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CHRISTMAS IN
MODERN STORY
An Anthology for Adults





Edited by
MAUD VAN BUREN
and
KATHARINE ISABEL BEMIS

Edited by
MAUD VAN BUREN
and
KATHARINE ISABEL BEMIS



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THE CENTURY CO.

NEW YORKLONDON

THE CENTURY CO.

NEW YORKLONDON




Copyright, 1927, by
The Century Co.

First Printing, September, 1927




PRINTED IN U. S. A.

Copyright, 1927, by
The Century Company

First Printing, September, 1927




PRINTED IN U. S. A.


PREFATORY NOTE

This volume is the outgrowth of a librarian’s search each holiday time for stories to meet the ever growing demand from clubs, schools, societies, and home circles for something “Christmassy” to read aloud. Several great stories that are read over and over, Christmas after Christmas, have purposely been omitted. These can be found in other collections. If our readers gain from this anthology even a little of the gracious spirit manifested by the authors in the writing of the stories and again in granting permission to reprint, the compilers can but feel that their work has been well worth while.

This book comes from a librarian’s quest each holiday season for stories to satisfy the growing demand from clubs, schools, organizations, and families for something festive to read aloud. Several popular stories that get read year after year during Christmas have intentionally been left out. You can find those in other collections. If our readers take away even a bit of the kind spirit shown by the authors in writing these stories and allowing us to reprint them, the compilers will feel that their efforts have been worthwhile.

Owatonna, Minnesota,
May 16, 1927.

Owatonna, Minnesota, May 16, 1927.


NOTE OF APPRECIATION

The editors of this volume desire to express their deep appreciation to the authors and publishers whose permissions for use of copyright stories have been so courteously and generously granted. Without this splendid spirit of coöperation this collection of Christmas stories would have been impossible.

The editors of this volume want to express their heartfelt gratitude to the authors and publishers who generously granted permission to use their copyrighted stories. Without this wonderful spirit of cooperation, this collection of Christmas stories wouldn't have been possible.


CONTENTS

CONTENTS

PAGE
THE CANDLE IN THE FOREST
Temple Bailey
3
CHRISTMAS ON THE SINGING RIVER
Jefferson Lee Harbour
22
THE SHEPHERD WHO WATCHED BY NIGHT
Thomas Nelson Page
38
CHRISTMAS AT THE TRIMBLES’
Ruth McEnery Stuart
55
THE GIFT OF THE MANGER
Edith Barnard Delano
77
GOD REST YOU, MERRY CHRISTIANS
George Madden Martin
92
TO SPRINGVALE FOR CHRISTMAS
Zona Gale
106
EMMY JANE’S CHRISTMAS
Julia B. Tenney
118
DAVID’S STAR OF BETHLEHEM
Christine Whiting Parmenter
122
A GOD IN ISRAEL
Norman Duncan
141
VAN VALKENBERG’S CHRISTMAS GIFT
Elizabeth G. Jordan
171
A BEGGAR’S CHRISTMAS
Edith Wyatt
187
A CHRISTMAS MYSTERY
William J. Locke
201
A CHRISTMAS CONFESSION
Agnes McClelland Daulton
222
THE DAY OF DAYS
Elsie Singmaster
235
HOLLY AT THE DOOR
Agnes Sligh Turnbull
247
TEACHER JENSEN
Karin Michaelis
267
HONORABLE TOMMY
Mary E. Wilkins Freeman
279
THE SAD SHEPHERD
Henry van Dyke
301
CHRISTMAS BREAD
Kathleen Norris
327

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CHRISTMAS IN MODERN STORY

Modern Christmas Story


THE CANDLE IN THE FOREST[1]

Temple Bailey

Temple Bailey


The Small Girl’s mother was saying, “The onions will be silver, and the carrots will be gold——”

The Small Girl’s mother was saying, “The onions will be silver, and the carrots will be gold——”

“And the potatoes will be ivory,” said the Small Girl, and they laughed together.

“And the potatoes will be white,” said the Small Girl, and they laughed together.

The Small Girl’s mother had a big white bowl in her lap, and she was cutting up vegetables. The onions were the hardest, because one cried a little over them.

The small girl's mom had a big white bowl in her lap, and she was chopping vegetables. The onions were the toughest because they made her cry a little.

“But our tears will be pearls,” said the Small Girl’s mother, and they laughed at that and dried their eyes, and found the carrots much easier, and the potatoes the easiest of all.

“But our tears will be pearls,” said the Small Girl’s mother, and they laughed at that and dried their eyes, and found the carrots much easier, and the potatoes the easiest of all.

Then the Next-Door-Neighbor came in and said, “What are you doing?”

Then the Next-Door Neighbor came in and said, "What are you doing?"

“We are making a beefsteak pie for our Christmas dinner,” said the Small Girl’s mother.

“We are making a beefsteak pie for our Christmas dinner,” said the Small Girl’s mother.

“And the onions are silver, and the carrots gold, and the potatoes ivory,” said the Small Girl.

“And the onions are silver, and the carrots are gold, and the potatoes are ivory,” said the Small Girl.

“I am sure I don’t know what you are talking about,” said the Next-Door-Neighbor. “We are going to have turkey for Christmas, and oysters, and cranberries and celery.”

“I really don’t know what you’re talking about,” said the Next-Door-Neighbor. “We’re having turkey for Christmas, along with oysters, cranberries, and celery.”

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[4]

The Small Girl laughed and clapped her hands. “But we are going to have a Christmas pie—and the onions are silver and the carrots gold——”

The little girl laughed and clapped her hands. “But we’re going to have a Christmas pie—and the onions are silver and the carrots are gold——”

“You said that once,” said the Next-Door-Neighbor, “and I should think you’d know they weren’t anything of the kind.”

“You said that once,” said the Next-Door-Neighbor, “and I should think you’d know they weren’t anything like that.”

“But they are,” said the Small Girl, all shining eyes and rosy cheeks.

“But they are,” said the Small Girl, her eyes shining and her cheeks rosy.

“Run along, darling,” said the Small Girl’s mother, “and find poor Pussy-Purr-up. He’s out in the cold. And you can put on your red sweater and red cap.”

“Run along, sweetheart,” said the Small Girl’s mother, “and find poor Pussy-Purr-up. He’s outside in the cold. And you can put on your red sweater and red cap.”

So the Small Girl hopped away like a happy robin, and the Next-Door-Neighbor said,

So the little girl skipped away like a cheerful robin, and the neighbor said,

“She is old enough to know that onions aren’t silver.”

“She is old enough to realize that onions aren’t silver.”

“But they are,” said the Small Girl’s mother, “and the carrots are gold and the potatoes are——”

“But they are,” said the Small Girl’s mother, “and the carrots are gold and the potatoes are——”

The Next-Door-Neighbor’s face was flaming. “If you say that again, I’ll scream. It sounds silly to me.”

The Next-Door-Neighbor’s face was bright red. “If you say that again, I’ll yell. It sounds ridiculous to me.”

“But it isn’t in the least silly,” said the Small Girl’s mother, and her eyes were as blue as sapphires, and as clear as the sea; “it is sensible. When people are poor, they have to make the most of little things. And we’ll have only a pound of steak in our pie, but the onions will be silver——”

“But it’s not silly at all,” said the Small Girl’s mother, her eyes as blue as sapphires and as clear as the sea. “It makes sense. When people are poor, they have to make the most of little things. We’ll only have a pound of steak in our pie, but the onions will be like silver——”

The lips of the Next-Door-Neighbor were folded in a thin line. “If you had acted like a sensible creature, I shouldn’t have asked you for the rent.”

The lips of the Next-Door-Neighbor were pressed into a thin line. “If you had behaved like a reasonable person, I wouldn’t have had to ask you for the rent.”

The Small Girl’s mother was silent for a moment,[5] then she said: “I am sorry—it ought to be sensible to make the best of things.”

The Small Girl’s mother was quiet for a moment,[5] then she said: “I’m sorry—it's a good idea to make the best of things.”

“Well,” said the Next-Door-Neighbor, sitting down in a chair with a very stiff back, “a beefsteak pie is a beefsteak pie. And I wouldn’t teach a child to call it anything else.”

“Well,” said the Next-Door-Neighbor, sitting down in a chair with a very rigid back, “a beefsteak pie is a beefsteak pie. And I wouldn’t teach a child to call it anything else.”

“I haven’t taught her to call it anything else. I was only trying to make her feel that it was something fine and splendid for Christmas day, so I said that the onions were silver——”

“I haven’t taught her to call it anything else. I was just trying to make her feel that it was something special and wonderful for Christmas day, so I said that the onions were silver——”

“Don’t say that again,” snapped the Next-Door-Neighbor, “and I want the rent as soon as possible.”

“Don't say that again,” the Next-Door-Neighbor snapped, “and I need the rent as soon as possible.”

With that, she flung up her head and marched out of the front door, and it slammed behind her and made wild echoes in the little house.

With that, she tossed her head back and marched out the front door, which slammed shut behind her, creating loud echoes in the small house.

And the Small Girl’s mother stood there alone in the middle of the floor, and her eyes were like the sea in a storm.

And the Small Girl's mother stood there by herself in the middle of the room, and her eyes looked like the sea during a storm.

But presently the door opened, and the Small Girl, looking like a red-breast robin, hopped in, and after her came a great black cat with his tail in the air, and he said “Purr-up,” which gave him his name.

But just then the door opened, and the Small Girl, looking like a red-breasted robin, hopped in. Behind her came a big black cat with his tail up, and he said "Purr-up," which is how he got his name.

And the Small Girl said out of the things she had been thinking, “Mother, why don’t we have turkey?”

And the Small Girl said, expressing her thoughts, “Mom, why don’t we have turkey?”

The clear look came back into the eyes of the Small Girl’s mother, and she said, “Because we are content.”

The clear look returned to the Small Girl’s mother’s eyes, and she said, “Because we are happy.”

And the Small Girl said, “What is ‘content’?”

And the little girl asked, “What does ‘content’ mean?”

And her mother said: “It is making the best of what God gives us. And our best for Christmas day, my darling, is a beefsteak pie.”

And her mother said, “It’s about making the most of what God gives us. And our best for Christmas Day, my dear, is a beefsteak pie.”

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[6]

So she kissed the Small Girl, and they finished peeling the vegetables, and then they put them with the pound of steak to simmer on the back of the stove.

So she kissed the Little Girl, and they finished peeling the vegetables, and then they put them with the pound of steak to simmer on the back of the stove.

After that, the Small Girl had her supper of bread and milk, and Pussy-Purr-up had milk in a saucer on the hearth, and the Small Girl climbed up in her mother’s lap and said,

After that, the Little Girl had her meal of bread and milk, and Kitty had milk in a saucer on the fireplace, and the Little Girl climbed into her mother’s lap and said,

“Tell me a story.”

"Share a story with me."

But the Small Girl’s mother said, “Won’t it be nicer to talk about Christmas presents?”

But the Small Girl's mom said, "Wouldn't it be better to talk about Christmas gifts?"

And the Small Girl sat up and said, “Let’s.”

And the little girl sat up and said, “Let’s.”

And the mother said, “Let’s tell each other what we’d rather have in the whole wide world——”

And the mother said, “Let’s share what we’d prefer to have in the whole wide world——”

“Oh, let’s,” said the Small Girl. “And I’ll tell you first that I want a doll—and I want it to have a pink dress—and I want it to have eyes that open and shut—and I want it to have shoes and stockings—and I want it to have curly hair——”

“Oh, let's,” said the Small Girl. “And I’ll tell you first that I want a doll—and I want it to have a pink dress—and I want it to have eyes that open and close—and I want it to have shoes and stockings—and I want it to have curly hair——”

She had to stop, because she didn’t have any breath left in her body, and when she got her breath back, she said, “Now, what do you want, Mother—more than anything else in the whole wide world?”

She had to pause because she was completely out of breath, and when she finally caught her breath, she said, “So, what do you want, Mom—more than anything else in the entire world?”

“Well,” said her mother, “I want a chocolate mouse.”

“Well,” said her mother, “I want a chocolate mousse.”

“Oh,” said the Small Girl scornfully, “I shouldn’t think you’d want that.”

“Oh,” said the Small Girl with contempt, “I wouldn’t think you’d want that.”

“Why not?”

“Why not?”

“Because a chocolate mouse—why, a chocolate mouse isn’t anything.”

“Because a chocolate mouse—well, a chocolate mouse isn’t anything.”

“Oh, yes, it is,” said the Small Girl’s mother. “A[7] chocolate mouse is Dickory Dock, and Pussy-Cat-Pussy-Cat-Where-Have-You-Been—and it’s Three-Blind-Mice—and it’s A-Frog-He-Would-a-Wooing-Go—and it’s——”

“Oh, yes, it is,” said the Small Girl’s mother. “A[7] chocolate mouse is Dickory Dock, and Pussy-Cat-Pussy-Cat-Where-Have-You-Been—and it’s Three-Blind-Mice—and it’s A-Frog-He-Would-a-Wooing-Go—and it’s——”

The Small Girl’s eyes were dancing. “Oh, tell me about it——”

The small girl's eyes were sparkling. "Oh, tell me about it—"

And her mother said: “Well, the mouse is Dickory-Dock ran up the clock, and the mouse in Pussy-Cat-Pussy-Cat was frightened under a chair, and the mice in Three-Blind-Mice ran after the farmer’s wife, and the mouse in A-Frog-He-Would-a-Wooing-Go went down the throat of the crow——”

And her mother said: “Well, the mouse is Dickory-Dock ran up the clock, and the mouse in Pussy-Cat-Pussy-Cat was scared under a chair, and the mice in Three-Blind-Mice ran after the farmer’s wife, and the mouse in A-Frog-He-Would-a-Wooing-Go went down the crow’s throat——”

And the Small Girl said, “Could a chocolate mouse do all that?”

And the little girl said, “Can a chocolate mouse really do all that?”

“Well,” said the Small Girl’s mother, “we could put him on the clock, and under a chair, and cut his tail off with a carving knife, and at the very last we could eat him up like a crow.”

“Well,” said the Small Girl’s mother, “we could put him on the clock, and under a chair, and cut his tail off with a carving knife, and at the very end we could eat him up like a crow.”

The Small Girl shivered deliciously. “And he wouldn’t be a real mouse?”

The Small Girl shivered pleasantly. “So, he wouldn’t be a real mouse?”

“No, just a chocolate one, with cream inside.”

“No, just a chocolate one with cream inside.”

“Do you think I’ll get one for Christmas?”

“Do you think I’ll get one for Christmas?”

“I’m not sure.”

"I'm not certain."

“Would he be nicer than a doll?”

“Would he be nicer than a toy?”

The Small Girl’s mother hesitated, then told the truth. “My darling—Mother saved up the money for a doll, but the Next-Door-Neighbor wants the rent.”

The Small Girl’s mother hesitated, then told the truth. “My darling—Mom saved up the money for a doll, but the Next-Door-Neighbor wants the rent.”

“Hasn’t Daddy any more money?”

“Doesn’t Daddy have any more money?”

“Poor Daddy has been sick so long.”

“Poor Dad has been sick for so long.”

“But he’s well now.”

“But he’s doing well now.”

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[8]

“I know. But he has to pay money for doctors, and money for medicine, and money for your red sweater, and money for milk for Pussy-Purr-up, and money for our beefsteak pie.”

“I know. But he has to pay for doctors, and for medicine, and for your red sweater, and for milk for Pussy-Purr-up, and for our beefsteak pie.”

“The Boy-Next-Door says we’re poor, Mother.”

“The boy next door says we’re poor, Mom.”

“We are rich, my darling. We have love, and each other, and Pussy-Purr-up——”

“We’re rich, my darling. We have love, each other, and Pussy-Purr-up——”

“His mother won’t let him have a cat,” said the Small Girl, with her mind still on the Boy-Next-Door. “But he’s going to have a radio.”

“His mom won’t let him have a cat,” said the Small Girl, still thinking about the Boy-Next-Door. “But he’s going to get a radio.”

“Would you rather have a radio than Pussy-Purr-up?”

“Would you rather have a radio than Pussy-Purr-up?”

The Small Girl gave a crow of derision. “I’d rather have Pussy-Purr-up than anything else in the whole wide world.”

The small girl let out a mocking laugh. “I’d rather have Pussy-Purr-up than anything else in the entire world.”

At that, the great cat, who had been sitting on the hearth with his paws tucked under him and his eyes like moons, stretched out his satin-shining length, and jumped up on the arm of the chair beside the Small Girl and her mother, and began to sing a song that was like a mill-wheel away off. He purred so long and so loud that at last the Small Girl grew drowsy.

At that, the big cat, who had been sitting on the hearth with his paws tucked under him and his eyes shining like moons, stretched out his sleek body and jumped up on the arm of the chair next to the Small Girl and her mother. He started to sing a song that sounded like a distant mill wheel. He purred so long and so loudly that eventually the Small Girl became drowsy.

“Tell me some more about the chocolate mouse,” she said, and nodded, and slept.

“Tell me more about the chocolate mouse,” she said, nodded, and fell asleep.

The Small Girl’s mother carried her into another room, put her to bed, and came back to the kitchen—and it was full of shadows.

The small girl's mom took her into another room, tucked her into bed, and returned to the kitchen—and it was filled with shadows.

But she did not let herself sit among them. She wrapped herself in a great cape and went out into the cold dusk, with a sweep of wind; heavy clouds overhead:[9] and a band of dull orange showing back of the trees, where the sun had burned down.

But she didn’t allow herself to join them. She wrapped herself in a large cape and stepped out into the chilly twilight with a gust of wind; heavy clouds loomed above:[9] and a strip of dull orange appeared behind the trees, where the sun had set.

She went straight from her little house to the big house of the Next-Door-Neighbor and rang the bell at the back entrance. A maid let her into the kitchen, and there was the Next-Door-Neighbor, and the two women who worked for her, and a daughter-in-law who had come to spend Christmas. The great range was glowing, and things were simmering, and things were stewing, and things were steaming, and things were baking, and things were boiling, and things were broiling, and there was the fragrance of a thousand delicious dishes in the air.

She went straight from her small house to the big house of the Next-Door-Neighbor and rang the bell at the back entrance. A maid let her into the kitchen, where the Next-Door-Neighbor was, along with the two women who worked for her and a daughter-in-law who had come to spend Christmas. The large stove was glowing, and there were things simmering, stewing, steaming, baking, boiling, and broiling, filling the air with the aroma of a thousand delicious dishes.

And the Next-Door-Neighbor said: “We are trying to get as much done as possible to-night. We are having twelve people for Christmas dinner to-morrow.”

And the next-door neighbor said, “We’re trying to get as much done as we can tonight. We’re having twelve people over for Christmas dinner tomorrow.”

And the Daughter-in-Law, who was all dressed up and had an apron tied about her, said in a sharp voice, “I can’t see why you don’t let your maids work for you.”

And the Daughter-in-Law, who was all dressed up and had an apron tied around her, said in a sharp voice, “I don’t understand why you don’t let your maids do the work for you.”

And the Next-Door-Neighbor said: “I have always worked. There is no excuse for laziness.”

And the Next-Door Neighbor said, “I’ve always worked. There’s no excuse for being lazy.”

And the Daughter-in-Law said: “I’m not lazy, if that’s what you mean. And we’ll never have any dinner if I have to cook it,” and away she went out of the kitchen with tears of rage in her eyes.

And the Daughter-in-Law said, “I’m not lazy, if that’s what you’re implying. And we’ll never have dinner if I have to cook it,” and she stormed out of the kitchen with tears of anger in her eyes.

And the Next-Door-Neighbor said, “If she hadn’t gone when she did, I should have told her to go,” and there was rage in her eyes but no tears.

And the next-door neighbor said, “If she hadn’t left when she did, I would have told her to go,” and there was anger in her eyes but no tears.

She took her hands out of the pan of breadcrumbs[10] and sage, which she was mixing for the stuffing, and said to the Small Girl’s mother,

She pulled her hands out of the bowl of breadcrumbs[10] and sage that she was mixing for the stuffing and said to the Small Girl’s mother,

“Did you come to pay the rent?”

“Did you come to pay the rent?”

The Small Girl’s mother handed her the money, and the Next-Door-Neighbor went upstairs to write a receipt. Nobody asked the Small Girl’s mother to sit down, so she stood in the middle of the floor and sniffed the entrancing fragrances, and looked at the mountain of food which would have served her small family for a month.

The Small Girl’s mom gave her the money, and the Next-Door-Neighbor went upstairs to write a receipt. No one invited the Small Girl’s mom to sit, so she stood in the middle of the room, inhaling the delightful scents and eyeing the huge pile of food that could have fed her small family for a month.

While she waited, the Boy-Next-Door came in and he said, “Are you the Small Girl’s mother?”

While she waited, the Boy-Next-Door came in and he said, “Are you the Small Girl’s mom?”

“Yes.”

"Yep."

“Are you going to have a tree?”

“Are you going to get a tree?”

“Yes.”

"Yeah."

“Do you want to see mine?”

“Do you want to see mine?”

“It would be wonderful.”

"It would be awesome."

So he led her down a long passage to a great room, and there was a tree which touched the ceiling, and on the very top branches and on all the other branches were myriads of little lights which shone like stars, and there were gold balls and silver ones, and gold bells and silver ones, and red and blue and green balls, and red and blue and green bells—and under the tree and on it were toys for boys and toys for girls, and one of the toys was a doll in a pink dress!

So he took her down a long hallway to a large room, and there stood a tree that reached the ceiling, with countless little lights on the top branches and all over the other branches that sparkled like stars. There were gold balls and silver ones, along with gold bells and silver ones, and red, blue, and green balls, and red, blue, and green bells. Under the tree and on it, there were toys for boys and girls, including a doll dressed in pink!

At that the heart of the Small Girl’s mother tightened, and she was glad she wasn’t a thief, or she would have snatched at the pink doll when the boy wasn’t looking, and hidden it under her cape, and run away with it!

At that moment, the Small Girl’s mother felt a tightness in her heart, and she was relieved she wasn’t a thief, or she would have grabbed the pink doll when the boy wasn’t paying attention, hidden it under her cape, and run off with it!

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[11]

The Boy-Next-Door was saying: “It’s the finest tree anybody has around here. But Dad and Mother don’t know that I’ve seen it.”

The Boy-Next-Door said, “It’s the best tree anyone has around here. But Mom and Dad don’t know I’ve seen it.”

“Oh, don’t they?” said the Small Girl’s mother.

“Oh, don’t they?” said the Small Girl’s mom.

“No,” said the Boy-Next-Door, with a wide grin, “and it’s fun to fool ’em.”

“No,” said the Boy-Next-Door, grinning widely, “and it’s fun to mess with them.”

“Is it?” said the Small Girl’s mother. “Now, do you know, I should think the very nicest thing in the whole wide world would be not to have seen the tree.”

“Is it?” said the Small Girl’s mother. “You know, I think the best thing in the whole wide world would be not to have seen the tree.”

The Boy-Next-Door stared and said, “Why?”

The Boy-Next-Door stared and asked, “Why?”

“Because,” said the Small Girl’s mother, “the nicest thing in the world would be to have somebody tie a handkerchief around your eyes, as tight, as tight, and then to have somebody take your hand and lead you in and out and in and out and in and out, until you didn’t know where you were, and then to have them untie the handkerchief—and there would be the tree—all shining and splendid——”

“Because,” said the Small Girl’s mother, “the best thing in the world would be to have someone tie a handkerchief around your eyes, really tight, and then have someone take your hand and lead you in and out and in and out and in and out, until you didn’t know where you were, and then to have them untie the handkerchief—and there would be the tree—all shining and amazing——”

She stopped, but her singing voice seemed to echo and re-echo in the great room.

She stopped, but her singing voice seemed to echo and bounce around in the large room.

The boy’s staring eyes had a new look in them. “Did anybody ever tie a handkerchief over your eyes?”

The boy’s intense gaze had changed. “Has anyone ever tied a handkerchief over your eyes?”

“Oh, yes——”

“Oh, definitely—”

“And lead you in and out, and in and out?”

“And lead you in and out, and in and out?”

“Yes.”

"Yes."

“Well, nobody does things like that in our house. They think it’s silly.”

“Well, nobody does things like that in our house. They think it’s pointless.”

The Small Girl’s mother laughed, and her laugh tinkled like a bell. “Do you think it is silly?”

The Small Girl’s mother laughed, and her laugh chimed like a bell. “Do you think it’s silly?”

He was eager. “No, I don’t.”

He was eager. “No, I don’t.”

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[12]

She held out her hand to him. “Will you come and see our tree?”

She extended her hand to him. “Will you come and check out our tree?”

“To-night?”

"Tonight?"

“No, to-morrow morning—early.”

“No, tomorrow morning—early.”

“Before breakfast?”

"Before breakfast?"

She nodded.

She agreed.

“Gee, I’d like it.”

"Wow, I’d love it."

So that was a bargain, with a quick squeeze of their hands on it. And the Small Girl’s mother went back to the kitchen, and the Next-Door-Neighbor came down with the receipt, and the Small Girl’s mother went out of the back door and found that the orange band which had burned on the horizon was gone, and that there was just the wind and the sighing of the trees.

So that was a deal, with a quick squeeze of their hands on it. The Small Girl’s mom went back to the kitchen, and the Next-Door-Neighbor came down with the receipt. The Small Girl’s mom went out the back door and saw that the orange band that had burned on the horizon was gone, and all that was left was the wind and the rustling of the trees.

Two men passed her on the brick walk which led to the house, and one of the men was saying:

Two men walked by her on the brick path that went to the house, and one of the men was saying:

“If you’d only be fair to me, Father.”

“If you would just be fair to me, Dad.”

And the other man said, “All you want of me is money.”

And the other guy said, “All you want from me is money.”

“You taught me that, Father.”

"You taught me that, Dad."

“Blame it on me——”

"Blame it on me—"

“You are to blame. You and Mother—did you ever show me the finer things?”

"You are the reason for this. You and Mom—did you ever show me the better things in life?"

Their angry voices seemed to beat against the noise of the wind and the sighing trees, so that the Small Girl’s mother shivered, and drew her cape around her, and ran on as fast as she could to her little house.

Their angry voices seemed to clash with the sound of the wind and the rustling trees, making the Small Girl's mother shiver. She wrapped her cape around her and hurried to her little house as fast as she could.

There were all the shadows to meet her, but she did not sit among them. She made coffee and a dish of milk toast, and set the toast in the oven to keep[13] hot, and then she stood at the window watching. At last she saw through the darkness what looked like a star low down, and she knew that the star was a lantern, and she ran and opened the door wide.

There were all the shadows waiting for her, but she didn’t join them. She made coffee and a plate of milk toast, and put the toast in the oven to keep warm, then stood at the window watching. Finally, she saw something that looked like a star low in the dark, and she realized the star was a lantern, so she ran and opened the door wide.[13]

And her young husband set the lantern down on the threshold, and took her in his arms, and said, “The sight of you is more than food and drink.”

And her young husband placed the lantern at the door, embraced her, and said, “Seeing you is better than food and drink.”

When he said that, she knew he had had a hard day, but her heart leaped because she knew that what he had said of her was true.

When he said that, she realized he had a tough day, but her heart soared because she knew that what he said about her was true.

Then they went into the house together, and she set the food before him. And that he might forget his hard day, she told him of her own. And when she came to the part about the Next-Door-Neighbor and the rent, she said,

Then they went into the house together, and she served him the food. To help him forget his tough day, she shared her own experiences. And when she got to the part about the Next-Door-Neighbor and the rent, she said,

“I am telling you this because it has a happy ending.”

“I’m sharing this with you because it ends happily.”

And he put his hands over hers and said, “Everything with you has a happy ending.”

And he placed his hands over hers and said, “Everything with you ends happily.”

“Well, this is a happy ending,” said the Small Girl’s mother, with all the sapphires in her eyes emphasizing it. “Because when I went over to pay the rent I was feeling how poor we were, and wishing that I had a pink doll for baby, and books for you, and—and—and a magic carpet to carry us away from work and worry. And then I went into the kitchen of the big house, and there was everything delicious and delectable, and then I went into the parlor and saw the tree—with everything hanging on it that was glittering and gorgeous—and then I came home,” her breath was quick and her[14] lips smiling, “I came home—and I was glad I lived in my little house.”

“Well, this is a happy ending,” said the Small Girl’s mother, her eyes sparkling with joy. “Because when I went to pay the rent, I was feeling how poor we were, wishing I had a pink doll for the baby, and books for you, and—and—a magic carpet to whisk us away from work and worry. Then I went into the kitchen of the big house, and everything was delicious and wonderful, and then I stepped into the parlor and saw the tree—with everything glittering and gorgeous hanging from it—and then I came home,” she said, breathing quickly and smiling, “I came home—and I was glad I lived in my little house.”

“What made you glad, dearest?”

“What made you happy, love?”

“Oh, love is here; and hate is there, and a boy’s deceit, and a man’s injustice. They were saying sharp things to each other—and—and—their dinner will be a—stalled ox—And in my little house is the faith of a child in the goodness of God, and the bravery of a man who fought for his country——”

“Oh, love is here; and hate is there, and a boy’s deceit, and a man’s injustice. They were saying hurtful things to each other—and—and—their dinner will be a—stalled ox—And in my little house is the faith of a child in the goodness of God, and the bravery of a man who fought for his country——”

She was in his arms now.

She was in his arms now.

“And the blessing of a woman who has never known defeat.” His voice broke on the words.

“And the blessing of a woman who has never experienced defeat.” His voice faltered on the words.

In that moment it seemed as if the wind stopped blowing, and as if the trees stopped sighing, and as if there was the sound of a heavenly host singing——

In that moment, it felt like the wind had stopped blowing, the trees had stopped sighing, and there was the sound of a heavenly choir singing—

The Small Girl’s mother and the Small Girl’s father sat up very late that night. They popped a great bowlful of crisp snowy corn and made it into balls. They boiled sugar and molasses, and cracked nuts, and made candy of them. They cut funny little Christmas fairies out of paper and painted their jackets bright red, with round silver buttons of the tinfoil that came on a cream cheese. And then they put the balls and the candy and the painted fairies and a long red candle in a big basket, and set it away. And the Small Girl’s mother brought out the chocolate mouse.

The Small Girl’s mom and dad stayed up really late that night. They popped a big bowl of crispy, fluffy popcorn and shaped it into balls. They boiled sugar and molasses, cracked nuts, and turned them into candy. They cut out cute little Christmas fairies from paper and painted their jackets bright red, with shiny silver buttons made from tinfoil that came with cream cheese. Then they put the popcorn balls, candy, painted fairies, and a long red candle in a big basket and set it aside. And the Small Girl’s mom brought out the chocolate mouse.

“We will put this on the clock,” she said, “where her eyes will rest on it the first thing in the morning.”

“We’ll set this on the clock,” she said, “so her eyes will see it first thing in the morning.”

So they put it there, and it seemed as natural as life, so that Pussy-Purr-up positively licked his chops[15] and sat in front of the clock as if to keep his eye on the chocolate mouse.

So they placed it there, and it felt as natural as life itself, so much so that Pussy-Purr-up actually licked his chops[15] and sat in front of the clock as if he were watching the chocolate mouse.

And the Small Girl’s mother said, “She was lovely about giving up the doll, and she will love the tree.”

And the Small Girl’s mother said, “She was great about giving up the doll, and she will love the tree.”

“We’ll have to get up very early,” said the Small Girl’s father.

"We'll have to wake up really early," said the Small Girl's dad.

“And you’ll have to run ahead and light the candle.”

“And you’ll need to run ahead and light the candle.”

Well, they got up before dawn the next morning, and so did the Boy-Next-Door. He was there on the step, waiting, blowing his hands and beating them quite like the poor little boys in a Christmas story, who haven’t any mittens.

Well, they got up before dawn the next morning, and so did the Boy-Next-Door. He was there on the step, waiting, blowing on his hands and rubbing them together just like the poor little boys in a Christmas story who don’t have any mittens.

But he wasn’t a poor little boy, and he had so many pairs of fur-trimmed gloves that he didn’t know what to do with them, but he had left the house in such a hurry that he had forgotten to put them on.

But he wasn’t a poor little boy, and he had so many pairs of fur-trimmed gloves that he didn’t know what to do with them, but he had left the house in such a hurry that he had forgotten to put them on.

So there he stood on the front step of the little house, blowing on his hands and beating them. And it was dark, with a sort of pale shine in the heavens, which didn’t seem to come from the stars or to herald the dawn; it was just a mystical silver glow that set the boy’s heart to beating.

So there he was on the front step of the small house, blowing on his hands and rubbing them together. It was dark outside, with a faint glow in the sky that didn’t seem to come from the stars or signal the dawn; it was just a magical silver light that made the boy's heart race.

He had never been out alone like this. He had always stayed in his warm bed until somebody called him, and then he had waited until they called again, and then he had dressed and gone down to breakfast, where his father scolded because he was late, and his mother scolded because he ate too fast. But this day had begun with adventure, and for the[16] first time, under that silver sky, he felt the thrill of it.

He had never been out alone like this. He had always stayed in his warm bed until someone called him, and then he waited until they called again, and then he got dressed and went down for breakfast, where his dad scolded him for being late, and his mom scolded him for eating too fast. But this day had started with adventure, and for the[16] first time, under that silver sky, he felt the excitement of it.

Then suddenly some one came around the corner—some one tall and thin, with a cap on his head and an empty basket in his hands.

Then suddenly someone came around the corner—someone tall and thin, wearing a cap and holding an empty basket.

“Hello,” he said. “A Merry Christmas.”

"Hey," he said. "Merry Christmas."

It was the Small Girl’s father, and he put the key in the lock, and went in, and turned on a light, and there was the table set for four.

It was the Small Girl’s dad, and he put the key in the lock, walked in, turned on a light, and there was the table set for four.

And the Small Girl’s father said: “You see we have set a place for you. We must eat something before we go out.”

And the Small Girl’s father said, “You see, we’ve set a place for you. We need to eat something before we head out.”

And the Boy said: “Are we going out? I came to see the tree.”

And the boy said, "Are we going out? I came to see the tree."

“We are going out to see the tree.”

“We're going out to see the tree.”

Before the Boy-Next-Door could ask any questions, the Small Girl’s mother appeared with her finger on her lips and said: “Sh-sh,” and then she began to recite in a hushed voice,

Before the Boy-Next-Door could ask any questions, the Small Girl’s mother showed up with her finger on her lips and said: “Sh-sh,” and then she started to recite in a quiet voice,

“Hickory-Dickory-Dock——”

“Hickory-Dickory-Dock—”

Then there was a little cry and the sound of dancing feet, and the Small Girl in a red dressing-gown came flying in.

Then there was a small shout and the sound of feet dancing, and the Little Girl in a red robe rushed in.

“Oh, Mother, Mother, the mouse is on the clock. The mouse is on the clock.”

“Oh, Mom, Mom, the mouse is on the clock. The mouse is on the clock.”

Well, it seemed to the Boy-Next-Door that he had never seen anything so exciting as the things that followed. The chocolate mouse went up the clock and under the chair—and would have had its tail cut off except that the Small Girl begged to save it.

Well, it seemed to the Boy-Next-Door that he had never seen anything as exciting as what happened next. The chocolate mouse went up the clock and under the chair—and would have lost its tail off if the Small Girl hadn't begged to save it.

“I want to keep it as it is, Mother.”

“I want to keep it the way it is, Mom.”

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[17]

And playing this game as if it were the most important thing in the whole wide world were the Small Girl’s mother and the Small Girl’s father, all laughing and flushed, and chanting the quaint old words to the quaint old music.

And playing this game as if it were the most important thing in the world were the Small Girl’s mother and the Small Girl’s father, all laughing and excited, and singing the charming old words to the charming old music.

The Boy-Next-Door held his breath for fear he would wake up from this entrancing dream and find himself in his own big house, alone in his puffy bed, or eating breakfast with his stodgy parents who had never played with him in his life. He found himself laughing too, and flushed and happy, and trying to sing in his funny boy’s voice,

The Boy-Next-Door held his breath, afraid he would wake up from this amazing dream and be back in his big house, alone in his fluffy bed, or eating breakfast with his boring parents who had never played with him. He found himself laughing too, feeling flushed and happy, and trying to sing in his silly boy voice,

“Heigh-o, says Anthony Rowley!”

“Hey, says Anthony Rowley!”

The Small Girl absolutely refused to eat the mouse. “He’s my darling Christmas mouse, Mother.”

The Small Girl flat-out refused to eat the mouse. “He’s my sweet Christmas mouse, Mom.”

So her mother said, “Well, I’ll put him on the clock again, where Pussy-Purr-up can’t get him while we are out.”

So her mother said, “Well, I’ll put him on the clock again, where Pussy-Purr-up can’t reach him while we’re out.”

“Oh, are we going out?” said the Small Girl, round-eyed.

“Oh, are we going out?” said the Little Girl, wide-eyed.

“Yes.”

“Yes.”

“Where are we going?”

“Where are we headed?”

“To find Christmas.”

"To find Christmas."

That was all the Small Girl’s mother would tell. So they had breakfast, and everything tasted perfectly delicious to the Boy-Next-Door. But first they bowed their heads, and the Small Girl’s father said,

That was all the Small Girl’s mother would say. So they had breakfast, and everything tasted absolutely delicious to the Boy-Next-Door. But first, they bowed their heads, and the Small Girl’s father said,

“Dear Christ-Child, on this Christmas morning, bless these children, and help us all to keep our hearts young and full of love for Thee.”

“Dear Christ-Child, on this Christmas morning, bless these children, and help us all to keep our hearts young and full of love for You.”

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[18]

The Boy-Next-Door, when he lifted his head, had a funny feeling as if he wanted to cry, and yet it was a lovely feeling, all warm and comfortable.

The Boy-Next-Door, when he raised his head, felt a strange urge to cry, but at the same time, it was a nice feeling, warm and cozy.

For breakfast they each had a great baked apple, and great slices of sweet bread and butter, and great glasses of milk, and as soon as they had finished, away they went, out of the door and down into the wood back of the house, and when they were deep in the wood, the Small Girl’s father took out of his pocket a little flute and began to play, and he played thin piping tunes that went flitting around among the trees, and the Small Girl hummed the tunes, and her mother hummed the tunes until it sounded like singing bees, and their feet fairly danced, and the boy found himself humming and dancing with them.

For breakfast, they each had a delicious baked apple, big slices of sweet bread with butter, and tall glasses of milk. As soon as they finished, they went out the door and into the woods behind the house. When they were deep in the woods, the Small Girl’s father took out a little flute and began to play. He played soft, airy tunes that floated around the trees, and the Small Girl hummed along with the tunes. Her mother joined in, and soon it sounded like singing bees. Their feet danced along, and the boy found himself humming and dancing with them too.

Then suddenly the piping ceased, and a hush fell over the wood. It was so still that they could almost hear each other breathe—so still that when a light flamed suddenly in that open space it burned without a flicker.

Then suddenly the music stopped, and silence settled over the woods. It was so quiet that they could almost hear each other breathe—so quiet that when a light suddenly flared up in that open space, it burned steadily without a flicker.

The light came from a red candle that was set in the top of a small living tree. It was the only light on the tree, but it showed the snowy balls, and the small red fairies whose coats had silver buttons.

The light came from a red candle placed at the top of a small living tree. It was the only light on the tree, but it illuminated the snowy ornaments and the tiny red fairies wearing coats with silver buttons.

“It’s our tree, my darling,” he heard the Small Girl’s mother saying.

“It’s our tree, my darling,” he heard the Small Girl’s mom saying.

Suddenly it seemed to the boy that his heart would burst in his breast.

Suddenly, the boy felt like his heart might burst from his chest.

He wanted some one to speak to him like that. The Small Girl sat high on her father’s shoulder, and her father held her mother’s hand. It was like[19] a chain of gold, their holding hands like that and loving each other——

He wanted someone to talk to him like that. The Little Girl sat high on her dad's shoulder, and her dad held her mom's hand. It was like[19] a chain of gold; their hands held together and loving each other—

The boy reached out and touched the woman’s hand. She looked down at him and drew him close. He felt warmed and comforted. The red candle burning there in the darkness was like some sacred fire of friendship. He wished that it would never go out, that he might stand there watching it, with his small cold hand in the clasp of the Small Girl’s mother.

The boy reached out and touched the woman’s hand. She looked down at him and pulled him close. He felt warm and comforted. The red candle burning in the darkness felt like a sacred fire of friendship. He wished it would never extinguish, so he could stand there watching it, with his small cold hand in the grip of the Small Girl’s mother.

It was late when the Boy-Next-Door got back to his own big house. But he had not been missed. Everybody was up, and everybody was angry. The Daughter-in-Law had declared the night before that she would not stay another day beneath that roof, and off she had gone with her young husband, and her little girl, who was to have had the pink doll on the tree.

It was late when the Boy-Next-Door returned to his large house. But nobody noticed he was gone. Everyone was awake, and everyone was upset. The Daughter-in-Law had announced the night before that she wouldn’t spend another day under that roof, and she took off with her young husband and their little girl, who was supposed to get the pink doll from the tree.

“And good riddance,” said the Next-Door-Neighbor.

“And good riddance,” said the neighbor next door.

But she ate no breakfast, and she went out to the kitchen and worked with her maids to get the dinner ready, and there were covers laid for nine instead of twelve.

But she skipped breakfast and went to the kitchen to help her maids prepare dinner, and there were place settings for nine instead of twelve.

And the Next-Door-Neighbor kept saying, “Good riddance—good riddance,” and not once did she say, “A Merry Christmas.”

And the next-door neighbor kept saying, “Good riddance—good riddance,” and she didn’t say, “Merry Christmas” even once.

But the Boy-Next-Door held something in his heart that was warm and glowing like the candle in the forest, and so he came to his mother and said,

But the Boy-Next-Door felt something inside him that was warm and bright like the candle in the woods, so he went to his mother and said,

“May I have the pink doll?”

“Can I have the pink doll?”

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[20]

She spoke frowningly. “What does a boy want of a doll?”

She said with a frown, "What does a boy want with a doll?"

“I’d like to give it to the little girl next door.”

“I want to give it to the little girl next door.”

“Do you think I buy dolls to give away in charity?”

“Do you think I buy dolls to donate to charity?”

“Well, they gave me a Christmas present.”

“Well, they gave me a Christmas gift.”

“What did they give you?”

“What did they give you?”

He opened his hand and showed a little flute tied with gay red ribbon. He lifted it to his lips and blew on it, a thin piping tune——

He opened his hand and revealed a small flute tied with a colorful red ribbon. He brought it to his lips and blew into it, producing a light, sweet melody—

“Oh, that,” said his mother scornfully. “Why, that’s nothing but a reed from the pond!”

“Oh, that,” his mother said with disdain. “That’s just a reed from the pond!”

But the boy knew it was more than that. It was a magic pipe that made you dance, and made your heart warm and happy.

But the boy knew it was more than that. It was a magic pipe that made you dance and filled your heart with warmth and happiness.

So he said again, “I’d like to give her the doll,” and he reached out his little hand and touched his mother’s—and his eyes were wistful.

So he said again, “I want to give her the doll,” and he reached out his small hand and touched his mom’s—and his eyes were filled with longing.

His mother’s own eyes softened—she had lost one son that day—and she said, “Oh, well, do as you please,” and went back to the kitchen.

His mother’s eyes softened—she had lost one son that day—and she said, “Oh, well, do what you want,” and went back to the kitchen.

The Boy-Next-Door ran into the great room and took the doll from the tree, and wrapped her in paper, and flew out of the door and down the brick walk and straight into the little house.

The Boy-Next-Door dashed into the living room, grabbed the doll from the tree, wrapped her in paper, and ran out the door, down the brick pathway, and right into the little house.

When the door was opened, he saw that his friends were just sitting down to dinner—and there was the beefsteak pie all brown and piping hot, with a wreath of holly, and the Small Girl was saying,

When the door was opened, he saw that his friends were just sitting down to dinner—and there was the beefsteak pie, all brown and steaming hot, with a wreath of holly, and the Small Girl was saying,

“And the onions were silver, and the carrots were gold——”

“And the onions were silver, and the carrots were gold——”

[21]

[21]

The Boy-Next-Door went up to the Small Girl and said,

The Boy-Next-Door walked over to the Little Girl and said,

“I’ve brought you a present.”

"I’ve got you a gift."

With his eyes all lighted up, he took off the paper in which it was wrapped, and there was the doll, in rosy frills, with eyes that opened and shut, and shoes and stockings, and curly hair that was bobbed and beautiful.

With his eyes shining, he unwrapped the paper and there was the doll, dressed in rosy frills, with eyes that opened and closed, along with shoes and stockings, and lovely bobbed curly hair.

And the Small Girl, in a whirlwind of happiness, said, “Is it really my doll?”

And the little girl, in a swirl of joy, said, “Is it really my doll?”

And the Boy-Next-Door felt very shy and happy, and he said, “Yes.”

And the boy next door felt really shy and happy, and he said, “Yes.”

And the Small Girl’s mother said, “It was a beautiful thing to do,” and she bent and kissed him.

And the Small Girl’s mother said, “That was a lovely thing to do,” and she leaned down and kissed him.

Again that bursting feeling came into the boy’s heart and he lifted his face to hers and said, “May I come sometimes and be your boy?”

Again that overwhelming feeling filled the boy’s heart and he lifted his face to hers and said, “Can I come by sometimes and be your boy?”

And she said, “Yes.”

And she replied, “Yes.”

And when at last he went away, she stood in the door and watched him, such a little lad, who knew so little of loving. And because she knew so much of love, her eyes filled to overflowing.

And when he finally left, she stood in the doorway and watched him, such a little guy, who understood so little about love. And because she understood so much about love, her eyes filled with tears.

But presently she wiped the tears away and went back to the table. And she smiled at the Small Girl and at the Small Girl’s father.

But soon she wiped away her tears and returned to the table. She smiled at the Small Girl and the Small Girl’s father.

“And the potatoes were ivory,” she said. “Oh, who would ask for turkey, when they can have a pie like this?”

“And the potatoes were ivory,” she said. “Oh, who would want turkey when they can have a pie like this?”

FOOTNOTES:

[1] By permission of the author and “Good Housekeeping.”

[1] With permission from the author and “Good Housekeeping.”


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[22]

CHRISTMAS ON THE SINGING RIVER[2]

Jefferson Lee Harbour

Jefferson Lee Harbor


There was always a crowd in waiting when the stage-coach arrived in the shabby little mining-camp of Singing River. As a rule, the crowd assembled on the long, wide platform in front of the post-office, which was also the stage-office, the hotel, the general store, and the center from which radiated the social life of the camp. Above the post-office was a small and dingy hall lighted with dripping tallow candles; and such public amusements or entertainments as there were in Singing River were given in this hall. The platform in front of the building was the favorite “loafing-place” of the miners. The arrival of the stage-coach was the connecting-link between Singing River and the great outside world from which the little mining-camp was so far removed. The nearest railroad station was one hundred miles distant, and there was no town within fifteen miles any larger than Singing River, which was but a little hamlet of log-cabins, tents, and slab shanties far up the mountainside above the little Singing River in the rocky gulch below. The Singing River was a narrow and shallow [23]stream; but its crystal-clear waters surged in foamy wavelets around moss-covered boulders and went singing on so merrily that there was perpetual music in even the darkest and gloomiest parts of the gulch. But there was ice over the river for seven months of the year, and then nothing was to be heard but the dreary sound of the wind as it went moaning or shrieking up and down the long, dark cañon.

There was always a crowd waiting when the stagecoach arrived in the shabby little mining camp of Singing River. Typically, the crowd gathered on the long, wide platform in front of the post office, which also served as the stage office, the hotel, the general store, and the hub of social life in the camp. Above the post office was a small and dingy hall lit by flickering tallow candles; any public events or entertainment in Singing River were held in this hall. The platform in front of the building was the favorite hangout spot for the miners. The arrival of the stagecoach connected Singing River to the larger world far away from the little mining camp. The nearest railroad station was one hundred miles away, and there was no town within fifteen miles larger than Singing River, which was just a small settlement of log cabins, tents, and rough shanties high up the mountainside above the little Singing River in the rocky canyon below. The Singing River was a narrow and shallow stream, but its crystal-clear waters rushed over moss-covered boulders, creating cheerful wavelets that sang so happily there was constant music, even in the darkest and gloomiest parts of the canyon. However, the river was frozen for seven months of the year, and during that time, the only sound was the dreary wind as it howled up and down the long, dark canyon.

The winters were long and bitter in Singing River. Snow began to fly as early as the last of September, and it still lay deep in the gulches and in the narrow, rocky streets of the camp while the wild flowers were blooming in the far-distant valleys.

The winters were long and harsh in Singing River. Snow started to fall as early as the end of September, and it still piled up deep in the valleys and in the narrow, rocky streets of the camp while wildflowers were blooming in the faraway valleys.

But on the December day when this story opens, the stage arrived a full hour in advance of the usual time, and only a few of the men of the camp were at the post-office when Dave Hixon, the stage-driver, drew rein before it, amid the gently falling snow. There were no passengers on the outside seats, and no inside occupants were to be seen. Apparently the big stage was empty.

But on the December day when this story begins, the stage got there an entire hour earlier than usual, and only a few of the men from the camp were at the post office when Dave Hixon, the stage driver, pulled up in front of it, with snow gently falling around. There were no passengers sitting on the outside seats, and no one was visible inside. It seemed like the big stage was empty.

“Light load this trip, Dave,” said big Jim Hart, the postmaster, as he came out to get the limp and unpromising-looking mail-bag.

“Light load this trip, Dave,” said big Jim Hart, the postmaster, as he came out to grab the sagging and unappealing mailbag.

“I should say so,” replied Dave, as he took off his wide-brimmed felt hat and slapped it against the side of the coach to rid it of the snow that had fallen upon it.

“I suppose that’s true,” replied Dave, as he removed his wide-brimmed felt hat and smacked it against the side of the coach to shake off the snow that had settled on it.

“I reckon travel is about done for this season over the Shoshone trail, an’ they’ll soon stop sendin’ the coach up here even once a week, an’ then we’ll be[24] clean shut off from everywhere. No passengers this trip—eh?”

“I think travel is pretty much over for this season on the Shoshone trail, and they’ll soon stop sending the coach here even once a week, and then we’ll be[24] completely cut off from everywhere. No passengers this trip—right?”

“Only two, an’ there’s so little of them that I reckon they’ve rattled round like peas in a pod inside there.”

“Only two, and there’s so few of them that I guess they’ve been bouncing around like peas in a pod in there.”

Then Dave leaned far downward and, twisting himself around, called out to some one within the stage:

Then Dave leaned way down and, twisting himself around, called out to someone inside the stage:

“Hello, there, youngsters! You all right?”

“Hey kids! You good?”

A shrill, childish voice replied: “Yes, sir.”

A high-pitched, childlike voice answered, “Yes, sir.”

“Well, you’d better crawl out o’ that an’ git in where it’s warmer, an’ git some o’ Ma’am Hickey’s hot supper. Hey, Ma’am Hickey, I’ve fetched you a kind of a queer cargo!”

“Well, you’d better crawl out of that and get in where it’s warmer, and get some of Ma’am Hickey’s hot supper. Hey, Ma’am Hickey, I’ve brought you a pretty strange load!”

This last remark was addressed to a large, round-faced, motherly-looking woman who had come to the door of the hotel part of the building with her apron over her head.

This last comment was directed at a large, round-faced woman who had a motherly appearance and had come to the door of the hotel section of the building with her apron over her head.

“What’s that you say, Dave?” she called out loudly and heartily.

“What did you say, Dave?” she called out cheerfully and energetically.

“I say I’ve fetched you a kind of a queer cargo. You just come out an’ see if I hain’t.”

“I’m telling you, I’ve brought you something unusual. Just come outside and see if I’m not right.”

He jumped down from his high driver’s seat and flung open the stage door as Ma’am Hickey came over to the edge of the roadway. Reaching into the coach, Dave picked up what appeared to be a round bundle on the back seat, and set it out in the snow with a buffalo robe around it. The robe fell to the ground, and there was revealed to the amazed bystanders a girl of about nine years with big dark eyes that looked calmly and yet appealingly at the[25] staring group. The next moment Dave had set a yellow-haired boy of about five years down beside the girl.

He jumped down from his high driver's seat and swung open the stage door as Ma’am Hickey walked over to the edge of the road. Reaching into the coach, Dave grabbed what looked like a round bundle from the back seat and placed it in the snow, wrapping it in a buffalo robe. The robe slipped down, revealing to the astonished onlookers a girl of about nine years old with big dark eyes that looked at the staring crowd both calmly and endearingly. In the next moment, Dave set a yellow-haired boy of around five years old down next to the girl.

“There you air!” said Dave, the stage-driver. “Got ’commodations for this lady an’ gent, Ma’am Hickey?”

“There you go!” said Dave, the stage driver. “Got accommodations for this lady and gentleman, Ma’am Hickey?”

“Well, I’ll make ’commodations for ’em, if I have to turn you out o’ your bed to do it,” said Ma’am Hickey, as she dropped to her knees before the little boy and took him into her arms, saying as she did so:

“Well, I’ll make room for them, even if it means kicking you out of your bed,” said Ma’am Hickey, as she knelt before the little boy and hugged him, saying as she did so:

“Why, bless your heart an’ soul, little feller! I declare if it don’t feel sweet to git a child into my arms once more! An’ whose boy air you, anyhow?”

“Why, bless your heart and soul, little guy! I swear it feels so nice to hold a child in my arms again! And whose boy are you, anyway?”

“Papa’s,” replied the boy, shyly, with a slight quivering of his lips and an attempt to release himself from Ma’am Hickey’s embrace.

“Dad’s,” replied the boy, shyly, with a slight quiver of his lips and an attempt to break free from Ma’am Hickey’s hug.

“An’ where is papa, honey?”

“Where's dad, honey?”

“Here.”

"Here."

Ma’am Hickey looked around toward the men as if expecting some of them to come forward and claim the child; but they too were looking around inquiringly as the crowd grew in numbers, attracted by the news of the arrival of the stage. Noting the boy’s quivering lips and half-frightened look in the presence of all those strangers, his sister stepped toward him and patted his head gently with her mittened hand, saying as she did so:

Ma’am Hickey glanced at the men, as if waiting for one of them to step up and take responsibility for the child; but they were also looking around curiously as the crowd grew larger, drawn by the news of the stage’s arrival. Noticing the boy’s quivering lips and his half-frightened expression in front of all those strangers, his sister moved closer and gently patted his head with her mittened hand, saying as she did so:

“There, there; don’t you cry, Freddy. Sister will take care of you; yes, she will.”

“There, there; don’t cry, Freddy. Your sister will take care of you; yes, she will.”

“Where did you little folks come from?” asked[26] Ma’am Hickey, rising to her feet with the little boy in her arms.

“Where did you little ones come from?” asked [26] Ma’am Hickey, getting up with the little boy in her arms.

“From Iowa, ma’am.”

"From Iowa, ma'am."

“Ioway!” exclaimed Ma’am Hickey. “You don’t ever mean to tell me that you have come all the way from Ioway to this place all by your lone selves?”

“Ioway!” exclaimed Ma’am Hickey. “You can't be serious that you traveled all the way from Ioway to this place all by yourselves?”

The girl nodded her head and said:

The girl nodded and replied:

“Yes, we did. We had a letter to the conductors on the trains telling them where we were going, and we got along all right; didn’t we, Freddy?”

“Yes, we did. We had a letter for the train conductors telling them where we were headed, and we managed just fine; didn’t we, Freddy?”

The little boy nodded his head solemnly, too much awed by his strange surroundings to speak.

The little boy nodded his head seriously, too impressed by his unusual surroundings to say anything.

“Well, if that don’t beat anything I ever heard of!” exclaimed Ma’am Hickey. “If I’d been your ma you wouldn’t’ve done it!”

“Well, if that isn't the craziest thing I've ever heard!” exclaimed Ma’am Hickey. “If I were your mom, you wouldn’t have done it!”

The little girl kept looking into the faces of the men who crowded about them, and said:

The little girl kept looking at the faces of the men who were gathered around them and said:

“I don’t see my papa anywhere. He said that he would be here when the stage got here with us; but I don’t see him at all.”

“I can’t see my dad anywhere. He said he would be here when the bus arrived with us, but I don’t see him at all.”

“What is your papa’s name, deary?”

"What’s your dad's name?"

“Richard Miller.”

“Richard Miller.”

The men looked at each other blankly. Some of them opened and closed their mouths without uttering a sound. Big “Missouri Dan” uttered an exclamation under his breath. Ma’am Hickey held up one finger warningly. Then she stooped and kissed the little girl on the brow, and said gently:

The men stared at each other in confusion. Some of them opened their mouths to speak but didn’t say anything. Big “Missouri Dan” muttered something quietly. Ma’am Hickey raised one finger as a warning. Then she bent down and kissed the little girl on the forehead, saying gently:

“You come right into the house with me, little folks. I’ll get you a real nice hot supper, an’ then I[27] think you’d best go right to bed after your long ride.”

“You come right into the house with me, kids. I’ll fix you a really nice hot dinner, and then I[27] think you’d better head straight to bed after your long journey.”

When the cabin door had closed behind them, Big Dan said to the miners around him:

When the cabin door shut behind them, Big Dan said to the miners around him:

“Well, if this ain’t what I call a state of affairs! To think of them poor little tots trailin’ ’way out here from back in Ioway only to find their daddy a day in his grave! Cur’us how things turns out!”

“Well, if this isn't what I call a situation! To think about those poor little kids traveling all the way out here from Iowa just to find their dad a day in his grave! It's strange how things turn out!”

“What’s to be done?” asked a long, lank, red-whiskered man called “Cap.”

“What should we do?” asked a tall, skinny man with red whiskers named “Cap.”

“Shore enough,” drawled out an elderly man who had been chewing the end of his long gray mustache reflectively.

“Sure enough,” said an elderly man who had been thoughtfully chewing the end of his long gray mustache.

“I move that we go over to my shack an’ talk the matter over,” said Big Dan; and, without waiting for his motion to be voted upon, he started toward his cabin, a small log affair a short distance around the rocky road. The men around the post-office followed Big Dan, and, when they were in his cabin, seated on benches and nail-kegs or sprawling on buffalo robes in front of the fire in the big open fire-place, one of the men said:

“I propose we head over to my cabin and discuss this,” said Big Dan; and, without waiting for anyone to vote on his suggestion, he began walking toward his cabin, a small log structure just a short distance down the rocky road. The men around the post office followed Big Dan, and once they were inside his cabin, sitting on benches and nail kegs or lounging on buffalo robes in front of the fire in the large open fireplace, one of the men said:

“What does all this mean, anyhow? You know that I’ve just come down from Mount Baldy, an’ all this is Greek to me.”

“What does all this mean, anyway? You know I just came down from Mount Baldy, and all this is confusing to me.”

“Well, it’s just this-a-way,” replied Dan. “Three days ago a man come into camp on foot from over towards Roarin’ Fork. He was so sick when he got here he could hardly speak, an’ ’bout all we got outo’ him was that his name was Miller. Pneumonia had set in mighty hard, an’ in less than two hours after[28] he got here he couldn’t speak at all, an’ he didn’t live twelve hours. We laid him under that little clump o’ pines down near the bend in the Singin’ River not ten hours ago; an’ now here in comes the stage with that boy an’ gal, ev’dently the prop’ty o’ this same Miller, who ain’t here to meet ’em, an’ who won’t ever meet ’em in this world. It goes without sayin’ that they ain’t got no ma. If they had, she’d never let ’em come trailin’ off out here all by theirselves. It’s mighty tough on ’em.”

“Well, it’s like this,” Dan replied. “Three days ago, a man came into camp on foot from over by Roarin’ Fork. He was so sick when he arrived that he could hardly speak, and all we got out of him was that his name was Miller. Pneumonia had taken hold really bad, and less than two hours after he got here, he couldn’t speak at all, and he didn’t survive more than twelve hours. We buried him under that little group of pines down near the bend in the Singin’ River not ten hours ago; and now the stagecoach comes in with that boy and girl, obviously the belongings of this same Miller, who isn’t here to greet them, and who will never meet them in this world. It goes without saying that they don’t have a mom. If they did, she would never let them come trailing out here all by themselves. It’s really tough on them.”

“That’s right,” agreed the man called Cap. “I’m old an’ tough as ever they make ’em, but I ain’t fergot my own childhood so fur as not to ’preciate just how them pore little young uns will feel when they reelize the sitooation. I feel fer ’em.”

"That’s right," agreed the man named Cap. "I’m old and tough as ever, but I haven't forgotten my own childhood to the point where I don't appreciate how those poor little kids will feel when they realize the situation. I feel for them."

“So do I,” said a stalwart fellow of about thirty-five years. “I’ve got a couple o’ little folks o’ my own back East, an’ that boy reminds me a sight o’ my own little chap.”

“So do I,” said a sturdy guy of about thirty-five. “I’ve got a couple of little ones back East, and that boy really reminds me of my own little guy.”

The men were still discussing the strange and sad occurrence, and the question of the future of the children was still unsettled, when the door of the cabin opened and Ma’am Hickey appeared. Her eyes were red and her voice was unsteady as she said:

The men were still talking about the strange and sad event, and the future of the children was still uncertain, when the door of the cabin opened and Ma’am Hickey stepped in. Her eyes were red and her voice shook as she said:

“I just run over to say one thing, boys, an’ that’s this: Don’t one of you dast to breathe a word to them pore little darlin’s about where their pa is until after Christmas. They’re not to know that they are orphans until after that time. Their ma died last spring, an’ their pa sent for ’em to come out here to him. It’s a mighty rough place to fetch ’em to, but the little[29] girl says that an aunt of hers was to come on from California an’ be with ’em this winter, an’ their pa wrote that he would likely go on to California in the spring—pore man! He’s gone on now to a country that’s furder away than that!”

“I just ran over to say one thing, guys, and that’s this: Don’t any of you dare to breathe a word to those poor little kids about where their dad is until after Christmas. They aren’t supposed to know that they are orphans until then. Their mom died last spring, and their dad sent for them to come out here to him. It’s a really tough place to bring them to, but the little girl says that an aunt of hers was supposed to come from California to be with them this winter, and their dad wrote that he would probably head to California in the spring—poor guy! He’s gone to a place that’s even further away than that!”

She wiped her eyes on the back of her hand before adding:

She wiped her eyes with the back of her hand before adding:

“It jest about broke my heart to hear them two pore little things talkin’ about Christmas, an’ wonderin’ what their pa would have for ’em, while I was undressin’ ’em for bed. An’ I made up my mind that they shouldn’t know a thing about what has happened until after Christmas; an’, what’s more, some o’ you men kin jest stretch your long legs hoofin’ it over to Crystal City to git ’em some toys an’ things to make good my promise to ’em that if they hung up their stockin’s Christmas eve they’d find ’em full next mornin’. Now you boys remember that mum is the word in regard to their pa. Leave it to me to pacify ’em in regard to his not comin’ for ’em. They’re the cunnin’est little things I ever saw, an’ it’s jest too terrible that this trouble has had to befall ’em!”

"It nearly broke my heart to hear those two poor little ones talking about Christmas, wondering what their dad would give them, while I was getting them ready for bed. I decided they shouldn't know anything about what happened until after Christmas; and what's more, some of you men can just stretch your long legs over to Crystal City to get them some toys and things to keep my promise that if they hang up their stockings on Christmas Eve, they'll find them full the next morning. Now you boys remember to keep quiet about their dad. Leave it to me to reassure them about him not coming for them. They're the cutest little things I've ever seen, and it's just so terrible that this trouble has to happen to them!"

When good Ma’am Hickey had gone back to the hotel, Big Dan slapped his great rough palms together and said:

When good Ma’am Hickey returned to the hotel, Big Dan slapped his big rough hands together and said:

“I tell you what, boys! Let’s give them two little unfortinists a jolly good Christmas! I’m fairly sp’ilin’ for somethin’ to do, an’ I’ll hoof it over to Crystal City an’ git a lot o’ Christmas gimcracks for ’em.”

“I’m telling you, guys! Let’s give those two unfortunate kids a great Christmas! I’m really itching to do something, and I’ll head over to Crystal City and get a bunch of Christmas gifts for them.”

“I’ll keep you company,” said Joe Burke, the man who had two little ones of his own back East.[30] “Travelin’ on snow-shoes over the mountain passes at this time o’ the year is ruther dangerous, an’ it’s not best to start out on a trip alone. Then I guess I know more about what would please the youngsters than you would, Dan.”

“I’ll keep you company,” said Joe Burke, the man who had two little kids of his own back East.[30] “Traveling on snowshoes over the mountain passes this time of year is pretty dangerous, and it’s better not to head out on a trip alone. Plus, I think I know more about what the kids like than you do, Dan.”

“I ain’t ever took occasion to mention it before, but I happen to know a little about what children like, my own self, seein’ as I have had two o’ my own,” replied Big Dan. “They both died the same week. It happened nearly forty years ago, but these two little wayfarers stragglin’ into camp this way brings it all back to me.”

“I’ve never brought it up before, but I know a bit about what kids like, since I have two of my own,” replied Big Dan. “They both died the same week. It happened almost forty years ago, but these two little wanderers stumbling into camp like this brings it all back to me.”

No one in the camp had ever heard Big Dan speak so solemnly, and there was silence in the room when he added:

No one in the camp had ever heard Big Dan speak so seriously, and there was silence in the room when he added:

“I reckon I know enough about children to know that a big doll with these here open-and-shet kind o’ eyes allus takes the fancy of a little gal, an’ that a boy allus likes somethin’ that’ll make a racket. But I’ll be glad o’ your comp’ny, Joe.”

“I think I know enough about kids to understand that a big doll with these open-and-close eyes always catches a little girl's interest, and that a boy always enjoys something that makes noise. But I’ll be happy for your company, Joe.”

Ma’am Hickey appeared again before the conference came to an end.

Ma’am Hickey showed up again before the conference wrapped up.

“They’re cuddled up in bed in each other’s arms, cheek to cheek, the pore little dears,” she said. “I pacified ’em in regard to their pa without tellin’ any actual fib, an’ they went to sleep content. The little boy’s tongue went like a trip-hammer when he finally got it unloosened, and he jabbered away fast enough. But most he talked about was Christmas. He’s set his heart on a steam-engine that will go ‘choo, choo, choo,’ an’ if you boys can find such a[31] thing in Crystal City, you buy it an’ fetch it along with you, an’ I’ll foot the bill. The little girl is doll-crazy, like most little girls, so you must get her one, or more than one. An’ of course you’ll lay in plenty o’ candy; an’ if you can lug home a turkey or two on your backs I’ll get up a Christmas supper for ’em to eat after we’ve had the tree.”

“They’re cuddled up in bed together, cheek to cheek, the poor little dears,” she said. “I reassured them about their dad without telling any outright lies, and they fell asleep happy. The little boy’s chatter was like a trip-hammer when he finally got started, and he talked really fast. But most of what he mentioned was Christmas. He’s really hoping for a steam engine that goes ‘choo, choo, choo,’ and if you guys can find one of those in Crystal City, buy it and bring it back with you, and I’ll cover the cost. The little girl loves dolls, like most little girls do, so you need to get her one or even more than one. And of course, stock up on plenty of candy; and if you can manage to haul home a turkey or two, I’ll prepare a Christmas dinner for them to enjoy after we’ve had the tree.”

“The tree?” said one of the men, inquiringly.

“The tree?” one of the men asked, curiously.

“Yes, sir; the tree! Of course them little folks must have a tree. They say they want one, an’ why shouldn’t they have it, with the finest Christmas trees in the world right at hand here in the mountains?”

“Yes, sir; the tree! Of course those little kids need a tree. They say they want one, and why shouldn’t they have it, with the best Christmas trees in the world right here in the mountains?”

“Where you goin’ to have the tree, I’d like to know?” said a burly miner.

“Where are you going to put the tree? I’d like to know,” said a large miner.

“In the hall over the post-office.”

“In the hallway above the post office.”

“Well, if you ain’t plannin’ a reg’lar jamboree!”

“Well, if you aren’t planning a regular party!”

“Course I am!” replied Ma’am Hickey. “Got any objections?”

“Of course I am!” replied Ma’am Hickey. “Do you have any objections?”

“Better keep ’em to yourself if you have,” said Big Dan. “For what Ma’am Hickey an’ them two little youngsters says—goes.”

“Better keep them to yourself if you have,” said Big Dan. “Because whatever Ma’am Hickey and those two little kids say—goes.”

“That settles it,” said Ma’am Hickey, with a laugh.

"That settles it," said Ma’am Hickey, laughing.

Crystal City was a long distance from Singing River, and the mountain trails were hard and dangerous to travel at that time of the year. The stage would not make another trip until after Christmas, and it might be a month before it returned after it left the camp.

Crystal City was far from Singing River, and the mountain trails were tough and risky to navigate at this time of year. The stagecoach wouldn’t make another trip until after Christmas, and it could take a month before it came back after leaving the camp.

Big Dan and Joe Burke set off at daybreak the morning after the arrival of the two little wayfarers.[32] The men had “chipped in” for the purchase of “gimcracks” for the tree, and they had been so generous that Big Dan said just before he started for Crystal City:

Big Dan and Joe Burke set out at sunrise the morning after the two little travelers arrived.[32] The men had contributed to buying "gimcracks" for the tree, and they had been so generous that Big Dan remarked just before he headed for Crystal City:

“We’ll have to have the biggest pine we kin git for the tree. You chaps have it all set up in the hall by the time we git back.”

"We need to get the biggest pine tree we can find. You guys have it all set up in the hall by the time we get back."

“You sure you got that list o’ things I wrote down for you?” asked Ma’am Hickey. “Men ain’t got any kind of a mem’ry when it comes to shoppin’.”

“Are you sure you have that list of things I wrote down for you?” asked Ma’am Hickey. “Guys don’t have any kind of memory when it comes to shopping.”

“I got the list right here in this pocket,” replied Dan, patting his broad chest. “If we have good luck we’ll be back by noon day after to-morrow, an’ that night is Christmas eve, so you’ll want the tree all ready. Did the little folks sleep good?”

“I've got the list right here in my pocket,” Dan said, patting his broad chest. “If we're lucky, we'll be back by noon the day after tomorrow, and that night is Christmas Eve, so you'll want to have the tree all set up. Did the little ones sleep well?”

“They never stirred; but once the little boy laughed out in his sleep an’ said somethin’ about a steam-engine. Both of the children are sleepin’ yet.”

“They never moved; but once the little boy laughed in his sleep and said something about a steam engine. Both of the children are still asleep.”

An hour later the children were up and were eating their breakfast in Ma’am Hickey’s cozy kitchen, which was also the dining-room of the hotel.

An hour later, the kids were up and having their breakfast in Ma’am Hickey’s cozy kitchen, which also served as the hotel’s dining room.

“Will my papa come to-day?” asked Freddy, as he helped himself to a hot doughnut.

“Will my dad come today?” asked Freddy, as he helped himself to a hot doughnut.

“Don’t worry none about your papa, deary,” Ma’am Hickey said. “We’ll see to you all right. Let’s talk about Christmas.”

“Don’t worry about your dad, hun,” Ma’am Hickey said. “We’ll take care of you. Let’s talk about Christmas.”

“I never talked so much about Christmas in all the born days of my life as I talked about it in them two days,” said Ma’am Hickey, afterward. “It was the only way I could git their minds off their pa.”

“I never talked so much about Christmas in all my life as I did those two days,” said Ma’am Hickey later. “It was the only way I could get their minds off their dad.”

Ma’am Hickey’s account of the Christmas tree at[33] Singing River is so much more interesting than any account I could give of it, that I think it best to let her tell about it in her own way:

Ma'am Hickey’s story about the Christmas tree at[33] Singing River is way more interesting than anything I could share, so I believe it’s best to let her explain it in her own words:

“You see, Big Dan an’ Joe Burke got back all right the middle of the afternoon the day before Christmas. They looked like a pair o’ pack peddlers, an’ they were about fagged out, for they had had a hard time of it pullin’ up over the mountain trails in a snow-storm. Joe said he didn’t think he could have dragged himself another mile for love nor money. He had two big turkeys on his back besides a great lot of other things.

“You see, Big Dan and Joe Burke made it back just fine in the middle of the afternoon the day before Christmas. They looked like a couple of traveling salesmen, and they were pretty worn out because they had a tough time making it over the mountain trails in a snowstorm. Joe said he didn't think he could have dragged himself another mile for love or money. He had two big turkeys on his back along with a whole bunch of other stuff.”

“Well, the men in the camp had been busy, too. They had cut a big pine an’ set it up in the hall over the post-office, an’ the way they had dec’rated the hall with evergreen was beautiful. You couldn’t see an inch of the ugly bare logs nor of the bare rafters. They set to an’ scrubbed the floor an’ washed the winders, an’ strung up a lot o’ red, white and blue buntin’ I happened to have in the house, an’ I tell you the little old hall did look scrumptious. I kep’ the children in the kitchen with me, where I was makin’ pies an’ cake an’ doughnuts most o’ the time. I give ’em dough to muss with, an’ let ’em scrape the cake-dishes, an’ tried to keep ’em interested all the time, so they wouldn’t ask about their pa.

"Well, the guys in the camp had been busy too. They had cut down a big pine and set it up in the hall above the post office, and the way they decorated the hall with evergreen was beautiful. You couldn’t see an inch of the ugly bare logs or the bare rafters. They scrubbed the floor and washed the windows, and hung up a lot of red, white, and blue bunting I happened to have in the house, and I tell you the little old hall looked amazing. I kept the kids in the kitchen with me while I was making pies, cake, and doughnuts most of the time. I gave them dough to play with, let them scrape the cake dishes, and tried to keep them engaged all the time, so they wouldn’t ask about their dad."

“When Big Dan an’ Joe got back the other men had a great time riggin’ up the tree. We was afeerd they wouldn’t be able to buy Christmas-tree candles in Crystal City; but, my land! they got about ten dozen of ’em, an’ no end o’ tinsel an’ shiny balls an’[34] things to hang on the tree, an’ a lot o’ little flags to stick in among the evergreen dec’rations. We had no end o’ common taller candles on hand, an’ the men were perfectly reckless with ’em. I reckon they put as many as two hundred of ’em up around the room. An’ what did they do but go an’ rig Big Dan up as Santy Claus! They wrapped him up in a big bearskin one o’ the boys had, an’ put about a quart o’ flour on his long, bushy whiskers to whiten ’em, an’ they put a big fur cap on his head, and he did look for all the world like Santy his own self. Yes; an’ he had a string o’ sleigh-bells they got at the stage-office stable; an’ them boys ackshully cut a hole in the roof so Santy Claus could come down through it! La, if you want things carried through regardless, you let a lot o’ Rocky Mountain boys take it in hand. They won’t stop at nothin’. I reckon they’d h’isted off the hull roof if it had been necessary to make the appearance of Santy true to life. Such fun as the boys had over it all! An’ of all the capers they cut up! Seemed like they was all boys once more! Me an’ Ann Dickey an’ Mary Ann Morris were the only women in the camp, an’ we had our hands full gittin’ up the Christmas supper we intended havin’ after the tree. Mind you, there wasn’t a child in camp but just them two pore little orphans, an’ all that fuss was on their account. If you think rough miner boys can’t have the kindest o’ hearts, you just remember that. Every man seemed to be tryin’ to outdo the others in doin’ somethin’ for them little folks.

“When Big Dan and Joe got back, the other guys had a blast setting up the tree. We were worried they wouldn’t be able to find Christmas tree candles in Crystal City, but wow! They managed to get about ten dozen of them, plus loads of tinsel, shiny ornaments, and[34] little flags to stick among the evergreen decorations. We had plenty of regular tall candles on hand, and the guys were totally reckless with them. I bet they put up as many as two hundred around the room. And what did they do? They dressed Big Dan up as Santa Claus! They wrapped him in a big bearskin that one of the guys had, sprinkled about a quart of flour on his long, bushy whiskers to whiten them, and put a big fur cap on his head. He looked just like Santa himself. He even had a string of sleigh bells they got from the stage office stable; and those boys actually cut a hole in the roof so Santa Claus could come down through it! If you want something done, just let a bunch of Rocky Mountain guys handle it. They won’t stop at anything. I’d bet they’d have ripped off the whole roof if it was necessary to make Santa’s arrival realistic. The fun those boys had was incredible! They seemed like boys again! Me, Ann Dickey, and Mary Ann Morris were the only women in the camp, and we were busy preparing the Christmas dinner we planned to have after the tree. Keep in mind, there wasn’t a child in camp except those two poor little orphans, and all that fuss was for them. If you think rough miner boys don’t have the kindest hearts, just remember that. Every man seemed to be trying to outdo the others in doing something special for those little kids.

“Well, I jest wisht you could have seen them[35] children when the time come for ’em to go up to the hall an’ see their tree! Little Freddy he give a yell o’ joy that most split our ears, an’ he just stood an’ clapped his hands, while his sister kep’ sayin’, ‘How lovely it is! Oh, isn’t it beautiful?’ Then Freddy he screeches out: ‘Oh, there’s my choo-choo engine! Goody!’ An’ how little Elsie’s eyes did shine when she saw no less than three dolls on the tree for herself! There was enough stuff on that tree for a hull Sunday-school, for the men had been that reckless in sendin’ to Crystal City for things.

“Well, I really wish you could have seen those[35] kids when it was time for them to go up to the hall and see their tree! Little Freddy let out a yell of joy that almost blew out our eardrums, and he just stood there clapping his hands, while his sister kept saying, ‘How lovely it is! Oh, isn’t it beautiful?’ Then Freddy screamed, ‘Oh, there’s my choo-choo engine! Yay!’ And you should have seen how little Elsie’s eyes sparkled when she spotted no less than three dolls on the tree just for her! There was enough stuff on that tree for an entire Sunday school because the men had been so reckless in sending to Crystal City for things.

“Then I wisht you could have seen those children when Big Dan come in all rigged up as Santy Claus! That was the cap-sheaf o’ the hull proceedin’s! First we heard his bells outside, an’ him callin’ out, ‘Whoa, there!’ like as if he was talkin’ to his reindeers. Then he clim up the ladder the boys had set outside, an’ presently down he come through the hole in the roof. I jest thought little Fred’s eyes would pop clean out o’ his head when that part o’ the show come off! An’ what fun there was when old Santy went around givin’ the boys all sorts of ridiculous presents! He give old Tim Thorpe a tiny chiny doll, an’ big Jack Ross a jumpin’-jack, an’ Ben Anderson a set o’ little pewter dishes; an’ he fetched me a great big old pipe, when they knowed I hated the very sight o’ one. I tell you, it was real fun!

“Then I wish you could have seen those kids when Big Dan came in all dressed up as Santa Claus! That was the highlight of the whole event! First, we heard his bells outside and him calling out, ‘Whoa, there!’ as if he was talking to his reindeer. Then he climbed up the ladder the boys had set up outside, and soon he came down through the hole in the roof. I really thought little Fred’s eyes would pop out of his head when that part of the show happened! And what fun it was when old Santa went around giving the boys all sorts of silly presents! He gave old Tim Thorpe a tiny china doll, big Jack Ross a jumping jack, and Ben Anderson a set of little pewter dishes; and he brought me a big old pipe, even though they knew I hated the sight of one. I tell you, it was a blast!

“Well, the things had all been distributed, an’ the children were loaded down with presents, an’ me an’ the two other women were about to go downstairs to take up the supper, when the door of the hall[36] opened, and a strange man stepped in. When he saw the children he give a kind of a little outcry, an’ the next minute he was down on his knees before ’em, with an arm around each child, an’ he was kissin’ first one an’ then the other. We all jest stared at each other when little Elsie clapped her hands together and said:

“Well, everything had been handed out, and the kids were all loaded up with gifts. Me and the two other women were about to head downstairs to bring up supper when the hall door opened, and a strange man walked in. When he saw the kids, he let out a little gasp, and the next moment he was down on his knees in front of them, with an arm around each child, kissing one and then the other. We all just stared at each other when little Elsie clapped her hands together and said:

“‘Why, papa!’

“‘Why, dad!’”

“An’ that’s jest who it was! The man named Miller who had died a few days before was a cousin o’ the children’s pa. It seemed that his cousin o’ the name of Miller had been sent to meet the children, because their pa had been sick an’ wasn’t hardly strong enough to come away over to Singin’ River for them. He lived in a little camp only about twenty miles away, but it was a hard road to travel for a well man, even. So this cousin he come, an’, from all we could make out, he had lost his way in a storm, an’ had laid out a night an’ got so chilled it had brought on pneumonia. When he didn’t come back with the children after two or three days, their pa got oneasy, an’ he set out himself to see what was the matter. He wasn’t hardly fit to travel, but he come anyhow, an’ he was all tuckered out when he got to Singin’ River. Then he was so nervous an’ kind o’ wrought up that no one thought it to his shame that he jest broke clean down an’ laughed an’ cried by turns, kind o’ hystericky like, over the children.

“That's exactly who it was! The man named Miller who died a few days earlier was a cousin of the children's dad. It seemed that his cousin, also named Miller, had been sent to meet the kids because their dad had been sick and wasn’t really strong enough to travel all the way to Singin’ River for them. He lived in a small camp about twenty miles away, but the road was tough to navigate, even for a healthy person. So this cousin came, and from what we could gather, he got lost in a storm, spent a night out and got so cold that it led to pneumonia. When he didn’t return with the kids after two or three days, their dad got worried and went out himself to see what was going on. He wasn’t really fit to travel, but he went anyway, and he was completely worn out when he got to Singin’ River. Then, he was so anxious and a bit worked up that nobody thought it was shameful when he just broke down and laughed and cried alternately, kind of hysterically, over the kids.

“We did have the best time at the supper! A storm had come up, an’ the wind was roarin’ an’ howlin’[37] in the cañon an’ up an’ down the Singin’ River, an’ the sleet was dashin’ ag’in’ the winder-lights; but that jest made it seem more cheery an’ comfortable in the cabin, with a roarin’ fire o’ pine-knots in the big fireplace at one end o’ the cabin, an’ the teakettle singin’ on my big shinin’ stove at the other end. Mr. Miller he set between the two children, an’ he’d hug an’ kiss ’em between times. We made him stay two whole weeks in Singin’ River to rest up an’ git real well, an’ then a hull passel o’ the boys went with him to git the children home. The boys rigged up a sled, an’ tuk turns drawin’ Elsie an’ Freddy over the trails an’ away up over Red Bird Mountain. I reckon it was a ride they won’t ever forgit; an’ none of us that were there will ever in this world forgit that Christmas on the Singin’ River.”

“We had an amazing time at dinner! A storm had rolled in, and the wind was howling in the canyon and up and down the Singing River, and the sleet was hitting the window lights; but that just made it feel cozier and more cheerful in the cabin, with a roaring fire of pine knots in the big fireplace at one end, and the teakettle singing on my shiny stove at the other end. Mr. Miller sat between the two kids, hugging and kissing them from time to time. We made him stay two whole weeks in Singing River to rest and get really well, and then a whole group of the boys went with him to take the kids home. The boys set up a sled and took turns pulling Elsie and Freddy over the trails and up Red Bird Mountain. I bet it was a ride they’ll never forget; and none of us who were there will ever forget that Christmas on the Singing River.”

FOOTNOTES:

[2] Reprinted from “St. Nicholas Magazine” with permission.

[2] Reprinted from “St. Nicholas Magazine” with permission.


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THE SHEPHERD WHO WATCHED BY NIGHT[3]

Thomas Nelson Page

Thomas Nelson Page


The place had nothing distinguished or even perhaps distinctive about it except its trees and the tapering spire of a church lifting above them. It was not unlike a hundred other places that one sees as one travels through the country. It called itself a town; but it was hardly more than a village. One long street, now paved on both sides, climbed the hill, where the old post-road used to run in from the country on one side and out again on the other, passing a dingy, large house with whitewashed pillars, formerly known as the tavern, but now calling itself “The Inn.” This, with two or three cross-streets and a short street or two on either side of the main street, constituted “the town.” A number of good houses, and a few very good, indeed, sat back in yards dignified by fine trees. Three or four churches stood on corners, as far apart apparently as possible. Several of them were much newer and fresher painted than the one with the spire and cross; but this was the only old one and was generally spoken of as “The Church,” as the rector was meant when the people spoke of “the preacher.” It [39]sat back from the street, in a sort of sordid seclusion, and near it, yet more retired, was an old mansion, also dilapidated, with a wide porch, much decayed, and to the side and a little behind it, an out-building or two, one of which was also occupied as a dwelling. The former was the rectory, and the smaller dwelling was where the old woman lived who took care of the rectory, cleaned up the two or three rooms which the rector used since his wife’s death, and furnished him his meals. It had begun only as a temporary arrangement, but it seemed to work well enough and had gone on now for years and no one thought of changing it. If an idea of change ever entered the mind of any one, it was only when the old woman’s grumbling floated out into the town as to the tramps who would come and whom the preacher would try to take care of. Then, indeed, discussion would take place as to the utter impracticability of the old preacher and the possibility of getting a younger and liver man in his place. For the rest of the time the people were hopeless. The old preacher was not only past his prime but his usefulness. Yet what could they do? No one else wanted him, and they could not turn him out. He was saddled on them for life. They ran simply by the old propulsion; but the church was going down, they said, and they were helpless. This had been the case for years and now as the year neared its close it was the same.

The place had nothing special or even really unique about it except for its trees and the narrow spire of a church rising above them. It resembled countless other spots you see while traveling through the countryside. It called itself a town, but it was really more of a village. A long street, now paved on both sides, climbed the hill where the old post-road used to come in from one side of the country and go out the other, passing a shabby, large house with whitewashed pillars, once called the tavern but now named “The Inn.” This, along with two or three cross streets and a short street or two on either side of the main street, made up “the town.” A number of decent houses, and a few really nice ones, sat back in yards adorned with fine trees. Three or four churches stood at the corners, seemingly as far apart as possible. Several of them were newer and painted brighter than the one with the spire and cross; but this was the only old one and was generally referred to as “The Church,” just as the rector was called “the preacher.” It [39]sat back from the street, in a sort of shabby isolation, and near it, even more secluded, was an old mansion, also run-down, with a wide, decaying porch, and on the side and a little behind it, an out-building or two, one of which was also used as a home. The former was the rectory, and the smaller dwelling was where the old woman lived who looked after the rectory, cleaned up the few rooms the rector used since his wife’s passing, and cooked his meals. It had started as a temporary arrangement, but it seemed to work well enough and had continued for years without anyone thinking of changing it. If anyone ever thought about change, it was only when the old woman’s complaints drifted through town about the tramps who would come by and whom the preacher would try to help. Then, indeed, discussions would arise about the complete impracticality of the old preacher and the possibility of bringing in a younger, livelier person to replace him. For the rest of the time, the people felt hopeless. The old preacher was not only past his prime but past his usefulness. Yet what could they do? No one else wanted him, and they couldn’t kick him out. He was stuck with them for life. They were simply running on outdated momentum, but they claimed the church was declining, and they felt powerless. This had been the case for years, and now, as the year was coming to an end, it was still the same.

Such was the talk as they finished dressing the church for Christmas and made their way homeward—the few who still took interest enough to help in[40] this way. They felt sorry for the old man, who had been much in their way during the dressing, but sorrier for themselves.

Such was the conversation as they wrapped up decorating the church for Christmas and headed home—the few who still cared enough to help out in[40] this way. They felt bad for the old man, who had gotten in their way while they were decorating, but they felt even worse for themselves.

This had been a few days before Christmas and now it was Christmas eve.

This was a few days before Christmas, and now it was Christmas Eve.

The old rector sat at his table trying to write his Christmas sermon. He was hopelessly behindhand with it. The table was drawn up close to the worn stove, but the little bare room was cold, and now and then the old man blew on his fingers to warm them, and pushed his feet closer to the black hearth. Again and again he took up his pen as if to write, and as often laid it down again. The weather was bitter and the coal would not burn. There was little to burn. He wore his old overcoat, to save fuel. Before him on the table, amid a litter of other books and papers, lay a worn Bible and a prayer-book open, and beside them a folded letter on which his eye often rested. Outside, the wind roared, shaking the doors, rattling the windows, and whistling at the key-holes. Now and then the sound of a passing vehicle was borne in on the wind, and at intervals came the voices of boys shouting to each other as they ran by. The old man did not hear the former, but when the boys shouted he listened till they had ceased, his thoughts turned to the past and to the two boys whom God had given him and had then taken back to Himself. His gray face wore a look of deep concern, and, indeed, of dejection, and his eye wandered once more to the folded letter on the table. It was signed “A Friend,” and it was this which was responsible for the unwritten[41] Christmas sermon. It was what the world calls an anonymous letter and, though couched in kindly terms, it had struck a dagger into the old man’s heart. Yet he could not but say that in tone and manner it was a kind act. Certainly it had told the truth, and if in tearing a veil from his eyes it had stunned him, why should he not face the truth!

The old rector sat at his desk trying to write his Christmas sermon. He was way behind on it. The desk was pushed up close to the worn stove, but the little bare room was cold, and now and then the old man blew on his fingers to warm them, moving his feet closer to the black hearth. Time and again he picked up his pen as if to write but just as often put it down again. The weather was harsh, and the coal wouldn’t burn. There was little to burn. He wore his old overcoat to save fuel. In front of him on the desk, among a mess of other books and papers, lay a worn Bible and a prayer book open, along with a folded letter that he kept glancing at. Outside, the wind howled, shaking the doors, rattling the windows, and whistling at the keyholes. Occasionally, the sound of a passing vehicle drifted in with the wind, and at times he heard boys shouting to each other as they ran past. The old man didn’t catch the sounds of the vehicles, but he listened intently to the boys’ shouts until they stopped, his thoughts drifting to the past and the two boys God had given him, only to take them back. His gray face showed deep concern, even sadness, and his gaze wandered once more to the folded letter on the desk. It was signed “A Friend,” and it was this that was behind the unwritten[41] Christmas sermon. It was what people call an anonymous letter, and though it was written in a kind way, it had pierced the old man’s heart like a dagger. Still, he had to admit that in tone and manner it was a kind act. It certainly told the truth, and if it had stunned him by revealing a truth he hadn't wanted to see, why shouldn't he face it?

He took the letter up again and reread it, not that he needed to read it, for he knew it by heart. Every sentence was seared into his memory.

He picked up the letter again and reread it, not that he needed to, since he knew it by heart. Every sentence was burned into his memory.

He reread it hoping to find some answer to its plain, blunt, undeniable statements, but he found none. It was all true, every word, from the ominous beginning which stated that the writer felt that he had “a clear duty to perform,” down to the close when with a protestation of good-will he signed himself the old man’s friend.

He read it again, hoping to find some answer to its straightforward, blunt, undeniable statements, but he found none. It was all true, every word, from the ominous beginning that said the writer felt he had “a clear duty to perform,” to the end, where he signed off as the old man’s friend with a gesture of goodwill.

“You must see, unless you are blind,” ran the letter, “that your church is running down, and unless you get out and let the congregation secure a new and younger man, there will soon be no congregation at all left. No men come to church any longer and many women who used to come now stay away. You are a good man, but you are a failure. Your usefulness is past.” Yes, it was true, he was a failure. His usefulness was past. This was the reason doubtless that no Christmas things had come this year—they wanted to let him know. It pained him to think it, and he sighed.

“You must see, unless you’re blind,” the letter said, “that your church is falling apart, and if you don’t step aside and let the congregation find a new, younger leader, there won’t be a congregation left at all. No men come to church anymore, and many of the women who used to attend have stopped coming as well. You’re a good man, but you’ve failed. Your time of being useful is over.” Yes, it was true; he was a failure. His time of being useful was over. That was probably why no Christmas decorations had arrived this year—they wanted to make that clear to him. It hurt to think about it, and he sighed.

“You spend your time fooling about a lot of useless things,” continued the anonymous friend, “visiting[42] people who do not come to church, and you have turned the rectory into a harbor for tramps.

“You waste your time messing around with a lot of pointless things,” continued the anonymous friend, “visiting people who don’t go to church, and you’ve turned the rectory into a shelter for drifters.[42]

“You cannot preach any longer. You are hopelessly behind the times. People nowadays want no more doctrinal points discussed; they want to hear live, up-to-date, practical discourses on the vital problems of the day. Such as the Rev. Dr. —— delivers. His church is full.” This also was true. He was no longer able to preach. He had felt something of this himself. Now it came home to him like a blow on the head, and a deeper pain was the conviction which, long hovering about his heart, now settled and took definite shape, that he ought to get out. But where could he go? He would have gone long since if he had known where to go. He could not go out and graze like an old horse on the roadside. There was no provision made for such as he. No pensions were provided by his church for old and disabled clergymen, and the suggestion made in the letter had no foundation in his case: “You must or, at least, you should have saved something in all this time.”

“You can't preach anymore. You're hopelessly behind the times. People today don't want to hear about doctrinal points; they want live, relevant, practical discussions on the important issues of the day. Like what the Rev. Dr. —— delivers. His church is packed.” This was true as well. He was no longer able to preach. He had sensed some of this himself. Now it hit him like a blow to the head, and a deeper pain was the realization, which had long lingered in his heart, that he should leave. But where could he go? He would have left a long time ago if he had known where to go. He couldn't just wander off like an old horse by the roadside. There was no safety net for someone like him. His church didn't provide pensions for aging or disabled clergy, and the suggestion in the letter lacked relevance to his situation: “You must or, at least, you should have saved something all this time.”

This sounded almost humorous and a wintry little smile flickered for a moment about the wrinkled mouth. His salary had never been over six hundred dollars and there were so many to give to. Of late, it had been less than this amount and not all of this had been paid. The smile died out and the old man’s face grew grave again as he tried to figure out what he could do. He thought of one or two old friends to whom he could write. Possibly, they might know some country parish that would be willing to take[43] him, though it was a forlorn hope. If he could but hold on till they invited him, it would be easier, for he knew how difficult it was for a clergyman out of a place to get a call. People were so suspicious. Once out, he was lost.

This seemed almost funny, and a small, wintry smile briefly appeared on the wrinkled face. His salary had never exceeded six hundred dollars, and there were so many people depending on him. Recently, it had been even less than that, and not all of it had been paid. The smile faded, and the old man’s expression turned serious again as he tried to figure out what to do. He thought of a couple of old friends he could write to. Maybe they’d know of a small parish somewhere that would be willing to take him, though it felt like a long shot. If he could just hold on until they invited him, it would be easier, since he understood how hard it was for a clergyman out of a job to get a new position. People were so wary. Once he was out, he was done for.

At the thought, a picture of a little plot amid the trees in the small cemetery on the hill near the town slipped into his mind. Three little slabs stood there above three mounds, one longer than the others. They covered all that was mortal of what he had loved best on earth. The old man sighed and his face in the dim light took on an expression very far away. He drifted off into a reverie. Ah, if they had only been left to him, the two boys that God had sent him and had then taken back to Himself, and the good wife who had borne up so bravely till she had sunk by the wayside! If he were only with them! He used to be rebellious at the neglect that left the drains so deadly, but that was gone now. He leant forward on his elbows and gradually slipped slowly to his knees. He was on them a long time, and when he tried to rise he was quite stiff; but his face had grown tranquil. He had been in high converse with the blessed of God and his mind had cleared. He had placed everything in God’s hands, and He had given him light. He would wait until after Christmas and then he would resign. But he would announce it next day. The flock there should have a new and younger and abler shepherd. This would be glad tidings to them.

At that thought, a picture of a little plot among the trees in the small cemetery on the hill near the town came to his mind. Three small gravestones stood above three mounds, one longer than the others. They marked the final resting place of what he had loved most in the world. The old man sighed, and his face in the dim light took on a distant look. He drifted into a daydream. Ah, if only he still had the two boys that God had given him and then taken back, and the good wife who had held on so bravely until she fell by the wayside! If only he could be with them! He used to be angry about the neglect that made the drains so deadly, but that feeling was gone now. He leaned forward on his elbows and gradually sank to his knees. He stayed there for a long time, and when he tried to stand up, he felt completely stiff; but his face had become calm. He had been in deep conversation with the blessed of God, and his mind had cleared. He had put everything in God’s hands, and He had given him clarity. He would wait until after Christmas and then he would resign. But he would announce it the next day. The congregation should have a new, younger, and more capable shepherd. This would be good news for them.

He folded up the letter and put it away. He no[44] longer felt wounded by it. It was of God’s ordaining and was to be received as a kindness, a ray of light to show him the path of duty. He drew his paper toward him and, taking up his pen, began to write rapidly and firmly. The doubt was gone, the way was clear. His text had come to his mind.

He folded the letter and put it away. He no longer felt hurt by it. It was God's will and should be seen as a kindness, a ray of light to guide him on the path of duty. He pulled his paper closer and, picking up his pen, started to write quickly and confidently. The doubt was gone, and the way was clear. The text had come to his mind.

And there were in the same country, shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night, and lo, the Angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them. And they were sore afraid. And the Angel said unto them: Fear not, for behold, I bring unto you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the City of David a Saviour which is Christ the Lord. And this shall be a sign unto you. You shall find the Babe wrapped in swaddling clothes lying in a manger.

In the same region, there were shepherds living in the fields, watching over their flocks at night. Suddenly, an Angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord surrounded them. They were terrified. But the Angel said to them, "Don't be afraid! I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all people. Today, in the City of David, a Savior has been born to you; He is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign for you: You will find the Baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."

Unfolding the story, he told of the darkness that had settled over Israel under the Roman sway and the formalism of the Jewish hierarchy at the time of Christ’s coming, drawing from it the lesson that God still had shepherds watching over His flocks in the night to whom He vouchsafed to send His heavenly messengers. On and on he wrote, picturing the divine mission of the Redeemer and His power to save souls, and dwelling on Christmas as the ever recurrent reminder of “the tender mercy of our God whereby the Day Spring from on High hath visited us.”

As he shared the story, he spoke about the darkness that had covered Israel under Roman rule and the rigidity of the Jewish leaders during Christ’s arrival. He emphasized that God still had shepherds watching over His people at night, to whom He sent His heavenly messengers. He continued to write, illustrating the divine mission of the Redeemer and His ability to save souls, while reflecting on Christmas as a constant reminder of “the tender mercy of our God whereby the Day Spring from on High hath visited us.”

Suddenly he came to a pause. Something troubled him. It came to him that he had heard that a woman in the town was very sick and he had intended going[45] to see her. She had had a bad reputation; but he had heard that she had reformed. At any rate she was ill. He paused and deliberated. At the moment the wind rattled the shutters. She did not belong to his flock or, so far as he knew, to any flock, and once when he had stopped her on the street and spoken to her of her evil life, she had insulted him. She had told him that he had better look after his own people instead of lecturing her. He turned back to his paper, pen in hand; but it was borne in on him that he was writing of watching over the flock by night and here he was neglecting one of his Father’s sheep. He laid aside his pen, and rising, took down his old hat and stick, lit his lantern, turned down his lamp, and, shuffling through the bare, narrow passage, let himself out at the door. As he came out on to the little porch to step down to the walk, the wind struck him fiercely and he had some difficulty in fastening the door with its loose lock; but this done he pushed forward. The black trees swayed and creaked above him in the wind, and fine particles of snow stung his withered cheeks. He wondered if the shepherds in the fields ever had such a night as this for their watch. He remembered to have read that snow fell on the mountains of Judea. It was a blustering walk. The wind felt as if it would blow through him. Yet he stumbled onward.

Suddenly, he stopped. Something was bothering him. He remembered hearing that a woman in town was very sick, and he had planned to visit her. She had a bad reputation, but he heard she had changed her ways. Anyway, she was ill. He paused to think. At that moment, the wind rattled the shutters. She wasn’t part of his flock, or as far as he knew, any flock at all. Once, when he had stopped her on the street to talk about her troubled past, she had insulted him. She told him he should take care of his own people instead of lecturing her. He turned back to the paper, pen in hand, but it struck him that he was writing about watching over the flock at night, yet he was ignoring one of his Father’s sheep. He set down his pen, stood up, took his old hat and stick, lit his lantern, turned down his lamp, and, shuffling through the narrow passage, let himself out the door. As he stepped onto the little porch and down to the path, the wind hit him hard, and he struggled to close the door with its loose lock. But once that was done, he moved forward. The dark trees swayed and creaked above him in the wind, and fine snowflakes stung his weathered cheeks. He wondered if the shepherds in the fields ever had a night like this for their watch. He remembered reading that snow fell on the mountains of Judea. It was a rough walk. The wind felt like it would blow right through him. Still, he stumbled onward.

At length he reached the little house on a back street in the worst part of the village, where he had heard the sick woman lived. A light glimmered dimly in an upper window and his knocking finally brought[46] to the door a woman who looked after her. She was not in a good humor at being disturbed at that hour, for her rest had been much broken of late; but she was civil and invited him in.

At last, he arrived at the small house on a back street in the roughest part of the village, where he had heard the sick woman lived. A light flickered faintly in an upstairs window, and his knocking finally brought to the door a woman who looked after her. She wasn't in a good mood at being disturbed at that hour, as her rest had been interrupted a lot lately; but she was polite and invited him in.

In answer to his question of how her patient was, she replied shortly: “No better; the doctor says she can’t last much longer. Do you want to see her?” she added presently.

In response to his question about how her patient was doing, she answered briefly: “No better; the doctor says she can’t last much longer. Do you want to see her?” she added a moment later.

The old rector said he did and she waved toward the stair. “You can walk up.”

The old rector said he did, and she gestured toward the stairs. “You can walk up.”

As they climbed the stair she added: “She said you’d come if you knew.” The words made the old man warmer. And when she opened the door of the sick-room and said, “Here’s the preacher, as you said,” the faint voice of the invalid murmuring, “I hoped you’d come,” made him feel yet warmer.

As they went up the stairs, she said, “She told me you’d come if you knew.” Those words made the old man feel more at ease. And when she opened the door to the sick room and said, “Here’s the preacher, just like you wanted,” the weak voice of the sick person saying, “I hoped you’d come,” made him feel even warmer.

He was still of some use even in this parish.

He was still somewhat useful even in this community.

Whatever her face had been in the past, illness and suffering had refined it. He stayed there long, for he found that she needed him. She unburdened herself to him. She was sorry she had been rude to him that time. She had been a sinful woman. She said she had tried of late to live a good life, since that day he had spoken to her, but she now found that she had not. She had wanted to be a believer and she had gone to hear him preach one day after that, but now she did not seem to believe anything. They told her that she must repent. She wanted to repent, but she could not feel. She was in the dark and she feared she was lost. The old man had taken his seat by her side, and he now held her hand and soothed her tenderly.

Whatever her face had looked like in the past, illness and suffering had changed it for the better. He stayed there for a long time because he realized she needed him. She opened up to him. She regretted being rude to him that time. She acknowledged that she had lived a sinful life. She said she had been trying lately to live a good life since the day he had talked to her, but now she felt like she hadn’t made any progress. She had wanted to believe and had gone to listen to him preach one day after that, but now she felt completely lost in her faith. People told her she needed to repent. She wanted to repent, but she couldn’t feel anything. She was in darkness and feared she was lost. The old man had taken a seat beside her, and now he held her hand and comforted her gently.

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“Once, perhaps,” he said doubtfully, “though God only knows that, but certainly no longer. Christ died for you. You say you wanted to change, that you tried to ask God’s pardon and to live a better life even before you fell ill. Do you think you could want this as much as God wanted it? He put the wish into your heart. Do you think He would now let you remain lost? Why, He sent His Son into the world to seek and to save the lost. He has sent me to you to-night to tell you that He has come to save you. It is not you that can save yourself, but He, and if you feel that it is dark about you, never mind—the path is still there. One of the old Fathers has said that God sometimes puts His children to sleep in the dark.”

“Maybe once,” he said uncertainly, “but God knows that’s not true anymore. Christ died for you. You’ve said you wanted to change, that you tried to ask for God’s forgiveness and to live a better life even before you got sick. Do you really think you could want this as much as God wanted it? He put that desire in your heart. Do you think He would let you stay lost now? He sent His Son into the world to find and save the lost. He sent me to you tonight to tell you that He’s here to save you. You can’t save yourself, but He can. And if you feel surrounded by darkness, don’t worry—the path is still there. One of the old Fathers said that God sometimes puts His children to sleep in the dark.”

