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"No Talent."—Frontispiece.
Amity told her story, and the men clustered round to look at the dog.
"No Talent."—Frontispiece.
Amity shared her story, and the men gathered around to check out the dog.
NO TALENT.
A GOLDEN TEXT STORY.
A GOLDEN TEXT STORY.
AND
AND
PHIL'S PANSIES.
A GOLDEN TEXT STORY.
A GOLDEN TEXT STORY.
BY
BY
LUCY ELLEN GUERNSEY
LUCY ELLEN GUERNSEY
AUTHOR OF
AUTHOR OF
"IRISH AMY," "OPPOSITE NEIGHBORS," "TWIN ROSES," ETC.
"IRISH AMY," "OPPOSITE NEIGHBORS," "TWIN ROSES," ETC.
PHILADELPHIA:
PHILLY:
AMERICAN SUNDAY-SCHOOL UNION,
AMERICAN SUNDAY SCHOOL UNION,
NO. 1122 CHESTNUT STREET.
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NEW YORK: 8 & 10 BIBLE HOUSE, ASTOR PLACE.
CHICAGO: 73 RANDOLPH ST.
NO. 1122 CHESTNUT STREET.
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NEW YORK: 8 & 10 BIBLE HOUSE, ASTOR PLACE.
CHICAGO: 73 RANDOLPH ST.
CONTENTS.
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CONTENTS.
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A GOLDEN TEXT STORY.
A GOLDEN TEXT STORY.
BY
BY
LUCY ELLEN GUERNSEY
LUCY ELLEN GUERNSEY
AUTHOR OF
AUTHOR OF
"IRISH AMY," "OPPOSITE NEIGHBORS," "TWIN ROSES," ETC.
"IRISH AMY," "OPPOSITE NEIGHBORS," "TWIN ROSES," ETC.
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"Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren,
ye have done it unto me."—Matt. 25:40.
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"Whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine,
you did for me."—Matt. 25:40.
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PHILADELPHIA:
PHILADELPHIA:
AMERICAN SUNDAY-SCHOOL UNION,
AMERICAN SUNDAY SCHOOL UNION,
NO. 1122 CHESTNUT STREET.
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NEW YORK: 8 & 10 BIBLE HOUSE, ASTOR PLACE.
CHICAGO: 73 RANDOLPH ST.
NO. 1122 CHESTNUT STREET.
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NEW YORK: 8 & 10 BIBLE HOUSE, ASTOR PLACE.
CHICAGO: 73 RANDOLPH ST.
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Entered according to Act of Congress, in the year 1880, by the
AMERICAN SUNDAY-SCHOOL UNION,
In the Office of the Librarian of Congress, at Washington.
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Entered in accordance with the Act of Congress, in the year 1880, by the
AMERICAN SUNDAY-SCHOOL UNION,
In the Office of the Librarian of Congress, in Washington.
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NO TALENT.
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No Talent.
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CHAPTER FIRST.
IN THE SUMMER-HOUSE.
AT THE SUMMER HOUSE.
AMITY BOGARDUS sat in the little summer-house, which stood on the top of the great pile of rocks in her grandfather's grounds. To speak with precision they were her grounds, for this little plain Amity, who was sitting in such a mournful posture coiled up on the rustic sofa, was the owner of this great place with its grand old stone house, its beautiful gardens and great trees, and lawns shaven as smooth as velvet, with gray, mossy rocks sticking up through the turf here and there. The greenhouses, and hot-houses, and grape-houses, the carriages and horses, and high-bred Alderney cows, and all the rest belonged to her. Yes, the prettiest and grandest place in all Brookvale belonged to this little plain girl, and thousands upon thousands of dollars beside.
AMITY BOGARDUS sat in the small summer house perched atop the large stack of rocks in her grandfather's property. To be precise, they were her property, because this little area where Amity sat in a sorrowful position, curled up on the rustic sofa, was owned by her. She was the owner of this expansive estate with its impressive old stone house, beautiful gardens, tall trees, and lawns that were trimmed as smooth as velvet, with gray, moss-covered rocks poking up through the grass here and there. The greenhouses, hot-houses, grape-houses, carriages, horses, and high-bred Alderney cows, along with everything else, belonged to her. Yes, the prettiest and grandest place in all of Brookvale was owned by this little plain girl, along with thousands upon thousands of dollars besides.
"An heiress!" says somebody. "Oh, then we know all about her. She is a vain, proud girl, who looks down on every one, and thinks nothing of people who are not rich. And then she is going to lose all her property somehow, and get good all of a sudden. That is always the way with heiresses."
"An heiress!" someone exclaims. "Oh, then we know everything about her. She's a spoiled, arrogant girl who looks down on everyone and doesn't care about people who aren't wealthy. And then she's going to somehow lose all her money and suddenly come into good fortune. That's always how it goes with heiresses."
I confess that is very apt to be the way with heiresses in books; but it was not at all the way with Amity Bogardus. A more humble-minded child, one who thought less of herself and more of her neighbors, it would be hard to find. Indeed, the mean opinion she had of herself, her looks, her manners, her talents, often made her very unhappy, as was the case just now. She was apt to steal away by herself, and sit and think how very sad it was to be a poor, homely little girl, with a round Dutch face all of a color, grayish hazel eyes, and straight hair, which was only light—not golden, nor flaxen, nor auburn, nor even red—which would have been something.
I admit that it's often the case with heiresses in stories; however, that wasn't at all true for Amity Bogardus. It would be tough to find a more humble girl, one who thought less of herself and more of those around her. In fact, her low opinion of herself—her looks, her manners, her talents—often made her very unhappy, as was the case right now. She tended to isolate herself and sit alone, thinking about how sad it was to be a poor, plain little girl with a round face that was all one color, grayish hazel eyes, and straight hair that was just light—not golden, flaxen, auburn, or even red—which would at least have been something.
"It is just the color of the light part of Aunt Julia's Pug," said Amity, pulling a lock of the offending hair round into the light, with a spiteful little twitch, as if the poor hair could help its color. "And, to make the matter better, I must have dark eyebrows coming together over my nose and green eyes."
"It’s just the color of the light part of Aunt Julia's Pug," Amity said, twisting a strand of the annoying hair into the light with a mean little tug, as if the poor hair could change its color. "And to make matters worse, I have dark eyebrows that meet over my nose and green eyes."
And then Amity pushed the offending hair off her forehead and laid her head down on the window seat, and cried a little, as she reflected how delightful it would be to be as handsome and accomplished as her aunt Julia, till from dreaming awake she came to dreaming in earnest. She was waked from her nap by the sound of voices near by.
And then Amity brushed the annoying hair off her forehead and rested her head on the window seat, crying a bit as she thought about how wonderful it would be to be as beautiful and talented as her Aunt Julia, until she shifted from daydreaming to truly dreaming. She was jolted awake from her nap by the sound of nearby voices.
"Shall we take the trouble to climb up to the summer-house?" said Aunt Julia. "It is so hazy I am afraid the view would hardly pay us for the labor."
"Should we bother climbing up to the summer-house?" Aunt Julia said. "It's so hazy that I'm worried the view won't even be worth the effort."
"Suppose we sit down here in the shade," said another voice, which Amity knew at once to be that of Mrs. Paget, a lady whom Amity had often admired at a distance, but with whom she had been too shy to make acquaintance.
"Let’s sit down here in the shade," said another voice, which Amity immediately recognized as Mrs. Paget’s, a woman Amity had often admired from afar but had been too shy to approach.
"And what about Amity?" said Mrs. Paget. "Is she like her father?"
"And what about Amity?" Mrs. Paget asked. "Is she like her dad?"
"Oh, not a bit—just her mother over again," said Miss Julia, decidedly.
"Oh, not at all—just like her mother again," said Miss Julia, firmly.
"If she is her mother over again, she must be a very good child," said Mrs. Paget. "A more blameless person than Anna Van Schoonhoven I never knew."
"If she's just like her mother, she must be a really good kid," Mrs. Paget said. "I’ve never known anyone more perfect than Anna Van Schoonhoven."
"Oh, the child is good enough—that is, I have never seen anything to the contrary," answered Miss Julia, carelessly. "But the trouble is she is so totally uninteresting. She has no talent."
"Oh, the kid is fine—that is, I’ve never seen anything to say otherwise," replied Miss Julia, dismissively. "But the problem is she’s just so completely boring. She doesn't have any talent."
"Of any kind?" asked Mrs. Paget. And Amity knew by the tone of her voice just how her eyebrows went up as she spoke.
"Any kind?" Mrs. Paget asked. Amity could tell by the tone of her voice exactly how high her eyebrows shot up as she spoke.
"Why no," answered Miss Julia. "She has no ear for music; in fact she can hardly tell one tune from another. She has no talent for drawing, and I don't believe she will ever pronounce French decently. And then she is so hopelessly common looking. Her figure might be improved by proper corsets, I think, but she complains that they hurt her, and so papa won't let her wear them. Such absurd ideas men have! But it don't make much difference. No dressing will ever make anything of her but a dowdy Dutch doll. It is really a great disappointment."
"Not at all," replied Miss Julia. "She has no sense of music; she can barely tell one song from another. She has no skill in drawing, and I seriously doubt she'll ever pronounce French well. Plus, she looks just so ordinary. I think her figure could be improved with the right corsets, but she says they hurt her, so Dad won’t let her wear them. Men have such ridiculous ideas! But honestly, it doesn’t really matter. No amount of dressing up will ever turn her into anything but a frumpy Dutch doll. It’s truly disappointing."
"I dare say," said Mrs. Paget.
"I dare say," Mrs. Paget said.
"I want papa to send her to Mrs. Green's," continued Miss Julia: "I am sure she will make something of the child, if any one can; but he has taken up the most singular prejudice against Mrs. Green, and won't let her go. He says Mrs. Green has no reality in herself, and takes all they have out of her pupils. I wish you would use your influence with him."
"I want Dad to send her to Mrs. Green's," Miss Julia continued. "I'm sure she can do something with the child if anyone can; but he's developed this really strange bias against Mrs. Green and won’t let her go. He says Mrs. Green has no substance and drains everything from her students. I wish you would help convince him."
"I am afraid I do not like Mrs. Green any better than Mr. Bogardus does," said Mrs. Paget. "But where is Amity? I have not seen her at all."
"I’m afraid I don’t like Mrs. Green any more than Mr. Bogardus does," said Mrs. Paget. "But where is Amity? I haven’t seen her at all."
"Oh, she is moping about the place somewhere, I suppose," said Aunt Julia. "She is given to that kind of thing. See, there is a carriage. Shall we go in?"
"Oh, she's probably moping around here somewhere," Aunt Julia said. "She tends to do that. Look, there's a carriage. Should we go in?"
"I don't think I will. I don't care about meeting strangers," said Mrs. Paget, glancing at her deep mourning. "I will climb up on the rocks and look at the view—I should like to see the summer-house again."
"I don’t think so. I’m not interested in meeting new people," Mrs. Paget said, looking at her heavy black attire. "I’ll just go up on the rocks and take in the view—I’d love to see the summer house again."
Mrs. Paget was a light, active little body, and she did not seem to find the steep path up the side of the ledge at all fatiguing. She had another object in the climb besides the view. She had seen the flutter of a little black dress, and she was quite sure she had heard a suppressed sob; and the idea crossed her mind that Amity might have overheard the talk below, and been hurt by it.
Mrs. Paget was a lively, energetic woman, and the steep path up the ledge didn’t seem to tire her out at all. She had another reason for climbing besides the view. She had noticed the flap of a small black dress, and she was pretty sure she heard a stifled sob; the thought occurred to her that Amity might have overheard the conversation below and been affected by it.
She was quite right. Amity had overheard her aunt's remarks, and been cruelly hurt by them. To be sure she had said the same thing to herself a hundred times, but nobody had ever spoken it out in plain English before. It seemed somehow to make matters a great deal worse.
She was absolutely right. Amity had overheard her aunt's comments and was deeply hurt by them. Sure, she had thought the same thing to herself a hundred times, but no one had ever said it out loud before. It felt like it made everything so much worse.
"'A dowdy Dutch doll!'"
"A frumpy Dutch doll!"
Yes, that was all she was, or ever would be, and there was no use in trying. She wished she were a Roman Catholic, so that she might go into the great convent down by the river, and hide herself from the relations that were ashamed of her. Or else she wished she could die; then they would have the money and the fine place, and she would be with her mother, who loved her dearly, and had never been mortified because her little girl was not a beauty nor a genius. These were foolish thoughts, and rather naughty besides, but Amity was a poor, lonely, unhappy little girl, with nobody to whom she could tell her troubles; so it is no great wonder that she gave way to impatience.
Yes, that was all she was, or ever would be, and there was no point in trying. She wished she were a Roman Catholic so she could go to the big convent by the river and hide from the relatives who were ashamed of her. Or she wished she could just die; then they would get the money and the nice place, and she would be with her mother, who loved her dearly and had never been embarrassed because her little girl wasn’t a beauty or a genius. These were silly thoughts and a bit naughty too, but Amity was a poor, lonely, unhappy little girl with no one to share her troubles with; so it’s not surprising that she felt so impatient.
"Poor little thing! I imagined as much," thought Mrs. Paget; but she did not say a word.
"Poor little thing! I figured as much," thought Mrs. Paget; but she didn't say anything.
She was one to whom God had given a great many talents, and among them was that of sympathy. She knew how to comfort others with the comfort wherewith she herself was comforted of God, as the apostle indicates (2 Cor. 1:4). She saw that Amity was greatly hurt and excited, and not in any state to hear reason; so she just sat down, and lifting the little girl's head from the hard bench laid it in her lap, on her cool, soft cambric handkerchief, and stroked the hair as gently as if it had been the most beautiful wavy auburn hair in the world—stroked it as no one had ever done since the child's mother died.
She was someone whom God had given a lot of talents, and one of them was sympathy. She knew how to comfort others with the same comfort she herself received from God, as the apostle points out (2 Cor. 1:4). She noticed that Amity was deeply hurt and upset, and not in a frame of mind to listen to reason; so she simply sat down, lifted the little girl’s head from the hard bench, placed it in her lap on her cool, soft handkerchief, and stroked her hair as gently as if it were the most beautiful wavy auburn hair in the world—stroking it as no one had done since the child’s mother passed away.
Somehow her very touch calmed and comforted Amity. Presently she raised her tear-stained face.
Somehow, her touch calmed and comforted Amity. She soon lifted her tear-stained face.
"I am afraid it was very naughty to listen," said she, in a quivering voice; "I didn't mean to, but I was caught here, and did not know what to do at first."
"I'm sorry, it was really wrong to eavesdrop," she said in a shaky voice. "I didn't intend to, but I got stuck here and didn't know what to do at first."
"I understand," said Mrs. Paget; "I don't think you were at all to blame, so don't fret about it, my dear. Was that what you were crying about?"
"I understand," said Mrs. Paget; "I don't think you were to blame at all, so don't worry about it, my dear. Was that what made you cry?"
"Yes, ma'am."
"Yes, ma'am."
"But, my dear, you must not let idle words hurt you so much. There are plenty of them always flying about, and if we let them sting us every time they come near, we might as well live in a wasps' nest."
"But, my dear, you shouldn't let careless comments bother you so much. There are always plenty of them floating around, and if we let them sting us every time they come close, we might as well live in a wasp nest."
"If they had not been true, I would not have minded," said Amity. "But it is all so. I am just what Aunt Julia called me, and I shall never be anything else. Even 'a Dutch doll' is good to play with, and I am not that."
"If it weren't true, I wouldn't care," Amity said. "But it is all true. I am exactly what Aunt Julia called me, and I'll never be anything else. Even 'a Dutch doll' is fun to play with, and I'm not even that."
"Are you sure?" asked Mrs. Paget.
"Are you sure?" asked Mrs. Paget.
"Every one says so," answered Amity.
"Everyone says that," Amity said.
"How many is 'every one'? I am sure your grandfather never said so."
"How many does 'everyone' mean? I'm sure your grandfather never said that."
"No: grandpapa is so polite he would never hurt any one's feelings; but I am sure he is disappointed because I don't look like his family. I suppose when I am of age I shall have ever so much money, and perhaps I can do some good with that," continued Amity, who somehow felt as if it would be a comfort to tell all her thoughts to her new friend. "But I don't think it is always easy to do good with money either."
"No, grandpa is so polite he would never hurt anyone's feelings; but I'm sure he's disappointed because I don't look like his family. I suppose when I’m older, I’ll have a lot of money, and maybe I can do some good with it," continued Amity, who somehow felt that it would be comforting to share all her thoughts with her new friend. "But I don’t think it's always easy to do good with money, either."
"Very true and besides, you would have a good while to wait. Eleven years is a long time to live in the world without doing any good in it; don't you think so?"
"That's very true, and on top of that, you would have to wait a long time. Eleven years is a long time to go through life without making a positive impact; don't you think?"
"Yes, ma'am," answered Amity, slowly. "I don't know what I can do though. It is just as Aunt Julia says: I have no talent. I don't like music, at least I don't care about any but hymn tunes, and such like. I can't draw one bit—not even a straight line."
"Yes, ma'am," Amity replied slowly. "I’m not sure what I can do though. Just like Aunt Julia says: I don't have any talent. I don’t like music; I only care about hymns and songs like that. I can't draw at all—not even a straight line."
"Few people can the first time they try," said Mrs. Paget.
"Not many people succeed on their first try," said Mrs. Paget.
"And I am very slow about learning," continued Amity, "especially French. I can't catch the sounds somehow, and I hate the sound of it. It is just like a wagon rattling over a rough road."
"And I'm really slow at learning," Amity went on, "especially French. I just can't seem to get the sounds right, and I hate how it sounds. It’s just like a cart clattering over a bumpy road."
Mrs. Paget smiled.
Mrs. Paget grinned.
"You make out a hard case, Amity. But now will you let me ask you two or three serious questions?"
"You make a solid point, Amity. But can I ask you a couple of serious questions now?"
"Yes, ma'am."
"Yes, ma'am."
"Why do you suppose God made you and set you in this world?"
"Why do you think God created you and placed you in this world?"
"I don't know," answered Amity, rather doubtfully.
"I don't know," Amity replied, sounding a bit uncertain.
"Doesn't it seem as if he must have meant you to do something?"
"Doesn't it seem like he intended for you to do something?"
"I suppose so," answered Amity. "The trouble is to find out what he wants me to do."
"I guess so," Amity replied. "The problem is figuring out what he wants me to do."
"If you really wish to work for him, I don't think you will fail in finding work," said Mrs. Paget. "I never knew any of his children to suffer in that way. The difficulty often is that they are not willing to do the work which he provides, but they want to do something else—something which shall make a great figure in the eyes of the world, or perhaps of the church; something which will be pleasant and easy, or for which they fancy they have a particular genius, which nobody appreciates. A young lady thinks it would be a fine thing to be a 'Sister of Charity,' though she cannot possibly sit up at night with a sick neighbor, or help to lay out a dead child. She wants to go on a foreign mission, but she can't take a class in Sunday-school or sewing-school."
"If you really want to work for him, I don't think you'll have trouble finding a job," Mrs. Paget said. "I've never seen any of his kids struggle like that. The issue is often that they are not willing to do the jobs he offers; instead, they want something else—something that will make them stand out in the eyes of the world, or maybe in the eyes of the church; something that will be enjoyable and easy, or that they believe they're particularly talented at, even if no one else recognizes it. A young woman might think it would be great to be a 'Sister of Charity,' but she can't possibly stay awake at night with a sick neighbor or help prepare a deceased child for burial. She dreams of going on a foreign mission, but she can't even teach a Sunday-school class or help in a sewing class."
"That reminds me of something," said Amity, eagerly. "I heard you say the other day that you wanted some patchwork basted for the sewing-school, and I thought perhaps you would let me do it. Mother taught me to sew when I was very little, and I like patchwork. I have made a whole bed-quilt for a lady in the hospital since I came here."
"That makes me think of something," Amity said excitedly. "I heard you mention the other day that you needed some patchwork basted for the sewing school, and I thought maybe you would let me handle it. My mom taught me to sew when I was really little, and I enjoy patchwork. I've made an entire bed quilt for a lady in the hospital since I got here."
"Then it seems you have one talent, and a very useful one. As to the patchwork, I assure you I shall be glad to turn the whole basket over to you, if only I can depend on your having the work ready—if you won't get tired of it after a week or two."
"Then it sounds like you have a skill, and a pretty handy one at that. As for the patchwork, I promise I'll be happy to hand the entire basket over to you, as long as I can count on you to finish the work—if you won’t get bored with it after a week or two."
"I don't think I shall," said Amity modestly. "I almost always do stick to what I begin, because I hate to leave things half done."
"I don't think I will," Amity said modestly. "I usually stick to what I start, because I can't stand leaving things half finished."
"Then there is another talent."
"Then there's another talent."
"But, after all, I am a homely little thing," said Amity, recurring to her first grievance. "If only my eyebrows were not so ugly, I don't think I should mind the rest."
"But, after all, I’m just an plain little thing," Amity said, going back to her original complaint. "If only my eyebrows weren’t so ugly, I don’t think I’d care about the rest."
"The ancient Greeks would have considered your eyebrows a great beauty," said Mrs. Paget. "I am not going to flatter you, Amity, by telling you that you are pretty, or to say that beauty is of no account. I don't think so. Beauty is like other gifts of God, to be used for his service and glory. He has not seen fit to give it to you, and you must try to be content without it. Your duty toward your neighbors requires you to be neat and tidy, and to dress so as not to offend the taste of those about you. After that, the less you think of your looks the better.
"The ancient Greeks would have thought your eyebrows were beautiful," Mrs. Paget said. "I'm not going to flatter you, Amity, by saying you're pretty, nor will I claim that beauty doesn't matter. I don’t believe that. Beauty is like other gifts from God, meant to be used for His service and glory. He hasn't chosen to give it to you, and you need to learn to be happy without it. Your duty to your neighbors requires you to be neat and tidy and to dress in a way that doesn't offend those around you. After that, the less you think about your looks, the better."
"As to the rest, do whatever comes in your way; help when you can and comfort when you can, and do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, remembering his words, 'It is more blessed to give than to receive,' and 'Whosoever shall give to drink unto one of these little ones a cup of cold water only in the name of a disciple, verily I say unto you, he shall in no wise lose his reward.' Do you love him, my dear?"
"As for the rest, do whatever you encounter; help when you can and offer comfort when you can, all in the name of the Lord Jesus. Remember his words: 'It’s more blessed to give than to receive,' and 'Whoever gives even a cup of cold water to one of these little ones, just because they are a disciple, truly I tell you, they will not lose their reward.' Do you love him, my dear?"
Amity looked down on the floor, and a color came to her face which made her look lovely for the moment.
Amity looked down at the floor, and a blush spread across her face that made her look beautiful for a moment.
"Yes, ma'am," she whispered. "I love him because he died on the cross for my salvation."
"Yeah, ma'am," she whispered. "I love him because he died on the cross for my salvation."
"And have you asked him to show you what he would have you do?"
"And have you asked him to show you what he wants you to do?"
"I don't think I have," said Amity. "I never thought of it in that way."
"I don't think I have," said Amity. "I never thought of it like that."
"Then let that be your first work. Now we have talked enough; only remember this, my child: every person has at least one talent given him, for which he must answer to him who gave it. Remember, too, that the man who had one talent was the man who hid it away, and was judged and punished accordingly. Now let us go up to the house."
"Then let that be your first task. We've talked enough for now; just keep this in mind, my child: everyone has at least one talent given to them, and they'll be held accountable for it to the one who gave it. Also, remember the man who had one talent—the one who buried it—was judged and punished because of that. Now let’s head up to the house."
CHAPTER SECOND.
PUG.
Pug.
MRS. PAGET did not go back to the house after all. At the turn of the road she met her carriage, with a note from her daughter telling her of the arrival of friends from a distance; so she got into the carriage and went home, leaving with Amity a note for Miss Julia.
MRS. PAGET did not go back to the house after all. At the turn of the road, she met her carriage, which had a note from her daughter informing her about the arrival of friends from afar; so she got into the carriage and went home, leaving a note for Miss Julia with Amity.
Amity, left alone, turned out of the broad gravel road into a little path which went winding among the shrubs and trees. She knew she would not be wanted at the house, and she felt as if she would like to think over what she had heard.
Amity, left alone, turned off the wide gravel road onto a narrow path that wound through the bushes and trees. She knew she wouldn't be needed at the house, and she felt like she wanted to reflect on what she had just heard.
She thought to such good purpose that her eyes grew bright, her head was raised, and the corners of her mouth lifted themselves up as if somebody had put little pulleys in them. Before she had finished her walk, she had come to the wise conclusion that she had been making herself very unhappy for nothing, and that after all she had a great deal to be thankful for. Every one was good to her—even Aunt Julia, who, after all, had not meant to hurt her feelings, since she could not know that any one was in the summer-house. She had books and flowers, and grandpapa let her have as many pets as ever she liked, and had promised her a pony.
She thought so positively that her eyes lit up, her head was held high, and the corners of her mouth turned up like someone had added little pulleys to them. By the time she finished her walk, she realized that she had been making herself miserable for no reason, and that she actually had a lot to be grateful for. Everyone was kind to her—even Aunt Julia, who, after all, hadn’t meant to upset her since she couldn’t have known anyone was in the summer-house. She had books and flowers, and grandpa let her have as many pets as she wanted and promised her a pony.
"And if I am not handsome, why, then I am not, and that is all about it," said Amity, very wisely. "Miss Lilly Paget is not handsome either, and every one likes her quite as well as they do Aunt Julia, for aught I know. And if I can't play or paint, or do any of the grand things, I must be content with the little ones, that's all."
"And if I'm not good-looking, then I'm not, and that's just how it is," said Amity, very wisely. "Miss Lilly Paget isn't good-looking either, and everyone likes her just as much as they do Aunt Julia, for all I know. And if I can't play or paint, or do any of the impressive things, I just have to be okay with the small ones, that's all."
And then Amity fell into a still graver way of thinking. She was a thoughtful little girl; she had been her mother's only companion and comfort for years. Mrs. Bogardus had not been a happy woman. I cannot tell you all about it here, but there had been a sad family quarrel, which lasted for years. It grew out of the fact that Mr. Henry Bogardus married the daughter of his father's half-brother, against the will of the parents and other friends on both sides. There was a great deal of money involved, and many lawsuits grew up, and, as I said, the quarrel lasted for years, long after poor foolish young Henry Bogardus was lying in his far-away grave in South America, whither he had gone in hopes of doing something for his wife and child.
And then Amity fell into a much deeper line of thinking. She was a reflective little girl; she had been her mother's only friend and source of comfort for years. Mrs. Bogardus hadn't been a happy woman. I can't go into all the details here, but there had been a painful family feud that lasted for years. It stemmed from the fact that Mr. Henry Bogardus married the daughter of his father's half-brother, against the wishes of their parents and other relatives on both sides. There was a lot of money at stake, leading to numerous lawsuits, and as I mentioned, the feud went on for years, long after the poor, misguided young Henry Bogardus had been laid to rest in his distant grave in South America, where he had gone hoping to provide for his wife and child.
But the feud was made up in the last year of Mrs. Bogardus's life, and Grandfather von Schoonhoven, seeing that he could not possibly take his great property into the grave with him, gave it all to little Amity. She was left to the guardianship of old Judge Bogardus, and all the family had come to spend the summer at Pine Ridge.
But the feud was resolved in the last year of Mrs. Bogardus's life, and Grandfather von Schoonhoven, realizing that he couldn't take his vast estate with him when he died, left it all to little Amity. She was placed under the care of old Judge Bogardus, and the entire family came to spend the summer at Pine Ridge.
Amity, having been for some years her mother's only companion, was old—rather too old—for her years.
Amity, having been her mother's only companion for several years, was older—perhaps too old—for her age.
"The child needs young society," Mrs. Paget said to Miss Julia.
"The child needs young people around," Mrs. Paget said to Miss Julia.
And Miss Julia replied, "That is another reason for sending her to Mrs. Green's."
And Miss Julia replied, "That's just another reason to send her to Mrs. Green's."
At which, Mrs. Paget tossed up her beautiful chin in way she had, and said nothing more.
At that, Mrs. Paget lifted her lovely chin in her usual way and said nothing more.
Amity turned aside once more to a little rustic seat around the trunk of a great chestnut, and sat some little time leaning her head on her hands. Then she arose and went down a somewhat steep path with something like a dancing step till she came to a little bridge which was thrown over a deep hollow or chasm in the ground, at the bottom of which was a small pond. There was a way to get down to the water, but it was steep and rather dangerous. Amity was about to cross the bridge when she heard a pitiful whine, and looking down she saw an old friend—or I might better say an old enemy—in great trouble.
Amity turned away again to a small rustic seat around the trunk of a big chestnut tree and sat for a while with her head resting on her hands. Then she got up and walked down a somewhat steep path with a light, almost dancing step until she reached a small bridge that spanned a deep hollow or chasm in the ground, where a small pond lay at the bottom. There was a way to get down to the water, but it was steep and fairly dangerous. Amity was about to cross the bridge when she heard a sad whine, and looking down, she saw an old friend—or perhaps I should say an old enemy—in a lot of trouble.
"Why, Pug!" she exclaimed. "How in the world did you get down there?"
"Wow, Pug!" she said. "How on earth did you end up down there?"
Pug raised his little black nose and gave a pitiful howl, as if he would say, "The question is how I am to get up again."
Pug lifted his little black nose and let out a sad howl, as if to say, "The real question is how I’m going to get back up."
He had fallen into the pond and seemed to be hurt, for he could hardly keep his head above water; and though he was close to the edge of the pond, he could not scramble out.
He had fallen into the pond and looked like he was hurt because he could barely keep his head above water; even though he was close to the edge of the pond, he couldn't climb out.
Now Amity had no reason to like Pug, who Was a sadly-spoiled dog. He would never be friends with her; he often barked and snapped at her; and he expected her to get up and open the door for him twenty times in an hour, if he chose to go in and out as often.
Now Amity had no reason to like Pug, who was a really spoiled dog. He would never be friends with her; he often barked and snapped at her; and he expected her to get up and open the door for him twenty times in an hour, whenever he felt like going in and out.
But she could not see the poor little fellow in danger of drowning without feeling sorry for him. At first she thought she would call one of the men; but it was a long way to the house or barn, and she felt sure that Pug would be drowned before she could get back. She looked at the path.
But she couldn’t just watch the poor little guy in danger of drowning without feeling sorry for him. At first, she thought about calling one of the men, but it was a long way to the house or barn, and she was sure that Pug would drown before she could get back. She looked at the path.
"It is pretty steep; but after all, I have been up and down a great deal worse places than that, in Vermont," said she. "I can't go and leave him there. Yes, poor fellow, yes, Mite is coming!"
"It’s pretty steep, but honestly, I've been through way worse in Vermont," she said. "I can't just leave him there. Yes, poor guy, yes, Mite is coming!"
"Mite" had been Mrs. Bogardus's pet name for her little girl, and Amity loved it dearly; but nobody called her by it now. She went slowly and safely down the path, and holding fast by a stout bush, stooped down, and, by the aid of Pug's collar, she succeeded in landing him safely on the bank.
"Mite" had been Mrs. Bogardus's nickname for her little girl, and Amity loved it dearly; but no one called her that anymore. She walked slowly and carefully down the path, and holding on to a sturdy bush, she bent down, and with the help of Pug's collar, she managed to get him safely onto the bank.
The poor dog yelped piteously, and Amity rather expected he would snap at her; but instead of that, he licked her hand. He was very much hurt—so that he could not stand; one of his paws was cut, and Amity thought his leg was broken.
The poor dog yelped sadly, and Amity kind of thought he might snap at her; but instead, he licked her hand. He was really hurt—so much that he couldn't stand; one of his paws was cut, and Amity thought his leg was broken.
"You poor little thing! How did you get into such a scrape?" said Amity.
"You poor thing! How did you end up in such a mess?" said Amity.
