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With the other hand she poured some bright coins
into Lucia's lap.
With her other hand, she poured some shiny coins
into Lucia's lap.
Lucia's Trust.
BY
BY
CATHARINE SHAW
Catherine Shaw
AUTHOR OF "LILIAN'S HOPE," "DICKIE'S SECRET,"
"THE GABLED FARM," ETC.
AUTHOR OF "LILIAN'S HOPE," "DICKIE'S SECRET,"
"THE GABLED FARM," ETC.
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NEW EDITION.
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NEW RELEASE.
JOHN F. SHAW AND CO., LTD.
JOHN F. SHAW AND CO., LTD.
Publishers
3, PILGRIM STREET, LONDON, E.C.
Publishers
3 Pilgrim Street, London, EC
BRITISH MANUFACTURE
1893
BRITISH MANUFACTURING 1893
CONTENTS.
CONTENTS.
CHAPTER
CHAPTER
LUCIA'S TRUST.
Lucia's Trust.

CHAPTER I.
HOW IT CAME.
HOW IT HAPPENED.
"I SUPPOSE you must go?" asked her cousin, reading the letter for the third time. "There is no choice, is there?"
"I guess you have to go?" her cousin asked, reading the letter for the third time. "There's no option, is there?"
"None whatever," said Lucia, thinking it all over with a very sober face.
"Not at all," said Lucia, reflecting on it all with a seriously thoughtful expression.
That letter had come as a very unpleasant break in a most happy visit.
That letter was a very unwelcome interruption during a wonderfully happy visit.
It was not often that Lucia could get away from her home, where a little flock of step-brothers and sisters kept her busy from morning till night.
It wasn't often that Lucia could escape from her home, where a small group of step-siblings kept her busy from morning to night.
But this time she had got away! Her mother had long planned for her to visit some cousins of her own in the North, and Lucia had been with them for a month already.
But this time she had escaped! Her mom had been planning for her to visit some of her cousins up North, and Lucia had already been with them for a month.
She had begun to feel that her home in London was a very long way off, and that her step-father, and even her own mother, had grown of less absorbing interest than formerly. Life seemed to centre in that charming country house, her cousins with their affairs began to fill her horizon, and when the letters came from her mother speaking of her step-father having been ill with the dreaded influenza, and being better again, she dismissed the matter with the comfortable hope that no one else would take it, and that mother would not be over-tired.
She started to feel that her home in London was really far away, and that her stepfather, as well as her own mother, were less interesting than they used to be. Life seemed to revolve around that beautiful country house, and her cousins and their drama began to take up her attention. When the letters came from her mother mentioning that her stepfather had been sick with the dreaded flu but was better now, she brushed it off with the reassuring thought that no one else would get it and that her mom wouldn’t be too exhausted.
Then she did not hear for a week, but was too happy to be nervous, when one evening, just as she and her cousins were settling down for a cosy time, the second post brought her that news which overturned all her plans, and spoke of changes which might alter the aspect of her life for years to come. Her step-father had had a relapse; a dormant delicacy of the chest had suddenly developed, and he was ordered to take a sea voyage if his life were to be saved.
Then she didn’t hear anything for a week, but she was too happy to feel anxious. One evening, just as she and her cousins were getting comfortable for a cozy time, the second post brought her news that changed all her plans and hinted at changes that could affect her life for years. Her stepfather had a relapse; a hidden chest issue suddenly flared up, and he was told to take a sea voyage if he wanted to survive.
"I have had to choose between him and our children, and he needs me the most; so I am going with him," wrote her mother. "You, my darling, will act a mother's part, I know, while I am gone. Come home at once, that I may give it all into your hands, for we start directly."
"I had to choose between him and our kids, and he needs me the most; so I'm going with him," her mother wrote. "You, my dear, will take on a mother's role, I know, while I'm away. Come home right away so I can hand everything over to you, because we’re leaving immediately."
There was no choice, as Emmie had said; but while Lucia sat silently in her corner, she confessed to herself that never in her life before had any news been so unwelcome.
There was no choice, as Emmie had said; but while Lucia sat quietly in her corner, she admitted to herself that never in her life before had any news been so unwanted.
She loved her mother devotedly, and so she did her little brothers and sisters. Her step-father had always been most kind and generous to her, and she loved him too. But for all that, she blamed herself bitterly that she thought almost more of her own disappointment in being called home, than of the great anxiety and grief which had fallen upon it.
She deeply loved her mother, and the same went for her little brothers and sisters. Her stepfather had always been very kind and generous to her, and she loved him as well. Despite that, she felt a lot of guilt for thinking more about her own disappointment in being called home than about the huge anxiety and grief that had come upon them.
Early the next morning Lucia woke up to the knowledge of something which seemed like a heavy weight on her spirit. Then it all flashed upon her.
Early the next morning, Lucia woke up with a feeling that weighed heavily on her spirit. Then it all hit her.
She rose hastily, for a busy time was before her. On the previous night she had not done any packing, and very soon after breakfast she was to start on her homeward journey.
She quickly got up because she had a busy day ahead. The night before, she hadn’t packed at all, and she was set to leave for home shortly after breakfast.
When she left her room, only the maids were astir. So she crept downstairs to the quiet rooms, and began to collect her possessions, which in a month's visit had become scattered about—her music, her work-basket, her easel and paint-box.
When she left her room, only the maids were awake. So she quietly went downstairs to the still rooms and started gathering her things, which had spread out over her month-long visit—her music, her sewing basket, her easel, and paint box.
She carried an armful into the dining room and began to sort the music out, till, unconscious of time, she fell into a reverie over the words of one of the songs, and started violently when she heard herself addressed in an astonished tone by her aunt's housekeeper—
She brought a stack of music into the dining room and started sorting through it. Before she knew it, she got lost in thought over the lyrics of one of the songs and jumped when she heard her aunt's housekeeper speak to her in a surprised tone—
"Why, Miss Lucia, to be sure, miss, I thought something must have happened to see you sitting there all alone at this time of day! I was passing along the garden, going to feed my chickens, when I caught sight of your head, and heard your pretty voice singing more like the angels than anything else, to be sure!"
"Why, Miss Lucia, I was sure something must have happened when I saw you sitting there all by yourself at this time of day! I was walking through the garden on my way to feed my chickens when I noticed you and heard your lovely voice singing like an angel, for sure!"
"Oh, Mrs. Brown, something has happened," exclaimed Lucia ruefully; "I am going home!"
"Oh, Mrs. Brown, something has happened," Lucia said with a sigh; "I'm going home!"
"Deary miss, I heard something of it last night," responded the housekeeper in her cheery way; "and I was so very sorry for the cause of it, I'm sure." "Yes—," said Lucia slowly, "so am I, awfully sorry; but I cannot help wishing it had come at any other time—"
"Dear miss, I heard about it last night," the housekeeper replied cheerfully, "and I felt so bad about the reason for it, I really did." "Yes—," Lucia said slowly, "so do I, really sorry; but I can't help wishing it had happened at any other time—"
Mrs. Brown paused a moment, and then she said gently, "The Lord's time is always the right time, dear Miss Lucia—"
Mrs. Brown paused for a moment, and then she said softly, "The Lord's timing is always the right timing, dear Miss Lucia—"
Lucia raised her eyes and looked into the placid face.
Lucia raised her eyes and looked into the calm face.
"I was so happy here," she murmured.
"I was so happy here," she whispered.
She turned over the songs, and as the words caught her eyes, they filled with tears.
She flipped through the songs, and as the words caught her eye, her eyes filled with tears.
"Your mother is in sore trouble, Miss Lucia, and she will be very glad to have a sight of your sweet face."
"Your mom is in serious trouble, Miss Lucia, and she will be really happy to see your sweet face."
Lucia shook her head while she wiped her eyes. "I wish I were thinking about her instead of myself," she said.
Lucia shook her head as she wiped her eyes. "I wish I was thinking about her instead of myself," she said.
Mrs. Brown was silent. She and Lucia had been very good friends when they had met, and had established a mutual confidence.
Mrs. Brown was quiet. She and Lucia had become very good friends when they first met, and had built a strong sense of trust between them.
"You think I am a horrid selfish creature, don't you, Mrs. Brown?" she burst out at length.
"You think I'm a terrible, selfish person, don't you, Mrs. Brown?" she said, finally speaking up.
"I think you only want one thing to make you the sweetest, dearest young lady—"
"I think you just want one thing to make you the sweetest, dearest young lady—"
"And that is an unselfish spirit—?"
"And that is a selfless spirit—?"
"No—o, miss, it isn't that—"
"No, miss, it's not that—"
"Then what is it?"
"Then what is it?"
"It's to look at things in the light of His countenance, Miss Lucia—not by our own dull lanterns, but in His pure light!"
"It's about seeing things in the light of His presence, Miss Lucia—not through our own dim lanterns, but in His brilliant light!"
"Look at things?" questioned Lucia. "How do you mean?"
"Look at things?" Lucia asked. "What do you mean?"
"When we know that what happens comes from our Lord, it takes away the sting of troubles."
"When we understand that everything that happens comes from our Lord, it removes the pain of our troubles."
"I don't see that it can take away the sting of this," said Lucia. "Here I am, enjoying myself as much as I possibly can, and not going home for a fortnight more; and then father falls ill, and they are ordered abroad, and I have to go home to slave with the little ones, and all my pleasure is stopped. And, worst of all, I am just a horrid, selfish creature for thinking so, much less saying so! I can't see that in the light of His countenance!"
"I don't think it can take away the sting of this," said Lucia. "Here I am, having as much fun as I can, and I still won't be going home for another two weeks; and then my dad gets sick, and they have to go abroad, and I have to go home to take care of the little ones, and all my enjoyment is ruined. And, to make it worse, I feel like a horrible, selfish person for even thinking this, let alone saying it! I can't see it any other way!"
"Ah, dear Miss Lucia, that's just it! Everything looks dull and gloomy by the light of our own dark thoughts. Shall I tell you how I see the matter? You will not be hurt at me, because I've seen a great many troubles, and I've come out of the Slough of Despond on the side of the Celestial City!"
"Ah, dear Miss Lucia, that's exactly it! Everything seems dull and gloomy when we’re stuck in our own dark thoughts. Can I share my perspective with you? You won’t be upset with me, because I’ve faced many troubles and I’ve made it out of the Slough of Despond into the Celestial City!"
Lucia clasped the kind hand affectionately as she said, "Tell me, then; I shall not mind anything you say—"
Lucia held the kind hand warmly as she said, "Go ahead, I won't mind anything you say—"
"In the light of His will, this is what I see," said the housekeeper tenderly. "You have had a month to enjoy a nice change; and then the Lord says to you He has a lovely opportunity for you to do something for Him! You can be a real comfort to your step-father, who—you told me, didn't you, miss?—has been very good to you; a comfort to your mother, who has to bear a heavy trial; and you have five darling children given into your care to train for Him for ever so many months; and to get back in return their whole love and His gracious approval. Oh, Miss Lucia, isn't that sunshine enough for one day? And don't the clouds go chasing away in the light of His most blessed will?"
"In light of His will, this is how I see things," the housekeeper said gently. "You've had a month to enjoy a nice change, and now the Lord is offering you a wonderful chance to do something for Him! You can really comfort your stepfather, who—you told me, didn't you, miss?—has been very good to you; you can support your mother, who is going through a tough time; and you have five lovely children in your care to train for Him for many months; and in return, you'll receive their entire love and His kind approval. Oh, Miss Lucia, isn’t that enough sunshine for one day? And don’t the clouds just drift away in the light of His most blessed will?"
CHAPTER II.
AT THE COTTAGE.
AT THE CABIN.
BEFORE Lucia had time to realize that she was once more at home, the cab was driving from the door with her father and mother, and she was left in charge of her five brothers and sisters.
BEFORE Lucia had a chance to realize that she was home again, the cab was driving away with her mom and dad, leaving her in charge of her five brothers and sisters.
In the few days in which her mother had had everything to arrange, she had written for their own country cottage to be got ready for them, where the children could lead a free life, and be out of doors from morning till night; and to this they were to proceed at once.
In the few days when her mother had everything to handle, she had arranged to get their country cottage ready for them, where the kids could live freely and be outside from morning until night; and they were to head there right away.
The children were wild with excitement at the treat in store for them, and even their mother's sorrowful face, and their father's pale one, could hardly sober their exuberant joy at the thought of a whole summer in the country.
The kids were thrilled about the surprise waiting for them, and even their mom's sad expression and their dad's pale one couldn't dampen their excitement at the idea of spending an entire summer in the countryside.
Lucia would have preferred to take charge in her own dear home, with their employments around her, and their own servants; but she supposed that mother know best, and certainly a cottage in a wood had its attractions to a romantic girl of nineteen. But she inwardly wished, almost bitterly, that she had been consulted before the plans were formed. When, however, she had arrived home, her mother's boxes were already packed, and their house was let for several months to a family of title, who had come to London for the season.
Lucia would have preferred to take control in her own beloved home, surrounded by their belongings and their own staff; however, she thought her mother knew best, and a cottage in the woods definitely had its appeal for a romantic girl of nineteen. Still, she secretly wished, almost resentfully, that she had been consulted before the plans were finalized. By the time she got home, though, her mother’s boxes were already packed, and their house had been rented for several months to a well-to-do family who had come to London for the season.
Poor Lucia, with her aching head and disappointed heart, tried hard to be patient; but she thought that the children had never seemed so tiresome before, and the difficulties seemed almost more than she could bear.
Poor Lucia, with her throbbing head and heavy heart, tried really hard to be patient; but she felt like the kids had never been so annoying before, and the challenges seemed almost too much for her to handle.
Evan, who was twelve, and had been the eldest at home during her long visit, seemed to have taken new airs upon him, and understood about everything so much better than she did.
Evan, who was twelve and had been the oldest at home during her long visit, seemed to have developed a new attitude and understood everything so much better than she did.
Then Barbara (her darling generally) was also full of importance, helping nurse pack, and was the only one who could get Queenie to stop crying for her mother. Ivor and May had endless secrets, which they would not share with her. The maids were overwhelmingly busy in preparing the house for the fresh arrivals to-morrow, so that altogether Lucia was nearly distracted.