“But I have been—You don’t know what I have been,” she murmured. The old man laid his hand softly on her head.

“But I have been—you don’t know what I’ve been through,” she murmured. The old man gently placed his hand on her head.

“He not only forgave the Magdalen, for her love of Him, but He vouchsafed to her the first sight of His face after His resurrection.”

“He not only forgave Mary Magdalene for her love for Him, but He also granted her the first glimpse of His face after His resurrection.”

“I see,” she said simply.

“I see,” she said.

A little later she dozed off, but presently roused up again. A bell was ringing somewhere in the distance. It was the ushering in of the Christmas morn.

A little later, she dozed off but soon woke up again. A bell was ringing somewhere in the distance. It was the start of Christmas morning.

“What is that?” she asked feebly.

“What is that?” she asked weakly.

He told her.

He said to her.

“I think if I were well, if I could ever be good enough, I should like to join the church,” she said. “I remember being baptized—long ago.”

“I think if I were well, if I could ever be good enough, I would like to join the church,” she said. “I remember being baptized—long ago.”

“You have joined it,” he replied.

"You've joined it," he said.

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Just then the nurse brought her a glass.

Just then, the nurse handed her a glass.

“What is that?” she asked feebly.

"What's that?" she asked softly.

“A little wine.” She held up a bottle in which a small quantity remained.

“A little wine.” She held up a bottle with a small amount left.

It seemed to the old preacher a sort of answer to his thought. “Have you bread here?” he asked the young woman. She went out and a moment later brought him a piece of bread.

It felt like a kind of response to the old preacher’s thoughts. “Do you have any bread here?” he asked the young woman. She stepped outside and returned a moment later with a piece of bread.

He had often administered the early communion on Christmas morning, but never remembered a celebration that had seemed to him so real and satisfying. As he thought of the saints departed this life in the faith and fear of God, they appeared to throng about him as never before, and among them were the faces he had known and loved best on earth.

He had often led the early communion on Christmas morning, but he had never experienced a celebration that felt so genuine and fulfilling. As he reflected on the saints who had passed away in faith and reverence for God, they seemed to surround him more vividly than ever, and among them were the faces he had known and cherished the most in life.

It was toward morning when he left; as he bade her good-by he knew he should see her no more this side of Heaven.

It was early morning when he left; as he said goodbye to her, he realized he wouldn't see her again until the afterlife.

As he came out into the night the snow was falling, but the wind had died down and he no longer felt cold. The street was empty, but he no longer felt lonely. He seemed to have got nearer to God’s throne.

As he stepped out into the night, snow was falling, but the wind had calmed, and he didn't feel cold anymore. The street was empty, but he didn't feel lonely. It felt like he had gotten closer to God’s throne.

Suddenly, as he neared his house, a sound fell on his ears. He stopped short and listened. Could he have been mistaken? Could that have been a baby’s cry? There was no dwelling near but his own, and on that side only the old and unoccupied stable in the yard whence the sound had seemed to come. A glance at it showed that it was dark and he was moving on again to the house when the sound was repeated.[49] This time there was no doubt of it. A baby’s wail came clear on the silence of the night from the unused stable. A thought that it might be some poor foundling flashed into his mind. The old man turned and, stumbling across the yard, went to the door.

Suddenly, as he got closer to his house, he heard a sound. He stopped and listened. Could he have been wrong? Was that a baby's cry? There wasn't any other house nearby, just his own, and only the old, empty stable in the yard where the sound seemed to come from. A quick look at it showed that it was dark, and he was about to head into the house when the sound came again. This time, there was no doubt. A baby's wail broke the silence of the night from the unused stable. A thought flashed in his mind that it might be some poor abandoned child. The old man turned around and, stumbling across the yard, headed for the door.[49]

“Who is here?” he asked of the dark. There was no answer, but the child wailed again and he entered the dark building, asking again, “Who is here?” as he groped his way forward. This time a voice almost inarticulate answered. Holding his dim little lantern above his head, he made his way inside, peering into the darkness, and presently, in a stall, on a lot of old litter, he descried a dark and shapeless mass from which the sound came. Moving forward, he bent down, with the lantern held low, and the dark mass gradually took shape as a woman’s form seated on the straw. A patch of white, from which a pair of eyes gazed up at him, became a face and, below, a small bundle clasped to her breast took on the lines of a babe.

“Who’s here?” he called into the dark. There was no response, but the child cried out again, and he entered the dark building, asking once more, “Who’s here?” as he felt his way forward. This time, a voice replied, almost unintelligibly. Holding his dim little lantern above his head, he made his way inside, squinting into the darkness, and soon, in a stall, on a pile of old debris, he spotted a dark, shapeless figure from which the sound had come. Moving closer, he bent down, holding the lantern low, and the dark mass slowly took the form of a woman sitting on the straw. A patch of white, from which a pair of eyes looked up at him, became a face, and below, a small bundle held to her chest took on the outline of a baby.

“What are you doing here?” he asked, breathless with astonishment. She shook her head wearily and her lips moved as if to say, “I didn’t mean any harm.” But no sound came. She only tried to fold the babe more warmly in her shawl. He took off his overcoat and wrapped it around her. “Come,” he said firmly. “You must come with me,” he added kindly; then, as she did not rise, he put out his hand to lift her, but, instead, suddenly set down the lantern and took the babe gently into his arms. She let him take the child, and rose slowly, her eyes still on him.[50] He motioned for her to take the lantern and she did so. And they came to the door. He turned up the walk, the babe in his arms, and she going before him with the lantern. The ground was softly carpeted with snow, the wind had died down, but the clouds had disappeared and the trees were all white, softly gleaming, like dream-trees in a dream-land. The old man shivered slightly, but not now with cold. He felt as if he had gone back and held once more in his arms one of those babes he had given back to God. He thought of the shepherds who watched by night on the Judean hills. “It must have been such a night as this,” he thought.

“What are you doing here?” he asked, out of breath with surprise. She shook her head wearily, her lips moving as if to say, “I didn’t mean any harm.” But no sound came out. She only tried to wrap the baby more snugly in her shawl. He took off his overcoat and wrapped it around her. “Come,” he said firmly. “You need to come with me,” he added kindly; then, when she didn’t stand up, he reached out to lift her, but instead, he suddenly set down the lantern and gently picked up the baby. She let him take the child and slowly stood, her eyes still on him.[50] He gestured for her to take the lantern, and she did. They made their way to the door. He walked up the path, the baby in his arms, with her going ahead of him holding the lantern. The ground was softly covered with snow, the wind had calmed, and although the clouds had cleared, the trees glowed white, like dream-trees in a dream land. The old man shivered a little, but not from the cold. He felt as if he had gone back and held once more one of those babies he had returned to God. He thought of the shepherds who watched by night on the Judean hills. “It must have been a night like this,” he thought.

As they reached his door he saw that some one had been there in his absence. A large box stood on the little porch and beside it a basket filled with things. So he had not been forgotten after all. The milkman also had called and for his customary small bottle of milk had left one of double the usual size. When he let himself in at the door, he took the milk with him. So the shepherds might have done, he thought.

As they arrived at his door, he noticed that someone had been there while he was away. A big box sat on the small porch, and next to it was a basket filled with items. So he hadn’t been forgotten after all. The milkman had also stopped by, leaving a bottle of milk that was twice the usual size instead of his regular small one. When he walked in through the door, he brought the milk with him. He thought that’s something the shepherds might have done.

It was long before he could get the fire to burn; but in time this was accomplished; the room grew warm and the milk was warmed also. The baby was quieted and was soon asleep in its mother’s lap. And as the firelight fell from the open stove on the child, in its mother’s arms before the stove, the old man thought of a little picture he had once seen in a shop window. He had wanted to buy it, but he had never felt that he could gratify such a taste. There were too many calls on him. Then, as she appeared[51] overcome with fatigue, the old man put her with the child in the only bed in the house that was ready for an occupant and, returning to the little living-room, ensconced himself in his arm-chair by the stove. He had meant to finish his sermon, but he was conscious for the first time that he was very tired. But he was also very happy. When he awoke he found that it was quite late. He had overslept and though his breakfast had been set out for him, he had time only to make his toilet and to go to church. The mother and child were still asleep in his room, the babe folded in her arm, and he stopped only to gaze on them a moment and to set the rest of the milk and his breakfast where the young mother could find it on awaking. Then he went to church, taking his half-finished sermon in his worn case. He thought with some dismay that it was unfinished, but the memory of the poor woman and the midnight communion, and of the young mother and her babe, comforted him; so he plodded on bravely. When he reached the church it was nearly full. He had not had such a congregation in a long time. And they were all cheerful and happy. The pang he had had as he remembered that he was to announce his resignation that day was renewed, but only for a second. The thought of the babe and its mother, warmed and fed in his little home, drove it away. And soon he began the service. He had never had such a service. It all appeared to him to have a new meaning. He felt nearer to the people in the pews than he ever remembered to have felt. They were more than ever his[52] flock and he more than ever their shepherd. More, he felt nearer to mankind, and yet more near to those who had gone before—the innumerable company of the redeemed. They were all about him, clad all in white, glistering like the sun. The heavens seemed full of them. When he turned his eyes to the window, the whole earth seemed white with them. The singing sounded in his ears like the choiring of angels. He was now in a maze. He forgot the notice he had meant to give and went straight into his sermon, stumbling a little as he climbed the steps to the pulpit. He repeated the text and kept straight on. He told the story of the shepherds in the fields watching their flocks when the Angel of the Lord came upon them, and told of the Babe in the manger who was Christ the Lord. He spoke for the shepherds. He pictured the shepherds watching through the night and made a plea for their loneliness and the hardship of their lives. They were very poor and ignorant. But they had to watch the flock and God had chosen them to be His messengers. The wise men would come later, but now it was the shepherds who first knew of the birth of Christ the Lord. He was not reading as was his wont. It was all out of his heart and the eyes of all seemed to be on him—of all in pews and of all that innumerable host about him.

It took him a long time to get the fire going, but eventually, he succeeded; the room became warm, and the milk was heated too. The baby settled down and soon fell asleep in its mother’s lap. As the firelight flickered from the open stove onto the child in her arms, the old man remembered a small picture he had once seen in a shop window. He had wanted to buy it but never felt he could splurge on such a desire. There were too many demands on his time and money. Then, as she appeared, exhausted, the old man tucked her and the child into the only ready bed in the house and returned to the little living room, settling into his armchair by the stove. He had planned to finish his sermon, but for the first time, he realized he was very tired. However, he also felt very happy. When he awoke, he saw that it was quite late. He had overslept, and although his breakfast had been laid out, he had just enough time to get ready and head to church. The mother and child were still asleep in his room, the baby nestled in her arms, and he paused only to look at them for a moment and to place the rest of the milk and his breakfast where the young mother could easily find them upon waking. Then he went to church, bringing his unfinished sermon in his worn case. He felt a bit worried that it was incomplete, but the thought of the mother and baby, warm and fed in his home, eased his mind, so he forged ahead. When he arrived at the church, it was almost full. He hadn’t seen such a crowd in ages, and everyone seemed cheerful and happy. The anxiety he felt about announcing his resignation that day returned momentarily, but just as quickly faded away. Thoughts of the baby and its mother, safe and cared for in his little house, pushed those worries aside. Soon, he began the service. It felt different than any service he had ever led before. Everything seemed to hold new meaning. He felt closer to the people in the pews than he could ever remember. They felt more like his flock, and he felt more like their shepherd than ever. More profoundly, he felt a connection to humanity and to the countless souls who had come before—an endless host of the redeemed. They surrounded him, clad in white, shining like the sun. The heavens seemed filled with them. When he looked out the window, the earth appeared to be covered in their glow. The singing echoed in his ears like angelic choirs. He was now in a daze. He forgot the announcement he had intended to make and went straight into his sermon, stumbling slightly as he climbed the steps to the pulpit. He restated the text and continued on. He recounted the story of the shepherds in the fields watching their flocks when the Angel of the Lord appeared to them, announcing the birth of the Babe in the manger, who was Christ the Lord. He spoke on behalf of the shepherds, painting a picture of them keeping watch all night, while advocating for their loneliness and the challenges of their lives. They were very poor and uneducated, yet they were tasked with watching the flock, and God had chosen them to be His messengers. The wise men would come later, but at that moment, it was the shepherds who first learned of the birth of Christ the Lord. He wasn’t reading as he normally did; it was all coming from his heart, and everyone’s eyes were on him—those in the pews and the countless souls surrounding him.

He was not altogether coherent, for he at times appeared to confuse himself with the shepherds. He spoke as if the message had come to him, and after a while he talked of some experiences he had had in finding a child in a stable. He spoke as though he had[53] really seen it. “And now,” he said, “this old shepherd must leave his flock; the message has come for him.”

He wasn't completely coherent, as he sometimes seemed to mix himself up with the shepherds. He talked as if the message had been delivered to him, and after a while, he shared some experiences he had had while finding a child in a stable. He spoke as though he had[53] actually seen it. "And now," he said, "this old shepherd has to leave his flock; the message has come for him."

He paused and looked down at his sermon and turned the leaves slowly, at first carefully and then almost aimlessly. A breath of wind blew in and a few leaves slid off the desk and fluttered down to the floor. “I have been in some fear lately,” he said, “but God has appeared to make the way plain. A friend has helped me, and I thank him.” He looked around and lost himself. “I seem to have to come to the end,” he said, smiling simply with a soft, childish expression stealing over and lighting up his wan face. “I had something more I wanted to say, but I can’t find it and—I can’t remember. I seem too tired to remember it. I am a very old man and you must bear with me, please, while I try.” He quietly turned and walked down the steps, holding on to the railing. As he stooped to pick up a loose sheet from the floor he sank to his knees, but he picked it up. “Here it is,” he said with a tone of relief. “I remember now. It is that there were shepherds abiding in the fields, keeping watch over their flocks by night, and the light came upon them and the glory of the Lord shone round them and they were sore afraid, and the Angel said unto them:

He paused and looked down at his sermon, flipping through the pages slowly, first with care and then almost absentmindedly. A gust of wind came in, causing a few leaves to slide off the desk and flutter to the floor. “I’ve been a bit worried lately,” he said, “but God has made the way clear. A friend has helped me, and I’m grateful to him.” He looked around and seemed to lose track of himself. “I feel like I’ve reached the end,” he said, smiling softly, with a gentle, childlike expression lighting up his weary face. “I had more to say, but I can’t seem to recall it—and—I just can’t remember. I feel too tired to remember it. I’m quite old, and I hope you’ll be patient with me while I try.” He quietly turned and walked down the steps, holding onto the railing. When he bent down to pick up a loose sheet from the floor, he sank to his knees but managed to grab it. “Here it is,” he said, sounding relieved. “I remember now. It's about the shepherds who were in the fields, watching over their flocks at night, and the light came upon them and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were very afraid, and the Angel said to them:

“‘Fear not, for behold, I bring unto you good tidings of great joy which shall be unto all people; for unto you is born this day in the City of David a Saviour which is Christ the Lord.’”

“‘Don’t be afraid, because I’m bringing you good news that will bring great joy to everyone; today in the City of David, a Savior has been born to you, who is Christ the Lord.’”

They reached him as he sank down and, lifting him, placed him on a cushion taken from a pew. He[54] was babbling softly of a babe in a stable and of the glory of the Lord that shone round about them. “Don’t you hear them singing?” he said. “You must sing too; we must all join them.” At the suggestion of some one, a woman’s clear voice struck up,

They found him as he was sitting down and, picking him up, set him on a cushion taken from a pew. He[54] was softly talking about a baby in a stable and the glory of the Lord shining all around them. “Can’t you hear them singing?” he said. “You should sing too; we should all join in.” Following someone’s suggestion, a woman’s clear voice began to sing,

While shepherds watched their flocks by night,” and they sang it through as well as they could for sobbing. But before the hymn was ended the old shepherd had joined the heavenly choir and gone away up into Heaven.

While shepherds watched their flocks by night,” and they sang it through as well as they could, choking back tears. But before the hymn was over, the old shepherd had joined the heavenly choir and ascended into Heaven.

As they laid him in the chamber on the hill opening to the sunrise, the look in his face showed that the name of that chamber was Peace.

As they placed him in the room on the hill facing the sunrise, the expression on his face indicated that the name of that room was Peace.


They talk of him still in his old parish, of the good he did, and of his peaceful death on the day that of all the year signified birth and life. Nothing was even known of the mother and babe. Only there was a rumor that one had been seen leaving the house during the morning and passing out into the white-clad country. And at the little inn in the town there was vague wonder what had become of the woman and her baby who applied for shelter there that night before and was told that there was no place for her there, and that she had better go to the old preacher, as he took in all the tramps.

They still talk about him in his old parish, how he helped others and how he passed away peacefully on a day that symbolizes birth and life. Nobody really knew much about the mother and baby. There was just a rumor that someone had been seen leaving the house that morning and heading out into the snowy countryside. And at the little inn in town, people wondered vaguely about what happened to the woman and her baby who had asked for shelter there the night before but were told that there was no room for her and that she should visit the old preacher, since he took in all the drifters.

FOOTNOTES:

[3] From “The Land of the Spirit”; copyright, 1913, by Charles Scribner’s Sons. By permission of the publishers.

[3] From “The Land of the Spirit”; copyright, 1913, by Charles Scribner’s Sons. By permission of the publishers.


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CHRISTMAS AT THE TRIMBLES’[4]

Ruth McEnery Stuart

Ruth McEnery Stuart


Part I

Time: Daylight, the day before Christmas.
Place: Rowton’s store, Simpkinsville.

Time: Daylight, the day before Christmas.
Location: Rowton’s store, Simpkinsville.


First Monologue, by Mr. Trimble:

First Monologue, by Mr. Trimble:

“Who-a-a, there, ck, ck, ck! Back, now, Jinny! Hello, Rowton! Here we come, Jinny an’ me—six miles in the slush up to the hub, an’ Jinny with a unweaned colt at home. Whoa-a-a, there!

“Whoa there, ck, ck, ck! Back now, Jinny! Hey, Rowton! Here we come, Jinny and I—six miles in the slush up to the hub, and Jinny has a colt at home that isn’t weaned. Whoa there!

“It’s good Christmus don’t come but once’t a year—ain’t it, Jinny?

“It’s a good thing Christmas only comes once a year—right, Jinny?

“Well, Rowton, you’re what I call a pro-gressive business man, that’s what you are. Blest ef he ain’t hired a whole row o’ little niggers to stand out in front of ’is sto’e an’ hold horses—while he takes his customers inside to fleece ’em.

“Well, Rowton, you’re what I call a progressive businessman, that’s what you are. Honestly, he’s hired a whole row of little kids to stand out in front of his store and hold horses—while he takes his customers inside to rip them off.

“Come here, Pop-Eyes, you third feller, an’ ketch aholt o’ Jinny’s bridle. I always did like pop-eyed niggers. They look so God-forsaken an’ ugly. A feller thet’s afflicted with yo’ style o’ beauty ought to have[56] favors showed him, an’ that’s why I intend for you to make the first extry to-day. The boy thet holds my horse of a Christmus Eve always earns a dollar. Don’t try to open yo’ eyes no wider—I mean what I say. How did Rowton manage to git you fellers up so early, I wonder. Give out thet he’d hire the first ten that come, did he? An’ gives each feller his dinner an’ a hat.

“Come here, Pop-Eyes, you third guy, and grab hold of Jinny’s bridle. I’ve always thought pop-eyed folks are pretty interesting. They look so lost and rough around the edges. A guy like you, with your unique looks, should definitely get some attention, and that’s why I want you to make the first move today. The kid who takes care of my horse on Christmas Eve always earns a dollar. Don’t even try to widen your eyes more—I mean what I say. How did Rowton manage to get you guys up so early, I wonder? Did he say he’d hire the first ten that showed up? And he’s giving each guy a meal and a hat.”

“I was half afeered you wouldn’t be open yet, Rowton—but I was determined to git ahead o’ the Christmus crowd, an’ I started by starlight. I ca’culate to meet ’em all a-goin’ back.

“I was half afraid you wouldn’t be open yet, Rowton—but I was determined to get ahead of the Christmas crowd, and I started by starlight. I plan to meet them all on the way back."

“Well, I vow, ef yo’ sto’e don’t look purty. Wish she could see it. She’d have some idee of New York. But, of co’se, I couldn’t fetch her to-day, an’ me a-comin’ specially to pick out her Christmus gif’. She’s jest like a child. Ef she s’picions befo’ hand what she’s a-goin’ to git, why, she don’t want it.

“Well, I swear, your store looks great. I wish she could see it. She’d get a sense of New York. But, of course, I couldn’t bring her today, and I came specifically to pick out her Christmas gift. She’s just like a child. If she suspects ahead of time what she’s going to get, then she doesn’t want it.”

“I notice when I set on these soap-boxes, my pockets is jest about even with yo’ cash-drawer, Rowton. Well, that’s what we’re here for. Fetch out all yo’ purties, now, an’ lay ’em along on the counter. You know her, an’ she ain’t to be fooled in quality. Reckon I will walk around a little an’ see what you’ve got. I ain’t got a idee on earth what to buy, from a broach to a barouche. Let’s look over some o’ yo’ silver things, Rowton. Josh Porter showed me a butter-dish you sold him with a silver cow on the led of it, an’ I was a-wonderin’ ef, maybe, you didn’t have another.

“I notice when I stand on these soapboxes, my pockets are just about level with your cash drawer, Rowton. Well, that’s why we’re here. Get out all your nice things now and lay them on the counter. You know her, and she can’t be tricked when it comes to quality. I think I will walk around a bit and see what you’ve got. I have no idea what to buy, from a brooch to a carriage. Let’s check out some of your silver items, Rowton. Josh Porter showed me a butter dish you sold him with a silver cow on the lid, and I was wondering if, maybe, you had another one.

“That’s it. That’s a mighty fine idee, a statue like[57] that is. It sort o’ designates a thing. D’rec’ly a person saw the cow, now, he’d s’picion the butter inside the dish. Of co’se, he’d know they wouldn’t hardly be hay in it—no, ez you say, ‘nor a calf.’ No doubt wife’ll be a-wantin’ one o’ these cow-topped ones quick ez she sees Josh’s wife’s. She’ll see the p’int in a minute—of the cow, I mean. But, of co’se, I wouldn’t think o’ gittin’ her the same thing Josh’s got for Helen, noways. We’re too near neighbors for that. Th’ ain’t no fun in borryin’ duplicates over a stile when company drops in sudden, without a minute’s warnin’.

"That’s it. That’s a great idea, a statue like [57] that is. It sort of represents something. If someone saw the cow, they’d guess there’s butter in the dish. Of course, they’d know there wouldn’t be any hay in it—no, as you say, ‘nor a calf.’ No doubt my wife will want one of these cow-topped ones as soon as she sees Josh’s wife’s. She’ll get the point in a minute—the cow, I mean. But of course, I wouldn’t think of getting her the same thing Josh got for Helen, not at all. We’re too close for that. There’s no fun in borrowing duplicates over a stile when company drops in unexpectedly, without a moment’s warning."

“No, you needn’t call my attention to that tiltin’ ice-pitcher. I seen it soon ez I approached the case. Didn’t you take notice to me a-liftin’ my hat? That was what I was a-bowin’ to, that pitcher was. No, that’s the thing wife hankers after, an’ I know it, an’ it’s the one thing I’ll never buy her. Not thet I’d begrudge it to her—but to tell the truth it’d pleg me to have to live with the thing. I wouldn’t mind it on Sundays or when they was company in the house, but I like to take off my coat, hot days, an’ set around in my shirt-sleeves, an’ I doubt ef I’d have the cheek to do it in the face of sech a thing as that.

“No, you don’t need to point out that wobbly ice pitcher to me. I noticed it as soon as I got close to the display. Didn’t you see me lift my hat? That’s what I was bowing to—the pitcher. No, that’s what my wife really wants, and I know it, but it’s the one thing I’ll never buy for her. Not that I’d resent her having it, but honestly, it would bother me to have to live with it. I wouldn’t mind it on Sundays or when we have guests over, but I like to take off my coat on hot days and lounge around in my shirt sleeves, and I doubt I’d have the nerve to do that in front of something like that.”

“Fact is, when I come into a room where one of ’em is, I sort o’ look for it to tilt over of its own accord an’ bow to me an’ ask me to ‘be seated.’

“Honestly, when I walk into a room where one of them is, I kind of expect it to tip over on its own and bow to me and say ‘please, have a seat.’”

“You needn’t to laugh. Of co’se, they’s a reason for it—but it’s so. I’m jest that big of a ninny. Ricollec’ Jedge Robinson, he used to have one of ’em—jest about the size o’ this one—two goblets an’ a[58] bowl—an’ when I’d go up to the house on a errand for pa, time pa was distric’ coroner, the jedge’s mother-in-law, ol’ Mis’ Meredy, she’d be settin’ in the back room a-sewin’; an’ when the black gal would let me in the front door she’d sort o’ whisper: ‘Invite him to walk into the parlor and be seated.’ I’d overhear her say it, an’ I’d turn into the parlor, an’ first thing I’d see’d be that ice-pitcher. I don’t think anybody can set down good, noways, when they’re ast to ‘be seated,’ an’ when, in addition to that, I’d meet the swingin’ ice-pitcher half way to the patent rocker, I didn’t have no mo’ consciousness where I was a-settin’ than nothin’. An’ like ez not the rocker’d squawk first strain I put on it. She wasn’t no mo’n a sort o’ swingin’ ice-pitcher herself, ol’ Mis’ Meredy wasn’t—walkin’ round the house weekdays dressed in black silk, with a lace cap on her head, an’ half insultin’ his company thet he’d knowed all his life. I did threaten once-t to tell her, ‘No, thank you, ma’am, I don’t keer to be seated—but I’ll set down ef it’s agreeable,’ but when the time would come I’d turn round an’ there’d be the ice-pitcher. An’ after that I couldn’t be expected to do nothin’ but back into the parlor over the Brussels carpet an’ chaw my hat-brim. But, of co’se, I was young then.

"You don't need to laugh. Of course, there's a reason for it—but it’s true. I'm just that big of a fool. Remember Judge Robinson? He used to have one of those—just about the size of this one—two goblets and a [58] bowl—and when I’d go to the house on an errand for Dad, when Dad was the district coroner, Judge’s mother-in-law, old Miss Meredy, would be sitting in the back room sewing; and when the black girl would let me in the front door, she’d sort of whisper: ‘Invite him to walk into the parlor and be seated.’ I’d overhear her say it, and I’d turn into the parlor, and the first thing I’d see was that ice pitcher. I don’t think anyone can really sit down properly when they're asked to ‘be seated,’ and when, on top of that, I’d meet the swinging ice pitcher halfway to the rocking chair, I didn’t have any awareness of where I was sitting at all. And more often than not, the rocker would squeak the first time I sat on it. Old Miss Meredy wasn't much different than that swinging ice pitcher—walking around the house on weekdays dressed in black silk, with a lace cap on her head, and half-insulting the guests that he’d known all his life. I did threaten once to tell her, ‘No, thank you, ma’am, I don’t care to be seated—but I’ll sit down if it’s alright,’ but when the moment came, I’d turn around and there would be the ice pitcher. After that, I couldn’t be expected to do anything but back into the parlor over the Brussels carpet and chew on my hat brim. But, of course, I was young back then."

“Reckon you’ve heerd the tale they tell on Aleck Turnbull the day he went there in the old lady’s time. She had him ast into the cushioned sanctuary—an’ Aleck hadn’t seen much them days—an’ what did he do but gawk around an’ plump hisself down into that gilt-backed rocker with a tune-playin’ seat[59] in it, an’, of co’se, quick ez his weight struck it, it started up a jig tune, an’ they say Aleck shot out o’ that door like ez ef he’d been fired out of a cannon. An’ he never did go back to say what he come after. I doubt ef he ever knew.

"Bet you've heard the story about Aleck Turnbull the day he showed up there in the old lady's time. She had him brought into the cushioned sanctuary— and Aleck hadn’t seen much back then— and what did he do but stare around and plop himself down in that gold-backed rocker with a tune-playing seat in it, and, of course, as soon as his weight hit it, it started up a jig tune, and they say Aleck shot out of that door like he’d been fired from a cannon. And he never went back to say what he came for. I doubt he ever even knew."

“How much did you say for the ice-pitcher, Rowton? Thirty dollars—an’ you’ll let me have it for—hush, now, don’t say that. I don’t see how you could stand so close to it an’ offer to split dollars. Of co’se I ain’t a-buyin’ it, but ef I was I wouldn’t want no reduction on it, I’d feel like ez ef it would always know it an’ have a sort of contemp’ for me. They’s suitableness in all things. Besides, I never want no reduction on anything I buy for her, someways. You can charge me reg’lar prices an’ make it up on the Christmus gif’ she buys for me—that is, ef she buys it from you. Of co’se it’ll be charged. That’s a mighty purty coral broach, that grape-bunch one, but she’s so pink-complected, I don’t know ez she’d become it. I like this fish-scale set, myself, but she might be prejerdyced ag’in’ the idee of it. You say she admired that hand-merror, an’ this pair o’ side-combs—an’ she ’lowed she’d git ’em fur my Christmus gif’ ef she dared? But, of co’se, she was jokin’ about that. Poor little thing, she ain’t never got over the way folks run her about that side-saddle she give me last Christmus, though I never did see anything out o’ the way in it. She knew thet the greatest pleasure o’ my life was in makin’ her happy, and she was jest simple-hearted enough to do it—that’s all—an’ I can truly say thet I ain’t never had mo’ pleasure out[60] of a Christmus gif’ in my life than I’ve had out o’ that side-saddle. She’s been so consistent about it—never used it in her life without a-borryin’ it of me, an’ she does it so cunnin’. Of co’se I don’t never loand it to her without a kiss. They ain’t a cunnin’er play-actor on earth ’n she is, though she ain’t never been to a theatre—an’ wouldn’t go, bein’ too well raised.

“How much did you say for the ice pitcher, Rowton? Thirty dollars—an’ you’ll let me have it for—hush, now, don’t say that. I don’t see how you could stand so close to it an’ offer to split the price. Of course I’m not buying it, but if I were, I wouldn’t want any discount on it; I’d feel like it would always know and have a sort of contempt for me. There’s a fit for everything. Besides, I never want any discount on anything I buy for her, in some ways. You can charge me regular prices and make it up on the Christmas gift she gets for me—that is, if she buys it from you. Of course it’ll be charged. That’s a really pretty coral brooch, that grape bunch one, but she’s so fair-skinned, I don’t know if it would suit her. I like this fish-scale set, myself, but she might be prejudiced against the idea of it. You say she admired that hand mirror, and this pair of side combs—and she said she’d get them for my Christmas gift if she dared? But of course, she was joking about that. Poor thing, she hasn’t ever gotten over how people teased her about that sidesaddle she gave me last Christmas, even though I never thought it was anything out of the ordinary. She knew that the greatest pleasure of my life was making her happy, and she was just sweet enough to do it—that’s all—and I can truly say I’ve never had more joy from a Christmas gift in my life than I’ve had from that sidesaddle. She’s been so consistent about it—never used it in her life without borrowing it from me, and she does it so adorably. Of course, I never lend it to her without a kiss. There isn’t a more charming actress on earth than she is, though she’s never been to a theater—and wouldn’t go, being too well raised.

“You say this pitcher wasn’t there when she was here—no, for ef it had ’a’ been, I know she’d ’a’ took on over it. Th’ ain’t never been one for sale in Simpkinsville before. They’ve been several of ’em brought here by families besides the one old Mis’ Meredy presided over—though that was one o’ the first. But wife is forever a-pickin’ out purty patterns of ’em in catalogues. Ef that one hadn’t ’a’ give me such a setback in my early youth I’d git her this, jest to please her. Ef I was to buy this one, it an’ the plush album would set each other off lovely. She’s a-buyin’ it on instalments from the same man thet enlarged her photograph to a’ ile-painted po’trait, an’ it’s a dandy! She’s got me a-settin’ up on the front page, took with my first wife, which it looks to me thet if she’d do that much to please me, why, I might buy almost anything to please her, don’t it? Of co’se I don’t take no partic’lar pleasure in that photograph—but she seems to think I might, an’ no doubt she’s put it there to show thet she ain’t small-minded. You ricollec’ Mary Jane was plain-featured, but Kitty don’t seem to mind that ez much ez I do, now thet she’s gone an’ her good deeds ain’t in sight.[61] I never did see no use in throwin’ a plain-featured woman’s looks up to her post mortem.

“You say this pitcher wasn’t there when she was here—no, if it had been, I know she would have reacted to it. There’s never been one for sale in Simpkinsville before. A few have been brought here by families, aside from the one that old Mrs. Meredy had—though that was one of the first. But my wife is always picking out pretty designs in catalogs. If that one hadn’t given me such a setback in my youth, I’d get her this just to please her. If I were to buy this one, it and the plush album would look great together. She’s buying it in installments from the same guy who enlarged her photograph into an oil-painted portrait, and it’s fantastic! She has me featured on the front page, taken with my first wife, which makes me think that if she’s willing to do that much for me, then I might buy almost anything to please her, right? Of course, I don’t take any particular pleasure in that photograph—but she seems to think I might, and no doubt she’s put it there to show that she’s not narrow-minded. You remember Mary Jane was plain-looking, but Kitty doesn’t seem to mind that as much as I do now that she’s gone and her good deeds aren’t around anymore.[61] I never did see any reason to bring up a plain-looking woman’s appearance after she’s gone.”

“This is a mighty purty pitcher, in my judgment, but to tell the truth I’ve made so much fun o’ the few swingin’ pitchers thet’s been in this town that I’d be ashamed to buy it, even ef I could git over my own obnoxion to it. But of co’se, ez you say, everybody’d know thet I done it jest to please her—an’ I don’t know thet they’s a more worthy object in a married man’s life than that.

“This is a really nice picture, in my opinion, but honestly, I've made so much fun of the few fancy pictures that have been in this town that I’d be embarrassed to buy it, even if I could get past my own dislike for it. But of course, as you said, everyone would know that I did it just to please her—and I can’t think of a more worthy goal for a married man than that."

“I s’pose I’ll haf to git it for her. An’ I want a bold, outspoke dedication on it, Rowton. I ain’t a-goin’ about it shamefaced. Here, gimme that pencil. Now, I want this inscription on it, word for word. I’ve got to stop over at Paul’s to git him to regulate my watch, an’ I’ll tell him to hurry an’ mark it for me, soon ez you send it over.

“I guess I’ll have to get it for her. And I want a bold, straightforward dedication on it, Rowton. I’m not going to be embarrassed about it. Here, give me that pencil. Now, I want this inscription on it, exactly as I say. I need to stop by Paul’s to get him to fix my watch, and I’ll ask him to hurry and mark it for me as soon as you send it over.

“Well, so long. Happy Christmus to you an’ yo’ folks.

“Well, goodbye. Merry Christmas to you and your family.”

“Say, Rowton, wrap up that little merror an’ them side-combs an’ send ’em along, too, please. So long!”

“Hey, Rowton, pack up that little mirror and those side combs and send them over, too, please. Bye!”

Part 2

Time: Same morning.
Place: Store in Washington.

Time: Same morning.
Location: Store in Washington.


Second Monologue, by Mrs. Trimble:

Second Monologue, by Mrs. Trimble:

“Why, howdy, Mis’ Blakes—howdy, Mis’ Phemie—howdy, all. Good-mornin’, Mr. Lawson. I see yo’[62] sto’e is fillin’ up early. Great minds run in the same channel, partic’larly on Christmus Eve.

“Hey there, Ms. Blakes—hi, Ms. Phemie—hi, everyone. Good morning, Mr. Lawson. I notice your[62] store is getting busy early. Great minds think alike, especially on Christmas Eve.

“My old man started off this mornin’ befo’ day, an’ soon ez he got out o’sight down the Simpkinsville road, I struck out for Washin’ton, an’ here I am. He thinks I’m home seedin’ raisins. He was out by starlight this mornin’ with the big wagon, an’, of co’se, I know what that means. He’s gone for my Christmus gif’, an’ I’m put to it to know what tremenjus thing he’s a-layin’ out to fetch me—thet takes a cotton-wagon to haul it. Of co’se I imagine everything, from a guyaskutus down. I always did like to git things too big to go in my stockin’. What you say, Mis’ Blakes? Do I hang up my stockin’? Well, I reckon. I hadn’t quit when I got married, an’ I think that’s a poor time to stop, don’t you? Partic’larly when you marry a man twice-t yo’ age, an’ can’t convince him thet you’re grown, noways. Yes, indeedy, that stockin’ goes up to-night—not mine, neither, but one I borry from Aunt Jane Peters. I don’t wonder y’all laugh. Aunt Jane’s foot is a yard long ef it’s a’ inch, but I’ll find it stuffed to-morrer mornin’, even ef the guyaskutus has to be chained to the mantel. An’ it’ll take me a good hour to empty it, for he always puts a lot o’ devilment in it, an’ I give him a beatin’ over the head every nonsensical thing I find in it. We have a heap o’ fun over it, though.

“My dad left this morning before dawn, and as soon as he was out of sight down the Simpkinsville road, I headed off to Washington, and here I am. He thinks I’m home sorting raisins. He was out before sunrise this morning with the big wagon, and of course, I know what that means. He’s gone to get my Christmas gift, and I’m really curious about what huge thing he’s planning to bring back—the kind that needs a cotton wagon to haul it. Naturally, I’m imagining everything, from a grand gift down to something small. I’ve always liked to receive things that are too big to fit in my stocking. What do you think, Mrs. Blakes? Do I hang up my stocking? Well, I guess so. I hadn’t stopped doing it when I got married, and I think that’s a bad time to quit, don’t you? Especially when you marry a man twice your age and can’t convince him that you’re grown up at all. Yes, indeed, that stocking is going up tonight—not mine, though, but one I’m borrowing from Aunt Jane Peters. I don’t blame you for laughing. Aunt Jane’s foot is a yard long if it’s an inch, but I’ll find it stuffed by tomorrow morning, even if the grand gift has to be chained to the mantel. And it’ll take me a good hour to empty it because he always puts a lot of fun stuff in there, and I give him a little smack on the head for every silly thing I find in it. We have a lot of fun with it, though.

“He don’t seem to know I’m grown, an’ I know I don’t know he’s old.

“He doesn’t seem to realize I’m grown, and I know I don’t realize he’s old.”

“Listen to me runnin’ on, an’ you all nearly done[63] yo’ shoppin’. Which do you think would be the nicest to give him, Mr. Lawson—this silver card-basket, or that Cupid vase, or——?

“Listen to me rambling on while you’re almost finished with your shopping. Which do you think would be the best gift for him, Mr. Lawson—this silver card-basket, or that Cupid vase, or——?

“Y’all needn’t to wink. I seen you, Mis’ Blakes. Ef I was to pick out a half dozen socks for him like them you’re a-buyin’ for Mr. Blakes, how much fun do you suppose we’d have out of it? Not much. I’d jest ez lief ’twasn’t Christmus—an’ so would he—though they do say his first wife give him a bolt o’ domestic once-t for Christmus, an’ made it up into nightshirts an’ things for him du’in the year. Think of it. No, I’m a-goin’ to git him somethin’ thet’s got some git-up to it, an’—an’ it’ll be either—that Cupid vase—or—lordy, Mr. Lawson, don’t fetch out that swingin’ ice-pitcher. I glimpsed it quick ez I come in the door, an’, says I, ‘Get thee behind me, Satan,’ an’ turned my back on it immejiate.

“You guys don’t need to wink. I saw you, Mrs. Blakes. If I were to choose half a dozen socks for him like the ones you’re buying for Mr. Blakes, how much fun do you think we’d have? Not much. I’d just as soon it wasn’t Christmas—and so would he—even though they say his first wife gave him a bunch of domestic stuff for Christmas, and turned it into nightshirts and things for him during the year. Think about it. No, I’m going to get him something that has some style to it, and—it’ll either be that Cupid vase—or—oh my, Mr. Lawson, don’t bring out that swinging ice pitcher. I caught a glimpse of it as soon as I walked in the door, and I thought, ‘Get behind me, Satan,’ and turned my back on it immediately.”

“But of co’se I ca-culated to git you to fetch it out jest for me to look at, after I’d selected his present. Ain’t it a beauty? Seems to me they couldn’t be a more suitable present for a man—ef he didn’t hate ’em so. No, Mis’ Blakes, it ain’t only thet he don’t never drink ice-water. I wouldn’t mind a little thing like that.

“But of course I planned to get you to fetch it out just for me to look at, after I’d picked his present. Isn’t it beautiful? I think it couldn’t be a more fitting gift for a man—if he didn’t hate them so much. No, Mrs. Blakes, it’s not just that he never drinks ice water. I wouldn’t care about something like that.”

“You ricollec’ ol’ Mis’ Meredy, she used to preside over one thet they had, an’ somehow he taken a distaste to her an’ to ice-pitchers along with her, an’ he don’t never lose a chance to express his disgust. When them new folks was in town last year projec’in’ about the railroad, he says to me, ‘I hope they won’t stay, they’d never suit Simpkinsville on earth.[64] They’re the regular swingin’ ice-pitcher sort. Git folks like that in town an’ it wouldn’t be no time befo’ they’d start a-chargin’ pew rent in our churches.’ We was both glad when they give out thet they wasn’t a-goin’ to build the road. They say railroads is mighty corruptin’, an’ me, with my sick headaches, an’ a’ ingine whistle in town, no indeed! Besides, ef it was to come I know I’d be the first one run over. It’s bad enough to have bulls in our fields without turnin’ steam-ingines loose on us. Jest one look at them cow-ketchers is enough to frustrate a person till he’d stand stock still an’ wait to be run over—jest like poor crazy Mary done down here to Cedar Springs.

“You remember old Miss Meredy? She used to run the one they had, and somehow he developed a dislike for her and the ice pitchers that went along with her, and he never misses a chance to show his disgust. When those new people were in town last year talking about the railroad, he said to me, ‘I hope they won’t stick around; they’d never fit in Simpkinsville at all. They’re the typical swinging ice-pitcher type. Get people like that in town, and it wouldn’t be long before they started charging pew rent in our churches.’ We were both relieved when they announced that they weren’t going to build the road. They say railroads are really corrupting, and with my migraines, I definitely don’t want a train whistle in town! Plus, if it did happen, I know I’d be the first one to get run over. It’s bad enough having bulls in our fields without unleashing steam engines on us. Just one look at those cattle catchers is enough to frustrate someone until they’d just stand there and wait to be run over—just like poor crazy Mary did down here in Cedar Springs.[64]

“They say crazy Mary looked that headlight full in the face, jes’ the same ez a bird looks at a snake, till the thing caught her, an’ when the long freight train had passed over her she didn’t have a single remain, not a one, though I always thought they might’ve gethered up enough to give her a funeral. When I die I intend to have a funeral, even if I’m drownded at sea. They can stand on the sho’e, an’ I’ll be jest ez likely to know it ez them thet lay in view lookin’ so ca’m. I’ve done give him my orders, though they ain’t much danger o’ me dyin’ at sea, not ef we stay in Simpkinsville.

“They say crazy Mary stared at that headlight just like a bird stares at a snake until it caught her, and when the long freight train passed over her, there was nothing left, not a single thing, even though I always thought they could have gathered enough to give her a funeral. When I die, I plan to have a funeral, even if I drown at sea. They can stand on the shore, and I’ll be just as likely to know it as those who lie in view looking so calm. I’ve already given him my instructions, even though there’s not much chance of me dying at sea, not if we stay in Simpkinsville.

“How much are them willer rockers, Mr. Lawson? I declare that one favors my old man ez it sets there, even without him in it. Nine dollars? That’s a good deal for a pants-tearin’ chair, seems to me, which them willers are, the last one of ’em, an’ I’m a mighty[65] poor hand to darn. Jest let me lay my stitches in colors, in the shape of a flower, an’ I can darn ez well ez the next one, but I do despise to fill up holes jest to be a-fillin’. Yes, ez you say, them silver-mounted brier-wood pipes is mighty purty, but he smokes so much ez it is, I don’t know ez I want to encourage him. Besides, it seems a waste o’ money to buy a Christmus gif’ thet a person has to lay aside when company comes in, an’ a silver-mounted pipe ain’t no politer to smoke in the presence o’ ladies than a corncob is. An’ ez for when we’re by ourselves—shucks.

"How much are those willow rockers, Mr. Lawson? I swear one looks just like my dad even when he's not sitting in it. Nine dollars? That seems like a good price for a chair that rips your pants, which those willows definitely do, every single one of them, and I'm not very good at mending. Just let me stitch in colors to make a flower shape, and I can darn just as well as anyone else, but I really hate filling up holes just for the sake of it. Yes, as you say, those silver-mounted briar-wood pipes are really pretty, but he smokes so much already, I’m not sure I want to encourage that. Besides, it feels like a waste of money to buy a Christmas gift that someone has to put away when guests come over, and a silver-mounted pipe isn’t any more polite to smoke around ladies than a corncob is. And as for when it’s just us—ugh."

“Ef you don’t mind, Mr. Lawson, I’ll stroll around through the sto’e an’ see what you’ve got while you wait on some o’ them thet know their own minds. I know mine well enough. What I want is that swingin’ ice-pitcher, an’ my judgment tells me thet they ain’t a more suitable present in yo’ sto’e for a settled man thet has built hisself a residence an’ furnished it complete the way he has, but of co’se ’twouldn’t never do. I always think how I’d enjoy it when the minister called. I wonder what Mr. Lawson thinks o’ me back here a-talkin’ to myself. I always like to talk about the things I’m buyin’. That’s a mighty fine saddle-blanket, indeed it is. He was talkin’ about a new saddle-blanket the other day. But that’s a thing a person could pick up almost any day, a saddle-blanket is. A’ ice-pitcher now——

“If you don’t mind, Mr. Lawson, I’ll walk around the store and see what you have while you take care of some of those who know what they want. I know what I want. What I want is that swinging ice pitcher, and my judgment tells me there's no better gift in your store for a settled man who has built a home and furnished it just the way he has. But of course it wouldn't really work. I always think about how much I’d enjoy it when the minister visits. I wonder what Mr. Lawson thinks about me back here talking to myself. I always like to chat about the things I'm buying. That’s a really nice saddle blanket, it truly is. He was mentioning a new saddle blanket the other day. But that’s something you can pick up almost any day, a saddle blanket is. An ice pitcher now——”

“Say, Mr. Lawson, lemme look at that tiltin’-pitcher again, please, sir. I jest want to see ef the spout is gold-lined. Yes, so it is—an’ little holes down in the throat of it, too. It cert’n’y is well made, it[66] cert’n’y is. I s’pose them holes is to strain out grasshoppers or anything thet might fall into it. That musician thet choked to death at the barbecue down at Pump Springs last summer might ’a’ been livin’ yet ef they’d had sech ez this to pass water in, instid o’ that open pail. He’s got a mighty keerless way o’ drinkin’ out open dippers, too. No tellin’ what he’ll scoop up some day. They’d be great safety for him in a pitcher like this—ef I could only make him see it. It would seem a sort o’ awkward thing to pack out to the well every single time, an’ he won’t drink no water but what he draws fresh. An’ I s’pose it would look sort o’ silly to put it in here jest to drink it out again.

“Hey, Mr. Lawson, could you let me take a look at that pitcher again, please? I just want to check if the spout is gold-lined. Yep, it is—and there are little holes down in the throat of it, too. It’s really well made, for sure. I guess those holes are to filter out grasshoppers or anything that might fall in. That musician who choked to death at the barbecue down at Pump Springs last summer might still be alive if they had something like this to drink from instead of that open bucket. He really has a careless way of drinking from open dippers, too. You never know what he might scoop up one day. A pitcher like this would be a great safety measure for him—if only I could make him see that. It might seem a bit awkward to haul it out to the well every single time, and he won’t drink any water but what he gets fresh. And I guess it would look kind of silly to put it in here just to drink it again.”

“Sir? Oh, yes, I saw them saddle-bags hangin’ up back there, an’ they are fine, mighty fine, ez you say, an’ his are purty near wo’e out, but lordy, I don’t want to buy a Christmus gif’ thet’s hung up in the harness room half the time. What’s that you say? Won’t you all never git done a-runnin’ me about that side-saddle? You can’t pleg me about that. I got it for his pleasure, ef it was for my use, an’, come to think about it, I’d be jest reversin’ the thing on the pitcher. It would be for his use an’ my pleasure. I wish I could see my way to buy it for him. Both goblets go with it, you say—an’ the slop bowl? It cert’n’y is handsome—it cert’n’y is. An’ it’s expensive—nobody could accuse me o’ stintin’ ’im. Wonder why they didn’t put some polar bears on the goblets, too. They’d ’a’ had to be purty small bears, but they could ’a’ been cubs, easy.

“Sir? Oh, yes, I saw those saddlebags hanging up back there, and they are nice, really nice, just as you said, and his are nearly worn out, but wow, I don’t want to buy a Christmas gift that's been hanging in the harness room half the time. What’s that you said? Are you all never going to stop bugging me about that side-saddle? You can’t pressure me about that. I got it for his enjoyment, even if it was for my use, and thinking about it now, I’d just be reversing the roles. It would be for his use and my enjoyment. I wish I could figure out a way to buy it for him. Both goblets come with it, you say—and the slop bowl? It really is beautiful—it really is. And it’s pricey—nobody could say I’m being stingy with him. I wonder why they didn’t put some polar bears on the goblets, too. They’d have to be pretty small bears, but they could have been cubs, easily.

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“I don’t reely believe, Mr. Lawson, indeed I don’t, thet I could find a mo’ suitable present for him ef I took a month, an’ I don’t keer what he’s a-pickin’ out for me this minute, it can’t be no handsomer’n this. Th’ ain’t no use—I’ll haf to have it—for ’im. Jest charge it, please, an’ now I want it marked. I’ll pay cash for the markin’, out of my egg money. An’ I want his full name. Have it stamped on the iceberg right beside the bear. ‘Ephraim N. Trimble.’ No, you needn’t to spell out the middle name. I should say not. Ef you knew what it was you wouldn’t ask me. Why, it’s Nebuchadnezzar. It’d use up the whole iceberg. Besides, I couldn’t never think o’ Nebuchadnezzar there an’ not a spear o’ grass on the whole lan’scape. You needn’t to laugh. I know it’s silly, but I always think o’ sech ez that. No, jest write it, ‘Ephraim N. Trimble, from his wife, Kitty.’ Be sure to put in the Kitty, so in after years it’ll show which wife give it to him. Of co’se, them thet knew us both would know which one. Mis’ Mary Jane wouldn’t never have approved of it in the world. Why, she used to rip up her old crocheted tidies an’ things an’ use ’em over in bastin’ thread, so they tell me. She little dremp’ who she was a-savin’ for, poor thing. She was buyin’ this pitcher then, but she didn’t know it. But I keep a-runnin’ on. Go on with the inscription, Mr. Lawson. What have you got? ‘From his wife, Kitty’—what’s the matter with ‘affectionate wife’? You say affectionate is a purty expensive word? But ‘lovin’’ ’ll do jest ez well, an’ it comes cheaper, you say? An’ plain ‘wife’ comes[68] cheapest of all? An’ I don’t know but what it’s mo’ suitable, anyhow—at his age. Of co’se, you must put in the date, an’ make the ‘Kitty’ nice an’ fancy, please. Lordy, well, the deed’s done—an’ I reckon he’ll threaten to divo’ce me when he sees it—till he reads the inscription. Better put in the ‘lovin’,’ I reckon, an’ put it in capitals—they don’t cost no more, do they? Well, good-bye, Mr. Lawson, I reckon you’ll be glad to see me go. I’ve outstayed every last one thet was here when I come. Well, good-bye! Have it marked immejiate, please, an’ I’ll call back in an hour. Good-bye, again!”

“I really don’t believe, Mr. Lawson, honestly I don’t, that I could find a more suitable gift for him if I took a month, and I don’t care what he’s picking out for me right now, it can't be any nicer than this. There’s no use—I’ll have to get it for him. Just charge it, please, and now I want it engraved. I’ll pay cash for the engraving out of my egg money. And I want his full name. Have it stamped on the iceberg right next to the bear, ‘Ephraim N. Trimble.’ No, you don’t need to spell out the middle name. I wouldn’t say so. If you knew what it was, you wouldn’t ask me. Well, it’s Nebuchadnezzar. It would take up the whole iceberg. Besides, I couldn’t think of Nebuchadnezzar and not see a blade of grass on the whole landscape. You don’t need to laugh. I know it’s silly, but I always think about things like that. No, just write it, ‘Ephraim N. Trimble, from his wife, Kitty.’ Be sure to include the Kitty, so in later years it’ll show which wife gave it to him. Of course, those who knew us both would know which one. Mrs. Mary Jane would never have approved of this at all. Why, she used to rip up her old crocheted tidies and things and reuse them as bastings, so they tell me. She had no idea who she was saving for, poor thing. She was buying this pitcher then, but she didn’t know it. But I keep rambling on. Go on with the inscription, Mr. Lawson. What do you have? ‘From his wife, Kitty’—what’s wrong with ‘affectionate wife’? You say affectionate is a pretty expensive word? But ‘loving’ works just as well, and it’s cheaper, you say? And plain ‘wife’ is the cheapest of all? And I guess it’s more suitable anyway—at his age. Of course, you must include the date, and make the ‘Kitty’ nice and fancy, please. Goodness, well, it’s done—and I suppose he’ll threaten to divorce me when he sees it—until he reads the inscription. Better put in the ‘loving,’ I guess, and put it in capitals—they don’t cost any more, do they? Well, goodbye, Mr. Lawson, I suppose you’ll be glad to see me go. I’ve overstayed everyone who was here when I arrived. Well, goodbye! Please have it engraved immediately, and I’ll come back in an hour. Goodbye again!”

Part 3

When old man Trimble stood before the fireplace at midnight that night, stuffing little parcels into the deep, borrowed stocking, he chuckled noiselessly, and glanced with affection towards the corner of the room where his young wife lay sleeping. He was a fat old man, and as he stood with shaking sides in his loose, home-made pajamas, he would have done credit to a more conscious impersonation of old Santa himself.

When old man Trimble stood in front of the fireplace at midnight that night, stuffing little packages into the deep, borrowed stocking, he chuckled quietly and looked affectionately at the corner of the room where his young wife was sleeping. He was a chubby old man, and as he stood there with his shaking sides in his loose, homemade pajamas, he could have easily passed for a more self-aware version of Santa Claus himself.

His task finally done, he glanced down at a tall bundle that stood on the floor almost immediately in front of him, moved back with his hands resting on his hips, and thoughtfully surveyed it.

His task finally finished, he looked down at a tall bundle that stood on the floor right in front of him, stepped back with his hands on his hips, and carefully examined it.

“Well, ef anybody had ’a’ told it on me I never would ’a’ believed it,” he said, under his breath. “The idee o’ me, Ephe Trimble, settin’ up sech a[69] thing ez that in his house—at my time o’ life.” Then glancing towards the sleeper, he added, with a chuckle, “an’ ef they’d ’a’ prophesied it I wouldn’t ’a’ believed sech ez thet, neither—at my time o’ life—bless her little curly head.”

“Well, if anyone had told me, I never would have believed it,” he said quietly. “The idea of me, Ephe Trimble, setting up something like that in my house—at my age.” Then, glancing at the sleeper, he added with a chuckle, “and if they’d predicted it, I wouldn’t have believed that either—at my age—bless her little curly head.”

He sat down on the floor beside the bundle, clipped the twine, and cautiously pushed back the wrappings. Then, rising, he carefully set each piece of the water-set up above the stocking on the mantel. He did not stop to examine it. He was anxious to get it in place without noise.

He sat down on the floor next to the bundle, cut the twine, and carefully pulled back the wrappings. Then, standing up, he gently placed each piece of the water set above the stocking on the mantel. He didn’t stop to look at it. He was eager to get it set up quietly.

It made a fine show, even in the dim, unsteady light of a single taper that burned in its tumbler of oil close beside the bed. Indeed, when it arose in all its splendor, he was very much impressed.

It put on a great display, even in the dim, flickering light of a single candle burning in its oil-filled glass next to the bed. In fact, when it revealed itself in all its glory, he was quite impressed.

“A thing like that ought to have a chandelier to set it off right,” he thought—“yas, and she’ll have one, too—she’ll have anything she wants—thet I can give her.”

“A thing like that should definitely have a chandelier to make it stand out,” he thought—“yeah, and she’ll have one, too—she’ll have anything she wants—that I can give her.”

Sleep came slowly to the old man that night, and even long after his eyes were closed, the silver things seemed arrayed in line upon his mental retina. And when, after a long while, he fell into a troubled slumber, it was only to dream. And in his dream old Judge Robinson’s mother-in-law seemed to come and stand before him—black dress, side curls, and all—and when he looked at her for the first time in his life unabashed—she began to bow, over and over again, and to say with each salutation, “Be seated”—“be seated”—“be seated,” getting farther and farther away with each bow until she was a mere[70] speck in the distance—and then the speck became a spot of white, and he saw that the old lady had taken on a spout and a handle, and that she was only an ice-pitcher, tilting, and tilting, and tilting,—while from the yellow spout came a fine metallic voice saying, “Be seated”—“be seated”—again and again. Then there would be a change. Two ladies would appear approaching each other and retreating—turning into two ice-pitchers, tilting to each other, then passing from tilting pitchers to bowing ladies, until sometimes there seemed almost to be a pitcher and a lady in view at the same time. When he began to look for them both at once the dream became tantalizing. Twin ladies and twin pitchers—but never quite clearly a lady and a pitcher. Even while the vision tormented him it held him fast—perhaps because he was tired, having lost his first hours of sleep.

Sleep came slowly to the old man that night, and even long after his eyes were closed, the silver things seemed lined up in his mind. When he finally drifted into a restless slumber, it was just to dream. In his dream, old Judge Robinson’s mother-in-law appeared before him—black dress, side curls, and all—and when he looked at her for the first time without embarrassment, she began to bow repeatedly and say with each bow, “Be seated”—“be seated”—“be seated,” getting farther away with each bow until she was just a tiny speck in the distance. Then the speck turned into a white spot, and he realized the old lady had transformed into an ice pitcher, tilting back and forth while a fine metallic voice from the yellow spout said, “Be seated”—“be seated”—over and over. Then there would be a change. Two ladies would appear, moving toward each other and then pulling back—turning into two ice pitchers, tilting to one another, then back to bowing ladies until sometimes it almost felt like there was a pitcher and a lady in view simultaneously. As he tried to focus on both at once, the dream became frustrating. Twin ladies and twin pitchers—but never quite a clear distinction between a lady and a pitcher. Even as the vision tormented him, it held him captive—maybe because he was exhausted from losing his first hours of sleep.

He was still sleeping soundly, spite of the dissolving views of the novel panorama, when above the two voices that kept inviting him to “be seated,” there arose, in muffled tones at first, and then with distressing distinctness, a sound of sobbing. It made the old man turn on his pillow even while he slept, for it was the voice of a woman, and he was tender of heart. It seemed in the dream and yet not of it—this awful, suppressed sobbing that disturbed his slumber, but was not quite strong enough to break it. But presently, instead of the muffled sob, there came a cumulative outburst, like that of a too hard-pressed turkey-gobbler forced to the wall. He thought it was the old black gobbler at first, and he even said,[71] “Shoo,” as he sprang from his bed. But a repetition of the sound sent him bounding through the open door into the dining-room, dazed and trembling.

He was still sleeping peacefully, despite the fading views of the new landscape, when above the two voices urging him to “take a seat,” he heard a sound of sobbing, initially muffled and then painfully clear. It made the old man turn on his pillow even in his sleep, as it was the voice of a woman, and he was caring. It felt like it was part of the dream yet somehow separate from it—this awful, stifled sobbing that disturbed his rest but wasn’t strong enough to fully wake him. But soon, rather than the quiet weeping, there came a sudden outburst, like an overwhelmed turkey being cornered. At first, he thought it was the old black turkey, and he even said, [71] “Shoo,” as he jumped out of bed. But when the sound happened again, it sent him rushing through the open door into the dining room, dazed and shaking.

Seated beside the dining-table there, with her head buried in her arms, sat his little wife. Before her, ranged in line upon the table, stood the silver water-set—her present to him. He was beside her in a moment—leaning over her, his arms about her shoulders.

Seated next to the dining table, her head resting on her arms, was his little wife. In front of her, lined up on the table, was the silver water set—her gift to him. He was by her side in an instant, leaning over her with his arms around her shoulders.

“Why, honey,” he exclaimed, “what on earth——”

“Why, honey,” he exclaimed, “what on earth——”

At this she only cried the louder. There was no further need for restraint. The old man scratched his head. He was very much distressed.

At this, she just cried even louder. There was no need to hold back anymore. The old man scratched his head. He felt very upset.

“Why, honey,” he repeated, “tell its old man all about it. Didn’t it like the purty pitcher thet its old husband bought for it? Was it too big—or too little—or too heavy for it to tote all the way out here from that high mantel? Why didn’t it wake up its lazy ol’ man and make him pack it out here for it?”

“Why, honey,” he repeated, “tell its old man all about it. Didn’t it like the pretty picture that its old husband bought for it? Was it too big—or too small—or too heavy for it to carry all the way out here from that high mantel? Why didn’t it wake up its lazy old man and make him bring it out here for it?”

It was no use. She was crying louder than ever. He did not know what to do. He began to be cold and he saw that she was shivering. There was no fire in the dining-room. He must do something. “Tell its old man what it would ’a’ ruther had,” he whispered in her ear, “jest tell him, ef it don’t like its pitcher——”

It was pointless. She was crying harder than ever. He didn’t know how to help. He started to feel cold and noticed she was shaking. There was no fire in the dining room. He had to do something. “Just tell the old man what you would rather have,” he whispered in her ear, “just tell him, if you don’t like your picture——”

At this she made several efforts to speak, her voice breaking in real turkey-gobbler sobs each time, but finally she managed to wail:

At this, she tried to say something several times, her voice breaking into real turkey-like sobs each time, but finally, she managed to cry out:

“It ain’t m-m-m-mi-i-i-ne!”

“It’s not mine!”

“Not yours! Why, honey. What can she mean? Did[72] it think I bought it for anybody else? Ain’t yours! Well, I like that. Lemme fetch that lamp over here till you read the writin’ on the side of it, an’ I’ll show you whose it is.” He brought the lamp.

“Not yours! Why, honey. What could she mean? Did[72] it think I bought it for someone else? It’s not yours! Well, I can’t believe that. Let me bring that lamp over here until you read the writing on the side of it, and I’ll show you whose it is.” He brought the lamp.

“Read that, now. Why, honey! Wh-wh-wh-what in thunder an’ lightnin’! They’ve done gone an’ reversed it. The fool’s put my name first—‘Ephraim N. Trimble. From—his——’

“Read that, now. Wow, honey! Wh-wh-wh-what in the world! They’ve gone and reversed it. The fool put my name first—‘Ephraim N. Trimble. From—his——’”

“Why Jerusalem jinger!

“Why Jerusalem, man!”

“No wonder she thought I was a low-down dog—to buy sech a thing an’ mark it in my own name—no wonder—here on Christmus, too. The idee o’ Rowton not seein’ to it thet it was done right——”

“No wonder she thought I was a low-down scumbag—to buy such a thing and put it in my own name—no wonder—especially on Christmas, too. The idea of Rowton not making sure it was done right——”

By this time the little woman had somewhat recovered herself. Still, she stammered fearfully.

By this point, the little woman had kind of regained her composure. Still, she stammered in fear.

“R-r-r-owton ain’t never s-s-s-saw that pitcher. It come from L-l-l-awson’s, d-d-down at Washin’ton, an’ I b-brought it for y-y-y-you!”

“R-r-r-owton has never s-s-s-saw that picture. It came from L-l-l-awson’s, d-d-down in Washington, and I b-brought it for y-y-y-you!”

“Why, honey-darlin’—” A sudden light came into the old man’s eyes. He seized the lamp and hurried to the door of the bed-chamber, and looked in. This was enough. Perhaps it was mean—but he could not help it—he set the lamp down on the table, dropped into a chair, and fairly howled with laughter.

“Why, sweetheart—” A spark lit up the old man’s eyes. He grabbed the lamp and rushed to the door of the bedroom and peered inside. That was all it took. Maybe it was cruel—but he couldn’t help it—he put the lamp down on the table, sank into a chair, and burst out laughing.

“No wonder I dremp’ ol’ Mis’ Meredy was twins!” he screamed. “Why, h-h-honey,” he was nearly splitting his old sides—“why, honey, I ain’t seen a thing but these two swingin’ pitchers all night. They’ve been dancin’ before me—them an’ what seemed like a pair o’ ol’ Mis’ Meredys, an’ between ’em all I ain’t slep’ a wink.”

“No wonder I dreamed old Miss Meredy was twins!” he yelled. “Why, honey,” he was almost cracking up—“why, honey, I haven’t seen anything but these two swinging pictures all night. They’ve been dancing in front of me—those two and what looked like a pair of old Miss Meredys, and between them all, I haven’t slept a wink.”

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“N-n-either have I. An’ I dremp’ about ol’ Mis’ M-m-m-eredy, too. I dremp’ she had come to live with us—an’ thet y-y-you an’ me had moved into the back o’ the house. That’s why I got up. I couldn’t sleep easy, an’ I thought I might ez well git up an’ see wh-wh-what you’d brought me. But I didn’t no mor’n glance at it. But you can’t say you didn’t sleep, for you was a-s-s-snorin’ when I come out here——”

“N-n-neither have I. And I dreamed about old Miss M-m-m-eredy, too. I dreamed she had come to live with us—and that you and I had moved into the back of the house. That’s why I got up. I couldn’t sleep well, and I thought I might as well get up and see what you’d brought me. But I barely glanced at it. But you can’t say you didn’t sleep, because you were s-s-snorin' when I came out here——”

“An’ so was you, honey, when I ’ranged them things on the mantel. Lemme go an’ git the other set an’ compare ’em. That one I picked out is mighty purty.”

“Yeah, you were too, honey, when I arranged those things on the mantel. Let me go and get the other set and compare them. The one I picked out is really pretty.”

“I’ll tell you befo’ you fetch ’em thet they’re exactly alike”—she began to cry again—“even to the p-p-polar bear. I saw that at a glance, an’ it makes it s-s-so much more ridic’——”

“I’ll tell you before you bring them that they’re exactly the same”—she started to cry again—“even down to the p-p-polar bear. I noticed that right away, and it makes it s-s-so much more ridiculous——”

“Hush, honey. I’m reely ashamed of you—I reely am. Seems to me ef they’re jest alike so much the better. What’s the matter with havin’ a pair of ’em? We might use one for butter-milk.”

“Hush, sweetie. I'm really ashamed of you—I really am. It seems to me if they’re just alike, then that’s even better. What’s wrong with having a pair of them? We could use one for buttermilk.”

“Th-that would be perfectly ridiculous. A polar bear’d look like a fool on a buttermilk pitcher. N-n-no, the place for pitchers like them is in halls, on tables, where anybody comin’ in can see ’em, an’ stop an’ git a drink. They couldn’t be nothin’ tackier’n pourin’ buttermilk out of a’ ice-pitcher.”

"That would be completely absurd. A polar bear would look ridiculous on a buttermilk pitcher. No, the right place for pitchers like that is in dining rooms, on tables, where anyone walking in can see them and pause for a drink. There couldn't be anything tackier than pouring buttermilk out of an ice pitcher."

“Of co’se, if you say so, we won’t—I jest thought maybe—or, I tell you what we might do. I could easy take out a panel o’ banisters out of the side po’ch, an’ put in a pair o’ stair-steps, so ez to make a sort o’ side entrance to the house, an’ we could set[74] one of ’em in it. It would make the pitcher come a little high, of co’se, but it would set off that side o’ the house lovely, an’ ef you say so——

"Of course, if you say so, we won't—I just thought maybe—or, I know what we could do. I could easily take out a panel of banisters from the side porch and put in a pair of steps to create a sort of side entrance to the house, and we could set[74] one of them in it. It would make the picture a little pricey, of course, but it would really enhance that side of the house, and if you say so——"

“Lemme go git ’em all out here together.”

“Let me go get them all out here together.”

As he trudged in presently loaded up with the duplicate set he said, “I wonder ef you know what time it is, wife?”

As he walked in, carrying the extra set, he said, “I wonder if you know what time it is, honey?”

She glanced over her shoulder at the clock on the wall.

She looked back at the clock on the wall.

“Don’t look at that. It’s six o’clock last night by that. I forgot to wind her up. No, it’s half-past three o’clock—that’s all it is.” By this time he had placed his water-set beside hers upon the table. “Why, honey,” he exclaimed, “where on earth? I don’t see a sign of a’ inscription on this—an’ what is this paper in the spout? Here, you read it, wife, I ain’t got my specs.”

“Don’t look at that. It’s six o’clock last night by that. I forgot to wind it up. No, it’s half-past three—that’s all it is.” By this time, he had placed his water set beside hers on the table. “Why, honey,” he said, “where on earth? I don’t see any sign of an inscription on this—and what is this paper in the spout? Here, you read it, wife, I don’t have my glasses.”

“Too busy to mark to-day—send back after Christmas—sorry.

“Too busy to mark today—send back after Christmas—sorry.”

Rowton.

Rowton.

“Why, it—an’ here’s another paper. What can this be, I wonder?”

“Why, it—here’s another paper. I wonder what this could be?”

“To my darling wife, from her affectionate husband.”

“To my beloved wife, from your loving husband.”

The little wife colored as she read it.

The little wife blushed as she read it.

“Oh, that ain’t nothin’ but the motter he was to print on it. But ain’t it lucky thet he didn’t do it? I’ll change it—that’s what I’ll do—for anything you say. There, now. Don’t that fix it?”

“Oh, that’s nothing but the matter he was supposed to print on it. But isn’t it lucky that he didn’t do it? I’ll change it—that’s what I’ll do—for anything you say. There, now. Doesn’t that fix it?”

She was very still for a moment—very thoughtful. “An’ affectionate is a mighty expensive word, too,”[75] she said, slowly, glancing over the intended inscription, in her husband’s handwriting. “Yes. Your pitcher don’t stand for a thing but generosity—an’ mine don’t mean a thing but selfishness. Yes, take it back, cert’nly, that is ef you’ll get me anything I want for it. Will you?”

She was quiet for a moment—deep in thought. “And ‘affectionate’ is a really expensive word, too,”[75] she said slowly, looking at the inscription in her husband’s handwriting. “Yes. Your pitcher only represents generosity—and mine only represents selfishness. Yes, take it back, absolutely, if you’ll get me something I want for it. Will you?”

“Shore. They’s a cow-topped butter-dish an’ no end o’ purty little things out there you might like. An’ ef it’s goin’ back, it better be a-goin’. I can ride out to town an’ back befo’ breakfast. Come, kiss me, wife.”

“Sure. There’s a butter dish with a cow on top and a ton of cute little things out there you might like. And if it’s going back, it better get going. I can ride into town and back before breakfast. Come, kiss me, wife.”

She threw both arms around her old husband’s neck, and kissed him on one cheek and then on the other. Then she kissed his lips. And then, as she went for pen and paper, she said: “Hurry, now, an’ hitch up, an’ I’ll be writin’ down what I want in exchange—an’ you can put it in yo’ pocket.”

She wrapped both arms around her old husband’s neck and kissed him on one cheek and then the other. Then she kissed his lips. As she went for pen and paper, she said, “Hurry up, hitch up the horses, and I’ll write down what I want in exchange—and you can put it in your pocket.”

In a surprisingly short time the old man was on his way—a heaped basket beside him, a tiny bit of writing in his pocket. When he had turned into the road he drew rein for a moment, lit a match, and this is what he read:

In a surprisingly short time, the old man was on his way—an overflowing basket beside him, a small piece of writing in his pocket. When he turned onto the road, he stopped for a moment, lit a match, and this is what he read:

My dear Husband,—I want one silver-mounted brier-wood pipe and a smoking set—a nice lava one—and I want a set of them fine overhauls like them that Mis Pope give Mr. Pope that time I said she was too extravagant, and if they’s any money left over I want some nice tobacco, the best. I want all the price of the ice-set took up even to them affectionate words they never put on.

My dear Husband,—I want a silver-mounted briarwood pipe and a smoking set—a nice lava one—and I want a set of those fine overalls like the ones Mrs. Pope gave Mr. Pope that time I said she was being too extravagant. If there's any money left over, I want some nice tobacco, the best there is. I want the entire price of the ice set covered, even including those affectionate words they never added.

Your affectionate and loving wife,

Your loving and devoted wife,

Kitty.

Kitty.

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When Ephraim put the little note back in his pocket, he took out his handkerchief and wiped his eyes.

When Ephraim put the little note back in his pocket, he pulled out his handkerchief and wiped his eyes.

Her good neighbors and friends, even as far as Simpkinsville and Washington, had their little jokes over Mis’ Trimble’s giving her splendor-despising husband a swinging ice-pitcher, but they never knew of the two early trips of the twin pitcher, nor of the midnight comedy in the Trimble home.

Her good neighbors and friends, all the way from Simpkinsville to Washington, had their little jokes about Mrs. Trimble giving her husband, who disliked luxury, a swinging ice pitcher. But they never found out about the two early trips with the twin pitcher or the midnight comedy that unfolded in the Trimble home.

But the old man often recalls it, and as he sits in his front hall smoking his silver-mounted pipe, and shaking its ashes into the lava bowl that stands beside the ice-pitcher at his elbow, he sometimes chuckles to himself.

But the old man often remembers it, and as he sits in his front hall smoking his silver-tipped pipe and shaking the ashes into the lava bowl beside the ice pitcher at his side, he sometimes chuckles to himself.

Noticing his shaking shoulders as he sat thus one day his wife turned from the window, where she stood watering her geraniums, and said:

Noticing his trembling shoulders as he sat like that one day, his wife turned away from the window, where she was watering her geraniums, and said:

“What on earth are you a-laughin’ at, honey?” (She often calls him “honey” now.)

“What on earth are you laughing at, honey?” (She often calls him “honey” now.)

“How did you know I was a-laughin’?” He looked over his shoulder at her as he spoke.

“How did you know I was laughing?” He glanced back at her as he spoke.

“Why, I seen yo’ shoulders a-shakin’—that’s how.” And then she added, with a laugh, “An’ now I see yo’ reflection in the side o’ the ice-pitcher, with a zig-zag grin on you a mile long—yo’ smile just happened to strike a iceberg.”

“Why, I saw your shoulders shaking—that’s how.” And then she added, with a laugh, “And now I see your reflection in the side of the ice pitcher, with a zig-zag grin on your face a mile long—your smile just happened to hit an iceberg.”

He chuckled again.

He laughed again.

“Is that so? Well, the truth is, I’m just sort o’ tickled over things in general, an’ I’m a-settin’ here gigglin’, jest from pure contentment.”

“Really? Well, honestly, I’m just kind of thrilled about everything, and I’m sitting here giggling, just out of pure happiness.”

FOOTNOTES:

[4] From “Moriah’s Mourning” by Ruth McEnery Stuart. By permission of Harper & Brothers.

[4] From “Moriah’s Mourning” by Ruth McEnery Stuart. By permission of Harper & Brothers.


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THE GIFT OF THE MANGER[5]

Edith Barnard Delano

Edith Barnard Delano


Christine’s frail body bent slightly forward to meet the force of the gale. She kept her face lowered, shielded by her muff; yet now and again she raised it for an instant to glance upward at Norwood, with a bright flash of the eyes and a gleam of teeth. Invariably he met the look and warmed to it as to a flame, smiled back, or shook his head. To speak in the face of such a gale was all but impossible, yet once or twice she bent close enough to call in her sweet, high tones, “I love it! I adore it!”

Christine’s frail body leaned slightly forward to brace against the force of the wind. She kept her face lowered, sheltered by her muff; yet every now and then, she lifted it for a moment to glance up at Norwood, her eyes bright and her smile shining. He always returned her gaze and responded to it with warmth, smiling back or shaking his head. Talking in that strong wind was nearly impossible, but once or twice she leaned in close enough to shout in her sweet, high voice, “I love it! I adore it!”

It was at such times that he shook his head. He was keen enough for adventure, good sport enough to meet it halfway, to make the utmost of it when it came; but this—the snow, the early fall of night, the upward climb over roads tantalizingly but half remembered—this was more than he had counted upon, and, truly, more than he wanted. He was beginning to wonder whether, even for Christine’s sake, the journey were a wise one.

It was during moments like this that he shook his head. He was eager for adventure, willing enough to embrace it and make the most of it when it arrived; but this—the snow, the early onset of night, the uphill trek over roads he vaguely remembered—this was more than he had expected and, honestly, more than he wanted. He was starting to question whether, even for Christine’s sake, this journey was a smart choice.

They had planned, weeks earlier, to take the noon [78]train as far as River Junction, where his father, with the pair of sturdy grays, was to meet them for the eight-mile drive to the old home farm over the hills. But young doctors cannot always keep their best-laid plans, and Christine had waited in vain at the station while Norwood officiated at an entrance into the world and an exit therefrom—the individuals most concerned in both instances taking their own time. Christine, waiting beside the suit-cases, boxes, and parcels, whose number and variety of shapes unmistakably proclaimed Christmas gifts, had watched the express pull out of the station. Then, with a dull pounding at her temples and a barely controlled choking in her throat, she had gathered up the Christmas impedimenta and gone home. Norwood found her there an hour later, still dressed as for the journey, and sobbing wildly in a heap at the foot of the bed—his Christine, to whose courage during the past ten months his very soul had done homage many a time.

They had planned, weeks earlier, to take the noon [78]train to River Junction, where his father was supposed to meet them with the pair of sturdy gray horses for the eight-mile drive to the old family farm over the hills. But young doctors can't always stick to their best-laid plans, and Christine waited in vain at the station while Norwood helped bring new life into the world, as well as bid farewell to it—those involved took their sweet time in both situations. Christine, standing next to the suitcases, boxes, and packages, which clearly marked Christmas gifts by their variety and shapes, watched the express train pull out of the station. Then, with a throbbing headache and a lump in her throat, she gathered up the Christmas stuff and went home. Norwood found her there an hour later, still dressed for the journey, sobbing uncontrollably in a heap at the foot of the bed—his Christine, whose bravery over the past ten months he had admired time and again.

“I cannot bear it! I cannot bear it!” she had sobbed out at last, when the tenderness of his arms had begun to soothe her outburst of grief. “To be with your father and mother, to make Christmas for the poor old darlings, to work and keep busy all day—that was bad enough; but I could have done that——”

“I can’t take it anymore! I can’t take it!” she finally cried, as the warmth of his embrace started to calm her overwhelming sadness. “Spending time with your parents, doing Christmas for those sweet old souls, staying busy all day—that was hard enough; but I could have managed that——”

“I know, dear, I know,” he said, holding her firmly, his professional sense alive to every pulse in the racked body.

“I know, sweetheart, I know,” he said, holding her tightly, his trained instincts aware of every pulse in her struggling body.

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“But to stay here, where Teddy was last year—I cannot, I cannot!”

“But staying here, where Teddy was last year—I can't, I can't!”

“Christine!” he besought her.

"Christine!" he pleaded.

“Oh, Ned, I have seen him watch me tie up every parcel—I have heard him on the stairs—I have caught myself wondering which toys he would wish for this Christmas—and he isn’t here! I cannot bear it! I cannot stay here without him! I want my boy, my little boy—my baby! It is Christmas eve—and I want my boy!”

“Oh, Ned, I’ve seen him watch me wrap every gift—I’ve heard him on the stairs—I’ve found myself wondering which toys he’d want for Christmas—and he isn’t here! I can’t stand it! I can’t stay here without him! I want my boy, my little boy—my baby! It’s Christmas Eve—and I want my boy!”

And this was his Christine who, during the ten months since the child had died, had faced the world and her husband with her head held high, with a smile on her lips and courage in the clasp of her hand! Not once before to-day had he heard her cry out in grief or rebellion—his Christine!

And this was his Christine who, in the ten months since the child had died, had faced the world and her husband with her head held high, a smile on her lips, and courage in her grip! Not once before today had he heard her cry out in grief or anger—his Christine!

“Then we will not stay here,” he said. “We will go to the farm whether we have missed the train or not! We will go to the end of the world, or beyond it, if that will help!”

“Then we’re not staying here,” he said. “We’re going to the farm whether we missed the train or not! We’ll go to the ends of the earth, or even further, if that’ll help!”

“Ned! What do you mean?” she cried, drawing back from his clasp to look up into his face.

“Ned! What do you mean?” she exclaimed, pulling away from his grip to look up at his face.

“It is only a matter of sixty miles or so, and it isn’t yet two o’clock; we can make it with the big car!”

“It’s only about sixty miles, and it’s not even two o’clock yet; we can totally make it with the big car!”

She sprang to her feet with a choking laugh, her hands on her throat, her eyes shining like stars of hope.

She jumped up with a laugh that caught in her throat, her hands on her neck, her eyes sparkling like stars of hope.

“Hurry!” she cried; and in scarcely half an hour they were on their way, the multitude of the Christmas[80] bundles tumbled, helter-skelter, into the tonneau, she fur-clad and glowing beside him.

“Hurry!” she shouted, and in just about half an hour, they were on their way, the bunch of Christmas[80] packages thrown together haphazardly in the back, her fur coat sparkling as she sat next to him.

The big “sixty” stood up to its task, and the first part of the journey was as nothing. It had been one of those winters when autumn prolongs itself into December, when people begin to talk of a green Christmas, and the youngsters feel almost hopeless about sleds and skates; but to-day, Christmas eve, the children’s hopes had revived; a sudden drop in temperature, a leaden sky, an unwonted briskness among the sparrows—it might not be a green Christmas, after all.

The big “sixty” did its job, and the first part of the trip felt easy. It had been one of those winters when autumn hangs on into December, when people start talking about a green Christmas, and the kids feel almost discouraged about sledding and skating. But today, Christmas Eve, the children’s hopes were back; a sudden drop in temperature, a gray sky, and an unusual energy among the sparrows—it might not be a green Christmas after all.

That was one of the little things that Christine talked about along the way; and when the first few flakes of snow came wavering down she held out her muff, as if trying to catch them all, and laughed.

That was one of the little things Christine talked about along the way; and when the first few snowflakes started falling, she held out her muff, as if trying to catch them all, and laughed.

“Oh, see, Ned! We’ll snowball each other to-morrow!”

“Oh, look, Ned! We’ll have a snowball fight tomorrow!”

But he had replied, “Let’s hope that we shall have to postpone the snow-balling until we get to the farm, anyway. By Jove! I had forgotten how steep these roads were!”

But he had replied, “Let’s hope we can put off the snowballing until we get to the farm, anyway. Wow! I had forgotten how steep these roads are!”

“Don’t you remember them?” she asked. “Have you forgotten your way?”

“Don’t you remember them?” she asked. “Have you forgotten your way?”

He got the teasing note in her tone. “That’s all right,” he said, “but it has been many years since I came this way; and roadsides have a way of changing, even in Vermont; and with this storm coming along worse every minute, I am not anxious to negotiate them by dark.”

He caught the playful tone in her voice. “That’s fine,” he replied, “but it's been years since I’ve been this way; and roadsides can change, even in Vermont; and with this storm getting worse by the minute, I’m not eager to navigate them in the dark.”

“’Fraid cat,” she laughed, and then cried: “Oh,[81] see! The snow is coming! It’s coming, coming, coming!”

“Scaredy cat,” she laughed, and then cried: “Oh,[81] see! The snow is here! It’s here, here, here!”

It had come, indeed, on the wings of a quick, wild gust; its particles cut like bits of ice, and presently flew in swirling eddies beside the car and in front of it, and, for all their speed, built itself into little drifts wherever a curve or crevice or corner made a possible lodging-place. It pierced their barrier of windshield and curtains, and heaped itself on their fur wrappings, until swept away again by a new fierce breath of the storm. Then it was that Christine’s cheeks flamed, but she bent forward to meet the force of the wind, and now and again turned to call up to Norwood that she loved it.

It had indeed arrived on the wings of a quick, wild blast; its particles felt like bits of ice, and soon swirled around the car and in front of it. Despite their speed, they formed little drifts wherever there was a curve, crevice, or corner that offered a place to settle. It sliced through their shield of windshield and curtains, piling up on their fur wraps until a new fierce gust of the storm blew it all away again. At that moment, Christine’s cheeks flushed, but she leaned forward to face the wind, occasionally turning to shout to Norwood that she loved it.

Night fell almost with the swiftness of a stage curtain, blotting out the distant hills, the pastures, the fields, and scattered houses; blotting out at last even the roadsides, its blackness emphasized by the ever-swirling, steadily descending snow. Once or twice Norwood stopped the car and got out to reconnoiter. Christine felt his uneasiness by means of that sixth sense of wifehood; yet all the while, by another of wifehood’s endowments, she rested secure, serene in the feeling that all was well and must continue well with her man at the wheel; while side by side with his own feeling of uneasiness, Norwood was proud of his wife’s courageous serenity, unaware in his masculine simplicity that her courage had its fount of being in himself.

Night fell almost as quickly as a theater curtain, hiding the distant hills, fields, pastures, and scattered houses; finally obscuring even the roads, its darkness deepened by the swirling, steadily falling snow. Once or twice, Norwood stopped the car and got out to check the surroundings. Christine sensed his unease through that sixth sense of being a wife; yet, at the same time, thanks to another aspect of being a wife, she felt secure, calm in the belief that everything was fine and would remain fine with her husband driving. While grappling with his own sense of unease, Norwood felt a sense of pride in his wife's brave calmness, unaware in his straightforward masculinity that her courage stemmed from him.

Nobly the big car responded to their demand upon it, yet they had gone not more than a few miles beyond[82] the last recognized sign-post when it began to show symptoms of reluctance, of distress. Norwood muttered under his breath, and once more Christine turned a laughing face toward him.

The big car nobly answered their call, but they hadn't traveled more than a few miles past the last signpost when it started to show signs of hesitation and trouble. Norwood muttered quietly, and once again, Christine turned to him with a laughing face.

“It’s a real adventure,” she cried. “I do believe you are lost!”

“It’s a real adventure,” she exclaimed. “I truly think you’re lost!”

Norwood’s answering laugh held no merriment. “You are not so bad at guessing,” he remarked, dryly. “Suppose you try to guess the way!”

Norwood's response was a laugh that lacked any joy. "You're not too bad at guessing," he said flatly. "Why don't you try to guess the way?"

Her keen eyes were peering forward through the veil of snow. “Here we come! I think I see a house ahead of us,” she said. “We can ask our way of the people who live there.”

Her sharp eyes were looking ahead through the snow. “Here we come! I think I see a house up ahead,” she said. “We can ask the people who live there for directions.”

“They won’t know,” said Norwood, with a man’s pessimism. “Probably foreigners. Half the old places around here are bought up by people who can’t speak English and don’t know anything when they can.”

“They won’t know,” said Norwood, with a man’s pessimism. “Probably foreigners. Half the old places around here are bought up by people who can’t speak English and don’t know anything when they do.”

“Oh, you just don’t want to ask questions,” said Christine. “Men always hate to! I never can see why!”

“Oh, you just don’t want to ask questions,” said Christine. “Guys always hate to! I can never understand why!”

The day had held many things for him; now his nerves were beginning to jump. “All right, we’ll ask,” he said, shortly.

The day had brought him a lot; now his nerves were starting to fray. “Okay, we’ll ask,” he said, curtly.

The car, in its inanimate way, seemed glad enough to stop. “I will run in and ask,” said Christine, and Norwood was already busy over some of the mysterious attentions men love to bestow upon their engines.

The car, in its lifeless manner, seemed happy enough to stop. “I’ll run in and ask,” said Christine, while Norwood was already preoccupied with some of the puzzling things guys like to do with their engines.

“All right,” he said, without raising his head.

“All right,” he said, not lifting his head.

But in a moment she was back. “It isn’t a house, Ned! It’s only a barn!”

But in a moment she was back. “It’s not a house, Ned! It’s just a barn!”

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Still bent over his engine, he replied: “House probably across the road. They often fix them that way up here.”

Still leaning over his engine, he replied: “House is probably across the road. They usually fix them like that around here.”

But in another moment or two she was calling to him, above the voice of the gale: “Ned! Ned! There has been a fire! It must have been quite lately, for the snow melts as it falls on the place where the house was! How horrible to think of those poor people, burned out just before Christmas.”

But in a moment or two, she was calling out to him over the sound of the wind: “Ned! Ned! There’s been a fire! It must have happened recently, because the snow is melting as it falls on the spot where the house used to be! It’s terrible to think about those poor people, displaced right before Christmas.”

At that he stood up. “Burned out, is it? They may be camping in the barn. We’ll see if we can’t rout them out.”

At that, he got up. “Burned out, huh? They might be camping in the barn. Let’s see if we can drive them out.”

He went back a step or two and reached over to his horn, sending forth one honking, raucous blast after another. “That ought to fetch them,” he said.

He took a step back and reached for his horn, blasting one loud, raucous honk after another. “That should get their attention,” he said.

There was, indeed, an answering sound from the barn—trampling of hoofs, the suffering call of an unmilked cow. Christine went toward the denser blackness, which was the door.

There was definitely a response coming from the barn—hooves stomping and the distressed call of a cow that hadn’t been milked. Christine moved toward the deeper darkness, which was the door.

“Hoo—hoo!” she cried. “Is any one here?”

“Hoo—hoo!” she shouted. “Is anyone here?”

She held a little pocket flash-light in her hand, and threw its light here and there through the interior darkness. Norwood, still busy with his engine, was not aware when she went within; he was busy with mind and fingers. But all at once he sprang into a fuller activity—the activity of the man who hears the one cry that would recall him from another world; his wife had called to him, had cried aloud a wordless message which held wonder and fear, bewilderment, and—a note of joy?

She held a small pocket flashlight in her hand and shone its light around the dark interior. Norwood, still focused on his engine, didn’t notice when she stepped inside; he was preoccupied with his thoughts and hands. But suddenly, he sprang into action—the kind of action that happens when someone hears a call that pulls them back from another world; his wife had called out to him, had shouted a wordless message filled with wonder, fear, confusion, and—was that a hint of joy?

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He ran around the car into the open doorway of the barn. The air of the vast space within was redolent with the scent of stored hay, the warm, sweet breath of beasts, the ghost of past summers, the promised satisfaction of many a meal-time. He could hear the movement of the animals in the stalls; the roof of the barn arched far above in cavelike darkness; in a quick flash of memory there came to him the story of another cave where patient beasts were stabled; and this was Christmas eve....

He sprinted around the car and into the open doorway of the barn. The air in the large space was filled with the smell of stored hay, the warm, sweet breath of animals, memories of past summers, and the anticipation of many meals to come. He could hear the animals moving in their stalls; the barn's roof arched high above in a dark, cave-like space; and in a quick flash of memory, he recalled the story of another cave where patient animals were kept; and this was Christmas Eve...

Far back in the gloom there shone a tiny light. He was curiously breathless. “Christine!” he called, a quick, foolish fear clutching at his heart, “Christine!”

Far back in the darkness, a tiny light shone. He was oddly out of breath. “Christine!” he called, a sudden, silly fear tightening in his chest, “Christine!”

She answered with another wordless call that was partly an exclamation of wonder, partly a crooning. Blundering forward, he could see the dim outline of a form—Christine’s form—kneeling in the dimness that was sparsely lighted by the pocket-light which she had dropped on the floor beside her. It was scarcely more than the space of a breath before he was at her side, yet in that space there had arisen another cry—a cry which he, the doctor, had also heard many times before. He felt as though he were living in a dream—but a dream as old as time.

She responded with another silent call that was part awe, part soft singing. Stumbling forward, he could make out the faint shape of a figure—Christine—kneeling in the dim light barely illuminated by the flashlight she had dropped next to her. It was hardly a moment before he reached her, but in that moment, another cry had emerged—a cry that he, the doctor, had heard many times before. He felt like he was living in a dream—but a dream as old as time.

“Ned, it’s a baby! Look! Here, alone, in the manger!”

“Ned, it’s a baby! Look! Here, all by itself, in the manger!”

It was, truly, a manger beside which she knelt; and she held gathered closely in her arms a child which was now crying lustily. Norwood spoke, she answered, and together they bent over the little[85] form. It had been warmly wrapped in an old quilt; it was dressed in a queer little dress of brilliant pink, with strange, dark woolen underthings the like of which Christine had never seen before. Its cradle had been warm and safe, for all the gale without, and it had slept there peacefully in the manger until the honking horn and this strange woman had brought it back to a world of very cruel hunger.

It was, really, a manger where she knelt; and she held tightly in her arms a child who was now crying loudly. Norwood spoke, she replied, and together they leaned over the little[85] form. It had been wrapped warmly in an old quilt; it was dressed in a strange little dress of bright pink, with odd, dark woolen undergarments that Christine had never seen before. Its cradle had been warm and safe, despite the storm outside, and it had slept there peacefully in the manger until the honking horn and this strange woman had brought it back to a world of harsh hunger.

Norwood laughed aloud as its little waving, seeking fists closed on one of his fingers. “Good healthy youngster,” he said; “three or four months old, I should say.” Then he added, “Hey, old man, where are your folks?”

Norwood laughed out loud as the little waving, reaching fists grabbed onto one of his fingers. “Good healthy kid,” he said; “I’d guess around three or four months old.” Then he added, “Hey, old man, where are your parents?”

At that Christine held the baby more closely to her breast. “Oh, I suppose it does belong to some one,” she said. “But, oh, Ned, I found it! Here in the manger—like the Christ-child! It seemed to me that I found something I had lost, something of my own!”

At that, Christine pulled the baby closer to her chest. “Oh, I guess it must belong to someone,” she said. “But, oh, Ned, I found it! Right here in the manger—just like the Christ-child! It felt like I discovered something I had lost, something that was mine!”

Norwood felt the danger of this sort of talk, as he mentally termed it, and hastened to interrupt. “Sure you found it!” he said. “That’s just what the baby is trying to tell you, among other things. He cries as if he were starved. Can’t you keep him quiet? Lord! how he yells!”

Norwood sensed the risk of this kind of conversation, as he thought of it, and quickly jumped in. “Of course you found it!” he said. “That’s exactly what the baby is trying to tell you, among other things. He cries like he’s starving. Can’t you quiet him down? Goodness! He’s really screaming!”

But Christine had sprung to her feet with the baby still held closely to her in all its strange wrappings. She was staring into the blackness of the barn. There must have been a new sound, for Norwood also turned quickly.

But Christine had jumped to her feet, holding the baby tightly in all its odd wrappings. She was staring into the darkness of the barn. There must have been a new sound, because Norwood also turned quickly.

“Who’s there?” he called. He had taken Christine’s[86] light from the floor and now flashed it toward the sound.

“Who’s there?” he called. He had picked up Christine’s[86] light from the floor and now pointed it toward the sound.

“All a-right! I mak-a de light,” a voice called; and with the careless noisiness of one who feels himself at home, the new-comer stumbled toward a shelf near the door and presently succeeded in lighting a dingy lantern. It revealed him to be, as Norwood had foreseen, a person distinctly un-American; and as they drew nearer his features disclosed themselves, though undoubtedly old, as of that finished adherence to type which is the result, perhaps, of the many-centuries-old Latin ideal of human perfection—the type as distinct and clear-cut as a Neapolitan cameo.

“All right! I’ll get the light,” a voice called; and with the casual clumsiness of someone who feels at home, the newcomer stumbled toward a shelf near the door and soon managed to light a dingy lantern. It showed him to be, as Norwood had expected, someone who was definitely not American; and as they got closer, his features became clear, though undoubtedly aged, showing that refined adherence to type that likely comes from the centuries-old Latin ideal of human perfection—the type as distinct and sharp as a Neapolitan cameo.

“Well,” said Norwood, jocularly, “quite a fire here, I see!”

“Well,” said Norwood, jokingly, “there's quite a fire here, I see!”

The Italian raised shoulders and palms in that gesture of his race, alike disclaiming all responsibility and at the same time imploring the blessings of a benign Providence. “Oh, de fire, de fire! He burn all up; he burn up everyt’ing!”

The Italian shrugged his shoulders and raised his palms in that gesture typical of his culture, both denying any responsibility and simultaneously pleading for the blessings of a kind Providence. “Oh, the fire, the fire! It’s burning everything up; it’s burning up everything!”

By gesture and broken words he made the story plain. “Dis-a morn’ Maria send-a me to River—you know, River. I tak-a de horse; I go. I come back. I see-a de smoke, de smoke away up. I whip-a de horse. I come! Dio mio! De smoke! He flame up, up. I whip-a de horse. I come to de hill. I see Maria run out of de house wit’ de babee in her arm. She tak-a de babee to de barn and she run-a back. She run-a back to Stefano. Stefano he in bed. He in bed one mont’, two mont’, t’ree mont’—no can move. I whip-a de horse some more. I jump down. I t’ink I[87] go too for Stefano. Ma! Dio mio!” Again the gesture imploring Heaven. “De house, de floor, he go, he come down. Maria, Stefano, all—all come down, all go! Dio!

With gestures and broken words, he made the story clear. “This morning, Maria sent me to the river—you know, the river. I took the horse; I went. I came back. I saw smoke, smoke rising high. I urged the horse on. I came! Dio mio! The smoke! It flared up, up. I pushed the horse harder. I reached the hill. I saw Maria run out of the house with the baby in her arms. She took the baby to the barn and ran back. She ran back to Stefano. Stefano was in bed. He had been in bed one month, two months, three months—unable to move. I urged the horse some more. I jumped down. I thought I[87] would go for Stefano. Ma! Dio mio!” Again the gesture pleading with Heaven. “The house, the floor, it’s collapsing, coming down. Maria, Stefano, all—all are coming down, all are going! Dio!

He had made it graphic enough. They could see the quick tragedy of it, the wild rush of the mother taking her baby to its cradled safety in the manger, her dash back to the bedridden husband, the flames, the quickly charred timbers of the old house, the crashing fall....

He had made it clear enough. They could see the sudden tragedy of it, the frantic rush of the mother grabbing her baby and running to the crib for safety in the manger, her sprint back to her sick husband, the flames, the quickly burned wood of the old house, the crashing collapse....

Christine could feel the blood rush back to her heart; her forehead, her lips, were as cold as if an icy hand had been laid upon them; she trembled, and strained the baby to herself as if it could still the sympathetic pain at her heart. Norwood, seeing her distress, moved closer, drew her into the curve of his arm; her head bent to his shoulder, and he could feel her silently crying. Before the revelation of the pitiful tragedy they were momentarily speechless; then Norwood began to question the man.

Christine could feel the blood rushing back to her heart; her forehead and lips were as cold as if an icy hand had been placed on them; she trembled and pulled the baby closer to herself as if it could ease the sympathetic pain in her heart. Norwood, noticing her distress, moved in closer and wrapped her in his arm; her head fell on his shoulder, and he could feel her silently crying. Faced with the heartbreaking tragedy, they were momentarily speechless; then Norwood began to question the man.

“But the neighbors? Why did no one come to help?”

“But the neighbors? Why didn't anyone come to help?”

The sidewise bend of his head, the opening fingers of his gesture, spoke as plainly as the Italian’s words. “No neighbor! Far away over de mount’. No can-a see! Far away!”

The tilt of his head and the way he opened his fingers communicated just as clearly as the Italian's words. "No neighbor! Far away over the mountain. Can't see! Far away!"

“He means that the nearest neighbors were too far off to see the fire,” Norwood explained. “It’s likely enough, in these hills!” Again he asked: “But the barn? Why didn’t the barn burn, too?”

“He means that the closest neighbors were too far away to see the fire,” Norwood explained. “That’s pretty likely around here!” Again he asked, “But what about the barn? Why didn’t the barn burn down, too?”

“No burn-a de barn; de wind dat-a way—” He[88] made an expressive gesture. “De wind-a blow! De barn no burn.”

“No burn down the barn; the wind’s blowing that way—” He[88] made an expressive gesture. “The wind is blowing! The barn won’t burn.”

“That’s plain enough,” said Norwood. “Well, I am mighty sorry for you, my friend. What can we do to help you? What are you going to do with the baby?”

“That’s clear enough,” said Norwood. “Well, I feel really sorry for you, my friend. What can we do to help? What are you planning to do with the baby?”

The old man seemed to become aware for the first time of the child in Christine’s arms. “Where you fin’-a heem?” he asked.

The old man seemed to finally notice the child in Christine’s arms. “Where did you find him?” he asked.

“My wife found him, back there in the manger where the poor mother laid him for safety, I suppose. What are you going to do with him?”

“My wife found him, back there in the stable where the poor mother laid him for safety, I guess. What are you going to do with him?”

“Me not-a do! He not-a my babee!”

“I'm not doing that! He's not my baby!”

“Good Lord, man! He is some relation to you, isn’t he? Your grandchild, perhaps?”

“Good Lord, man! He’s some relation to you, right? Your grandchild, maybe?”

Ma! No-o! Maria, Stefano, come from Ascoli! Me”—tapping his breast in a magnificent gesture—“Me Siciliano!”

Mom! No-o! Maria, Stefano, are from Ascoli! Me”—tapping his chest in a grand gesture—“Me Siciliano!”

Christine looked up and gave a little eager cry. “You are not related? He isn’t your baby, then, and you don’t want him?”

Christine looked up and let out a small excited gasp. “You’re not related? He’s not your baby, then, and you don’t want him?”

“Wait, dear! Make sure, first, before you set your hopes too high.” Norwood understood what was passing in her mind, and he added to the old man: “You are not related? What are you doing here, then?”

“Hold on, sweetheart! Just make sure, before you get your hopes up too much.” Norwood knew what she was thinking, and he said to the old man: “You’re not family? So what are you doing here, then?”

Again the typical shrug. “Stefano no can work; he much-a seeck! Me come along. Maria, Stefano, dey tell-a me, ‘You stay mak-a de mon. Stefano get-a well, you can-a go!’ So me stay, two week, t’ree week, maybe!”

Again the usual shrug. “Stefano can't work; he's really sick! I'm here. Maria, Stefano, told me, ‘You stay and make the money. When Stefano gets better, you can go!’ So I stay, two weeks, three weeks, maybe!”

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Norwood thought quickly in silence for a moment; then he asked the man, “Do you know where Squire Norwood lives?”

Norwood thought for a moment in silence; then he asked the man, “Do you know where Squire Norwood lives?”

The man nodded vigorously: “Big-a house, white house; over dere—two, t’ree mile.”

The man nodded enthusiastically: “Big house, white house; over there—two, three miles.”

“Can you show us the way?”

“Can you show us how to get there?”

Si!

Yes!

“Then come on! We will give you a lift and a place to sleep in.”

“Then come on! We’ll give you a ride and a place to stay.”

He led his wife and the child, now sleeping, as many centuries before another had led a woman and a sleeping babe; the beauty and wonder and mystery of it was not changed, not lessened because he led them through the snow on a modern dispeller of distance, instead of through burning wastes on a patient beast. She had taken the child from a manger on this Christmas eve; and it seemed a very gift of God.

He guided his wife and the child, now asleep, just like many centuries ago someone led a woman and a sleeping baby; the beauty, wonder, and mystery of it hadn't changed or diminished because he was leading them through the snow in a modern vehicle instead of across burning landscapes on a weary animal. She had taken the child from a cradle on this Christmas Eve, and it felt like a true gift from God.

The distance to Squire Norwood’s house was only a matter of a few miles; yet it must have been an hour later when the two old people stood framed in the lamp-lighted door, hurriedly opened in response to the call of the motor’s horn.

The distance to Squire Norwood’s house was just a few miles; however, it must have been an hour later when the two elderly people stood framed in the door lit by the lamp, which was quickly opened in response to the sound of the motor’s horn.

“What’s this? what’s this?” his father’s hearty voice called out. “Thought ye were coming by train, and mother just broke down and cried when I come back without ye.”

“What’s going on? What’s happening?” his father’s cheerful voice called out. “I thought you were arriving by train, and your mom just broke down in tears when I came back without you.”