Pug whined and licked her hand again, but he could not tell his story. The fact was he had seen a water-rat, and being a rash and inconsiderate, as well as a brave, dog, he had jumped after the rat without even thinking how or where he was to land. The result was that he did not land at all, but fell first on a sharp ridge of rock, and then tumbled into the water.
Pug whined and licked her hand again, but he couldn't tell his story. The truth was he had spotted a water rat, and being reckless and thoughtless, as well as brave, he jumped after the rat without even considering how or where he would land. The outcome was that he didn't land at all, but first fell on a sharp ridge of rock, and then tumbled into the water.
"Now I should like to know how in the world I am to get you up," said Amity. "I don't see how it is to be done, unless I carry you in my apron—if only you won't bite me!"
"Now I really want to know how on earth I’m supposed to get you up," said Amity. "I don’t see how that’s going to happen, unless I carry you in my apron—if only you won't bite me!"
But Pug had no notion of biting. He was a sensible dog, with all his faults, and he perceived that Amity was trying her best to help him, so he submitted patiently when Amity gathered him up in her apron. And though the journey up the bank hurt him cruelly, he only whined to himself, and never offered to bite.
But Pug had no idea of biting. He was a sensible dog, despite his faults, and he realized that Amity was doing her best to help him, so he patiently allowed her to scoop him up in her apron. And even though the trip up the bank hurt him badly, he only whined to himself and never tried to bite.
"You are a darling dog, so you are!" said Amity, patting the poor, piteous little black nose which Pug held up to her. "I suppose I had better take you straight to Aunt Julia. She must be very uneasy about you."
"You’re such a sweet dog, yes you are!" said Amity, gently stroking the poor, sad little black nose that Pug raised to her. "I guess I should take you right to Aunt Julia. She’s probably really worried about you."
Aunt Julia was standing out on the lawn with some visitors, and she looked—like a queen, Amity thought, with her lace shawl, and her shady hat with a long white feather curling round the crown. In her interest for the dog, Amity quite forgot to be shy of the strange ladies. She had draggled her frock in the wet bushes, and the blood from Pug's wound had soaked through her white apron, so that she made rather an untidy figure.
Aunt Julia was out on the lawn with some guests, and she looked—like a queen, Amity thought, in her lace shawl and her sun hat with a long white feather wrapping around the crown. Focused on the dog, Amity completely forgot to feel shy around the unfamiliar ladies. She had gotten her dress muddy in the wet bushes, and the blood from Pug's wound had bled through her white apron, making her look quite disheveled.
"You unlucky child!" said Aunt Julia. "What have you done now?"
"You unlucky kid!" Aunt Julia said. "What did you do this time?"
"Have you hurt yourself?" asked one of the ladies, in a kindly voice.
"Did you hurt yourself?" asked one of the ladies, in a gentle voice.
"No, ma'am," answered Amity: "it is Pug who is hurt. He has fallen down the bank by the pond, Aunt Julia, and I am afraid his leg is broken. Just see!"
"No, ma'am," Amity replied, "it's Pug who's hurt. He fell down the bank by the pond, Aunt Julia, and I'm worried his leg is broken. Just look!"
But Aunt Julia drew back with a little scream of dismay.
But Aunt Julia recoiled with a small scream of shock.
"Don't bring him near me, child! I never can bear the sight of blood. I dare say he will go mad and bite somebody. Take him away, and tell some one to drown him."
"Don't bring him near me, kid! I can’t stand the sight of blood. I bet he’ll go crazy and bite someone. Take him away, and tell someone to drown him."
"Drown Pug!" said Amity: she could hardly believe her ears.
"Drown Pug!" Amity exclaimed, barely able to believe what she'd just heard.
"Oh, I wouldn't do that!" said the lady who had spoken to Amity. "I dare say he can be cured."
"Oh, I wouldn't do that!" said the woman who had talked to Amity. "I’m sure he can be cured."
"I don't believe it," said Miss Julia: "he will be limping about, a horrid object for ever so long. Little wretch! After my giving forty dollars for him, to go and spoil himself so."
"I can't believe it," said Miss Julia. "He'll be limping around, a awful sight for a long time. Poor thing! After I paid forty dollars for him, and he goes and ruins himself like that."
"It was very inconsiderate in him," said Mrs. Barnard dryly.
"It was really thoughtless of him," Mrs. Barnard said dryly.
"Well there, do take him away, and relieve our eyes and ears," said Miss Julia. "You should never have brought him here."
"Well then, take him away and spare us from seeing and hearing him," said Miss Julia. "You should never have brought him here."
"I shouldn't have done so, only I thought you loved him, Aunt Julia," said Amity; and she walked away without another word.
"I shouldn't have done that, I just thought you loved him, Aunt Julia," said Amity, and she walked away without saying anything else.
Mrs. Barnard followed her a few steps.
Mrs. Barnard walked a few steps behind her.
"Take him down to the stable, my dear, and ask my man Lewis what to do with him," said she. "Lewis knows all about animals, and he is a famous dog-doctor. He will tell you whether the poor little fellow can be cured, or whether it will be more merciful to put him out of pain. You are a dear little girl, I think. Will you come some day and make me a visit?"
"Take him down to the stable, sweetheart, and ask my guy Lewis what to do with him," she said. "Lewis knows all about animals, and he's an excellent vet for dogs. He'll let you know if the poor little guy can be saved or if it would be kinder to put him out of his misery. You're such a sweet girl, I think. Will you come by and visit me someday?"
"Yes, ma'am," said Amity. She would hardly have answered "Yes" so readily if she had not been thinking more about Pug than herself.
"Yeah, ma'am," said Amity. She probably wouldn't have answered "Yeah" so quickly if she hadn't been thinking more about Pug than herself.
She hurried away to the stable, her heart boiling over with anger and pity.
She rushed off to the stable, her heart filled with anger and pity.
"To think that she would not even look at the poor thing!" said she. "I don't believe she can love anything."
"Can you believe she wouldn't even glance at the poor thing?" she said. "I really don't think she can love anything."
Amity was nearly right. Miss Julia had lived for amusement so long that she really cared for very little else. She had bought Pug because he was of a very pure and rare breed, and because it was the fashion to have such a dog; and also because another lady wanted him. He had amused her for a while with his tricks for he was an accomplished dog, but she had grown tired of him lately.
Amity was almost right. Miss Julia had spent so much time living for entertainment that she barely cared about anything else. She had bought Pug because he was a very pure and rare breed, and because it was trendy to have a dog like him; plus, another lady wanted him. He had entertained her for a bit with his tricks since he was a skilled dog, but she had become bored with him recently.
"Pugs were growing common, like everything else," she said.
"Pugs were becoming common, just like everything else," she said.
She thought she must have a Japanese spaniel.
She thought she needed a Japanese spaniel.
Lewis, Mrs. Barnard's coachman, was sitting on a block by the stable door talking to William, her grandfather's man. He started at the sight of Amity and the pug-dog.
Lewis, Mrs. Barnard's driver, was sitting on a block by the stable door chatting with William, her grandfather's assistant. He jumped at the sight of Amity and the pug.
"What in the world brings you down here, Miss Amity? Has anything happened?"
"What on earth brings you down here, Miss Amity? Did something happen?"
Amity told her story, and the men clustered round to look at the dog.
Amity shared her story, and the men gathered around to see the dog.
"Stand away, can't you, and don't crowd the young lady," said Lewis, who was a very genteel colored man indeed. "'Pears like you ain't no manners at all. Haven't you got a basket or something to put him in, William?"
"Stand back, can’t you, and don’t crowd the young lady," said Lewis, who was actually a very refined Black man. "It seems like you have no manners at all. Don’t you have a basket or something to put him in, William?"
William produced a basket, and folded an old blanket in the bottom. Pug was laid in his bed, and Lewis proceeded to examine his hurts.
William got a basket and laid an old blanket at the bottom. Pug was placed in his bed, and Lewis began to check his injuries.
"His leg is broke, but it can be set," he said presently. "He is a good deal bruised, too, but he'll get over that. Oh yes, miss, he'll do well enough, and be as good as a new dog yet! I'll whittle out some splints for his leg directly; but you had better go away, for I shall have to hurt him some, and little ladies are mostly so soft-hearted they don't like to see things hurt."
"His leg is broken, but we can fix it," he said after a moment. "He's pretty bruised up too, but he'll recover. Oh yes, miss, he'll be just fine and good as new! I'll carve out some splints for his leg right away, but you should probably step outside, because I'll need to cause him a bit of pain, and girls like you are usually too tender-hearted to watch that."
Amity patted and stroked Pug while Lewis was contriving and cutting out his splints, and explained to him that his leg was going to be set, in order that it might get well; and that he must be a good dog and not bite Lewis, but try to bear the pain patiently. She was so busy with her pet that she did not see any one coming, until she was startled by hearing her grandfather say, in a tone of displeasure,—
Amity patted and stroked Pug while Lewis was figuring out and cutting out his splints, and explained to him that his leg was going to be fixed so it could heal; and that he needed to be a good dog and not bite Lewis, but try to endure the pain patiently. She was so focused on her pet that she didn’t notice anyone approaching until she was startled by her grandfather saying, in an annoyed tone,—
"Amity, is this you? What are you doing here at the barn? This is not a proper place for you at all!"
"Amity, is that you? What are you doing here at the barn? This isn’t a suitable place for you at all!"
A few days before, Amity would have crept away without a word, to hide in some corner; but she was not thinking of herself now.
A few days ago, Amity would have sneaked away without saying anything, to hide in a corner; but she wasn't thinking about herself now.
"It was Pug brought me, grandpapa," said she. "He has fallen down and hurt himself dreadfully; but Mrs. Barnard said Lewis might tell whether he could be cured, so I brought him down to see."
"It was Pug who brought me, grandpa," she said. "He fell and hurt himself really badly; but Mrs. Barnard said Lewis could tell if he could be fixed, so I brought him down to see."
"Oh, very well! If it is a work of mercy, I have nothing to say," answered Judge Bogardus, smiling. "What does Lewis think of his patient?"
"Oh, fine! If it's an act of kindness, I have nothing to say," replied Judge Bogardus with a smile. "What does Lewis think about his patient?"
"I think he can be cured, sir, though like as not he'll go a little lame."
"I think he can be treated, sir, but he might end up being a bit lame."
"Very well; do your best for him. Come, my dear; you had better walk up to the house with me."
"Alright; do your best for him. Come on, my dear; you should walk up to the house with me."
"So you went down to the pond," said the Judge, as they walked along. "Were you not afraid?"
"So you went down to the pond," said the Judge as they walked. "Weren't you scared?"
"Oh no, grandpapa! I used to climb about everywhere when I lived in the Green Mountains."
"Oh no, Grandpa! I used to climb all over the place when I lived in the Green Mountains."
"So much the better for you. And do you like it here as well as you did in the mountains?"
"So much the better for you. Do you like it here as much as you did in the mountains?"
"I should if mother was here," said Amity, in a voice which shook a little.
"I would if my mom were here," said Amity, her voice trembling slightly.
The Judge pressed Amity's little fat hand warmly, but he did not speak just then. Presently he said in a cheerful tone:
The Judge warmly squeezed Amity's chubby little hand, but he didn't say anything at that moment. After a bit, he spoke in a cheerful tone:
"If you like mountains so well, we will go over to the Mountain House some time and spend a week. Would that please you?"
"If you really love the mountains, we can head over to the Mountain House sometime and spend a week there. Would that make you happy?"
"Oh yes, grandpapa!"
"Oh yes, grandpa!"
"Very well; we will consider it an engagement then. Now it is time for you to dress for dinner. Put on a white frock. I like to see little girls in white."
"Alright; we'll call it an engagement then. Now it's time for you to get ready for dinner. Wear a white dress. I love seeing little girls in white."
Amity ran up stairs to her room determined to make herself look as nicely as possible. She brushed her hair till it shone like satin, and took pains with the tie of her neck and sash ribbons as she had never done before. Since grandpapa really cared how she looked, she would try to please him.
Amity ran upstairs to her room, determined to look as nice as possible. She brushed her hair until it shone like satin and was meticulous with the tie of her neck and sash ribbons like never before. Since grandpa genuinely cared about how she looked, she wanted to make him happy.
"Well, how did you leave your patient?" said Mrs. Barnard to Amity, near whom she sat at lunch. "Does Lewis think he can be cured?"
"Well, how did you leave your patient?" Mrs. Barnard asked Amity, who was sitting near her at lunch. "Does Lewis think he can be cured?"
"Oh yes, ma'am! He thinks he will be lame a good while though."
"Oh yes, ma'am! He thinks he will be out of action for a while, though."
"You owe Amity a great debt for saving the life of your favorite, Julia," said the Judge. "She showed a good deal of courage and presence of mind in the way she saved Pug."
"You owe Amity a huge favor for saving your favorite, Julia," the Judge said. "She really showed a lot of courage and quick thinking in how she saved Pug."
"I think she would have done quite as well to let him alone," said Miss Julia. "I told her to let the men drown him, but it seems she has taken her own way about the matter. There, I am not blaming you, child," she added, good-naturedly, seeing that Amity blushed.
"I think she would have been better off leaving him alone," said Miss Julia. "I told her to let the men take care of him, but it looks like she decided to handle things her own way. There, I’m not blaming you, dear," she added, kindly, noticing that Amity was blushing.
Miss Julia was almost always good-natured, unless she was uncomfortable. She was "pleasant when she was pleased," as the saying goes, and that was something, for a good many people are not even that.
Miss Julia was generally good-natured, except when she felt uncomfortable. She was "pleasant when she was pleased," as the saying goes, and that was a positive trait, since many people aren't even that.
"May I have Pug, if you don't want him when he gets well?" asked Amity, when she had a chance of speaking to her aunt after dinner.
"Can I have Pug if you don't want him once he's better?" Amity asked when she finally got a chance to talk to her aunt after dinner.
"To be sure, if you want him, child," answered Miss Julia, in some surprise; "but I thought you and Pug were not very good friends."
"Sure, if you want him, sweetie," replied Miss Julia, a bit surprised; "but I thought you and Pug weren't that close."
"We never have been, but he was just as grateful as he could be when I took him out of the water; and besides," said Amity, sighing a little, "you know he will want some one to like him."
"We've never been, but he was as grateful as he could be when I pulled him out of the water; and besides," Amity said with a slight sigh, "you know he’ll want someone to like him."
Miss Julia stooped down and kissed her little niece—a thing she had hardly ever done before of her own accord. "You are a good little soul," said she. "Yes, you may have him and welcome. I dare say you will make an excellent mistress for him."
Miss Julia bent down and kissed her little niece—a thing she had rarely done on her own. "You're a sweet little girl," she said. "Yes, you can have him, and you're welcome to it. I'm sure you'll make a great mistress for him."
"Oh, thank you, Aunt Julia! And there is one other thing: Mrs. Paget wants me to baste the patchwork for the sewing-school girls. May I?"
"Oh, thank you, Aunt Julia! And there's one more thing: Mrs. Paget wants me to baste the patchwork for the sewing school girls. Can I?"
"Mrs. Paget has sewing-school on the brain, I think," said Miss Julia. "Yes, to be sure, if you like to do it. Why do you ask?"
"Mrs. Paget is all about sewing school, I think," said Miss Julia. "Yeah, for sure, if that's what you want to do. Why do you ask?"
"I always asked mamma before I did any such thing," said Amity.
"I always asked Mom before I did anything like that," Amity said.
"And a very good plan it is, when one has a mamma to ask. Yes, baste as much patchwork as you please. Tell Anna to give you my old pink and white cambric; that will make you some very pretty pieces. I like to help people amuse themselves in their own way, even when that way is not mine. But remember, if I find you bent into a heap over your work, I shall take it away from you."
"And it's a really good plan, especially when you have a mom to ask. Sure, sew as much patchwork as you want. Ask Anna for my old pink and white fabric; that will give you some lovely pieces. I enjoy helping people have fun in their own way, even if it's not how I would do it. But remember, if I see you hunched over your work, I’ll take it away from you."
"I will remember, Aunt Julia. Good night."
"I'll remember that, Aunt Julia. Good night."
"What a pleasant day this has been!" said Amity to herself. "I am so glad I saw Mrs. Paget. I think she is right: I won't think about my looks, only to try to be nice and dress as grandpapa likes to see me; and I will try to be useful and pleasant. After all, Aunt Julia is very kind to me, and all people can't be alike; only I do think it is queer that she shouldn't care anything about Pug."
"What a lovely day this has been!" Amity said to herself. "I’m really glad I saw Mrs. Paget. I think she's right: I won’t worry about my appearance, just try to be nice and dress the way grandpa likes; and I’ll do my best to be helpful and cheerful. After all, Aunt Julia is very kind to me, and not everyone can be the same; it's just a bit odd that she doesn’t care at all about Pug."
CHAPTER THIRD.
PATCHWORK.
PATCHWORK.
THE next morning Lewis came with a note and a large Fayal basket, both directed to Amity. Perhaps you have never seen one of these baskets. They are brought from Fayal, in the Azores Islands. They are made of wide thin strips of cedar plaited together, and are very pretty and convenient. The note was as follows:—
THE next morning, Lewis arrived with a note and a large Fayal basket, both addressed to Amity. Maybe you’ve never seen one of these baskets. They come from Fayal, in the Azores Islands. They are made of wide, thin strips of cedar woven together, and are really nice and practical. The note was as follows:—
"DEAR AMITY: I send you the basket of patchwork, which you will find
in a sad state of confusion. There are hardly two blocks of a size in
the whole concern. So much for people not doing what they undertake. I
shall be very glad if you can put enough to rights for us to begin upon
next Saturday: a dozen good-sized blocks will do. I am going to give
you a 'Golden Text' to go with this work and any other you may have to
do. There are only a few words in it, but they mean a great deal:
"'YE HAVE DONE IT UNTO ME!'
"I dare say you know where it is to be found.
"I hope Pug is better. Lewis says he has as much sense about being sick
as a man—which is not saying a great deal.
"Faithfully yours,
"HELEN PAGET."
"DEAR AMITY: I'm sending you the patchwork basket, which is in quite a mess. It seems like hardly any two blocks are the same size. That's what happens when people don't follow through on their commitments. I'd appreciate it if you could fix enough for us to start on next Saturday: a dozen decent-sized blocks will be fine. I'm also giving you a 'Golden Text' to accompany this work and any other projects you have. It’s just a few words, but they carry a lot of meaning:
"'YOU HAVE DONE IT UNTO ME!'
"I'm sure you know where to find it.
"I hope Pug is feeling better. Lewis says he has as much sense about being sick as a man—which isn’t saying much.
"Best regards,"
"HELEN PAGET."
Amity knew very well where to find the words of her Golden Text, and she repeated them to herself:
Amity knew exactly where to find the words of her Golden Text, and she recited them to herself:
"'And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you,
Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren,
ye have done it unto me.'" (Matt. 25:40).
"'And the King will answer them, Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.'" (Matt. 25:40).
"Then I can do this for him," thought Amity—"even such little common work as this. He will know it and be pleased with it."
"Then I can do this for him," thought Amity—"even this small, everyday task. He will notice it and appreciate it."
And Amity waited a minute before opening the basket, while she asked that she might have help to do the work faithfully. There is no kind of good work in which we cannot ask his help.
And Amity paused for a minute before opening the basket, while she asked for help to do the job faithfully. There's no kind of good work where we can't seek his assistance.
"But I can't think what any one could be thinking about to cut patchwork like that," said Amity as she spread out the pieces on the floor. "Just see here, Anna, what work! There are no two pieces alike."
"But I can't imagine what anyone could be thinking to cut patchwork like this," Amity said as she spread the pieces out on the floor. "Look at this, Anna, what a mess! Not a single piece is the same."
"That comes from cutting one piece by another," said Anna, who was an excellent seamstress and a very good girl beside. "You must have a stiff paper pattern and measure by that. Keep to your pattern all the time: that is a good rule for more things than patchwork. But what is it all for, Miss Amity?"
"That comes from cutting one piece with another," said Anna, who was an excellent seamstress and a very nice girl as well. "You need a stiff paper pattern and measure by that. Stick to your pattern all the time: that's a good rule for more things than just patchwork. But what is it all for, Miss Amity?"
Amity told her the story.
Amity shared the story with her.
"Dear heart, how very nice!" said Anna, who was an English girl. "Where I came from, we all learned to sew in school. I think it would be good for you to have a class, Miss Amity; it would be a very nice diversion for you."
"Dear heart, how lovely!" said Anna, who was an English girl. "Where I come from, we all learned to sew in school. I think it would be great for you to take a class, Miss Amity; it would be a nice way to distract you."
"I am hardly old enough for that," said Amity, smiling. "I'm afraid the girls wouldn't respect me, and I should be dreadfully afraid of them. And besides, Anna, I don't think I should quite like to do such work for a diversion."
"I’m really not old enough for that," Amity said with a smile. "I’m worried the girls wouldn’t respect me, and I would be really scared of them. Plus, Anna, I don’t think I’d enjoy doing that kind of work for fun."
"Many ladies do it," said Anna.
"Lots of women do it," Anna said.
"Perhaps that is the reason they get tired and leave off so soon."
"Maybe that's why they get tired and leave so quickly."
"I shouldn't wonder if you were right, miss. Well, I'll get you the red wrapper Miss Bogardus said you were to have; it will be very pretty to put your stripes together with."
"I wouldn't be surprised if you were right, miss. Alright, I'll get you the red wrapper that Miss Bogardus said you should have; it will look really nice to match with your stripes."
Amity found her work more difficult than she expected; but she was very persevering, and she had Anna to appeal to in any difficulty. By Saturday she had a large number of pieces basted and ready for use.
Amity found her work more challenging than she expected, but she was very determined, and she had Anna to turn to for help with any problems. By Saturday, she had a lot of pieces basted and ready to go.
"Ah! That is something like," said Mrs. Paget as she looked over the box which Amity brought her. "If you can do as much for us every week, it will be a very great help. Did you find a roll of aprons in the basket? I have mislaid one somewhere."
"Ah! That’s more like it," said Mrs. Paget as she looked over the box that Amity brought her. "If you can do this much for us every week, it will be a huge help. Did you find a roll of aprons in the basket? I seem to have misplaced one."
"Yes, ma'am," answered Amity: "I will go and bring it down."
"Sure thing, ma'am," Amity replied. "I'll go get it."
"How very neatly the child has done them! Do you see, Julia?" said Mrs. Paget.
"Look how neatly the child has done them! Do you see, Julia?" said Mrs. Paget.
"I dare say she has. She seems a persevering little body. I think it will be a very good thing if she takes a fancy to that kind of work, as she has really no talent for anything else."
"I bet she has. She seems like a determined little person. I think it’ll be really beneficial if she enjoys that type of work since she doesn’t really have a talent for anything else."
"A talent for being useful is about as good a talent as any one can have in this world," said Mrs. Paget, "and perhaps in the other also. There seems, at least, some ground for thinking so."
"A talent for being helpful is one of the best talents anyone can have in this world," said Mrs. Paget, "and maybe in the next one too. There seems, at least, some reason to think so."
Miss Julia only smiled. She was used to such remarks from her friend, and did not mind them in the least.
Miss Julia just smiled. She was used to comments like that from her friend and didn’t mind them at all.
"Papa," said Miss Julia at dinner, a fortnight afterward, "Mrs. Roby called here this morning. She has taken a cottage at Long Branch, and wishes us to come down and spend a month with them. Have you any objection?"
"Papa," said Miss Julia at dinner, two weeks later, "Mrs. Roby came by this morning. She’s rented a cottage at Long Branch and wants us to come down and spend a month with them. Do you have any objections?"
"None in the least to your going, if you like it," answered Judge Bogardus. "As for me, I have another engagement, and with a young lady too: so that my going is out of the question, even if I wished it—which I don't."
"Not at all if you want to go," replied Judge Bogardus. "As for me, I have other plans, and with a young lady as well: so my going is impossible, even if I wanted to—which I don't."
"What engagement can you possibly have with a young lady?" asked Miss Julia, in surprise.
"What kind of relationship can you have with a young woman?" asked Miss Julia, surprised.
"I have engaged to take Miss Amity Bogardus to the mountains. We spoke first of the Catskills; but, if it is all the same to her, I think we will go to the White Mountains instead—eh, miss?"
"I've made plans to take Miss Amity Bogardus to the mountains. We initially talked about the Catskills, but if it's okay with her, I think we'll go to the White Mountains instead—right, Miss?"
Amity grew scarlet to the root of her light hair.
Amity blushed deep red all the way to her light hair.
"Oh, grandpapa! Did you really mean it?"
"Oh, grandpa! Did you really mean it?"
"When you know grandpapa better, my dear, you will know that he never says anything he does not mean. So you think you will like the White Mountains, and perhaps a bit of Lake George, quite as well as the Catskills?"
"When you get to know grandpa better, my dear, you’ll realize that he never says anything he doesn’t really mean. So you think you’ll enjoy the White Mountains and maybe a little bit of Lake George just as much as the Catskills?"
"Yes, indeed! I always did want to see them near, so much."
"Yes, definitely! I've always wanted to see them up close, so much."
"I wish you would learn not to color so at every little thing, Amity," said Miss Julia, a little pettishly: "it is very well for a dark girl, but it does not suit your style. Papa, do you really mean to take the child about with you in that way? Who will take care of her clothes and keep her decent?"
"I wish you wouldn't react so strongly to everything, Amity," said Miss Julia, a bit irritably. "It works for someone with darker features, but it doesn't suit you. Dad, do you actually plan on bringing her along like that? Who's going to take care of her clothes and make sure she looks presentable?"
"We must try to do that between us, eh, Amity? Do you think you can do your part?"
"We should try to make that happen between us, okay, Amity? Do you think you can do your part?"
"Oh yes, grandpapa!"
"Oh yes, grandpa!"
"Well, I dare say you can. You are such an old-fashioned little body," said Aunt Julia, getting back her good humor, which indeed was seldom lost long at a time. "I must look over your clothes and see what you need. I suppose a flannel suit and two or three calicos, with a nice frock or two, will be best for the mountains."
"Well, I bet you can. You’re such an old-fashioned little one," said Aunt Julia, regaining her good mood, which honestly never stayed away for long. "I need to go through your clothes and see what you need. I guess a flannel outfit and a couple of calicos, along with a nice dress or two, will be best for the mountains."
"You must settle all that," said the Judge: "only we won't have any finery."
"You have to take care of everything," said the Judge, "but we won't be having any fancy stuff."
"There is no great room for finery in such mourning as Amity's; and, besides, nobody puts it on children now. When will you set out?"
"There’s not much space for luxury in mourning like Amity’s; plus, no one dresses children up like that anymore. When are you leaving?"
"Some time next week, I think. Will that give time for all you have to do?"
"Maybe sometime next week, I think. Will that give you enough time to get everything done?"
Amity thought her grandfather spoke to her.
Amity thought her grandfather was talking to her.
"Oh yes, sir!" she answered. "I have nothing to do except to finish my French Reader and baste up enough patchwork to last to the end of the school."
"Oh yes, sir!" she replied. "I have nothing to do except finish my French Reader and sew enough patchwork to last until the end of school."
"Eh, what's that? Have you set up school?"
"Hey, what’s that? Have you started school?"
"Mrs. Paget has drawn Amity into working for the sewing-school," said Miss Julia. "Fancy her wanting me to take a class!"
"Mrs. Paget has convinced Amity to work at the sewing school," said Miss Julia. "Can you believe she wants me to teach a class!"
"Well, why shouldn't you?"
"Well, why not?"
"I haven't any talent for that kind of thing," said Miss Julia, shrugging her shoulders; "and I can't endure smells of boiled cabbage and onions, like Mrs. Paget."
"I don't have any talent for that kind of thing," said Miss Julia, shrugging her shoulders; "and I can't stand the smell of boiled cabbage and onions, like Mrs. Paget."
"It seems rather a good thing that there are people who can," said Judge Bogardus. "Well then, we will consider the matter settled. Please see that she has everything needful, Julia."
"It seems like a good thing that there are people who can," said Judge Bogardus. "Well then, we'll consider the matter settled. Please make sure she has everything she needs, Julia."
"I will attend to it," answered Miss Julia. "I think we will go down to the city for two or three days; and then we can finish all our shopping at once. Will you like that, Amity?"
"I'll take care of it," replied Miss Julia. "I think we should head to the city for a couple of days; that way we can wrap up all our shopping in one go. Sound good to you, Amity?"
"Oh yes, Aunt Julia, ever so much!"
"Oh yes, Aunt Julia, a lot!"
"You have one talent, I will say for you, and a very good one," remarked Aunt Julia—"that of being easily pleased."
"You have one talent, I must say, and it’s a great one," Aunt Julia commented, "that of being easily pleased."
"I ought to be pleased when everybody is so good to me," said Amity.
"I should be happy when everyone is so nice to me," said Amity.
"A great many people ought to be what they are not, my dear. Don't you want to run out in the garden and find some pretty buds for my hair? I am going to a little party at Mrs. Barnard's."
"A lot of people should be who they aren't, my dear. Don't you want to run out to the garden and find some pretty flowers for my hair? I'm going to a little party at Mrs. Barnard's."
"She is a dear little thing, after all," said Miss Julia to her father, when they were alone. "I never saw a child who made so little trouble; and she has brightened up quite wonderfully lately. If only she were not so dreadfully homely."
"She is such a sweet little thing, after all," said Miss Julia to her father when they were alone. "I’ve never seen a child who causes so little trouble, and she’s really brightened up a lot lately. If only she weren’t so horribly unattractive."
"Handsome is that handsome does," said the Judge, as he left the table.
"Good-looking is as good-looking does," said the Judge, as he got up from the table.
Aunt Julia and Amity paid their visit to New York.
Aunt Julia and Amity visited New York.
"Now we will have some lunch, and after that we will go up to the Park for a drive," said Miss Julia.
"Now we’ll have some lunch, and after that, we’ll head up to the park for a drive," said Miss Julia.
They had been shopping all the morning and all the day before; Miss Julia had bought a good many beautiful things for herself, and some nice ones for Amity—among others a very pretty and convenient Russian leather writing-case and travelling inkstand.
They had been shopping all morning and all the day before; Miss Julia had bought quite a few beautiful things for herself, along with some nice ones for Amity—among other things, a very pretty and handy Russian leather writing case and travel inkstand.
"That is my present," said she. "I shall expect you to write me a letter telling me all about your journey and adventures."
"That's my gift," she said. "I want you to write me a letter sharing all about your trip and adventures."
"I think I have too many nice presents," said Amity.
"I think I have too many nice gifts," said Amity.
"Oh, the other things are not presents—they come out of your own purse."
"Oh, the other things aren't gifts—they come out of your own wallet."
"It does not seem as if I had any purse," said Amity. "I cannot get used to the thought that I shall have plenty of money of my own. Mamma had to be so careful and saving."
"It doesn’t feel like I have any money," said Amity. "I can’t wrap my head around the idea that I’ll have plenty of my own. Mom always had to be so careful and thrifty."
"Well, well, we won't think about that any more," said Miss Julia, hastily. "'Let by-gones be by-gones' is an excellent rule. What will you have for your lunch?"
"Alright, we won't dwell on that anymore," said Miss Julia quickly. "'Let bygones be bygones' is a great principle. What do you want for lunch?"
"Please choose for me, Aunt Julia. I never know what I do want when there are so many things."
"Please decide for me, Aunt Julia. I can never figure out what I want when there are so many options."
"You will soon get over that, my dear. I suppose something substantial, with an ice cream, will suit you."
"You'll get over that soon, my dear. I guess something hearty, along with some ice cream, will do the trick for you."
Aunt Julia gave her orders, and then leaned back in her corner of the nice little sofa, reading a French book she had just bought, while Amity amused herself with looking about her at the gayly-dressed groups of ladies and children who filled the large restaurant dining-rooms. Presently a lady came in with a little boy who walked rather feebly with two crutches. She set him up in a comfortable chair, and, saying something which Amity did not hear, went out and left him. The child, who was about eight years old, sat very contentedly for a while, and then began playing with some marbles which he took out of his pocket. By and by two of them fell on the floor. The boy looked at them wistfully, but made no effort to pick them up.