Then Barbara (her favorite, generally) was also quite important, assisting the nurse with packing, and she was the only one who could make Queenie stop crying for her mom. Ivor and May had endless secrets that they wouldn’t share with her. The maids were incredibly busy getting the house ready for the new arrivals tomorrow, so Lucia was almost beside herself.
To-morrow morning! They were to go to-morrow morning! How was it possible that the confusion reigning around could be reduced to order by the next day?
Tomorrow morning! They were leaving tomorrow morning! How could all the chaos happening around them be sorted out by the next day?
She went to her room and looked round.
She went to her room and looked around.
There were her boxes not even unpacked, but the one that stood open revealed a tennis dress which had been used only once, and which she remembered Alec Cransworth had said was very becoming. Oh, dear she should never wear that again while it was in fashion! Hot and angry tears splashed down her cheeks, she threw herself on her bed and wept despairingly.
There were her boxes still not unpacked, but the one that was open showed a tennis dress that had only been worn once, and she remembered Alec Cransworth saying it looked great on her. Oh no, she could never wear that again while it was still fashionable! Hot, angry tears streamed down her cheeks as she threw herself on her bed and cried in despair.
If only her mother had proposed that she should bring home Emmie or Phyllis with her as a companion, it would not have been so bad. But to be shut up in a cottage with nurse and five tiresome children—
If only her mom had suggested that she bring home Emmie or Phyllis as a companion, it wouldn't have been so bad. But being stuck in a cottage with the nurse and five annoying kids—
And then the quiet face of her aunt's housekeeper rose up before her mental vision, and she could almost hear her say, "Dear Miss Lucia, it makes all the difference if we love to do the Lord's will, and not our own. His will is always kindest and best."
And then the familiar face of her aunt's housekeeper appeared in her mind, and she could almost hear her saying, "Dear Miss Lucia, it really matters if we enjoy doing the Lord's will instead of our own. His will is always the kindest and the best."
"I do want to do His will," sobbed Lucia, "and I do want to be good and patient; but it is so bitterly hard to have your visit spoilt, and to be brought back to such a turmoil as this, without even having mother to share it!"
"I really want to do what He wants," cried Lucia, "and I want to be good and patient; but it's so incredibly hard to have your visit ruined, and to be thrown back into this chaos, without even having my mom to share it!"
But she had not long to indulge her disappointment. Before many minutes had passed, a knock at the door summoned her to take part in the packing up which was going on around.
But she didn't have much time to dwell on her disappointment. Before long, a knock at the door called her to join in the packing that was happening around her.
She was young, and in spite of herself almost, the preparations did take off her thoughts, and she found herself in the whirl of the excitement such a change involved.
She was young, and despite her hesitation, the preparations distracted her thoughts, and she found herself caught up in the excitement that such a change brought.
But deep down in her heart the same discontented and bitter chord kept on vibrating, and what should have been music was turned to discord. Two or three years ago Lucia had come to feel her need of a Saviour, and had gone to Him to be pardoned and saved; and ever since she had gone on in her old life with very little difference either to herself or others. She rose each day, read a little of her Bible, prayed to have her sins forgiven and to be made good, and then she went on her daily round of duties and pleasures, without much further thought. Glad that she was safe, even thanking God that she was safe, but content to be kind and loving and unselfish to those who loved her so devotedly, and nothing more.
But deep down in her heart, the same discontented and bitter chord kept vibrating, and what should have been music turned into discord. A couple of years ago, Lucia had come to realize her need for a Savior and had turned to Him for forgiveness and salvation; yet ever since, she had continued her old life with hardly any difference for herself or others. She woke up each day, read a little from her Bible, prayed for her sins to be forgiven and to be made good, and then went about her daily routine of duties and pleasures, without thinking much more about it. She was glad that she was safe, even thanked God for her safety, but was content to be kind, loving, and unselfish to those who loved her so devotedly, and nothing more.
"I think Lucia hardly has a fault," her mother wrote to her aunt, and perhaps Lucia almost thought the same herself.
"I think Lucia barely has any faults," her mother wrote to her aunt, and maybe Lucia almost believed the same about herself.
Then came the happy visit, her renewed acquaintance with her cousins and with their friends the Cransworths, and Lucia floated along the stream of pleasure for one delicious month, and woke up after a nightmare of partings and journeys and packings and partings again, to find herself looking out of a little parlour window on a green lawn, and a pond covered with waterlilies; while beyond was a hill covered with tender green trees and crowned with pines, whose straight delicate branches were set off by the sunset sky behind.
Then came the joyful visit, her renewed connection with her cousins and their friends the Cransworths, and Lucia drifted along the stream of happiness for one wonderful month. She woke up after a nightmare of farewells, travel, packing, and more farewells, to find herself looking out of a small parlor window at a green lawn and a pond filled with water lilies; beyond that was a hill covered in soft green trees topped with pines, whose straight, delicate branches were highlighted by the sunset sky behind.
If her mother and father had been there she would have said that the view was almost too exquisite; but to-night, with the knowledge of her responsibilities, and with the voices of her five little step-brothers and sisters behind her back, the scene only gave her the heartache. And she went to rest in the little countrified bedroom, with the cloud still unlifted from her spirit—only longing that the three months should be over, and she should be able to go back to her London home.
If her mom and dad had been there, she would have said the view was almost too beautiful; but tonight, with the weight of her responsibilities and the sounds of her five little stepsiblings behind her, the scene only brought her heartache. She went to sleep in the small country bedroom, with the heaviness still hanging over her spirit—just wishing the three months would fly by so she could return to her home in London.
The next morning, however, things began to look decidedly brighter.
The next morning, though, things started to look much brighter.
The children no longer seemed so tiresome, and as Lucia sat at the breakfast table watching their smiling faces, she reproached herself that she had thought them last night the most disagreeable little creatures in existence.
The kids didn’t seem so annoying anymore, and as Lucia sat at the breakfast table watching their smiling faces, she felt bad for thinking they were the most unpleasant little beings last night.
"Lucia," said Barbara coaxingly, with a certain wistfulness in her voice, that Lucia detected in a moment, "could you come out with us this morning and explore the wood?"
"Lucia," Barbara said gently, a hint of longing in her voice that Lucia picked up on right away, "could you join us this morning and explore the woods?"
"I do not think so—I have to unpack; but why do you not be satisfied to-day with going up this field and settling yourselves where nurse and I can see you?"
"I don’t think so—I need to unpack; but why don’t you just be satisfied today with going up this field and getting settled where the nurse and I can see you?"
"Very well," assented Barbara, "only we did want you!"
"Alright," Barbara agreed, "but we really did want you!"
"We'll bring home some wild flowers," said Evan. "Nurse says she can find a jar to put in the fireplace; this is so common and ugly, isn't it Lucia?"
"We'll bring home some wildflowers," said Evan. "The nurse says she can find a jar to put in the fireplace; this place is so ordinary and ugly, right Lucia?"
"Rather," answered Lucia, turning her head to look; "only mind you keep within sight of the cottage."
"Actually," replied Lucia, turning her head to look, "just make sure you stay in sight of the cottage."
"Oh, yes," exclaimed Ivor, "we will. This is the loveliest place I ever saw! Ten times as nice as the beach at Westgate."
"Oh, yes," Ivor exclaimed, "we definitely will. This is the most beautiful place I've ever seen! Ten times nicer than the beach at Westgate."
So they found a basket, and with their lunch in the depths of it, to be replaced by flowers, set off together, Barbara being trusted with the care of Queenie (as they were not going out of sight), and May pleading to stay with nurse to help put away the contents of the ten boxes which at present made a warehouse of the narrow little hall.
So they found a basket, and with their lunch packed inside it, to be swapped for flowers, they headed off together. Barbara was in charge of looking after Queenie since they weren't going far, while May asked to stay with the nurse to help put away the stuff from the ten boxes that currently turned the small hallway into a storage area.
CHAPTER III.
LUCIA'S QUEEN.
Lucia's Queen.
LOYALTY had been born and bred in the family of which Lucia was the eldest child.
LOYALTY had been raised in the family of which Lucia was the oldest child.
Ever since she could remember, "The Queen" was her ideal, and Windsor Castle the place in all the world that she loved to be near.
Ever since she could remember, "The Queen" was her role model, and Windsor Castle was the place in the whole world that she loved being close to.
This cottage almost beneath the shadow of Windsor Castle had belonged to her mother's family all her life, and every year she and her mother, when they were alone together in the old days, had migrated there for a month or two, so that every turret and tree was dear to them, and the Queen and Royal Family seemed to belong to them in a special way.
This cottage, right under the shadow of Windsor Castle, had been in her mother's family for her entire life. Every year, she and her mother would go there for a month or two when they were alone together in the old days, making every turret and tree precious to them, and the Queen and Royal Family felt like they were part of their lives in a unique way.
Thus it came to pass that as soon as Lucia had step-brothers and sisters, she instilled her enthusiasm about the Queen into their susceptible little hearts, and May especially felt that the Royal lady who lived so near the cottage was her Queen—her property—to be loved and reverenced as long as she lived.
Thus, it happened that as soon as Lucia had step-siblings, she filled their impressionable little hearts with her excitement about the Queen, and May, in particular, felt that the Royal lady who lived so close to the cottage was her Queen—her own to love and admire for as long as she lived.
The children were never tired of hearing Lucia tell how one day when she was about seven years old, as she was walking near the cottage quite alone, she saw a cloud of dust approaching along the road, and in a moment she guessed it was caused by the outriders surrounding the Queen's carriage, and with beating heart stood upon the path to see her go by.
The kids could never get enough of Lucia's story about the day when she was around seven years old. While she was walking alone near the cottage, she noticed a cloud of dust coming down the road. In an instant, she realized it was from the outriders escorting the Queen's carriage, and with her heart racing, she stood on the path to watch it pass by.
Would the cavalcade come that way? Or would they sweep round the corner at the end of the road, and so pass out of view?
Would the parade come this way? Or would they turn the corner at the end of the street and disappear from sight?
No; in another moment little Lucia knew she was safe. The outriders wheeled round, and came along her road, and the Queen's carriage was close to her, and the dear Queen sitting almost within reach of her!
No; in just a moment, little Lucia realized she was safe. The outriders circled back and came down her road, and the Queen's carriage was near her, with the beloved Queen sitting almost within reach!
Never could Lucia forget that proud moment! For, as with blushing, smiling face the little girl made a deep obeisance to her Sovereign, that gracious lady rose in her carriage, and, all unseen by any other eyes, bowed to the lonely little girl in the lonely country road.
Never could Lucia forget that proud moment! As the little girl, with her blushing, smiling face, bowed deeply to her Sovereign, that gracious lady rose in her carriage and, unseen by anyone else, bowed to the lonely little girl on the empty country road.
"I wonder if I shall see the Queen?" questioned May that morning, as she carried armful after armful of clothes from the boxes to the drawers.
"I wonder if I'll see the Queen?" May asked that morning, as she carried one armful of clothes after another from the boxes to the drawers.
"Very likely you will," answered Lucia, "if we go into Windsor. It is but a chance thing to see the Queen out here, but of course she does drive every day somewhere when she is at home."
"You're probably right," Lucia replied, "if we go to Windsor. It's a long shot to see the Queen out here, but she does go for a drive every day when she's at home."
"Is she at home now?" asked May, colouring with anxiety.
"Is she home right now?" asked May, flushed with anxiety.
"Yes, the flag is flying this morning; I saw it when I was out just now. I used always to feel dreary as a child when there was no flag on the Round Tower."
"Yes, the flag is up this morning; I saw it just now when I was outside. I always felt down as a kid when there was no flag on the Round Tower."
May did not say any more; but in her heart she formed the resolve that she would watch and watch till she too had seen the Queen.
May didn't say anything else; but in her heart, she made a promise to herself that she would keep watching until she had seen the Queen too.
Meantime, while the boxes were being emptied and the drawers were being filled, the other children were enjoying the first morning in the real country.
Meantime, while the boxes were being emptied and the drawers were being filled, the other kids were enjoying their first morning in the real countryside.
They were revelling in wild flowers, moss, stones, and ferns; making imaginary rooms among the furze bushes, and decking "the drawing room" with bunches of wild roses, while they picked endless fronds of bracken to form couches for the bedrooms.
They were having a blast with wildflowers, moss, stones, and ferns; creating imaginary rooms among the gorse bushes, and decorating "the drawing room" with bunches of wild roses, while they picked countless fronds of bracken to use as couches for the bedrooms.
A children's world is a happy world! No cares come to mar it, no anxieties enter in as to "what shall we eat or what shall we drink?" Their father's provision is sure to be right, he will provide dinner when dinner time comes; and here is lunch packed ready in the basket, why need they care?
A children's world is a joyful world! They have no worries to spoil it, no anxieties about "what will we eat or what will we drink?" Their dad's provision is always reliable; he’ll make sure dinner is ready when it's time to eat. Plus, there's lunch packed and waiting in the basket, so why should they be concerned?
Lucia put on her hat and went up the road to see how they were getting on, and when she watched them from behind the bushes, for they were too busy to notice her, some such thoughts as these went through her mind—
Lucia put on her hat and walked up the road to check on how they were doing, and as she watched them from behind the bushes, since they were too preoccupied to see her, thoughts like these crossed her mind—
"I wonder why older people are so anxious," she said to herself, "why they let things worry them so? If we only trusted our heavenly Father as those children in their play-houses trust their earthly father, how different life would be!"
"I wonder why older people are so anxious," she thought to herself, "why they let things bother them so much? If we could just trust our heavenly Father the way those kids trust their dad while playing in their playhouses, life would be so different!"
She turned round and retraced her steps, without disturbing the little party; but though she left them behind, she did not leave the thoughts which they had suggested.
She turned around and walked back, without interrupting the small group; but even though she left them behind, she didn't leave behind the thoughts they had sparked.
She entered the cottage, fetched her easel and her painting materials, and sat down under the elms to sketch, while the bees buzzed dreamily, and the birds sang a ceaseless song.
