would cause the commitment of all the vagabonds in the State; the paragraph in the "Parker's Falls Gazette" would be reprinted from Maine to Florida, and perhaps form an item in the London newspapers; and many a miser would tremble for his money-bags and life, on learning the catastrophe of Mr. Higginbotham. The pedler meditated with much fervor on the charms of the young schoolmistress, and swore that Daniel Webster never spoke nor looked so like an angel as Miss Higginbotham, while defending him from the wrathful populace at Parker's Falls.
However, the sun shone brightly on poor Dominicus, and the mud, a symbol of all the unfair disgrace he faced, was easy to brush off once it dried. Being a witty troublemaker, his spirits quickly lifted; he couldn't help but laugh heartily at the commotion his story had caused. The flyers from the local officials would ensure that all the vagrants in the state were locked up; the article in the "Parker's Falls Gazette" would be circulated from Maine to Florida, and it might even make it into the London newspapers; many a miser would panic about his money and wellbeing upon hearing about Mr. Higginbotham's disaster. The peddler thought intensely about the allure of the young schoolmistress, insisting that Daniel Webster had never looked or sounded as angelic as Miss Higginbotham while defending him from the furious crowd at Parker's Falls.
Dominicus was now on the Kimballton Turnpike, having all along determined to visit that place, though business had drawn him out of the most direct road from Morristown. As he approached the scene of the supposed murder, he continued to revolve the circumstances in his mind, and was astonished at the aspect which the whole case assumed. Had nothing occurred to corroborate the story of the first traveler, it might now have been considered as a hoax; but the yellow man was evidently acquainted either with the report or the fact; and there was a mystery in his dismayed and guilty look on being abruptly questioned. When, to this singular combination of incidents, it was added that the rumor tallied exactly with Mr. Higginbotham's character and habits of life; and that he had an orchard, and a St. Michael's pear-tree, near which he always passed at nightfall; the circumstantial evidence appeared so strong that Dominicus doubted whether the autograph produced by the lawyer, or even the niece's direct testimony, ought to be equivalent. Making cautious inquiries along the road, the pedler further learned that Mr. Higginbotham had in his service an Irishman of doubtful character, whom he had hired without a recommendation, on the score of economy.
Dominicus was now on the Kimballton Turnpike, having always planned to visit that place, even though business had taken him off the most direct route from Morristown. As he got closer to the scene of the alleged murder, he kept thinking about the circumstances and was shocked by how everything fit together. If nothing had happened to support the story of the first traveler, it might have been dismissed as a prank; but the yellow man clearly knew either the rumor or the truth, and there was something mysterious about his frightened and guilty expression when he was suddenly questioned. When this strange set of events was added to the fact that the rumor matched Mr. Higginbotham's character and way of life perfectly, and that he had an orchard with a St. Michael's pear tree that he always passed by at dusk, the circumstantial evidence seemed so strong that Dominicus wondered if the signature shown by the lawyer or even the niece's direct testimony should hold the same weight. Making careful inquiries along the road, the peddler also found out that Mr. Higginbotham employed an Irishman of questionable character, whom he had hired without a reference, just to save money.
"May I be hanged myself," exclaimed Dominicus Pike aloud, on reaching the top of a lonely hill, "if I'll believe old Higginbotham is unhanged till I see him with my own eyes and hear it from his own mouth? And as he's a real shaver, I'll have the minister or some other responsible man for an endorser."
"May I be hanged myself," shouted Dominicus Pike as he reached the top of a lonely hill, "if I believe old Higginbotham is still alive until I see him with my own eyes and hear it from his own mouth? And since he's a real trickster, I'll get the minister or some other responsible person to vouch for him."
It was growing dusk when he reached the toll-house on Kimballton Turnpike, about a quarter of a mile from the village of this name. His little mare was fast bringing him up with a man on horseback, who trotted through the gate a few rods in advance of him, nodded to the toll-gatherer, and kept on toward the village. Dominicus was acquainted with the toll-man, and while making change the usual remarks on the weather passed between them.
It was getting dark when he arrived at the tollhouse on Kimballton Turnpike, about a quarter of a mile from the village with the same name. His little mare was quickly catching up to a man on horseback, who trotted through the gate a few yards ahead of him, nodded to the toll collector, and continued toward the village. Dominicus knew the toll collector, and while he was making change, they exchanged the usual small talk about the weather.
"I suppose," said the pedler, throwing back his whip-lash, to bring it down like a feather on the mare's flank, "you have not seen anything of old Mr. Higginbotham within a day or two?"
"I guess," said the peddler, flicking his whip back to let it drop lightly on the mare's side, "you haven't seen old Mr. Higginbotham in a day or two?"
"Yes," answered the toll-gatherer. "He passed the gate just before you drove up, and yonder he rides now, if you can see him through the dusk. He's been to Woodfield this afternoon, attending a sheriff's sale there. The old man generally shakes hands and has a little chat with me; but to-night he nodded—as if to say, 'Charge my toll'—and jogged on; for wherever he goes, he must always be home at eight o'clock."
"Yes," replied the toll collector. "He went through the gate just before you arrived, and over there he rides now, if you can spot him in the fading light. He was at Woodfield this afternoon, attending a sheriff's sale. Usually, the old man stops to shake my hand and chat a bit; but tonight he just nodded—as if to say, 'Collect my toll'—and moved on; because no matter where he goes, he always has to be home by eight o'clock."
"So they tell me," said Dominicus.
"So they tell me," Dominicus said.
"I never saw a man look so yellow and thin as the squire does," continued the toll-gatherer. "Says I to myself, to-night, 'He's more like a ghost or an old mummy than good flesh and blood.'"
"I've never seen a guy look so pale and emaciated as the squire does," the toll-gatherer continued. "I thought to myself tonight, 'He's more like a ghost or an old mummy than a living person.'"
The pedler strained his eyes through the twilight, and could just discern the horseman, now far ahead on the village road. He seemed to recognize the rear of Mr. Higginbotham; but through the evening shadows, and amid the dust from the horse's feet, the figure appeared dim and unsubstantial; as if the shape of the mysterious old man were faintly molded of darkness and gray light. Dominicus shivered.
The peddler squinted through the fading light and could just make out the horseman, now ahead on the village road. He thought he recognized the back of Mr. Higginbotham, but in the evening shadows and amidst the dust kicked up by the horse's hooves, the figure looked vague and insubstantial, as if the shape of the mysterious old man was faintly formed from darkness and gray light. Dominicus shivered.
"Mr. Higginbotham has come back from the other world, by way of the Kimballton Turnpike," thought he.
"Mr. Higginbotham has returned from the afterlife, by way of the Kimballton Turnpike," he thought.
He shook the reins and rode forward, keeping about the same distance in the rear of the gray old shadow, till the latter was concealed by a bend of the road. On reaching this point, the pedler no longer saw the man on horseback, but found himself at the head of the village street, not far from a number of stores and two taverns, clustered round the meeting-house steeple. On his left was a stone wall and a gate, the boundary of a wood-lot, beyond which lay an orchard, further still a mowing field, and last of all a house. These were the premises of Mr. Higginbotham, whose dwelling stood beside the old highway, but had been left in the background by the Kimballton Turnpike. Dominicus knew the place; and the little mare stopped short by instinct; for he was not conscious of tightening the reins.
He shook the reins and rode ahead, keeping about the same distance behind the old gray shadow until it disappeared around a bend in the road. Once he reached that point, the pedlar no longer saw the man on horseback, but found himself at the entrance of the village street, not far from several stores and two taverns that surrounded the meeting-house steeple. To his left was a stone wall and a gate, marking the edge of a wood-lot, beyond which lay an orchard, then a mowing field, and finally a house. These were the property of Mr. Higginbotham, whose home was next to the old highway but had been overshadowed by the Kimballton Turnpike. Dominicus recognized the place; and the little mare came to a stop instinctively, as he didn't realize he had tightened the reins.
"For the soul of me, I can not get by this gate!" said he, trembling. "I never shall be my own again, till I see whether Mr. Higginbotham is hanging on the St. Michael's pear-tree!"
"For the life of me, I can't get past this gate!" he said, trembling. "I'll never feel like myself again until I see if Mr. Higginbotham is hanging from the St. Michael's pear tree!"
He leaped from the cart, gave the rein a turn around the gate-post, and ran along the green path of the wood-lot, as if Old Nick were chasing behind. Just then the village clock tolled eight, and as each deep stroke fell, Dominicus gave a fresh bound and flew faster than before, till, dim in the solitary centre of the orchard, he saw the fated pear-tree. One great branch stretched from the old contorted trunk across the path, and threw the darkest shadow on that one spot. But something seemed to struggle beneath the branch!
He jumped off the cart, wrapped the reins around the gate post, and sprinted down the grassy path in the woods, as if the devil was hot on his heels. At that moment, the village clock struck eight, and with each deep toll, Dominicus leaped again and ran even faster, until he spotted the fateful pear tree, barely visible in the lonely center of the orchard. One huge branch reached out from the gnarled trunk and cast the darkest shadow over that one spot. But something seemed to be wriggling beneath the branch!
The pedler had never pretended to more courage than befits a man of peaceable occupation, nor could he account for his valor on this awful emergency. Certain it is, however, that he rushed forward, prostrated a sturdy Irishman with the butt-end of his whip, and found—not indeed hanging on the St. Michael's pear-tree, but trembling beneath it, with a halter round his neck—the old identical Mr. Higginbotham!
The peddler had never claimed to have more courage than what suits a man with a peaceful job, nor could he explain his bravery in this terrifying situation. However, it’s true that he charged forward, knocked down a strong Irishman with the handle of his whip, and discovered—not hanging from the St. Michael's pear tree, but shaking under it, with a noose around his neck—the very same Mr. Higginbotham!
"Mr. Higginbotham," said Dominicus, tremulously, "you're an honest man, and I'll take your word for it. Have you been hanged or not?"
"Mr. Higginbotham," Dominicus said nervously, "you're an honest man, and I trust you. Have you been hanged or not?"
If the riddle be not already guessed, a few words will explain the simple machinery by which this "coming event" was made to "cast its shadow before." Three men had plotted the robbery and murder of Mr. Higginbotham; two of them, successively, lost courage and fled, each delaying the crime one night by their disappearance; the third was in the act of perpetration, when a champion, blindly obeying the call of fate, like the heroes of old romance, appeared in the person of Dominicus Pike.
If the riddle isn’t figured out yet, a few words will clarify the straightforward setup that made this “coming event” “cast its shadow before.” Three men planned the robbery and murder of Mr. Higginbotham; two of them, one after the other, lost their nerve and ran away, each postponing the crime by one night with their disappearance; the third was about to carry it out when a hero, following fate’s call like the heroes of old stories, showed up in the form of Dominicus Pike.
It only remains to say that Mr. Higginbotham took the pedler into high favor, sanctioned his addresses to the pretty schoolmistress, and settled his whole property on their children, allowing themselves the interest. In due time, the old gentleman capped the climax of his favors by dying a Christian death, in bed, since which melancholy event Dominicus Pike has removed from Kimballton, and established a large tobacco manufactory in my native village.
It just needs to be said that Mr. Higginbotham really liked the peddler, approved of his advances towards the attractive schoolteacher, and left all his assets to their children, allowing them to keep the interest. Eventually, the old man topped off his generosity by passing away peacefully in bed. Since that sad event, Dominicus Pike has moved from Kimballton and set up a big tobacco factory in my hometown.
THE WHITE OLD MAID
BY NATHANIEL HAWTHORNE
BY NATHANIEL HAWTHORNE
This is an admirable example of Hawthorne's point of view and style. Starting with an aim to leave one strong impression on the mind of the reader, instead of the remembrance of a number of related facts, the author not only omits everything that would detract from the unity and strength of this impression, but creates only such scenes and situations as will intensify the effect.
This is a great example of Hawthorne's perspective and style. Starting with the goal of leaving a lasting impression on the reader, rather than just a collection of related facts, the author avoids anything that would weaken the unity and power of this impression, and instead creates only those scenes and situations that will amplify the effect.
THE WHITE OLD MAID
THE WHITE OLD MAID
By NATHANIEL HAWTHORNE
By NATHANIEL HAWTHORNE
The moonbeams came through two deep and narrow windows and showed a spacious chamber richly furnished in an antique fashion. From one lattice the shadow of the diamond panes was thrown upon the floor; the ghostly light through the other swept upon a bed, falling between the heavy silken curtains and illuminating the face of a young man. But how quietly the slumberer lay! how pale his features! And how like a shroud the sheet was wound about his frame! Yes, it was a corpse in its burial clothes.
The moonlight streamed through two deep and narrow windows, revealing a large room furnished in an old-fashioned style. From one window, the shadow of the diamond panes was cast onto the floor; the eerie light from the other window fell onto a bed, shining between the heavy silk curtains and illuminating the face of a young man. But how peacefully he slept! How pale his features were! And how much like a shroud the sheet was wrapped around him! Yes, it was a corpse in its burial clothes.
Suddenly the fixed features seemed to move with dark emotion. Strange fantasy! It was but the shadow of the fringed curtain waving between the dead face and the moonlight as the door of the chamber opened and a girl stole softly to the bedside. Was there delusion in the moonbeams, or did her gesture and her eye betray a gleam of triumph as she bent over the pale corpse, pale as itself, and pressed her living lips to the cold ones of the dead? As she drew back from that long kiss her features writhed as if a proud heart were fighting with its anguish. Again it seemed that the features of the corpse had moved responsive to her own. Still an illusion. The silken curtains had waved a second time between the dead face and the moonlight as another fair young girl unclosed the door and glided ghostlike to the bedside. There the two maidens stood, both beautiful, with the pale beauty of the dead between them. But she who had first entered was proud and stately, and the other a soft and fragile thing.
Suddenly, the fixed features seemed to shift with dark emotion. Strange fantasy! It was just the shadow of the fringed curtain swaying between the lifeless face and the moonlight as the door of the room opened and a girl quietly approached the bedside. Was there an illusion in the moonlight, or did her gesture and her eyes reveal a flash of triumph as she leaned over the pale corpse, as pale as itself, and pressed her warm lips to the cold ones of the dead? As she withdrew from that long kiss, her features contorted as if a proud heart were battling with its pain. Again, it seemed that the corpse’s features responded to her. Still an illusion. The silken curtains swayed a second time between the dead face and the moonlight as another fair young girl opened the door and glided like a ghost to the bedside. There the two maidens stood, both beautiful, with the lifeless beauty of the deceased between them. But the first girl was proud and stately, while the other was soft and delicate.