Aunt Julia gave her instructions and then settled back on her corner of the nice little sofa, reading a French book she had just bought, while Amity entertained herself by looking at the brightly dressed groups of ladies and children that filled the large dining areas of the restaurant. Soon, a woman entered with a little boy who walked rather unsteadily on two crutches. She helped him into a comfortable chair, said something Amity couldn't hear, and then left. The child, who was about eight years old, sat contentedly for a while and then started playing with some marbles he took out of his pocket. After some time, two of them fell on the floor. The boy looked at them longingly, but made no attempt to pick them up.
"Aunt Julia, may I pick up that lame boy's marbles for him?" whispered Amity. "He cannot get them himself."
"Aunt Julia, can I grab those marbles for that disabled boy?" whispered Amity. "He can't get them himself."
Miss Julia nodded, and Amity picked up the marbles, and laid them on the table.
Miss Julia nodded, and Amity picked up the marbles and placed them on the table.
"Thank you," said the boy. "I won't let them fall again."
"Thanks," said the boy. "I won't let them drop again."
"I will make a fence, so they can't roll off so easily," said Amity; and taking a napkin she rolled it up and laid it on the edge. "There, that will make a nice fence—now they won't roll off."
"I'll make a fence so they won't roll off easily," said Amity; and taking a napkin, she rolled it up and placed it on the edge. "There, that will make a nice fence—now they won't roll off."
"I like you," said the child, looking up in Amity's face. "You are not pretty, but you are lovely. Why do you wear black? Is your mother dead?"
"I like you," said the child, looking up at Amity's face. "You’re not pretty, but you’re lovely. Why are you wearing black? Is your mom dead?"
"Yes," said Amity, her lip quivering a little.
"Yeah," Amity said, her lip trembling slightly.
"Mine is dead, too. Who takes care of you now?"
"Mine is dead, too. Who looks after you now?"
"Grandpapa and Aunt Julia."
"Grandpa and Aunt Julia."
"Mrs. Franklin takes care of me. She is good, but she is not like mother. Is that your aunt?"
"Mrs. Franklin looks after me. She's nice, but she's not like my mom. Is that your aunt?"
"Yes, that is Aunt Julia. What is your name?"
"Yes, that's Aunt Julia. What's your name?"
"My name is John—John Hamilton."
"My name is John Hamilton."
"And mine is Amity Bogardus."
"And mine is Amity Bogardus."
"Say it again—slow, please. Amity Bogardus," he repeated once or twice. "There now, I sha'n't forget. I don't know much, you see, but when people are good to me, I like to remember them. Thank you, 'Amity Bogardus.'"
"Say it again—slowly, please. Amity Bogardus," he repeated a couple of times. "Alright, I won't forget it. I may not know much, but when people are nice to me, I like to remember them. Thank you, 'Amity Bogardus.'"
"What did that child say his name was?" asked Miss Julia, when they had finished their lunch and were in the carriage again.
"What did that kid say his name was?" asked Miss Julia, after they finished lunch and were back in the carriage.
"'John Hamilton,' aunt; and wasn't it funny? He said he didn't know much, but he liked to remember people that were good to him."
"'John Hamilton,' Aunt; and wasn't that amusing? He said he didn't know much, but he liked to remember people who were nice to him."
"He looked as if there were something peculiar about him," said Aunt Julia. "I wonder whether he can be Mrs. John Hamilton's son. I heard she left a boy who was quite deficient in mind and body."
"He seemed like there was something unusual about him," Aunt Julia said. "I wonder if he could be Mrs. John Hamilton's son. I heard she had a boy who was really lacking in both mind and body."
"He said his mother was dead, and that Mrs. Franklin took care of him. Did you notice how dull his eyes were, aunt, as if there were a veil over them?"
"He said his mom was dead and that Mrs. Franklin looked after him. Did you see how lifeless his eyes were, aunt, like there was a curtain over them?"
"I did not like to look very closely at him," answered Miss Julia. "It is not kind to seem to stare at a person who is unfortunate in any way. See what a pretty pony that little girl is driving! I must have you learn to drive when you come home again."
"I didn't want to look at him too closely," replied Miss Julia. "It's not nice to seem like you're staring at someone who's going through a tough time. Look at that cute pony that little girl is driving! You have to learn how to drive when you come back home."
"Oh, I know how," said Amity. "Old Deacon Bradshaw taught me; and he used to lend me his old white horse and the buckboard to take mamma out riding."
"Oh, I know how," said Amity. "Old Deacon Bradshaw taught me; and he used to lend me his old white horse and the wagon to take Mom out riding."
Miss Julia began to talk of something else. She did not like to think of the time when her sister-in-law was teaching a little school in Vermont, to support her worse than useless husband and her only child.
Miss Julia started to talk about something else. She didn't like thinking about the time when her sister-in-law was running a small school in Vermont to support her less than helpful husband and her only child.
A month later Amity was standing in the long drawing-room at Congress Hall, in Saratoga. She had had, as she said, "a lovely time" in the mountains with her grandfather. They had come to Saratoga by the way of Lake George, and they were now expecting Miss Julia, who was coming from Long Branch to meet her father, and spend some time at the springs. Amity was very much tanned, which did not improve her beauty; but still she looked much better than when we saw her first. The sad, downcast look was gone from her face; she held up her head; and the little pulleys in the corners of her mouth had drawn it into quite a different shape.
A month later, Amity was standing in the long drawing room at Congress Hall in Saratoga. She had had, as she put it, "a lovely time" in the mountains with her grandfather. They had traveled to Saratoga via Lake George, and they were now waiting for Miss Julia, who was coming from Long Branch to meet her father and spend some time at the springs. Amity was very tanned, which didn’t really enhance her beauty, but she still looked much better than when we first saw her. The sad, downcast expression had disappeared from her face; she held her head high, and the little lines at the corners of her mouth had changed her smile into something quite different.
So when people said of her, "What a very homely child!" they usually added, "but she has a pleasant face, after all."
So when people said about her, "What an unattractive kid!" they usually added, "but she has a nice face, at least."
Amity had been in the great hotel only two or three days, but she had made several acquaintances among the little girls, and to two or three of these she was now talking.
Amity had been at the big hotel for only two or three days, but she had made several friends among the little girls, and she was now chatting with two or three of them.
"Did you hear Johnny Hamilton cry last night?" said one of the girls, Emma Fairchild by name. "Poor little fellow, how he did scream!"
"Did you hear Johnny Hamilton crying last night?" said one of the girls, Emma Fairchild. "Poor little guy, he was screaming so much!"
"Johnny Hamilton!" repeated Amity. She was trying to remember where she had heard the name.
"Johnny Hamilton!" Amity repeated. She was trying to recall where she had heard that name before.
"Hear him? I should think I did," said another girl, very much "dressed up" with a sash and scarlet stockings. "I never heard such a noise. Ma says it is a shame to have such a wretched object about the house, and she means to speak to Mr. H. about it."
"Hear him? I think I definitely did," said another girl, all dressed up in a sash and red stockings. "I've never heard such a racket. Mom says it's embarrassing to have such a terrible thing around the house, and she plans to talk to Mr. H. about it."
"Who is he?"
"Who's he?"
"Oh, he is a miserable little idiot! He doesn't know anything at all."
"Oh, he's such a miserable little idiot! He doesn't know anything."
"My mother says it is wrong to call 'an idiot,'" said Emma Fairchild. "He can talk plain, and sensibly too, only he is so very slow, and can't seem to think of what he wants to say. He likes to be read to, and you never saw any one so fond of music. Mrs. Franklin told mother that was one reason she staid here—because Johnny liked to hear the band and see the people. He has very bad attacks of pain sometimes, and then he cries as he did last night; but generally he is very good and pleasant."
"My mom says it's wrong to call him 'an idiot,'" said Emma Fairchild. "He can talk clearly and makes sense too, he just takes his time and struggles to find the right words. He loves being read to, and you’ve never seen anyone who enjoys music so much. Mrs. Franklin told my mom that’s one reason she stays here—because Johnny loves listening to the band and watching the people. He has really bad pain attacks sometimes, and then he cries like he did last night; but most of the time, he's really sweet and pleasant."
"He hasn't sense enough to be anything else," said Maud, with the usual toss of her head.
"He doesn't have enough sense to be anything else," Maud said, tossing her head as usual.
"It takes very little sense to be disagreeable," remarked Emma, demurely. "See, there he comes! Let's go and speak to him. He always likes that."
"It doesn't take much sense to be unpleasant," Emma said sweetly. "Look, here he comes! Let's go talk to him. He always appreciates that."
Amity looked at the pale lame little boy, whom a kind-looking lady was carefully placing in an arm chair by the window. Yes, it was the same little boy she had seen in New York.
Amity looked at the frail, disabled little boy, whom a kind-looking woman was gently settling into an armchair by the window. Yes, it was the same little boy she had seen in New York.
"Just see him!" said Maud, in a loud whisper. "Now doesn't he look like an idiot?"
"Just look at him!" Maud said in a loud whisper. "Doesn't he look like a total idiot?"
"No, I don't think he does; and anyway, Maud, we ought not to stare at him. Aunt Julia says it is very rude to stare at a person who has anything odd or unfortunate about him. I have seen this little boy before. I wonder if he will know me!"
"No, I don't think he does; and anyway, Maud, we shouldn't stare at him. Aunt Julia says it's really rude to look at someone who has something unusual or unfortunate about them. I've seen this little boy before. I wonder if he'll recognize me!"
"Of course he won't. Come, let us go out on the veranda."
"Of course he won't. Come on, let's head out to the balcony."
"I am going to speak to Johnny first," said Emma. "Come, Amity."
"I'll talk to Johnny first," Emma said. "Come on, Amity."
"She just wants to show how good she is, and that Amity is just such another," said Maud to her companions, as they went out of the room. "She knows she is homely, and she means to try the good dodge."
"She just wants to prove how good she is, and that Amity is the same," said Maud to her friends as they left the room. "She knows she's not attractive, and she plans to use that to her advantage."
To do Maud justice, this spiteful speech was not original with her. She had heard it from her mother, who did not much believe in goodness, except for the sake of display. Mrs. Wickford was an unhappy woman. She loved the world dearly, and the world did not like her at all.
To give Maud her due, this bitter comment wasn’t her own. She had picked it up from her mother, who didn’t really believe in goodness except for show. Mrs. Wickford was a miserable woman. She adored the world, but the world didn’t care for her at all.
Johnny smiled as the girls spoke to him, and answered Emma's kind "How do you do to-day, Johnny?" slowly but distinctly.
Johnny smiled as the girls talked to him and replied to Emma's friendly "How are you today, Johnny?" slowly but clearly.
Then, as he looked at Amity, his dull eyes brightened.
Then, as he looked at Amity, his lifeless eyes lit up.
"I know you," he said quite eagerly; "I know your name: I say it in my prayers every night. Amity Bogardus," he repeated slowly. "I remember your eyebrows like a bridge."
"I know you," he said with enthusiasm; "I know your name: I say it in my prayers every night. Amity Bogardus," he repeated slowly. "I remember your eyebrows like a bridge."
"Why, where did you see Amity?" asked Emma.
"Wait, where did you see Amity?" Emma asked.
"She picked up my marbles for me," answered Johnny. "It was in a place where you go to have lunch."
"She picked up my marbles for me," Johnny replied. "It was in a spot where you go to grab lunch."
"In a restaurant in New York," said Amity. "I did not think you would know me again, Johnny. You have a good memory."
"In a restaurant in New York," Amity said. "I didn't think you'd remember me, Johnny. You have a great memory."
Johnny looked pleased.
Johnny looked happy.
"I can remember some things," said he. "You picked up my marbles and made a fence for them, and you spoke pleasantly to me. What is 'an idiot,' Emma?"
"I can remember some things," he said. "You picked up my marbles and made a fence for them, and you talked nicely to me. What does 'an idiot' mean, Emma?"
"An idiot is a person who does not know anything—not even his own name, or the days of the week," answered Emma. "Why do you ask, Johnny?"
"An idiot is someone who doesn't know anything—not even their own name or the days of the week," Emma replied. "Why do you ask, Johnny?"
"A lady said I was 'an idiot,'" replied Johnny, with a quivering lip: "I heard her just now; and she said I ought not to be here, because people did not like to see me, and it made it unpleasant. It was that girl's mother who wears the red stockings."
"A woman called me 'an idiot,'" Johnny said, his lip trembling. "I just heard her; she said I shouldn't be here because people don’t like seeing me, and it makes things uncomfortable. It was that girl's mom who wears the red stockings."
"Just like her!" said Emma, who was a kindhearted little thing, but rather too hasty and outspoken. "My mother says she is a horrid, vulgar woman. Never mind, Johnny; you are not an idiot at all, and I am sure you know lots of things."
"Just like her!" said Emma, who was a sweet little girl, but a bit too quick to speak her mind. "My mom says she’s a terrible, crass woman. Don't worry, Johnny; you're not stupid at all, and I know you know a lot of things."
"And you like to stay here, don't you?" said Amity.
"And you like to stay here, right?" said Amity.
"Yes; I like to see the pretty ladies, and to hear the music, and watch the water come out of the ground over there," and he pointed toward the park. "It acts as if it was glad to come out into the light. Do you think it is?"
"Yeah, I like seeing the pretty ladies, listening to the music, and watching the water come out of the ground over there," he said, pointing toward the park. "It seems like it's happy to come out into the light. Do you think it is?"
"Perhaps so," said Amity. "And what else do you like?"
"Maybe," said Amity. "What else do you like?"
"I like to hear stories, and verses, and hymns," said Johnny, "and to go to church, only I can't understand what the minister says very well. I used to like to knit, but I forgot how when I was so sick. Mrs. Franklin says she will get some one to teach me again when we get home."
"I love listening to stories, poems, and hymns," Johnny said, "and going to church, but I can't really make out what the minister says. I used to enjoy knitting, but I forgot how when I was really sick. Mrs. Franklin said she will find someone to teach me again when we get home."
"I don't think you are one bit like 'an idiot,'" said Emma. "Amity, I must go now: I have to take my bath at eleven."
"I don't think you're at all 'an idiot,'" Emma said. "Amity, I have to go now: I need to take my bath at eleven."
"I will sit with Johnny a little while, till his nurse comes back," said Amity, who was considering whether it would be possible for her to teach Johnny to knit again. "It would be 'doing something for the Lord Jesus,' as Mrs. Paget says," she thought.
"I'll sit with Johnny for a bit until his nurse gets back," said Amity, who was thinking about whether she could teach Johnny to knit again. "It would be 'doing something for the Lord Jesus,' like Mrs. Paget says," she thought.
"Talk to me," said Johnny; "I like to hear you."
"Talk to me," Johnny said; "I enjoy listening to you."
"What shall I talk about?" asked Amity.
"What should I talk about?" asked Amity.
"Oh, tell me something that happened at your home."
"Oh, share something that happened at your place."
"Well, I will tell that happened: I will tell you how Pug fell into the water."
"Well, I’ll share what happened: I’ll tell you how Pug ended up in the water."
And so she did, making a long story about the matter.
And so she did, telling an elaborate story about it.
Johnny listened with great interest for a while, but presently grew sleepy and began to nod.
Johnny listened with great interest for a while, but soon got sleepy and started to nod off.
Amity was just considering what she had better do when Mrs. Franklin came in. Johnny roused up a little.
Amity was just thinking about what she should do when Mrs. Franklin walked in. Johnny stirred a bit.
"Did I go to sleep? That wasn't—wasn't—"
"Did I fall asleep? That wasn't—wasn't—"
"Polite, you mean," said Mrs. Franklin, as Johnny stammered and tried to think of the word he wanted. "Never mind, my dear: the young lady will excuse you when she knows how little sleep you had last night. You shall lie down on this sofa and have a good nap, and I will sit by you. Poor little man! I am very glad to see him sleep," she added, as Johnny laid his head down and dropped off again. "I am very much obliged to you, Miss—"
"Polite, you mean," said Mrs. Franklin, as Johnny stumbled over his words and tried to think of what he wanted to say. "Don't worry, dear: the young lady will understand once she knows how little sleep you got last night. You can lie down on this sofa and take a good nap, and I’ll sit beside you. Poor guy! I'm really glad to see him sleeping," she added, as Johnny rested his head down and quickly fell asleep again. "I appreciate it so much, Miss—"
"My name is Amity Bogardus," said Amity, as Mrs. Franklin paused. "I saw Johnny only once, in New York, but he knew me again directly."
"My name is Amity Bogardus," Amity said as Mrs. Franklin paused. "I met Johnny only once, in New York, but he recognized me right away."
"Yes, he has a good memory for those people who are kind to him. He has often spoken of you."
"Yeah, he has a great memory for the people who are nice to him. He's often talked about you."
"Has he always been as he is now?" Amity ventured to ask.
"Has he always been like this?" Amity dared to ask.
"He has always been a little peculiar, but he has been much worse since his mother died. He was very sick with the same fever that killed her, and since then, his mind has failed a great deal."
"He’s always been a bit odd, but he’s been a lot worse since his mom died. He was really sick with the same fever that took her, and since then, his mind has deteriorated a lot."
"He told me he used to know how to knit," said Amity.
"He told me he used to know how to knit," Amity said.
"Yes, and I mean to try to have him taught again, but I am not a knitter myself, I am sorry to say."
"Yes, and I plan to try to get him taught again, but I'm not a knitter myself, I’m afraid."
"Perhaps I could teach him," said Amity. "I know how to knit pretty well, and I have taught two or three children. I would not mind trying, if you liked."
"Maybe I could teach him," Amity said. "I'm pretty good at knitting, and I've taught a couple of kids before. I wouldn't mind giving it a shot if you're interested."
"You are very kind," said Mrs. Franklin, looking much pleased, "but I am afraid you would find it a great deal of trouble."
"You are really kind," Mrs. Franklin said, looking quite pleased, "but I'm afraid you would find it to be a lot of trouble."
"I don't mind trouble, if only I could do it," said Amity; "but there would be no harm in trying—would there, do you think?"
"I don't mind getting into trouble if I could actually do it," Amity said. "But there wouldn’t be any harm in trying—do you think?"
"None at all, if your parents are willing; but you must ask them first."
"Not at all, if your parents agree; but you need to ask them first."
"My father and mother are dead, but I will ask my grandfather," said Amity, "and if he is willing, I will begin after breakfast to-morrow. Grandpapa reads his papers then, and does not want me."
"My dad and mom are gone, but I’ll ask my grandpa," said Amity, "and if he agrees, I’ll start after breakfast tomorrow. Grandpa reads his papers then, and doesn’t need me."
CHAPTER FOURTH.
KNITTING.
Knitting.
"I HAVE no objections," said Judge Bogardus, when Amity spoke to him about her plans; "only you know, my little girl, if you begin, you must keep on. It won't do to disappoint the poor little fellow because you get tired sometimes and want to do something else."
"I have no objections," said Judge Bogardus when Amity talked to him about her plans; "but you know, my little girl, once you start, you have to follow through. It wouldn't be fair to let the poor little guy down just because you get tired sometimes and want to do something else."
"I don't think I am apt to get tired of what I try to do," said Amity, thinking at the same time, "I am sure grandpapa need not have said that to me."
"I don't think I'm likely to get tired of what I try to do," said Amity, thinking at the same time, "I'm sure grandpa didn't need to say that to me."
"You do not always have as many temptations as you do here," said her grandfather; "and let me tell you one thing, Amity: it is a very good way of getting ready for a failure to think too much of yourself. If you begin or try to go on in your own strength, you will never succeed."
"You don’t always face as many temptations as you do here," her grandfather said. "And let me tell you something, Amity: it's a great way to prepare for failure by thinking too highly of yourself. If you start or try to keep going with your own strength, you’ll never succeed."
Judge Bogardus did not often speak in this way, and Amity was all the more struck with his words. They seemed to bring her down somehow from a little pinnacle of self-conceit she had been standing on, and she answered quite humbly:
Judge Bogardus didn’t usually talk this way, and Amity was all the more affected by his words. They seemed to bring her down from the little pedestal of self-importance she had been on, and she responded quite humbly:
"I know, grandpapa. That was what mother was always saying."
"I know, Grandpa. That's what Mom always said."
"Your mother was a good woman, my dear, and I hope you will be another. Teach the poor little boy by all means if you can, but don't expect too much of him; and now go and get your hat. I want you to ride with me."
"Your mother was a wonderful woman, my dear, and I hope you'll be just like her. By all means, teach the poor little boy if you can, but don’t expect too much from him; now go and get your hat. I want you to ride with me."
The next morning the knitting lessons began. Poor Johnny was very slow, and it was two or three days before he could catch the motions so as to go on by himself; but at last he did so, and could make out to knit a row without dropping more than half the stitches. Amity used to knit every other row (a very good way to do when one is teaching any child to knit).
The next morning, the knitting lessons started. Poor Johnny was really slow, and it took him two or three days before he could figure out the motions to continue on his own; but eventually he did, and he managed to knit a row without dropping more than half the stitches. Amity would knit every other row (a great technique when teaching any child to knit).
"Shall I ever learn, do you think?" asked Johnny.
"Do you think I’ll ever learn?" asked Johnny.
"Oh yes! You are doing a little better every day. Pretty soon you can begin to knit sponge-towel, and when it is done, you can give it to Mrs. Franklin for a present."
"Oh yes! You're getting a little better every day. Soon you'll be able to start knitting sponge towels, and when you're done, you can give it to Mrs. Franklin as a gift."
"Won't that be nice? When I go where my mamma is, Amity, I shall tell her how good you have been to her poor little boy, And you, too," he added, turning to Mrs. Franklin, who sat by as if afraid she might be hurt; "I shall tell her you were almost the same as my own mother; not quite the same, you know—nobody could be that."
"Won't that be nice? When I go where my mom is, Amity, I’m going to tell her how good you’ve been to her poor little boy. And you, too," he said, looking at Mrs. Franklin, who sat there as if she was afraid she might get hurt; "I’ll tell her you were almost like my own mother; not quite the same, of course—no one could be that."
"You are my dear little boy," said Mrs. Franklin, kissing the poor little thin hand Johnny held out to her; "but your hands are hot, Johnny; does your side ache again?"
"You are my sweet little boy," said Mrs. Franklin, kissing the poor little thin hand that Johnny held out to her; "but your hands are warm, Johnny; is your side hurting again?"
"A little," said Johnny.
"A bit," said Johnny.
"Where have you been, and where do you keep yourself all the mornings?" asked Emma Fairchild, as she met Amity on the veranda when the lesson was done. "Why don't you come out after breakfast when it is cool and pleasant?"
"Where have you been, and where do you go every morning?" asked Emma Fairchild, as she saw Amity on the veranda when the lesson was over. "Why don't you come out after breakfast when it's nice and cool?"
"I am busy then," said Amity.
"I'm busy then," Amity said.
"Why, surely you don't do lessons now you are here!" said Emma.
"Come on, you can't still be doing lessons now that you're here!" said Emma.
"Not my own lessons," returned Amity.
"Not my own lessons," Amity replied.
"I know what she does: she is teaching that idiot boy to knit," said Maud. "Mrs. Franklin told mamma so."
"I know what she's doing: she's teaching that dumb boy how to knit," Maud said. "Mrs. Franklin told my mom."
"Are you really?" asked Emma.
"Really?" asked Emma.
Amity nodded.
Amity agreed.
"And can he learn?"
"Can he learn?"
"Oh yes! He can knit quite a good deal, and he is so pleased, poor little fellow! But, Maud, you shouldn't call him 'an idiot.' He is not that, though he is backward, and oh, so slow!"
"Oh yes! He can knit quite well, and he’s so happy, poor little guy! But, Maud, you shouldn’t call him ‘an idiot.’ He’s not that, even though he is behind and oh, so slow!"
"And he really likes it?"
"And he actually likes it?"
"Oh yes! And I have taught him some other things, too."
"Oh yeah! And I've taught him some other stuff, too."
"What things?"
"What stuff?"
"Little hymns and verses and such things. He can learn almost anything with a rhyme to it."
"Short songs and poems and stuff like that. He can pick up almost anything if it rhymes."
"Well, anyhow, I think you are real good to teach him," said Emma; "isn't she, Maud?"
"Anyway, I think it's really nice of you to teach him," Emma said; "isn't that right, Maud?"
"Yes, I suppose so, but I shouldn't like it," said Maud; "and it isn't so very much to do, either. Mamma knows a lady that founded a hospital for poor children—paid for it all herself, and her name is on the front of it. That would be something worth while—something that every one would know."
"Yeah, I guess so, but I wouldn't really like it," said Maud; "and it's not that much to do, either. Mom knows a woman who started a hospital for underprivileged kids—she funded the whole thing herself, and her name is on the front of it. That's something meaningful—something everyone would recognize."
"But we ought not to do good things just to have people know them, I suppose; should we?" asked Emma, doubtfully. "I should not think that was right."
"But I guess we shouldn't do good things just for people to notice them, right?" asked Emma, uncertain. "I wouldn't think that's the right thing to do."
"Of course it isn't right. It is just like the Pharisees sounding a trumpet before them," answered Amity, with decision.
"Of course it isn't right. It's just like the Pharisees blowing a horn before them," replied Amity firmly.
"Everybody does, anyhow," persisted Maud. "My mother gave ten dollars and some clothes to the Old Woman's Home, and because it was not put in the paper with the other donations, she said she would never give them anything again. * But, Amity, you are very rich, ain't you?"
"Everyone does, anyway," Maud insisted. "My mom donated ten dollars and some clothes to the Old Woman's Home, and because it wasn't mentioned in the newspaper along with the other donations, she said she would never give them anything again. * But, Amity, you're really rich, right?"
* A fact, I am sorry to say.
* Unfortunately, that's the case.
"I shall be some time, I suppose," said Amity.
"I guess it will take me a while," said Amity.
"Then I should think you would like to do some grand thing—like building a hospital or an asylum. Just think! You might have a beautiful building on one of the avenues, with your name on it for every one to read when you are dead."
"Then I guess you’d want to do something big—like building a hospital or a care facility. Just imagine! You could have a beautiful building on one of the main streets, with your name on it for everyone to see after you’re gone."
"And what good would that do you?" asked Emma.
"And what good would that do for you?" asked Emma.
"Oh, I don't say I should do it. That is quite another thing," answered Maud, arranging her sash as she spoke. "I believe in using your money for yourself and having a good time. People are never grateful for being helped—ma says so. She said, after Mrs. Franklin went away: 'Well, I only hope they will be grateful, that's all; but I don't expect it;' and she said it was a shame for Mrs. Franklin to impose on you so."
"Oh, I'm not saying I should do it. That's a whole different story," Maud replied, fixing her sash as she spoke. "I believe in spending your money on yourself and enjoying life. People aren't usually grateful when you help them—my mom says that. She said, after Mrs. Franklin left: 'Well, I just hope they'll be appreciative, that's all; but I don't expect it;' and she thought it was unfair for Mrs. Franklin to take advantage of you like that."
"She doesn't impose on me," said Amity, rather vexed.
"She doesn't pressure me," Amity said, feeling quite annoyed.
"Oh, well! It's all right so long as you don't think so," said Maud, with a disagreeable little laugh. "I should think it a good deal of an imposition if any one was to get all that out of me. Ma says, 'Mrs. Franklin knows which side her bread is buttered.'"
"Oh, well! It's all good as long as you don't believe that," said Maud, with a nasty little laugh. "I would definitely consider it a huge imposition if someone got all that from me. Mom says, 'Mrs. Franklin knows which side her bread is buttered.'"
"It wasn't a very pretty speech if ma did say it," said Emma, imitating Maud's affected pronunciation. "Come, Amity, let's go and get some Columbia water."
"It wasn’t a very nice speech if Mom said it," said Emma, mimicking Maud's fake way of speaking. "Come on, Amity, let's go get some Columbia water."
The girls took their glasses of the clear, sparkling water, and then walked away through the grounds. Emma chattered away in her usual off-hand fashion, which, to do her justice, was usually a very pleasant and good-natured one. Amity was so silent that Emma presently broke off her prattle, and asked her what she was thinking about.
The girls picked up their glasses of clear, sparkling water and then strolled through the grounds. Emma chatted in her typical casual style, which, to be fair, was usually quite pleasant and friendly. Amity was so quiet that Emma eventually stopped talking and asked her what was on her mind.
"About Maud," answered Amity. "I don't think you need have been so sharp with her, Emma. I am afraid she was offended."
"About Maud," Amity replied. "I don't think you needed to be so harsh with her, Emma. I'm afraid she was hurt."
"Well, I dare say you are right," replied Emma. "I don't think I am apt to be sharp," (which was quite true), "but, somehow, Maud does always rub me the wrong way—she and her mother. Well, I don't know how to say what I mean, but they somehow seem to me to care only for the outside—not for what things really are, but only what people will say about them."
"Well, I must say you’re right," Emma replied. "I don’t think I’m usually judgmental," (which was completely true), "but for some reason, Maud and her mom always get under my skin. I can’t quite express what I mean, but they just seem to care about appearances—not about what things really are, but only about what people will think of them."
"You needn't have mimicked her, or spoken so about her mother any way," said Amity. "You wouldn't like it yourself, and I think you ought to be more careful. People will think you are very inconsistent."
"You didn't have to copy her or talk about her mom like that," said Amity. "You wouldn't like it if someone did that to you, and I think you should be more careful. People will see you as really inconsistent."
Now all this was true enough, and if Amity had hinted it or even spoken it out to Emma in a more gentle and humble manner, I have no doubt that the little girl would have taken it kindly, for she was really trying hard to be a good Christian child. But Amity spoke sharply, and with a tone of superiority which "rubbed Emma the wrong way," as she said directly.
Now, all this was true, and if Amity had suggested it or even told Emma in a gentler and more humble way, I’m sure the little girl would have accepted it kindly, because she was genuinely trying to be a good Christian child. But Amity spoke harshly and in a condescending tone that "rubbed Emma the wrong way," as she put it.
"Well, you needn't lecture me if I did," said she, sharply, in her turn. "You talk just like that horrid girl in the book we were reading, who scolded her grandmother for wasting her time knitting a bed-quilt." *
"Well, you don't have to lecture me if I did," she replied sharply. "You sound just like that awful girl in the book we were reading, who scolded her grandmother for wasting her time knitting a bed quilt."
* I cannot now remember in what book I met this young lady, but she is
no creation of mine.
* I can't remember which book I came across this young lady in, but she isn't my creation.
Amity drew herself up. "If you are going to talk like that, I think we had better drop the subject," said she, trying, without much success, to look and speak like Aunt Julia. But the air which may be quite imposing in a tall, handsome grown-up lady has quite the contrary effect in a dumpy, tow-headed little girl.
Amity straightened up. "If you're going to talk like that, I think we should just drop the subject," she said, trying, without much success, to imitate Aunt Julia's look and manner of speaking. However, the authoritative air that works well for a tall, attractive adult woman has the opposite effect coming from a short, tow-headed little girl.
And Emma only laughed.
And Emma just laughed.
"Dear me, how grand!" said she. "But it isn't a bit of use, Amity: you can't look tall if you try."
"Wow, that's impressive!" she said. "But it doesn't really matter, Amity: you can’t look taller no matter how hard you try."
Amity did not condescend to say another word. She turned and walked back as quickly as possible by the way she had come.
Amity didn’t bother to say anything else. She turned and walked back as quickly as she could the way she had come.
"Oh don't, Amity!" called Emma, sorry in a moment, as she always was if she hurt any one's feelings. "I didn't mean to make you angry; I was only in fun."
"Oh, don’t, Amity!" Emma called, instantly feeling sorry as she always did if she hurt someone’s feelings. "I didn’t mean to make you upset; I was just joking."
But Amity would not look around.
But Amity wouldn’t look back.
"Oh dear!" said Emma to herself. "How sorry I am! And she was right, too: I ought not to have spoken so to Maud. To be sure, she need not have put on such airs, but then I need not have laughed. I mean to find both the girls after dinner, and make it up."