Bareheaded, the snow no whiter than his hair, he stepped out toward the dark, big shape of the car, which loomed enormous through the falling snow; then he turned to stare after the shape which moved so swiftly past him and up to the shelter of the old[90] wife’s arms. Doubtless there were hurried words, questions, answers; but the fact of the mere existence of the baby seemed to be enough for the two women—one so lately new to grief, the other so nearly beyond it for all time. They stopped, then passed within; the lighted doorway was empty.

Bareheaded, with snow that was no whiter than his hair, he stepped out toward the dark, large shape of the car, which appeared huge through the falling snow; then he turned to watch the figure that moved so quickly past him and into the safety of the old woman’s arms. There were likely hurried words, questions, and answers; but the very fact that the baby existed seemed to be enough for the two women—one still fresh in her grief, the other nearly free of it forever. They paused for a moment, then went inside; the lighted doorway was empty.[90]

“I swan! Where’d ye get that baby?” the old man asked of his son.

“I swear! Where did you get that baby?” the old man asked his son.

Norwood explained; his father was quick with self-reproach that such a tragedy had transpired so near, while he, the friendly “Squire” of the countryside, should have been all unaware of it.

Norwood explained; his father was quick to blame himself for such a tragedy happening so close by, while he, the friendly "Squire" of the countryside, should have been completely unaware of it.

“Summer-time I might have driven home that way; mother and me often stopped to see how Stefano was coming along. But winters we always use the state road. It’s longer, but better going. Sho! Mother will feel dreadful bad. She got to be real fond of Mareea, what with the baby coming, and after. Mareea used to tell as how they hadn’t any folks, poor young things!”

“During summer, I might have driven home that way; my mom and I often stopped to see how Stefano was doing. But in winter, we always take the state road. It’s longer, but it’s easier to drive on. Oh no! Mom is going to feel really bad. She has grown quite attached to Mareea, especially with the baby on the way and all. Mareea used to say they didn’t have any family, those poor kids!”

“Are you sure of that?” asked Norwood, sharply. “Could not Christine—could we have the baby?”

“Are you sure about that?” Norwood asked, sharply. “Could Christine—could we have the baby?”

His father’s eyes held a sharp question, then became quickly misty. “I am sure; but as selectman I can make it sure for ye beyond question.”

His father's eyes had a piercing question, then quickly turned watery. "I am sure; but as selectman, I can make it certain for you beyond doubt."

The men’s hands clasped; the squire coughed, and Norwood’s doctor-sense was aroused.

The men shook hands; the squire cleared his throat, and Norwood's instincts as a doctor kicked in.

“Why, father, you are standing here without your hat! You go right in, and I’ll put the car in the barn. I guess we can give this man shelter over Christmas, can’t we?”

“Why, Dad, you’re standing here without your hat! Go on inside, and I’ll drive the car into the barn. I think we can give this guy a place to stay over Christmas, can’t we?”

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It was, perhaps, some three hours later, after his mother had worn out all her persuasion in trying to coax them to eat to four times their capacity; and after they had exhausted every detail of talk about the fire and the tragedy; and after they had disposed the beribboned parcels to be opened in the morning; and after Norwood had lifted his mother fairly off the floor in his good-night “bear hug”—it was after all of this that Norwood followed Christine up to the big south room, with its white-hung four-poster, and found her kneeling over the old mahogany cradle which had been his own. The old clock in the hall below struck twelve.

It was, maybe, about three hours later, after his mom had exhausted all her attempts to get them to eat way beyond their limits; and after they had gone over every detail of the fire and the tragedy; and after they had arranged the wrapped gifts to be opened in the morning; and after Norwood had lifted his mom off the floor in his good-night “bear hug”—it was after all this that Norwood followed Christine up to the large south room, with its white-draped four-poster bed, and found her kneeling by the old mahogany cradle that had been his. The old clock in the hallway below struck twelve.

Christine arose, and laid her cheek against her husband’s arm. “It is Christmas,” she said; and the baby, sleeping, smiled.

Christine got up and rested her cheek against her husband’s arm. “It’s Christmas,” she said; and the baby, sleeping, smiled.

FOOTNOTES:

[5] Reprinted from “Harper’s Magazine” by special permission of Edith Barnard Delano. All rights reserved by the author.

[5] Reprinted from “Harper’s Magazine” by special permission of Edith Barnard Delano. All rights reserved by the author.


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GOD REST YOU, MERRY CHRISTIANS[6]

George Madden Martin

George Madden Martin


It was the night before Christmas. Any Christian must have known it, apart from the calendar, by reason of a driving, haunting sense of things yet undone, and a goaded gathering together of exhausted faculties for a final sprint towards the accomplishing of all before the dawning of The Day.

It was the night before Christmas. Any Christian would have sensed it, aside from the calendar, by a strong, lingering feeling of unfinished business, and a pushing together of tired minds for a final rush to get everything done before the arrival of The Day.

Because we long have associated certain things with Christmas we have come to believe them integrant. The blended odor of orange peel, lighted tapers, and evergreens rushing upon us as the Church door opens means Christmas, even as much as the murmuring voices of the children within, each pew a variegated flower-bed of faces up-lifted to the light and tinsel of a giant tree.

Because we've long associated certain things with Christmas, we’ve come to see them as essential. The mixed smell of orange peel, lit candles, and pine trees that hits us when the Church door opens signifies Christmas, just like the soft voices of the children inside, each pew a colorful flower bed of faces looking up to the light and decorations of a giant tree.

Aromatic odors, other than frankincense and myrrh, mean Christmas, cedar, spices; and certain flavors, an almond kernel laid against a raisin and crushed between molars to the enravishment of the palate, seem to belong to Christmas; the translucent olive of preserved citron, exuding sugared richness, suggests Christmas, together with the crinkled layers [93]of the myriad-seeded, luscious-hearted fig; blazing brandy means Christmas, and the velvet smoothness of egg, cream and Old Bourbon blended, seems part of Christmas too.

Aromatic smells, aside from frankincense and myrrh, represent Christmas: cedar, spices, and certain flavors. An almond against a raisin, crushed between molars to delight the palate, feels like Christmas. The clear olive of preserved citron, giving off a sugary richness, also suggests Christmas, along with the wrinkled layers of the many-seeded, juicy fig. Strong brandy symbolizes Christmas, and the velvety smooth blend of egg, cream, and Old Bourbon seems to belong to Christmas as well. [93]

But because the average Christian is an unreasoning creature, and, like the ox, bending his neck to the yoke because the yoke offers, plods the way along unquestioning beneath it, the preceding mad rush means Christmas too, and the feverish dream wherein, for instance, the long strand of embroidery silk forever pulls through, unknotted. And it is expected that the bones should ache at Christmas, and the flesh cry out for weariness, and the brain be fagged to the excluding of more than a blurred impression of The Day when it is come.

But since the average Christian doesn't think much for themselves and, like an ox, just goes along with what's expected, they trudge through the holiday season without questioning it. The frantic hustle means it's Christmas too, and there's this restless feeling where, for example, a long strand of embroidery thread keeps getting pulled through, never knotted. People expect to feel tired at Christmas, their bodies aching, their minds drained, barely even registering what The Day really means when it arrives.

In the Rumsey household the celebration of the festival began on Christmas Eve with a family gathering of children and grandchildren. There is a certain wild, last hour, preceding the moment of gracious and joyous bestowal, made up of frenzied haste and exhaustion. It was that hour now.

In the Rumsey household, the celebration of the festival kicked off on Christmas Eve with a family gathering of kids and grandkids. There’s a wild, frantic energy in the last hour leading up to the moment of generous and happy gift-giving, filled with a mix of rush and tiredness. That hour was now.

“Anne Rumsey calls it the tears and tissue-paper stage,” was told as evidence of Anne’s singular attitude towards the ways of the Christian world about her.

“Anne Rumsey calls it the tears and tissue-paper stage,” was mentioned as an example of Anne’s unique perspective on the Christian world around her.

“And I am sure I don’t know what I’ve done to have any one as queer as Anne for my child,” Mrs. Rumsey, handsome, imposing, on her knees by the bed tying parcels, was saying to her married daughter, Florrie, come home with her babies for Christmas. “There’s no one prides themselves more on the conventional[94] than I do, and I am sure you never did an unconventional thing in your life. But I suppose every family has to have its black sheep, not”—hastily at Florrie’s horrified disclaimer—“not that I mean that, of course—Florrie, how you take one up!—nor ugly duckling exactly, either, for Anne is the handsomest of you all—what did I tie in this package, do you know? I’m sure I don’t—but that a child of mine should thus deliberately each year stand apart, outside the Christmas spirit, while others—it almost looks as if I had not brought my children up with a proper regard for sacred things.”

"And I really don’t understand what I’ve done to have such a peculiar child as Anne," Mrs. Rumsey, elegant and commanding, was saying to her married daughter, Florrie, who had come home with her kids for Christmas. "No one takes more pride in being conventional than I do, and I know you’ve never done anything unconventional in your life. But I guess every family has to have its black sheep—not”—quickly responding to Florrie’s horrified denial—“not that I mean that, of course—Florrie, you really overreact!—nor exactly an ugly duckling, either, because Anne is the prettiest of you all—what did I pack in this package, do you know? I really don’t—but it seems like a child of mine should not deliberately stand apart from the Christmas spirit each year while others do—it almost feels like I haven’t raised my children with proper respect for sacred things."

Down-stairs, in the big, circular hallway, Anne Rumsey, outstretched in a long wicker chair, lay gazing into the fire. It was nice to lie there and watch the flames and listen to the crackle of the logs. Hickory logs seem to belong to Christmas. Anne’s grandfather, years ago, in the country, used to bring in hickory logs for Christmas. Anne had provided these for to-night herself. She had gone to a place in the country she knew of, and walked over to a farm and negotiated for them. She had waited a week for some member of her family to find time from shopping to make the jaunt with her, and then had gone alone. It was ideal December weather; the snow crunched under foot, the sky was brilliant, a top-knotted cardinal bird and a jay on a thorn-hedge against the blue looked at her as she passed along the road. It was good to be alive.

Downstairs, in the big, circular hallway, Anne Rumsey was stretched out in a long wicker chair, watching the fire. It felt nice to lie there, watching the flames and listening to the crackle of the logs. Hickory logs always seemed to belong to Christmas. Anne’s grandfather used to bring hickory logs for Christmas years ago when they lived in the country. She had gotten these for tonight herself. She had gone to a farm she knew about in the country and negotiated for them. She had waited a week for a family member to find time away from shopping to go with her, and then she went alone. The December weather was perfect; the snow crunched under her feet, the sky was bright, and a top-knotted cardinal and a jay perched on a thorn hedge against the blue sky watched her as she walked down the road. It was great to be alive.

Her mother was testy that night at dinner. Her handsome face was flushed to floridness beneath her[95] gray pompadour. “I’m sure I haven’t time to know whether the weather is perfect or not, if I half do my duty for my family at Christmas. For Heaven’s sake, Anne, don’t be so aggressively high-spirited; it gets on my nerves.”

Her mom was irritable that night at dinner. Her attractive face was bright red under her[95] gray pompadour. “I really don’t have time to figure out if the weather is perfect or not, considering I’m just trying to do my part for the family at Christmas. For heaven’s sake, Anne, tone down the high spirits; it’s getting on my nerves.”

And to-night, Christmas Eve, Anne lay looking into the fire. It was nice to know it was snowing outside those drawn curtains, it made one love their warmth and crimson more, and snow seems part of Christmas. That morning she had put holly about, idling over the pleasure of trying it here, there. Now she reveled in the color and cheer about her. She had dressed for the evening with a sort of childlike and smiling gaiety, slowly and pleasurably, because the dress seemed part of the season and the joy, and in the scarlet gown looked some dryad of the holly-tree herself, or some Elizabethan’s concept of the Twelfth Night spirit.

And tonight, Christmas Eve, Anne lay there, staring into the fire. It felt nice to know it was snowing outside those closed curtains; it made her appreciate their warmth and deep red color even more, and snow just feels like part of Christmas. Earlier that morning, she had arranged holly around, enjoying the fun of trying it out in different places. Now, she was soaking in the colors and cheer all around her. She had dressed for the evening with a kind of childlike and smiling joy, slowly and happily, because the dress felt like a part of the season and the celebration, and in the scarlet gown, she looked like some spirit of the holly tree or an Elizabethan’s idea of the Twelfth Night spirit.

The outer door behind her opened to a latch-key and closed.

The outer door behind her opened with a key and then closed.

“Is that you, Daddy?” called Anne. “Come to the blaze and warm.”

“Is that you, Dad?” called Anne. “Come to the fire and warm up.”

“I can’t,” confessed the big-headed, square little man, struggling out of his overcoat; “I’m a disheveled wreck and I’ve got to dress for dinner, I suppose. What time do you look for ’em all around? God bless my soul, Anne, it’s good to see somebody composed and enjoying themselves. I’ve been looking for something for the grandchildren.”

“I can’t,” admitted the big-headed, short man, struggling out of his overcoat; “I’m a mess and I need to get dressed for dinner, I guess. What time are you expecting everyone? God bless, Anne, it’s nice to see someone calm and having a good time. I’ve been searching for something for the grandkids.”

“You said you were too busy, didn’t really have time——”

“You said you were too busy, didn’t really have time——”

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“Yes, yes, I did, I know I did, but——”

“Yes, yes, I did, I know I did, but——”

“—at the eleventh hour you rushed out; what did you buy, Daddy?”

“—at the last minute you rushed out; what did you buy, Dad?”

“Just a trifle, a trifle around,” confessed John Rumsey hastily, moving towards the stairway; “just a trifle—been putting greenery around, Anne? It looks nice—but I’m worried by a sort of after-recollection. Didn’t I give Florrie’s boy a silver cup before, some time or other?”

“Just a little, just a little bit,” John Rumsey admitted quickly, heading towards the stairs. “Just a little—have you been adding some greenery, Anne? It looks nice—but I’m feeling a sense of déjà vu. Didn’t I give Florrie’s son a silver cup before, some time back?”

Anne laughed; a teasing, yet a provoking laugh, too, it was. “Sort of mile-stones on the road to Dover, little John’s mugs will be, won’t they, father? This will make the——”

Anne laughed; it was a teasing but also a provoking laugh. “These will be like milestones on the road to Dover, won’t they, Dad? This will make the——”

John Rumsey, with a plunge up the steps, sent back a sort of frenzied snort.

John Rumsey, with a leap up the steps, let out a sort of wild snort.

“Change your shoes,” called Anne after him; “it’s slushy down street, I know. I laid your clothes out; the buttons are in.”

“Change your shoes,” Anne called after him; “it’s muddy down the street, I know. I set out your clothes; the buttons are in.”

“Thank the Lord!” John Rumsey’s voice came back. “I’ve been fighting my way through mobs, I’m exhausted.”

“Thank the Lord!” John Rumsey's voice echoed back. “I’ve been pushing through crowds, I’m beat.”

The dear, blessed, grizzle-headed little Daddy! It was he who, after the long pull, had made hickory fires and crimson hangings and silver mugs possible. The girl’s eyes softened to almost maternal tenderness. The dear, square-set, grizzled little Daddy!

The dear, blessed, gray-haired little Daddy! It was he who, after all the hard work, made hickory fires and red decorations and silver mugs possible. The girl’s eyes softened with almost a maternal warmth. The dear, sturdy, grizzled little Daddy!

Anne stretched her strong, young length in the chair and consciously luxuriated in the warmth, the richness, the beauty around her.

Anne stretched her strong, youthful body in the chair and consciously enjoyed the warmth, the richness, and the beauty surrounding her.

“It is like a hymn, the colors,” she was thinking.

“It’s like a song, the colors,” she was thinking.

Again a door opened, somewhere above this time,[97] and protesting childish voices came down the stairway, the voices of sister Florrie’s babies come for Christmas. Anne’s eyes deepened as she listened, laughingly, yet broodingly.

Again a door opened, this time from somewhere above,[97] and the protesting, childish voices came down the stairs, the voices of Sister Florrie’s babies come for Christmas. Anne’s eyes grew darker as she listened, laughing, yet with a hint of sadness.

It was sister Florrie answering:

It was Sister Florrie answering:

“Now go on down to Norah, John Rumsey, and take your little sister. Go on! I’ll lose my mind if you say another word about Santy Claus; go on, I’ve got all that bed full of things to tie up yet——”

“Now go on down to Norah, John Rumsey, and take your little sister. Go on! I’ll lose my mind if you say another word about Santa Claus; go on, I’ve got all those gifts on the bed to wrap up yet——”

“But you said—” expostulated a small voice, the voice of little John Rumsey.

“But you said—” protested a small voice, the voice of little John Rumsey.

“I don’t care what I said—” a door closed violently.

“I don’t care what I said—” a door slammed shut.

A wail arose on the silence, the injured cry of Mary Wingate, the baby.

A cry broke the silence, the distressed cry of Mary Wingate, the baby.

“Shut up, can’t you,” the fraternal tones of small John were heard requesting, “and come on.” Feet pattered along the hall as towards a rear stairway. “But she said afore we came to Grandpa’s, she did,” the voice of little John was reiterating as it grew fainter, “when she got time she’d tell me what Santy Claus looked like when she was little, afore his whiskers got white.”

“Can you just be quiet?” small John's brother asked. “Come on.” Feet shuffled down the hall toward the back stairs. “But she said before we came to Grandpa’s,” little John’s voice echoed as it faded, “that when she had time, she’d tell me what Santa Claus looked like when she was little, before his beard turned white.”

Anne down-stairs laughed through merry yet fierce eyes. Babies belong to Christmas. Yet they could not come down here to her because of the decorations and the preparations which Florrie would not permit them to see beforehand.

Anne downstairs laughed with joyful yet intense eyes. Babies are part of Christmas. But they couldn’t come down here to her because of the decorations and the preparations that Florrie wouldn’t let them see ahead of time.

Anne waxed hot in her soul, for babies belong to Christmas, or, rather, Christmas belongs to babies, and she loved babies. They are so honest, so unconquered,[98] they look at the adult and its inconsistencies so uncompromisingly. So do boys, and she loved boys too. Babies and boys are the honestest things in life. Had Anne but known it, there was much of baby and of boy in her own nature; she attacked nobody’s convictions, only stood to her own. It gives one large liberty if one will be honest to self.

Anne felt a deep passion within her because babies are tied to Christmas, or rather, Christmas is all about babies, and she adored them. They are so genuine and untouched; they gaze at adults and their contradictions with such clarity. The same goes for boys, and she loved them as well. Babies and boys represent the truest parts of life. Had Anne realized it, she had a lot of baby and boy in her own character; she didn't challenge anyone's beliefs, she simply held onto her own. Being honest with oneself brings a great sense of freedom.

The footsteps of the babies, sent to some nether world, died away.

The footsteps of the babies, sent to some other world, faded away.

“Yet Christmas is meant for babies, or, rather, Christmas means A Baby.”

“Yet Christmas is for babies, or, more precisely, Christmas is about A Baby.”

The girl rose. There were rooms opening around the hallway. It was at times such as this, with married sisters and brothers arriving with their families and laughter and jollity, that one loved it so, the space, and the beauty, and the means. At times such as Christmas one paused and thought about it all. The dear Daddy who had given it to them!

The girl got up. There were rooms leading off of the hallway. It was moments like these, with married siblings showing up with their families and laughter filling the air, that made one appreciate everything—the space, the beauty, and the resources. During occasions like Christmas, one would stop and reflect on it all. The beloved Dad who had provided it all for them!

Anne crossed to one of the arched spaces and, pulling a curtain aside, went in. She left the hangings apart. The tree, glittering with scarlet and gold, and hung with delightful woolly lambs and Noah’s Arks and such like toys, would show joyously through the opening. And why not? Since it was her tree, for the tree had come to be her part and she had pottered around the whole happy, uninterrupted morning adorning it, since it was her tree it should stand unconcealed from first to last for its purpose—beauty, revel, festivity.

Anne walked over to one of the arched spaces and, pulling aside a curtain, stepped inside. She left the curtains open. The tree, sparkling with red and gold, and decorated with adorable woolly lambs and Noah’s Arks and similar toys, would shine joyfully through the opening. And why not? It was her tree; she had spent the entire wonderful, carefree morning decorating it. Since it was her tree, it should remain on display from start to finish for its purpose—beauty, celebration, festivity.

On salvers upon a table near the tree were bowls of glass and silver heaped with dates, figs, tamarinds,[99] sweet pastes, nougats—luscious things that seemed to bring close, far-away Orient climes.

On trays on a table near the tree were bowls of glass and silver filled with dates, figs, tamarinds,[99] sweet pastes, nougats—delicious treats that felt like they were bringing distant Eastern lands closer.

There seemed, too, in the colors and the appointments of the room, an Oriental sumptuousness pervading. Anne loved it, and laving in it, lent herself to it and stood with half-closed lids and parted lips, hands straight at sides, letting fancy be ravished, until she seemed to see——

There was also a lavish, exotic vibe in the colors and decor of the room. Anne loved it, and as she soaked it in, she surrendered to it, standing with her eyes half-closed and her lips slightly parted, hands straight at her sides, allowing her imagination to be captivated, until she seemed to see——

Against an indigo sky wherein a star burned clear, three swift-footed, shadowy creatures swinging across sandy wastes, each uncouth back bearing in silhouette against the blue, a turbaned rider, eyes shielded by hand, gazing ahead——

Against a deep blue sky where a star shone bright, three fast, shadowy figures moved across the sandy terrain, each one awkwardly carrying a turbaned rider on their back, the rider shielding their eyes with a hand, looking straight ahead—

Her eyes opened. It was lavish, the richness about her. There came a distaste. It was a simple and pastoral life those Orient Jewish people led. She had been there, she and Daddy, one delightful runaway journey together. Afterward her father had marked passages in a book and brought it to her, wherein it was put as neither he nor she could put it.

Her eyes opened. Everything around her was extravagant; the richness was overwhelming. She felt a sense of disgust. The Jewish people from the East led a simple, rural life. She had experienced it once, with her dad, on a delightful getaway together. Later, her father had highlighted passages in a book and brought it to her, capturing it in a way that neither of them could express.

Now she walked to a bookcase, and taking out a slim volume, hunted passages, and finding them, read blissfully:

Now she walked over to a bookshelf, pulled out a thin book, searched for certain passages, and once she found them, read happily:

A total indifference to ... the vain appanage of the comfortable which our drearier countries make necessary to us, was the consequence of the sweet and simple life lived in Galilee.... The countries which awaken few desires are the countries of idealism and poesy. The accessories of life are there insignificant compared with the pleasure of living.... The embellishment of the house is superfluous, for it is frequented as little as possible.... This contempt, when it is not caused by idleness, contributes greatly to the elevation of the soul.

A complete indifference to ... the unnecessary luxuries that our drearier countries make essential to us resulted from the sweet and simple life lived in Galilee.... The places that spark few desires are the ones of idealism and poetry. The comforts of life there are trivial compared to the joy of living.... Decorating the house is pointless since it is used as little as possible.... This disdain, when not stemming from laziness, greatly enhances the elevation of the soul.

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Anne, hunting passages, drew a long breath. She could love it too, the simple life of certain poverties.

Anne, searching for insights, took a deep breath. She could also love it—the uncomplicated life of some forms of poverty.

We see the streets where Jesus played when a child in the stony paths or little crossways which separate the dwellings. The house of Joseph doubtless much resembled those poor shops lighted by the door, serving at once for shop, kitchen, and bedroom, having for furniture a mat, some cushions on the ground, one or two clay pots, and a painted chest.

We see the streets where Jesus played as a child in the rocky paths or small alleys that separate the homes. Joseph's house probably looked a lot like those simple shops lit by the doorway, serving as a shop, kitchen, and bedroom all in one, furnished with a mat, some cushions on the floor, one or two clay pots, and a painted chest.

Where the little Jesus played! The eyes of Anne, lifting from the page, sought a niche where, in a golden frame, hung a picture, royal in indigo, purple and scarlet. It was a copy, but it was an honest one. The Baby’s head seemed verily to rest, to press, into the curve of Mary’s arm. The little head! And the brooding, jealous ecstasy in Mary’s face, and the little hand Mary was playfully uplifting! Was she dreaming great, beautiful dreams for the little son’s life to come? Does every woman dream mighty deeds for her man-child’s doing? And this Baby’s hand, uplifted there by Mary’s finger, the hand of the little Galilean peasant whose carpenter-father’s house boasted a few mats, one or two clay pots, and a painted chest: this little hand was to lift the human ideal out of materialism and set it above earthly things, and behold! nineteen hundred years are gone, and still that ideal shines high, clear, a star against the dome of Time, and wise men, following its leading, still are journeying, eyes shielded by hand, as they gaze ahead——

Where the little Jesus played! Anne's eyes, lifting from the page, searched for a spot where a picture hung in a golden frame, full of royal indigo, purple, and scarlet. It was a copy, but a genuine one. The Baby’s head seemed to truly rest, to press, into the curve of Mary’s arm. That little head! And the intense, jealous joy on Mary’s face, and the little hand she was playfully lifting! Was she dreaming big, beautiful dreams for her son’s future? Do all women dream of great achievements for their boys? And this Baby’s hand, lifted by Mary’s finger, the hand of the little Galilean peasant whose carpenter father’s home had a few mats, one or two clay pots, and a painted chest: this little hand was meant to raise the human ideal above materialism and set it above worldly things. And look! Nineteen hundred years have passed, and that ideal still shines bright, a star against the dome of Time, with wise men following its lead, still journeying, shielding their eyes with their hands as they look ahead——

Mary’s little son, the peasant baby!

Mary’s little son, the farmer’s baby!

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There was an opened piano in the room. Anne crossed to it. On her lips was a smile, an exultant, a jealous smile. She could feel the little head pressing into the curve of Mary’s arm.

There was a piano open in the room. Anne walked over to it. A smile was on her lips, a triumphant, envious smile. She could feel the little head leaning against the curve of Mary’s arm.

Her fingers sought the keys. The notes were rich and deep and full; they filled the room and poured out into the hallway and rose——

Her fingers searched for the keys. The notes were rich, deep, and full; they filled the room, spilled out into the hallway, and rose—

Above stairs, from his own doorway, John Rumsey, struggling with the last details of a toilet, stood looking into his wife’s room. He was a big-headed, even a belligerent little man, but he stood as though hesitating once, twice, before speaking what was on his mind to say.

Above stairs, from his own doorway, John Rumsey, struggling with the final details of getting ready, stood looking into his wife's room. He was a big-headed, even aggressive little man, but he stood there as if hesitating once, twice, before saying what he really wanted to say.

“Mary,” he had begun.

"Mary," he started.

Mrs. Rumsey scarcely turned from the mêlée of jeweler’s boxes, ribbons, packages, surrounding her. “I can’t listen now; I’ve forgotten whom I could have meant this for——”

Mrs. Rumsey hardly glanced away from the chaos of jeweler’s boxes, ribbons, and packages around her. “I can’t listen right now; I’ve forgotten who I might have meant this for——”

“But, Mary——”

“But, Mary—”

“Heavens, John, don’t distract me; I have to dress yet——”

“Heavens, John, don’t distract me; I still have to get dressed——”

“Call Anne to help you.”

“Text Anne to help you.”

“Not at all,” with some asperity; “if Anne can so separate herself from the Christmas spirit as to abjure the preparing of any gifts herself, she’ll not be called on——”

“Not at all,” with a bit of annoyance; “if Anne can distance herself from the Christmas spirit enough to refuse to prepare any gifts herself, she won’t be asked to——”

“Mamma”—it was Florrie speaking from her room across the hall—“did you ever order the flowers for the dinner table?” appearing as she ended.

“Mama”—it was Florrie calling from her room across the hall—“did you ever order the flowers for the dinner table?” she asked as she appeared.

Mrs. Rumsey arose the picture of imposing and tragic despair. A small figure turned from between[102] the curtains, where he was drawing figures on the moisture gathering on the pane. It was little John Rumsey.

Mrs. Rumsey stood there, a striking image of deep and tragic despair. A small figure emerged from between the curtains, where he was sketching shapes on the moisture collecting on the windowpane. It was little John Rumsey.

“Aunt Anne went out and got them,” he said. “They are roses, they’re red.”

“Aunt Anne went out and got them,” he said. “They are roses, and they’re red.”

Now there were certain things destined to swell the portion of little John, as yet unwrapped.

Now there were certain things meant to increase the share of little John, which was still unwrapped.

“How did that child get in here?” demanded John’s grandmamma testily, even sharply; “now go on out. Didn’t your mother send you to Norah?”

“How did that kid get in here?” John’s grandma asked irritably, even sharply. “Now get out. Didn’t your mom send you to Norah?”

“She put us out the kitchen, she’s helping ’em down there. She said we weren’t to see till everything was done.”

“She kicked us out of the kitchen; she’s helping them down there. She told us we couldn’t see anything until it was all finished.”

“Florrie,” besought Mrs. Rumsey, “please take him out. Gracious, child!” as the light fell upon the slender person of Florrie, “how ghastly tired you look! I told you that you were overdoing. There, there, don’t go to crying. Pour her some aromatic ammonia, Papa, it won’t hurt her; I’ve taken two doses myself since I got home. Sometimes I think it is a mistake to have them all here for Christmas Eve. Next year we’ll send the presents around and get the business over with and Christmas Day have them here in peace and quiet.”

“Florrie,” Mrs. Rumsey pleaded, “please take him out. Goodness, sweetheart!” as the light revealed Florrie's slender figure, “you look so terribly tired! I warned you that you were overdoing it. There, there, don’t start crying. Pour her some aromatic ammonia, Dad, it won’t hurt her; I’ve had two doses myself since I got home. Sometimes I think it was a mistake to have everyone here for Christmas Eve. Next year we’ll just send the presents around, wrap things up quickly, and have them over for Christmas Day in peace and quiet.”

“Mary,” the voice of Mr. Rumsey was insistent, “Donald Page is in town; got in this afternoon. I asked him to dinner to-night.”

“Mary,” Mr. Rumsey's voice was firm, “Donald Page is in town; he arrived this afternoon. I invited him to dinner tonight.”

There was silence. Some silences are ominous. Then from Florrie, looking from father to mother, timidly, perhaps, for Florrie loved peace:

There was silence. Some silences can feel threatening. Then Florrie, glancing between her father and mother, did so hesitantly, perhaps, because Florrie valued harmony:

“Does Anne know?”

“Does Anne know?”

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“She wrote him. She brought her answer to me for sanction.”

“She wrote to him. She brought her response to me for approval.”

“And you?” it was his wife asking.

“And you?” his wife was asking.

“I sent it. She has waited a long time on you, Mary.”

“I sent it. She’s been waiting a long time for you, Mary.”

Mrs. Rumsey had risen again, her lapful of ribbons and papers strewing the floor. “You sent it, and you asked him to dinner, Donald Page, absolutely come up out of the ranks——”

Mrs. Rumsey had gotten up again, her lap full of ribbons and papers scattered on the floor. “You sent it, and you invited him to dinner, Donald Page, absolutely coming up from the ranks——”

“I am out of the ranks,” said her husband.

“I’m out of the ranks,” her husband said.

“—and self-made, that is, if he ever is made at all.”

“—and self-made, that is, if he ever really is.”

“I am self-made,” said John Rumsey.

“I made myself,” said John Rumsey.

Mary Rumsey, imposing in her maturity, handsome, surveyed him. She was a Wingate and they are an arrogant blood.

Mary Rumsey, striking in her maturity and good-looking, looked him over. She was a Wingate, and they have an arrogant lineage.

“I am self-made,” repeated John Rumsey, looking at her steadily.

“I built myself up,” John Rumsey repeated, looking at her intently.

“I have never forgotten it,” said Mary, his wife, her eyes measuring him.

“I've never forgotten it,” said Mary, his wife, her eyes assessing him.

The little boy at the window was gazing at these older people. His eyes were big.

The little boy at the window was watching the older people. His eyes were wide.

“Oh,” Florrie was saying, “Mamma.”

“Oh,” Florrie was saying, “Mom.”

They were looking at each other, the man and the woman, long married. Her eyes were hard, and his were sorrowful.

They were looking at each other, the man and the woman, long married. Her eyes were cold, and his were filled with sadness.

A few chords from the piano reached them. It was Anne; they knew her touch, and it was Anne’s voice now arising, sweet, strong, trembling with the passion of it.

A few chords from the piano drifted to them. It was Anne; they recognized her playing, and now Anne's voice was rising, sweet, strong, and filled with emotion.

For it was Christmas Eve. Else why this room[104] strewn with holly and gifts and scarlet ribbons, else why this spiciness of cedar pervading the house, else why Anne’s noël arising?

For it was Christmas Eve. Otherwise, why was this room[104] scattered with holly and gifts and red ribbons, otherwise, why was this scent of cedar filling the house, otherwise, why was Anne’s Christmas song rising?

The words came up to them, words that had belonged to Christmas at the small, old-fashioned church where the Rumseys once had been wont to go.

The words came to them, words that had belonged to Christmas at the small, old-fashioned church where the Rumseys used to go.

The little boy slipped out into the hall. They heard him pattering down to Anne.

The little boy sneaked out into the hallway. They heard him walking softly down to Anne.

Mary Rumsey, with a gesture of contrition like any girl’s, went to her husband, and the next moment was crying on the little man’s shoulder and his hand was patting her soothingly, gently.

Mary Rumsey, with a gesture of apology like any girl’s, went to her husband, and the next moment was crying on the little man’s shoulder while his hand was patting her soothingly, gently.

For it was Christmas Eve, eve of the night when Christ was born, and Anne was singing of it:

For it was Christmas Eve, the night before Christ was born, and Anne was singing about it:

“For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn,
Fall on your knees! O hear the angel voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born,
O night, O night divine!”

And down-stairs Anne, turning from the piano to the little nephew standing there, drew him to her with a kind of rapture, for children belong to Christmas, children and simple joys and memories and loves.

And downstairs Anne, turning away from the piano to the little nephew standing there, pulled him to her with a kind of joy, because children are a part of Christmas, along with simple joys, memories, and love.

And then, a servant opening the door, Donald Page came in out of the night, big, steadfast-looking Donald, with something somewhere of the grimness of the fight in his eyes, and Anne went from the room out to the hall to meet him.

And then, a servant opened the door, and Donald Page came in from the night, tall and strong-looking Donald, with a hint of the seriousness of the fight in his eyes, and Anne left the room to go out to the hall to meet him.

It was very big and simple, the gesture of her hands, as with one who gives all.

It was a very big and simple gesture with her hands, like someone who gives everything.

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And then little John Rumsey gasped, for his Aunty Anne was lifting her face even as baby sister might, to a tall and strange man to be kissed.

And then little John Rumsey gasped, because his Aunty Anne was lifting her face just like baby sister would, to be kissed by a tall and strange man.

Gifts had been given and the evening was almost over. Anne Rumsey’s sister-in-law was speaking, under cover of voices and merriment and confusion, to Anne’s sister:

Gifts had been given and the evening was almost over. Anne Rumsey’s sister-in-law was talking, amid the sounds of laughter and chaos, to Anne’s sister:

“It saves Anne trouble, of course, but to put one’s self outside it all, and give nothing at Christmas, I don’t see how Anne can.”

“It makes things easier for Anne, sure, but I can't understand how she can just step back and give nothing at Christmas.”

FOOTNOTES:

[6] By permission of the author and “McClure’s Magazine.”

[6] With the author's permission and “McClure’s Magazine.”


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TO SPRINGVALE FOR CHRISTMAS[7]

Her children arise up and call her blessed.

Her children rise up and call her blessed.


Zona Gale

Zona Gale


When President Arthur Tilton of Briarcliff College, who usually used a two-cent stamp, said “Get me Chicago, please,” his secretary was impressed, looked for vast educational problems to be in the making, and heard instead:

When President Arthur Tilton of Briarcliff College, who typically used a two-cent stamp, said, “Get me Chicago, please,” his secretary was intrigued, anticipated significant educational issues on the horizon, and instead heard:

“Ed? Well, Ed, you and Rick and Grace and I are going out to Springvale for Christmas.... Yes, well, I’ve got a family too, you recall. But mother was seventy last Fall and—Do you realize that it’s eleven years since we’ve all spent Christmas with her? Grace has been every year. She’s going this year. And so are we! And take her the best Christmas she ever had, too. Ed, mother was seventy last Fall——”

“Ed? Well, Ed, you, Rick, Grace, and I are going out to Springvale for Christmas.... Yes, I have a family too, you remember. But mom turned seventy last fall and—Do you realize it’s been eleven years since we all spent Christmas with her? Grace has gone every year. She’s going this year. And so are we! And we’ll give her the best Christmas she’s ever had, too. Ed, mom was seventy last fall——”

At dinner, he asked his wife what would be a suitable gift, a very special gift, for a woman of seventy. And she said: “Oh, your mother. Well, dear, I should think the material for a good wool dress would be right. I’ll select it for you, if you like—” He said that he would see, and he did not reopen the subject.

At dinner, he asked his wife what would be a suitable gift, a very special gift, for a woman turning seventy. She replied, “Oh, your mother. Well, dear, I think some nice fabric for a wool dress would be perfect. I can pick it out for you, if you want—” He said he would think about it, and he didn’t bring it up again.

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In town on December twenty-fourth he timed his arrival to allow him an hour in a shop. There he bought a silver-gray silk of a fineness and a lightness which pleased him and at a price which made him comfortably guilty. And at the shop, Ed, who was Edward McKillop Tilton, head of a law firm, picked him up.

In town on December 24th, he planned his arrival to give himself an hour in a store. There, he bought a silver-gray silk that was both fine and lightweight, which he really liked, and at a price that made him feel a bit guilty in a good way. While at the shop, Ed, who was Edward McKillop Tilton, the head of a law firm, ran into him.

“Where’s your present?” Arthur demanded.

“Where’s your gift?” Arthur demanded.

Edward drew a case from his pocket and showed him a tiny gold wrist-watch of decent manufacture and explained: “I expect you’ll think I’m a fool, but you know that mother has told time for fifty years by the kitchen clock, or else the shield of the black-marble parlor angel who never goes—you get the idea?—and so I bought her this.”

Edward pulled a case from his pocket and revealed a small gold wristwatch of good quality. He explained, “You might think I’m silly, but my mom has been using the kitchen clock to keep time for fifty years, or sometimes the shield of the black-marble angel in the parlor that never moves—you get what I mean?—so I bought her this.”

At the station was Grace, and the boy who bore her bag bore also a parcel of great dimensions.

At the station was Grace, and the boy carrying her bag was also handling a large package.

“Mother already has a feather bed,” Arthur reminded her.

“Mom already has a feather bed,” Arthur reminded her.

“They won’t let you take an automobile into the coach,” Edward warned her.

“They won’t let you bring a car into the coach,” Edward warned her.

“It’s a rug for the parlor,” Grace told them. “You know it is a parlor—one of the few left in the Mississippi valley. And mother has had that ingrain down since before we left home——”

“It’s a rug for the living room,” Grace told them. “You know it is a living room—one of the few left in the Mississippi valley. And mom has had that ingrain down since before we left home——”

Grace’s eyes were misted. Why would women always do that? This was no occasion for sentiment. This was a merry Christmas.

Grace's eyes were misty. Why do women always do that? This wasn't a moment for sentiment. This was a joyful Christmas.

“Very nice. And Ricky’d better look sharp,” said Edward dryly.

“Very nice. And Ricky better look sharp,” said Edward dryly.

Ricky never did look sharp. About trains he was[108] conspicuously ignorant. He had no occupation. Some said that he “wrote,” but no one had ever seen anything that he had written. He lived in town—no one knew how—never accepted a cent from his brothers and was beloved of every one, most of all of his mother.

Ricky never really looked put together. He was clearly clueless about trains. He didn't have a job. Some people said he "wrote," but no one had ever seen anything he’d written. He lived in town—nobody knew how—never took a dime from his brothers and was loved by everyone, especially his mom.

“Ricky won’t bring anything, of course,” they said.

“Ricky isn’t bringing anything, of course,” they said.

But when the train had pulled out without him, observably, a porter came staggering through the cars carrying two great suitcases and following a perturbed man of forty-something who said, “Oh, here you are!” as if it were they who were missing, and squeezed himself and his suitcases among brothers and sister and rug. “I had only a minute to spare,” he said regretfully. “If I’d had two, I could have snatched some flowers. I flung ’em my card and told ’em to send ’em.”

But when the train left without him, noticeably, a porter came stumbling through the cars carrying two big suitcases and following a stressed-out man in his forties who said, “Oh, there you are!” as if it were they who were missing, and squeezed himself and his suitcases in among his brothers, sister, and the rug. “I only had a minute to spare,” he said with regret. “If I’d had two, I could have grabbed some flowers. I threw them my card and told them to send some.”

“Why are you taking so many lugs?” they wanted to know.

“Why are you taking so many lugs?” they wanted to know.

Ricky focused on the suitcases. “Just necessities,” he said. “Just the presents. I didn’t have room to get in anything else.”

Ricky looked at the suitcases. “Just the essentials,” he said. “Just the gifts. I didn’t have space to pack anything else.”

“Presents! What?”

“Gifts! What?”

“Well,” said Ricky, “I’m taking books. I know mother doesn’t care much for books, but the bookstore’s the only place I can get trusted.”

“Well,” said Ricky, “I’m taking books. I know my mom doesn’t care much for them, but the bookstore’s the only place I can trust.”

They turned over his books: Fiction, travel, biography, a new illustrated edition of the Bible—they were willing to admire his selection. And Grace said confusedly but appreciatively: “You know, the parlor[109] bookcase has never had a thing in it excepting a green curtain over it!”

They looked through his books: fiction, travel, biography, and a new illustrated edition of the Bible—they were ready to admire his collection. And Grace said, a bit confused but appreciative: “You know, the parlor bookcase has never had anything in it except a green curtain over it!”

And they were all borne forward, well pleased.

And they all moved forward, feeling good about it.

Springvale has eight hundred inhabitants. As they drove through the principal street at six o’clock on that evening of December twenty-fourth, all that they expected to see abroad was the pop-corn wagon and a cat or two. Instead they counted seven automobiles and estimated thirty souls, and no one paid the slightest attention to them as strangers. Springvale was becoming metropolitan. There was a new church on one corner and a store-building bore the sign “Public Library.” Even the little hotel had a rubber-plant in the window and a strip of cretonne overhead.

Springvale has eight hundred residents. As they drove through the main street at six o’clock on the evening of December twenty-fourth, they only expected to see the popcorn cart and a couple of cats. Instead, they spotted seven cars and estimated about thirty people, and no one seemed to notice them as outsiders. Springvale was becoming more urban. There was a new church on one corner, and a store displayed a sign saying “Public Library.” Even the small hotel had a rubber plant in the window and a strip of fabric above.

The three men believed themselves to be a surprise. But, mindful of the panic to be occasioned by four appetites precipitated into a Springvale ménage, Grace had told. Therefore the parlor was lighted and heated, there was in the air of the passage an odor of brown gravy which, no butler’s pantry ever having inhibited, seemed a permanent savory. By the happiest chance, Mrs. Tilton had not heard their arrival nor—the parlor angel being in her customary eclipse and the kitchen grandfather’s clock wrong—had she begun to look for them. They slipped in, they followed Grace down the hall, they entered upon her in her gray gingham apron worn over her best blue serge, and they saw her first in profile, frosting a lemon pie. With some assistance from her, they all took her in their arms at once.

The three men thought they would be a surprise. But, aware of the chaos that would come from four hungry people suddenly showing up at the Springvale household, Grace had warned them. So, the living room was lit and warm, and there was a smell of brown gravy in the hallway that, since no butler’s pantry had ever held it back, seemed to linger permanently. Luckily, Mrs. Tilton had not heard them arrive, nor—since the parlor clock was off and the usual kitchen bustle was absent—had she started looking for them. They quietly entered, followed Grace down the hall, and found her in her gray gingham apron over her best blue serge, frosting a lemon pie. With a little help from her, they all hugged her at once.

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“Aren’t you surprised?” cried Edward in amazement.

“Aren’t you surprised?” Edward exclaimed in astonishment.

“I haven’t got over being surprised,” she said placidly, “since I first heard you were coming!”

“I’m still surprised,” she said calmly, “ever since I first heard you were coming!”

She gazed at them tenderly, with flour on her chin, and then she said: “There’s something you won’t like. We’re going to have the Christmas dinner to-night.”

She looked at them affectionately, with flour on her chin, and then she said, “There’s something you won’t like. We’re having Christmas dinner tonight.”

Their clamor that they would entirely like that did not change her look.

Their noise about how much they wanted that didn’t change her expression.

“Our church couldn’t pay the minister this Winter,” she said, “on account of the new church-building. So the minister and his wife are boarding around with the congregation. To-morrow’s their day to come here for a week. It’s a hard life and I didn’t have the heart to change ’em.”

“Our church couldn’t pay the minister this winter,” she said, “because of the new church building. So the minister and his wife are staying with different members of the congregation. Tomorrow is their day to come here for a week. It’s a tough life, and I didn’t have the heart to change it for them.”

Her family covered their regret as best they could and entered upon her little feast. At the head of her table, with her four “children” about her, and father’s armchair left vacant, they perceived that she was not quite the figure they had been thinking her. In this interval they had grown to think of her as a pathetic figure. Not because their father had died, not because she insisted on Springvale as a residence, not because of her eyes. Just pathetic. Mothers of grown children, they might have given themselves the suggestion, were always pathetic. But here was mother, a definite person with poise and with ideas, who might be proud of her offspring, but who, in her heart, never forgot that they were her offspring and that she was the parent stock.

Her family did the best they could to hide their regret and joined her for the small celebration. At the head of the table, with her four “children” around her and father’s chair left empty, they realized she wasn’t quite the person they had been imagining. Over time, they had come to view her as a sad figure. Not because their father had passed away, not because she insisted on living in Springvale, not because of her eyes. Just sad. Mothers of adult children, they might have convinced themselves, were often seen as sad. But here was their mother, a strong individual with confidence and ideas, who could take pride in her children but, deep down, always remembered that they were her children and that she was their origin.

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“I wouldn’t eat two pieces of that pie,” she said to President Tilton; “it’s pretty rich.” And he answered humbly: “Very well, mother.” And she took with composure Ricky’s light chant:

“I wouldn’t eat two pieces of that pie,” she said to President Tilton; “it’s pretty rich.” And he replied softly, “Alright, mom.” Then she calmly joined in with Ricky’s light chant:

“Now, you must remember, wherever you are,
That you are the jam, but your mother’s the jar.”

“Certainly, my children,” she said. “And I’m about to tell you when you may have your Christmas presents. Not to-night. Christmas eve is no proper time for presents. It’s stealing a day outright. And you miss the fun of looking forward all night long. The only proper time for the presents is after breakfast on Christmas morning, after the dishes are washed. The minister and his wife may get here any time from nine on. That means we’ve got to get to bed early!”

“Of course, my kids,” she said. “And I’m going to tell you when you can have your Christmas presents. Not tonight. Christmas Eve isn’t the right time for presents. It’s like taking away a whole day. Plus, you miss out on the excitement of waiting all night long. The only right time for presents is after breakfast on Christmas morning, after the dishes are done. The minister and his wife could arrive anytime from nine on. So, we need to head to bed early!”

President Arthur Tilton lay in his bed looking at the muslin curtain on which the street-lamp threw the shadow of a bare elm which he remembered. He thought:

President Arthur Tilton lay in his bed, staring at the muslin curtain where the streetlamp cast the shadow of a bare elm that he remembered. He thought:

“She’s a pioneer spirit. She’s the kind who used to go ahead any way, even if they had missed the emigrant party, and who used to cross the plains alone. She’s the backbone of the world. I wish I could megaphone that to the students at Briarcliff who think their mothers ‘try to boss’ them!”

“She’s a trailblazer. She’s the type who would push ahead no matter what, even if she missed the group heading out, and would cross the plains on her own. She’s the strength of the world. I wish I could shout that to the students at Briarcliff who think their moms ‘try to control’ them!”

“Don’t leave your windows open too far,” he heard from the hall. “The wind’s changed.”

“Don’t open your windows too wide,” he heard from the hall. “The wind’s shifted.”

In the light of a snowy morning the home parlor[112] showed the cluttered commonplace of a room whose furniture and ornaments were not believed to be beautiful and most of them known not to be useful. Yet when—after the dishes were washed—these five came to the leather chair which bore the gifts, the moment was intensely satisfactory. This in spite of the sense of haste with which the parcels were attacked—lest the minister and his wife arrive in their midst.

In the light of a snowy morning, the living room[112] displayed the typical mess of a space where the furniture and decorations weren’t considered beautiful and many weren’t even useful. However, once the dishes were done, and the five of them gathered around the leather chair filled with gifts, it was a moment of pure satisfaction. This was true even with the rush to open the packages—hoping to finish before the minister and his wife showed up.

“That’s one reason,” Mrs. Tilton said, “why I want to leave part of my Christmas for you until I take you to the train to-night. Do you care?”

"That’s one reason,” Mrs. Tilton said, “why I want to save part of my Christmas for you until I take you to the train tonight. Does that matter to you?"

“I’ll leave a present I know about until then too,” said Ricky. “May I?”

“I’ll hold onto a gift I know about until then too,” said Ricky. “Can I?”

“Come on now, though,” said President Arthur Tilton. “I want to see mother get her dolls.”

"Come on now," said President Arthur Tilton. "I want to see Mom get her dolls."

It was well that they were not of an age to look for exclamations of delight from mother. To every gift her reaction was one of startled rebuke.

It was a good thing they weren't old enough to expect expressions of joy from their mother. For every gift, her reaction was one of shocked disapproval.

“Grace! How could you? All that money! Oh, it’s beautiful! But the old one would have done me all my life.... Why, Edward! You extravagant boy! I never had a watch in my life. You ought not to have gone to all that expense. Arthur Tilton! A silk dress! What a firm piece of goods! I don’t know what to say to you—you’re all too good to me!”

“Grace! How could you? All that money! Oh, it’s beautiful! But the old one would have been enough for me all my life... Why, Edward! You extravagant boy! I never had a watch before. You shouldn’t have spent so much. Arthur Tilton! A silk dress! What a solid piece of fabric! I don’t know what to say to you—you’re all too good to me!”

At Ricky’s books she stared and said: “My dear boy, you’ve been very reckless. Here are more books than I can ever read—now. Why, that’s almost more than they’ve got to start the new library with. And you spent all that money on me!”

At Ricky’s bookstore, she looked around and said, “My dear boy, you’ve been quite reckless. There are more books here than I could ever read right now. Why, that’s nearly more than what they have to kick off the new library with. And you spent all that money on me!”

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It dampened their complacence, but they understood her concealed delight and they forgave her an honest regret at their modest prodigality. For, when they opened her gifts for them, they felt the same reluctance to take the hours and hours of patient knitting for which these stood.

It softened their self-satisfaction, but they recognized her hidden joy and they excused her genuine regret over their simple extravagance. Because when they unwrapped her gifts, they felt the same hesitation to accept the countless hours of careful knitting that these represented.

“Hush, and hurry,” was her comment, “or the minister’ll get us!”

“Hush, and hurry,” she said, “or the minister will catch us!”

The minister and his wife, however, were late. The second side of the turkey was ready and the mince pie hot when, toward noon, they came to the door—a faint little woman and a thin man with beautiful, exhausted eyes. They were both in some light glow of excitement and disregarded Mrs. Tilton’s efforts to take their coats.

The minister and his wife, however, were late. The second side of the turkey was ready and the mince pie was hot when, around noon, they arrived at the door—a delicate little woman and a slim man with beautiful, tired eyes. They both had a slight air of excitement and ignored Mrs. Tilton's attempts to take their coats.

“No,” said the minister’s wife. “No. We do beg your pardon. But we find we have to go into the country this morning.”

“No,” said the minister’s wife. “No. We’re really sorry, but we have to head out to the countryside this morning.”

“It is absolutely necessary to us that we go into the country,” said the minister earnestly. “This morning,” he added impressively.

“It’s really important for us to go out to the countryside,” the minister said earnestly. “This morning,” he added, making a strong point.

“Into the country! You’re going to be here for dinner.”

“Let’s head to the countryside! You’ll be here for dinner.”

They were firm. They had to go into the country. They shook hands almost tenderly with these four guests. “We just heard about you in the post-office,” they said. “Merry Christmas—oh, Merry Christmas! We’ll be back about dark.”

They were determined. They had to head out to the countryside. They shook hands gently with the four guests. “We just heard about you at the post office,” they said. “Merry Christmas—oh, Merry Christmas! We’ll be back around dusk.”

They left their two shabby suitcases on the hall floor and went away.

They left their two worn-out suitcases on the hallway floor and walked away.

“All the clothes they’ve got between them would[114] hardly fill these up,” said Mrs. Tilton mournfully. “Why on earth do you suppose they’d turn their back on a dinner that smells so good and go off into the country at noon on Christmas Day? They wouldn’t do that for another invitation. Likely somebody’s sick,” she ended, her puzzled look denying her tone of finality.

“All the clothes they have combined wouldn’t even fill these up,” Mrs. Tilton said sadly. “Why on earth do you think they would pass up a dinner that smells so good and head out to the country at noon on Christmas Day? They wouldn’t do that for any other invitation. Someone is probably sick,” she concluded, her confused expression contradicting her tone of certainty.

“Well, thank the Lord for the call to the country,” said Ricky shamelessly. “It saved our day.”

“Well, thank God for the call to the country,” said Ricky without any shame. “It saved our day.”

They had their Christmas dinner, they had their afternoon—safe and happy and uninterrupted. Five commonplace-looking folk in a commonplace-looking house, but the eye of love knew that this was not all. In the wide sea of their routine they had found and taken for their own this island day, unforgettable.

They had their Christmas dinner, they had their afternoon—safe and happy and uninterrupted. Five ordinary-looking people in an ordinary-looking house, but the eye of love knew that this was not the whole story. In the vast sea of their routine, they had discovered and claimed this island day as their own, unforgettable.

“I thought it was going to be a gay day,” said Ricky at its close, “but it hasn’t. It’s been heavenly! Mother, shall we give them the rest of their presents now, you and I?”

“I thought it was going to be a fun day,” said Ricky at its end, “but it hasn’t. It’s been amazing! Mom, should we give them the rest of their presents now, you and I?”

“Not yet,” she told them. “Ricky, I want to whisper to you.”

“Not yet,” she said to them. “Ricky, I want to whisper to you.”

She looked so guilty that they all laughed at her. Ricky was laughing when he came back from that brief privacy. He was still laughing mysteriously when his mother turned from a telephone call.

She looked so guilty that they all laughed at her. Ricky was laughing when he came back from that brief moment alone. He was still laughing mysteriously when his mother turned away from a phone call.

“What do you think!” she cried. “That was the woman that brought me my turkey. She knew the minister and his wife were to be with me to-day. She wants to know why they’ve been eating a lunch in a cutter out that way. Do you suppose——”

“What do you think!” she exclaimed. “That was the woman who brought me my turkey. She knew that the minister and his wife were supposed to be with me today. She wants to know why they’ve been having lunch in a sleigh out there. Do you think—”

They all looked at one another doubtfully, then in[115] abrupt conviction. “They went because they wanted us to have the day to ourselves!”

They all glanced at each other uncertainly, then with sudden certainty. “They left so we could have the day to ourselves!”

“Arthur,” said Mrs. Tilton with immense determination, “let me whisper to you, too.” And from that moment’s privacy he also returned smiling, but a bit ruefully.

“Arthur,” said Mrs. Tilton with great determination, “let me whisper to you, too.” And in that moment of privacy, he also returned her smile, though it was a bit wistful.

“Mother ought to be the president of a university,” he said.

“Mom should be the president of a university,” he said.

“Mother ought to be the head of a law firm,” said Edward.

“Mom should run a law firm,” said Edward.

“Mother ought to write a book about herself,” said Ricky.

“Mom should write a book about herself,” said Ricky.

“Mother’s mother,” said Grace, “and that’s enough. But you’re all so mysterious, except me.”

“Mom’s mom,” said Grace, “and that’s all I need to say. But you’re all so mysterious, except for me.”

“Grace,” said Mrs. Tilton, “you remind me that I want to whisper to you.”

“Grace,” said Mrs. Tilton, “you remind me that I want to tell you something privately.”

Their train left in the late afternoon. Through the white streets they walked to the station, the somber little woman, the buoyant, capable daughter, the three big sons. She drew them to seclusion down by the baggage-room and gave them four envelopes.

Their train left in the late afternoon. They walked through the white streets to the station— the serious little woman, the lively, capable daughter, and the three strong sons. She led them to a quiet spot near the baggage room and handed them four envelopes.

“Here’s the rest of my Christmas for you,” she said. “I’d rather you’d open it on the train. Now, Ricky, what’s yours?”

“Here’s the rest of my Christmas gift for you,” she said. “I’d prefer you open it on the train. Now, Ricky, what about yours?”

She was firm to their protests. The train was whistling when Ricky owned up that the rest of his Christmas present for mother was a brand-new daughter, to be acquired as soon as his new book was off the press. “We’re going to marry on the advance royalty,” he said importantly, “and live on—” The rest was lost in the roar of the express.

She stood her ground against their protests. The train was whistling when Ricky admitted that the rest of his Christmas present for their mom was a brand-new sister, which he would get as soon as his new book was published. “We’re going to get married with the advance royalty,” he said seriously, “and live on—” The rest was drowned out by the sound of the express train.

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“Edward!” shouted Mrs. Tilton. “Come here. I want to whisper——”

“Edward!” shouted Mrs. Tilton. “Come here. I want to whisper——”

She was obliged to shout it, whatever it was. But Edward heard, and nodded, and kissed her. There was time for her to slip something in Ricky’s pocket and for the other good-bys, and then the train drew out. From the platform they saw her brave, calm face against the background of the little town. A mother of “grown children” pathetic? She seemed to them at that moment the one supremely triumphant figure in life.

She had to shout it, whatever it was. But Edward heard, nodded, and kissed her. There was time for her to slip something into Ricky’s pocket and for the other goodbyes, and then the train pulled away. From the platform, they saw her brave, calm face against the backdrop of the small town. A mother of "grown children" being pathetic? At that moment, she seemed to them like the one truly triumphant figure in life.

They opened their envelopes soberly and sat soberly over the contents. The note, scribbled to Grace, explained: Mother wanted to divide up now what she had had for them in her will. She would keep one house and live on the rent from the other one, and “here’s all the rest.” They laughed at her postscript:

They opened their envelopes seriously and sat seriously over the contents. The note, hurriedly written to Grace, explained: Mom wanted to split up now what she had intended for them in her will. She would keep one house and live off the rent from the other one, and “here’s everything else.” They laughed at her postscript:

“Don’t argue. I ought to give the most—I’m the mother.”

“Don’t argue. I should give the most—I’m the mom.”

“And look at her,” said Edward solemnly. “As soon as she heard about Ricky, there at the station, she whispered to me that she wanted to send Ricky’s sweetheart the watch I’d just given her. Took it off her wrist then and there.”

“And look at her,” Edward said seriously. “As soon as she heard about Ricky at the station, she whispered to me that she wanted to send Ricky’s girlfriend the watch I’d just given her. She took it off her wrist right then and there.”

“That must be what she slipped in my pocket,” said Ricky.

"That’s probably what she put in my pocket," said Ricky.

It was.

It was.

“She asked me,” he said, “if I minded if she gave those books to the new Springvale public library.”

“She asked me,” he said, “if I minded her giving those books to the new Springvale public library.”

“She asked me,” said Grace, “if I cared if she[117] gave the new rug to the new church that can’t pay its minister.”

“She asked me,” said Grace, “if I cared if she[117] gave the new rug to the new church that can’t pay its minister.”

President Arthur Tilton shouted with laughter.

President Arthur Tilton burst out laughing.

“When we heard where the minister and his wife ate their Christmas dinner,” he said, “she whispered to ask me whether she might give the silk dress to her when they get back to-night.”

“When we heard where the minister and his wife had their Christmas dinner,” he said, “she whispered to ask me if she could give the silk dress to her when they get back tonight.”

All this they knew by the time the train reached the crossing where they could look back on Springvale. On the slope of the hill lay the little cemetery, and Ricky said:

All this they knew by the time the train reached the crossing where they could look back on Springvale. On the slope of the hill lay the small cemetery, and Ricky said:

“And she told me that if my flowers got there before dark, she’d take them up to the cemetery for Christmas for father. By night she won’t have even a flower left to tell her we’ve been there.”

“And she told me that if my flowers got there before dark, she’d take them up to the cemetery for Christmas for Dad. By night, she won’t have even a flower left to show that we’ve been there.”

“Not even the second side of the turkey,” said Grace, “and yet I think——”

“Not even the other side of the turkey,” said Grace, “and yet I think——”

“So do I,” her brothers said.

“So do I,” her brothers replied.

FOOTNOTES:

[7] By permission of the author and the “Delineator.”

[7] With the author's and the “Delineator”’s permission.


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EMMY JANE’S CHRISTMAS[8]

Julia B. Tenney

Julia B. Tenney


Mawnin’, Miss Johnson. Is yer out doin’ yer Chris’mas shoppin’? You sure is de forehandestest pusson I eber did see. Here ’tis five whole days ’fore Chris’mas, an’ you ’most frough gettin’ ready.

Mornin’, Miss Johnson. Are you out doing your Christmas shopping? You really are the most prepared person I’ve ever seen. Here it is five whole days before Christmas, and you’re almost done getting ready.

What ’s we goin’ ter do? Why, jes as usu’l, an’ dat ’s good ’nough fer we. You see, we spends Chris’mas day sorter foragin’ roun’ ’mongst de white folks, an’ c’llectin’ things tergether, an’ ketchin’ ’em Chris’mas gif’; den de nex’ day we all has our Chris’mas.

What are we going to do? Well, just like usual, and that's good enough for us. You see, we spend Christmas Day sort of scavenging among the white folks, collecting things together, and getting our Christmas gifts; then the next day we all have our Christmas.

What? We ain’t got it on de right date? What’s dat got to do wid de ’joyment ob it, I’d like to know? An’, anyhow, no one doan’ know fer sure what is de right date nohow, ’ca’se dere ain’t no one erlivin’ now what was erlive when Chris’mas started in on us, an’ if dere was, I wouldn’ b’lieve him nohow, ’ca’se he’d be too ole ter trus’ his mem’ry. So one day’s as good as anudder, an’ maybe better. Dis here way suits me, an’ it saves er lot ob trouble an’ hard wuk, not ter speak ob de money.

What? We don’t have it on the right date? What does that have to do with the enjoyment of it, I’d like to know? And anyway, no one really knows for sure what the right date is because there isn’t anyone alive now who was around when Christmas first started, and even if there was, I wouldn’t believe them anyway because they’d be too old to trust their memory. So one day is as good as another, or maybe even better. This way works for me, and it saves a lot of trouble and hard work, not to mention the money.

Dis is de way we wuks it, an’ ’scusin’ de walkin’ [119]roun’ an’ totin’ de load home, it ain’t no trouble ’t all.

Dis is the way we work it, and excusing the walking around and carrying the load home, it’s not a problem at all. [119]

We ’vides de city up into pahts. I teks de av’nues, ’Lindy teks de lengthways streets, li’le Polly Ann an’ John Andrew de cross streets, an’ Jeemes William—my ole man—de gen’lemen’s clubs. We all has our own way ob doin’ it, but we all gits de things.

We divide the city into sections. I take the avenues, Lindy takes the main streets, little Polly Ann and John Andrew handle the cross streets, and Jeemes William—my husband—takes care of the gentlemen’s clubs. We all have our own way of doing it, but we all get the job done.

Jeemes William he jes’ stan’s near de do’ ob de club-houses wid his hat in his han’, an’ as de gen’men goes in, he says ter all ob de sassy-lookin’ ones, “Chris’mas gif’, Gen’al,” an’ p’ints ter de army-button what he foun’ in de White Lot, an’ what he puts in his buttonhole on dese ’casions. Den as de South’rn gen’men goes in, he hol’s dat li’le ’Federate flag ober de button an’ says, “Chris’mas gif’, Massa.” An’ I’ve knowed him ter come home wid as much as twelve dollars in his pocket jes f’om his good manners; dey is so skase nowerdays, wid all dis passle ob young niggers growin’ up roun’ here, dat de white folks is willin’ ter pay high fer ’em when dey do come ’cross ’em.

Jeemes William just stands by the door of the clubhouses with his hat in his hand, and as the gentlemen go in, he says to all the sassy-looking ones, “Christmas gift, General,” and points to the army button he found in the White Lot, which he puts in his buttonhole on these occasions. Then when the Southern gentlemen go in, he holds that little Confederate flag over the button and says, “Christmas gift, Massa.” And I’ve known him to come home with as much as twelve dollars in his pocket just from his good manners; they are so rare nowadays, with all these young Black kids growing up around here, that the white folks are willing to pay a lot for them when they do come across them.

’Lindy she puts on dat black alpacky frock of hern an’ er white collar an’ a starched white ap’on, an’ she takes de rich-lookin’ houses an’ rings de bells an’ asks kin she hope out wid de extra wuk jes fur er tas’e ob de Chris’mas-time, an’ dat fetches some one ’fore she’s made more ’n five or six tries, an’ den she jes lays herse’f out ter please de white folks, an’ ebery endurin’ one ob dem gibs her sumpen ’nudder what they doan’ want an’ what somebody else done gib dem, an’ as ’Lindy mos’ in gen’al picks[120] out de big famblies, dere ain’t no mean showin’ f’om her.

’Lindy puts on that black alpaca dress of hers, with her white collar and a starched white apron. She goes to the nice-looking houses, rings the bells, and asks if she can help out with some extra work just for a taste of the holiday season. Usually, someone comes to the door after five or six attempts, and then she really goes all out to please the white folks. Every single one of them gives her something they don’t want and something someone else gave them, and since ’Lindy mostly picks out the big families, she doesn't hold back at all.

Polly Ann an’ John Andrew dey sings “I ’s er-rovin’ li’le darky all de way f’om Alabam’” an’ some yudder sech chunes un’er de winders, an’ folks t’rows dem pennies an’ nickels, an’ lots ob ’em gibs ’em cakes an’ or’nges an’ candy an’ de like er dat.

Polly Ann and John Andrew are singing “I’m a roving little darky all the way from Alabama” and some other songs under the windows, and people throw them pennies and nickels, and a lot of them give them cakes and oranges and candy and things like that.

Me? How do I git my share? Now yer ’ll laugh! Jeemes William say’, “No one would n’t thunk er sech er thing ’cep’in’ you, Emmy Jane,” but I ain’t nuss nine li’le white chillun, ’sides thirteen ob my own piccaninnies, countin’ de halves an’ de dade ones, an’ not learn nothin’ ter hope me ’long in dis world.

Me? How do I get my share? Now you'll laugh! Jeemes William says, "No one would think of such a thing except you, Emmy Jane," but I’m not just nursing nine little white kids, plus thirteen of my own little ones, counting the halves and the dead ones, and not learning anything to help me along in this world.

I jes puts on er clean purple caliker frock an’ er stiff white ap’on wid er white handkuchief roun’ my neck, an’ I ties er colored handkuchief ober my h’ad ter make our kind er white folks ’member de days when we all uster be jes like one family, an’ laugh an’ cry togeder, an’ dat ’s how come it dat I done foun’ out so many ob de quality.

I just put on her clean purple calico dress and her stiff white apron with a white handkerchief around my neck, and I tie a colored handkerchief over my head to remind our kind of white folks of the days when we all used to be like one big family, laughing and crying together, and that’s how I found out so many of the important people.

What I do ’sides dress up like ole times? Well, all de endurin’ year I saves up all de putty fedders f’om de tu’keys an’ chickens an’ geese an’ sech, an’ I gets me er ball ob red cord fer five cents, an’ I ties de fedders up in li’le bunches an’ puts ’em in er basket.

What do I do besides dressing up like old times? Well, all year long I save up all the pretty feathers from the turkeys, chickens, and geese and such, and I get myself a ball of red string for five cents, and I tie the feathers up in little bunches and put them in a basket.

Chris’mas I teks dat basket on my arm, an’ I s’lec’s de houses where dey is babies, an’ dere is plenty ob ’em on de av’nues, too, ’spite ob Mr. Roosterfelt er-sayin’ rich chillun is fallin’ off in[121] comin’ ter our big cities. He oughter hab my job one year an’ see fer hisse’f.

Chris’mas I take that basket on my arm, and I select the houses where there are babies, and there are plenty of them on the avenues too, despite Mr. Roosterfelt saying rich kids are disappearing in coming to our big cities. He should have my job one year and see for himself.

Well, I rings de bell an’ asks kin I gib de baby er Chris’mas gif’, an’ ’most ebery fambly say “Yes,” an’ brings de baby out, an’ acts pleased-like. Den I hol’s out my arms to de li’le chile an’ says, “Come ter Mammy, Honey!” an’ most in gen’al dey jumps right to me, an’ dat settles de mas an’ pas.

Well, I ring the bell and ask if I can give the baby a Christmas gift, and nearly every family says "Yes," and brings the baby out, acting pleased. Then I hold out my arms to the little child and say, "Come to Mommy, Honey!" and usually they jump right to me, and that settles the moms and dads.

Den I s’lec’s er bunch ob fedders an’ gibs dem to de baby. All chillun, white or black, loves to play wid fedders. Reckon it’s ’ca’se dey ain’t so long lef’ dem off in de wing-country what dey come f’om, an’ I tell you dat basket is er heap sight heavier on de home trip dan on de goin’ out.

Den I selects a bunch of feathers and gives them to the baby. All children, white or black, love to play with feathers. I guess it’s because they’re not so long off from the wing-country where they come from, and I tell you that basket is a whole lot heavier on the way back than it was on the way out.

Next day we all brings out our pickin’s an’ we builds er fire in de bes’ room, an’ den’s our Chris’mas.

Next day we all bring out our picks and we build a fire in the best room, and then that's our Christmas.

Doan’ we give no presen’s? Co’s we does. We s’lec’s all de things what we doan’ want, same as de white folks does, an’ we makes er pile ob ’em, den we makes a lis’ ob de names ob de people what we wants ter gib to,—’Lindy she does dat paht, ’ca’se she’s had schoolin’ an’ kin write grand,—den we blin’fol’s li’le John Andrew, an’ ’Lindy she calls out er name, an’ John Andrew grabs er gif’. Dat’s how come you ter git er pair of gallusses, an’ Daddy Bundy er long gingham ap’on las’ year.

Don’t we give gifts? Of course we do. We pick out all the things we don't want, just like the white folks do, and we make a bunch of them, then we create a list of the names of the people we want to give to—’Lindy handles that part because she’s had schooling and can write well—then we blind folks’ little John Andrew, and ’Lindy calls out a name, and John Andrew grabs the gift. That’s how you ended up with a pair of suspenders, and Daddy Bundy got a long gingham apron last year.

I hopes de givin’ dis year will turn ter tu’key an’ cranberry, jes fer de sake ob ole times down home. I sure does get lonesome fer de ole place roun’ ’bout Chris’mas.

I hope this Thanksgiving will turn into turkey and cranberry, just for the sake of old times back home. I really do feel lonely for the old place around Christmas.

FOOTNOTES:

[8] By permission of The Century Co.

[8] By permission of The Century Co.


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DAVID’S STAR OF BETHLEHEM[9]

Christine Whiting Parmenter

Christine Whiting Parmenter


Scott Carson reached home in a bad humor. Nancy, slipping a telltale bit of red ribbon into her workbasket, realized this as soon as he came in.

Scott Carson got home in a bad mood. Nancy, secretly putting a conspicuous piece of red ribbon into her workbasket, noticed this as soon as he walked in.

It was the twenty-first of December, and a white Christmas was promised. Snow had been falling for hours, and in most of the houses wreaths were already in the windows. It was what one calls “a Christmasy-feeling day,” yet, save for that red ribbon in Nancy’s basket, there was no sign in the Carson home of the approaching festival.

It was December 21st, and a white Christmas was expected. Snow had been falling for hours, and in most of the houses, wreaths were already hung in the windows. It was what you'd call “a Christmasy-feeling day,” but apart from that red ribbon in Nancy’s basket, there was no indication in the Carson home of the upcoming celebration.

Scott said, kissing her absent-mindedly and slumping into a big chair, “This snow is the very limit. If the wind starts blowing there’ll be a fierce time with the traffic. My train was twenty minutes late as it is, and—There’s the bell. Who can it be at this hour? I want my dinner.”

Scott said, kissing her absent-mindedly and sinking into a large chair, “This snow is unbelievable. If the wind picks up, traffic’s going to be a nightmare. My train was twenty minutes late as it is, and—There’s the bell. Who could it be at this hour? I want my dinner.”

“I’ll go to the door,” said Nancy hurriedly, as he started up. “Selma’s putting dinner on the table now.”

“I'll head to the door,” Nancy said quickly as he got up. “Selma is setting the table for dinner now.”

Relaxing into his chair Scott heard her open the front door, say something about the storm and, after a moment, wish someone a Merry Christmas.

Relaxing in his chair, Scott heard her open the front door, mention something about the storm, and after a moment, wish someone a Merry Christmas.

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A Merry Christmas! He wondered that she could say it so calmly. Three years ago on Christmas morning, they had lost their boy—swiftly—terribly—without warning. Meningitis, the doctor said. Only a few hours before the child had seemed a healthy, happy youngster, helping them trim the tree; hoping, with a twinkle in the brown eyes so like his mother’s, that Santa Claus would remember the fact that he wanted skis! He had gone happily to bed after Nancy had read them “The Night Before Christmas,” a custom of early childhood’s days that the eleven-year-old lad still clung to. Later his mother remembered, with a pang, that when she kissed him good night he had said his head felt kind of funny. But she had left him light-heartedly enough and gone down to help Scott fill the stockings. Santa had not forgotten the skis; but Jimmy never saw them.

A Merry Christmas! He was surprised she could say it so calmly. Three years ago on Christmas morning, they had lost their boy—quickly—horribly—without any warning. Meningitis, the doctor said. Just a few hours earlier, the child had seemed like a healthy, happy kid, helping them decorate the tree; hoping, with a sparkle in his brown eyes just like his mom's, that Santa Claus would remember he wanted skis! He had gone to bed happily after Nancy had read them “The Night Before Christmas,” a tradition from his early childhood that the eleven-year-old still cherished. Later, his mother remembered, with a pang, that when she kissed him goodnight, he had mentioned his head felt kind of funny. But she had left him feeling cheerful enough and gone downstairs to help Scott fill the stockings. Santa had not forgotten the skis; but Jimmy never got to see them.

Three years—and the memory still hurt so much that the very thought of Christmas was agony to Scott Carson. Jimmy had slipped away just as the carolers stopped innocently beneath his window, their voices rising clear and penetrating on the dawn-sweet air:

Three years—and the memory still hurt so much that just thinking about Christmas was painful for Scott Carson. Jimmy had passed away right when the carolers were quietly gathering under his window, their voices rising clear and piercing in the fresh morning air:

“Silent night—holy night....”

"Silent night—holy night...."

Scott arose suddenly. He must not live over that time again. “Who was it?” he asked gruffly as Nancy joined him, and understanding the gruffness she answered tactfully, “Only the expressman.”

Scott got up suddenly. He could not relive that moment again. “Who was it?” he asked gruffly as Nancy joined him, and understanding his gruffness, she responded tactfully, “Just the expressman.”

“What’d he bring?”

"What did he bring?"

“Just a—a package.”

“Just a package.”

“One naturally supposes that,” replied her husband,[124] with a touch of sarcasm. Then, suspicion gripping him, he burst out, “Look here! If you’ve been getting a Christmas gift for me, I—I won’t have it. I told you I wanted to forget Christmas. I——”

“One would naturally think that,” replied her husband,[124] with a hint of sarcasm. Then, feeling suspicious, he exclaimed, “Wait a minute! If you’ve been planning a Christmas gift for me, I—I don’t want it. I told you I wanted to forget about Christmas. I——”

“I know, dear,” she broke in hastily. “The package was only from Aunt Mary.”

“I know, hon,” she interrupted quickly. “The package was just from Aunt Mary.”

“Didn’t you tell her we weren’t keeping Christmas?” he demanded irritably.

“Didn’t you tell her we weren’t celebrating Christmas?” he asked irritably.

“Yes, Scott; but—but you know Aunt Mary! Come now, dinner’s on and I think it’s a good one. You’ll feel better after you eat.”

“Yes, Scott; but—but you know Aunt Mary! Come on, dinner’s ready, and I think it’s a good one. You’ll feel better after you eat.”

But Scott found it unaccountably hard to eat; and later, when Nancy was reading aloud in an effort to soothe him, he could not follow. She had chosen something humorous and diverting; but in the midst of a paragraph he spoke, and she knew that he had not been listening.

But Scott found it strangely hard to eat; and later, when Nancy was reading aloud to try to calm him down, he couldn’t focus. She had picked something funny and entertaining; but right in the middle of a paragraph, he spoke up, and she realized he hadn’t been paying attention.

“Nancy,” he said, “is there any place—any place on God’s earth where we can get away from Christmas?”

“Nancy,” he said, “is there anywhere—anywhere on God’s earth where we can escape Christmas?”

She looked up, answering with sweet gentleness, “It would be a hard place to find, Scott.”

She looked up and replied softly, “It’d be a tough place to find, Scott.”

He faced her suddenly: “I feel as if I couldn’t stand it—the trees—the carols—the merrymaking, you know. Oh, if I could only sleep this week away! But ... I’ve been thinking.... Would—would you consider for one moment going up to camp with me for a day or two? I’d gone alone, but——”

He turned to her abruptly: “I feel like I can't handle it—the trees—the carols—the celebrations, you know? Oh, if only I could just sleep this week away! But... I've been thinking... Would you maybe think about going up to the camp with me for a day or two? I was going to go alone, but——”

“Alone!” she echoed. “Up there in the wilderness at Christmas time? Do you think I’d let you?”

“Alone!” she repeated. “Up there in the wild during Christmas time? Do you really think I’d allow that?”

“But it would be hard for you, dear, cold and[125] uncomfortable. I’m a brute to ask it, and yet——”

“But it would be tough for you, dear, cold and[125] uncomfortable. I’m selfish to ask it, and yet——”

Nancy was thinking rapidly. They could not escape Christmas, of course. No change of locality could make them forget the anniversary of the day that Jimmy went away. But she was worried about Scott, and the change of scene might help him over the difficult hours ahead. The camp, situated on the mountain a mile from any neighbors, would at least be isolated. There was plenty of bedding, and a big fireplace. It was worth trying.

Nancy was thinking quickly. They couldn't avoid Christmas, of course. No change of scenery could make them forget the day that Jimmy left. But she was concerned about Scott, and getting away might help him through the tough times ahead. The camp, located on the mountain a mile away from any neighbors, would at least be isolated. There was plenty of bedding and a large fireplace. It was worth a shot.

She said, cheerfully, “I’ll go with you, dear. Perhaps the change will make things easier for both of us.”

She said, cheerfully, “I’ll go with you, dear. Maybe the change will make things easier for both of us.”

This was Tuesday, and on Thursday afternoon they stepped off the north-bound train and stood on the platform watching it vanish into the mountains. The day was crisp and cold. “Two above,” the station master told them as they went into the box of a station and moved instinctively toward the red-hot “air-tight” which gave forth grateful warmth.

This was Tuesday, and on Thursday afternoon they got off the north-bound train and stood on the platform, watching it disappear into the mountains. The day was crisp and cold. “Two above,” the station master told them as they entered the small station and instinctively moved toward the red-hot “air-tight” heater that provided welcome warmth.

“I sent a telegram yesterday to Clem Hawkins, over on the mountain road,” said Scott. “I know you don’t deliver a message so far off; but I took a chance. Do you know if he got it?”

“I sent a message yesterday to Clem Hawkins, up on the mountain road,” said Scott. “I know you don’t deliver messages that far away; but I took a chance. Do you know if he got it?”

“Yep. Clem don’t have a ’phone, but the boy come down for some groceries and I sent it up. If I was you, though, I’d stay to the Central House. Seems as if it would be more cheerful—Christmas time.”

“Yeah. Clem doesn’t have a phone, but the kid came down for some groceries and I sent it up. If I were you, though, I’d stick to the Central House. It seems like it would be more cheerful—Christmas time.”

“I guess we’ll be comfortable enough if Hawkins airs out, and lights a fire,” replied Scott, his face hardening at this innocent mention of the holiday.[126] “Is there anyone around here who’ll take us up? I’ll pay well for it, of course.”

“I think we’ll be pretty comfortable if Hawkins opens up the place and starts a fire,” replied Scott, his expression tightening at the casual mention of the holiday.[126] “Is there anyone nearby who can help us with that? I’ll pay well for it, of course.”

“Iry Morse’ll go; but you’ll have to walk from Hawkinses. The road ain’t dug out beyond.... There’s Iry now. You wait, an’ I’ll holler to him. Hey, Iry!” he called, going to the door, “Will you carry these folks up to Hawkinses? They’ll pay for it.”

“Iry Morse will go; but you’ll have to walk from Hawkinses. The road isn’t cleared beyond.... There’s Iry now. Just wait, and I’ll call out to him. Hey, Iry!” he shouted, heading to the door, “Will you take these folks up to Hawkinses? They’ll pay for it.”

“Iry,” a ruddy-faced young farmer, obligingly appeared, his gray work horse hitched to a one-seated sleigh of ancient and uncomfortable design.

“Iry,” a red-faced young farmer, readily showed up, his gray workhorse hitched to a one-seated sleigh of old and uncomfortable style.

“Have to sit three on a seat,” he explained cheerfully; “but we’ll be all the warmer for it. Tuck the buffalo robe ’round the lady’s feet, mister, and you and me’ll use the horse blanket. Want to stop to the store for provisions?”

“Got to fit three on a seat,” he said happily; “but we’ll be even warmer that way. Wrap the buffalo robe around the lady’s feet, sir, and you and I will use the horse blanket. Want to stop at the store for supplies?”

“Yes, I brought some canned stuff, but we’ll need other things,” said Nancy. “I’ve made a list.”

“Yes, I brought some canned food, but we’ll need other things,” said Nancy. “I’ve made a list.”

“Well, you got good courage,” grinned the station master. “I hope you don’t get froze to death up in the woods. Merry Christmas to yer, anyhow!”

“Well, you've got a lot of guts,” grinned the station master. “I hope you don’t freeze to death out in the woods. Merry Christmas to you, anyway!”

“The same to you!” responded Nancy, smiling; and noted with a stab of pain that her husband’s sensitive lips were trembling.

“Right back at you!” Nancy replied with a smile; and she felt a sharp pang of pain as she noticed her husband’s quivering, sensitive lips.

Under Ira’s cheerful conversation, however, Scott relaxed. They talked of crops, the neighbors, and local politics—safe subjects all; but as they passed the district school, where a half-dozen sleighs or flivvers were parked, the man explained: “Folks decoratin’ the school for the doin’s to-morrow afternoon.[127] Christmas tree for the kids, and pieces spoke, and singin’. We got a real live school-ma’am this year, believe me!”

Under Ira’s cheerful chatter, though, Scott started to unwind. They chatted about crops, the neighbors, and local politics—safe topics all; but as they passed the district school, where a half-dozen sleighs or cars were parked, the man explained: “People are decorating the school for the event tomorrow afternoon.[127] Christmas tree for the kids, some speeches, and singing. We’ve got a real live schoolteacher this year, believe me!”

They had reached the road that wound up the mountain toward the Hawkins farm, and as they plodded on, a sudden wind arose that cut their faces. Snow creaked under the runners, and as the sun sank behind the mountain Nancy shivered, not so much with cold as with a sense of loneliness and isolation. It was Scott’s voice that roused her:

They had reached the road that twisted up the mountain toward the Hawkins farm, and as they trudged on, a sudden wind picked up that stung their faces. Snow crunched under the sled, and as the sun dipped behind the mountain, Nancy shivered, not so much from the cold as from a feeling of loneliness and isolation. It was Scott’s voice that brought her back:

“Should we have brought snowshoes? I didn’t realize that we couldn’t be carried all the way.”

“Should we have brought snowshoes? I didn’t realize we couldn’t be carried the whole way.”

“Guess you’ll get there all right,” said Ira. “Snow’s packed hard as a drum-head, and it ain’t likely to thaw yet a while. Here you are,” as he drew up before the weatherbeaten, unpainted farm house. “You better step inside a minute and warm up.”

“Looks like you’ll make it okay,” said Ira. “The snow’s packed down tight, and it’s not going to melt for a bit. Here we are,” as he stopped in front of the weathered, unpainted farmhouse. “You should go inside for a minute and warm up.”

A shrewish-looking woman was already at the door, opening it but a crack, in order to keep out fresh air and cold.

A sour-looking woman was already at the door, opening it just a little to keep out the cold air.

“I think,” said Nancy, with a glance at the deepening shadows, “that we’d better keep right on. I wonder if there’s anybody here who’d help carry our bags and provisions.”

“I think,” said Nancy, looking at the deepening shadows, “that we should keep going. I wonder if there’s anyone here who can help carry our bags and supplies.”

“There ain’t,” answered the woman, stepping outside and pulling a faded gray sweater around her shoulders. “Clem’s gone to East Conroy with the eggs, and Dave’s up to the camp keepin’ yer fire goin’. You can take the sled and carry yer stuff on that. There ’tis, by the gate. Dave’ll bring it back when[128] he comes. An’ tell him to hurry. Like as not, Clem won’t get back in time fer milkin’.”

“There isn’t,” the woman replied, stepping outside and wrapping a worn gray sweater around her shoulders. “Clem went to East Conroy with the eggs, and Dave is at the camp keeping your fire going. You can use the sled to carry your things. It’s over there by the gate. Dave will bring it back when[128] he returns. And make sure to tell him to hurry. Chances are, Clem won’t be back in time for milking.”

“I thought Dave was goin’ to help Teacher decorate the school this afternoon,” ventured Ira. He was unloading their things as he spoke and roping them to the sled.

“I thought Dave was going to help the Teacher decorate the school this afternoon,” said Ira. He was unloading their stuff as he spoke and tying it to the sled.

“So’d he,” responded the woman; “but there wa’n’t no one else to light that fire, was they? Guess it won’t hurt him none to work for his livin’ like other folks. That new school-ma’am, she thinks o’ nothin’ but——”

“So did he,” replied the woman; “but there wasn’t anyone else to start that fire, was there? I guess it won’t hurt him to work for his living like everyone else. That new school teacher, she thinks of nothing but——”

“Oh, look here!” said the young man, straightening up, a belligerent light in his blue eyes, “it’s Christmas! Can Dave go back with me if I stop and milk for him? They’ll be workin’ all evenin’—lots o’ fun for a kid like him, and——”

“Oh, check this out!” said the young man, standing taller, a fierce glint in his blue eyes, “it’s Christmas! Can Dave come back with me if I pause to milk for him? They’ll be working all evening—lots of fun for a kid like him, and——”

“No, he can’t!” snapped the woman. “His head’s enough turned now with speakin’ pieces and singin’ silly songs. You better be gettin’ on, folks. I can’t stand here talkin’ till mornin’.”

“No, he can’t!” the woman snapped. “His head's already messed up enough with all that talk about pieces and singing silly songs. You all better get going. I can’t just stand here chatting till morning.”

She slammed the door, while Ira glared after her retreating figure, kicked the gate post to relieve his feelings, and then grinned sheepishly.

She slammed the door as Ira glared at her disappearing figure, kicked the gate post to let off some steam, and then smiled sheepishly.

“Some grouch! Why, she didn’t even ask you in to get warm! Well, I wouldn’t loiter if I was you. And send that kid right back, or he’ll get worse’n a tongue-lashin’. Well, good-by to you, folks. Hope you have a Merry Christmas.”

“Some grouch! She didn’t even invite you in to get warm! I wouldn’t stick around if I were you. And send that kid right back, or he’ll get worse than a tongue-lashing. Well, bye for now, folks. Hope you have a Merry Christmas.”

The tramp up the mountain passed almost entirely in silence, for it took their united energy to drag the sled up that steep grade against the wind.[129] Scott drew a breath of relief when they beheld the camp, a spiral of smoke rising from its big stone chimney like a welcome promise of warmth.

The hike up the mountain was mostly silent because it took all their strength to pull the sled up the steep slope against the wind.[129] Scott sighed in relief when they saw the camp, with a spiral of smoke rising from its large stone chimney like a comforting promise of warmth.

“Looks grand, doesn’t it? But it’ll be dark before that boy gets home. I wonder how old——”

“Looks impressive, doesn’t it? But it’ll be dark before that kid gets home. I wonder how old——”

They stopped simultaneously as a clear, sweet voice sounded from within the cabin:

They stopped at the same time as a clear, sweet voice came from inside the cabin:

“Silent night ... holy night....”

“My God!”

“Oh my God!”

Scott’s face went suddenly dead white. He threw out a hand as if to brush something away, but Nancy caught it in hers pulling it close against her wildly beating heart.

Scott's face turned pale all at once. He reached out as if to wipe something away, but Nancy grabbed his hand and pulled it close to her racing heart.

“All is calm ... all is bright.”

The childish treble came weirdly from within, while Nancy cried, “Scott—dearest, don’t let go! It’s only the little boy singing the carols he’s learned in school. Don’t you see? Come! Pull yourself together. We must go in.”

The childlike voice came strangely from inside, while Nancy shouted, “Scott—darling, don’t let go! It’s just the little boy singing the carols he learned in school. Don’t you get it? Come on! Get a grip. We have to go in.”

Even as she spoke the door swung open, and through blurred vision they beheld the figure of a boy standing on the threshold. He was a slim little boy with an old, oddly wistful face, and big brown eyes under a thatch of yellow hair.

Even as she spoke, the door swung open, and through blurry vision, they saw a boy standing in the doorway. He was a slim little kid with an old, strangely wistful face, and big brown eyes beneath a mess of yellow hair.

“You the city folks that was comin’ up? Here, I’ll help carry in yer things.”

“You city people who are coming up? Here, let me help you carry in your stuff.”

Before either could protest he was down on his[130] knees in the snow, untying Ira’s knots with skillful fingers. He would have lifted the heavy suit case himself, had not Scott, jerked back to the present by the boy’s action, interfered.

Before either could protest, he was down on his[130] knees in the snow, untying Ira’s knots with skillful fingers. He would have lifted the heavy suitcase himself, if Scott, jolted back to reality by the boy’s action, hadn’t stepped in.

“I’ll carry that in.” His voice sounded queer and shaky. “You take the basket. We’re late, I’m afraid. You’d better hurry home before it gets too dark. Your mother said——”

“I’ll carry that in.” His voice sounded strange and unsteady. “You take the basket. We’re late, I’m afraid. You should hurry home before it gets too dark. Your mom said——”

“I don’t mind the dark,” said the boy quietly, as they went within. “I’ll coast most o’ the way down, anyhow. Guess you heard me singin’ when you come along.” He smiled, a shy, embarrassed smile as he explained: “It was a good chance to practice the Christmas carols. They won’t let me, ’round home. We’re goin’ to have a show at the school to-morrow. I’m one o’ the three kings—you know—‘We three kings of Orient are.’ I sing the first verse all by myself,” he added with childish pride.

“I’m okay with the dark,” the boy said quietly as they walked inside. “I’ll coast most of the way down, anyway. I guess you heard me singing when you passed by.” He smiled, a shy, embarrassed smile as he explained, “It was a good chance to practice the Christmas carols. They won’t let me at home. We’re having a show at school tomorrow. I’m one of the three kings—you know—‘We three kings of Orient are.’ I sing the first verse all by myself,” he added with childlike pride.

There followed a moment’s silence. Nancy was fighting a desire to put her arms about the slim boyish figure, while Scott had turned away, unbuckling the straps of his suit case with fumbling hands. Then Nancy said, “I’m afraid we’ve kept you from helping at the school this afternoon. I’m so sorry.”

There was a brief silence. Nancy was struggling with the urge to wrap her arms around the slim, boyish figure, while Scott had turned away, awkwardly unbuckling the straps of his suitcase. Then Nancy said, “I’m sorry we’ve kept you from helping at the school this afternoon. I really apologize.”

The boy drew a resigned breath that struck her as strangely unchildlike.

The boy took a resigned breath that seemed oddly unchildlike to her.

“You needn’t to mind, ma’am. Maybe they wouldn’t have let me go anyway; and I’ve got to-morrow to think about. I—I been reading one o’ your books. I like to read.”

"You don't need to worry, ma'am. Maybe they wouldn't have let me go anyway; and I have tomorrow to think about. I—I’ve been reading one of your books. I enjoy reading."

“What book was it? Would you like to take it[131] home with you for a—” She glanced at Scott, still on his knees by the suit case, and finished hurriedly—“a Christmas gift?”

“What book was it? Would you like to take it[131] home with you for a—” She looked at Scott, still on his knees by the suitcase, and quickly added—“a Christmas gift?”

“Gee! Wouldn’t I!” His wistful eyes brightened, then clouded. “Is there a place maybe where I could hide it ’round here? They don’t like me to read much to home. They” (a hard look crept into his young eyes), “they burned up the book Teacher gave me a while back. It was ‘David Copperfield,’ and I hadn’t got it finished.”

“Wow! I would love that!” His longing eyes lit up, then dimmed. “Is there somewhere I could maybe hide it around here? They don’t want me reading much at home. They” (a hard look came into his young eyes), “they burned the book the teacher gave me a while ago. It was ‘David Copperfield,’ and I hadn’t finished it.”

There came a crash as Scott, rising suddenly, upset a chair. The child jumped, and then laughed at himself for being startled.

There was a crash as Scott suddenly stood up and knocked over a chair. The child jumped and then laughed at himself for being startled.

“Look here, sonny,” said Scott huskily, “you must be getting home. Can you bring us some milk to-morrow? I’ll find a place to hide your book and tell you about it then. Haven’t you got a warmer coat than this?”

“Hey there, kid,” Scott said in a low voice, “you need to head home. Can you bring us some milk tomorrow? I’ll find a place to hide your book and tell you about it then. Don’t you have a warmer coat than this?”

He lifted a shabby jacket from the settle and held it out while the boy slipped into it.

He picked up a worn-out jacket from the couch and held it out as the boy put it on.

“Thanks, mister,” he said. “It’s hard gettin’ it on because it’s tore inside. They’s only one button,” he added, as Scott groped for them. “She don’t get much time to sew ’em on. I’ll bring up the milk to-morrow mornin’. I got to hurry now or I’ll get fits! Thanks for the book, ma’am. I’d like it better’n anything. Good night.”

“Thanks, sir,” he said. “It’s tough putting it on because it’s torn inside. There’s only one button,” he added, as Scott felt for them. “She doesn’t have much time to sew them on. I’ll bring up the milk tomorrow morning. I need to hurry now, or I’ll lose it! Thanks for the book, ma’am. I’d like it more than anything. Good night.”

Standing at the window Nancy watched him start out in the fast descending dusk. It hurt her to think of that lonely walk; but she thrust the thought aside and turned to Scott, who had lighted a fire[132] on the hearth and seemed absorbed in the dancing flames.

Standing at the window, Nancy watched him head out into the quickly darkening evening. It pained her to think about that lonely walk, but she pushed the thought aside and turned to Scott, who had lit a fire[132] on the hearth and seemed absorbed in the flickering flames.

“That’s good!” she said cheerfully. “I’ll get things started for supper, and then make the bed. I’m weary enough to turn in early. You might bring me the canned stuff in your suit case, Scott. A hot soup ought to taste good to-night.”

“That’s great!” she said happily. “I’ll start preparing dinner and then make the bed. I’m tired enough to go to bed early. You could bring me the canned food in your suitcase, Scott. A hot soup should be really nice tonight.”

She took an apron from her bag and moved toward the tiny kitchen. Dave evidently knew how to build a fire. The stove lids were almost red, and the kettle was singing. Nancy went about her preparations deftly, tired though she was from the unaccustomed tramp, while Scott opened a can of soup, toasted some bread, and carried their meal on a tray to the settles before the hearthfire. It was all very cozy and “Christmasy,” thought Nancy, with the wind blustering outside and the flames leaping up the chimney. But she was strangely quiet. The thought of that lonely little figure trudging off in the gray dusk persisted, despite her efforts to forget. It was Scott who spoke, saying out of a silence, “I wonder how old he is.”

She took an apron from her bag and headed to the small kitchen. Dave clearly knew how to build a fire. The stove lids were nearly glowing red, and the kettle was whistling. Nancy moved through her preparations skillfully, even though she was tired from the unfamiliar hike, while Scott opened a can of soup, toasted some bread, and brought their meal on a tray to the settles in front of the fire. It all felt very cozy and festive, thought Nancy, with the wind howling outside and the flames dancing up the chimney. But she felt unusually quiet. The image of that lonely figure trudging off into the gray dusk lingered in her mind, despite her attempts to forget. It was Scott who broke the silence, saying, “I wonder how old he is.”

“The—the little boy?”

"The little boy?"

He nodded, and she answered gently, “He seemed no older than—I mean, he seemed very young to be milking cows and doing chores.”

He nodded, and she replied softly, “He looked no older than—I mean, he looked really young to be milking cows and doing chores.”

Again Scott nodded, and a moment passed before he said, “The work wouldn’t hurt him though, if he were strong enough; but—did you notice, Nancy, he didn’t look half fed? He is an intelligent little chap, though, and his voice—Good lord!” he broke[133] off suddenly, “how can a shrew like that bring such a child into the world? To burn his book! Nancy, I can’t understand how things are ordered. Here’s that poor boy struggling for development in an unhappy atmosphere—and our Jimmy, who had love, and understanding, and—Tell me, why is it?”

Again Scott nodded, and after a moment he said, “The work wouldn’t hurt him if he were strong enough; but—did you notice, Nancy, he didn’t look well-fed? He’s an intelligent little guy, though, and his voice—Good lord!” he suddenly stopped, “how can a person like that bring such a child into the world? To burn his book! Nancy, I can’t figure out how things work. Here’s that poor boy struggling to thrive in a bad environment—and our Jimmy, who had love, and understanding, and—Tell me, why is it?”

She stretched out a tender hand; but the question remained unanswered, and the meal was finished in silence.

She reached out a gentle hand, but the question went unanswered, and the meal ended in silence.

Dave did not come with the milk next morning. They waited till nearly noon, and then tramped off in the snow-clad, pine-scented woods. It was a glorious day, with diamonds sparkling on every fir tree, and they came back refreshed, and ravenous for their delayed meal. Scott wiped the dishes, whistling as he worked. It struck his wife that he hadn’t whistled like that for months. Later, the last kitchen rites accomplished, she went to the window, where he stood gazing down the trail.

Dave didn’t bring the milk the next morning. They waited until almost noon, then trudged off into the snowy, pine-scented woods. It was a beautiful day, with diamonds sparkling on every fir tree, and they returned feeling refreshed and starving for their missed meal. Scott wiped the dishes, whistling as he worked. His wife noticed that he hadn’t whistled like that in months. Later, after finishing the last kitchen chores, she went to the window, where he was standing, looking down the trail.

“He won’t come now, Scott.”

“He’s not coming now, Scott.”

“The kid? It’s not three yet, Nancy.”

“The kid? He’s not even three yet, Nancy.”

“But the party begins at four. I suppose everyone for miles around will be there. I wish—” She was about to add that she wished they could have gone too, but something in Scott’s face stopped the words. She said instead, “Do you think we’d better go for the milk ourselves?”

“But the party starts at four. I guess everyone for miles will be there. I wish—” She was about to say that she wished they could have gone too, but something in Scott’s expression made her hold back. Instead, she asked, “Do you think we should go get the milk ourselves?”

“What’s the use? They’ll all be at the shindig, even that sour-faced woman, I suppose. But somehow—I feel worried about the boy. If he isn’t here bright and early in the morning I’ll go down and[134] see what’s happened. Looks as if it were clouding up again, doesn’t it? Perhaps we’ll get snowed in!”

“What’s the point? They’ll all be at the party, even that grumpy woman, I guess. But still—I’m worried about the kid. If he’s not here bright and early in the morning, I’ll go down and see what’s gone wrong. Looks like it might be getting cloudy again, doesn’t it? Maybe we’ll get snowed in!”

Big, lazy-looking snowflakes were already beginning to drift down. Scott piled more wood on the fire, and stretched out on the settle for a nap. But Nancy was restless. She found herself standing repeatedly at the window looking at the snow. She was there when at last Scott stirred and wakened. He sat up blinking, and asked, noting the twilight, “How long have I been asleep?”

Big, lazy-looking snowflakes were already starting to fall. Scott added more wood to the fire and kicked back on the couch for a nap. But Nancy couldn't sit still. She kept getting up to look out the window at the snow. She was standing there when Scott finally moved and woke up. He sat up, blinking, and asked, noticing the dusk, “How long have I been asleep?”

Nancy laughed, relieved to hear his voice after the long stillness.

Nancy laughed, feeling relieved to hear his voice after the long silence.

“It’s after five.”

“It’s past five.”

“Good thunder!” He arose, putting an arm across her shoulders. “Poor girl! I haven’t been much company on this trip! But I didn’t sleep well last night, couldn’t get that boy out of my mind. Why, look!” Scott was staring out of the window into the growing dusk. “Here he is now! I thought you said——”

“Good thunder!” He stood up, putting an arm around her shoulders. “Poor girl! I haven’t been much fun on this trip! But I didn’t sleep well last night; I couldn’t stop thinking about that boy. Why, look!” Scott was staring out the window into the darkening evening. “Here he is now! I thought you said——”

He was already at the door, flinging it wide in welcome as he went out to lift the box of milk jars from the sled. It seemed to Nancy, as the child stepped inside, that he looked subtly different—discouraged, she would have said of an older person; and when he raised his eyes she saw the unmistakable signs of recent tears.

He was already at the door, swinging it open in welcome as he went out to grab the box of milk jars from the sled. As the child stepped inside, Nancy thought he looked a bit different—discouraged, she would have described it if he were older; and when he looked up, she noticed the clear signs of recent tears.

“Oh, David!” she exclaimed, “why aren’t you at the party?”

“Oh, David!” she exclaimed, “why aren’t you at the party?”

“I didn’t go.”

"I didn't go."

The boy seemed curiously to have withdrawn into[135] himself. His answer was like a gentle “none of your business”; but Nancy was not without a knowledge of boy nature. She thought, “He’s hurt—dreadfully. He’s afraid to talk for fear he’ll cry; but he’ll feel better to get it off his mind.” She said, drawing him toward the cheerful hearthfire, “But why not, Dave?”

The boy seemed oddly to have pulled back into himself. His response felt like a soft “none of your business,” but Nancy understood boys well. She thought, “He’s hurt—really badly. He’s scared to talk because he might cry; but he’ll feel better if he shares what’s on his mind.” She said, pulling him closer to the warm fire, “But why not, Dave?”

He swallowed, pulling himself together with an heroic effort.

He swallowed, gathering his strength with a heroic effort.

“I had ter milk. The folks have gone to Conroy to Gramma Hawkins’s! I like Gramma Hawkins. She told ’em to be sure an’ bring me; but there wasn’t no one else ter milk, so ... so....”

“I had to milk. The family has gone to Conroy to Gramma Hawkins's! I like Gramma Hawkins. She told them to be sure and bring me; but there wasn't anyone else to milk, so ... so....”

It was Scott who came to the rescue as David’s voice failed suddenly.

It was Scott who stepped in to help when David suddenly lost his voice.

“Are you telling us that your people have gone away, for Christmas, leaving you home alone?”

“Are you saying that your family has left for Christmas, and you’re staying home by yourself?”

The boy nodded, winking back tears as he managed a pathetic smile.

The boy nodded, holding back tears as he forced a sad smile.

“Oh, I wouldn’t ha’ minded so much if—if it hadn’t been for the doin’s at the school. Miss Mary was countin’ on me ter sing, and speak a piece. I don’t know who they could ha’ got to be that wise man.” His face hardened in a way not good to see in a little boy, and he burst out angrily, “Oh, I’d have gone—after they got off! Darn ’em! But they hung ’round till almost four, and—and when I went for my good suit they—they’d hid it—or carried it away!... And there was a Christmas tree....”