"Away!" cried the lofty one. "Thou hadst him living; the dead is mine."
"Away!" cried the tall one. "You had him alive; the dead is mine."
"Thine!" returned the other, shuddering. "Well hast thou spoken; the dead is thine."
"Yours!" the other replied, shuddering. "You've spoken well; the dead belongs to you."
The proud girl started and stared into her face with a ghastly look, but a wild and mournful expression passed across the features of the gentle one, and, weak and helpless, she sank down on the bed, her head pillowed beside that of the corpse and her hair mingling with his dark locks. A creature of hope and joy, the first draft of sorrow had bewildered her.
The proud girl jumped back and looked into her face with a terrible expression, but a wild and sad look swept across the gentle girl's features, and, feeling weak and helpless, she collapsed onto the bed, her head resting next to the corpse and her hair blending with his dark locks. A being of hope and joy, the first taste of sorrow had confused her.
"Edith!" cried her rival.
"Edith!" shouted her rival.
Edith groaned as with a sudden compression of the heart, and removing her cheek from the dead youth's pillow, she stood upright, fearfully encountering the eyes of the lofty girl.
Edith groaned as she suddenly felt a tightness in her chest, and pulling her cheek away from the dead young man's pillow, she stood up, nervously meeting the gaze of the tall girl.
"Wilt thou betray me?" said the latter, calmly.
"Will you betray me?" said the latter, calmly.
"Till the dead bid me speak I will be silent," answered Edith. "Leave us alone together. Go and live many years, and then return and tell me of thy life. He too will be here. Then, if thou tellest of sufferings more than death, we will both forgive thee."
"Until the dead tell me to speak, I will stay silent," Edith replied. "Leave us alone for a while. Go live your life for many years, and then come back and tell me about it. He will be here too. Then, if you talk about suffering that's worse than death, we will both forgive you."
"And what shall be the token?" asked the proud girl, as if her heart acknowledged a meaning in these wild words.
"And what will be the sign?" asked the proud girl, as if her heart recognized a meaning in these wild words.
"This lock of hair," said Edith, lifting one of the dark clustering curls that lay heavily on the dead man's brow.
"This lock of hair," said Edith, picking up one of the dark, thick curls that rested heavily on the dead man's forehead.
The two maidens joined their hands over the bosom of the corpse and appointed a day and hour far, far in time to come for their next meeting in that chamber. The statelier girl gave one deep look at the motionless countenance and departed, yet turned again and trembled ere she closed the door, almost believing that her dead lover frowned upon her. And Edith, too! Was not her white form fading into the moonlight? Scorning her own weakness, she went forth and perceived that a negro slave was waiting in the passage with a waxlight, which he held between her face and his own and regarded her, as she thought, with an ugly expression of merriment. Lifting his torch on high, the slave lighted her down the staircase and undid the portal of the mansion. The young clergyman of the town had just ascended the steps, and, bowing to the lady, passed in without a word.
The two young women joined their hands over the chest of the corpse and set a date and time far in the future for their next meeting in that room. The taller girl took a long glance at the still face and left, but turned back, trembling before closing the door, almost convinced that her dead lover was frowning at her. And Edith, too! Wasn't her pale figure disappearing into the moonlight? Scolding herself for her weakness, she stepped outside and noticed a Black slave waiting in the hallway with a candle, which he held between her face and his own while looking at her, as she thought, with a mocking expression. Raising his torch high, the slave guided her down the stairs and opened the front door of the mansion. The young clergyman from the town had just climbed the steps, and, bowing to her, entered without saying a word.
Years—many years—rolled on. The world seemed new again, so much older was it grown since the night when those pale girls had clasped their hands across the bosom of the corpse. In the interval a lonely woman had passed from youth to extreme age, and was known by all the town as the "Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet." A taint of insanity had affected her whole life, but so quiet, sad, and gentle, so utterly free from violence, that she was suffered to pursue her harmless fantasies unmolested by the world with whose business or pleasures she had naught to do. She dwelt alone, and never came into the daylight except to follow funerals. Whenever a corpse was borne along the street, in sunshine, rain, or snow, whether a pompous train of the rich and proud thronged after it, or few and humble were the mourners, behind them came the lonely woman in a long white garment which the people called her shroud. She took no place among the kindred or the friends, but stood at the door to hear the funeral prayer, and walked in the rear of the procession as one whose earthly charge it was to haunt the house of mourning and be the shadow of affliction and see that the dead were duly buried. So long had this been her custom that the inhabitants of the town deemed her a part of every funeral, as much as the coffin-pall or the very corpse itself, and augured ill of the sinner's destiny unless the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet came gliding like a ghost behind. Once, it is said, she affrighted a bridal-party with her pale presence, appearing suddenly in the illuminated hall just as the priest was uniting a false maid to a wealthy man before her lover had been dead a year. Evil was the omen to that marriage. Sometimes she stole forth by moonlight and visited the graves of venerable integrity and wedded love and virgin innocence, and every spot where the ashes of a kind and faithful heart were moldering. Over the hillocks of those favored dead would she stretch out her arms with a gesture as if she were scattering seeds, and many believed that she brought them from the garden of Paradise, for the graves which she had visited were green beneath the snow and covered with sweet flowers from April to November. Her blessing was better than a holy verse upon the tombstone. Thus wore away her long, sad, peaceful, and fantastic life till few were so old as she, and the people of later generations wondered how the dead had ever been buried or mourners had endured their grief without the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet. Still years went on, and still she followed funerals and was not yet summoned to her own festival of death.
Years—many years—went by. The world felt new again, having aged so much since the night those pale girls held hands over the body. In that time, a lonely woman had gone from youth to old age, known by everyone in town as the "Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet." A hint of madness had touched her entire life, but she was so quiet, sad, and gentle, completely free from violence, that people let her continue her harmless fantasies without interfering with her. She lived alone and only came out in daylight to follow funerals. Whenever a corpse was carried down the street, whether it was sunny, rainy, or snowy, whether a grand procession of the wealthy followed or only a few humble mourners, the lonely woman trailed behind in a long white garment that people called her shroud. She didn’t take a place among the family or friends but stood at the entrance to hear the funeral prayer, following behind the procession as if it were her earthly duty to haunt the house of mourning and be a shadow of sorrow, ensuring the dead were properly buried. This had been her routine for so long that the townspeople considered her part of every funeral, as much a fixture as the coffin's pall or the corpse itself, and they believed misfortune awaited the sinner's afterlife unless the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet glided like a ghost behind. Legend has it that she once startled a wedding party with her pale presence, suddenly appearing in the lit hall just as the priest was joining a false bride to a wealthy man, less than a year after her true lover had died. It was deemed a bad omen for that marriage. Sometimes, she would sneak out by moonlight to visit the graves of those whose integrity, love, and innocence had been honored in life, as well as every place where the ashes of kind and faithful hearts rested. Over the mounds of those favored dead, she would extend her arms as if scattering seeds, and many believed she brought them from the garden of Paradise because the graves she visited were lush under the snow and covered with sweet flowers from April to November. Her blessing was worth more than a holy verse on a tombstone. Thus, her long, sad, peaceful, and fantastical life wore on until few were as old as she, and people from later generations wondered how the dead had ever been buried or how mourners had coped with their grief without the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet. Still, the years passed, and still she followed funerals, not yet called to her own death.
One afternoon the great street of the town was all alive with business and bustle, though the sun now gilded only the upper half of the church-spire, having left the house-tops and loftiest trees in shadow. The scene was cheerful and animated in spite of the sombre shade between the high brick buildings. Here were pompous merchants in white wigs and laced velvet, the bronzed faces of sea-captains, the foreign garb and air of Spanish Creoles, and the disdainful port of natives of Old England, all contrasted with the rough aspect of one or two back-settlers negotiating sales of timber from forests where ax had never sounded. Sometimes a lady passed, swelling roundly forth in an embroidered petticoat, balancing her steps in high-heeled shoes and courtesying with lofty grace to the punctilious obeisances of the gentlemen. The life of the town seemed to have its very centre not far from an old mansion that stood somewhat back from the pavement, surrounded by neglected grass, with a strange air of loneliness rather deepened than dispelled by the throng so near it. Its site would have been suitably occupied by a magnificent Exchange or a brick block lettered all over with various signs, or the large house itself might have made a noble tavern with the "King's Arms" swinging before it and guests in every chamber, instead of the present solitude. But, owing to some dispute about the right of inheritance, the mansion had been long without a tenant, decaying from year to year and throwing the stately gloom of its shadow over the busiest part of the town.
One afternoon, the main street of the town was bustling with activity, even though the sun only lit up the top half of the church spire, leaving the rooftops and tallest trees in shadow. The scene was lively and cheerful despite the dark shade cast by the tall brick buildings. There were pompous merchants in white wigs and laced velvet, weathered sea captains, elegantly dressed Spanish Creoles, and the proud demeanor of Old English natives, all contrasting with the rugged appearance of a couple of backwoodsmen trying to sell timber from untouched forests. Occasionally, a lady would stroll by, elegantly dressed in an embroidered petticoat, carefully balancing in high-heeled shoes and curtsying gracefully in response to the formal greetings of the gentlemen. The town's life seemed to revolve around an old mansion that stood slightly back from the sidewalk, surrounded by unkempt grass, exuding a lonely vibe that was made even more pronounced by the nearby crowd. Its location would have been perfect for a grand marketplace or a busy brick building filled with signs, or the mansion itself could have served as an impressive inn with the "King's Arms" swinging out front and guests in every room, instead of the solitude it currently faced. However, due to an ongoing dispute about inheritance rights, the mansion had long been vacant, deteriorating year by year and casting a stately shadow over the town's busiest area.
Such was the scene, and such the time, when a figure unlike any that have been described was observed at a distance down the street.
Such was the scene, and such was the time, when a figure unlike any that had been described was seen from a distance down the street.
"I spy a strange sail yonder," remarked a Liverpool captain—"that woman in the long white garment."
"I see a strange sail over there," said a Liverpool captain—"that woman in the long white dress."
The sailor seemed much struck by the object, as were several others who at the same moment caught a glimpse of the figure that had attracted his notice. Almost immediately the various topics of conversation gave place to speculations in an undertone on this unwonted occurrence.
The sailor appeared really taken aback by the object, just like several others who caught a glimpse of the figure that caught his attention. Almost instantly, the various topics of conversation shifted to quiet speculation about this unusual event.
"Can there be a funeral so late this afternoon?" inquired some.
"Can there really be a funeral this late in the afternoon?" some asked.
They looked for the signs of death at every door—the sexton, the hearse, the assemblage of black-clad relatives, all that makes up the woful pomp of funerals. They raised their eyes, also, to the sun-gilded spire of the church, and wondered that no clang proceeded from its bell, which had always tolled till now when this figure appeared in the light of day. But none had heard that a corpse was to be borne to its home that afternoon, nor was there any token of a funeral except the apparition of the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet.
They searched for signs of death at every door—the gravekeeper, the hearse, the gathering of relatives dressed in black, everything that makes up the sad spectacle of funerals. They also looked up at the sunlit spire of the church and wondered why there was no sound coming from its bell, which had always tolled until now when this figure appeared in the daylight. But no one had heard that a body was to be taken to its final resting place that afternoon, and there were no signs of a funeral except for the appearance of the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet.
"What may this portend?" asked each man of his neighbor.
"What could this mean?" each man asked his neighbor.
All smiled as they put the question, yet with a certain trouble in their eyes, as if pestilence, or some other wide calamity, were prognosticated by the untimely intrusion among the living of one whose presence had always been associated with death and woe. What a comet is to the earth was that sad woman to the town. Still she moved on, while the hum of surprise was hushed at her approach, and the proud and the humble stood aside that her white garment might not wave against them. It was a long, loose robe of spotless purity. Its wearer appeared very old, pale, emaciated, and feeble, yet glided onward without the unsteady pace of extreme age. At one point of her course a little rosy boy burst forth from a door and ran with open arms toward the ghostly woman, seeming to expect a kiss from her bloodless lips. She made a slight pause, fixing her eye upon him with an expression of no earthly sweetness, so that the child shivered and stood awestruck rather than affrighted while the Old Maid passed on. Perhaps her garment might have been polluted even by an infant's touch; perhaps her kiss would have been death to the sweet boy within the year.
Everyone smiled as they asked the question, but there was a certain worry in their eyes, as if the unexpected arrival of someone whose presence had always meant death and sorrow predicted a plague or some other great disaster. That sad woman was to the town what a comet is to the earth. Still, she moved forward as the whispers of surprise faded at her approach, and both the proud and the humble stepped aside so that her white garment wouldn’t brush against them. It was a long, flowing robe of pure white. The woman looked very old, pale, thin, and frail, yet she glided along without the shaky gait typical of extreme age. At one point in her path, a little rosy-cheeked boy burst out of a door and ran towards the ghostly woman with his arms wide open, as if expecting a kiss from her pale lips. She paused briefly, locking her gaze onto him with an expression that was anything but sweet, making the child shiver in awe rather than fear while the Old Maid continued on her way. Perhaps her garment would be tainted by even an infant's touch; maybe her kiss would bring death to the sweet boy within a year.
"She is but a shadow," whispered the superstitious. "The child put forth his arms and could not grasp her robe."
"She is just a shadow," whispered the superstitious. "The child reached out his arms and couldn't grab her robe."
The wonder was increased when the Old Maid passed beneath the porch of the deserted mansion, ascended the moss-covered steps, lifted the iron knocker and gave three raps. The people could only conjecture that some old remembrance, troubling her bewildered brain, had impelled the poor woman hither to visit the friends of her youth—all gone from their home long since, and forever, unless their ghosts still haunted it, fit company for the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet.
The sense of wonder grew as the Old Maid walked under the porch of the abandoned mansion, climbed the mossy steps, raised the iron knocker, and gave three knocks. People could only guess that some old memory, disturbing her confused mind, had driven the poor woman to visit the friends of her youth—all of whom had long since left their home, possibly forever, unless their ghosts still lingered there, suitable companions for the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet.
An elderly man approached the steps, and, reverently uncovering his gray locks, essayed to explain the matter.
An old man walked up the steps and, respectfully removing his gray hat, tried to explain the situation.