"Oh no!" Emma said to herself. "I feel so bad! And she was right: I shouldn't have talked to Maud like that. Sure, she didn't have to act so superior, but I shouldn't have laughed at her. I'm going to find both girls after dinner and apologize."
And Emma, who, as I have said, was really trying to serve her Master, folded her hands and said a little silent prayer for forgiveness and help to do better another time.
And Emma, who, as I mentioned, was genuinely trying to serve her Master, folded her hands and said a quiet prayer for forgiveness and help to do better next time.
It would have been well for Amity if she had done the same. But she did not. She only thought how unkind Emma had been, and how careless and thoughtless she was. And then she began to think about what Maud had said, and to wonder whether Mrs. Franklin and Johnny were really as grateful as they ought to be for her kindness to them.
It would have been better for Amity if she had done the same. But she didn’t. She only thought about how unkind Emma had been and how careless and thoughtless she was. Then she started to think about what Maud had said and wondered whether Mrs. Franklin and Johnny were really as grateful as they should be for her kindness to them.
In fact, Amity had for some days been getting into a bad way. She had been thinking how much better it was to be good and useful (as she was) than to be handsome like Emma, or splendidly dressed like Maud, or to play the piano and sing like Jenny Barnard! How good it was in her to stay a whole hour with Johnny every morning, instead of running out to play! There is no more sure and certain way of becoming worse than other people than this of thinking how much better we are than other people.
In fact, Amity had been feeling pretty down for a few days. She had been reflecting on how much better it was to be good and helpful (like she was) than to be beautiful like Emma, or stylishly dressed like Maud, or to play the piano and sing like Jenny Barnard! How great it was of her to spend a whole hour with Johnny every morning instead of rushing out to play! There’s no quicker way to end up worse than others than by thinking about how much better we are than them.
Then it was such a grand idea, this of founding an institution like the lady Maud had spoken of. What should it be—an orphan asylum, or a hospital for children, or a school for idiots like Johnny? All that money would be hers when she was twenty-five, and the great place at Rockside, and the two grand houses in Fifth Avenue that Aunt Julia had shown her. Perhaps she might turn Rockside itself into an asylum, to be called "The Bogardus Institute"; or should she call it "Amity Park"? Yes, that would be the best; then, when people asked the meaning of the name, they would be told that it was the name of the young lady who had given all her fortune to found this noble charity. The last phrase pleased Amity very much, for it sounded like something she had read.
Then it was such a great idea to establish an institution like the one Lady Maud had talked about. What should it be—a home for orphans, a children's hospital, or a school for kids like Johnny? All that money would be hers when she turned twenty-five, along with the big place at Rockside and the two impressive houses on Fifth Avenue that Aunt Julia had shown her. Maybe she could turn Rockside itself into a home, calling it "The Bogardus Institute"; or should she name it "Amity Park"? Yes, that would be better; then, when people asked what the name meant, they would learn it was named after the young lady who gave her entire fortune to create this noble charity. The last part made Amity very happy because it sounded like something she had read.
The same evening Amity and Maud were standing together on the veranda. Amity had not seen Emma since their little tiff in the morning, but she had sought out Maud as soon as she returned from her afternoon ride with her grandfather.
The same evening, Amity and Maud were standing together on the porch. Amity hadn't seen Emma since their little argument in the morning, but she had looked for Maud as soon as she got back from her afternoon ride with her grandfather.
"Perhaps I can do her some good," she had said to herself. "At any rate, I ought to show her that I don't mean to insult her, like Emma."
"Maybe I can help her," she thought. "Anyway, I should show her that I don't intend to insult her, like Emma does."
If any one had told Amity that she wanted to show how much better she was than Emma, Amity would have denied with scorn that she ever thought of such a thing.
If anyone had told Amity that she wanted to prove she was better than Emma, Amity would have dismissively denied ever thinking that way.
As Maud and Amity were standing together, Emma came up to them, her cheeks very pink and her eyes looking brighter than usual, and a little as if the tears might be pretty near them.
As Maud and Amity stood together, Emma approached them, her cheeks flushed and her eyes shining more than usual, looking as if she might be on the verge of tears.
"Maud," said she, winking rather hard, "I am sorry I mimicked you this morning, and spoke so about your mother. Please forgive me."
"Maud," she said, winking a bit too fiercely, "I'm sorry I imitated you this morning and talked like that about your mom. Please forgive me."
Maud stared a moment, as if she did not quite understand Emma's meaning. Then she laughed, not mockingly, but quite good-humoredly.
Maud stared for a moment, as if she didn't quite get what Emma meant. Then she laughed, not in a mocking way, but in a genuinely cheerful manner.
"My! That wasn't anything," said she. "I had forgotten all about it, and I didn't care anyway. I say a great deal worse things than that myself, very often. I couldn't think what you meant at first."
"My! That wasn't anything," she said. "I completely forgot about it, and I didn't care anyway. I say much worse things than that all the time. I couldn't figure out what you meant at first."
"Then you are not angry?" said Emma.
"Then you're not mad?" Emma asked.
"No, not a bit. I am not so silly as that, I hope. I did not mind it at all and if I had, I should have got all over it by this time. I never can keep mad, if I try ever so hard. But anyhow, it is real sweet in you to come and say you are sorry—isn't it, Amity?"
"No, not at all. I’m not that foolish, I hope. I didn’t mind it at all, and if I had, I would have gotten over it by now. I can never stay mad, no matter how hard I try. But anyway, it's really sweet of you to come and say you're sorry—don't you think so, Amity?"
"It is better to take care and not say things one has to be sorry for," said Amity. Somehow she did not feel pleased at all with the turn things had taken.
"It’s better to be careful and not say things you’ll end up regretting," Amity said. She didn’t feel happy at all with how things had turned out.
Her remark did not make Emma's task any easier, but she had come to do her duty, and she did it.
Her comment didn’t make Emma’s job any easier, but she was there to fulfill her duty, and she did.
"And, Amity, I am sorry I laughed at you, and said you were like that horrid girl in the book. It was all true what you said, and I have been thinking about it ever since."
"And, Amity, I'm sorry I laughed at you and said you were like that awful girl in the book. Everything you said was true, and I've been thinking about it ever since."
"If you are sorry, of course that is all about it," answered Amity, coldly; "only, another time I hope you won't be so ready to snap one up, that's all."
"If you're sorry, then that's all that matters," Amity replied coldly. "Just, next time, I hope you won't be so quick to jump in, that's all."
"Well now, Amity, I call that mean," said Maud, as Emma went slowly away, and entered the house.
"Well now, Amity, I think that's really unkind," Maud said as Emma walked away slowly and went into the house.
"What is mean?"
"What does it mean?"
"Taking Emma up that way, when she said she was sorry. I am sure it is more than I would have done, after what you said, and I don't set myself up to be pious either. I sha'n't forget it in a hurry. How lovely she looked, didn't she?"
"Taking Emma that way when she said she was sorry. I'm sure that's more than I would have done after what you said, and I'm not pretending to be holier-than-thou either. I won't forget it anytime soon. She looked so lovely, didn't she?"
"Handsome is that handsome does," replied Amity, quoting her grandfather's proverb. "She just wanted to make a scene."
"Pretty is as pretty does," replied Amity, quoting her grandfather's saying. "She just wanted to cause a scene."
"Amity, for shame!" said Maud, who had a good disposition, and might have been a good girl if she had been taught. "I don't believe she ever thought of such a thing."
"Amity, how could you!" said Maud, who had a kind heart and could have been a good girl if she had received some guidance. "I really don't think she ever considered anything like that."
"Of course you know all about it," said Amity, tartly.
"Of course you know everything about it," Amity said sharply.
"I don't know anything about it, nor you either," returned Maud. "You can't see inside of Emma's heart any more than I can. You know what we had in the Bible lesson only last Sunday—'Judge not, that ye be not judged' (Matt. 7:1)."
"I don't know anything about it, and neither do you," Maud replied. "You can't see what's in Emma's heart any more than I can. Remember what we talked about in the Bible lesson just last Sunday—'Judge not, that you be not judged' (Matt. 7:1)."
"It doesn't mean such things," said Amity.
"It doesn't mean stuff like that," Amity said.
"What does it mean then? I don't pretend to be pious—sometimes I think I should like to be."
"What does that mean? I'm not trying to be holier-than-thou—sometimes I think I would like to be."
"Then why don't you?" asked Amity, contemplating her, and thinking that here was a nice opening for the "talk" she had prepared to give Maud.
"Then why don't you?" Amity asked, studying her, thinking this was a great opportunity for the "talk" she had planned to give Maud.
"Well, for several reasons. I wasn't brought up that way, for one thing; but if I were going to be pious, I would rather have Emma's kind than yours."
"Well, for several reasons. I wasn’t raised that way, for one thing; but if I were going to be religious, I would prefer Emma’s approach to yours."
The "talk" did not seem possible after this very outspoken remark.
The "talk" didn't seem possible after that bold comment.
And when Maud said, "I am going to find Emma," Amity did not try to keep her.
And when Maud said, "I'm going to find Emma," Amity didn't try to stop her.
CHAPTER FIFTH.
THE KNITTING FINISHED.
THE KNITTING IS DONE.
ALL that evening Amity staid by herself, thinking over the wonderful and glorious things she would do when she was grown-up, and had her fortune in her own hands. She had not been given to thinking very much about this fortune, and therefore it had hitherto done her no harm; for it is not money, but "the love of money," which "is the root of all evil." But now she was thinking of it, and that in one of the most undesirable ways in the world, for she was considering how she should spend it, not for the glory of God and the good of others, but to increase her own consequence in the eyes of the world.
That evening, Amity stayed by herself, thinking about all the amazing and glorious things she would do when she grew up and had control of her own future. She hadn’t really thought much about this future before, so it hadn’t caused her any trouble; after all, it’s not money itself, but "the love of money," that "is the root of all evil." But now she was focused on it in one of the worst possible ways, considering how she would spend it—not for the glory of God or the good of others, but to boost her own status in the eyes of the world.
The result was that she quite forgot the cotton and needles she had promised to buy for Johnny, and came near forgetting his lesson in the morning. She was so late in coming that Mrs. Franklin sent a messenger to know if she meant to give the lesson.
The result was that she completely forgot the cotton and needles she had promised to buy for Johnny and almost forgot his lesson in the morning. She was so late arriving that Mrs. Franklin sent a messenger to ask if she intended to give the lesson.
"Of course I do," answered Amity, so shortly that her grandfather looked over his spectacles. "I only wish I had said I would come every other morning."
"Of course I do," Amity replied, so briefly that her grandfather glanced over his glasses. "I just wish I had said I'd come every other morning."
"It might have been as well," remarked her grandfather; "but you cannot very well change the plan now you have begun, especially as we go away so soon. But don't waste any more time, for I want you to go over to Albany with me at half-past twelve to meet Aunt Julia, and it is after nine now."
"It might have been for the best," her grandfather said, "but you can’t really change the plan now that you’ve started, especially since we’re leaving so soon. But don’t waste any more time, because I want you to come to Albany with me at twelve-thirty to meet Aunt Julia, and it’s already past nine."
"I might miss the lesson for one morning," said Amity.
"I might skip the lesson for one morning," said Amity.
"No, no, don't do that: the poor little fellow will feel very much disappointed. And besides, a promise is a promise; remember that, little girl."
"No, no, don’t do that: the poor little guy will feel really let down. And besides, a promise is a promise; keep that in mind, little girl."
"I wish grandfather would not always call me a little girl, and before people too," said Amity to herself as she went along the hall and up the long stairs: "I am not such a baby as all that. And I don't see why he should care so much more for Johnny's comfort than mine. I do think, as Mrs. Wickford says, it is taking a great deal out of me to expect me to spend an hour every day with that poor little idiot."
"I wish Grandpa wouldn't always call me a little girl, especially in front of other people," Amity thought to herself as she walked down the hallway and up the long stairs. "I'm not a baby anymore. I don’t understand why he cares so much more about Johnny's comfort than mine. I really think, like Mrs. Wickford says, that it's a lot to expect me to spend an hour every day with that poor little idiot."
Johnny was looking out for Amity, and his first eager words were, "Have you got the cotton, Amity?"
Johnny was on the lookout for Amity, and his first excited words were, "Do you have the cotton, Amity?"
Amity was vexed at her own forgetfulness, and seized the first excuse that came to her mind. Now excuses are very dangerous things to handle for people who wish to speak the exact truth.
Amity was frustrated with her own forgetfulness and grabbed onto the first excuse that popped into her head. Excuses can be really tricky for those who want to speak the absolute truth.
"I haven't got the cotton, Johnny, because I am going over to Albany to-day, and can get it so much better there."
"I don't have the cotton, Johnny, because I'm going to Albany today, and I can get it much better there."
Johnny's pale face flushed and his eyes filled with tears. Like other people of deficient mind, he was apt to set his heart very strongly on whatever was promised him. People who have the care of such persons cannot be too careful not to disappoint them.
Johnny's pale face turned red and his eyes filled with tears. Like others with limited understanding, he was likely to become very attached to whatever was promised to him. Those who take care of such individuals need to be extremely cautious not to let them down.
"But you said you would get it—you said you would!" he repeated piteously. "And now you haven't brought it at all!"
"But you said you would get it—you said you would!" he repeated sadly. "And now you haven't brought it at all!"
"Hush, Johnny; don't cry, my dear," said Mrs. Franklin: "you will make your head ache. Amity will get your cotton in Albany, and that will be a great deal nicer."
"Hush, Johnny; don’t cry, my dear," said Mrs. Franklin. "You’ll give yourself a headache. Amity will get your cotton in Albany, and that will be much nicer."
"Of course it will," said Amity, feeling both vexed and ashamed. "And besides, you will be able to knit a great deal better when you have had another lesson. We will begin the towels to-morrow."
"Of course it will," said Amity, feeling both annoyed and embarrassed. "Plus, you’ll be able to knit a lot better after another lesson. We’ll start the towels tomorrow."
"'To-morrow' never comes," said Johnny. "It is always to-day, all the time. I don't see the use of talking about 'to-morrow' when it never is 'to-morrow.'" *
"'Tomorrow' never comes," said Johnny. "It's always today, all the time. I don't see the point in talking about 'tomorrow' when it never is 'tomorrow.'"
* This remark was really made by a child like Johnny.
* This comment was actually made by a kid like Johnny.
"There is some truth in that," said Mrs. Franklin, smiling; then, in a low voice, she said to Amity, "Never mind—only don't disappoint him again. It is so hard to divert his mind from anything he has set his heart on, and especially anything that has been promised him."
"There is some truth to that," Mrs. Franklin said with a smile; then, in a low voice, she told Amity, "Never mind—just don't let him down again. It's really hard to change his mind about anything he's really wanting, especially if he's been promised it."
"Well, come, Johnny, if you want to knit; I haven't any time to spare," said Amity, not in the pleasantest tone in the world. "Take care! You will have all your stitches off."
"Well, come on, Johnny, if you want to knit; I don't have any time to waste," said Amity, not in the friendliest tone. "Watch out! You're going to drop all your stitches."
The sharp warning, as often happens brought on the very trouble it was meant to prevent. Johnny started nervously, and out came the needle. Johnny was not as well as usual, and he was already nervous and excited with waiting and with his disappointment. He dropped the work and began to cry.
The harsh warning, as often happens, caused the very trouble it was meant to prevent. Johnny flinched, and the needle slipped out. He wasn't feeling like himself and was already anxious and upset from waiting and his disappointment. He dropped his work and started to cry.
"There now, don't cry," said Amity. "I will pick up the stitches, and you must be more careful another time. But do stop crying first of all!" she added, more sharply still, as Johnny sobbed. "I won't touch the work till you do. There is no earthly use in your being such a baby. Hush now!"
"There, there, don’t cry," Amity said. "I’ll take care of the stitches, but you need to be more careful next time. Just stop crying for now!" she added, a bit more sternly, as Johnny sobbed. "I won’t work on it until you do. It's no use being such a baby. Quiet down now!"
But for Johnny to stop crying when he once began was impossible, and the more Amity scolded him the more he cried. Till Mrs. Franklin, who had gone out, came back to find him utterly beside himself, sobbing and calling for "mamma" and "Aunty Franklin" by turns.
But it was impossible for Johnny to stop crying once he started, and the more Amity scolded him, the more he cried. Eventually, Mrs. Franklin, who had gone out, returned to find him completely distraught, sobbing and alternately calling for "mama" and "Aunty Franklin."
"You cannot do anything with him now," said Mrs. Franklin to Amity. "He will go on till he cries himself to sleep. I presume that will be the worst of it."
"You can't do anything with him right now," said Mrs. Franklin to Amity. "He'll just keep going until he cries himself to sleep. I guess that's the worst of it."
"I should think you would govern him, and not let him cry so," remarked Amity, vexed with herself, with Johnny, and everybody. "I don't believe it is any kindness to him to let him be so naughty and troublesome."
"I think you should manage him and not let him cry like that," Amity said, frustrated with herself, Johnny, and everyone else. "I really don't think it's kind to let him be so naughty and difficult."
"Johnny is neither naughty nor troublesome," answered Mrs. Franklin, a good deal annoyed, for she was very fond of her poor little charge. "He is very good considering how many hindrances he has. Pray, Miss Amity, how would you go to work to govern a child with spinal and heart disease?"
"Johnny is neither misbehaved nor a problem," Mrs. Franklin replied, quite annoyed, as she cared deeply for her poor little charge. "He's very well-behaved considering all the challenges he faces. Please, Miss Amity, how would you manage a child with spinal and heart issues?"
"Anyhow, there is no use in my trying to do any more this morning," said Amity, as Johnny's sobs grew worse and worse; "and I must get ready to go to Albany with grandfather. Good-by, Johnny. I will buy your cotton in Albany, and if you will be good and not cry, I will begin your work to-morrow."
"Anyway, there’s no point in me trying to do anything more this morning," said Amity, as Johnny's sobs became more intense; "and I have to get ready to go to Albany with grandpa. Bye, Johnny. I’ll buy your cotton in Albany, and if you’re good and don’t cry, I’ll start your work tomorrow."
"Now you must not talk to me, my dear," said Judge Bogardus, when they were safely seated in the drawing-room car; "I have a paper to look over." So saying, he took from his pocket one of those long written papers which Amity was learning to know by sight, and Amity was left to her own thoughts.
"Now you shouldn’t talk to me, my dear," said Judge Bogardus, once they were comfortably settled in the drawing-room car; "I have a document to review." With that, he pulled out one of those long papers that Amity was starting to recognize, leaving her to her own thoughts.
They were not very pleasant. Amity had been brought up to speak the truth and to consider a lie one of the worst of sins; and as she looked back over the events of the morning, she could not but see that the excuse she had made to Johnny about the cotton was a false one. She had never thought of buying the cotton in Albany till that minute. She had forgotten all about it. Moreover, she had been cross and unkind to Johnny, and pert to Mrs. Franklin. In short, she had behaved like anything but a Christian.
They weren't very nice. Amity had been raised to tell the truth and to see lying as one of the worst sins; as she reflected on the events of the morning, she couldn’t help but realize that the excuse she made to Johnny about the cotton was a lie. She hadn't even thought about buying the cotton in Albany until that moment. She had completely forgotten about it. On top of that, she had been rude and unkind to Johnny and sassy with Mrs. Franklin. In short, she had acted in every way but like a Christian.
"Well, I will buy his cotton, and that will make it true, and I will get him a pretty present beside. Let me see. I have four dollars that I meant for my sofa cushion like Mrs. Fairchild's, but the cushion can wait. I wonder if I could buy a little musical box for that. He would like it, I know, for he is so fond of music; and that would be giving up something, too, because I really want the cushion, and I shall not have any more money till next month. Yes, I will buy the music-box if I can find it, and if not, I will buy him a bird. That will do nicely."
"Okay, I'll buy his cotton, and that will make it official, and I’ll also get him a nice gift. Let me think. I have four dollars set aside for a sofa cushion like Mrs. Fairchild's, but I can wait on that. I wonder if I could find a little music box for him. He would really like that since he loves music; it would also mean giving up something for myself because I really want the cushion, and I won’t have any more money until next month. Yes, I’ll get the music box if I can find one, and if not, I’ll get him a bird. That would work well."
Amity felt quite good as she made mind to sacrifice her cushion to Johnny, and the good feeling lasted till late in the evening, when they took the last train for Saratoga. Aunt Julia had not come after all. They had waited for her to the last minute, and then received a telegram that she would not arrive for two days more. Amity was tired and hungry. The car was too dark to read, and grandpapa was too sleepy to talk; so she had nothing to do but to think.
Amity felt pretty good about deciding to give her cushion to Johnny, and that good feeling lasted until late in the evening when they took the last train to Saratoga. Aunt Julia hadn’t come after all. They had waited for her until the very last minute, and then they got a telegram saying she wouldn’t arrive for two more days. Amity was tired and hungry. The car was too dark to read, and grandpa was too sleepy to talk; so she had nothing to do but think.
She had found a very pretty music-box for four dollars, and she had bought the cotton and some pretty wooden needles for Johnny beside, but somehow she did not feel satisfied. The lie she had told stuck in her conscience. You know you sometimes get a "pricker" in your finger, and do not feel it for some hours or even days. Then it begins to throb and burn, and unless you can get it out, you will have a bad time with it. Amity's false excuse was like the thorn. It had been quiet for a while, but now it began to trouble her. Conscience would persist in calling it by its right name, and in telling her that she had been unkind and unfaithful to the poor little motherless, helpless child, and perhaps had done him more harm than she would ever do him good. She had a very uneasy feeling as she remembered what Mrs. Franklin said about "heart disease." What if Johnny should die?
She had found a really nice music box for four dollars, and she had also bought some cotton and pretty wooden needles for Johnny, but for some reason, she didn’t feel satisfied. The lie she had told weighed on her conscience. You know how sometimes you get a splinter in your finger and don’t feel it for hours or even days? Then it starts to throb and sting, and unless you can get it out, it can become a real problem. Amity's false excuse was like that splinter. It had been quiet for a while, but now it was bothering her. Her conscience kept reminding her what it really was, telling her that she had been unkind and unfaithful to the poor little motherless child, and maybe had done him more harm than good. She felt very uneasy as she remembered what Mrs. Franklin had said about "heart disease." What if Johnny died?
When a person has been brought up in the habit of listening to the voice of conscience, the habit is not easily broken up. That voice may be silenced or disregarded for a time, but in some interval of quiet it will make itself heard, and must be silenced a great many times before it ceases to speak whenever it has a chance. Now, as Amity sat in the quiet, half-lighted car, with nobody to talk to and nothing to look at but the lamps and the two or three gentlemen nodding in their chairs, her faults showed themselves to her in all their ugliness. She had been unkind to the poor, helpless little boy who loved her so dearly, she had broken a promise which she might just as well have kept, and she had told a lie to hide her own carelessness. Yes, a lie! She I called it by its right name now. She knew she could have bought the cotton in Saratoga just as well as in Albany, if she had not forgotten it.
When someone grows up listening to their conscience, it's not easy to ignore it later on. That inner voice might be quieted or overlooked for a while, but during moments of stillness, it will come back, and you’ll have to silence it many times before it stops speaking up completely. Now, as Amity sat in the dimly lit car, with no one to talk to and only the lamps and a few gentlemen dozing in their seats to look at, she began to see her faults in all their ugliness. She had been unkind to the poor, defenseless little boy who loved her so much, she had broken a promise she could have easily kept, and she had lied to cover up her own negligence. Yes, a lie! She called it what it was now. She realized she could have bought the cotton in Saratoga just as easily as in Albany if she hadn't forgotten it.
But Amity had not yet gotten quite to the root of the thorn. She felt ashamed and sorry for her faults, and honestly asked for forgiveness, and for help to do better. Then she began to think how she had fallen into such trouble.
But Amity hadn't quite figured out the core issue yet. She felt ashamed and regretful for her mistakes, and genuinely asked for forgiveness and help to improve. Then she started to think about how she had ended up in this situation.
"It seems strange it should have come from my wanting to help Johnny!" she said to herself.
"It feels odd that it all started because I wanted to help Johnny!" she said to herself.
And then, all at once, as if some one had held a mirror up to her, she saw herself as she really had been for some days. She had not been thinking nearly so much of helping Johnny as of showing off herself—of showing how good and self-sacrificing she was—so much better than Maud, who cared for nothing but her fine white frocks and colored silk stockings—than Emma, who cared for nothing but play. She had been thinking how much better it was to be good, as she was, than to be dressy like Maud or beautiful like Emma. She had taken pains to have every one know that she spent an hour after breakfast teaching the little boy to knit, and she had been greatly "set up" in her own good opinion when the ladies praised her.
And then, all of a sudden, as if someone had held a mirror up to her, she saw herself as she truly had been for the past few days. She hadn’t been thinking nearly as much about helping Johnny as she had about showing off—about demonstrating how good and self-sacrificing she was—so much better than Maud, who only cared about her nice white dresses and colorful silk stockings, and Emma, who only cared about playing. She had been convinced that it was so much better to be good, like she was, than to be fashionable like Maud or beautiful like Emma. She made sure everyone knew she spent an hour after breakfast teaching the little boy to knit, and she felt really proud of herself when the ladies praised her.
Then all those foolish dreams about setting up a hospital, and making her name famous—Amity could not think of them now without disgust. It had been her self—her own dear precious self—who was to be praised and glorified. Of her GOLDEN TEXT—of the motto which her friend Mrs. Paget had given her that day in the summer-house—she had never thought at all.
Then all those silly dreams about starting a hospital and making her name famous—Amity couldn't think of them now without feeling disgusted. It had been her self—her own dear, precious self—who was meant to be praised and celebrated. She had completely forgotten about her GOLDEN TEXT—the motto her friend Mrs. Paget had given her that day in the summer-house.
Amity buried her face in her hands, leaned her head against the side of the car, and cried bitterly. She had never been so ashamed and so unhappy in all her life.
Amity buried her face in her hands, leaned her head against the side of the car, and cried hard. She had never felt so ashamed and so unhappy in her entire life.
"I wish I had never seen Johnny! I wish I had never come to Saratoga at all!" was her first thought. "But then I dare say I should have been just as bad anywhere else!" was her second. And she began to remember other cases where she had done things "to be seen of men."
"I wish I had never met Johnny! I wish I had never come to Saratoga at all!" was her first thought. "But then I suppose I would have been just as bad anywhere else!" was her second. And she started to recall other times when she had done things "to impress others."
It was a very sad two hours that Amity passed in the parlor-car that night, but it Was one of the most profitable evenings of her whole life. They were very late in reaching Saratoga, and Amity went straight to her own room. She was very tired and sleepy, and her head ached with sight-seeing and with crying, but she did not go to bed till she had kneeled down and confessed all her sin to her heavenly Father, and asked forgiveness in his name whose blood "cleanseth us from all sin" (1 John 1:7). Then feeling somewhat comforted she lay down to sleep, after she had taken from her bag the presents she had bought for Johnny, and set them on her dressing-table.
Amity spent two very sad hours in the parlor car that night, but it was also one of the most meaningful evenings of her life. They arrived in Saratoga quite late, and Amity headed straight to her room. She felt exhausted and sleepy, with a headache from sightseeing and crying, but she didn't go to bed until she had knelt down to confess all her sins to her heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of the one whose blood "cleanses us from all sin" (1 John 1:7). Feeling somewhat comforted, she lay down to sleep after taking the gifts she had bought for Johnny out of her bag and placing them on her dressing table.
There was a good deal of moving about on the floor overhead, and once she thought she heard some one crying.
There was a lot of activity on the floor above, and once she thought she heard someone crying.
"I hope Johnny is not sick again!" she thought. "Poor dear little man! I will make it up to him somehow." And with this thought she fell asleep.
"I hope Johnny isn't sick again!" she thought. "Poor little guy! I'll make it up to him somehow." And with that thought, she fell asleep.
But Amity was to find, as so many other people have found, that it is not so easy to "make up." She slept rather late, and as soon as she was dressed, she took the little music-box which she had wound up, and the cotton, and went up to Johnny's room.
But Amity was about to discover, like so many others before her, that it’s not easy to "make up." She slept in a bit, and as soon as she got dressed, she grabbed the little music box she had wound up and the cotton, and went to Johnny's room.
"I will take the things to him directly," she thought; "then he can amuse himself with them, and as soon as I have done breakfast, I will give him his lesson."
"I'll take the things to him myself," she thought; "then he can entertain himself with them, and as soon as I finish breakfast, I'll give him his lesson."
As she came into the hall where Johnny lodged, she was surprised to see that the door was open, and that several people were standing about it, among them Mrs. Wickford, who held up her finger as Amity drew near. Maud was leaning against her mother, with her face hidden, but Amity could see that she was crying.
As she walked into the hall where Johnny was staying, she was surprised to see the door open and several people gathered around it, including Mrs. Wickford, who raised her finger as Amity approached. Maud was leaning against her mother, her face hidden, but Amity could tell she was crying.
"What is the matter?" asked Amity, in a half whisper. "Is Johnny worse?"
"What’s going on?" Amity asked, in a half-whisper. "Is Johnny doing worse?"
"Hush, my dear!" said Mrs. Wickford, in a low tone. "The poor little boy is very near the end of his troubles. He will not suffer much more."
"Hush, my dear!" Mrs. Wickford said softly. "The poor little boy is almost at the end of his troubles. He won’t have to suffer for much longer."
Amity looked into the open door. Johnny was sitting up in bed, supported by Mrs. Franklin. The doctor was on one side of the bed, and Mr. Gordon, a minister who was staying in the house, stood on the other, with a book in his hand, as if he had been reading or praying. Johnny seemed to breathe with difficulty, but his cheeks were a little red, and his eyes had dropped the kind of veil which usually covered them, and looked bright and clear, as Amity had never seen them before.
Amity looked through the open door. Johnny was propped up in bed, with Mrs. Franklin by his side. The doctor was on one side of the bed, while Mr. Gordon, a minister who was staying at the house, stood on the other side, holding a book, as if he had been reading or praying. Johnny appeared to be struggling to breathe, but his cheeks had a slight flush, and his eyes had lost the dullness that usually cloaked them, looking bright and clear in a way Amity had never seen before.
Mrs. Franklin was crying quietly, and Johnny put up his little hand and stroked her cheek, as he did when he wished to express affection. As he did so, his eyes fell on Amity, and he smiled brightly.
Mrs. Franklin was crying softly, and Johnny raised his little hand and gently stroked her cheek, just like he did when he wanted to show affection. As he did this, his eyes landed on Amity, and he smiled brightly.
"Come and speak to him, Amity," said Mrs. Franklin. "He has asked for you several times."
"Come and talk to him, Amity," said Mrs. Franklin. "He’s asked for you a few times."
As Amity drew near, and bent over to kiss the little boy, the music-box which she held in her hand began to play.
As Amity got close and leaned down to kiss the little boy, the music box in her hand started to play.
"What is that?" asked Johnny, in a whisper, but clearly and distinctly.
"What is that?" Johnny asked, whispering but clearly and distinctly.
"It is a music-box I brought you from Albany," said Amity, trying to speak calmly, though she felt as if she should choke. She held out to him the pretty toy, which was playing Beethoven's last waltz. Johnny took it in his hand and held it up to his face.
"It’s a music box I brought you from Albany," Amity said, trying to sound calm, even though she felt like she might choke. She offered him the pretty toy, which was playing Beethoven's last waltz. Johnny took it in his hand and held it up to his face.
"Pretty, pretty!" said he. And then, with a great effort, he added, "I was cross yesterday—I am sorry."
"Really pretty!" he said. Then, with a lot of effort, he added, "I was upset yesterday—I'm sorry."
"Don't, Johnny," said Amity, feeling as if this was more than she could bear. "It was I who was cross, not you. But I have got your cotton, and we will have a nice time knitting when you get better."
"Don't, Johnny," Amity said, feeling like this was more than she could handle. "It was me who was upset, not you. But I have your cotton, and we’ll have a great time knitting when you’re better."