“Oh, I wouldn’t have minded so much if—if it hadn’t been for what happened at the school. Miss Mary was counting on me to sing and recite a piece. I don’t know who they could have gotten to be that wise man.” His face hardened in a way that wasn’t good to see in a little boy, and he burst out angrily, “Oh, I would have gone—after they left! Darn them! But they hung around until almost four, and—and when I went for my nice suit they—they’d hidden it—or taken it away!... And there was a Christmas tree....”

His voice faltered again, while Nancy found herself speechless before what she recognized as a devastating[136] disappointment. She glanced at Scott, and was frightened at the consuming anger in his face; but he came forward calmly, laying a steady hand on the boy’s shoulder. He said, and, knowing what the words cost him, Nancy’s heart went out to her husband in adoring gratitude, “Buck up, old scout! We’ll have a Christmas tree! And we’ll have a party too, you and Mother and I—darned if we don’t! You can speak your piece and sing your carols for us. And Mother will read us ‘The’”—for an appreciable moment Scott’s voice faltered, but he went on gamely—“‘The Night Before Christmas.’ Did you ever hear it? And I know some stunts that’ll make your eyes shine. We’ll have our party to-morrow, Christmas Day, sonny; but now” (he was stooping for his overshoes as he spoke), “now we’ll go after that tree before it gets too dark! Come on, Mother. We want you, too!”

His voice wavered again, while Nancy found herself speechless at what she recognized as a heartbreaking disappointment. She looked at Scott and felt scared by the intense anger on his face; but he stepped forward calmly, placing a steady hand on the boy’s shoulder. He said, knowing how much it cost him, and Nancy felt a surge of love and gratitude for her husband, “Cheer up, old buddy! We’re getting a Christmas tree! And we’re having a party too, just you, Mom, and me— I swear we are! You can share your thoughts and sing your carols for us. And Mom will read us ‘The’”—Scott’s voice trailed off for a moment, but he pushed through—“‘The Night Before Christmas.’ Have you ever heard it? I know some tricks that will make your eyes light up. We’ll have our party tomorrow, on Christmas Day, buddy; but right now” (he was bending down for his overshoes as he spoke), “now we’re going to get that tree before it gets too dark! Come on, Mom. We want you along too!”

Mother! Scott hadn’t called her that since Jimmy left them! Through tear-blinded eyes Nancy groped for her coat in the diminutive closet. Darkness was coming swiftly as they went into the snowy forest, but they found their tree, and stopped to cut fragrant green branches for decoration. Not till the tree stood proudly in its corner did they remember the lack of tinsel trimmings; but Scott brushed this aside as a mere nothing.

Mom! Scott hadn’t called her that since Jimmy left them! Through tear-filled eyes, Nancy fumbled for her coat in the small closet. Darkness was quickly setting in as they entered the snowy forest, but they found their tree and stopped to cut fragrant green branches for decorations. It wasn’t until the tree stood proudly in its corner that they remembered they didn’t have any tinsel; but Scott brushed this off as no big deal.

“We’ve got pop corn, and nothing’s prettier. Give us a bit of supper, Nancy, and then I’m going to the village.”

“We’ve got popcorn, and nothing’s more beautiful. Give us a little dinner, Nancy, and then I’m going to the village.”

“The village! At this hour?”

“The village! At this time?”

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“You take my sled, mister,” cried David, and they saw that his eyes were happy once more, and childlike. “You can coast ’most all the way, like lightning! I’ll pop the corn. I’d love to! Gee! it’s lucky I milked before I come away!”

“You take my sled, mister,” David shouted, and they noticed that his eyes were bright and childlike again. “You can slide almost all the way, like lightning! I’ll make the popcorn. I’d love to! Wow! It’s lucky I milked before I left!”

The hours that followed passed like magic to Nancy Carson. Veritable wonders were wrought in that small cabin; and oh, it was good to be planning and playing again with a little boy! Not till the child, who had been up since dawn, had dropped asleep on the settle from sheer weariness, did she add the finishing touches to the scene.

The hours that followed flew by for Nancy Carson. Real magic happened in that small cabin; and oh, it felt great to be planning and playing again with a little boy! It wasn't until the child, who had been up since dawn, fell asleep on the couch from pure exhaustion, that she added the final touches to the scene.

“It’s like a picture of Christmas,” she murmured happily. “The tree, so green and slender with its snowy trimmings—the cone-laden pine at the windows—the bulging stocking at the fireplace, and—and the sleeping boy. I wonder——”

“It’s like a Christmas postcard,” she said happily. “The tree, so green and slim with its snowy decorations—the pine full of cones outside the window— the stuffed stocking by the fireplace, and—and the sleeping boy. I wonder——”

She turned, startled by a step on the creaking snow outside, but it was Scott, of course. He came in quietly, not laden with bundles as she expected, but empty-handed. There was, she thought, a strange excitement in his manner as he glanced ’round the fire-lit room, his eyes resting for a moment on David’s peaceful face. Then he saw the well-filled stocking at the mantel, and his eyes came back unswervingly to hers.

She turned, surprised by a footstep on the creaking snow outside, but it was Scott, of course. He stepped in quietly, not carrying bundles as she expected, but empty-handed. She noticed a strange excitement in his demeanor as he looked around the fire-lit room, his eyes lingering for a moment on David’s peaceful face. Then he noticed the well-filled stocking on the mantel, and his gaze returned focused on hers.

“Nancy! Is—is it——?”

“Nancy! Is it—?”

She drew nearer, and put her arms about him.

She moved closer and wrapped her arms around him.

“Yes, dear, it’s—Jimmy’s—just as we filled it on Christmas Eve three years ago. You see, I couldn’t quite bear to leave it behind us when we came away,[138] lying there in his drawer so lonely—at Christmas time. Tell me you don’t mind, Scott—won’t you? We have our memories, but David—he has so little. That dreadful mother, and——”

“Yes, dear, it’s—Jimmy’s—just as we filled it on Christmas Eve three years ago. You see, I couldn’t quite bring myself to leave it behind when we left, [138] lying there in his drawer all alone—at Christmas time. Please tell me you don’t mind, Scott—will you? We have our memories, but David—he has so little. That awful mother, and——”

Scott cleared his throat; swallowed, and said gently, “He has, I think the loveliest mother in the world!”

Scott cleared his throat, swallowed, and said gently, “I think he has the loveliest mom in the world!”

“What do you mean?”

"What do you mean?"

He drew her down onto the settle that faced the sleeping boy, and answered, “Listen, Nancy. I went to the school-house. I thought perhaps they’d give me something to trim the tree. The party was over, but the teacher was there with Ira Morse, clearing things away. I told them about David—why he hadn’t shown up; and asked some questions. Nancy—what do you think? That Hawkins woman isn’t the child’s mother! I knew it!

He pulled her down onto the couch that overlooked the sleeping boy and said, “Listen, Nancy. I went to the schoolhouse. I thought maybe they’d have something for me to decorate the tree. The party was over, but the teacher was there with Ira Morse, cleaning up. I told them about David—why he hadn’t come; and asked a few questions. Nancy—what do you think? That Hawkins woman isn’t the child’s mother! I knew it!

“Nobody around here ever saw her. She died when David was a baby, and his father, half crazed, the natives thought, with grief, brought the child here, and lived like a hermit on the mountain. He died when Dave was about six, and as no one claimed the youngster, and there was no orphan asylum within miles, he was sent to the poor farm, and stayed there until last year, when Clem Hawkins wanted a boy to help do chores, and Dave was the cheapest thing in sight. Guess you wonder where I’ve been all this time? Well, I’ve been interviewing the overseer of the poor—destroying red tape by the yard—resorting to bribery and corruption! But—Hello, old man, did I wake you up?”

“ nobody around here ever saw her. She died when David was a baby, and his dad, who the locals thought was half crazy with grief, brought the child here and lived like a hermit on the mountain. He died when Dave was about six, and since no one claimed the kid and there wasn’t an orphanage nearby, he was sent to the poor farm and stayed there until last year when Clem Hawkins wanted a boy to help with chores, and Dave was the cheapest option available. I guess you’re wondering where I’ve been all this time? Well, I’ve been talking to the overseer of the poor—cutting through all the red tape—working my way through bribery and corruption! But—Hey, old man, did I wake you up?”

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David, roused suddenly, rubbed his eyes. Then, spying the stocking, he wakened thoroughly, and asked, “Say! Is—is it Christmas?”

David, suddenly awake, rubbed his eyes. Then, spotting the stocking, he fully woke up and asked, “Hey! Is it Christmas?”

Scott laughed, and glanced at his watch.

Scott laughed and looked at his watch.

“It will be, in twelve minutes. Come here, sonny.”

“It'll be in twelve minutes. Come here, kid.”

He drew the boy onto his knee, and went on quietly: “The stores were closed, David, when I reached the village. I couldn’t buy you a Christmas gift, you see. But I thought if we gave you a real mother, and—and a father——”

He pulled the boy onto his lap and continued softly, “The shops were closed, David, when I got to the village. I couldn't buy you a Christmas gift, you see. But I thought if we could give you a real mother, and—and a father——”

“Oh, Scott!”

“Oh my God, Scott!”

It was a cry of rapture from Nancy. She had, of course, suspected the ending to his story, but not until that moment had she let herself really believe it. Then, seeing the child’s bewilderment, she explained, “He means, dear, that you’re our boy now—for always.”

It was a joyful shout from Nancy. She had, of course, suspected how his story would end, but she hadn’t allowed herself to truly believe it until that moment. Then, noticing the child's confusion, she explained, “He means, sweetheart, that you’re our boy now—for always.”

David looked up, his brown eyes big with wonder.

David looked up, his brown eyes wide with amazement.

“And I needn’t go back to Hawkins’s? Not ever?”

“And I don’t have to go back to Hawkins's? Not ever?”

“Not ever,” Scott promised, while his throat tightened at the relief in the boy’s voice.

“Not ever,” Scott promised, feeling a knot in his throat from the relief in the boy’s voice.

“And I’ll have folks, same as the other kids?”

“And I’ll have friends, just like the other kids?”

“You’ve guessed right.” The new father spoke lightly in an effort to conceal his feeling. “That is, if you think we’ll do!” he added, smiling.

“You’ve guessed right.” The new dad said casually, trying to hide his emotions. “That is, if you think we’ll make it!” he added, smiling.

“Oh, you’ll——”

“Oh, you will——”

Suddenly inarticulate, David turned, throwing his thin arms around Scott’s neck in a strangling, boylike hug. Then, a bit ashamed because such things were new to him, he slipped away, standing with his back to them at the window, trying, they saw with understanding[140] hearts, to visualize this unbelievable thing that had come, a miracle, into his starved life. When after a silence they joined him, the candle on the table flared up for a protesting moment, and then went out. Only starlight and firelight lit the cabin now; and Nancy, peering into the night, said gently, “How beautifully it has cleared! I think I never saw the stars so bright.”

Suddenly at a loss for words, David turned and threw his thin arms around Scott’s neck in a tight, childlike hug. Then, feeling a bit embarrassed because this was new for him, he pulled away and stood with his back to them at the window, trying, as they understood, to imagine this incredible miracle that had come into his starving life. After a moment of silence, when they joined him, the candle on the table flickered brightly for a moment, then went out. Now, only starlight and firelight illuminated the cabin; and Nancy, looking into the night, said gently, “How beautifully it has cleared! I don’t think I’ve ever seen the stars so bright.”

“Christmas stars,” Scott reminded her and, knowing the memory that brought the roughness to his voice, she caught and clasped his hand.

“Christmas stars,” Scott reminded her, and understanding what memory made his voice rough, she took his hand and held it tightly.

It was David who spoke next. He was leaning close to the window, his elbows resting on the sill, his face cupped in his two hands. He seemed to have forgotten them as he said dreamily, “It’s Christmas.... Silent night ... holy night ... like the song. I wonder—” He looked up trustfully into the faces above him—“I wonder if—if maybe one of them stars isn’t the Star of Bethlehem!”

It was David who spoke next. He was leaning close to the window, his elbows resting on the sill, his face cradled in his hands. He seemed to have forgotten them as he said dreamily, “It’s Christmas.... Silent night ... holy night ... like the song. I wonder—” He looked up trustfully into the faces above him—“I wonder if—if maybe one of those stars is the Star of Bethlehem!”

FOOTNOTES:

[9] Reprinted from the “American Magazine” by permission of the author.

[9] Reprinted from the “American Magazine” with permission from the author.


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A GOD IN ISRAEL[10]

Norman Duncan

Norman Duncan


James Falcontent, of Groot & McCarthy, was in the most singular fashion to be imagined struck with ominous amazement. And big James Falcontent had got well past the years of simplicity; he was not easily startled. The Fifth Avenue bus had stopped; Falcontent had glanced up from his musing—a purely commercial calculation, being nothing more romantic than some trick of the trade having to do with the sale of boots and shoes. But what Falcontent had then observed—he was gently yawning at the time—nevertheless astounded him beyond recent experience. Moreover, it led him eventually to far-away places and engrossed him in preposterous emotions. Here, indeed, was the first flutter of the wings of Fate. No; it was not a woman. A splendid, high-stepping, modish creature, of impeccable propriety, of gracious, aristocratic demeanor, might mildly have interested James Falcontent in passing. But since the last departure of Matilda—well, since the death of Falcontent’s wife, Falcontent had persuaded himself that women were not at all pertinent to his life in the world. No; it was not a woman. Nothing of the sort! A church had dumfounded Falcontent.

James Falcontent, from Groot & McCarthy, was struck with a wave of ominous amazement in the most unusual way. And big James Falcontent had long passed the age of innocence; he wasn't easily surprised. The Fifth Avenue bus had come to a stop; Falcontent had looked up from his thoughts—a purely business calculation, merely a bit of trade knowledge related to selling boots and shoes. But what Falcontent saw next—he was idly yawning at the time—astonished him more than he had experienced in a while. Moreover, it eventually took him to distant places and filled him with absurd emotions. Here, indeed, was the first flutter of Fate's wings. No; it wasn't a woman. A magnificent, stylish figure, with impeccable manners and an elegant, aristocratic presence, might have mildly caught James Falcontent's interest as she passed by. But ever since Matilda's last departure—well, since the death of Falcontent’s wife—he had convinced himself that women were no longer relevant to his life. No; it wasn't a woman. Nothing like that! A church had left Falcontent speechless.

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Nobody was going in or out; the bronze doors were closed and doubtless locked fast against untimely intrusion.

Nobody was going in or out; the bronze doors were closed and probably locked tight against any unwanted intrusion.

“Shut down for the week, by George!” Falcontent commented, in astonishment.

“Shut down for the week, no way!” Falcontent said, shocked.

It was a gigantic building occupying a great block of what Falcontent called in his business lingo high-class real estate. And it was truly a magnificent edifice. It occurred all at once to Falcontent that a plant of this spaciousness and exquisite exterior, running full time, as it were, only on Sundays, with occasional week-day operations, situated in a neighborhood in which real-estate values were of such an appalling character that few men could look upon them and live thereafter without horrified envy, must have an enormous patronage to support it. That is to say, a good many people of consequence must still be going to church. And it astonished Falcontent to the very deeps of his knowledge of the world to confront this visible evidence of what he had for a good many years conceived to have become an old-fashioned and generally abandoned habit of piety. Moreover, Falcontent could recall other churches. There were hundreds of them. There were thousands. Good Lord, there must be millions—the country over! And most of them, Falcontent was shocked to remember, were of an extravagant magnitude and elegance, each according to its community.

It was a huge building taking up an entire block of what Falcontent referred to in his business terms as prime real estate. And it was indeed a stunning structure. Suddenly, it struck Falcontent that a place this spacious and beautifully designed, operating primarily on Sundays with some weekday functions, located in a neighborhood where property values were so ridiculously high that few could look at them without feeling a mix of envy and horror, must have a massive clientele to sustain it. In other words, a lot of important people must still be going to church. It shocked Falcontent to the core of his understanding of the world to see this clear evidence of what he had long thought was an outdated and largely abandoned practice of faith. Furthermore, Falcontent remembered other churches. There were hundreds of them. There were thousands. Good grief, there must be millions across the country! And most of them, Falcontent was taken aback to realize, were extravagantly large and elegant, each according to its community.

What the deuce did people still go to church for, anyhow? Nobody that Falcontent was intimate with[143] ever went to church. But there must still be something in it!

What on earth were people still going to church for, anyway? No one that Falcontent was close with[143] ever went to church. But there must still be something to it!

Falcontent began to ponder this odd disclosure when the bus got under way. Thus: Well, anyhow, the young women, God bless ’em! went to church to display their dainty little attractions and to assert each her peculiar interpretation of the fashions of the day. Of course! That was plain enough. It always had been that way. It was tenderly feminine, too—a most engaging weakness of the sex. And the young men—amorous young sparks of the town—followed the young women. A very natural and proper thing! It always had been that way. And Falcontent had done it himself—long ago. The delectable business of mating, then, accounted for a good deal. But not for very much. Still, there were the aged. They went to church, of course, for the traditional consolations of religion. Falcontent wondered, flushed with melancholy, whether or not they got what they went for. Probably not. Falcontent did not know. He had heard rumors to the contrary; and these rumors now mightily incensed him. Hang it all, anyhow! There was nothing specific or downright any more. Doubtless the old-fashioned religion, such as Falcontent had known as a boy, was in these days altogether a thing of the past.

Falcontent started to think about this strange revelation as the bus took off. Well, anyway, the young women, bless them! went to church to show off their pretty little looks and to demonstrate their own take on the latest fashions. Of course! That was obvious. It had always been that way. It was wonderfully feminine too—a charming little quirk of the sex. And the young men—romantic young sparks of the town—chased after the young women. A completely natural and appropriate thing! It had always been that way. And Falcontent had done it himself—a long time ago. The delightful business of pairing up, then, explained a lot. But not everything. Still, there were the older folks. They went to church, of course, for the traditional comforts of faith. Falcontent wondered, feeling a bit sad, whether they actually got what they were looking for. Probably not. Falcontent wasn't sure. He had heard rumors that suggested otherwise, and those rumors really frustrated him. Damn it all! There was nothing clear or straightforward anymore. Surely the old-fashioned religion that Falcontent had known as a boy was long gone.

“The devil!” Falcontent thought, out of temper with the times; “they might at least have preserved that institution for a while—for one more generation—if for nothing more than mere sentiment’s sake.”

“The devil!” Falcontent thought, feeling frustrated with the times; “they could have at least kept that institution around for a little longer—for one more generation—if only for the sake of sentiment.”

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Deuce take it all!

Deuce take everything!

“Of course the thing had to go to the scrap-heap; but still—for a few more years——”

“Of course it had to be thrown away; but still—for a few more years——”

Other folk went to church, as Falcontent very well knew; men of largest riches, for example, whose hobby was pious behavior in private life, and who voiced with amusing precision in the Sunday-schools the antique platitudes of piety. Falcontent grinned grimly when this crossed his mind with significance. Groot, of Groot & McCarthy, was a man cut from that cloth. But never mind Groot! The upkeep of these expensive establishments was not by any means to be accounted for by the piety of Falcontent’s unctuous boss. What the deuce did keep the churches on their feet? Well, there was just one adequate answer; there must still be a vast body of—of—well, of consumers of religion, so to speak—of paying patrons of religious exercises—whom Falcontent had forgotten, and of whose needs and ancient practices he had continued in surprising ignorance. It was these substantial folk who kept the churches in what was obviously a thriving state of health. Churches in the city, churches in the towns—churches the whole country over. Steeples everywhere, by George! Good Lord, there must be a big bunch of people in the country—like that!

Other people went to church, as Falcontent knew very well; wealthy men, for instance, whose pastime was acting piously in private and who recited the old cliches of faith with amusing accuracy in Sunday schools. Falcontent grinned grimly when he thought about this. Groot, from Groot & McCarthy, was exactly that kind of person. But forget Groot! The costs of these high-maintenance places were definitely not covered by the piety of Falcontent’s smooth-talking boss. What on earth kept the churches going? Well, there was only one good answer: there must still be a large group of—of—well, of religious consumers, so to speak—paying supporters of religious activities—whom Falcontent had overlooked, and he was surprisingly unaware of their needs and long-standing practices. It was these solid people who kept the churches in what was clearly a healthy and thriving state. Churches in the city, churches in the towns—churches all over the country. Steeples everywhere, for goodness' sake! Good Lord, there must be a huge number of people like that in the country!

They were the real people, too. They were always the real people. No matter what sort of big industry their patronage kept on its feet—they were the real people! And every business man knew it.

They were the real deal, too. They were always the real deal. No matter what kind of major industry their support kept going—they were the real deal! And every businessman knew it.

“These people are not giving something for nothing,”[145] Falcontent reflected, somewhat disturbed by this novelty of truth. “They’re getting something out of it.”

“These people are not giving something for nothing,”[145] Falcontent thought, feeling a bit uncomfortable with this new idea of truth. “They’re getting something out of it.”

That was a business proposition.

That was a business deal.

“I wonder,” Falcontent puzzled, “what the deuce they do get out of it—in these days.”

“I wonder,” Falcontent said, “what the heck they get out of it—in these days.”

Falcontent was himself a robust fellow. He was highly efficient: he was a hustler—of the most up-to-date and scientifically efficient sort. And he conformed: he was sane according to every notion of the times. In shirts, shoes, hose, cravats, hair-cut, occupation, waist-line, language, habits, interest, antipathies, finger-nails, clean-shaven condition, oaths, charities—in everything a man might be disposed to call in question—Falcontent was of the day and proper beyond quibble. He gave no sign even of the subtle beginnings of peculiarity. He was precisely like everybody else in the world: it would have horrified him—grieved and shamed him—to discover any symptom of significant difference. In brief, Falcontent was in vigorous health. Not an alienist of virtuous reputation could have discovered in him the least divergence from the straight line of normality.

Falcontent was a strong guy. He was incredibly efficient: he was a hustler—modern and scientifically efficient. And he fit right in: he was considered sane by every standard of the time. In shirts, shoes, socks, ties, hairstyle, job, waist size, language, habits, likes, dislikes, fingernails, clean-shaven look, swearing, charities—in everything someone might question—Falcontent was completely current and proper without debate. He showed no signs of even the slightest oddity. He was exactly like everyone else in the world: it would have horrified him—upset and embarrassed him—to find any indication of significant difference. In short, Falcontent was in great health. Not even a reputable mental health professional could have found any deviation from the straight path of normality in him.

Nor could a surgeon with due regard for the ethics of his profession have found in Falcontent any honest occupation for his knife; nor could a devoted practitioner of internal medicine have supplied a need of Falcontent’s hearty body.

Nor could a surgeon, with respect for the ethics of his profession, have found any legitimate reason to use his knife on Falcontent; nor could a dedicated internist have provided for Falcontent’s robust health.

Falcontent’s soul? Falcontent had no soul. Or rather, to be precise, he had a soul, of course. Everybody has a soul. Nobody doubts that any more; it is[146] not in good taste even to discuss the thing. But Falcontent was not abnormally conscious of having a soul. Nobody in Falcontent’s world acknowledged the possession of a soul. Falcontent’s soul took care of itself; it did not trouble him. And had such a phantom of his childhood lingered to distress him—to cry out for the bread and water of attention,—Falcontent would with caution have concealed its aggravating habits from the normal fellows with whom he was accustomed to mingle upon terms of the most normally jovial good-fellowship. Falcontent—with a troublesome soul? You should have heard Falcontent laugh! A big, ruddy, big-hearted chap—that was James Falcontent; a clean, kindly, hopeful, energetic, merry fellow, given to no meanness, to no greed, to no unworthy pride, to no dishonor whatsoever.

Falcontent’s soul? Falcontent had no soul. Or, to be exact, he had a soul, of course. Everyone has a soul. Nobody doubts that anymore; it’s not even considered polite to discuss it. But Falcontent was not unusually aware of having a soul. Nobody in Falcontent’s world acknowledged that they had a soul. Falcontent’s soul took care of itself; it didn’t bother him. And if a remnant of his childhood had lingered to trouble him—to cry out for the basic need for attention—Falcontent would have carefully hidden its annoying habits from the ordinary people with whom he mingled, on the friendliest terms. Falcontent—with a troublesome soul? You should have heard Falcontent laugh! A big, hearty, big-hearted guy—that was James Falcontent; a clean, kind, hopeful, energetic, happy fellow, with no meanness, no greed, no unworthy pride, and no dishonor whatsoever.

Big James Falcontent surely stood in no peril of the machinations of mysticism.

Big James Falcontent was certainly not at risk from the schemes of mysticism.

But——

But—

“I don’t know,” Falcontent brooded, as the bus sped on up Fifth Avenue, “but that little Jimmie had better start in going to Sunday-school.”

“I don’t know,” Falcontent thought, as the bus sped up Fifth Avenue, “but that little Jimmie really needs to start going to Sunday school.”

All very well! But little Jimmie might contract a morbid piety. He might become—an angelic child! Oh, Lord!... Doubtless revival-meetings were still in the fashion. And some vivid gentleman with a bright brass cornet or a tinkling banjo might catch the poor little devil.... Well, how about it? That was all right, wasn’t it? Jimmie had to rough it, hadn’t he?—as his father had done. Jimmie was going to the public school; he was taking his chances[147] there like a little man—and surviving, too. That kid sure had the stuff in him.... But if Jimmie should turn out a parson?... Falcontent gulped. Parsons, poets, and pianists: they were the same sort of thing in Falcontent’s primitive category of the professions.... Well, anyhow, how about that? That was Jimmie’s business, wasn’t it? What right had Falcontent to butt in? If Jimmie really wanted to be a parson—or a poet—or even a pianist.... No: Falcontent could not with any degree of pride listen to suave sermons from Jimmie. Nor could he endure to hear Jimmie read poetry of his own composition; nor could he with fond equanimity observe Jimmie’s manipulation of the piano—no matter how astonishingly skilful.

All well and good! But little Jimmie might develop an unhealthy religious zeal. He could end up as—an angelic child! Oh, come on!... Revival meetings were probably still popular. And some lively guy with a shiny cornet or a jangly banjo might pull the poor kid in.... So, what about that? That was fine, right? Jimmie had to tough it out, didn’t he?—just like his dad. Jimmie was going to public school; he was taking his chances there like a champ—and making it, too. That kid definitely had the right stuff.... But what if Jimmie turned out to be a preacher?... Falcontent swallowed hard. Preachers, poets, and pianists: in Falcontent’s simple view of careers, they were all kind of the same.... Well, anyways, what about that? That was Jimmie’s choice, wasn’t it? What business did Falcontent have stepping in? If Jimmie really wanted to be a preacher—or a poet—or even a pianist.... No way: Falcontent could not proudly listen to smooth sermons from Jimmie. Nor could he stand hearing Jimmie read his own poetry; nor could he calmly watch Jimmie play the piano—no matter how impressively skilled he was.

Come to think of it, it was little Jimmie’s future—and the good prospect of a business partnership with little Jimmie—that kept James Falcontent the decent, kindly, upright fellow that he was. And not an uncommon sort of thing, either! Falcontent looked forward. Hope was his; also faith.

Come to think of it, it was little Jimmie’s future—and the promising opportunity for a business partnership with little Jimmie—that kept James Falcontent the decent, kind, and upright person he was. And that’s not an unusual thing, either! Falcontent looked ahead. Hope was his; so was faith.

“Anyhow,” he determined, “little Jimmie has got to take his chance. I took mine.”

“Anyway,” he decided, “little Jimmie has to take his shot. I took mine.”

Having so determined, Falcontent’s muse merged into a grinning reminiscence of New England days—long-ago times of top-boots and mufflers and chapped hands and drowsy sermons. Had Falcontent’s next neighbor on the right peered over his spectacles and all at once demanded, “What is the chief end of man?” Falcontent would promptly have replied, “To glorify God and enjoy Him forever!”[148] and would have chuckled the most hearty enjoyment of his own cleverness. And had the dainty old lady opposite inquired, “What is sanctification?” Falcontent would have been impelled to make an awkward attempt to answer the appalling old question—stumbling, of course, over the very words upon which he had always stubbed the toes of his memory. And had the prim and pretty young person to the left smilingly requested a complete statement of the Fifth Commandment, Falcontent would surely have gained her approval by reciting the Fifth Commandment with twinkling precision. Well, well, those days were long past! And since then Falcontent’s attention had not been unduly aggravated in the direction of God. Falcontent had been busy making good. Queer, though, how the old doctrines would persist in a man’s memory!

Having made up his mind, Falcontent's thoughts drifted into a nostalgic memory of New England days—long-ago times of tall boots and scarves, chapped hands, and sleepy sermons. If Falcontent’s neighbor on the right had looked over his glasses and suddenly asked, “What is the main purpose of man?” Falcontent would have instantly responded, “To glorify God and enjoy Him forever!”[148] and would have laughed heartily at his own cleverness. And if the delicate old lady across from him had asked, “What is sanctification?” Falcontent would have felt compelled to awkwardly try to answer that daunting old question—stumbling, of course, over the very words that had always tripped him up. And if the prim and pretty young woman on the left had sweetly asked for a complete statement of the Fifth Commandment, Falcontent would surely have won her approval by reciting it with charming accuracy. Well, those days were far behind! And since then, Falcontent's focus hadn't been overly directed towards God. Falcontent had been busy doing well for himself. It's funny how old beliefs can stick with a person!

Falcontent had made good. He was city salesman for Groot & McCarthy—Boston, New York, and Philadelphia—earning with conspicuous merit and spending with conspicuous generosity ten thousand a year.

Falcontent had done well. He was a city salesman for Groot & McCarthy—Boston, New York, and Philadelphia—making a solid income and spending freely with a generosity of ten thousand a year.

“It’s Sunday-school for little Jimmie!” he concluded, with a smile, as he jumped off the bus and stepped jauntily to the pavement. “I went.”

“It's Sunday school for little Jimmie!” he said with a smile as he hopped off the bus and walked cheerfully to the sidewalk. “I went.”

Subsequently Falcontent’s attention was frequently aggravated—and with persistent assiduity—in the direction of those religious mysteries whose very existence he had forgotten in the business of getting on in the world. And Falcontent was delighted to discover that he could enlighten Jimmie—with the[149] same enlightenment that he himself had long ago enjoyed. Almighty queer how those old doctrines just would continue in a man’s memory!...

Subsequently, Falcontent's attention was often drawn—and with consistent effort—toward those religious mysteries he had completely forgotten while trying to succeed in life. He was thrilled to realize that he could enlighten Jimmie—with the same insights he had once enjoyed. It's really strange how those old beliefs just stick in a person's memory!...


Some six months after his amazing experience on Fifth Avenue, Falcontent sat, a broken man, in the street arbor of an obscure French hotel in Cairo. He was alone: he was lonely. Jimmie was dead. Good God, how lonely it was without him—without the faith in his future!... And Cairo was an outlandish place. It was the real thing, too: here was no Coney Island plaster and paint. By George, how much like Coney Island the East was! But a man could not here catch the B. R. T. for New York and get there before bedtime. Falcontent was astonished and deeply disgruntled to find himself in a corner of the world so detestably foreign and far away and absurd. It was horribly outlandish. Everything was outlandish: the shuffle of the street, soft, suspicious; and the mutter of the street, not honest, hearty, but guttural, villainously low-pitched, incomprehensible; and the laughter of the street, gurgling with ridicule; and the veiled women in the carriages, and the painted, plumed women who drove with outriders, and the skirted natives, twirling flirtatious little canes or daintily fingering strings of glass beads, and the beggars, and the dark faces, the uniforms of the military, the incredible arrogance of the niggers, the ear-rings, camels, cocked red fezzes.... And the Continental women, going in and out—swishing, chattering, smeared little creatures! And the Continental men;[150] hairy, smirking, gabbing, posturing, stage-clad caricatures—oh, ow! what waists! what mustaches! what hats! Surely one might fairly expect some comfort from the mere caravansary contact with Europeans! But—these!... It was hot weather, too. Whew! Falcontent was in a summer’s-day sweat in the open—and here it was night and coming on late in November!... There were none of the shipmates of Falcontent’s crossing about. They had begun to avoid Falcontent long before the landing at Alexandria; and Falcontent had taken care to avoid them since the landing. Glimpses of the familiar in the Cairo confusion only annoyed Falcontent the more by creating in his wretched spirit a mirage of that which was altogether familiar—Home.... And Falcontent determined that he must have another beastly brandy-and-soda....

Some six months after his incredible experience on Fifth Avenue, Falcontent sat, a broken man, in the street arbor of a little-known French hotel in Cairo. He was alone: he was lonely. Jimmie was dead. Good God, how lonely it was without him—without the hope for his future!... And Cairo was a strange place. It was the real deal, too: this was no Coney Island with its fake attractions. By George, how much like Coney Island the East was! But a man couldn’t catch the B.R.T. to New York and get there before bedtime. Falcontent was shocked and deeply frustrated to find himself in a corner of the world that felt so intolerably foreign, far away, and absurd. It was horribly bizarre. Everything was outlandish: the shuffle of the street, soft and suspicious; and the murmur of the street, not honest or hearty, but guttural, villainously low-pitched and incomprehensible; and the laughter of the street, bubbling with ridicule; and the veiled women in carriages, and the painted, plumed women driving with escorts, and the skirted locals, twirling flirtatious little canes or delicately fingering strings of glass beads, and the beggars, and the dark faces, the uniforms of military personnel, the outrageous arrogance of the locals, the earrings, camels, cocked red fezzes.... And the Continental women, moving in and out—swishing, chatting, smeared little creatures! And the Continental men; hairy, grinning, chatting, posing, dressed like caricatures—oh, ow! what waistlines! what mustaches! what hats! Surely one might expect some comfort from just being around Europeans! But—these!... It was hot weather, too. Whew! Falcontent was drenched in summer sweat outside—and here it was night and getting late in November!... None of Falcontent’s shipmates from the crossing were around. They had started to avoid him long before they landed in Alexandria; and Falcontent had been careful to avoid them since they landed. Catching glimpses of the familiar in the Cairo chaos only frustrated Falcontent more by creating in his miserable spirit a mirage of what was truly familiar—Home.... And Falcontent decided that he needed another awful brandy-and-soda....


Big Jim Falcontent was a broken man. Dragged from a decent seclusion, stated in clear, straightaway, brief, bald terms, which anybody can understand, Falcontent’s trouble was this: he was now fully aware that he had no God. And that was all that was normally the matter with Falcontent. Queer enough, perhaps, but true. No material happening of Falcontent’s life could excuse or account for the ghastly collapse of his spirit. Falcontent was an infidel: Falcontent was an atheist. He had so declared himself. It was his best boast. Falcontent had said in his heart, “There is no God.” But there are no longer any infidels: the infidels of other times now denounce[151] the social system. Nobody denounces faith. A decent man, being extraordinarily troubled, says to himself: “Oh, well, that’s all right! I don’t know anything about it, anyhow. I’ll just have to take my chances with the rest of the boys.” The talkative Falcontent found himself without listeners: he was distasteful to his company. Bartenders would not humor his argument; baseball patrons fled his neighborhood—and his approach instantly dispersed every circle of his club-mates.

Big Jim Falcontent was a broken man. Dragged out of a decent seclusion, put in clear, straightforward, simple terms that anyone can understand, Falcontent’s problem was this: he was now fully aware that he had no God. That was usually the only issue with Falcontent. Strange enough, perhaps, but true. No event in Falcontent’s life could justify or explain the terrible collapse of his spirit. Falcontent was an infidel: Falcontent was an atheist. He had openly declared it. It was his greatest claim to fame. Falcontent had said to himself, “There is no God.” But there are no longer any infidels: the infidels of previous times now criticize the social system. Nobody criticizes faith. A decent man, being extraordinarily disturbed, tells himself: “Oh, well, that’s fine! I don’t know much about it anyway. I’ll just have to roll with the punches like everyone else.” The talkative Falcontent found himself without an audience: he was unwelcome among his peers. Bartenders would not entertain his arguments; baseball fans avoided his neighborhood—and his presence instantly broke up every group of his club-mates.

“What the devil’s the matter with Falcontent?”

“What the heck is wrong with Falcontent?”

“Why can’t the fellow keep it to himself?”

“Why can’t he keep it to himself?”

“Sorry? Why, sure! But in this little old world a man must help himself. It don’t do Jim Falcontent any good to listen——”

“Sorry? Of course! But in this little old world, a person has to help themselves. It doesn’t do Jim Falcontent any good to listen——”

“What the devil does he want to blatherskite his damned blasphemy around here for?”

“What the heck does he want to spout his ridiculous nonsense around here for?”

Falcontent’s business? Falcontent used to be “some” salesman: he was “some” salesman no longer. And everybody knew it. Groot knew it—and waited with pious patience for the imminent end. Galesworth knew it—remarked it with melancholy: though Galesworth and his wife were waiting with what patience they could command for Falcontent’s more remunerative job of selling Groot & McCarthy’s shoes in Boston, Philadelphia, and New York. And no wonder sales had fallen off! A buyer of shoes cannot with profitable precision look over a line of samples and at the same time indulge an argument rabidly directed against the existence of God. Nor will he attempt the perilous acrobatics involved.[152] What has the existence of God to do with a line of shoes? Presently Falcontent himself came eye to eye with the catastrophe of his uselessness. “I’m just three months off from a Bowery lodging-house,” he reflected, “and but a few weeks longer from the bread-line and the gutter. That’s a devilish queer thing—to happen to me!” But he knew why; it was because he had with resentful conviction said in his own heart, “There is no God.” And he would go on saying it—that selfsame thing, over and over again.

Falcontent’s business? Falcontent used to be “some” salesman: he was “some” salesman no longer. And everybody knew it. Groot knew it—and waited with pious patience for the imminent end. Galesworth knew it—remarked it with melancholy: though Galesworth and his wife were waiting with whatever patience they could muster for Falcontent’s more lucrative job of selling Groot & McCarthy’s shoes in Boston, Philadelphia, and New York. And no wonder sales had dropped! A shoe buyer cannot accurately review a line of samples while also engaging in a heated argument against the existence of God. Nor will he attempt the risky mental gymnastics involved. What does the existence of God have to do with a line of shoes? Soon, Falcontent himself came face to face with the reality of his uselessness. “I’m just three months away from a Bowery lodging house,” he thought, “and just a few weeks longer from the bread line and the gutter. That’s a really strange thing to happen to me!” But he knew why; it was because he had stubbornly insisted in his own heart, “There is no God.” And he would keep saying it—that same thing, over and over again.

Being an honest fellow, Falcontent went straightway to Groot for a friendly discussion of a distressful situation.

Being an honest guy, Falcontent went right to Groot for a friendly chat about a troubling situation.

“Mr. Groot,” he began, “I guess I’m all in.”

“Mr. Groot,” he started, “I guess I’m all in.”

“I guess so,” Groot admitted.

“I guess so,” Groot said.

Falcontent started. “You think, then, that——”

Falcontent began, “So you think that——”

“I said,” Groot drawled, “that I thought so, too. Isn’t that clear?”

“I said,” Groot said slowly, “that I thought so, too. Isn’t that clear?”

Mr. Groot was the partner of privately pious inclinations in the shoe-manufacturing firm of Groot & McCarthy.

Mr. Groot was a partner with private religious interests in the shoe-making business of Groot & McCarthy.

“If that’s so,” said Falcontent, “I guess I’m not much use to the firm any more.”

“If that’s the case,” said Falcontent, “I guess I’m not really valuable to the company anymore.”

“No,” Groot agreed, “Not much.”

“No,” Groot agreed, “Not a lot.”

“I guess I’d better resign?”

“Maybe I should resign?”

“Huh!” Groot grunted.

"Huh!" Groot grunted.

“All right,” sighed Falcontent, despairing. “It might as well take effect at once.”

“All right,” Falcontent sighed, feeling hopeless. “It might as well happen right now.”

A dreary silence fell.

A heavy silence fell.

“Oh, I don’t know,” said Groot, looking up from his office-desk. “Maybe it isn’t as bad as all that.[153] Hadn’t you better try a six-months’ vacation with pay?”

“Oh, I don’t know,” said Groot, looking up from his desk. “Maybe it isn’t as bad as it seems. [153] Wouldn't it be a good idea to take a paid six-month vacation?”

Falcontent was listlessly grateful. “Thanks,” said he. “You’re kind. It wouldn’t do me any good, though. I’m all in.”

Falcontent was gratefully tired. “Thanks,” he said. “You’re nice. It wouldn’t help me, though. I’m completely worn out.”

“Can’t sell shoes any longer?”

“Can't sell shoes anymore?”

“Devil a shoe! I can’t do anything. I’m in wrong—everywhere.”

“Not a chance! I can’t do anything. I’m in the wrong—everywhere.”

Groot gave gloomy assent. “I guess that’s just about right,” said he.

Groot gave a resigned nod. “I guess that’s pretty much accurate,” he said.

“You see, Mr. Groot,” Falcontent began to explain, a blithering loquacity obviously impending, “the trouble with me is——”

“You see, Mr. Groot,” Falcontent started to explain, a lengthy speech clearly about to follow, “the issue with me is——”

“Don’t tell me!” Groot ejaculated, alarmed. “I know what’s the trouble with you.”

“Don’t tell me!” Groot exclaimed, alarmed. “I know what’s bothering you.”

“But you can’t know, Mr. Groot!” Falcontent’s voice was rising in morbid agitation. “I haven’t spoken with you—about this.”

“But you can’t know, Mr. Groot!” Falcontent’s voice was getting more frantic. “I haven’t talked to you—about this.”

“No salesman of mine can run himself to hell in this town,” Groot declared, thin-lipped, his gray eyes flashing resentfully, “without my knowing pretty much what’s the matter with him.”

“No salesman of mine can get himself into trouble in this town,” Groot declared, his lips tight, his gray eyes glaring with resentment, “without me having a pretty good idea of what’s going on with him.”

Falcontent flushed. “Well?” he inquired.

Falcontent blushed. “Well?” he asked.

“You run over to the Holy Land for a while,” said Groot, smiling a little, rubbing his lean hands like a Sunday-school Superintendent. “That’ll fix you up. It fixed me.” He sighed; his eyes sparkled wistfully. “I wish I could go along with you,” he added. “I’d—almighty like to.”

“You should take a trip to the Holy Land for a bit,” said Groot, smiling slightly, rubbing his thin hands like a Sunday-school superintendent. “That'll sort you out. It did wonders for me.” He sighed; his eyes twinkled with longing. “I wish I could go with you,” he added. “I’d really love to.”

Falcontent laughed softly. “Holy Land!” he scoffed.

Falcontent chuckled softly. “Holy Land!” he mocked.

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“You want action, don’t you?” Groot demanded, grimly. “Well, a little visit to the Holy Land will make you or break you. Now—you go!”

“You want action, don’t you?” Groot said firmly. “Well, a little trip to the Holy Land will make you or break you. Now—you go!”


And here, at last, in an obscure French hotel in Cairo, was Falcontent, bound for the Holy Land, to be made or broken, at the expense of Groot & McCarthy. It was amusing; but Falcontent was not amused. It was not possible for Falcontent in the pass of spiritual exhaustion to which he had come to sustain even a flash of amusement. Falcontent was in a wretched condition; he was thin, weak, untidy, downcast. He was a little the worse of brandy-and-soda, too, of course—nothing to speak of; and he was so very much the worse of Life that his long, vacant face, his lusterless eyes, his listless attitude, all the evidences of spiritual fatigue, communicated melancholy even to those surroundings which had determined to be gay in spite of whatever might happen. Falcontent attracted glances—which were averted, repelled. But presently a spare, brown, alert little man—a muscular little fellow, washed by wind and sun, now clad in the fashion of a Continental dandy, with an inverted mustache, to which he was in the habit of giving a quick, defiant twist, at the same time indulging a swash-buckling scowl—sidled close to Falcontent, as though casually, and sat down beside him, again casually.

And here, finally, in a nondescript French hotel in Cairo, was Falcontent, on his way to the Holy Land, to either succeed or fail, at the expense of Groot & McCarthy. It was amusing; but Falcontent wasn’t amused. It was impossible for Falcontent, in the state of spiritual exhaustion he was in, to even muster a moment of amusement. He was in pretty bad shape; he was thin, weak, messy, and downhearted. He was also a little worse for wear from the brandy-and-soda, but that was nothing significant; and he felt so much worse because of life that his long, vacant face, lifeless eyes, and listless demeanor, all signs of spiritual fatigue, cast a shadow over even his surroundings that had decided to be cheerful regardless of what might happen. Falcontent drew looks—only to have them quickly averted, repelled. But soon a slender, tanned, lively little man—a muscular guy, weathered by wind and sun, now dressed like a Continental dandy, with an upturned mustache that he liked to give a quick, defiant twist, while sporting a swashbuckling scowl—sidled up to Falcontent, as if it were casual, and sat down next to him, still pretending it was casual.

Presently the brown little man flashed a keen eye over Falcontent. He glanced off at once; but his clean, brown eyes presently returned, now smiling[155] ingenuously, and he made bold to address the traveler.

Currently, the small brown man shot a sharp look at Falcontent. He quickly looked away, but his bright brown eyes soon came back, now smiling innocently, and he confidently decided to speak to the traveler.

“Good evenin’, Mr. Falcontent,” he ventured, politely.

“Good evening, Mr. Falcontent,” he said, politely.

“Who the devil are you?” Falcontent growled.

“Who the heck are you?” Falcontent growled.

“Ver’ proper in-qui-ry,” the little man warmly agreed. His smile broadened trustfully. “I was born in Jerusalem. Mr. Amos Awad. It is I.” The announcement was made with a flourish.

“Very proper inquiry,” the little man happily agreed. His smile widened with trust. “I was born in Jerusalem. Mr. Amos Awad. It’s me.” The announcement was made with a flourish.

“Well, George,” Falcontent drawled—the little man was dark of skin—“will you please tell me how you happened to know my name?”

“Well, George,” Falcontent drawled—the little guy had dark skin—“can you please tell me how you knew my name?”

“You wonder, eh?”

"You curious, huh?"

“A con game, George?”

"A scam, George?"

“It is matter business; that is all.”

"Just business; that's it."

“Business? What business? You don’t mean to tell me that you’ve got an Oriental gold brick up in your room?”

“Business? What business? You can't be serious that you've got an Oriental gold brick in your room?”

“Gold brick!” the little man laughed. “Oh, dear me, no! Oh, my dear sir! Here—it is not America. I have the honor to explain,” he continued, seriously. “Privilege granted? Ah! Jus’ so! I am dragoman. I am jus’ brought my party from Palestine. Ver’ fine people. I am paid off an’ mos’ generously dismiss’ with mos’ elegant references. Egypt? It is not my ver’ bes’ tour. I am not ver’ well acquaint’ with Egyptian antiquities. But I am fully acquaint’ with Holy Land an’ all things pertainin’ thereof. Holy Land! By Jove! What ver’ good Holy Land dragoman am I! By any chance you go there, Mr. Falcontent? I hope so. I do hope so. I hope so in the ver’ bottom of my heart. Ah!”

“Gold brick!” the little man laughed. “Oh, dear me, no! Oh, my dear sir! Here—it’s not America. I have the honor to explain,” he continued seriously. “Privilege granted? Ah! Just so! I’m a guide. I just brought my group from Palestine. Very fine people. I’m being paid off and most generously dismissed with the most elegant references. Egypt? It’s not my best trip. I’m not very well acquainted with Egyptian antiquities. But I’m fully acquainted with the Holy Land and everything related to it. Holy Land! By Jove! What a great Holy Land guide I am! By any chance, are you going there, Mr. Falcontent? I hope so. I really hope so. I hope so from the bottom of my heart. Ah!”

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“Look here, George,” Falcontent reproved, “you haven’t told me yet how you knew my name.”

“Hey, George,” Falcontent said, “you still haven't explained how you knew my name.”

“Pst!”—scornfully. “It is nothing. The hotel clerk”—contemptuously—“have his little commission for little favor like that.”

“Pst!”—with disdain. “It’s nothing. The hotel clerk”—with contempt—“gets his little kickback for favors like that.”

“Oh, sure. I might have thought of that.”

“Oh, sure. I could have thought of that.”

“Ver’ simple thing.”

"Very simple thing."

“Why didn’t you lie about it?”

“Why didn’t you just lie about it?”

Dignity galvanized the little man. “It do not compat’ with my general behavior truth an’ probity,” he said, distinctly, “to tell the lie.... An’ not one single thing is to be gain’—in the end.”

Dignity fired up the little man. “It doesn't match my usual behavior of truth and integrity,” he said clearly, “to tell a lie.... And there’s nothing to be gained—in the end.”

“Oh!” Falcontent blankly ejaculated.

“Oh!” Falcontent blankly shouted.

Falcontent’s surprise was sufficiently apologetic. “You see the world, Mr. Falcontent?” the dragoman resumed, again mildly. “I do hope so. Oh my dear sir! A tour ’round the world—includin’ the Holy Land? No doubt?”

Falcontent’s surprise was quite apologetic. “Do you see the world, Mr. Falcontent?” the guide continued, again in a gentle tone. “I certainly hope so. Oh, my dear sir! A trip around the world—including the Holy Land? No doubt?”

“Well,” Falcontent admitted, “I’m resting.”

“Well,” Falcontent admitted, “I’m taking a break.”

“Ah! Jus’ so! I understan’. Overwork—doubtless? A Wall Street panic? Hum! Doubtless so.”

“Ah! Just like that! I get it. Overworking—sure? A Wall Street panic? Hmm! Probably so.”

“No,” Falcontent sighed; “nothing like that.”

“No,” Falcontent sighed, “nothing like that.”

Wisdom and experience enlightened the little man. He precisely comprehended.

Wisdom and experience illuminated the little man. He understood perfectly.

“Oh, my dear sir!” he exclaimed.

“Oh, my dear sir!” he said.

“My little boy died,” said Falcontent. “It knocked me out.... Have a drink?”

“My little boy died,” Falcontent said. “It really hit me hard.... Want a drink?”

The dragoman lifted a delicate, brown hand. “I am mere child in such matters, as it were,” said he. He was much like a boy jocularly invited to partake in something preposterously beyond his years.

The dragoman raised a delicate, brown hand. “I’m just a child in these matters,” he said. He was much like a boy playfully asked to join in something ridiculously beyond his age.

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“You won’t mind,” Falcontent began, “if I——”

“You won't mind,” Falcontent started, “if I——”

Again a lift of the brown hand and a polite little bow. “I shall have the ver’ great honor,” said the dragoman, renewing the politeness of the bow, “to observe consumption of brandy-an’-soda with keen sympathy an’ relish.”

Again a lift of the brown hand and a polite little bow. “I will have the very great honor,” said the dragoman, renewing the politeness of the bow, “to watch you enjoy brandy and soda with keen interest and pleasure.”

Falcontent almost laughed. “Where did you learn your English, old man?” he asked interested.

Falcontent almost laughed. “Where did you learn your English, old man?” he asked, intrigued.

“In New York, sir.”

“In New York, sir.”

“Oh, shucks!”

“Oh, shoot!”

“An’ the Moody Institute—for some small time.”

“ And the Moody Institute—for a little while.”

“You didn’t learn that kind of talk anywhere near New York!”

“You didn’t learn that kind of talk anywhere close to New York!”

“Ah! I understan’. Oh, my, no!” the dragoman protested, quickly. “The polish,” he explained, “is acquire’ by myself from readin’ great works of literature an’ mos’ modern theology.”

“Ah! I understand. Oh, my, no!” the translator protested quickly. “The polish,” he explained, “I acquired myself by reading great works of literature and most modern theology.”

Falcontent warmed to the little man. Awad was in health; he had the color and sure power and the limpid peace of the open places. He was companionable—possibly in a mercenary way; but what matter? He would listen. In those days Falcontent found his most engaging form of entertainment in elucidating a seditious philosophy of the universe. And into the waiting ear of the dragoman he now poured the tale of little Jimmie’s death. The boy was dead and buried; there had been typhoid fever—and a long fight, through which, it seemed, Falcontent had entreated the Almighty to spare the lad. But the lad was dead; as, according to the unrelenting mysteries, many another man’s young son had died before him.[158] Falcontent was alone; he was stricken—ruined. But the death of children? They vanish in multitudes and leave all places vacant and desolate. It is nothing out of the way. Falcontent’s was a commonplace sorrow: the world renews the like of it every day. But the brown little man listened, with many a pitying “Tsc, tsc, tsc!” and many a muttered “How ver’ sad!” to encourage a complete disclosure. He was alive to more than the tale: he was like a physician—alert, intent, analytical, discovering from Falcontent’s mawkish, and hardly coherent recital the deeper springs of Falcontent’s pitiable state.

Falcontent felt a connection with the little man. Awad was healthy; he had a vibrant color, sure strength, and the clear calm of open spaces. He was friendly—maybe in a self-serving way; but who cared? He would listen. During those times, Falcontent found his most interesting form of entertainment in explaining a rebellious philosophy of the universe. Now, to the attentive ear of the dragoman, he shared the story of little Jimmie’s death. The boy was gone and buried; there had been typhoid fever—and a long struggle in which, it seemed, Falcontent had pleaded with God to spare the boy. But the boy was dead; just like countless other young sons had died before him, as per the harsh mysteries of life.[158] Falcontent was alone; he felt devastated—broken. But the death of children? They disappear in droves, leaving places empty and sorrowful. It's nothing out of the ordinary. Falcontent’s grief was just a typical sadness: the world encounters the same every day. Yet the little brown man listened, with many sympathetic “Tsc, tsc, tsc!” and murmured “How very sad!” to encourage Falcontent to spill out everything. He was aware of more than just the story: he was like a doctor—alert, focused, analytical, uncovering from Falcontent’s emotional, and barely coherent retelling the deeper reasons behind his pitiful state.

Falcontent was in rebellion. Ha! That was the trouble. But why rebel? A laughable thing—thus to rebel! A preposterous and hurtful perversity! Why not yield—presently? Why not say, “Thy will be done!”—and cultivate some form of faith? It seemed to the brown little dragoman to be a brave and sensible sort of behavior.

Falcontent was in rebellion. Ha! That was the trouble. But why rebel? It was ridiculous—this whole rebellion! A silly and harmful act! Why not just give in—right now? Why not say, “Your will be done!”—and find some kind of faith? To the small brown guide, it seemed like a brave and sensible way to act.

“Ver’ sad!” he sighed, at the end.

“Really sad!” he sighed, in the end.

“Sad?” Falcontent snarled.

“Sad?” Falcontent sneered.

“The Lord gives,” the dragoman quoted, apparently with sincere conviction, “an’ the Lord takes away.”

“The Lord gives,” the translator said, seemingly with genuine belief, “and the Lord takes away.”

Falcontent leaned forward in disreputable anger. “You mean to tell me,” he flared, his voice risen, “that the Lord took him—deliberately? That the Lord put that poor little fellow through weeks of useless agony—and then killed him?”

Falcontent leaned forward in angry disbelief. “You’re telling me,” he shouted, his voice raised, “that the Lord took him—on purpose? That the Lord put that poor little guy through weeks of pointless suffering—and then killed him?”

“Hush!”

"Quiet!"

Falcontent would not be quieted. His eyes were[159] flushed with rage; his nostrils flared; his teeth were bared. “You call that Design?” he cried. “Design—hell! That was Chance. There is no God!”

Falcontent wouldn't calm down. His eyes were[159] red with anger; his nostrils flared; his teeth were showing. “You call that Design?” he shouted. “Design—no way! That was Chance. There is no God!”

Ha! Was it so? Awad needed nothing more. It was an old problem. He gripped Falcontent’s forearm to restrain him. “Sh-h!” he commanded. “It is too loud for be polite. You have shame yourself. An’ me—your dragoman!” Falcontent’s resentment failed. He had not the strength to sustain rage: he was able only to continue in sulky rebellion. He was listless now once more; he stared vacantly upon the scornful comment his outburst—though in English—had aroused. “Listen!” the dragoman went on, his voice low, his words clear-cut, his way authoritative. “You go the Holy Land by present intention. I know that much. It is for the cure. Some friend say, ‘Go an’ be heal’.’ I understan’. Many peoples—many, oh many, many peoples—come the Holy Land to be cure of sorrow. Ver’ commonplace to happen. But mos’ dangerous practice. I have see’ cure; I have also see’ ruin. Now I am deep student of ver’ mos’ new an’ modern theology. Ver’ good. I prescribe. Privilege granted? Listen! We go to Jerusalem. True; but by way of Mount Sinai. By way of Suez, the Monastery of St. Catherine, Akaba, Ell Ma’an, Petra, I make no bones, sir. It is a long desert journey:—ver’ harsh journey includin’ dangers proceedin’ from robbers’ habitations. But mos’ excellent health is thereby to be gain’. Ver’ good. Quite satisfy? I prepare, then, my outfit of men an’ animals at once.... Mm-m?”

Ha! Was it true? Awad needed nothing more. It was an old issue. He grabbed Falcontent’s forearm to hold him back. “Sh-h!” he insisted. “It’s too loud to be polite. You should be ashamed of yourself. And me—your guide!” Falcontent’s resentment faded. He didn’t have the energy to stay angry; he could only remain in sulky rebellion. He was listless again; he looked blankly at the scornful reaction his outburst—though in English—had caused. “Listen!” the guide continued, his voice low, his words direct, his manner authoritative. “You’re going to the Holy Land on purpose. I know that much. It’s for healing. Some friend told you, ‘Go and be healed.’ I understand. Many people—oh so many—come to the Holy Land to cure their sorrow. It’s very common to happen. But it’s a risky practice. I’ve seen healing; I’ve also seen ruin. Now I’m a deep student of very new and modern theology. Very good. I’ll prescribe. Is that okay? Listen! We’re going to Jerusalem. True; but we’re going via Mount Sinai. Through Suez, the Monastery of St. Catherine, Akaba, Ell Ma’an, Petra, I’m not making any bones about it, sir. It’s a long desert journey—a very harsh journey with dangers from thieves. But excellent health can be gained. Very good. Are you satisfied? I’ll prepare my team of men and animals at once... Mm-m?”

It was an appealing suggestion. Falcontent was[160] moved to carry his sorrow to an exceeding desolation. And he was sensible, too, of the physical advantage. There was surely bodily cure—the cure of physical folly—to be found on the caravan route.

It was an enticing suggestion. Falcontent felt compelled to take his grief to an extreme desolation. He also recognized the physical benefit. There was definitely a physical remedy—the remedy for physical foolishness—to be discovered on the caravan route.

“That listens all right, George,” said he. “But what do you get out of this?”

"That makes sense, George," he said. "But what's in it for you?"

“Surely,” the dragoman replied, with a shrug, “I have honor to arrange contract with reasonable profit devolving upon me ... Expense, as it were, Mr. Falcontent—no object? Mm-m? Doubtless not?”

“Of course,” the guide replied with a shrug, “I have the honor of setting up a contract with a fair profit for myself... Expenses, as it were, Mr. Falcontent—no problem? Hmm? Certainly not?”

“Oh, anything reasonable, George,” said Falcontent. “But I don’t want to be stung.”

“Oh, anything reasonable, George,” said Falcontent. “But I don’t want to get burned.”

“Ver’ reasonable, Mr. Falcontent. No sting in contract of Mr. Amos Awad. I do so assure you upon honor.”

“Very reasonable, Mr. Falcontent. There's no catch in Mr. Amos Awad's contract. I assure you of it on my honor.”

Falcontent came to a quick decision. “All right, George,” said he, with spirit. “I’ll go. And we’ll get to work and arrange the terms of that little contract right now.”

Falcontent made a quick decision. “Okay, George,” he said with energy. “I’ll go. Let’s get to work and sort out the terms of that little contract right now.”


Falcontent rode into Jerusalem near the close of day—the day before Christmas. Awad had proved a faithful, companionable fellow; he had been solicitous concerning Falcontent’s first pains of travel—he had been grim, business-like, vastly determined in respect to the way and the hours of riding. There had been no discussion of Falcontent’s perplexities. There had been entertainment: Awad had told many engaging stories to relieve the monotony of the sand—such Eastern tales as are told, in various forms, names varying, incidents differing somewhat from[161] the Occidental traditions, but the moral unchanged, to while away time and weariness in all the deserts of the East. And Falcontent had indeed matched his sorrow against an exceeding desolation; a land, however, unable to wrench any complaint against Fate from its lean dwellers. Falcontent was himself now lean and brown with weeks of desert travel. His eyes were clean and quick and sure. It had been a short ride that day; he tingled with muscular exaltation. He was toned; it was a physically rehabilitated Falcontent. He was in appetite; he could sleep.... Sell shoes? Well, rather! By Jove—Falcontent would sure show old man Groot that he had “come back!” And he had not yet even seen the Holy Places! It would sure be a laugh on Groot!

Falcontent rode into Jerusalem just before sunset on Christmas Eve. Awad had been a loyal and friendly companion; he was attentive to Falcontent's early travel struggles—serious, focused, and determined about the route and riding hours. They hadn’t discussed Falcontent’s worries. Instead, Awad entertained him with many interesting stories to ease the monotony of the sandy landscape—tales from the East that differ in names and details from Western traditions, but with morals that remain the same, perfect for passing the time and fighting fatigue in the deserts of the East. Falcontent had faced his sadness against an overwhelming sense of emptiness; a land where the thin inhabitants couldn’t even utter complaints against fate. After weeks on the desert, Falcontent himself was now lean and tanned. His eyes were sharp and alert. It had been a brief ride that day; he felt a rush of physical energy. He was fit; this was a revitalized Falcontent. He had a good appetite and was ready to sleep.... Sell shoes? Absolutely! By god—Falcontent would definitely show old man Groot that he had “made a comeback!” And he hadn’t even seen the Holy Places yet! It would be hilarious for Groot!

Falcontent could laugh—now. But his mirth was hard, a mere reflex, without feeling. It was mirth without sure foundation. There was no spiritual health in it. At the first touch of adversity the laughter might turn to jeering cachinnation. Life was a grim experience: a man was born, lived, died. “To-morrow we die!” Falcontent stood no longer in confusion between Design and Chance. He had settled that question for good and all. And what a fool he had been to trouble about it at all! How shall a man surely know? Falcontent laughed to think of the hurtful folly of his brooding ... God? There was no God. There were many gods: gods of all peoples—a vast variety. There were many superstitions, there was much bowing down.... A flash of agitated uncertainty passed over Falcontent when he reflected[162] that his was the only generation of all the generations of men (as he fancied) by whom the worship of God had been generally abandoned.... But why not? “The old order changeth.” The times were new.... “God of our fathers!” How the old teachings persisted in a man’s imagination! Falcontent could recall the psalm—and the nasal singing. It aggravated him to remember. He concerned his thoughts with the road.... It was crisp weather; it was much like a harvest evening—at home. Light lingered upon the city. It was a city lying soft and half revealed in a mist of twilight.

Falcontent could laugh—now. But his laughter was shallow, just a reflex without any real feeling. It was joy without a solid base. There was no real wellness in it. At the first hint of trouble, that laughter could easily turn into mocking cackling. Life was a harsh reality: a person is born, lives, and dies. “Tomorrow we die!” Falcontent was no longer confused about Design and Chance. He had resolved that issue once and for all. And what a fool he had been to worry about it at all! How can a person really know? Falcontent laughed to think about the silly pain of his overthinking ... God? There was no God. There were many gods: gods of all people—a huge variety. There were plenty of superstitions, and a lot of bowing down.... A wave of troubled uncertainty swept over Falcontent when he realized that his was the only generation of all humanity (or so he thought) that had largely given up the worship of God.... But why not? “The old order changes.” Times were different now.... “God of our fathers!” How those old beliefs stuck in a person’s mind! Falcontent could remember the psalm—and the nasal singing. It annoyed him to recall. He focused his thoughts on the road.... The weather was crisp; it felt much like a harvest evening—at home. Light lingered in the city. It was a city lying softly and half-hidden in a twilight mist.

“Jerusalem!” Falcontent thought. “Well—I’m damned! Jim Falcontent, of Groot & McCarthy—in Jerusalem!”

“Jerusalem!” Falcontent thought. “Well—I can’t believe it! Jim Falcontent, of Groot & McCarthy—in Jerusalem!”

Falcontent was subconsciously disappointed to find no glory of heavenly light upon the flat roofs, and no glow of peace and beneficence upon the countenances of the sinister-appearing inhabitants. He had, like a child—it was a legacy of childhood—looked for some continued manifestation of the story of the Divine residence.

Falcontent was subconsciously let down to see that there was no glory of heavenly light on the flat roofs, and no sense of peace and kindness on the faces of the seemingly sinister inhabitants. He had, much like a child—it was a leftover from his childhood—expected some ongoing sign of the story of the Divine residence.

“Nice town, Awad?” he inquired.

“Nice town, Awad?” he asked.

“Ver’ modern city accordin’ Eastern standards,” the dragoman replied, with a flirt of his dainty mustache. “Ver’ human peoples live here. Disappoint’, eh?” he ran on. “Jus’ so. Ver’ much like all tourist’ excep’ ver’ old people. You think to see pearly gates an’ golden streets, eh? Ha, ha! Oh, dear me, no! Ver’ human city of present day. Ver’ up-to-date town. Always was, I take it. Possibly so in time of[163] King Solomon. An’ in days of King David—doubtless so? Why not? Mm-m?”

“Very modern city by Eastern standards,” the guide replied, flicking his delicate mustache. “Very human population here. Disappointing, huh?” he continued. “Just like all tourist spots except for the really old people. You thought you’d see pearly gates and golden streets, right? Ha, ha! Oh, dear me, no! Very human city of today. Quite a modern place. Always has been, I suppose. Probably so in the time of [163] King Solomon. And in the days of King David—surely that was the case? Why not? Mm-m?”

It occurred to Falcontent for the first time with significant conviction that Jerusalem was a reality; that the city had been real from generation to generation—here situated—near by—and that the happenings recorded were realities like the events of profane history—of the American Revolution.

It struck Falcontent for the first time with strong certainty that Jerusalem was real; that the city had been real from generation to generation—right here—close by—and that the things recorded were real events just like those in secular history, like the American Revolution.

But——

But—

“Garden of Gethsemane still around here?” he yawned.

“Is the Garden of Gethsemane still around here?” he yawned.

“Oh, yes. Ver’ close by the city. Carriage an’ all fees suppli’ by terms of my contract.”

“Oh, yes. Very close to the city. Carriage and all fees provided according to my contract.”

“Got a fence around it?” Falcontent joked.

“Got a fence around it?” Falcontent joked.

“Oh, yes.”

“Definitely.”

“What!” Falcontent exclaimed.

“What!” Falcontent shouted.

“Not what you call precisely picket fence,” the dragoman replied. “Much more substantial. A ver’ solid wall.”

“Not exactly what you’d call a picket fence,” the dragoman replied. “Much more solid. A very strong wall.”

“Sure they got the right spot fenced in?”

“Are they sure they fenced in the right area?”

“My habit truth an’ probity compel me say I personally ver’ much doubt. Right place? What matter? Pst!”

“My habit of truth and honesty compels me to say I personally have a lot of doubts. Right place? What does it matter? Pst!”

What did it matter?

What does it matter?

“Haven’t moved the Mount of Olives, have they?”

“Haven’t moved the Mount of Olives, have they?”

“Oh, my dear sir!” Awad laughed. “Impossible job for to perform. An’ Palestine antiquities, my dear sir, not for sale for decorate landscape of the American millionaire.”

“Oh, my dear sir!” Awad laughed. “An impossible job to perform. And Palestinian antiquities, my dear sir, are not for sale to decorate the landscape of the American millionaire.”

“Calvary?”

"Calvary?"

“Same ol’ place, sir,” the dragoman replied,[164] gravely, “but naturally ver’ much change’. Ver’ well authenticate’, too, accordin’ by latest authorities. Which thing I am ver’ happy to state—with perfect truth, at last.”

“Same old place, sir,” the guide replied,[164] seriously, “but of course there’s been a lot of change. I can confirm that too, according to the most recent information. I’m very pleased to say that—with complete honesty, at last.”

Falcontent rode on in silence. It was dark in the city. There were no details: there was the mystery of dim-lit habitations—of narrow streets—of shuffling forms.... And this was Jerusalem! There was actually such a place! Falcontent all at once realized the existence of the city as a physical fact. It had a place in history—not wholly in legend. It was of old time. It was real.... The American Revolution and the Civil War were legendary conflicts in Falcontent’s consciousness until he had with amazed understanding set foot on the battle-fields and stared about.... And Gethsemane was near by! Precise location? Pst! What matter? There had been a Garden of Gethsemane! The Mount of Olives, too: it was a remarkable hill—now within reach, like Grant’s Tomb at home. And Calvary! There had been a place called Calvary!... Falcontent was profoundly moved by his proximity to these places which now at last were real. Falcontent was shocked; his unbelief in the tradition—was it tradition?—of the Divine Presence upon earth was disturbed. A presence in Jerusalem—roundabout: here and beyond.... Falcontent began to whistle a snatch from “The Queen of the Great White Way.” It was incongruous; he could not bear to continue.... There had been a Teacher: that was true—it was as true as Grant and Lincoln and Washington—and the teaching was not[165] yet forgotten in the world. Falcontent knew it all well enough—the life and philosophy which somewhere near by these very places had had their origin.... To relieve the agitation of these disclosures Falcontent tried once more the topical song from “The Queen of the Great White Way.” It was impossible.

Falcontent rode on in silence. It was dark in the city. There were no details: just the mystery of dimly lit homes—narrow streets—shuffling figures.... And this was Jerusalem! There actually was such a place! Falcontent suddenly realized the city's existence as a physical fact. It had a place in history—not just in legend. It was ancient. It was real.... The American Revolution and the Civil War were legendary conflicts in Falcontent’s mind until he had stepped onto the battlefields and looked around in amazement.... And Gethsemane was nearby! Exact location? Pst! What does it matter? There had been a Garden of Gethsemane! The Mount of Olives, too: it was a remarkable hill—now within reach, like Grant’s Tomb back home. And Calvary! There had been a place called Calvary!... Falcontent was profoundly moved by how close he was to these places that were now finally real. Falcontent was shocked; his disbelief in the tradition—was it even a tradition?—of the Divine Presence on earth was shaken. A presence in Jerusalem—around him: here and beyond.... Falcontent began to whistle a tune from “The Queen of the Great White Way.” It felt out of place; he couldn't continue.... There had been a Teacher: that was true—it was as true as Grant and Lincoln and Washington—and the teaching wasn't[165] forgotten in the world. Falcontent knew it all well—the life and philosophy that had originated somewhere near these very places.... To ease the agitation of these revelations, Falcontent tried once more the song from “The Queen of the Great White Way.” It was impossible.

“Cold?” Awad inquired.

"Cold?" Awad asked.

“No,” Falcontent answered. “I’m not cold. I’m shivering, though. That’s funny, isn’t it?”

“No,” Falcontent replied. “I’m not cold. I’m just shivering, though. Isn’t that strange?”

“Well, no,” said Awad. “Ver’ commonplace thing to happen. I should not have be surprise’ if, on the other hand, you have swear ver’ harshly.”

“Well, no,” said Awad. “That's a pretty common thing to happen. I wouldn’t be surprised if, on the other hand, you swore pretty harshly.”

Falcontent had experienced—and had thereby been horrified—a curious impulse to blaspheme.

Falcontent had felt—and was therefore horrified by—a strange urge to curse.

“That’s queer,” he drawled now.

“That’s weird,” he drawled now.

“Ver’ commonplace thing,” the dragoman repeated. He shrugged. “I recommend, if I be permit,” he went on, impassively, “a hot bath, food, an’ perusal of Holy Scriptures for historical data. I am great believer in original sources. Let us say, Gospel accordin’ St. Luke—chapter two, especially. It is Christmas Eve. To-night—accordin’ by itinerary—we visit Bethlehem. Carriage an’ all fees my pleasure to provide accordin’ by terms of my contract.”

“Very ordinary thing,” the guide repeated. He shrugged. “I suggest, if I may,” he continued, without any emotion, “a hot bath, food, and reading the Holy Scriptures for historical context. I’m a strong believer in original sources. Let’s say, the Gospel according to St. Luke—chapter two, especially. It’s Christmas Eve. Tonight—according to the schedule—we’ll visit Bethlehem. Transportation and all fees are my pleasure to cover according to the terms of my contract.”


When, late that Christmas Eve, the little dragoman knocked on the door of Falcontent’s room in a hotel by the Jaffa Gate, Falcontent had gathered a deal of historical data from the original sources.... And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch on their flocks by night. And,[166] lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them, and they were sore afraid. And the angel said unto them, Fear not, for, behold, I bring you tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people: for unto you is born this day, in the city of David, a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord. And this shall be a sign unto you: Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger. And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host, praising God, and saying, Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace and good-will toward men. And it came to pass that as the angels were going away from them into heaven the shepherds said one to another, Let us now go even unto Bethlehem, and see the thing which has come to pass, which the Lord has made known to us.... And Falcontent had perused the tragedy from that beginning to its heroic end. It was all familiar, to be sure—had continued in Falcontent’s memory since those old New England days; but was now new with reality and meaning.

When, late that Christmas Eve, the little interpreter knocked on the door of Falcontent’s room in a hotel by the Jaffa Gate, Falcontent had gathered a lot of historical information from the original sources.... And there were in the same region shepherds staying in the fields, watching over their flocks at night. And, [166] suddenly, an angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were very afraid. The angel said to them, "Don’t be afraid, for I bring you good news of great joy for all people: Today, in the city of David, a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. And this will be a sign for you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths, lying in a manger." Suddenly, a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace and good will toward men." When the angels left them and went into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, "Let’s go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.... And Falcontent had read the tragedy from that beginning to its heroic end. It was all familiar, of course—had stayed in Falcontent’s memory since those old New England days; but now it felt new with reality and meaning.

“I’m tired,” Falcontent protested to the dragoman. “I guess we’d better put the Bethlehem trip off.”

“I’m tired,” Falcontent complained to the guide. “I guess we should postpone the Bethlehem trip.”

“Ha!” the dragoman ejaculated. “We go,” he announced, calmly. “It is my greates’ ambition to serve my gentlemen. I fail—never! We go. I am flat in it.”

“Ha!” the guide exclaimed. “We’re going,” he said, calmly. “It’s my greatest ambition to serve my gentlemen. I never fail! We’re going. I’m all in.”

Falcontent was presently rattling over the road to Bethlehem. It was a clear night. There were stars—brilliantly shining. A moon was imminent. A shadowy country—waste like a wilderness in the night—was on either side. The road lay white and dusty. It was[167] an old road—an old, old way of going and coming. It had felt the imprint of dusty feet these many long, forgotten years.... The world was surely very old: that which persisted from generation to generation was of value—new things doubtful.... Falcontent was cold. But the night was warm. Yet Falcontent shivered; his hands trembled—teeth clicked together. He was hardly able to command this nervous spasm.... There came, by and by, dark, winding streets, rough, narrow. The horses stumbled.... There was the Church of the Nativity: it was like a fortification. There was a narrow door—there were wide, cathedral spaces—there was the light of candles—there were ecclesiastical robes—there was incense—there were many voices distantly chanting—there was the wonder of some mystical ceremony by which Falcontent was shaken from his hold on the commonplaces of life.... And Falcontent stared and listened, transported so far from Broadway by the vision and music of these mysteries that Broadway was no longer with his recollection, save as a blurred, contrasting horror.

Falcontent was currently rattling down the road to Bethlehem. It was a clear night with brilliantly shining stars. The moon was about to rise. On either side, the landscape was shadowy and desolate, like a wilderness at night. The road was white and dusty. It was an old road—a well-worn path for coming and going. It had felt the imprint of dusty feet over many long, forgotten years. The world was definitely very old; what endured from generation to generation held value, while new things felt uncertain. Falcontent was cold, but the night was warm. Still, he shivered; his hands trembled, and his teeth chattered, unable to control the nervous spasm. Soon, he encountered dark, winding streets that were rough and narrow, and the horses stumbled. Then came the Church of the Nativity, resembling a fortress. There was a narrow door, vast cathedral spaces, candlelight, ecclesiastical robes, incense, and many distant voices chanting. There was the awe of some mystical ceremony that jolted Falcontent from his grip on the mundane. He stared and listened, pulled so far away from Broadway by the vision and music of these mysteries that all he remembered of Broadway was a blurred, contrasting horror.

Thereafter Falcontent stood for a long time midway of a narrow stone stair—gazing awed now into the Grotto of the Nativity. It was a small space. The yellow light of many candles illuminated it.... Many people knelt below in adoration: these were Russian pilgrims—folk of a race cruelly oppressed; yet their countenances gave no sign of oppression, but were clean of guile and fear and suspicion and all manner of trouble. Peace was upon all them that[168] adored: such peace—Falcontent reflected in the terms of other times—as the world can neither give nor take away.... And so it had been: a faith continuing from generation to generation, comforting, inspiring, peace-bringing, giving hope and courage—the integrity of its essentials preserved, after all, against the cocksure philosophies of all these new days.

Thereafter, Falcontent stood for a long time halfway up a narrow stone staircase—awestruck as he looked into the Grotto of the Nativity. It was a small space. The warm glow of many candles lit it up.... Many people knelt below in worship: these were Russian pilgrims—people from a race that had been severely oppressed; yet their faces showed no signs of that oppression, but were free of deceit, fear, suspicion, and all types of trouble. Peace was over all who worshiped: such peace—Falcontent thought, reflecting on earlier times—as the world cannot provide or take away.... And so it had been: a faith passed down from generation to generation, comforting, inspiring, bringing peace, offering hope and courage—the core of its values preserved, despite the overconfident philosophies of these new times.

“Ver’ much regret,” the dragoman whispered in Falcontent’s ear. “Accordin’ my Bethlehem itinerary, it is time for visit Field of Shepherds.”

“Very much regret,” the guide whispered in Falcontent’s ear. “According to my Bethlehem itinerary, it’s time to visit the Field of Shepherds.”

Falcontent started.

Falcontent has started.

“Oh, we’ll cut that out!” he whispered, hastily. “I guess I better get back to the hotel.”

“Oh, we’ll get rid of that!” he whispered quickly. “I guess I should head back to the hotel.”

But Falcontent followed a rocky pathway, leading down, leading on, inclining toward the stars, to a hill, near by some ancient ruins, below which a field lay in a mist of moonlight.... Falcontent was cold; but yet it was a warm night. It was not the cold. He was afraid; he trembled—and was afraid.... Awad withdrew. Falcontent stood alone.... It is related of Saul of Tarsus, as Falcontent then singularly recalled, that, being on the road to Damascus, there shined round about him a light from heaven, and he fell to the earth, and heard a voice, saying unto him, Saul, why persecutest thou me? And the narrative continues: And he said, Who art thou, Lord? And the Lord said, I am Jesus, whom thou persecutest. It is hard for thee to kick against the pricks. And he trembling and astonished, said, Lord, what wilt thou have me to do?... No light from heaven shined round about James Falcontent, of Groot and[169] McCarthy; but yet he trembled and was astonished—in a great illumination of the spirit. It was a simple thing: it concerned only the realities of Falcontent’s experience.... And the angel said unto them, Fear not, for behold, I bring you tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people: for unto you is born this day, in the city of David, a Saviour.... And it was true! Salvation had proceeded from that Birth: all liberty in the world, as Falcontent knew the world and the ages of its spinning—every simple kindness—all pure aspiration—every good deed—all true forms of love and virtue and high courage and justice.... And the God of Falcontent’s fathers was the only God Falcontent knew anything about.

But Falcontent followed a rocky path, leading down, leading on, tilting toward the stars, to a hill, near some ancient ruins, below which a field lay in a mist of moonlight.... Falcontent felt cold; but it was actually a warm night. It wasn’t the cold. He was scared; he trembled—and was scared.... Awad withdrew. Falcontent stood alone.... It’s said of Saul of Tarsus, as Falcontent uniquely recalled at that moment, that while on the road to Damascus, a light from heaven shone around him, and he fell to the ground, and heard a voice saying to him, Saul, why do you persecute me? The account continues: He asked, Who are you, Lord? And the Lord replied, I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting. It’s hard for you to kick against the goads. And he, trembling and astonished, said, Lord, what do you want me to do?... No light from heaven surrounded James Falcontent, of Groot and [169] McCarthy; but he still trembled and was astonished—in a profound illumination of the spirit. It was a simple thing: it was about the realities of Falcontent’s experience.... And the angel said to them, Do not be afraid, for I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people: for today in the city of David, a Savior has been born to you.... And it was true! Salvation had come from that Birth: all freedom in the world, as Falcontent understood the world and the ages it has spun—every simple act of kindness—all pure aspiration—every good deed—all true forms of love and virtue and courage and justice.... And the God of Falcontent’s ancestors was the only God he truly knew anything about.

There was a peal of bells; the ringing came liquid-sweet through the moonlight from the Church of the Nativity on the hills of Bethlehem.

There was a ringing of bells; the sound flowed sweetly through the moonlight from the Church of the Nativity on the hills of Bethlehem.

“Amos!” Falcontent called.

“Amos!” Falcontent yelled.

“Sir? I am here.”

"Hey, I'm here."

“What they ringing the bells for?”

“What are they ringing the bells for?”

“It is Christmas mornin’, Sir.”

“It’s Christmas morning, Sir.”

Falcontent stood staring into the mist of moonlight below. “I guess you better leave me alone for a little while, Amos,” he said, presently, without turning. “I—want to be alone.” After that Falcontent lifted his face to the sky and prayed. It should astonish no one. Many a good man has done the like of it since the world began....

Falcontent stood gazing into the moonlit mist below. “I think you should give me some space for a bit, Amos,” he said after a moment, still not turning around. “I—need to be alone.” After that, Falcontent lifted his face to the sky and prayed. This shouldn't surprise anyone. Many good people have done the same since the beginning of time...


Well, what miracle? What amazing transformation? Falcontent looked fit: that was true. The same old[170] Falcontent! the Falcontent of his heartiest days. Back in New York now, still a bit lean and brown with desert travel. To the eye—to the ear—to the heart of his intimates—he was the same man he had been at his best. He was selling shoes for Groot & McCarthy, too, in vast quantities, in Boston, Philadelphia, and New York. There were some little omissions of behavior, to be sure, as he went about. They were not obtrusive: they earned—they deserved—no comment. A big, ruddy, big-hearted man—that was James Falcontent: a clean, kindly, hopeful, energetic, merry fellow, given to no meanness, to no greed, to no unworthy pride, to no dishonor whatsoever. And he was sane according to every goodly notion of the times. It would have alarmed him—shamed and grieved him—to discover any symptom of peculiarity. Not an alienist of virtuous reputation could have discovered in Falcontent the least divergence from the straight line of normality. Nor could a surgeon with due regard for the ethics of his profession have found in Falcontent any honest employment for his knife; nor could a devoted practitioner of internal medicine have supplied a need of Falcontent’s hearty body. Falcontent was a robust fellow. Falcontent was in vigorous health. What need had Falcontent of a physician or a surgeon?

Well, what miracle? What incredible change? Falcontent looked fit: that was true. The same old [170] Falcontent! The Falcontent of his prime. Back in New York now, still a bit lean and tanned from his travels in the desert. To the eye—to the ear—to the hearts of his close friends—he was the same man he had been at his best. He was selling shoes for Groot & McCarthy, too, in large amounts, in Boston, Philadelphia, and New York. There were some minor quirks in his behavior, of course, as he moved around. They weren't noticeable: they earned—they deserved—no comment. A big, hearty, big-hearted man—that was James Falcontent: a clean, kind, hopeful, energetic, cheerful guy, not given to meanness, greed, unworthy pride, or any dishonor whatsoever. And he was sane by every good standard of the time. It would have shocked him—shamed and upset him—to find any sign of strangeness. Not even a reputable psychiatrist could detect the slightest deviation in Falcontent from the straight path of normalcy. Nor could a surgeon, respecting the ethics of his profession, find any genuine reason to operate on Falcontent; nor could a dedicated internist discover any need in Falcontent’s robust body. Falcontent was a strong guy. Falcontent was in excellent health. What reason did Falcontent have for a doctor or a surgeon?

Falcontent’s soul? Oh, yes, Falcontent had a soul—and had in some way established peace with it!

Falcontent’s soul? Oh, yes, Falcontent had a soul—and somehow, he had found peace with it!

FOOTNOTES:

[10] By permission of Dr. E. H. Duncan and Harper & Brothers.

[10] With permission from Dr. E. H. Duncan and Harper & Brothers.


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VAN VALKENBERG’S CHRISTMAS GIFT[11]

Elizabeth G. Jordan

Elizabeth G. Jordan


The “Chicago Limited” was pulling out of the Grand Central Station in New York as Dr. Henry Van Valkenberg submitted his ticket to the gateman. He dashed through, pushing the indignant official to one side, and made a leap for the railing of the last car of the train. It was wet and slippery and maddeningly elusive, but he caught it, and clung to it valiantly, his legs actively seeking a resting-place on the snow-covered steps of the platform. Even as he hung there, offering to his fellow-travellers this inspiring illustration of athletic prowess and the strenuous life, he was painfully conscious that the position was not a dignified one for a stout gentleman of sixty with an exalted position in the scientific world. He pictured to himself the happy smiles of those who were looking on, and he realized that his conception of their hearty enjoyment had not been exaggerated when he glanced back at them after a friendly brakeman had dragged him “on board.” Dr. Van Valkenberg smiled a little ruefully as he thanked the man and rubbed the aching surface of his hand, which not even his thick kid gloves had protected. Then he [172]pulled himself together, picked up the books and newspapers he had dropped and which the bystanders had enthusiastically hurled after him, and sought his haven in the sleeping-car. When he reached his section he stood for a moment, with his back to the passengers, to put some of his belongings in the rack above his head. As he was trying to arrange them properly he heard a voice behind him.

The “Chicago Limited” was leaving Grand Central Station in New York as Dr. Henry Van Valkenberg handed his ticket to the conductor. He rushed through, pushing the annoyed official aside, and leaped for the railing of the last car of the train. It was wet and slippery and frustratingly elusive, but he grabbed it and held on tightly, his legs searching for a place to rest on the snow-covered steps of the platform. Even as he hung there, showcasing this inspiring display of athleticism and a vigorous lifestyle to his fellow travelers, he was painfully aware that it wasn't a dignified position for a plump sixty-year-old man with a respected standing in the scientific community. He imagined the amused expressions of those watching, and he realized that his belief in their hearty laughter wasn't unfounded when he looked back at them after a friendly brakeman helped him “on board.” Dr. Van Valkenberg smiled a bit sheepishly as he thanked the man and rubbed the sore spot on his hand, which even his thick kid gloves hadn't protected. Then he composed himself, picked up the books and newspapers he had dropped, which the onlookers had cheerfully tossed after him, and made his way to the sleeping car. When he reached his section, he stood for a moment with his back to the other passengers to put some of his things in the rack above his head. As he was trying to arrange them properly, he heard a voice behind him.

“O-oh! Were you hurt?” it said. “I was so ’fraid you were going to fall.”

“O-oh! Were you hurt?” it said. “I was so afraid you were going to fall.”

Dr. Van Valkenberg, who was a tall man, turned and looked down from his great height. At his feet stood a baby; at least she seemed a baby to him, although she was very dignified and wholly self-possessed and fully four years old. She was looking up at him with dark brown eyes, which wore an absurdly anxious expression. In that instant of quick observation he noticed that her wraps had been removed and that she wore a white dress and had yellow curls, among which, on one side of her head, a small black bow lay sombrely.

Dr. Van Valkenberg, a tall man, turned and looked down from his height. At his feet stood a baby; at least she seemed like a baby to him, even though she was very dignified, completely composed, and around four years old. She was looking up at him with dark brown eyes that had an oddly anxious expression. In that brief moment of observation, he noticed that her wraps had been taken off and that she wore a white dress and had yellow curls, among which a small black bow sat somberly on one side of her head.

She was so delicious in her almost maternal solicitude that he smiled irrepressibly, though he answered with the ceremoniousness she seemed to expect.

She was so charming in her almost motherly concern that he couldn't help but smile, even though he responded with the formality she seemed to anticipate.

“Why, no, thank you,” he said. “I am not hurt. Didn’t you see the kind man help me onto the car?”

“Actually, no, thank you,” he said. “I’m not hurt. Didn’t you see the nice guy help me into the car?”

There was a subdivided titter from the other passengers over this touching admission of helplessness, but the human atom below drew a long, audible sigh of relief.

There was a muffled giggle from the other passengers over this heartfelt confession of vulnerability, but the person below let out a long, noticeable sigh of relief.

“I’m very glad,” she said, with dignity. “I was[173] ’fraid he hurt you.” She turned as she spoke, and toddled into the section opposite his, where a plain but kindly faced elderly woman was sitting. She lifted her charge to the seat beside her, and the child rose to her knees, pressed her pink face against the window-pane, and looked out at the snow that was falling heavily.

“I’m really glad,” she said, with dignity. “I was[173] worried he hurt you.” She turned as she spoke and walked over to the section across from him, where a plain but kind-faced elderly woman was sitting. She lifted the child to the seat beside her, and the child got up on her knees, pressed her pink face against the window, and looked out at the heavy falling snow.

Dr. Van Valkenberg settled back in his seat and tried to read his newspaper, but for some reason the slight incident in which he and the little girl had figured moved him strangely. It had been a long time since any one had looked at him like that! He was not a person who aroused sympathy. He conscientiously endeavored to follow the President’s latest oracular utterances on the Trust problem, but his eyes turned often to the curly head at the window opposite. They were well-trained, observant eyes, and they read the woman as not the mother, but a paid attendant—a trained nurse, probably, with fifteen years of admirable, cold, scientific service behind her. Why was she with the child, he wondered.

Dr. Van Valkenberg settled back in his seat and tried to read his newspaper, but something about the brief incident with the little girl affected him unexpectedly. It had been a long time since anyone had looked at him that way! He wasn't the kind of person who inspired sympathy. He diligently tried to keep up with the President’s latest comments on the Trust issue, but his gaze frequently drifted to the curly head at the window across from him. His eyes were sharp and observant, and they noted that the woman was not the mother, but likely a paid caregiver—a trained nurse, probably, with fifteen years of impressive, clinical experience behind her. Why was she with the child, he wondered.

It was Christmas eve—not the time for a baby girl to be travelling. Then his glance fell again on the black bow among the yellow curls and on the white dress with its black shoulder-knots, and the explanation came to him. An orphan, of course, on her way West to a new home, in charge of the matter-of-fact nurse who was dozing comfortably in the corner of her seat. To whom was she going? Perhaps to grandparents, where she would be spoiled and wholly happy; or quite possibly to more distant relatives[174] where she might find a grudging welcome. Dear little embryo woman, with her sympathetic heart already attuned to the world’s gamut of pain. She should have been dancing under a Christmas tree, or hanging up her tiny stocking in the warm chimney-corner of some cozy nursery. The heart of the man swelled at the thought, and he recognized the sensation with a feeling of surprised annoyance. What was all this to him—to an old bachelor who knew nothing of children except their infantile ailments, and who had supposed that he cared for them as little as he understood them? Still, it was Christmas. His mind swung back to that. He himself had rebelled at the unwelcome prospect of Christmas eve and Christmas day in a sleeping-car—he, without even nephews and nieces to lighten the gloom of his lonely house. The warm human sympathy of the man and the sweet traditions of his youth rose in protest against this spectacle of a lonely child, travelling through the night toward some distant home which she had never seen, and where coldness, even neglect, might await her. Then he reminded himself that this was all imagination, and that he might be wholly wrong in his theory of the journey, and he called himself a fool for his pains. Still, the teasing interest and an elusive but equally teasing memory held his thoughts.

It was Christmas Eve—not a great time for a baby girl to be traveling. Then his gaze fell again on the black bow in her yellow curls and the white dress with its black shoulder knots, and suddenly it clicked. An orphan, of course, on her way West to a new home, accompanied by the practical nurse who was dozing comfortably in the corner of her seat. Who was she going to? Maybe to grandparents, where she’d be spoiled and completely happy; or possibly to more distant relatives where she might get a lukewarm welcome. Dear little girl, already feeling the world’s range of pain. She should have been dancing under a Christmas tree or hanging up her tiny stocking in a cozy nursery’s warm corner. The man’s heart swelled at the thought, and he recognized the feeling with surprise and irritation. What did this have to do with him—an old bachelor who knew nothing about kids except their little ailments, and who thought he didn’t care for them any more than he understood them? Still, it was Christmas. His mind went back to that. He himself had grumbled at the unwelcome idea of spending Christmas Eve and Christmas Day in a sleeper car—himself, without even any nephews or nieces to brighten the gloom of his lonely house. The warm human empathy within him and the sweet traditions of his youth protested against the sight of a lonely child traveling through the night toward some faraway home she’d never seen, where coldness, even neglect, might be waiting for her. Then he reminded himself that this was all just speculation, and that he could be completely wrong about her journey. He called himself a fool for worrying. Still, the nagging curiosity and a faint yet persistent memory occupied his mind.

Darkness was falling, but the porter had not begun to light the lamps, and heavy shadows were rising from the corners of the car. Dr. Van Valkenberg’s little neighbor turned from the gloom without to the gloom within, and made an impulsive movement toward[175] the drowsy woman opposite her. The nurse did not stir, and the little girl sat silent, her brown eyes shining in the half-light and her dimpled hands folded in her lap. The physician leaned across the aisle.

Darkness was falling, but the porter hadn't started lighting the lamps, and heavy shadows were creeping up from the corners of the car. Dr. Van Valkenberg’s young neighbor shifted her gaze from the darkness outside to the darkness inside and made an impulsive move toward the sleepy woman facing her. The nurse didn’t move, and the little girl sat quietly, her brown eyes shining in the dim light with her dimpled hands resting in her lap. The doctor leaned across the aisle.[175]

“Won’t you come over and visit me?” he asked. “I am very lonely, and I have no one to take care of me.”

“Will you come over and visit me?” he asked. “I’m really lonely, and I have no one to take care of me.”

She slid off the seat at once, with great alacrity.

She quickly slid off the seat.

“I’d like to,” she said, “but I must ask Nana. I must always ask Nana now,” she added, with dutiful emphasis, “’fore I do anyfing.”

“I’d like to,” she said, “but I have to ask Nana. I have to always ask Nana now,” she added, with serious emphasis, “before I do anything.”

She laid her hand on the gloved fingers of the nurse as she spoke, and the woman opened her eyes, shot a quick glance at the man, and nodded. She had not been asleep. Dr. Van Valkenberg rose and lifted his visitor to the seat beside him, where her short legs stuck out in uncompromising rigidity, and her tiny hands returned demurely to their former position in her lap. She took up the conversation where it had been interrupted.

She placed her hand on the nurse's gloved fingers as she spoke, and the woman opened her eyes, quickly glanced at the man, and nodded. She hadn't been asleep. Dr. Van Valkenberg stood up and helped his visitor to the seat next to him, where her short legs extended firmly without giving in, and her little hands returned modestly to their previous spot in her lap. She picked up the conversation right where it had left off.

“I can take care of you,” she said, brightly. “I taked care of mamma a great deal, and I gave her her med’cin’.”

“I can take care of you,” she said, cheerfully. “I took care of mom a lot, and I gave her her medicine.”

He replied by placing a cushion behind her back and forming a resting-place for her feet by building an imposing pyramid, of which his dressing-case was the base. Then he turned to her with the smile women loved.

He responded by putting a cushion behind her back and creating a comfy spot for her feet by stacking up an impressive pyramid with his makeup case as the base. Then he turned to her with a smile that women adored.

“Very well,” he said. “If you really are going to take care of me I must know your name. You see,” he explained, “I might need you in the night to get[176] me a glass of water or something. Just think how disappointing it would be if I should call you by the wrong name and some other little girl came!”

“Alright,” he said. “If you’re really going to look after me, I need to know your name. You see,” he explained, “I might need you at night to bring me a glass of water or something. Just imagine how disappointing it would be if I called you by the wrong name and some other little girl showed up!”

She laughed.

She chuckled.

“You say funny things,” she said, contentedly. “But there isn’t any other little girl in the car. I looked, soon as I came on, ’cos I wanted one to play with. I like little girls. I like little boys, too,” she added, with innocent expansiveness.

“You say funny things,” she said, happily. “But there isn’t any other little girl in the car. I checked as soon as I got in because I wanted one to play with. I like little girls. I like little boys, too,” she added, with innocent generosity.

“Then we’ll play I’m a little boy. You’d never believe it, but I used to be. You haven’t told me your name,” he reminded her.

“Then let’s play I’m a little boy. You wouldn’t believe it, but I used to be one. You haven’t told me your name,” he reminded her.

“Hope,” she said, promptly. “Do you think it is a nice name?” She made the inquiry with an anxious interest which seemed to promise immediate change if the name displeased him. He reassured her.

“Hope,” she said, quickly. “Do you think it’s a nice name?” She asked with a nervous interest that suggested she would change it right away if he didn't like it. He reassured her.

“I think Hope is the nicest name a little girl could have, except one,” he said. “The nicest little girl I ever knew was named Katharine. She grew to be a nice big girl, too,—and has little girls of her own now, no doubt,” he added, half to himself.

“I think Hope is the sweetest name a little girl could have, except for one,” he said. “The sweetest little girl I ever knew was named Katharine. She grew up to be a lovely big girl, too—and she probably has little girls of her own now,” he added, mostly to himself.

“Were you a little boy when she was a little girl?” asked his visitor, with flattering interest.

“Were you a little boy when she was a little girl?” asked his visitor, with genuine curiosity.

“Oh, no; I was a big man, just as I am now. Her father was my friend, and she lived in a white house with an old garden where there were all kinds of flowers. She used to play there when she was a tiny baby, just big enough to crawl along the paths. Later she learned to walk there, and then the gardener had to follow her to see that she didn’t pick all the flowers. I used to carry her around and hold her high up[177] so she could pull the apples and pears off the trees. When she grew larger I gave her a horse and taught her to ride. She seemed like my very own little girl. But by-and-by she grew up and became a young lady, and—well, she went away from me, and I never had another little girl.”

“Oh no; I was a big man, just like I am now. Her dad was my friend, and she lived in a white house with an old garden full of all kinds of flowers. She used to play there when she was a little baby, just big enough to crawl along the paths. Later, she learned to walk there, and then the gardener had to keep an eye on her to make sure she didn’t pick all the flowers. I used to carry her around and hold her up high so she could reach the apples and pears on the trees. As she grew older, I got her a horse and taught her how to ride. She felt like my very own little girl. But gradually she grew up and became a young lady, and—well, she left me, and I never had another little girl.”

He had begun the story to interest the child. He found, as he went on, that it still interested him.

He started telling the story to engage the child. As he continued, he realized that he was still captivated by it himself.

“Did she go to heaven?” asked the little girl, softly.

“Did she go to heaven?” the little girl asked quietly.

“Oh, dear, no,” answered the doctor, with brisk cheerfulness.

“Oh, no way,” replied the doctor, with upbeat cheerfulness.

“Then why didn’t she keep on being your little girl always?” was the next leading question.

“Then why didn’t she stay your little girl forever?” was the next leading question.

The doctor hesitated a moment. He was making the discovery that after many years old wounds can reopen and throb. No one had ever been brave enough to broach to him the subject of this single love-affair, which he was now discussing, he told himself, like a garrulous old woman. He was anxious to direct the conversation into other channels, but there was a certain compelling demand in the brown eyes upturned to his.

The doctor paused for a moment. He was realizing that after many years, old wounds can reopen and hurt again. No one had ever been bold enough to bring up this one love affair, which he now found himself talking about, he thought, like a chatty old woman. He wanted to steer the conversation in a different direction, but there was a certain irresistible pull in the brown eyes looking up at him.

“Well, you see,” he explained, “other boys liked her, too. And when she became a young lady other men liked her. So finally—one of them took her away from me.”

"Well, you see," he explained, "other boys liked her too. And when she became a young lady, other men liked her as well. So eventually—one of them took her away from me."

He uttered the last words wearily, and the sensitive atom at his side seemed to understand why. Her little hand slipped into his.

He spoke the last words tiredly, and the sensitive atom next to him seemed to get it. Her tiny hand slipped into his.

“Why didn’t you ask her to please stay with you?” she persisted, pityingly.

“Why didn’t you ask her to stay with you?” she pressed, with sympathy.

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“I did,” he told her. “But, you see, she liked the other man better.”

“I did,” he told her. “But, you see, she preferred the other guy.”

“Oh-h-h.” The word came out long-drawn and breathless. “I don’t see how she possedly could!”

“Ohh.” The word came out drawn out and breathless. “I don’t see how she possibly could!”

There was such sorrow for the victim and scorn for the offender in the tone, that, combined with the none too subtle compliment, it was too much for Dr. Van Valkenberg’s self-control. He threw back his gray head, and burst into an almost boyish shout of laughter, which effectually cleaned the atmosphere of sentimental memories. He suddenly realized, too, that he had not been giving the child the cheerful holiday evening he had intended.

There was so much sadness for the victim and disdain for the offender in the tone that, along with the not-so-subtle compliment, it was more than Dr. Van Valkenberg could handle. He tilted his gray head back and erupted into a nearly boyish laugh, which totally cleared the air of sentimental thoughts. He also suddenly recognized that he hadn't been giving the child the joyful holiday evening he had planned.

“Where are you going to hang up your stockings to-night?” he asked. A shade fell over her sensitive face.

“Where are you planning to hang your stockings tonight?” he asked. A shadow crossed her sensitive face.

“I can’t hang them up,” she answered, soberly. “Santa Claus doesn’t travel on trains, Nana says. But p’r’aps he’ll have something waiting for me when I get to Cousin Gertie’s,” she added, with sweet hopefulness.

“I can't hang them up,” she responded seriously. “Santa Claus doesn't travel by train, Nana says. But maybe he'll have something waiting for me when I get to Cousin Gertie's,” she added, with sweet hopefulness.

“Nana is always right,” said the doctor, oracularly, “and of course you must do exactly as she says. But I heard that Santa Claus was going to get on the train to-night at Buffalo, and I believe,” he added, slowly and impressively, “that if he found a pair of small black stockings hanging from that section he’d fill them!”

“Nana is always right,” the doctor said wisely, “and of course, you should do exactly what she says. But I heard that Santa Claus is going to get on the train tonight in Buffalo, and I believe,” he added slowly and with emphasis, “that if he sees a pair of small black stockings hanging from that section, he’ll fill them!”

Her eyes sparkled.

Her eyes shone.

“Then I’ll ask Nana,” she said. “An’ if she says I may hang them, I will. But one,” she added, conscientiously,[179] “has a teeny, weeny hole in the toe. Do you think he would mind that?”

“Then I’ll ask Nana,” she said. “And if she says I can hang them, I will. But one,” she added, thoughtfully, [179] “has a tiny hole in the toe. Do you think he would care about that?”

He reassured her on this point, and turned to the nurse, who was now wide awake and absorbed in a novel. The car was brilliantly lighted, and the passengers were beginning to respond to the first dinner call.

He reassured her about this, then turned to the nurse, who was now fully awake and engrossed in a novel. The car was brightly lit, and the passengers were starting to respond to the first dinner call.

“I beg your pardon,” he said. “I’ve taken a great fancy to your little charge, and I want your help to carry out a plan of mine. I have suggested to Hope that she hang up her stockings tonight. I have every reason to believe that Santa Claus will get on this train at Buffalo. In fact,” he added, smiling, “I mean to telegraph him.”

“I’m sorry,” he said. “I’ve really grown fond of your little one, and I need your help to pull off a plan of mine. I suggested to Hope that she hang up her stockings tonight. I’m pretty sure Santa Claus will get on this train in Buffalo. Actually,” he added, smiling, “I plan to send him a telegram.”

The nurse hesitated a moment. He drew his card-case from his pocket and handed her one of the bits of pasteboard it contained.

The nurse paused for a moment. He pulled out his card case from his pocket and gave her one of the cards inside.

“I have no evil designs,” he added, cheerfully. “If you are a New-Yorker you may possibly know who I am.”

“I have no bad intentions,” he added, cheerfully. “If you’re a New Yorker, you might know who I am.”

The woman’s face lit up as she read the name. She turned toward him impulsively, with a very pleasant smile.

The woman's face brightened as she read the name. She turned to him impulsively, wearing a warm smile.

“Indeed I do, doctor,” she said. “Who does not? Dr. Abbey sent for you last week,” she added, “for a consultation over the last case I had—this child’s mother. But you were out of town. We were all so disappointed. It seems strange that we should meet now.”