"None, madam," said he, "have dwelt in this house these fifteen years agone—no, not since the death of old Colonel Fenwicke, whose funeral you may remember to have followed. His heirs, being ill-agreed among themselves, have let the mansion-house go to ruin."
"None, ma'am," he said, "have lived in this house for the past fifteen years—not since the death of old Colonel Fenwicke, whose funeral you might remember attending. His heirs, unable to agree with each other, have let the mansion fall into disrepair."
The Old Maid looked slowly round with a slight gesture of one hand and a finger of the other upon her lip, appearing more shadow-like than ever in the obscurity of the porch. But again she lifted the hammer, and gave, this time, a single rap. Could it be that a footstep was now heard coming down the staircase of the old mansion which all conceived to have been so long untenanted? Slowly, feebly, yet heavily, like the pace of an aged and infirm person, the step approached, more distinct on every downward stair, till it reached the portal. The bar fell on the inside; the door was opened. One upward glance toward the church-spire, whence the sunshine had just faded, was the last that the people saw of the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet.
The Old Maid looked around slowly with a slight gesture of one hand and a finger from the other on her lip, seeming even more ghostly in the shadows of the porch. But she raised the hammer again and gave, this time, a single knock. Could it be that a footstep was now heard coming down the staircase of the old mansion, which everyone thought had been empty for so long? Slowly, weakly, yet heavily, like the pace of an old and frail person, the step came closer, clearer with each downward stair until it reached the door. The bar fell on the inside; the door was opened. One last glance up at the church spire, where the sunlight had just faded, was the last sight the people had of the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet.
"Who undid the door?" asked many.
"Who opened the door?" many asked.
This question, owing to the depth of shadow beneath the porch, no one could satisfactorily answer. Two or three aged men, while protesting against an inference which might be drawn, affirmed that the person within was a negro, and bore a singular resemblance to Old Cæsar, formerly a slave in the house, but freed by death some thirty years before.
This question, because of the deep shadow under the porch, no one could answer satisfactorily. Two or three elderly men, while rejecting an implication that could be made, insisted that the person inside was a Black man and looked strikingly similar to Old Cæsar, who used to be a slave in the house but had been freed by death about thirty years ago.
"Her summons has waked up a servant of the old family," said one, half seriously.
"Her call has revived a servant from the old family," said one, half-jokingly.
"Let us wait here," replied another; "more guests will knock at the door anon. But the gate of the graveyard should be thrown open."
"Let’s wait here," replied another; "more guests will knock at the door soon. But the gate of the cemetery should be opened."
Twilight had overspread the town before the crowd began to separate or the comments on this incident were exhausted. One after another was wending his way homeward, when a coach—no common spectacle in those days—drove slowly into the street. It was an old-fashioned equipage, hanging close to the ground, with arms on the panels, a footman behind, and a grave, corpulent coachman seated high in front, the whole giving an idea of solemn state and dignity. There was something awful in the heavy rumbling of the wheels.
Twilight had spread over the town before the crowd started to break up or the discussions about the incident ran out. One by one, people were making their way home when a coach—something rare to see in those days—slowly pulled into the street. It was an old-fashioned carriage, low to the ground, featuring ornate designs on the sides, a footman at the back, and a serious, plump driver sitting high up front, all of which conveyed a sense of solemnity and dignity. The deep rumbling of the wheels was quite unsettling.
The coach rolled down the street, till, coming to the gateway of the deserted mansion, it drew up, and the footman sprang to the ground.
The coach rolled down the street until it reached the entrance of the empty mansion, where it stopped, and the footman jumped down.
"Whose grand coach is this?" asked a very inquisitive body.
"Whose fancy car is this?" asked a very curious person.
The footman made no reply, but ascended the steps of the old house, gave three taps with the iron hammer, and returned to open the coach door. An old man possessed of the heraldic lore so common in that day examined the shield of arms on the panel.
The footman didn’t say anything but went up the steps of the old house, knocked three times with the iron hammer, and went back to open the coach door. An old man, familiar with the heraldic knowledge that was common at that time, looked at the coat of arms on the panel.
"Azure, a lion's head erased, between three flowers-de-luce," said he, then whispered the name of the family to whom these bearings belonged. The last inheritor of its honors was recently dead, after a long residence amid the splendor of the British court, where his birth and wealth had given him no mean station. "He left no child," continued the herald, "and these arms, being in a lozenge, betoken that the coach appertains to his widow."
"Azure, a lion's head erased, between three fleurs-de-lis," said he, then whispered the name of the family to whom these symbols belonged. The last person to hold this honor had recently died after a long time spent in the splendor of the British court, where his birth and wealth had given him a significant position. "He left no children," the herald continued, "and these arms, being in a lozenge, indicate that the coach belongs to his widow."
Further disclosures, perhaps, might have been made had not the speaker been suddenly struck dumb by the stern eye of an ancient lady who thrust forth her head from the coach preparing to descend. As she emerged, the people saw that her dress was magnificent, and her figure dignified in spite of age and infirmity—a stately ruin, but with a look at once of pride and wretchedness. Her strong and rigid features had an awe about them unlike that of the white Old Maid, but as of something evil. She passed up the steps, leaning on a gold-headed cane. The door swung open as she ascended, and the light of a torch glittered on the embroidery of her dress and gleamed on the pillars of the porch. After a momentary pause, a glance backward and then a desperate effort, she went in.
Further revelations might have emerged if the speaker hadn't been abruptly silenced by the piercing gaze of an elderly lady who leaned out from the carriage, preparing to get out. As she stepped out, people noticed that her outfit was stunning, and despite her age and frailty, she carried herself with dignity—a grand presence, but with an expression that conveyed both pride and despair. Her strong, harsh features held an unsettling aura, different from that of the frail old maid, but suggesting something sinister. She made her way up the steps, leaning on a cane with a gold handle. The door opened as she climbed, and the light from a torch sparkled on the intricate design of her dress and shimmered on the pillars of the porch. After a brief pause, a backward glance, and a determined push, she entered.
The decipherer of the coat-of-arms had ventured up the lower step, and, shrinking back immediately, pale and tremulous, affirmed that the torch was held by the very image of Old Cæsar.
The person figuring out the coat-of-arms had stepped up onto the lower step but quickly pulled back, pale and trembling, claiming that the torch was held by the exact likeness of Old Cæsar.
"But such a hideous grin," added he, "was never seen on the face of mortal man, black or white. It will haunt me till my dying day."
"But that grin is so hideous," he added, "it's something no human, no matter their skin color, has ever had. It'll haunt me until I take my last breath."
Meantime, the coach had wheeled round with a prodigious clatter on the pavement and rumbled up the street, disappearing in the twilight, while the ear still tracked its course. Scarcely was it gone when the people began to question whether the coach and attendants, the ancient lady, the spectre of Old Cæsar and the Old Maid herself were not all a strangely combined delusion with some dark purport in its mystery. The whole town was astir, so that, instead of dispersing, the crowd continually increased, and stood gazing up at the windows of the mansion, now silvered by the brightening moon. The elders, glad to indulge the narrative propensity of age, told of the long-faded splendor of. the family, the entertainments they had given and the guests, the greatest of the land, and even titled and noble ones from abroad, who had passed beneath that portal. These graphic reminiscences seemed to call up the ghosts of those to whom they referred. So strong was the impression on some of the more imaginative hearers that two or three were seized with trembling fits at one and the same moment, protesting that they had distinctly heard three other raps of the iron knocker.
Meanwhile, the coach rolled around with a huge clatter on the pavement and rumbled up the street, disappearing into the twilight, while the sound still followed its path. Hardly had it left when people began to wonder if the coach and attendants, the old lady, the ghost of Old Cæsar, and the Old Maid herself were all just a weird mix of illusions with some dark mystery behind them. The whole town was buzzing, so instead of dispersing, the crowd kept growing and stood staring up at the windows of the mansion, now illuminated by the brightening moon. The older folks, eager to share their tales, recounted the long-lost splendor of the family, the parties they had hosted, and the guests—some of the most important people around, including titled and noble guests from abroad—who had walked through that door. These vivid memories seemed to summon the spirits of those they were talking about. The impact was so strong on some of the more imaginative listeners that a few were suddenly overcome with trembling fits, insisting that they had clearly heard three more knocks from the iron knocker.
"Impossible!" exclaimed others. "See! The moon shines beneath the porch, and shows every part of it except in the narrow shade of that pillar. There is no one there."
"Impossible!" others exclaimed. "Look! The moon lights up everything under the porch, showing every part of it except for the narrow shadow of that pillar. No one is there."
"Did not the door open?" whispered one of these fanciful persons.
"Didn't the door open?" whispered one of these imaginative people.
"Didst thou see it too?" said his companion, in a startled tone.
"Did you see it too?" said his companion, in a startled tone.
But the general sentiment was opposed to the idea that a third visitant had made application at the door of the deserted house. A few, however, adhered to this new marvel, and even declared that a red gleam like that of a torch had shone through the great front window, as if the negro were lighting a guest up the staircase. This too was pronounced a mere fantasy.
But most people were against the idea that a third visitor had knocked on the door of the empty house. A few, however, held on to this strange occurrence and even claimed that a red light, like that of a torch, had shone through the large front window, as if someone was guiding a guest up the stairs. This, too, was dismissed as just a figment of imagination.
But at once the whole multitude started, and each man beheld his own terror painted in the faces of all the rest.
But suddenly the entire crowd jumped, and each person saw their own fear reflected in the faces of everyone else.
"What an awful thing is this!" cried they.
"What an awful thing is this!" they exclaimed.
A shriek, too fearfully distinct for doubt, had been heard within the mansion, breaking forth suddenly and succeeded by a deep stillness, as if a heart had burst in giving it utterance. The people knew not whether to fly from the very sight of the house or to rush trembling in and search out the strange mystery. Amid their confusion and affright they were somewhat reassured by the appearance of their clergyman, a venerable patriarch, and equally a saint, who had taught them and their fathers the way to heaven for more than the space of an ordinary lifetime. He was a reverend figure with long white hair upon his shoulders, a white beard upon his breast, and a back so bent over his staff that he seemed to be looking downward continually, as if to choose a proper grave for his weary frame. It was some time before the good old man, being deaf and of impaired intellect, could be made to comprehend such portions of the affair as were comprehensible at all. But when possessed of the facts, his energies assumed unexpected vigor.
A shriek, unmistakably terrifying, echoed through the mansion, suddenly breaking the silence and followed by a heavy stillness, as if a heart had shattered in making the sound. The people didn't know whether to flee from the sight of the house or to rush in, trembling, to uncover the strange mystery. Amid their confusion and fear, they were somewhat comforted by the appearance of their clergyman, a wise elder and a saintly figure, who had guided them and their ancestors to heaven for what felt like a lifetime. He was a dignified figure with long white hair draped over his shoulders, a white beard resting on his chest, and a back so hunched over his staff that he seemed to be constantly looking down, as if selecting a proper grave for his weary body. It took some time before the good old man, being hard of hearing and somewhat forgetful, could grasp any part of the situation that was understandable. But once he understood the facts, his energy took on an unexpected strength.
"Verily," said the old gentleman, "it will b$ fitting that I enter the mansion-house of the worthy Colonel Fenwicke; lest any harm should have befallen that true Christian woman whom ye call the 'Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet.'"
"Truly," said the old gentleman, "it would be appropriate for me to enter the home of the esteemed Colonel Fenwicke; so that no harm should come to that true Christian woman you call the 'Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet.'"
Behold, then, the venerable clergyman ascending the steps of the mansion with a torch-bearer behind him. It was the elderly man who had spoken to the Old Maid, and the same who had afterward explained the shield of arms and recognized the features of the negro. Like their predecessors, they gave three raps with the iron hammer.
Behold, then, the respected clergyman climbing the steps of the mansion with a torch-bearer behind him. It was the elderly man who had spoken to the Old Maid, and the same one who later explained the coat of arms and recognized the features of the Black man. Like their predecessors, they knocked three times with the iron hammer.
"Old Cæsar cometh not," observed the priest. "Well, I wot he no longer doth service in this mansion."
"Old Cæsar isn’t coming," said the priest. "Well, I know he no longer works in this house."
"Assuredly, then, it was something worse in Old Cæsar's likeness," said the other adventurer.
"Definitely, it was something even worse in Old Cæsar's likeness," said the other adventurer.
"Be it as God wills," answered the clergyman. "See! my strength, though it be much decayed, hath sufficed to, open this heavy door. Let us enter and pass up the staircase."
"Whatever God wants," the clergyman replied. "Look! My strength, even though it's faded a lot, has been enough to open this heavy door. Let’s go in and head up the staircase."
Here occurred a singular exemplification of the dreamy state of a very old man's mind. As they ascended the wide flight of stairs the aged clergyman appeared to move with caution, occasionally standing aside, and oftener bending his head, as it were in salutation, thus practising all the gestures of one who makes his way through a throng. Reaching the head of the staircase, he looked around with sad and solemn benignity, laid aside his staff, bared his hoary locks, and was evidently on the point of commencing a prayer.
Here was a clear example of the dreamy state of an elderly man's mind. As they climbed the wide flight of stairs, the old clergyman seemed to move carefully, sometimes stepping aside and frequently bowing his head, as if greeting someone, mimicking the gestures of someone navigating through a crowd. When he reached the top of the staircase, he looked around with a sad yet kind expression, set his staff aside, revealed his gray hair, and was clearly about to begin a prayer.
"Reverend sir," said his attendant, who conceived this a very suitable prelude to their further search, "would it not be well that the people join with us in prayer?"
"Reverend sir," said his assistant, thinking this was a great way to start their further search, "wouldn't it be good for the people to join us in prayer?"
"Well-a-day!" cried the old clergyman, staring strangely around him. "Art thou here with me, and none other? Verily, past times were present to me, and I deemed that I was to make a funeral prayer, as many a time heretofore, from the head of this staircase. Of a truth, I saw the shades of many that are gone. Yea, I have prayed at their burials, one after another, and the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet hath seen them to their graves."
"Well, today!" exclaimed the old clergyman, looking around him in shock. "Are you really here with me, and no one else? Truly, memories of the past are alive for me, and I thought I was about to give a funeral prayer, as I have done many times before, from the top of this staircase. Indeed, I saw the spirits of many who have passed away. Yes, I've prayed at their funerals, one after another, and the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet has seen them to their graves."