She walked into the cottage, grabbed her easel and painting supplies, and sat down under the elms to sketch, while the bees buzzed lazily and the birds sang non-stop.
That quiet morning was a turning-point in Lucia's life.
That calm morning changed everything for Lucia.
As her fingers were busily at work, making a sketch for her cousins, her mind went back to her aunt's housekeeper, and then to all her own disappointment and rebellion since.
As her fingers were busy sketching for her cousins, her mind drifted back to her aunt's housekeeper, and then to all the disappointment and rebellion she had experienced since then.
Had not her Father—her heavenly, loving Father—seen all these things beforehand, and prepared the path for her to walk in, that therein she might glorify Him?
Hadn't her Father—her loving, heavenly Father—foreseen all these things and paved the way for her to walk, so that she could glorify Him in it?
But it was so terribly disappointing to be called away just as her enjoyment had seemed to be at its height.
But it was really frustrating to be interrupted just when she was enjoying herself the most.
And yet He knew that! Why was it that He allowed it then?
And yet He knew that! So why did He allow it?
She put down her brush and leaned her chin on her hand, looking off into the country landscape dreamily. Why did He? echoed again and again. And there was no answer but the ceaseless melody of the birds as they rejoiced in the Father's sunshine.
She set her brush down and rested her chin on her hand, gazing dreamily at the countryside. Why did He? echoed repeatedly. And there was no answer except for the endless song of the birds celebrating in the Father’s sunshine.
CHAPTER IV.
UNDER THE ELMS.
Under the Elms.
"YOUR Father knoweth!"
"Your father knows!"
Lucia raised her head suddenly. It seemed almost as if the waving breeze in the trees overhead had whispered the words audibly.
Lucia suddenly lifted her head. It felt almost like the rustling breeze in the trees above had spoken the words out loud.
Then if He knew, why was it? Could she know too?
Then if He knew, why was that? Could she know as well?
She thought of an earthly father—the very best and dearest she knew—and she wondered how he would do with his children.
She thought about a dad— the best and most beloved one she knew— and she wondered how he would treat his kids.
He would take them a journey, and each day or each hour he would tell them which way to go and what he wanted them to do. The children would not question his wisdom or his love. The more unknown the way, the more they would trust him. They would trust and obey.
He would guide them on a journey, and every day or every hour he would tell them which direction to take and what he wanted them to do. The kids wouldn’t doubt his wisdom or love. The more uncertain the path, the more they would trust him. They would trust and follow.
"Your Father knoweth."
"Your father knows."
"Yes, He does," said Lucia beneath her breath, "and I will trust and obey. I will not struggle any more, but take my Father's will as entirely best."
"Yes, He does," Lucia said quietly, "and I will trust and obey. I won't fight anymore, but will accept my Father's will as the best."
When she had reached that point, there came a flood of sunshine to illumine what had looked so dark before.
When she reached that point, a burst of sunlight came in to brighten what had seemed so dark before.
The care of the five little brothers and sisters was no longer a burden too great for her shoulders; the broken visit with its hardly understood charms ceased to cause her such a heartache whenever she thought of it; for she had resigned the one and the other to His will, who surely loved her, and instead of fret and pain came a peace that passed all understanding.
The responsibility of taking care of her five little siblings was no longer too much for her to handle; the difficult visit, with its barely comprehensible magic, no longer gave her heartache when she remembered it. She had surrendered both to His will, who surely loved her, and instead of worry and hurt, she found a peace that surpassed all understanding.
She took up her brush once more, but that drawing never got to its destination. Into that pond and waterlilies, into those daisies and clover, were painted a yielded heart; and to her eyes ever after the very colours told a tale that she could not give to others or part with for the world.
She picked up her brush again, but that drawing never reached its destination. In that pond and water lilies, in those daisies and clover, she had painted a surrendered heart; and to her, the very colors forever narrated a story that she couldn’t share with anyone or let go of for anything.
"For Christ henceforth," she said, as she heard the sound of the little voices coming through the intervening trees, and sounding silvery over the pond, and she put away her drawing and rose to meet the children with a happy smile, such as had not been on her face since she heard that bad news in the North. Then the little green gate swung open, and the children ran over the grass to her side.
"For Christ's sake," she said, as she heard the sound of the little voices coming through the trees, echoing gently over the pond. She set aside her drawing and stood up to greet the kids with a happy smile, one that hadn't graced her face since she got that bad news from the North. Then the little green gate swung open, and the children dashed across the grass to her side.
"Oh, Lucia, it is so lovely!" exclaimed Evan. "I never saw such a place; and, do you know, there are nests and all sorts of things for Ivor and me?"
"Oh, Lucia, it's so beautiful!" exclaimed Evan. "I've never seen a place like this; and, you know, there are nests and all kinds of things for Ivor and me?"
Barbara offered a kiss, and Queenie threw her arms round her neck. "I'se so d'lad to get back," she said, "and I do want my lickle dinner so!"
Barbara gave a kiss, and Queenie wrapped her arms around her neck. "I'm so glad to be back," she said, "and I really want my little dinner now!"
Lucia could laugh as light-heartedly as any of them now, and she wondered that she could ever have thought the children so disagreeable.
Lucia could laugh as easily as any of them now, and she was surprised that she ever thought the kids were so annoying.
At the rose-covered porch May stood waiting.
At the rose-covered porch, May stood waiting.
"It's all done," she announced. "Just come and see how neat we have made everything. Barbara, you and I are to have this cupboard all to ourselves, besides those drawers, and nurse says Evan and Ivor are not to come into our room at all."
"It's all done," she said. "Just come see how tidy everything looks. Barbara, you and I get to have this cupboard all to ourselves, along with those drawers, and the nurse says Evan and Ivor can't come into our room at all."
"All right," said Evan, "I don't want to. You keep to yours and we'll keep to ours, won't we, Ivor? What have you given us? I suppose we shall have to 'shift,' as Mrs. Giah calls it."
"Okay," Evan said, "I don't want to. You stick to your stuff, and we'll stick to ours, right, Ivor? What have you given us? I guess we'll have to 'shift,' like Mrs. Giah says."
Mrs. Giah was the woman who had charge of the cottage when they were not there. She kept occasional fires burning, aired the rooms, let in the sunshine, and shut out the rain, and prepared the place for them if any of the family wanted to come down for a few days.
Mrs. Giah was the lady who took care of the cottage when they weren't around. She kept a fire going now and then, aired out the rooms, let in the sunshine, blocked out the rain, and got the place ready for them if any of the family wanted to come down for a few days.
Mrs. Giah was an old servant who had known and nursed Lucia's mother, so that though the children laughed softly at her amusing sayings, it was with a certain tenderness which long years of loving service had earned for the old woman. On her part, no people in the world were like her Carews. Though she did think that the young people could sometimes "shift" a little more than they seemed inclined to do, no one in the world must say a word against them in her hearing.
Mrs. Giah was an elderly servant who had known and cared for Lucia's mother, so even though the kids chuckled quietly at her funny remarks, there was a certain affection tied to the many years of devoted service she had given the old woman. For her part, no one compared to the Carews in her eyes. Although she felt the young people could sometimes "step up" a bit more than they appeared willing to, no one was allowed to speak ill of them in her presence.
CHAPTER V.
LUCIA'S GIFT.
LUCIA'S GIFT.
BARBARA CAREW lived in a practical world, while May lived in an imaginative one. Barbara was always devising some means to help someone, or do something, while little May was dreaming of royal palaces and untasted joys.
BARBARA CAREW lived in a practical world, while May lived in an imaginative one. Barbara was always coming up with ways to help someone or get things done, while little May was dreaming of royal palaces and unexperienced joys.
So Barbara amused her brothers and sisters; was always ready to run out to the hens, or follow Mrs. Giah to the farm to look for eggs, or to climb up into the empty carts with her brothers, while May would be seated in a corner of the hayloft, talking to her doll, or buried in the "Arabian Nights."
So Barbara entertained her brothers and sisters; she was always ready to rush out to the hens, or follow Mrs. Giah to the farm to look for eggs, or climb up into the empty carts with her brothers, while May would sit in a corner of the hayloft, talking to her doll, or lost in the "Arabian Nights."
That afternoon, just as Lucia was wondering what she should do with herself, she heard cartwheels lumbering up the lane which led to the back of the cottage.
That afternoon, just as Lucia was thinking about what to do with herself, she heard the sound of cartwheels rumbling up the lane that led to the back of the cottage.
This was such an unusual sound, that the children ran out to see what it could be.
This was such a strange sound that the kids ran outside to see what it was.
"It is a great van sort of thing," exclaimed Ivor, racing back to tell his sister. "I've seen them like it in London, but I don't know what's in it, I'm sure."
"It’s a really cool van," Ivor said excitedly as he rushed back to tell his sister. "I’ve seen ones like it in London, but I have no idea what's inside."
Nurse, who was standing looking on, peeped through the hedge at Ivor's description, and finally went down the garden into the lane too.
Nurse, who was standing nearby watching, peeked through the hedge at Ivor's description and eventually walked down the garden into the lane as well.
Two men were in charge of the cart, and one stepped forward with a note.
Two men were in charge of the cart, and one stepped forward with a note.
"For Miss Carew," he said.
"For Ms. Carew," he said.
Nurse was greatly astonished, and looked back to where Lucia was standing in the porch, framed by the roses and honeysuckle.
Nurse was really surprised and looked back to where Lucia was standing on the porch, surrounded by the roses and honeysuckle.
"For me?" asked Lucia, coming down the path. Then she saw her mother's handwriting, and tearing the envelope open, saw within—
"For me?" Lucia asked as she walked down the path. Then she noticed her mother's handwriting, and after tearing the envelope open, she saw inside—
"For my dear Lucia, with her mother's love."
"For my dear Lucia, with all of her mother's love."
"Whatever is it?" said Evan excitedly.
"What's going on?" Evan said excitedly.
While the man went to the back of the van with a key, saying in a very matter-of-fact voice, "A cottage piano, miss. Where is it to go?"
While the man walked to the back of the van with a key, he said in a straightforward tone, "A cottage piano, miss. Where should I take it?"
Lucia could not believe the evidence of her eyes. A piano! Was not the lack of this one of the things which had caused her such discontent in coming here? Had she not said to herself bitterly that mother quite forgot what it would be to give up her music for three months, nor how stiff her fingers would get, nor how out of practice her voice!
Lucia couldn't believe what she was seeing. A piano! Wasn't the absence of this one of the things that had made her so unhappy about being here? Hadn't she told herself, in frustration, that her mother completely forgot what it would be like to go three months without her music, or how stiff her fingers would become, or how out of practice her voice would get!
And here—here was a little bijou of a piano, apparently for her very own!
And here—here was a little gem of a piano, seemingly just for her!
Lucia hung her head to hide the tears of contrition which filled her eyes. Was this another of those things which "her Father" knew and provided for? And if He could so lovingly care for even this, would He not care for all that concerned her?
Lucia lowered her head to hide the tears of regret that filled her eyes. Was this another one of those things that "her Father" knew and had planned for? And if He could care for something like this with such love, wouldn’t He care for everything that mattered to her?
So, while the men made their preparations to carry in the little instrument, Lucia was sending up a joyful thanksgiving for the heavenly love which had given her so great a pleasure through her mother's earthly love.
So, while the men got ready to bring in the little instrument, Lucia was offering a joyful thanks for the heavenly love that had brought her such great happiness through her mother's earthly love.
Where the piano was to stand was of course the next thing, and everybody ran back to the little drawing room to see what would be the best place before the men got to the door.
Where the piano was supposed to go was, of course, the next question, and everyone rushed back to the small living room to figure out the best spot before the men arrived at the door.
Lucia found that there was a niche which seemed to ask to be filled, so that there was not a moment's doubt as to where the new treasure was to go.
Lucia realized there was a spot that clearly needed to be filled, so she had no doubt about where the new treasure should go.
"I shall be able to get on with my music now," remarked Barbara; "I was afraid Miss Lewis would think I had forgotten it all."
"I can finally get back to my music now," Barbara said. "I was worried Miss Lewis would think I had forgotten everything."
Then in came the men, and the boys felt they must help to place it just right, and ran imminent risk of their fingers and toes in doing it.
Then the men came in, and the boys felt like they had to help position it just right, putting their fingers and toes at serious risk while doing so.
"Who's it from?" asked Ivor. "Is it yours, Lucia?"
"Who’s it from?" Ivor asked. "Is it yours, Lucia?"
"Mine, from mother," answered Lucia.
"Mine, from Mom," answered Lucia.
"I thought you was cryin'," said Queenie, edging up close to her; "I saw you cryin', I do b'lieve?"
"I thought you were crying," said Queenie, moving in closer to her; "I saw you crying, I really believe?"
"Only because I am so pleased, and because—"
"Only because I'm so happy, and because—"
But the others were clamouring for her to sit down and try it; so Lucia did not explain further, though she would have said, had she been able, that she was most unworthy of all the love which had been shown her, and she was ashamed of all her hard thoughts. It was not till the piano had been tried and retried, not till Lucia had sung them song after song, in her beautiful fresh young voice, that someone said,—
But the others were urging her to sit down and give it a try; so Lucia didn’t explain any further, even though she would have liked to say, if she could have, that she felt totally unworthy of all the love she had received, and she was embarrassed by all her negative thoughts. It wasn’t until the piano had been played over and over, and Lucia had sung song after song with her lovely, fresh young voice, that someone said,—
"Where's May?"
"Where is May?"
She certainly was not with them, and there ensued a general hunt, which ended in her being found talking to her doll, in a quiet corner, behind a hayrick, though what she had said to her doll was certainly unguessed by any of the party.
She definitely wasn't with them, and soon everyone started searching for her. They ended up finding her in a quiet corner behind a haystack, talking to her doll, but no one had any idea what she had been saying to it.
"Now, Rosabel," she had said, "when next we all go out for a walk in the woods, I shall keep my eyes open for the road that the Queen drives in. She must drive somewhere, you know, and if I watch long enough, I shall be sure to see her. It can't be any harm, for I heard mother say to Lucia, 'Let the children enjoy themselves as much as ever they can; let them be out from morning to night, and if they can turn into the Family Robinson, so much the better!' Now, if mother said that, there can be no harm in my taking advantage of it to see the Queen! So I mean to.