“Of course I do, doctor,” she said. “Who doesn’t? Dr. Abbey called you in last week for a consultation about my last case—the mother of this child. But you were out of town. We were all really disappointed. It feels odd that we should meet now.”

“Patient died?” asked the physician, with professional brevity.

“Patient died?” asked the doctor, in a professional and concise manner.

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“Yes, doctor.”

“Sure, doctor.”

He rose from his seat.

He stood up.

“Now that you have my credentials,” he added, cordially, “I want you and Hope to dine with me. You will, won’t you?”

“Now that you have my credentials,” he said warmly, “I’d like you and Hope to have dinner with me. You will, right?”

The upholstered cheerfulness of the dining-car found favor in the sight of Hope. She conducted herself, however, with her usual dignity, broken only occasionally by an ecstatic wriggle as the prospective visit of Santa Claus crossed her mind. Her dinner, superintended by an eminent physician and a trained nurse, was naturally a simple and severely hygienic one, but here, too, her admirable training was evident. She ate cheerfully her bowl of bread and milk, and wasted no longing glances on the plum-pudding.

The cozy atmosphere of the dining car appealed to Hope. She maintained her usual dignity, only occasionally breaking into an excited wiggle when she thought about the upcoming visit from Santa Claus. Her dinner, overseen by a well-respected doctor and a trained nurse, was, of course, simple and very hygienic, but her excellent upbringing shone through. She happily ate her bowl of bread and milk, not even casting a longing glance at the plum pudding.

Later, in the feverish excitement of hanging up her stockings, going to bed, and peeping through the curtains to catch Santa Claus, a little of her extraordinary repose of manner deserted her; but she fell asleep at last, with great reluctance.

Later, in the frenzied excitement of putting up her stockings, going to bed, and sneaking a look through the curtains to spot Santa Claus, some of her usual calm slipped away; but she eventually fell asleep, although not without a struggle.

When the curtains round her berth had ceased trembling, a most unusual procession wended its silent way toward Dr. Van Valkenberg’s section. In some occult manner the news had gone from one end to the other of the “Special” that a little girl in section nine, car Floradora, had hung up her stockings for Santa Claus. The hearts of fathers, mothers, and doting uncles responded at once. Dressing-cases were unlocked, great valises were opened, mysterious bundles were unwrapped, and from all these sources came gifts of surprising fitness. Small daughters and[181] nieces, sleeping in Western cities, might well have turned restlessly in their beds had they seen the presents designed for them drop into a pair of tiny stockings and pile up on the floor below these.

When the curtains around her bunk stopped shaking, a pretty unusual group quietly made its way to Dr. Van Valkenberg’s section. Somehow, news had spread all the way through the "Special" that a little girl in section nine, car Floradora, had hung up her stockings for Santa Claus. The hearts of fathers, mothers, and doting uncles reacted immediately. Dressers were opened, big suitcases were unzipped, and mysterious packages were revealed, all bringing gifts that were surprisingly fitting. Little daughters and nieces asleep in Western cities would have surely tossed and turned in their beds if they’d seen the presents meant for them drop into a pair of small stockings and pile up on the floor below.

A succession of long-drawn, ecstatic breaths and happy gurgles awoke the passengers on car Floradora at an unseemly hour Christmas morning, and a small white figure, clad informally in a single garment, danced up and down the aisle, dragging carts and woolly lambs behind it. Occasionally there was the squeak of a talking doll, and always there was the patter of small feet and the soft cooing of a child’s voice, punctuated by the exquisite music of a child’s laughter. Dawn was just approaching, and the lamps, still burning, flared pale in the gray light. But in the length of that car there was no soul so base as to long for silence and the pillow. Crabbed old faces looked out between the curtains and smiled; eyes long unused to tears felt a sudden, strange moisture. Dr. Van Valkenberg had risen almost as early as Hope, and possibly the immaculate freshness of his attire, contrasted with the scantiness of her own, induced that young lady to retire from observation for a short time and emerge clothed for general society. Even during this brief retreat in the dressing-room the passengers heard her breathless voice, high-pitched in her excitement, chattering incessantly to the responsive Nana.

A series of long, ecstatic breaths and happy giggles woke the passengers on car Floradora at an absurdly early hour on Christmas morning, and a small white figure, casually dressed in a single outfit, danced up and down the aisle, dragging carts and fluffy lambs behind it. Occasionally, there was the squeak of a talking doll, and always the sound of small feet pattering and the soft cooing of a child’s voice, punctuated by the delightful music of a child’s laughter. Dawn was just approaching, and the lamps, still lit, glowed faintly in the gray light. But in that car, no one was so grumpy as to wish for silence and their pillow. Grumpy old faces peeked out from behind the curtains and smiled; eyes not used to tears felt a sudden, strange dampness. Dr. Van Valkenberg had woken almost as early as Hope, and possibly the immaculate freshness of his outfit, contrasted with how little she was wearing, encouraged that young lady to step away for a moment and come back dressed for socializing. Even during this brief time in the dressing room, the passengers heard her breathless voice, high with excitement, chattering nonstop to the attentive Nana.

Throughout the day the snow still fell, and the outside world seemed far away and dreamlike to Dr. Van Valkenberg. The real things were this train,[182] cutting its way through the snow, and this little child, growing deeper into his heart with each moment that passed. The situation was unique, but easy enough to understand, he told himself. He had merely gone back twenty-five years to that other child, whom he had petted in infancy and loved and lost in womanhood. He had been very lonely—how lonely he had only recently begun to realize, and he was becoming an old man whose life lay behind him. He crossed the aisle suddenly and sat down beside the nurse, leaving Hope singing her doll to sleep in his section. There was something almost diffident in his manner as he spoke.

Throughout the day, the snow continued to fall, making the outside world feel distant and dreamlike to Dr. Van Valkenberg. The real things were this train, [182] cutting through the snow, and this little child, who was capturing his heart more deeply with each passing moment. The situation was unique but easy enough for him to grasp. He had simply gone back twenty-five years to another child he had cared for in infancy, loved, and lost to adulthood. He had felt very lonely—so lonely that he had only recently started to realize—and he was becoming an old man with his life behind him. He suddenly crossed the aisle and sat down next to the nurse, leaving Hope singing her doll to sleep in his section. There was something almost hesitant in his manner as he spoke.

“Will you tell me all you know about the child?” he asked. “She interests me greatly and appeals to me very strongly, probably because she’s so much like some one I used to know.”

“Can you tell me everything you know about the child?” he asked. “I'm really interested in her and feel a strong connection, probably because she’s so much like someone I used to know.”

The nurse closed her book and looked at him curiously. She had heard much of him, but nothing that would explain this interest in a strange child. He himself could not have explained it. He knew only that he felt it, powerfully and compellingly.

The nurse shut her book and looked at him with curiosity. She had heard a lot about him, but nothing that would explain this interest in a peculiar child. He couldn’t explain it himself. All he knew was that he felt it, strongly and irresistibly.

“Her name is Hope Armitage,” she said, quietly. “Her mother, who has just died, was a widow—Mrs. Katharine Armitage. They were poor, and Mrs. Armitage seemed to have no relations. She had saved a little, enough to pay most of her expenses at the hospital, and—” She hesitated a moment, and then went on: “I am telling you everything very frankly, because you are you, but it was done quietly enough. We all loved the woman. She was very unusual, and[183] patient, and charming. All the nurses who had had anything to do with her cried when she died. We felt that she might have been saved if she had come in time, but she was worked out. She had earned her living by sewing, after her husband’s death, three years ago, and she kept at it day and night. She hadn’t much constitution to begin with, and none when she came to us. She was so sweet, so brave, yet so desperately miserable over leaving her little girl alone in the world——”

“Her name is Hope Armitage,” she said quietly. “Her mother, who just passed away, was a widow—Mrs. Katharine Armitage. They were poor, and Mrs. Armitage didn’t seem to have any relatives. She had saved a little money, just enough to cover most of her hospital expenses, and—” She paused for a moment and then continued, “I’m being completely honest with you because you’re you, but it all happened pretty quietly. We all loved her. She was really special, so patient and charming. All the nurses who had worked with her cried when she died. We felt she might have been saved if she had come in sooner, but she was worn out. She made a living by sewing after her husband died three years ago, and she worked at it day and night. She didn’t have much strength to begin with, and none when she arrived with us. She was so sweet, so brave, yet so desperately unhappy about leaving her little girl alone in the world——”

Dr. Van Valkenberg sat silent. It was true, then. This was Katharine’s child. Had he not known it? Could he have failed to know it, whenever or wherever they had met? He had not known of the death of Armitage nor of the subsequent poverty of his widow, but he had known Katharine’s baby, he now told himself, the moment he saw her.

Dr. Van Valkenberg sat quietly. It was true, then. This was Katharine's child. Had he really not seen it? Could he have missed it, no matter when or where they crossed paths? He hadn’t known about Armitage's death or the poverty that followed for his widow, but he now realized he recognized Katharine's baby the moment he saw her.

“Well,” the nurse resumed, “after she died we raised a small fund to buy some clothes for Hope, and take her to Chicago to her new home. Mrs. Armitage has a cousin there, who has agreed to take her in. None of the relatives came to the funeral; there are not many of them, and the Chicago people haven’t much money, I fancy. They offered to send Hope’s fare, or even to come for her if it was absolutely necessary; but they seemed very much relieved when we wrote that I would bring her out.”

“Well,” the nurse continued, “after she passed away, we gathered a small fund to buy some clothes for Hope and take her to Chicago to her new home. Mrs. Armitage has a cousin there who has agreed to take her in. None of the relatives attended the funeral; there aren’t many of them, and the Chicago relatives don’t have much money, I think. They offered to send Hope’s fare or even come to get her if it was absolutely necessary, but they seemed very relieved when we informed them that I would bring her out.”

Dr. Van Valkenberg did not speak at once. He was hardly surprised. Life was full of extraordinary situations, and his profession had brought him face to face with many of them. Nevertheless, a deep solemnity[184] filled him and a strange peace settled over him. He turned to the nurse with something of this in his face and voice.

Dr. Van Valkenberg didn’t reply right away. He wasn’t really surprised. Life was full of extraordinary situations, and his job had exposed him to many of them. Still, a deep seriousness[184] washed over him, and a strange calmness surrounded him. He turned to the nurse, conveying some of this in his expression and tone.

“I want her,” he said, briefly. “Her mother and father were old friends of mine, and this thing looks like fate. Will they give her to me—these Chicago people—do you think?”

“I want her,” he said, shortly. “Her parents were old friends of mine, and this seems like fate. Do you think these Chicago people will let me have her?”

Tears filled the woman’s eyes.

Tears filled the woman's eyes.

“Indeed they will,” she said, “and gladly. There was”—she hesitated—“there was even some talk of sending her to an institution before they finally decided to take her. Dear little Hope—how happy she will be with you!”

“Of course they will,” she said, “and happily. There was”—she paused—“there was even some discussion about sending her to a facility before they finally chose to take her. Sweet little Hope—she's going to be so happy with you!”

He left her, and went back to the seat where Hope sat, crooning to the doll. Sitting down, he gathered them both up in his arms, and a thrill shot through him as he looked at the yellow curls resting against his breast. Her child—her little helpless baby—now his child, to love and care for. He was not a religious man; nevertheless a prayer rose spontaneously in his heart. But there was a plea to be made—a second plea, like the one he had made the mother; this time he felt that he knew the answer.

He left her and returned to the seat where Hope sat, softly singing to the doll. Sitting down, he pulled them both into his arms, and a wave of emotion washed over him as he looked at the golden curls resting against his chest. Her child—her little helpless baby—now his child, to love and care for. He wasn't a religious man; yet, a prayer arose naturally in his heart. But there was another request to be made—a second request, like the one he had made to the mother; this time, he felt he already knew the answer.

“Hope,” he said, gently, “once, long ago, I asked a little girl to come and live with me, and she would not come. Now I want to ask you to come, and stay with me always, and be my own little girl, and let me take care of you and make you happy. Will you come?”

“Hope,” he said softly, “a long time ago, I asked a little girl to come and live with me, but she wouldn’t come. Now I want to ask you to come and stay with me forever, to be my own little girl, and let me take care of you and make you happy. Will you come?”

The radiance of June sunshine broke out upon her face and shone in the brown eyes upturned to his.[185] How well he knew that look! Hope did not turn toward Nana, and that significant omission touched him deeply. She seemed to feel that here was a question she alone must decide. She drew a long breath as she looked up at him.

The bright June sunlight lit up her face and sparkled in the brown eyes that were turned up to his.[185] He recognized that look so well! Hope didn’t go to Nana, and that important absence affected him deeply. It seemed like she realized this was a decision she had to make on her own. She took a deep breath as she gazed up at him.

“Really, truly?” she asked. Then, as he nodded without speaking, she saw something in his face that was new to her. It was nothing to frighten a little girl, for it was very sweet and tender; but for one second she thought her new friend was going to cry! She put both arms around his neck, and replied softly, with the exquisite maternal cadences her voice had taken on in her first words to him when he entered the car:

“Really, truly?” she asked. Then, as he nodded without saying anything, she noticed something in his face that she had never seen before. It wasn’t scary for a little girl; in fact, it was really sweet and tender. But for a moment, she thought her new friend was about to cry! She wrapped both arms around his neck and responded softly, using the beautiful, motherly tone her voice had adopted when she first spoke to him as he got into the car:

“I’ll be your own little girl, and I’ll take care of you, too. You know, you said I could.”

“I’ll be your little girl, and I’ll take care of you, too. You know, you said I could.”

Dr. Van Valkenberg turned to the nurse.

Dr. Van Valkenberg faced the nurse.

“I shall go with you to her cousin’s, from the train,” he announced. “I’m ready to give them all the proofs they need that I’m a suitable guardian for the child, but,” he added, with a touch of the boyishness that had never left him, “I want this matter settled now.”

“I'll go with you to her cousin's, from the train,” he said. “I’m prepared to show them all the evidence they need that I’m a suitable guardian for the child, but,” he added, with a hint of the youthful spirit that had never left him, “I want this resolved now.”

The long train pounded its way into the station at Chicago, and the nurse hurriedly put on Hope’s coat and gloves and fastened the ribbons of her hood under her chin. Dr. Van Valkenberg summoned a porter.

The long train rolled into the station in Chicago, and the nurse quickly helped Hope put on her coat and gloves, securing the ribbons of her hood under her chin. Dr. Van Valkenberg called over a porter.

“Take care of all these things,” he said, indicating both sets of possessions with a sweep of the arm. “I shall have my hands full with my little daughter.”

“Take care of all this stuff,” he said, motioning to both groups of belongings with a wave of his arm. “I’ll be busy with my little girl.”

He gathered her into his arms as he spoke, and she nestled against his broad chest with a child’s unconscious[186] satisfaction in the strength and firmness of his clasp. The lights of the great station were twinkling in the early dusk as he stepped off the train, and the place was noisy with the greetings exchanged between the passengers and their waiting friends.

He wrapped her in his arms as he spoke, and she settled against his strong chest, feeling a child's instinctive joy in his secure hold. The lights of the large station sparkled in the early twilight as he got off the train, and the area was bustling with the sounds of passengers greeting their waiting friends.

“Merry Christmas,” “Merry Christmas,” sounded on every side. Everybody was absorbed and excited, yet there were few who did not find time to turn a last look on a singularly attractive little child, held above the crowd in the arms of a tall man. She was laughing triumphantly as he bore her through the throng, and his heart was in his eyes as he smiled back at her.

“Merry Christmas,” “Merry Christmas,” echoed all around. Everyone was caught up in the excitement, but most people still paused to sneak a last glance at a particularly charming little girl, who was being held high above the crowd by a tall man. She was laughing joyfully while he carried her through the crowd, and his eyes sparkled with love as he smiled back at her.

FOOTNOTES:

[11] By special permission of the author.

[11] With special permission from the author.


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A BEGGAR’S CHRISTMAS[12]

A FABLE

A modern fable


Edith Wyatt

Edith Wyatt


Once upon a time there was a beggar-maid named Anitra, who lived in a cellar in the largest city of a wealthy and fabulous nation.

Once upon a time, there was a beggar-maid named Anitra, who lived in a basement in the largest city of a rich and amazing nation.

In spite of the fact that the country was passing through an era of great commercial prosperity, it contained such large numbers of beggars, and the competition among them was so keen, that on Christmas Eve at midnight, Anitra found herself without a single cent.

In spite of the country going through a time of huge economic growth, there were still so many beggars, and the competition among them was fierce, that on Christmas Eve at midnight, Anitra found herself with no money at all.

She turned away from the street-corner, where she had been standing with her little stack of fortune-cards, and hurried through the alleys to the shelter of her cellar. These fortune-cards of hers were printed in all languages; and, had the public but known, it could not go wrong among them, for every single card promised good-luck to the chooser. But, in spite of all this tact on Anitra’s part, and her complete dependence upon universal chivalry, qualities which are woman’s surest methods of success in the real world, in the wealthy and fabulous kingdom she now [188]found herself not only hungry, ragged, and penniless, but also without a roof over her head. For when she reached her cellar-door it was nailed shut: and, as she had not paid her rent for a long time, she knew she could not persuade her fabulous landlord to open it for her.

She turned away from the street corner, where she had been standing with her little stack of fortune cards, and rushed through the alleys to the safety of her cellar. Her fortune cards were printed in all languages; if the public only knew, they couldn’t go wrong with them, as every single card promised good luck to the chooser. But despite all of Anitra’s cleverness and her complete reliance on universal kindness—qualities that are women’s best strategies for success in the real world—she found herself not only hungry, torn up, and broke in this wealthy and extravagant kingdom, but also without a roof over her head. When she got to her cellar door, it was nailed shut; and since she hadn’t paid her rent in a long time, she knew she couldn’t convince her wealthy landlord to open it for her.

She walked away, holding her little torn shawl fast around her, and shaking her loose black hair around her cheeks to try to keep them warm. But the cold and the damp struck to her very bones. Her little feet in their ragged shoes and stockings were as numb as clubs; and she limped along, scarcely able to direct them, to know where she was going, or to know anything in fact, except that she would freeze to death if she stood still.

She walked away, clutching her little torn shawl tightly around her and shaking her loose black hair around her cheeks to keep them warm. But the cold and damp chilled her to the bone. Her little feet in their ragged shoes and stockings were as numb as blocks of wood; and she limped along, barely able to steer them, not knowing where she was going, or really anything at all, except that she would freeze to death if she stood still.

Soon she reached a large dark building with a broad flight of steps and a pillared entrance. Nobody seemed to be guarding it, and she managed to creep up the steps and in between the pillars out of the snow.

Soon she reached a large, dark building with a wide set of steps and a pillared entrance. No one appeared to be guarding it, and she was able to sneak up the steps and slip between the pillars to escape the snow.

Behind the pillars rose enormous closed doors. Under the doors shone a chink of light. Anitra stooped down and put her hand against the crack. There was a little warmth in the air sifting through. She laid her whole body close against the opening. That pushed the doors inward slightly, and she slipped inside the entrance.

Behind the pillars were huge closed doors. A sliver of light shone underneath them. Anitra crouched down and pressed her hand against the crack. There was a bit of warmth in the air seeping through. She pressed her whole body against the opening. That made the doors move inward slightly, and she slipped inside the entrance.

She was in a tremendous gilded, carven, and pillared hall of great tiers of empty seats and far dark galleries, all dimly lighted and all garlanded with wreaths of mistletoe and holly. For a long time she sat on the floor with her head thrown back against[189] the door, staring quietly about her, without moving a hair for fear of being driven away. But no one came. The whole place was silent.

She was in a grand, decorated hall with tall, empty seats and distant dark balconies, all dimly lit and adorned with wreaths of mistletoe and holly. For a long time, she sat on the floor with her head leaned back against the door, quietly looking around, not daring to move a muscle for fear of being chased away. But no one showed up. The entire place was silent.

After about an hour, she rose softly, and stepped without a sound along the dark velvet carpet of the centre aisle and up a flight of steps at the end, to a great gold throne with cushions of purple velvet and ermine. She rested her wrists on the gold ledge of the seat, and with a little vault she jumped up on the cushions. They were warm and soft. She curled up among them, and pulled her little shawl over her, meaning to jump down the instant she heard the least noise. And while she was listening she fell fast asleep.

After about an hour, she quietly got up and walked silently along the dark velvet carpet of the center aisle, climbing a flight of steps at the end to a grand gold throne with cushions of purple velvet and ermine. She rested her wrists on the gold edge of the seat, and with a little leap, she climbed onto the cushions. They were warm and soft. She curled up among them and pulled her little shawl over herself, planning to jump down as soon as she heard the slightest sound. But while she was listening, she fell fast asleep.

She was awakened by the cool gray light of the December daybreak falling through the long windows, over all the gold-carven pillars and high beams and arches, all the empty seats and dark velvet cushions and high garlands of holly.

She woke up to the cool gray light of the December dawn streaming through the tall windows, illuminating all the gold-carved pillars, high beams, and arches, along with the empty seats, dark velvet cushions, and tall garlands of holly.

She held her breath. Three men, who had plainly not seen her, had entered at a side-door. She recognized them all from their pictures in the papers. They were the aged Minister, the middle-aged Chancellor, and the young King of the kingdom. The King carried a roll of parchment in his hand and seemed very nervous, and the Chancellor was speaking to him about “throwing the voice,” as they all came up the centre aisle, and then straight up the steps, toward the throne.

She held her breath. Three men, who clearly hadn't noticed her, came in through a side door. She recognized all of them from their pictures in the papers. They were the elderly Minister, the middle-aged Chancellor, and the young King of the kingdom. The King was holding a scroll of parchment and looked very nervous, while the Chancellor was talking to him about “throwing the voice” as they walked up the center aisle and then straight up the steps toward the throne.

Dumb with fright, Anitra raised her head from the cushions. The three men suddenly saw her. The young King started and dropped the parchment, the Chancellor[190] stumbled and nearly fell, and the aged Minister darted toward her.

Dumb with fright, Anitra lifted her head from the cushions. The three men suddenly noticed her. The young King jumped and dropped the parchment, the Chancellor stumbled and almost fell, and the elderly Minister rushed toward her.

“What are you doing here?” he cried angrily.

“What are you doing here?” he shouted furiously.

“Nothing,” said Anitra, sitting up, with her shawl held tightly around her, and her little ragged shoes dangling from the throne.

“Nothing,” Anitra said, sitting up, her shawl wrapped tightly around her, and her little ragged shoes dangling from the throne.

“Who are you?” said the Chancellor suspiciously, staring at her. He was very short-sighted.

“Who are you?” the Chancellor asked suspiciously, staring at her. He had extremely poor eyesight.

“Nobody,” said Anitra.

“Nobody,” Anitra said.

“She is just a stray who has got in here somehow,” said the Minister rather kindly. “Run away, my child,” he added, giving her a coin. “Can’t you see the King wants to practice his speech here, now?”

“She’s just a stray who somehow got in here,” said the Minister gently. “Run along, my child,” he added, giving her a coin. “Can’t you see the King wants to practice his speech here now?”

But the Chancellor seemed to be considering. “Do you know,” he said softly to the Minister, as the King, who had picked up the parchment, stood absorbed, whispering his speech over to himself, “an idea has struck me. I don’t know but that we might let her stay there till the reporters come to photograph the new hall. It would look rather well, you know, if something like this should get into the papers, ‘Mighty Monarch Finding Stray Asleep on Throne, on Christmas Morn, Refuses to Break Slumbers.’”

But the Chancellor seemed to be thinking. “You know,” he said quietly to the Minister, as the King, who had picked up the parchment, was lost in thought, muttering his speech to himself, “an idea just came to me. I think we might let her stay there until the reporters arrive to take pictures of the new hall. It would look pretty good, you know, if something like this made it into the papers: ‘Mighty Monarch Finds Stray Asleep on Throne on Christmas Morning, Refuses to Wake Her.’”

The old Minister looked a little doubtful. “You can’t tell what she might say afterwards,” he said.

The old Minister looked a bit uncertain. “You never know what she might say later,” he said.

“We can easily arrange that,” replied the Chancellor; and he turned towards Anitra and said sternly, “If we let you stay here will you promise not to say one word to anyone about the matter or about anything you see or hear in this hall, without our permission?”

“We can easily arrange that,” replied the Chancellor; and he turned to Anitra and said sternly, “If we let you stay here, will you promise not to say a word to anyone about this or about anything you see or hear in this hall, without our permission?”

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“Yes,” said Anitra readily.

“Yeah,” said Anitra readily.

“Consider what you are saying, my child,” said the Minister mildly. “Do you know this means that if you say one word the administration dislikes you will be hung?”

“Think about what you’re saying, my child,” the Minister said gently. “Do you realize that if you say one word the administration doesn’t like, you could be hanged?”

“No, indeed,” said Anitra in misery. “How could I know that?”

“No way,” Anitra said sadly. “How was I supposed to know that?”

“You should not have promised so rashly,” said the Chancellor. “But now that it is done, we will trust that everything will fall out so that it will not be necessary to hang you.”

“You shouldn’t have promised so carelessly,” said the Chancellor. “But now that it’s done, we’ll hope that everything turns out in a way that we won’t have to hang you.”

“What do you want me to do?” said Anitra.

“What do you want me to do?” Anitra asked.

“Simply remain here now, just as you were when we came in, except with your eyes shut,” said the Chancellor, “and then when we tell you to do so, go down and sit on the throne-steps until the audience-hall is filled with all the populace who are coming to see the new audience-chamber, and to listen to the judgments of the King, on Christmas Day. If anybody asks you how you came to be here, you might mention the fact that you had strayed in from the cold, and tell about the royal clemency shown in permitting you to remain. Then, at the end of the day, if you have done as you should, you can go out with the rest of the people.”

“Just stay here now, just like you were when we walked in, but keep your eyes closed,” said the Chancellor. “Then, when we tell you, go down and sit on the throne steps until the audience hall is filled with everyone coming to see the new audience chamber and to hear the King’s judgments on Christmas Day. If anyone asks you how you ended up here, you can say you wandered in from the cold and mention the royal kindness that allowed you to stay. Then, at the end of the day, if you did everything right, you can leave with the rest of the crowd.”

“Go to sleep again, now,” said the aged Minister, “just as you were when we came in.”

“Go back to sleep now,” said the old Minister, “just like you were when we walked in.”

Anitra put her head down on the cushion again, but she could not sleep, for the King began to read his proclamation at the top of his lungs, so that it could be heard in the furthest galleries, where the[192] Chancellor stood and kept calling, “Louder! Louder!” The speech was all about the wealth and prosperity and happiness and good fortune of the kingdom, and how no one needed to be hungry or cold or poor in any way, because there was such plenty.

Anitra rested her head on the cushion again, but she couldn't sleep because the King started reading his proclamation at the top of his lungs, making sure it could be heard in the farthest galleries, where the[192] Chancellor stood, repeatedly shouting, “Louder! Louder!” The speech was all about the wealth, prosperity, happiness, and good fortune of the kingdom, insisting that no one needed to be hungry, cold, or poor in any way because there was so much abundance.

When the King had finished, he said rather crossly to the Chancellor, “Well, are you suited?”

When the King finished, he said a bit irritably to the Chancellor, “So, are you satisfied?”

The Chancellor expressed his content, and they talked over the prisoners who were to be judged, which ones were to be hanged, and which ones were to be pardoned, till the Chancellor had to hurry away to attend to some other matters. The King left moodily soon afterwards. The Chancellor’s opinions and methods were often obnoxious to him; but he disliked greatly to wound or oppose him in any way. He had been an old and intimate friend of the King’s father, and besides he was very powerful in the country.

The Chancellor expressed his satisfaction, and they discussed the prisoners who were to be judged, deciding who would be hanged and who would be pardoned, until the Chancellor had to rush off to take care of other matters. The King left in a bad mood shortly afterward. The Chancellor's views and methods often annoyed him, but he deeply disliked hurting or opposing him in any way. He had been a close and long-time friend of the King’s father, and on top of that, he held significant power in the country.

All this time Anitra had kept her eyes closed; and she now lay still, while strange footsteps sounded on the marble floors and she heard the reporters coming to photograph the new audience-hall, heard them asking the aged Minister why she was there, and heard him telling them about the early visit of the King to inspect the new audience-chamber, and his wish that the slumber of the beggar-girl should not be disturbed till the arrival of the audience made it absolutely necessary. Then she heard them tiptoeing away to a little distance, heard their fountain-pens scratching and their cameras clicking through the[193] empty galleries, and at last she heard them going away.

All this time, Anitra had kept her eyes closed, and she lay still as strange footsteps echoed on the marble floors. She could hear the reporters arriving to photograph the new audience hall, asking the elderly Minister why she was there, and she listened as he explained the King’s early visit to check out the new audience chamber. He mentioned the King’s wish that the beggar girl’s slumber should not be disturbed until it was absolutely necessary due to the arrival of the audience. Then she heard them quietly moving away, heard their fountain pens scratching and cameras clicking through the[193] empty galleries, and finally, she heard them leaving.

“Now you can jump down, and run around for a little while,” said the Minister, waiting a minute before following them. “Some of the Democratic papers will have extras out, by three o’clock this afternoon, with photographs of you asleep on the throne, and there will be editorials in the Republican papers about the King’s tact and grace in the matter.”

“Now you can jump down and run around for a bit,” said the Minister, pausing for a moment before joining them. “Some of the Democratic papers will have extra editions out by three o’clock this afternoon, featuring photos of you asleep on the throne, and the Republican papers will have editorials praising the King’s tact and grace regarding this situation.”

Although Anitra wished to answer that she was too faint from hunger to jump down and run around, she made no reply for fear of being hung. But she slipped down from the throne, and sat on the throne-step, on the tread nearest the floor, in the hope of not being seen and questioned by the entering audience, for some time at least.

Although Anitra wanted to say that she was too weak from hunger to jump down and run around, she stayed silent out of fear of being punished. Instead, she slid down from the throne and sat on the step closest to the floor, hoping to avoid being seen and questioned by the audience coming in, at least for a little while.

For it was ten o’clock now. The great doors had swung wide open and a tremendous crowd of people surged into the hall,—men, women, and children, laughing, talking, exclaiming over the beauty of the new audience-chamber, and wondering what would happen to the three murderers the King would judge that day. It was a prosperous, well-dressed city crowd, and it poured in till it had filled the hall, the galleries, the aisles, and the staircases, and till the latest comers had even climbed upon the shoulders of the others, to the window-sills and the ledges of the wainscoting. With the rest came two old, wrinkled, clumsy shepherds from the country, with staffs in their hands and sheepskins on their backs, and sharp, aged eyes looking out from under their shaggy eyebrows, as though[194] they could watch well for wolves. Although they came among the last, they somehow made their way up to the very front of the hall. Except for these old shepherds and Anitra, all the people wore their very best clothes. The sun sparkled over everything. Outside, the Christmas bells rang, and Anitra looked at it all, and listened to it all, and hoped she would not faint with hunger, and wondered whether she could go through the day without saying something the Chancellor would dislike and being hung for it.

It was now ten o’clock. The huge doors had swung wide open, and a massive crowd of people flooded into the hall—men, women, and children laughing, chatting, marveling at the beauty of the new audience chamber, and wondering what would happen to the three criminals the King would judge that day. It was a prosperous, well-dressed city crowd, filling the hall, the galleries, the aisles, and the staircases, with the latecomers even climbing onto the shoulders of others, up to the window sills and ledges of the wainscoting. Along with the rest came two old, wrinkled, awkward shepherds from the countryside, with staffs in their hands and sheepskins on their backs, their sharp, aged eyes peering out from beneath their bushy eyebrows, as if they were on the lookout for wolves. Even though they arrived among the last, they somehow made their way to the very front of the hall. Aside from these old shepherds and Anitra, everyone else was dressed in their finest clothes. The sun sparkled over everything. Outside, the Christmas bells rang, and Anitra took it all in, hoping she wouldn’t faint from hunger, and wondering if she could make it through the day without saying something that would upset the Chancellor and get her hanged for it.

The people in the first row stared hard at her, and one usher wished to put her out because she was sitting inside the red velvet cordon intended to separate the royal platform from the populace. But another usher came hurrying up to say that he had received official orders to the effect that she was to be permitted to remain just where she was.

The people in the front row stared intensely at her, and one usher wanted to remove her because she was sitting inside the red velvet rope meant to separate the royal platform from the crowd. But another usher rushed over to say that he had gotten official orders allowing her to stay exactly where she was.

Before any one in the first row had time to ask her how she came to be there inside the red velvet cordon, the heralds blew on the trumpets, and everybody turned to see the entrance of the prisoners.

Before anyone in the front row could ask her how she got inside the red velvet cordon, the heralds sounded the trumpets, and everyone turned to see the entrance of the prisoners.

They were a man, a woman, and a boy. The woman was a cotton-spinner, Elizabeth, a poor neighbor of Anitra’s, who had left a fatherless child of hers upon a doorstep where it died. The boy was a Moorish merchant’s son, Joseph, who had stabbed another boy in a street-brawl. The man was a noble, Bernardino, who had killed his adversary in a duel. The turnkeys marched on either side of the prisoners and marshaled them into their seats on the platform.

They were a man, a woman, and a boy. The woman was a cotton spinner, Elizabeth, a poor neighbor of Anitra’s, who had left her fatherless child on a doorstep where it died. The boy was a Moorish merchant’s son, Joseph, who had stabbed another boy in a street fight. The man was a noble named Bernardino, who had killed his opponent in a duel. The guards marched alongside the prisoners and directed them to their seats on the platform.

No one in the court knew about Elizabeth or the[195] Moorish boy Joseph, or paid any attention to them, except that Joseph’s father stood with haggard eyes close to the cordon, and he looked at his son and his son looked back at him with a deep glance of devotion when the prisoners marched by to judgment. Six or seven rows back in the audience sat Elizabeth’s little sister, and when the prisoners were standing at the bar, she leaned far forward and threw a little sprig of holly down at Elizabeth’s feet, and Elizabeth stooped and picked it up.

No one in the court knew about Elizabeth or the Moorish boy Joseph, or cared about them, except for Joseph's father, who stood with tired eyes near the barrier. He looked at his son, who returned his gaze with a deep look of loyalty as the prisoners were led past to face judgment. Six or seven rows back in the audience sat Elizabeth's little sister, and when the prisoners stood before the judge, she leaned forward and tossed a small sprig of holly down at Elizabeth's feet. Elizabeth bent down and picked it up.

But there was a great buzz in the crowd when Bernardino, the nobleman, marched by. He was well known at court. His best friends sat together, and they cheered, and there was constant applause as he passed, and he bowed grandly to everybody.

But there was a lot of excitement in the crowd when Bernardino, the nobleman, walked by. He was well-known at court. His close friends were gathered together, cheering and applauding continuously as he passed, and he bowed grandly to everyone.

Then there was another flourish of trumpets, and the pages and ladies-and-lords-in-waiting and knights and chamberlains came in, and the Minister and the Chancellor, and last of all the young King. The whole room rang with applause and cheers. All the heralds blew on the bugles. The bells rang and the young King took his seat on the throne between the Minister and the Chancellor, and waited till the audience-chamber was still.

Then there was another blast of trumpets, and the pages, ladies and lords-in-waiting, knights, and chamberlains entered, along with the Minister and the Chancellor, and finally, the young King. The entire room burst into applause and cheers. All the heralds sounded their bugles. The bells rang, and the young King sat down on the throne between the Minister and the Chancellor, waiting until the audience chamber fell silent.

The herald came forward and cried, “Oyez! Oyez! Oyez! Bernardino, Duke of Urba, Lord of Rustica, come into the Court!” Bernardino, with his fur cape swinging from his broad shoulders and his plume tossing, stepped forward from the bar, and his trial began. The King heard evidence upon one side and heard evidence upon the other for a long, long time:[196] and at last he pardoned Bernardino. The bells rang, and the trumpets sounded again, and Bernardino’s friends went nearly wild with joy. And Bernardino kissed the King’s hand and walked down the throne-steps a free man.

The herald stepped up and shouted, “Hear ye! Hear ye! Bernardino, Duke of Urba, Lord of Rustica, enter the Court!” Bernardino, with his fur cape draping off his broad shoulders and his plume waving, moved forward from the bar, and his trial began. The King listened to evidence from one side and then the other for a long time: [196] and finally, he pardoned Bernardino. The bells rang, and the trumpets sounded again, and Bernardino’s friends nearly went wild with joy. Bernardino kissed the King’s hand and walked down the throne steps as a free man.

Only, the two aged clumsy shepherds turned and looked at each other, as if they felt some contempt for what was happening. And while Anitra watched them, as she thought how hungry she was, it seemed to her that they were far younger than she had noticed at first. They appeared to be about fifty years old.

Only, the two old, awkward shepherds turned and looked at each other, as if they felt some disdain for what was happening. And while Anitra watched them, thinking about how hungry she was, it seemed to her that they were much younger than she had noticed before. They looked to be around fifty years old.

Bernardino’s trial had occupied a great length of time; and just after it was over, and the applause and tumult after the decision had died down, and the herald had called, “Oyez! Oyez! Oyez! Joseph, son of the merchant Joseph, come into the Court!” then Anitra noticed that every one was looking at her, and whispering. She saw papers passed from hand to hand, and knew that the extras the King had spoken of must have come out.

Bernardino’s trial had taken a long time; and right after it was over, when the applause and noise from the verdict had quieted down, and the herald had called, “Oyez! Oyez! Oyez! Joseph, son of the merchant Joseph, come into the Court!” Anitra noticed that everyone was looking at her and whispering. She saw papers being passed around and realized that the extras the King had mentioned must have been released.

Everybody was so entertained and preoccupied with comparing the newspaper pictures of Anitra with Anitra herself, and with reading, “Mighty Monarch Finding Stray on Throne on Christmas Morn Refuses to Break Slumbers,” that Joseph’s trial seemed to slip by almost without public notice.

Everyone was so entertained and distracted by comparing the newspaper pictures of Anitra with Anitra herself and reading, “Mighty Monarch Finding Stray on Throne on Christmas Morning Refuses to Break Slumbers,” that Joseph’s trial seemed to go almost unnoticed by the public.

Only, Joseph’s father hung on every word. The King heard evidence upon one side and heard evidence upon the other for a long, long time, and every few minutes, on account of the buzz about Anitra’s being[197] permitted to sleep on the throne, the herald would be obliged to ask for silence in the audience-chamber. For no one knew Joseph, and no one cared about his fate except in so far as there was a general feeling that a murder committed by a Moor was more dangerous than a murder committed by anybody else. So that toward the end, when the evidence seemed to show more and more that Joseph had fought only to defend himself, the court was more silent, and there was a certain tenseness in the air. The King turned white. He condemned Joseph to death; but he did not look at him, he looked away. Joseph stood proudly before him, without moving an eyelash, without moving a muscle. Joseph’s father looked as proud as his son. But his face had changed to the face of an old man, and in his eyes burned the painful glance of a soul enduring an injustice.

Only, Joseph’s father hung on every word. The King listened to evidence from both sides for a long time, and every few minutes, due to the buzz about Anitra being allowed to sleep on the throne, the herald had to ask for silence in the audience chamber. No one knew Joseph, and no one cared about his fate except for the general notion that a murder committed by a Moor was considered more dangerous than one committed by anyone else. So, toward the end, when the evidence seemed to show more and more that Joseph had only fought to defend himself, the court grew quieter, and there was a certain tension in the air. The King turned pale. He condemned Joseph to death; but he didn’t look at him, he looked away. Joseph stood proudly before him, without twitching an eyelash, without moving a muscle. Joseph’s father looked as proud as his son. But his face had aged, and in his eyes burned the painful gaze of a soul suffering an injustice.

Every one else seemed to be satisfied, however. Only, the two aged, clumsy shepherds turned and looked at each other as though they felt a certain contempt for what was happening. And while Anitra watched, as she thought how hungry she was, it seemed to her that they were not aged at all. They appeared to be about forty years old.

Everyone else seemed to be satisfied, though. Only the two old, awkward shepherds turned and looked at each other as if they felt a bit of disdain for what was happening. While Anitra watched, thinking about how hungry she was, it seemed to her that they weren’t old at all. They looked about forty years old.

Then the herald called, “Oyez! Oyez! Oyez! Elizabeth, spinner of cotton, come into the Court!” And everything turned so black before Anitra that she could hardly see Elizabeth come out and stand before the King. For she loved Elizabeth and Elizabeth’s sister, and she knew that Elizabeth had deserted her baby when she was beside herself with sickness and[198] disgrace and poverty, and she knew that the father who had deserted her and deserted the baby was one of those trumpeters of the King, who had just been blowing the blasts of triumph for him, to the admiration of the whole court.

Then the herald shouted, “Hear ye! Hear ye! Hear ye! Elizabeth, cotton spinner, come into the Court!” Everything turned so dark for Anitra that she could barely see Elizabeth step forward and stand before the King. She loved Elizabeth and her sister, and she knew that Elizabeth had abandoned her baby when she was completely overwhelmed with illness and shame and poverty. She also knew that the father, who had left both her and the baby, was one of the King’s trumpeters, who had just been blowing triumphant fanfares for him, to the admiration of the entire court.[198]

Then the King heard evidence upon one side, and heard evidence upon the other. But almost everything was against Elizabeth; though the King in his mercy changed her sentence from death to imprisonment and disgrace for her whole life. Every one applauded his clemency. But the little sister sobbed and cried like a crazy thing, though Elizabeth raised her chin and smiled bravely at her, to comfort her.

Then the King heard evidence from one side and then from the other. But almost everything was against Elizabeth; still, the King, in his mercy, changed her sentence from death to imprisonment and disgrace for the rest of her life. Everyone praised his kindness. But the little sister sobbed and cried uncontrollably, while Elizabeth raised her chin and smiled bravely at her to provide comfort.

The shepherds turned and looked at each other with a glance of contempt for what was happening. And now they were not aged or clumsy at all. They were strong, straight young men, more beautiful than anything else Anitra had seen in her whole life; and they looked at her beautifully as though they were her brothers.

The shepherds turned to each other with a disdainful glance at what was going on. And now they were not old or awkward at all. They were strong, tall young men, more gorgeous than anything Anitra had ever seen in her life; and they looked at her with kindness as if they were her brothers.

Then the heralds all came out and blew upon the trumpets to announce the King’s proclamation; and the King read about all the wealth and prosperity and peace and good fortune and happiness and plenty of the nation; and every minute Anitra grew more and more faint with hunger.

Then the messengers all came out and blew their trumpets to announce the King’s proclamation; and the King read about all the wealth, prosperity, peace, good fortune, happiness, and abundance of the nation; and with each passing minute, Anitra felt more and more faint from hunger.

When the proclamation was done the people screamed and shouted. The Christmas bells rang. The fifes and bugles sounded. Everybody cheered the King, and the King rose and responded. Then everybody cheered the Chancellor, and he bowed and responded.[199] Then there were cries of “Long Live Bernardino!” and the bugles were sounded for him; and he bowed and responded. And then some one called “Long Live Anitra, the Beggar-girl!” And there was an uproar of cheers and bugles and applause and excitement.

When the announcement was made, the crowd went wild, screaming and cheering. The Christmas bells rang out. The fifes and bugles played. Everyone applauded the King, who stood up to acknowledge them. Then the crowd cheered for the Chancellor, who bowed and thanked them. [199] Next, there were shouts of “Long Live Bernardino!” and the bugles sounded for him as he bowed in response. Then someone shouted “Long Live Anitra, the Beggar-girl!” and the place erupted with cheers, bugles, applause, and excitement.

Anitra rose and stood upon the throne-steps. But she looked only at the shepherds, who were more beautiful than anything else she had ever seen in her whole life, and who looked at her beautifully as though they were her brothers. She thought, “I must have died some day at any rate. So I will die to-day and speak the truth.”

Anitra got up and stood on the steps of the throne. But she only looked at the shepherds, who were more beautiful than anything she had ever seen in her life, and they looked at her in a way that felt like they were her brothers. She thought, "I must have died at some point. So today I will die and speak the truth."

When the audience-chamber was still she said, “I am Anitra the Beggar-girl. But I do not praise the King for his kindness, for though he let me stay on his throne he is letting me die of hunger. And I do not praise the King for his justice, for in his court the man who deserts his child and his child’s mother walks free, and the woman who deserts her child must die in prison. And in his court the King pardons one man and condemns another for exactly the same fault.”

When the audience chamber was quiet, she said, “I am Anitra the Beggar-girl. But I won’t thank the King for his kindness, because even though he lets me sit on his throne, he's letting me starve. And I won’t thank the King for his justice, because in his court, the man who abandons his child and the child's mother goes free, while the woman who leaves her child must die in prison. In his court, the King forgives one man and punishes another for exactly the same offense.”

Then the two shepherds walked up the steps of the throne. Everything was still. Not a bell rang. Not a trumpet blew. But as the shepherds walked, the audience-chamber seemed to vanish away; and all around, beyond the pillared arches, and beyond the prosperous people, stood all the poor people, all the hungry people, all the unjustly-paid and overworked and sick and struggling people in the nation.[200] And in the judges and judged, and the prosperous people and the poor people, there rose like the first quiver of dawn a sense simply of what was really true for each one and for every one.

Then the two shepherds walked up the steps to the throne. Everything was silent. Not a bell rang. Not a trumpet sounded. But as the shepherds walked, the audience chamber seemed to fade away; and all around, beyond the columned arches, and beyond the prosperous people, stood all the poor, all the hungry, all the underpaid, overworked, sick, and struggling people in the nation.[200] And in the judges and the judged, and the prosperous and the poor, there rose like the first light of dawn a realization of what was truly real for each person and for everyone.

The younger shepherd said, “In this Court to-day stand those who are more strong than all the triumphs of the world. We are the Truth and Death.”

The younger shepherd said, “Here in this Court today stand those who are stronger than all the victories of the world. We represent Truth and Death.”

And as he spoke, all thought of judgment and of condemnation and pardon and patronage vanished away; and in everybody’s soul the thought simply of what was really true for each one and for every one opened like the clear flower of daybreak.

And as he spoke, all thoughts of judgment, condemnation, forgiveness, and favoritism disappeared; and in everyone's soul, the idea of what was truly real for each person and for all opened up like the bright bloom of dawn.

Not a bell rang. Not a trumpet blew. “We are the Truth and Death,” repeated the older shepherd.

Not a bell rang. Not a trumpet sounded. “We are the Truth and Death,” repeated the older shepherd.

And the thought simply of what was really true for each one and for every one, and the thought that all were common fellow mortals thrilled through everybody’s soul more keenly and more fully than the light of morning and the tones of all the trumpets of the world.

And the idea of what was truly real for each person and for everyone, and the realization that we were all just fellow humans excited everyone's spirit more intensely and completely than the light of morning and the sounds of all the trumpets in the world.

After that, the shepherds did not again turn and glance at each other as though they felt a contempt for what was happening. For from that time on, everything was done in the Court only with the thought of what was really true for each one and for every one, and the thought that all were fellow mortals; and before the next Christmas, there were no beggars at all in the fabulous nation. And the Truth and Death, there, always looked at everybody beautifully, as though they were their brothers.

After that, the shepherds didn’t look at each other again, as if they felt disdain for what was going on. From that moment on, everything in the Court was done with the awareness of what was genuinely true for each individual and for everyone, and the understanding that all were just fellow human beings; by the next Christmas, there were no beggars left in the amazing nation. And Truth and Death always regarded everyone with kindness, as if they were their brothers.

FOOTNOTES:

[12] By permission of the author and the “Atlantic Monthly.”

[12] By permission of the author and the "Atlantic Monthly."


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A CHRISTMAS MYSTERY[13]

THE STORY OF THREE WISE MEN

THE STORY OF THREE WISE MEN

William J. Locke

William J. Locke


I cannot tell how the truth may be;
I say the tale as ’twas said to me.

I can't say what the truth might be; I tell the story as it was told to me.


Three men who had gained great fame and honor throughout the world met unexpectedly in front of the bookstall at Paddington Station. Like most of the great ones of the earth they were personally acquainted, and they exchanged surprised greetings.

Three men who had achieved significant fame and respect around the world ran into each other unexpectedly in front of the bookstall at Paddington Station. Like most of the prominent figures of the time, they knew each other personally, and they exchanged surprised greetings.

Sir Angus McCurdie, the eminent physicist, scowled at the two others beneath his heavy black eyebrows.

Sir Angus McCurdie, the famous physicist, glared at the two others under his thick black eyebrows.

“I’m going to a God-forsaken place in Cornwall called Trehenna,” said he.

“I’m heading to a remote spot in Cornwall called Trehenna,” he said.

“That’s odd; so am I,” croaked Professor Biggleswade. He was a little, untidy man with round spectacles, a fringe of grayish beard and a weak, rasping voice, and he knew more of Assyriology than any man, living or dead. A flippant pupil once remarked that the Professor’s face was furnished with a Babylonic cuneiform in lieu of features.

"That's strange; so am I," croaked Professor Biggleswade. He was a small, disheveled man with round glasses, a fringe of gray beard, and a weak, raspy voice, and he knew more about Assyriology than anyone, living or dead. A cheeky student once joked that the Professor's face was equipped with a Babylonian cuneiform instead of features.

“People called Deverill, at Foullis Castle?” asked Sir Angus.

“People called Deverill, at Foullis Castle?” Sir Angus asked.

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“Yes,” replied Professor Biggleswade.

“Yeah,” replied Professor Biggleswade.

“How curious! I am going to the Deverills, too,” said the third man.

“How interesting! I’m going to the Deverills as well,” said the third man.

This man was the Right Honorable Viscount Boyne, the renowned Empire Builder and Administrator, around whose solitary and remote life popular imagination had woven many legends. He looked at the world through tired gray eyes, and the heavy drooping blonde mustache seemed tired, too, and had dragged down the tired face into deep furrows. He was smoking a long black cigar.

This man was the Right Honorable Viscount Boyne, the famous Empire Builder and Administrator, around whose lonely and isolated life people's imaginations had spun many stories. He viewed the world through weary gray eyes, and his heavy, drooping blonde mustache looked tired as well, pulling his exhausted face into deep lines. He was smoking a long black cigar.

“I suppose we may as well travel down together,” said Sir Angus, not very cordially.

“I guess we might as well travel together,” said Sir Angus, not very warmly.

Lord Boyne said courteously: “I have a reserved carriage. The railway company is always good enough to place one at my disposal. It would give me great pleasure if you would share it.”

Lord Boyne said politely, “I have a private carriage. The train company always kindly provides one for me. I would be very happy if you would join me in it.”

The invitation was accepted, and the three men crossed the busy, crowded platform to take their seats in the great express train. A porter laden with an incredible load of paraphernalia, trying to make his way through the press, happened to jostle Sir Angus McCurdie. He rubbed his shoulder fretfully.

The invitation was accepted, and the three men crossed the busy, crowded platform to take their seats on the grand express train. A porter, weighed down by an unbelievable load of luggage, tried to make his way through the crowd and accidentally bumped into Sir Angus McCurdie. He rubbed his shoulder in annoyance.

“Why the whole land should be turned into a bear garden on account of this exploded superstition of Christmas is one of the anomalies of modern civilization. Look at this insensate welter of fools traveling in wild herds to disgusting places merely because it’s Christmas!”

“Why the entire country should turn into a chaotic mess because of this outdated superstition of Christmas is one of the oddities of modern life. Just look at this mindless crowd of people traveling in huge groups to disgusting places just because it's Christmas!”

“You seem to be traveling yourself, McCurdie,” said Lord Boyne.

“You look like you're on a journey yourself, McCurdie,” said Lord Boyne.

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“Yes—and why the devil I’m doing it, I’ve not the faintest notion,” replied Sir Angus.

“Yes—and I have no idea why I’m doing it,” replied Sir Angus.

“It’s going to be a beast of a journey,” he remarked some moments later, as the train carried them slowly out of the station. “The whole country is under snow—and as far as I can understand we have to change twice and wind up with a twenty-mile motor drive.”

“It’s going to be a tough journey,” he said a little while later, as the train slowly left the station. “The entire country is covered in snow—and from what I can tell, we have to change trains twice and end up with a twenty-mile drive.”

He was an iron-faced, beetle-browed, stern man, and this morning he did not seem to be in the best of tempers. Finding his companions inclined to be sympathetic, he continued his lamentation.

He had a serious expression and bushy eyebrows, and this morning he didn’t look like he was in a good mood. Noticing that his friends were feeling sympathetic, he kept going on about his troubles.

“And merely because it’s Christmas I’ve had to shut up my laboratory and give my young fools a holiday—just when I was in the midst of a most important series of experiments.”

“And just because it’s Christmas I’ve had to close my lab and give my young interns a holiday—right when I was in the middle of a really important series of experiments.”

Professor Biggleswade, who had heard vaguely of and rather looked down upon such new-fangled toys as radium and thorium and helium and argon—for the latest astonishing developments in the theory of radio-activity had brought Sir Angus McCurdie his worldwide fame—said somewhat ironically:

Professor Biggleswade, who had heard a bit about and somewhat dismissed these modern gadgets like radium, thorium, helium, and argon—since the latest incredible advancements in the theory of radioactivity had earned Sir Angus McCurdie his global recognition—said with a hint of irony:

“If the experiments were so important, why didn’t you lock yourself up with your test tubes and electric batteries and finish them alone?”

“If the experiments were that important, why didn’t you just lock yourself up with your test tubes and electric batteries and finish them by yourself?”

“Man!” said McCurdie, bending across the carriage, and speaking with a curious intensity of voice, “d’ye know I’d give a hundred pounds to be able to answer that question.”

“Man!” said McCurdie, leaning across the carriage and speaking with an unusual intensity, “do you know I’d pay a hundred pounds to be able to answer that question.”

“What do you mean?” asked the Professor, startled.

“What do you mean?” asked the Professor, surprised.

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“I should like to know why I’m sitting in this damned train and going to visit a couple of addle-headed society people whom I’m scarcely acquainted with, when I might be at home in my own good company furthering the progress of science.”

“I'd like to know why I'm sitting on this damn train heading to visit a couple of clueless socialites I hardly know, when I could be at home enjoying my own company and advancing the progress of science.”

“I myself,” said the Professor, “am not acquainted with them at all.”

“I don’t know them at all,” said the Professor.

It was Sir Angus McCurdie’s turn to look surprised.

It was Sir Angus McCurdie's turn to be surprised.

“Then why are you spending Christmas with them?”

“Then why are you spending Christmas with them?”

“I reviewed a ridiculous blank-verse tragedy written by Deverill on the Death of Sennacherib. Historically it was puerile. I said so in no measured terms. He wrote a letter claiming to be a poet and not an archæologist. I replied that the day had passed when poets could with impunity commit the abominable crime of distorting history. He retorted with some futile argument, and we went on exchanging letters, until his invitation and my acceptance concluded the correspondence.”

“I reviewed a ridiculous blank-verse tragedy written by Deverill about the Death of Sennacherib. Historically, it was childish. I made that clear without holding back. He wrote a letter claiming to be a poet, not an archaeologist. I responded that the time has passed when poets could distort history without consequence. He countered with some pointless argument, and we continued exchanging letters until his invitation and my acceptance wrapped up the correspondence.”

McCurdie, still bending his black brows on him, asked him why he had not declined. The Professor screwed up his face till it looked more like a cuneiform than ever. He, too, found the question difficult to answer; but he showed a bold front.

McCurdie, still furrowing his black brows at him, asked why he hadn’t declined. The Professor scrunched up his face until it looked more like an ancient script than ever. He also found the question hard to answer, but he put on a brave face.

“I felt it my duty,” said he, “to teach that preposterous ignoramus something worth knowing about Sennacherib. Besides I am a bachelor and would sooner spend Christmas, as to whose irritating and meaningless annoyance I cordially agree with you,[205] among strangers than among my married sisters’ numerous and nerve-racking families.”

“I felt it was my responsibility,” he said, “to teach that ridiculous ignoramus something valuable about Sennacherib. Plus, I’m a bachelor and would rather spend Christmas, which I completely agree is a frustrating and pointless annoyance, [205] among strangers than with my married sisters’ countless and stressful families.”

Sir Angus McCurdie, the hard, metallic apostle of radio-activity, glanced for a moment out of the window at the gray, frost-bitten fields. Then he said:

Sir Angus McCurdie, the tough, unyielding advocate of radioactivity, glanced for a moment out of the window at the gray, frost-bitten fields. Then he said:

“I’m a widower. My wife died many years ago and, thank God, we had no children. I generally spend Christmas alone.”

“I’m a widower. My wife passed away many years ago and, thank God, we had no kids. I usually spend Christmas by myself.”

He looked out of the window again. Professor Biggleswade suddenly remembered the popular story of the great scientist’s antecedents, and reflected that as McCurdie had once run, a barefoot urchin, through the Glasgow mud, he was likely to have little kith or kin. He himself envied McCurdie. He was always praying to be delivered from his sisters and nephews and nieces, whose embarrassing demands no calculated coldness could repress.

He looked out the window again. Professor Biggleswade suddenly recalled the popular story about the great scientist's background and realized that since McCurdie had once run through the muddy streets of Glasgow as a barefoot kid, he probably had little family. He envied McCurdie. He constantly wished to be free from his sisters and their kids, whose awkward requests he couldn’t ignore, no matter how much he tried to act indifferent.

“Children are the root of all evil,” said he. “Happy the man who has his quiver empty.”

“Kids are the source of all trouble,” he said. “Lucky is the man who has no kids.”

Sir Angus McCurdie did not reply at once; when he spoke again it was with reference to their prospective host.

Sir Angus McCurdie didn’t respond right away; when he spoke again, it was about their upcoming host.

“I met Deverill,” said he, “at the Royal Society’s Soirée this year. One of my assistants was demonstrating a peculiar property of thorium and Deverill seemed interested. I asked him to come to my laboratory the next day, and found he didn’t know a damned thing about anything. That’s all the acquaintance I have with him.”

“I met Deverill,” he said, “at the Royal Society’s soirée this year. One of my assistants was showcasing a strange property of thorium, and Deverill seemed interested. I invited him to come to my lab the next day, and I found out he didn’t know a thing about anything. That’s the extent of my acquaintance with him.”

Lord Boyne, the great administrator, who had been wearily turning over the pages of an illustrated[206] weekly chiefly filled with flamboyant photographs of obscure actresses, took his gold glasses from his nose and the black cigar from his lips, and addressed his companions.

Lord Boyne, the great administrator, who had been tiredly flipping through an illustrated[206] weekly mostly filled with flashy photos of unknown actresses, took off his gold glasses and removed the black cigar from his lips, and spoke to his companions.

“I’ve been considerably interested in your conversation,” said he, “and as you’ve been frank, I’ll be frank too. I knew Mrs. Deverill’s mother, Lady Carstairs, very well years ago, and of course Mrs. Deverill when she was a child. Deverill I came across once in Egypt—he had been sent on a diplomatic mission to Teheran. As for our being invited on such slight acquaintance, little Mrs. Deverill has the reputation of being the only really successful celebrity hunter in England. She inherited the faculty from her mother, who entertained the whole world. We’re sure to find archbishops, and eminent actors, and illustrious divorcées asked to meet us. That’s one thing. But why I, who loathe country house parties and children and Christmas as much as Biggleswade, am going down there to-day, I can no more explain than you can. It’s a devilish odd coincidence.”

“I’ve been really interested in your conversation,” he said, “and since you’ve been open, I’ll be open too. I knew Mrs. Deverill’s mother, Lady Carstairs, very well years ago, and of course, I knew Mrs. Deverill when she was a child. I ran into Deverill once in Egypt—he had been sent on a diplomatic mission to Tehran. As for our being invited with such little familiarity, Mrs. Deverill has the reputation of being the only truly successful celebrity hunter in England. She inherited this talent from her mother, who entertained everyone. We’re sure to encounter archbishops, famous actors, and notable divorcées invited to meet us. That’s one thing. But why I, who can’t stand country house parties, children, and Christmas more than I dislike Biggleswade, am going down there today, I can’t explain any more than you can. It’s an incredibly strange coincidence.”

The three men looked at one another. Suddenly McCurdie shivered and drew his fur coat around him.

The three men glanced at each other. Suddenly, McCurdie shivered and wrapped his fur coat tighter around himself.

“I’ll thank you,” said he, “to shut that window.”

"I'd appreciate it if you could close that window," he said.

“It’s shut,” said Boyne.

“It’s closed,” said Boyne.

“It’s just uncanny,” said McCurdie, looking from one to the other.

“It’s just eerie,” said McCurdie, glancing from one to the other.

“What?” asked Boyne.

“What?” Boyne asked.

“Nothing if you didn’t feel it.”

“Nothing if you didn’t feel it.”

“There did seem to be a sudden draught,” said[207] Professor Biggleswade. “But as both window and door are shut, it could only be imaginary.”

“There did seem to be a sudden draft,” said[207] Professor Biggleswade. “But since both the window and door are closed, it must be just in our heads.”

“It wasn’t imaginary,” muttered McCurdie.

“It wasn’t made up,” muttered McCurdie.

Then he laughed harshly. “My father and mother came from Cromarty,” he said with apparent irrelevance.

Then he laughed harshly. “My parents came from Cromarty,” he said, seemingly out of nowhere.

“That’s the Highlands,” said the Professor.

"That's the Highlands," the Professor said.

“Ay,” said McCurdie.

“Aye,” said McCurdie.

Lord Boyne said nothing, but tugged at his mustache and looked out of the window as the frozen meadows and bits of river and willows raced past. A dead silence fell on them. McCurdie broke it with another laugh and took a whisky flask from his handbag.

Lord Boyne said nothing, but tugged at his mustache and gazed out the window as the frozen fields and patches of river and willows sped by. An awkward silence surrounded them. McCurdie broke it with another laugh and pulled out a whisky flask from his handbag.

“Have a nip?”

“Want a drink?”

“Thanks, no,” said the Professor. “I have to keep to a strict dietary, and I only drink hot milk and water—and of that sparingly. I have some in a thermos bottle.”

“Thanks, but no,” said the Professor. “I have to stick to a strict diet, and I only drink hot milk and water—and even then, only a little. I have some in a thermos.”

Lord Boyne also declining the whisky, McCurdie swallowed a dram and declared himself to be better. The professor took from his bag a foreign review in which a German sciolist had dared to question his interpretation of a Hittite inscription. Over the man’s ineptitude he fell asleep and snored loudly.

Lord Boyne also turned down the whisky, while McCurdie downed a shot and claimed he felt better. The professor pulled out a foreign journal from his bag, where a German amateur had boldly challenged his interpretation of a Hittite inscription. He fell asleep over the man's cluelessness and began to snore loudly.

To escape from his immediate neighborhood McCurdie went to the other end of the seat and faced Lord Boyne, who had resumed his gold glasses and his listless contemplation of obscure actresses. McCurdie lit a pipe, Boyne another black cigar. The train thundered on.

To get away from his immediate surroundings, McCurdie moved to the other end of the seat and faced Lord Boyne, who had put his gold glasses back on and resumed his bored observation of obscure actresses. McCurdie lit a pipe, and Boyne lit another black cigar. The train roared on.

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[208]

Presently they all lunched together in the restaurant car. The windows steamed, but here and there through a wiped patch of pane a white world was revealed. The snow was falling. As they passed through Westbury, McCurdie looked mechanically for the famous white horse carved into the chalk of the down; but it was not visible beneath the thick covering of snow.

Currently, they all had lunch together in the dining car. The windows were fogged up, but here and there, through a cleaned spot on the glass, a white world was visible. Snow was falling. As they passed through Westbury, McCurdie instinctively looked for the famous white horse carved into the chalk of the hill, but it wasn't visible under the thick layer of snow.

“It’ll be just like this all the way to Gehenna—Trehenna, I mean,” said McCurdie.

“It’ll be just like this all the way to Gehenna—Trehenna, I mean,” said McCurdie.

Boyne nodded. He had done his life’s work amid all extreme fiercenesses of heat and cold, in burning draughts, in simoons and in icy wildernesses, and a ray or two more of the pale sun or a flake or two more of the gentle snow of England mattered to him but little. But Biggleswade rubbed the pane with his table-napkin and gazed apprehensively at the prospect.

Boyne nodded. He had done his life’s work in all sorts of extreme heat and cold, in scorching winds, in sandstorms, and in icy wildernesses, and a couple more rays from the pale sun or a few more flakes of gentle snow from England meant very little to him. But Biggleswade wiped the window with his napkin and looked anxiously at the view.

“If only this wretched train would stop,” said he, “I would go back again.”

“If only this miserable train would stop,” he said, “I would go back again.”

And he thought how comfortable it would be to sneak home again to his books and thus elude not only the Deverills, but the Christmas jollities of his sisters’ families, who would think him miles away. But the train was timed not to stop till Plymouth, two hundred and thirty-five miles from London, and thither was he being relentlessly carried. Then he quarreled with his food, which brought a certain consolation.

And he thought about how nice it would be to sneak back home to his books and avoid not just the Deverills, but also the Christmas festivities of his sisters’ families, who would assume he was far away. But the train was scheduled not to stop until Plymouth, two hundred and thirty-five miles from London, and that’s where he was being taken without mercy. Then he argued with his food, which provided a bit of comfort.

The train did stop, however, before Plymouth—indeed, before Exeter. An accident on the line had dislocated[209] the traffic. The express was held up for an hour, and when it was permitted to proceed, instead of thundering on, it went cautiously, subject to continual stoppings. It arrived at Plymouth two hours late. The travelers learned that they had missed the connection on which they had counted and that they could not reach Trehenna till nearly ten o’clock. After weary waiting at Plymouth they took their seats in the little, cold local train that was to carry them another stage on their journey. Hot-water cans put in at Plymouth mitigated to some extent the iciness of the compartment. But that only lasted a comparatively short time, for soon they were set down at a desolate, shelterless wayside junction, dumped in the midst of a hilly snow-covered waste, where they went through another weary wait for another dismal local train that was to carry them to Trehenna. And in this train there were no hot-water cans, so that the compartment was as cold as death. McCurdie fretted and shook his fist in the direction of Trehenna.

The train did stop, however, before Plymouth—actually, before Exeter. An accident on the line had disrupted[209] the service. The express was delayed for an hour, and when it was finally allowed to move, instead of racing on, it went slowly, making frequent stops. It arrived in Plymouth two hours late. The travelers found out that they had missed the connection they were counting on and that they couldn’t get to Trehenna until nearly ten o’clock. After a long wait in Plymouth, they took their seats in the small, cold local train that would take them further on their journey. Hot-water cans provided in Plymouth helped a bit with the chill in the compartment. But that didn’t last long, as they soon arrived at a bleak, exposed wayside junction, dropped in the middle of a hilly, snow-covered landscape, where they faced another long wait for yet another dreary local train to Trehenna. In this train, there were no hot-water cans, so the compartment was freezing. McCurdie fumed and shook his fist in the direction of Trehenna.

“And when we get there we have still a twenty miles’ motor-drive to Foullis Castle. It’s a fool name and we’re fools to be going there.”

“And when we get there, we still have a twenty-mile drive to Foullis Castle. It’s a stupid name, and we’re idiots for going there.”

“I shall die of bronchitis,” wailed Professor Biggleswade.

“I’m going to die of bronchitis,” complained Professor Biggleswade.

“A man dies when it is appointed for him to die,” said Lord Boyne, in his tired way; and he went on smoking long black cigars.

“A man dies when it's his time to go,” said Lord Boyne, in his weary way; and he continued smoking his long black cigars.

“It’s not the dying that worries me,” said McCurdie. “That’s a mere mechanical process which[210] every organic being from a king to a cauliflower has to pass through. It’s the being forced against my will and my reason to come on this accursed journey, which something tells me will become more and more accursed as we go on, that is driving me to distraction.”

“It’s not the dying that worries me,” said McCurdie. “That’s just a mechanical process that every living thing, from a king to a cauliflower, has to go through. It’s being forced against my will and my better judgment to take this cursed journey, which I feel will only get worse as we continue, that’s driving me mad.”

“What will be, will be,” said Boyne.

"What will be, will be," Boyne said.

“I can’t see where the comfort of that reflection comes in,” said Biggleswade.

“I don’t see how that reflection is comforting,” said Biggleswade.

“And yet you’ve traveled in the East,” said Boyne. “I suppose you know the Valley of the Tigris as well as any man living.”

“And yet you’ve traveled in the East,” Boyne said. “I guess you know the Valley of the Tigris as well as anyone alive.”

“Yes,” said the Professor, “I can say I dug my way from Tekrit to Bagdad and left not a stone unexamined.”

“Yes,” said the Professor, “I can say I worked my way from Tekrit to Baghdad and examined every stone.”

“Perhaps, after all,” Boyne remarked, “that’s not quite the way to know the East.”

“Maybe, after all,” Boyne said, “that’s not really the best way to understand the East.”

“I never wanted to know the modern East,” returned the Professor. “What is there in it of interest compared with the mighty civilizations that have gone before?”

“I never wanted to know the modern East,” replied the Professor. “What could it possibly offer that's interesting compared to the great civilizations that came before?”

McCurdie took a pull from his flask.

McCurdie took a swig from his flask.

“I’m glad I thought of having a refill at Plymouth,” said he.

“I’m glad I thought of getting a refill at Plymouth,” he said.

At last, after many stops at little lonely stations they arrived at Trehenna. The guard opened the door and they stepped out on to the snow-covered platform. An oil lamp hung from the tiny pent-house roof that, structurally, was Trehenna Station. They looked around at the silent gloom of white undulating moorland, and it seemed a place where no man lived[211] and only ghosts could have a bleak and unsheltered being. A porter came up and helped the guard with the luggage. Then they realized that the station was built on a small embankment, for, looking over the railing, they saw below the two great lamps of a motor car. A fur-clad chauffeur met them at the bottom of the stairs. He clapped his hands together and informed them cheerily that he had been waiting for four hours. It was the bitterest winter in these parts within the memory of man, said he, and he himself had not seen snow there for five years. Then he settled the three travelers in the great roomy touring car covered with a Cape cart hood, wrapped them up in many rugs and started.

Finally, after stopping at several small, lonely stations, they arrived at Trehenna. The guard opened the door, and they stepped out onto the snow-covered platform. An oil lamp hung from the tiny penthouse roof that was Trehenna Station. They looked around at the silent, gloomy expanse of white, rolling moorland, and it felt like a place where no one lived and only ghosts could exist in bleak and exposed solitude. A porter came up and assisted the guard with the luggage. Then they noticed that the station was elevated on a small embankment, because when they peered over the railing, they saw two large lights from a motor vehicle below. A chauffeur, dressed in fur, greeted them at the bottom of the stairs. He rubbed his hands together and cheerfully informed them that he had been waiting for four hours. He mentioned that this was the coldest winter anyone could remember, and he personally hadn't seen snow there in five years. Then he helped the three travelers into the spacious touring car covered with a Cape cart hood, wrapped them in several blankets, and took off.

After a few moments, the huddling together of their bodies—for, the Professor being a spare man, there was room for them all on the back seat—the pile of rugs, the serviceable and all but air-tight hood, induced a pleasant warmth and a pleasant drowsiness. Where they were being driven they knew not. The perfectly upholstered seat eased their limbs, the easy swinging motion of the car soothed their spirits. They felt that already they had reached the luxuriously appointed home which, after all, they knew awaited them. McCurdie no longer railed, Professor Biggleswade forgot the dangers of bronchitis, and Lord Boyne twisted the stump of a black cigar between his lips without any desire to relight it. A tiny electric lamp inside the hood made the darkness of the world to right and left and in front of the talc windows still darker. McCurdie and Biggleswade fell[212] into a doze. Lord Boyne chewed the end of his cigar. The car sped on through an unseen wilderness.

After a few moments, the close proximity of their bodies—since the Professor was slim, there was enough space for all of them on the back seat—the stack of blankets, and the snug, nearly airtight hood created a cozy warmth and a comforting drowsiness. They had no idea where they were being taken. The perfectly padded seat relaxed their bodies, and the smooth motion of the car calmed their minds. They felt that they had already arrived at the luxurious home that they knew awaited them. McCurdie had stopped complaining, Professor Biggleswade had forgotten about the risks of bronchitis, and Lord Boyne twisted the end of a black cigar between his lips without wanting to light it again. A small electric lamp inside the hood made the darkness around them even deeper. McCurdie and Biggleswade dozed off. Lord Boyne nibbled on the end of his cigar. The car continued to race through an unseen wilderness.

Suddenly there was a horrid jolt and a lurch and a leap and a rebound and then the car stood still, quivering like a ship that has been struck by a heavy sea. The three men were pitched and tossed and thrown sprawling over one another onto the bottom of the car. Biggleswade screamed. McCurdie cursed. Boyne scrambled from the confusion of rugs and limbs and, tearing open the side of the Cape cart hood, jumped out. The chauffeur had also just leaped from his seat. It was pitch dark save for the great shaft of light down the snowy road cast by the acetylene lamps. The snow had ceased falling.

Suddenly, there was a terrible jolt, a lurch, a leap, and a rebound, and then the car came to a stop, trembling like a ship hit by rough waves. The three men were tossed around and ended up sprawled on the floor of the car. Biggleswade screamed. McCurdie swore. Boyne scrambled out from the mess of blankets and limbs, ripped open the side of the Cape cart hood, and jumped out. The chauffeur had just leaped from his seat as well. It was pitch dark except for the bright beam of light from the acetylene lamps illuminating the snowy road. The snow had stopped falling.

“What’s gone wrong?”

"What went wrong?"

“It sounds like the axle,” said the chauffeur ruefully.

“It sounds like the axle,” the chauffeur said regretfully.

He unshipped a lamp and examined the car, which had wedged itself against a great drift of snow on the off side. Meanwhile McCurdie and Biggleswade had alighted.

He took a lamp out and looked over the car, which had gotten stuck against a huge pile of snow on the other side. Meanwhile, McCurdie and Biggleswade had gotten out.

“Yes, it’s the axle,” said the chauffeur.

“Yes, it’s the axle,” said the driver.

“Then we’re done,” remarked Boyne.

“Then we're all set,” remarked Boyne.

“I’m afraid so, my lord.”

“I’m afraid so, my lord.”

“What’s the matter? Can’t we get on?” asked Biggleswade in his querulous voice.

“What’s wrong? Can’t we get along?” asked Biggleswade in his complaining voice.

McCurdie laughed. “How can we get on with a broken axle? The thing’s as useless as a man with a broken back. Gad, I was right. I said it was going to be an infernal journey.”

McCurdie laughed. “How can we keep going with a broken axle? It’s as useless as a guy with a broken back. Wow, I was right. I said it was going to be a terrible journey.”

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The little Professor wrung his hands. “But what’s to be done?” he cried.

The little Professor wrung his hands. “But what should we do?” he exclaimed.

“Tramp it,” said Lord Boyne, lighting a fresh cigar.

“Tramp it,” said Lord Boyne, lighting a new cigar.

“It’s ten miles,” said the chauffeur.

“It’s ten miles,” the driver said.

“It would be the death of me,” the Professor wailed.

“It would kill me,” the Professor cried.

“I utterly refuse to walk ten miles through a Polar waste with a gouty foot,” McCurdie declared wrathfully.

“I absolutely refuse to walk ten miles through a polar wasteland with a gouty foot,” McCurdie declared angrily.

The chauffeur offered a solution of the difficulty. He would set out alone for Foullis Castle—five miles further on was an inn where he could obtain a horse and trap—and would return for the three gentlemen with another car. In the meanwhile they could take shelter in a little house which they had just passed, some half mile up the road. This was agreed to. The chauffeur went on cheerily enough with a lamp, and the three travelers with another lamp started off in the opposite direction. As far as they could see they were in a long, desolate valley, a sort of No Man’s Land, deathly silent. The eastern sky had cleared somewhat, and they faced a loose rack through which one pale star was dimly visible.

The chauffeur came up with a solution to the problem. He would head out alone to Foullis Castle—five miles ahead there was an inn where he could get a horse and carriage—and would come back for the three gentlemen with another car. In the meantime, they could take shelter in a little house they had just passed, about half a mile up the road. They all agreed to this. The chauffeur went on cheerfully with a lamp, and the three travelers, carrying another lamp, set off in the opposite direction. As far as they could see, they were in a long, desolate valley, like a No Man’s Land, eerily silent. The eastern sky had cleared up a bit, and they were facing a loose patch of clouds through which one faint star was barely visible.

“I’m a man of science,” said McCurdie as they trudged through the snow, “and I dismiss the supernatural as contrary to reason; but I have Highland blood in my veins that plays me exasperating tricks. My reason tells me that this place is only a commonplace moor, yet it seems like a Valley of Bones haunted by malignant spirits who have lured us here[214] to our destruction. There’s something guiding us now. It’s just uncanny.”

“I’m a man of science,” McCurdie said as they trudged through the snow, “and I dismiss the supernatural as unreasonable; but I have Highland blood in me that plays frustrating tricks. My logic tells me that this place is just an ordinary moor, yet it feels like a Valley of Bones haunted by evil spirits that have drawn us here to our doom. There’s something leading us now. It’s just creepy.”[214]

“Why on earth did we ever come?” croaked Biggleswade.

“Why on earth did we even come?” croaked Biggleswade.

Lord Boyne answered: “The Koran says, ‘Nothing can befall us but what God hath destined for us.’ So why worry?”

Lord Boyne replied, “The Koran says, ‘Nothing can happen to us except what God has planned for us.’ So why stress?”

“Because I’m not a Mohammedan,” retorted Biggleswade.

“Because I’m not a Muslim,” replied Biggleswade.

“You might be worse,” said Boyne.

“You might be worse,” Boyne said.

Presently the dim outline of the little house grew perceptible. A faint light shone from the window. It stood unfenced by any kind of hedge or railing a few feet away from the road in a little hollow beneath some rising ground. As far as they could discern in the darkness when they drew near, the house was a mean, dilapidated hovel. A guttering candle stood on the inner sill of the small window and afforded a vague view into a mean interior. Boyne held up the lamp so that its rays fell full on the door. As he did so, an exclamation broke from his lips and he hurried forward, followed by the others. A man’s body lay huddled together on the snow by the threshold. He was dressed like a peasant, in old corduroy trousers and rough coat, and a handkerchief was knotted round his neck. In his hand he grasped the neck of a broken bottle. Boyne set the lamp on the ground and the three bent down together over the man. Close by the neck lay the rest of the broken bottle, whose contents had evidently run out into the snow.

Now the faint outline of the small house became visible. A soft light shone from the window. It stood without any fence, just a few feet off the road in a small dip beneath some rising ground. As far as they could see in the darkness while approaching, the house looked like a shabby, run-down shack. A flickering candle sat on the inner windowsill, providing a dim view of a dreary interior. Boyne raised the lamp so its light illuminated the door. As he did, he let out an exclamation and rushed forward, followed by the others. A man's body was curled up in the snow by the threshold. He was dressed like a peasant, in old corduroy pants and a rough coat, with a handkerchief tied around his neck. He clutched the neck of a broken bottle in his hand. Boyne placed the lamp on the ground and the three of them leaned down over the man. Near his neck lay the rest of the broken bottle, its contents clearly spilled into the snow.

“Drunk?” asked Biggleswade.

"Drunk?" asked Biggleswade.

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Boyne felt the man and laid his hand on his heart.

Boyne felt the man and placed his hand on his heart.

“No,” said he, “dead.”

“No,” he said, “dead.”

McCurdie leaped to his full height. “I told you the place was uncanny!” he cried. “It’s fey.” Then he hammered wildly at the door.

McCurdie jumped up completely. “I told you the place was creepy!” he shouted. “It’s supernatural.” Then he pounded frantically on the door.

There was no response. He hammered again till it rattled. This time a faint prolonged sound like the wailing of a strange sea-creature was heard from within the house. McCurdie turned round, his teeth chattering.

There was no response. He pounded again until it shook. This time, a distant, drawn-out sound like the cry of a mysterious sea creature came from inside the house. McCurdie turned around, his teeth chattering.

“Did ye hear that, Boyne?”

“Did you hear that, Boyne?”

“Perhaps it’s a dog,” said the Professor.

"Maybe it's a dog," the Professor said.

Lord Boyne, the man of action, pushed them aside and tried the door-handle. It yielded, the door stood open, and the gust of cold wind entering the house extinguished the candle within. They entered and found themselves in a miserable stone-paved kitchen, furnished with poverty-stricken meagerness—a wooden chair or two, a dirty table, some broken crockery, old cooking utensils, a flyblown missionary society almanac, and a fireless grate. Boyne set the lamp on the table.

Lord Boyne, the man of action, pushed them aside and tried the door handle. It turned, the door swung open, and the cold wind that blew into the house put out the candle inside. They went in and found themselves in a miserable stone-paved kitchen, furnished with a meager assortment of items—a couple of wooden chairs, a dirty table, some broken dishes, old cooking tools, a fly-specked missionary society almanac, and a fireplace without a fire. Boyne placed the lamp on the table.

“We must bring him in,” said he.

“We need to bring him in,” he said.

They returned to the threshold, and as they were bending over to grip the dead man the same sound filled the air, but this time louder, more intense, a cry of great agony. The sweat dripped from McCurdie’s forehead. They lifted the dead man and brought him into the room, and after laying him on a dirty strip of carpet they did their best to straighten the stiff limbs. Biggleswade put on the table a[216] bundle which he had picked up outside. It contained some poor provisions—a loaf, a piece of fat bacon, and a paper of tea. As far as they could guess (and as they learned later they guessed rightly) the man was the master of the house, who, coming home blind drunk from some distant inn, had fallen at his own threshold and got frozen to death. As they could not unclasp his fingers from the broken bottle neck they had to let him clutch it as a dead warrior clutches the hilt of his broken sword.

They returned to the doorway, and as they leaned down to grab the dead man, the same sound filled the air, but this time it was louder and more intense, a cry of deep agony. Sweat dripped from McCurdie’s forehead. They lifted the dead man and brought him into the room, laying him down on a filthy strip of carpet as they tried to straighten his stiff limbs. Biggleswade placed a [216] bundle on the table that he had picked up outside. It contained some meager provisions—a loaf of bread, a piece of fatty bacon, and a packet of tea. From what they could gather (and as they later confirmed, they were correct), the man was the homeowner, who, stumbling home blind drunk from a distant inn, had fallen at his own doorstep and frozen to death. Since they couldn't pry his fingers off the broken bottle neck, they had to let him hold it tightly, like a fallen warrior clutching the hilt of his broken sword.

Then suddenly the whole place was rent with another and yet another long, soul-piercing moan of anguish.

Then suddenly the whole place was filled with another and yet another long, heart-wrenching moan of distress.

“There’s a second room,” said Boyne, pointing to a door. “The sound comes from there.”

“There’s another room,” Boyne said, pointing to a door. “The noise is coming from there.”

He opened the door, peeped in, and then, returning for the lamp, disappeared, leaving McCurdie and Biggleswade in the pitch darkness, with the dead man on the floor.

He opened the door, looked inside, and then went back for the lamp, disappearing and leaving McCurdie and Biggleswade in complete darkness, with the dead man on the floor.

“For heaven’s sake, give me a drop of whisky,” said the Professor, “or I shall faint.”

“For heaven’s sake, give me a shot of whiskey,” said the Professor, “or I’m going to faint.”

Presently the door opened and Lord Boyne appeared in the shaft of light. He beckoned to his companions.

Currently, the door opened and Lord Boyne appeared in the beam of light. He gestured for his friends.

“It is a woman in childbirth,” he said in his even, tired voice. “We must aid her. She appears unconscious. Does either of you know anything about such things?”

“It’s a woman giving birth,” he said in his calm, weary voice. “We need to help her. She looks unconscious. Do either of you know anything about this?”

They shook their heads, and the three looked at each other in dismay. Masters of knowledge that had won them world-wide fame and honor, they stood[217] helpless, abashed before this, the commonest phenomenon of nature.

They shook their heads, and the three of them looked at each other in shock. Masters of knowledge who had gained world-wide fame and respect, they stood[217] helpless and embarrassed in front of this, the most ordinary event in nature.

“My wife had no child,” said McCurdie.

“My wife didn't have any kids,” said McCurdie.

“I’ve avoided women all my life,” said Biggleswade.

“I’ve stayed away from women my whole life,” said Biggleswade.

“And I’ve been too busy to think of them. God forgive me,” said Boyne.

“And I’ve been too busy to think about them. God forgive me,” said Boyne.

The history of the next two hours was one that none of the three men ever cared to touch upon. They did things blindly, instinctively, as men do when they come face to face with the elemental. A fire was made, they knew not how, water drawn they knew not whence, and a kettle boiled. Boyne, accustomed to command, directed. The others obeyed. At his suggestion they hastened to the wreck of the car and came staggering back beneath rugs and traveling bags which could supply clean linen and needful things, for amid the poverty of the house they could find nothing fit for human touch or use. Early they saw that the woman’s strength was failing, and that she could not live. And there, in that nameless hovel, with death on the pitiful bed, the three great men went through the pain and the horror and squalor of birth, and they knew that they had never yet stood before so great a mystery.

The next two hours were a time none of the three men wanted to discuss. They acted instinctively, like people do when faced with something primal. They started a fire without really knowing how, fetched water from an unknown source, and a kettle began to boil. Boyne, who was used to taking charge, led the way. The others followed his lead. Following his advice, they rushed to the wreck of the car and returned, struggling under the weight of rugs and travel bags that could provide clean linens and necessary items, since they could find nothing suitable in the poverty-stricken house. It became clear early on that the woman's strength was fading and that she couldn’t survive. And there, in that nondescript shack, with death looming over the unfortunate bed, the three significant men faced the pain, horror, and messiness of birth, realizing they had never encountered such a profound mystery before.

With the first wail of the newly born infant a last convulsive shudder passed through the frame of the unconscious mother. Then three or four short gasps for breath, and the spirit passed away. She was dead. Professor Biggleswade threw a corner of the sheet over her face, for he could not bear to see it.

With the first cry of the newborn baby, a final convulsive shudder ran through the body of the unconscious mother. Then came three or four quick gasps for air, and her spirit slipped away. She was gone. Professor Biggleswade covered her face with a corner of the sheet, unable to look at her.

They washed and dried the child as any crone of[218] a midwife would have done, and dipped a small sponge which had always remained unused in a cut-glass bottle in Boyne’s dressing-bag in the hot milk and water of Biggleswade’s thermos bottle, and put it to his lips; and then they wrapped him up warm in some of their own woolen undergarments, and took him into the kitchen and placed him on a bed made of their fur coats in front of the fire. As the last piece of fuel was exhausted they took one of the wooden chairs and broke it up and cast it into the blaze. And then they raised the dead man from the strip of carpet and carried him into the bedroom and laid him reverently by the side of his dead wife, after which they left the dead in darkness and returned to the living. And the three grave men stood over the wisp of flesh that had been born a male into the world. Then, their task being accomplished, reaction came, and even Boyne, who had seen death in many lands, turned faint. But the others, losing control of their nerves, shook like men stricken with palsy.

They washed and dried the child like any old midwife would have, dipped a small sponge that had always been unused in Boyne’s dressing bag into the hot milk and water from Biggleswade’s thermos, and brought it to his lips. Then they wrapped him up warmly in some of their own woolen undergarments, took him into the kitchen, and placed him on a bed made of their fur coats in front of the fire. When the last piece of fuel burned out, they took one of the wooden chairs, broke it up, and threw it into the flames. After that, they lifted the dead man from the strip of carpet and carried him into the bedroom, laying him gently beside his deceased wife. They left the dead in darkness and returned to the living. The three solemn men stood over the fragile body that had entered the world as a male. Once their task was done, they felt the weight of it, and even Boyne, who had seen death in many places, felt faint. The others lost control of their nerves, shaking like men afflicted by paralysis.

Suddenly McCurdie cried in a high pitched voice, “My God! Don’t you feel it?” and clutched Boyne by the arm. An expression of terror came on his iron features. “There! It’s here with us.”

Suddenly, McCurdie yelled in a high-pitched voice, "Oh my God! Don’t you feel it?" and grabbed Boyne’s arm. A look of terror crossed his hardened face. "There! It’s here with us."

Little Professor Biggleswade sat on a corner of the table and wiped his forehead.

Little Professor Biggleswade sat on a corner of the table and wiped his forehead.

“I heard it. I feel it. It was like the beating of wings.”

“I heard it. I feel it. It was like the sound of wings flapping.”

“It’s the fourth time,” said McCurdie. “The first time was just before I accepted the Deverills’ invitation.[219] The second in the railway carriage this afternoon. The third on the way here. This is the fourth.”

“It’s the fourth time,” McCurdie said. “The first time was just before I accepted the Deverills’ invitation.[219] The second was in the train carriage this afternoon. The third was on the way here. This is the fourth.”

Biggleswade plucked nervously at the fringe of whisker under his jaws and said faintly, “It’s the fourth time up to now. I thought it was fancy.”

Biggleswade nervously tugged at the whiskers under his chin and said quietly, “It’s the fourth time so far. I thought it was just a joke.”

“I have felt it, too,” said Boyne. “It is the Angel of Death.” And he pointed to the room where the dead man and woman lay.

“I’ve felt it too,” said Boyne. “It’s the Angel of Death.” Then he pointed to the room where the dead man and woman were.

“For God’s sake let us get away from this,” cried Biggleswade.

“For God’s sake, let’s get out of here,” shouted Biggleswade.

“And leave the child to die, like the others?” said Boyne.

“And just let the child die like the others?” said Boyne.

“We must see it through,” said McCurdie.

“We have to see it through,” McCurdie said.

A silence fell upon them as they sat round by the blaze with the new-born babe wrapped in its odd swaddling clothes asleep on the pile of fur coats, and it lasted until Sir Angus McCurdie looked at his watch.

A hush settled over them as they gathered around the fire, the newborn baby bundled in its strange swaddling clothes, sleeping on a mound of fur coats. The quiet continued until Sir Angus McCurdie checked his watch.

“Good Lord,” said he, “it’s twelve o’clock.”

“Good Lord,” he said, “it’s noon.”

“Christmas morning,” said Biggleswade.

“Christmas morning,” said Biggleswade.

“A strange Christmas,” mused Boyne.

“A weird Christmas,” mused Boyne.

McCurdie put up his hand. “There it is again! The beating of wings.” And they listened like men spellbound. McCurdie kept his hand uplifted, and gazed over their heads at the wall, and his gaze was that of a man in a trance, and he spoke:

McCurdie raised his hand. “There it is again! The sound of wings.” They listened intently, captivated. McCurdie kept his hand raised, staring over their heads at the wall, his expression resembling that of someone in a daze, and he spoke:

“Unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given——”

“To us, a child is born; to us, a son is given——”

Boyne sprang from his chair, which fell behind him with a crash.

Boyne jumped up from his chair, which fell behind him with a loud noise.

“Man—what the devil are you saying?”

“Man—what on earth are you talking about?”

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Then McCurdie rose and met Biggleswade’s eyes staring at him through the great round spectacles, and met the eyes of Boyne. A pulsation like the beating of wings stirred the air.

Then McCurdie stood up and met Biggleswade’s gaze staring at him through the large round glasses, and locked eyes with Boyne. A sensation like the fluttering of wings stirred the air.

The three wise men shivered with a queer exaltation. Something strange, mystical, dynamic had happened. It was as if scales had fallen from their eyes and they saw with a new vision. They stood together humbly, divested of all their greatness, touching one another like children, as if seeking mutual protection, and they looked, with one accord, irresistibly compelled, at the child.

The three wise men shivered with a strange excitement. Something unusual, mystical, and powerful had occurred. It felt like scales had fallen from their eyes, and they were seeing with fresh insight. They stood together, humbly, stripped of all their greatness, touching each other like children, as if searching for comfort. And together, they looked at the child, irresistibly drawn to him.

At last McCurdie unbent his black brows and said hoarsely:

At last, McCurdie relaxed his furrowed brows and said in a rough voice:

“It was not the Angel of Death, Boyne, but another Messenger that drew us here.”

“It wasn't the Angel of Death, Boyne, but another Messenger that brought us here.”

The tiredness seemed to pass away from the great administrator’s face, and he nodded his head with the calm of a man who has come to the quiet heart of a perplexing mystery.

The weariness faded from the great administrator’s face, and he nodded with the calmness of someone who has reached the core of a confusing mystery.

“It’s true,” he murmured. “Unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given. Unto the three of us.”

“It’s true,” he said softly. “A child is born to us, a son is given to us. To the three of us.”

Biggleswade took off his great round spectacles and wiped them.

Biggleswade took off his large round glasses and wiped them.

“Gaspar, Melchior, Balthazar. But where are the gold, frankincense and myrrh?”

“Gaspar, Melchior, Balthazar. But where are the gold, frankincense, and myrrh?”

“In our hearts, man,” said McCurdie.

“In our hearts, man,” McCurdie said.

The babe cried and stretched its tiny limbs.

The baby cried and stretched its little arms and legs.

Instinctively they all knelt down together to discover if possible and administer ignorantly to its wants. The scene had the appearance of an adoration.

Instinctively, they all knelt down together to find out if they could help with its needs, even if they didn't fully understand what was required. The scene looked like an act of worship.

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Then these three wise, lonely, childless men who, in furtherance of their own greatness, had cut themselves adrift from the sweet and simple things of life and from the kindly ways of their brethren, and had grown old in unhappy and profitless wisdom, knew that an inscrutable Providence had led them as it had led three Wise Men of old, on a Christmas morning long ago, to a nativity which should give them a new wisdom, a new link with humanity, a new spiritual outlook, a new hope.

Then these three wise, lonely, childless men who, in pursuit of their own greatness, had separated themselves from the simple joys of life and the friendly ways of their fellow men, and had grown old in unhappy and unproductive wisdom, realized that an unknowable Providence had guided them, just as it had guided the three Wise Men long ago on a Christmas morning, to a birth that would offer them a new wisdom, a new connection to humanity, a new perspective on life, and a renewed hope.

And when their watch was ended they wrapped up the babe with precious care, and carried him with them, an inalienable joy and possession, into the great world.

And when their watch was over, they carefully wrapped up the baby and took him with them, a priceless joy and treasure, into the vast world.

FOOTNOTES:

[13] Reprinted by permission of W. J. Locke.

[13] Reprinted by permission of W. J. Locke.


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A CHRISTMAS CONFESSION[14]

Agnes McClelland Daulton

Agnes McClelland Daulton


Philamaclique lay wrapped softly in snow. The trees arching the wide streets swayed in the stinging winter wind and silently dropped their white plumes upon the head of the occasional pedestrian. Over the old town peace brooded. The snow deadened the passing footstep; the runners of the rude sleds, the hoofs of the farm horses, made no sound; sleepy quiet prevailed but for the rare jingle of sleigh-bells or the gay calling of children’s voices.

Philamaclique was gently covered in snow. The trees lining the wide streets swayed in the biting winter wind and silently shed their white flakes onto the occasional passerby. A sense of peace hung over the old town. The snow muffled footsteps; the runners of sleds and the hooves of farm horses made no noise; a sleepy quiet dominated, broken only by the rare jingle of sleigh bells or the cheerful shouts of children.

The rollicking morning sun, having set the town a-glitter without adding a hint of warmth, smiled broadly as he peeped into the snowy-curtained window of a little red brick house on the north side of High Street. Here in the quaint, low sitting-room he found good cheer a-plenty. The red geraniums on the window-sill, the worn but comfortable furniture, the crackling wood fire upon the hearth, the dozing cat upon the hearth-rug, even the creaking of the rocking-chairs, whispered of warmth and rest and homeliness.

The bright morning sun, making the town sparkle without bringing any warmth, smiled widely as it peeked into the frosty-curtained window of a small red brick house on the north side of High Street. Inside the cozy, low sitting room, there was plenty of good cheer. The red geraniums on the windowsill, the worn but comfy furniture, the crackling wood fire in the fireplace, the sleeping cat on the rug, and even the creaking of the rocking chairs all hinted at warmth, relaxation, and a sense of home.

“So I just run over to tell you, seein’ the snow was[223] too deep for you to get out to prayer-meetin’,” wheezed Mrs. Keel, blinking at the sun and creaking heavily back and forth in the old rush-bottomed rocker. “Says I to Joel at breakfast, ‘Granny Simmers will be pleased as Punch, for she always did love a frolic, so I’ll just run over and tell her while Mellie is washin’ the dishes and I’m waitin’ for the bread to raise’.”

“So I just rushed over to let you know, since the snow was[223] too deep for you to get to prayer meeting,” wheezed Mrs. Keel, squinting at the sun and rocking slowly back and forth in the old rush-bottomed chair. “I told Joel at breakfast, ‘Granny Simmers will be as happy as can be, because she always loved a good time, so I’ll just run over and let her know while Mellie washes the dishes and I’m waiting for the bread to rise.’”

“It was real kind of you, Sister Keel, with your asthmy an’ rheumatiz,” quavered Granny, folding her checked breakfast shawl more closely about her slender shoulders, as she sat excitedly poised like a little gray bird on the edge of her chair. “Jest to think of us Methodists havin’ a Christmas-tree after all these years. My! how I wish it had come in John’s time! I remember once, when we was livin’ out on the farm, says he to me, ‘Polly, if the preacher says we’ll have a tree this year, you and me’ll hitch up Dolly an’ go to town an’ buy a gif’ fer every man, woman, an’ child.’ Dolly was our bay buggy-beast, an’ the best mare in the neighborhood, so John was as choice of her as he was of me ’most, an’ that was a deal for him to offer.”

“It was really kind of you, Sister Keel, with your asthma and rheumatism,” Granny said, wrapping her checked breakfast shawl more tightly around her slender shoulders, as she sat excitedly like a little gray bird on the edge of her chair. “Just to think of us Methodists having a Christmas tree after all these years. My! How I wish it had happened in John’s time! I remember once, when we were living out on the farm, he said to me, ‘Polly, if the preacher says we’ll have a tree this year, you and I will hitch up Dolly and go to town and buy a gift for every man, woman, and child.’ Dolly was our bay horse, and the best mare in the neighborhood, so John was as fond of her as he was of me almost, and that was a big deal for him to offer.”

“Law, Granny, how well I remember him and you ridin’ so happy in that little green wicker sleigh!” exclaimed Mrs. Keel, as she ponderously drew herself from the deeps of her chair. “I must be goin’ now. It was awful nice of Brother Sutton to decide for the Christmas tree when he found the infant class was achin’ for it. His face was beamin’ last night like a seryphim. The children are about wild;[224] Emmie says she wants a pony; guess we’d have some trouble hangin’ that on the tree! Mart wants a gold watch and chain, and Billy says marbles and a gun is good enough for him; but I reckon they’ll all take what they can get. Joel said this mornin’ he’s afraid there’ll be lots of achin’ hearts. There is them little Cotties—who’s a-goin’ to give to them, and the Jacksons, and old Miss Nellie, and Widow Theat. I don’t see how the Millers can do much for Tessie; and poor old Sister Biddle, says she to me last night as we was comin’ out, says she, ‘It’ll be awful sweet to hear Brother Knisley readin’ out, Mis’ Sallie Biddle; seems ’most as if I couldn’t stand it, it’ll be so sweet. I ain’t had a Christmas gif’ since Biddle was courtin’ me sixty years ago.’ The poor old body was just chucklin’ over it; but who’s goin’ to give her anything, I’d like to know?”

“Law, Granny, I remember him and you riding so joyfully in that little green wicker sleigh!” exclaimed Mrs. Keel, as she slowly got up from the depths of her chair. “I need to head out now. It was really nice of Brother Sutton to decide on the Christmas tree since the kids in the infant class were so eager for it. His face was shining last night like an angel. The children are practically wild; Emmie says she wants a pony; I guess we’d have a hard time hanging that on the tree! Mart wants a gold watch and chain, and Billy says marbles and a gun are enough for him; but I think they’ll all take whatever they can get. Joel said this morning he’s worried there will be lots of broken hearts. There are those little Cotties—who’s going to give to them, and the Jacksons, and old Miss Nellie, and Widow Theat? I don’t see how the Millers can do much for Tessie; and poor Sister Biddle, she told me last night as we were coming out, says she, ‘It’ll be so wonderful to hear Brother Knisley reading out, Mrs. Sallie Biddle; it almost seems like I couldn’t bear it, it’ll be so sweet. I haven’t had a Christmas gift since Biddle was courting me sixty years ago.’ The poor old dear was just chuckling about it; but who’s going to give her anything, I’d like to know?”

“Oh, my me!” sighed Granny, clasping her little wrinkled hands wistfully as she stood at the open door. “I ain’t thought of the gif’s. It was the lights, and the candles a-twinklin’, an’ the music, an’ the children most bustin’ with gladness and wishes. Land! when I was a little girl, how I used to wish we was Moravians; they was always havin’ trees, or candle feasts, or children’s feasts, or Easterin’s, an’ us Methodists didn’t have no excitement ’cept revivals. Law me, what am I sayin’!” she broke off with a chuckle. “As if I didn’t thank the Lord every night for makin’ me a Methodist bred, a Methodist born, a Methodist till I die. It’s the children I’m thinkin’ about.”

“Oh my goodness!” sighed Granny, clasping her little wrinkled hands with longing as she stood at the open door. “I hadn’t thought about the gifts. It was the lights, and the twinkling candles, and the music, and the children nearly bursting with joy and hopes. Wow! When I was a little girl, I always wished we were Moravians; they always had trees, or candle feasts, or children’s parties, or Easter celebrations, while us Methodists didn’t have any excitement except for revivals. Goodness, what am I saying!” She interrupted herself with a chuckle. “As if I didn’t thank the Lord every night for making me a Methodist, raised a Methodist, a Methodist until I die. It’s the children I’m thinking about.”

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Mrs. Keel laughed and held up a fat reproving finger as she called from the gate:

Mrs. Keel laughed and raised a chubby finger in a teasing way as she called from the gate:

“I guess you ain’t growed up yourself, Granny, for all your eighty years. I’ve said to Joel often, says I, ‘There ain’t a child in this town that is younger at heart than Granny Simmers,’ and says he, ‘Ner a child that’s sweeter ner prettier!’”

“I guess you haven’t really grown up, Granny, even with your eighty years. I’ve often told Joel, ‘I don’t think there’s a child in this town who is younger at heart than Granny Simmers,’ and he said, ‘Not a single child who’s sweeter or prettier!’”

“My me!” whispered Granny as she closed the door, her soft wrinkled cheeks delicately flushed at the unexpected compliment. “John said I’d never git over bein’ a girl, an’ here I be blushin’ like a fool ’cause old Joel Keel says I ain’t bad-lookin’.”

“My goodness!” whispered Granny as she closed the door, her soft, wrinkled cheeks gently flushed from the unexpected compliment. “John said I’d never get over being a girl, and here I am blushing like a fool because old Joel Keel says I’m not bad-looking.”

There was much bustling going on in the trim little “brick” that morning. Martha Morris, Granny’s “help,” had never known her mistress to be so concerned about the crispness of the pepper-cakes, the spiciness of the pig and horse ginger cookies, the brownness of the twisted doughnuts, or the flakiness of the mince pies that were resting by noon in savory richness on the pantry shelf. Then, when dinner was over and the dishes washed, Granny demanded that she herself be taken in hand.

There was a lot of activity happening in the neat little "brick" that morning. Martha Morris, Granny's "helper," had never seen her boss so worried about the crunchiness of the pepper-cakes, the spiciness of the pig and horse ginger cookies, the browning of the twisted doughnuts, or the flakiness of the mince pies that were sitting by noon in delicious richness on the pantry shelf. Then, when dinner was finished and the dishes were washed, Granny insisted that she be taken care of.

“Law, Granny, you ain’t goin’ up town in such a snow as this!” protested Martha, as she lovingly tucked the thin white hair under the velvet cap and folded the kerchief about her neck.

“Come on, Grandma, you can’t go out in this snow!” Martha insisted, as she gently tucked the thin white hair under the velvet cap and adjusted the kerchief around her neck.

“Indeed I am, Marthy,” replied Granny with prompt decision. “The sun is shinin’ grand, an’ Billy Sharp went along with the snow shovel while you was washin’ the dishes. Just wrap me up warm an’ I’ll get along first rate.”

“Absolutely, Marthy,” Granny answered firmly. “The sun is shining beautifully, and Billy Sharp took the snow shovel while you were washing the dishes. Just wrap me up warm, and I’ll be just fine.”