Being now more thoroughly awake to their present purpose, he took his staff and struck forcibly on the floor, till there came an echo from each deserted chamber, but no menial to answer their summons. They, therefore, walked along the passage, and again paused, opposite to the great front window, through which was seen the crowd in the shadow and partial moonlight of the street beneath. On the right hand was the open door of a chamber, and a closed one on their left.
Being now more fully aware of their current purpose, he took his staff and slammed it on the floor until there was an echo from each empty room, but no servant came to respond. They then walked down the hallway and paused again, in front of the large front window, where they could see the crowd in the shadows and partial moonlight of the street below. On their right was an open door to a room, and on their left was a closed one.
The clergyman pointed his cane to the carved oak panel of the latter.
The clergyman pointed his cane at the carved oak panel of the latter.
"Within that chamber," observed he, "a whole lifetime since, did I sit by the deathbed of a goodly young man who, being now at the last gasp—" Apparently, there was some powerful excitement in the ideas which had now flashed across his mind. He snatched the torch from his companion's hand, and threw open the door with such sudden violence that the flame was extinguished, leaving them no other light than the moonbeams which fell through two windows into the spacious chamber. It was sufficient to discover all that could be known. In a high-backed oaken armchair, upright, with her hands clasped across her breast and her head thrown back, sat the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet. The stately dame had fallen on her knees with her forehead on the holy knees of the Old Maid, one hand upon the floor and the other pressed convulsively against her heart. It clutched a lock of hair—once sable, now discolored with a greenish mold.
"Back in that room," he remarked, "I spent a whole lifetime ago sitting by the deathbed of a good young man who, now at his final breath—" Clearly, there was some intense emotion in the thoughts that had just crossed his mind. He grabbed the torch from his friend's hand and flung the door open with such force that the flame went out, leaving them with no light except for the moonlight streaming through two windows into the large room. It was enough to reveal everything that could be seen. In a tall-backed oak chair, upright, with her hands clasped over her chest and her head thrown back, sat the Old Maid in the Winding-Sheet. The dignified woman had collapsed to her knees with her forehead resting on the holy knees of the Old Maid, one hand on the floor and the other pressed tightly against her heart. It clutched a lock of hair—once dark, now stained with a greenish mold.
As the priest and layman advanced into the chamber the Old Maid's features assumed such a semblance of shifting expression that they trusted to hear the whole mystery explained by a single word. But it was only the shadow of a tattered curtain waving between the dead face and the moonlight.
As the priest and layman entered the room, the Old Maid's face showed such a mix of emotions that they hoped to hear the entire mystery revealed with just one word. But it was just the shadow of a ragged curtain fluttering between the lifeless face and the moonlight.
"Both dead!" said the venerable man. "Then who shall divulge the secret? Methinks it glimmers to and fro in my mind like the light and shadow across the Old Maid's face. And now 'tis gone!"
"Both dead!" said the old man. "Then who will reveal the secret? It flickers in my mind like the light and shadow on the Old Maid's face. And now it’s gone!"
WANDERING WILLIE'S TALE
BY SIR WAITER SCOTT
BY SIR WALTER SCOTT
Sir Walter Scott, born in Edinburgh in 1771 and died at "Abbotsford" in 1832, published the first of his Waverley Novels ("Waverley") in 1814. "Redgauntlet," in which "Wandering Willie's Tale" occurs, appeared in 1824. Wandering Willie, who tells the tale, is Willie Steenson, a blind fiddler devoted to the Redgauntlet family. Many critics consider this the finest story in the English language. Andrew Lang, who calls it "immortal," describes ft as "that perfect model of a 'conte' in whose narrow range humor, poetry, the grotesque, the terrible are combined as in no other work of man."
Sir Walter Scott, born in Edinburgh in 1771 and died at "Abbotsford" in 1832, published the first of his Waverley Novels ("Waverley") in 1814. "Redgauntlet," which features "Wandering Willie's Tale," was released in 1824. Wandering Willie, the storyteller, is Willie Steenson, a blind fiddler devoted to the Redgauntlet family. Many critics consider this the best story in the English language. Andrew Lang, who calls it "immortal," describes it as "that perfect model of a 'conte' in whose narrow range humor, poetry, the grotesque, and the terrible are combined as in no other work of man."
WANDERING WILLIE'S TALE
Wandering Willie's Story
By SIR WALTER SCOTT
By Sir Walter Scott
Ye maun have heard of Sir Robert Redgauntlet of that Ilk, who lived in these parts before the dear years. The country will lang mind him; and our fathers used to draw breath thick if ever they heard him named. He was out wi' the Hielandmen in Montrose's time; and again he was in the hills wi' Glencairn in the saxteen hundred and fifty-twa; and sae when King Charles the Second came in, wha was in sic favor as the Laird of Redgauntlet? He was knighted at Lonon court, wi' the King's ain sword; and being a red-hot prelatist, he came down here, rampauging like a lion, with commissions of lieutenancy (and of lunacy, for what I ken), to put down a' the Whigs and Covenanters in the country. Wild wark they made of it; for the Whigs were as dour as the Cavaliers were fierce, and it was which should first tire the other. Redgauntlet was aye for the strong hand; and his name is kenn'd as wide in the country as Claverhouse's or Tam Dalyell's. Glen, nor dargle, nor mountain, nor cave could hide the puir Hill-folk when Redgauntlet was out with bugle and bloodhound after them, as if they had been sae mony deer. And troth when they fand them, they didna mak muckle mair ceremony than a Hielandman wi' a roebuck. It was just, "Will ye tak the test?" If not, "Make ready—present—fire!" and there lay the recusant.
You must have heard of Sir Robert Redgauntlet of that Ilk, who lived in these parts before the hard times. The country will remember him well, and our fathers would breathe heavily if they ever heard his name. He was out with the Highlanders during Montrose's time; and then he was in the hills with Glencairn in 1652; so when King Charles the Second came back, who was more favored than the Laird of Redgauntlet? He was knighted at the London court, with the King's own sword; and being a staunch supporter of the church, he came down here, rampaging like a lion, with commissions of lieutenant (and perhaps of madness, for all I know), to suppress all the Whigs and Covenanters in the area. They created quite a scene; for the Whigs were as stubborn as the Cavaliers were fierce, and it became a battle of endurance. Redgauntlet always favored a strong approach; and his name is known across the country as widely as Claverhouse's or Tam Dalyell's. No glen, ravine, mountain, or cave could hide the poor Highland folk when Redgauntlet was out with his bugle and bloodhound after them, as if they were mere deer. And honestly, when they found them, they didn't make much more ceremony than a Highlander with a roebuck. It was just, "Will you take the test?" If not, "Get ready—aim—fire!" and there lay the one who refused.
Far and wide was Sir Robert hated and feared. Men thought he had a direct compact with Satan; that he was proof against steel, and that bullets happed aff his buff-coat like hailstanes from a hearth; that he had a mear that would turn a hare on the side of Carrifra Gauns—and muckle to the same purpose, of whilk mair anon. The best blessing they wared on him was, "Deil scowp wi' Redgauntlet!" He wasna a bad maister to his ain folk though, and was weel aneugh liked by his tenants; and as for the lackies and troopers that raid out wi' him to the persecutions, as the Whigs ca'd those killing times, they wad hae drunken themsells blind to his health at ony time.
Sir Robert was widely hated and feared. People thought he had a direct deal with the devil, that he was immune to weapons, and that bullets bounced off his coat like hail from a fire; that he had a horse that could outrun a hare on the side of Carrifra Gauns—and much more that will be explained later. The best curse they used against him was, "Devil take Redgauntlet!" He wasn't a bad master to his own people, though, and he was well-liked by his tenants; as for the lackeys and soldiers who rode out with him during the persecutions, as the Whigs called those violent times, they would have drunk themselves blind to toast his health at any opportunity.
Now you are to ken that my gudesire lived on Redgauntlet's grund; they ca' the place Primrose Knowe. We had lived on the grund, and under the Redgauntlets, since the riding days, and lang before. It was a pleasant bit; and I think the air is callerer and fresher there than onywhere else in the country. It's a' deserted now; and I sat on the broken door-cheek three days since, and was glad I couldna see the plight the place was in; but that's a' wide o' the mark. There dwelt my gudesire, Steenie Steenson, a rambling, rattling chiel he had been in his young days, and could play weel on the pipes; he was famous at "Hoopers and Girders," a' Cumberland couldna touch him at "Jockie Lattin," and he had the finest finger for the backlilt between Berwick and Carlisle. The like o' Steenie wasna the sort that they made Whigs o'. And so he became a Tory, as they ca' it, which we now ca' Jacobites, just out of a kind of needcessity, that he might belang to some side or other. He had nae ill-will to the Whig bodies, and liked little to see the blude rin, though being obliged to follow Sir Robert in hunting and hosting, watching and warding, he saw muckle mischief, and maybe did some, that he couldna avoid.
You should know that my grandfather lived on Redgauntlet's land; they call the place Primrose Knowe. We had been living there, under the Redgauntlets, since the riding days and long before that. It was a nice spot, and I think the air is cooler and fresher there than anywhere else in the country. It's all deserted now; I sat on the broken doorframe three days ago and was glad I couldn’t see the state the place was in; but that’s not really the point. My grandfather, Steenie Steenson, used to live there. He was quite the character in his younger days and could play the pipes really well; he was famous for "Hoopers and Girders," and nobody in Cumberland could match him at "Jockie Lattin." He had the finest touch for the backlilt between Berwick and Carlisle. Someone like Steenie wasn't the type to be made a Whig. So, he became a Tory, as they called it, which we now call Jacobites, just out of a sort of necessity to belong to some side or another. He had no real animosity toward the Whigs and didn’t enjoy seeing bloodshed, but since he had to follow Sir Robert in hunting and raiding, watching and guarding, he saw a lot of trouble and perhaps caused some that he couldn’t avoid.
Now Steenie was a kind of favorite with his master, and kenn'd a' the folks about the castle, and was often sent for to play the pipes when they were at their merriment. Auld Dougal MacCallum, the butler, that had followed Sir Robert through gude and ill, thick and thin, pool and stream, was specially fond of the pipes, and aye gae my gudesire his gude word wi' the laird; for Dougal could turn his master round his finger.
Now Steenie was kind of a favorite with his master, knew all the people around the castle, and was often asked to play the pipes when they were having a good time. Old Dougal MacCallum, the butler, who had stuck with Sir Robert through good times and bad, in every situation, was particularly fond of the pipes, and always gave my best wishes to the lord; because Dougal could easily sway his master.
Weel, round came the Revolution, and it had like to have broken the hearts baith of Dougal and his master. But the change was not a'thegither sae great as they feared, and other folk thought for. The Whigs made an unco crawing what they wad do with their auld enemies, and in special wi' Sir Robert Redgauntlet. But there were ower mony great folks dipped in the same doings to mak a spick span new warld. So Parliament passed it a' ower easy; and Sir Robert, bating that he was held to hunting foxes instead of Covenanters, remained just the man he was. His revel was as loud, and his hall as weel lighted, as ever it had been, though maybe he lacked the fines of the Nonconformists, that used to come to stock his larder and cellar; for it is certain he began to be keener about the rents than his tenants used to find him before, and they behoved to be prompt to the rent-day, or else the laird wasna pleased. And he was sic an awsome body that naebody cared to anger him; for the oaths he swore, and the rage that he used to get into, and the looks that he put on, made men sometimes think him a devil incarnate.
Well, then the Revolution came around, and it almost broke the hearts of both Dougal and his master. But the change wasn't as drastic as they feared, nor as others thought. The Whigs made a big fuss about what they would do with their old enemies, especially with Sir Robert Redgauntlet. However, there were too many important people involved in the same affairs to create an entirely new world. So Parliament passed things pretty easily; and Sir Robert, despite the fact that he was now focused on hunting foxes instead of Covenanters, remained the same man he had always been. His parties were as loud, and his hall as well-lit, as ever, although he might have missed the Nonconformists, who used to help stock his pantry and cellar; it’s clear he became more concerned about the rents than his tenants had known him to be before, and they had to be timely with their rent payments, or the laird wasn't happy. He was such an intimidating guy that no one wanted to provoke him; the oaths he swore, the rage he could fall into, and the looks he gave sometimes made people think he was the devil incarnate.
Weel, my gudesire was nae manager—no that he was a very great misguider—but he hadna the saving gift, and he got twa terms' rent in arrear. He got the first brash at Whitsunday put ower wi' fair word and piping; but when Martinmas came, there was a summons from the grund-officer to come wi' the rent on a day preceese, or else Steenie behoved to flit. Sair wark he had to get the siller; but he was weel-freended, and at last he got the haill scraped thegither—a thousand merks; the maist of it was from a neighbor they ca'd Laurie Lapraik—a sly tod. Laurie had walth o' gear—could hunt wi' the hound and rin wi' the hare—and be Whig or Tory, saunt or sinner, as the wind stood. He was a professor in this Revolution warld; but he liked an orra sough of this warld, and a tune on the pipes weel aneugh at a bytime; and abune a' he thought he had gude security for the siller he lent my gudesire ower the stocking at Primrose Knowe.
Well, my grandfather wasn't much of a manager—not that he was a terrible one—but he just didn’t have the saving instinct, and he had two terms' rent overdue. He managed to delay the first payment at Whitsunday with some kind words and charm; but when Martinmas arrived, there was a summons from the land officer demanding the rent on a specific day, or else Steenie would have to move out. It was tough for him to get the money; but he had good friends, and eventually, he was able to scrape together the full amount—a thousand merks; most of it came from a neighbor they called Laurie Lapraik—a clever fox. Laurie had plenty of wealth—could hunt with the hound and run with the hare—and he could be Whig or Tory, saint or sinner, depending on the circumstances. He was a master of this changing world; but he enjoyed a friendly chat from time to time, and a tune on the pipes was always welcome; above all, he believed he had good security for the money he lent my grandfather over at Primrose Knowe.
Away trots my gudesire to Redgauntlet Castle, wi' a heavy purse and a light heart, glad to be out of the laird's danger. Weel, the first thing he learned at the castle was that Sir Robert had fretted himsell into a fit of the gout, because he did not appear before twelve o'clock. It wasna a'thegither for sake of the money, Dougal thought; but because he didna like to part wi' my gudesire aff the grund. Dougal was glad to see Steenie, and brought him into the great oak parlor, and there sat the laird his leesome lane, excepting that he had beside him a great ill-favored jackanape, that was a special pet of his—a cankered beast it was, and mony an ill-natured trick it played; ill to please it was, and easily angered—ran about the haill castle, chattering and yowling, and pinching and biting folk, especially before ill weather, or disturbances in the state. Sir Robert ca'd it Major Weir, after the warlock that was burnt;* and few folk liked either the name or the conditions of the creature—they thought there was something in it by ordinar—and my gudesire was not just easy in mind when the door shut on him, and he saw himself in the room wi' naebody but the laird, Dougal MacCallum, and the major, a thing that hadna chanced to him before.