"Now, Rosabel," she said, "the next time we all go for a walk in the woods, I’ll keep an eye out for the road the Queen drives on. She has to go somewhere, and if I watch long enough, I’m sure I’ll spot her. It can’t hurt, because I heard Mom tell Lucia, ‘Let the kids have as much fun as they can; let them be out from morning till night, and if they can turn into the Family Robinson, so much the better!’ So if Mom said that, there’s no harm in me taking the chance to see the Queen! That's what I'm planning to do."
"I shall not take you with me, Rosabel, because I shall have to take my lunch, or something, and a sunshade in case it rains, and you would certainly be in the way if I had to go a long way. But I shall put you up in the hayloft, where you can see out of that little window, and then you will be able to watch for me to come back."
"I can't take you with me, Rosabel, because I need to bring my lunch or something, and a sunshade in case it rains, and you would definitely be in the way if I had to travel far. But I'll put you up in the hayloft, where you can look out of that little window, and then you'll be able to see when I come back."
Her reflections were broken in upon by Evan's voice, speaking vexedly.
Her thoughts were interrupted by Evan's voice, sounding annoyed.
"What a hunt we've had for you, May, I do declare! Why, you've missed a jolly thing, with your love of being different from the rest of us—a jolly thing! Why, here's Lucia, had the biggest and the best present she ever had in her life, and you have been away and not seen it arrive!"
"What a search we've had for you, May, I swear! You’ve really missed out on something fun, with your desire to stand out from the crowd—such a fun thing! Look at Lucia, she received the biggest and best gift she’s ever had in her life, and you’ve been away and missed it arriving!"
May's imaginative mind flew to all sorts of wonderful things, but nurse stopped these short by scolding her soundly for giving them so much trouble, and threatening to send her to bed on the next occasion if she did not keep with the rest.
May's creative mind soared with all sorts of amazing ideas, but the nurse quickly shut her down by scolding her for causing so much trouble and threatening to send her to bed next time if she didn't stick with the others.
"It's bad for the child," she said to herself, as she walked back behind the little party, "and Miss Lucia is inclined to be too easy with them, I do believe."
"It's not good for the child," she thought to herself as she walked behind the small group, "and I really believe Miss Lucia tends to be too lenient with them."
CHAPTER VI.
IN THE FOREST.
IN THE WOODS.
MAY, however, was thinking so much of her project that nurse's displeasure passed over her with but little impression. She only made up her mind to wait for an opportunity when they were out together, and she had liberty to enjoy herself.
MAY, however, was so focused on her project that the nurse's annoyance barely affected her. She simply decided to wait for a chance when they were out together, allowing herself to have some fun.
In the free and happy life which they were leading, she had not much need, however, for the exercise of patience.
In the carefree and joyful life they were living, she didn't have much need to practice patience.
Only the next day, as they all sat at breakfast, Lucia said cheerfully—
Only the next day, as they all sat down for breakfast, Lucia said cheerfully—
"Hands up for a day in the forest?"
"Who’s up for a day in the forest?"
Nurse, who had just brought in Queenie's breakfast, smiled as all the five pairs of hands went up, quicker than one could imagine possible, while Lucia said—
Nurse, who had just brought in Queenie's breakfast, smiled as all five pairs of hands shot up faster than anyone could imagine, while Lucia said—
"Nobody objects, then?"
"Is there no one objecting?"
And after that, they fell to arranging about baskets, and dinner and tea, kettles and spirit-lamps, till the children were wild with anticipation.
And after that, they started organizing baskets, dinner and tea, kettles, and spirit lamps, until the kids were crazy with excitement.
It was discovered that Lucia had foreseen that little people (to say nothing of older ones) would be hungry, and had herself walked into Windsor the day before to order a good supply of dainties. There was great excitement to find out what she had provided, but she would not allow a single package to be opened, telling them that they should see when the time came.
It was found out that Lucia had predicted that kids (not to mention the adults) would be hungry, and she had even walked into Windsor the day before to order a nice supply of treats. There was a lot of excitement to see what she had gotten, but she wouldn’t let anyone open a single package, telling them they would see when the time came.
They soon got off, and began the rather hot and uphill walk which led from the cottage to the outskirts of the forest.
They soon got off and started the pretty hot and uphill walk that led from the cottage to the edge of the forest.
May had her own little thoughts; under her shady hat, her bright eyes took in the direction and possibilities of every turning and cross road, but she said nothing, keeping close to Lucia most of the time, and saying over and over again to herself, "Mother said we were to enjoy ourselves as much as ever we could, and this is my way!"
May had her own little thoughts; under her shady hat, her bright eyes took in the direction and possibilities of every turn and intersection, but she said nothing, staying close to Lucia most of the time, and repeating to herself, "Mom said we were to enjoy ourselves as much as we could, and this is my way!"
Dinner, with Lucia's dainties, was a grand success, and then May's heart began to beat, and she felt her time had come. Nurse was busy packing up the plates, Barbara was helping her, Lucia was picking wild flowers with Queenie, and the two boys were far away, chasing a butterfly. Now was her time, she thought, if she were to see the Queen!
Dinner, featuring Lucia's treats, was a big hit, and then May's heart started racing as she realized her moment had arrived. The nurse was busy cleaning up the plates, Barbara was helping her, Lucia was gathering wildflowers with Queenie, and the two boys were off in the distance, chasing a butterfly. This was her chance, she thought, if she was going to see the Queen!
When the butterfly catchers recollected that they were a good way from what they called "camp," they made their way back with all speed, and found nurse resting after her labours by the side of the neatly-packed baskets, Barbara sorting wild flowers into bunches, while Lucia was sitting against a tree, with Queenie asleep in her lap.
When the butterfly catchers remembered that they were quite far from what they called "camp," they hurried back and found the nurse resting after her work next to the neatly-packed baskets, Barbara sorting wildflowers into bunches, while Lucia sat against a tree with Queenie sleeping in her lap.
"Have we been too long?" asked Evan, colouring. "I never guessed it was such a time—"
"Have we been gone too long?" Evan asked, blushing. "I had no idea it took this long—"
"No," answered nurse, "we've been busy; but where is Miss May?"
"No," the nurse replied, "we've been busy; but where is Miss May?"
Ah! Where was Miss May? They waited and waited till they grew anxious, and wished they had not waited at all. And then they began to search near at hand, and wished that they had gone in any direction but the one they had taken. And at last, when all was in vain, and no May was to be seen, Lucia set out towards the Long Walk, and nurse went in the opposite direction, while Evan set off homewards with the rest, promising to send help should the missing sister not be found on the way.
Ah! Where was Miss May? They waited and waited until they became anxious and wished they hadn’t waited at all. Then they started to search nearby and regretted choosing the path they had taken. Eventually, when all efforts proved fruitless and there was still no sign of May, Lucia headed toward the Long Walk, while the nurse went in the opposite direction, and Evan started home with the others, promising to send help if they didn’t find the missing sister along the way.
Meanwhile May wandered under the shady forest trees, stepping over the bracken, or jumping from patch to patch of bare grass between them, only intent on getting out of sight of the rest, and towards the wide road which they had passed a little while ago, where she had made up her mind the Queen was sure to pass.
Meanwhile, May strolled under the shady trees in the forest, stepping over the bracken and hopping from one patch of bare grass to another, focused solely on getting out of sight of the others and heading towards the wide road they had passed a little while ago, where she was convinced the Queen would definitely pass by.
The voices of the butterfly catchers had long since been lost, and nurse's cheerful tones, with Barbara's silvery laugh, had become less and less distinct, till at last there was no sound in the air but the singing birds and the waving trees.
The voices of the butterfly catchers had faded away, and the nurse's cheerful tones, along with Barbara's bright laugh, had grown fainter and fainter, until eventually, the only sounds in the air were the singing birds and the rustling trees.
May stood still for a moment. She thought it would be wise to take her bearings, to get into her mind where she was; but when she looked round, there was nothing in the world to mark the direction she had come from.
May paused for a moment. She thought it would be smart to gather her thoughts and figure out where she was; but when she looked around, there was nothing to indicate the direction she had come from.
But May did not concern herself greatly about this. If she saw the Queen, what matter would it be if she had a little trouble in finding Lucia and nurse again!
But May didn't worry too much about this. If she saw the Queen, what difference would it make if she had a bit of trouble finding Lucia and the nurse again!
So she slowly wandered on, though the silence and stillness of the forest rather made her heart quake.
So she slowly walked on, even though the quiet and calm of the forest made her heart race.
At length she came to a road, and this took off the feeling of loneliness to some extent.
At last, she reached a road, and this eased her sense of loneliness to some degree.
She sat down in a shady place and looked yearningly along it, expecting every moment to see the cloud of dust approaching, and to live over again Lucia's old experience of so many years ago.
She sat down in a shaded spot and eagerly looked down the road, anticipating the moment when she would see the cloud of dust coming, reliving Lucia's old experience from so many years ago.
But no cloud of dust came; no footfall broke the intense quiet of the scene.
But no cloud of dust appeared; no footsteps disturbed the deep silence of the scene.
Once a stir among the bracken made her start; but it was only some of the deer who had not noticed the still little figure till they were quite close to it, and then had fled away, shy and frightened.
Once a rustle in the bushes made her jump; but it was just some deer who hadn’t noticed the quiet little figure until they got really close, and then they darted away, timid and scared.
But still the Queen did not come!
But still, the Queen didn't show up!
As the hours passed away, and the sun began to shine with slanting rays through the trees, May began to cease to look so earnestly along the road. Her head turned first in one direction and then the other. Was it fancy that made her think the forest was full of voices calling her name?
As the hours went by and the sun started shining through the trees at an angle, May began to stop looking so intently down the road. She turned her head first in one direction and then the other. Was it just her imagination that made her feel like the forest was filled with voices calling her name?
How fast the sun was sinking! It would be night soon; that solemn, quiet night which she had never spent anywhere but in her own warm little bed!
How quickly the sun was setting! It would be night soon; that serious, quiet night that she had only ever experienced in her own cozy little bed!
The air played around her and made her shiver, and thoughts of tea and home began to haunt her.
The air swirled around her and made her shiver, and thoughts of tea and home started to linger in her mind.
How many hours must it be since she had had anything to eat? Her dinner? That had been only a mouthful or two, for her heart had been beating so with thoughts of her project that she had been unable to eat. Though she had intended to put some in her pocket, there had not been the opportunity, for she had feared that Evan's sharp eyes and sharper tongue would be sure to disclose her secret, should he notice her doing anything with her sandwiches but eat them.
How many hours had it been since she last ate? Her dinner? That was just a bite or two, since her heart was racing with thoughts about her project, making it hard to eat. Although she meant to stash some in her pocket, she didn’t get the chance, as she was worried that Evan’s keen eyes and even sharper comments would reveal her secret if he noticed her doing anything with her sandwiches other than eating them.
How she wished that she had not crept away so stealthily when the rest were scattering after dinner. How ashamed she was now of the answer she had given Barbara, as she led Queenie off in the other direction.
How she wished she hadn't sneaked away so quietly when everyone else was leaving after dinner. She felt so ashamed now about the answer she had given Barbara while leading Queenie off in the other direction.
"I'm just going over there, Barbara, to get some ferns!"
"I'm just going over there, Barbara, to grab some ferns!"
She had stoutly assured herself then that this was not an untruth; but now—
She had firmly convinced herself back then that this was not a lie; but now—
Poor little May! She was beginning to pay very dearly for her "enjoyment," as many another does who attempts to snatch what is not given!
Poor little May! She was starting to pay a heavy price for her "fun," just like so many others who try to grab what isn’t offered!
Oh, how weary she was—how cold! How forlorn!
Oh, how exhausted she was—how cold! How hopeless!
Thoughts of her mother began to fill her mind, and her conscience pricked her that, although she had carried out the letter of her mother's directions, she had broken the spirit of them.
Thoughts of her mom started to flood her mind, and she felt guilty that, even though she had followed her mom's instructions to the letter, she had completely missed their true meaning.
She buried her face on her knees, and began to cry, and cried long and hopelessly, till she seemed to have no tears left. But at last, as she began to grow quieter, in a kind of resignation to meet her fate, sleep came down upon her heavy eyelids, and she forgot for a little while that she was lost.
She curled up on her knees and started crying, crying for a long time with no hope until it felt like she had no tears left. But eventually, as she began to calm down and accept her situation, sleep fell over her heavy eyelids, and for a little while, she forgot that she was lost.
CHAPTER VII.
VOICES IN THE FOREST.
Voices in the Forest.
MEANWHILE the children had gone home, only to find no May there, while nurse and Lucia still searched and searched fruitlessly.
MEANWHILE, the children had gone home, only to find no May there, while the nurse and Lucia continued to search and search without any luck.
At last they thought that perhaps the little girl had also gone home, and so they set out to see, Lucia hardly bearing to tear herself away from the forest, lest the child should be there after all.
At last, they figured that maybe the little girl had gone home too, so they decided to check. Lucia could hardly bring herself to leave the forest, worried that the child might still be there after all.
But no May was at home; and now what was to be done?
But there was no May at home; so what should be done now?
Evan and Mrs. Giah had prepared tea. And after snatching a few hasty mouthfuls, it was decided that the whole party should go back again and look anew, Mrs. Giah promising to communicate with the cottagers near, and beg them to help too.
Evan and Mrs. Giah had made tea. After quickly grabbing a few bites, they decided that everyone should head back and take another look. Mrs. Giah promised to reach out to the nearby cottagers and ask for their help as well.
What Lucia and nurse passed through in those hours only those know who have had a lost child.
What Lucia and the nurse went through during those hours is something only those who have lost a child can understand.
Lucia had found time to fly up to her room, and had thrown herself on her knees, asking with earnest supplication that May might be preserved, and that they might be led to her. And when she came down, and they all started together, nurse was surprised at the quiet calmness which shone in her face.
Lucia had managed to get to her room and had dropped to her knees, pleading earnestly for May's safety and for guidance to find her. When she came back downstairs and they all set out together, the nurse was surprised by the peaceful calm that radiated from her face.