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“Better let me go, too,” argued Martha, as she pinned Granny’s “Bay State” firmly under her chin with the big glass brooch with its precious lock of gray hair safely inclosed, and tied her nubia over her cap. “You might slip and fall. I won’t feel safe one minute till you are back home.”

“Better let me go, too,” said Martha, as she secured Granny’s “Bay State” tightly under her chin with the big glass brooch that held the precious lock of gray hair safe, and tied her nubia over her cap. “You might slip and fall. I won’t feel safe for a second until you’re back home.”

“Land, Marthy! every born soul knows me. Ain’t I Granny to the hull town, for all I ain’t got a chick ner a child? My me! it’s sixty years since John an’ me laid ’Rastus away; fifty since little Mary, her father’s darlin’, slipped off to heaven. Seems like my old heart goes out in love to everybody ’count of them three, John and my two babies, waitin’ for me in one of the Father’s mansions. Hope there’s a chimbly corner—John always loved it so on a winter’s night; an’ I hope there’s roses growin’ by the doorstep, so it will seem like home to ’em all; an’, Marthy, if I fall there ain’t a soul but would be ready to pick me up, an’ a smile for me, bless ’em! I jest wonder sometimes how it comes everybody is so kind an’ good. It’s a lovely world, that’s what it is.”

“Land, Marthy! Everybody knows me. Am I not like a grandmother to the whole town, even though I don’t have a single chick or child? My goodness! It's been sixty years since John and I laid ’Rastus to rest; fifty since little Mary, her father's darling, went to heaven. It feels like my old heart reaches out with love to everyone because of those three—John and my two babies—waiting for me in one of the Father’s mansions. I hope there’s a cozy corner by the fireplace—John always loved that on winter nights; and I hope there are roses growing by the doorstep, so it feels like home to them all; and, Marthy, if I fall down, there isn’t a soul who wouldn’t be ready to help me up with a smile, bless them! I just wonder sometimes how it is that everyone is so kind and good. It’s a beautiful world, that’s what it is.”

“Now,” said Granny to herself, as she teetered along on the icy walk toward the busy stores, “John said a gif’ for every man, woman, an’ child. Guess I can remember the hull lot, as there’s only six men an’ I’ve got the women writ down; an’ for the children, well, I’ll buy till my money gives out, an’ I reckon I’ll get enough. Kind of pitiful about Sister Biddle. My! what a dashin’, lovely girl she was when I first see her at the Beals’ apple-parin’! She[227] was Sallie Neely then, pretty as a picture, hair and eyes like jet, an’ cheeks pink as roses, an’ so tall an’ slender. I recollect how she picked me up an’ whirled me round; she was as light as a feather on her feet, an’ said, ‘Polly Whitehead, was there ever such a morsel of a girl as you are? If I was a man, I’d marry you ’fore night.’ An’ John said he said to himself she’d have had a hard time of it, for he made up his mind then an’ there to have me himself. Yes, I’ll get Sallie Neely a red plush album an’ put John’s picture in it; she’d admire to get that!”

“Now,” Granny said to herself as she carefully walked along the icy path toward the busy stores, “John said a gift for every man, woman, and child. I guess I can remember them all since there are only six men, and I've written down the women; as for the kids, well, I'll just buy until my money runs out, and I think I'll get enough. It’s kind of sad about Sister Biddle. My! What a stunning, lovely girl she was when I first saw her at the Beals’ apple peeling! She was Sallie Neely back then, as beautiful as a picture, with hair and eyes like jet, cheeks pink as roses, and so tall and slender. I remember how she picked me up and spun me around; she was as light as a feather on her feet and said, ‘Polly Whitehead, has there ever been such a tiny girl as you? If I were a man, I’d marry you by nightfall.’ And John said to himself she would have had a hard time, since he decided right then and there that he wanted me for himself. Yes, I’ll get Sallie Neely a red plush album and put John’s picture in it; she would love that!”

Granny hesitated.

Grandma hesitated.

“Well, did you ever!” she gasped. “I ain’t never thought of it before; who’ll give anything to me, Polly Simmers? John would, dear John, but he’s gone, an’ I ain’t got a blood akin in the town, an’ they’ve all got such a lot to give to. Mebby I wouldn’t mind much, but it—would—be kind of mortifyin’ to be the only one forgot, for I’m bound they sha’n’t be another soul left out. I wonder if I dare!”

"Well, can you believe it!" she exclaimed. "I never thought about it before; who would give anything to me, Polly Simmers? John would, sweet John, but he’s gone, and I don’t have any relatives in town, and they all have plenty to give. Maybe I wouldn’t mind too much, but it would be pretty embarrassing to be the only one forgotten, since I’m sure there won’t be another soul left out. I wonder if I should!"


Long shafts of light from the bare, uncurtained windows of the old church lay across the snow, as the cracked bell jangled through the crisp air its Christmas greeting. The jingle of sleigh-bells, the creaking of the runners, merry voices, bits of song, gay laughter, united in a Christmas carol redolent with Christmas spirit—Peace on earth, good will to men.

Long beams of light from the bare, uncovered windows of the old church stretched across the snow, while the cracked bell jingled its Christmas greeting through the crisp air. The jingle of sleigh bells, the creaking of the runners, cheerful voices, snippets of songs, and joyful laughter all blended together in a Christmas carol filled with holiday spirit—Peace on earth, goodwill to all.

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Granny, leaning on Martha’s strong arm, fairly shivered with excitement and delight. She knew that not a soul called by the clamor of that bell had been forgotten. There had been no need of stinting, for Granny’s acres were broad and fruitful and her wants few. Gift after gift had her withered hands tied into pretty parcels. The pen had creaked and sputtered across the paper as she marked them, for she had refused all help from curious but loving Martha, only asking that there be a good fire made in the air-tight stove in the spare chamber. There she worked alone, but happy, Martha well knew, as she stood with her ear pressed to the crack of the door, having found the keyhole stopped with cotton.

Granny, leaning on Martha’s strong arm, was practically trembling with excitement and joy. She knew that no one who came ringing that bell had been forgotten. There was no need to hold back, since Granny’s land was vast and productive and her needs were few. Gift after gift had her frail hands wrapped into pretty packages. The pen had creaked and sputtered on the paper as she marked them, because she had turned down all help from curious but loving Martha, only asking that a good fire be made in the air-tight stove in the spare room. There she worked alone, but happily, Martha knew well, as she stood with her ear pressed to the crack of the door, finding the keyhole stuffed with cotton.

“While shepherds watched their flocks by night,
All seated on the ground,
The angels of the Lord came down,
And glory shone around,”

quavered the old voice. And Martha never knew it was not Granny Simmers who sang so joyfully within, but pretty Polly Whitehead in the choir of the old meeting-house, looking on the same hymn-book with handsome young John Simmers, the catch of the valley.

quavered the old voice. And Martha never knew it was not Granny Simmers who sang so joyfully within, but pretty Polly Whitehead in the choir of the old meeting-house, sharing the same hymn book with handsome young John Simmers, the catch of the valley.

“Just fairly takes my breath away,” wheezed Mrs. Keel, meeting Granny at the door of the church. “Don’t seem like the same place. Now ain’t it pretty?”

“Just really takes my breath away,” gasped Mrs. Keel, meeting Granny at the church door. “Doesn’t seem like the same place. Now isn’t it beautiful?”

Granny caught her breath.

Granny caught her breath.

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Could this be the little church she knew so well? Before that altar, she, a bride, had stood with John; there they had carried Baby Rastus and Mary for baptism; there the casket had rested that awful day when she had found herself alone.

Could this be the little church she knew so well? Before that altar, she, a bride, had stood with John; there they had carried Baby Rastus and Mary for baptism; there the casket had rested that terrible day when she had found herself alone.

A crude little sanctuary, always bare and cheerless to the beauty-loving eye, yet rich with tenderest memories to Granny; to-night, ablaze with lights, roped with greenery, gay with flags, joyful with the hum of merry voices, it seemed some new and unexplored fairyland. And there upon the rostrum in all its glory, tall, straight, and beautiful, twinkling with candles, festooned with strings of popcorn and cranberries, glittering with tinsel stars and silver crowns, adorned with bobinet stockings cubby and knubby with candy and nuts, hung with packages big and little, stood the tree, the tree!

A simple little sanctuary, always bare and dull to those who appreciate beauty, yet filled with the sweetest memories for Granny; tonight, lit up with lights, draped in greenery, bright with flags, buzzing with cheerful voices, it felt like a new and uncharted fairyland. And there on the platform in all its splendor, tall, straight, and beautiful, sparkling with candles, decorated with strands of popcorn and cranberries, shining with tinsel stars and silver crowns, embellished with cozy stockings stuffed with candy and nuts, hung with packages big and small, stood the tree, the tree!

“Let me set down till I get my breath, Marthy,” cackled Granny, excitedly. “Jest get my specks out of my pocket, will you, child? My, my! if only John an’ ’Rastus an’ little Mary was here now!”

“Let me sit down until I catch my breath, Marthy,” cackled Granny, excitedly. “Just get my glasses out of my pocket, will you, child? My, my! If only John and ’Rastus and little Mary were here now!”

Sitting straight in the corner of her pew, her spectacles on the extreme end of her nose, her bonnet tipped rakishly to one side in her joy, her black-woolen-mittened hands crossed demurely in her lap, she, the happiest child of them all, listened to the exercise. Carolers and speech-makers found naught but sympathy in her sweet face.

Sitting up straight in the corner of her pew, her glasses perched on the tip of her nose, her bonnet jauntily tilted to one side in her happiness, her black wool mittens resting modestly in her lap, she, the happiest child of them all, listened to the performance. Carolers and speakers saw nothing but warmth in her kind face.

When the last speaker had tiptoed to his seat and the infant class was growing unruly in the amen corner—the sight of the bobinet stockings and mysterious[230] packages being too much for the patience of their baby souls—Brother Knisley carefully mounted the step-ladder and the distribution of the gifts began.

When the last speaker quietly made his way back to his seat and the little kids were getting restless in the amen corner—the sight of the bobinet stockings and mysterious[230] packages proving too much for their little patience—Brother Knisley carefully climbed the step-ladder and started handing out the gifts.

“Billy Keel, Tessie Miller—Dora Jackson, Mrs. Sallie Biddle,” haltingly read the Brother. The sight of Sallie’s wild delight over the red plush album almost moved Granny to tears. “Mrs. Polly Simmers, Martha Morris—Mrs. Polly Simmers, Mrs. Joel Keel—Mrs. Polly Simmers,” then again and again until the pew in which Granny sat was filled and overflowed into her lap. Wide-eyed, at first happy, then more and more distressed grew the small face under its rakish bonnet.

“Billy Keel, Tessie Miller—Dora Jackson, Mrs. Sallie Biddle,” the Brother read slowly. Seeing Sallie’s wild joy over the red plush album nearly brought Granny to tears. “Mrs. Polly Simmers, Martha Morris—Mrs. Polly Simmers, Mrs. Joel Keel—Mrs. Polly Simmers,” he repeated over and over until the pew where Granny sat was packed and spilling into her lap. The small face under its stylish bonnet went from wide-eyed and happy to increasingly distressed.

“Mrs. Polly Simmers, Miss Nelly Sanford—Mrs. Polly Simmers—” Oh, would they never cease? Martha, chuckling with joy, gathered them in one by one.

“Mrs. Polly Simmers, Miss Nelly Sanford—Mrs. Polly Simmers—” Oh, would they ever stop? Martha, laughing with happiness, brought them in one by one.

“There, Granny, guess it ain’t hard to see who is the favorite in this town,” she whispered vehemently. “Law’s sakes, if here ain’t another; that makes twenty-one! Wonder what it is? It feels for all the world like a milk-strainer, but I never heard of such a thing hung on a tree.”

“There, Granny, I guess it’s pretty obvious who the favorite is in this town,” she whispered fiercely. “Goodness, if that isn’t another one; that makes twenty-one! I wonder what it is? It feels just like a milk-strainer, but I’ve never seen anything like that hanging on a tree.”

Granny’s face flushed, puckered, and flamed into crimson.

Granny’s face turned red, wrinkled, and lit up with crimson color.

“Don’t talk so loud, Marthy. Ain’t you got no manners! Oh, whatever, ever shall I do?”

“Don’t talk so loudly, Marthy. Don’t you have any manners? Oh, what on earth am I going to do?”

“Do?” wheezed Mrs. Keel, leaning over the back of her pew. “Do? Why, take every one of ’em and enjoy ’em. Ain’t one but what’s filled with love,[231] even if it is a milk-strainer, though I can’t see why anybody come to think of that.”

“Do?” wheezed Mrs. Keel, leaning over the back of her pew. “Do? Why, take every one of them and enjoy them. There’s not one that isn’t filled with love, [231] even if it is a milk strainer, though I can’t understand why anyone would think of that.”

“Goodness knows, we needed it bad enough,” returned Martha, shrilly, over Mrs. Keel’s shoulder. “I’ve been jaw-smithin’ about it fer the last month, but she wus always forgittin’ it.”

“Honestly, we really needed it,” Martha replied sharply, over Mrs. Keel’s shoulder. “I’ve been talking about it for the last month, but she kept forgetting it.”

“Looks to me as if that was a coal-hod,” remarked Billy Keel, prodding a bulky bundle on Granny’s lap with a fat forefinger.

“Looks to me like that was a coal hod,” said Billy Keel, poking a heavy bundle on Granny’s lap with a chubby finger.

“You hush up, Billy Keel,” exclaimed Granny, resentfully. “I ain’t makin’ any remark about your gif’s, be I?”

“You be quiet, Billy Keel,” Granny said, annoyed. “I’m not saying anything about your gifts, am I?”

Billy, as much astonished as if one of his pet doves had pecked him, hung his head in shame.

Billy, just as shocked as if one of his pet doves had pecked him, hung his head in embarrassment.

“Mrs. Polly Simmers,” announced the Brother, pompously, as he slowly clambered to the floor; “that is the last gif’.”

“Mrs. Polly Simmers,” announced the Brother, pompously, as he slowly climbed down to the floor; “that is the last gift.”

“Ahem!” began Brother Sutton, his mild old eyes beaming with joy as he looked over his congregation. He drew his tall length to its uttermost, set the tips of his fingers together, and teetered slowly back and forth from toe to heel. “Ahem! It has been gratifying indeed to see so much generosity. But most of all it has pleased us to see that the receiver of the lion’s share has been our aged sister, Mrs. Polly Simmers. It is delightful that her unselfish life, her high sense of honor, her sweet sympathy, has been appreciated.”

“Ahem!” started Brother Sutton, his gentle old eyes shining with happiness as he looked over his congregation. He straightened up as tall as he could, pressed the tips of his fingers together, and swayed slowly back and forth from toe to heel. “Ahem! It has truly been wonderful to witness such generosity. But most of all, it has brought us joy to see that the person receiving the largest share has been our elderly sister, Mrs. Polly Simmers. It’s heartwarming that her selfless life, her strong sense of honor, and her caring nature have been recognized.”

Granny, her face deathly pale, every hint of the Christmas joy of the early evening gone from her eyes, now dulled with agony, arose trembling in her pew.

Granny, her face extremely pale, every trace of the Christmas joy from earlier in the evening wiped from her eyes, now glazed with pain, stood shaking in her pew.

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But Brother Sutton’s eyes brightened as he saw her.

But Brother Sutton's eyes lit up when he saw her.

“Our aged sister wishes to speak to us, I see,” he said, kindly, “and I know all the little folks will be very quiet.”

“Our older sister wants to talk to us, I can see,” he said gently, “and I know all the little ones will be very quiet.”

“I jest want to say,” gasped Granny, clutching nervously at the pew in front of her, “I jest want to say that I’m a wicked old sinner, that I’m a liar and a cheat and a disgrace to my church.”

“I just want to say,” gasped Granny, nervously clutching the pew in front of her, “I just want to say that I’m a wicked old sinner, that I’m a liar and a cheat and a disgrace to my church.”

The audience, as if electrified, turned toward her in amazement; even the children dropped their gifts to stare at Granny, as she stood pale, wild-eyed, and self-accusing.

The audience, as if jolted, turned toward her in shock; even the kids dropped their gifts to stare at Granny, who stood there pale, wide-eyed, and full of self-blame.

“My heart’s ’most bustin’ with your goodness,” went on the quavering old voice, “and I’ve got to tell or I’ll die ’fore mornin’, an’ I can’t go to John an’ ’Rastus an’ little Mary with a lie on my soul, even if the good Lord would forgive me for their sakes an’ let me in. That day I set out to buy a gif’ fer every man, woman, an’ child in the church the devil kept tellin’ me they wouldn’t be nothin’ fer old Granny Simmers, an’ the more I thought the more I got a hankerin’ to hear my name read with the rest; an’ the bad man he said to me, says he, ‘Granny Simmers, why don’t you buy some things for yourself an’ put them on the tree; nobody’d be the wiser. Needn’t buy anything extravagant,’ says he, ‘jest plain needcessities that Marthy’s been urgin’. Since you are buyin’ for everybody in the church, there’s no harm—John said every man, woman, an’ child.’

“My heart is almost bursting with your kindness,” continued the shaky old voice, “and I have to tell you or I’ll die before morning, and I can’t face John, Rastus, and little Mary with a lie on my conscience, even if the good Lord would forgive me for their sake and let me in. That day I decided to buy a gift for every man, woman, and child in the church, the devil kept telling me there wouldn’t be anything for old Granny Simmers, and the more I thought about it, the more I wanted to hear my name read with the rest; and the bad man said to me, ‘Granny Simmers, why don’t you buy some things for yourself and put them on the tree; nobody would be the wiser. You don’t need to buy anything fancy,’ he said, ‘just plain necessities that Marthy has been urging. Since you’re buying for everybody in the church, there’s no harm—John said every man, woman, and child.’”

“I didn’t have an idee that anybody would think[233] of old me, so I says to the bad man at last, says I, ‘Jest a few things, devil, jest a few—a milk-strainer that Marthy has been jawin’ about, a coal-hod, a tack-hammer, an’ a new calico I had been needin’ for some time; then I got a couple of new pie tins an’ a soapstone ’cause Marthy cracked the old one. An’ I never once thought of it bein’ a sin, an’ I tied ’em up with ribbons an’ tissue-paper, an’ sung as I did it—I was just as happy as a child. But when I saw how you’d all remembered me, an’ heard Brother Knisley readin’ gif’ after gif’, an’ I seed how I’d doubted your friendship an’ knowed you never dreamed I was actin’ a lie, I just felt so pusly mean I couldn’t stand that you should believe all them gif’s come from love. I guess I ain’t fit for anything but churchin’.”

“I didn’t think anyone would remember old me, so I finally said to the bad man, ‘Just a few things, devil, just a few—a milk strainer that Marthy has been talking about, a coal hod, a tack hammer, and a new calico I’ve needed for a while; then I got a couple of new pie tins and a soapstone because Marthy broke the old one. And I never once thought it was a sin, and I tied them up with ribbons and tissue paper, singing as I did it—I was just as happy as a child. But when I saw how you all remembered me, and heard Brother Knisley reading gift after gift, and realized how I had doubted your friendship and knew you never suspected I was pretending, I just felt so shamefully mean I couldn’t stand that you believed all those gifts came from love. I guess I’m not good for anything but going to church.”

Shaking with sobs, the little woman dropped back in her seat to be received into Martha’s loving arms.

Shaking with tears, the little woman sank back into her seat to be embraced by Martha’s loving arms.

“Brother Sutton”—it was Mrs. Keel’s asthmatic wheeze that broke the silence—“Brother Sutton, I’ve got a few words to say, and as I look about at the streamin’ eyes of this congregation I know you’ll all agree with me. If there is a dear saint on earth, who has stood by us in our sorrows an’ our joys, who’s hovered over our death-beds and welcomed our babies, it’s Granny Simmers. If there’s a soul of honor, a childlike conscience, and one of the Lord’s own, it is this blessed little woman. I don’t know how the rest of you feel, but my heart’s ’most broke for the poor little soul. Ain’t no more sin in her gentle little heart than there is in a baby’s.”

“Brother Sutton”—it was Mrs. Keel’s asthmatic wheeze that broke the silence—“Brother Sutton, I have a few words to say, and looking around at the tear-filled eyes of this congregation, I know you’ll all agree with me. If there’s a dear saint on earth who has stood by us in our sorrows and joys, who has been by our deathbeds and welcomed our babies, it’s Granny Simmers. If there’s a soul of honor, a childlike conscience, and one of the Lord’s own, it’s this blessed little woman. I don’t know how the rest of you feel, but my heart is almost broken for that poor little soul. There’s no more sin in her gentle little heart than there is in a baby’s.”

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“Amen!” came from every side.

“Amen!” echoed from all sides.

But Brother Sutton, his face beaming with tenderness, had come swiftly down the aisle and was bending over Granny.

But Brother Sutton, his face radiating warmth, had quickly walked down the aisle and was leaning over Granny.

“Sister,” he said, taking her little wrinkled hands in his, “believe me, God forgave you this before you asked it; and as for us, look about you, and what do you see in the faces of your friends? Come one and all and give her your tenderest greetings.”

“Sister,” he said, taking her small wrinkled hands in his, “trust me, God forgave you for this before you even asked; and as for us, look around you—what do you see in your friends' faces? Come on, everyone, and give her your warmest greetings.”

Kneeling by the bed that night in her little white gown and cap, as she pressed her face in the pillow where John’s head had rested for so many years, Granny poured out a humble and a contrite heart. “An’, Lord,” she added, “please tell John an’ the children that I give every one of them things to Mis’ Cottie, an’ I’m startin’ out again with falterin’ steps toward the heavenly home.”

Kneeling by the bed that night in her small white gown and cap, as she pressed her face into the pillow where John’s head had rested for so many years, Granny poured out her humble and contrite heart. “And, Lord,” she added, “please tell John and the kids that I’m giving everything to Mrs. Cottie, and I’m starting out again with shaky steps toward the heavenly home.”

FOOTNOTES:

[14] By permission of the author and the “Outlook.”

[14] With permission from the author and the "Outlook."


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THE DAY OF DAYS[15]

Elsie Singmaster

Elsie Singmaster


Upon three hundred and sixty-five days in the year Miss Mary Britton gave; upon one day Miss Mary received. That day was the day before Christmas.

Upon three hundred and sixty-five days in the year, Miss Mary Britton gave; on one day, Miss Mary received. That day was the day before Christmas.

Miss Mary did not receive, however, from the same persons to whom she gave. Miss Mary gave to all the village, a lift here in sickness, a little present of money there in case of need. To Sally Young went a new bonnet, to old Carrie Burrage a warm shawl, to the preacher and his large family unnumbered articles. Miss Mary took old Carrie Burrage, tiresome, ungrateful, self-centered, into her house for a month; she took the Arundel baby for three.

Miss Mary, however, didn’t receive anything from the same people she helped. She gave to everyone in the village—a little support during illness, a small gift of money when someone was in need. Sally Young received a new bonnet, old Carrie Burrage got a warm shawl, and the preacher and his large family were given many items. Miss Mary took the difficult, ungrateful, self-centered Carrie Burrage into her home for a month; she also took care of the Arundel baby for three months.

None of these persons remembered Miss Mary at Christmas. The village was poor; it considered Miss Mary rich; it expected her to be generous. Miss Mary’s present came from far away New York; it was the most treasured gift received in the state of Ohio. Years ago, when the Britton fortune was large, when kinsfolk were numerous, when the broad doors of this Britton house stood open to relatives removed [236]to the fourth degree, a young cousin had spent a happy summer under its roof. He had been ill; here, in the country, ministered to with unfailing kindness, he had fully recovered.

None of these people remembered Miss Mary at Christmas. The village was poor; it saw Miss Mary as wealthy; it expected her to be generous. Miss Mary’s gift came from faraway New York; it was the most cherished present received in the state of Ohio. Years ago, when the Britton family was well-off, when relatives were many, when the grand doors of this Britton house were open to distant relatives, a young cousin had spent a joyful summer under its roof. He had been ill; here, in the countryside, cared for with constant kindness, he had fully recovered.

Since then, he had never failed to remember his hosts at Christmas time. He had never come again; he grew to be a famous man with whom it was an honor to be connected, but he was never too busy to remember the tastes of his cousins. Miss Mary’s father had had his magazine, her mother a bit of lace, Miss Mary’s brother a riding whip, Miss Mary herself a book. After the father died, two gifts came to Miss Mary’s mother; when all had gone but the lonely daughter, her gift was quadrupled. Of late years, the gift had increased—instead of four books, Miss Mary received twenty.

Since then, he had always remembered his hosts at Christmas. He never visited again; he became a famous man that everyone wanted to be associated with, but he was never too busy to keep his cousins in mind. Miss Mary’s father had received his magazine, her mother a piece of lace, Miss Mary’s brother a riding crop, and Miss Mary herself a book. After their father passed away, two gifts were sent to Miss Mary's mom; when everyone was gone except for the lonely daughter, her gift was increased to four. In recent years, the gifts had grown even larger—instead of four books, Miss Mary received twenty.

“You have now more time for reading,” wrote the cousin. “If my taste in books does not please you, you must tell me. It will be just as easy to send you what you like as what I like.”

“You have more time to read now,” wrote the cousin. “If my taste in books doesn’t appeal to you, you have to let me know. It’ll be just as easy to send you what you like as it is to send what I like.”

Miss Mary had no quarrel with her cousin’s taste. If he had sent her a Greek dictionary, she would have treasured it. But he sent her the books she loved, novels, essays, poetry. With them came always a letter with reminders of that happy summer, and expressions of affection.

Miss Mary had no issue with her cousin’s taste. If he had sent her a Greek dictionary, she would have valued it. But he sent her the books she loved: novels, essays, poetry. Along with them, he always included a letter filled with reminders of that joyful summer and expressions of love.

The box came usually on the last train on Christmas Eve. It was sometimes earlier, but it had never yet been late. Miss Mary always opened the box herself, with many failures of hammer and screwdriver to do proper execution, with excited examination[237] of bindings, to see that no harm had come to them on their long journey, with pauses and exclamations while titles and frontispieces were examined. Miss Mary had this year a new bookcase for which she had been a long time saving the extra pennies that remained after baker’s and butcher’s bills were paid and the repairs made on the homestead and the outfit for the Arundel baby purchased. The bookcase was already half filled with the overflow from Miss Mary’s other bookcases.

The box usually arrived on the last train on Christmas Eve. Sometimes it came earlier, but it had never been late. Miss Mary always opened the box herself, struggling with the hammer and screwdriver to get it open, eagerly checking the bindings to make sure nothing was damaged on their long trip, pausing to exclaim as she examined the titles and front covers. This year, Miss Mary had a new bookcase for which she had been saving up extra pennies after paying the baker and butcher bills, making repairs on the house, and buying things for the Arundel baby. The bookcase was already half filled with the overflow from Miss Mary’s other bookcases.[237]

Miss Mary woke on the morning of the day before Christmas with flushed cheeks and an accelerated pulse. This condition was no warning of approaching illness, it indicated only Miss Mary’s usual condition of excitement on this day. For three months past, the Arundel baby in the next room had wakened her drowsy hostess at the crack of dawn, but this morning Miss Mary was dressed before the Arundel baby had opened her brown eyes. Miss Mary’s excitement, however, was not entirely that of joyful anticipation; it was partly alarm. Each year, she prepared herself for disappointment, for the coming of the evening train without any precious freight for her. The cousin was old, ten years older than Miss Mary; he could not live to send her gifts on every Christmas, and when he died, when his box failed to come, she would be alone in the world, without kin, without interests beyond the sleepy village, with nothing to look forward to all her life long.

Miss Mary woke up on the morning before Christmas with rosy cheeks and a racing heart. This wasn’t a sign of getting sick; it just meant Miss Mary was her usual excited self on this day. For the past three months, the Arundel baby in the next room had been waking her sleepy host at dawn, but today, Miss Mary was dressed before the Arundel baby had even opened her brown eyes. However, Miss Mary’s excitement wasn’t just joyful anticipation; it included a bit of fear. Each year, she braced herself for disappointment, expecting the evening train to arrive with no special package for her. Her cousin was old, ten years older than Miss Mary; he wouldn’t be able to send her gifts every Christmas forever, and when he died, when his box didn’t show up, she would be all alone in the world, without any family, without interests beyond the sleepy village, and with nothing to look forward to for the rest of her life.

“I must be prepared for it,” Miss Mary often said to herself.

“I need to be ready for it,” Miss Mary often told herself.

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But she never succeeded in preparing herself. When she woke, she sprang from bed as she used to spring in her childhood.

But she never managed to get herself ready. When she woke up, she jumped out of bed just like she used to in her childhood.

“I am like the children who call out ‘Christmas gift’ and pound at the door,” said Miss Mary, amused at herself.

“I’m like the kids who shout ‘Christmas gift’ and bang on the door,” said Miss Mary, finding it funny.

It was about nine o’clock when the Arundel baby’s aunt came for her. She was to have come at eight; she was, indeed, to have come yesterday and last week, and, indeed, last month. But the Arundel baby belonged to a weak and shiftless family.

It was around nine o’clock when the Arundel baby’s aunt finally showed up to pick her up. She was supposed to arrive at eight; she was actually supposed to come yesterday and last week, and even last month. But the Arundel baby was part of a weak and careless family.

She was much inconvenienced by the delay of the baby’s aunt. To the day before Christmas Miss Mary postponed various duties, her intention being to keep the hours as full as possible so that the time might not drag until the evening train.

She was really frustrated by the delay of the baby’s aunt. Right up until the day before Christmas, Miss Mary put off various tasks, planning to keep her schedule as busy as possible so that the time wouldn't drag before the evening train.

The house was yet to be put in order, the wreaths must be hung in the windows, sundry baskets must be packed for distribution in the morning and sundry presents be wrapped for the butcher’s boy and the baker’s man and for James Vanderslice, the expressman. To the baker’s man Miss Mary gave a tie, to the butcher’s boy a pair of suspenders, alternating the gifts with the years, but to James Vanderslice, eagerly watched for at twilight, she gave both, and a little present of money besides.

The house still needed to be tidied up, the wreaths had to be hung in the windows, a few baskets needed to be packed for distribution in the morning, and several gifts needed to be wrapped for the butcher’s boy, the baker’s man, and James Vanderslice, the delivery guy. To the baker’s man, Miss Mary gave a tie, to the butcher’s boy a pair of suspenders, alternating the gifts each year, but for James Vanderslice, who she eagerly anticipated at twilight, she gave both gifts, plus a little extra cash.

The Arundel baby’s aunt not only came an hour late, but she stayed for an hour talking about nothing.

The Arundel baby’s aunt not only arrived an hour late, but she also spent an hour chatting about pointless stuff.

The aunt began presently to gossip, and Miss Mary moved uneasily in her chair. She did not like gossip or persons who repeated it. Fortunately, the baker’s[239] horn interrupted with its loud demand, and Miss Mary asked to be excused. When she returned, she brought with her the baby’s hat and coat. Miss Mary was able to dismiss unpleasant persons without their being aware of it. She wrapped the baby up herself and tucked her into the carriage she had bought and kissed her good-by.

The aunt soon started gossiping, and Miss Mary shifted uncomfortably in her chair. She didn't like gossip or people who spread it. Luckily, the baker’s[239] horn blared, and Miss Mary asked to be excused. When she came back, she carried the baby’s hat and coat. Miss Mary could easily send off annoying people without them noticing. She bundled the baby up herself, tucked her into the carriage she had bought, and kissed her good-bye.

“She has been a good girl,” she said. “You must bring her to see me every week. When she is a little older, I will begin to teach her to read and afterwards to sew patchwork. That is the way I was brought up.”

“She’s been a good girl,” she said. “You have to bring her to see me every week. When she’s a little older, I’ll start teaching her to read and then to sew patchwork. That’s how I was raised.”

Miss Mary remained standing, and the baby’s aunt had perforce to remain standing too.

Miss Mary kept standing, and the baby’s aunt had to stand too.

“A child is a great care,” said she, as she raised the corner of her apron to her pale eyes.

“A child is a lot of work,” she said, as she lifted the corner of her apron to her pale eyes.

“Not if she’s managed with system,” answered Miss Mary in her curt way. “This baby’s been very little care to me; she need be very little to you if you’re systematic.”

“Not if she’s handled it systematically,” Miss Mary replied in her blunt manner. “This baby has taken very little effort on my part; she should take very little from you if you’re organized.”

“I’m sure I’ll try,” said the baby’s aunt, as she wiped away more tears.

“I’m sure I’ll try,” said the baby’s aunt, as she wiped away more tears.

Then the baby carriage was trundled down the street. Miss Mary suffered a slight pang as she saw how cheerfully the baby went, how willing she was to associate with unattractive incompetence, and a sharper pang as she beheld the bump with which the coach took the first crossing; then she went indoors. This was her day, the happiest day of all the year; she could think no more of the Arundel baby.

Then the baby carriage was rolled down the street. Miss Mary felt a little sting as she watched how happily the baby was enjoying the ride, how eager she was to connect with people who weren't very appealing or capable. It hurt more when she saw the jolt the coach gave as it went over the first bump in the road; then she went inside. This was her day, the best day of the whole year; she couldn't think about the Arundel baby anymore.

Miss Mary went first of all to put the baby’s room[240] in order. She took down the white crib and carried the pieces, one by one, into the attic. Except the bed, nothing belonging to the baby remained, since all had been sent earlier in the day to the house of the aunt. Then, with capable strokes of her strong arms, she swept the room. She had not been brought up to work of this kind, but when change of fortune made it necessary she was quick to teach herself. This morning the swift moving back and forth of the broom gave her pleasure.

Miss Mary first went to tidy up the baby’s room[240]. She took down the white crib, carrying the pieces one by one up to the attic. Aside from the bed, nothing in the room belonged to the baby anymore, as everything else had already been sent to the aunt's house earlier that day. Then, using her strong arms, she swept the room effectively. She hadn’t been raised to do this kind of work, but when her situation changed, she quickly learned how to handle it. This morning, the rhythm of the broom moving back and forth brought her a sense of satisfaction.

When the baby’s room was finished, Miss Mary went to look at the clock. She was surprised to see that it was only half past ten. She was conscious of a jumping feeling in her heart, and she looked out the window as if to ease it. She saw nothing but the familiar houses with their familiar dooryards. It was Miss Mary’s custom to look often out the window on the day before Christmas.

When the baby’s room was done, Miss Mary went to check the clock. She was surprised to see that it was only 10:30. She felt a fluttering in her chest and looked out the window, as if hoping it would help. All she saw were the familiar houses and their familiar yards. It was Miss Mary’s routine to look out the window often on the day before Christmas.

Now, sternly, as usual she began to prepare herself for disappointment.

Now, firmly, as always, she started to brace herself for disappointment.

“Nothing is more probable than that it will not come,” said Miss Mary.

"Nothing is more likely than that it won't happen," said Miss Mary.

At eleven o’clock, having wrapped her packages and packed her baskets, she looked at the clock again, expecting the hand to stand at twelve. Thereupon she determined that she would look no more. Her simple lunch was usually eaten at one; she decided to have it earlier, in order to have a long afternoon for what she wished to do. In her heart of hearts she knew that the chief of her occupations would be waiting.

At eleven o’clock, after she had wrapped her packages and packed her baskets, she checked the clock again, hoping the hand would show twelve. Then she decided she wouldn't look again. She usually had her simple lunch at one, but she chose to eat earlier so she would have a long afternoon for what she wanted to do. Deep down, she knew that the main thing she needed to do would be waiting.

Miss Mary washed her dishes slowly, then she[241] brushed up the kitchen, which needed no brushing. She wished now that she was only beginning her lunch instead of finishing it.

Miss Mary washed her dishes slowly, then she[241] cleaned up the kitchen, which didn't really need tidying. She wished now that she was just starting her lunch instead of wrapping it up.

Again Miss Mary went to the window and looked out. The street was still empty, and at sight of it Miss Mary shivered.

Again, Miss Mary went to the window and looked outside. The street was still empty, and seeing it made Miss Mary shiver.

“I must not expect anything,” she said sternly.

“I can’t expect anything,” she said firmly.

By half past one she had tied up those of her Christmas packages which remained and had hung the holly wreaths in the front windows. Then she cried out “O dear!” and went to the door. She had not been mistaken: drops of water were falling, the sky was thickly overclouded, the wind was east. Already it sighed mournfully round the corner of the house.

By 1:30, she had finished wrapping her remaining Christmas packages and had hung the holly wreaths in the front windows. Then she exclaimed, “Oh dear!” and went to the door. She wasn't wrong: drops of water were falling, the sky was heavily overcast, and the wind was coming from the east. It was already blowing sadly around the corner of the house.

“A rainy Christmas Eve!” cried Miss Mary tragically. “A rainy Christmas Day!”

“A rainy Christmas Eve!” Miss Mary exclaimed dramatically. “A rainy Christmas Day!”

At two o’clock, she began to give her sitting-room an unnecessary dusting; at half past, she sat down at the window with some sewing; at three, she went to the door again, as if pulled by a rope. When she saw the expressman coming down the street, she clutched the side of the door. But the expressman stopped at the corner house and then turned the head of his old white horse back toward the station.

At two o’clock, she started dusting her living room, even though it wasn’t really needed; by half past, she settled down at the window with some sewing; at three, she found herself heading to the door again, like she was being pulled by a string. When she spotted the delivery driver coming down the street, she gripped the side of the door. But the delivery driver stopped at the house on the corner and then turned his old white horse back toward the station.

At half past three, Miss Mary took up some crocheting. The Arundel baby would need new petticoats in the spring, and Miss Mary realized that new petticoats, and the lace for them, if any were had, would have to come from her. But the thread clung to her fingers, the needle slipped from her hand.

At 3:30, Miss Mary picked up some crochet. The Arundel baby would need new petticoats in the spring, and Miss Mary knew that new petticoats, and any lace for them, would have to come from her. But the thread stuck to her fingers, and the needle slipped from her hand.

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“It’s the rheumatism,” she said to herself, grimly. “Old age is here.”

“It’s the rheumatism,” she said to herself, grimly. “Old age has arrived.”

At four o’clock Miss Mary took a book, and in three minutes laid it down. It was one of Cousin John’s books.

At four o’clock, Miss Mary picked up a book, but after three minutes, she set it down. It was one of Cousin John’s books.

“I am a goose,” she announced aloud to her quiet house. “I could even buy a few books for myself and make shift to subscribe to a few magazines if the box does not come. But,”—here Miss Mary covered her face with her hands—“it will mean that I am alone in the world!”

“I’m a goose,” she declared to her silent house. “I could even buy a few books for myself and manage to subscribe to some magazines if the box doesn’t show up. But,”—here Miss Mary covered her face with her hands—“it will mean that I’m all alone in the world!”

At half past four Miss Mary began to prepare supper, though she usually ate at six. She no longer made excuses to herself; she did not pretend that she was having supper early so as to make the evening long; she sought only to fill the next minute and the next; she was reckless about the later hours.

At 4:30, Miss Mary started getting dinner ready, even though she usually ate at 6. She stopped making excuses for herself; she didn't pretend she was having dinner early to stretch out the evening; she only wanted to fill the next minute and the next; she didn't care about the later hours.

The evening train came in at six. It was only a country way train with a short run, and it was on time, even on Christmas Eve. With a great jump of her heart, Miss Mary heard its familiar whistle. Allowing for all James Vanderslice’s slowness, he should reach her house in fifteen minutes. It was probable that hers would be the only package he would have to deliver.

The evening train arrived at six. It was just a local train with a short route, and it was on time, even on Christmas Eve. With a quick leap of her heart, Miss Mary heard its familiar whistle. Considering all of James Vanderslice’s delays, he should get to her house in fifteen minutes. It was likely that hers would be the only package he needed to deliver.

Moving with a slow step, she descended to the cellar and put coal on the furnace fire. Temptingly, mockingly, the hammer and screwdriver seemed to thrust themselves to the top of the tool box on the table which she had to pass. Miss Mary did not touch them. She played the part of expecting nothing.

Moving slowly, she went down to the cellar and added coal to the furnace fire. Teasingly, the hammer and screwdriver appeared to stand out at the top of the toolbox on the table she had to walk by. Miss Mary didn’t pick them up. She acted as if she wasn’t expecting anything.

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When Miss Mary came up from the cellar, the hands of the clock pointed to twenty minutes after six. She grew red, then pale. Then she opened the door and stood with the rain beating against her. The street was dark and quiet.

When Miss Mary came up from the cellar, the clock showed twenty minutes past six. She flushed, then turned pale. Then she opened the door and stood there with the rain pouring down on her. The street was dark and quiet.

“He must come,” whispered Miss Mary.

“He has to come,” whispered Miss Mary.

But the expressman did not come. When Miss Mary went indoors, it was half past six. Until seven she walked up and down her sitting-room. Then her lips tightened.

But the delivery man didn't show up. When Miss Mary went inside, it was half past six. She paced her living room until seven. Then her lips tightened.

“I am going to bed,” she said aloud.

“I’m going to bed,” she said out loud.

Miss Mary fixed her fires for the night; she set out the milk pail on the shelf on the back porch; she wound the clock and took her lamp and climbed the stairway and undressed and lay down in her bed. Then, metaphorically and actually, she turned her face to the wall.

Miss Mary got her fires ready for the night; she placed the milk pail on the shelf on the back porch; she wound the clock, took her lamp, climbed the stairs, undressed, and lay down in her bed. Then, both metaphorically and literally, she turned her face to the wall.

But at eight o’clock she was still awake. At half past eight she sprang from bed, thinking she heard a rap at the door; at nine she lighted her lamp and looked at the clock. All within and without the house was as silent as midnight. Then poor Miss Mary yielded herself to despair.

But at eight o’clock, she was still awake. At half past eight, she jumped out of bed, thinking she heard a knock at the door; at nine, she turned on her lamp and checked the clock. Everything inside and outside the house was as quiet as midnight. Then poor Miss Mary gave in to despair.

“I do not know what is the matter with me. This had to happen sometime! But I am utterly desolate and forlorn. Christmas is a dreadful time when you grow old. But I have been trying to prepare myself for years! I do not know what is the matter with me.”

"I don't know what's wrong with me. This had to happen eventually! But I feel completely hopeless and lost. Christmas is such a miserable time as you get older. But I've been trying to get ready for this for years! I really don’t know what’s wrong with me."

The ticking of the clock seemed to fill the quiet house. Miss Mary grew more and more nervous. Again she sprang from bed.

The ticking of the clock filled the silent house. Miss Mary felt increasingly anxious. Once again, she jumped out of bed.

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“If I have some exercise, perhaps I shall sleep!”

“If I get some exercise, maybe I’ll fall asleep!”

But exercise did not bring sleep. Miss Mary went into her father’s room and her brother’s room, and into her mother’s room, which had lately been the Arundel baby’s, and tears ran down her cheeks. It was not a journey from which she need have expected much repose of spirit.

But exercising didn’t help her sleep. Miss Mary went into her father’s room, her brother’s room, and into her mother’s room, which had recently been the Arundel baby’s, and tears streamed down her face. It wasn’t a journey she could have expected to bring her any peace of mind.

“If they could only come back!” she cried. “If things could only be as they used to be on Christmas! If I were only not alone in the world!”

“If they could just come back!” she cried. “If only things could be like they used to be at Christmas! If only I weren’t alone in the world!”

Then Miss Mary did an extraordinary thing. She was standing in her mother’s room, where the Arundel baby’s bed had stood. In this room her childish difficulties had been adjusted, her childish troubles soothed. She lifted her head as if she heard a voice speaking to her, and then she laughed almost hysterically.

Then Miss Mary did something remarkable. She was in her mother’s room, where the Arundel baby’s bed used to be. In this room, her childhood struggles were resolved, and her childhood worries were eased. She lifted her head as if she heard a voice calling to her, and then she laughed nearly uncontrollably.

“I will have a merry Christmas,” she cried suddenly.

“I will have a joyful Christmas,” she exclaimed suddenly.

At once, hurrying back to her bedroom, she began to dress feverishly, hastily, with fingers that trembled over hooks and buttons. Still she talked to herself. She seemed to be saying over and over that she would get herself a Christmas gift. When she was dressed, she hurried down the steps at perilous speed and went into the cellar and put the draught on the furnace. Apparently grief had crazed her.

In a rush, she dashed back to her bedroom and started getting dressed frantically, her fingers shaking as they fumbled with hooks and buttons. All the while, she talked to herself, repeating that she would buy herself a Christmas gift. Once she was dressed, she quickly raced down the steps and into the cellar to adjust the furnace. It seemed like grief had driven her to the edge.

Still Miss Mary’s strange course was not at an end. She put on her shawl and bonnet and opened the door and went out, forgetting to turn the key, and hurried down the street in the rain without an[245] umbrella. Following straight the course that the Arundel baby’s aunt had taken, she knocked at a mean little door. Within was a light and the sound of voices. In answer to a loud “Come in!” Miss Mary opened the door and entered.

Still, Miss Mary's unusual journey wasn’t over. She put on her shawl and bonnet, opened the door, and went out, forgetting to lock it, and hurried down the street in the rain without an umbrella. Following the same path that the Arundel baby’s aunt had taken, she knocked on a shabby little door. Inside, there was light and the sound of voices. In response to a loud “Come in!” Miss Mary opened the door and walked in.

The Arundel baby’s aunt, however lugubrious and tearful she might be in the presence of Miss Mary, had other moments when she allowed herself to be merry and comfortable. She was now surrounded by her friends,—Miss Mary recognized each one of the doubtful guests,—refreshments were being passed, hilarity was at its height. The Arundel baby—Miss Mary saw her at the same instant that she beheld the hands of the clock pointing to midnight—lay asleep in her carriage in the corner. She had not been undressed; her cheeks were flushed as if a slight fever might have added a stain of red to cheeks already red from crying.

The Arundel baby’s aunt, no matter how gloomy and tearful she seemed around Miss Mary, had her moments when she let herself be happy and relaxed. She was now surrounded by her friends—Miss Mary recognized each one of the uncertain guests—refreshments were being served, and everyone was in high spirits. The Arundel baby—Miss Mary noticed her at the same moment she saw the clock hands pointing to midnight—was sleeping in her carriage in the corner. She hadn’t been changed; her cheeks were flushed, as if a slight fever had added a shade of red to the cheeks already reddened from crying.

Miss Mary said not a word in reproof; she lifted the baby from the carriage and took her under her shawl and bade the baby’s aunt come to see her on the morrow and stalked out. Neither the baby’s aunt nor her guests made reply. They all had been at some time Miss Mary’s pensioners; it was more than probable that they would need her help again.

Miss Mary didn’t say anything in response; she picked up the baby from the carriage, tucked her under her shawl, and told the baby’s aunt to come see her tomorrow before walking out. Neither the baby’s aunt nor her guests said anything. They had all been Miss Mary’s dependents at some point, and it was likely that they would need her help again.

Miss Mary walked with rapid steps back to her house. The clouds had parted, the dashes of rain were fitful, the wind had veered to the north; but she was not aware of the change. In the dark corner of her porch stood a wooden box, and pinned to it was a scrap of paper on which James Vanderslice explained[246] that he would tell her tomorrow why he had been so late in delivering her parcel. Miss Mary saw neither box nor paper; she would not see them until morning.

Miss Mary quickly walked back to her house. The clouds had cleared up, the rain was intermittent, and the wind had shifted to the north; but she didn’t notice the change. In the shadowy corner of her porch stood a wooden box, with a piece of paper pinned to it where James Vanderslice explained[246] that he would tell her tomorrow why he had been so late in delivering her package. Miss Mary didn’t see either the box or the paper; she wouldn’t notice them until morning.

In the kitchen the fire was glowing, and Miss Mary sat down before it, bonneted and shawled, with the Arundel baby in her arms. She was trembling, her breath came in gasps. Presently she opened the shawl and looked down. The Arundel baby was still sleeping, with her mouth pursed up in her funny fashion, and her damp hair curled tightly over her head. Miss Mary regarded her solemnly, even with awe, as if she beheld some unaccountable object. Then she heaved a long and happy sigh, and her tears began to fall. She remembered that Christmas Day had come; she thought with tender heart of that other Baby, whom she had for a little while forgotten; she prayed that He would help her make the Arundel baby a good girl.

In the kitchen, the fire was glowing, and Miss Mary sat down in front of it, wearing a bonnet and shawl, with the Arundel baby in her arms. She was trembling, her breath coming in short gasps. After a moment, she opened the shawl and looked down. The Arundel baby was still asleep, her mouth pursed in that funny way of hers, with her damp hair curled tightly on her head. Miss Mary looked at her seriously, even with a sense of awe, as if she were seeing something incredible. Then she let out a long, happy sigh, and tears started to fall. She remembered that Christmas Day had arrived; she thought with a tender heart of that other Baby, whom she had momentarily forgotten; she prayed that He would help her raise the Arundel baby to be a good girl.

“I shall have something to think of! I shall have some one that is mine! This,” said good Miss Mary with trembling lips, “this was what was the matter with me!”

“I'll have something to think about! I'll have someone who is mine! This,” said good Miss Mary with trembling lips, “this is what was wrong with me!”

FOOTNOTES:

[15] By permission of the author and the “Youth’s Companion.” This story was printed in the “Youth’s Companion,” December 23, 1926.

[15] By permission of the author and the “Youth’s Companion.” This story was published in the “Youth’s Companion,” December 23, 1926.


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HOLLY AT THE DOOR[16]

Agnes Sligh Turnbull

Agnes Sligh Turnbull


On the outside—that is, in the smart little suburban town of Branchbrook—Christmas week had begun most auspiciously. A light fall of snow made the whole place look like an old-fashioned holiday greeting card; the neat English stuccos and Colonial clapboards set back in wide lawns, seemed to gather their flocks of clipped little pine and spruce shrubbery closer to them and suggest through their fresh curtained windows the thought of bright wood fires and mistletoe and shining Christmas cheer soon to come.

On the outside—in the charming suburban town of Branchbrook—Christmas week had started off wonderfully. A light snowfall made the whole place look like a vintage holiday greeting card; the tidy English stucco homes and Colonial clapboard houses, set back on spacious lawns, seemed to pull their carefully trimmed pine and spruce shrubs closer and hinted through their freshly curtained windows at the warm glow of wood fires, mistletoe, and the bright Christmas spirit that was just around the corner.

In the parish room of St. Andrew’s small gray stone church the children were practicing carols while pigeons cooed on the roof. And down in the village center great boxes of holly wreaths stood in the street before all the grocery store windows, and bevies of slender little virgin pine trees, ready and waiting for the great moment to which they had been born, leaned against all the shop door-ways.

In the parish room of St. Andrew’s small gray stone church, the kids were practicing carols while pigeons cooed on the roof. Down in the village center, big boxes of holly wreaths lined the street in front of all the grocery store windows, and groups of slender little virgin pine trees, ready and waiting for their big moment, leaned against all the shop doorways.

The postman smiled beneath his staggering load, thinking of later benefactions; and the windows of Beverly’s Fine Food Stuffs, the town’s most exclusive [248]market, were caparisoned with every delicacy which even a Christmas epicure might desire.

The postman smiled under his heavy load, thinking about the nice things he would do later; and the windows of Beverly’s Fine Food Stuffs, the town’s most exclusive [248]market, were decorated with every delicacy that even a Christmas food lover could wish for.

Strangers spoke to each other, children laughed gleefully, shop men made jokes with their customers, everybody was busy, friendly, somehow relaxed from the ordinary conventional aloofness, because Christmas was only five days away. Everything was just as it should be, on the outside.

Strangers were chatting, kids were laughing happily, shopkeepers were joking with their customers, and everyone was busy, friendly, and somehow more relaxed than usual, all because Christmas was only five days away. Everything seemed perfect on the surface.

But on the inside—that is to say, in the big Colonial home of the Bartons which had been built just long enough before prices went up to make it seem now more of an abode of wealth than it really was—here the week had begun in the worst way possible. Monday morning had started with a quarrel.

But on the inside—that is to say, in the large Colonial home of the Bartons, which had been built just long enough before prices went up to make it look more like a wealthy residence than it really was—here the week had begun in the worst way possible. Monday morning started with a fight.

Alice Barton had not rested well the night before. She had fully planned to spend all Sunday afternoon and evening addressing Christmas cards. That would have seen them all safely in the postman’s hands this morning.

Alice Barton hadn't slept well the night before. She had fully intended to spend all Sunday afternoon and evening writing Christmas cards. That would have ensured they were all safely in the postman's hands this morning.

But the plan had been frustrated by the Levitts’ dropping in for a call, staying to tea and spending the evening. And it had been Tom’s fault entirely. He was the one that simply kept them. Of course she had to be decently polite. They sat listening to the radio until eleven. After that she had been too tired to start the cards. And here they were all to do now, this morning, more than a hundred of them, on top of all the regular day’s work and the committee meeting at eleven. And she must get a few more hours shopping in! That would be hectic now but there was no help for it. And all her packages were[249] yet to be tied up, and Mrs. Dunlop’s bridge-luncheon on Wednesday and Catherine’s friend coming Thursday! She must not forget about the guest room curtains! Why had she let Catherine have any one come at Christmas time!

But the plan got derailed when the Levitts dropped by for a visit, stayed for tea, and ended up spending the whole evening. It was all Tom's fault. He was the one who insisted they stay. Of course, she had to be polite. They sat listening to the radio until eleven. After that, she was too tired to start on the cards. And now, this morning, she had more than a hundred cards to do on top of all her regular work for the day and a committee meeting at eleven. She also needed to fit in a few more hours of shopping! That was going to be chaotic, but it couldn’t be helped. And all her packages still had to be wrapped, plus there was Mrs. Dunlop’s bridge-luncheon on Wednesday and Catherine’s friend coming on Thursday! She *must* not forget about the guest room curtains! Why did she let Catherine invite someone over during Christmas time!

The dull headache she had when she rose became a splitting pain. She scarcely spoke to Tom as she dressed except for one brief and fitting retort to his: “Now don’t spend all day in the bath room. I have to shave!”

The dull headache she had when she got up turned into a pounding pain. She hardly spoke to Tom while getting dressed, except for one quick and appropriate reply to his: “Now don’t spend all day in the bathroom. I have to shave!”

She went down stairs, mechanically checking off the things she must tell Delia, the maid.

She went downstairs, going through the list of things she needed to tell Delia, the maid.

Tom was down before the children. He opened the front door for the newspaper which Delia always forgot to bring in and came toward the table with his brows drawn. It was not a propitious moment, but the thing had to be done.

Tom was up before the kids. He opened the front door for the newspaper that Delia always forgot to bring in and walked toward the table with a frown. It wasn’t a great time for it, but it had to be done.

“Tom.”

“Tom.”

“Darned if they haven’t given that murderer another reprieve! How do they ever expect to have....”

“Darn it if they haven’t given that murderer another break! How do they ever expect to have....”

“Listen, Tom! There’s something I want to ask you.”

“Hey, Tom! There’s something I want to ask you.”

“A pretty kind of justice! Wrap all the little murderers up in pink wool blankets for fear they get cold in the neck, and forget the poor cuss that’s been killed! You know, Alice, what ought to be done is this....”

“A nice kind of justice! Wrap all the little murderers up in pink wool blankets so they don't get cold, and forget about the poor guy who got killed! You know, Alice, what really needs to happen is this....”

“Yes, but Tom, listen. I’ll simply have to have a little more money.” (It was dreadful to have to ask him now when he was all stirred up over this thing[250] in the paper!) “I’ll just have to do some more shopping, just a few little things I forgot, and I’d rather be free to go about instead of sticking to the charge accounts. If you could give me....”

“Yes, but Tom, listen. I really need a bit more money.” (It was awful to ask him now when he was all worked up over this stuff in the paper[250]!) “I just need to do some more shopping, just a few small things I forgot, and I’d rather be able to go out instead of being tied to the charge accounts. If you could give me....”

Tom was suddenly all attention. His dark eyes were looking at her keenly. He broke in.

Tom was suddenly fully focused. His dark eyes were watching her intently. He interrupted.

“Why I gave you an extra twenty-five last Friday.”

“Why I gave you an extra twenty-five last Friday.”

“I know, Tom, but it took every cent of it for the cards. And even then I had to spend most of the day trying to find respectable ones within my price.” Tom’s face looked thunderous.

“I know, Tom, but it took every cent for the cards. And even then, I had to spend most of the day trying to find decent ones that fit my budget.” Tom's face looked furious.

“Do you mean to tell me that it takes twenty-five dollars now to send out Christmas cards? Twenty-five dollars! Why, Good Heavens, that would buy two tons of coal. That’s the sheerest piece of criminal waste I ever heard of!”

“Are you seriously saying that it costs twenty-five dollars to send out Christmas cards now? Twenty-five dollars! Good grief, that could buy two tons of coal. That’s the most outrageous waste I’ve ever heard of!”

Alice’s face darkened too. “Well, what are you going to do about it? You know the kind everybody sends us. We can’t look like pikers. It would have cost fifty dollars to get the engraved kind I wanted. I won’t send out cheap stereotyped ones, so all that’s left for me is to try to pick out something artistic and individual, at least for the people we care most about. It’s no easy job, and this is the thanks I get!”

Alice's expression soured as well. “So, what are you going to do about it? You know the type everyone sends us. We can't look cheap. It would have cost fifty dollars to get the engraved ones I wanted. I won't send out generic ones, so my only option is to try to choose something unique and artistic, at least for the people who matter most to us. It's not an easy task, and this is the appreciation I get!”

“You bet you’ll get none from me. Do you know how I feel? I hate Christmas! Nothing but money, money beforehand, and nothing but bills, bills, bills afterward. It’s enough to drive a man crazy. And what’s the sense of it? You send a lot of cards to people that barely look at ’em and throw ’em in the[251] fire! You women exchange a bunch of junk that you never use. And as a family, we spend money like drunken sailors on a lot of extravagant things we’ve no business having. And old Dad, poor boob, gets a good dinner out of it and then he pays and pays and pays for the next six months! That’s the way I’ve got it doped out!”

“You can bet you won’t get any from me. Do you know how I feel? I hate Christmas! It’s all about money—spending it beforehand and then dealing with bills, bills, bills afterward. It’s enough to drive anyone insane. What’s the point? You send a bunch of cards to people who barely look at them and just toss them in the[251] fire! You women swap a bunch of stuff that you never even use. And as a family, we blow money like we’re drunken sailors on a bunch of ridiculous things we don’t even need. And poor Dad just gets a nice dinner out of it, then he pays and pays and pays for the next six months! That’s how I see it!”

Alice’s face was frozen in sharp lines. “If that’s the way you feel about it I suppose I needn’t hope for my coat.”

Alice’s face was tense with sharp features. “If that’s how you really feel about it, I guess I shouldn’t expect to get my coat.”

“Coat! What coat?”

"Coat? Which coat?"

“Tom, as if you didn’t know perfectly well what I wanted this year more than anything. The short fur coat! Why I’ve talked about it all fall. I think every woman in town has one but me. I can’t wear my big seal one shopping and marketing! And my cloth one is simply gone! Why, I thought all the time you knew, and that you’d surely....” There were almost tears in her voice.

“Tom, as if you didn’t know exactly what I wanted this year more than anything. The short fur coat! I’ve been talking about it all fall. I think every woman in town has one but me. I can’t wear my big seal coat while shopping! And my cloth one is totally gone! I thought all along you knew, and that you’d definitely....” There were almost tears in her voice.

“So it’s come to that, has it! A woman has to have a special kind of fur coat to do her marketing in! Too bad! Well, I’m sorry to disappoint you but you can’t bank on one this year—unless you’d like to mortgage the house!”

“So that’s how it is now! A woman needs a special kind of fur coat to go shopping! What a shame! Well, I’m sorry to let you down, but you can’t count on getting one this year—unless you want to mortgage the house!”

He got up abruptly from the table. Young Tom and Catherine had just come into the dining room in time for the last speech. They looked at their parents with cool, amused eyes. It was not the first quarrel they had witnessed in the last years since they had left childhood behind. Catherine, a day pupil at Miss Bossart’s finishing school, and young Tom, a[252] Senior in High School, were startlingly mature. They were calmer, more cynical, more unemotional than their parents. They touched life with knowing fingers that never trembled. Alice marveled at them.

He got up suddenly from the table. Young Tom and Catherine had just entered the dining room just in time for the final speech. They looked at their parents with cool, amused expressions. This wasn’t the first argument they had seen since they had moved past childhood in recent years. Catherine, a day student at Miss Bossart’s finishing school, and young Tom, a[252] Senior in High School, seemed surprisingly mature. They were calmer, more cynical, and less emotional than their parents. They approached life with confident touches that never wavered. Alice was amazed by them.

She rose now too and followed Tom into the library. He sat down a moment at the desk and then flicked her a slip of paper.

She got up too and followed Tom into the library. He sat down for a moment at the desk and then tossed her a piece of paper.

“There’s fifty. And that’s all, remember, until next month’s allowance!”

“Here’s fifty. That’s it, just remember until next month’s allowance!”

Alice’s voice was like cold steel. “Thanks. I’m sure I’ll enjoy spending it since it’s so very generously given.”

Alice's voice was like cold steel. “Thanks. I’m sure I’ll enjoy spending it since it’s so generously given.”

Tom did not answer. He got into his overcoat, called a general good-by and left the house.

Tom didn’t reply. He put on his overcoat, said a general goodbye, and left the house.

Alice came back to the children. Young Tom looked up quizzically. “Well, Mums, that ought to hold him for a while, eh, what?” he remarked as he helped himself hugely to the omelette.

Alice returned to the kids. Young Tom looked up with a curious expression. “Well, Mom, that should keep him satisfied for a bit, right?” he said as he dug into the omelette.

Catherine’s brows were slightly puckered. “Say, Mother, am I going to get my watch? Dad was in such a vile humor, I’m scared. Really I’ll feel like a pauper down there at Miss Bossart’s unless I get something a little bit flossy. And this old watch, I’ve had since I was twelve. There isn’t another round gold one in school. Everything’s platinum now! Heavens, it’s not much to ask for compared to what most of the girls are getting. Jean and Hilda know they’re getting cars of their own! And flocks of them are getting marvelous fur coats.”

Catherine's brows were slightly furrowed. “Hey, Mom, am I going to get my watch? Dad was in such a bad mood, I’m worried. Honestly, I’m going to feel like a beggar down at Miss Bossart’s unless I get something a little nice. And this old watch, I’ve had since I was twelve. There isn’t another round gold one at school. Everything’s platinum now! Seriously, it’s not much to ask for compared to what most of the girls are getting. Jean and Hilda are getting their own cars! And a bunch of them are getting amazing fur coats.”

“Well, you have your new coat,” Alice reminded her.

“Well, you have your new coat,” Alice reminded her.

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“Oh, yes,” Catherine agreed with a faint, deprecating sigh, “such as it is.”

“Oh, yes,” Catherine agreed with a faint, self-deprecating sigh, “whatever it may be.”

Alice opened her lips for a quick remonstrance and closed them again. Oh, what was the use! The children were always ungrateful. They had no real appreciation these days of what their parents gave them. With them it was take, take, take, and never a thought of value received.

Alice started to say something in protest but then stopped. Oh, what was the point! The kids were always ungrateful. They didn't truly appreciate what their parents provided anymore. It was always about taking, taking, taking, without any consideration of what they received in return.

Young Tom looked up from his toast and marmalade with his most winning smile.

Young Tom looked up from his toast and jam with his biggest smile.

“Say, Mums, can you let me have a fiver out of your new pile? I’m in the very dickens of a hole.”

“Hey, Mom, can you give me five bucks from your new stash? I’m in a really tough spot.”

Alice fastened quick eyes upon him. “Where has your allowance gone?” she asked sharply.

Alice fixed her gaze on him. “Where did your allowance go?” she asked sharply.

“Well, gee, it’s so small to begin with I can hardly see it and then just now round Christmas time there’s always such a darned lot of extras!”

“Well, wow, it’s so tiny to start with that I can barely see it, and then right around Christmas, there are always so many extra things!”

Catherine cut in sweetly: “Such as bouquets of orchids for Miss Doris Kane!”

Catherine chimed in with a smile, “Like bouquets of orchids for Miss Doris Kane!”

“Orchids!” Alice almost screamed the word. “Tom, you don’t mean for a minute to tell me you’re sending orchids to a girl! High School children sending orchids! I never in my life heard of anything so wickedly absurd!”

"Orchids!" Alice nearly shouted the word. "Tom, you can't be serious about sending orchids to a girl! High school kids sending orchids! I've never heard of anything so ridiculously ridiculous!"

“Well, gosh, Mums, what are you going to do? That’s what all the girls want now for the dances, and a fellow can’t look like a piker! I’ve got to order some for to-night. Lend me five, won’t you, just to run me over? What we ought to have is a charge account at the florist’s. That’s what all the other fellows’ folks have.”

“Well, wow, Mom, what are you going to do? That’s what all the girls want for the dances now, and a guy can’t look like a loser! I’ve got to order some for tonight. Can you lend me five bucks, just to tide me over? What we really need is a charge account at the florist’s. That’s what all the other guys’ parents have.”

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“No doubt,” Alice said sarcastically. “It’s barely possible that some of your friends’ fathers may have more money to pay their bills than your father has. But I suppose you never thought of that! Well, I’ll give you five this time, but I don’t want you ever to ask me again for such a purpose.”

“No doubt,” Alice said sarcastically. “It's hardly possible that some of your friends' dads might have more money to cover their bills than your dad does. But I guess you never thought of that! Well, I’ll give you five this time, but I don’t want you to ever ask me again for something like this.”

“And now if he’s through,” Catherine broke in, “what about me? Is there any reason why I should be broke while my handsome young brother sends orchids to Doris Kane? You should see what the girls are giving each other for Christmas. It makes me sick to hand out the things I have. They look like a rummage sale compared with the rest! I did want one decent thing for Jean, but I’m terribly short.”

“And now that he’s done,” Catherine interrupted, “what about me? Is there any reason I should be broke while my handsome young brother sends orchids to Doris Kane? You should see what the girls are giving each other for Christmas. It makes me sick to give out what I have. They look like a garage sale compared to the rest! I really wanted to get one nice thing for Jean, but I’m really tight on money.”

She looked at her mother challengingly.

She stared at her mother defiantly.

Alice made a desperate gesture with her hands. “All right,” she said, “you can have it. Of course it doesn’t matter whether I’m short or not! I’m at the place where I don’t care much what happens!”

Alice made a frantic gesture with her hands. “Fine,” she said, “you can have it. Honestly, it doesn’t matter if I’m short or not! I’m at the point where I don’t care what happens anymore!”

Her head throbbed miserably as she borrowed the two five-dollar bills from her housekeeping purse and gave them to the children. She had a vivid perception that each thought they should have been tens. Their thanks were scant and careless. They had only received their just due, and scarcely that!

Her head throbbed painfully as she took out two five-dollar bills from her housekeeping purse and handed them to the kids. She clearly sensed that each of them thought they should have gotten tens. Their thanks were minimal and indifferent. They had only gotten what they were entitled to, and barely even that!

Alice felt sick as she climbed the stairs to the den where she kept her desk. Now for the cards. Christmas was a hard, trying time. She would be glad when it was over.

Alice felt nauseous as she climbed the stairs to the den where she kept her desk. Now for the cards. Christmas was a tough, challenging time. She would be relieved when it was over.

She began in frantic haste, selecting, addressing, searching her note book and the telephone directory[255] for streets and numbers. Five, ten, fifteen finished, stamped, ready.

She started in a rush, picking out, addressing, searching her notebook and the phone book[255] for streets and numbers. Five, ten, fifteen done, stamped, ready.

Suddenly she picked up an alien from the carefully chosen mass that lay about her, a cheap little card that she knew she had never bought. Either she or the sales girl must have caught it up by mistake with some of the others. It was a commonplace little card of the folder variety that carries a sentimental verse inside. Alice opened it mechanically before tossing it into the waste basket. And there beneath her eyes were these words:

Suddenly, she grabbed a random card from the carefully selected pile around her, a cheap little card that she knew she had never bought. Either she or the salesgirl must have accidentally picked it up with some of the others. It was an ordinary little greeting card that had a sentimental verse inside. Alice opened it absentmindedly before tossing it into the wastebasket. And there, right in front of her, were these words:

Oh what, my dear, of Christmas cheer could any one wish more,
Than candle-light and you within, and holly at the door!

She stared at the words unbelievingly. Not for thirty years had she thought of that old song. And now suddenly she heard it in her father’s voice, just as he used to sing it Christmas after Christmas as he went through the house with his hammer in one hand and a dangling bough of green in the other.

She stared at the words in disbelief. She hadn’t thought about that old song in thirty years. And now, suddenly, she could hear it in her father’s voice, just like he used to sing it Christmas after Christmas as he moved through the house with a hammer in one hand and a sprig of greenery in the other.

And holly at the door, and holly at the door!
With candle-light and you within, and holly at the door!

She hummed the old melody under her breath, and then she found herself bending over the desk, face in hands, weeping, while over her swept great waves of homesickness, poignant pangs of yearning for a place and a time that had drifted out of her consciousness.

She quietly hummed the old tune to herself, then suddenly bent over the desk, her face in her hands, crying as overwhelming waves of homesickness crashed over her, sharp feelings of longing for a place and time that had slipped away from her memory.

At last she raised her head and leaned it against the high back of the chair. It seemed almost as though[256] invisible fingers had pressed it there, had closed her eyes, had made the pen drop from her passive hand. All at once she was back in the little town of her childhood where she had not been, and where not even her mind had traveled vividly, these long years.

At last, she lifted her head and rested it against the high back of the chair. It felt like invisible fingers had pushed it there, had shut her eyes, and made the pen fall from her limp hand. Suddenly, she found herself back in the small town of her childhood, a place she hadn’t visited in years, and where her mind hadn’t wandered vividly at all during that time.

Christmas time in Martinsville! Christmas in the small frame house that had been home. Mother singing blithely as she stuffed the turkey in the kitchen. Father standing proudly by, watching her every movement. For the turkey was an event. One turkey a year, to be ordered after due consideration from one of the farmers near town, to be received with a small flurry of excitement when it arrived and to be picked and prepared for the oven by Mother’s own skilful fingers.

Christmas time in Martinsville! Christmas in the small frame house that had been home. Mom singing happily as she prepped the turkey in the kitchen. Dad standing proudly by, watching her every move. Because the turkey was a big deal. Just one turkey a year, carefully ordered from one of the local farmers, received with a little flurry of excitement when it arrived, and then picked and prepared for the oven by Mom’s own skilled hands.

“I suppose we should ask Miss Amanda for dinner to-morrow. The Smiths usually have her but they’re away this year,” Mother was saying.

“I guess we should invite Miss Amanda for dinner tomorrow. The Smiths usually have her, but they’re away this year,” Mother was saying.

Father agreed. “Maybe we’d better. It’s not nice to think of anybody sitting down all by themselves to a cold bite on Christmas!”

Father agreed. “Maybe we should. It’s not right to think of anyone spending Christmas alone with a cold meal!”

“When we have so much,” Mother went on. “You’d better stop and ask her when you go for the mail to-night.”

“When we have so much,” Mother continued. “You should stop and ask her when you go for the mail tonight.”

Footsteps on the porch. Father and Mother break into smiles. “There’s Alice,” they exclaim in unison.

Footsteps on the porch. Dad and Mom break into smiles. “There’s Alice,” they say at the same time.

Quick stamping of snow on the scraper, quick opening of the door, a quick rush of cold wind and a quick, joyous child’s voice.

Quickly stamping the snow off the scraper, a fast opening of the door, a swift blast of cold wind, and the joyful voice of a child.

“Mother, the holly’s come; Father, look at this! Isn’t it lovely? Mr. Harris just got in now with the[257] wagon from Wanesburg. And he brought a big box of it. He has wreaths, too, but they’re a quarter apiece. I think the bunch is prettier and it was only a dime. Look at the berries!”

“Mom, the holly’s here; Dad, check this out! Isn’t it beautiful? Mr. Harris just arrived with the[257] wagon from Wanesburg. And he brought a big box of it. He has wreaths, too, but they’re a quarter each. I think the bunch looks nicer and it was only a dime. Look at the berries!”

The child’s cheeks are as scarlet as her red toboggan and sweater, that Mother herself had knitted. Her blue eyes are shining and eager, her light hair tossed by the wind.

The child’s cheeks are as red as her red toboggan and sweater that Mother knitted herself. Her blue eyes are bright and excited, her light hair blown by the wind.

“Put it up quick, Father, and I’ll get the red ribbon for it.” She flies up stairs, stumbling in her haste.

“Put it up fast, Dad, and I’ll grab the red ribbon for it.” She rushes up the stairs, tripping in her hurry.

Suddenly, laughter below, expostulation, hurrying feet in the front hall. “Alice, Alice, don’t open the under drawer of my bureau! You didn’t, did you? Mercy, we had such a scare! The ribbon’s in the top drawer, left hand side. Now mind, no looking any where else!”

Suddenly, there was laughter downstairs, a lot of chatter, and hurried footsteps in the front hall. “Alice, Alice, please don’t open the bottom drawer of my dresser! You didn’t, did you? Oh no, we had such a scare! The ribbon’s in the top drawer, on the left side. Now remember, don’t look anywhere else!”

“And holly at the door....”

Father’s big voice booming out happily.

Father's loud voice ringing out joyfully.

Alice skips down the stairs. “I never peeped! Honestly. But what can it be you have for me? It’s something to wear! Oh, I can’t wait.”

Alice skips down the stairs. “I never peeked! Seriously. But what do you have for me? It’s something to wear! Oh, I can’t wait.”

“And holly at the door....”

Father’s hammer tapping smartly, then the gay swinging green branch with its brave little bow of red. They all have to go out to admire it.

Father's hammer tapping in a sharp rhythm, then the cheerful swinging green branch with its bold little bow of red. Everyone has to go outside to admire it.

“And, Father, you should see the church! It’s wonderful this year. George Davis and Mr. Parmley climbed up on two ladders and tied the greens to the big cross rafter and fastened a silver star right[258] at the top. It’s never been so pretty. And the tree! Mother, it reaches the ceiling! And Mrs. Davis was putting little white lambs under it and shepherds. We saw it when we were there practicing for to-night. Oh, I hope I don’t forget my speech.”

“And, Dad, you have to see the church! It looks amazing this year. George Davis and Mr. Parmley went up two ladders and decorated the big cross rafter with greens and put a silver star right at the top. It’s never looked so beautiful. And the tree! Mom, it touches the ceiling! Mrs. Davis was placing little white lambs and shepherds underneath it. We saw it when we were practicing for tonight. Oh, I really hope I don’t forget my speech.”

Immediately, concentrated, proud interest. Father and Mother sit down to listen once again. Alice stands in front of the table, her hands primly by her sides, her face upraised in gentle seriousness.

Immediately, focused and proud interest. Dad and Mom sit down to listen once more. Alice stands in front of the table, her hands neatly at her sides, her face lifted in gentle seriousness.

“The milk-white sheep looked up one night,
And there stood an angel all in white,
And though he spoke no words to them,
He was there on the hills of Bethlehem,
That very first Christmas morning!
“The lowing cattle meekly stood
Near to a manger rough and rude....”

On and on goes the sweet childish voice to the end.

On and on goes the sweet, childlike voice until the end.

“And the time will come, so the wise men say,
When the wolf and the lamb together shall play,
And a little child shall lead the way,
The child of that first Christmas morning.”

“Pshaw!” says Father, poking the fire to hide the tender mist in his eyes. “You couldn’t forget that if you tried!”

“Pshaw!” Father says, poking the fire to hide the tears in his eyes. “You couldn’t forget that if you tried!”

“Of course you couldn’t,” Mother reassures. “Only remember to speak loud enough that they can hear you in the back of the church.”

“Of course you couldn’t,” Mom reassures. “Just remember to speak loudly enough for everyone in the back of the church to hear you.”

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“And all the girls have new dresses,” Alice exclaims, coming excitedly down to earth again. “And I said I had one too. That wasn’t a fib, was it, Mother? It really is new, for me, even if it is Aunt Jennie’s old one dyed.”

“And all the girls have new dresses,” Alice says, coming back down to earth excitedly. “And I told them I had one too. That wasn’t a lie, was it, Mom? It really is new to me, even if it’s Aunt Jennie’s old one dyed.”

“Of course,” Mother stoutly agrees. “And all the trimmings are new. That light cashmere certainly took the dye well.”

“Of course,” Mother confidently agrees. “And all the decorations are new. That light cashmere really took the dye nicely.”

“I don’t see how you got it such a beautiful shade of red. It’s just like the holly!”

“I don’t see how you got it such a beautiful shade of red. It’s just like the holly!”

“You must remember, my dear,” Father puts in with loving pride, “that your mother is a very wonderful person.”

“You have to remember, my dear,” Dad adds with affectionate pride, “that your mom is an amazing person.”

The soft early dusk of Christmas Eve falls upon Martinsville. Father starts down to the post-office for the mail. Mother prepares a light supper to be eaten in the kitchen because of the general haste. For the big Sunday School entertainment and “treat” is at seven-thirty. Alice sets out with her small pail to go to a neighbor’s for the daily supply of milk.

The gentle early evening of Christmas Eve settles over Martinsville. Dad heads down to the post office to check the mail. Mom is getting a light dinner ready to eat in the kitchen due to the rush. The big Sunday School event and "treat" is at seven-thirty. Alice grabs her small bucket to go to a neighbor’s house for her daily supply of milk.

It is so still in the village street. All white and hushed. Just a little stirring like wings in the church yard pines. The child stops, breathless, clasping her hands to her breast, the small pail dangling unheeded, her whole tender young soul caught up suddenly in a white mystery. Christmas Eve! The baby in the manger. The gold stars looking down just as they were to-night, and the angels sweeping through the sky on soft shining wings, singing singing.

It’s so quiet in the village street. Everything is covered in white and still. Just a slight rustling like wings in the churchyard pines. The child pauses, breathless, her hands clasped to her chest, the small pail hanging forgotten, her entire tender young soul suddenly immersed in a white mystery. Christmas Eve! The baby in the manger. The golden stars shining down just like they are tonight, and the angels gliding through the sky on soft, shining wings, singing singing.

It seemed almost as though they would appear any[260] moment there where the stars were brightest, right back of the church steeple.

It felt like they could show up at any[260] moment, right where the stars shone the brightest, just behind the church steeple.

Why, it was real. It was true! Christmas Eve was happening again, within her, down deep, deep in her heart somewhere, as she stood there all quiet and alone in the snow. The wonderful aching beauty of it! It was as though she and the big wide star-swept night had a secret together. Or perhaps it was she and God.

Why, it was real. It was true! Christmas Eve was happening again, deep down in her heart, as she stood there quiet and alone in the snow. The beautiful ache of it! It felt like she and the vast, starry night shared a secret together. Or maybe it was her and God.

Down the street comes a quick, clear jingle-jangle-jingle. A sleigh has just turned the corner. Alice starts and runs the rest of the way to the neighbors!

Down the street comes a fast, clear jingle-jangle-jingle. A sleigh has just turned the corner. Alice jumps and runs the rest of the way to the neighbors!

“And two quarts, please, Mother says, if you can spare it, because to-morrow’s Christmas!”

“And two quarts, please,” Mom says, “if you can spare it, because tomorrow’s Christmas!”

She is dressed for the entertainment in the new dyed dress, her long curls showing golden above its rich red. Father and Mother suddenly begin to consult together in low voices in the kitchen. They come out at last impressively.

She is dressed for the event in her newly dyed dress, her long curls shining golden above the deep red fabric. Dad and Mom suddenly start to whisper together in the kitchen. They finally come out looking serious.

“Would she rather have one of her presents, not the big one but the other one, now, so she could wear it to-night? Would she?”

“Would she prefer to have one of her gifts, not the big one but the other one, now, so she could wear it tonight? Would she?”

Alice stands considering delightedly, blue eyes like stars, “The big present would still be left for to-morrow?” she queries eagerly.

Alice stands there, happily thinking, her blue eyes sparkling like stars. “The big gift is still left for tomorrow?” she asks eagerly.

“You bet!” Father assures her.

“Absolutely!” Father assures her.

“Then—I—believe—I’ll—take the other—now!”

“Then I guess I’ll take the other one now!”

Mother brings it out. A hair ribbon! Just the color of the dress. Bigger and broader than any she has ever had. It is finally perched like a scarlet tanager above the golden curls!

Mother brings it out. A hair ribbon! Exactly the color of the dress. Bigger and wider than any she’s ever had. It finally sits like a bright red bird above the golden curls!

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There is the sound of talking, laughing voices passing outside. Scrunch, scrunch, scrunch, of many feet in the snow. People going to the entertainment. The little church up the street is all alight. It is time to go! They start out in the fresh, frosty air. Father follows her and Mother along the narrow snowy path, humming the Holly Song softly to himself.

There’s the sound of voices chatting and laughing outside. Scrunch, scrunch, scrunch, of many feet in the snow. People heading to the entertainment. The little church up the street is all lit up. It’s time to go! They step out into the fresh, chilly air. Dad follows her and Mom along the narrow snowy path, softly humming the Holly Song to himself.

All at once there was a shrill persistent ringing. It was not of a church bell or passing sleighs. It kept on ringing. The woman in the chair before the desk littered with Christmas cards came slowly back to her surroundings. She grasped the telephone dazedly. “This is Mrs. Barton. What meeting?... Oh, yes.... No, I can’t come.... I’m—I’m not well.”

All of a sudden, there was a loud, annoying ringing. It wasn’t a church bell or the sound of sleighs passing by. It just kept ringing. The woman sitting in the chair at the desk cluttered with Christmas cards slowly became aware of her surroundings. She picked up the phone in a daze. “This is Mrs. Barton. What meeting?... Oh, right.... No, I can’t make it.... I’m—I'm not feeling well.”

She hung up the receiver abruptly. The Committee meeting at eleven! It seemed suddenly far away. Her one longing was to get back again to the past where she had just now been living; to those fresh, sweet realities of long ago. She closed her eyes, terrified lest the illusion was lost completely. But slowly, softly, surely, the little snowy village of Martinsville closed in again around her. She was once more the child, Alice.

She hung up the phone abruptly. The Committee meeting at eleven! It suddenly felt so distant. Her only wish was to return to the past where she had just been; to the fresh, sweet moments of long ago. She shut her eyes, afraid that the illusion might vanish entirely. But slowly, softly, surely, the little snowy village of Martinsville wrapped around her once more. She was again the child, Alice.

She was falling asleep on Christmas Eve. The entertainment had been wonderful. She hadn’t forgotten her speech, not a word, and the girls all thought her dress was lovely and her hair ribbon had felt so big and pretty and floppy on her head, and the Ladies Quartette had sung “O Holy Night” for a surprise. Nobody knew they had been practicing, and it was so beautiful it had hurt her inside. And the treat candy[262] had ever so many more chocolates in it than last year, and it was snowing again and she could hear the faint jingle-jangle-jingle of the sleighs still going up and down Main Street, and she was so happy! And to-morrow would really be Christmas.

She was dozing off on Christmas Eve. The entertainment had been amazing. She hadn’t forgotten her speech, not a single word, and all the girls thought her dress was beautiful, plus the hair ribbon felt so big, pretty, and floppy on her head. The Ladies Quartette surprised everyone by singing “O Holy Night.” No one knew they had been rehearsing, and it was so beautiful it made her feel emotional inside. The treat candy[262] had so many more chocolates in it than last year, and it was snowing again. She could hear the faint jingle-jangle-jingle of the sleighs still going up and down Main Street, and she was so happy! Tomorrow would really be Christmas.

Then all at once it was morning. Father and Mother were talking in low, happy voices in their room. She could hear Father creaking softly down the back stairs to start the fire before she got awake. The stockings would be all filled. Goodness, it was hard to wait.

Then suddenly, it was morning. Mom and Dad were chatting in soft, happy voices in their room. She could hear Dad quietly creaking down the back stairs to start the fire before she woke up. The stockings would be all filled. Wow, it was tough to wait.

Then at last a great noise in the front hall. Father shouting “Merry Christmas! My Christmas gift! Merry Christmas up there!”

Then finally there was a loud noise in the front hall. Dad was shouting, “Merry Christmas! My Christmas gift! Merry Christmas up there!”

It is time now. She flings her chill little body into her red wrapper and slippers and scurries down the stairs. A big fire in the grate! The three big bulging stockings! Father and Mother stand by until she empties hers first. She feels it with delicious caution. Oranges, apples and nuts in the toe. A funny little bumpy thing above. That would be one of Father’s jokes. But at the top a mysterious soft, squashy package! She withdraws it slowly. She opens one tiny corner, gasps, opens a little more. Then gives a shrill cry. “Mother! It couldn’t be a—a muff!”

It's time now. She throws on her chilly little body into her red robe and slippers and rushes down the stairs. A big fire in the fireplace! The three big, bulging stockings! Dad and Mom stand by until she empties hers first. She feels it with a delightful sense of caution. Oranges, apples, and nuts in the toe. A funny little bumpy thing above. That must be one of Dad’s jokes. But at the top, a mysterious soft, squashy package! She pulls it out slowly. She opens one tiny corner, gasps, opens a little more. Then lets out a high-pitched cry. “Mom! It couldn’t be a—a muff!”

She pulls it out, amazed ecstasy on her face. “It is a muff! Oh, Father, to think of your getting me a muff.” She clasps the small scrap of cheap fur to her breast. “Oh, Mother, I never was so happy.”

She pulls it out, a look of pure joy on her face. “It is a muff! Oh, Dad, I can’t believe you got me a muff.” She hugs the small piece of cheap fur to her chest. “Oh, Mom, I’ve never been so happy.”

A subdued sound drew louder, became a sharp rap at the door. Martinsville receded. The woman in the[263] chair opened her eyes with a dull realization of the present. Delia stood in the door-way, black and ominous. “What about them bed-room curtains?” she demanded.

A quiet noise became louder, turning into a sharp knock at the door. Martinsville faded away. The woman in the[263] chair opened her eyes with a dull awareness of the present. Delia stood in the doorway, dark and threatening. “What about those bedroom curtains?” she asked.

Alice Barton rose slowly. With a great effort she brought her mind back to the problems of the day. She led the way to the guest room with Delia after her, grumbling inaudibly. Perhaps her eyes were still misted over with sweet memories, for somehow the curtains did not look so bad. “We’ll let them go as they are, Delia. You have enough extras to do.”

Alice Barton got up slowly. With a lot of effort, she pulled her thoughts back to the issues at hand. She walked to the guest room with Delia following her, muttering quietly. Maybe her eyes were still clouded by pleasant memories because the curtains didn’t seem so bad after all. “We'll leave them as they are, Delia. You have plenty of other things to do.”

Delia departed in pleased surprise, and Alice sat down in the quiet room before a mirror, and peered into it. Almost she expected to see the child she had once been, the tender, smiling young mouth, the soft, eager eyes, the tumbled curls.

Delia left, pleasantly surprised, and Alice sat down in the quiet room in front of a mirror and looked into it. She almost expected to see the child she used to be, with her gentle, smiling mouth, soft, eager eyes, and messy curls.

Instead she saw a middle aged face with all the spontaneous light gone out of it. There were hard lines in it which no amount of expensive “facials” had been able to smooth away. There was a bitter, unlovely droop to the lips.

Instead, she saw a middle-aged face with all the spontaneous light gone from it. There were deep lines in it that no number of expensive “facials” had been able to smooth out. The lips had a bitter, unattractive droop.

Alice regarded herself steadily. Where along the way had she lost the spirit of that child who had this day come back to her?

Alice looked at herself closely. Where had she lost the spirit of the child who had returned to her today?

The outward changes of her life passed in review. It was soon after that last happy Christmas in Martinsville that the little town had been swept by disease. The old village doctor had neither knowledge nor equipment to restrain it. When it was over, many homes had been desolated, and Alice, a bewildered little orphan, had gone to Aunt Jennie’s in the city.

The outside changes in her life were reflected upon. It was shortly after that joyful Christmas in Martinsville that the small town was hit hard by an illness. The old village doctor didn’t have the knowledge or tools to stop it. When it was all over, many homes were left in ruins, and Alice, a confused little orphan, went to live with Aunt Jennie in the city.

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The changed way of living had been at first startling and then strangely commonplace. She had been fluidly adaptable. She had gone to a fashionable finishing school, had made a smart début, had met Tom, fallen deeply in love and then married him with all the circumstance Aunt Jennie had ordained.

The new way of life had initially been shocking and then oddly normal. She had been easily adaptable. She attended a trendy finishing school, made a stylish debut, met Tom, fell in love deeply, and then married him just as Aunt Jennie had planned.

Then had come life in Branchbrook and the beginning for herself of the curious nameless game Aunt Jennie had taught her, of belonging, of keeping up with most; of being ahead of many. A game with no noticeable beginning and no possible end. And of course one had to keep on playing it, for if one stopped it meant being dropped. Life would be insupportable after that.

Then life in Branchbrook began, marking the start of the strange, nameless game Aunt Jennie had taught her—the game of belonging, of keeping up with most, and of being ahead of many. It was a game with no clear start and no definite end. And of course, you couldn't stop playing it, because if you did, it meant getting left behind. Life would be unbearable after that.

And yet, would it? The game wasn’t making any of them happy as it was. Back of her own restless home she saw again Father and Mother and the little girl named Alice. They had all been so joyously content with each other, had found life with its few small pleasures so wholesome and sweet to the taste.

And yet, would it? The game wasn't making any of them happy as it was. From the back of her own restless home, she saw Father and Mother and the little girl named Alice again. They had all been so happily content with each other, finding life with its few small pleasures so wholesome and sweet.

The woman rose trembling to her feet. Suppose she stopped playing the game! Suppose she didn’t care whether she belonged or not. What if she tried walking in the simple ways of her mother?

The woman stood up, shaking. What if she stopped playing the game? What if she didn’t care about fitting in? What if she tried living the straightforward life her mother did?

She stood there thinking in new terms, startled out of all her old standards, crying out to the past to guide her. And then suddenly she raised her arms above her head in a gesture of emancipation.

She stood there rethinking everything, shaken out of all her old beliefs, calling out to the past for guidance. And then suddenly, she lifted her arms above her head in a gesture of freedom.

She examined her extra shopping list for which she had asked the money that morning. All the items[265] were expensive courtesies that need not be rendered if considered apart from the game. She crossed them out one by one.

She looked over her extra shopping list for which she had asked for money that morning. All the items[265] were pricey luxuries that didn't have to be bought if you thought about them outside of the game. She crossed them out one by one.

All that day as she went about her duties, she was conscious of an invisible companion: a child with eager, happy eyes walked beside her, watched her as she helped Delia with the big fruit cake, as she fastened a bough of holly to the door with her own hands.

All day as she went about her tasks, she felt the presence of an invisible companion: a child with bright, joyful eyes walked beside her, watching her as she assisted Delia with the large fruit cake and as she attached a sprig of holly to the door with her own hands.

The child was still close to her in the shadows when she lighted the tall candelabra at dusk and drew the tea-table to the fireside. Just the fire-light and candle shine to greet Tom when he came. She sat very still on the big divan, waiting. Would he feel the new quiet that possessed her? Would he forgive her for having made all the other Christmases times of confusion and worry? She wondered.

The child was still nearby in the shadows when she lit the tall candelabra at dusk and pulled the tea table closer to the fireside. Just the firelight and candle glow to welcome Tom when he arrived. She sat very still on the big couch, waiting. Would he sense the new calm that enveloped her? Would he forgive her for making all the other Christmases filled with confusion and worry? She wondered.

The children were not home yet when Tom came. He hung his coat in the hall closet and entered the living room heavily. He looked tired. His glance swept over the tall lighted candles, and the shining tea table. “What’s coming off here? A tea-fight?” he said.

The kids weren't home yet when Tom arrived. He hung his coat in the hall closet and walked heavily into the living room. He looked exhausted. His eyes scanned the tall lit candles and the sparkling tea table. "What's going on here? A tea fight?" he said.

Alice stretched her hands toward him.

Alice reached out her hands toward him.

“You are the only guest, Tom. You and the children.”

“You're the only guest, Tom. Just you and the kids.”

The man came nearer in surprise, caught her hands, peered into her face. Then his own softened. “What is it?” he asked.

The man approached in shock, took her hands, and looked into her face. Then his expression softened. “What’s wrong?” he asked.

They sank down together on the divan, hands still clasped tightly, something old and yet new, flooding back and forth between them.

They sank down together on the couch, hands still clasped tightly, something old yet new flowing back and forth between them.

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“What is it?” Tom asked again. “There is something ... tell me.”

“What is it?” Tom asked again. “There’s something ... tell me.”

And then suddenly the woman knew that into her own hard faded eyes there had come again the gladness of youth.

And then suddenly the woman realized that the joy of youth had returned to her own weary, faded eyes.

“I had a visit to-day,” she said slowly, “from a little girl of thirty years ago. A little girl I had forgotten. She brought me something precious.”

“I had a visit today,” she said slowly, “from a little girl from thirty years ago. A little girl I had forgotten. She brought me something precious.”

Tom looked at her wonderingly. “Will she come again? Often?” he begged.

Tom looked at her with wonder. “Will she come again? Often?” he pleaded.

Alice shook her head and smiled. “There is no need,” she answered softly. “For she and her gift have come to stay!”

Alice shook her head and smiled. “There’s no need,” she replied gently. “She and her gift have come to stay!”

FOOTNOTES:

[16] By permission of the author and “McCall’s Magazine.” Copyright 1926 by “McCall’s Magazine.”

[16] With permission from the author and “McCall’s Magazine.” Copyright 1926 by “McCall’s Magazine.”


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TEACHER JENSEN[17]

Karin Michaelis

Karin Michaelis


If the school-children had cared to look about them while they were playing hide-and-seek during recess, they would have seen the sharp tower of a mighty building piercing the air beyond a distant clump of trees. Unless you knew better, you would have believed that it was a castle where knights and beautiful ladies ate game off golden plates and on Sundays regaled themselves with macaroons. But the school-children did know better. They knew, forgot, and remembered again, that it was a prison standing near them, where prisoners lived, each in his own cell, never seeing each other except at church, where black masks disguised their faces. They knew and forgot and remembered again.

If the school kids had taken a moment to look around while they were playing hide-and-seek during recess, they would have spotted the tall tower of a massive building rising up beyond a cluster of trees. If you didn't know any better, you might think it was a castle where knights and beautiful ladies dined on fancy food served on golden plates and enjoyed macaroons on Sundays. But the school kids did know better. They remembered, forgot, and then remembered again that it was a prison nearby, where inmates lived, each in their own cell, only seeing each other at church, where black masks hid their faces. They knew, forgot, and remembered again.

Lauritz Thomsen belonged there. Not that he had done anything to be ashamed of—God forbid! But his father was the cook for the prison, and Lauritz knew what the prisoners got to eat—and what they did not get. He lived, so to speak, in prison, but apart from these men with the black masks. He was so accustomed to taking the short cut across the fields to the high red wall and walking through the entrance portal, which was immediately closed and bolted after [268]him, that it all seemed like nothing extraordinary. He could see it in no other light. But if his schoolmates began to ask him questions he would hold his peace and blush to the roots of his hair.

Lauritz Thomsen belonged there. It’s not that he had anything to be ashamed of—God forbid! But his dad was the cook at the prison, and Lauritz knew what the inmates received for meals—and what they didn’t. He lived, so to speak, in prison, but separate from those men with the black masks. He was so used to taking the shortcut across the fields to the high red wall and walking through the entrance gate, which was immediately closed and locked behind him, that it all felt completely normal. He couldn't see it any other way. But if his classmates ever asked him questions, he would stay silent and blush deeply.

His mother worried and grieved about the prison, and sought as best she could to forget what was going on. Filling her windows with flowers, she tried to silence her unpleasant thoughts about the poor creatures breathing the deathly cellar air behind those iron bars. She laid by penny upon penny in the hope of saving enough to buy a little country inn, or any kind of establishment far away from the Living Cemetery, as the prison was called. During her dreams she cried aloud, waking her children, for she always saw people with black masks on their faces swarming behind walls and windows and threatening to kill her. Evil dreams arise from evil thoughts, it is said, but Frau Thomsen could have no evil thoughts. She had only once in her life gone through the prison. It still froze her with terror to think of it, and she could not understand how her husband could sing and enjoy himself at the end of his day’s work. Nor could she comprehend how he could speak of the prisoners as if they were friends or comrades. When he began to carry on in this way she would leave the room and not come back until he had promised to talk about something else.

His mother worried and felt sad about the prison, and tried her best to forget what was happening. She filled her windows with flowers to block out the unsettling thoughts of the poor souls inhaling the lifeless air behind those iron bars. She saved up every penny in hopes of gathering enough to buy a small country inn or any place far away from the Living Cemetery, as the prison was called. In her dreams, she screamed out loud, waking her children, because she always saw people with black masks moving behind walls and windows, threatening to kill her. They say evil dreams come from evil thoughts, but Frau Thomsen couldn't have any evil thoughts. She had only visited the prison once in her life, and just thinking about it still terrified her. She couldn’t understand how her husband could sing and have a good time at the end of his workday. She also couldn’t grasp how he could talk about the prisoners as if they were friends or buddies. When he started behaving this way, she would leave the room and not return until he promised to change the subject.

Children are children. They can accustom themselves to wading in a river where crocodiles sleep, or to playing in a jungle where snakes hang from the trees. Children become accustomed to living near a[269] prison just as they get used to a father who drinks or a mother who scolds. They think of it, forget it, and remember it again. Thoughts glide across their minds like shadows; for a moment everything seems dark, and suddenly the sun shines once more.

Children are children. They can get used to wading in a river where crocodiles are resting, or playing in a jungle where snakes hang from the trees. Kids adapt to living near a[269] prison just as they get used to a dad who drinks or a mom who yells. They think about it, forget it, and then remember it again. Thoughts move through their minds like shadows; for a moment everything feels dark, and then the sun shines again.

Whenever a prisoner escaped, the school-children were thrown into a great commotion. They followed the pursuit from afar, listening to the shots, the alarm signals, the whistles. They leaned out of windows and saw the prison wardens rushing in all directions, on foot, and on horseback. Nothing was so exciting as a man hunt, either over winter snow or over green summer fields. When the fugitive was taken, peace descended upon all their souls. Now the only question was what punishment would be meted out to the victim, and all eyes were turned toward Lauritz. But Lauritz said nothing. He was ashamed without quite knowing why.

Whenever a prisoner escaped, the schoolchildren were thrown into a frenzy. They followed the chase from a distance, listening to the gunshots, the alarm signals, and the whistles. They leaned out of windows and watched the prison guards rushing in all directions, both on foot and on horseback. Nothing was more thrilling than a manhunt, whether over winter snow or through lush summer fields. When the fugitive was caught, a sense of calm settled over them all. Now the only question was what punishment would be given to the captured man, and all eyes turned to Lauritz. But Lauritz said nothing. He felt ashamed without really understanding why.

Prison and the prisoners would be forgotten save when a boy or girl at play would suddenly gape at the high towers to the east, jutting up there above the forest.

Prison and the prisoners would be overlooked unless a boy or girl playing suddenly stared at the tall towers in the east, rising above the forest.

The children had a new teacher. He was called Teacher Jensen—nothing more. If he had a Christian name, he was never called by it. Just Teacher Jensen. And Teacher Jensen was little and frail, and Teacher Jensen’s voice was as little and frail as he. But there was a wonderful quality in his voice, like a violin that makes a much louder noise than anyone would believe possible. The children did not sleep in his classes. They were not even drowsy. In his classes they[270] forgot to write notes to each other or secretly to eat bread and butter behind their desks. They only listened and asked questions. Teacher Jensen had an answer for everything. They could ask Teacher Jensen all kinds of questions. But sometimes he would shake his head and say: “I seem to have forgotten it. Let me think a minute.” Or worse yet: “I don’t know. I never knew it. But I will look it up. It is to be found in some book, or a friend will tell me the answer.” The children found that there was something splendid about having a teacher of whom you could ask all kinds of questions and who sometimes did not know the answer offhand.

The kids had a new teacher. His name was Teacher Jensen—nothing more. If he had a first name, nobody ever used it. Just Teacher Jensen. And Teacher Jensen was small and delicate, and his voice was just as small and delicate as he was. But there was something amazing in his voice, like a violin that produces a much louder sound than you'd think possible. The kids didn’t zone out in his classes. They weren’t even sleepy. In his classes, they forgot to pass notes to each other or sneak bread and butter behind their desks. They only listened and asked questions. Teacher Jensen had an answer for everything. They could ask him all sorts of questions. But sometimes he would shake his head and say, “I seem to have forgotten that. Let me think for a moment.” Or even worse: “I don’t know. I never knew that. But I will look it up. It’s in some book, or a friend will tell me the answer.” The kids realized there was something great about having a teacher you could ask all kinds of questions who sometimes didn’t have the answer right away.

Teacher Jensen talked about new things and old, and his speech was not like pepper shaken from a pepper pot. Even while the children were playing in the fields, they would remember what he had said. Yes, it remained fast in their minds.

Teacher Jensen talked about new things and old, and his speech was not like pepper shaken from a pepper shaker. Even while the kids were playing in the fields, they would remember what he had said. Yes, it stuck in their minds.

One day Teacher Jensen said that murder was by no means the worst thing a man could do, and that it was much worse to think or say or do evil to another human being, or to make a defenseless animal suffer. And the children were full of wonder. It seemed that a new door had been opened to them, and each passed through it, one after another. Yes, it was true, what he said. They understood his meaning clearly, but they cast their eyes down, for all of them knew they had often done what was much worse than murder. Perhaps they would do it again, but not willingly, never willingly. Yet there was another thing worse than murder, and that was to act without using your will.

One day, Teacher Jensen said that murder wasn’t the worst thing a person could do and that it was far worse to think, say, or do something evil to another human being, or to make a defenseless animal suffer. The children were filled with wonder. It felt like a new door had been opened for them, and each of them stepped through it, one after another. Yes, what he said was true. They understood his point clearly, but they looked down, knowing that they had all often done things that were much worse than murder. Maybe they would do it again, but not willingly, never willingly. Still, there was something worse than murder, and that was to act without using your will.

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One day Teacher Jensen brought with him a sick, whining little cat which he had found on his way to school. He had put it under his cloak to keep it warm, and he stroked its back and its sharp little head. It was an ugly, gray, dirty cat. Teacher Jensen did not tell the children what he was going to do with it, but simply sat with the cat in his lap and rubbed his cheek against its head. To the children this poor little sick gray cat was the whole world. They took a silent vow that they would cure it. Through Teacher Jensen’s little gray cat they had peered deep into the soul of an animal, and what they saw was more beautiful and more pure than a human soul.

One day, Teacher Jensen brought a sick, whiny little cat he had found on his way to school. He had tucked it under his coat to keep it warm, gently stroking its back and its sharp little head. It was an ugly, gray, dirty cat. Teacher Jensen didn’t tell the kids what he planned to do with it; he just sat with the cat in his lap, rubbing his cheek against its head. To the children, this poor little sick gray cat was everything. They silently vowed to help it get better. Through Teacher Jensen’s little gray cat, they had looked deep into the soul of an animal, and what they saw was more beautiful and pure than a human soul.

Teacher Jensen often went on Sunday excursions with the children. Whoever wanted to could come, and all of them wanted to. It so happened that one Sunday morning in the autumn they were walking among falling leaves, and the earth clung to their shoes in little lumps. It had been raining, and was likely to rain again. Traversing a bit of open country, they soon entered the big forest in the distance. Ahead of them was the “castle” that was a prison. Lauritz ran in to get a scarf. Teacher Jensen saw him and drew his hand over his eyes, and as he cast down his eyes it was clear that he had been crying; but no one asked anything, no one spoke. They arrived at a vast grove of fir trees standing in long rows, with their evergreen branches above and their yellow trunks below. Teacher Jensen explained that such a forest could grow from a mere handful of tiny grains. The children knew this perfectly well; yet it sounded quite new.[272] They suddenly understood that trees lived, breathed, and thought, that they strove for the light as poor people strive for bread.