Away trots my good friend to Redgauntlet Castle, with a heavy wallet and a light heart, glad to be out of the laird's danger. Well, the first thing he learned at the castle was that Sir Robert had worried himself into a fit of gout because he didn’t show up until noon. It wasn't entirely for the money, Dougal thought; it was more because he didn’t want to part with my good friend off the ground. Dougal was happy to see Steenie and brought him into the great oak parlor, where the laird sat all alone, except for a very ugly pet monkey that he adored—a mean creature that played many nasty tricks. It was hard to please and easily angered—running around the whole castle, chattering and howling, pinching and biting people, especially before bad weather or political disturbances. Sir Robert called it Major Weir, after the warlock who was burned; and few people liked either the name or the nature of the creature—they thought there was something weird about it—and my good friend wasn’t exactly at ease when the door shut behind him, leaving him alone in the room with only the laird, Dougal MacCallum, and the monkey, something that hadn’t happened to him before.
* A celebrated wizard, executed (1670) at Edinburgh for sorcery and other crimes.
* A famous wizard, executed (1670) in Edinburgh for witchcraft and other offenses.
Sir Robert sat, or, I should say, lay, in a great armed chair, wi' his grand velvet gown, and his feet on a cradle; for he had baith gout and gravel, and his face looked as gash and ghastly as Satan's. Major Weir sat opposite to him, in a red laced coat, and the laird's wig on his head; and aye as Sir Robert girned wi' pain, the jackanape girned too, like a sheep's-head between a pair of tangs—an ill-faured, fearsome couple they were. The laird's buff-coat was hung on a pin behind him, and his broadsword and his pistols within reach; for he keepit up the auld fashion of having the weapons ready, and a horse saddled day and night, just as he used to do when he was able to loup on horseback, and away after ony of the Hill-folk he could get speerings of. Some said it was for fear of the Whigs taking vengeance, but I judge it was just his auld custom—he wasna gien to fear onything. The rental-book, wi' its black cover and brass clasps, was lying beside him; and a book of sculduggery sangs was put betwixt the leaves, to keep it open at the place where it bore evidence against the goodman of Primrose Knowe, as behind the hand with his mails and duties. Sir Robert gave my gudesire a look as if he would have withered his heart in his bosom. Ye maun ken he had a way of bending his brows that men saw the visible mark of a horseshoe in his forehead, deep-dinted, as if it had been stamped there.
Sir Robert sat, or I should say lay, in a large armchair, wearing his elegant velvet gown, with his feet resting on a cradle; he was suffering from both gout and gravel, and his face looked as pale and ghastly as Satan's. Major Weir sat across from him, dressed in a red laced coat and wearing the laird's wig; and every time Sir Robert winced in pain, the little man grimaced too, like a sheep's head caught between a pair of tongs—what an unfortunate, terrifying pair they were. The laird's buff coat was hung on a hook behind him, and his broadsword and pistols were within reach; he maintained the old habit of keeping his weapons ready and a horse saddled day and night, just like he used to do when he could jump on a horse and chase after any of the Hill-folk he could hear about. Some said it was to protect against revenge from the Whigs, but I think it was just his old way—he wasn’t one to be afraid of anything. The rental book, with its black cover and brass clasps, lay beside him, and a book of dubious songs was placed between the pages to keep it open at the spot that held evidence against the goodman of Primrose Knowe, who was behind on his rents and duties. Sir Robert gave my great-grandfather a look that seemed like it could wither his heart. You must know he had a way of arching his brows that left a visible mark on his forehead, resembling a horseshoe, deeply impressed as if it had been stamped there.
"Are ye come light-handed, ye son of a toom whistle?" said Sir Robert. "Zounds! if you are—"
"Have you come empty-handed, you son of a cold whistle?" said Sir Robert. "Wow! if you have—"
My gudesire, with as gude a countenance as he could put on, made a leg, and placed the bag of money on the table wi' a dash, like a man that does something clever. The laird drew it to him hastily. "Is it all here, Steenie, man?"
My good friend, with the best expression he could muster, bowed and slapped the bag of money onto the table with flair, like someone pulling off a clever move. The landlord quickly pulled it toward him. "Is it all here, Steenie, my man?"
"Your honor will find it right," said my gudesire.
"Your honor will find it correct," said my guide.
"Here, Dougal," said the laird, "gie Steenie a tass of brandy downstairs, till I count the siller and write the receipt."
"Here, Dougal," said the laird, "give Steenie a glass of brandy downstairs while I count the money and write the receipt."
But they werena weel out of the room when Sir Robert gied a yelloch that garr'd the castle rock. Back ran Dougal—in flew the livery-men—yell on yell gied the laird, ilk ane mair awfu' than the ither. My gudesire knew not whether to stand or flee, but he ventured back into the parlor, where a' was gaun hirdie-girdie—naebody to say "come in" or "gae out." Terribly the laird roared for cauld water to his feet, and wine to cool his throat; and "Hell, hell, hell, and its flames," was aye the word in his mouth. They brought him water, and when they plunged his swoln feet into the tub, he cried out it was burning; and folk say that it did bubble and sparkle like a seething caldron. He flung the cup at Dougal's head, and said he had given him blood instead of burgundy; and, sure aneugh, the lass washed clotted blood aff the carpet the neist day. The jackanape they ca'd Major Weir, it jibbered and cried as if it was mocking its master. My gudesire's head was like to turn: he forgot baith siller and receipt, and downstairs he banged; but as he ran, the shrieks came faint and fainter; there was a deep-drawn shivering groan, and word gaed through the castle that the laird was dead.
But they were barely out of the room when Sir Robert let out a yell that shook the castle. Dougal ran back in, and the servants rushed in—each yell from the laird more terrifying than the last. My great-grandfather didn’t know whether to stay or run, but he took a chance and went back into the parlor, where chaos reigned—no one to say "come in" or "go out." The laird screamed for cold water for his feet and wine to soothe his throat, and "Hell, hell, hell, and its flames" were the words always on his lips. They brought him water, and when they put his swollen feet into the tub, he screamed that it was burning; and people say it bubbled and fizzed like a boiling pot. He hurled the cup at Dougal’s head, claiming he had given him blood instead of burgundy; sure enough, the maid was scrubbing clotted blood off the carpet the next day. The little rascal called Major Weir screeched and cried as if it was mocking its master. My great-grandfather felt faint: he forgot both money and receipt and rushed downstairs; but as he ran, the screams grew fainter; there was a deep, shuddering groan, and word spread through the castle that the laird was dead.
Weel, away came my gudesire wi' his finger in his mouth, and his best hope was that Dougal had seen the moneybag, and heard the laird speak of writing the receipt. The young laird, now Sir John, came from Edinburgh to see things put to rights. Sir John and his father never gree'd weel. Sir John had been bred an advocate, and afterward sat in the last Scots Parliament and voted for the Union, having gotten, it was thought, a rug of the compensations; if his father could have come out of his grave he would have brained him for it on his awn hearthstane. Some thought it was easier counting with the auld rough knight than the fair-spoken young ane—but mair of that anon.
Well, away went my good friend with his finger in his mouth, and his best hope was that Dougal had seen the money bag and heard the laird talk about writing the receipt. The young laird, now Sir John, came from Edinburgh to set things right. Sir John and his father never got along well. Sir John had been trained as a lawyer and later sat in the last Scottish Parliament, voting for the Union, reportedly having received a share of the compensations; if his father could have risen from his grave, he would have knocked him out right there on his own hearth. Some thought it was easier dealing with the old rough knight than the smooth-talking young one—but more on that later.
Dougal MacCallum, poor body, neither grat nor graned, but gaed about the house looking like a corpse, but directing, as was his duty, a' the order of the grand funeral. Now, Dougal looked aye waur and waur when night was coming, and was aye the last to gang to his bed, whilk was in a little round just opposite the chamber of dais, whilk his master occupied while he was living, and where he now lay in state, as they ca'd it, weel-a-day! The night before the funeral, Dougal could keep his awn counsel nae langer: he came doun with his proud spirit, and fairly asked auld Hutcheon to sit in his room with him for an hour. When they were in the round, Dougal took ae tass of brandy to himsell and gave another to Hutcheon, and wished him all health and lang life, and said that, for himsell, he wasna lang for this world; for that, every night since Sir Robert's death, his silver call had sounded from the state chamber, just as it used to do at nights in his lifetime, to call Dougal to help to turn him in his bed. Dougal said that, being alone with the dead on that floor of the tower (for naebody cared to wake Sir Robert Redgauntlet like another corpse), he had never daured to answer the call, but that now his conscience checked him for neglecting his duty; for, "though death breaks service," said MacCallum, "it shall never break my service to Sir Robert; and I will answer his next whistle, so be you will stand by me, Hutcheon."
Dougal MacCallum, poor guy, neither happy nor sad, but walked around the house looking like a zombie, while managing the details of the grand funeral, as was his responsibility. Dougal always looked worse and worse as night approached and was always the last one to go to bed, which was in a small room right across from the dais chamber that his master used while he was alive, and where he now lay in state, as they called it, oh dear! The night before the funeral, Dougal couldn’t keep it to himself any longer: he came down with his heavy heart and straight-up asked old Hutcheon to sit with him for an hour. Once they were in the room, Dougal poured himself a glass of brandy and poured another for Hutcheon, wishing him good health and a long life. He said that, as for himself, he wouldn’t be around much longer; because every night since Sir Robert's death, the silver bell had sounded from the state chamber, just like it did in his lifetime, calling Dougal to help turn him in his bed. Dougal mentioned that being alone with the dead on that tower floor (since no one dared to wake Sir Robert Redgauntlet like a corpse) he had never had the courage to respond to the call, but now his conscience was bothering him for neglecting his duty; for, "though death breaks service," said MacCallum, "it shall never break my service to Sir Robert; and I will respond to his next whistle, as long as you stand by me, Hutcheon."
Hutcheon had nae will to work, but he had stood by Dougal in battle and broil, and he wad not fail him at this pinch; so down the carles sat ower a stoup of brandy, and Hutcheon, who was something of a clerk, would have read a chapter of the Bible; but Dougal would hear naething but a blaud of Davie Lindsay, whilk was the waur preparation.
Hutcheon had no desire to work, but he had stood by Dougal in battle and conflict, and he would not let him down in this tough time; so the two men sat over a glass of brandy, and Hutcheon, who was somewhat of a scholar, would have read a chapter of the Bible; but Dougal would listen to nothing but a tale from Davie Lindsay, which was the worse way to prepare.
When midnight came, and the house was quiet as the grave, sure aneugh the silver whistle sounded as sharp and shrill as if Sir Robert was blowing it, and up gat the twa auld serving-men and tottered into the room where the dead man lay. Hutcheon saw aneugh at the first glance; for there were torches in the room, which showed him the foul fiend in his ain shape, sitting on the laird's coffin! Ower he couped as if he had been dead. He could not tell how lang he lay in a trance at the door, but when he gathered himsell he cried on his neighbor, and getting nae answer, raised the house, when Dougal was found lying dead within twa steps of the bed where his master's coffin was placed. As for the whistle, it was gaen anes and aye; but mony a time was it heard at the top of the house on the bartizan, and amang the auld chimneys and turrets, where the howlets have their nests. Sir John hushed the matter up, and the funeral passed over without mair bogle-wark.
When midnight arrived and the house was as quiet as a grave, the silver whistle sounded sharp and shrill, as if Sir Robert was blowing it. The two old servants got up and wandered into the room where the dead man lay. Hutcheon saw enough at first glance; there were torches in the room that revealed the foul fiend in his own shape, sitting on the laird's coffin! He fell over as if he had died. He didn’t know how long he lay in a daze at the door, but when he came to, he called out to his neighbor, and after receiving no answer, he raised the alarm. Dougal was found dead just two steps away from the bed where his master's coffin was placed. As for the whistle, it was heard repeatedly; many times it echoed at the top of the house on the bartizan and among the old chimneys and turrets, where the owls have their nests. Sir John silenced the matter, and the funeral went on without any further disturbances.
But when a' was ower, and the laird was beginning to settle his affairs, every tenant was called up for his arrears, and my gudesire for the full sum that stood him in the rental-book. Weel, away he trots to the castle, to tell his story, and there he is introduced to Sir John, sitting in his father's chair, in deep mourning, with weepers and hanging cravat, and a small walking rapier by his side, instead of the auld broadsword that had a hundredweight of steel about it, what with blade, chape, and basket-hilt. I have heard their communing so often tauld ower, that I almost think I was there mysell, though I couldna be born at the time. (In fact, Alan, my companion mimicked, with a good deal of humor, the flattering, conciliating tone of the tenant's address, and the hypocritical melancholy of the laird's reply. His grandfather, he said, had, while he spoke, his eye fixed on the rental-book, as if it were a mastiff-dog that he was afraid would spring up and bite him.)
But when it was all over, and the laird was starting to sort out his affairs, every tenant was called up for their unpaid rent, and my great-grandfather for the full amount listed in the rental book. So, off he goes to the castle to tell his story, where he meets Sir John, sitting in his father's chair, dressed in deep mourning, with a black armband and a tied cravat, and a small walking rapier by his side, instead of the old broadsword that was packed with a hundredweight of steel, including the blade, chape, and basket-hilt. I've heard their conversation recounted so many times that I almost feel like I was there myself, even though I couldn’t have been born at that time. (In fact, Alan, my companion, mimicked with a lot of humor the flattering, conciliating tone of the tenant’s address, and the false sorrow of the laird’s reply. He said his grandfather, while speaking, had his eye fixed on the rental book, as if it were a fierce dog he was worried would jump up and bite him.)
"I wuss ye joy, sir, of the head seat, and the white loaf, and the braid lairdship. Your father was a kind man to friends and followers; muckle grace to you, Sir John, to fill his shoon—his boots, I suld say, for he seldom wore shoon, unless it were muils when he had the gout."