"Why, Miss Lucia," she said, "one would think Miss May was found, to look at you."
"Why, Miss Lucia," she said, "you'd think Miss May was found just by looking at you."
"God knows where she is," answered Lucia softly, "and I have asked Him to show us."
"God knows where she is," Lucia replied softly, "and I've asked Him to show us."
Nurse shook her head gloomily. She had not an ever-present help to go to, and could not share Lucia's trust.
Nurse shook her head sadly. She didn’t have anyone she could always rely on and couldn’t share Lucia’s confidence.
The children were told to keep in sight of the road which ran through the forest and led finally to their cottage, while nurse and Lucia searched among the trees, calling till their voices were hoarse, and watching the sun go down with hearts that sank too—at any rate nurse's did. As to Lucia, she kept on saying to herself, "God knows where she is," and so went on with renewed strength.
The children were told to stay within sight of the road that ran through the forest and eventually led to their cottage, while the nurse and Lucia searched among the trees, calling out until their voices were hoarse, and watched the sun set with heavy hearts—at least the nurse's heart was heavy. As for Lucia, she kept telling herself, "God knows where she is," and continued on with renewed strength.
At last little May heard in her dreams the sound of loved voices calling her name.
At last, little May heard the sound of familiar voices calling her name in her dreams.
She turned round with a start, and was wide awake all in a moment.
She suddenly turned around and was fully awake in an instant.
Could it be? Could it? Then in one instant she heard Evan say, "Perhaps she's up this hill." And then Queenie's sweet little head came in view over the top, and she was found.
Could it be? Could it? Then suddenly she heard Evan say, "Maybe she's up this hill." And then Queenie's sweet little head appeared over the top, and she was found.
Evan took her hand without a word, and led her back to the road, which was close to them. Had not Lucia enjoined him not to scold his poor little sister, for had she not been punished enough already?
Evan took her hand without saying anything and guided her back to the road, which was nearby. Hadn't Lucia told him not to scold his poor little sister? She had already been punished enough, right?
Then they all walked soberly home in the twilight, Evan sending forth many a shrill sound from his whistle, which echoed back through the trees as the agreed signal that all was well.
Then they all walked solemnly home in the evening light, Evan letting out numerous sharp notes from his whistle, which echoed through the trees as the agreed signal that everything was fine.
Nurse heard it, and hurried towards home.
Nurse heard it and rushed home.
Lucia heard it, and her heart sent up its grateful praise for the answered prayer.
Lucia heard it, and her heart lifted in thankful praise for the answered prayer.
"My Father did know," she said joyfully.
"My dad did know," she said happily.
May was found, and now the seekers began to realize that they were tired out.
May was found, and now the searchers started to realize that they were worn out.
Slowly and wearily they all made their way back to the cottage.
Slowly and tiredly, they all made their way back to the cottage.
Lucia's first feeling after her thankfulness, had been one of vexation that May could have been so naughty, but ere it reached her lips she was stopped by the remembrance that "all we like sheep have gone astray," and the thought softened her heart towards her little sister, and enabled her to go over to her side and take her hand in hers.
Lucia's first feeling after she felt grateful was annoyance that May could be so mischievous, but before she could say anything, she remembered that "all we like sheep have gone astray," and that thought softened her heart toward her little sister. This helped her walk over to May's side and take her hand.
May gave one glance of surprise, and then nestled against her very softly.
May shot a surprised glance and then snuggled against her very softly.
"We must talk about it, dear, when we get back," said Lucia; "just now I am so thankful that you are safe, and we are all so tired—"
"We need to talk about it, honey, when we get back," said Lucia; "right now I’m just so grateful you’re safe, and we’re all really tired—"
"I know," murmured May humbly. "I never meant to be naughty."
"I know," May said quietly. "I never meant to be bad."
But when they had got home, and had eaten their tea, and had been put to bed by nurse and Lucia together, May ventured to draw her sister close, and whisper—
But when they got home, had dinner, and were tucked into bed by nurse and Lucia together, May took a chance to pull her sister close and whisper—
"I wanted you to talk to me. You said mother would have been very grieved if she knew I had been so naughty."
"I wanted you to talk to me. You said Mom would have been really upset if she knew I had been so naughty."
"So I did, May; but mother would forgive you I know, if you are sorry."
"So I did, May; but I know Mom would forgive you if you truly regret it."
Lucia sat down on the edge of the bed, and May climbed up into her arms, resting on her shoulder ever so lovingly.
Lucia sat on the edge of the bed, and May climbed into her arms, resting on her shoulder with a lot of affection.
"You see, May," said Lucia gently, "I am afraid that your being so fond of doing something different from the others led you to be disobedient. You knew you were none of you to go away from the rest."
"You see, May," Lucia said softly, "I’m afraid that your desire to stand out from the others caused you to be disobedient. You knew that none of you were supposed to wander off from the group."
"It wasn't that exactly," whispered May humbly.
"It wasn't exactly that," May whispered humbly.
"What was it then?"
"What was it?"
"I wanted to see the Queen."
"I wanted to see the Queen."
Lucia paused. Could she call that any harm, she who loved the Queen so dearly?
Lucia paused. Could she really call that any harm, she who loved the Queen so much?
"But we must not do wrong, even for a right and nice purpose," she said slowly.
"But we can't do something wrong, even for a good and nice reason," she said slowly.
"Was it wrong?"
"Was that wrong?"
"Yes, it was disobedient; that's where the wrong was, May. Oh, May, I do want you to think of pleasing Jesus our Saviour more than anything! Did you think of whether He would like you to do it?"
"Yes, it was disobedient; that's where the mistake was, May. Oh, May, I really want you to focus on pleasing Jesus our Savior more than anything else! Did you think about whether He would want you to do it?"
"No," said May, shaking her head, "I never do think of that."
"No," May said, shaking her head, "I never think about that."
Lucia was silent a moment.
Lucia was quiet for a moment.
"Would you not like to?" she said at last.
"Wouldn't you like to?" she finally said.
May nodded.
May agreed.
"It's because you've been so kind," she said, squeezing her sister very tight. "I am sorry now. And, Lucia—"
"It's because you've been so kind," she said, hugging her sister really tight. "I’m sorry now. And, Lucia—"
"Yes, dear?"
"Yes, sweetheart?"
"I said what wasn't quite true—twice."
"I said something that wasn’t entirely true—twice."
"Did you, dear?"
"Did you, love?"
"Yes; I told the others I was only going over there; and so I was, and yet it wasn't quite true, because I meant to go a good way, you see!"
"Yeah; I told the others I was just going over there; and I was, but it wasn't exactly true, because I planned to go quite a distance, you know!"
"Yes, I see that. Satan is so glad to trip us up like that. He assures us it is true, and then he mocks us by reminding us it was not."
"Yeah, I get that. Satan is really happy to fool us like that. He convinces us it's real, and then he makes fun of us by reminding us it wasn't."
May nodded again, and then went on—
May nodded again, and then continued—
"And I told you I did not mean to be naughty; but I do believe I knew I ought not to have gone away, only I wanted so much to see the Queen that I would not let myself think."
"And I told you I didn’t mean to be bad; but I really think I knew I shouldn’t have gone away, I just wanted to see the Queen so badly that I didn’t let myself think."
Lucia pressed her closely.
Lucia held her tight.
"Dear little May! What a mercy it is for us, who do so many wrong things, that God can forgive us because Jesus bore our punishment."
"Dear little May! It's such a blessing for us, who mess up so often, that God can forgive us because Jesus took our punishment."
"Yes," whispered May.
"Yeah," whispered May.
So Lucia put her back tenderly into bed, and then she went into her own room, and knelt down and humbly thanked God that He had made a way of escape for us guilty lost ones to come back to His bosom; that He is "just, and yet the justifier of him which believeth in Jesus."
So Lucia gently helped her into bed, and then she went to her own room, knelt down, and sincerely thanked God for providing a way for us, the guilty and lost, to return to Him; that He is "just, and yet the justifier of him which believeth in Jesus."
Lucia would not have believed, had she been told, the difference this episode would make in all their feelings.
Lucia wouldn't have believed it if someone had told her how much this episode would change everyone's feelings.
May was an altered child. Instead of being always not to be found, she was generally at her side, trying to please her in many little ways, and showing her gratitude and love by every means in her power.
May was a changed child. Instead of often being lost, she was usually by her side, trying to make her happy in various small ways and expressing her gratitude and love in every way she could.
And as for herself, never before had she felt so small in her own eyes. The thought of her answered prayer, the thought of May's generous confession, humbled her to the dust; and then the thought of His goodness, who had wrought both by His love, lifted her up and sent her on her way rejoicing.
And as for her, she had never felt so insignificant in her own eyes before. The idea of her answered prayer, along with May's kind confession, brought her down to the ground; but then the thought of His goodness, who had brought both about through His love, lifted her up and filled her with joy as she moved forward.
CHAPTER VIII.
MAY'S HEART'S DESIRE.
MAY'S HEART'S DESIRE.
AFTER all, little May did have her heart's desire!
AFTER all, little May did get what she truly wanted!
One day, when they were in the Long Walk, and were playing hide-and-seek among the elms, thinking of nothing but their play, an old man, who was standing watching them with a kindly gleam in his eyes, suddenly pulled himself up, and took off his old battered hat.
One day, while they were on the Long Walk, playing hide-and-seek among the elms and focused solely on their game, an old man who was watching them with a friendly glint in his eyes suddenly straightened up and removed his old, worn hat.
"That's my gracious lady the Queen comin' down," he said quietly, "if you young folks 'ud stop playin' jest a moment."
"That's my gracious lady the Queen coming down," he said quietly, "if you young folks would stop playing just for a moment."
May started and turned white, and all the rest stood still with beating hearts as the carriage came swiftly down the hill.
May began and turned white, and everyone else stood still with pounding hearts as the carriage quickly came down the hill.
"She's the best lady in the land, and the best queen in the world," the old man said reverently. "May she wear a crown of glory that fadeth not away!"
"She's the best woman in the land, and the best queen in the world," the old man said with respect. "May she wear a crown of glory that never fades away!"
The Queen bowed to the little group of expectant faces, and in a moment her swift horses had carried her away. But the old man's words had taken the children's thoughts beyond this world's passing glory to that heavenly country where not only the sun never sets, but where the Lord God is the light, and all who love Him shall reign for ever and ever!
The Queen nodded to the small group of eager faces, and in an instant, her fast horses had taken her away. But the old man's words had lifted the children's minds beyond this world's temporary shine to that heavenly place where not only does the sun never set, but where the Lord God is the light, and everyone who loves Him will reign forever and ever!
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So the party settled down to more happiness that either nurse or Lucia had anticipated, and the days began to fly by, instead of dragging as they had done.
So the group settled into more happiness than either the nurse or Lucia had expected, and the days started to pass quickly instead of dragging on like they used to.
Letters from their father and mother, too, brought good news, and also a welcome and unexpected enclosure for each of the children.
Letters from their dad and mom also brought good news, along with a nice and unexpected surprise for each of the kids.
Lucia's share had been her piano, the letter said; but the children were to have a little store of money, which they were to spend just as they liked, with only one stipulation, that they should keep an account of what they spent it on.
Lucia's part was her piano, the letter said; but the kids were supposed to have a small amount of money that they could spend however they wanted, with just one condition: they had to keep a record of what they spent it on.
Great excitement prevailed, and great plans were made.
There was a lot of excitement, and big plans were made.
Evan and Ivor sat for a long time in very serious consultation, and nurse was coaxed to take them all into Windsor, that they might look at the shops "for suggestions," Barbara said, in her wise, motherly little way.
Evan and Ivor sat for a long time in serious conversation, and the nurse was persuaded to take them all to Windsor so they could check out the shops "for ideas," Barbara said in her thoughtful, motherly way.
"Not that I am going to spend mine all in a hurry," she added, "for that would be silly. I should not have half the pleasure; but we will go to look about."
"Not that I'm going to rush to spend mine all at once," she added, "because that would be foolish. I wouldn't enjoy it half as much; but we will go explore."
So they went to Windsor, Lucia accompanying them, doing some shopping on her own account, while nurse wandered round with her five children, and gave her advice pretty freely as to what in her opinion would be nice to buy.
So they went to Windsor, with Lucia tagging along, doing some shopping for herself while the nurse strolled around with her five kids and offered her advice on what she thought would be good to buy.
"Not that I should spend it at all," she concluded; "I should put it in the bank if I had it to do!"
"Not that I should spend it at all," she concluded; "I should put it in the bank if I had the chance!"
When, therefore, Evan and Ivor went home without having made any purchase, or even gone into raptures over anything in particular, she congratulated herself on their having taken her advice, and decided that they were more sensible than she had given them the credit of being.
When Evan and Ivor went home without buying anything or even getting excited about anything in particular, she felt proud of them for taking her advice and decided that they were smarter than she had initially thought.
However, going suddenly into the little drawing room that evening, she found them both deeply buried in conversation; and they started up with great precipitation, and said, "Hulloa! Nurse, we're talking secrets; don't you come listening now."
However, when she suddenly walked into the small drawing room that evening, she found them both deeply engaged in conversation. They quickly stood up and said, "Hey! Nurse, we're discussing secrets; don’t come eavesdropping now."
"I'm not listening," said nurse; "but it is bedtime. That's what I've come to say. I couldn't find you anywhere."
"I'm not listening," said the nurse. "But it's time for bed. That's why I'm here. I couldn't find you anywhere."
She waited for them to pass out before her, and the boys could do nothing but obey, though they felt they had not half talked the matter over, upon which they had been so busily engaged when she interrupted them.
She waited for them to pass out in front of her, and the boys could only comply, even though they felt they hadn’t fully discussed the issue they had been focused on when she interrupted them.
"We can talk in bed," whispered Ivor.
"We can talk in bed," Ivor whispered.
But Evan shook his head. Talking in bed was strictly forbidden, so that Evan, who was an obedient little boy, never thought of such a thing being possible.
But Evan shook his head. Talking in bed was totally off-limits, so Evan, who was a well-behaved little boy, never considered that such a thing could happen.