"I shall never get better," said Johnny. "I am going to mamma, and I am glad." Then, looking at Mrs. Franklin, he added, "The watch—Amity—you said I might, you know."
"I'll never get better," said Johnny. "I'm going to Mom, and I'm okay with that." Then, looking at Mrs. Franklin, he added, "The watch—Amity—you said I could have, remember?"
Mrs. Franklin put her hand under the pillow and took out a pretty gold watch, which she gave to Johnny. Johnny laid it in Amity's hand.
Mrs. Franklin reached under the pillow and pulled out a beautiful gold watch, which she handed to Johnny. Johnny placed it in Amity's hand.
"It is yours—take it, Amity!"
"It's yours—take it, Amity!"
"It is his mother's watch," explained Mrs. Franklin. "He wants to give it to you."
"It’s his mom’s watch," Mrs. Franklin explained. "He wants to give it to you."
"Oh, I can't—I can't!" sobbed Amity, drawing back.
"Oh, I can't—I just can't!" cried Amity, pulling away.
Johnny looked troubled.
Johnny seemed worried.
"Take it, my dear—don't worry him," whispered the clergyman.
"Take it, my dear—don't stress him out," whispered the clergyman.
"Put it on," said Johnny, and he seemed pleased when she did so.
"Put it on," Johnny said, and he looked happy when she did.
He lay still a few minutes longer listening to the music-box. Then he suddenly raised himself and stretched out his arms.
He stayed still for a few more minutes, listening to the music box. Then he suddenly sat up and stretched out his arms.
"Mamma!" he exclaimed, joyfully, and then, sinking back with a gentle sigh, he was gone!
"Mom!" he shouted, happily, and then, leaning back with a soft sigh, he was gone!
That day's lesson was not lost on Amity, She had learned, by bitter experience, that it is not so easy to "make up" for unkindness and neglect. "That which is crooked cannot be made straight: and that which is wanting cannot be numbered" (Eccles. 1:15) or "made up."
That day's lesson wasn't wasted on Amity. She had learned, through painful experience, that it's not so simple to "make up" for unkindness and neglect. "What is crooked cannot be made straight: and what is lacking cannot be counted" (Eccles. 1:15) or "made up."
"I feel as if I had killed him!" she said, later in the day, as she stood by Johnny's bedside. "Perhaps if I had not made him cry, he might have been alive now!"
"I feel like I killed him!" she said later in the day as she stood by Johnny's bedside. "Maybe if I hadn't made him cry, he would still be alive now!"
"You must not feel so," replied Mrs. Franklin. "We have known for a long time that the poor child had but a little time to live. The doctor says it is a great wonder that he has lasted so long. He was not well yesterday morning, and that was the reason he cried so easily."
"You shouldn't feel that way," Mrs. Franklin replied. "We've known for a while that the poor kid doesn't have much time left. The doctor says it's a miracle he's lasted this long. He wasn't feeling well yesterday morning, and that's why he cried so easily."
"And Amity was good to him, wasn't she?" said Maud, who had just come in with a box of beautiful flowers.
"And Amity was good to him, right?" said Maud, who had just walked in with a box of beautiful flowers.
"Yes, she gave him a great many happy hours."
"Yes, she gave him a lot of joyful moments."
"I'm sure I wish I had ever done anything for him," continued Maud. "But I didn't. I wouldn't let him take my talking doll, and I called him 'an idiot.' Mrs. Franklin, won't you please take these flowers? I bought them with my own money. I felt as if I wanted to do something. I know one thing, anyhow," said Maud, as they walked away: "I never will call any one names again. I suppose we ought not to wish Johnny back, because he is a great deal better off; but I can't help wishing I could see him long enough to tell him how sorry I am."
"I'm sure I wish I had ever done anything for him," Maud said. "But I didn't. I wouldn't let him take my talking doll, and I called him 'an idiot.' Mrs. Franklin, could you please take these flowers? I bought them with my own money. I felt like I wanted to do something. I know one thing for sure," Maud said as they walked away, "I will never call anyone names again. I guess we shouldn't wish Johnny back because he's in a much better place, but I can't help wishing I could see him long enough to tell him how sorry I am."
"You will have to tell it to the Lord, as I did," said Amity, softly.
"You'll need to talk to the Lord about it, like I did," Amity said gently.
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"And what kind of a girl has Amity turned out?" asked Mrs. Paget of Miss Julia, when they met in Europe.
"And what kind of girl has Amity become?" asked Mrs. Paget of Miss Julia when they met in Europe.
Miss Julia, however, was not Miss Julia now. She was the wife of an American embassador. Mrs. Paget had been abroad for some years.
Miss Julia, however, was no longer Miss Julia. She was the wife of an American ambassador. Mrs. Paget had been overseas for several years.
"Amity! Oh, she is just the same homely little round-about thing she was at twelve years old. She has not changed at all."
"Amity! Oh, she’s still the same cute little round thing she was at twelve years old. She hasn’t changed at all."
"I did not think she would ever be handsome," remarked Mrs. Paget; "but how is she in other respects. Is she bright?"
"I never thought she would be attractive," said Mrs. Paget; "but what about her in other ways? Is she smart?"
"Why, I hardly know what to say. She is a good deal of a reader, and likes steady plodding work like mathematics. She is wonderfully industrious, too—always busy about something. She keeps house now, and really, for one so young, she manages uncommonly well. She is a great deal better at accounts than ever I was, and keeps the house cheerful and pleasant. Then she makes herself useful in the church—teaches in Sunday-school, looks after poor folks, and has a great sewing-class. She is always knitting babies' socks, or a shawl for some old woman, or a comforter for some urchin in her class. That is her style of fancy work."
"Honestly, I’m not sure what to say. She reads a lot and enjoys the steady work of subjects like math. She’s also incredibly hardworking—always involved in something. She runs the house now, and honestly, for someone so young, she does an amazing job. She’s much better at managing finances than I ever was, and she keeps the house bright and welcoming. Additionally, she contributes a lot at church—teaching Sunday school, helping those in need, and running a big sewing class. She’s constantly knitting baby socks, making shawls for elderly women, or crafting comforters for kids in her class. That’s her kind of creative work."
"She must keep herself pretty busy."
"She has to keep herself really busy."
"Oh, she does; but then she likes that sort of thing. To do her justice, she does not make any parade of her deeds, like some people I could name. She never seems to think of herself in connection with them."
"Oh, she does; but she enjoys that kind of thing. To give her credit, she doesn’t boast about her actions, unlike some people I could mention. She never seems to consider herself in relation to them."
"She must have made a very nice woman, by your description, Julia."
"By your description, Julia, she must have turned out to be a really nice woman."
"Oh yes, indeed she is. A more dutiful child than she is to father could not be. But she does not care at all for general society, and would rather stay at home and make babies' shoes than go to the best opera that ever was performed. In short, she is a good, honest, homely little body, but she will never make any figure in the world, with all her advantages. She really has no talent—none at all."
"Oh yes, she really is. She couldn't be more devoted to her father. But she has no interest in social life and would rather stay home and make baby shoes than attend the best opera ever performed. In short, she's a good, honest, down-to-earth person, but she will never stand out in the world, despite her advantages. She honestly has no talent—none at all."

"Phil's Pansies."—Frontispiece.
"If you please, Miss, these are yours," said Phil.
"Phil's Pansies."—Frontispiece.
"Excuse me, Miss, these are for you," Phil said.
A GOLDEN TEXT STORY.
A GOLDEN TEXT STORY.
BY
BY
LUCY ELLEN GUERNSEY
LUCY ELLEN GUERNSEY
AUTHOR OF
AUTHOR OF
"IRISH AMY," "OPPOSITE NEIGHBORS," "TWIN ROSES," ETC.
"IRISH AMY," "OPPOSITE NEIGHBORS," "TWIN ROSES," ETC.
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"Cast thy bread upon the waters: for thou shalt find it after many days."—
Eccles. 11:1.
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"Throw your bread out on the waters, and you’ll find it after many days."—
Eccles. 11:1.
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PHILADELPHIA:
PHILADELPHIA:
AMERICAN SUNDAY-SCHOOL UNION,
AMERICAN SUNDAY SCHOOL UNION,
NO. 1122 CHESTNUT STREET.
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NEW YORK: 8 & 10 BIBLE HOUSE, ASTOR PLACE.
CHICAGO: 73 RANDOLPH ST.
NO. 1122 CHESTNUT STREET.
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NEW YORK: 8 & 10 BIBLE HOUSE, ASTOR PLACE.
CHICAGO: 73 RANDOLPH ST.
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Entered according to Act of Congress, in the year 1880, by the
AMERICAN SUNDAY-SCHOOL UNION,
In the Office of the Librarian of Congress, at Washington.
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Entered under the Act of Congress, in the year 1880, by the
AMERICAN SUNDAY-SCHOOL UNION,
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PHIL'S PANSIES.
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PHIL'S PANSIES.
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CHAPTER FIRST.
THE SEEDS.
The Seeds.
MISS ISABEL had been taking great pains with her class that day. She had walked down to Sunday-school, more than a mile, in the rain to meet her scholars, and she was expecting to walk home again. She had spent much time in studying the lesson herself, and she had noted down some things which she hoped the boys would like to hear. The "Golden Text" of the lesson was this:
MISS ISABEL had been putting a lot of effort into her class that day. She had walked over a mile in the rain to get to Sunday school to meet her students, and she was planning to walk home again. She had spent a lot of time preparing the lesson for herself and had written down a few things she thought the boys would enjoy hearing. The "Golden Text" of the lesson was this:
"Cast thy bread upon the waters: for thou shall find it after many
days" (Eccles. 11:1).
"Throw your bread out onto the water; you will find it after many days" (Eccles. 11:1).
Miss Isabel had been telling the boys of the custom to which this verse referred, and of which, as it happened, none of them had ever heard. She told them how, in some parts of the world, there was very little rain, and the lands were watered by streams from some neighboring river or reservoir; how the farmers scattered their grain on the surface, and then, as the water sank into the ground, how the seed was buried and took root and grew; and so, after many days, the farmer found his "bread" again in the shape of ripe, waving grain, ready for the harvest.
Miss Isabel had been telling the boys about the custom that this verse referred to, and, as it turned out, none of them had ever heard of it. She explained how, in some parts of the world, there was very little rain, and the land was irrigated by streams from nearby rivers or reservoirs. She described how farmers scattered their seed on the surface, and then, as the water soaked into the ground, the seeds were buried, took root, and grew. After many days, the farmer would find his "bread" again in the form of ripe, swaying grain, ready for harvest.
You might think the boys would have been pleased to hear such a story as this, and that they would have listened and remembered, when she told them of what the seed cast on the waters was meant to represent; namely, the word of God, and the other means of doing good which he has placed in our hands, and which we must use at the right time and in the right way, even though our doing so should seem as hopeless work as throwing seed into the water.
You might think the boys would have been happy to hear a story like this, and that they would have listened and remembered when she explained what the seed thrown on the water was meant to represent; specifically, the word of God and the other ways of doing good that he has given us, which we must use at the right time and in the right way, even if it seems as hopeless as throwing seed into the water.
But Horace Maberly had his head full of a boating frolic, which he meant to tell the boys about after school, and Harry Merton was thinking whether his aunt meant to ask him home to dinner with her, and John Drayton was watching a wasp, and the others had their heads full of nothing but idleness,—all but one. Phil O'Connor listened with all his ears, and they were very large ones, and what was better with all his heart and soul; and when Miss Isabel stopped talking, he ventured to ask a question. It was the first time he had spoken a word in the class, and he was a good deal scared at the sound of his own voice, but he kept on:
But Horace Maberly was preoccupied with a boating adventure he planned to share with the boys after school, while Harry Merton wondered if his aunt would invite him over for dinner. John Drayton was focused on a wasp, and the others were caught up in their own thoughts of idleness—everyone except for one. Phil O'Connor listened intently, really tuning in with his big ears and, more importantly, with all his heart and soul. When Miss Isabel finished speaking, he took a chance and asked a question. It was the first time he had ever spoken up in class, and he was quite nervous hearing his own voice, but he continued on:
"Please, Miss Isabel, suppose you haven't any seed and no place to plant any?"
"Please, Miss Isabel, what if you don’t have any seeds and nowhere to plant them?"
The other boys stared at Phil, and Horace laughed rather rudely, but Miss Isabel turned to him with a smile. She had been feeling tired and sad, and it was a real pleasure to perceive that one of the class at least had listened.
The other boys looked at Phil, and Horace laughed rather disrespectfully, but Miss Isabel turned to him with a smile. She had been feeling tired and sad, and it was a true relief to see that at least one student had been paying attention.
"I don't think that ever happens, Phil," said she. "God gives every one of us some kind of seed to sow, and some kind of a place to sow it in. It may be a very small, narrow corner that we have to cultivate; but if we work faithfully at that he is sure to give us more. We can all speak kindly to some one, or give some one a little help, or take some hindrance out of their way. A very poor old man once gave a boy poorer than himself a pair of old shoes to wear, that the boy might go to church and Sunday-school. The shoes had holes in them. The old man was fond of his coffee for breakfast, but he went without a whole week that he might have the money to get the shoes mended. The boy went to Sunday-school, where he learned to read and love his Bible, and he afterward became a useful and learned Christian minister. That was a very little bit of seed—a pair of old shoes—and see what a great crop it bore."
"I don't think that ever happens, Phil," she said. "God gives each of us some kind of seed to plant and a place to plant it. It might be a very small, narrow space that we have to tend to; but if we work hard at that, He’s sure to give us more. We can all speak kindly to someone, offer a little help, or remove some obstacle from their path. A very poor old man once gave a boy who was even poorer than him a pair of old shoes so the boy could go to church and Sunday school. The shoes had holes in them. The old man loved his coffee for breakfast, but he went without it for a whole week so he could save money to get the shoes fixed. The boy went to Sunday school, where he learned to read and love his Bible, and he later became a helpful and educated Christian minister. That was a very small bit of seed—a pair of old shoes—and look at the great harvest it produced."
"And suppose the boy's mother had sold the shoes for whisky, as the woman did whose girl mother fixed up last winter, what would have become of the seed then?" asked Horace, in rather a sneering tone.
"And what if the boy's mother had sold the shoes for whiskey, like the woman whose daughter got fixed up last winter, what would have happened to the seed then?" asked Horace, in a somewhat mocking tone.
"Sure, 'twould have done the old gentleman himself good, anyhow!" answered Phil, eagerly. "Wouldn't it, Miss?"
"Sure, it would have done the old man some good, anyway!" answered Phil, eagerly. "Wouldn't it, Miss?"
"You are right, Phil," said Miss Isabel. "The Lord says that he who gives even a cup of cold water in his name shall in no wise lose his reward, and that we are to do good and lend, hoping for nothing again, and our reward shall be great in heaven."
"You’re right, Phil," Miss Isabel said. "The Lord says that whoever gives even a cup of cold water in His name will definitely not lose their reward, and that we should do good and lend, expecting nothing in return, and our reward will be great in heaven."
"A man wouldn't make much money that way, I guess," said Horace Maberly, who was taught at home that the chief good of life was money.
"A man probably wouldn't make much money that way," said Horace Maberly, who was raised with the belief that the main purpose of life was to accumulate wealth.
"I don't remember any place in the Bible where we are told that it is our duty to make a great deal of money do you?" asked Miss Isabel. "St. Paul says we are to be diligent and work with our hands, in order that we may be able to give to him that lacks, and also that we may not be burdensome to others, but we are nowhere told that it is our duty to be rich."
"I don’t recall anywhere in the Bible that says it’s our responsibility to make a lot of money, do you?" asked Miss Isabel. "St. Paul says we should be hardworking and use our hands so we can help those in need and not be a burden to others, but we’re never told that it’s our duty to be wealthy."
Horace looked a good deal vexed. In his home, money was the great thing thought about and talked about. His father had become very rich within a few years, and Horace thought himself a great person in consequence. He could not see how it was that Miss Isabel, whose own father was richer even than Mr. Maberly, should seem to care no more for him than she did for Harry Merton, or even for little Phil O'Connor.
Horace looked pretty annoyed. At home, money was the main topic of conversation and concern. His father had gotten very rich in just a few years, and Horace felt like a big deal because of it. He couldn’t understand why Miss Isabel, whose father was even wealthier than Mr. Maberly, seemed to care about him no more than she did about Harry Merton or even little Phil O'Connor.
"Well, I don't know what seed I can sow," said Phil, sighing.
"Well, I don't know what seeds I can plant," Phil said with a sigh.
"Think about it a little, and maybe you will find some," said Miss Isabel.
"Think about it for a bit, and maybe you'll find some," said Miss Isabel.
Just then the superintendent's bell rang, and the school was closed.
Just then, the superintendent's bell rang, and the school closed.
Phil did not stay to church, though he would have liked to do so. He remembered that probably granny was alone, and she might want something. His mother would be sure to be at home in the evening, and he could come down to the prayer meeting. It would be sowing a little bit of good seed, he thought, if he went and waited on granny, instead of leaving her alone all the morning.
Phil didn’t stick around for church, even though he wanted to. He remembered that his grandma was probably alone and might need something. His mom would definitely be home in the evening, and he could join the prayer meeting then. He thought it would be doing a little good if he went to check on his grandma instead of leaving her by herself all morning.
Phil had sown another seed of which he never thought. He had cheered up his teacher's heart, and given her new faith and courage. Here was at least one, Miss Isabel said to herself, who listened to what she said, and made an effort to understand it. The others had not seemed to care. She wondered what made the difference. They were all bright boys enough, and gave her very little trouble; but, somehow, they had no interest in the lessons. She could not make them see that the words they learned and recited had any relation to themselves. A very little excuse kept them away from school, and she was rather surprised at seeing so many of them together that rainy day. I think myself that they came to hear about the boating party which was to take place the next day.
Phil had planted another seed he never expected. He had lifted his teacher's spirits and given her new faith and courage. Here was at least one student, Miss Isabel thought to herself, who listened to what she said and made an effort to understand it. The others didn’t seem to care. She wondered what made the difference. They were all clever boys and didn’t give her much trouble, but somehow, they weren’t interested in the lessons. She couldn't make them see that the words they learned and recited had any connection to their lives. Even a small excuse was enough to keep them away from school, and she was quite surprised to see so many of them together on that rainy day. I think they came to hear about the boating party happening the next day.
Miss Isabel had for some time cast her bread upon the shallow or muddy waters of their minds with rather a heavy heart. She almost thought she would give up the class, and let some one else take it and try what could be done. But as she walked home in the rain that day—for the coachman was sick, and there was nobody at home who could drive—she felt her heart lighter, and she made up her mind to work and pray a while longer.
Miss Isabel had been putting her efforts into their minds for a while now with a heavy heart. She almost considered giving up the class and letting someone else take over to see what could be done. But as she walked home in the rain that day—since the coachman was sick and no one at home could drive—she felt her heart lighten, and she decided to work and pray a little longer.
Phil's father was dead, and his mother and he lived with his grandmother in "Irishtown." Irishtown was not pretty like the rest of Rockside and Brookvale, though it was built on the side of a rocky hill where there were evergreen trees, and a pretty little brook, and such beautiful views as many a rich man would give thousands of dollars for. The houses were rickety and dirty, with broken windows which were stuffed sometimes with rags or old hats. There were no gardens about them, and many of the people threw their slops and refuse out on the top of the ground to rot in the sun and poison the air, and breed showers of flies to torment the children and sick people. There were plenty of sheltered spots and hollows among the rocks where the sun shone, and the soil was fertile, and these refuse things might have been dug into the ground where they would have helped to raise vegetables and flowers; but nobody thought as far as that.
Phil's father was dead, and he and his mother lived with his grandmother in "Irishtown." Irishtown wasn't as nice as the rest of Rockside and Brookvale, even though it was built on the side of a rocky hill with evergreen trees, a lovely little brook, and stunning views that many wealthy people would pay thousands for. The houses were shaky and dirty, with broken windows sometimes stuffed with rags or old hats. There were no gardens around, and many residents tossed their waste and refuse out onto the ground to rot in the sun, polluting the air and creating swarms of flies that bothered the children and sick folks. There were plenty of sheltered spots and hollows among the rocks where the sun shone, and the soil was rich. These scraps could have been buried in the ground to help grow vegetables and flowers, but no one thought that far ahead.
Granny O'Connor could not be called poor, like many of her neighbors. She owned the land on which her house was built, instead of being a mere squatter on some other person's ground. She owned a cow, too, and a pig, and some chickens. She was too old and infirm to work herself, but her daughter-in-law, Phil's mother, went out washing five days in the week, and was well paid. Fanny, Phil's sister, had lately gone to a good place where she was to have a dollar a week, and more after a while if she made herself useful.
Granny O'Connor couldn't be considered poor, like many of her neighbors. She owned the land where her house stood, rather than just squatting on someone else's property. She also had a cow, a pig, and some chickens. She was too old and frail to work herself, but her daughter-in-law, Phil's mom, went out washing five days a week and earned decent money. Fanny, Phil's sister, had recently gotten a good job where she would make a dollar a week, with the possibility of more later if she proved herself useful.
Phil was the youngest of the family, and had never been set to any harder work than watching the cow as she fed in the lanes and by the roadsides, and feeding the pig. Sometimes he went to the places where his mother washed, and carried away the slops from the kitchens for the pig and cow; but his chief business was to wait on the cow and on granny, who was growing very feeble and helpless.
Phil was the youngest in the family and had never had to do any tougher work than watch the cow as she grazed in the lanes and by the roadsides and feed the pig. Sometimes he would go to the places where his mom did laundry and take the scraps from the kitchens for the pig and cow; but his main job was to look after the cow and his grandmother, who was becoming very weak and dependent.
As Phil had expected, he found granny alone, his mother having gone to gossip with some of her neighbors after being at mass in the morning. That was the way she kept Sunday. Granny had fallen asleep in her chair; the fire was nearly out; the ashes were scattered over the stove, hearth, and on the floor, and the room looked and felt forlorn and dismal. A few months before, Phil would not have minded these things, but he was learning how other people lived. When he went into the kitchens where his mother washed, and saw how neat and pleasant they were, he wished they could have things like that at home.
As Phil had expected, he found his grandma alone, since his mom had gone to chat with some of the neighbors after church in the morning. That was how she spent Sundays. Grandma had dozed off in her chair; the fire was almost out; ashes were spread over the stove, hearth, and floor, and the room looked and felt empty and gloomy. A few months ago, Phil wouldn’t have cared about these things, but he was learning how other people lived. When he went into the kitchens where his mom did the laundry and saw how tidy and inviting they were, he wished they could have that kind of atmosphere at home.
"It looks enough to break one's heart," said Phil to himself. "I might as well have stayed, after all."
"It looks like it could break your heart," Phil said to himself. "I might as well have stayed, after all."
And then he bethought himself that here was a chance for putting in practice of the things he had heard that morning. He found a broom, and swept up the floor and the hearth; made up the fire, and put on some water. When it was hot, he washed and put away the dirty dishes, which his mother had left standing, and would have left for a week if she had not happened to want them again, wiped off the table and the hearth—both with the same cloth—and put the room in the best order he could.
And then he realized that this was a chance to put into practice what he had heard that morning. He found a broom, swept the floor and the hearth, started the fire, and put on some water. When it was hot, he washed and put away the dirty dishes his mother had left out, which she would have left for a week if she hadn’t needed them again, wiped down the table and the hearth—with the same cloth—and tidied up the room as best as he could.
He then filled the tea-kettle, and set it on the stove, and began washing and paring some potatoes. Presently he saw that the old woman was awake and watching him. Granny was far more neat and economical than her daughter-in-law, and fretted not a little over the dirt and disorder she was too feeble to help, and therefore had to endure.
He filled the kettle with water, put it on the stove, and started washing and peeling some potatoes. Soon, he noticed that the old woman was awake and watching him. Granny was much tidier and more practical than her daughter-in-law, and she couldn't help but be troubled by the mess and chaos that she was too weak to fix, so she had to put up with it.
"Sure you're as handy as any girl, and better than most," said she. "You've made the place look as fine as a pin. But why didn't you stay to church, dear?"
"Sure, you’re just as skilled as any girl, and better than most," she said. "You’ve made the place look as nice as can be. But why didn’t you stay for church, dear?"
"I thought you might be alone and want me, granny."
"I thought you might be by yourself and want me, grandma."
"It's your granny's own boy you are!" said the old woman, fondly. "And did you have a good time at your school?"
"It's your grandma's own boy you are!" said the old woman, affectionately. "Did you have a good time at school?"
"Yes, granny, and Miss Isabel gave me a nice book to read. Just look at the pictures."
"Yeah, Grandma, and Miss Isabel gave me a cool book to read. Just check out the pictures."
"Miss Isabel? Sure, she's a good young lady entirely, and like the rale old gentry I used to work for at home. 'Tis a fine thing for you to have her for a teacher."
"Miss Isabel? Sure, she's a really nice young lady, just like the real old aristocrats I worked for back home. It's great that you have her as a teacher."
"I wish I could go to school week days again," said Phil, as he popped his potatoes into the pot. "I'm afraid I'll forget all that I learned."
"I wish I could go to school on weekdays again," said Phil, as he dropped his potatoes into the pot. "I'm worried I'll forget everything I learned."
"I'm thinking about that same myself," said granny.
"I'm thinking about that same thing myself," said granny.
"I don't see how I can, though," pursued Phil, still busy about his cooking. "What would we do about the cow?"
"I don't see how I can, though," Phil continued, still focused on his cooking. "What would we do about the cow?"
"Well, well, we'll see. Don't you fret. It'll all come round right. Sure, you're my own boy and all my comfort in life. It's myself and your father, that's in glory this minute, you take after, and not your mother's folks at all, at all. Them Mehans were always a shiftless set, not that I'm faulting your mother, dear. Considerin' her bringing up, she does wonderful; and she's kind to the old woman, too. But come now, sit down and read to me a bit out of the Bible. Them old ancient histories is wonderful entertaining."
"Well, let’s see how things go. Don’t worry. Everything will work out in the end. Of course, you’re my pride and joy and my greatest comfort in life. You take after me and your father, who are both in a better place right now, not at all like your mother's side of the family. The Mehans were always a bit lazy, not that I'm criticizing your mother, dear. Considering her upbringing, she does an amazing job; and she’s good to the old woman, too. But come on now, sit down and read to me for a bit from the Bible. Those old stories are really entertaining."
As Phil saw how pleased his granny was with his care for her, he felt as if one of his seeds had come up already. He was not quite sure that her way of looking at Scripture was the right one, but he was glad to get her to hear it at all. He turned to the history of Joseph, and read several chapters before his mother came home to dinner.
As Phil noticed how happy his grandma was with the way he took care of her, he felt like one of his seeds had already sprouted. He wasn't entirely convinced that her interpretation of Scripture was correct, but he was just happy to have her listen at all. He started reading the story of Joseph and went through several chapters before his mom came home for dinner.
CHAPTER SECOND.
SEEDS BY THE WAYSIDE.
SEEDS BY THE ROAD.
THE next morning when Phil waked, he heard what seemed to be a lively discussion going on down in the kitchen, which was also the parlor and dining-room.
THE next morning when Phil woke up, he heard what sounded like a lively discussion happening down in the kitchen, which also served as the parlor and dining room.
"Shure, the child's got learning enough for the likes of him already!" he heard his mother say. "Wasn't yourself saying yesterday he could read like a priest?"
"Sure, the kid has enough learning for someone like him already!" he heard his mother say. "Weren't you saying yesterday that he could read like a priest?"
"But he can't write, Mary—not to speak of. I'd like him to have a real good education, and you know, dear, it costs nothing with the free schools they have."
"But he can't write, Mary—not at all. I want him to get a really good education, and you know, dear, it's free with the public schools they have."
"Oh, well! Just as you like, granny dear," said easy-going Mary. "He's your own boy, and you can bring him up to suit yourself. It's a good boy he is, anyhow. But I must be start-in' out, or I'll be late at Mrs. Maberly's."
"Oh, sure! Whatever you want, grandma," said easy-going Mary. "He's your own boy, and you can raise him however you like. He's a good kid, anyway. But I have to get going, or I'll be late to Mrs. Maberly's."
Phil hurried down stairs, but his mother had already gone. She took her breakfast where she washed, but she had got ready some tea, milk, and potatoes for her mother-in-law and Phil, whom she loved, as she would have said, "with all the veins of her heart."
Phil rushed downstairs, but his mother was already gone. She had her breakfast where she washed, but she had prepared some tea, milk, and potatoes for her mother-in-law and Phil, whom she loved, as she would have said, "with all the veins of her heart."
With all the dirt and carelessness and waste of the household, there was more real love and comfort within its walls than in many a fine house kept in the best manner. But then, Mary might have been just as good-natured without leaving the potato parings in a heap on the floor by the stove, and her Sunday gown in another heap on a chair for the cat and kittens to make a bed of, spoiling it more than a year's careful wear and putting away would have done.
With all the mess and neglect and waste in the home, there was more genuine love and comfort inside those walls than in many fancy houses that were kept perfectly. But still, Mary could have been just as friendly without leaving the potato peels in a pile on the floor by the stove and her Sunday dress in another pile on a chair for the cat and kittens to use as a bed, ruining it more than a year's worth of careful use and storage would have done.
Phil, however, was used to his mother's heaps, and did not mind them. Granny did mind, but she could not help herself, and did not let her daughter-in-law's ways make her unhappy for more than a few minutes at a time. Phil hung up the gown, picked up the potato skins and gave them to the cow, and then sat down to breakfast. Looking at his grandmother as he gave her her cup of tea, he saw that she had been crying.
Phil was used to his mother’s mess and didn’t mind it. His grandmother did mind, but she couldn’t help it and wouldn’t let her daughter-in-law’s habits upset her for more than a few minutes. Phil hung up the gown, picked up the potato peels, and fed them to the cow before sitting down for breakfast. As he handed his grandmother her cup of tea, he noticed that she had been crying.
"Has anything happened, granny?" he asked.
"Has anything happened, Grandma?" he asked.
"No, dear; just nothing at all. I was thinking of old times, that's all. An old woman will have her thoughts."
"No, dear; just nothing really. I was reminiscing about the past, that's all. An old woman has her thoughts."
"You are sure it isn't anything else? Have your pains come on again? Shall I go to the doctor for some medicine?"
"Are you sure it’s nothing else? Are your pains acting up again? Should I go to the doctor for some medication?"
"Well, you might just take the bottle down if you like. It's well to have it on hand; and as you go step into Mrs. Barnard's, and tell Mr. Regan I'd like to speak to him if he can spare the time to come round."
"Well, you can just grab the bottle if you want. It's good to have it handy; and while you're at it, step into Mrs. Barnard's and let Mr. Regan know I'd like to talk to him if he has time to come over."
Phil made haste to finish his breakfast. He washed up the dishes, put the house to rights, and set within reach of granny's chair everything she was likely to want, that she might be spared the pain of moving. Then he washed his own face and hands, and "made himself decent" to go to the town.
Phil hurried to finish his breakfast. He cleaned the dishes, tidied up the house, and placed everything his grandma might need within her reach to spare her the trouble of getting up. Then he washed his face and hands and "got himself ready" to head into town.
He liked any business which took him down to Rockside, and he still better liked calling at Mrs. Barnard's. He was sure to meet the lady herself in her flower garden, and to have a kind word from her. He liked to walk down through the grounds, and peep through the windows of the green-house to see the strange and lovely flowers that grew there. All this was very pleasant.
He enjoyed any work that brought him to Rockside, and he especially liked stopping by Mrs. Barnard's place. He was always sure to find her in her flower garden, ready to share a kind word. He loved strolling through the grounds and looking through the greenhouse windows to see the unique and beautiful flowers that grew there. All of this was very enjoyable.
Phil did not think of being envious or unhappy because none of these fine things belonged to him. It seemed to him quite natural that some people should have fine houses and gardens, and others should live in tumble-down houses, as at Irishtown, and have no gardens at all. He did his errand at the doctor's first, to make sure of finding him at home.