"I wish you joy, sir, of the top spot, and the white bread, and the title of lord. Your father was nice to friends and followers; much grace to you, Sir John, to fill his shoes—his boots, I should say, because he rarely wore shoes, unless it was slippers when he had the gout."
"Ay, Steenie," quoth the laird, sighing deeply, and putting his napkin to his een, "his was a sudden call, and he will be missed in the country; no time to set his house in order: weel prepared Godward, no doubt, which is the root of the matter, but left us behind a tangled hesp to wind, Steenie. Hem! hem! We maun go to business, Steenie; much to do, and little time to do it in."
"Ay, Steenie," said the laird, sighing deeply and wiping his eyes with his napkin, "that was a sudden loss, and he'll be missed in the community; there wasn't time to put his affairs in order: he was well-prepared spiritually, no doubt, which is what really matters, but he left us with a messy situation to sort out, Steenie. Hmm! We need to get to work, Steenie; there's a lot to do and not much time to do it."
Here he opened the fatal volume. I have heard of a thing they call Doomsday Book—I am clear it has been a rental of back-ganging tenants.
Here he opened the fateful book. I’ve heard of something called the Doomsday Book—I’m sure it has been a record of outdated tenants.
"Stephen," said Sir John, still in the same soft, sleekit tone of voice—"Stephen Stevenson, or Steenson, ye are down here for a year's rent behind the hand, due at last term."
"Stephen," said Sir John, still using the same soft, smooth tone—"Stephen Stevenson, or Steenson, you owe a year's rent that was due last term."
Stephen. "Please your honor, Sir John, I paid it to your father."
Stephen. "Please, Your Honor, Sir John, I paid it to your father."
Sir John. "Ye took a receipt then, doubtless, Stephen, and can produce it?"
Sir John. "You got a receipt then, for sure, Stephen, and can show it?"
Stephen. "Indeed I hadna time, an it like your honor; for nae sooner had I set doun the siller, and just as his honor Sir Robert, that's gaen, drew it till him to count it, and write out the receipt, he was ta'en wi' the pains that removed him."
Stephen. "Honestly, I didn’t have time, if you don’t mind me saying; for no sooner had I set down the money, and just as his honor Sir Robert, who’s gone now, was reaching for it to count and write out the receipt, he was struck by the illness that took him away."
"That was unlucky," said Sir John, after a pause. "But ye maybe paid it in the presence of somebody. I want but a talis qualis evidence, Stephen. I would go ower strictly to work with no poor man."
"That was unfortunate," said Sir John, after a moment. "But you might have paid it in front of someone. I just need some kind of evidence, Stephen. I wouldn't want to go too hard on any poor man."
Stephen. "Troth, Sir John, there was naebody in the room but Dougal MacCallum, the butler. But, as your honor kens, he has e'en followed his auld master."
Stephen. "Honestly, Sir John, there was nobody in the room except Dougal MacCallum, the butler. But, as you know, he has already followed his old master."
"Very unlucky again, Stephen," said Sir John, without altering his voice a single note. "The man to whom ye paid the money is dead; and the man who witnessed the payment is dead too; and the siller, which should have been to the fore, is neither seen nor heard tell of in the repositories. How am I to believe a' this?"
"Really unfortunate again, Stephen," Sir John said, not changing his tone at all. "The guy you gave the money to is dead; and the person who saw the payment is dead too; and the money, which should be in the front, is neither seen nor heard of in the vaults. How am I supposed to believe all this?"
Stephen. "I dinna ken, your honor; but there is a bit memorandum note of the very coins—for, God help me! I had to borrow out of twenty purses—and I am sure that ilka man there set down will take his grit oath for what purpose I borrowed the money."
Stephen. "I don't know, sir; but I have a note about the exact coins—for, I swear! I had to borrow from twenty different people—and I'm sure every man listed will swear on his honor why I borrowed the money."
Sir John. "I have little doubt ye borrowed the money, Steenie. It is the payment to my father that I want to have some proof of."
Sir John. "I have no doubt you borrowed the money, Steenie. It's proof of the payment to my father that I'm looking for."
Stephen. "The siller maun be about the house, Sir John. And since your honor never got it, and his honor that was canna have ta'en it wi' him, maybe some of the family may have seen it."
Stephen. "The silver must be around the house, Sir John. And since you never got it, and his honor who had it can't have taken it with him, maybe some of the family has seen it."
Sir John. "We will examine the servants, Stephen; that is but reasonable."
Sir John. "We will question the staff, Stephen; that makes sense."
But lackey and lass, and page and groom, all denied stoutly that they had ever seen such a bag of money as my gudesire described. What was waur, he had unluckily not mentioned to any living soul of them his purpose of paying his rent. Ae quean had noticed something under his arm, but she took it for the pipes.
But the lackey, the maid, the page, and the groom all firmly denied ever seeing such a bag of money as my beloved described. What was worse, he unfortunately hadn't mentioned to any of them his plan to pay his rent. One woman had noticed something under his arm, but she thought it was just the bagpipes.
Sir John Redgauntlet ordered the servants out of the room, and then said to my gudesire: "Now, Steenie, ye see you have fair play; and, as I have little doubt ye ken better where to find the siller than any other body, I beg, in fair terms, and for your own sake, that you will end this fasherie; for, Stephen, ye maun pay or flit."
Sir John Redgauntlet sent the servants out of the room and then said to my good friend: "Now, Steenie, you see you have a fair chance; and since I have no doubt you know better where to find the money than anyone else, I kindly ask, for your own sake, that you put an end to this fuss; because, Stephen, you must either pay up or leave."
"The Lord forgie your opinion," said Stephen, driven almost to his wit's-end—"I am an honest man."
"The Lord forgive your opinion," said Stephen, pushed to his breaking point—"I am an honest man."
"So am I, Stephen," said his honor; "and so are all the folks in the house, I hope. But if there be a knave among us, it must be he that tells the story he can not prove." He paused, and then added, mair sternly: "If I understand your trick, sir, you want to take advantage of some malicious reports concerning things in this family, and particularly respecting my father's sudden death, thereby to cheat me out of the money, and perhaps take away my character, by insinuating that I have received the rent I am demanding. Where do you suppose this money to be? I insist upon knowing."
"I'm with you on that, Stephen," said his honor; "and I hope everyone else in the room feels the same way. But if there's a dishonest person among us, it's the one who tells a story they can't back up." He paused and then added more sternly, "If I get your game, sir, you want to exploit some nasty rumors about this family, especially regarding my father's sudden death, to cheat me out of the money and maybe ruin my reputation by suggesting I've already collected the rent I'm asking for. Where do you think this money is? I demand to know."
My gudesire saw everything look sae muckle against him that he grew nearly desperate; however, he shifted from one foot to another, looked to every corner of the room, and made no answer.
My desire to see everything was so strong against him that he became almost desperate; however, he shifted from one foot to the other, looked at every corner of the room, and said nothing.
"Speak out, sirrah," said the laird, assuming a look of his father's—a very particular ane, which he had when he was angry: it seemed as if the wrinkles of his frown made that selfsame fearful shape of a horse's shoe in the middle of his brow—"speak out, sir! I will know your thoughts. Do you suppose that I have this money?"
"Speak up, you rascal," said the laird, adopting the same look as his father—a very distinctive one that he wore when he was angry: it seemed like the lines on his frowning forehead formed that same scary shape of a horseshoe in the center of his brow—"speak up, I want to know what you’re thinking. Do you really think I have this money?"
"Far be it frae me to say so," said Stephen.
"Don't get me wrong," said Stephen.
"Do you charge any of my people with having taken it?"
"Are you accusing any of my people of taking it?"
"I wad be laith to charge them that may be innocent," said my gudesire; "and if there be any one that is guilty, I have nae proof."
"I would be hesitant to accuse those who might be innocent," said my grandfather; "and if there is anyone who is guilty, I have no proof."
"Somewhere the money must be, if there is a word of truth in your story," said Sir John; "I ask where you think it is, and demand a correct answer?"
"Somewhere the money has to be, if your story has any truth to it," said Sir John; "I want to know where you think it is, and I expect a straight answer?"
"In hell, if you will have my thoughts of it," said my gudesire, driven to extremity—"in hell! with your father, his jackanape, and his silver whistle."
"In hell, if you want to hear my thoughts on it," said my gudesire, pushed to the limit—"in hell! with your father, his little monkey, and his silver whistle."
Down the stairs he ran, for the parlor was nae place for him after such a word, and he heard the laird swearing blood and wounds behind him, as fast as ever did Sir Robert, and roaring for the bailie and the baron-officer.
Down the stairs he ran, because the parlor was no place for him after what he just heard, and he could hear the lord cursing up a storm behind him, just like Sir Robert, and shouting for the bailiff and the baron-officer.
Away rode my gudesire to his chief creditor, him they ca'd Laurie Lapraik, to try if he could make onything out of him; but when he tauld his story, he got but the warst word in his wame—thief, beggar, and dyvour were the safest terms; and to the boot of these hard terms, Laurie brought up the auld story of his dipping his hand in the blood of God's saunts, just as if a tenant could have helped riding with the laird, and that a laird like Sir Robert Redgauntlet. My gudesire was by this time far beyond the bounds of patience, and while he and Laurie were at deil speed the liars, he was wanchancie aneugh to abuse Lapraik's doctrine as weel as the man, and said things that garr'd folks' flesh grue that heard them; he wasna just himsell, and he had lived wi' a wild set in his day.
Away rode my grandfather to his main creditor, a guy named Laurie Lapraik, to see if he could get anything from him; but when he told his story, all he got back were insults—thief, beggar, and debtor were the mildest things said to him. On top of those harsh words, Laurie brought up the old tale of his involvement in the blood of God's saints, as if a tenant had any choice but to ride with the landowner, especially one like Sir Robert Redgauntlet. By this time, my grandfather was well past the limit of his patience, and while he and Laurie were in a heated argument, he was reckless enough to criticize Lapraik’s views as well as the man himself, saying things that made people shudder who were listening; he wasn’t really himself, and he had hung out with a wild crowd in his younger days.
At last they parted, and my gudesire was to ride hame through the wood of Pitmurkie, that is a' fou of black firs, as they say. I ken the wood, but the firs may be black or white for what I can tell. At the entry of the wood there is a wild common, and on the edge of the common a little lonely change-house, that was keepit then by a hostler-wife—they suld hae ca'd her Tibbie Faw—and there puir Steenie cried for a mutchkin of brandy, for he had had no refreshment the haill day. Tibbie was earnest wi' him to take a bite o' meat, but he couldna think o't, nor would he take his foot out of the stirrup, and took off the brandy wholly at twa drafts, and named a toast at each—the first was, the memory of Sir Robert Redgauntlet, and might he never lie quiet in his grave till he had righted his poor bond-tenant; and the second was, a health to Man's Enemy, if he would but get him back the pock of siller, or tell him what came o't, for he saw the haill world was like to regard him as a thief and a cheat, and he took that waur than even the ruin of his house and hauld.
At last they said their goodbyes, and my intention was to ride home through the Pitmurkie woods, which are all full of black firs, or so they say. I know the woods, but the firs could be black or white for all I know. At the entrance of the woods, there's a wild common, and at the edge of that common is a little lonely tavern, run at the time by a landlady—they should have called her Tibbie Faw—and there poor Steenie called for a small drink of brandy, since he hadn't had anything to eat or drink all day. Tibbie urged him to have something to eat, but he couldn't think about it; he wouldn’t even take his foot out of the stirrup, and he downed the brandy in two gulps, toasting with each one—the first was to the memory of Sir Robert Redgauntlet, and may he never rest easy in his grave until he made things right for his poor tenant; and the second was a toast to Man's Enemy, if he would just retrieve the bag of money or tell him what happened to it, because he saw that the whole world was about to see him as a thief and a cheat, and he took that worse than even the loss of his home and lands.
On he rode, little caring where. It was a dark night turned, and the trees made it yet darker, and he let the beast take its ain road through the wood; when, all of a sudden, from tired and wearied that it was before, the nag began to spring, and flee, and stend, that my gudesire could hardly keep the saddle; upon the whilk, a horseman, suddenly riding up beside him, said, "That's a mettle beast of yours, freend; will you sell him?" So saying, he touched the horse's neck with his riding-wand, and it fell into its auld heigh-ho of a stumbling trot. "But his spunk's soon out of him, I think," continued the stranger, "and that is like mony a man's courage, that thinks he wad do great things till he come to the proof."
On he rode, not really caring where. It was a dark night, even darker because of the trees, and he let the horse take its own path through the woods. Suddenly, after being so tired and worn out before, the horse started to jump, run, and kick, making it hard for me to stay in the saddle. Then a rider came up next to him and said, "That's quite the spirited horse you have, my friend; are you looking to sell him?" As he spoke, he touched the horse's neck with his riding crop, and it fell back into its old, slow, stumbling trot. "But I think his energy won’t last long," the stranger continued, "and that's like many men’s courage, who believe they can do great things until they're actually put to the test."
My gudesire scarce listened to this, but spurred his horse, with "Gude e'en to you, freend."
My good friend barely listened to this, but urged his horse forward, saying, "Good evening to you, friend."
But it's like the stranger was ane that doesna lightly yield his point; for, ride as Steenie liked, he was aye beside him at the salfsame pace. At last my gudesire, Steenie Steenson, grew half angry and, to say the truth, half feared.
But it’s like the stranger wasn’t one to easily give in; no matter how fast Steenie rode, he was always right next to him at the same pace. Finally, my good friend, Steenie Steenson, became half angry and, to be honest, half scared.
"What is it that ye want with me, freend?" he said. "If ye be a robber, I have nae money; if ye be a leal man, wanting company, I have nae heart to mirth or speaking; and if ye want to ken the road, I scarce ken it mysell."
"What do you want with me, friend?" he said. "If you're a robber, I have no money; if you're a loyal man looking for company, I have no heart for joy or conversation; and if you want to know the way, I hardly know it myself."
"If you will tell me your grief," said the stranger, "I am one that, though I have been sair misca'd in the world, am the only hand for helping my freends."
"If you share your pain with me," said the stranger, "I’m someone who, despite having been treated poorly in life, can truly help my friends."
So my gudesire, to ease his ain heart, mair than from any hope of help, told him the story from beginning to end.
So my dear friend, to ease his heart, more than out of any hope for help, told him the story from beginning to end.
"It's a hard pinch," said the stranger; "but I think I can help you."
"It's a tough spot," said the stranger; "but I think I can help you."