"What are you going to spend yours on, Ivor?" asked May, who was in the nursery, sitting by the window.
"What are you going to spend yours on, Ivor?" asked May, who was in the nursery, sitting by the window.
"We have not decided," answered Evan a little sharply.
"We haven't decided," Evan replied a bit sharply.
May looked surprised at his tone, and said eagerly, "You've never asked what I am going to get—something that will do for us all! I would not say a word till Lucia said we might, and she was so long in that shop that I could not ask her. But she likes it very much, and you can't possibly guess what it is."
May looked surprised at his tone and said eagerly, "You never asked what I’m going to get—something that will work for all of us! I wouldn’t say a word until Lucia said we could, and she took so long in that shop that I couldn’t ask her. But she really likes it, and you can’t possibly guess what it is."
"I don't particularly want to," said Evan, full of his own plans, and not interested in hers. "It's sure to be some girl's stuff or other; nothing that boys care about."
"I don't really want to," said Evan, focused on his own plans and not interested in hers. "It's probably just some girl things; nothing that guys care about."
Barbara laughed gleefully. "Much he knows, does he, May?" she said.
Barbara laughed happily. "He knows a lot, doesn’t he, May?" she said.
May looked disappointed, and Evan began to be more sympathetic.
May looked let down, and Evan started to feel more understanding.
"Well, you can tell us," he condescended at last; "and then we'll see if we think it nice."
"Well, you can tell us," he said in a patronizing tone; "and then we'll see if we think it's nice."
But May shook her head now, and would not say.
But May shook her head now and refused to say anything.
After breakfast the next morning Lucia and May had a grand confabulation, which ended in their starting together for Windsor to purchase the thing which May had set her heart on. Barbara had volunteered to walk with the others into the wood, so that all was happily arranged for everybody; and the two boys felt they would now have an opportunity to finish their talk in peace and quietness, for nurse would be sure to go to sleep under the trees, and Barbara would be happy with Queenie.
After breakfast the next morning, Lucia and May had a big discussion, which ended with them deciding to head to Windsor together to buy what May really wanted. Barbara had offered to walk with the others into the woods, so everything was set for everyone; and the two boys felt they would finally have a chance to finish their conversation in peace because the nurse would likely fall asleep under the trees, and Barbara would be content with Queenie.
It had cost Barbara a great struggle to offer to stay behind with nurse and the boys. She cast many longing looks over the fields, and almost repented her decision when she remembered afresh what a very lovely thing May was going to get.
It had taken Barbara a lot of effort to decide to stay behind with the nurse and the boys. She glanced longingly over the fields and nearly regretted her choice when she remembered once again how beautiful May's gift was going to be.
The morning dragged rather wearily, especially as the boys kept aloof, and seemed to have something particularly interesting to talk about, from which they evidently wished to exclude her. So that she was very pleased when nurse began to put up her work, and talked of going home to dinner.
The morning felt really slow, especially since the boys were keeping their distance and seemed to be talking about something interesting that they clearly didn't want her to be a part of. So, she was really happy when the nurse started to pack up her stuff and mentioned going home for dinner.
When they got back to the cottage, Lucia and May had not returned. But as Barbara stood at the little gate, she heard wheels coming along the road, and she at length saw a little carriage, in which sat both her sisters, smiling and looking very happy.
When they returned to the cottage, Lucia and May hadn’t come back yet. But as Barbara stood at the gate, she heard wheels on the road and finally saw a small carriage with both her sisters inside, smiling and looking very happy.
"Then you've really got it!" she exclaimed, running to their side. "What a darling donkey! What a beauty of a little carriage!"
"Then you've really got it!" she said, running over to them. "What a cute donkey! What a beautiful little carriage!"
May jumped out, and threw her arms round Barbara in her joy. "It's the loveliest, loveliest present I ever had!" she exclaimed. "And I've hired it for three months with my very own money!"
May jumped out and wrapped her arms around Barbara in her excitement. "It's the best, best gift I've ever received!" she shouted. "And I rented it for three months with my own money!"
Then the boys came rushing out, followed by nurse and Queenie, and even Mrs. Giah, and questions and explanations flew from one to another.
Then the boys came rushing out, followed by the nurse and Queenie, and even Mrs. Giah, with questions and explanations flying between them all.
May explained that she had seen a notice yesterday in one of the shops in Windsor of a donkey carriage for hire, and this had put it into her head. What fun they would have! What expeditions, what picnics!
May explained that she had seen a notice yesterday in one of the shops in Windsor about a donkey carriage for rent, and this had given her the idea. They would have so much fun! What adventures, what picnics!
Then the question of a stable occurred to Evan's practical mind, and the whole party ran off to the farmyard to see what available shelter there was, though Lucia smiled and said she and May had not forgotten that before they obtained the carriage.
Then Evan's practical mind brought up the idea of a stable, and the whole party rushed over to the farmyard to check for any available shelter, even though Lucia smiled and reminded everyone that she and May hadn't forgotten about that before they got the carriage.
In the lane, overshadowed by trees, was a large dry cart-shed, where the children played in wet weather, one end of which was closed in as a stable. May and Lucia had inspected this last night, and had decided that nothing could be better for their purpose. Mrs. Giah's son, Garge, as she called him, who milked the cow and kept the pretty garden in order, would see that the donkey had all he wanted. And as for harnessing him, May thought she might even learn to do it herself, but at any rate there were Evan and Ivor.
In the lane, shaded by trees, was a large dry cart shed where the kids played during rainy weather, one end of which was closed off as a stable. May and Lucia had checked it out last night and decided it was perfect for what they needed. Mrs. Giah's son, Garge, as she called him, milked the cow and took care of the beautiful garden, so he would make sure the donkey got everything it needed. And as for harnessing him, May thought she might even learn to do it herself, but at the very least, there were Evan and Ivor.
So, before anybody could think of dinner, Neddy must be housed and fed. "Garge" was fetched from his after dinner nap, and great excitement prevailed.
So, before anyone could think about dinner, Neddy needed to be taken care of and fed. "Garge" was called from his post-dinner nap, and there was a lot of excitement.
The little donkey took it all very calmly; hay was as sweet to him there as in Windsor, so long as he had plenty of it. And when the children turned away at last, he did not even raise his head to look after them.
The little donkey took it all in stride; hay was just as sweet to him there as in Windsor, as long as he had plenty of it. And when the kids finally turned away, he didn’t even lift his head to watch them go.
As soon as dinner was done, came the great event of going their first expedition, and nurse thought the children would go mad over it.
As soon as dinner was finished, the big moment of going on their first adventure arrived, and the nurse thought the kids would go wild with excitement.
At last all were ready. Lucia and nurse promised to walk with them, Barbara was to hold the reins, while May and Evan were to take the first turn of walking, it having been agreed that Neddy certainly should not be asked to pull more than two grown-up people or three children. Besides, the carriage was not intended for more than this.
At last, everyone was ready. Lucia and the nurse promised to walk with them, Barbara was supposed to hold the reins, while May and Evan would take the first turn walking, since it was agreed that Neddy shouldn’t be asked to pull more than two adults or three kids. Also, the carriage wasn’t meant for more than that.
Perhaps never were happier children than those five, as they proudly escorted Neddy through the wood. Nurse and Lucia smiled to each other as they watched them, and Lucia said—
Perhaps there were never happier kids than those five, as they proudly led Neddy through the woods. Nurse and Lucia exchanged smiles as they watched them, and Lucia said—
"I love to see children happy, nurse; they can only have childhood once!"
"I love seeing kids happy, nurse; they only get one childhood!"
"Yes, that's true, miss, I'm sure; but folks don't always think that."
"Yes, that's true, miss, I'm sure; but people don't always see it that way."
"So long as they are good and obedient, I mean; I would not have them spoilt for the world."
"So long as they're good and obedient, that is; I wouldn’t want them to be spoiled for anything."
CHAPTER IX.
"A SLIP BETWIXT."
"A Slip Between."
FOR a few days the donkey carriage was in everybody's thoughts, and nothing else could be done. They went into the forest again, and spent a whole day there (a happier day than the last, May said, edging up close to Lucia to whisper it), and Neddy could easily draw the basket of provisions, and even the kettle full of the water for their tea.
FOR a few days, the donkey cart was on everyone’s mind, and nothing else could be done. They returned to the forest again and spent an entire day there (a happier day than the last, May said, leaning in close to Lucia to whisper it), and Neddy could easily pull the basket of food and even the kettle full of water for their tea.
But though the girls did not seem to tire of roaming about picking flowers, and taking turns in riding in the little carriage; and though Lucia was perfectly happy with her sketching wherever they liked to take her, the two boys had a project which effectually kept them from "settling down," as nurse was wont to call it.
But even though the girls didn’t seem to get tired of wandering around picking flowers and taking turns riding in the little carriage, and even though Lucia was completely happy sketching wherever they wanted to go, the two boys had a plan that kept them from “settling down,” as the nurse used to say.
One morning at breakfast, when the plans for the day were being discussed, Evan asked Lucia if he and Ivor might go into Windsor that morning.
One morning at breakfast, while discussing the day's plans, Evan asked Lucia if he and Ivor could go into Windsor that morning.
"I don't care to walk so far in this heat," exclaimed nurse; "we'd far better stay in the garden to-day."
"I don't want to walk that far in this heat," the nurse exclaimed; "we'd be much better off staying in the garden today."
"We could go alone, couldn't we, Lucia?" asked Ivor.
"We could go alone, right, Lucia?" Ivor asked.
Lucia looked puzzled; she glanced out of the window, and then back at their little eager faces.
Lucia looked confused; she glanced out the window and then back at their eager little faces.
"I do not suppose you could come to any harm," she said; "but I wish you had been happy to stay here to-day."
"I don't think you could get hurt," she said; "but I wish you had been willing to stay here today."
"Oh, do let us!" coaxed Ivor. "We have been awfully good now, haven't we? Not a bit of trouble; and we will be back by dinner time."
"Oh, come on, let us!" begged Ivor. "We've been really good, haven't we? Not a bit of trouble; and we'll be back by dinnertime."
"I should think so!" exclaimed Lucia. "Of course you will, long before that."
"I think so!" Lucia exclaimed. "Of course you will, well before then."
The boys discreetly said no more; they considered that this was permission, and would not run the chance of its being revoked.
The boys quietly said no more; they thought this meant they had permission, and they didn’t want to risk it being taken away.
So, before nurse and Lucia had finished the little housekeeping duties which generally occupied them for a short time, the two boys were well on their way, their money jingling in their pockets, and their hearts beating in anticipation of their "spree."
So, before the nurse and Lucia finished their little housekeeping tasks that usually took a short while, the two boys were already on their way, their money jingling in their pockets, their hearts racing with excitement for their "spree."
About half an hour before dinner the happy party on the lawn saw the two boys coming slowly along the road.
About thirty minutes before dinner, the cheerful group on the lawn noticed the two boys walking slowly down the road.
"They look tired enough," remarked nurse; "they should have taken my advice, and not have gone on such a day; and footsore too, I do declare! I'm sure Evan is limping."
"They seem pretty tired," the nurse said. "They should've taken my advice and not gone out on a day like this. And they're sore-footed too, I swear! I'm sure Evan is limping."
Lucia ran to meet them. "My dear boys!" she exclaimed. "You have been a long time; what has kept you so long?"
Lucia ran to meet them. "Hey, my dear boys!" she exclaimed. "It's been a while; what took you so long?"
"What have you been doing?" asked Ivor, gazing across the lawn at the rest.
"What have you been up to?" Ivor asked, looking across the lawn at the others.
"Nothing particular," answered Lucia, still lingering by Evan. "Have you hurt your foot?"
"Nothing special," replied Lucia, still hanging around Evan. "Did you hurt your foot?"
"Yes, a little; I've sprained it, I think. I slipped over—It's nothing, only my head aches."
"Yeah, a bit; I think I’ve sprained it. I slipped—It’s nothing, just my head hurts."
"Come indoors," said Lucia, "and I will see to your foot."
"Come inside," Lucia said, "and I'll take care of your foot."
"Oh dear no, it's nothing. I'll go indoors and get ready for dinner."
"Oh no, it's nothing. I'm just going to head inside and get ready for dinner."
He went, Ivor following as soon as he could get away from his sisters' questions. And they saw no more of them till dinner was on the table.
He went, and Ivor followed as soon as he could escape his sisters' questions. They didn't see them again until dinner was on the table.
"Let us hear all you have done," said Lucia, when she had carved round, and could think of anything else. "Where did you go, and what did you do?"
"Tell us everything you've done," said Lucia, once she had finished carving and could think of anything else. "Where did you go, and what did you do?"
But very little could be got out of them, except that they had been up the Round Tower, and that Evan had slipped on the stairs coming down. What they had bought did not transpire, though Barbara pumped them sufficiently to elicit that they had spent some of their money "on something."
But very little could be gotten from them, except that they had been up the Round Tower, and that Evan had slipped on the stairs coming down. What they had bought didn’t come out, though Barbara pressed them enough to get that they had spent some of their money "on something."
"I 'spect it's sweets," said Queenie, shaking her curls; "that's what made Evan sick."
"I think it's candy," said Queenie, shaking her curls; "that's what made Evan sick."
For Evan tried to eat his dinner, but failed, and had to condescend to lie down, and be made comfortable by nurse.
For Evan tried to eat his dinner, but couldn’t, so he had to lower himself to lie down and let the nurse make him comfortable.
"It's the sun, I expect," she said to Lucia. "I wish we hadn't let them go, Miss Lucia; you're too easy with them!"
"It's the sun, I guess," she said to Lucia. "I wish we hadn't let them go, Miss Lucia; you're too lenient with them!"
Evan's headache, however, did not pass away.
Evan's headache, however, did not go away.
And by evening Lucia began to fear that something serious was the matter.
And by evening, Lucia started to worry that something serious was wrong.
They decided to send for the doctor, and when he came, their fears were by no means allayed.
They decided to call for the doctor, and when he arrived, their fears were far from eased.
Ivor walked about with misery written on his face. And when at the end of the second day Evan was no better, his distress knew no bounds.