Phil didn't feel envious or unhappy because none of these nice things were his. It seemed totally normal to him that some people had beautiful houses and gardens, while others lived in run-down places like Irishtown and had no gardens at all. He took care of his errand at the doctor's first, to make sure he would find him at home.
"Do you think granny will ever be well, sir?" he asked, when he had told the doctor just how granny was, and received directions to get the same medicine as before.
"Do you think grandma will ever get better, sir?" he asked after explaining to the doctor how grandma was doing and getting instructions to get the same medicine as before.
"Why, no, not well exactly," said the doctor, kindly. "You see granny is an old woman, and we can't make a mill to grind old people young again. But I presume that as the warm weather comes on, she will be much better, and be able to get about the house and out of doors once more."
"Well, not really," the doctor said kindly. "You see, grandma is getting old, and we can't turn back time for elderly people. But I think that as the warm weather arrives, she'll feel a lot better and be able to move around the house and outside again."
Cheered by these words, Phil turned toward home. As he drew near a pretty little cottage on the street where the doctor lived, he saw a young lady come to the gate and empty a quantity of little folded papers from the pocket of her linen gardening apron into the road.
Cheered by these words, Phil turned towards home. As he got close to a charming little cottage on the street where the doctor lived, he saw a young woman walk to the gate and dump a bunch of small folded papers from the pocket of her linen gardening apron onto the road.
As she went back into the house, Phil stopped and picked up some of the papers to see what they were. They turned out to be little bags which had once held flower seeds. The young lady had planted most of the seeds, but as Phil felt the papers, he found that almost every one had three or four seeds left in it, and one, marked on the outside "Viola tricolor," was quite full, though it had been opened like the others.
As she headed back inside the house, Phil paused to pick up some of the papers to see what they were. They turned out to be small bags that had once contained flower seeds. The young woman had planted most of the seeds, but as Phil felt the papers, he noticed that nearly all of them had three or four seeds left inside, and one, labeled on the outside "Viola tricolor," was quite full, even though it had been opened like the others.
"I wonder why did she throw that away?" said Phil to himself, as he stuffed the papers into his pocket and went on his way. "Maybe they wasn't a good kind. Anyhow, I mean to plant them and see what they turn out. There's the corner back of the cow-shed at the foot of the rock, where the wild flowers come out so early. There's a bit of a fence now, and I could mend it up with poles and things. Enough of those are lying round the place to fence an acre. I don't see why I shouldn't have a garden as well as any of them."
"I wonder why she threw that away?" Phil thought to himself as he stuffed the papers into his pocket and continued on his way. "Maybe they weren't good quality. Either way, I plan to plant them and see what happens. There's that corner behind the cow shed at the base of the rock where the wildflowers bloom so early. There's a bit of a fence there, and I could fix it up with poles and stuff. There are enough materials lying around to fence off an acre. I don't see why I shouldn't have a garden just like everyone else."
Phil's head was so full of his garden that he came near passing Mrs. Barnard's place without going in, but he recollected himself and hurried in at the gate. As he expected, Mrs. Barnard was at work among her flowers.
Phil was so focused on his garden that he almost walked past Mrs. Barnard's house without stopping, but he shook himself out of it and hurried through the gate. As he expected, Mrs. Barnard was busy tending to her flowers.
"Is that you, Phil?" she asked, pleasantly. "How is your granny?"
"Is that you, Phil?" she asked with a smile. "How's your grandma?"
Phil answered the question, and then asked for Mr. Regan.
Phil answered the question and then asked for Mr. Regan.
"Regan is in the green-house," was the answer; "you can go in and speak to him if you wish."
"Regan is in the greenhouse," was the reply; "you can go in and talk to him if you want."
This was a pleasure Phil did not expect, though he had often longed to find himself within those curious glass walls. It was with great delight that he breathed the warm, damp, spicy smell of the green-house, filled with geraniums, roses, and all sorts of plants, some of which, Phil thought, must have come straight from Fairy-land.
This was a pleasure Phil didn’t expect, even though he had often wished to be inside those intriguing glass walls. He felt great joy as he inhaled the warm, moist, spicy scent of the greenhouse, filled with geraniums, roses, and all kinds of plants, some of which Phil thought must have come straight from Fairy-land.
"I'll step round this evening," said Regan, when Phil had delivered his message. "Did she say what she wanted of me?"
"I'll come by this evening," Regan said after Phil delivered his message. "Did she say what she needed from me?"
"No, sir, only that she wanted to spake to you. What a beautiful place! Shure, I'd like to be a gardener like yourself, Mr. Regan!"
"No, sir, she just wanted to talk to you. What a beautiful place! I would love to be a gardener like you, Mr. Regan!"
"It's the sweetest trade and the wholesomest trade in the world, besides being the oldest," said Regan. "Adam was a gardener, you know."
"It's the sweetest job and the best job in the world, plus it's the oldest," Regan said. "Adam was a gardener, you know."
"Adam got into lots of trouble, though," said Phil.
"Adam got into a lot of trouble, though," said Phil.
"Yes, through keeping bad company, and not minding his work. You can stay and help me a bit if you like; I'm full of business this morning."
"Yeah, by hanging out with the wrong people and not focusing on his work. You can stick around and help me for a bit if you want; I've got a lot to do this morning."
Phil knew he could be spared for an hour longer at least, and the time passed very happily in handing Mr. Regan the large pots he wanted to use, and piling away the small ones.
Phil knew he could be free for at least another hour, and he spent the time happily handing Mr. Regan the large pots he needed and stacking away the smaller ones.
"You're a handy boy," said the gardener. "Here, you may have this fine red geranium to carry home if you like. Take care of it, and you'll have flowers all summer."
"You're a helpful kid," said the gardener. "Here, you can take this beautiful red geranium home if you want. Take good care of it, and you'll have flowers all summer."
Phil was delighted not only with the present but with the kindness, for Mr. Regan was a great man in his eyes. He ventured to ask a favor.
Phil was thrilled not just with the gift but also with the kindness, because he saw Mr. Regan as a great man. He took a chance and asked for a favor.
"Please, sir, would you tell me what kind of flowers these make?"
"Excuse me, sir, could you tell me what kind of flowers these produce?"
"Viola tricolor—Pansy," read Mr. Regan from the parcel Phil gave him. "Well, some of them are like this, and this," pointing out some plants growing in the cold frame outside the door. "There's a great many kinds of them. Where did you get them?"
"Viola tricolor—Pansy," Mr. Regan read from the package Phil handed him. "Well, some of them look like this, and this," he said, pointing to some plants growing in the cold frame outside the door. "There are so many different kinds of them. Where did you get them?"
"I found them in the street along with these others," said Phil, producing the rest of the parcels. "They've all got a few seeds in them, and I thought I'd try to plant them."
"I found them in the street with these others," Phil said, showing the rest of the packages. "They all have a few seeds in them, and I thought I'd give planting them a shot."
"Dig up your ground well and put in plenty of manure, not too new, and you're sure to have them grow, only be careful to make your soil fine enough. You get it ready and I'll take a look at it when I come round to-night, and show you how to plant the seeds."
"Prepare your soil thoroughly and add a good amount of manure, but not too fresh, and you'll definitely see them grow. Just make sure the soil is fine enough. You get it ready, and I'll check it out when I stop by tonight and show you how to plant the seeds."
"Granny," said Phil, when he had given his messages and the bottle of medicine, and told his grandmother how he had been employed, "can't I have a garden of my own? There's that warm bit behind the cowhouse, where the violets come so early. Why can't I dig it up and make a little garden?"
"Granny," Phil said after he delivered his messages and the bottle of medicine, and shared with his grandmother how he had been busy, "can’t I have my own garden? There’s that warm spot behind the barn where the violets bloom so early. Why can’t I dig it up and create a little garden?"
"There's nothing in life to hinder, if you want to do the work," answered granny. "Your father used to have a garden bit in that very spot, and raise radishes and what not. You'll find all his tools up in the garret if you want them. But the fence is all down, isn't it?"
"There's nothing stopping you if you want to put in the effort," replied Granny. "Your dad used to have a garden right here and grew radishes and other things. You'll find all his tools up in the attic if you need them. But the fence is all down, right?"
"Not so but I can mend it up again," said Phil. "I didn't mean a real garden though—only a bed for flowers and maybe some radishes or the like. I can dig up the ground and mend the fence and plant my seeds before it's time to take the cow out, and then they'll be growing while we're sleeping. Mr. Regan said he'd show me how to plant the seed. I'd like to be a gardener when I'm grown-up, granny. I think it is so nice all among the trees and plants; better than working in the dusty, woolly carpet factory, or in the hat factory among the dyestuffs and smells."
"Sure, I can fix it up again,” Phil said. “I didn’t mean a real garden, just a spot for flowers and maybe some radishes or something like that. I can dig up the soil, fix the fence, and plant my seeds before it’s time to take the cow out, and then they’ll grow while we’re sleeping. Mr. Regan said he’d show me how to plant the seeds. I’d love to be a gardener when I’m grown up, Granny. I think it’s really nice among the trees and plants; a lot better than working in the dusty carpet factory or in the hat factory with all the dyes and smells."
"Thrue for you, dear; I'd like it better for ye. Them factories isn't very healthy, they say."
"True for you, dear; I'd prefer it for you. They say those factories aren’t very healthy."
"And it's a good trade too," continued Phil. "Mr. Regan gets large wages I know, and Mrs. Barnard thinks everything of him."
"And it's a great deal too," Phil continued. "Mr. Regan earns a good salary, and Mrs. Barnard thinks highly of him."
"And well she may. There, go and dig in your garden if you like."
"And she definitely can. Go ahead and dig in your garden if you want."
"Granny's got something on her mind," thought Phil as he climbed to the garret where he slept, and turned over a great heap of mostly useless lumber to find the tools he wanted. "I wonder what it is. Here's the things at last—spade, rake, and hoe—good luck to me. I'll want the hatchet too, so I'd best take it along."
"Granny's got something on her mind," Phil thought as he climbed up to the attic where he slept, and sifted through a big pile of mostly useless wood to find the tools he needed. "I wonder what it is. Here are the things at last—spade, rake, and hoe—wish me luck. I’ll need the hatchet too, so I should grab it."
Phil would have liked to go at once to digging, but his own common sense told him that there would be no use in making a garden for the neighbors' pigs to run over, so he set to work on the fence first. It was hard, tiresome work for one not very large boy, and more than once he was tempted to give it up. But the thought of his flower seeds and of what Mr. Regan would say gave him courage. He only stopped long enough to cook his own and granny's dinner, and by night he had made a pretty good fence and dug up part of his ground. It was the hardest day's labor of his life, but he felt rewarded when Mr. Regan looked over his work and declared that he had made a very good beginning.
Phil wanted to start digging right away, but his common sense told him it wouldn’t make sense to create a garden for the neighbor's pigs to trample on, so he focused on building the fence first. It was tough, exhausting work for a boy his size, and he was tempted to quit more than once. But the thought of his flower seeds and what Mr. Regan would say gave him the motivation to keep going. He only took a break long enough to cook lunch for himself and his grandma, and by night, he had built a pretty solid fence and dug up part of his plot. It was the hardest day’s work of his life, but he felt a sense of accomplishment when Mr. Regan looked over his efforts and said he had made a great start.
"I'll give you a bit of a vine to run up on the rock here, and some morning-glories and scarlet beans. Oh! You'll have a fine garden if you take pains. But then you must remember that a garden is a thing that can't be just made and left. You've got to work at it every day, and pull up the weeds just as fast es they show themselves, or else they'll get ahead of you.
"I'll give you some vines to grow on the rock here, along with some morning glories and scarlet beans. Oh! You'll have a beautiful garden if you put in the effort. But keep in mind that a garden isn't something you can just plant and forget about. You've got to work on it every day and pull up the weeds as soon as they appear, or they'll take over."
"Well, Mrs. O'Connor, I've looked at the cow all over, and I think I can in conscience advise Mrs. Barnard to take her at the price. She is a nice creature, and we know the stock she comes of. I'll let you know in two or three days."
"Well, Mrs. O'Connor, I've checked out the cow thoroughly, and I feel that I can honestly recommend Mrs. Barnard to buy her at that price. She's a lovely animal, and we know her lineage. I'll get back to you in a couple of days."
"Why, granny, do you mean to sell the cow?" asked Phil, in great surprise.
"Why, grandma, are you really going to sell the cow?" Phil asked, quite surprised.
He knew how much granny thought of Crummie, and with how much reason. Crummie was a nearly pure-blooded Jersey cow. Her mother had been given to granny many years before by a lady whom she had nursed in a very bad fever, and was of the best breed. Crummie might have been sold many times over, but granny had always refused to part with her.
He knew how much his grandma thought of Crummie, and she had every reason to. Crummie was almost a purebred Jersey cow. Her mother had been given to grandma many years ago by a woman she had cared for during a severe fever, and was of the best breed. Crummie could have been sold many times, but grandma had always refused to let her go.
"Well, yes, dear, I think I will," said granny. "You see what with me being helpless and your mother away all day, the poor thing don't get the best of care, and our milk customers is mostly fell off. I sha'n't be here long, anyhow, and I'd rather know she had a good home with a kind lady like Mrs. Barnard, than think she'd maybe grow old or go dry, and then be sold to a drover. And, besides, if there's no cow to tend, what will hinder your going to school? But don't you say a word till we see what the lady says. I don't want this one and that one coming and talking to me about it."
"Well, yes, dear, I think I will," said grandma. "You see, since I'm helpless and your mom is gone all day, the poor thing isn’t getting the best care, and most of our milk customers have stopped coming. I won’t be around much longer anyway, and I’d rather know she has a good home with a kind lady like Mrs. Barnard than worry she might get old or dry up and then be sold to a livestock dealer. And besides, if there’s no cow to take care of, what’s stopping you from going to school? But don’t say a word until we see what the lady says. I don’t want all sorts of people coming to talk to me about it."
"But if you feel so bad about it," said Phil, seeing granny wipe her eyes.
"But if you feel so bad about it," Phil said, noticing his grandma wiping her eyes.
"Oh, never mind that, my dear. I'd be hard-hearted not to feel bad for the poor creature that I brought up from a baby, as I might say. But she'll be real well off with Mrs. Barnard."
"Oh, forget about that, my dear. I'd have to be heartless not to feel sorry for the poor thing that I raised from a baby, as I might say. But she'll be really well taken care of with Mrs. Barnard."
"She'll have an elegant stable," said Phil. "Their barn is nicer than many houses, and as neat as a new pin."
"She'll have a classy barn," Phil said. "Their stable is nicer than a lot of homes and as tidy as a brand new pin."
"It isn't the elegant stable I'm thinking of," said granny. "The Maberlys have got that and more, and it's not to them I'd be selling a cow of mine. It's the care and the kindness, and not the fineness, that makes cows happy as well as children. Come, get your book and read me a bit to cheer me up a little before I go to bed."
"It’s not the fancy stable I’m thinking of,” Grandma said. “The Maberlys have that and more, and I wouldn’t sell them one of my cows. It’s the care and kindness, not the luxury, that makes cows happy, just like it does with children. Come on, grab your book and read me a little to lift my spirits before I go to sleep."
CHAPTER THIRD.
THE WEEDS.
THE WEEDS.
IN two or three days' time the bargain was completed about the cow. Mrs. Barnard paid a good price for her, and Phil went with Mr. Regan, at his granny's desire, to put the money in the savings bank at Rockside. He was also allowed to lead Crummie to her new home, and give her her first meal in the fine cowhouse.
IN two or three days, the deal for the cow was finalized. Mrs. Barnard paid a fair price for her, and Phil went with Mr. Regan, at his grandmother's request, to deposit the money in the savings bank at Rockside. He was also allowed to lead Crummie to her new home and give her her first meal in the nice cowhouse.
The poor thing was very unhappy and homesick at first, and lowed so pitifully when Phil left her that he had to go into the barn and cry a little.
The poor thing was really unhappy and missing home at first, and mooed so sadly when Phil left her that he had to go into the barn and cry a little.
"Don't you grieve, little boy," said John, the coachman. "She'll soon be wonted and as happy as ever she was."
"Don't be sad, little boy," said John, the coachman. "She'll get used to it and be as happy as she was before."
"I know it," answered Phil, wiping away his tears; "but you see I've known her so long, and tended her every day since I was old enough."
"I know," Phil replied, wiping his tears. "But you see, I've known her for so long and I've taken care of her every day since I was old enough."
"And that's true, and I don't blame you for not liking to part with her. But look here, didn't I hear your granny was wanting a cat?"
"And that's true, and I don't blame you for not wanting to give her up. But come on, didn't I hear your grandma was looking for a cat?"
"Yes, sir. Our old gray died two or three days ago."
"Yes, sir. Our old gray horse passed away two or three days ago."
"Well, you may have your pick of these, or take two if you want them," said John, showing Phil an empty manger where some kittens by sleeping all coiled up in a warm, furry heap. "Maybe you'd better take two. They will be company for each other, and you can give one away when they grow older."
"Well, you can choose any of these, or take two if you’d like," said John, pointing to an empty manger where some kittens were sleeping all curled up in a warm, furry pile. "Maybe it’s a good idea to take two. They’ll keep each other company, and you can give one away when they get older."
Phil was delighted. He chose a tabby, and a black kit with a white nose and white feet.
Phil was thrilled. He picked a tabby and a black kitten with a white nose and white paws.
"When can I take them?" he asked.
"When can I take them?" he asked.
"Now, if you like. The cat has weaned them so they won't miss her. That is the way to have a nice, clean, useful cat, to let the mother bring them up herself."
"Now, if you want. The cat has weaned them, so they won't miss her. That's how to have a nice, clean, useful cat—by letting the mother raise them herself."
"Shure, it stands to reason she would know best," said Phil, admiring and stroking the kittens, while John hunted up a basket to put them in. "Won't granny be pleased though? She says the house don't seem like home without a cat in it."
"Sure, it makes sense that she would know best," said Phil, admiring and petting the kittens, while John looked for a basket to put them in. "Won't Grandma be happy though? She says the house doesn’t feel like home without a cat in it."
Granny was as much pleased as Phil had hoped she would be. The two kits soon made themselves at home, and were as happy and playful as possible.
Granny was just as pleased as Phil had hoped she would be. The two kittens quickly settled in and were as happy and playful as they could be.
It was now settled that Phil was to go to school, but he was obliged to wait till he could get some new clothes, his old ones being quite unfit. Even his Sunday suit was growing shabby, and it was decided that he should take this into every-day wear, while on Saturday his mother would go with him to the village and buy him an entire new suit with some of the money that had come from the sale of the cow.
It was agreed that Phil would go to school, but he had to wait until he got some new clothes because his old ones were completely worn out. Even his Sunday suit was looking shabby, so it was decided that he would wear it for everyday use, while on Saturday his mother would take him to the village to buy him a brand new suit with some of the money from the sale of the cow.
Meantime, Phil worked in his garden and got it all in nice order. He had seen how Mr. Regan planted his seeds, putting down a flower-pot to mark an exact ring, and then marking a little trench for the seeds more or less deep according to their size. He made the mould very fine and picked out all the stones, just as his friend had done; for Phil not only had bright eyes to see, but good brains behind them to think and remember.
In the meantime, Phil worked in his garden and got everything organized nicely. He had observed how Mr. Regan planted his seeds, using a flower pot to mark an exact circle, and then digging a small trench for the seeds, making it deeper or shallower depending on their size. He made the soil very fine and removed all the stones, just like his friend had done; because Phil not only had sharp eyes to see but also smart brains to think and remember.
He had at last sowed all his seeds, and stood, looking at the ground with great delight, when he was startled by hearing granny's voice. The old woman was getting better with the warm weather, as the doctor had said she would, and she had crept out, with the help of her cane, to see what Phil was about.
He had finally finished planting all his seeds and stood, looking at the ground with great delight, when he was startled by hearing his grandma's voice. The old woman was improving with the warm weather, just as the doctor had said she would, and she had made her way outside, using her cane, to check on what Phil was doing.
"It's a nice little garden you've made, dear. And what have you got planted in all these places?"
"It's a lovely little garden you've created, dear. What do you have planted in all these spots?"
"Flower seeds, granny—the seeds I picked up in the street, you know—and some morning-glories and scarlet runners that Mr. Regan gave me. This bed is the pansy seed. I'll have a lot of them, the bag was full."
"Flower seeds, Grandma—the seeds I found on the street, you know—and some morning glories and scarlet runners that Mr. Regan gave me. This bed is for the pansy seeds. I’ll have a ton of them; the bag was full."
"I'm not just clear about them seeds," said granny; "I mistrust you ought to have gone in and asked the young lady did she mean to throw them away."
"I'm not just sure about those seeds," said Granny. "I think you should have gone in and asked the young lady if she intended to throw them away."
Phil was a little vexed. He had "mistrusted" the same thing himself more than once; but then he wanted so very much to see what the flowers would be like.
Phil was a bit annoyed. He had "mistrusted" the same thing himself more than once; but he really wanted to see what the flowers would be like.
"Anyhow, we can't help it now, they are in the ground," said he. "Mr. Regan said maybe she didn't think they were a good kind. The gentlemen and ladies are very particular what they have in their gardens. Mr. Regan was looking at the daisies he had in a 'cold frame,' he called it, the day I was up to see the cow. There was a good many that had a little bit of yellow in the middle. I thought they were as pretty as any, but he said he should only plant out the double ones, and I might have as many of the others as I liked. I'm going down to get them this very day. Haven't I made the fence good and tight? I put that bush at the top so the chickens couldn't fly over. See, the morning-glories and runners are planted down here, so when they grow they can run all over it."
"Anyway, we can't change it now; they're in the ground," he said. "Mr. Regan mentioned that maybe she didn't think they were nice enough. People are really picky about what they have in their gardens. Mr. Regan was looking at the daisies he had in a 'cold frame,' as he called it, the day I went to see the cow. There were quite a few that had a bit of yellow in the middle. I thought they were as pretty as any, but he said he would only plant the double ones, and I could take as many of the others as I wanted. I'm going down to get them today. Haven't I made the fence strong and secure? I put that bush at the top so the chickens couldn't fly over. Look, the morning-glories and runners are planted down here, so when they grow, they can spread all over it."
"And that's a good plan too. But if you are going so far, you might step on to the village and get me some more medicine. The last did me a deal of good. There's fifty cents to pay for it, and you may have the change for yourself."
"And that's a great plan, too. But if you're going that far, you could stop by the village and grab me some more medicine. The last dose really helped. I've got fifty cents to pay for it, and you can keep the change for yourself."
Phil undertook the errand with a very good will. He left his basket at Mrs. Barnard's, and went down town. Mr. Ryan, the nurseryman, had just brought in a wagon load of blossoming plants, and Phil stopped to look at them. They were geraniums, verbenas, plants with red and yellow and dark brown leaves like velvet, and a great many more of what are called "bedding-out plants."
Phil happily took on the task. He dropped off his basket at Mrs. Barnard's and headed downtown. Mr. Ryan, the nurseryman, had just delivered a wagon full of blooming plants, and Phil paused to check them out. They were geraniums, verbenas, plants with red, yellow, and dark brown velvety leaves, and a lot more of what are known as "bedding plants."
A lady was also looking at the plants, and Phil listened with great interest to hear what she and Mr. Ryan were saying, as she took up one and another.
A woman was also looking at the plants, and Phil listened intently to what she and Mr. Ryan were saying as she picked up one after another.
"Are all these hardy?" asked the lady.
"Are all these tough?" asked the woman.
"Oh yes, ma'am. These are all bedding-out plants. This coleus is new, and one of the finest we have."
"Oh yes, ma'am. These are all bedding plants. This coleus is new and one of the best we have."
"How much do they cost?"
"What's the cost?"
"From a dollar to a dollar and a half a dozen," was the answer. "From twelve to fifteen cents each, if we sell them singly."
"From a dollar to a dollar fifty a dozen," was the answer. "From twelve to fifteen cents each, if we sell them individually."
The lady selected a few of the plants, saying she would look over her list and see what more she needed. She then asked for some flower seeds, and followed Mr. Ryan into the shop. Phil stood looking at the plants. Oh, if he could only have even one of those lovely velvety-leaved things! He knew just where he could set it, and how beautiful it would be all summer long, But fifteen cents! He had not so much in the world. Granny had said he might have the change from the fifty-cent piece, but that would be only five cents.
The woman picked out a few plants, saying she would review her list to see what else she needed. She then asked for some flower seeds and followed Mr. Ryan into the shop. Phil stood there, gazing at the plants. Oh, if only he could have just one of those beautiful, velvety-leaved ones! He knew exactly where he could place it and how stunning it would look all summer long. But fifteen cents! He didn't have that much to his name. Granny had said he could keep the change from the fifty-cent piece, but that would only be five cents.
Suppose he should not pay for the medicine. He knew Mr. Eddy, at the drug store, would trust him, because he had done so before when granny was so sick. Then he could buy two or three plants of various kinds. But what would granny say when she knew it? She was, as Mr. Regan said, "honest as daylight," and nothing vexed her so much as a debt. She had more than once scolded his mother for buying even such things as sugar and tea on credit, and had declared that she would sell her place and go to the hospital or almshouse sooner than run into debts which she might never be able to pay.
What if he didn’t pay for the medicine? He knew Mr. Eddy at the drug store would trust him, just like he had before when grandma was really sick. Then he could buy a couple of plants of different kinds. But what would grandma say if she found out? She was, as Mr. Regan said, "as honest as daylight," and nothing annoyed her more than being in debt. She had scolded his mom more than once for buying even small things like sugar and tea on credit, and she had said she would rather sell her house and go to the hospital or a nursing home than get into debts she might not be able to pay off.
"She need never know it!" whispered the tempter in Phil's ear. "You can earn the money somehow and pay the bill at the druggist's. You can save the money off your new clothes and pay it that way. You can tell her Mr. Regan gave you the plants."
"She never has to find out!" whispered the tempter in Phil's ear. "You can figure out a way to get the money and pay the bill at the pharmacy. You can save some cash from your new clothes and use that to pay. You can say Mr. Regan gave you the plants."
"She's sure to speak about it the first time she sees him," said Phil to the tempter.
"She's definitely going to talk about it the first time she sees him," Phil said to the tempter.
"She is old and forgetful," answered the tempter. "Come, you had better buy the plants now. They will be gone by Saturday perhaps, and then you will be sorry. Come, let us at least go in and ask the price. That can do no harm."
"She's old and forgetful," the tempter replied. "Come on, you should buy the plants now. They might be gone by Saturday, and then you’ll regret it. Let’s at least go inside and ask the price. It won’t hurt to check."
That is the way the tempter almost always acts. "That can do no harm," he says. "Let us just go a step further," and so he leads people on, till the way down hill grows so steep that they need no more leading, but run head-long down.
That’s how the tempter usually works. “This won’t hurt anything,” he says. “Let’s just take one more step,” and before they know it, he leads people on until the path downhill gets so steep that they no longer need any guidance, but just rush down headfirst.
Phil followed the tempter into Mr. Ryan's shop, and then all at once he saw who had been leading him, and what he had been going to do. What was it that opened his eyes so suddenly? Just the sight of Miss Isabel in her pretty gray dress and India striped shawl, the very dress she had worn on Sunday, buying seeds at the counter. Just the sight of her made Phil open the eyes of his conscience and see what he was going to do. What would Miss Isabel think? What would his heavenly Father think?
Phil followed the tempter into Mr. Ryan's shop, and then suddenly he realized who had been leading him and what his intentions were. What caused this sudden clarity? It was just the sight of Miss Isabel in her lovely gray dress and India striped shawl, the same outfit she had worn on Sunday, buying seeds at the counter. Just seeing her made Phil wake up to his conscience and understand what he was about to do. What would Miss Isabel think? What would his heavenly Father think?
"Miss Isabel won't know," said the tempter, making a last effort.
"Miss Isabel won't know," said the tempter, making one last push.
"But God will," said Phil, and then the tempter went away for that time.
"But God will," Phil said, and then the tempter left for now.
"Why, Philip, is this you?" said Miss Isabel kindly. "How do you do, and how is you grandmother this fine weather?"
"Why, Philip, is that you?" Miss Isabel asked kindly. "How are you, and how is your grandmother in this lovely weather?"
Phil answered her questions, and then yen. Lured to ask one for himself.
Phil answered her questions, and then he felt tempted to ask one for himself.
"Please, Miss Isabel, what kind of seeds can I buy for five cents that will make sweet-smelling flowers?"
"Please, Miss Isabel, what kind of seeds can I buy for five cents that will grow sweet-smelling flowers?"
"Why, let me see. You might have mignonette, or sweet alyssum, or sweet peas."
"Let me think. You could have mignonette, or sweet alyssum, or sweet peas."
"Is it sweet peas that are so many different colors—pink and white and purple?" asked Phil eagerly.
"Are sweet peas really available in so many different colors—pink, white, and purple?" Phil asked enthusiastically.
"The very same. I think you will like them best. Mr. Ryan, how many sweet peas can you afford to give this little boy for five cents?"
"The exact same. I think you'll like them the most. Mr. Ryan, how many sweet peas can you give this little boy for five cents?"
"Oh, quite a good handful," said Mr. Ryan, taking a little bag and filling it from a drawer that stood open. "There, that will make you a fine row, and very nice ones they are. Only if you want plenty of new flowers, you must keep cutting the old ones. Flowers mostly, madam, are like the riches of the man in the 'Pilgrim's Progress,' perhaps you remember:
"Oh, just the right amount," said Mr. Ryan, grabbing a small bag and filling it from an open drawer. "There, that should give you a great selection, and they’re very nice ones. Just remember, if you want lots of new flowers, you need to keep cutting the old ones. Flowers, madam, are mostly like the riches of the man in 'Pilgrim's Progress,' perhaps you recall:
"'A man there was, though some did count him mad,
The more he cast away, the more he had.'"
"'There was a man, though some thought he was crazy,
The more he gave away, the more he had.'"
"True," said Miss Isabel. "So you have a garden, Philip. I must come and see it some day."
"That's true," said Miss Isabel. "So you have a garden, Philip. I really need to come check it out sometime."
Phil paid for his seeds, and after buying his granny's medicine, he went on his way home. Perhaps you think the tempter let him alone after being defeated. Not at all. All the way home, he kept whispering, "How silly you were! You might just as well have bought the plants as not. Nobody would have known it." And Phil was just silly enough to listen to him, and let himself be put out of humor.
Phil paid for his seeds, and after getting his grandma's medicine, he headed home. You might think the tempter left him alone after being defeated. Not at all. All the way home, he kept whispering, "How foolish you were! You could have just bought the plants instead. Nobody would have known." And Phil was just foolish enough to listen to him and let himself get upset.
The daisies with which Mr. Regan filled his basket were just as pretty as they had been before, but somehow they looked like mean little weeds compared to the plants he had seen at Ryan's. He almost thought he would not set them out at all. He looked at the plants in the green-house and stopped to watch Mr. Anderson's gardener planting the odd-shaped flower beds in the lawn, and thought how small and rough his own little garden looked by the side of this grand place; why the very bed the gardener was filling with red geraniums was larger than his whole garden. What was the use of poor people trying to do anything?
The daisies that Mr. Regan filled his basket with were just as pretty as before, but somehow they seemed like scrappy little weeds compared to the plants he had seen at Ryan's. He almost thought he wouldn’t even bother to plant them. He looked at the plants in the greenhouse and paused to watch Mr. Anderson's gardener planting the uniquely shaped flower beds on the lawn, and realized how small and rough his own little garden appeared next to this impressive place; in fact, the very bed the gardener was filling with red geraniums was bigger than his entire garden. What was the point of poor people trying to do anything?
It was in a very bad humor that Phil arrived at home, and found granny sitting on the bench in the sunshine. She exclaimed over the daisies; they were just such as used to grow in the old country, she said, and the sight of them warmed her very heart.
Phil came home in a really bad mood and found his grandma sitting on the bench in the sunshine. She exclaimed about the daisies; they were just like the ones that used to grow in the old country, she said, and seeing them warmed her heart.
"'Twas very kind, entirely, to give them to you," said she.
"It was really kind of you to give them to him," she said.