Teacher Jensen often took the kids on Sunday outings. Anyone who wanted to could join, and everyone did. One autumn Sunday morning, they walked through falling leaves, with mud sticking to their shoes. It had rained, and it was likely to rain again. After crossing some open land, they soon reached the big forest in the distance. In front of them was the “castle” that used to be a prison. Lauritz ran in to grab a scarf. Teacher Jensen noticed him and rubbed his eyes, and when he looked down, it was clear he had been crying; but no one asked anything, no one spoke. They came to a huge grove of fir trees standing in long rows, with their green branches above and their yellow trunks below. Teacher Jensen explained that such a forest could grow from just a few tiny seeds. The kids knew this well; yet it still sounded brand new to them. They suddenly realized that trees lived, breathed, and thought, that they reached for light just as poor people reach for bread.[272]

“Now let’s begin the game,” said Teacher Jensen. “Let’s imagine that this forest of fir trees is a prison, and that we are all prisoners, each in his own cell. Let us do this for one hour. I am holding a watch in my hand. During that hour let no one speak, for we are prisoners, and speech is forbidden.”

“Now let’s start the game,” said Teacher Jensen. “Let’s picture this forest of fir trees as a prison, and that we’re all prisoners, each in our own cell. We’ll do this for one hour. I have a watch in my hand. During that hour, no one should speak, because we are prisoners, and talking is not allowed.”

This was a new game, a peculiar game. The rain had stopped some time ago, but drops were still falling from the high trees. The children stood, each under his own tree, and felt the water dripping and dripping on cheeks and hands. The children stood with the water dripping off them, laughing and shouting to each other side by side cell by cell. Slowly the laughter died and their faces became serious. All eyes were directed toward Teacher Jensen, who stood with the watch in his hand. He seemed to see nobody, and did not announce when the hour should begin.

This was a new game, a strange game. The rain had stopped a while ago, but drops were still falling from the tall trees. The children stood, each under their own tree, feeling the water dripping onto their cheeks and hands. They stood with the water streaming off them, laughing and shouting to each other, side by side. Slowly, the laughter faded and their faces grew serious. All eyes turned to Teacher Jensen, who stood with a watch in his hand. He didn’t seem to notice anyone, and didn’t say when the hour was supposed to start.

The children felt as if they ought to hold their breath, for surely something important and serious was afoot. It was not like the times when they had gone out with other teachers, when hatred and pride cropped up as soon as the school door was closed. This was serious, and each breath was like a bucketful of water from a deep, deep well. Was time standing still? Had not many hours already passed? Were they really prisoners after all? They did not crawl away, though there was nothing to stop them. Teacher Jensen did not look around him at all, yet as soon as[273] any of the children thought of creeping away they could not help remembering what happened when a prisoner escaped and they heard the shots ring out, the alarm bells clang, the whistles blow, and saw the wardens riding off in all directions hunting the fugitive. Their feet would not obey them—they were bound fast by Teacher Jensen’s word; the outstretched hand with the watch held them in their places. Yes, they were prisoners, each in his own cell, and darkness settled and a gentle mist descended, veil upon veil.

The kids felt like they should hold their breath because something important and serious was definitely happening. This wasn’t like the times they’d gone out with other teachers when anger and pride showed up as soon as the school door closed. This was serious, and each breath felt like drawing water from a deep well. Was time standing still? Had hours really gone by? Were they really trapped after all? They didn’t try to escape, even though nothing was stopping them. Teacher Jensen didn’t look around at all, but as soon as any of the kids thought about sneaking away, they couldn’t help remembering what happened when a prisoner escaped—they heard the shots, the alarm bells ringing, the whistles blowing, and saw the guards rushing off in all directions to catch the fugitive. Their feet wouldn’t move—they were held tight by Teacher Jensen’s words; the hand holding the watch kept them in place. Yes, they were prisoners, each in their own cell, as darkness settled and a gentle mist came down, layer upon layer.

Was this what it was like being a prisoner?

Was this what it felt like to be a prisoner?

The hour was up.

Time's up.

Every one sighed with relief, yet they all stood quiet for a moment, as if they could not really believe that they had regained their freedom. Then they sprang up and clustered around Teacher Jensen, asking him questions. It was growing dark, and he put his watch in his pocket, saying: “It is just as hard to be a prison watchman as to be a prisoner.”

Everyone sighed with relief, but they all stood quietly for a moment, as if they couldn't quite believe they had regained their freedom. Then they jumped up and gathered around Teacher Jensen, firing questions at him. It was getting dark, and he put his watch in his pocket, saying, “It's just as tough to be a prison guard as it is to be a prisoner.”

The children had never thought of this before, and after a long pause Teacher Jensen added: “The lot of the prison warden is the hardest of all, for he can do nothing for the prisoners; and in his heart he wants to help them all he can, yet they are not able to read his thoughts.”

The kids had never considered this before, and after a long silence, Teacher Jensen added, “The prison warden has the toughest job of all because he can't do anything for the inmates. Deep down, he wants to help them as much as he can, but they can't read his mind.”

And after another pause he said: “I knew a man who spent seventeen years in prison and then died there.”

And after another pause, he said, “I knew a guy who spent seventeen years in prison and then died there.”

When Lauritz reached home his mother was sitting at the piano playing and singing. The smell of freshly[274] baked cake filled the room. On the table stood a glass bowl of apples. Lauritz’s father sat on a chair smoking his pipe. Without knowing just what he said or why he said it, Lauritz went up to the piano and whispered in his mother’s ear: “When I am a big man I shall be a prison warden.”

When Lauritz got home, his mom was sitting at the piano playing and singing. The scent of freshly baked cake filled the room. On the table, there was a glass bowl of apples. Lauritz’s dad was sitting in a chair, smoking his pipe. Without really knowing why he did it, Lauritz walked over to the piano and whispered in his mom’s ear, “When I grow up, I want to be a prison warden.”

“What did you say?” she cried. “A prison warden, Lauritz? In there with those people? Never!”

“What did you say?” she shouted. “A prison warden, Lauritz? In there with those people? No way!”

Lauritz repeated: “When I am a big man I shall be a prison warden.”

Lauritz repeated, "When I'm a big man, I'm going to be a prison warden."


And then something happened that was never explained. Who had the idea first no one knew. Perhaps it entered all those little heads at the same time, in that hour when they were standing, each a prisoner under his own tree, each in his own cell—just in a single hour.

And then something happened that was never explained. No one knew who had the idea first. Maybe it popped into all their heads at the same time, in that hour when they were standing, each a prisoner under their own tree, each in their own cell—just in a single hour.

When Teacher Jensen was told about the plan, he only nodded as if he had known about it long ago. But when they begged him to talk to the prison inspector, since their scheme was contrary to all regulations, he shook his head, saying: “It is your idea. You must carry it out. It is up to you, if you believe in yourselves, to stand fast by your beliefs.”

When Teacher Jensen heard about the plan, he just nodded like he had already known about it for a while. But when they pleaded with him to speak to the prison inspector, since their scheme went against all the rules, he shook his head and said, “It’s your idea. You need to see it through. It’s up to you, if you believe in yourselves, to hold firm to your beliefs.”

That was two months before Christmas, and all the school-children, big and little, boys and girls, were there. Money was the first necessity, and it had to be collected in modest amounts and earned in an honorable way. Teacher Jensen said that if the gift was not honest no good came of it. The children all saved the money that they would ordinarily have spent on[275] sweets and on stamps for their albums. They went on little errands, chopped wood, carried water, and scrubbed milk cans, wooden buckets, and copper tubs. The money was put into a big earthenware pig that Teacher Jensen had put in the wardrobe at school. No one knew who gave the most or who gave the least.

That was two months before Christmas, and all the school kids, big and small, boys and girls, were there. Money was the first necessity, and it had to be collected in small amounts and earned honestly. Teacher Jensen said that if the gift wasn't honest, it wouldn't do any good. The kids all saved the money they would usually spend on[275] treats and stamps for their albums. They ran errands, chopped wood, carried water, and scrubbed milk cans, wooden buckets, and copper tubs. The money went into a big earthenware pig that Teacher Jensen had placed in the wardrobe at school. No one knew who contributed the most or the least.

Lauritz announced that, including the seventeen sick people, there were three hundred and ten prisoners in the jail.

Lauritz announced that, including the seventeen sick people, there were three hundred and ten prisoners in the jail.

In the middle of December the pig was broken and the money was counted over and over, but it did not amount to much. Then a little fellow came with his little private savings bank, and a girl with a little earthen receptacle in which she kept her spare pennies. That started them off. Many little hoardings destined for Christmas presents were emptied into the great common fund at school. See how it grew! Shiny paper was now brought, and flags and walnuts. Every day the whole school stayed until supper time cutting out and pasting. The little girls made white and red roses. They wove baskets, gilded walnuts, pasted flags on little sticks, and cut out cardboard stars, painting them gold and silver. The little ones made, out of clay, birds’ nests with eggs in them, and little horses and cows that they covered with bright colors so they looked like real live animals. The boys cut out photographs and made little boxes. With jig saws they fashioned napkin rings and paper weights.

In the middle of December, the pig was broken open, and the money was counted over and over, but it didn't amount to much. Then a little kid showed up with his small savings bank, and a girl had a little earthen jar where she kept her spare change. That got them started. Many small savings meant for Christmas presents were put into the big common fund at school. Look at it grow! Shiny paper was brought in, along with flags and walnuts. Every day, the whole school stayed until dinner, cutting and pasting. The little girls made red and white roses. They wove baskets, gilded walnuts, pasted flags on little sticks, and cut out cardboard stars, painting them gold and silver. The younger kids made birds' nests with eggs out of clay, along with little horses and cows that they painted in bright colors to look like real animals. The boys cut out pictures and made little boxes. With jigsaws, they created napkin rings and paperweights.

Christmas trees were bought—three hundred and ten real fir trees, for which the gardener charged only twenty-five pfennigs apiece.

Christmas trees were bought—three hundred and ten real fir trees, for which the gardener charged just twenty-five pfennigs each.

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Teacher Jensen emptied his purse on the desk. It had once been black, but it had long since turned brown, and was full of cracks. “That belonged to the man who spent seventeen years in prison,” he announced. “He had it there with him. He kept it there for seventeen long years.”

Teacher Jensen dumped out his bag on the desk. It used to be black, but now it was brown and full of cracks. “That belonged to the guy who spent seventeen years in prison,” he said. “He kept it with him the whole time. Seventeen long years.”

No one asked who the man was, but the money had to be counted over many times, for the children’s eyes were moist and they had to keep wiping the tears away.

No one asked who the man was, but the money had to be counted several times because the children's eyes were wet and they kept having to wipe away their tears.

On the Sunday before Christmas the children went with Teacher Jensen to the local store and bought a lot of tobacco and chocolate, almonds and raisins, playing cards and brightly colored handkerchiefs, and writing paper. And they got a lot of old Christmas books too, which were given to them free because they were at the bottom of the pile and were out of date.

On the Sunday before Christmas, the kids went with Teacher Jensen to the local store and bought a bunch of tobacco and chocolate, almonds and raisins, playing cards and colorful handkerchiefs, and writing paper. They also got a lot of old Christmas books for free since they were at the bottom of the pile and out of date.

The parents of the children had to contribute whether they wanted to or not, and bags full of cookies and nuts, playing cards and books, came out of each house.

The parents of the kids had to pitch in whether they liked it or not, and bags filled with cookies and nuts, playing cards, and books came out of every house.

Lauritz’s father had spoken in all secrecy to the prison chaplain, who went as a representative to the inspector. But the inspector hemmed and hawed saying: “That goes against all regulations. It’s impossible. It can’t be allowed on any ground whatever.” The chaplain was to have told this to Lauritz’s father, and Lauritz was to have brought the news to the children that the plan had to be abandoned. But the chaplain said nothing to Lauritz’s father, and the[277] children did not know that it was impossible and could never be allowed.

Lauritz's father had privately spoken to the prison chaplain, who then went to speak with the inspector. But the inspector hesitated, saying, "That goes against all regulations. It's impossible. It can't be allowed under any circumstances." The chaplain was supposed to tell this to Lauritz's father, and Lauritz was meant to inform the children that the plan had to be scrapped. However, the chaplain said nothing to Lauritz's father, and the [277] children were unaware that it was impossible and could never be permitted.

All the parents, no matter how much they had to do, made a point of going into the schoolhouse the day before Christmas and seeing the three hundred little sparkling Christmas trees, each laden with joy, each with its star on the top, each with its white and red roses, white and red flags, and white and red candles, each decorated with tinsel and hung with gifts. To every tree a little letter was fastened, written by a boy or a girl. What was in this letter only the writer and perhaps Teacher Jensen knew—for Teacher Jensen had to help the little ones who only knew how to print numbers and capital letters.

All the parents, no matter how busy they were, made it a priority to visit the schoolhouse the day before Christmas to see the three hundred little sparkling Christmas trees, each filled with joy, each topped with a star, each decorated with white and red roses, white and red flags, and white and red candles, all adorned with tinsel and hung with gifts. Each tree had a little letter attached, written by a boy or girl. What was in these letters was known only to the writer and maybe Teacher Jensen—since Teacher Jensen helped the little ones who only knew how to print numbers and capital letters.

The church bells rang over the town and called the faithful to God’s worship. The prison bells rang out over the prison and called the prisoners to the prison church. Before the school was drawn up a row of wagons which had been laden with the little Christmas trees. Each child then took his tree under his arm and set out, following the wagons, singing as he went. It was a Christmas party without snow, but a Christmas party just the same.

The church bells rang throughout the town, summoning everyone to worship. The prison bells echoed over the prison, calling the inmates to the prison chapel. In front of the school, a line of wagons filled with small Christmas trees stood ready. Each child picked up a tree and set off, following the wagons and singing as they walked. It was a Christmas celebration without snow, but still very much a Christmas celebration.

Stopping before the prison, they rang the bell, and asked to speak to the inspector. He came out, and the moment he appeared Teacher Jensen and all the children began to sing: “O du fröhliche, o, du selige, gnaden-bringende Weihnachtszeit....

Stopping before the prison, they rang the bell and asked to speak to the inspector. He came out, and the moment he appeared, Teacher Jensen and all the kids began to sing: “O du fröhliche, o, du selige, gnaden-bringende Weihnachtszeit....

The inspector shook his head sadly and raised his hands in the air. It was impossible, absolutely impossible—he had said so. But the children kept right[278] on singing, and seemed not to hear him. As the inspector afterward said, when the director of all the prisons in that district demanded an explanation: “A man is only human, and had you been in my place, Mr. Director, you would have done as I did, even if it had cost you your position.”

The inspector shook his head sadly and raised his hands in the air. It was impossible, absolutely impossible—he had said so. But the kids kept singing and seemed not to hear him. As the inspector later explained when the head of all the prisons in that area asked for an explanation: “A person is only human, and if you had been in my position, Mr. Director, you would have acted like I did, even if it meant losing your job.”

Thus it came to pass that this one time Christmas was celebrated in each cell of the big prison—a good, happy, cheerful Christmas. When the prisoners came back from the worship of God with their black masks on their faces they found a Christmas tree in every cell, and the cell doors stood open until the candles had burned out, and the prisoners received permission to go freely from cell to cell all through the corridor to look at each other’s Christmas trees and gifts—to look at them and to compare them. But each prisoner thought that his little tree and his present were the most beautiful and the best of all.

So it happened that this one time Christmas was celebrated in every cell of the big prison—a good, happy, cheerful Christmas. When the prisoners returned from worship, their black masks still on, they found a Christmas tree in each cell, and the cell doors were left open until the candles burned out. The prisoners were allowed to move freely from cell to cell down the corridor to see each other's Christmas trees and gifts—to admire them and compare them. But each prisoner believed that his little tree and gift were the most beautiful and the best of all.

When the last light had burned out, the doors were closed, and far into the night the prisoners sang the Christmas carols of their childhood, free from distress, grief, and all spitefulness.

When the last light faded away, the doors were shut, and deep into the night, the prisoners sang the Christmas carols from their childhood, free from worry, sadness, and all bitterness.

And as the last light flickered out behind the high walls the thin figure of a man with his coat collar up over his ears and his hat pulled over his face crept along the prison wall. Through the night air he heard the voices singing, “Stille Nacht, heilige Nacht.

And as the last light faded behind the tall walls, a thin man with his coat collar pulled up over his ears and his hat pulled down over his face crept along the prison wall. In the night air, he heard voices singing, “Stille Nacht, heilige Nacht.

Clasping his hands tightly together and raising them aloft into the darkness, he cried: “I thank thee, father. Thy guilt has been atoned for ten times over.”

Clasping his hands tightly together and raising them up into the darkness, he shouted, “Thank you, Father. Your guilt has been paid off ten times over.”

FOOTNOTES:

[17] Reprinted from the “Living Age” by permission.

[17] Reprinted from "Living Age" with permission.


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HONORABLE TOMMY[18]

Mary E. Wilkins Freeman

Mary E. Wilkins Freeman


It was the day before Christmas, long ago, when Christmas was seldom observed in New England. There were two houses in the village separated by a wide yard in which the grass, of a dirty dun color, lay like a frost-woven mat underfoot, crunching when the children sped over it.

It was the day before Christmas, long ago, when Christmas was rarely celebrated in New England. There were two houses in the village separated by a wide yard where the grass, a dull brown color, lay like a frost-covered mat underfoot, crunching when the children rushed over it.

It was difficult to understand what the boy and girl found amusing in that dismal wintry yard, flanked on one side by the Dunbar farmhouse, with its enormous barns and outbuildings, on the other by the more modern house where the Roseberrys lived. There was probably nothing except the indomitable spirit of youth. The boy, Tommy Dunbar, and the girl, Cora Roseberry, raced back and forth between the leafless, creaking old cherry trees. They made leaps over a ledge of rock. The girl gave little squeals of merriment from time to time. The boy, although radiant, was silent. They were pretty children, but the fashions of their day detracted from their beauty.

It was hard to see what the boy and girl found funny in that bleak winter yard, bordered on one side by the Dunbar farmhouse with its huge barns and outbuildings, and on the other by the more modern house where the Roseberrys lived. It was probably just the unstoppable spirit of youth. The boy, Tommy Dunbar, and the girl, Cora Roseberry, dashed back and forth between the bare, creaking old cherry trees. They jumped over a rocky ledge. The girl let out little squeals of joy now and then. The boy, though beaming, stayed quiet. They were attractive kids, but the styles of their time took away from their beauty.

The girl, charmingly graceful, pink and white, with long blond curls, wore a hoop skirt and a frock of [280]royal Stuart plaid. She wore white stockings and ugly half-low shoes, a red knitted hood, and a shawl over her mother’s sontag. As she ran, the fringed corners of the blue and green plaid shawl flew out.

The girl, beautifully graceful, in pink and white, with long blonde curls, wore a hoop skirt and a dress of royal Stuart plaid. She had on white stockings and unattractive low-cut shoes, a red knitted hood, and a shawl over her mother's sontag. As she ran, the fringed edges of the blue and green plaid shawl fluttered behind her.

“You will catch cold,” said the boy thoughtfully. “Stop, Cora; you must let me tie the ends of your shawl.”

“You'll catch a cold,” the boy said thoughtfully. “Hold on, Cora; you need to let me tie the ends of your shawl.”

“It is cold,” agreed the girl: “but I have on Mother’s sontag under the shawl.” She glanced down admiringly and guiltily at the brilliant circle of her royal Stuart skirt. “Mother didn’t know I was going to wear this dress,” said she.

“It’s cold,” the girl agreed, “but I have on Mom’s shawl under this blanket.” She glanced down at her royal Stuart skirt, feeling both proud and a bit bad about it. “Mom didn’t know I was going to wear this dress,” she said.

“What made you?” asked the boy soberly. He was smaller than the girl, although of the same age. He was also paler. His attire was as absurd: trousers which seemed a queer evolution from skirts, an uncouth jacket, and wool cap and muffler. His features were good, but their expression of extreme seriousness baffled. His blue eyes under a high forehead were almost aggressively thoughtful for a mere child.

“What made you?” asked the boy seriously. He was smaller than the girl, even though they were the same age. He was also paler. His outfit was just as strange: pants that seemed like an odd version of skirts, an awkward jacket, and a wool cap and scarf. His features were attractive, but the look of extreme seriousness on his face was confusing. His blue eyes, set under a high forehead, were almost intensely thoughtful for a little kid.

“Will your mother scold you?”

"Will your mom scold you?"

“My mother scold me!” The girl burst into a roulade of laughter. “Mother never scolds me, neither does Father. Everybody loves me, you know,” she said prettily.

“My mom never scolds me!” The girl broke into a fit of laughter. “Mom never scolds me, and neither does Dad. Everyone loves me, you know,” she said sweetly.

Tommy Dunbar gazed reflectively at Cora. He was considering what would have happened to him had he clad himself, without permission from his aunts Nancy and Sarah and his Uncle Reuben, in the bright blue broadcloth suit with a white frill round the neck which he wore Sundays.

Tommy Dunbar stared thoughtfully at Cora. He was thinking about what might have happened if he had dressed himself, without permission from his aunts Nancy and Sarah and his Uncle Reuben, in the bright blue suit made of broadcloth with a white ruffle around the neck that he wore on Sundays.

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Cora looked at him curiously. “Do your folks treat you bad if you do things you want to?” she inquired. Tommy was silent.

Cora looked at him with curiosity. “Do your parents treat you poorly if you do things you want to?” she asked. Tommy was quiet.

“Why don’t you answer?”

“Why aren’t you responding?”

“My folks do the way they think is right, I guess,” said Tommy, with a stolid air.

“My parents do what they believe is right, I guess,” said Tommy, with a matter-of-fact attitude.

Cora gave her long curls a toss. She dismissed the subject.

Cora tossed her long curls. She brushed off the topic.

“You can’t catch me, running around every one of the cherry trees three times,” declared she, and was off.

“You can’t catch me, running around all the cherry trees three times,” she said, and took off.

Cora ran round the trees, with Tommy following at a fixed distance, according to his code of honor, then stopped, squealing with glee. “Couldn’t! Told you so,” said she. Cora was charming. She conquered her ugly clothes. In a way, Tommy Dunbar conquered his. There was a very noble, manly expression on his young face above the uncouth jacket and muffler.

Cora ran around the trees, with Tommy following at a set distance, sticking to his principles. Then she stopped, squealing with joy. “Couldn’t! Told you so,” she said. Cora was delightful. She made her unattractive clothes work for her. In a way, Tommy Dunbar did the same. There was a very noble, masculine look on his young face, despite the awkward jacket and scarf.

Cora sniffed. “What are they cooking over at your folks’?” said she.

Cora sniffed. “What are they cooking over at your place?” she asked.

“They’re doing pig work,” replied Tommy. “That’s lard trying out you smell.”

“They’re doing pig work,” replied Tommy. “That’s the smell of lard cooking.”

“Seems to me funny work to be doing the day before Christmas,” said Cora.

"Seems funny to me to be working the day before Christmas," Cora said.

Tommy stared.

Tommy was staring.

Cora stared back. “You look as if you’d never heard of Christmas,” said she. “Are you going to have a tree, or hang up your stocking?”

Cora stared back. “You look like you’ve never heard of Christmas,” she said. “Are you going to have a tree or hang up your stocking?”

Tommy hesitated; then he said feebly: “I guess I’ll hang up my stocking.”

Tommy hesitated, then he said weakly, “I guess I’ll hang up my stocking.”

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“That’s what I’m going to do this Christmas.” Cora lowered her voice. “That’s really what Mother went to Boston for,” she whispered. “You see, I know perfectly well that Father and Mother and Aunt Emmy and Grandpa and Cousin Ellen give the things that go in my stocking. But I like to make believe it’s Santa Claus, and it pleases the others, so I do.”

“That's what I'm going to do this Christmas.” Cora lowered her voice. “That's really why Mom went to Boston,” she whispered. “You see, I know for sure that Dad, Mom, Aunt Emmy, Grandpa, and Cousin Ellen are the ones who put stuff in my stocking. But I like to pretend it's Santa Claus, and it makes the others happy, so I do.”

To Tommy the remark was enigmatical, but he made no comment.

To Tommy, the comment was puzzling, but he didn’t say anything.

“I shall hang my stocking by the fireplace in the sitting-room,” said Cora. “Where will you hang yours?”

“I’m going to hang my stocking by the fireplace in the living room,” said Cora. “Where will you hang yours?”

“Guess I’ll hang mine by the fireplace in the sitting-room, too,” muttered Tommy; but he had an anxious, bewildered expression.

“Guess I’ll hang mine by the fireplace in the living room, too,” muttered Tommy; but he had an anxious, confused look on his face.

It did not dawn upon Cora that Tommy Dunbar had never in his life hung up his stocking, but so it was.

It didn’t occur to Cora that Tommy Dunbar had never hung up his stocking in his life, but that was the case.

Cora saw her mother getting out of the stage-coach, and summarily ran home. Tommy also went home, sniffing the smell of lard and roast meat.

Cora saw her mom getting out of the stagecoach and quickly ran home. Tommy also headed home, smelling the lard and roast meat.

He enjoyed his supper of crisp roast spare-ribs, turnips, baked potatoes and pumpkin pie. At the table were his Uncle Reuben and his aunts Sarah and Nancy. His grandmother was confined to her room with a cold, otherwise things would have been different. Tommy’s grandmother could not have connived in the after-happenings of that day. Before going up-stairs to bed Tommy stopped to say good night to her. She sat propped up in her great bed, with a[283] white shawl over her shoulders, and she was knitting. She smiled serenely at Tommy.

He enjoyed his dinner of crispy roast spare ribs, turnips, baked potatoes, and pumpkin pie. At the table were his Uncle Reuben and his aunts Sarah and Nancy. His grandmother was stuck in her room with a cold; otherwise, things would have been different. Tommy’s grandmother wouldn’t have been able to interfere in the events of that day. Before heading upstairs to bed, Tommy stopped to say goodnight to her. She sat propped up in her big bed, with a white shawl draped over her shoulders, and she was knitting. She smiled peacefully at Tommy.

If anything, serenity was a fault in Grandmother Dunbar. No minor trials of life disturbed her, and she often assumed erroneously that they did not disturb other people. However, she was the mother of children, and when a child was in question the surface of her sweet calm could be ruffled. If only she had known—but she did not know. She smiled at Tommy, and her large pink-and-white face, framed in white ruffles, represented to the child personified love. His mother had died when he was a baby, his father two years ago, and Tommy had speeded to this grandmotherly shelter.

If anything, serenity was a flaw in Grandmother Dunbar. No minor challenges of life bothered her, and she often mistakenly believed they didn’t bother other people either. However, she was a mother, and when it came to her children, her sweet calm could be shaken. If only she had realized—but she didn’t. She smiled at Tommy, and her large pink-and-white face, framed in white ruffles, symbolized love to the child. His mother had passed away when he was a baby, and his father died two years ago, so Tommy had rushed to this grandmotherly refuge.

Tommy kissed her good night with effusion. It was a pity that he did not confide in her; but he was very shy and shamed before the unwonted idea in his mind. His grandmother gave him a peppermint, and told him not to forget his prayers, and he climbed up-stairs to his own bedroom. It was an icy room, and almost reproachfully neat.

Tommy kissed her goodnight warmly. It was unfortunate that he didn't share his thoughts with her; he felt too shy and embarrassed about the unusual idea he had. His grandmother handed him a peppermint and reminded him not to forget his prayers, then he went upstairs to his own bedroom. It was a cold room, and almost too neat for comfort.

Tommy said his prayers, and went to bed, but not to sleep. His room was over the sitting-room. He could hear the hum of conversation below. He knew each voice, although he could not distinguish one word. Aunt Nancy’s was very shrill, punctuated by frequent bursts of laughter. Aunt Sarah’s was of lower pitch. Uncle Reuben had a deep bass growl. Tommy listened. Presently they would all go out in the back kitchen to grind sausage meat.

Tommy said his prayers and went to bed, but not to sleep. His room was above the living room. He could hear the chatter below. He recognized each voice, even though he couldn't make out any words. Aunt Nancy had a very high-pitched voice, often interrupted by bursts of laughter. Aunt Sarah's voice was lower. Uncle Reuben had a deep, rumbling tone. Tommy listened. Soon they would all head to the back kitchen to grind sausage meat.

Soon silence settled down upon the floor below.[284] They were all out in the back kitchen. Tommy crept very softly out of bed. He took one of his knitted blue yarn stockings, and he went down-stairs, padding on his bare feet. Tommy wore a red flannel nightgown. When he opened the sitting-room door and the fire-light on the hearth illumined him, he looked like a little Fra Angelico angel. His fair hair, crested smoothly over his forehead, caught the light. His pale cheeks were rosy with reflection.

Soon, silence settled down on the floor below.[284] They were all in the back kitchen. Tommy quietly got out of bed. He grabbed one of his knitted blue yarn stockings and went downstairs, padding on his bare feet. Tommy was wearing a red flannel nightgown. When he opened the sitting-room door and the light from the fire on the hearth illuminated him, he looked like a little angel from a Fra Angelico painting. His fair hair, neatly styled over his forehead, caught the light. His pale cheeks were flushed with color.

He tiptoed across the floor and hung the blue yarn stocking in the fire-place. Then he beat a retreat; but he had been discovered. His aunt Nancy, whose hearing was almost preternatural, had heard the stairs creak under his little feet and had pulled the others along with her. They were all peeking around the kitchen door. However, they were out of range of the fireplace. They only saw Tommy approach, then steal away in that flickering red light. Reuben held them back until the sitting-room door was closed, and the pit-pat of Tommy’s bare feet had ceased upon the stairs. Then the three hearty, healthy, kindly, but obtuse, young people entered the sitting-room.

He tiptoed across the floor and hung the blue yarn stocking in the fireplace. Then he made a quick getaway; but he had been caught. His aunt Nancy, whose hearing was almost supernatural, had heard the stairs creak under his little feet and had pulled the others along with her. They were all peeking around the kitchen door. However, they were out of range of the fireplace. They only saw Tommy approach, then sneak away in that flickering red light. Reuben held them back until the living room door was closed, and the sound of Tommy’s bare feet had stopped on the stairs. Then the three lively, healthy, friendly, but somewhat clueless, young people entered the living room.

“He certainly was fussing about something in the fireplace,” said Nancy. Suddenly she made a pounce. She pointed. She shook and bent with stifled laughter. The others looked. They saw poor Tommy’s blue stocking, symbolic of childish faith, hanging in the fireplace. Nancy laughed, and Sarah laughed, but cautiously. Reuben stared.

“He was definitely messing with something in the fireplace,” said Nancy. Suddenly, she lunged forward. She pointed, shaking and bending over with suppressed laughter. The others looked. They saw poor Tommy’s blue sock, a symbol of childhood innocence, hanging in the fireplace. Nancy laughed, and Sarah joined in, but cautiously. Reuben just stared.

“What’s the stockin’ doin’ there?” he inquired, with no lowering of his deep voice.

“What’s the stocking doing there?” he asked, without lowering his deep voice.

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Tommy up-stairs heard him, and trembled. Then he heard no more, for his aunts hushed his uncle peremptorily. They pulled him out into the kitchen.

Tommy upstairs heard him and shook with fear. Then he didn’t hear anything else because his aunts silenced his uncle firmly. They took him out into the kitchen.

“What in creation—?” began Reuben.

“What on earth—?” began Reuben.

“Reuben, do hush up. He’ll hear you,” gasped Nancy. “It’s—it’s——”

“Reuben, please be quiet. He’ll hear you,” gasped Nancy. “It’s—it’s——”

“It’s what? What did he come down like that for, and hang his stockin’ there? Is he crazy?”

“It’s what? Why did he come down like that and hang his stocking there? Is he out of his mind?”

“It’s Christmas to-morrow,” replied Nancy, choking with laughter.

“It’s Christmas tomorrow,” replied Nancy, struggling to contain her laughter.

“And he was out in the yard with Cora this afternoon, and she must have told him she was going to hang her stocking, and put him up to it,” said Sarah between giggles.

“And he was out in the yard with Cora this afternoon, and she must have told him she was going to hang her stocking and got him to do it,” said Sarah between giggles.

“Grace went to Boston this morning,” said Nancy. “I know she went to buy presents for Cora. They’re just spoiling that child.”

“Grace went to Boston this morning,” said Nancy. “I know she went to buy gifts for Cora. They’re just spoiling that kid.”

Reuben scowled. “If,” said he, “Grace wants to fill her child’s head with such nonsense, I do wish she would tell her not to talk to Tommy. Hangin’ his stockin’ in the chimney!”

Reuben frowned. “If,” he said, “Grace wants to fill her kid’s head with that kind of nonsense, I wish she’d tell her not to talk to Tommy. Hanging his stocking in the chimney!”

However, Reuben, who was not an ill-natured man, grinned as he spoke. Into his small brown eyes leapt a spark of malicious mischief.

However, Reuben, who wasn't a bad guy, grinned as he spoke. A glimmer of playful mischief lit up his small brown eyes.

“I’ll fix up his stockin’; I vum I will,” declared Reuben. He began to laugh. They all laughed.

“I’ll take care of his stocking; I swear I will,” Reuben declared. He started to laugh. They all laughed.

“What are you going to do, Reuben?” inquired Nancy.

“What are you going to do, Reuben?” Nancy asked.

Reuben whispered. The heads of the three conspirators were close together. When Reuben finished,[286] they all laughed until the tears ran down their cheeks. Reuben’s plan seemed to them such a joke.

Reuben whispered. The heads of the three conspirators were close together. When Reuben finished,[286] they all laughed until tears streamed down their cheeks. Reuben’s plan felt like such a joke to them.

The three, stifling their laughter, filled the blue yarn stocking. When it hung bulging, they fairly clung together and reeled, they were so overcome by the fun of the thing.

The three of them, trying to hold back their laughter, stuffed the blue yarn stocking. When it was filled to the brim, they clung together and stumbled, completely overwhelmed by the hilarity of it all.

“He will come down by dawn to find it,” giggled Nancy. She and Sarah slept on the ground floor, Reuben above.

“He'll come down by dawn to find it,” giggled Nancy. She and Sarah slept on the ground floor, Reuben above.

“I will sleep with one ear open,” said he. “I shall hear him come downstairs.”

“I'll sleep with one ear open,” he said. “I’ll hear him come down.”

“Mind you don’t let him hear you,” cautioned Sarah. “Nancy and I will be on the lookout.”

“Make sure he doesn’t hear you,” warned Sarah. “Nancy and I will keep an eye out.”

Soon the house was still. The street was still, hushed by an evening of fast-falling snow. Everybody slept except Tommy. He lay awake in a sort of ecstasy. He did not know what he expected. Afterward he was never able to define the nature of his joyful expectancy, but he lay awake in one of the transports of awaited happiness which do not come often in a lifetime. All the beautiful symbolism of Christmas was astir in him, like a strain of wonderful music. Little New England boy, who had never known a Yuletide, it may be that ancestral memory had been awakened in him, that the joy of his ancestors over the merry holy time of the year thrilled him.

Soon the house was quiet. The street was peaceful, quieted by an evening of softly falling snow. Everyone was asleep except Tommy. He lay awake in a kind of bliss. He didn’t know what he was hoping for. Later, he could never quite explain the nature of his joyful anticipation, but he lay awake in one of those rare moments of expected happiness that don’t come often in life. All the beautiful symbolism of Christmas was alive in him, like a melody of wonderful music. Little New England boy, who had never experienced a Christmas, it’s possible that ancestral memory had been stirred in him, that the joy of his ancestors over the festive season filled him with excitement.

The storm clouds had passed. He could see a great star from his window. He gazed at it so steadily that its rays became multiplied. Finally the star, to his concentrated vision, seemed surrounded by a halo of[287] rainbows. He lay there waiting for the dawn, in such bliss as he might never again in his whole life attain, since that bliss was to be dashed back into the very face of his soul with a shock as of spiritual ice.

The storm clouds had cleared. He could see a bright star from his window. He stared at it so intensely that its rays seemed to multiply. Eventually, the star, through his focused gaze, appeared to be surrounded by a halo of[287] rainbows. He lay there waiting for dawn, in a blissful state he might never experience again in his entire life, since that bliss was about to be shattered with a shock like spiritual ice.

That Christmas morning the dawn was beautiful, and Tommy’s window faced the east. He saw first a pallor of light along the horizon; then beams of cowslip-gold, rose and violet shot upward like an aurora. Tommy crept out of bed. He padded down-stairs. The cold was bitter, but he did not feel it. The poor little man in his red flannel nightgown entered the sitting-room. There was a faint glow on the hearth. He stole near. Yes, his stocking was full, bulging with unknown treasures.

That Christmas morning, the sunrise was beautiful, and Tommy’s window faced the east. He first saw a lightening along the horizon, then beams of golden yellow, pink, and violet shooting up like an aurora. Tommy quietly got out of bed and padded downstairs. The cold was intense, but he didn’t notice it. The poor little guy in his red flannel nightgown entered the living room. There was a faint glow in the fireplace. He crept closer. Yes, his stocking was full, bulging with unknown treasures.

He did not hear his uncle Reuben coming down-stairs behind him, then hiding observant in a dark corner of the front entry. He did not see his aunts’ faces peering around a crack of their bedroom door. He clutched the stocking. He was trembling with delight. He had intended to run up-stairs and discover his wealth in his own room, but he could not wait. He sat down on the hearth and began to explore.

He didn't hear his uncle Reuben coming down the stairs behind him, quietly watching from a dark corner of the front entry. He didn't notice his aunts' faces peeking around the crack of their bedroom door. He held the stocking tightly, trembling with excitement. He had planned to rush upstairs and check out his treasure in his own room, but he couldn't wait. He sat down on the hearth and started to explore.

When it was over, just one little sharp sound broke the silence. Nancy said afterward it sounded as if some boy had stepped on a very little dog and killed him. After that, silence came again. Somehow the watchers did not feel like laughing. Tommy stood up. The dawn light fell full upon his white, stern little face. He crammed the miserable travesties of Christmas treasures back into the stocking. He went[288] straight to the outer door. He shot the bolt. He went out.

When it was all over, just one sharp sound broke the silence. Nancy said later it sounded like a boy had stepped on a tiny dog and killed it. After that, silence returned. Somehow, the onlookers didn't feel like laughing. Tommy stood up. The morning light flooded over his pale, serious little face. He stuffed the sad mockeries of Christmas gifts back into the stocking. He went straight to the outer door. He locked the bolt. He stepped outside.

“Mercy on us!” gasped Nancy.

“Have mercy on us!” gasped Nancy.

“He will catch his death of cold going out in his night-gown,” said Sarah. She was very pale.

“He's going to catch a cold going out in his nightgown,” said Sarah. She looked very pale.

Reuben came into the room. He looked frightened. “Where has he gone?” he demanded.

Reuben walked into the room, looking scared. “Where did he go?” he asked.

Sarah and Nancy hushed him and drew him into their own room. They peered out, and saw the boy, with the stern white face of a man, march in. He held his blue yarn stocking dangling limply. He went up-stairs. They heard his door close. The three went together into the sitting-room. Nancy was almost weeping, Reuben scowled, Sarah’s pale face wore a puzzled expression.

Sarah and Nancy quieted him and pulled him into their room. They looked out and saw the boy, with a serious, pale face that made him look like a man, walking in. He had his blue sock hanging loosely. He went upstairs. They heard his door shut. The three of them went into the living room together. Nancy was nearly in tears, Reuben frowned, and Sarah's pale face showed confusion.

“I did not think he would take it like that,” half sobbed Nancy. Sarah looked accusingly at her brother.

“I didn’t think he’d react like that,” Nancy said through half-sobs. Sarah shot an accusing glance at her brother.

“I don’t see why you did it,” she said.

“I don’t understand why you did that,” she said.

“You thought it was as good a joke as I did,” retorted Reuben. He shook himself, took his cap from a peg, and went out.

“You thought it was as funny a joke as I did,” Reuben shot back. He shook himself off, grabbed his cap from a hook, and left.

Nancy and Sarah, left alone, stood and stared at each other in dismay. They did not give speech to it, but at that moment both realized that childhood was a land left far behind them. Nancy’s lover had died two years before. Queerly enough, she thought of him now. Sometime he had been a little boy like poor Tommy.

Nancy and Sarah, left alone, stood and stared at each other in shock. They didn’t say anything, but in that moment, both understood that childhood was a place they had long since left behind. Nancy’s partner had died two years earlier. Strangely enough, she thought of him now. At one point, he had been a little boy like poor Tommy.

“I s’pose we ought to have known better,” Sarah thought. All she said was, “I guess Grace Roseberry will think we’re heathen.”

“I suppose we should have known better,” Sarah thought. All she said was, “I guess Grace Roseberry will think we’re uncivilized.”

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“Perhaps he—won’t—tell,” said Nancy hesitatingly.

“Maybe he—won’t—tell,” said Nancy hesitantly.

“Children always tell,” returned Sarah. “Let him tell. It is all Grace’s fault, spoiling Cora and having her put such ideas into Tommy’s head. Come, it’s time to get breakfast. You go in and see how Mother is; if she had a good night.”

“Kids always talk,” Sarah replied. “Let him speak. This is all Grace’s fault, pampering Cora and putting these ideas in Tommy’s head. Come on, it’s time for breakfast. You go inside and check on Mom; see if she had a good night.”

“Mother wouldn’t like it,” murmured Nancy.

“Mom wouldn’t like it,” whispered Nancy.

“She’ll give him some pep’mints and coddle him up when he tells her,” said Sarah.

“She’ll give him some mints and baby him when he tells her,” said Sarah.

“Perhaps he won’t tell,” returned Nancy.

"Maybe he won't say anything," Nancy replied.

“Of course he’ll tell; children always tell. Let him. I’ve done nothing that I’m ashamed of. It was only a joke. It will cure him of being so silly, too. I’ll start the breakfast while you look after Mother.”

“Of course he’ll spill the beans; kids always do. Let him. I’ve got nothing to be ashamed of. It was just a joke. It’ll teach him not to be so silly, too. I’ll make breakfast while you take care of Mom.”

Then Tommy was heard on the stairs. He entered the room, clad in his uncouth suit, and went soberly through on his way to the wood-shed. It was his morning task to chop up the kindling wood. Tommy’s face was still white and unchildlike, and the sisters regarded each other with something like fear when he had disappeared.

Then Tommy was heard coming down the stairs. He walked into the room, dressed in his awkward suit, and quietly made his way to the wood-shed. It was his morning job to chop kindling wood. Tommy’s face was still pale and looked unnaturally serious, and the sisters exchanged glances filled with something like fear after he left.

“All I’ve got to say is, a child as silly as that ought to be taught sense, and I guess it’s just as well it happened,” said Sarah.

“All I have to say is that a child as silly as that should be taught some common sense, and I think it’s just as well that it happened,” said Sarah.

“He’s had time enough to tell Mother; but I don’t believe he has.”

“He's had plenty of time to tell Mom; but I don't think he has.”

“Well, if he has told, Mother has coddled him; but he looked just the same.”

“Well, if he spilled the beans, Mom has spoiled him; but he looked exactly the same.”

“Maybe we are making too much fuss over nothing,” said Nancy. Sarah went into the kitchen, stepping[290] heavily and quickly, and Nancy entered her mother’s room. The old woman was awake, and she smiled serenely at her daughter.

“Maybe we're making a big deal out of nothing,” said Nancy. Sarah went into the kitchen, walking heavily and quickly, and Nancy entered her mom's room. The old woman was awake, and she smiled peacefully at her daughter.

“He hasn’t told,” thought Nancy with relief. When she joined her sister in the kitchen she said, “Sarah, he hasn’t told Mother. He’s a good boy.”

“He hasn’t said anything,” thought Nancy with relief. When she joined her sister in the kitchen, she said, “Sarah, he hasn’t told Mom. He’s a good guy.”

“He will tell,” returned Sarah grimly, “and he can, for all me.”

"He'll talk," Sarah replied grimly, "and he can, as far as I'm concerned."

But Tommy did not tell, although as time went on he was subjected to a severe ordeal. It began that very morning out in the yard under the cherry trees. The light fall of snow was not enough to admit of sleighing, but enough to make as good an excuse for using a Christmas sled as a child could wish. Out there, on the thin glistening rime of snow was Cora Roseberry, dragging a superfine sled, gaudily painted and named “Snow Bird.” Cora wore a set of furs, although the muff was dreadfully in her way. It was a Christmas present. She also wore a bright red cloak lined with plaid, another Christmas present, and on one hand a kid glove. The other hand was bare, because it was decorated with a gold ring with a garnet stone.

But Tommy didn’t say anything, even though as time went on he faced a tough situation. It all started that morning in the yard under the cherry trees. The light snowfall wasn’t enough for sledding, but it was a good enough excuse to use a Christmas sled, as any kid would want. Out there, on the thin, shiny layer of snow was Cora Roseberry, pulling a fancy sled, brightly painted and named “Snow Bird.” Cora was wearing a set of furs, even though the muff was really cumbersome. It was a Christmas gift. She also had on a bright red cloak lined with plaid, another Christmas gift, and a kid glove on one hand. The other hand was bare because it was adorned with a gold ring featuring a garnet stone.

When she saw Tommy she hailed him. “Come here, quick, quick!” she called in her thin sweet voice.

When she saw Tommy, she called out to him, “Come here, quick, quick!” in her soft, sweet voice.

“Oh, Tommy Dunbar, you are so slow!” she cried as he came up. “I want you to just look at my Christmas presents! See my sled, see my furs, see my red cape, see my kid gloves, real kid, the first I’ve had. And oh, Tommy, see my ring! See how it shines!”

“Oh, Tommy Dunbar, you are so slow!” she exclaimed as he finally arrived. “You have to check out my Christmas gifts! Look at my sled, look at my furs, look at my red cape, look at my kid gloves, real kid, the first ones I’ve ever had. And oh, Tommy, check out my ring! Look how it sparkles!”

Tommy nodded soberly. He was not jealous, but he[291] could not bring himself to show hilarity after his own experience.

Tommy nodded seriously. He wasn't jealous, but he[291] couldn't bring himself to show any excitement after what he had been through.

“And these ain’t near all,” boasted Cora. “I’ve got two books, a red one and a blue one, with pictures, and a photograph album, and oranges, and candy, and a game, and lots of other things. Say, can’t you come in our house and see them?”

“And these aren’t even all of them,” Cora bragged. “I’ve got two books, one red and one blue, with pictures, and a photo album, and oranges, and candy, and a game, and a bunch of other stuff. Come on, can’t you come in our house and check them out?”

“I guess I can’t just now,” replied Tommy gravely.

“I guess I can't do that right now,” replied Tommy seriously.

“I’ve got a new doll with real hair and a pink spangled dress, and a stereoscope with lots of pictures. Say, Tommy, don’t you want to look at the pictures through my stereoscope?”

“I got a new doll with real hair and a pink sparkly dress, and a stereoscope with lots of pictures. Hey, Tommy, don’t you want to look at the pictures through my stereoscope?”

Tommy shook his head. He would have liked to own a stereoscope.

Tommy shook his head. He would have liked to own a stereo viewer.

“They’re real pretty. They couldn’t all go into my stocking. They were all round it on the floor. Say, Tommy, did you hang your stocking?”

“They're really pretty. They couldn't all fit in my stocking. They were all around it on the floor. Hey, Tommy, did you hang your stocking?”

Tommy hesitated just one moment. Then—he had the blood of honest soldiers in his veins—he nodded.

Tommy paused for a moment. Then—he had the blood of honest soldiers in his veins—he nodded.

“Oh, Tommy, what did you have in your stockings?”

“Oh, Tommy, what did you find in your stockings?”

“Useful things,” replied Tommy gruffly.

“Helpful stuff,” replied Tommy gruffly.

“What kind of useful things? Mittens?”

“What kind of useful things? Mittens?”

“I said useful things,” replied Tommy with masculine dignity and finality. He walked away with the proud carriage of a victor leaving a hardly won battlefield, while Cora screamed after him. “Tommy Dunbar, I think you are real mean, so there!”

“I said useful things,” Tommy replied with a sense of masculine dignity and finality. He walked away with the proud stance of a victor leaving a hard-fought battlefield, while Cora yelled after him, “Tommy Dunbar, I think you’re really mean, so there!”

Nancy and Sarah had seen Tommy out in the yard talking to Cora.

Nancy and Sarah had seen Tommy outside in the yard talking to Cora.

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“I wonder if Tommy’s telling Cora,” said Nancy uneasily.

“I’m not sure if Tommy is telling Cora,” Nancy said nervously.

“Let him, if he wants to; I’m sure I don’t care. This hanging stockings Christmas and talking about Santa Claus, is silly and heathenish, anyway.”

"Let him do what he wants; I really don't care. This whole hanging stockings for Christmas and talking about Santa Claus is silly and kind of ridiculous, anyway."

Nancy still looked uneasy. When Tommy entered she did not hesitate. “What did Cora mean by speaking to you like that? What had you done?” she said.

Nancy still looked anxious. When Tommy walked in, she didn’t hold back. “What did Cora mean by talking to you like that? What did you do?” she asked.

“I hadn’t done anything.”

"I didn't do anything."

“What did she mean?” persisted Aunt Nancy. Aunt Sarah was looking at him; so was his uncle.

“What did she mean?” Aunt Nancy kept asking. Aunt Sarah was looking at him; so was his uncle.

The little boy looked at them. In his small face was an expression of scorn so high that it was entirely above all petty, childish resentment. “She said that because I wouldn’t tell her what was in my stocking,” he replied.

The little boy looked at them. On his small face was an expression of disdain so intense that it was completely beyond any minor, childish bitterness. “She said that because I wouldn’t tell her what was in my stocking,” he replied.

“Why wouldn’t you tell her?” inquired his aunt Sarah sharply.

“Why wouldn’t you tell her?” his Aunt Sarah asked sharply.

“Because I am ashamed,” said Tommy. “I shall never tell anybody, because I am ashamed.”

“Because I’m embarrassed,” Tommy said. “I’ll never tell anyone, because I’m embarrassed.”

“Ashamed of what?” demanded Sarah. Her face was flushed.

“Ashamed of what?” Sarah asked, her face flushed.

“Ashamed of you all,” replied Tommy simply.

“Ashamed of all of you,” replied Tommy plainly.

Then Tommy walked out. Another morning task of his was replenishing the hearth fire and cleaning the hearth in the sitting-room. They heard him about it. The three looked at one another. A dim conception of the nobility of the trust of childhood and the enormity of its betrayal was over them. Nancy whimpered a little.

Then Tommy walked out. Another morning task of his was to restock the fire in the hearth and clean it in the sitting room. They could hear him doing it. The three exchanged glances. A vague sense of the importance of the trust of childhood and the weight of its betrayal hung over them. Nancy whimpered a little.

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“We never ought to have done such a thing,” she said unsteadily.

“We should have never done that,” she said unsteadily.

Reuben echoed her. “No, we shouldn’t.”

Reuben agreed with her. “No, we shouldn’t.”

“Well, what’s done can’t be undone,” said Sarah, but she also looked disturbed.

“Well, what’s done can’t be changed,” said Sarah, but she also looked upset.

“Suppose Reuben hitches up, and we go down to the store and get some things for him,” suggested Nancy timidly.

“Let’s say Reuben gets ready, and we head to the store to pick up some things for him,” Nancy suggested shyly.

Reuben denied the motion peremptorily. “If you think you can salve over matters that way, with a boy like that, you are mistaken,” said he. “I could tell you that, both of you.”

Reuben rejected the motion outright. “If you think you can smooth things over like that, with a kid like him, you’re wrong,” he said. “I could tell you that, both of you.”

There was the sharp tinkle of a bell, and Nancy started. “That’s Mother’s bell,” said she.

There was a sharp ring of a bell, and Nancy jumped. “That’s Mom’s bell,” she said.

“I’ll go see what she wants,” said Sarah.

“I'll go find out what she wants,” said Sarah.

Sarah entered her mother’s room, and the old woman looked up at her from her feather-bed nest. “What did you ring your bell for, Mother?” Sarah asked.

Sarah walked into her mother’s room, and the elderly woman looked up at her from her feather-bed nest. “Why did you ring your bell, Mother?” Sarah asked.

“Is that door shut tight?” asked her Mother.

“Is that door closed all the way?” her mom asked.

“Yes, it is.”

"Yep, it is."

“I don’t want Tommy to hear. Sarah, what ails Tommy?”

“I don’t want Tommy to hear. Sarah, what’s wrong with Tommy?”

Sarah was a truthful woman, but she hedged. “What do you mean, Mother?”

Sarah was an honest woman, but she was cautious. “What do you mean, Mom?”

“I called him in here a minute ago to give him a pep’mint, and that child don’t look a mite well. Has he been complaining?”

“I called him in here a minute ago to give him a peppermint, and that kid doesn’t look well at all. Has he been complaining?”

“No, he ain’t.”

“No, he isn't.”

“You don’t think he’s et too much sassage?”

“You don’t think he’s eaten too much sausage?”

“I know he didn’t.” Sarah’s voice gained emphasis.[294] She was relieved at being able to tell the truth without evasion.

“I know he didn’t.” Sarah’s voice became more pointed.[294] She felt a sense of relief from being able to speak the truth openly.

“Well, all I’ve got to say is that child don’t look right this morning,” said her mother. “If I was up and about I’d put him to bed and dose him. I’m afraid he’s in for a sick spell. What’s that?”

“Well, all I’ve got to say is that kid doesn't look right this morning,” said her mother. “If I were up and about, I’d put him to bed and give him some medicine. I’m afraid he’s about to get sick. What’s that?”

There had been a sound of a sudden fall in the sitting-room. The grandmother sat up. “I knew it!” said she. “I’m going to get up.”

There was a loud noise from the sitting room. The grandmother sat up. “I knew it!” she said. “I’m going to get up.”

“You keep still, Mother,” said Sarah, who had turned white.

“You stay quiet, Mom,” said Sarah, who had gone pale.

“Then you run and see, and you leave my door wide open, or I’ll get up.”

“Then you go and see, and leave my door wide open, or I’ll get up.”

Sarah obeyed. On the floor in the sitting-room lay Tommy in a little sprawl of unconsciousness. Over him knelt Nancy and Reuben.

Sarah listened. On the floor in the living room lay Tommy, sprawled out and unconscious. Kneeling beside him were Nancy and Reuben.

“Stop asking him what the matter is when he’s fainted dead away, and fetch me the bottle of cordial from the top butt’ry shelf, Reuben; and you, Nancy, get the camphor bottle, quick,” commanded Sarah.

“Stop asking him what's wrong when he’s passed out, and bring me the bottle of cordial from the top pantry shelf, Reuben; and you, Nancy, grab the camphor bottle, quickly,” ordered Sarah.

After a while Tommy was revived, but he was a sick little boy. He was put to bed in the little room out of his grandmother’s, and the doctor was called. At that date the medical fraternity was not very anxious concerning shocks to the nerves. Tommy swallowed valerian and was afterward comforted with peppermints. He had a hot brick at his feet, and nobody spoke out loud anywhere near him.

After a while, Tommy came to, but he was a sick little boy. He was laid down in the small room next to his grandmother’s, and the doctor was called. Back then, doctors weren’t very worried about shocks to the nerves. Tommy took some valerian and was later comforted with peppermints. He had a hot brick at his feet, and nobody spoke loudly nearby.

“He is a very delicate child,” said the doctor out in the sitting-room with the door tightly closed. “Don’t give him much to eat to-day.”

“He's a very delicate child,” said the doctor in the sitting room with the door tightly closed. “Don't give him much to eat today.”

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“A little jelly?” sobbed Nancy, who was quite overcome.

“A little jelly?” cried Nancy, who was really upset.

“Oh, yes, jelly and toast and weak tea when he wakes up,” said the doctor.

“Oh, yes, jelly and toast and weak tea when he wakes up,” said the doctor.

Tommy slept for hours. He was a delicate child, and his night of rapt wakefulness, his terrible disillusionment, his lack of food, for he had eaten no breakfast, had all been too much for him.

Tommy slept for hours. He was a fragile kid, and his night of intense restlessness, his painful disappointment, and his lack of food—since he hadn't eaten breakfast—had all been too overwhelming for him.

It was after the noon dinner when he awaked and had his tea and toast and jelly. He had just finished it when there was a sound of wheels and horse hoofs in the yard. The snow had all melted and the ground was quite bare. Nancy and Reuben ran to the windows.

It was after lunch when he woke up and had his tea, toast, and jelly. He had just finished when he heard the sound of wheels and horse hooves in the yard. The snow had melted, and the ground was completely bare. Nancy and Reuben ran to the windows.

“It’s Tom Loring,” exclaimed Nancy. Tom Loring was Tommy’s mother’s brother, his uncle Tom.

“It’s Tom Loring,” Nancy shouted. Tom Loring was Tommy’s mom’s brother, his Uncle Tom.

Sarah came running out from Tommy’s bedside. “He’s better,” said she joyfully. “He has eaten every mite.”

Sarah came running out from Tommy's bedside. "He's better," she said happily. "He's eaten every bit."

“Tom Loring has come,” announced Nancy.

“Tom Loring is here,” announced Nancy.

“I suppose now there will be a to-do. I suppose that child will tell the whole thing, and we can’t ever make Tom Loring understand,” said Sarah.

“I guess there’s going to be a fuss now. I guess that kid will spill the whole story, and we can’t ever get Tom Loring to understand,” said Sarah.

“Tommy won’t tell,” said Reuben grimly. He had not eaten much dinner himself, and he looked downcast. He was really fond of Tommy.

“Tommy won’t spill,” Reuben said gloomily. He hadn’t eaten much dinner himself, and he looked pretty down. He really cared for Tommy.

Sarah ushered Uncle Tom Loring into the sitting-room. He was a youngish man, stout and rosy. “Where’s Tommy?” he demanded.

Sarah led Uncle Tom Loring into the living room. He was a somewhat young man, plump and cheerful. “Where’s Tommy?” he asked.

“Tommy had a little sick spell just before dinner,”[296] said Sarah entering, wiping her hands on her apron. “How do you do, Tom?”

“Tommy had a little bout of illness just before dinner,”[296] said Sarah as she came in, wiping her hands on her apron. “How are you doing, Tom?”

“Sick spell!” repeated Uncle Tom Loring.

“Sick spell!” Uncle Tom Loring repeated.

Reuben followed after Sarah. He greeted Tom, who turned to him hopefully. “What do they mean by a sick spell?”

Reuben followed Sarah. He said hi to Tom, who looked at him with anticipation. “What do they mean by a sick spell?”

“Fainted dead away,” replied Reuben shortly.

“Fainted dead away,” Reuben replied curtly.

Uncle Tom made an exclamation of dismay. “Why, I came out thinking I would take him back to Boston with me,” he said. “Sister Annie has come to live with me now her husband’s dead and her children are all married; and I thought little Tommy could come and make us a visit, maybe live with us most of the time, if he likes it. And now he’s sick! Annie will be dreadfully disappointed. She’s got a tree all rigged up for him, and a big dinner, and everything.”

Uncle Tom exclaimed in shock, “Wow, I came out thinking I could take him back to Boston with me,” he said. “Sister Annie has moved in with me since her husband passed away and her kids are all grown up; I thought little Tommy could come over and visit, maybe even live with us most of the time if he enjoys it. And now he's sick! Annie is going to be really upset. She has a Christmas tree all set up for him, along with a big dinner and everything.”

“He can go,” Reuben stated firmly.

“He can go,” Reuben said firmly.

“Oh, Reuben, do you think he’s well enough?” gasped Nancy.

“Oh, Reuben, do you think he’s okay?” gasped Nancy.

“Of course he is. What’s a little fainting spell? He can go. The air will do him good. His grandmother will miss him, and we shall, too, but it will do him good to have a change.”

"Of course he is. What’s a little fainting spell? He can go. The fresh air will do him good. His grandmother will miss him, and so will we, but it will be beneficial for him to have a change."

Just then Tommy, who heard his uncle’s voice and got into his clothes, came weakly out. Tom grabbed him and looked at him.

Just then, Tommy, who heard his uncle’s voice and got dressed, came out weakly. Tom grabbed him and looked at him.

“Say, young man, you do look peaked,” he said.

“Hey, young man, you look worn out,” he said.

Grandmother’s voice was heard from her bedroom.

Grandma's voice came from her bedroom.

“Tom Loring, you take that child home with you. When I’m up again you can bring him back. He’s all run down.”

“Tom Loring, you take that kid home with you. When I'm feeling better, you can bring him back. He's completely worn out.”

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“All right, Grandma,” called back Uncle Tom. He shook the boy lovingly. “Well, little Tommy, I’m going to take you back to Boston with me. Your aunt Annie is there, and there’s a great Christmas tree all trimmed with candles. I suppose you didn’t have a tree?”

“All right, Grandma,” Uncle Tom called back. He shook the boy affectionately. “Well, little Tommy, I’m taking you back to Boston with me. Your aunt Annie is there, and there’s a beautiful Christmas tree all decorated with candles. I guess you didn’t have a tree?”

“No, sir,” said little Tommy.

“Nope, sir,” said little Tommy.

“Hung up your stocking, eh?”

“Got your stocking ready, huh?”

“Yes, sir.”

"Yes, sir."

Sarah and Nancy were pale, Reuben looked dogged. Then came the question direct.

Sarah and Nancy looked pale, while Reuben appeared determined. Then came the question straight to the point.

“Well, what was in the stocking?”

“Well, what was in the stocking?”

“Useful things,” replied little Tommy.

"Useful stuff," replied little Tommy.

Sarah was a courageous woman. She was really ashamed of the miserable joke they had tried on the child, but she was quite prepared to face the consequences.

Sarah was a brave woman. She felt really ashamed of the awful joke they had played on the child, but she was fully ready to deal with the fallout.

“You tell your uncle what was in your stocking, Tommy,” said she.

“You tell your uncle what was in your stocking, Tommy,” she said.

Reuben echoed her. “No use beating about the bush,” said he, while Tom looked puzzled. “Go ahead and tell him, Tommy.”

Reuben agreed with her. “No point in beating around the bush,” he said, while Tom looked confused. “Just go ahead and tell him, Tommy.”

“Useful things,” repeated stanch little Tommy.

“Useful things,” repeated sturdy little Tommy.

Uncle Tom gave a shrewd glance at him. “Well, useful things are very good things to have,” said he; “but I think your aunt Annie has a lot of the other kind for you.”

Uncle Tom gave him a knowing look. “Well, useful things are great to have,” he said; “but I think your Aunt Annie has plenty of the other kind for you.”

“You get that child ready right away, Nancy and Sarah,” ordered Grandmother from the bedroom, “and mind you wrap him up warm. It’s a cold ride to Boston.”

“Get that child ready right away, Nancy and Sarah,” Grandmother called from the bedroom, “and make sure to wrap him up warm. It’s a cold ride to Boston.”

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“I have a lot of fur robes,” said Uncle Tom. “And we are going to stop in at The Sign of the Lion on our way home, and get some hot milk for him, and anything else he wants.”

“I have a lot of fur coats,” said Uncle Tom. “And we’re going to stop by The Sign of the Lion on our way home to get him some hot milk and anything else he wants.”

In a very short time little Tommy was riding beside his uncle Tom. He was enveloped in furs. He had a hot brick at his feet. He was happy again, but his rapt ecstasy of the night before, which even without the after-shock of disillusionment had been a strain, had settled down into a deep peace of realization.

In no time, little Tommy was riding next to his uncle Tom. He was bundled up in furs. He had a warm brick at his feet. He felt happy again, but the excitement from the night before, which had been overwhelming even before the letdown, had settled into a deep sense of peace and acceptance.

Nancy and Sarah were in their mother’s room. They had told her. Nancy was sobbing and Sarah looked sober. Reuben stood in the doorway, looking soberer still.

Nancy and Sarah were in their mom's room. They had told her. Nancy was crying, and Sarah looked serious. Reuben stood in the doorway, looking even more serious.

“I wish he would tell,” sobbed Nancy.

“I wish he would just say it,” sobbed Nancy.

“He never will, and we can’t any of us have the comfort of thinking he is anywhere near as mean as the rest of us,” said Reuben gloomily.

“He never will, and none of us can take comfort in thinking he’s anywhere near as mean as the rest of us,” Reuben said gloomily.

“Don’t you make too much of it, Reuben,” said Grandmother. “You didn’t any of you mean any harm. You couldn’t know that what seemed funny to you—and it was sort of funny—would be taken in dead earnest by a child like that. I could have told you.”

“Don’t make too big of a deal out of it, Reuben,” said Grandmother. “None of you intended any harm. You had no way of knowing that what seemed funny to you—and it kind of was funny—would be taken very seriously by a child like that. I could have told you.”

After that Christmas, Tommy lived much of the time in Boston with his uncle Tom and his aunt Annie. He spent the summers with his aunts and uncle on the farm. He seemed as fond of them as ever. Nobody mentioned the stocking.

After that Christmas, Tommy spent a lot of time in Boston with his uncle Tom and his aunt Annie. He spent the summers with his aunts and uncle on the farm. He seemed as attached to them as ever. Nobody brought up the stocking.

When Tommy and Cora were grown up they fell in love and were married, and lived in Boston. On[299] Christmas Day Cora asked Tommy a question. “Tommy dear, what was in that stocking you were so mysterious about when you were a little boy?” said she. “Tell me now, please.”

When Tommy and Cora grew up, they fell in love, got married, and lived in Boston. On[299] Christmas Day, Cora asked Tommy a question. “Tommy dear, what was in that stocking you were so secretive about when you were a little boy?” she said. “Please tell me now.”

Tommy laughed, but he shook his head. “Just something useful, dear,” said he. The man was faithful to his code of honor of childhood.

Tommy laughed, but he shook his head. “Just something useful, dear,” he said. The man was true to the code of honor from his childhood.

Cora, however, remained curious. The next summer when she and Tommy were staying at the farm, she asked Sarah to tell her what had been in the stocking.

Cora, however, was still curious. The following summer, when she and Tommy were at the farm, she asked Sarah to tell her what had been in the stocking.

“Aunt Sarah,” said pretty Cora, “do please tell me what was in Tommy’s stocking that Christmas when he was a little boy. He won’t tell me, and I want to know.”

“Aunt Sarah,” said pretty Cora, “can you please tell me what was in Tommy’s stocking that Christmas when he was a little kid? He won’t tell me, and I really want to know.”

“You ought to know,” said Sarah. “We have always been ashamed of it, although we meant it to be only a joke, and never realized what we were doing. We did not understand how a child like Tommy might take it. We were doing pig work that Christmas, and”—Sarah laughed a little and colored—“we put in some pigs’ ears nicely wrapped up, and a pig’s tail, and a potato, and a turnip, and two beets.”

“You should know,” said Sarah. “We’ve always been embarrassed about it, even though we intended it to be just a joke and never understood the impact it could have. We didn’t think about how a kid like Tommy might perceive it. That Christmas, we were doing some silly stuff, and”—Sarah laughed a bit and blushed—“we wrapped up some pigs’ ears nicely, along with a pig’s tail, a potato, a turnip, and two beets.”

“Goodness!” said Cora.

“Wow!” said Cora.

“We were all ashamed of it,” said Aunt Sarah.

“We were all embarrassed about it,” said Aunt Sarah.

Cora went over and kissed her. “Don’t you worry one bit,” said she. “Maybe Tommy’s having such awful things in his stocking, poor little boy, made him better all his life. Perhaps his keeping still and not telling made him so honorable and honest. Aunt[300] Sarah, it can’t have done Tommy much harm, for he is certainly about the best man who ever lived now.”

Cora went over and kissed her. “Don’t worry at all,” she said. “Maybe Tommy having such terrible things in his stocking, poor little boy, made him better throughout his life. Perhaps his silence and not speaking up made him so honorable and honest. Aunt[300] Sarah, it can’t have harmed Tommy much, because he is definitely one of the best men who ever lived now.”

“He certainly is,” said Sarah, “but if I had to live over again, I wouldn’t try such a way of making him so, for my own sake.”

"He definitely is," Sarah said, "but if I had to do it all over again, I wouldn't try that way to change him for my own benefit."

FOOTNOTES:

[18] By permission of the author and the “Woman’s Home Companion.”

[18] With permission from the author and the “Woman’s Home Companion.”


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THE SAD SHEPHERD[19]

Henry Van Dyke

Henry Van Dyke

I

Dark mode

Out of the Valley of Gardens, where a film of new-fallen snow lay smooth as feathers on the breast of a dove, the ancient Pools of Solomon looked up into the night sky with dark, tranquil eyes, wide-open and passive, reflecting the crisp stars and the small, round moon. The full springs, overflowing on the hill-side, melted their way through the field of white in winding channels, and along their course the grass was green even in the dead of winter.

Out of the Valley of Gardens, where a layer of freshly fallen snow lay smooth as feathers on a dove's breast, the ancient Pools of Solomon gazed up into the night sky with dark, calm eyes, wide-open and still, reflecting the bright stars and the small, round moon. The full springs, overflowing on the hillside, melted their way through the white field in winding streams, and along their path, the grass stayed green even in the dead of winter.

But the sad shepherd walked far above the friendly valley, in a region where ridges of gray rock welted and scarred the back of the earth, like wounds of half-forgotten strife and battles long ago. The solitude was forbidding and disquieting; the keen air that searched the wanderer had no pity in it; and the myriad glances of the night were curiously cold.

But the sad shepherd walked far above the friendly valley, in a place where gray rock ridges scarred the earth like wounds from long-forgotten struggles and battles. The solitude was intimidating and unsettling; the sharp air that surrounded the wanderer offered no comfort, and the countless glimmers of the night felt oddly cold.

His flock straggled after him. The sheep, weather beaten and dejected, followed the path with low [302]heads nodding from side to side, as if they had travelled far and found little pasture. The black, lop-eared goats leaped upon the rocks, restless and ravenous, tearing down the tender branches and leaves of the dwarf oaks and wild olives. They reared up against the twisted trunks and crawled and scrambled among the boughs. It was like a company of gray downcast friends and a troop of merry little black devils following the sad shepherd afar off.

His flock trailed behind him. The sheep, weathered and downcast, moved along the path with their heads hanging low, swaying from side to side, as if they had traveled a long way and found little to eat. The black, floppy-eared goats jumped on the rocks, restless and hungry, ripping off the tender branches and leaves of the dwarf oaks and wild olives. They leaned against the twisted trunks and crawled and scrambled among the branches. It was like a group of gloomy gray friends and a cheerful bunch of little black troublemakers following the sad shepherd from a distance.

He walked looking on the ground, paying small heed to them. Now and again, when the sound of pattering feet and panting breath and the rustling and rending among the copses fell too far behind, he drew out his shepherd’s pipe and blew a strain of music, shrill and plaintive, quavering and lamenting through the hollow night. He waited while the troops of gray and black scuffled and bounded and trotted near to him. Then he dropped the pipe into its place and strode forward, looking on the ground.

He walked with his gaze on the ground, barely paying attention to them. Every now and then, when the sounds of pattering feet, heavy breathing, and rustling among the bushes faded into the distance, he pulled out his shepherd’s pipe and played a tune that was high-pitched and sorrowful, echoing softly through the quiet night. He waited as the groups of gray and black moved around him, shuffling and trotting closer. Then he tucked the pipe away and continued walking, still looking down.

The fitful, shivery wind that rasped the hill-top fluttered the rags of his long mantle of Tyrian blue, torn by thorns and stained by travel. The rich tunic of striped silk beneath it was worn thin, and the girdle about his loins had lost all its ornaments of silver and jewels. His curling hair hung down dishevelled under a turban of fine linen, in which the gilt threads were frayed and tarnished; and his shoes of soft leather were broken by the road. On his brown fingers the places of the vanished rings were still marked in white skin. He carried not the long staff nor the heavy nail-studded rod of the shepherd, but[303] a slender stick of carved cedar battered and scratched by hard usage, and the handle, which must once have been of precious metal, was missing.

The chilly, gusty wind that whipped at the hilltop rustled the tattered edges of his long Tyrian blue cloak, which was torn by thorns and stained from travel. The rich, striped silk tunic he wore underneath was threadbare, and the belt around his waist had lost all its silver and jewel decorations. His curly hair hung untidy beneath a fine linen turban, the gilded threads of which were frayed and dull; his soft leather shoes were worn from the journey. The spots where his rings used to be were still visible on his brown fingers, marked by light skin. He didn’t carry the long staff or heavy, studded rod of a shepherd, but instead had a slender stick made of carved cedar, battered and scratched from use, with a handle that had once been made of precious metal but was now missing.[303]

He was a strange figure for that lonely place and that humble occupation—a branch of faded beauty from some royal garden tossed by rude winds into the wilderness—a pleasure craft adrift, buffeted and broken, on rough seas.

He was an odd sight for such a remote location and that modest job—a remnant of faded beauty from some royal garden, tossed by harsh winds into the wilderness—a pleasure boat lost at sea, tossed around and damaged in the stormy waves.

But he seemed to have passed beyond caring. His young face was as frayed and threadbare as his garments. The splendour of the moonlight flooding the wild world meant as little to him as the hardness of the rugged track which he followed. He wrapped his tattered mantle closer around him, and strode ahead, looking on the ground.

But he appeared to have moved past the point of caring. His youthful face looked as worn and shabby as his clothes. The beauty of the moonlight illuminating the wild landscape meant just as little to him as the roughness of the rugged path he was walking. He pulled his tattered cloak closer around him and walked on, staring at the ground.

As the path dropped from the summit of the ridge toward the Valley of Mills and passed among huge broken rocks, three men sprang at him from the shadows. He lifted his stick, but let it fall again, and a strange ghost of a smile twisted his face as they gripped him and threw him down.

As the trail descended from the top of the ridge towards the Valley of Mills and wove through massive broken rocks, three men jumped out at him from the shadows. He raised his stick but then let it drop again, and a strange, ghostly smile twisted his face as they grabbed him and threw him down.

“You are rough beggars,” he said. “Say what you want, you are welcome to it.”

“You are harsh beggars,” he said. “Say what you want, you can have it.”

“Your money, dog of a courtier,” they muttered fiercely; “give us your golden collar, Herod’s hound, quick, or you die!”

“Your money, you worthless courtier,” they whispered angrily; “give us your golden collar, Herod’s dog, fast, or you’re dead!”

“The quicker the better,” he answered, closing his eyes.

“The sooner, the better,” he replied, closing his eyes.

The bewildered flock of sheep and goats, gathered in a silent ring, stood at gaze while the robbers fumbled over their master.

The confused group of sheep and goats, gathered in a quiet circle, watched as the robbers fumbled over their owner.

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“This is a stray dog,” said one, “he has lost his collar, there is not even the price of a mouthful of wine on him. Shall we kill him and leave him for the vultures?”

“This is a lost dog,” said one, “he’s missing his collar, and he doesn’t even have enough on him for a drink. Should we put him down and leave him for the vultures?”

“What have the vultures done for us,” said another, “that we should feed them? Let us take his cloak and drive off his flock, and leave him to die in his own time.”

“What have the vultures done for us,” said another, “that we should feed them? Let’s take his cloak and chase off his flock, and leave him to die on his own.”

With a kick and a curse they left him. He opened his eyes and lay quiet for a moment, with his twisted smile, watching the stars.

With a kick and a curse, they left him. He opened his eyes and lay still for a moment, with his twisted smile, watching the stars.

“You creep like snails,” he said. “I thought you had marked my time to-night. But not even that is given to me for nothing. I must pay for all, it seems.”

“You move like snails,” he said. “I thought you had set my time for tonight. But it looks like nothing comes for free. I have to pay for everything, it seems.”

Far away, slowly scattering and receding, he heard the rustling and bleating of his frightened flock as the robbers, running and shouting, tried to drive them over the hills. Then he stood up and took the shepherd’s pipe from the breast of his tunic. He blew again that plaintive, piercing air, sounding it out over the ridges and distant thickets. It seemed to have neither beginning nor end; a melancholy, pleading tune that searched forever after something lost.

Far away, he could hear the rustling and bleating of his scared flock as the robbers ran and shouted, trying to drive them over the hills. Then he stood up and took the shepherd’s pipe from the front of his tunic. He blew that sad, sharp tune again, letting it echo over the ridges and distant bushes. It felt like it had neither beginning nor end; a sorrowful, yearning melody that searched endlessly for something lost.

While he played, the sheep and the goats, slipping away from their captors by roundabout ways, hiding behind the laurel bushes, following the dark gullies, leaping down the broken cliffs, came circling back to him, one after another; and as they came, he interrupted his playing, now and then, to call them by name.

While he played, the sheep and goats, escaping from their captors through winding paths, hiding behind the laurel bushes, following the shadowy ravines, leaping down the jagged cliffs, returned to him one by one; and as they arrived, he occasionally paused his playing to call them by name.

When they were nearly all assembled, he went down[305] swiftly toward the lower valley, and they followed him, panting. At the last crook of the path on the steep hillside a straggler came after him along the cliff. He looked up and saw it outlined against the sky. Then he saw it leap, and slip, and fall beyond the path into a deep cleft.

When they were almost all gathered, he hurried down into the lower valley, and they followed him, out of breath. At the last bend in the path on the steep hill, a laggard came after him along the cliff. He looked up and saw it silhouetted against the sky. Then he watched it jump, slip, and fall into a deep crevice beyond the path.

“Little fool,” he said, “fortune is kind to you! You have escaped from the big trap of life. What? You are crying for help? You are still in the trap? Then I must go down to you, little fool, for I am a fool too. But why I must do it, I know no more than you know.”

“Little fool,” he said, “luck is on your side! You’ve managed to get out of life’s big trap. What? You’re crying for help? You’re still stuck in the trap? Then I have to come down to you, little fool, because I’m a fool too. But why I have to do it, I don’t know any more than you do.”

He lowered himself quickly and perilously into the cleft, and found the creature with its leg broken and bleeding. It was not a sheep but a young goat. He had no cloak to wrap it in, but he took off his turban and unrolled it, and bound it around the trembling animal. Then he climbed back to the path and strode on at the head of his flock, carrying the little black kid in his arms.

He quickly and carefully lowered himself into the crevice and found the creature with a broken leg and bleeding. It wasn't a sheep but a young goat. He had no cloak to wrap it in, so he took off his turban, unrolled it, and tied it around the trembling animal. Then he climbed back to the path and walked ahead of his flock, carrying the little black kid in his arms.

There were houses in the Valley of the Mills; and in some of them lights were burning; and the drone of the mill-stones, where the women were still grinding, came out into the night like the humming of drowsy bees. As the women heard the pattering and bleating of the flock, they wondered who was passing so late. One of them, in a house where there was no mill but many lights, came to the door and looked out laughing, her face and bosom bare.

There were houses in the Valley of the Mills; in some of them, lights were on, and the sound of the millstones, where the women were still grinding, drifted into the night like the buzzing of sleepy bees. When the women heard the soft footsteps and bleating of the flock, they wondered who was out and about so late. One of them, in a house that didn't have a mill but had many lights, stepped to the door and peered outside, laughing, with her face and chest uncovered.

But the sad shepherd did not stay. His long shadow and the confused mass of lesser shadows behind him[306] drifted down the white moonlight, past the yellow bars of lamplight that gleamed from the doorways. It seemed as if he were bound to go somewhere and would not delay.

But the sad shepherd did not linger. His long shadow and the jumble of smaller shadows behind him[306] floated through the bright moonlight, passing the warm yellow light coming from the doorways. It felt like he was headed somewhere and couldn’t stop.

Yet with all his haste to be gone, it was plain that he thought little of where he was going. For when he came to the foot of the valley, where the paths divided, he stood between them staring vacantly, without a desire to turn him this way or that. The imperative of choice halted him like a barrier. The balance of his mind hung even because both scales were empty. He could act, he could go, for his strength was untouched; but he could not choose, for his will was broken within him.

Yet with all his rush to leave, it was obvious that he didn’t think much about where he was headed. When he reached the bottom of the valley, where the paths split, he stood there staring blankly, lacking any desire to go in either direction. The need to make a choice stopped him like a wall. His mind was balanced because both options felt empty. He could act and he could move, as he still had the strength; but he couldn’t choose, because his will was shattered inside him.

The path to the left went up toward the little town of Bethlehem, with huddled roofs and walls in silhouette along the double-crested hill. It was dark and forbidding as a closed fortress. The sad shepherd looked at it with indifferent eyes; there was nothing there to draw him.

The path to the left led up to the small town of Bethlehem, with its clustered rooftops and walls outlined against the double-crested hill. It was dark and imposing like a locked fortress. The forlorn shepherd gazed at it with disinterested eyes; there was nothing there to attract him.

The path to the right wound through rock-strewn valleys toward the Dead Sea. But rising out of that crumpled wilderness, a mile or two away, the smooth white ribbon of a chariot-road lay upon the flank of a cone-shaped mountain and curled in loops toward its peak. There the great cone was cut squarely off, and the levelled summit was capped by a palace of marble, with round towers at the corners and flaring beacons along the walls; and the glow of an immense fire, hidden in the central court-yard, painted a false dawn in the eastern sky. All down the clean-cut[307] mountain slopes, on terraces and blind arcades, the lights flashed from lesser pavilions and pleasure-houses.

The path to the right wound its way through rocky valleys toward the Dead Sea. But rising from that rugged wilderness, a mile or two away, the smooth white ribbon of a chariot road lay along the side of a cone-shaped mountain and curled in loops toward its peak. There, the great cone was cut off squarely, and the flat summit was topped by a marble palace, with round towers at the corners and flaring lights along the walls; the glow of a massive fire, hidden in the central courtyard, cast a false dawn in the eastern sky. All down the sharply defined mountain slopes, on terraces and blind arcades, lights flashed from smaller pavilions and pleasure houses.

It was the secret orchard of Herod and his friends, their trysting-place with the spirits of mirth and madness. They called it the Mountain of the Little Paradise. Rich gardens were there; and the cool water from the Pools of Solomon plashed in the fountains; and trees of the knowledge of good and evil fruited blood-red and ivory-white above them; and smooth, curving, glistening shapes, whispering softly of pleasure, lay among the flowers and glided behind the trees. All this was now hidden in the dark. Only the strange bulk of the mountain, a sharp black pyramid girdled and crowned with fire, loomed across the night—a mountain once seen never to be forgotten.

It was the secret garden of Herod and his friends, their meeting spot with the spirits of joy and madness. They called it the Mountain of the Little Paradise. Lush gardens flourished there, and the cool water from the Pools of Solomon splashed in the fountains; trees bearing the knowledge of good and evil hung blood-red and ivory-white above them; smooth, curvy, gleaming figures, softly whispering of pleasure, lounged among the flowers and glided behind the trees. All of this was now hidden in darkness. Only the strange shape of the mountain, a sharp black pyramid wrapped and topped with fire, stood out against the night—a mountain once seen never forgotten.

The sad shepherd remembered it well. He looked at it with the eyes of a child who has been in hell. It burned him from afar. Turning neither to the right nor to the left, he walked without a path straight out upon the plain of Bethlehem, still whitened in the hollows and on the sheltered side of its rounded hillocks by the veil of snow.

The sad shepherd remembered it clearly. He looked at it like a child who has experienced hell. It burned him from a distance. Without turning to the right or left, he walked straight out onto the plain of Bethlehem, still covered in snow in the dips and on the sheltered side of its rounded hills.

He faced a wide and empty world. To the west in sleeping Bethlehem, to the east in flaring Herodium, the life of man was infinitely far away from him. Even the stars seemed to withdraw themselves against the blue-black of the sky. They diminished and receded till they were like pinholes in the vault above him. The moon in mid-heaven shrank into a bit of[308] burnished silver, hard and glittering, immeasurably remote. The ragged, inhospitable ridges of Tekoa lay stretched in mortal slumber along the horizon, and between them he caught a glimpse of the sunken Lake of Death, darkly gleaming in its deep bed. There was no movement, no sound, on the plain where he walked, except the soft-padding feet of his dumb, obsequious flock.

He looked out at a vast, empty world. To the west, sleepy Bethlehem, and to the east, the blazing Herodium, felt worlds apart from him. Even the stars seemed to pull away against the dark blue sky. They faded and receded until they looked like tiny pinholes in the expanse above him. The moon, high in the sky, shrank into a small piece of burnished silver, hard and shiny, impossibly distant. The rough, unwelcoming ridges of Tekoa lay stretched out in deep sleep along the horizon, and between them, he caught a glimpse of the sunken Lake of Death, darkly shimmering in its deep basin. There was no movement, no sound, on the plain where he walked, except for the soft steps of his quiet, obedient flock.

He felt an endless isolation strike cold to his heart, against which he held the limp body of the wounded kid, wondering the while, with a half-contempt for his own foolishness, why he took such trouble to save a tiny scrap of the worthless tissue which is called life.

He felt a deep, unending loneliness that chilled his heart as he held the limp body of the injured kid, questioning, with a hint of disdain for his own foolishness, why he bothered to save such a small piece of the worthless thing we call life.

Even when a man does not know or care where he is going, if he steps onward he will get there. In an hour or more of walking over the plain the sad shepherd came to a sheep-fold of grey stones with a rude tower beside it. The fold was full of sheep, and at the foot of the tower a little fire of thorns was burning, around which four shepherds were crouching, wrapped in their thick woollen cloaks.

Even when a man doesn't know or care where he's headed, if he keeps moving forward, he'll eventually arrive. After an hour or more of walking across the plain, the forlorn shepherd reached a sheep pen made of gray stones with a rough tower beside it. The pen was packed with sheep, and at the base of the tower, a small fire made of thorns was burning, around which four shepherds were huddled, wrapped in their warm woolen cloaks.

As the stranger approached they looked up, and one of them rose quickly to his feet, grasping his knotted club. But when they saw the flock that followed the sad shepherd, they stared at each other and said: “It is one of us, a keeper of sheep. But how comes he here in this raiment? It is what men wear in king’s houses.”

As the stranger got closer, they looked up, and one of them quickly got to his feet, grabbing his knotted club. But when they saw the flock following the sad shepherd, they exchanged glances and said, “It’s one of us, a shepherd. But why is he wearing those clothes? Those are what people wear in royal houses.”

“No,” said the one who was standing, “it is what they wear when they have been thrown out of them.[309] Look at the rags. He may be a thief and a robber with his stolen flock.”

“No,” said the one who was standing, “it’s what they wear when they’ve been kicked out of them.[309] Look at the rags. He might be a thief and a robber with his stolen flock.”

“Salute him when he comes near,” said the oldest shepherd. “Are we not four to one? We have nothing to fear from a ragged traveller. Speak him fair. It is the will of God—and it costs nothing.”

“Greet him when he gets close,” said the oldest shepherd. “Aren’t we four to his one? We have nothing to fear from a scruffy traveler. Treat him kindly. It’s what God wants—and it doesn’t cost us anything.”

“Peace be with you, brother,” cried the youngest shepherd; “may your mother and father be blessed.”

“Peace be with you, brother,” shouted the youngest shepherd; “may your parents be blessed.”

“May your heart be enlarged,” the stranger answered, “and may all your families be more blessed than mine, for I have none.”

“Hope your heart grows bigger,” the stranger replied, “and may all your families be more fortunate than mine, because I don’t have any.”

“A homeless man,” said the old shepherd, “has either been robbed by his fellows, or punished by God.”

“A homeless man,” said the old shepherd, “has either been robbed by others or punished by God.”

“I do not know which it was,” answered the stranger; “the end is the same, as you see.”

“I don’t know which one it was,” replied the stranger; “the outcome is the same, as you can see.”

“By your speech you come from Galilee. Where are you going? What are you seeking here?”

“Your accent gives away that you’re from Galilee. Where are you headed? What are you looking for here?”

“I was going nowhere, my masters; but it was cold on the way there, and my feet turned to your fire.”

“I wasn't making any progress, my masters; but it was cold on the way, and my feet found warmth by your fire.”

“Come then, if you are a peaceable man, and warm your feet with us. Heat is a good gift; divide it and it is not less. But you shall have bread and salt too, if you will.”

“Come on then, if you’re a friendly person, and warm your feet with us. Heat is a generous gift; share it and it doesn’t diminish. But you can also have bread and salt, if you’d like.”

“May your hospitality enrich you. I am your unworthy guest. But my flock?”

“May your hospitality bring you joy. I am your unworthy guest. But what about my flock?”

“Let your flock shelter by the south wall of the fold: there is good picking there and no wind. Come you and sit with us.”

“Let your flock rest by the south wall of the pen: there's plenty of good food there and no wind. Come and sit with us.”

So they all sat down by the fire; and the sad[310] shepherd ate of their bread, but sparingly, like a man to whom hunger brings a need but no joy in the satisfying of it; and the others were silent for a proper time, out of courtesy. Then the oldest shepherd spoke:

So they all sat down by the fire; and the sad[310] shepherd ate their bread, but only a little, like someone who feels the need from hunger but finds no joy in satisfying it; and the others stayed quiet for a respectful time, out of courtesy. Then the oldest shepherd spoke:

“My name is Zadok the son of Eliezer, of Bethlehem. I am the chief shepherd of the flocks of the Temple, which are before you in the fold. These are my sister’s sons, Jotham, and Shama, and Nathan: their father Elkanah is dead; and but for these I am a childless man.”

“My name is Zadok, the son of Eliezer, from Bethlehem. I am the head shepherd of the Temple’s flocks, which are in front of you in the pen. These are my sister’s sons, Jotham, Shama, and Nathan: their father, Elkanah, has passed away; and without these boys, I would be a childless man.”

“My name,” replied the stranger, “is Ammiel the son of Jochanan, of the city of Bethsaida, by the Sea of Galilee, and I am a fatherless man.”

“My name,” replied the stranger, “is Ammiel, the son of Jochanan, from the city of Bethsaida, by the Sea of Galilee, and I’m a fatherless man.”

“It is better to be childless than fatherless,” said Zadok, “yet it is the will of God that children should bury their fathers. When did the blessed Jochanan die?”

“It’s better to be childless than to not have a father,” Zadok said, “but it’s God’s will that children bury their parents. When did the blessed Jochanan die?”

“I know not whether he be dead or alive. It is three years since I looked upon his face or had word of him.”

"I don't know if he's dead or alive. It's been three years since I last saw his face or heard anything from him."

“You are an exile, then? he has cast you off?”

“You're in exile, then? Has he abandoned you?”

“It was the other way,” said Ammiel, looking on the ground.

“It was the other way,” Ammiel said, looking down.

At this the shepherd Shama, who had listened with doubt in his face, started up in anger. “Pig of a Galilean,” he cried, “despiser of parents! breaker of the law! When I saw you coming I knew you for something vile. Why do you darken the night for us with your presence? You have reviled him who begot you. Away, or we stone you!”

At this, the shepherd Shama, who had been listening with doubt on his face, suddenly stood up in anger. "You pig from Galilee," he shouted, "despiser of parents! Lawbreaker! The moment I saw you coming, I knew you were something rotten. Why are you bringing darkness into our night with your presence? You've insulted the one who gave you life. Get lost, or we’ll stone you!"

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Ammiel did not answer or move. The twisted smile passed over his face again as he waited to know the shepherds’ will with him, even as he had waited for the robbers. But Zadok lifted his hand.

Ammiel stayed silent and still. The crooked smile returned to his face as he waited to find out what the shepherds wanted from him, just like he had waited for the robbers. But Zadok raised his hand.

“Not so hasty, Shama-ben-Elkanah. You also break the law by judging a man unheard. The rabbis have told us that there is a tradition of the elders—a rule as holy as the law itself—that a man may deny his father in a certain way without sin. It is a strange rule, and it must be very holy or it would not be so strange. But this is the teaching of the elders: a son may say of anything for which his father asks him—a sheep, or a measure of corn, or a field, or a purse of silver—‘it is Corban, a gift that I have vowed unto the Lord’; and so his father shall have no more claim upon him. Have you said ‘Corban’ to your father, Ammiel-ben-Jochanan? Have you made a vow unto the Lord?”

“Hold on, Shama-ben-Elkanah. You’re also breaking the law by judging a man without hearing him out. The rabbis have taught us that there’s a tradition from the elders—a rule as sacred as the law itself—that a son can renounce his father in a particular way without sinning. It’s a strange rule, and it must be quite sacred or else it wouldn’t be so odd. But this is what the elders teach: a son can tell his father about anything he asks for—a sheep, a measure of corn, a field, or a purse of silver—that ‘it is Corban, a gift I’ve dedicated to the Lord’; and then his father has no further claim on him. Have you said ‘Corban’ to your father, Ammiel-ben-Jochanan? Have you made a vow to the Lord?”

“I have said ‘Corban,’” answered Ammiel, lifting his face, still shadowed by that strange smile, “but it was not the Lord who heard my vow.”

“I said ‘Corban,’” Ammiel replied, lifting his face, still shadowed by that strange smile, “but it wasn’t the Lord who heard my vow.”

“Tell us what you have done,” said the old man sternly, “for we will neither judge you, nor shelter you, unless we hear your story.”

“Tell us what you’ve done,” the old man said firmly, “because we won’t judge you or help you until we hear your side of the story.”

“There is nothing in it,” replied Ammiel indifferently. “It is an old story. But if you are curious you shall hear it. Afterward you shall deal with me as you will.”

"There’s nothing in it," Ammiel replied casually. "It's an old story. But if you’re curious, you can hear it. After that, you can decide what you want to do with me."

So the shepherds, wrapped in their warm cloaks, sat listening with grave faces and watchful, unsearchable eyes, while Ammiel in his tattered silk[312] sat by the sinking fire of thorns and told his tale with a voice that had no room for hope or fear—a cool, dead voice that spoke only of things ended.

So the shepherds, bundled in their warm cloaks, sat listening with serious expressions and watchful, inscrutable eyes, while Ammiel in his worn silk[312] sat by the dying fire of thorns and shared his story in a voice that held no room for hope or fear—a calm, lifeless voice that spoke only of things that were over.

II

Nightfire

“In my father’s house I was the second son. My brother was honoured and trusted in all things. He was a prudent man and profitable to the household. All that he counselled was done, all that he wished he had. My place was a narrow one. There was neither honour nor joy in it, for it was filled with daily tasks and rebukes. No one cared for me. My mother sometimes wept when I was rebuked. Perhaps she was disappointed in me. But she had no power to make things better. I felt that I was a beast of burden, fed only in order that I might be useful; and the dull life irked me like an ill-fitting harness. There was nothing in it.

“In my father's house, I was the second son. My brother was respected and trusted in everything. He was sensible and beneficial to the household. Everything he advised was done, and he had whatever he wanted. My role was a limited one. There was neither honor nor joy in it; it was filled with daily chores and criticisms. No one cared about me. My mother sometimes cried when I was scolded. Maybe she was disappointed in me. But she had no power to improve things. I felt like a burden, cared for only so I could be useful; and the monotonous life frustrated me like a poorly fitting harness. There was nothing to it.

“I went to my father and claimed my share of the inheritance. He was rich. He gave it to me. It did not impoverish him and it made me free. I said to him ‘Corban,’ and shook the dust of Bethsaida from my feet.

“I went to my dad and asked for my share of the inheritance. He was wealthy. He gave it to me. It didn’t make him poor, and it set me free. I said to him ‘Corban,’ and shook the dust of Bethsaida off my feet.

“I went out to look for mirth and love and joy and all that is pleasant to the eyes and sweet to the taste. If a god made me, thought I, he made me to live, and the pride of life was strong in my heart and in my flesh. My vow was offered to that well-known[313] god. I served him in Jerusalem, in Alexandria, in Rome, for his altars are everywhere and men worship him openly or in secret.

“I went out to find happiness, love, and joy, along with everything that looks nice and tastes good. If a god created me, I thought, then he created me to live, and the desire for life was strong in my heart and body. I made my vow to that famous[313] god. I worshiped him in Jerusalem, in Alexandria, in Rome, because his altars are everywhere, and people honor him openly or in private.”

“My money and youth made me welcome to his followers, and I spent them both freely as if they could never come to an end. I clothed myself in purple and fine linen and fared sumptuously every day. The wine of Cyprus and the dishes of Egypt and Syria were on my table. My dwelling was crowded with merry guests. They came for what I gave them. Their faces were hungry and their soft touch was like the clinging of leeches. To them I was nothing but money and youth; no longer a beast of burden—a beast of pleasure. There was nothing in it.

"My wealth and youth made me popular among his followers, and I spent both freely as if they would never run out. I dressed in luxurious purple and fine linen and lived extravagantly every day. My table was filled with wine from Cyprus and dishes from Egypt and Syria. My home was packed with cheerful guests. They came for what I provided. Their faces looked greedy, and their gentle touch was like the cling of leeches. To them, I was just wealth and youth; no longer a source of hard work—a source of pleasure. There was nothing meaningful in it."

“From the richest fare my heart went away empty, and after the wildest banquet my soul fell drunk and solitary into sleep.

“From the richest feast, my heart left feeling empty, and after the wildest celebration, my soul fell into a lonely sleep, drunk and solitary.”

“Then I thought, Power is better than pleasure. If a man will feast and revel let him do it with the great. They will favour him and raise him up for the service that he renders them. He will obtain place and authority in the world and gain many friends. So I joined myself to Herod.”

“Then I thought, Power is better than pleasure. If a person wants to party and indulge, they should do it with the powerful. They will support him and elevate him for the service he provides. He will gain status and influence in the world and make many friends. So I aligned myself with Herod.”

When the sad shepherd spoke this name his listeners drew back from him as if it were a defilement to hear it. They spat upon the ground and cursed the Idumean who called himself their king.

When the sorrowful shepherd mentioned this name, his listeners recoiled as if it was dirty to hear it. They spat on the ground and cursed the Idumean who claimed to be their king.

“A slave!” Jotham cried, “a bloody tyrant and a slave from Edom! A fox, a vile beast who devours his own children! God burn him in Gehenna.”

“A slave!” Jotham shouted, “a bloody tyrant and a slave from Edom! A fox, a disgusting creature who preys on his own children! May God burn him in Gehenna.”

The old Zadok picked up a stone and threw it into[314] the darkness, saying slowly, “I cast this stone on the grave of the Idumean, the blasphemer, the defiler of the Temple! God send us soon the Deliverer, the Promised One, the true King of Israel!” Ammiel made no sign, but went on with his story.

The old Zadok picked up a stone and threw it into[314] the darkness, saying slowly, “I throw this stone on the grave of the Idumean, the blasphemer, the defiler of the Temple! May God send us the Deliverer soon, the Promised One, the true King of Israel!” Ammiel made no sign but continued with his story.

“Herod used me well—for his own purpose. He welcomed me to his palace and his table, and gave me a place among his favourites. He was so much my friend that he borrowed my money. There were many of the nobles of Jerusalem with him, Sadducees, and proselytes from Rome and Asia, and women from everywhere. The law of Israel was observed in the open court, when the people were watching. But in the secret feasts there was no law but the will of Herod, and many deities were served but no god was worshipped. There the captains and the princes of Rome consorted with the high-priest and his sons by night; and there was much coming and going by hidden ways. Everybody was a borrower or a lender, a buyer or a seller of favours. It was a house of diligent madness. There was nothing in it.

“Herod used me well—for his own benefit. He welcomed me into his palace and shared his table with me, giving me a spot among his favorites. He was such a good friend that he even borrowed money from me. Many nobles from Jerusalem were there with him, including Sadducees, converts from Rome and Asia, and women from all over. The law of Israel was followed in the open court when people were watching. But at the secret feasts, there was no law other than Herod’s will, and many deities were served, but no god was truly worshipped. There, the Roman captains and princes mingled with the high priest and his sons at night, and there was a lot of movement through hidden paths. Everyone was either borrowing or lending, buying or selling favors. It was a place full of busy madness. There was nothing of substance in it.”

“In the midst of this whirling life a great need of love came upon me and I wished to hold some one in my inmost heart.

“In the midst of this chaotic life, I felt an intense need for love and wanted to hold someone close in my heart.”

“At a certain place in the city, within closed doors, I saw a young slave-girl dancing. She was about fifteen years old, thin and supple; she danced like a reed in the wind; but her eyes were weary as death, and her white body was marked with bruises. She stumbled, and the men laughed at her. She fell, and her mistress beat her, crying out that she would[315] fain be rid of such a heavy-footed slave. I paid the price and took her to my dwelling.

“At a certain place in the city, behind closed doors, I saw a young slave girl dancing. She was about fifteen, thin, and flexible; she danced like a reed in the wind, but her eyes looked weary as if they were filled with death, and her pale body was covered in bruises. She stumbled, and the men laughed at her. She fell, and her mistress hit her, shouting that she wished to be done with such a clumsy slave. I paid the price and took her to my home.

“Her name was Tamar. She was a daughter of Lebanon. I robed her in silk and broidered linen. I nourished her with tender care so that beauty came upon her like the blossoming of an almond tree; she was a garden enclosed, breathing spices. Her eyes were like doves behind her veil, her lips were a thread of scarlet, her neck was a tower of ivory, and her breasts were as two fawns which feed among the lilies. She was whiter than milk, and more rosy than the flower of the peach, and her dancing was like the flight of a bird among the branches. So I loved her.

Her name was Tamar. She was from Lebanon. I dressed her in silk and embroidered linen. I cared for her tenderly so that her beauty bloomed like an almond tree; she was a walled garden, giving off the scent of spices. Her eyes were like doves behind her veil, her lips were a thread of red, her neck was an ivory tower, and her breasts were like two young deer grazing among the lilies. She was whiter than milk and more pink than a peach blossom, and her dancing was like a bird flitting among the branches. So I loved her.

“She lay in my bosom as a clear stone that one has bought and polished and set in fine gold at the end of a golden chain. Never was she glad at my coming, or sorry at my going. Never did she give me anything except what I took from her. There was nothing in it.

“She lay in my arms like a clear stone that someone has bought, polished, and set in fine gold at the end of a golden chain. She never seemed happy when I arrived, nor sad when I left. She never gave me anything except what I took from her. There was nothing in it.”

“Now whether Herod knew of the jewel that I kept in my dwelling I cannot tell. It was sure that he had his spies in all the city, and himself walked the streets by night in a disguise. On a certain day he sent for me, and had me into his secret chamber, professing great love toward me and more confidence than in any man that lived. So I must go to Rome for him, bearing a sealed letter and a private message to Cæsar. All my goods would be left safely in the hands of the king, my friend, who would reward me double. There was a certain place of high authority at Jerusalem which Cæsar would gladly bestow on a Jew who had done him a service. This mission would[316] commend me to him. It was a great occasion, suited to my powers. Thus Herod fed me with fair promises, and I ran his errand. There was nothing in it.

“Now whether Herod knew about the jewel I had in my home, I can't say. It was certain that he had his spies throughout the city, and he himself roamed the streets at night disguised. One day, he summoned me to his secret chamber, expressing great affection for me and more trust than he had in anyone else alive. So I had to go to Rome for him, carrying a sealed letter and a private message to Caesar. All my belongings would be safely left in the hands of the king, my friend, who would reward me double. There was a high-ranking position in Jerusalem that Caesar would gladly give to a Jew who had helped him. This mission would put me in his good graces. It was a significant opportunity, fitting my abilities. So, Herod filled me with empty promises, and I ran his errand. There was nothing to it.

“I stood before Cæsar and gave him the letter. He read it and laughed, saying that a prince with an incurable hunger is a servant of value to an emperor. Then he asked me if there was nothing sent with the letter. I answered that there was no gift, but a message for his private ear. He drew me aside and I told him that Herod begged earnestly that his dear son, Antipater, might be sent back in haste from Rome to Palestine, for the king had great need of him.

“I stood before Caesar and gave him the letter. He read it and laughed, saying that a prince with an insatiable hunger is a valuable servant to an emperor. Then he asked me if there was anything sent with the letter. I replied that there was no gift, but a message for his private ears. He pulled me aside and I told him that Herod urgently requested that his beloved son, Antipater, be sent back quickly from Rome to Palestine, for the king had a great need of him.”

“At this Cæsar laughed again. ‘To bury him, I suppose,’ said he, ‘with his brothers, Alexander and Aristobulus! Truly, it is better to be Herod’s swine than his son! Tell the old fox he may catch his own prey.’ With this he turned from me and I withdrew unrewarded, to make my way back, as best I could with an empty purse, to Palestine. I had seen the Lord of the World. There was nothing in it.