Ivor walked around with misery all over his face. And when Evan was still no better at the end of the second day, his distress was limitless.
Barbara, passing from the nursery to her room, heard him sobbing in his bed.
Barbara walked from the nursery to her room and heard him crying in his bed.
She ran in, and began to comfort him in her sweet, motherly little way; but Ivor could not be comforted, and besought her that he might just go in and speak to Evan for one moment.
She rushed in and started to comfort him in her sweet, motherly way; but Ivor couldn't be consoled and begged her to let him go in and talk to Evan for just a moment.
"We must not; indeed, we must not!" she exclaimed. "The doctor is downstairs, and he says it is a crisis; and if we were to wake him now—"
"We can't; we really can't!" she exclaimed. "The doctor is downstairs, and he says it's a crisis; and if we wake him now—"
"But I can't bear it," urged Ivor. "I promised Evan, and I am going to break my promise. I must go and ask Evan first."
"But I can't take it," Ivor insisted. "I promised Evan, and I'm about to break that promise. I need to go ask Evan first."
"What do you mean?" asked Barbara, drawing back.
"What do you mean?" Barbara asked, stepping back.
"Supposing Evan were to die! I never thought of that! We both promised each other we wouldn't tell; but we never thought of this!"
"Imagine if Evan died! I never considered that! We both promised we wouldn’t say anything; but we never thought of this!"
"Is it something you ought to tell?" asked Barbara, putting her arm round his shoulders.
"Is it something you should share?" asked Barbara, putting her arm around his shoulders.
Ivor nodded.
Ivor agreed.
"Then let's go down and tell Lucia now."
"Then let's go down and tell Lucia now."
But Ivor held her back. "I must see Evan first," he besought. "If he's asleep, I won't speak a word; but if he's awake, he'll understand. I must peep at him, Barbara. Do let me."
But Ivor stopped her. "I need to see Evan first," he pleaded. "If he's asleep, I won't say a thing; but if he's awake, he'll get it. I just have to take a look at him, Barbara. Please let me."
The little girl was terribly frightened, especially as Ivor was already at the door and half-way across the passage. Fear of making matters worse by causing a commotion made her follow him through the half-open door, but no words could express her dismay at what she was made a party to.
The little girl was really scared, especially since Ivor was already at the door and halfway across the hallway. She was afraid that causing a scene would only make things worse, so she followed him through the half-open door, but no words could capture her shock at what she was being dragged into.
There lay Evan in that sort of unconscious sleep which had so alarmed every one, and in the dim, darkened room—surely that was the doctor sitting by the bedside, holding his watch in his hand!
There lay Evan in that kind of unconscious sleep that had worried everyone, and in the dim, darkened room—surely that was the doctor sitting by the bedside, holding his watch!
Ivor saw him too, and without a sound the two children crept back to the other room.
Ivor saw him too, and without saying a word, the two kids quietly slipped back to the other room.
CHAPTER X.
A PROMISE.
A Promise.
"IVOR," said Barbara solemnly, "you ought not to have gone like that, not till we had asked Lucia. Now what is it you want to tell?"
"IVOR," Barbara said seriously, "you shouldn't have gone like that, not until we had spoken to Lucia. So what is it you want to say?"
Ivor looked first one way and then the other.
Ivor looked one way and then the other.
"Oh, Barbara, would Evan wish me to? He said I wasn't to till he said; but—if he were to die?"
"Oh, Barbara, would Evan want me to? He said I shouldn't until he says so; but—what if he were to die?"
Barbara took her brother's hand, and knelt down silently by the bed; but she could feel it being drawn away unwillingly.
Barbara took her brother's hand and quietly knelt by the bed, but she felt him pulling it away reluctantly.
"Had we not better tell God first, Ivor?"
"Shouldn't we tell God first, Ivor?"
"I can't—oh, Barbara, we've been so naughty—we ought to have told, and we haven't—"
"I can't—oh, Barbara, we’ve been so bad—we should have said something, and we didn’t—"
"Told what? Oh, Ivor! Why don't you now?"
"Told what? Oh, Ivor! Why don't you do it now?"
"About having a fall—he fell on his head."
"About falling—he fell on his head."
"Ivor!"
"Ivor!"
"It was the tricycle—"
"It was the bike—"
"Tricycle?" echoed Barbara.
"Trike?" echoed Barbara.
"Yes; we didn't mean to get into any harm. But we saw a jolly one, and we hired it for an hour, and then we ran into a bank, and Evan hurt his head and his foot; and we thought it wasn't much, and we hoped—"
"Yeah; we didn’t mean to get into any trouble. But we saw a fun one, and we rented it for an hour, and then we crashed into a bank, and Evan hurt his head and his foot; and we thought it wasn’t a big deal, and we hoped—"
He laid his head down beside her and cried bitterly.
He lay his head next to her and cried hard.
"Do you think he will die?" he sobbed.
"Do you think he's going to die?" he cried.
"I don't know; but, oh! Do ask God to forgive you for being so deceitful, and then we'll go down and tell Lucia. How can we ask for him to be made well while you haven't told the dear Lord Jesus that you are sorry?"
"I don't know; but, oh! Please ask God to forgive you for being so deceitful, and then we can go down and tell Lucia. How can we ask for him to get better when you haven't told the dear Lord Jesus that you’re sorry?"
Ivor threw his arms round her neck.
Ivor wrapped his arms around her neck.
"I am, Barbara, I am sorry! Oh, do tell God how sorry I am! I'll tell Him too!"
"I am, Barbara, I'm sorry! Oh, please tell God how sorry I am! I'll tell Him too!"
So with broken little words the boy asked forgiveness for their deception, and then he passively let Barbara lead him down to where Lucia sat in the dark, counting the minutes till the doctor should come down to tell her—what?
So with broken little words, the boy asked for forgiveness for their deception, and then he passively let Barbara lead him down to where Lucia sat in the dark, counting the minutes until the doctor would come down to tell her—what?
But when the doctor came down, he had nothing very decisive to say. He reported that Evan was sleeping more naturally, that nurse was with him, and that he would call again in an hour or two, but that the house must be kept perfectly quiet.
But when the doctor came down, he didn't have anything very definitive to say. He reported that Evan was sleeping more peacefully, that the nurse was with him, and that he would call again in an hour or two, but that the house needed to be kept completely quiet.
Lucia had already taken Ivor back to his room, and now told the doctor of the fall from the tricycle.
Lucia had already taken Ivor back to his room and now informed the doctor about the fall from the tricycle.
He shook his head. "I guessed as much; I thought it was more than the sun," he said, and went out into the moonlight.
He shook his head. "I figured as much; I thought it was more than the sun," he said, and stepped out into the moonlight.
As Lucia crossed the little passage, feeling as if she had lived days instead of hours since yesterday, she heard from above a low sound of crying.
As Lucia walked through the small passage, feeling like she had lived days instead of just hours since yesterday, she heard a soft sound of crying coming from above.
Her heart stood still for a moment. Then she ran up noiselessly, and found that it was Queenie crying in her bed, refusing even to be pacified by Barbara's tender comfort.
Her heart stopped for a moment. Then she quietly ran up and found that it was Queenie crying in her bed, not even calmed down by Barbara's gentle comfort.
She had missed her nurse, and receiving no answer to her whispered inquiries about her brother, her resolution had broken down, and she had begun a little wail of woe, which had brought Barbara to her side, just as Lucia heard it too.
She missed her nurse, and when her whispered questions about her brother went unanswered, she lost her resolve and began to quietly cry, which brought Barbara to her side, just as Lucia noticed it too.
Lucia lifted her from her bed, and soothed her in her arms, telling her that Evan was a little better, and that nurse was with him, till the sobs ceased, and the little arms clung round her neck, not only frightenedly, but lovingly.
Lucia picked her up from her bed and comforted her in her arms, saying that Evan was feeling a bit better and that the nurse was with him, until the sobs stopped and the little arms wrapped around her neck, not just in fear, but also in love.
"Tell me some more," said Queenie.
"Tell me more," said Queenie.
"Look at the stars, Queenie; see how bright the sky is! The moon is under that cloud, but the stars are shining up in heaven so beautifully. When we are sad, and look at the stars, it ought to make us happy. Shall I tell you why?"
"Look at the stars, Queenie; see how bright the sky is! The moon is behind that cloud, but the stars are shining so beautifully up in heaven. When we're sad, looking at the stars should make us feel happier. Should I tell you why?"
"But nurse says Evan is goin' to die!" said Queenie convulsively. "She said it was Ivor's fault, and—I don't like havin' Evan die!"
"But the nurse says Evan is going to die!" Queenie exclaimed, her voice trembling. "She said it was Ivor's fault, and—I really don't want Evan to die!"
"No, dear. But do you know, Queenie, why I want you to look at the stars?"
"No, dear. But do you know, Queenie, why I want you to look at the stars?"
Queenie gave a quick little glance upward, and then hid her face again in her sister's neck.
Queenie took a quick glance up, then buried her face back in her sister's neck.
"It is because they tell us of God's great love, Queenie! He holds the stars up in the sky, and He holds Evan in His hand too; so we must trust Him, Queenie, because He loves us so much."
"It’s because they show us how much God loves us, Queenie! He keeps the stars in the sky, and He holds Evan in His hands too; so we have to trust Him, Queenie, because He loves us so much."
Queenie's little lips kissed her over and over, and her arms clung confidingly round her.
Queenie’s small lips kissed her repeatedly, and her arms wrapped around her trustfully.
"I won't cry any more," she whispered.
"I won't cry anymore," she whispered.
"That is right, darling. May I put you back into bed now?"
"That's right, sweetheart. Can I put you back in bed now?"
"Yes."
Yes.
"I will come and tell you if the doctor says Evan is better. And you can ask God, Queenie. There is nothing so good as telling God."
"I'll come and let you know if the doctor says Evan is doing better. And you can talk to God, Queenie. There's nothing better than talking to God."
So Queenie nestled into her pillow, closed her eyes with a peaceful look, and Lucia crept downstairs again, her own heart comforted and cheered.
So Queenie settled into her pillow, closed her eyes with a serene expression, and Lucia quietly went downstairs again, her own heart feeling comforted and uplifted.
After the doctor had looked in late that night, Lucia kept her promise, and bent over her little sister's crib.
After the doctor had checked in late that night, Lucia kept her promise and leaned over her little sister's crib.
"Darling!" she whispered.
"Hey babe!" she whispered.
"Yes?" said Queenie, rousing herself quickly.
"Yes?" Queenie said, snapping to attention.
"God has made Evan better; the doctor says there is a wonderful change in him these last two hours."
"God has improved Evan; the doctor says there has been a remarkable change in him over the past two hours."
"I'm so d'lad," whispered the child back. "I 'fought He would, Lucia."
"I'm so glad," whispered the child back. "I thought he would, Lucia."
CHAPTER XI.
EVAN IS GLAD.
EVAN IS HAPPY.
EVAN'S illness made a great impression on the little community at the cottage. It was many days before he was considered well enough to join his brother and sisters, and even then he was very weak, and was carried out under the trees, not caring to exert himself in the least.
EVAN's illness had a big impact on the small community at the cottage. It took many days before he was deemed well enough to be with his brother and sisters again, and even then he was still very weak and had to be carried out under the trees, not wanting to exert himself at all.
Ivor hovered round him, trying to show by his tender attentions how much he regretted his share in the trouble they had got into.
Ivor stayed close to him, trying to express through his caring gestures how sorry he was for his part in the trouble they had gotten into.
One morning, as Lucia sat by his side with her painting, she saw he was looking at her very earnestly, and bent down to him to hear what he had to say.
One morning, as Lucia sat next to him with her painting, she noticed he was looking at her very intently, so she leaned down to him to hear what he had to say.
"Lucia," he said, looking rather abstractedly up into the tree, and through it to the blue sky beyond, "I've been thinking perhaps we ought to send back that little tricycle, and not use it any more."
"Lucia," he said, gazing somewhat absentmindedly up into the tree and through it to the blue sky beyond, "I've been thinking we might need to send that little tricycle back and stop using it."
"Why, dear?" she answered.
"Why, dear?" she replied.
"Because it would serve us right for being so deceitful."
"Because we deserve it for being so deceitful."
"Yes, I see that; but I am sure you are sorry without any further punishment. You have suffered enough, poor Evan."
"Yes, I see that; but I'm sure you feel bad without any more punishment. You've been through enough, poor Evan."
"I am sorry; and though I have been very ill, do you know, Lucia, I'm really glad we were not let go in our naughtiness."
"I’m sorry; and even though I've been really sick, you know, Lucia, I'm actually glad we weren't allowed to get away with our mischief."
"Are you, Evan?"
"Is that you, Evan?"
"Yes, I've had time to think, and you have been so kind, and that night when my head ached so dreadfully, do you remember what you said?"
"Yes, I’ve had time to think, and you’ve been really kind, and that night when my head hurt so much, do you remember what you said?"
"Not exactly. I remember I sat by you and tried to comfort you."
"Not really. I remember sitting next to you and trying to make you feel better."
"You said, 'Jesus says to you, Evan,—
"You said, 'Jesus tells you, Evan,—
"'"Him that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out."'"
"'"Anyone who comes to Me I will never turn away."'"
"I remember that," answered Lucia.
"I remember that," Lucia replied.
"And I thought I had never come, and I wished I had, and then all in a moment something seemed to say to me, 'Why don't you come now?' and so, Lucia, I came."
"And I thought I had never arrived, and I wished I had, and then all at once something seemed to say to me, 'Why don't you arrive now?' and so, Lucia, I arrived."
"Oh, Evan, that is worth all the accident and trouble, if it has led you to Him!"
"Oh, Evan, that's worth all the accidents and trouble if it has brought you to Him!"
Evan nodded. His eyes were full, but he spoke again quickly, winking away his tears with an effort.
Evan nodded. His eyes were full, but he quickly spoke again, trying to blink away his tears.
"Lucia, you thought it was a great bother to come home to take care of us, didn't you?"
"Lucia, you thought it was a real hassle to come home and take care of us, didn't you?"
Lucia started and coloured.
Lucia began and colored.