"No such great kindness," answered Phil, rather shortly; "he was going to throw them away if I hadn't taken them. But I suppose they are good enough for poor folks."
"No great kindness," Phil replied somewhat curtly; "he was going to toss them if I hadn't taken them. But I guess they're good enough for people without much."
"It's likely they are, seeing who made them," answered the old woman, quietly. "Who did you see down town?"
"It's probably true, considering who created them," the old woman replied softly. "Who did you see in town?"
"Nobody but Miss Isabel. Has any one been here?"
"Nobody except Miss Isabel. Has anyone been here?"
"Yes, Horace Maberly. His mother wants Mary to go up and help the cook Saturday. It's a grand dinner they are to have."
"Yeah, it's Horace Maberly. His mom wants Mary to go help the cook on Saturday. They're having a fancy dinner."
"Just so she can't buy my new clothes!" said Phil. "It is just my luck. Everything goes wrong that I want to do."
"Just so she can't buy my new clothes!" said Phil. "It's just my luck. Everything I want to do goes wrong."
"Take care it isn't yourself that's going wrong," said granny. "It is in a bad humor you are this afternoon. What's happened to you?"
"Be careful that you're not the one at fault," said granny. "You're in a really bad mood this afternoon. What’s wrong with you?"
Phil turned away without reply, and taking up his basket went to his garden. As he turned round the corner of his house, he started and ran as fast as he could go. The little gate which he had contrived with so much pains and fastened with so much care was open. An old hen and a flock of chickens were scratching in the fine newly-turned dirt, and a white goat, which belonged to a neighbor, was just cropping off the head of his beautiful geranium.
Phil walked away without saying a word, grabbed his basket, and headed to his garden. As he rounded the corner of his house, he jumped back and ran as quickly as he could. The little gate that he had worked so hard to build and secure was wide open. An old hen and a group of chicks were pecking in the freshly-turned soil, and a white goat from a neighbor was just munching on the top of his beautiful geranium.
Now it is really one of the most vexatious things in the world to have a neighbor's hens come in and scratch up one's flower garden. I know, because I have tried it a great many times. Still I don't think Phil would have sworn as he did if he had not been listening to those whispers of the tempter all the morning. Nor would he have pounded the poor little nanny-goat, who did not know any better, with such a big stick; for he was very far from being a cruel boy, and he had not sworn for a long time before—not since he had been in Miss Isabel's class.
It's truly one of the most frustrating things in the world to have a neighbor's chickens come in and scratch up your flower garden. I know this from experience. Still, I don't think Phil would have cursed like he did if he hadn't been hearing those tempting thoughts all morning. Nor would he have hit the poor little nanny-goat, who didn't know any better, with such a large stick; he was far from being a cruel kid, and he hadn't cursed in a long time—not since he had been in Miss Isabel's class.
He drove the animals out, pelting them with stones, laming two or three of the poor little downy chicks, and killing one outright. It was this last act which brought him to his senses a little. He picked the chicken up and looked at it. The poor thing was not quite dead, and as he held it in his hand, it opened the little round eyes which had just been so bright, and looked at him as he thought with a glance of reproach, made a piteous little peeping noise, and then its eye grew dim and filmy, its little feet curled up—it was dead.
He chased the animals away, throwing stones at them, injuring two or three of the poor little fluffy chicks, and killing one outright. This last act snapped him back to reality a bit. He picked up the chicken and examined it. The poor thing was barely alive, and as he held it in his hand, it opened its little round eyes, which had just been so bright, and looked at him as if with a look of reproach, made a pitiful little peeping sound, and then its eye became dim and cloudy, its tiny feet curled up—it was dead.
Phil stopped swearing, sat down on a stone, and cried as if his heart would break—partly for the chicken, partly for his garden. He did not despise it any more. Now that it was spoiled as he thought, it seemed to him that nothing could be more precious than the little bit of ground on which he had worked so hard. And then he was so sorry for the chicken. How pretty it was, and how happy! It did not know that it was doing anything wrong, and now he had killed it. And he had hurt the poor little white nanny-goat too. It limped as it ran away. As if that would bring back his geranium!
Phil stopped cursing, sat down on a rock, and cried like his heart was breaking—partly for the chicken, partly for his garden. He didn’t hate it anymore. Now that it was ruined, it felt to him that nothing could be more valuable than the little piece of land he had worked so hard on. And then he felt so sorry for the chicken. It was so beautiful and so happy! It didn’t know it was doing anything wrong, and now he had killed it. He had hurt the poor little white nanny-goat too. It limped as it ran away. As if that would bring back his geranium!
"What is it, dear?" said granny. She had heard the noise, and hobbled round the house to see what was the matter, and was surprised and alarmed when she saw the state Phil was in.
"What is it, dear?" said Granny. She had heard the noise and hobbled around the house to see what was going on, and was surprised and alarmed when she saw the condition Phil was in.
"What's the matter, dear?" she repeated as Phil did not answer. "What has happened to make you cry so?"
"What's wrong, dear?" she asked again when Phil didn't respond. "What happened to make you cry like that?"
Phil pointed to the garden.
Phil pointed at the garden.
"Oh, what a pity! What is it that's done it—the chickens?"
"Oh, what a shame! What happened—did the chickens do it?"
"The chickens and that white goat of Ryan's," answered Phil. "But they couldn't have got in unless somebody had left the gate open."
"The chickens and that white goat of Ryan's," Phil replied. "But they couldn't have gotten in unless someone left the gate open."
"Maybe the goat opened it: they're full of cunning, them goats."
"Maybe the goat opened it: they're pretty clever, those goats."
"She couldn't," answered Phil. "It was fastened with a wire as tight as it could be. I don't see who would have done such a mean thing."
"She couldn't," Phil replied. "It was tied up with a wire as tight as possible. I don't understand who would do something so cruel."
"She's a troublesome beast, that same white goat," said granny. "I'd complain of her only she's all the dependence they have for the sickly baby that has no mother, poor thing! But there, don't cry." For Phil was crying harder than ever. "See, here's your best bed they haven't touched at all."
"She's a difficult creature, that same white goat," said grandma. "I'd complain about her, but she’s all they have for the sickly baby who doesn’t have a mother, poor thing! But there, don’t cry." For Phil was crying even harder. "Look, here’s your best bed they haven’t touched at all."
Phil looked. It was true. The pansies had quite escaped. That was some comfort. Perhaps they had not dug up quite all the seeds in the other beds, though they had thrown down the sticks with their labels, so that he would never know which was which. That did not matter so much if only the plants grew. But then his geranium! Nothing could help that.
Phil looked. It was true. The pansies had really escaped. That was somewhat comforting. Maybe they hadn’t dug up all the seeds in the other beds, even though they had tossed away the sticks with the labels, leaving him unsure about what was what. That wasn’t such a big deal if only the plants grew. But then his geranium! Nothing could save that.
"I may as well pull it up and throw it away," said he, when he had made all neat again and planted his sweet peas. "I can't bear to see the poor thing."
"I might as well pull it up and toss it away," he said, once he had tidied everything up and planted his sweet peas. "I can't stand to see the poor thing."
"I wouldn't," said granny, who had sat on a stone in the sun watching Phil at his work. "Maybe 'twill come out again. I've seen the gardeners cut them down as close as that, and they grew all the better. Just tread down the soil around it and give it some water. You mustn't be so easy discouraged, dear. Sure everything has hitches in it sometimes."
"I wouldn't," said Grandma, who had been sitting on a stone in the sun watching Phil work. "Maybe it will come back. I've seen gardeners cut them down that short, and they ended up growing even better. Just pack the soil around it and give it some water. You shouldn't get so easily discouraged, dear. Everything has its bumps sometimes."
"My things are all hitches I think," said Phil.
"My stuff is all messed up, I think," said Phil.
Granny did not reason with Phil just at that time. She saw that his heart was as full as it could hold, and she was a wise woman, though she could not read a word. There is a great deal of wisdom which does not of books. She coaxed Phil to go into the woods and see if he could not cut her a longer cane, as the end of hers was worn off.
Granny didn’t try to talk things over with Phil at that moment. She noticed that his heart was overflowing, and she was a wise woman, even though she couldn’t read. There's a lot of wisdom that doesn’t come from books. She encouraged Phil to head into the woods and see if he could cut her a longer cane since the end of hers was worn down.
"And maybe you'll find a pretty five-leaf vine to plant at the end of your garden and run up on the rocks. Not the three-leaved mind: that's poison, and will make your hands and face swell. And some of those brakes would look pretty growing in with your flowers."
"And maybe you'll come across a nice five-leaf vine to plant at the end of your garden and let it climb the rocks. Not the three-leaf one: that's poison and will make your hands and face swell. And some of those ferns would look great mixed in with your flowers."
"Mr. Regan has them I know," said Phil. "Well, granny, I'll get you your cane and the vine too, if I can find one. But it's no use: poor folks can't have anything."
"Mr. Regan has them, I know," Phil said. "Well, grandma, I'll get you your cane and the vine too, if I can find one. But it's pointless: poor people can't have anything."
"You just put that notion right out of head, Phil O'Connor," says granny severely, "It's envy makes you say that, and it's one of the devil's own weeds, worse than the three-leaved poison vine that spoils all it touches. Don't the poor have the blessed sunshine, and the sight of the trees and green fields, and all the fine things that God has made for all alike? Don't we have a roof over our heads, and plenty to eat and drink and wear? And don't you have the best of teaching on Sundays, and as good a chance to learn as anybody? Put all that out of your head if you don't want it to poison everything for you. It's an ill weed, and no plant of grace ever throve where it grew."
"You need to forget that idea right now, Phil O'Connor," Grandma says sternly. "It's jealousy that's making you think that, and it's one of the devil's own weeds, worse than poison ivy that ruins everything it touches. Don’t the poor have the warm sunshine, the beauty of trees and green fields, and all the wonderful things that God made for everyone? Don’t we have a roof over our heads, enough to eat and drink, and clothes to wear? And don’t you get the best lessons on Sundays, with just as good a chance to learn as anyone else? Let go of those thoughts if you don’t want them to ruin everything for you. It's a bad weed, and no good plant ever thrived where it grew."
CHAPTER FOURTH.
FLOWERS.
Flowers.
AS I said, granny was a wise woman, though she could not write her own name or read it when it was written. She knew that there was no use in talking to Phil while his mind was so worked up and troubled with the misfortune to his garden.
AS I said, grandma was a wise woman, even though she couldn’t write her own name or read it when it was written. She understood that it was pointless to talk to Phil while his mind was so agitated and bothered by the trouble with his garden.
"Sure it was enough to vex a saint," said she to herself, "but when the boy gets away from the sight of his trouble into the woods, and sees all the pretty things growing, he'll be diverted, and feel better, and then he'll be ready to hear reason. It's a real turn he has for the gardening, and as soon as he learns to write and gets a bit more learning in figures, I'll get Mr. Regan to look him up a place with some nurseryman or gardener where he can learn the trade—that's what we'll do. Pusheen!"
"Sure, it was enough to annoy anyone," she thought to herself, "but once the boy escapes his troubles and goes into the woods, seeing all the beautiful things growing, he'll be distracted and feel better, and then he'll be open to reason. He really has a knack for gardening, and as soon as he learns to write and picks up a bit more math, I'll get Mr. Regan to find him a job with a nursery or a gardener where he can learn the trade—that's the plan. Pusheen!"
Granny always talked to animals as if they could understand every word. Pusheen (that was the name of the tabby kitten) looked very wise and solemn for just about half a minute, and then made a dive after Silvertoe's tail. Silvertoe was the name of the black kitten, but Phil called her Tozy "for short."
Granny always talked to animals as if they understood every word. Pusheen (that was the name of the tabby kitten) looked very wise and serious for about half a minute, and then lunged after Silvertoe's tail. Silvertoe was the name of the black kitten, but Phil called her Tozy "for short."
Granny was right. Phil walked on pretty fast till he came to the woods. They were such woods as some of my little readers have never seen—steep and full of gray mossy ledges of rock which seemed to stand straight up on their edges like books in a bookcase, while here and there were piled great loose rocks as big as houses. On these grew little clumps of white flowers called rock saxifrage, and tufts of red and yellow columbines nodding their pretty heads with every breeze, and sprawling ugly prickly pears which were just beginning to get the winter wrinkles out of their faces and to look as pleasant as the poor things knew how.
Granny was right. Phil walked pretty quickly until he reached the woods. They were the kind of woods that some of my younger readers have never seen—steep and filled with gray mossy rock ledges that stood straight up like books in a bookcase, with huge loose rocks piled around as big as houses. Little clusters of white flowers called rock saxifrage grew on these, along with tufts of red and yellow columbines swaying gently with each breeze, and sprawled-out prickly pears that were just starting to remove their winter wrinkles and look as nice as they could manage.
The ground in some places was white with anemones, and in others blue with violets. The ferns were sticking up their curly frizzy heads, and long wreaths and sprays of the evergreen ferns were lying on the moss beds, all the prettier for the cold weather they had been through. Birds of different kinds were singing in the branches, and the cat-bird was making fun of them all.
The ground in some areas was white with anemones and in others blue with violets. The ferns were sticking up their curly frizzy heads, and long wreaths and sprays of evergreen ferns were lying on the moss beds, looking even prettier after the cold weather they had survived. Different kinds of birds were singing in the branches, and the catbird was mocking them all.
It was not easy for Phil to keep cross long at any time, and as he looked about him and breathed the sweet smell of the evergreens and other growing things, he almost forgot his troubles. "Almost," but not quite. He could not forget what wicked words he had used, nor how cruelly he had hurt the poor goat. He had a pain in his conscience, and that is the worst pain that I know anything about; but it has the advantage of other pains, because there is a cure for it which never fails.
It wasn't easy for Phil to stay mad for long, and as he looked around and inhaled the sweet scent of the evergreens and other plants, he nearly forgot his troubles. "Nearly," but not quite. He couldn’t erase the hurtful words he had said, or how badly he had treated the poor goat. He felt a pang of guilt, which is the worst kind of pain I know of; but it has the advantage over other pains because there’s a cure that always works.
Phil found a cane without any trouble, a very nice one with a natural crook for a handle. He knew that he might have it, for Mr. Anderson, to whom the woods belonged, had told him to get a cane for granny whenever she needed a new one. Then he began to look for a vine, which he also found without much trouble, for the woods were full of them. He dug it up carefully with as long a root as possible, and wrapped it in a paper which he had brought on purpose, that the roots need not get dry.
Phil easily found a cane, a really nice one with a natural crook for a handle. He remembered that he was allowed to take it because Mr. Anderson, the owner of the woods, had told him to get a cane for grandma whenever she needed a new one. Then he started searching for a vine, which he also found pretty easily since the woods were full of them. He carefully dug it up, making sure to get as long a root as possible, and wrapped it in a piece of paper he had brought specifically so the roots wouldn't dry out.
"What lovely flowers?" said he as he looked around him. "I mean to pick a good large bunch to take home. Granny always says it does her good to see them. And I will carry some to Matty Mehan too. Poor thing! She can't get away from the house and the baby for an hour's pleasure, let alone a day's."
"What beautiful flowers!" he said as he looked around. "I’m going to pick a big bunch to take home. Grandma always says it makes her happy to see them. And I’ll bring some to Matty Mehan too. Poor thing! She can’t get away from the house and the baby for even an hour of fun, let alone a whole day."
Now Matty Mehan was the owner of the goat which had eaten Phil's geranium. She was the oldest girl in a family of four children. Her mother was dead; her father was away at his work all day, and Matty had to do the housework, look after the little ones, and take care of the poor sickly baby, which had never thriven since its mother died. The poor thing was thin as a little skeleton, and cried till the neighbors were tired of hearing it.
Now Matty Mehan owned the goat that had eaten Phil's geranium. She was the oldest girl in a family of four kids. Her mother had passed away; her father was gone at work all day, and Matty had to handle the housework, watch over the little ones, and take care of the sickly baby, who had never thrived since its mother died. The poor thing was as thin as a little skeleton and cried until the neighbors were fed up with hearing it.
"It would be a good thing if the poor child were taken too," they said, but Matty did not think so.
"It would be a good idea if the poor kid came along too," they said, but Matty didn't think so.
She loved the little pale thin creature, that was hardly larger than a doll, though it was six months old, and she often wished she had nothing to do but to tend it. Bridget, her sister, was a good-natured little thing, but she was not old enough either to be trusted with the baby or to do the work. However, she helped Matty before and after school, and was always pleasant and good-natured, even when poor tired Matty was rather cross and unreasonable.
She loved the tiny, pale, thin creature, which was barely bigger than a doll, even though it was six months old, and she often wished she could do nothing but take care of it. Bridget, her sister, was a sweet little thing, but she wasn't old enough to be trusted with the baby or do the chores. Still, she helped Matty before and after school and was always cheerful and good-natured, even when poor tired Matty was a bit irritable and unreasonable.
When Phil came down to the Mehan house, which was more properly a shanty than a house, he found Matty at the door stroking the white goat, while it ate some beans out of a pail.
When Phil arrived at the Mehan place, which was more of a shanty than a proper house, he saw Matty at the door petting the white goat as it munched on some beans from a pail.
"Just see here, Phil, how somebody has hurt our goat," said she, before Phil had time to speak. "Isn't it a shame? I'm afraid her leg is broken."
"Look here, Phil, someone has hurt our goat," she said, before Phil could respond. "Isn't that terrible? I think her leg might be broken."
Phil felt his face turn scarlet as he bent down and carefully felt the goat's leg.
Phil felt his face flush as he bent down and gently touched the goat's leg.
"Oh no, it isn't broken," said he, trying to speak cheerfully. "I dare say it will be quite well in a few days. See what a fine bunch of flowers I have brought you."
"Oh no, it’s not broken," he said, trying to sound upbeat. "I bet it will be just fine in a few days. Look at this beautiful bunch of flowers I brought you."
"Oh how lovely!" exclaimed Matty, who loved flowers as well as did Phil himself. "But won't you rob yourself?"
"Oh how beautiful!" Matty exclaimed, who loved flowers just as much as Phil did. "But won't you take away from yourself?"
"I got them on purpose for you," said Phil. "I knew you couldn't get away. How's little Patsy?"
"I got them specifically for you," Phil said. "I knew you couldn't escape. How's little Patsy?"
"I think he's a little better, poor dear," said Matty, looking tenderly at the thin little mite. "He don't cry so much, and he eats more. I'm sure I don't know what we shall do if the goat gets sick, for he won't touch any milk but hers. I don't see who could be so wicked as to hurt her."
"I think he's doing a bit better, poor thing," said Matty, gazing affectionately at the small, frail child. "He doesn't cry as much, and he eats more. I really don't know what we would do if the goat got sick, because he won't drink any milk except hers. I can't imagine who could be so cruel as to hurt her."
All at once Phil resolved to make a clean breast of it.
All of a sudden, Phil decided to come clean about everything.
"Well, to tell you the truth, Matty, 'twas myself that did it, but I didn't mean to—"
"Well, to be honest with you, Matty, it was me who did it, but I didn't mean to—"
"Oh, Phil! How could you?"
"Oh, Phil! What were you thinking?"
"Well, you see, Mr. Regan gave me a fine geranium, and when I came home she was just eating off the head of it, and 'twas kind of provoking, you see."
"Well, you see, Mr. Regan gave me a nice geranium, and when I got home, she was just munching on the flower, and it was kind of annoying, you know."
"What made you leave the plant in the poor thing's way then?" said Matty. "You know 'tis the beast's nature to eat every such thing. And now I dare say she'll die," exclaimed Matty, bursting into tears, "and then my dear precious little Patsy will die too, and you'll be just a murderer, Phil O'Connor, as bad as King Herod that killed the innocents."
"What made you leave the plant in the poor thing's way then?" said Matty. "You know it's in the beast's nature to eat anything like that. And now I’m afraid she’ll die," Matty exclaimed, bursting into tears. "Then my dear precious little Patsy will die too, and you’ll be just a murderer, Phil O'Connor, as bad as King Herod who killed the innocents."
Phil felt that this was unreasonable in Matty. The goat was not much hurt after all, and not in the least likely to die; and even if she did, there was a good deal of difference between killing several little babies on purpose and hurting a troublesome goat more than one meant. But then Matty was tired, and anxious about poor Patsy, and it was no wonder she was cross when she never had a bit of real rest, much less fun, from one week's end to another. I say he felt this. We often feel in an instant things it would take a long time to think.
Phil thought Matty was being unreasonable. The goat wasn’t really hurt that badly and wasn’t likely to die; and even if she did, there was a big difference between intentionally killing several little babies and accidentally hurting a bothersome goat. But Matty was tired and worried about poor Patsy, so it was no surprise she was irritable, especially since she never got a moment of real rest, let alone any fun, week after week. I mean, he sensed this. We often pick up on feelings in an instant that would take a long time to analyze.
"Oh come, Matty dear, 'tisn't so bad as that," said he; "Nanny isn't going to die—she'll be as well as ever to-morrow. I'm real sorry I hurt her so, but then you see 'twas vexing to have my only flower eaten up as cool as if it had been an old stump of cabbage. Come now, let me take Patsy and carry him about a little. See how he puts out his arms to me, the dear. Yes, he will come to Phil, won't he?"
"Oh come on, Matty dear, it’s not that bad," he said. "Nanny isn’t going to die—she’ll be as good as new tomorrow. I really regret hurting her so much, but you know it was frustrating to have my only flower taken away like it was just an old cabbage stump. Now, let me take Patsy and carry him around for a bit. Look how he reaches out to me, the sweetheart. Yes, he’ll come to Phil, won’t he?"
Matty could not help relenting when she saw the poor baby stop its wailing, smile, and put out its hands to Phil, who took it carefully in his arms.
Matty couldn’t help but give in when she saw the poor baby stop crying, smile, and reach out its hands to Phil, who gently picked it up in his arms.
"I do believe he remembers you," said she. "I'll just put on the kettle for daddy's tea, and put my flowers in water, and then I must mend Bridget's frock decent for the sewing-school to-morrow."
"I really think he remembers you," she said. "I'll just put the kettle on for Dad's tea, and put my flowers in water, and then I need to fix Bridget's dress properly for sewing school tomorrow."
"I'll tend him while you do it," said Phil, whose heart began to feel a good deal lighter.
"I'll take care of him while you do that," Phil said, feeling a lot better inside.
He walked up and down, or sat on the seat by the door, crooning a song till the poor little baby fell fast asleep and had a good nap.
He paced back and forth or sat on the bench by the door, humming a tune until the poor little baby fell sound asleep and had a nice nap.
"Thank you ever so much; he'll be quiet now," said Matty. "Just lay him in his cradle. And, Phil, I'm sorry I said what I did."
"Thank you so much; he'll be quiet now," Matty said. "Just put him in his cradle. And, Phil, I'm sorry for what I said."
"Oh, never mind; it didn't signify," answered Phil. "Do you mean to go to Sunday-school?"
"Oh, never mind; it doesn't matter," replied Phil. "Are you planning to go to Sunday school?"
"I can't get away, but I learn my lessons all the same," said Matty. "'Tis a beautiful Golden Text we have this week: 'If God so loved us, we ought also to love one another' (1 John 4:11). He gave his Son to die for us, and that's the way we are to be saved. Well, good-by, Phil, and thank you for the flowers, and for tending Patsy."
"I can't escape, but I still learn my lessons," said Matty. "We have a beautiful Golden Text this week: 'If God loved us this much, we should also love each other' (1 John 4:11). He sent His Son to die for us, and that's how we are to be saved. Well, goodbye, Phil, and thanks for the flowers and for taking care of Patsy."
Phil planted his vines, and then went into the house, where he found his mother.
Phil planted his vines and then went into the house, where he found his mom.
"You've been gone a long time," said she.
"You've been gone for a while," she said.
"I went to carry Matty Mehan some flowers, and then stayed to tend Patsy a bit," said Phil.
"I went to bring Matty Mehan some flowers, and then stayed to help Patsy for a bit," said Phil.
"Oh well, you're right to help the poor thing when you can," said his mother, who with all her careless ways was very kindhearted. "I think I'll go up to-morrow when I've done our own washing and wash their bits of clothes for them. But now look on granny's bed and see what fine clothes I brought you from Mrs. Barnard's the day, as good as new, and better than any new you would get at the store."
"Oh well, you’re right to help the poor thing when you can," said his mom, who, despite her laid-back ways, was really kind-hearted. "I think I’ll go up tomorrow after I finish our own laundry and wash their little clothes for them. But now, look on granny’s bed and see what nice clothes I brought you from Mrs. Barnard’s the other day, as good as new, and better than anything new you’d get at the store."
Phil took up the clothes and looked at them one by one. There was an entire suit, good as new, and, as his mother said, of better fashion and material than any he could afford to buy.
Phil picked up the clothes and examined them one by one. There was a complete suit, practically new, and, as his mom said, of better style and quality than anything he could afford to buy.
"They look as if they'd just come out of the store," said he in wonder. "Why did she give them away?"
"They look like they just came out of the store," he said in amazement. "Why did she give them away?"
"She said Mr. Cornelius had outgrown them—he grows like a vine in the spring—and she told me herself she had saved them for Phil, because she had heard from Miss Isabel that he was such a good boy."
"She said Mr. Cornelius had outgrown them—he grows like a vine in the spring—and she told me herself that she saved them for Phil because she heard from Miss Isabel that he was such a good kid."
Phil blushed to the top of his hair as he thought, "Miss Isabel wouldn't say so if she knew how I had sworn at the chickens and hurt the goat, and how I wanted to steal granny's money. Oh dear, if only I hadn't done it!"
Phil blushed from his head to his toes as he thought, "Miss Isabel wouldn't say that if she knew how I had yelled at the chickens and hurt the goat, and how I wanted to steal grandma's money. Oh no, if only I hadn't done it!"
He tried on the clothes and found that they fitted very well. They were somewhat large, but that was a "good fault," as granny said, since he was growing very fast.
He tried on the clothes and found that they fit really well. They were a bit big, but that was a "good thing," as grandma said, since he was growing quickly.
"So now Phil is fixed for clothes," said granny, "and, Mary dear, you can take the money and buy yourself a new gown for summer."
"So now Phil has enough clothes," said granny, "and, Mary dear, you can take the money and buy yourself a new summer dress."
"Oh, I shall do very well a while yet," said Mary pleasantly. "You need one more than I do."
"Oh, I'll be just fine for a while longer," Mary said cheerfully. "You need it more than I do."
Phil finished his supper, did up all the chores, and paid a last visit to his garden to see that all was right. As he did so his eyes fell on something half buried in the soft mould. He took it up. It was a handsome pearl-handled knife, with several blades and a corkscrew, and on the handle was a silver plate with the letters H. M. Phil knew the knife, which he had often seen in Horace Maberly's hands. He had evidently used it in opening the gate.
Phil finished his dinner, took care of all the chores, and made one last trip to his garden to ensure everything was okay. While he was there, he noticed something half-buried in the soft soil. He picked it up. It was a beautiful pearl-handled knife, with several blades and a corkscrew, and the handle had a silver plate with the letters H. M. Phil recognized the knife, which he had seen many times in Horace Maberly's hands. He must have used it to open the gate.
So Horace had left the gate open. Phil's blood tingled with anger again, but he stamped his foot and clenched his teeth so that not a word came through. He put the knife in his pocket, and getting out his Bible, he sat down in his favorite corner to learn his Sunday-school lesson. He looked up the Golden Text, though he had it on his "lesson paper," for he liked to read the verses which came before and after. "Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another" (1 John 4:10, 11).
So Horace had left the gate open. Phil's blood boiled with anger again, but he stomped his foot and gritted his teeth so that not a word escaped. He put the knife in his pocket and took out his Bible, sitting down in his favorite corner to go over his Sunday school lesson. He looked up the Golden Text, even though he had it on his "lesson paper," because he liked to read the verses before and after. "Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another" (1 John 4:10, 11).
Phil did not know the exact meaning of all the long words, but he knew what Christ had come to do, to die for sinners that they might be saved. God loved us so well as that! And "if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another."
Phil didn’t know the exact meaning of all the long words, but he understood what Christ came to do: to die for sinners so that they could be saved. God loves us that much! And “if God loves us that way, we should love one another too.”
It is a very great thing when any person comes to know that God loves him—himself—despite all his faults and foolishness. It is too great a thing to put into any words of mine. It helps to make the hardest tasks easy and the heaviest burdens light, to conquer the worst sins and make us long to forgive those who have done us the most harm. And more than that, there is nothing which makes any one feel so little in his own eyes as the conviction that the great and wise and perfectly lovely God loves him.
It's an incredible thing when someone realizes that God loves them—just as they are—despite all their flaws and foolishness. It's too profound for me to capture in words. It makes the toughest tasks feel manageable and the heaviest burdens lighter, helps us overcome our worst sins, and inspires us to forgive those who have hurt us the most. More than anything, nothing makes someone feel as humble as the belief that the great, wise, and perfectly wonderful God loves them.
So Phil felt. Oh how wicked and ungrateful and stupid he had been! How he had taken that holy name in vain, and insulted that one who loved him, even him, all the time! Phil went away up into a dark corner among the rocks, where two great slabs had fallen together so as to make a kind of little cave, into which he could just squeeze himself, though there was plenty of room to turn round and sit down when he got in. It had been a favorite playing place of his, and he liked it all the better because nobody else seemed to know of it. He crept into this little cave and knelt down.
So Phil felt. Oh, how wicked, ungrateful, and stupid he had been! How he had taken that sacred name in vain and insulted the one who loved him all the time! Phil went away to a dark corner among the rocks, where two large slabs had fallen together to create a small cave. He could just squeeze himself in, though there was plenty of room to turn around and sit down once he was inside. It had been one of his favorite places to play, and he liked it even more because nobody else seemed to know about it. He crept into this little cave and knelt down.
There are, as you know, places on the railroad called switches, where two tracks come together. By means of a curious contrivance, a train of cars may be shifted from one track to the other. The two tracks are close together at first. You can hardly tell the difference. But the switchman puts down his lever, and the rail is moved a little tiny bit, and presently the train which would perhaps have gone to New York is flying toward Philadelphia, and the two tracks are growing farther and farther apart all the time.
There are, as you know, spots on the railroad called switches, where two tracks meet. With an interesting mechanism, a train can be directed from one track to the other. The two tracks start out really close together. You can barely see the difference. But the switchman pulls down his lever, and the rail shifts just a tiny bit, and soon the train that might have headed to New York is speeding toward Philadelphia, with the two tracks getting further apart all the while.
There are just such places in people's lives. The lives which were going one way get what seems a very little push, and their whole course is altered. The life which might have gone right is turned wrong, and the life which seemed going to ruin is turned into the right track.
There are moments like this in people's lives. Lives that were heading in one direction get what seems like a small push, and their entire path changes. The life that could have gone well goes off course, while the life that seemed destined for failure finds its way back on track.
Phil had come to one of these switches this very afternoon. He had taken the right turn, and his whole life was going to be made the better by it.
Phil had arrived at one of these crossroads that afternoon. He took the right turn, and his whole life was about to improve because of it.
CHAPTER FIFTH.
THE FRUIT.
THE FRUIT.
ON Sunday morning Phil set out for school dressed in his new clothes, with a clean shirt on, and his face and hair polished with extra care. He had his Bible in his hand, and in his pocket Horace Maberly's knife, which he meant to give him after school. He was quite early, and finding that nobody had come to church but the sexton, he chose a shady place behind the cedar hedge and sat down to look at his lesson once more. As he was thus sitting, he heard voices on the other side of the hedge.
ON Sunday morning, Phil set off for school wearing his new clothes, with a clean shirt on and his face and hair looking especially tidy. He held his Bible in one hand and had Horace Maberly's knife in his pocket, which he planned to give him after school. He arrived quite early and, noticing that the only person at church was the sexton, he picked a shady spot behind the cedar hedge and sat down to review his lesson again. While he was sitting there, he heard voices on the other side of the hedge.
"You ought to have heard him swear," said a voice which he knew to be Horace's. "The way he ripped out the big words! I only wish Miss Isabel had been there to hear her pattern boy."