“At this, Caesar laughed again. ‘To bury him, I guess,’ he said, ‘with his brothers, Alexander and Aristobulus! Honestly, it’s better to be Herod’s pig than his son! Tell the old fox he can catch his own prey.’ With that, he turned away from me, and I left empty-handed, making my way back, as best I could, to Palestine with an empty wallet. I had seen the Lord of the World. It meant nothing.”

“Selling my rings and bracelets I got passage in a trading ship for Joppa. There I heard that the king was not in Jerusalem, at his Palace of the Upper City, but had gone with his friends to make merry for a month on the Mountain of the Little Paradise. On that hill-top over against us, where the lights are flaring to-night, in the banquet-hall where couches are spread for a hundred guests, I found Herod.”

“By selling my rings and bracelets, I secured a spot on a trading ship to Joppa. When I arrived, I learned that the king wasn’t in Jerusalem at his Palace of the Upper City. Instead, he had gone with his friends to celebrate for a month on the Mountain of the Little Paradise. On that hilltop across from us, where the lights are shining brightly tonight, in the banquet hall set up for a hundred guests, I found Herod.”

The listening shepherds spat upon the ground again, and Jotham muttered, “May the worms that devour his flesh never die!” But Zadok whispered,[317] “We wait for the Lord’s salvation to come out of Zion.” And the sad shepherd, looking with fixed eyes at the firelit mountain far away, continued his story:

The listening shepherds spat on the ground again, and Jotham muttered, “May the worms that eat his flesh never die!” But Zadok whispered, [317] “We’re waiting for the Lord’s salvation to come from Zion.” And the sad shepherd, staring fixedly at the firelit mountain in the distance, continued his story:

“The king lay on his ivory couch, and the sweat of his disease was heavy upon him, for he was old, and his flesh was corrupted. But his hair and his beard were dyed and perfumed and there was a wreath of roses on his head. The hall was full of nobles and great men, the sons of the high-priest were there, and the servants poured their wine in cups of gold. There was a sound of soft music; and all the men were watching a girl who danced in the middle of the hall; and the eyes of Herod were fiery, like the eyes of a fox.

The king lay on his ivory couch, sweating heavily from his illness, as he was old and his body was decaying. However, his hair and beard were dyed and scented, and he wore a crown of roses. The hall was filled with nobles and prominent figures, including the sons of the high priest, while the servants served wine in golden cups. Soft music played in the background, and all the men were watching a girl dancing in the center of the hall; Herod's eyes were intense, similar to those of a fox.

“The dancer was Tamar. She glistened like the snow on Lebanon, and the redness of her was ruddier than a pomegranate, and her dancing was like the coiling of white serpents. When the dance was ended her attendants threw a veil of gauze over her and she lay among her cushions, half covered with flowers, at the feet of the king.

“The dancer was Tamar. She shone like the snow on Lebanon, and her cheeks were redder than a pomegranate, and her dancing resembled the graceful movement of white serpents. When the dance was over, her attendants draped a sheer veil over her and she reclined among her cushions, partially covered with flowers, at the feet of the king.”

“Through the sound of clapping hands and shouting, two slaves led me behind the couch of Herod. His eyes narrowed as they fell upon me. I told him the message of Cæsar, making it soft, as if it were a word that suffered him to catch his prey. He stroked his beard and his look fell on Tamar. ‘I have caught it,’ he murmured; ‘by all the gods, I have always caught it. And my dear son, Antipater, is coming home of his own will. I have lured him, he is mine.’

“Amid the clapping hands and shouting, two slaves brought me behind Herod’s couch. His eyes narrowed when he saw me. I delivered Cæsar's message, softening it, as if it were a word that allowed him to seize his target. He stroked his beard, and his gaze landed on Tamar. ‘I've got it,’ he mumbled; ‘by all the gods, I've always caught it. And my dear son, Antipater, is coming home willingly. I've drawn him in; he’s mine.’”

“Then a look of madness crossed his face and he[318] sprang up, with frothing lips, and struck at me. ‘What is this,’ he cried, ‘a spy, a servant of my false son, a traitor in my banquet-hall! Who are you?’ I knelt before him, protesting that he must know me; that I was his friend, his messenger; that I had left all my goods in his hands; that the girl who had danced for him was mine. At this his face changed again and he fell back on his couch, shaken with horrible laughter. ‘Yours!’ he cried, ‘when was she yours? What is yours? I know you now, poor madman. You are Ammiel, a crazy shepherd from Galilee, who troubled us some time since. Take him away, slaves. He has twenty sheep and twenty goats among my flocks at the foot of the mountain. See to it that he gets them, and drive him away.’

“Then a look of madness crossed his face and he[318] jumped up, with frothing lips, and lunged at me. ‘What is this,’ he shouted, ‘a spy, a servant of my false son, a traitor in my banquet hall! Who are you?’ I knelt before him, insisting that he must know me; that I was his friend, his messenger; that I had left all my possessions in his hands; that the girl who had danced for him was mine. At this his expression changed again and he fell back on his couch, shaking with horrible laughter. ‘Yours!’ he exclaimed, ‘when was she yours? What is yours? I know you now, poor madman. You are Ammiel, a crazy shepherd from Galilee, who disturbed us some time ago. Take him away, slaves. He has twenty sheep and twenty goats among my flocks at the foot of the mountain. Make sure he gets them, and drive him away.’

“I fought against the slaves with my bare hands, but they held me. I called to Tamar, begging her to have pity on me, to speak for me, to come with me. She looked up with her eyes like doves behind her veil, but there was no knowledge of me in them. She laughed lazily, as if it were a poor comedy, and flung a broken rose-branch in my face. Then the silver cord was loosened within me, and my heart went out, and I struggled no more. There was nothing in it.

“I fought against the slaves with my bare hands, but they held me back. I called to Tamar, begging her to have mercy on me, to speak for me, to come with me. She looked up with her dove-like eyes behind her veil, but there was no trace of recognition in them. She laughed lazily, as if it were a bad joke, and threw a broken rose branch in my face. Then the silver cord within me loosened, and my heart gave out, and I stopped struggling. There was nothing left in it.

“Afterward I found myself on the road with this flock. I led them past Hebron into the south country, and so by the Vale of Eshcol, and over many hills beyond the Pools of Solomon, until my feet brought me to your fire. Here I rest on the way to nowhere.”

“Later, I found myself on the road with this group. I guided them past Hebron into the southern region, through the Vale of Eshcol, and over many hills beyond the Pools of Solomon, until my feet led me to your fire. Here I take a break on the way to nowhere.”

He sat silent, and the four shepherds looked at him with amazement.

He sat quietly, and the four shepherds stared at him in disbelief.

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“It is a bitter tale,” said Shama, “and you are a great sinner.”

“It’s a painful story,” Shama said, “and you are a serious sinner.”

“I should be a fool not to know that,” answered the sad shepherd, “but the knowledge does me no good.”

“I’d be a fool not to know that,” replied the sad shepherd, “but knowing it doesn’t help me at all.”

“You must repent,” said Nathan, the youngest shepherd, in a friendly voice.

“You need to repent,” said Nathan, the youngest shepherd, in a friendly tone.

“How can a man repent,” answered the sad shepherd, “unless he has hope? But I am sorry for everything, and most of all for living.”

“How can a person repent," replied the sad shepherd, "if they don’t have hope? But I regret everything, and especially for being alive.”

“Would you not live to kill the fox Herod?” cried Jotham fiercely.

“Would you not live to kill the fox Herod?” shouted Jotham fiercely.

“Why should I let him out of the trap,” answered the sad shepherd. “Is he not dying more slowly than I could kill him?”

“Why should I let him out of the trap?” replied the sad shepherd. “Isn’t he dying more slowly than I could kill him?”

“You must have faith in God,” said Zadok earnestly and gravely.

“You need to have faith in God,” said Zadok sincerely and seriously.

“He is too far away.”

"He's too far away."

“Then you must have love for your neighbour.”

“Then you have to love your neighbor.”

“He is too near. My confidence in man was like a pool by the wayside. It was shallow, but there was water in it, and sometimes a star shone there. Now the feet of many beasts have trampled through it, and the jackals have drunken of it, and there is no more water. It is dry and the mire is caked at the bottom.”

“He is too close. My trust in people was like a puddle by the road. It was shallow, but it had some water, and sometimes a star would reflect on it. Now, many animals have walked through it, and the jackals have drunk from it, and there’s no more water. It’s dried up, and the mud is all hardened at the bottom.”

“Is there nothing good in the world?”

“Is there nothing good in the world?”

“There is pleasure, but I am sick of it. There is power, but I hate it. There is wisdom, but I mistrust it. Life is a game and every player is for his own hand. Mine is played. I have nothing to win or lose.”

“There’s pleasure, but I’m tired of it. There’s power, but I dislike it. There’s wisdom, but I don’t trust it. Life is a game, and every player is out for themselves. I’ve played my hand. I have nothing to gain or lose.”

“You are young, you have many years to live.”

“You're young, you have a lot of years ahead of you.”

“I am old, yet the days before me are too many.”

“I’m old, but I still have too many days ahead of me.”

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“But you travel the road, you go forward. Do you hope for nothing?”

“But you keep moving forward on your journey. Do you have no hopes at all?”

“I hope for nothing,” said the sad shepherd. “Yet if one thing should come to me it might be the beginning of hope. If I saw in man or woman a deed of kindness without a selfish reason, and a proof of love gladly given for its own sake only, then might I turn my face toward that light. Till that comes, how can I have faith in God whom I have never seen? I have seen the world which he has made, and it brings me no faith. There is nothing in it.”

“I hope for nothing,” said the sad shepherd. “But if one thing were to come my way, it might spark a bit of hope. If I witnessed a man or a woman do something kind for no selfish reason, and a proof of love given freely just for the sake of love, then I could look toward that light. Until then, how can I believe in a God I’ve never seen? I’ve seen the world He created, and it gives me no faith. There’s nothing in it.”

“Ammiel-ben-Jochanan,” said the old man sternly, “you are a son of Israel, and we have had compassion on you, according to the law. But you are an apostate, an unbeliever, and we can have no more fellowship with you, lest a curse come upon us. The company of the desperate brings misfortune. Go your way and depart from us, for our way is not yours.”

“Ammiel ben Jochanan,” the old man said firmly, “you are a son of Israel, and we have shown you compassion, as the law requires. But you are an apostate, a nonbeliever, and we can no longer associate with you, lest a curse fall upon us. The company of the desperate brings misfortune. Go your way and leave us, for our path is not yours.”

So the sad shepherd thanked them for their entertainment, and took the little kid again in his arms, and went into the night, calling his flock. But the youngest shepherd Nathan followed him a few steps and said:

So the sad shepherd thanked them for the entertainment, took the little kid back in his arms, and walked into the night, calling for his flock. But the youngest shepherd Nathan followed him for a few steps and said:

“There is a broken fold at the foot of the hill. It is old and small, but you may find a shelter there for your flock where the wind will not shake you. Go your way with God, brother, and see better days.”

“There’s a broken fold at the bottom of the hill. It’s old and small, but you can find shelter there for your flock where the wind won’t bother you. Go on your way with God, brother, and hope for better days.”

Then Ammiel went a little way down the hill and sheltered his flock in a corner of the crumbling walls. He lay among the sheep and the goats with his face[321] upon his folded arms, and whether the time passed slowly or swiftly he did not know, for he slept.

Then Ammiel walked a short distance down the hill and kept his flock safe in a corner of the crumbling walls. He lay among the sheep and goats with his face on his folded arms, and he had no idea if time passed slowly or quickly because he fell asleep.

He waked as Nathan came running and stumbling among the scattered stones.

He woke up as Nathan came running and tripping over the scattered stones.

“We have seen a vision,” he cried, “a wonderful vision of angels. Did you not hear them? They sang loudly of the Hope of Israel. We are going to Bethlehem to see this thing which is come to pass. Come you and keep watch over our sheep while we are gone.”

“We have seen a vision,” he shouted, “a beautiful vision of angels. Didn’t you hear them? They sang loudly about the Hope of Israel. We’re going to Bethlehem to see what has happened. You stay here and watch over our sheep while we're away.”

“Of angels I have seen and heard nothing,” said Ammiel, “but I will guard your flocks with mine, since I am in debt to you for bread and fire.”

“Of angels, I haven't seen or heard anything,” said Ammiel, “but I will watch over your flocks with mine, since I owe you for food and warmth.”

So he brought the kid in his arms, and the weary flock straggling after him, to the south wall of the great fold again, and sat there by the embers at the foot of the tower, while the others were away.

So he carried the kid in his arms, and the tired flock followed behind him slowly, to the south wall of the big enclosure again, and sat there by the ashes at the base of the tower, while the others were gone.

The moon rested like a ball on the edge of the western hills and rolled behind them. The stars faded in the east and the fires went out on the Mountain of the Little Paradise. Over the hills of Moab a grey flood of dawn rose slowly, and arrows of red shot far up before the sunrise.

The moon sat like a ball on the edge of the western hills before it disappeared behind them. The stars dimmed in the east, and the fires on the Mountain of the Little Paradise went out. A grey wave of dawn slowly climbed over the hills of Moab, with streaks of red shooting high up before the sun rose.

The shepherds returned full of joy and told what they had seen.

The shepherds came back excited and shared what they had seen.

“It was even as the angels said unto us,” said Shama, “and it must be true. The King of Israel has come. The faithful shall be blessed.”

“It was just as the angels told us,” Shama said, “and it has to be true. The King of Israel has arrived. The faithful will be blessed.”

“Herod shall fall,” cried Jotham, lifting his clenched fist toward the dark peaked mountain. “Burn, black Idumean, in the bottomless pit, where the fire is not quenched.”

“Herod will fall,” shouted Jotham, raising his clenched fist toward the dark, jagged mountain. “Burn, black Idumean, in the bottomless pit, where the fire is never extinguished.”

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Zadok spoke more quietly. “We found the new-born child of whom the angels told us wrapped in swaddling clothes and lying in a manger. The ways of God are wonderful. His salvation comes out of darkness. But you, Ammiel-ben-Jochanan, except you believe, you shall not see it. Yet since you have kept our flocks faithfully, and because of the joy that has come to us, I give you this piece of silver to help you on your way.”

Zadok spoke softly. “We found the newborn baby that the angels told us about, wrapped in swaddling clothes and lying in a manger. God's ways are amazing. His salvation emerges from darkness. But you, Ammiel-ben-Jochanan, unless you believe, you won't see it. However, since you have taken care of our flocks so faithfully, and because of the joy that has come to us, I give you this silver coin to help you on your journey.”

But Nathan came close to the sad shepherd and touched him on the shoulder with a friendly hand. “Go you also to Bethlehem,” he said in a low voice, “for it is good to see what we have seen, and we will keep your flock until you return.”

But Nathan came up to the sad shepherd and touched him on the shoulder with a friendly hand. “You should go to Bethlehem too,” he said softly, “because it’s good to see what we’ve seen, and we’ll take care of your flock until you get back.”

“I will go,” said Ammiel, looking into his face, “for I think you wish me well. But whether I shall see what you have seen, or whether I shall ever return, I know not. Farewell.”

“I’ll go,” Ammiel said, looking into his face, “because I believe you want the best for me. But I don’t know if I’ll see what you’ve seen, or if I’ll ever come back. Goodbye.”

III

Morning

The narrow streets of Bethlehem were waking to the first stir of life as the sad shepherd came into the town with the morning, and passed through them like one walking in his sleep.

The narrow streets of Bethlehem were coming to life with the first signs of morning as the sorrowful shepherd entered the town, moving through them as if he were sleepwalking.

The court-yard of the great khan and the open rooms around it were crowded with travellers, rousing from their night’s rest and making ready for the[323] day’s journey. In front of the stables half hollowed in the rock beside the inn, men were saddling their horses and their beasts of burden, and there was much noise and confusion.

The courtyard of the great khan and the open rooms around it were filled with travelers, waking up from their night's sleep and preparing for the[323] day's journey. In front of the stables, partially carved into the rock next to the inn, people were saddling their horses and pack animals, creating a lot of noise and chaos.

But beyond these, at the end of the line, there was a deeper grotto in the rock, which was used only when the nearer stalls were full. Beside the entrance of this cave an ass was tethered, and a man of middle age stood in the doorway.

But beyond these, at the end of the line, there was a deeper cave in the rock, which was used only when the nearby stalls were full. Next to the entrance of this cave, a donkey was tied up, and a middle-aged man stood in the doorway.

The sad shepherd saluted him and told his name.

The sad shepherd greeted him and told him his name.

“I am Joseph the carpenter of Nazareth,” replied the man. “Have you also seen the angels of whom your brother shepherds came to tell us?”

“I’m Joseph, the carpenter from Nazareth,” the man replied. “Have you seen the angels that your brother shepherds came to tell us about?”

“I have seen no angels,” answered Ammiel, “nor have I any brothers among the shepherds. But I would fain see what they have seen.”

“I haven't seen any angels,” Ammiel replied, “nor do I have any brothers among the shepherds. But I would really like to see what they've seen.”

“It is our first-born son,” said Joseph, “and the Most High has sent him to us. He is a marvellous child: great things are foretold of him. You may go in, but quietly, for the child and his mother Mary are asleep.”

“It’s our first-born son,” Joseph said, “and the Most High has sent him to us. He’s an amazing child: great things are predicted for him. You can go in, but quietly, because the child and his mother Mary are asleep.”

So the sad shepherd went in quietly. His long shadow entered before him, for the sunrise was flowing into the door of the grotto. It was made clean and put in order, and a bed of straw was laid in the corner on the ground.

So the sad shepherd entered quietly. His long shadow went in ahead of him, as the sunrise poured through the door of the grotto. It was clean and tidy, and a bed of straw was laid in the corner on the ground.

The child was asleep, but the young mother was waking, for she had taken him from the manger into her lap, where her maiden veil of white was spread to receive him. And she was singing very softly as she bent over him in wonder and content.

The child was asleep, but the young mother was waking, as she had taken him from the manger into her lap, where her white maiden veil was spread to receive him. And she was singing very softly as she leaned over him in wonder and contentment.

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Ammiel saluted her and kneeled down to look at the child. He was nothing different from other young children. The mother waited for him to speak of angels, as the other shepherds had done. The sad shepherd did not speak, but only looked. And as he looked his face changed.

Ammiel greeted her and knelt down to look at the child. He was just like any other young child. The mother waited for him to talk about angels, like the other shepherds had. The sad shepherd didn’t say anything; he just stared. And as he looked, his expression changed.

“You have suffered pain and danger and sorrow for his sake,” he said gently.

"You have endured pain, danger, and sorrow for him," he said softly.

“They are past,” she answered, “and for his sake I have suffered them gladly.”

“They're behind me now,” she replied, “and for his sake, I’ve endured them happily.”

“He is very little and helpless; you must bear many troubles for his sake.”

“He's very small and vulnerable; you have to endure a lot of hardships for him.”

“To care for him is my joy, and to bear him lightens my burden.”

"Taking care of him makes me happy, and having him around makes my life easier."

“He does not know you, he can do nothing for you.”

“He doesn’t know you, so he can’t help you.”

“But I know him. I have carried him under my heart, he is my son and my king.”

“But I know him. I have carried him in my heart; he is my son and my king.”

“Why do you love him?”

“Why do you love him?”

The mother looked up at the sad shepherd with a great reproach in her soft eyes. Then her look grew pitiful as it rested on his face.

The mother looked up at the sad shepherd with deep disappointment in her gentle eyes. Then her gaze softened with sympathy as it lingered on his face.

“You are a sorrowful man,” she said.

“You're a sad man,” she said.

“I am a wicked man,” he answered.

"I’m a bad man," he replied.

She shook her head gently.

She gently shook her head.

“I know nothing of that,” she said, “but you must be very sorrowful, since you are born of a woman and yet you ask a mother why she loves her child. I love him for love’s sake, because God has given him to me.”

“I don’t know anything about that,” she said, “but you must be very sad, since you’re born of a woman and yet you ask a mother why she loves her child. I love him for the sake of love, because God has given him to me.”

So the mother Mary leaned over her little son again[325] and began to croon a song as if she were alone with him.

So the mother Mary bent over her little son again[325] and started to hum a song as if she were alone with him.

But Ammiel was still there, watching and thinking and beginning to remember. It came back to him that there was a woman in Galilee who had wept when he was rebuked; whose eyes had followed him when he was unhappy, as if she longed to do something for him; whose voice had broken and dropped silent while she covered her tear-stained face when he went away.

But Ammiel was still there, watching and thinking and starting to remember. He recalled that there was a woman in Galilee who had cried when he was scolded; whose eyes had followed him when he was feeling down, as if she wanted to help him; whose voice had cracked and gone silent while she hid her tear-stained face when he left.

His thoughts flowed swiftly and silently toward her and after her like rapid waves of light. There was a thought of her bending over a little child in her lap, singing softly for pure joy,—and the child was himself. There was a thought of her lifting a little child to the breast that had borne him as a burden and a pain, to nourish him there as a comfort and a treasure,—and the child was himself. There was a thought of her watching and tending and guiding a little child from day to day, from year to year, putting tender arms around him, bending over his first wavering steps, rejoicing in his joys, wiping away the tears from his eyes, as he had never tried to wipe her tears away,—and the child was himself. She had done everything for the child’s sake, but what had the child done for her sake? And the child was himself: that was what he had come to,—after the nightfire had burned out, after the darkness had grown thin and melted in the thoughts that pulsed through it like rapid waves of light,—that was what he had come to in the early morning,—himself, a child in his mother’s arms.

His thoughts raced silently toward her and followed her like quick beams of light. He imagined her bending over a little child in her lap, singing softly out of pure joy—and that child was him. He envisioned her lifting a little child to the breast that had carried him as a burden and a pain, nourishing him there as a comfort and a treasure—and that child was him. He thought of her watching over, caring for, and guiding a little child day after day, year after year, wrapping tender arms around him, leaning over his first wobbly steps, celebrating his joys, wiping away the tears from his eyes, just as he had never tried to wipe away her tears—and that child was him. She had done everything for the child's sake, but what had the child done for her? And that child was him: that was what he had come to—after the nightfire had burned out, after the darkness had faded into the thoughts that pulsed through it like rapid waves of light—that was what he had come to in the early morning—himself, a child in his mother’s arms.

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Then he arose and went out of the grotto softly, making the three-fold sign of reverence; and the eyes of Mary followed him with kind looks.

Then he got up and quietly left the cave, making the three-fold sign of respect; and Mary watched him with kind eyes.

Joseph of Nazareth was still waiting outside the door.

Joseph of Nazareth was still waiting outside the door.

“How was it that you did not see the angels?” he asked. “Were you not with the other shepherds?”

“How come you didn’t see the angels?” he asked. “Weren’t you with the other shepherds?”

“No,” answered Ammiel, “I was asleep. But I have seen the mother and the child. Blessed be the house that holds them.”

“No,” Ammiel replied, “I was asleep. But I have seen the mother and the child. Blessed be the house that welcomes them.”

“You are strangely clad for a shepherd,” said Joseph. “Where do you come from?”

“You're dressed oddly for a shepherd,” Joseph said. “Where are you coming from?”

“From a far country,” replied Ammiel; “from a country that you have never visited.”

“From a faraway country,” Ammiel replied, “from a place you’ve never been to.”

“Where are you going now?” asked Joseph.

“Where are you headed now?” Joseph asked.

“I am going home,” answered Ammiel, “to my mother’s and my father’s house in Galilee.”

“I’m going home,” Ammiel replied, “to my mom and dad's house in Galilee.”

“Go in peace, friend,” said Joseph.

“Take care, my friend,” said Joseph.

And the sad shepherd took up his battered staff, and went on his way rejoicing.

And the sad shepherd picked up his old staff and went on his way happy.

FOOTNOTES:

[19] From “The Unknown Quantity”; copyright, 1916, by Charles Scribner’s Sons. By permission of the publishers.

[19] From “The Unknown Quantity”; copyright, 1916, by Charles Scribner’s Sons. By permission of the publishers.


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CHRISTMAS BREAD[20]

Kathleen Norris

Kathleen Norris


“But what time will your operation be over, mother?”

“But what time will your surgery be over, Mom?”

A silence. The surgeon opened three letters, looked at them, tore them in two, cast them aside, glanced at her newspaper, glanced at her coffee cup, and took a casual sip of the smoking liquid. But she did not answer.

A silence. The surgeon opened three letters, looked at them, ripped them in half, tossed them aside, glanced at her newspaper, looked at her coffee cup, and took a casual sip of the hot liquid. But she didn’t respond.

“If you were thr-r-rough at ’leven o’clock—” Merle began again hopefully. She paid some attention to consonants, because until recently she had called through “froo,” and she was anxious to seem grown-up. “I could go to the hospital with Miss Frothingham,” she suggested, “and wait for you?”

“If you were done at eleven o’clock—” Merle started again, hopeful. She focused on consonants, since until recently she had said “froo,” and she wanted to come across as grown-up. “I could go to the hospital with Miss Frothingham,” she suggested, “and wait for you?”

“I thought Miss Frothingham was going to take you to Mrs. Winchester’s?” Doctor Madison countered in surprise, at last giving a partial attention to her little daughter. “Don’t you want to spend Christmas Day with little Betty?” she went on, easily, half-absently. “It seems to me that is a very nice plan—straighten your shoulders, dear. It seems to me that it was extremely nice of Mrs. Winchester to want you to come. Most people want only their own families on Christmas Day!”

“I thought Miss Frothingham was going to take you to Mrs. Winchester’s?” Doctor Madison replied in surprise, finally giving some attention to her little daughter. “Don’t you want to spend Christmas Day with little Betty?” she continued, casually, almost absentmindedly. “I think that’s a really nice plan—straighten your shoulders, sweetie. I believe it was really generous of Mrs. Winchester to invite you. Most people only want their own families on Christmas Day!”

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She was paying small heed to her own words. “That band really did straighten her teeth,” she was thinking. “I must remind Miss Frothingham to order some more of the little smocks; she doesn’t look half so well in the blue-jacket blouses. How like George she is growing!... What did you say, Merle?” she added, realizing that the child’s plaintive voice was lingering still in the air.

She was barely paying attention to her own words. “That band really fixed her teeth,” she thought. “I need to remind Miss Frothingham to get more of those little smocks; she doesn’t look nearly as good in the blue-jacket blouses. She’s becoming so much like George!... What did you say, Merle?” she added, realizing that the child’s sad voice was still hanging in the air.

“I said that I would like my own family, too, on Christmas,” the child repeated, half-daring, half-uncertain.

“I said that I would like my own family, too, on Christmas,” the child repeated, half-daring, half-uncertain.

“Ring the bell, dear,” her mother said from the newspaper.

“Ring the bell, sweetheart,” her mother said, looking up from the newspaper.

“I wish I didn’t know what you were going to give me for Christmas, mother!”

“I wish I didn’t know what you’re getting me for Christmas, Mom!”

“You what?”

“You saw what?”

“I wish I didn’t know what you were going to give me!”

“I wish I didn’t know what you were going to give me!”

Silence.

Quiet.

“For Christmas, you know?” Merle prompted. “I love your present. I love to have a little desk all my own. It’s just like Betty’s, too, only prettier. But I would drather have it a surprise, and run down Christmas morning to see what it was!”

“For Christmas, you know?” Merle asked. “I love your gift. I love having a little desk all to myself. It’s just like Betty’s, only nicer. But I would rather have it be a surprise and rush down on Christmas morning to see what it is!”

“Don’t say ‘drather,’ dear.”

“Don’t say ‘drather,’ sweetie.”

“Rather.” With a gold spoon, Merle made a river through her cream of wheat in the monogrammed gold bowl and watched the cream rivers flood together. “What interests you in the paper, mother?” she asked politely.

“Sure.” With a gold spoon, Merle stirred a river through her cream of wheat in the monogrammed gold bowl and watched the cream rivers mix together. “What interests you in the paper, Mom?” she asked politely.

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“Why, they are going to have the convention in California next summer,” her mother said.

“Hey, they’re having the convention in California next summer,” her mom said.

“And shall you go, mother?”

“Are you leaving, Mom?”

“Oh, I think so! Perhaps you and Miss Frothingham will go with me.”

“Oh, I think so! Maybe you and Miss Frothingham will join me.”

“To hotels?”

"To hotels?"

“I suppose so.”

"I guess so."

Merle sighed. She did not like large strange hotels. “Mother, doesn’t it seem funny to you that a patient would have his operation on Christmas Day? Couldn’t he have it to-morrow, or wait till Wednesday?”

Merle sighed. She didn’t like big, unfamiliar hotels. “Mom, doesn’t it seem weird to you that a patient would have his surgery on Christmas Day? Couldn’t he have it tomorrow, or wait until Wednesday?”

The doctor’s fine mouth twitched at the corners. “Poor fellow, they only get him here to-morrow, Merle, Christmas morning. And they tell me there is no time to lose.”

The doctor’s lips curled slightly at the corners. “Poor guy, they’re only bringing him here tomorrow, Merle, on Christmas morning. And I’ve been told there’s no time to waste.”

Tears came into the little girl’s eyes. “It doesn’t seem—much—like Christmas,” she murmured under her breath. “To have you in the surgery all morning, and me with the Winchesters, that aren’t my relations at all——”

Tears filled the little girl’s eyes. “It doesn’t feel—much—like Christmas,” she whispered. “Having you in surgery all morning, and me with the Winchesters, who aren’t my family at all——”

“Tell me exactly what you had planned to do, Merle,” her mother suggested reasonably. “Perhaps we can manage it for some other day. What did you especially want to do?”

“Tell me exactly what you planned to do, Merle,” her mother suggested calmly. “Maybe we can do it another day. What did you really want to do?”

The kindly, logical tone was that of the surgeon used to matters no less vital than life and death. Merle raised her round, childish eyes to her mother’s pleasant, keen ones. Then with a great sigh she returned to the golden bowl and spoon. Nothing more was said until Lizzie came in for the orders.

The gentle, rational tone belonged to the surgeon, accustomed to issues as critical as life and death. Merle looked up with her big, innocent eyes to meet her mother’s warm, sharp gaze. With a deep sigh, she went back to the golden bowl and spoon. No one spoke again until Lizzie came in for the orders.

“Dear me, I miss Miss Frothingham!” said Doctor[330] Madison then. “Tell Ada to use her own judgment, Lizzie. Tell her—you might have chicken again. That doesn’t spoil, in case I’m late.”

“Wow, I really miss Miss Frothingham!” said Doctor[330] Madison then. “Tell Ada to make her own decision, Lizzie. Let her know—you could have chicken again. It won’t go bad, in case I’m late.”

“You wouldn’t have a turkey, Doctor? To-morrow’s Christmas, you know.”

“You wouldn’t happen to have a turkey, Doctor? Tomorrow’s Christmas, you know.”

“Well—if Ada thinks so. I don’t particularly care for turkey—yes, we may as well have a turkey. But no pudding, and above all, no mince pie, Lizzie. Have something simple—prune whip, applesauce, I don’t care! Merle will be with the Winchesters all day, and she’ll need only a light supper. If there are any telephones, I’m at the hospital. Miss Frothingham will be back this afternoon.”

“Well, if Ada thinks that’s best. I’m not really a fan of turkey—sure, we can go ahead and have turkey. But no pudding, and definitely no mince pie, Lizzie. Let’s keep it simple—prune whip, applesauce, whatever! Merle will be at the Winchesters all day, so she’ll just need a light dinner. If you need me, I’ll be at the hospital. Miss Frothingham will be back this afternoon.”

Then she was gone, and there was a long lonely day ahead of her small daughter. But Merle was accustomed to them. She went into the kitchen and watched Ada and Ada’s friend, Mrs. Catawba Hercules, until Miss Watson came. Then she had a music lesson, and a French lesson, and after lunch she posted herself at a front window to watch the streets and wait for pretty Miss Frothingham, who filled the double post of secretary and governess, and who had gone home yesterday to her sister’s house for a Christmas visit.

Then she was gone, and a long, lonely day stretched ahead for her little daughter. But Merle was used to it. She went into the kitchen and observed Ada and Ada’s friend, Mrs. Catawba Hercules, until Miss Watson arrived. After that, she had a music lesson and a French lesson, and after lunch, she settled by a front window to watch the streets and wait for pretty Miss Frothingham, who held both the positions of secretary and governess, and who had gone home yesterday to her sister’s house for a Christmas visit.

Outside was Christmas weather. All morning the streets had been bare and dark, and swept with menacing winds that hurried and buffeted the marketing and shopping women. But at noon the leaden sky had turned darker and darker, and crept lower and lower, and as Merle watched, the first timid snowflakes began to flutter whitely against the general grayness.

Outside was classic Christmas weather. All morning, the streets had been empty and gloomy, whipped by fierce winds that rushed and pushed against the women out shopping. But around noon, the heavy sky grew darker and lower, and as Merle watched, the first shy snowflakes started to dance softly against the overall grayness.

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Then there was scurrying and laughter in the streets, bundles dampened, boys shouting and running, merry faces rouged by the pure, soft cold. The shabby leather-sheathed doors of St. Martin’s, opposite Merle’s window, creaked and swung under the touch of wet, gloved hands. Merle could see the Christmas trees and the boxed oranges outside the State Street groceries coated with eider-down; naked gardens and fences and bare trees everywhere grew muffled and feathered and lovely. In the early twilight the whole happy town echoed with bells and horns and the clanking of snow-shovels.

Then there was a flurry of activity and laughter in the streets, packages getting wet, boys shouting and running around, cheerful faces flushed by the crisp, soft cold. The worn leather-covered doors of St. Martin’s, across from Merle’s window, creaked and swung open under the touch of damp, gloved hands. Merle could see the Christmas trees and the boxes of oranges outside the State Street grocery stores, all covered in soft snow. Everywhere, the bare gardens, fences, and trees looked cozy and beautiful under their fluffy layers. In the early twilight, the whole cheerful town echoed with the sounds of bells, horns, and the clanging of snow shovels.

By this time Miss Frothingham was back again, and was helping Merle into the picturesque black velvet with the deep lace collar. Merle, sputtering through the blue embroidered cloth while her face was being washed, asked how Miss Frothingham’s little niece had liked her doll.

By this time, Miss Frothingham was back and helping Merle into the beautiful black velvet dress with the deep lace collar. Merle, sputtering through the blue embroidered fabric while her face was being washed, asked how Miss Frothingham's little niece had liked her doll.

“Oh, my dear, she doesn’t get it until she comes down-stairs to-morrow morning, of course!”

“Oh, my dear, she won’t understand until she comes downstairs tomorrow morning, of course!”

“Will she be excited?” Merle asked, excited herself.

“Will she be excited?” Merle asked, feeling excited herself.

“She’ll be perfectly frantic! I see that your mother’s present came.”

“She’s going to be totally frantic! I see that your mom’s gift arrived.”

“My desk. It came last night. I moved all my things into it to-day,” Merle said. “It doesn’t feel much like Christmas when a person gets their presents two days before,” she observed.

“My desk. It arrived last night. I moved all my stuff into it today,” Merle said. “It doesn’t really feel like Christmas when you get your gifts two days early,” she noted.

“His presents. Her presents,” corrected the governess.

“His gifts. Her gifts,” corrected the governess.

“Her presents. Will your sister’s little girls have a tree?”

“Her gifts. Will your sister’s young daughters have a tree?”

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“Oh, my, yes! It’s a gorgeous tree!”

“Oh, my gosh, yes! It’s a beautiful tree!”

“And did you see my cousins while you were there?”

“And did you see my cousins while you were there?”

Miss Frothingham nodded. Her married sister lived next to Doctor Madison’s brother, a struggling young engineer with a small family, in a certain not-too-fashionable suburb. There had been a difference of opinion regarding a legacy, between the physician and her brother some years earlier, and a long silence had ensued, but Merle took a lively interest in the little cousins of whom she had only a hazy and wistful memory, and her mother had no objection to an occasional mention of them.

Miss Frothingham nodded. Her married sister lived next to Doctor Madison’s brother, a young engineer who was struggling with a small family, in a not-so-fashionable suburb. A few years ago, there had been a disagreement about an inheritance between the doctor and her brother, leading to a long silence, but Merle was genuinely interested in the little cousins she only had a faint and wistful memory of, and her mother didn’t mind if they were mentioned occasionally.

“I saw Rawley—that’s the second little boy—playing with my niece,” Miss Frothingham said. “And I saw Tommy—he’s older than you—taking care of the baby. I think he was going to the grocery for his mother; he was wheeling the baby very carefully. But I think those children are going to have a pretty sad Christmas because their Daddy is very sick, you know, and they all had whooping-cough, and I think their mother is too tired to know whether it’s Christmas or Fourth of July!”

“I saw Rawley—that’s the second little boy—playing with my niece,” Miss Frothingham said. “And I saw Tommy—he’s older than you—taking care of the baby. I think he was going to the grocery store for his mom; he was pushing the baby very carefully. But I think those kids are going to have a pretty sad Christmas because their dad is really sick, you know, and they all had whooping cough, and I think their mom is too tired to know if it’s Christmas or the Fourth of July!”

“Maybe their father’s going to die like my father,” Merle suggested stoically. “I guess they won’t hang up their stockings,” she added suddenly.

“Maybe their dad's going to die like my dad,” Merle suggested calmly. “I guess they won’t be hanging up their stockings,” she added out of the blue.

For it had been reported that this was their custom, and Merle liked to lie awake in her little bed, warm and cosy on a winter night, and think thrillingly of what it would be to explore a bulging and lumpy stocking of her own.

For it had been said that this was their tradition, and Merle enjoyed lying awake in her small bed, warm and comfy on a winter night, dreaming excitedly about what it would be like to explore a lumpy stocking of her own.

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Miss Frothingham looked doubtful. “I don’t suppose they will!” she opined.

Miss Frothingham looked unsure. “I don’t think they will!” she said.

Merle was shocked. “Will they cry?”

Merle was stunned. “Will they cry?”

“I don’t suppose so. My sister says they’re extremely good children and will do anything to help their mother.”

“I don’t think so. My sister says they’re really good kids and will do anything to help their mom.”

“Maybe they’ll hang them up anyway, and they’ll be empty?” Merle said, wide-eyed.

“Maybe they’ll hang them up anyway, and they’ll be empty?” Merle said, wide-eyed.

But the governess had lost interest in the subject, as grown-ups so often and so maddeningly did, and was manicuring her pretty nails, and humming, so Merle had to abandon it for the moment.

But the governess had lost interest in the topic, as adults so often and frustratingly did, and was doing her nails while humming, so Merle had to set it aside for now.

However, she thought about it continually, and after dinner she said suddenly and daringly to her mother:

However, she kept thinking about it, and after dinner, she suddenly and boldly said to her mom:

“The Rutledge children’s father is sick, and they aren’t going to hang up their stockings! Miss Frothingham said so!”

“The Rutledge kids' dad is sick, and they aren’t going to hang up their stockings! Miss Frothingham said so!”

When this was said, she and Miss Frothingham and her mother were all in the attic. Merle had not been there for weeks, nor her mother for months, and it was enchanting to the child to find herself bustling about, so unexpectedly in this exciting atmosphere, which, if it was not typically Christmassy, was at least unusual. It had come about suddenly, as did much that affected her mother’s movements.

When this was said, she, Miss Frothingham, and her mother were all in the attic. Merle hadn’t been there for weeks, and her mother hadn’t been there for months, so it was thrilling for the child to find herself bustling around in this surprising atmosphere, which, while not exactly festive, was at least unusual. It had happened suddenly, like so much that influenced her mother’s actions.

The doctor had arrived home at half-past four, and Miss Frothingham had lost no time in reminding her that the promised bundle for the New Year’s rummage sale for some charity was to have been ready[334] this evening. Doctor Madison had said—did she remember?—that she had any amount of old clothing to dispose of.

The doctor got home at 4:30, and Miss Frothingham quickly reminded her that the bundle she promised for the New Year’s charity rummage sale was supposed to be ready this evening. Doctor Madison had mentioned—did she recall?—that she had plenty of old clothes to get rid of.[334]

“Oh, that attic is full of it!” Merle’s mother had said, wearily. “You know this was my grandmother’s house, and goodness only knows the rubbish that is up there! I’ve meant to get at it all some time—I couldn’t do it in her lifetime. What time is it? Suppose we go up there and get a start?”

“Oh, that attic is packed with stuff!” Merle’s mother had said, tiredly. “You know this was my grandmother’s house, and who knows what junk is up there! I’ve been planning to tackle it at some point—I couldn’t do it while she was alive. What time is it? How about we head up there and make a start?”

There was twilight in the attic, and outside the dormer windows the snow was falling—falling. Merle performed a little pirouette of sheer ecstasy when they mounted the stairs. Her mother lighted the lights in a business-like fashion.

There was dusk in the attic, and outside the dormer windows, the snow was falling—falling. Merle did a little spin of pure joy when they climbed the stairs. Her mother turned on the lights efficiently.

“Here, take this—take this—take this!” she began to say carelessly, picking one garment after another from the low row of ghostly forms dangling against the eaves. “Mr. Madison’s army coats——”

“Here, take this—take this—take this!” she started to say casually, grabbing one piece of clothing after another from the low row of shadowy figures hanging against the eaves. “Mr. Madison’s army coats——”

“But, Mrs. Madison, this is beautiful beaver on this suit—yards of it!”

“But, Mrs. Madison, this is beautiful beaver fur on this suit—so much of it!”

“Take it—take it!” Merle’s equable mother said feverishly, almost irritably. “Here, I shall never wear this fur coat again, and all these hats—I suppose those plumes are worth something!”

“Take it—take it!” Merle’s calm mother said anxiously, almost annoyed. “Here, I’ll never wear this fur coat again, and all these hats—I guess those feathers are worth something!”

She was an energetic, restless creature. The hard work strangely calmed her, and just before dinner she was settling down to it almost with enjoyment. The summons to the meal annoyed her.

She was an energetic, restless person. The hard work oddly relaxed her, and just before dinner, she was actually starting to enjoy it. The call for the meal irritated her.

“Suppose we come back to it and make a thorough job?” she suggested.

“Why don't we come back to it and give it a proper go?” she suggested.

Merle’s heart leaped for joy.

Merle's heart soared with joy.

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“But you ought to be in bed, Kiddie,” her mother said, not urgently, when dinner was over.

“But you should be in bed, Kiddie,” her mother said, not urgently, when dinner was over.

“Oh, mother, please! It’s Christmas Eve!” Merle begged, with all the force of her agonized eight years.

“Oh, Mom, please! It’s Christmas Eve!” Merle pleaded, with all the intensity of her distressed eight years.

So here they all were again, and the snow was still falling outside, and the electric lights on their swinging cords were sending an eerie light over the miscellaneous shapes and contours of the attic, now making the shadow of an old what-not rush across the floor with startling vitality, now plunging the gloomy eaves behind Merle into alarming darkness.

So here they all were again, and the snow was still falling outside, and the electric lights on their swinging cords were casting an eerie glow over the various shapes and contours of the attic, sometimes making the shadow of an old what-not rush across the floor with surprising energy, and at other times plunging the dark eaves behind Merle into deep gloom.

Pyramids of books were on the floor, magazines tied in sixes with pink cord, curtains, rugs, beds, heaped mattresses, trunks, boxes, the usual wheel-chair and the usual crutch—all the significant, gathered driftwood of sixty years of living was strewn and packed and heaped and hung about.

Piles of books were on the floor, magazines bundled in sixes with pink string, curtains, rugs, beds, stacked mattresses, trunks, boxes, the regular wheelchair and the usual crutch—all the important, collected driftwood of sixty years of life was scattered and crammed and heaped and hanging around.

“Here, here’s a wonderful patent preserving kettle, do you suppose they could use that? And what about these four terrible patent rockers?”

“Here, here’s a great patented preserving kettle, do you think they could use that? And what about these four awful patent rockers?”

“Oh, Mrs. Madison, I imagine they would be only too delighted! Their idea is to open a regular store, you know, and make the sale permanent. But ought you——”

“Oh, Mrs. Madison, I bet they would be thrilled! Their plan is to open a regular store, you know, and make the sale permanent. But should you——”

“I ought to have done it years before! But Doctor Madison—” His widow’s breast rose on a sharp sigh; she lost the words for a second. “Doctor Madison and I never lived here, you know,” she resumed. “And I stayed abroad for years after his death, when Merle was a baby. And for a long time I was like a person dazed—” She stopped.

“I should have done it years ago! But Doctor Madison—” She took a sharp breath, and for a moment, she couldn't find her words. “Doctor Madison and I never lived here, you know,” she continued. “And I stayed overseas for years after he passed away when Merle was just a baby. For a long time, I felt like I was in a daze—” She paused.

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“I had my work,” she resumed, after a pause. “It saved my reason, I think. Perhaps—perhaps I went into it too hard. But I had to have—to do—something! My grandparents died and left me this place and the Beachaways’ place, but I’ve had no time for housekeeping!”

“I had my work,” she continued after a pause. “I think it kept me sane. Maybe—maybe I threw myself into it too much. But I needed to have—to do—something! My grandparents passed away and left me this place and the Beachaways’ place, but I haven't had any time for housekeeping!”

“I should think not, indeed!” Miss Frothingham said, timidly respectful.

“I definitely don't think so!” Miss Frothingham said, respectfully and a bit shyly.

These fingers, that could cleave so neatly into the very stronghold of life, that could touch so boldly hearts that still pulsated and lungs that still were fanned by breath, were they to count silver spoons and quilt comforters?

These fingers, which could easily reach into the core of life, that could boldly touch hearts that were still beating and lungs that were still drawing breath, were they meant to just count silver spoons and fold quilt comforters?

The governess felt a little impressed; even a little touched. She did not often see her employer in this mood. Kind, just, reasonable, interested, capable, good, Doctor Madison always was. But this was something more.

The governess felt a bit moved; maybe even a little touched. She didn’t usually see her boss in this mood. Doctor Madison was always kind, fair, reasonable, interested, capable, and good. But this was something extra.

“I had no intention of becoming rich, of being—successful!” the older woman added presently, in a dreamy tone. She was sitting with the great spread of a brocaded robe across her knee. Her eyes were absent.

“I didn't plan on getting rich or being—successful!” the older woman said after a moment, in a thoughtful tone. She was sitting with a beautiful brocade robe draped across her lap. Her eyes looked distant.

“All the more fun!” Miss Frothingham said youthfully.

“All the more fun!” Miss Frothingham said excitedly.

“I was alone—” Mary Madison said drearily and quietly, in a low tone, as if to herself. And in the three words the younger caught a glimpse of all the tragedy and loneliness of widowhood. “Doctor Madison was so wise,” she began again. “I’ve always[337] thought that if he had lived my life would have been different.”

“I was all alone—” Mary Madison said sorrowfully and softly, almost to herself. In those three words, the younger woman recognized all the tragedy and isolation of being a widow. “Doctor Madison was so wise,” she continued. “I’ve always[337] thought that if he had lived, my life would have been different.”

“You lost your parents, I know, and were you an only child?” Miss Frothingham ventured, after a respectful silence. But immediately the scarlet, apologetic color flooded her face, and she added hastily: “I beg your pardon! Of course I knew that you have a brother—I know Mr. Rutledge and his wife!”

“You lost your parents, I know, and were you an only child?” Miss Frothingham asked after a respectful silence. But immediately, a deep, apologetic redness spread across her face, and she quickly added, “I’m so sorry! Of course, I remember you have a brother—I know Mr. Rutledge and his wife!”

“Yes, I have a brother,” the doctor answered, rousing, and beginning briskly to assort and segregate again. The tone chilled her companion, and there was a pause.

“Yes, I have a brother,” the doctor replied, waking up and quickly starting to organize and separate things again. The tone made her companion feel uneasy, and there was a moment of silence.

“Your brother is Tommy’s and Rawley’s and the baby’s father,” Merle broke it by announcing flatly.

“Your brother is the father of Tommy, Rawley, and the baby,” Merle said bluntly.

Her mother looked at her with an indulgent half-smile. She usually regarded Merle much as an amused stranger might have done; the odd little black-eyed, black-maned child who was always curling herself into corners about the house. Merle was going to be pretty, her mother thought to-night, in satisfaction. Her little face was blazing, her eyes shone, and she had pulled over her dishevelled curls a fantastic tissue-paper cap of autumn leaves left from some long-ago Hallowe’en frolic her mother could only half-remember.

Her mother looked at her with a pleased half-smile. She usually saw Merle like an amused stranger might, the quirky little girl with black eyes and dark hair who always curled up in corners around the house. Tonight, her mother thought, Merle was going to be pretty. Her little face was glowing, her eyes sparkled, and she had topped her messy curls with a whimsical tissue-paper cap made of autumn leaves from some long-ago Halloween celebration her mother could only vaguely recall.

“What do you know about them?” she asked good-naturedly. “You never saw them!”

“What do you know about them?” she asked playfully. “You’ve never seen them!”

“You told me once about them, when I was a teeny little girl,” Merle reminded her. “When we were in[338] the cemetery you did. And Miss Frothingham told me.”

“You told me once about them when I was just a little girl,” Merle reminded her. “You said it when we were in [338] the cemetery. And Miss Frothingham told me too.”

“So there’s a third child?” Doctor Madison asked, musing. Miss Frothingham nodded.

“So there’s a third child?” Doctor Madison asked, thinking it over. Miss Frothingham nodded.

“A gorgeous boy. The handsomest baby I ever saw!... John,” she said.

“A gorgeous boy. The most handsome baby I've ever seen!... John,” she said.

“John was my father’s name. Sad, isn’t it?” Doctor Madison asked after a silence during which she had folded the brocade and added it to the heap.

“John was my father’s name. Sad, isn’t it?” Dr. Madison asked after a silence during which she had folded the fabric and added it to the pile.

“A costumier would buy lots of this just as it stands,” Miss Frothingham murmured by way of answer.

“A costume designer would buy a lot of this just as it is,” Miss Frothingham whispered in response.

“I mean when families quarrel,” persisted the doctor.

“I mean when families fight,” the doctor insisted.

“Oh, I think it is very sad!” the secretary said fervently.

“Oh, I think it’s really sad!” the secretary said passionately.

“We were inseparable, as children,” Mary Madison said suddenly. “Tim is just a year younger than I.”

“We were inseparable as kids,” Mary Madison said suddenly. “Tim is only a year younger than me.”

“You’re not going to give away all these beautiful Indian things, Doctor?”

"You really aren't going to give away all these beautiful Indian things, Doctor?"

The doctor, who had been staring absently into the shadows of the attic, roused herself. “Oh, why not? Merle here isn’t the sort that will want to hoard them! I loathe them all. It was just this sort of rubbish——”

The doctor, who had been staring blankly into the shadows of the attic, snapped back to attention. “Oh, why not? Merle here isn’t the type to want to keep them! I can't stand any of them. It was just this kind of junk—”

She had risen, to fling open the top of one more trunk. Now she moved restlessly across the attic, and Merle, who did not know her mother in this mood, hopped after her.

She got up to throw open the top of another trunk. Now she moved around the attic restlessly, and Merle, who didn’t recognize her mother in this mood, followed her.

“It was just this sort of rubbish, little girl,” Mary Madison said gently, one of her thin, clever hands laid[339] against the child’s cheek, “that made trouble between—your Uncle Timothy and me. Just pictures and rugs—and Aunt Lizzie’s will.... Well, let’s get through here, and away from these ghosts!”

“It was exactly this kind of nonsense, little girl,” Mary Madison said softly, one of her thin, clever hands resting against the child’s cheek, “that caused issues between—your Uncle Timothy and me. Just pictures and rugs—and Aunt Lizzie’s will.... Well, let’s get out of here and away from these ghosts!”

“I wish we had three children,” Merle said longingly. “You had your brother. But I haven’t any one! Did you hang up your stockings?”

“I wish we had three kids,” Merle said wistfully. “You had your brother. But I don’t have anyone! Did you hang up your stockings?”

“Dear me, yes! At the dining-room mantel.”

“Wow, yes! At the dining room mantel.”

“Then I would hang mine there, if I—hanged—it,” Merle decided.

“Then I would hang mine there, if I—hung—it,” Merle decided.

“But we have the big open fireplace in the sitting-room now, dear. We didn’t have that when we were little, Timmy and I.”

“But we have the big open fireplace in the living room now, dear. We didn’t have that when we were little, Timmy and I.”

“But I’d drather in the dining-room, mother, if that’s what you did!”

“But I’d rather be in the dining room, mom, if that’s what you did!”

“Here are perfectly good new flannels—” Miss Frothingham interposed.

"Here are perfectly good new flannels—" Miss Frothingham interrupted.

“Take them. But Merle,” the doctor said, a little troubled, “I would have filled a stocking for you if I had known you really wanted me to, dear. Will you remind me, next Christmas, and I’ll see to it?”

“Take them. But Merle,” the doctor said, a bit concerned, “I would have filled a stocking for you if I had known you actually wanted me to, dear. Will you remind me next Christmas, and I’ll take care of it?”

“Yes, mother,” Merle promised, suddenly lifeless and subdued. “But next Christmas is so—so far,” she faltered, with watering eyes and a trembling lip.

“Yes, mom,” Merle promised, suddenly lifeless and subdued. “But next Christmas is so—so far,” she faltered, with tear-filled eyes and a trembling lip.

“But all the shops are closed now, dear,” her mother reminded her sensibly. “You know my brother and I never had a quarrel before,” she added, after a space, to the younger woman. “And this was never an open breach.”

“But all the shops are closed now, dear,” her mother reminded her practically. “You know my brother and I have never had a fight before,” she added after a moment, speaking to the younger woman. “And this was never a public dispute.”

“Was?” Miss Frothingham echoed, anxious and eager.

“Was?” Miss Frothingham repeated, anxious and eager.

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“Wasn’t. No,” said her employer thoughtfully. “It was just a misunderstanding—the wrong word said here, and the wrong construction put upon it there, and then resentment—and silence—our lives separated——”

“Wasn’t. No,” her employer said thoughtfully. “It was just a misunderstanding—the wrong word said here, and the wrong interpretation taken there, and then resentment—and silence—our lives pulled apart——”

She fell silent herself, but it was Merle, attentively watching her, who said now,

She went quiet, but it was Merle, watching her closely, who said now,

“Their father’s sick, and they aren’t going to hang up their stockings!”

“Their dad is sick, and they aren’t going to put up their stockings!”

“Oh, they’ve had a great deal of trouble,” Miss Frothingham added with a grave expression, as the older woman turned inquiring eyes upon her. “Mr. Rutledge has been ill for weeks, and the baby is quite small—six or seven months old, I suppose.”

“Oh, they’ve had a lot of trouble,” Miss Frothingham added with a serious look, as the older woman glanced at her with curious eyes. “Mr. Rutledge has been sick for weeks, and the baby is pretty young—around six or seven months old, I think.”

“Why, he’s a successful man!” his sister said impatiently as the other paused.

“Why, he’s a successful man!” his sister said impatiently as the other paused.

“Oh, yes, they have a good Swedish girl, I know, and a little car, and all that! But I imagine this has been a terribly hard winter for them. They’re lovely people, Doctor Madison,” added little Miss Frothingham bravely and earnestly. “So wonderful with their children, and they have a little vegetable garden, and fruit trees, and all that! But all the children in that neighborhood had whooping cough last fall, and I know Mrs. Rutledge was pretty tired, and then he got double pneumonia before Thanksgiving, and he hasn’t been out of the house since.”

“Oh, yes, they have a nice Swedish girl, I know, and a small car and all that! But I bet this winter has been really tough for them. They’re great people, Doctor Madison,” little Miss Frothingham added bravely and sincerely. “So wonderful with their kids, and they have a little vegetable garden and fruit trees, and all that! But all the kids in that neighborhood had whooping cough last fall, and I know Mrs. Rutledge was pretty worn out, and then he got double pneumonia before Thanksgiving, and he hasn’t been out of the house since.”

“He’s a wonderful boy!” Doctor Madison said in a silence. “We were orphans, and he was a wonderful little brother to me. My grandparents were the stern, old-fashioned sort, but Timmy could put fun[341] and life into punishment, even. Many an hour I’ve spent up here in this very attic with him—in disgrace.”

“He’s an amazing kid!” Doctor Madison said in a quiet moment. “We were orphans, and he was a great little brother to me. My grandparents were strict and old-fashioned, but Timmy could make even punishment fun and lively. I’ve spent countless hours up in this very attic with him—grounded.”

She got up, walked a few paces across the bare floor, picked an old fur buggy-robe from a chair, looked at it absently, and put it down again.

She stood up, walked a few steps across the bare floor, picked up an old fur blanket from a chair, looked at it thoughtlessly, and set it down again.

“What insanity brought me up to this attic on a snowy Christmas Eve!” she demanded abruptly, laughing, but with the tears Miss Frothingham had never seen there before in her eyes. “It all comes over me so—what life was when Timmy and George—Merle’s father—were in it! Poor little girl,” she added, sitting down on a trunk and drawing Merle toward her; “you were to have seven brothers and sisters, and a big Daddy to adore you and spoil you! And he had been two months in his grave when she was born,” she added to the other woman.

“What madness brought me up to this attic on a snowy Christmas Eve!” she said suddenly, laughing, but with tears in her eyes that Miss Frothingham had never seen before. “It all hits me so hard—what life was like when Timmy and George—Merle’s dad—were still around! Poor little girl,” she continued, sitting down on a trunk and pulling Merle close; “you were supposed to have seven brothers and sisters, and a big Daddy to dote on you and spoil you! And he had been gone for two months when she was born,” she added to the other woman.

“But then couldn’t you afford to have all my brothers and sisters?” Merle demanded anxiously.

“But then couldn’t you afford to have all my brothers and sisters?” Merle asked worriedly.

“It couldn’t be managed, dear. Life gets unmanageable, sometimes,” her mother answered, smiling a little sadly. “But a brother is a wonderful thing for a small girl to have. Everything has robbed this child,” she added, “the silence between her uncle and me—her father’s death—my profession. If I had been merely a general practitioner, as I was for three years,” she went on, “there would have been a score of what we call ‘G. P.’s’ to fill her poor little stocking! But half my grateful patients hardly know me by sight, much less that I have a greedy little girl who has a stocking to be filled!”

“It just can’t be helped, dear. Sometimes life gets overwhelming,” her mother replied, smiling a bit sadly. “But having a brother is a wonderful thing for a little girl. This child has lost so much,” she continued, “the silence between her uncle and me—her father’s death—my job. If I had just been a general practitioner, like I was for three years,” she added, “there would have been plenty of what we call ‘G.P.s’ to fill her poor little stocking! But half of my grateful patients barely know who I am, let alone that I have a greedy little girl who needs her stocking filled!”

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“Mother, I love you,” Merle said, for the first time in her life stirred by the unusual hour and mood, and by the tender, half-sorrowful, and all-loving voice she had never heard before.

“Mom, I love you,” Merle said, for the first time in her life moved by the strange hour and mood, and by the tender, half-sad, and completely loving voice she had never heard before.

“And I love you, little girl, even if I am too busy to show it!” her mother answered seriously. “But here! Do let’s get done with this before we break our hearts!” she added briskly, in a sudden change of mood. And she sank upon her knees before a trunk and began vigorously to deal with its contents. “And I’ll tell you what I’ll do, Merle,” her mother went on, briskly lifting out and inspecting garments of all sorts. “I’ll go to see Mr. Waldteufel on Wednesday——”

“And I love you, little girl, even if I’m too busy to show it!” her mother replied seriously. “But come on! Let’s wrap this up before we break our hearts!” she added, brightening up suddenly. She knelt in front of a trunk and started to sort through its contents energetically. “And here’s what I’ll do, Merle,” her mother continued, quickly pulling out and examining various clothes. “I’ll go see Mr. Waldteufel on Wednesday——”

“Not Waldteufel of the Bazaar, mother?”

"Not Waldteufel from the Bazaar, mom?"

“The very same. You know your daddy and I were boarding with his mother in Potsdam when the war broke out, and two years ago your mother saved his wife and his tiny baby—after two dear little babies had died. So he thinks a great deal of the Madisons, my dear, and he’ll give me the very nicest things in that big shop for my little girl’s stocking. And suppose you hang it up New Year’s Eve this year, and next year—well, we won’t say anything about next year now, but just you wait!”

“The very same. You know your dad and I were staying with his mom in Potsdam when the war started, and two years ago your mom helped save his wife and their tiny baby—after two dear little babies had passed away. So he thinks a lot of the Madisons, my dear, and he’ll get me the very best things in that big shop for my little girl’s stocking. And how about you hang it up on New Year’s Eve this year, and next year—well, we won’t say anything about next year right now, but just you wait!”

“Oh, mother—mother!” Merle sang, her slippered feet dancing. And there was no question at this minute that she would some day be beautiful.

“Oh, mom—mom!” Merle sang, her slippered feet dancing. And there was no doubt at that moment that she would someday be beautiful.

“Don’t strangle me. There, I remember that dress—look at the puffed sleeves, Merle,” said her mother, still exploring the trunk. “I suppose the velvet is[343] worth something—and the lace collar. That was my best dress.”

“Don’t strangle me. There, I remember that dress—check out the puffed sleeves, Merle,” said her mother, still rummaging through the trunk. “I guess the velvet is[343] worth something—and the lace collar. That was my favorite dress.”

“Mother, mayn’t I keep it? And wear it some day?”

“Mom, can’t I keep it? And wear it someday?”

“Why, I suppose you may. I wish,” said the doctor in an undertone, whimsically to the other woman, “I wish I had more of that sort of sentiment—of tenderness—in me! I did have, once.”

“Why, I guess you can. I wish,” the doctor said softly, with a playful tone to the other woman, “I wish I had more of that kind of feeling—of tenderness—in me! I used to.”

“Perhaps it was the sorrow—and then your taking your profession so hard?” Miss Frothingham suggested timidly.

“Maybe it was the sadness—and then you took your job so seriously?” Miss Frothingham suggested hesitantly.

“Perhaps—Here, this was my brother Timmy’s sweater,” said the doctor, taking a bulky little garment of gray wool from the trunk. “How proud he was of it! It was his first—‘my roll-top sweater,’ he used to call it. I remember these two pockets——”

“Maybe—Here, this was my brother Timmy’s sweater,” the doctor said, pulling a chunky gray wool garment out of the trunk. “He was so proud of it! It was his first—‘my roll-top sweater,’ he would call it. I remember these two pockets——”

She ran her fingers—the beautifully-tempered fingers of the surgeon—into one of the pockets as she spoke, and Merle and the secretary saw an odd expression come into her face. But when she withdrew her hand and exposed to them the palm, it was filled with nothing more comprehensible than eight or ten curled and crisped old crusts of bread.

She ran her fingers—the expertly skilled fingers of a surgeon—into one of the pockets as she spoke, and Merle and the secretary noticed a strange look appear on her face. But when she pulled her hand out and showed them her palm, it was filled with nothing more understandable than eight or ten twisted, crumpled old pieces of bread.

“Mother, what is it?” Merle questioned, peering.

“Mom, what is it?” Merle asked, looking closely.

“Bait?” Miss Frothingham asked, smiling.

“Bait?” Miss Frothingham asked, grinning.

“Crusts,” the older woman said in an odd voice.

“Crusts,” the older woman said in a strange tone.

“Crusts?” echoed the other two, utterly at a loss.

“Crusts?” the other two repeated, completely confused.

There was that in the doctor’s look that made the moment significant.

There was something in the doctor’s gaze that made the moment important.

“Yes,” said Merle’s mother. And for a full minute there was silence in the attic, Miss Frothingham covertly and somewhat bewilderedly studying her employer’s[344] face, Merle looking from one to the other with round eyes like those of a brunette doll, and the older woman staring into space, as if entirely unconscious of their presence.

“Yes,” said Merle’s mom. And for a whole minute, there was silence in the attic, Miss Frothingham secretly and somewhat confusedly studying her employer’s[344] face, while Merle looked from one to the other with wide eyes like those of a brunette doll, and the older woman stared into space, seemingly unaware of their presence.

The lights stirred, and shadows leaped and moved in answer. Snow made a delicate, tinkling sound outside, in the dark, on the roof beyond the dormers. The bell of Saint Paul’s rang nine o’clock on Christmas Eve.

The lights flickered, and shadows danced and shifted in response. Outside, the snow made a soft, tinkling sound in the dark on the roof beyond the dormers. The bell of Saint Paul’s struck nine o’clock on Christmas Eve.

“I was always a stubborn child, and I hated the crusts of my bread, but they insisted that I eat them,” said Mary Madison suddenly, in an odd, rather low voice. “I used to cry and fight about it, and—and Timmy used to eat them for me.”

“I was always a stubborn kid, and I hated the crusts of my bread, but they made me eat them,” said Mary Madison suddenly, in a strange, somewhat quiet voice. “I used to cry and argue about it, and—and Timmy would eat them for me.”

“Did he like them, mother?” Merle demanded, highly interested.

“Did he like them, Mom?” Merle asked, very interested.

“Did he—? No, I don’t know that he did. But he was a very good little brother to me, Merle. And grandmother and Aunt Lizzie used to be stern with me, always trapping me into trouble, getting me into scenes where I screamed at them and they at me.”

“Did he—? No, I don’t think he did. But he was a really good little brother to me, Merle. Grandma and Aunt Lizzie used to be strict with me, always putting me in situations that got me in trouble, leading to moments where I yelled at them and they yelled at me.”

Her voice stopped, and for a second she was silent.

Her voice faded, and for a moment, she fell silent.

“Crusts were a great source of trouble,” she resumed after a while.

“Crusts were a real source of trouble,” she continued after a bit.

“I like them!” Merle said encouragingly, to feed the conversation.

“I like them!” Merle said supportively, to keep the conversation going.

“Yours is a very different world, baby. People used to excite and bewilder children thirty years ago. I’ve spent whole mornings sobbing and defiant. ‘You will say it!’ ‘I won’t say it’—hour after hour after hour.”

“Your world is really different, baby. People used to thrill and confuse kids thirty years ago. I've spent entire mornings crying and being stubborn. ‘You will say it!’ ‘I won’t say it’—hour after hour after hour.”

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Merle was actually pale at the thought.

Merle actually felt faint at the thought.

“Timmy was the favorite, and how generous he was to me!” his sister said, musing. And suddenly she raised the little dried crusts in both hands to her face, and laid her cheek against them. “Oh, Timmy—Timmy—Timmy!” she said, between a laugh and a sob. “To think of the grimy little hand that put these here just because Molly was so naughty and so stubborn!”

“Timmy was the favorite, and he was so generous to me!” his sister said, reflecting. And suddenly she lifted the little dried crusts in both hands to her face, pressing her cheek against them. “Oh, Timmy—Timmy—Timmy!” she said, caught between laughter and tears. “Just think about the dirty little hand that put these here just because Molly was so naughty and so stubborn!”

“Miss Frothingham,” said Doctor Madison quietly, looking up with one of those amazing changes of mood that were the eternal bewilderment of those who dealt with her, “I wonder if you could finish this up? Get Lizzie to help you if you like; we’re all but done anyway! Use your own judgment, but when in doubt—destroy! I believe—it’s only nine o’clock! I believe I’ll go and see my brother! Come, Merle, get your coat with the squirrel collar—it’s cold!”

“Miss Frothingham,” Doctor Madison said softly, looking up with one of those surprising mood shifts that always puzzled those around her, “I was wondering if you could wrap this up? Feel free to get Lizzie to help you; we’re almost finished anyway! Trust your instincts, but if you’re unsure—just get rid of it! I think—it’s only nine o’clock! I think I’ll go see my brother! Come on, Merle, grab your coat with the squirrel collar—it’s chilly!”

So then it was all Christmas magic, and just what Christmas Eve should be. Saunders brought the little closed car to the door, to be sure, but there he vanished from the scene, and it was only mother and Merle.

So it was all Christmas magic, just like Christmas Eve should be. Saunders brought the little car to the door, just to make sure, but then he disappeared from the scene, leaving only Mom and Merle.

The streets were snowy, and snow frosted the windshield, and lights and people and the bright windows of shops were all mixed up together, in a pink and blue and gold dazzle of color.

The streets were covered in snow, and snow coated the windshield, with lights, people, and the bright windows of shops all blending together in a dazzling mix of pink, blue, and gold.

But all this was past before they came to the “almost country,” as Merle called it, and there were gardens and trees about the little houses, where lights[346] streamed out with an infinitely heartening and pleasant effect.

But all this was behind them before they arrived at the “almost country,” as Merle called it, and there were gardens and trees around the small houses, where lights[346] shone out with a wonderfully uplifting and pleasant effect.

They stopped. “Put your arms tight about my neck, Baby. I can’t have you walking in this!” said her mother then.

They stopped. “Wrap your arms around my neck, babe. I can't let you walk in this!” her mother said then.

And Merle tightened her little furry arms about her mother’s furry collar, and they somehow struggled and stumbled up to Uncle Tim’s porch. There was light in one of the windows, but no light in the hall. But after a while footsteps came——

And Merle wrapped her small furry arms around her mother’s furry collar, and they somehow managed to struggle and stumble up to Uncle Tim’s porch. There was light in one of the windows, but none in the hallway. But after a while, footsteps approached——

“Molly!” said the pale, tall, gentle woman who opened the door, “and your dear baby!”

“Molly!” said the tall, pale, kind woman who opened the door, “and your sweet baby!”

“Cassie—may we come in?” Merle had never heard her mother speak in quite this tone before.

“Cassie—can we come in?” Merle had never heard her mother talk like that before.

They went in to a sort of red-tinted dimness. But in the dining-room there was sudden light, and they all blinked at each other. And Merle instantly saw that over the mantel two short stockings and tiny socks were suspended.

They entered a dim space with a red tint. But in the dining room, there was suddenly bright light, and they all squinted at one another. Merle quickly noticed that two short stockings and tiny socks were hanging over the mantel.

The women were talking in short sentences.

The women were speaking in brief sentences.

“Molly!”

“Molly!”

“Cassie——”

“Cassie—”

“But in all this snow——”

“But in all this snow—”

“We didn’t mind it.”

“We were okay with it.”

“I’m so glad.”

“I'm really glad.”

“Cassie—how thin you are, child! And you look so tired!”

“Cassie—you're so thin, kid! And you look really tired!”

“Timmy’s been so ill!”

“Timmy's been really sick!”

“But he’s better?”

"But he's better now?"

“Oh, yes—but so weak still!”

“Oh, yes—but still so weak!”

“You’ve had a nurse?”

“Did you have a nurse?”

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“Not these last two weeks. We couldn’t—we didn’t—really need her. I have my wonderful Sigma in the kitchen, you know.”

"Not these last two weeks. We couldn't—we didn't—really need her. I have my amazing Sigma in the kitchen, you know."

“But, my dear, with a tiny baby!”

“But, my dear, with a little baby!”

The worn face brightened. “Ah, he’s such a dear! I don’t know what we would have done without him!”

The tired face lit up. “Oh, he’s such a sweetheart! I don’t know what we would have done without him!”

A silence. Then Mrs. Rutledge said: “The worst is over, we hope. And the boys have been such a comfort!”

A silence. Then Mrs. Rutledge said: “The worst is behind us, we hope. And the boys have been such a comfort!”

“They hung up their stockings,” Merle commented in her deep, serious little voice.

“They hung up their stockings,” Merle said in her deep, serious little voice.

“Yes, dear,” their mother said eagerly, as if she were glad to have the little pause bridged. “But I’m afraid Santa Claus is going to be too busy to remember them this year! I’ve just been telling them that perhaps he wouldn’t have time to put anything but some candy and some fruit in, this year!”

“Yes, dear,” their mother said eagerly, as if she was happy to have the little pause filled. “But I’m afraid Santa Claus is going to be too busy to remember them this year! I’ve just been telling them that maybe he wouldn’t have time to put in anything but some candy and some fruit this year!”

They believe in Santa Claus,” Merle remarked, faintly reproachful, to her mother. “But I’m younger than Tommy, and I don’t!”

They believe in Santa Claus,” Merle said with a hint of reproach to her mom. “But I’m younger than Tommy, and I don’t!”

“But you may if you want to, dear!” Doctor Madison said, shaken, yet laughing, and kneeling down to put her arms about the little girl. “Cassie, what can I do for Tim?” she pleaded. “We’re neither of us children. I don’t have to say that I’m sorry—that it’s all been a bad dream of coldness and stupidity.”

“But you can if you want to, sweetie!” Doctor Madison said, a bit shaken but laughing, as she knelt down to hug the little girl. “Cassie, what can I do for Tim?” she begged. “We’re not kids anymore. I don’t need to say I’m sorry—that this has all been a terrible dream of coldness and foolishness.”

“Oh, Molly—Molly!” the other woman faltered. And tears came into the eyes that had not known them for hard and weary weeks. “He was to blame more than you—I always said so. He knew it! And[348] he did try to write you! He’s grieved over it so. But when he met you in the street that day——”

“Oh, Molly—Molly!” the other woman hesitated. And tears filled her eyes that hadn't shed any for tough and exhausting weeks. “He was more at fault than you—I always said that. He knew it! And[348] he really tried to reach out to you! He's been so upset about it. But when he saw you on the street that day——”

“I know it! I know it! He was wrong—I was wrong—you were the only sensible one, the peacemaker, between us!” the doctor said eagerly and quickly. “It’s over. It’s for us now to see that the children are wiser in their day and generation!”

“I know it! I know it! He was wrong—I was wrong—you were the only sensible one, the peacemaker, between us!” the doctor said eagerly and quickly. “It’s over. It’s our job now to make sure the children are wiser in their time!”

“Ah, Molly, but you were always so wonderful!” faltered Cassie Rutledge. And suddenly the two women were in each other’s arms. “Molly, we’ve missed—just you—so!” she sobbed.

“Ah, Molly, you were always amazing!” Cassie Rutledge said, her voice wavering. In that moment, the two women embraced. “Molly, we’ve missed—just you—so much!” she cried.

Two small shabby boys in pajamas had come solemnly in from the direction of the kitchen, whence also proceeded the fretting of a baby. Merle was introduced to Tommy and Rawley and was shy. But she immediately took full charge of the baby.

Two small, ragged boys in pajamas had come quietly in from the kitchen, where the sound of a fussing baby could also be heard. Merle was introduced to Tommy and Rawley, and she felt shy. But she quickly took charge of the baby.

“Santa Claus may not give us anything but apples and stuff,” Rawley, who was six, confided. “Because Dad was sick, and there are lots of poor children this year!”

“Santa Claus might only give us apples and things,” Rawley, who was six, shared. “Because Dad is sick, and there are a lot of poor kids this year!”

“And we aren’t going to have any turkey because Dad and John couldn’t have any, anyway!” Tommy added philosophically.

“And we’re not having any turkey because Dad and John can’t have any, anyway!” Tommy said thoughtfully.

John was the baby, who now looked dewily and sleepily at the company from above the teething biscuit with which he was smearing his entire countenance.

John was the baby, who now looked sleepily and adorably at the group while smearing his whole face with the teething biscuit.

“He’s getting a great, big, hard back tooth, Molly, at eight months,” said his mother, casting aside the biscuit and wiping the exquisite, little velvet face. “Isn’t that early?”

"He’s getting a big, tough molar, Molly, at eight months," said his mom, putting down the biscuit and wiping his adorable little velvet face. "Isn’t that early?"

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“It seems so to me. I forget! Any fever?”

“It seems that way to me. I forgot! Any fever?”

“Oh, no, but his blessed little mouth is so hot! Timmy’s asleep,” said Cassie anxiously. “But Molly, if you could stay to see him just a minute when he wakes! Could Merle—we have an extra bed in the little room right off the boys’ room, where the nurse slept. She couldn’t spend Christmas with the boys? That would be better than any present to us!”

“Oh, no, but his little mouth is so warm! Timmy’s asleep,” Cassie said urgently. “But Molly, could you stay to see him for just a minute when he wakes up? Could Merle—we have an extra bed in the small room right next to the boys’ room, where the nurse slept. She couldn’t spend Christmas with the boys? That would be better than any gift for us!”

She spoke as one hardly hoping, and Merle felt no hope whatever. But to the amazement of both, the handsome, resolute face softened, and the doctor merely said:

She spoke as if she barely had any hope, and Merle felt completely hopeless. But to both of their surprise, the doctor’s handsome, determined face softened, and he simply said:

“Trot along to bed then, Merle, with your cousins. But mind you don’t make any noise. Remember Uncle Timmy is ill!”

“Trot off to bed now, Merle, with your cousins. But make sure you don’t make any noise. Remember, Uncle Timmy is sick!”

Merle strangled her with a kiss. There was a murmur of children’s happy voices on the stairs; a messenger came back to ask if Tom’s nine-year-old pajamas or Rawley’s seven-year-old size would best suit the guest. Another messenger came discreetly down and hung a fourth stocking at the dining-room mantel, with the air of one both invisible and inaudible.

Merle kissed her passionately. There was a soft sound of kids happily chatting on the stairs; a messenger returned to ask whether Tom’s nine-year-old pajamas or Rawley’s seven-year-old size would be better for the guest. Another messenger quietly came down and hung a fourth stocking on the dining room mantel, moving as if they were both unseen and unheard.

“He’s terrified,” said Cassie in an aside, with her good motherly smile; “he knows he has no business downstairs at this hour!”

“He's scared,” Cassie said quietly, wearing her warm motherly smile. “He knows he shouldn’t be downstairs at this time!”

Then Cassie’s baby fretted himself off in her arms, and the two women sat in the dim light, and talked and talked and talked.

Then Cassie’s baby fussed in her arms, and the two women sat in the low light, talking and talking and talking.

“Cassie, we’ve an enormous turkey—I’ll send it over the first thing in the morning.”

“Cassie, we have a huge turkey—I’ll send it over first thing in the morning.”

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“But, Molly, when Tim knows you’ve been here, he’ll not care about any turkey!”

“But, Molly, when Tim finds out you’ve been here, he won’t care about any turkey!”

“Their stockings—” mused the doctor, unhearing.

“Their stockings—” the doctor thought, not really listening.

With a suddenly lighting face, after deep thought, she went to the telephone in the dining-room, and three minutes later a good husband and father, a mile away across the city, left his own child and the tree he was trimming and went to answer her summons.

With a suddenly brightened face, after some deep thinking, she went to the phone in the dining room, and three minutes later, a good husband and father, a mile away across the city, left his own child and the tree he was trimming to respond to her call.

“Mr. Waldteufel? This is Doctor Madison.”

“Mr. Waldteufel? This is Dr. Madison.”

“Oh, Doctor!” came rushing the rich European voice. “Merry Christmas to you! I wish could you but zee your bapey—so fat we don’t weigh him Sundays no more! His lecks is like——”

“Oh, Doctor!” came the rich European voice. “Merry Christmas to you! I wish I could see your baby—he's so chubby we don’t weigh him on Sundays anymore! His legs are like——”

The surgeon’s voice interrupted. There was excited interchange of words. Then the toy-king said:

The surgeon spoke up, cutting through the conversation. Everyone started talking excitedly. Then the toy king said:

“I meet you at my store in ten minutes! It is one more kindness that you ask me to do it! My employees go home at five—the boss he works late, isn’t it? I should to work hard for this boy of mine—an egg he eats to-day, the big rough-neck feller!”

“I'll meet you at my store in ten minutes! It's just another favor you're asking me to do! My employees leave at five—the boss works late, right? I really need to work hard for this boy of mine—he eats an egg today, the big tough guy!”

“Oh, Molly, you can’t!” Cassie protested. But there was color in her face.

“Oh, Molly, you can’t!” Cassie protested. But there was color in her face.

“Oh, Cassie, I can! Have we a tree?”

“Oh, Cassie, I can! Do we have a tree?”

“I couldn’t. It wasn’t the money, Molly—don’t think that. But it was just being so tired ... the trimmings are all there from last year ... oh, Molly, into this darkness and cold again! You shouldn’t!”

“I couldn’t. It wasn’t about the money, Molly—don’t think that. But I was just so tired... the decorations are all there from last year... oh, Molly, not into this darkness and cold again! You shouldn’t!”

She was gone. But the hour that Cassie waited, dreaming, with the baby in her lap, was a restful[351] hour, and when it was ended, and Molly was back again, the baby had to be carried upstairs, up to his crib, for there was heavy work to do below stairs.

She was gone. But the hour that Cassie waited, dreaming with the baby in her lap, was a peaceful[351] hour, and when it was over and Molly returned, the baby needed to be taken upstairs to his crib because there was a lot of work to do downstairs.

Molly had a coaster and an enormous rocking-horse. She had the car loaded and strapped and covered with packages. She had a tree, which she said she had stolen from the grocer; he would be duly enlightened and paid to-morrow.

Molly had a coaster and a huge rocking horse. She had the car packed, secured, and covered with packages. She had a tree, which she claimed she had taken from the grocer; he would be informed and paid tomorrow.

She flung off her heavy coat, pinned back her heavy hair, tied on an apron. She snapped strings, scribbled cards. And she personally stuffed the three larger stockings.

She threw off her heavy coat, pulled back her thick hair, and tied on an apron. She snapped strings and wrote cards. And she personally filled the three bigger stockings.

Cassie assisted. Neither woman heard the clock strike ten, strike eleven.

Cassie helped out. Neither of the women heard the clock chime ten or eleven.

“You’ll be a wreck to-morrow, my dear!”

"You'll be a mess tomorrow, my dear!"

“Oh, Molly, no! This is just doing me a world of good. I had been feeling so depressed and so worried. But I believe—I do believe—that the worst of it is over now!”

“Oh, Molly, no! This is really helping me. I had been feeling so down and so anxious. But I believe—I really believe—that the worst of it is behind me now!”

“Which one gets this modeling clay? It’s frightfully smelly stuff, but they all adore it! My dear, does Timmy usually sleep this way? I’ve looked in at him twice, he seems troubled—restless——”

“Which one gets this modeling clay? It’s incredibly smelly stuff, but they all love it! My dear, does Timmy usually sleep like this? I’ve checked on him twice; he seems troubled—restless—”

“Yes—the scissors are there, right under your foot. Yes, he is like that, Molly, no real rest, and he doesn’t seem to have any particular life in him. He seems so languid. Nothing tastes exactly right to him and of course the children are noisy, and the house is small. I want him——”

“Yes—the scissors are right under your foot. Yes, he's like that, Molly, always restless, and he doesn’t seem to have much life in him. He appears so sluggish. Nothing has the right flavor for him, and of course, the kids are loud, and the house is small. I want him——”

Mrs. Rutledge, working away busily in the litter, and fastening a large tinsel ball to a fragrant bough[352] with thin, work-worn hands, stepped back, squinted critically, and turned to the next task. The homely little room was fire-warmed. Mary Madison remembered some of the books, and the big lamp, and the arm-chair that had belonged to her father. Cassie had a sort of gift for home-making, even in a perfectly commonplace eight-room suburban house, she mused.

Mrs. Rutledge, busy at work in the mess, was attaching a large tinsel ball to a fragrant branch[352] with her thin, worn hands. She stepped back, squinted critically, and moved on to the next task. The cozy little room was warmed by the fire. Mary Madison recalled some of the books, the big lamp, and the armchair that had belonged to her father. She thought Cassie had a knack for making a home feel inviting, even in an ordinary eight-room suburban house.

“I want him,” Cassie resumed presently, “to take us all down south somewhere—or to go by himself, for that matter!—and get a good rest. But he feels it isn’t fair to Jim Prescott—his partner, you know. Only—” reasoned the wife, threading glassy little colored balls with wire, “only Tim is the real brains of the business, and Jim Prescott knows it. Timmy does all the designing, and this year they’ve seemed to get their first real start—more orders than they can fill, really. And it worries Timmy to fall down just now! He wants to get back. But I feel that if he had a real rest——”

“I want him,” Cassie continued after a moment, “to take all of us down south somewhere—or even go by himself, for that matter!—and just get a good break. But he thinks it wouldn’t be fair to Jim Prescott—his partner, you know. Only—” she reasoned, threading shiny little colored beads with wire, “only Tim is the real genius of the business, and Jim Prescott knows that. Timmy does all the designing, and this year they finally seem to be getting their first real breakthrough—more orders than they can handle, really. And it stresses Timmy out to let things slip now! He wants to get back to it. But I believe that if he really took a break——”

“I don’t know,” the physician answered, setting John’s big brown bear in an attitude of attack above the absurd little sock. “It’s a very common attitude, and nine times out of ten a man is happier in his work than idling. I’d let him go back, if I were you, I think.”

“I don’t know,” the doctor replied, positioning John’s large brown bear in a threatening stance above the ridiculous little sock. “It’s a very common mindset, and nine times out of ten, a person is happier at work than just wasting time. I’d let him return, if I were you, I think.”

“Oh, would you, Molly?” Cassie demanded in relief and surprise.

“Oh, would you, Molly?” Cassie asked, feeling both relieved and surprised.

“I think so. And then perhaps you could all get away early to Beachaways——”

"I think so. And then maybe you all could leave early for Beachaways——"

“Molly!”

“Molly!”

“Don’t use that tone, my dear. The place wasn’t[353] even opened last year. I went to Canada for some hospital work, and took Merle with me and left her at the Lakes with my secretary. I wanted then to suggest that you and Timmy use Beachaways. It’s in a bad condition, I know——”

“Don’t speak like that, my dear. The place wasn’t even open last year. I went to Canada for some hospital work, and took Merle with me and left her at the Lakes with my secretary. I wanted to suggest that you and Timmy use Beachaways. I know it’s in bad shape—”

“Bad condition! Right there on the beach, and all to ourselves! And he can get away every Friday night!”

“Terrible situation! Right here on the beach, and it’s just us! And he can slip away every Friday night!”

“Perhaps you’ll have my monkey down with her cousins, now and then. She doesn’t seem to have made strangers of them, exactly.”

“Maybe you’ll see my monkey with her cousins from time to time. She doesn’t seem to have completely ignored them.”

“Not exactly,” agreed Cassie with her quiet smile. “They were all crowded into the boys’ big bed when I went up. I carried Rawley into the next room. Tom and Merle had their hands clasped, even in their sleep. Molly,” she added suddenly, in an odd tone, “what—I have to ask you!—what made you come?”

“Not really,” Cassie said with a soft smile. “They were all piled up in the boys’ big bed when I went upstairs. I took Rawley into the next room. Tom and Merle were holding hands, even in their sleep. Molly,” she added abruptly, in a strange tone, “what—I need to ask you!—what made you come?”

“Christmas, perhaps,” the doctor answered gravely, after a moment. “I’ve always wanted to. But, I’m queer. I couldn’t.”

“Christmas, maybe,” the doctor replied seriously, after a moment. “I’ve always wanted to. But, I’m different. I couldn’t.”

“Tim’s always wanted to,” his wife said. “He’s always said: ‘There’s no real reason for it! But life has just separated us, and we’ll have to wait until it all comes straight naturally again.’”

“Tim’s always wanted to,” his wife said. “He’s always said: ‘There’s no real reason for it! But life has just pulled us apart, and we’ll have to wait until everything comes back together naturally again.’”

“I don’t think those things ever come straight, naturally,” said Mary Madison thoughtfully. “One thinks, ‘Well, what’s the difference? People aren’t necessarily closer, or more congenial, just because they happen to be related!’ But at Christmas time you find it’s all true; that families do belong together; that blood is thicker than water!”

“I don’t think those things ever come easily,” Mary Madison said thoughtfully. “You might think, ‘What’s the difference? People aren’t necessarily closer or friendlier just because they’re related!’ But at Christmas, you realize it’s all true; families do belong together; blood is thicker than water!”

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“Or when you’re in trouble, Molly, or in joy,” the other woman said, musing. “Over and over again I’ve thought that I must go to you—must try to clear up the whole silly business! But you are away so much, and so busy—and so famous now—that somehow I always hesitated! And just lately, when it seemed—” her voice thickened, “when it seemed as if Timmy really might die,” she went on with a little difficulty, “I’ve felt so much to blame! He’s always loved you so, admired you—his big sister! He is always quoting you, what Molly says and does. And just to have the stupid years go on and on, and this silence between us, seemed so—so wasted!”

“Or when you’re in trouble, Molly, or happy,” the other woman said, thinking out loud. “I’ve thought many times that I should come to you—should try to sort out the whole ridiculous situation! But you’re away so often, and so busy—and now you’re so famous—that I always hesitated! And just recently, when it seemed—” her voice broke, “when it seemed like Timmy really might die,” she continued with some difficulty, “I’ve felt so guilty! He has always loved you so much, looked up to you—his big sister! He constantly quotes you, what Molly says and does. And just to let the years drag on like this, with this silence between us, felt so—so wasted!”

“Die!” Molly echoed scornfully. “Why should he? With these lovely boys and you to live for!”

“Die!” Molly repeated mockingly. “Why would he? He has these wonderful boys and you to live for!”

“Yes, I know. But don’t you remember saying years ago, when you were just beginning to study medicine to have an intelligent interest in George’s work—don’t you remember saying then that dying is a point of view? That you had seen a sudden sort of meekness come over persons who really weren’t very sick, just as if they thought to themselves: ‘What now? Oh, yes, I’m to die?’ I remember our all shouting when you said it, but many a time since I’ve thought it was true. And somehow it’s been almost that way with Timmy, lately. Just—dying, because he was through—living!”

“Yes, I know. But don’t you remember saying years ago, when you were just starting to study medicine, that you had an insightful interest in George’s work—don’t you remember saying that dying is a perspective? That you noticed a sudden kind of calmness take over people who really weren’t very sick, almost as if they were thinking to themselves: ‘What now? Oh, right, I’m supposed to die?’ I remember us all cheering when you said that, but many times since, I’ve thought it was true. And somehow, it’s felt almost that way with Timmy lately. Just—dying, because he was done—living!”

“Cassie, what utter foolishness to talk that way, and get yourself crying when you are tired out, anyway!”

“Cassie, what complete nonsense to talk like that and make yourself cry when you're already exhausted!”

“Ah, well, I believe just the sight of you when he[355] wakes up is going to cure him, Molly!” his wife smiled through her tears.

“Ah, well, I think just seeing you when he[355] wakes up is going to make him better, Molly!” his wife smiled through her tears.

But only a little later, the invalid fell, as it chanced, into the most restful sleep he had known for weeks, and Mary, creeping away to her car, under the cold, high moon, and hearing the Christmas bells ring midnight as she went over the muffling snow toward her own room and her own bed, could only promise that when she had had a bath, and some sleep, she would come back and perhaps be beside him when he awakened.

But just a little later, the sick man fell into the most restful sleep he had experienced in weeks. Mary, quietly making her way to her car under the cold, bright moon and hearing the Christmas bells ring midnight as she walked over the soft snow toward her own room and bed, could only promise that after she took a bath and got some sleep, she would come back and maybe be next to him when he woke up.

And so it happened that in the late dawn, when three little wrappered forms were stirring in the Rutledge nursery, and when thrilled whispers were sounding in the halls, Merle Madison was amazed to see her mother coming quietly up from the kitchen and could give her an ecstatic Christmas kiss.

And so it happened that in the early morning, when three small wrapped-up figures were waking in the Rutledge nursery, and excited whispers were echoing in the halls, Merle Madison was surprised to see her mom coming quietly up from the kitchen and was able to give her a joyful Christmas kiss.

“We know it’s only oranges and candy,” breathed Merle, “but we’re going down to get our stockings now!”

“We know it’s just oranges and candy,” Merle said with excitement, “but we’re going to get our stockings now!”

“Is the tree lighted?” Mary Madison, who was carrying a steaming bowl, asked in French.

“Is the tree lit up?” Mary Madison, who was carrying a steaming bowl, asked in French.

“It is simply a vision!” the other mother, whose pale face was radiant, answered, with her lips close to the curly head of the excited baby she was carrying. “Timmy’s waking,” she added, with a nod toward the bedroom door.

“It’s just a vision!” the other mother, whose pale face was glowing, replied, with her lips near the curly head of the excited baby she was holding. “Timmy’s waking up,” she added, nodding toward the bedroom door.

“I’ll go in.”

"I'm going in."

The other woman carried her burden across the threshold—in the quiet orderly sick room her eyes[356] and her brother’s eyes met for the first time in years.

The other woman brought her load across the threshold—in the calm, tidy sick room, her eyes[356] met her brother’s for the first time in years.

He was very white and thin, unshorn, and somehow he reminded her of the unkempt little motherless boy of years ago.

He was very pale and thin, unshaven, and for some reason, he reminded her of the messy little motherless boy from years ago.

“Molly!” he whispered, his lips trembling.

“Molly!” he whispered, his lips shaking.

And her own mouth shook as she put the bowl on the bedside table, and sat down beside him, and clasped her fine, strong, warm hand over his thin one.

And her own hands trembled as she set the bowl on the bedside table, sat down next to him, and wrapped her nice, strong, warm hand around his thin one.

“Hello, Timmy,” she said gently, blinking, and with a little thickness of speech.

“Hey, Timmy,” she said softly, blinking, and with a slight slur in her words.

“Molly,” he whispered again in infinite content. And she felt his fingers tighten, and saw two tears slip through the closed eyelids as his head was laid back against the pillow.

“Molly,” he whispered again, feeling completely at peace. She felt his fingers tighten and saw two tears slip through his closed eyelids as he rested his head back against the pillow.

“Weak—” he murmured, without stirring.

"Weak—" he whispered, remaining still.

“You’ve been so sick, dear.”

“You’ve been really sick, dear.”

A silence. Then he said, “Molly, were you here in the night?”

A silence. Then he said, “Molly, were you here last night?”

“Just to peep at you, Timmy!”

“Just to take a quick look at you, Timmy!”

“I thought you were. It was so delicious even to dream it. I didn’t dare ask Cassie, for fear it was only a dream. Cassie’s been an angel, Molly!”

“I thought you were. It was so delicious even to dream about it. I didn’t dare ask Cassie, afraid it was just a dream. Cassie’s been amazing, Molly!”

“She always was, Tim. You and I were the demon liars.”

“She always was, Tim. You and I were the real liars.”

“‘Demon liars!’ Oh, do you remember the whipping we got for yelling that at each other?”

“‘Demon liars!’ Oh, do you remember the punishment we got for yelling that at each other?”

“Do you remember that we agreed that ‘yellow cats’ would mean all the very worst and naughtiest things that ever were, and the grown-ups would never know what it meant?”

“Do you remember we agreed that ‘yellow cats’ would stand for all the absolute worst and naughtiest things ever, and the grown-ups would never figure out what it meant?”

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He submitted childishly to her ministrations. She washed his face, brushed his hair, settled herself beside him with the steaming bowl.

He let her take care of him like a child. She washed his face, brushed his hair, and sat down next to him with the steaming bowl.

“Come now, Timmy, Christmas breakfast!”

“Come on, Timmy, Christmas breakfast!”

“Do you remember crying for mother, that first Christmas in this house?”

“Do you remember crying for mom that first Christmas in this house?”

“Ah, my dear! Fancy what she must have felt, to leave us!”

“Ah, my dear! Can you imagine what she must have felt like to leave us?”

“I’ve thought of that so often, since the boys have grown big enough to love us, and want to be with us!”

“I’ve thought about that a lot, now that the boys are old enough to love us and want to be around us!”

“My girl is with them downstairs—I’ll have to tell you what a Christmas we’ve made for them! The place looks like a toy-shop! Timmy, I hope they’ll always like her, be to her like the own brothers that she never had!” So much Mary said aloud. But to herself she was saying: “He doesn’t seem to know it, but that’s fully two ounces—three ounces—of good hot bread and milk he’s taken. Well, was it a riot?” she added to Cassie, who came quietly in to sit on the foot of the bed and study the invalid with loving and anxious smiling eyes.

“My girl is with them downstairs—I have to tell you about the Christmas we’ve put together for them! The place looks like a toy store! Timmy, I hope they’ll always like her and treat her like the brothers she never had!” That’s what Mary said out loud. But to herself, she was thinking: “He doesn’t seem to realize it, but that’s at least two ounces—three ounces—of good hot bread and milk he’s had. So, was it a hit?” she added to Cassie, who came in quietly to sit at the foot of the bed, studying the sick person with loving, anxious eyes and a smile.

“Mary, you should have seen it! It was too wonderful,” said Cassie, who had been crying. “I never saw anything like the expression on their little faces when I opened the door. Merle was absolutely white—Tom gave one yell! It was a sight—the candles all lighted, the floor heaped, the mantel loaded—I suppose there never was such a Christmas!”

“Mary, you should have seen it! It was amazing,” said Cassie, who had been crying. “I’ve never seen anything like the look on their little faces when I opened the door. Merle was totally pale—Tom let out a loud yell! It was a sight to behold—the candles all lit, the floor piled high, the mantel full—I bet there’s never been a Christmas like this!”

“Cassie, you wouldn’t taste this? It is the most[358] delicious milk-toast I ever tasted in my life!” Tim said.

“Cassie, wouldn’t you try this? It’s the most[358] delicious milk toast I’ve ever tasted in my life!” Tim said.

“If it tastes good to you, dearest!”

“If it tastes good to you, darling!”

“I don’t know how Molly makes it. Molly, do you suppose you would show Sigma how you do it?”

“I don’t know how Molly manages. Molly, do you think you could show Sigma how you do it?”

“I think so, Tim.” The women exchanged level quick glances of perfect comprehension, and there was heaven in their eyes.

“I think so, Tim.” The women shared quick glances of total understanding, and there was joy in their eyes.

“There isn’t any more downstairs?”

“Is there any left downstairs?”

“I don’t know that I would now, Timmy,” dictatorial and imperious Doctor Madison said mildly. “You can have more when I get back from the hospital, say at about one. Now you have to sleep—lots, all the time, for days! I’m going to take all the children to my house for dinner and over night. You’re not to hear a sound. Look at the bowl, Cassie!”

“I don’t know if I would now, Timmy,” said Doctor Madison mildly. “You can have more when I get back from the hospital, around one. Right now, you need to sleep—lots, for days! I’m taking all the kids to my house for dinner and overnight. You’re not to hear a peep. Look at the bowl, Cassie!”

She triumphantly inverted it. It was clean.

She confidently turned it upside down. It was spotless.

“Do you remember,” Mary Madison asked, holding her brother’s hands again, “do you remember years ago, when you used to eat my crusts for me, Timmy?”

“Do you remember,” Mary Madison asked, holding her brother’s hands again, “do you remember years ago, when you used to eat my crusts for me, Timmy?”

“And is this bread upon the water, Molly?” he asked, infinitely satisfied to lie smiling at the two women who loved him. “I ate your crusts, and now you come and turn other crusts into milk-toast for me!”

“And is this bread on the water, Molly?” he asked, completely happy to be lying there smiling at the two women who loved him. “I ate your crusts, and now you come and turn other crusts into milk-toast for me!”

“But don’t you remember?”

“But don’t you remember?”

He faintly shook his head. It was long ago forgotten, the little-boy kindness and loyalty, in the days of warts and freckles, cinnamon sticks and skate-keys, tears that were smeared into dirty faces, long incomprehensibly boring days in chalk and ink-scented[359] schoolrooms, long blissful vacation forenoons dreaming under bridges, idling in the sweet dimness of old barns. There had been a little passionate Molly, alternately satisfactory and naughty, tearing aprons and planning Indian encampments, generous with cookies and taffies, exacting and jealous, marvellous, maddening, and always to be protected and admired. But she was a dim, hazy long-ago memory, merged now into the handsome, brilliant woman whose fine hand held his.

He faintly shook his head. It was long ago forgotten, the kindness and loyalty of childhood, from the days of warts and freckles, cinnamon sticks and skate-keys, tears smeared on dirty faces, those long incomprehensibly boring days in chalk- and ink-scented[359] schoolrooms, the wonderful vacation forenoons spent dreaming under bridges, idling in the sweet dimness of old barns. There had been a little passionate Molly, sometimes sweet and sometimes mischievous, tearing aprons and planning camps, generous with cookies and taffies, demanding and jealous, amazing, infuriating, and always someone to be protected and admired. But she was a dim, hazy memory from long ago, now merged into the beautiful, brilliant woman whose fine hand held his.

“He used to fill his little pockets with them, Cassie. I can remember passing them to him, under the table.”

“He used to fill his little pockets with them, Cassie. I can remember passing them to him, under the table.”

“Our Tom is like that,” Cassie nodded.

“Our Tom is like that,” Cassie nodded.

“Think of your remembering—” Tim murmured contentedly.

“Think about your memories—” Tim murmured contentedly.

He did not, but then it did not matter. It was Christmas morning, the restless dark night was over. Sun was shining outdoors on the new snow. His adored boys were happy, and the baby was asleep, and Cassie, instead of showing the long strain and anxiety, looked absolutely blooming as she smiled at him. Best of all, here was Molly, back in his life again, and talking of teaching the boys swimming, down at beloved old Beachaways. He had always thought, when he was a little boy, that no felicity in heaven or earth equalled a supper on the shore at Beachaways. The grown-ups of those days must have been hard, indeed, thought Tim mildly, drifting off to sleep, for he could remember begging for the joy of taking sandwiches down there, and being coldly and,[360] unreasonably—he could see now—refused. Well, it would be different with his kids. They could be pirates, smugglers, beachcombers, whale fishers, anything they pleased. They could build driftwood fires and cook potatoes and toast bread——

He didn't, but it didn't matter. It was Christmas morning, and the restless dark night had ended. The sun was shining outside on the fresh snow. His beloved boys were happy, the baby was asleep, and Cassie, instead of showing the stress and anxiety, looked absolutely radiant as she smiled at him. Best of all, Molly was back in his life, talking about teaching the boys how to swim at their cherished old Beachaways. He had always thought, when he was a little boy, that nothing on heaven or earth compared to a dinner on the shore at Beachaways. The adults back then must have been really tough, he thought mildly, drifting off to sleep, because he could remember pleading for the joy of taking sandwiches down there, only to be coldly and unreasonably—he could see that now—denied. Well, it would be different with his kids. They could be pirates, smugglers, beachcombers, whale fishers, anything they wanted. They could build driftwood fires and cook potatoes and toast bread—

“Crusts, hey?” he said drowsily. “Bread upon the waters.”

“Crusts, huh?” he said sleepily. “Bread on the water.”

“Bread is oddly symbolical anyway, isn’t it, Molly?” Cassie said, in her quiet, restful voice. “Bread upon the waters, and the breaking of bread, and giving the children stones when they ask for bread! Even the solemnest words of all—‘Do this in commemoration’—are of bread.”

“Bread is strangely symbolic, isn’t it, Molly?” Cassie said in her calm, soothing voice. “Bread upon the waters, the breaking of bread, and giving kids stones when they ask for bread! Even the most serious words of all—‘Do this in remembrance’—are about bread.”

“Perhaps there is something we don’t understand about it,” Molly answered very softly. “The real sacrament of love—the essence of all religion and all sacraments.”

“Maybe there's something we're missing about it,” Molly replied quietly. “The true sacrament of love—the core of all religion and all sacraments.”

She thought of the little crusts still in the pocket of the roll-top sweater, she looked at the empty bowl, and she held Tim’s thin hand warmly, steadily.

She thought about the little crusts still in the pocket of the roll-top sweater, looked at the empty bowl, and held Tim’s thin hand gently and steadily.

“Christmas bread,” she said, as if to herself.

“Christmas bread,” she said, almost to herself.

FOOTNOTES:

[20] By permission of the author and “Good Housekeeping.”

[20] With permission from the author and "Good Housekeeping."


TRANSCRIBER’S NOTE

Obvious typographical errors and punctuation errors have been
corrected after careful comparison with other occurrences within
the text and consultation of external sources.

Some hyphens in words have been silently removed, some added,
when a predominant preference was found in each individual work.

Except for those changes noted below, all misspellings in the text,
and inconsistent or archaic usage, have been retained.

Page 19. “mother and said.” replaced by “mother and said,”.
Page 114. “unforgetable” replaced by “unforgettable”.
Page 121. “black loves” replaced by “black, loves”.
Page 121. “blin’ fol’s” replaced by “blin’fol’s”.
Page 126. “Merry Chistmas” replaced by “Merry Christmas”.
Page 200. “light or morning” replaced by “light of morning”.
Page 217. “Boyne accustomed” replaced by “Boyne, accustomed”.
Page 262. “swashy package” replaced by “squashy package”.
Page 332. “my father.” replaced by “my father,”.
Page 345. “so stubborn!” replaced by “so stubborn!””.
Page 358. “Madison said mildly,” replaced by “Madison said mildly.”.
Page 358. “skate-key” replaced by “skate-keys”.

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