"If you could lend the money, sir, and take a lang day—I ken nae other help on earth," said my gudesire.
"If you could lend the money, sir, and be patient for a long day—I see no other help on earth," said my grandfather.
"But there may be some under the earth," said the stranger. "Come, I'll be frank wi' you; I could lend you the money on bond, but you would maybe scruple my terms. Now, I can tell you that your auld laird is disturbed in his grave by your curses, and the wailing of your family, and if ye daur venture to go to see him, he will give you the receipt."
"But there might be some buried underground," said the stranger. "Listen, I'll be honest with you; I could lend you the money on a bond, but you might hesitate at my terms. Now, I can tell you that your old lord is troubled in his grave by your curses and the crying of your family, and if you dare to go see him, he'll give you the receipt."
My gudesire's hair stood on end at this proposal, but he thought his companion might be some humorsome chield that was trying to frighten him, and might end with lending him the money. Besides, he was bauld wi' brandy, and desperate wi' distress; and he said he had courage to go to the gate of hell, and a step farther, for that receipt.
My friend’s hair stood on end at this suggestion, but he thought his companion might just be a funny guy trying to scare him, and he might end up lending him the money. Besides, he was bold from the brandy and desperate from the stress; he said he had the guts to go to the gates of hell, and even a step beyond, for that receipt.
The stranger laughed.
The stranger chuckled.
Weel, they rode on through the thickest of the wood, when, all of a sudden, the horse stopped at the door of a great house; and, but that he knew the place was ten miles off, my gudesire would have thought he was at Redgauntlet Castle. They rode into the outer courtyard, through the muckle faulding yetts, and aneath the auld portcullis; and the whole front of the house was lighted, and there were pipes and fiddles, and as much dancing and deray within as used to be in Sir Robert's house at Pace and Yule, and such high seasons. They lap off, and my gudesire, as seemed to him, fastened his horse to the very ring he had tied him to that morning, when he gaed to wait on the young Sir John.
Well, they rode through the thickest part of the forest when suddenly, the horse stopped at the door of a huge house; and, if he hadn’t known the place was ten miles away, my grandfather would have thought he was at Redgauntlet Castle. They rode into the outer courtyard, through the big folding gates, and beneath the old portcullis; the whole front of the house was lit up, and there were pipes and fiddles, and as much dancing and merriment inside as there used to be in Sir Robert's house at Christmas and other special occasions. They jumped off, and my grandfather, as it seemed to him, tied his horse to the very ring he had secured it to that morning when he went to attend to the young Sir John.
"God!" said my gudesire, "if Sir Robert's death be but a dream!"
"God!" said my gudesire, "if Sir Robert's death is just a dream!"
He knocked at the ha' door just as he was wont, and his auld acquaintance, Dougal MacCallum, just after his wont, too, came to open the door, and said, "Piper Steenie, are ye there, lad? Sir Robert has been crying for you."
He knocked at the hall door just like he usually did, and his old friend, Dougal MacCallum, just like he usually did too, came to open the door and said, "Piper Steenie, is that you, lad? Sir Robert has been asking for you."
My gudesire was like a man in a dream; he looked for the stranger, but he was gane for the time. At last he just tried to say, "Ha! Dougal Driveower, are ye living? I thought ye had been dead."
My desire felt like a guy in a dream; he looked for the stranger, but he was gone for the moment. Finally, he just tried to say, "Hey! Dougal Driveower, are you alive? I thought you were dead."
"Never fash yoursell wi' me," said Dougal, "but look to yoursell; and see ye tak naething frae onybody here, neither meat, drink, or siller, except just the receipt that is your ain."
"Don’t worry about me," Dougal said. "Just take care of yourself, and make sure you don’t take anything from anyone here, neither food, drink, nor money, except for the receipt that belongs to you."
So saying, he led the way out through halls and trances that were weel kenn'd to my gudesire, and into the auld oak parlor; and there was as much singing of profane sangs, and birling of red wine, and speaking blasphemy and sculduddry, as had ever been in Redgauntlet Castle when it was at the blythest.
So saying, he led the way out through halls and passages that were well known to me, and into the old oak parlor; and there was as much singing of secular songs, and drinking of red wine, and speaking of blasphemy and nonsense, as there had ever been in Redgauntlet Castle when it was at its liveliest.
But, Lord take us in keeping! what a set of ghastly revelers they were that sat round that table! My gudesire kenn'd mony that had long before gane to their place, for often had he piped to the most part in the hall of Redgauntlet. There was the fierce Middleton, and the dissolute Rothes, and the crafty Lauderdale; and Dalyell, with his bald head and a beard to his girdle; and Earlshall, with Cameron's blude on his hand; and wild Bonshaw, that tied blessed Mr. Cargill's limbs till the blude sprung; and Dumbarton Douglas, the twice-turned traitor baith to country and king. There was the Bluidy Advocate MacKenyie, who, for his worldly wit and wisdom, had been to the rest as a god. And there was Claverhouse, as beautiful as when he lived, with his long dark, curled locks, streaming down over his laced buff-coat, and his left hand always on his right spule-blade, to hide the wound that the silver bullet had made. He sat apart from them all, and looked at them with a melancholy, haughty countenance; while the rest hallooed, and sung, and laughed, that the room rang. But their smiles were fearfully contorted from time to time; and their laughter passed into such wild sounds as made my gudesire's very nails grow blue, and chilled the marrow in his banes.
But, Lord help us! what a group of ghastly partygoers they were sitting around that table! My grandfather recognized many who had long since departed this world, as he had often played music for most of them in the hall of Redgauntlet. There was the fierce Middleton, the dissolute Rothes, and the crafty Lauderdale; Dalyell with his bald head and beard down to his waist; Earlshall, with blood from Cameron on his hands; wild Bonshaw, who bound blessed Mr. Cargill's limbs until the blood flowed; and Dumbarton Douglas, the twice-turncoat to both country and king. There was the Bloody Advocate MacKenyie, who, for his worldly cleverness, had been a god to the others. And there was Claverhouse, as striking as when he lived, with his long dark, curled hair cascading over his laced buff coat, and his left hand always on his right shoulder, hiding the wound made by a silver bullet. He sat apart from them all, looking at them with a melancholic, proud expression, while the others shouted, sang, and laughed, filling the room with noise. But their smiles were fearfully twisted from time to time, and their laughter turned into such wild sounds that it made my grandfather’s nails turn blue and chilled the marrow in his bones.
They that waited at the table were just the wicked serving-men and troopers that had done their work and cruel bidding on earth. There was the Lang Lad of the Nethertown, that helped to take Argyle; and the bishop's summoner, that they called the Deil's Rattle-bag; and the wicked guardsmen, in their laced coats; and the savage Highland Amorites, that shed blood like water; and mony a proud serving-man, haughty of heart and bloody of hand, cringing to the rich, and making them wickeder than they would be; grinding the poor to powder, when the rich had broken them to fragments. And mony, mony mair were coming and ganging, a' as busy in their vocation as if they had been alive.
Those waiting at the table were just the wicked servants and soldiers who had done their cruel work on earth. There was the Lang Lad from Nethertown, who helped capture Argyle; and the bishop's summoner, known as the Devil’s Rattle-bag; and the cruel guards in their fancy coats; and the brutal Highland men, who shed blood like it was nothing; and many a proud servant, haughty and violent, bowing to the wealthy and making them even more wicked than they already were; crushing the poor into nothing, while the rich had already broken them apart. And many, many more were coming and going, all as busy in their jobs as if they were alive.
Sir Robert Redgauntlet, in the midst of a' this fearful riot, cried, wi' a voice like thunder, on Steenie Piper to come to the board-head where he was sitting, his legs stretched out before him, and swathed up with flannel, with his holster pistols aside him, while the great broadsword rested against his chair, just as my gudesire had seen him the last time upon earth—the very cushion for the jackanape was close to him, but the creature itsell was not there; it wasna its hour, it's likely; for he heard them say as he came forward, "Is not the major come yet?" And another answered, "The jackanape will be here betimes the morn." And when my gudesire came forward, Sir Robert, or his ghaist, or the deevil in his likeness, said, "Weel, piper, hae ye settled wi' my son for the year's rent?"
Sir Robert Redgauntlet, in the midst of all this chaos, shouted, with a voice like thunder, for Steenie Piper to come to the head of the table where he was sitting, his legs stretched out in front of him, wrapped in flannel, with his holster pistols beside him, while the large broadsword rested against his chair, just as my grandfather had seen him the last time on earth—the very cushion for the monkey was close to him, but the creature itself was not there; it probably wasn't its time yet; for he heard them say as he approached, "Has the major arrived yet?" And another replied, "The monkey will be here bright and early tomorrow." And when my grandfather stepped forward, Sir Robert, or his ghost, or the devil in his form, said, "Well, piper, have you settled with my son for the year's rent?"
With much ado my father gat breath to say that Sir John would not settle without his honor's receipt.
With a lot of fuss, my father managed to say that Sir John wouldn't agree to anything without his honor's receipt.
"Ye shall hae that for a tune of the pipes, Steenie," said the appearance of Sir Robert. "Play us up, 'Weel noddled, Luckie.'"
"You're going to have that for a tune on the pipes, Steenie," said the appearance of Sir Robert. "Play us 'Well Noddled, Luckie.'"
Now this was a tune my gudesire learned frae a warlock, that heard it when they were worshiping Satan at their meetings, and my gudesire had sometimes played it at the ranting suppers in Redgauntlet Castle, but never very willingly; and now he grew cauld at the very name of it, and said, for excuse, he hadna his pipes wi' him.
Now this was a tune my grandfather learned from a warlock, who heard it when they were worshiping Satan at their meetings, and my grandfather sometimes played it at the wild parties in Redgauntlet Castle, but he never really wanted to; and now he grew cold at the very mention of it, saying, as an excuse, that he didn't have his pipes with him.
"MacCallum, ye limb of Beelzebub," said the fearfu' Sir Robert, "bring Steenie the pipes that I am keeping for him!"
"MacCallum, you spawn of the devil," said the fearful Sir Robert, "bring Steenie the pipes I've been saving for him!"
MacCallum brought a pair of pipes might have served the piper of Donald of the Isles. But he gave my gudesire a nudge as he offered them; and looking secretly and closely, Steenie saw that the chanter was of steel, and heated to a white heat; so he had fair warning not to trust his fingers with it. So he excused himself again, and said he was faint and frightened, and had not wind enough to fill the bag.
MacCallum brought a pair of pipes that could have belonged to the piper of Donald of the Isles. But he nudged my grandfather as he offered them; and looking closely and secretly, Steenie saw that the chanter was made of steel and glowing hot; so he was clearly warned not to touch it. So he made an excuse again, saying he felt weak and scared, and didn’t have enough breath to fill the bag.
"Then ye maun eat and drink, Steenie," said the figure; "for we do little else here; and it's ill speaking between a fou man and a fasting."
"Then you must eat and drink, Steenie," said the figure; "because we do little else here; and it's not good to talk between a drunk man and a hungry one."
Now these were the very words that the bloody Earl of Douglas said to keep the king's messenger in hand, while he cut the head off MacLellan of Bombie, at the Threave Castle, and that put Steenie mair and mair on his guard. So he spoke up like a man, and said he came neither to eat, or drink, or make minstrelsy, but simply for his ain—to ken what was come o' the money he had paid, and to get a discharge for it; and he was so stout-hearted by this time, that he charged Sir Robert for conscience' sake (he had no power to say the holy name), and as he hoped for peace and rest, to spread no snares for him, but just to give him his ain.
Now these were the exact words that the bloody Earl of Douglas said to keep the king's messenger in check while he cut off MacLellan of Bombie's head at Threave Castle, which made Steenie even more cautious. So he spoke up like a man and said he wasn't there to eat, drink, or entertain, but simply for his own reasons—to find out what had happened to the money he had paid and to get a receipt for it; and he was so brave by this point that he urged Sir Robert, for the sake of his conscience (he had no authority to use the holy name), and as he hoped for peace and rest, to not set any traps for him, but just to return what was rightfully his.
The appearance gnashed its teeth and laughed, but it took from a large pocket-book the receipt, and handed it to Steenie. "There is your receipt, ye pitiful cur; and for the money, my dog-whelp of a son may go look for it in the Cat's Cradle."
The figure bared its teeth and laughed, but then took a receipt out of a large wallet and handed it to Steenie. "Here's your receipt, you miserable mutt; as for the money, my son, the dog, can go look for it in the Cat's Cradle."
My gudesire uttered mony thanks, and was about to retire when Sir Robert roared aloud: "Stop though, thou sack-doudling son of a whore! I am not done with thee. Here we do nothing for nothing; and you must return on this very day twelvemonth to pay your master the homage that you owe me for my protection."
My guidesire expressed a lot of thanks and was about to leave when Sir Robert shouted, "Hold on, you lazy son of a bitch! I'm not finished with you. Here we don’t do anything for free; you need to come back one year from today to pay your master the respect you owe me for my protection."
My father's tongue was loosed of a suddenty, and he said aloud: "I refer mysell to God's pleasure, and not to yours."
My father's tongue was suddenly freed, and he said out loud: "I submit to God's will, not yours."
He had no sooner uttered the word than all was dark around him, and he sunk on the earth with such a sudden shock that he lost both breath and sense.
He had barely said the word when everything went dark around him, and he collapsed to the ground with such a sudden impact that he lost both his breath and consciousness.
How lang Steenie lay there, he could not tell; but when he came to himsell, he was lying in the auld kirkyard of Redgauntlet parochine, just at the door of the family aisle, and the scutcheon of the auld knight, Sir Robert, hanging over his head. There was a deep morning fog on grass and gravestane around him, and his horse was feeding quietly beside the minister's twa cows. Steenie would have thought the whole was a dream, but he had the receipt in his hand, fairly written and signed by the auld laird; only the last letters of his name were a little disorderly, written like one seized with sudden pain.
How long Steenie lay there, he couldn’t say; but when he came to his senses, he was lying in the old churchyard of Redgauntlet parish, right by the door of the family aisle, with the coat of arms of the old knight, Sir Robert, hanging over him. There was a thick morning fog on the grass and gravestones around him, and his horse was quietly grazing next to the minister’s two cows. Steenie would have thought it was all a dream, but he had the receipt in his hand, clearly written and signed by the old laird; only the last letters of his name were a bit messy, written like someone suddenly in pain.