"I only felt that for a very little while, Evan. God taught me better than that very soon."
"I only felt that way for a short time, Evan. God showed me a better way pretty quickly."
"Well, you never guessed that you could help us so nicely to be good, did you?"
"Well, you never thought you could help us so well to be good, did you?"
"No," said Lucia humbly.
"No," Lucia said humbly.
"So you will not be so sorry now—"
"So you won’t regret it now—"
"I am not sorry at all. I am very glad."
"I’m not sorry at all. I’m really glad."
"I'm glad," responded Evan heartily. "I never thought how nice it would be to have the Lord Jesus for my very own Saviour."
"I'm glad," Evan replied warmly. "I never realized how wonderful it would be to have the Lord Jesus as my own Savior."
So the last cloud rolled from Lucia's heart, and that day, as she sat on her favourite wall at the edge of the wood to watch the sunset, she could not but think over the past, and thank God for His kindness in saving her from herself.
So the last cloud faded from Lucia's heart, and that day, as she sat on her favorite wall at the edge of the woods to watch the sunset, she couldn't help but reflect on the past and thank God for His kindness in saving her from herself.
When the children were all in bed that night, she wrote to her cousins a brighter letter than she had been able to frame before. At the end she said—
When the kids were all in bed that night, she wrote her cousins a more cheerful letter than she had been able to put together before. At the end, she said—
"I was dreadfully unwilling, as you know, to take up my 'trust;' but
oh, I cannot tell you how good God has been to me in it, nor how
undeserving I feel of all His love. I should like to tell you this,
because I am afraid I did not give you a very good idea of what a
Christian should be like."
"I was really reluctant, as you know, to take on my 'trust;' but oh, I can't express how kind God has been to me in it, nor how unworthy I feel of all His love. I want to share this with you because I'm worried I didn't give you a clear idea of what a Christian should be like."
That letter sped on its way. It had cost Lucia a great deal to write it, but it set her cousins thinking, and bore fruit after many days.
That letter was sent off quickly. Writing it had taken Lucia a lot of effort, but it got her cousins thinking and led to results after several days.
Emmie took it to her mother, but did not get much sympathy from her about it.
Emmie brought it to her mom, but didn't get much sympathy from her about it.
"I am sorry to see her more religious," she said. "We must have her here again, and make her forget it."
"I'm sorry to see her getting more into religion," she said. "We need to have her over again and help her forget about it."
So Emmie carried it to the housekeeper, thinking she would be sure to understand. And so she did.
So Emmie took it to the housekeeper, figuring she would definitely understand. And she did.
"It's the best news I've heard for many a day," she exclaimed heartily. "Oh, Miss Emmie, if you did but know it!"
"It’s the best news I’ve heard in a long time," she said excitedly. "Oh, Miss Emmie, if only you knew!"
"Perhaps I shall," Emmie answered softly. "I am not satisfied as I am, that's certain!"
"Maybe I will," Emmie replied quietly. "I'm definitely not happy the way I am!"
"Those that seek Him shall find, dear Miss Emmie!" said the housekeeper earnestly.
"Those who seek Him will find Him, dear Miss Emmie!" said the housekeeper sincerely.
CHAPTER XII.
BARBARA'S GIFT.
BARBARA'S GIFT.
THE tricycle, however, was returned without any more use. Ivor could not make up his mind to get on it again. "Garge" was commissioned to take it back to Windsor, pay the hire, and for the slight damage done, and there the matter ended.
THE tricycle, however, was returned without any further use. Ivor couldn't bring himself to ride it again. "Garge" was tasked with returning it to Windsor, paying the rental fee, and covering the minor damage that was done, and that was the end of it.
But when Evan was a little better, the donkey carriage was found of the greatest use, and many hours were spent in the woods, Lucia taking her sketching and Barbara her book and her dog.
But when Evan was feeling a bit better, the donkey cart proved to be incredibly useful, and they spent many hours in the woods, with Lucia bringing her sketchbook and Barbara bringing her book and her dog.
For Barbara had found at the cottage two things which gave her intense delight—a puppy which "Garge" was rearing for her father, and a cupboard of books which she discovered one wet day, and from which she brought volume after volume, reading aloud to her brothers and sisters when they could listen, or lying in luxurious loneliness on the wet days in the empty drawing room, buried in some tale of travel such as her heart loved. Thus the time flew away, and the three months were almost gone.
For Barbara had found at the cottage two things that brought her great joy—a puppy that "Garge" was raising for her dad, and a cupboard full of books she stumbled upon one rainy day. She would pull out book after book, reading aloud to her brothers and sisters whenever they could listen, or she’d lie comfortably alone on those rainy days in the empty living room, lost in some adventure story that she loved. This way, time passed quickly, and the three months were almost over.
Letters were coming from their father and mother, speaking of their speedy and happy return, which would be very, very soon, and telling too of renewed health and hope for the future.
Letters were arriving from their mom and dad, saying they would be back quickly and happily, which would happen very, very soon, and also sharing news of better health and optimism for the future.
As Lucia looked out of her window one evening, and remembered the thoughts with which she had stood there three months ago, she could only fall on her knees and thank God that He had not allowed her to go on in her impatience and rebellion. He had enabled her to yield her will to Him, and then had given her back a hundredfold in happiness and peace. For when she looked round at the change in her step-brothers and sisters, her heart melted with thankfulness.
As Lucia looked out of her window one evening and remembered the thoughts she had standing there three months ago, she could only drop to her knees and thank God for not letting her continue in her impatience and rebellion. He had helped her submit her will to Him and then rewarded her with happiness and peace a hundredfold. When she saw the changes in her step-brothers and sisters, her heart overflowed with gratitude.
One morning, soon after breakfast, a telegram was put into her hand.
One morning, shortly after breakfast, a telegram was handed to her.
"They are coming to-day—to-day!" she exclaimed, as nurse and children crowded round her. "They are coming here. They ask if we can make room for them."
“They're coming today—today!” she exclaimed, as the nurse and children gathered around her. “They’re coming here. They want to know if we can make room for them.”
"Make room for them?" echoed everybody. "Why, if we could squeeze flat—"
"Make room for them?" everyone exclaimed. "Well, if we could just squish ourselves flat—"
"I must telegraph back," began Lucia. "Where do they date from? Why, from Newhaven. They are there, waiting for my answer! Oh, mother! Oh, father!"
"I need to send a telegram back," Lucia started. "Where do they come from? From Newhaven. They're there, waiting for my reply! Oh, mom! Oh, dad!"
And as she put her arm round Evan and supported him to a seat, she realized as never before what a care the care of them had been, and what a relief it was to know it was over.
And as she put her arm around Evan and helped him to a seat, she realized more than ever how much effort taking care of them had been, and how relieved she was to know it was finally over.
What a busy morning they had. How Evan even tried to help by cutting the frill for the ham and running the tape through some fresh window-curtains. Lucia noticed that in his eager expectation, some of the fragile look went out of his face, and a sweet, gentle brightness took its place.
What a hectic morning they had. Evan even tried to help by cutting the frill for the ham and running the tape through some new window curtains. Lucia noticed that in his eager anticipation, some of the delicate look faded from his face, replaced by a warm, gentle glow.
At last all was done. Everything was looked over for the last time, and the children decided that nothing was wanting for the perfection of a welcome.
At last, everything was finished. Everything was checked one last time, and the kids agreed that nothing was missing for the perfect welcome.
"We will go into the dining room and listen for the wheels," said Ivor. "Evan is there, and we'll be with him."
"We'll head to the dining room and listen for the wheels," Ivor said. "Evan's there, and we’ll be with him."
But the younger girls preferred to go round the house once more with nurse. Barbara was glad to be left alone with Lucia; so Ivor found himself alone with his brother.
But the younger girls wanted to walk around the house one more time with the nurse. Barbara was happy to be left alone with Lucia; so Ivor ended up alone with his brother.
"Evan!" he began eagerly. "Do you think father and mother will want to know what we spent it on?"
"Evan!" he said excitedly. "Do you think Mom and Dad will want to know what we spent it on?"
"Yes," said Evan gravely; "and I mean to tell them directly I have a chance. I shan't burst out with it, but no more underhand doings for me!"
"Yeah," said Evan seriously; "and I plan to tell them straight up that I have a chance. I won't just blurt it out, but I'm done with any sneaky stuff!"
"Oh, no—I didn't mean that—!"
"Oh no—I didn't mean that!"
"Ivor, if we belong to the Lord Jesus we have to leave behind all that is wrong."
"Ivor, if we belong to the Lord Jesus, we need to let go of everything that's wrong."
Ivor nodded earnestly. "I mean to—indeed I do, Evan. I have begun."
Ivor nodded seriously. "I really do mean to—honestly, I do, Evan. I've started."
Meanwhile Barbara and Lucia were in the drawing room, holding another conversation quite as particular in its results as that.
Meanwhile, Barbara and Lucia were in the living room, having another conversation that was just as significant in its outcomes as the previous one.
"They cannot come for an hour at the earliest," said Lucia, looking round the room for something to do.
"They can't arrive for at least an hour," Lucia said, glancing around the room for something to occupy her time.
"Can't you finish that painting? I'll get your apron," coaxed Barbara. "There is time; you said an hour would do it—"
"Can't you finish that painting? I'll grab your apron," encouraged Barbara. "There's still time; you said an hour would be enough—"
"So I did. Then I will, Barbara, now all is done."
"So I did. Then I will, Barbara, now everything is done."
The little girl stood by her in unusual silence, watching her busy brush, but not chatting as she often did.
The little girl stood next to her in an unusual silence, watching her work with the brush, but not talking like she usually did.
An hour! The time was slipping away, and before it was over, she must get something said.
An hour! Time was running out, and before it ended, she had to say something.
At last she flung her arm round her sister's shoulder, and with the other hand poured some bright coins into her lap.
At last, she threw her arm around her sister's shoulder and, with her other hand, poured some shiny coins into her lap.
"Whatever is that?" asked Lucia. For somehow the pressure round her neck told that Barbara felt what she was doing very much.
"What's that?" Lucia asked. Somehow, the pressure around her neck made it clear that Barbara was really aware of what she was doing.
"You know about that money father and mother sent?"
"You know about the money that Mom and Dad sent?"
"Yes—"
"Yeah—"
"They will think I have spent it, and I haven't."
"They will think I've spent it, but I haven't."
"They will not mind, dear, about spending it if you do not want to."
"They won’t mind, dear, if you don’t want to spend it."
"But I do want to. You know that book I've been reading by myself all the last days? Well, I never thought of those sort of things before. It's a missionary-book; it tells about the little girls who are married so young in India, and are shut up in houses with no pleasures, no employments, no books, no work, no love, no anything! And, oh, Lucia, I thought—"
"But I really want to. You know that book I've been reading alone for the past few days? Well, I never considered those kinds of things before. It's a missionary book; it talks about the little girls who get married so young in India and are locked away in homes with no pleasures, no activities, no books, no work, no love, no anything! And, oh, Lucia, I thought—"
Lucia looked up in her face with swimming eyes.
Lucia looked up at her with watery eyes.
"I thought," pursued Barbara, hiding her face on her sister's shoulder, "that I had so much; and that if I could do anything—I know this isn't much; but, Lucia, they want so much—money, and people to go, and lots of things. But I thought if I sent this now, when I am old enough I might go!"
"I thought," Barbara continued, burying her face in her sister's shoulder, "that I had so much, and that if I could do anything—I know this isn't a big deal; but, Lucia, they want so much—money, people to volunteer, and a ton of other things. But I thought if I send this now, when I'm old enough, I might be able to go!"
"Oh, Barbara!"
"Oh, Barb!"
"Don't you like me to? You would want to go if you had read how sad and desolate they are without ever having heard of a Saviour, and how perfectly different it all is when they know about Him!"
"Don't you like me to? You would want to go if you had read how sad and lonely they are without ever having heard of a Savior, and how completely different it all is when they know about Him!"
Lucia turned round and clasped the little missionary in her arms.
Lucia turned around and hugged the little missionary tightly.
"Oh, Barbara, Barbara!" she said lovingly.
"Oh, Barbara, Barbara!" she said with affection.
"You don't think father and mother will mind?"
"You don't think Mom and Dad will care?"
"Mind losing you by-and-by, do you mean?"
"Do you mean you'll eventually lose me?"
"No; about the money?"
"No; what about the money?"
"I feel sure they will not."
"I'm pretty sure they won't."
And then there was the sound of wheels, and in another moment their father had sprung out of the carriage and was walking up the path almost with his old step.
And then they heard the sound of wheels, and a moment later, their dad jumped out of the carriage and was walking up the path almost with his old stride.
What an evening that was! How the mother and father looked at their children's faces, wondering to see in them such a chastened gladness as they had never noticed before. Was it Evan's illness? What was it that had made the change?
What an evening that was! How the mother and father looked at their children's faces, surprised to see a calm happiness they had never noticed before. Was it Evan's illness? What had caused this change?
Barbara, as she gave her mother a good-night hug, gave her the key.
Barbara, while hugging her mom goodnight, handed her the key.
"Mother, we've all been getting nearer to Jesus! Lucia has helped us ever so nicely. She said she'd got nearer herself."
"Mom, we've all been getting closer to Jesus! Lucia has been really helpful. She said she’s gotten closer herself."
And Lucia went to bed that night with a thankful heart, glowing from her mother's tender words of thanks; for had she not received, even now, more than she had yielded?
And Lucia went to bed that night feeling grateful, shining from her mother's kind words of appreciation; for hadn't she received, even now, more than she had given?
The next morning her step-father said at breakfast, "Oh, Lucia, did your mother tell you that you are to go back to Yorkshire and finish that visit? It seems they cannot be satisfied without it; so you are to be off as soon as possible—eh, mother? Now we are home!"
The next morning her stepdad said at breakfast, "Oh, Lucia, did your mom tell you that you need to go back to Yorkshire and finish that visit? It seems they can't be happy without it, so you should head out as soon as possible—right, mom? Now that we're home!"
And that was how Lucia's Trust ended. At least, did it end there?
And that's how Lucia's Trust ended. But did it really end there?
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