"You should've heard him swear," said a voice he recognized as Horace's. "The way he tossed around those big words! I just wish Miss Isabel had been there to hear her perfect boy."
"And I wish she had been there to see you, and somebody else with a good thick boot on," said another voice, John Drayton's. "I never heard of a meaner trick in my life—to turn a goat into another boy's garden."
"And I wish she could have seen you, and someone else wearing a good thick boot," said another voice, John Drayton's. "I've never heard of a meaner trick in my life—to send a goat into another boy's garden."
"And a poor boy at that," said Henry Merton. "Phil thinks so much of flowers too. I've seen him go down on his knees and fairly worship a geranium or verbena."
"And a poor kid at that," said Henry Merton. "Phil really loves flowers too. I've seen him get down on his knees and practically worship a geranium or verbena."
"Garden—much of a garden! One of my father's hotbeds is bigger than the whole of it."
"Garden—what a garden! One of my dad's hotbeds is larger than the entire thing."
"What of that? It was all he had, and he thought all the more of it," said Harry, whose father was as rich as Mr. Maberly, and had beautiful grounds and gardens.
"What about that? It was all he had, and he thought even more of it," said Harry, whose dad was as wealthy as Mr. Maberly and had beautiful grounds and gardens.
"Well there, you needn't make such a fuss," said Horace, who began to be sorry he had said anything, when he saw what the other boys thought of him. "I'll pay the little beggar for it, only I don't want him to know I did it. Those people are so revengeful, he might set our barn on fire."
"Well, come on, you don’t have to make such a big deal," said Horace, starting to regret saying anything when he noticed what the other boys thought of him. "I’ll pay the little kid for it, I just don’t want him to find out it was me. Those people can be so vengeful, he might try to burn down our barn."
This was a little more than Phil could stand. He jumped up and went forward so as to meet the boys at the gate.
This was a bit more than Phil could handle. He stood up and walked ahead to meet the boys at the gate.
"Here's your knife, Horace," said he, holding out the knife and speaking quite steadily. "You dropped it in my garden, and I found it."
"Here’s your knife, Horace," he said, holding out the knife and speaking calmly. "You dropped it in my garden, and I found it."
Horace looked blank for a minute, and then broke into a sneering laugh.
Horace stared blankly for a moment, and then burst into a sarcastic laugh.
"Oh ho, Paddy! So you were listening, were you? Just like your sort of people. You needn't look so mad. Here's money enough to pay for your beggarly old garden ten times over."
"Oh, hey, Paddy! So you were eavesdropping, huh? Just like your kind. You don't have to look so angry. Here’s more than enough money to pay for your shabby old garden ten times over."
Phil dropped the bill which Horace had thrust into his hand, into a puddle which last night's rain had left at the gate, and walked into the church without a word.
Phil dropped the bill that Horace had shoved into his hand into a puddle left by last night's rain at the gate and walked into the church without saying a word.
"Served you right, you snob," said John.
"Serves you right, you snob," John said.
"Well, I think he might have taken the money, so long as he is not too proud to wear Neil Barnard's old clothes. I knew them the minute I saw them."
"Well, I think he might have taken the money, as long as he's not too proud to wear Neil Barnard's old clothes. I recognized them the second I saw them."
"It's one thing to take a present given in kindness, and another thing altogether to take it when it is thrown in your face," said Harry. "You think you can do just what you like because you are rich; but there are some things money won't buy. Poor as he is, Phil is a better gentleman than you are."
"It's one thing to accept a gift given out of kindness, and a completely different thing to accept it when it’s thrown back at you," Harry said. "You think you can do whatever you want just because you're wealthy, but there are some things money can't buy. As poor as he is, Phil is a better gentleman than you."
"See if I don't tell Miss Isabel of him, anyway," said Horace.
"Let’s see if I don't tell Miss Isabel about him, anyway," said Horace.
"Do, and I'll tell her of you. Come, boys, let's go into school."
"Do that, and I'll let her know about you. Come on, guys, let's head to school."
Phil was sitting quietly in his place When the boys went in. They all spoke kindly to him except Horace, who felt very mean and very angry.
Phil was sitting quietly in his spot when the boys came in. They all spoke kindly to him except for Horace, who felt really petty and really angry.
Horace had not had much chance to learn to be a good boy. He was the only son of a very foolish, uneducated father and mother, who spoiled him in every way, and made him think he was a person of very great consequence. Mr. and Mrs. Maberly thought and talked of nothing but money. They valued things for what they cost, and always told the price of everything to their visitors. It was quite natural, therefore, that Horace should do the same. Moreover, Horace had all his life been allowed to do any piece of mischief that came into his head; to torment cats, and dogs, and horses, and everything that fell in his way.
Horace hadn’t had much chance to learn how to be a good kid. He was the only son of very foolish, uneducated parents who spoiled him in every way and made him believe he was a person of great importance. Mr. and Mrs. Maberly thought and talked about nothing but money. They valued things based on their cost and always mentioned the price of everything to their guests. So, it was only natural that Horace would do the same. Additionally, Horace had been allowed to get away with any mischief that popped into his head for his whole life; he would torment cats, dogs, horses, and anything else that crossed his path.
"He had such spirits," his mother said, "and bright boys are always full of mischief—" a very great mistake, by the way.
"He was so full of life," his mother said, "and bright boys are always full of mischief—" a major misunderstanding, by the way.
But Mr. Maberly was at last beginning to think that Horace was rather too full of mischief, especially since he had utterly spoiled a valuable horse which he had taken out without leave and then wantonly and cruelly over-driven. The horse would never be good for anything again.
But Mr. Maberly was finally starting to think that Horace was a bit too mischievous, especially since he had completely ruined a valuable horse that he had taken out without permission and then recklessly and cruelly overworked. The horse would never be good for anything again.
"It is a dead loss of a thousand dollars," Mr. Maberly said to Horace, angrily. But he never uttered a word about the disobedience, nor about the cruelty to the horse.
"It’s a complete loss of a thousand dollars," Mr. Maberly said to Horace, angrily. But he never said a word about the disobedience or the cruelty to the horse.
Brought up in this way, it was perhaps no great wonder that Horace should think it good fun to let the goat and hens into Phil's garden, and then watch behind a rock to see what he would do and say.
Brought up this way, it was probably no surprise that Horace thought it would be entertaining to let the goat and hens into Phil's garden and then hide behind a rock to see what he would do and say.
Despite that Golden Text and the prayer behind the rock, Phil found it very hard to forgive. He felt that Horace had done him a wanton injury, and the way in which he had sought to pay for it only made matters worse. If Horace had only said he was sorry! But then it was plain to be seen he was not sorry. And yet he knew that he must forgive, or God would not forgive him.
Despite that Golden Text and the prayer behind the rock, Phil found it very difficult to forgive. He felt that Horace had hurt him for no good reason, and the way he tried to make up for it only made things worse. If Horace had just said he was sorry! But it was clear he wasn’t. Yet, he knew he had to forgive, or God wouldn’t forgive him.
"I mean to ask Miss Isabel after school," said he to himself, and this was in itself a victory, though Phil did not know it. It was a great thing for him to wish to forgive, and to try to find out the way to do so, for Phil, like almost all boys of his age, was very shy of talking about his feelings.
"I plan to ask Miss Isabel after school," he said to himself, and this was a victory in itself, even if Phil didn’t realize it. It was a big deal for him to want to forgive and to figure out how to do it, because Phil, like almost all boys his age, was really shy about discussing his feelings.
The lesson went on very pleasantly. The boys had all learned it, even including Horace, and Miss Isabel felt quite encouraged. Then came the Golden Text. Phil's voice trembled as he repeated it, and his eyes were moist.
The lesson went on very smoothly. The boys had all grasped it, even Horace, and Miss Isabel felt really motivated. Then came the Golden Text. Phil's voice shook as he recited it, and his eyes were watery.
"Miss Isabel, does it mean that we are to love real spiteful people?" asked Harry. "I don't see how we can."
"Miss Isabel, does that mean we should love truly spiteful people?" asked Harry. "I don't see how we can."
"What do you mean by spiteful, Harry?"
"What do you mean by being mean, Harry?"
"Well, just like this. Suppose I had a garden, and another boy should put a cow or a goat into it just to plague me, ought I to love such a boy as that?"
"Well, just like this. Suppose I had a garden, and another kid put a cow or a goat in it just to annoy me, should I love someone like that?"
"I should hope there were not many boys as bad as that," said Miss Isabel.
"I hope there aren't many boys that bad," said Miss Isabel.
Horace colored and dropped his eyes, and Harry got a glance from Phil that he did not quite understand. It was as if Phil were begging him with his eyes not to say any more.
Horace blushed and looked away, and Harry caught a glimpse from Phil that he couldn't fully grasp. It felt like Phil was silently urging him not to say anything else.
"Well, I knew of that very thing being done," said John.
"Well, I was aware that was happening," said John.
"You could not love such a boy as you would a good boy, it would not be right that you should," said Miss Isabel; "but you should forgive him, and try to do him a good turn if you get a chance. Turn over to Matthew 5:44, 45."
"You can't love a boy like that the way you would love a good boy; it wouldn't be right for you to do that," said Miss Isabel. "But you should forgive him and try to do something nice for him if you can. Turn to Matthew 5:44, 45."
Harry turned over and read:
Harry flipped over and read:
"'But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you,
do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully
use you, and persecute you; that ye may be the children of your Father
which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on
the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.'"
"'But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat and persecute you; so that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.'"
"You see that God is good, even to those who never think of him, or who blaspheme his name and disobey his laws. And if we ask him, he will give us his Spirit to make us like him. I think too, Harry, that when we once come to have a real sight of our own sins, we shall not think so much of other people's sins against us."
"You can see that God is good, even to those who ignore him, or who disrespect his name and break his laws. And if we ask him, he will give us his Spirit to help us become more like him. I also believe, Harry, that once we truly recognize our own sins, we won’t focus as much on the sins of others against us."
"But suppose you do try to forgive and think you have, and then something makes it all come up again?" asked Phil eagerly.
"But what if you try to forgive and think you have, but then something brings it all back up?" Phil asked eagerly.
"Yes; suppose the same fellow that spoiled garden should poke some money at you and say, 'There, there's enough to pay for your beggarly garden ten times over,'" said Harry, finishing his sentence in spite of Phil's beseeching looks. "What are you to do then?"
"Yes; imagine the same guy who messed up your garden decided to throw some money at you and said, 'Here, this is enough to pay for your pathetic garden ten times over,'" Harry said, continuing his sentence despite Phil's pleading looks. "What would you do then?"
"Then you must forgive again, and keep on forgiving every time the anger comes up," answered Miss Isabel. She saw that there was something going on which she did not understand, but she was too wise to ask any questions. "Weeding our hearts is like weeding a garden—you cannot do it all at once, but you must keep at it all summer long, every time a weed shows its head. But we must not talk any longer."
"Then you have to forgive again and keep forgiving every time the anger rears its head," Miss Isabel replied. She sensed that something was happening that she didn't grasp, but she was too wise to pry. "Weeding our hearts is like weeding a garden—you can’t do it all at once, but you have to keep at it all summer long, every time a weed pops up. But we shouldn't talk any longer."
"Didn't we make Hod Maberly squirm, though?" said Harry, as they were going home. "He was just in an agony for fear we should tell Miss Isabel."
"Didn't we make Hod Maberly uncomfortable, though?" said Harry as they were heading home. "He was just in so much pain worrying that we would tell Miss Isabel."
"I'm sorry, though," said Phil. "I'm afraid, he won't come any more."
"I'm sorry," Phil said. "I’m afraid he won't come back anymore."
"Suppose he don't, we sha'n't miss him much," said Harry, scornfully.
"Well, if he doesn't, we won't miss him much," Harry said, dismissively.
"No, but he will miss something," answered Phil.
"No, but he'll miss something," replied Phil.
"That's so," said John Drayton. "He don't get much that's good at home. His father don't believe in anything. If I had thought of that, I would have let him alone."
"That's true," said John Drayton. "He doesn't get much that's good at home. His father doesn't believe in anything. If I had thought of that, I would have left him alone."
"If I had thought of that!" how much mischief it would have saved all the world over. Phil was right. Horace did not come to Sunday-school again.
"If only I had thought of that!" what trouble it would have saved everyone. Phil was right. Horace didn't come back to Sunday school again.
Phil's garden grew and flourished all summer, and was the admiration of all the neighbors, though some of them wondered that he should take so much pains just for a parcel of flowers. If they had been potatoes now, or cabbages, they would have done some good. But granny said that the boy liked flowers and did the work, so he should plant what he pleased.
Phil's garden thrived all summer and became the envy of all the neighbors, even though some of them questioned why he put so much effort into just a patch of flowers. If it had been potatoes or cabbages, they might have seen more value in it. But grandma said that the boy liked flowers and was the one doing the work, so he should plant whatever he wanted.
The hens had scratched Phil's seeds about badly, nevertheless he had a good many flowers. There were two or three kinds of portulacas, some sweet alyssum, and various others. The sweet peas turned out famously, and so did the morning-glories. Phil used to get up every morning by sunrise to see the beautiful twisted buds pop open as soon as the sun touched them. This was his time for working in his garden.
The hens had really messed up Phil's seeds, but he still had a lot of flowers. There were a couple of types of portulacas, some sweet alyssum, and various others. The sweet peas did great, and so did the morning-glories. Phil would wake up every morning at sunrise to watch the beautiful twisted buds open as soon as the sun hit them. This was his time to work in the garden.
He went to school every day, and as he worked as hard at his books as he did at his flowers, he got on finely. The owlets liked him because he was so steady and industrious and made them no trouble. The boys liked him because he was so good-natured, always ready to help in whatever was going on. In short, he passed a very happy summer.
He went to school every day, and since he worked as hard on his studies as he did on his flowers, he did really well. The young owls liked him because he was so reliable and hardworking, and he didn’t cause them any trouble. The boys liked him because he was so friendly, always willing to help with whatever was happening. In short, he had a very happy summer.
Phil did not forget what Mr. Ryan had said about cutting his flowers, and many a nosegay of sweet peas, violets, and other flowers did he carry to Matty Mehan, and to poor Jonas Smith, who was lame and never got out of his chair. His pansies were rather late in coming into blossom, but when the flowers appeared they were quite wonderful. Purple, yellow, brown, almost black with a yellow eye, almost white with purple rays, there were many varieties. The first Sunday that they were out in perfection, Phil gathered a bunch of them for Miss Isabel. He put no other flowers in his nosegay, only the seven different kinds of pansies, and surrounded the flowers with a little frame of small sprays of evergreen ferns.
Phil didn’t forget what Mr. Ryan had said about cutting his flowers, and he often brought bunches of sweet peas, violets, and other flowers to Matty Mehan and to poor Jonas Smith, who was lame and never left his chair. His pansies were a bit late in blooming, but when they finally did, they were spectacular. There were purple, yellow, brown, nearly black with a yellow center, and almost white with purple rays—so many varieties. On the first Sunday they were in full bloom, Phil picked a bunch for Miss Isabel. He included no other flowers in his bouquet, just the seven different kinds of pansies, arranged with a small frame of tiny evergreen fern sprigs.
"How lovely they are!" said Miss Isabel, showing them to a friend who was visiting her and had come to Sunday-school with her. "Look, Mary! Did you ever see a greater variety or finer flowers?"
"How beautiful they are!" said Miss Isabel, showing them to a friend who was visiting her and had come to Sunday school with her. "Look, Mary! Have you ever seen a greater variety or nicer flowers?"
"They are indeed quite wonderful," answered Miss Mary. "I love pansies above all other flowers, but I have none this year. A friend sent me a bag of very fine imported seed, but I carelessly threw it out into the street with some empty papers. When I missed it and went out to look for it, the papers were all gone. I suppose some child picked them up."
"They're really amazing," replied Miss Mary. "I love pansies more than any other flower, but I don't have any this year. A friend sent me a bag of really nice imported seeds, but I accidentally tossed it out into the street with some empty papers. When I realized it was missing and went to look for it, the papers were all gone. I guess some kid picked them up."
"What a pity!" said Miss Isabel.
"What a shame!" said Miss Isabel.
"Yes, it was a pity, but I dare say they grew somewhere and did somebody good," answered Miss Mary.
"Yes, it's a shame, but I would say they grew somewhere and helped someone," replied Miss Mary.
"We must go down and see Phil's garden some day," said Miss Isabel. "He is one of my best scholars."
"We should go check out Phil's garden sometime," said Miss Isabel. "He's one of my top students."
Phil's head was so full of thoughts that day that he hardly paid so much attention as usual, till he missed a question, a thing he had not done for a long time. Then he roused himself and gave his mind to the lesson. It was about Ananias and Sapphira.
Phil's head was so filled with thoughts that day that he barely focused as much as usual, until he missed a question, something he hadn't done in a long time. Then he snapped out of it and concentrated on the lesson. It was about Ananias and Sapphira.
"Now what was the sin which these unfortunate people committed?" asked Miss Isabel. "Was it in not giving up all their property?"
"Now what was the sin that these unfortunate people committed?" asked Miss Isabel. "Was it not giving up all their property?"
"Yes, ma'am," said John, giving as usual the first answer that came into his head.
"Yeah, sure," said John, giving the first answer that popped into his head, as usual.
"I don't think so," said Harry, "because Peter said, 'Whiles it remained, was it not thine own? and after it was sold, was it not in thine own power?' That means, I suppose, that they had a right to give it or not as they pleased."
"I don't think so," Harry said. "Peter mentioned, 'While it was yours, was it not yours? And after it was sold, was it not your decision?' That suggests, I guess, that they had the right to give it or not, depending on their choice."
"Well, what was the sin then?" asked Miss Isabel, glad to see that Harry had thought about the matter.
"Well, what was the sin then?" asked Miss Isabel, happy to see that Harry had considered the issue.
"I don't think I quite understand," answered Harry.
"I don't think I really get it," replied Harry.
"What do you think, John?"
"What do you think, John?"
But John did not think at all. He was not given to thinking.
But John didn’t think at all. He wasn't one to think.
"And you, Phil?"
"And you, Phil?"
"I think it was keeping back part, when they pretended to give it all," answered Phil slowly. "'Twas lying about it they did. They wanted to get the credit of giving it all, when they were keeping part, and maybe the very best, for themselves."
"I think they were holding back some when they acted like they were giving it all," Phil replied slowly. "They were lying about it. They wanted the recognition for giving everything while keeping some, and maybe the very best, for themselves."
"That was it exactly," said Miss Isabel. "Just so some people do who profess to be Christians. They pretend to give up all to God and to forsake all their sins, but they don't do it. There is some little sin, or bad habit, or self-indulgence, that they don't like to part with: so they keep that while they pretend—often pretend to themselves—to give up all. Such Christians can never be happy or useful. There was once a very wise and witty man who said that all the riches and honors and pleasures in the world would be of no use to a man who was compelled always to wear a little sharp nail in the heel of his shoe. These concealed or reserved sins which we are not willing to give up are like the little sharp nail. They lame the man when he wants to walk, and torment and hinder him when he wants to work, and he can't even sit still in comfort. Now who can give me the Golden Text?"
"That’s exactly it," said Miss Isabel. "Just like some people who claim to be Christians. They act like they’ve given everything to God and turned away from all their sins, but they don’t actually do it. There’s some minor sin, bad habit, or indulgence that they’re not ready to let go of: so they hold onto that while pretending—often even to themselves—that they’ve given up everything. Those kinds of Christians can never be truly happy or useful. There was a very wise and clever man who said that all the wealth, status, and pleasures in the world wouldn’t mean a thing for someone who always had to wear a little sharp nail in the heel of their shoe. These hidden or reserved sins that we refuse to surrender are like that little sharp nail. They hold the person back when they want to walk, torment and hinder them when they want to work, and they can’t even sit comfortably. Now, who can give me the Golden Text?"
"'If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me"
(Ps. 66:18), repeated all the voices together.
"'If I hold onto sin in my heart, the Lord will not listen to me" (Ps. 66:18), all the voices echoed together.
"I shall not talk about that," said Miss Isabel, "but I want you to think about it."
"I won’t discuss that," Miss Isabel said, "but I want you to consider it."
Phil walked slowly homeward thinking about the lesson. He had had a little—a very little—nail in his shoe all summer, and somehow it had grown a good deal longer and sharper since hearing about those pansies. He had said to himself a dozen times that he did not know what to do about it; that there was no help for it now; but he had never tried to find out whether there was any help for it or not. He went into his garden as soon as he came home and looked at his flowers. How beautiful they were! They were the glory of his garden-but then—
Phil walked slowly home, thinking about the lesson. He had a small nail in his shoe all summer, and somehow it had grown longer and sharper since he heard about those pansies. He told himself countless times that he didn't know what to do about it, that there was no way to fix it now, but he had never actually tried to see if there was a solution. As soon as he got home, he went into his garden and looked at his flowers. They were so beautiful! They were the pride of his garden—but then—
"You can't take them up," said the tempter. "You will kill them all."
"You can't take them on," said the tempter. "You'll end up killing them all."
"I can ask Mr. Regan," said Phil.
"I can ask Mr. Regan," Phil said.
"Besides, she has no right to the plants either," said the tempter. "Wait till the seeds get ripe, and you can give her some of them."
"Besides, she has no claim to the plants either," said the tempter. "Just wait until the seeds are ripe, and you can give her some of them."
"Maybe the seeds won't get ripe, or maybe I sha'n't live till then," answered Phil. "Anyhow, there's only one right thing to do, and I'm going to do it. There!"
"Maybe the seeds won't mature, or maybe I won't live to see it," Phil replied. "Either way, there's only one right thing to do, and I'm going to do it. There!"
"You're early for school this morning," said granny when Monday came.
"You're early for school this morning," said Grandma when Monday came.
Granny was almost well now. She could do many things about the house, which looked much neater than when it was left only to Mary.
Granny was almost better now. She could do a lot of things around the house, which looked much tidier than when it was just left to Mary.
"I want to stop and see Mr. Regan," answered Phil.
"I want to stop and see Mr. Regan," Phil replied.
"Oh, very well. Just look in at the cow, and give my duty to Mrs. Barnard if you see her," said granny, who had old-fashioned notions of politeness.
"Oh, fine. Just check on the cow, and say hi to Mrs. Barnard for me if you see her," said granny, who had traditional ideas about manners.
Phil found Mr. Regan busy in the garden, as usual, and at once asked his question.
Phil found Mr. Regan working in the garden, as always, and immediately asked his question.
"Please, Mr. Regan, will it hurt pansies to transplant them now?"
"Please, Mr. Regan, will it hurt the pansies to move them now?"
"Not if you do it in the cool of the day, water them well, and shade them for a day or so," answered the old gardener. "How have yours turned out?"
"Not if you do it in the cool of the day, water them well, and give them some shade for a day or so," replied the old gardener. "How did yours turn out?"
"Famously," answered Phil, "only—well, you see, Mr. Regan, I feel all the time as if I hadn't any right to them, and so I'm just going to take them back to the lady that threw away the seed."
"Honestly," replied Phil, "it's just that, Mr. Regan, I feel like I don’t really have the right to them, so I'm planning to return them to the woman who discarded the seed."
"You're a good boy and an honest boy," said Mr. Regan, "and you are going to do the right thing. However I wouldn't take them all up, for fear they shouldn't do well. Take the lady some of each kind, and then if they don't live, you can give her more. And stop in on your way home and I'll give you a lot of slips. It's such a growing time, the geraniums and things are getting out of all reason."
"You're a good and honest kid," Mr. Regan said, "and you're going to do the right thing. But I wouldn't take them all, just in case they don't survive. Bring the lady some of each type, and if they don't make it, you can give her more later. And stop by on your way home, and I'll give you a bunch of cuttings. It's such a growing season; the geraniums and everything are just out of control."
Phil waited till toward sunset, and then filling a basket with the very best of the pansy roots, he took them up to Mr. Anderson's, for he had heard Miss Mary say that she was going to spend two or three days with Miss Isabel. He found the two young ladies on the lawn admiring some double petunias.
Phil waited until sunset, and then filled a basket with the best pansy roots. He took them to Mr. Anderson's because he had heard Miss Mary say she was going to spend a few days with Miss Isabel. He found the two young women on the lawn admiring some double petunias.
"Why, Phil, what have you here?" asked Miss Isabel. "Some of your beautiful pansy roots."
"Why, Phil, what do you have there?" asked Miss Isabel. "Some of your beautiful pansy roots."
"And such fine ones," said Miss Mary. "They make me regret mine more and more."
"And such nice ones," said Miss Mary. "They make me regret mine more and more."
"If you please, Miss, these are yours," said Phil, blushing scarlet and stammering a little.
"If you don’t mind, Miss, these are for you," said Phil, turning bright red and stuttering a bit.
"Mine! How so?"
"Mine! How's that?"
"'Twas I that picked up the seeds and planted them in my garden," said Phil, taking courage. "I didn't feel easy about them—not just right in my mind, you know—and granny said she mistrusted I ought to have carried the seeds in, and I know it, and it has been like the little nail Miss Isabel spoke of, all the time tormenting me. So I asked Mr. Regan, and he said it would do them no harm to move them, if you'll please to accept them, Miss, and excuse me for not bringing them before. And I didn't bring them all, because Mr. Regan said I'd better wait and see if these do well. And so there they are, Miss, and I'm a thousand times obliged to you."
"I was the one who picked up the seeds and planted them in my garden," Phil said, gathering his courage. "I didn't feel great about it—something just didn't sit right with me, you know—and grandma mentioned that I probably should have brought the seeds inside. I know that's true, and it’s been like the little nail Miss Isabel talked about, constantly bothering me. So I asked Mr. Regan, and he said it wouldn’t hurt to move them, if you’re willing to take them, Miss, and forgive me for not bringing them sooner. I didn’t bring all of them because Mr. Regan advised me to wait and see if these do well. So here they are, Miss, and I’m really grateful to you."
Phil's grammar was rather "mixed up," as the boys say, but his meaning was clear.
Phil's grammar was pretty "mixed up," as the boys say, but his meaning was clear.
Miss Mary was very much pleased.
Marie was very happy.
As for Miss Isabel, it would be the truth to say that she was more pleased than if any one had given her a hundred dollars. She had a good many hundreds of dollars already, but she did not often see such direct results of her teaching.
As for Miss Isabel, it’s true to say she was more pleased than if someone had given her a hundred dollars. She already had a good amount of money, but she didn’t often see such direct results from her teaching.
"But, Phil, I cannot consent to take all the pansies," said Miss Mary when she had looked at and admired the flowers. "True, I furnished the seed, but then all the work and care has been yours. In such cases the rule is that the one who furnishes the seed shall have half the crop, so one half of these plants are honestly yours. You must take them back again."
"But, Phil, I can't agree to take all the pansies," said Miss Mary after looking at and admiring the flowers. "It's true, I provided the seed, but all the work and care have been yours. Usually, the rule is that the person who provides the seed gets half the harvest, so half of these plants rightfully belong to you. You have to take them back."
"I didn't move them all, as I told you, Miss," said Phil. "Mr. Regan said it was better not, because they might not do well, and then you would lose them all."
"I didn't move them all, like I mentioned, Miss," Phil said. "Mr. Regan said it was best not to, because they might not thrive, and then you'd lose them all."
"Very well then, keep what you have and I will take these. They will be a great ornament to my little garden."
"Alright then, keep what you have and I’ll take these. They’ll be a great addition to my little garden."
"What set you to making a garden in the first place, Phil?" asked Miss Isabel, who was busy cutting some fine flowers.
"What made you start a garden in the first place, Phil?" asked Miss Isabel, who was busy cutting some beautiful flowers.
"'Twas something you said one day last spring, Miss," answered Phil. "Don't you remember the text we had, 'Cast thy bread upon the waters'? You said that bread meant seed, and that any little good thing we could find to do was seed. Granny loves flowers dearly, and I thought, what should hinder my raising some for her? And then I found the papers in the street with a few seeds in most all of them besides the pansies, and Mr. Regan gave me a few more, besides the sweet peas I bought, and he told me what to do to them."
"It was something you said one day last spring, Miss," Phil replied. "Don't you remember the lesson we had, 'Cast your bread upon the waters'? You said that bread meant seed, and that any small good thing we could do was like seed. Granny loves flowers a lot, so I thought, what’s stopping me from growing some for her? Then I found the papers in the street with a few seeds in almost all of them besides the pansies, and Mr. Regan gave me a few more, along with the sweet peas I bought, and he told me what to do with them."
"You ought to be a gardener," said Miss Mary.
"You should be a gardener," said Miss Mary.
"My father was one, and it's myself would like to learn the business, if I had a chance," answered Phil. "Mr. Regan said maybe he'd find a place for me some day."
"My dad was one, and I’d really like to learn the business if I get a chance," Phil replied. "Mr. Regan said he might find a spot for me someday."
"So you know Mr. Regan," said Miss Isabel, giving Phil the flowers she had been cutting.
"So you know Mr. Regan," Miss Isabel said, handing Phil the flowers she had been trimming.
"Yes, ma'am; he's always been a good friend of ours."
"Yes, ma'am; he's always been a great friend of ours."
And Phil bade the ladies good night and walked home as happy as a king. The nail was out of his shoe, and he could work at his pansy bed and enjoy its beauty without any more trouble.
And Phil said goodnight to the ladies and walked home feeling as happy as a king. The nail was out of his shoe, and he could tend to his pansy bed and enjoy its beauty without any more hassle.
"That is worth a great deal," said Miss Mary when Phil had gone.
"That's worth a lot," said Miss Mary after Phil had left.
"Yes, it is one of the greatest encouragements I have ever had," answered Miss Isabel, "and yet we might have called him the most hopeless case in the class. I heard Williams the gardener telling papa that he needed more help, and would like a boy if he could get a good one. I must tell him of Phil."
"Yes, it’s one of the greatest boosts I've ever received," replied Miss Isabel, "and yet we could have easily considered him the most hopeless case in the class. I overheard Williams the gardener telling my dad that he needed more help and would like to hire a boy if he could find a good one. I need to mention Phil to him."
A proud and happy boy was Phil when, at the close of the summer term of school, he found himself installed as Mr. Williams's helper in the garden and green-house, and really learning the business of a gardener, besides earning a dollar and a half every week.
A proud and happy boy was Phil when, at the end of the summer term of school, he found himself working as Mr. Williams's helper in the garden and greenhouse, actually learning how to be a gardener, while also earning a dollar and a half each week.
"It's just the place I would have chosen for you," said granny. "Mr. Anderson is a real fine man and will do well by you, and so is Mr. Williams, though he's a bit short tempered at times, as I mind your own father that's in glory this minute used to be when the work hurried him. As for Miss Isabel, she's just the darling of the world."
"It's exactly the place I would have picked for you," said grandma. "Mr. Anderson is a really good man and will treat you well, and so is Mr. Williams, even if he gets a bit short-tempered sometimes, like your father, who’s in heaven right now, used to when things rushed him. As for Miss Isabel, she’s just the sweetest person around."
"I'm thinking Phil will get to be a great man one of these days," said Mary.
"I'm sure Phil will become a great man one day," Mary said.
"I hope he'll get to be a good man, and that's better," said granny. "Greatness isn't the first thing to strive for, nor yet riches, nor yet learning even, though all are good in their way. And mind, Phil, that you don't get set up with pride, for if you do you'll have a fall. Mind you don't forget who it was gave you such an opportunity and such kind friends. Say your prayers every day, remembering that the blessed Saviour died on the cross for your salvation, and try to please him above all, for if he don't help you, it's little good any other help will do you."
"I hope he grows up to be a good man, and that’s what really matters," said grandma. "Greatness isn’t the first thing to chase after, neither is wealth, or even education, though all of those can be good in their own way. And remember, Phil, don’t let pride get to your head, because if you do, you’ll end up falling. Don’t forget who gave you this chance and such wonderful friends. Say your prayers every day, remembering that the blessed Savior died on the cross for your salvation, and try to please him above all else, because if he doesn’t help you, then any other help won't mean much."
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