Sorely troubled in his mind, he left that dreary place, rode through the mist to Redgauntlet Castle, and with much ado he got speech of the laird.
Feeling deeply troubled, he left that gloomy place, rode through the fog to Redgauntlet Castle, and after a lot of fuss, he managed to speak with the laird.
"Well, you dyvour bankrupt," was the first word, "have you brought me my rent?"
"Well, you’re totally broke," was the first line, "did you bring me my rent?"
"No," answered my gudesire, "I have not; but I have brought your honor Sir Robert's receipt for it."
"No," answered my desire, "I haven't; but I have brought your honor Sir Robert's receipt for it."
"How, sirrah? Sir Robert's receipt! You told me he had not given you one."
"How, dude? Sir Robert's receipt! You told me he didn't give you one."
"Will your honor please to see if that bit line is right?"
"Could you please check if that line is correct, your honor?"
Sir John looked at every line, and at every letter, with much attention, and at last at the date, which my gudesire had not observed—"'From my appointed place,'" he read, "'this twenty-fifth of November.' What! That is yesterday! Villain, thou must have gone to Hell for this!"
Sir John examined each line and every letter with great care, and finally looked at the date, which my dear friend had missed—"'From my granted location,'" he read, "'this twenty-fifth of November.' What! That's yesterday! You scoundrel, you must have gone to Hell for this!"
"I got it from your honor's father; whether he be in Heaven or Hell, I know not," said Steenie.
"I got it from your father's honor; whether he's in Heaven or Hell, I don't know," said Steenie.
"I will delate you for a warlock to the privy council!" said Sir John. "I will send you to your master, the devil, with the help of a tar-barrel and a torch!"
"I'll report you to the privy council as a warlock!" said Sir John. "I'll send you to your master, the devil, with a tar barrel and a torch!"
"I intend to delate mysell to the presbytery," said Steenie, "and tell them all I have seen last night, whilk are things fitter for them to judge of than a borrel man like me."
"I plan to confess to the presbytery," said Steenie, "and tell them everything I saw last night, which is better for them to judge than for an ordinary man like me."
Sir John paused, composed himsell, and desired to hear the full history; and my gudesire told it him from point to point, as I have told it you—word for word, neither more nor less.
Sir John paused, collected himself, and asked to hear the full story; and my good friend recounted it to him step by step, just as I have shared it with you—word for word, neither more nor less.
Sir John was silent again for a long time, and at last he said, very composedly: "Steenie, this story of yours concerns the honor of many a noble family besides mine; and if it be a leasing-making, to keep yourself out of my danger, the least you can expect is to have a red-hot iron driven through your tongue, and that will be as bad as scauding your fingers with a red-hot chanter. But yet it may be true, Steenie; and if the money cast up, I shall not know what to think of it. But where shall we find the Cat's Cradle? There are cats enough about the old house, but I think they kitten without the ceremony of bed or cradle."
Sir John was quiet for a long time, and finally he said, very calmly: "Steenie, this story of yours involves the honor of many noble families besides mine; and if you're just making up lies to save yourself from my anger, the least you can expect is to have a hot iron driven through your tongue, and that would be as painful as burning your fingers on a hot chanter. But it might be true, Steenie; and if the money turns up, I won’t know what to think about it. But where can we find the Cat's Cradle? There are plenty of cats around the old house, but I think they have kittens without any need for a bed or cradle."
"We were best ask Hutcheon," said my gudesire; "he kens a' the odd corners about as weel as—another serving-man that is now gane, and that I wad not like to name."
"We should definitely ask Hutcheon," said my guide; "he knows all the little secrets around here just as well as—another servant who is gone now, and I wouldn’t want to mention his name."
Aweel, Hutcheon, when he was asked, told them that a ruinous turret, lang disused, next to the clock-house, only accessible by a ladder, for the opening was on the outside, and far above the battlements, was called of old the Cat's Cradle.
Awell, Hutcheon, when asked, told them that a crumbling turret, long abandoned, next to the clock tower, which could only be reached by a ladder since the opening was on the outside and well above the battlements, was once called the Cat's Cradle.
"There will I go immediately," said Sir John; and he took (with what purpose, Heaven kens) one of his father's pistols from the hall-table, where they had lain since the night he died, and hastened to the battlements.
"There I will go right away," said Sir John; and he took, for reasons only Heaven knows, one of his father’s pistols from the hall table, where they had been since the night he died, and rushed to the battlements.
It was a dangerous place to climb, for the ladder was auld and frail, and wanted ane or twa rounds. However, up got Sir John, and entered at the turret door, where his body stopped the only little light that was in the bit turret. Something flees at him wi' a vengeance, maist dang him back ower; bang gaed the knight's pistol, and Hutcheon, that held the ladder, and my gudesire that stood beside him, hears a loud skelloch. A minute after, Sir John flings the body of the jackanape down to them, and cries that the siller is fund, and that they should come up and help him. And there was the bag of siller sure aneugh, and mony orra things besides that had been missing for mony a day. And Sir John, when he had riped the turret weel, led my gudesire into the dining-parlor, and took him by the hand, and spoke kindly to him, and said he was sorry he should have doubted his word, and that he would hereafter be a good master to him, to make amends.
It was a dangerous place to climb because the ladder was old and fragile, and missing a rung or two. However, Sir John climbed up and entered through the turret door, where his body blocked the only bit of light in the small turret. Something flew at him with a vengeance, nearly knocking him back; the knight's pistol went off, and Hutcheon, who was holding the ladder, along with my grandfather standing beside him, heard a loud shout. A minute later, Sir John tossed the body of the little rascal down to them and shouted that the silver had been found and that they should come up and help him. And sure enough, there was the bag of silver, along with many other items that had been missing for a long time. After Sir John thoroughly searched the turret, he led my grandfather into the dining room, took his hand, spoke kindly to him, and said he was sorry for doubting his word, and that he would be a good master to him from now on to make up for it.
"And now, Steenie," said Sir John, "although this vision of yours tends, on the whole, to my father's credit, as an honest man, that he should, even after his death, desire to see justice done to a poor man like you, yet you are sensible that ill-dispositioned men might make bad constructions upon it, concerning his soul's health. So, I think, we had better lay the haill dirdum on that ill-deedie creature, Major Weir, and say naething about your dream in the wood of Pitmurkie, You had taken ower muckle brandy to be very certain about onything; and, Steenie, this receipt (his hand shook while he held it out), it's but a queer kind of document, and we will do best, I think, to put it quietly in the fire."
"And now, Steenie," said Sir John, "even though your vision seems to ultimately reflect well on my father as a decent man—that he would want justice for someone like you even after his death—you have to realize that some ill-intentioned people might misinterpret it, regarding his soul’s well-being. So, I think it’s better to put all the blame on that despicable character, Major Weir, and not mention your dream in the woods of Pitmurkie. You had too much brandy to be certain about anything. And, Steenie, this receipt" (his hand shook as he held it out) "is a pretty strange kind of document, so I think it’s best to quietly throw it in the fire."
"Od, but for as queer as it is, it's a' the voucher I have for my rent," said my gudesire, who was afraid, it may be, of losing the benefit of Sir Robert's discharge.
"Ah, but as strange as it is, it’s all the proof I have for my rent," said my good friend, who might have been afraid of losing the benefit of Sir Robert's release.
"I will bear the contents to your credit in the rental-book, and give you a discharge under my own hand," said Sir John, "and that on the spot. And, Steenie, if you can hold your tongue about this matter, you shall sit, from this term downward, at an easier rent."
"I will record this in the rental book for you and give you a receipt myself," said Sir John, "and I'll do it right away. And, Steenie, if you can keep quiet about this, you'll pay a lower rent starting this term."
"Mony thanks to your honor," said Steenie, who saw easily in what corner the wind was; "doubtless I will be conformable to all your honor's commands; only I would willingly speak wi' some powerful minister on the subject, for I do not like the sort of summons of appointment whilk your honor's father—"
"Mighty thanks to you, sir," said Steenie, who quickly understood the situation; "I will certainly follow all your orders; I just want to chat with some influential minister about it, because I’m not a fan of the way your father summoned people for appointments—”
"Do not call the phantom my father!" said Sir John, interrupting him.
"Don’t call the phantom my dad!" said Sir John, cutting him off.
"Weel, then, the thing that was so like him," said my gudesire; "he spoke of my coming back to him this time twelvemonth, and it's a weight on my conscience."
"We'll, then, the thing that was so much like him," said my good friend; "he mentioned my returning to him a year from now, and it's weighing on my mind."
"Aweel, then," said Sir John, "if you be so much distressed in mind, you speak to our minister of the parish; he is a douce man, regards the honor of our family, and the mair that he may look for some patronage from me."
"Well, then," said Sir John, "if you're feeling so troubled, you should talk to our parish minister; he's a decent man, cares about our family's reputation, and he might be hoping for some support from me."
Wi' that my gudesire readily agreed that the receipt should be burned, and the laird threw it into the chimney with his ain hand. Burn it would not for them, though; but away it flew up the lum, wi' a lang train of sparks at its tail, and a hissing noise like a squib.
With that, my good friend readily agreed that the receipt should be burned, and the landlord threw it into the chimney with his own hand. It wouldn’t burn for them, though; instead, it flew up the flue, trailing a long line of sparks behind it, making a hissing noise like a firecracker.
My gudesire gaed down to the manse, and the minister, when he had heard the story, said it was his real opinion that, though my gudesire had gaen very far in tampering with dangerous matters, yet, as he had refused the devil's arles (for such was the offer of meat and drink), and had refused to do homage by piping at his bidding, he hoped, that if he held a circumspect walk hereafter, Satan could take little advantage by what was come and gane. And, indeed, my gudesire, of his ain accord, lang foreswore baith the pipes and the brandy; it was not even till the year was out, and the fatal day passed, that he would so much as take the fiddle, or drink usquebaugh or tippenny.
My grandfather went down to the manse, and the minister, after hearing the story, said he truly believed that although my grandfather had gone quite far in dealing with dangerous matters, since he had refused the devil's offers (like food and drink), and had declined to play music at his command, he hoped that if my grandfather stayed cautious moving forward, Satan wouldn’t be able to take much advantage of what had happened. Indeed, my grandfather voluntarily gave up both the pipes and the brandy; it wasn’t until the year was over, and the fateful day had passed, that he would even pick up the fiddle or drink whiskey or ale.
Sir John made up his story about the jackanape as he liked himsell; and some believe till this day there was no more in the matter than the filching nature of the brute. Indeed, ye'll no hinder some to threap that it was nane o' the Auld Enemy that Dougal and Hutcheon saw in the laird's room, but only that wanchancie creature, the major, capering on the coffin; and that, as to the blawing on the laird's whistle that was heard after he was dead, the filthy brute could do that as weel as the laird himsell, if no better. But Heaven kens the truth, whilk first came out by the minister's wife, after Sir John and her ain gudeman were baith in the molds. And then, my gudesire, wha was failed in his limbs, but not in his judgment or memory—at least nothing to speak of—was obliged to tell the real narrative to his freends for the credit of his good name. He might else have been charged for a warlock.
Sir John spun his tale about the mischievous creature however he pleased, and some still believe that the situation was simply a reflection of the beast's thieving nature. Indeed, you can’t stop some people from insisting that it was none of the Old Enemy that Dougal and Hutcheon saw in the laird's room, but just that troublesome creature, the major, dancing on the coffin; and that regarding the sound of the laird's whistle heard after he died, the filthy beast could do that just as well as the laird himself, if not better. But Heaven knows the truth, which first came out through the minister's wife, after both Sir John and her own husband were buried. And then, my godfather, who was physically weak but not lacking in judgment or memory—at least not significantly—was forced to tell the real story to his friends to maintain his good name. Otherwise, he might have been accused of being a warlock.
The shades of evening were growing thicker around us as my conductor finished his long narrative with this moral: "Ye see, birkie, it is nae chancy thing to tak a stranger traveler for a guide when ye are in an uncouth land."
The darkness of evening was deepening around us as my guide wrapped up his long story with this lesson: "You see, it's not a smart idea to rely on a stranger for guidance when you're in an unfamiliar place."
"I should not have made that inference," said I. "Your grandfather's adventure was fortunate for himself, whom it saved from ruin and distress; and fortunate for his landlord also, whom it prevented from committing a gross act of injustice."
"I shouldn't have drawn that conclusion," I said. "Your grandfather's adventure was lucky for him, as it saved him from disaster and trouble; and it was also lucky for his landlord, as it stopped him from committing a serious act of injustice."
"Ay, but they had baith to sup the sauce o't sooner or later," said Wandering Willie. "What was fristed wasna forgiven. Sir John died before he was much over threescore; and it was just like of a moment's illness. And for my gudesire, though he departed in fulness of years, yet there was my father, a yauld man of forty-five, fell down betwixt the stilts of his pleugh, and raise never again, and left nae bairn but me, a puir sightless, fatherless, motherless creature, could neither work nor want. Things gaed weel aneugh at first; for Sir Redwald Redgauntlet, the only son of Sir John, and the oye of auld Sir Robert, and, wae's me! the last of the honorable house, took the farm off our hands, and brought me into his household to have care of me. He liked music, and I had the best teachers baith England and Scotland could gie me. Mony a merry year was I wi' him; but wae's me! he gaed out with other pretty men in the Forty-five—I'll say nae mair about it. My head never settled weel since I lost him; and if I say another word about it, deil a bar will I have the heart to play the night. Look out, my gentle chap," he resumed, in a different tone, "ye should see the lights in Brokenburn Glen by this time."
"Yeah, but they both had to face the consequences sooner or later," said Wandering Willie. "What was done couldn't be forgiven. Sir John died when he was just over sixty, and it was due to a sudden illness. As for my dear father, even though he passed away at a good old age, he was still only forty-five when he collapsed between the shafts of his plow and never got up again, leaving behind no child but me—a poor, blind, fatherless, motherless creature who could neither work nor want. Things went well enough at first; for Sir Redwald Redgauntlet, the only son of Sir John and the heir of old Sir Robert, and sadly the last of the honorable line, took the farm off our hands and brought me into his household to care for me. He enjoyed music, and I had the best teachers that England and Scotland could give me. I spent many happy years with him; but alas! he went off with other fine young men in the Forty-five—I won't say any more about it. My head has never been right since I lost him, and if I say another word about it, I swear I won't have the heart to play tonight. Look out, my good friend," he continued in a different tone, "you should see the lights in Brokenburn Glen by now."
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